Reverend Susan MeeLing
I would love to comprehend what a REAL chance for my life is
Since the facts of what I have dealt with instead of what a real chance is where I could actually live my life as to how I need as to my...
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The background looks as similar as possible to the area when I was looking upward from the area of the mast American Flag on the USS/USNS General Hoyt S. Vandenberg, as the ways the colorations are as to the closest representation I could find to put in the area of for the view I had when in the (where I consider) at the Matthias Abyss, within the area of the Bermuda Triangle, within the Atlantic area of the Oceanic waters.
The most beautiful and intriguing mysterious areas, I have ever been lucky to be capable to see with my own eyes and be serenely within the aspects of the sights around where I went and where I was for the time yet eternal.
To see such glory and beauty within such a small sight and yet such a vastness, the glory of being allowed such a privilege as to being a part of such majesty is something I cherish greatly.
Just imagine the areas of illumination as the USS/USNS General Hoyt S. Vandenberg itself as the mountains as to the vastness, as the areas throughout as the perfection of such grace as to being engulfed within such to see in real life in person in real life as the water circulated and flowed as natural as the current as the American Flag lifted.
My life = My personal life
My life experiences = My personal life experiences that some might have something alike or something similar to though theirs is not the exact as to My personal life experiences
My opinion = Susan MeeLing's personal opinion that some or many might agree with
My needs = My personal needs for me personally though some distinguishing factors as to the aspects where there are different facets of My personal life and thus as to the distinguishing factors as to the different areas of my life, thus for Me personally is going to be for Me personally as to such differences as to the aspects whereas of others as to the factors to the considerations.
The FACT books I authored/wrote/compiled that I published through Amazon for My profits and what I chose/choose for the financial aspects per book:
* Finding A Silver Lining (published in print book format in in the year of 2015)
* Finding The Silver Lining (published in print book format in the year of 2014)
* The Modern Day Book (published in print format book in the year of 2020)
* The Adventures of Susan MeeLing, SCUBA Diver Extraordinaire (3 volumes published in print format books in the year of 2020)
Fiction Based books I published through Amazon that can have metaphors or proverbial only as some books allow the financial aspects as to donations whereas the newer books do not have such same factors whatsoever as to the financial resources for Susan MeeLing also known as Lady Dori Belle also known as Lady L*** Belle as make sure to not assume that all books will ever be the exact same:
* "The Curious Children Book Series: (2 volumes published in the year of 2014/2015)
* "Fail-Safe: The Kenedy curse fused with Science Fiction Fantasy (The New World Order)" (1 book published in the year of in print format book form 2015/2016 that is the main book to refer to for each of the subsequent books in the series as the 10 volume book series published as the 9 additional volumes in 2021/2022 as not all books were allowed as per My personal choice to be published in print format as to the ideals I have had for My work as to how I personally chose to release My books as to My business plans)
* "Paroxysm of the Lotus Book Series" (3 volumes published in print format of books in the years of 2014 through 2015 and then 7 books were published in the year of 2021/2022)
To Contact Me to ask me what My needs, my wants, My preferences, My Ideals, and/or My desires is only to utilize My To Contact Form to ask me respectfully after explaining yourself as to such aspects first as asking Me is the best way to actually do so correctly to actually learn to know of what My actual needs are for the factors of as the same in reference to my wants and so on and so forth. That includes though not limited to asking if there is something to assist Me with, arranging Book Signing, arranging requiring My permission first as to my needs for any appearance(s)/meeting(s),
Do not assume that just because I authored/wrote/compiled books that you know Me, you know of Me as to such factors as to the factors of the reality of the social media.
If I personally have reached out to you directly as to requesting a meeting and/or meetings, I have done so with the factors of respect regarding the aspects of what I could figure as being respectful as to the time(s) as to upon your schedule though also as depending upon my schedule as well. The contact information regarding phone numerical factors as to the aspects of My To Contact Form through My website, as to making attempts as to the ease to correctly communicate clearly.
Ensure if you are going to ask about Me, to know the exact-ish amount of time the individual actually knew Me in real life in person face to face in person in real life to verify the correct numerical positions of time that they may have known Me or if they knew of me as to the facts.
