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It should not take a head injury
*after personally sustaining a head injury & coma*
to figure this out...

 
 
 
 
 
 


After a Drill Sergeant threw Me into the metal part of the bunk when I was in Basic Training for the United States of America's Army branch at Fort Sill Oklahoma #FortSill #FortSillOK #FortSillOklahoma #OK #Oklahoma in the year of 2000 on Psalm Sunday, I have dealt with the situations as best as I have been capable to do so while taking care of the situations and asking for assistance as per the required explanations of the information to such facts first.  While making the attempts to get assistance for the aspects thereof as to the reality, the aspects of where and when as to the multiple attempts to ask for assistance for me.  As my journal blog for when I was ready to bring such as to my other works forward since as to the lengths of time as to where my modeling was as to the modeling page information, just as the other pages have the information as to such specifics, and just as this journal blog of mine is as to such facts.


If I had real friends (if as to having met in person face to face in person in real life as to the aspects of this particular reference such as from the state of Texas as to the state of Washington as to the years of 2000 through 2013 if I met within the state of Texas for such references), real (the areas of the tristate region as before the year of 2000) family, and real relationships in real life that recognized me as to the aspects of if as to the face to face in person who started in truth as I had started such in truth as to the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, as well as the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain that took 8.5 years to dissipate; then I guesstimate there would be the easier factors as to being capable for me to speak with others in truth in person face to face in person and/or through online measures as to such factors I suppose.  Though would such as to the knowledge of the ways as to how they began such discussions with me as to would there be such a situation, for them to consider as to such if factors as to such discussions with me in truth?


As to some suggestions and commentary within "Finding A Silver Lining" one of several of my bo0ks I personally authored/wrote/compiled as I can only speak and write in truth as per such clarifications as to the reality as to the specifics of such discussions/writings/videos as per my Official You Tube where I have satirical commentary where I comment about the factors as to having dealt with others' opinions about their pop culture references of #NJ #NJstate #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey, though as to for the most part I have actually preferred to be asked with politeness if as to having read my books and/or seen my website as just the same in reference to the timeframes when I was modeling as to having respect as to what I consider as respect, referencing if as to such polite manners as to discussions if as to such having been noticed because of the factors in my opinion as to having real discussions as communication would be if my website was seen before the year of 2023 as I first began my website in 2015; as in my journal blog posts as to the reality of the years of 2010 through 2013, as to the aspects of introductions as to those timeframes when as to various factors as I did not take selfies as I was actually working with photographers as to my creations of my outfits as per the description on the link to my modeling page(s) as to the references regarding my journal blog updates in the years of 2019 through 2022 as the timeframe onward as to the year of 2023 as to the factors as to how such journal blog entries will be as to such factors as to the aspects of the various topic points.


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 I was born and raised in New Jersey and grew up going throughout the tristate northeast areas mainly, and as to how the reality of when the importance of the situations as to the aspects of reviewing as to such facts regarding the logistics for several factors as to the considerations; the years of 2019 through 2022 as to the review process as to the aspects of the timeframe, prior to the timeframe of the 20 year memorial of 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 as well as before the 30 year memorial of February 1993, as to the northeast areas mostly known as to New York City #NYC #NewYork #NY #NYstate #NYU though also as to the #Pentagon Pentagon, as well as Pennsylvania #Pennstate #Pennsylvaniastate as to the reality of how many New Jersey-ians commute in either direction, depending upon what location for the commute. 


The factors though I have said at times, I re-re-re-re-re-re-grew up in the state of  #Texas #TX #Texasstate Texas as to such factors as to the timeframes, as well as all 26 of my SCUBA #SCUBA #SCUBADiving  Diving certifications I earned were through one school within the state of Texas as I also earned winning first place in a Texas Chili cookoff with more than 20 entries as well as my chili recipe as I am adamant about my recipes as to such aspects just as I am specific as to what it actually takes for me to cook in a BBQ as to the required preparations for when I have BBQed.   


I can sarcastically write, those who know of the Rules of the BBQ as to where I grew up as to the Rules of the BBQ as to such factors to the considerations of such preparations.  However that is to cooking food as to the differences of my journal blog entries, as to the factors as to proverbial aspects of food for thought as the difference of real food in real life as to the facts of the situations to such attention to the details as well as attention to the information.


Such facts as to the metaphors in some of such factors that only after reviewing such information as to the aspects of the fiction book series that were as to for My personal life as to such dreamland sorts of factors as to the differences of such hypotheticals, the references thereof as to such regards as to the logistical emotional with the real situations as per the names I was informed of at the timeframes referenced review as to My journal blog as to the situations overall.  


If as to my journal blog being found and read as to where what I consider as common sense, as to the aspects of my satirical saying   how it should not take a head injury to figure out. 
 

*(sometimes utilizing articles discussing facts)*
By:  (Reverend) Susan MeeLing
also known as

The One & Only

Lady Dori Belle


...and to biological consenting adults as...

Lady Liberty Belle

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My life  =  My personal life

My life experiences  =  My personal life experiences that some might have something alike or something similar to though theirs is not the exact as to My personal life experiences

My opinion  =  Susan MeeLing's personal opinion that some or many might agree with

My needs  =  My personal needs for me personally though some distinguishing factors as to the aspects where there are different facets of My personal life and thus as to the distinguishing factors as to the different areas of my life, thus for Me personally is going to be for Me personally as to such differences as to the aspects whereas of others as to the factors to the considerations.


The FACT books I authored/wrote/compiled that I published through Amazon for My profits and what I chose/choose for the financial aspects per book:
*  Finding A Silver Lining  (published in print book format in in the year of 2015)
*  Finding The Silver Lining  (published in print book format in the year of 2014)
*  The Modern Day Book  (published in print format book in the year of 2020)
*  The Adventures of Susan MeeLing, SCUBA Diver Extraordinaire  (3 volumes published in print format books in the year of 2020)

 

Fiction Based books I published through Amazon that can have metaphors or proverbial only as some books allow the financial aspects as to donations whereas the newer books do not have such same factors whatsoever as to the financial resources for Susan MeeLing also known as Lady Dori Belle also known as Lady L*** Belle as make sure to not assume that all books will ever be the exact same:
*  "The Curious Children Book Series:  (2 volumes published in the year of 2014/2015)
*  "Fail-Safe:  The Kenedy curse fused with Science Fiction Fantasy  (The New World Order)"  (1 book published in the year of in print format book form 2015/2016 that is the main book to refer to for each of the subsequent books in the series as the 10 volume book series published as the 9 additional volumes in 2021/2022 as not all books were allowed as per My personal choice to be published in print format as to the ideals I have had for My work as to how I personally chose to release My books as to My business plans)
*  "Paroxysm of the Lotus Book Series"  (3 volumes published in print format of books in the years of 2014 through 2015 and then 7 books were published in the year of 2021/2022)


To Contact Me to ask me what My needs, my wants, My preferences, My Ideals, and/or My desires is only to utilize My To Contact Form to ask me respectfully after explaining yourself as to such aspects first as asking Me is the best way to actually do so correctly to actually learn to know of what My actual needs are for the factors of as the same in reference to my wants and so on and so forth.  That includes though not limited to asking if there is something to assist Me with, arranging Book Signing, arranging requiring My permission first as to my needs for any appearance(s)/meeting(s), 


Do not assume that just because I authored/wrote/compiled books that you know Me, you know of Me as to such factors as to the factors of the reality of the social media.


If I personally have reached out to you directly as to requesting a meeting and/or meetings, I have done so with the factors of respect regarding the aspects of what I could figure as being respectful as to the time(s) as to upon your schedule though also as depending upon my schedule as well.  The contact information regarding phone numerical factors as to the aspects of My To Contact Form through My website, as to making attempts as to the ease to correctly communicate clearly.  