My modeling is not the same as speaking with Me face to face at all, because that is not the same as in real life as to the facts that in real life in person face to face in person actually requires those facts of in real life in person face to face in person in real life where a human being in person face to face in person is in real life with another human being is the common sense for in person face to face in person in real life as there is a difference to getting My personal permission first.
I do not allow anyone to misinterpret ever, as there is the clear facts that if someone/anyone says they can interpret Me, ensure they actually have what I personally consider as the starting point of full foundation as to actual capacities to do so correctly as what I consider as the correct foundation as to making sure the foundation of theirs in not made out of sand as to the differences of whereas to the facts my foundation is forged from where the stones as to the rock of My foundation is to the sturdiness thereof as to My personal life as to My personal experiences as to Me personally; as in my personal opinion that imitation is not flattery at all in any capacity when in reference to Me.
Since I comprehend Myself as to My and what My needS are as to what My wantS are as to what My preferenceS are as to what My idealS are as to what My desires are, then as to My comprehension of such factors in reference to Myself as to My personal requirements as when I have written about My personal life experiences as to the words I personally have chosen to describe such facts, then as to My life = My personal life experiences.
Manners, respect, human decency, and protocols are as a beginning point for what My personal standards are for Me.
Make sure to be capable to distinguish when the facts of My journal blog are in the capacity of either facts with satire and/or facts with metaphors and/or facts with figurative and/or facts as literal as the reality that My personal life experiences are My personal life experiences as to where some might relate to what I personally have dealt with, the full combination of what I have survived is the difference as to where the distinction is.
I survived the attacks on the soil of the homeland of the United States of America as to the tristate areas of New Jersey, New York, and Pennsylvania in the year of 1993 in the month of February as well as the timeframe of 9/11 also known as 11 September 2001 because I was born and raised in New Jersey in the three-county/three-borough area that had the most amount of commuters to New York City as well as other factors of the reality as to the state of New Jersey that those factors of pop culture are usually NYCers or Pittsburgians or Philadelphians and not New Jersey-ians pop culture as the aspects of comprehending the facts as that pop culture only has small amounts as to the differences of the fullnesses thereof.
What I know for what My personal comforts are as to being capable to see as to such factors, translates to comprehension of Myself as to comprehending what is best for Me personally as to what is best for My work as well as what is best for My personal comforts. As hours change to days and days change to weeks and weeks change to months and months change to years and years change to decades, I comprehend My personal needs as I comprehend I have made attempts for My personal needs to be correct for Me as to what My personal considerations are.
Keep your thoughts in what I consider as purity as to such actual purity of innocence, and the ease of life is made so as to the factors of the ensuring the correct actions without assumptions.
Acknowledging biases first without judgement, has no capacity of being biased as no bias can be without the capacities of bigotry, and thus without bigotry then there is the capacity of acknowledging biases without judgement.
I personally am unaware of fans of Mine because I do not assume that I have any because of what My considerations are for what a fan of Mine would be, as the factors when considerations as to fandom as to Myself is as to the factors of what I personally consider as comfort.
People should be more uplifting as to the aspects of being appreciative if as to appreciating work of Mine, as I have not need/want/desire of any male dominant in the supposed to be consenting adult lifestyle regarding such factors of any type of relationship outside of acquaintance or friendship only, as that is not in any capacity ever a turn on to what My considerations are for Me at all in any capacity whatsoever as it has not ever been a turn on to Me.
The reality that Females have the capacity to be strong enough to be themselves if as to such morals and ethics as to such reality needs and requirements, thus as to where males have needed to accept the facts as not all males are as to what they might think of themselves as the same in reference of professional in what is supposed to be consenting adult biologically legally as to informed, as how they themselves are not anything of any turn on to Me as they are the opposite 100% in every capacity of anything that would ever be capable to turning Me on personally as I personally am not a lesbian as obviously a female biologically who would enjoy such factors would only be as to such aspects as to having to acknowledge such within herself.