Ensure if you are going to ask about Me, to know the exact-ish amount of time the individual actually knew Me in real life in person face to face in person in real life to verify the correct numerical positions of time that they may have known Me or if they knew of me as to the facts.


My modeling is not the same as speaking with Me face to face at all, because that is not the same as in real life as to the facts that in real life in person face to face in person actually requires those facts of in real life in person face to face in person in real life where a human being in person face to face in person is in real life with another human being is the common sense for in person face to face in person in real life as there is a difference to getting My personal permission first.


I do not allow anyone to misinterpret ever, as there is the clear facts that if someone/anyone says they can interpret Me, ensure they actually have what I personally consider as the starting point of full foundation as to actual capacities to do so correctly as what I consider as the correct foundation as to making sure the foundation of theirs in not made out of sand as to the differences of whereas to the facts my foundation is forged from where the stones as to the rock of My foundation is to the sturdiness thereof as to My personal life as to My personal experiences as to Me personally; as in my personal opinion that imitation is not flattery at all in any capacity when in reference to Me.


Since I comprehend Myself as to My and what My needS are as to what My wantS are as to what My preferenceS are as to what My idealS are as to what My desires are, then as to My comprehension of such factors in reference to Myself as to My personal requirements as when I have written about My personal life experiences as to the words I personally have chosen to describe such facts, then as to My life = My personal life experiences.


Manners, respect, human decency, and protocols are as a beginning point for what My personal standards are for Me.

Make sure to be capable to distinguish when the facts of My journal blog are in the capacity of either facts with satire and/or facts with metaphors and/or facts with figurative and/or facts as literal as the reality that My personal life experiences are My personal life experiences as to where some might relate to what I personally have dealt with, the full combination of what I have survived is the difference as to where the distinction is.


I survived the attacks on the soil of the homeland of the United States of America as to the tristate areas of New Jersey, New York, and Pennsylvania in the year of 1993 in the month of February as well as the timeframe of 9/11 also known as 11 September 2001 because I was born and raised in New Jersey in the three-county/three-borough area that had the most amount of commuters to New York City as well as other factors of the reality as to the state of New Jersey that those factors of pop culture are usually NYCers or Pittsburgians or Philadelphians and not New Jersey-ians pop culture as the aspects of comprehending the facts as that pop culture only has small amounts as to the differences of the fullnesses thereof.


What I know for what My personal comforts are as to being capable to see as to such factors, translates to comprehension of Myself as to comprehending what is best for Me personally as to what is best for My work as well as what is best for My personal comforts.  As hours change to days and days change to weeks and weeks change to months and months change to years and years change to decades, I comprehend My personal needs as I comprehend I have made attempts for My personal needs to be correct for Me as to what My personal considerations are.


Keep your thoughts in what I consider as purity as to such actual purity of innocence, and the ease of life is made so as to the factors of the ensuring the correct actions without assumptions.


Acknowledging biases first without judgement, has no capacity of being biased as no bias can be without the capacities of bigotry, and thus without bigotry then there is the capacity of acknowledging biases without judgement.


I personally am unaware of fans of Mine because I do not assume that I have any because of what My considerations are for what a fan of Mine would be, as the factors when considerations as to fandom as to Myself is as to the factors of what I personally consider as comfort.


People should be more uplifting as to the aspects of being appreciative if as to appreciating work of Mine, as I have not need/want/desire of any male dominant in the supposed to be consenting adult lifestyle regarding such factors of any type of relationship outside of acquaintance or friendship only, as that is not in any capacity ever a turn on to what My considerations are for Me at all in any capacity whatsoever as it has not ever been a turn on to Me.


The reality that Females have the capacity to be strong enough to be themselves if as to such morals and ethics as to such reality needs and requirements, thus as to where males have needed to accept the facts as not all males are as to what they might think of themselves as the same in reference of professional in what is supposed to be consenting adult biologically legally as to informed, as how they themselves are not anything of any turn on to Me as they are the opposite 100% in every capacity of anything that would ever be capable to turning Me on personally as I personally am not a lesbian as obviously a female biologically who would enjoy such factors would only be as to such aspects as to having to acknowledge such within herself.


As a Pansexual as to the intellectual capacities where I can be interested though not necessarily turned on, as to the physical does not make the aspect of what is of attraction to Me in the aspects whereas some might assume, as the factors as to the emotional connections depend and vary as to the situations, whereas the spirituality of such factors as My comprehension of Eclectic Judeo-Christianity religion is important, as the factors of sexuality of what sexually is attractive for Me is as to how the personal connection is as to the genuinity.


Being Polyamorous as I am personally is as to the intellectual capacity of being capable to discuss multiple topics while actually caring in truth, emotionally having the capacity to connect and such communicative factors, as the other three aspects thereof as to the references to the differences as to romantic factors as to platonic factors as there is My personal capacity where I always begin as to platonic factors first before I have ever or would ever consider anything sexually and/or romantically as personally it takes a lot more for Me to be capable to connect romantically than it ever has as to connecting platonically because of the way I personally was raised.


Thus if interested in dating Me as to in the capacity of not setting a date for a meeting as that obviously would not be the exact same unless previously brought up as to discussions, then as to such aspects as to arranging such with Me to ask Me first if that is an interest as to other(s) regarding such aspects. 


Thus the as I am as where I am a Female Dominant as to being as I am, then as to such acceptance there is a difference as to Myself being a Feminist as to the differences whereas the factors of feminazism as to the references of those who would have such factors as to their patterns of choices as to their behaviour as to the factors whereas the proof of such to the aspects of the differences of reviewing information from a different point in time as to such a point in time as to the facts that need to be paid attention to as to the facts of the time.


Completing a logistical review of My personal life experiences while acknowledging My experiences as well as My emotions from the facts of the situations from the years of 2019 through 2022, is not the same as to having the capability of time to review such all at the exact point in time of the exact point in time as that should not take a head injury to figure out.


My work as to My writings as to if used in speeches as the ease thereof as the 10% for Me of such if financial factors as to the tithing viewpoints, if as to such factors of consideration.


The links to My website as to My different pages of My website including My Journal Blog, are capable to share the link as to discussing the details as to the information of; though such facts for the fullness to be capable to read more to learn from the knowledge, is of the facts where such importance.


Since the requirements in reference to My website as to where tghe finances were only for Me to be capable to utilize were not responded directly to Me personally as there was not anyone ever allowed to be involved as to on My behalf ever, as to the aspects where since I personally did not have any such discussions as to what My personal minimum standards were as to being met for what My personal requirements are/were/are as to where there was and is not any allowances for such misinterpretations ever as to the clear distinctions as to Me personally only as to where I have clarified repeatedly that I am the one and only as to ever making the decisions for Myself as well as My work(s).


I personally do not play games, as I do not find games as they are not fun for Me.


I personally do not often watch television/movies as that is not assistive to my headaches/migraines at all, as the after effects from My head injury on Psalm Sunday in the year of 2000 as the additional after effects from the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal temporal lobe of My brain that took 8.5 years to fully dissipate out of the MRI and out of the CAT scans as I have figured as to what works best for me personally.


While I have made attempts to connect with real people as to real friends as I once thought of as to such prior points in time, as to how such aspects went in the years from 2019 through 2022 as to such viewpoints as to such considerations referencing as to what capacities as to such factors regarding the differences as to choices/words/actions/deeds as to such references as to the factors of humanity as per the proof regarding my attempts before as well as during as well as after such points in time.


If as to the current time where each individual seems to think of themselves as a commercial and/or thinks of others as a commercial instead of thinking of each as an individual human being with individual personal life experiences as to how I personally have considered each individual if I am accurate referencing others' opinions as to such if factors, then as to where the reality of such readjustments as to the recalibrations of what humanity is.


The aspects of pop culture as to the facts regarding the differences between the factors of as while there might be some aspects that align in some ways, there are still the facts of the amount of the rest of different experiences and life thereof.


Thus as to such facts whereas what My personal needS as to what My personal wantS as to such factors, such aspects of the #ADA ADA requirements as to the facts regarding My being medically retired or being considered as to such disability aspects as to the reasons why ADA aspects are in such as for Me as to such aspects; though actually being capable to have as well as utilize such aspects as to My benefits in the correct capacities for Myself, as to the aspects whereas such factors of proof regarding the situations as to such reasons I have also worked as diligently as I have attempted to being capable to provide for Myself as being a biological adult of two biological adult legal aged children I personally gave birth to while having been awake from My coma for less than 1.5 years for one and 2.5 years for the other as to such facts.


Online is important for several aspects, though in real life as to such reality as to the real needs as to such common sense as to the factors of what is required for Me as I comprehend what is actually best for Me and that is not up for interpretations as interpretations always lead to misunderstandings as to the facts as to such proof regarding the aspects thereof as to My personally being capable to be in as well as remain in a good mood as to the attempts I have made to being capable to accomplish such.


While the aspects of My personal belief in real angels as to real faeries as to real spiritual beings as to such facts regarding such as to where I was Confirmed in the year of 1997 as to the aspects thereof to that history, the aspects where such facts as to the references thereof as the differences of what are considered as real friends in real life as to the differences of the spiritual aspects if there was ever any common sense as to different human beings unless as to such being as cherubim as to homo-sapien-sapiens as to ever being ignorant enough to think that is the same when obviously as to the facts that a real human being as to a real friend as to the difference of a real spirit as to such aspects thereof to real spiritualism capabilities.

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However such is obviously a difference from the aspects thereof, to humanity as human beings are supposed to be and are as to humanity if as to such aspects of the definition of humanity.


If I was/am believed as I understand some have opinions as to religious aspects and/or spiritual factors as to the usage of the words metaphor/proverbial/figurative, there has not been such confirmation for Me to have such knowledge for Myself regarding such aspects to what I would know and understand as to such as per the proof regarding the exact time.


Some do not just get over something as massive as the situations as to February 1993 as to being capable to survive such, as that was not a video game nor was that a computer game nor was that a pop culture fiction aspect as to such references and regards just as 11 September 2001 or 9/11 was not a video game and was not a computer game and was not a pop culture fiction aspect.


There is not the capacity where individuals who have tried to prettify the aspects for individuals to truthfully recover and heal from such aspects because of the requirements as to the truth being told in full, and when the truth is told in full is the only capacity for healing to begin.


Thus as to the facts in reference to My personal life experiences, what support would there be that I could truthfully say and/or write about as to the aspects of such luxuries others have had as to such amounts of individuals as to such support groups as to such friends as to such aspects of discussions as to what discussions would actually be in the references thereof as to what I personally consider as; or would such individuals think that them discussing amongst themselves would be as to the same instead of the aspects thereof as to discussions with Me personally, as to such proof regarding such luxuries as to those types as to such factors as to the aspects of such wannabe aspects.

 

 

Those who would consider Me as wanted as to what I consider as being wanted as to the differences as to such aspects of "Finding A Silver Lining" as there are only so many words in the dictionary to describe, and when individuals choose to be bratty nonconsensually as to such aspects as to such brattiness as to the aspects of the amounts of words as to the amounts of times as to where either the individual is going to be considered as competent to understand or they will be considered as incompetent as to humanity referencing such types as to those factors as to such aspects that I have brought forward as to the proof thereof to the validity of such aspects. 


"Finding A Silver Lining" and "Finding The Silver Lining" are situations that are of My past as to the situations I personally dealt with as to such aspects whereas My suggestions as to the current time as well as the future, are the difference.


"The Modern Day Book" is as to what I noticed as per the years thereof in those references as to what the looks were as to such descriptions for such clear aspects, as the common sense factors as to such regards as to having been born and raised in New Jersey as to the aspects of the differences as to NYC as NYC thinks of such aspects whereas New Jersey has the capacity to prefer the real of the reality as to such differences whereas Broadway wanted to be more like Hollywood and visa versa as to such references.


"The Adventures of Susan MeeLing, SCUBA Diver Extraordinaire" is of what My personal experiences were as to My personal work as to My personal life experiences as to before I began SCUBA Diving as to what I was known as through My name in reference of My personal trainers as to My personal childhood experiences as to such work in reference of protecting and defending the individuals on land above sea level as to the aspects of My work if that was/is actually appreciated.


The aspects where I could see now in the year of 2023 where some capacities of "Fail-Safe" could be as to such if factors as well as "Paroxysm" as to such if factors as while I was only being creative as to such aspects as to My writings, the aspects whereas for Myself personally would be as to the references for such aspects if as to those types as to such psychological distinguishing factors as to what I have been capable to distinguish as to My comprehension of Myself as well as My comprehension of My wrok as I authored/wrote/compiled as to the best of My capabilities as to My overall books.


In reference of "Paroxysm" there is not anyone I ever have personally dated that would ever fit into such descriptions, ever.  The facts regarding where the references thereof to prior timeframes as to Volume 2 are from individuals I personally knew before the year of 2000, as to the common sense factors as to the reality of the overall.


In regards as to "Fail-Safe" and "Paroxysm" in regards of for Me personally as to the relationship aspects of for Me personally as to the references and regards thereof officially for Me personally despite having written of such in an overall way, the aspects of if as to such as for Me personally then as to such clarifications now as to the year of 2023 as to the differences regarding the multiple reasons as to bringing such forward as to healthy acquaintences as to healthy friendships as to health developments of hetero-sexual relationships that as to such hetero-sexual relationships as to the fluidity depending upon the aspects of such a relationship factor if as to the consensual aspects as to each involved being fully informed first as that is the only capacity thereof as to being informed as to officially being informed before such aspects as for the example where I have been honest as to the after effects from My Psalm Sunday in the year of 2000 head injury as to others being informed first officially as to such if factors as to the differences.


The aspects whereas to such if factors as to My books I personally authored without any assistances as to My personal creativity to authoring such aside from the technological factors as to being capable to write such books as to "Paroxysm" and "Fail-Safe" referencing such aspects specifically for Myself regarding such aspects of the specifics as to such details, then I suppose if as to such would be as to prophecy regarding such if factors if such were to ever be for Myself personally; though if as others' interpretations of their own lives as to then the references of whereas being capable to prophesize decades before ever writing though definitely would not ever prefer certain aspects as to certain individuals as to My personal considerations as to the specifics as to such references regarding the factors thereof as to "Fail-Safe" especially though also in such clarifications as to for Me as to "Paroxysm" as to such if factors as to what My personal considerations as to the aspects thereof regarding the aspects not of a novelty as there is a difference between a novel a difference between a novel idea a difference between as to how such aspects of where the problems as to problematic novelty factors as to such misinterpretations in My opinion.


When describing the situations in truth that is the common sense starting point of a foundation, and any who think that such could be fast-forwarded are incompetent as to such aspects where certain factors are required to have such details and information to being capable to actually make such genuine efforts as to progression towards betterment in genuine truth.


The reality where such aspects of when such efforts are direct as to such facts as per the prior amounts of time as to explanations, then as to the facts where either the competency to listen and then think while listening as well as being capable to progress with the correct actions as to such regards as to the common sense.


Maybe it is a bit more truthful than I realized, common sense might actually be a genuinely real superpower. 


Forgiveness is of importance as to such truth in full as best as possible, the factors of as to such if remorseful.


The reasons why of the reality as to where, as to the year of 1993. 


Time is important as to emotions of the situations, retaining such knowledge can assist seeing towards progression of betterment.