As a Pansexual as to the intellectual capacities where I can be interested though not necessarily turned on, as to the physical does not make the aspect of what is of attraction to Me in the aspects whereas some might assume, as the factors as to the emotional connections depend and vary as to the situations, whereas the spirituality of such factors as My comprehension of Eclectic Judeo-Christianity religion is important, as the factors of sexuality of what sexually is attractive for Me is as to how the personal connection is as to the genuinity.
Being Polyamorous as I am personally is as to the intellectual capacity of being capable to discuss multiple topics while actually caring in truth, emotionally having the capacity to connect and such communicative factors, as the other three aspects thereof as to the references to the differences as to romantic factors as to platonic factors as there is My personal capacity where I always begin as to platonic factors first before I have ever or would ever consider anything sexually and/or romantically as personally it takes a lot more for Me to be capable to connect romantically than it ever has as to connecting platonically because of the way I personally was raised.
Thus if interested in dating Me as to in the capacity of not setting a date for a meeting as that obviously would not be the exact same unless previously brought up as to discussions, then as to such aspects as to arranging such with Me to ask Me first if that is an interest as to other(s) regarding such aspects.
Thus the as I am as where I am a Female Dominant as to being as I am, then as to such acceptance there is a difference as to Myself being a Feminist as to the differences whereas the factors of feminazism as to the references of those who would have such factors as to their patterns of choices as to their behaviour as to the factors whereas the proof of such to the aspects of the differences of reviewing information from a different point in time as to such a point in time as to the facts that need to be paid attention to as to the facts of the time.
Completing a logistical review of My personal life experiences while acknowledging My experiences as well as My emotions from the facts of the situations from the years of 2019 through 2022, is not the same as to having the capability of time to review such all at the exact point in time of the exact point in time as that should not take a head injury to figure out.
My work as to My writings as to if used in speeches as the ease thereof as the 10% for Me of such if financial factors as to the tithing viewpoints, if as to such factors of consideration.
The links to My website as to My different pages of My website including My Journal Blog, are capable to share the link as to discussing the details as to the information of; though such facts for the fullness to be capable to read more to learn from the knowledge, is of the facts where such importance.
Since the requirements in reference to My website as to where tghe finances were only for Me to be capable to utilize were not responded directly to Me personally as there was not anyone ever allowed to be involved as to on My behalf ever, as to the aspects where since I personally did not have any such discussions as to what My personal minimum standards were as to being met for what My personal requirements are/were/are as to where there was and is not any allowances for such misinterpretations ever as to the clear distinctions as to Me personally only as to where I have clarified repeatedly that I am the one and only as to ever making the decisions for Myself as well as My work(s).
I personally do not play games, as I do not find games as they are not fun for Me.
I personally do not often watch television/movies as that is not assistive to my headaches/migraines at all, as the after effects from My head injury on Psalm Sunday in the year of 2000 as the additional after effects from the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal temporal lobe of My brain that took 8.5 years to fully dissipate out of the MRI and out of the CAT scans as I have figured as to what works best for me personally.
While I have made attempts to connect with real people as to real friends as I once thought of as to such prior points in time, as to how such aspects went in the years from 2019 through 2022 as to such viewpoints as to such considerations referencing as to what capacities as to such factors regarding the differences as to choices/words/actions/deeds as to such references as to the factors of humanity as per the proof regarding my attempts before as well as during as well as after such points in time.
If as to the current time where each individual seems to think of themselves as a commercial and/or thinks of others as a commercial instead of thinking of each as an individual human being with individual personal life experiences as to how I personally have considered each individual if I am accurate referencing others' opinions as to such if factors, then as to where the reality of such readjustments as to the recalibrations of what humanity is.
The aspects of pop culture as to the facts regarding the differences between the factors of as while there might be some aspects that align in some ways, there are still the facts of the amount of the rest of different experiences and life thereof.
Thus as to such facts whereas what My personal needS as to what My personal wantS as to such factors, such aspects of the ADA requirements as to the facts regarding My being medically retired or being considered as to such disability aspects as to the reasons why ADA aspects are in such as for Me as to such aspects; though actually being capable to have as well as utilize such aspects as to My benefits in the correct capacities for Myself, as to the aspects whereas such factors of proof regarding the situations as to such reasons I have also worked as diligently as I have attempted to being capable to provide for Myself as being a biological adult of two biological adult legal aged children I personally gave birth to while having been awake from My coma for less than 1.5 years for one and 2.5 years for the other as to such facts.