Communications are important listening both sides if as to consent, the factors as to information in truth as of much importance. 

Life and Love, Life and Love
Between, Below, and Above


Brightest of Blessings.

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Please share the link to my website and feel free to comment in the section below however know that I am not informed as to any comments made within the area of each journal blog I post, though the ability to express yourselves as to such comments of such are able to be seen of such portions if you so choose.

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I encourage others to share the links and to speak about such topics honestly as to such aspects and situations as my saying as to it should not take a head injury to figure out is the main satirical portion as to my journal blog, as to the facts as to sometimes when wording hits a certain way all one can do is chuckle a bit as to reviewing such portions of information thereof.

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If interested in using my journal blog for articles and/or legal aspects please just remember to put the link to the specific journal blog article area to assist the fuller aspects as to the clarifications for others to also be able to read through for such additional details, as well as if there are those who are interested in further discussions and/or commentary and/or interviews and/or speaking arrangements and/or invitational aspects of such journal blog entries I have written please do contact me through my contact form with such details at www.susanmeeling.com/to-contact 

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Please also know the reasons for having such available hopefully assists the more open discussions as to the various details thereof to which I have been honest and truthful about, which additionally to such as to posting on social media in various areas is welcome as the ability to discuss such topics honestly is of importance as it brings a different form of discussions though also assists more to be involved with such viewpoints.  I know there are those who either have not had a social media account and/or have had to wait to be online more often in such aspects depending upon the employment thereof to which the reference to the details in such references per journal blog entry might assist in different ways while additionally giving the ability to still engage online in various forums to which while some may prefer not to have their social media accounts associated with responses on my website which is acceptable; it does give a forum for such discussions as well for those who may not have the ability to go into further details in certain other areas online, as to a different cover though the reality of such transparency on my part as to having been open and honest as to my community area involvements additionally hopefully open the doors and open the lines for more genuine and honest communication within the age appropriate guidelines thereof for the betterment and clarity among more.

 

 

Admittedly only recently in the year of 2020 had I realized I may physically look similar to different characters in different aspects of pop culture however I did not grow up being allowed to watch such aspects and since after waking up from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury coma, I do not usually watch such pop culture because of the after effects from my Psalm Sunday in the year of 2000 head injury as to knowing the personal aspects of what is best for myself.  However I did not and do not know of the pop culture references many of the times because of not being allowed to watch anything other than G-rated movies/television throughout my childhood and teenager years in the 1980s to the 1990s as the rating systems may have been different for such times, as I also was not allowed to watch PG or PG13 or any other type of PG until I was a certain age which again similarly to such times in the 1980s and the 1990s the rating system may have been different to such aspects; of which once I was the age of 18 years old biologically I have been able to watch anything and everything I personally prefer or want to watch.

 

 

Additionally I do not play games despite possibly looking physically as what characters might be as to such, as again that is something within pop culture which I have not usually known nor understood a reference to such in pop culture however I encourage people to know the difference between a pop culture reference as to knowing the difference to the human being spoken with as I have picked up there are several individuals who may not have known there is a difference between what images and/or videos as to being seen compared to the interactions with others when in real life in person as well as when speaking with others through various forms of online communication of which the care and the concern as to such aspects in my opinion is of importance to review for such realities. 

 

 

While I understand others have the choice to play games for whichever aspects thereof, please comprehend I am not one who will play games as I personally do not find such appealing to me nor to the after effects of as well as from my Psalm Sunday year of 2000 head injury just as others with and/or without a head injury may have a different viewpoint to such aspects as to games as some just have a life which such is considered as a luxury to play games comparatively though cannot do.

 

 

Please be respectful as to such as well as if you meet me and/or see me in public and speak with me, please be honest as to such as I have not ever assumed anyone had ever known of my website or my work as to the fact I have known there are many websites throughout the internet of which if there have been hints to such at any point in time there has not been the ways of which I would view such aspects as to the reference without the actual bringing of such information up first by who I have spoken with because of the ways as though I write as I do when I speak it is not always the same way as such comes across online possibly as there are differences as I would guesstimate others would know as per their own online aspects as to how such discussions have been with others and/or writings thereof as to when corresponding with others.

 

 

Though I know there are more than just the two social media areas of which Facebook and Twitter have been available, because of certain topics of my journal blog entries as well as the multiple social media platforms I lease such areas at the discretion of the reader to posting such aspects because of the knowledge certain topics are for certain age ranges as to the details thereof though because of certain aspects as to the intellectual levels for the reasons as to the choices thereof for what I have known some companies have assisted with in reference to the rating system as to guidelines as to the clicking of certain links for such software references as to controls.  I have done the best I could to ensure the ability for if in reference to biologically under the age of 18 years old for such choices up to the parent(s)/legal guardian(s)/grandparents to the topic points I have/do written/write about as well as kept such details more modest for the ability for such aspects of choice to the appropriate levels of discussions, of which hopefully with the additional aspects as to the genres assist with such abilities for the clarifications thereof.  

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If newsworthy, please do send to the news organizations if there are topics of which are interesting that should be broadcast upon the various news media stations as to the specifics within the posts I have put together.

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After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

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Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

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Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

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Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

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After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

​

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

​

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

​

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

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In regards of who had been around my desktop and/or laptop computers and/or cellphones that I can think of is the following list of names of people who had ever been around the area of my computers where I was living that are possibly still alive though also all of my laptops which were under the accidental warranty plan in regards of what I took to Geek Squad in Best Buy in as best timeline order as possible to a degree:


* My son and my daughter, and one of my son's friends from McCoy Elementary School of Carrollton Farmers Branch Independent School District who had problems with the food I cooked and the amount of because he preferred a store bought meal in comparison to my home cooked meal during a sleepover in 2008 or 2009

* My biological mother

* My biological sister

* My biological father

* My ex-mother-in-law

* My ex-sister-in-law Susie Marie Nichols-Lopez at the time name, her two daughter, and her son

* My ex-sister-in-law Mary Evongelina Osteen and her two daughters

* Females from the Jade Wolfe Coven and their spouses (Jamie was married to Stephen who worked at the Gentleman's Club in San Antonio as a manager, Christine who was married to Mike in San Antonio though met him as she also was from Abilene Texas and he was in the Air Force branch of the United States of America's Armed Forces when they met though lived in San Antonio Texas near the 151 and 410 area around Potranco Road to which no relationship beyond was ever allowed as a few problems had issues accepting no as an answer)

* Thomas Marden (who I met online and later dated shortly though thought he could use me wrongly to get back at his mom and his Grandpa who had been in the Air Force branch of the United States of America's Armed Forces)

* Dawn (met from the San Antonio Pagan community and the aspects of the time I went to the Excalibur Faire in 2005 as well as introduced me to Ayaz Sheik and the people she worked with in the Chase Bank large branch location on I90 outside of 410 who once was in the Navy branch of the United States of America's Armed Forces which there was not the relationship beyond such as per my personal preferences as despite how I can speak and write about various topics I am extremely prude for the aspects thereof as well as apparently because of my physical looks and being born and raised in New Jersey as I was told)

* Nine Lives Books store and cat sanctuary staff and volunteers as well as those from the Psychic Fairs from 2005-2008)

* Jeffrey Kuykendall Jr AKA Cactus Jack and his family (prior explanations about how that situations had been as well as how such went because of such situations already)

* The neighbors from my house in #SanAntonio San Antonio #Texas Texas as well as my house in Carrollton Texas for both sets of housewarming parties (were informed of how the time of the legal marriage and how that was forced as well as how the situations regarding Cactus Jack had been forced in regards of the situations in person before I had my furniture moved into my house in #Carrollton Carrollton Texas as well as after moving in officially)

* The construction crew who had built the second floor above my garage with balcony, remodeled the bathroom area, and installed the eight foot privacy fence in 2009 and 2010 as well as maintenance staff at any apartment/townhouse I had lived in at such times (were from my ex-in-laws and were informed of both how the legal marriage was at gun point as well as the situations regarding having to drive Cactus Jack back to San Antonio Texas after the situations regarding)

* International SCUBA instructors and students also locations associated with International SCUBA #SCUBA for the actual SCUBA Diving such as San Marcos Hot Springs, Clear Springs SCUBA Park, the Huntsville Quarry, and Cozumel/Cancun trip as explained and described)

* Sean Leonard of SCUBA Toys in Carrollton Texas (prior situations explained regarding how many times he was told no as well as his confession regarding on the phone in Washington state as well as at the #Bremerton Bremerton Naval Shipyard in 2019 where he admitted to being told of my SCUBA Dive at the USS/USNS General Hoyt S. Vandenberg after admitting he did not follow any instructions regarding after catching a Puffer Fish as I had told and commanded him to do for the safety of more than just that male) However if his last name is not Leonard then the portions as to checking in to the Bremerton Naval Base which his identification card was scanned at the same location which I checked into the base at with the scanning of my Blue Military Identification card for such correct information, to ensure the correct individual was scanned into the Military installation in 2019 during the month of April 2019 as per the KIA Soul driven onto the base in the color black, with one of the rear seat windows which was broken and had plastic over the side thereof for clarification purposes as my discussions with that male on the Bremerton Naval/Marine Base in #Washington Washington state would have the video footages from each angle of cameras, as that male was the only individual I spoke with once walking around the military installation near the chain link fence near the #Kittyhawk USS/USNS Kittyhawk area; and since my hairstyle and hair color with what tattoos were able to be seen in both of the tops as well as partially in the palm areas of both of my hands would be able to show, and assist my clarifications thereof as per also having picked that male up from the Sea-Tac Airport and dropping him off at the #SEATAC #SEA Sea-Tac Airport during that several day point in time in April 2019. As that individual had also shown up to the Extended Stay America I was staying in for the short amount of time before going to the #FBI FBI location I had as well as mailed off which books I had before and after going to #CID CID at #JBSA JBSA on Fort Sam Houston in San Antonio Texas, there are other such locations which have multiple camera angle views of that male; which also additionally regarding when at Clear Springs SCUBA Park in Terrell Texas he was the male who had gotten down on bended knees regarding hiding behind two other male SCUBA Divers I guesstimate from SCUBA Toys which he was trying to hide behind from the situation when I was asking if there was anyone who was wanting a Bratwurst cooked by me to eat when I BBQed during the weekend of the 4th of July in 2019.


If such additional clarifications regarding such a name for all such prior posts and writings is required, there are the multiple ways as well as having him check into #ClubSapphire Club Sapphire regarding the mandatory identification check at the front when filling out paperwork; though I cannot recall if they actually scanned his identification card for a new individual regarding such a location, because of the way the discretion had been for when a male or a female had ever already been within the club to pretend as though the individual was new if being brought into the club with a different female as compared to before as per learning of when I was volunteering at the Club Sapphire at the times I had been volunteering to arrange the setting up and cleaning of the club locations regarding the consenting adult lifestyle in the area near the Homeland Security building and the Chamber of Commerce as well near the Sea-Tac Airport. As his body style seems close to who was once known as Paige who painted her/his body green and put on a black wig when going out in the #BDSM BDSM scene while hanging out with Heather at a few locations which were not The Sanctuary usually though were such as the FVD as well as in #Denton Denton Texas house party locations as well as other Temple of Flesh and Gloryhole Girl events they had held, that individual fits the body style as well as the painting of the color of green regarding a similar coat of pain regarding the way green cammo paint is used for those who actually had signed the dotted line for the United States of America's Armed Forces compared to someone who was pretending to be painted by such a specific type of paint on their body. However how sexist has SCUBA Diving as well as sexist regarding males in reference to Female Dominants in either such area, when thinking about such aspects thereof? How many male recreational SCUBA Divers have wished to be able to only do such on their own the ways as to which the United States of America's Armed Forces Navy #USNavy branch and division of the #USNavySEALs SEALs and #MARSOC MARSOC have been against such types of recreational SCUBA Diver Instructors because of the ways which recreational SCUBA Divers and recreational SCUBA Diving Instructors have wished to be able to accomplish even one of the course of weeks arranged in the year of 1962? Which ironically my Grandpa Gavett had been working with my Bok Pu for such training aspects for some of the portions as to what she had known and had accomplished regarding certain portions of such training levels, and certain portions of my particular upbringing regarding my Grandpa Gavett as well as my Bok Gung and my Bok Pu for additional ironies regarding such wishes from those types of male recreations SCUBA Divers as well as certain types of individuals throughout the BDSM/Pagan lifestyles.


I suppose I can joke about the MARSOC aspects and when I went to Basic Training regarding the first day of Zero Week and the only considered contraband which was not contraband officially, had been a second fresh package of socks for when I was in Basic Training as to the naming of; which those particular Marines might just go a bit of a Faery sized more rawr than others may have thought.


Maybe my SCUBA Diving certifications I earned on my own in the ways which I had arranged my personal classes for my SCUBA Diving certifications, might hypothetically fall in line with the training which I had read about regarding my Grandpa Gavett's notations and paperwork might make more sense compared to any such recreational SCUBA Diver who would wish to be remotely anywhere in the ballpark as to how I had grown up before ever getting into SCUBA Diving proper; as per already having described to multiple SCUBA Divers and SCUBA Diving Instructors in reference to when I was growing up in New Jersey and going out to the oceanic waters to see the SCUBA Divers along the jetties for one example as to how I actually grew up; though not SCUBA Diving proper nor officially using any such SCUBA Diving gear, for other such portions of my particular training regarding when I was a child. Hypothetically just a coinky dink I would guess some would possibly wish to be able to claim, though so would by technicalities the aspects of the waters I cleared officially regarding in SCUBA diving in the state of Texas which is a stand your ground state before I had gone to the oceanic areas of the Gulf of Mexico to clear such portions, and then went to the areas of the Atlantic Ocean to clear which is where I began clearing waters back in the 1980s into the 1990s regarding swimming more officially in comparison to officially being a certified SCUBA Diver which earned 26 SCUBA Diving certifications; to which the legal basis of the stand your ground laws in the state of Texas regarding other such portions in reference to the additional aspects of my Medal of Honor Art Project to which is a second level of which all such within the United States of America and such countries assisted in which ways could technically be reviewed regarding such allied treaties if there are those within the government aspects of the United States of America in the various areas and states could agree in reference to the legalities thereof in such a possible portion as to such laws then extending in other such ways depending which attorney/attorneys/law firms could look at such in the possible ways as to some of the portions regarding more than just the Constitutional Rights and Amendments thereof for such a reviewal process for such possibilities if I am accurate regarding such portions of the stand your ground laws in the state of Texas as such possibility for additional reviewal of such laws as to the choice which was made regarding the individual and those associated regarding this particular portion of this journal blog entry in reference to the SCUBA Diving aspects additionally hypothetically among a few other aspects if accurate. Whether the reference to the Ceiling Fan/Prairie Dog reference as to the ways of certain such attributes able to be looked into for such metaphors regarding such aspects; to which if there were those who had been figured out in reference to knowing there has been more than one regarding certain situations despite the portions thereof in "Finding The Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing", which nickname would you prefer comparatively? Can you find a silver lining, now?