Online is important for several aspects, though in real life as to such reality as to the real needs as to such common sense as to the factors of what is required for Me as I comprehend what is actually best for Me and that is not up for interpretations as interpretations always lead to misunderstandings as to the facts as to such proof regarding the aspects thereof as to My personally being capable to be in as well as remain in a good mood as to the attempts I have made to being capable to accomplish such.
While the aspects of My personal belief in real angels as to real faeries as to real spiritual beings as to such facts regarding such as to where I was Confirmed in the year of 1997 as to the aspects thereof to that history, the aspects where such facts as to the references thereof as the differences of what are considered as real friends in real life as to the differences of the spiritual aspects if there was ever any common sense as to different human beings unless as to such being as cherubim as to homo-sapien-sapiens as to ever being ignorant enough to think that is the same when obviously as to the facts that a real human being as to a real friend as to the difference of a real spirit as to such aspects thereof to real spiritualism capabilities.
If I was/am believed, there has not been such confirmation for Me to have such knowledge for Myself regarding such aspects to what I would know and understand as to such as per the proof regarding the exact time.
Some do not just get over something as massive as the situations as to February 1993 as to being capable to survive such, as that was not a video game nor was that a computer game nor was that a pop culture fiction aspect as to such references and regards just as 11 September 2001 or 9/11 was not a video game and was not a computer game and was not a pop culture fiction aspect.
There is not the capacity where individuals who have tried to prettify the aspects for individuals to truthfully recover and heal from such aspects because of the requirements as to the truth being told in full, and when the truth is told in full is the only capacity for healing to begin.
Thus as to the facts in reference to My personal life experiences, what support would there be that I could truthfully say and/or write about as to the aspects of such luxuries others have had as to such amounts of individuals as to such support groups as to such friends as to such aspects of discussions as to what discussions would actually be in the references thereof as to what I personally consider as; or would such individuals think that them discussing amongst themselves would be as to the same instead of the aspects thereof as to discussions with Me personally, as to such proof regarding such luxuries as to those types as to such factors as to the aspects of such wannabe aspects.
Since there is not anyone who has ever been given my personal permission to ever speak on my behalf officially ever as to my work, then such aspects similarly as to how the requirements to ask Me as per my requirements to actually find out if I personally would ever approve as that is manners and politeness if there actually was or is such in the required capacities as to my requirements of how to specifically ask me as per the mandatory factors.
If I and my work were actually respected, then the ease of asking me would be as easy as to the amount of times I had already been out as well as the prior factors of the multiple ways as per such facts; if my work and I were actually respected as what I personally consider as respect, as the common sense factors that I am the one and only who can answer for me as well as for my work.
Those who would consider Me as wanted as to what I consider as being wanted as to the differences as to such aspects of "Finding A Silver Lining" as there are only so many words in the dictionary to describe, and when individuals choose to be bratty nonconsensually as to such aspects as to such brattiness as to the aspects of the amounts of words as to the amounts of times as to where either the individual is going to be considered as competent to understand or they will be considered as incompetent as to humanity referencing such types as to those factors as to such aspects that I have brought forward as to the proof thereof to the validity of such aspects.
"Finding A Silver Lining" and "Finding The Silver Lining" are situations that are of My past as to the situations I personally dealt with as to such aspects whereas My suggestions as to the current time as well as the future, are the difference.
"The Modern Day Book" is as to what I noticed as per the years thereof in those references as to what the looks were as to such descriptions for such clear aspects, as the common sense factors as to such regards as to having been born and raised in New Jersey as to the aspects of the differences as to NYC as NYC thinks of such aspects whereas New Jersey has the capacity to prefer the real of the reality as to such differences whereas Broadway wanted to be more like Hollywood and visa versa as to such references.
"The Adventures of Susan MeeLing, SCUBA Diver Extraordinaire" is of what My personal experiences were as to My personal work as to My personal life experiences as to before I began SCUBA Diving as to what I was known as through My name in reference of My personal trainers as to My personal childhood experiences as to such work in reference of protecting and defending the individuals on land above sea level as to the aspects of My work if that was/is actually appreciated.