However I admit I am in a bit of a mood currently, as per going through the various aspects for my own reviewal processes of what situations have occurred and a bit of childishness in comparison to teenager attitude might be noticed and/or a combination thereof regarding certain portions as to various situations of reality I have dealt with over the years as per such portions regarding having repeatedly told him no in reference to the Cancun/Cozumel SCUBA Diving and his own admittances of what he had actually done regarding on the phone call(s) in regards of Duke's Bar and Grille when he had added the Seafood portion to what I had brought up as well as the portions regarding the shower which I had locked the door and he admitted to pouring cold water on me in the shower when he was flirting and it was known I was not interested in dating anyone or being involved with anyone in such a way regarding SCUBA Diving at those times as per multiple discussions from the times of all of my SCUBA Diving certification classes up to that point in 2009, in addition to the facts in reference to Bremerton Naval/Marine shipyard in 2019 and other such aspects thereof thinking the timeline I had recalled was in reference to my feelings about who I knew at the same time though longer in regards of who I had been engaged to twice in comparison because of the crossovers of the timelines at such a year as I knew Shawn/Shaun McCall longer than I knew the one in this reference point by over 1 year at a round about of time before any such portions. To which if involved regarding how the situation occurred and/or knowing of the Corona situation in 2010 while I was engaged which was not who I had been dating at the time when the male had wanted to meet at the BBQ location, it was as it was as the assumptions to which some have been aside the fact that male did not want to acknowledge such at the time of possibly because of the internal shame he rightfully should have felt for what he had chosen to do at the #Cancun/#Cozumel Cancun/Cozumel trip were realistically possibly as to why he had not wanted to admit such at those times in 2009 as it was not just the Puffer Fish he caught which was a problem regarding that situation. I would not be surprised unfortunately if there have been other female SCUBA Divers and/or female SCUBA Diving Instructors who have needlessly had to deal with such types of behaviours because of certain types of male SCUBA Divers and/or male SCUBA Diving Instructors, which personally I wonder if there is a criminal background check which occurs for SCUBA Diving Instructors to ensure the safety of anyone getting involved with SCUBA Diving the way which is done for teachers in any school system as well as in reference to those who have dealt with similar situations as I have regarding either that particular male SCUBA Diver and/or other SCUBA Divers and/or SCUBA Diving Instructors.


In my opinion it is horrible business to ever go after another SCUBA Diver as per the limited number of people who have ever been interested in SCUBA Diving officially and with such a type of way as to which situations have occurred regarding what I have dealt with if those recreational SCUBA Divers and/or recreational SCUBA Diving Instructors did not think about the fact of such regarding how such had gone; then the pondering as to what business model they were thinking about when it came to the short, long, longer, and longest terms regarding SCUBA Diving in any such ways as to how many people actually enjoy their lives in comparison to how some individuals have thought of life in general. Just because it is a high risk activity, does not mean there needs any additional aspects as to high risk behaviours from individuals who prefer to seemingly act childish when in such a situation as most SCUBA Divers whether recreational or not recreational and a professional aspect for do not take kindly to such types of those childish recreational SCUBA Diver antics and cannot ever appreciate such in those regards as to the lives involved overall in my opinion. It is and was known as to my military connection as to the point of being made fun of because of my choice to camp at the SCUBA Parks I had gone to in reference to Clear Springs SCUBA Park as well as Huntsville Quarry as there were those who found me to be inconvenient as to be willing to set up a tent to be able to spend the time in the area, for what I needed to do. I had not required anyone to actually stay in the areas with me as it was not a requirement for them to stay over such times, however such individual teachers which had stayed by their own choice as to in comparison to leaving and going back to wherever they came from was their choice in comparison to ever being asked to stay at the campgrounds for clarification. One of my SCUBA Diving Instructors Jeff Waters which also had gone to the Cancun/Cozumel trip with his girlfriend at the time named Sally had dealt with a few situations regarding her, one of which was when she heard him tell the group going to Cancun/Cozumel he initially nicknamed me a Tadpole and thought by the time of making plans for the trip to Cancun/Cozumel my nickname was changed in his thoughts to a Bullfrog; which I laughed and joked about the bullfrogs which showed up to my backyard, in my house in San Antonio Texas around 2004 after a vision quest had created for myself where I actually had set up a red and white tent for myself in my backyard area at the time as per other such requirements I made for myself.


* William Talent from SCUBA Diving (met through classes through International SCUBA at Clear Springs SCUBA Park and told him of the semi-truck situation on I35 as well as was who arranged the meeting at Rick's house with Joe from SCUBA Diving who had said he was an Army Ranger and the Corona beer situation which was previously explained as to how I had to defend myself while I was engaged the first time willingly ever)

* Sha(w)(u)n McCall (who I met in 2008 or the beginning of 2009 at #NTB National Tire Battery in Carrollton Texas and was engaged to twice in 2009 inti 2010 and then later in 2010 into 2011 before the way it was ended by him after he joined the #USArmy Army branch of the United States of America's #ArmedForces Armed Forces)

* Temple of Flesh in San Antonio Texas, Grady's classes/events/demos in the San Antonio Texas area, a male named Master Charles who held classes and demos at his house in San Antonio Texas) The Sanctuary club once in Dallas Texas, The Church in Dallas Texas, the Purgatory Club in the Dallas/Fort Worth Texas area, multiple Austin locations of BDSM events after moving there for the situations regarding the Fort Worth Zoo and McCoy Elementary School of Carrollton Texas of CFBISD), a house in San Marcos Texas for BDSM events mainly, Mike and Patty's in San Antonio, Midnight Rodeo Country Club, Cowboys Dance Hall Country Club before the one event adult event in Arizona and the Velvet Rope in Portland Oregon with the one Halloween event in Portland Oregon in 2013 and later the Club Sapphire location; to which though I attended multiple events I did not actually have any involvement beyond helping to clean up or set up in comparison to actually being involved with any sort of scene in the public spaces as when going through the years from 2004 through to 2013 I had been involved with 10 scenes in total and from 2013 through 2018 had been involved with 5 different individual's/couples' scenes at such locations in totality of 15 scenes in 14 years; however such connections thereof to such events and classes and demos as well as stores in such combinations thereof whether in person, or online through fetlife mainly

* Phillip Omstead (met through fetlife as he wanted to know more about the BDSM aspects and was looking for someone who would explain the lifestyle in comparison to what was seen online and from what his mother and his step=father had shown him up to that point as they were once involved and met at what was once The Sanctuary in Dallas Texas)

* Pita from #Dallas Dallas who was married to Paul at the time before their divorce (met at The Sanctuary in Dallas Texas)

* Patrick Kennedy (met through Phillip Omstead online initially in 2010 and later the FVD2 in DFW which was after the ending of the second engagement and had not left me alone during the majority of the event following me around the event telling me he thought I should forget about the male I was just engaged to and think more of him instead before later in 2010 when in Irving as to him claiming he met and/or saw me for the first time when at Jason and Renee's in 2008 or 2009, however I had not been to Jason and Renee's until some point in time in 2010 though the claim was at a ClubFEM event in those years at Jason and Renee's for a ClubFEM event)

* Brandon from the San Antonio BDSM community and his friend from fetlife Bound4Desire or BoundByDesire (met Brandon at Mike and Patty's in San Antonio and asked if he could call a friend of his regarding the female bound from in the Dallas area)

* John Virreal AKA Celtic Cowboy (met in the San Antonio Pagan community and had been who introduced me to the larger holiday events regarding Temple of Flesh as well as the FVD groups)

* Erika AKA Discordia and both of her daughters when they had babysat (I thought I met at Mike and Patty's though later learned she had remembered meeting at the first time in Grady's in San Antonio Texas regarding the BDSM community)

* Alicia (Erika's submissive at the time and later roommate, though also the male met with her at the Midnight Rodeo who went to Mike's because of her as per the Marine fan situation)

* Mike and Patty of the BDSM community in San Antonio as they had held events at the house I think Mike owned)

* One of the two females Erika had convinced me to help regarding the situation at Mike's in the San Antonio BDSM community and then began getting involved with Ken from the location of Mike and Patty's in San Antonio

* Ana and Matt (met from the San Antonio BDSM community at either Mike and Patty's or at a monthly event at Temple of Flesh, the same ones referencing the laptop situation regarding the Dallas Galleria)

* A male submissive who had applied to be a submissive of mine which had decided to not get involved officially though had been nervous to go to events because of knowing who I was/am in such regards and part of the reason as to beginning at the time the group W.H.I.P.s as I knew he was not the only submissive male looking for an actual relationship while knowing there were multiple Female Dominants with and without relationships of whichever type which seemed it was important for them to get a bit of time for their own personal relationship whether or not professional; who had applied correctly for a possibility of a further relationship in comparison to anyone else regarding the aspects of the requirements in regards of the Female Dominant aspects which I cannot remember his name officially

* Matt West (met during my #NationalGeographic National Geographic Open Water SCUBA Diving certification course and later had developed into a relationship which he had ended at the time as per between the text messages and the fetlife messages being the final portions regarding that time)

* Jackie and Tony from Missouri which had met on fetlife and began speaking with and when dating Matt West which Jackie did not like at all when going to Missouri for one weekend only)

* Jesse Leroy Hoover Jr and after the Best Buy Geek Squad situation I had used a laptop he purchased to be able to deal with the zapping situation regarding being in Washington state (met at the Cowboys Dance Hall the night of the Stoney LaRue concert which was the only country music concert I could find online when searching on Google in 2013 to which the description as to how that event went has been gone over in writing after the in person explanations in multiple states as per the ways as to however that went towards Washington state after Arizona which was after Texas as to the Stoney LaRue concert and being surrounded and not left alone to simply just enjoy the music and speak with who I actually had wanted and preferred to speak with because of not being left to what I needed that evening)

* the Century Link male in Tacoma Washington who looked similar to Daniel from Nine Lives Books while talking on the phone with Michael Roberts from Nine Lives Books and his girlfriend or whatever that relationship is Suzanne Farnsworth

* a female named Amy Elizabeth Chalmers Hicks which her husband works in technology and a part of the South by Southwest events, I met in the apartment complex before she and her husband moved to a house who had types her dad's name into my laptop I do not use anymore though before I had gotten the ability to set up the internet in my apartment and did not as well as do not allow such further access afterwards

* Carl of Carl and Scarlet (from the Austin BDSM community who had only been people I spoke with)

* Ken AKA SAFerret (from the San Antonio BDSM community who I met once in person at a place in San Antonio Texas and had spoken with on the phone multiple times who had stopped by my apartment to see my Medal of Honor Art Project pieces and talk about a few things before he left to go deal with whatever he was dealing with)

* Mark Richmond who I met at the Trump rally event when POTUS45 was going to the Apple location for the meeting

* Steven Fowler met through fetlife then met in person and thought whatever he thought at such times before being left at the Bombshells location near Cedar Park/Round Rock Texas as he was beyond drunk in such a situation and the ques I saw from the male he was speaking with at the time I had arrived was enough for me to take my leave from the situation in full

* Joseph and Megan Estes met at Mike and Patty's in the San Antonio BDSM community and dated briefly

* various events since returning to the state of Texas as per descriptions as well as videos and pictures taken over the timeframe regarding the election cycle of 2020


An ideal set of songs at this point in time to pay attention to the lyrics as well as the video by Reba McEntire as well a Taylor Swift: (4) Reba McEntire - If I Were A Boy (Official Music Video) - YouTube I must admit the green gown, looks fantastic on her. (4) Taylor Swift - The Man (Official Video) - YouTube I admit the video is amusing regarding the end of video is something to chuckle about regarding the mocking of the ways as to certain situations have been, though an irony about Leo in San Tropei regarding who in such a reference?.





I have learned not to ever allow anyone to ever use my computers or laptops or cellphones from such and refuse all access to anyone at all completely have been refused from such access fully by me, as per knowing there is not the requirement nor the need for anyone to ever have access ever again to my computer devices unless for actual service in comparison. I fully refuse such allowances as per the lack of any need or any want or any desire as per there not being any requirement ever, as it is not for anyone else to utilize my computer/cell at all except for myself to use how I personally choose. The sort of garbage that has come from anyone ever thinking they have any rights which they do not have regarding my technology devices has been noticed as a situation which though the companies only regarding the software initially approved for installation aspects in comparison to what some of their employees have thought in such regards, has been more problematic than such has ever been worth in such regards as per the requirements for privacy and safety of me and mine regarding the situations which have obviously been noticed as per what security measures have been required to put into place regarding the ways as to how some have made their own free will choices as to how they prefer to use technology and when there is actual justification by legal measures in comparison to those who had not gotten over the facts of situations regarding their own involvements in comparison regarding such situations and problems; in comparison to changing their own patterns of behaviour for the betterment, it has been noticed as to how such has been only utilized for selfish and needless purposes wishing to tattle tell on for what they themselves have been guilty of in my opinion for far longer than just whatever portions as to having met and dealt with.



There is not the requirement for such access as per the lack of any need for such and the lack of respect by those who have ever had such has obviously been notated, and will not ever be allowed access again to such devices of mine; to which that includes any who have ever had such connections to and/or with such individuals regarding the safety and security of my computing devices for my website and what I choose to put on social media myself in comparison to what is wished for regarding such explanations, as if I had been where I put the transfer in for by now I would have begun such detailed works about such images though because of the situations involved there is not the need nor the requirements for me to go into any further such details as per my own choice for my own comfort and my own safety regarding what I personally need for myself in comparison to what others wish would be considered as comfortable to me as there is nothing within the state I am in which has been conductive for such aspects such as my books of the fiction format/my paintings artwork regarding prophecy/my other pieces of my Medal of Honor Art Project/etcetera regarding other such portions thereof in my personal opinion as well as what I perceive as comfort which while some might think just one or two aspects is considered as acceptable have not the slightest inclination as to what is actually comfortable to me especially if only going in reference or mainly in reference of the fiction books regarding what I wrote in fiction format only; though the irony of a female named Tina who brought up how others like to do self-fulfilling prophecy, which at this point I cannot disagree regarding the ways as to which I have seen up to this point. I repeat the fact I have not allowed any such permissions regarding actually hacking my computers which I fully rebuke all such access because of such portions I have already dealt with and do not ever need such portions ever again, as per my work's safety and sanctity in comparison to how others have chosen to be.



At a point in time I once had kept my laptop outside on the back patio area open to which now all is shut permanently to such as well as such individuals and the connections thereof regarding access to my computers to which even if through any such connections, as there has been the proven aspects as to the lack of requirement for such to be involved any further in my life of any sort at any time any further. Those people can only look at my website though are not allowed access to any such devices ever again, and nothing further regarding such ever again as per such situations which have occurred and gone on needlessly as per the requirements for my works and my safety. If there is or are those who could ever actually be interested in me for a relationship at this point, you can follow procedures regarding the protocols for requesting such as the questionnaire has been online to which you can answer honestly in full if you are actually interested in me for such; though admittedly I highly doubt such aspects personally because of the levels to which I have dealt with as per the acceptance of the facts as to who I am and what I have dealt with regarding such portions in conjunction regarding whatever on your side would be just simply seems as though the ways as to which some have been regarding matters seems at whatever levels perceived regarding such aspects of the most simplistic aspects of speaking and being in respect of full truth. I have not believed I could ever actually ever find someone who would ever actually accept me as I am and be in truth regarding their own aspects of life regarding the relationship aspects thereof in parson after the amounts of combined as I am not a novelty, I am a human being. When adding the portions as to the SCUBA Diving portions to which the ways as to which such had gone regarding the various aspects thereof specifically in the years of 2009 and 2010 and then later into 2019 and 2020 for certain other aspects, who could ever truthfully understand such levels of what it actually took to achieve surviving such aspects in the most unforgiving areas of the waters of the oceanic portions of the world at the bottom of the ocean in such locations at the highest risk areas regarding such aspects involved? People I once knew thought growing up in New Jersey was difficult which was not compared to surviving the oceanic pulls of the Atlantic Ocean areas in the depths of the waters to which I went, to which the levels thereof are far worse than some ever could imagine or see on a television or movie screen I would guesstimate. When seeing such in person regarding such it is a whole different aspect actually being there in comparison to simply seeing a small picture from a millisecond in time about to take a picture in comparison to the actual situations thereof, which realistically there is nothing on earth that can prepare anyone for what actually is the reality thereof and any such attempts only is a problem for those who wish it would change any perspective of mine as to the reality as to what I had seen and experienced. I think the term for that is called survivor shaming because of others' own situations in comparison to what as those who have had some experiences on land which have been known as victim shaming in comparison, only



Just as one cannot learn SCUBA Diving correctly to be certified in SCUBA Diving, there is much I do which cannot and will not ever be taught through simply watching or reading through any such works; such as for example, how any full portion of my Medal of Honor Art Project is actually completed regarding such historical and spiritual rubbings and the portions to fully complete such works in the correct processing ways as per the safety and the sanctity of such portions thereof. As there has not been any return contact as per requirement as per further discussions in person regarding such portions and aspects in which I have sent out requests regarding aspects thereof, I do not see any reasons as to any portions to ever actually teach such portions of my Medal of Honor Art Project as per the requirements for such aspects to ever be revealed as per the trainings as to which the requirements are for each individual piece of artwork for my Medal of Honor Art Project pieces. It has been my creation of my design, and as there has not been the return contact for such portions thereof there is not the requirement to actually ever go over such details as to how I complete such historical and spiritual rubbings and artwork pieces for such for anyone to ever learn how to actually complete for any such portions ever as seen and is my opinion. Just as it is important to actually go through the education in person for SCUBA Diving, so too is such mandatory for the aspects in reference to completing a historical and spiritual rubbing of any marker though especially a Medal of Honor recipient's marker. That does not have to be copyrighted as the portions thereof are officially uncopyrightable regarding how I was taught how to complete all such aspects thereof as per my Freedom of Religion in the Judeo-Christian basis of foundation. While some wish it was as simple as rubbing charcoal on paper and painting, that is not the actual portions as to the historical and spiritual rubbings and creation of the actual pieces thereof regarding the pieces of artwork for my Medal of Honor Art Project.


As situations have gone as they have over the years, it is my right to keep such safe as per requirements previously said and discussed to which since such portions as to various situations since beginning my Medal of Honor Art Project such as cleaning dog crap off of the 6 Medal of Honor recipients' markers in the one Seattle Washington location which took hours to do; I have not had the contact required to discuss such portions in person regarding the processes themselves, as to the reasons as to the closing of such off to the possibilities of teaching such as per the requirements I personally have needed by a specific timeframe. I should not have had to ever put such in writing nor should I have ever had to say such portions, because of the timing matter already missed due to the initial contact regarding my SCUBA Diving. I cannot see as to how any such portions were ever considered as important as I knew they were all along in either such situations, as the requirement for etiquette and respect thereof have been known of me for much longer than the time my website has been around. The respect required is also in reference to time itself, to which if it was as important as I have always known such to be then I had thought such return contact would have been much easier for those to actually do so in less time than over 3 years; especially as to such situations regarding such trips regarding my Medal of Honor Art Project trips and how certain situations had gone though specifically a few.



However while I know there are those who have wished me harm in further aspects as per already having known such from in person interactions as well as picking up feelings regarding energetic portions thereof, I also know there are those who have understood other areas where they may not have realized the inner knowing of a bit more than what had met the eyes regarding various situations even possibly with the additional writings regarding my Finding book series to which I am thankful and grateful for such who had taken the time to actually think about what they had noticed even if in the most minute and Faery sized of ways because of the magnitude of what had occurred over the short length of time comparatively whether in regards of New Jersey and/or Illinois and/or Oklahoma and/or Texas and/or Arizona and/or Washington state and/or Oregon and/or the United States of America's individual states with the populations thereof and/or the world as it has been quite a bit to deal with for one person on their own to which even with the advances of the amendments of the Constitutional Rights of the United States of America; being an unattached or unmarried single Mom born as a female and the overall aspects of my life from childhood through onward, has been a definitely difficult journey in regards of various aspects and situations. I have and do appreciate such even with my temper tantrums about the truth being brought forward as well as the portions to which for justice, as I know I am not the only one who has gone through what I have gone through. I know I simply am the only one who has gone through the combination of all such situations, as per other realizations as revelations thereof; to which I can hope for the patience from the knowledge thereof regarding such clearing through such portions for a more clear defining of the situations for such clarifications in a more full way to be able to assist more knowledge for such understanding as to the levels thereof as it is a bit more than what most might have ever thought as to what I have experienced and gone through on my own in many ways simply by myself. I do appreciate the patience though as well as the support regarding such aspects, as I know though I do as much to be the least difficult person as best as I possibly can; I also know the aspects as to the amount of what I have experienced, dealt with, and survived to continue onward at many aspects of reviewal are a bit more difficult to put into words for such clarifications of as can be seen through my website. The responsibility to ensure the actual safety of such devices as well as the safety of what I can assist with regarding as best as I can in reference to various people and areas, is not as easy as it looks as some might have the thought process regarding such varied levels thereof. However the respect to the right to privacy is also important regarding such not to hide anything, simply to process what has occurred over my life and situations thereof as well as protect what individuals I could in which ways as safest and as best as possible despite how such situations sometimes may have appeared.

Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

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After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

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Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

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Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

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Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

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After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

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Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

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Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

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Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Model Author Susan MeeLing

It should not take a head injury to figure this out because I thought you are supposed, to be smarter.

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If there are those who find such interesting enough to research further to bring forward more information in reference to the forefront for more detailed information, as usual I request the courtesy of the same which I do in reference to how I refer to articles for reference points when writing my journal blog entries; for each one used for reference starting points, to research for clearer understanding from such knowledge.

 

That is common sense, good etiquette, and good karma; whilst lifting others upward, in positive ways.

Quotes which mean a lot to me:

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"The ultimate measure of an individual is not where they stand in moments of comfort and convenience, but where they stand at the time of challenge and controversy."

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"We must reject the idea that every time a law is broken society is guilty, rather than the law breaker.  Freedom is never-more than one generation away, from extinction.  We do not pass freedom on through our blood stream because freedom must be fought for, protected, and handed on for the next generation to do the same."

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"Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.  Though best to be able to share in person with who matters, until that time occurs being able to see what is possible through such is a feat to notice.  One must be happy within oneself prior to being happy with another, though such can be enjoyed if living in one's own truth is as such. and then as to the capability to progress forward with another and/or others depending upon the situation(s) and individual(s)."  ~  A Quote From Me, Reverend Susan MeeLing also known as Lady Dori Belle

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In such references if there are any inaccuracies then I will fix and repair such details on my website, as per such.


Though there are the aspects of which if you would like to speak with me in addition to possibilities of opportunities for me, the welcome aspects as to contacting me through my contact form.


If I have known you in person when in person in positive ways and/or ways which might need clarification(s) as to mature discussions, there has always been the welcome open door policy as to contacting me through my contact form if you were not given my new phone number though such is online regarding my website more recently published online as to my Website Business Phone Line: (360)-713-4937.

Thus far there has been only one who has known the contact form area to speak with me on a phone line was simple and capable to do so through, in truth.

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