The aspects where I could see now in the year of 2023 where some capacities of "Fail-Safe" could be as to such if factors as well as "Paroxysm" as to such if factors as while I was only being creative as to such aspects as to My writings, the aspects whereas for Myself personally would be as to the references for such aspects if as to those types as to such psychological distinguishing factors as to what I have been capable to distinguish as to My comprehension of Myself as well as My comprehension of My wrok as I authored/wrote/compiled as to the best of My capabilities as to My overall books.
In reference of "Paroxysm" there is not anyone I ever have personally dated that would ever fit into such descriptions, ever. The facts regarding where the references thereof to prior timeframes as to Volume 2 are from individuals I personally knew before the year of 2000, as to the common sense factors as to the reality of the overall.
In regards as to "Fail-Safe" and "Paroxysm" in regards of for Me personally as to the relationship aspects of for Me personally as to the references and regards thereof officially for Me personally despite having written of such in an overall way, the aspects of if as to such as for Me personally then as to such clarifications now as to the year of 2023 as to the differences regarding the multiple reasons as to bringing such forward as to healthy acquaintences as to healthy friendships as to health developments of hetero-sexual relationships that as to such hetero-sexual relationships as to the fluidity depending upon the aspects of such a relationship factor if as to the consensual aspects as to each involved being fully informed first as that is the only capacity thereof as to being informed as to officially being informed before such aspects as for the example where I have been honest as to the after effects from My Psalm Sunday in the year of 2000 head injury as to others being informed first officially as to such if factors as to the differences.
The aspects whereas to such if factors as to My books I personally authored without any assistances as to My personal creativity to authoring such aside from the technological factors as to being capable to write such books as to "Paroxysm" and "Fail-Safe" referencing such aspects specifically for Myself regarding such aspects of the specifics as to such details, then I suppose if as to such would be as to prophecy regarding such if factors if such were to ever be for Myself personally; though if as others' interpretations of their own lives as to then the references of whereas being capable to prophesize decades before ever writing though definitely would not ever prefer certain aspects as to certain individuals as to My personal considerations as to the specifics as to such references regarding the factors thereof as to "Fail-Safe" especially though also in such clarifications as to for Me as to "Paroxysm" as to such if factors as to what My personal considerations as to the aspects thereof regarding the aspects not of a novelty as there is a difference between a novel a difference between a novel idea a difference between as to how such aspects of where the problems as to problematic novelty factors as to such misinterpretations in My opinion.
When describing the situations in truth that is the common sense starting point of a foundation, and any who think that such could be fast-forwarded are incompetent as to such aspects where certain factors are required to have such details and information to being capable to actually make such genuine efforts as to progression towards betterment in genuine truth.
The reality where such aspects of when such efforts are direct as to such facts as per the prior amounts of time as to explanations, then as to the facts where either the competency to listen and then think while listening as well as being capable to progress with the correct actions as to such regards as to the common sense.
Maybe it is a bit more truthful than I realized, common sense might actually be a genuinely real superpower.
Forgiveness is of importance as to such truth in full as best as possible, the factors of as to such if remorseful.
The reasons why of the reality as to where, as to the year of 1993.
Time is important as to emotions of the situations, retaining such knowledge can assist seeing towards progression of betterment.
Communications are important listening both sides if as to consent, the factors as to information in truth as of much importance.
Life and Love, Life and Love
Between, Below, and Above
Brightest of Blessings.
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When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.
If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.
You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have.
Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.
Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.
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I have been known by many names depending upon which community and/or location I have known you in, of which I am still simply just me as the one person I am. Though personally I prefer the name of mine (Reverend) Susan MeeLing mainly, or for the modeling aspects Lady Dori Belle. I support the Compassionate, Honorable, and Righteous Ones of which whether or not they are within the EMS groups, Fire Departments, Law Enforcement Agencies, Military (Active Duty/National Guard/Reservist/Veterans); as I have well before my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as well as after my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury. Though the head injury I had during Basic Training in the Army Branch of the United States of America's Armed Forces Branch of which the subarachnoid hemorrhage had also been a part of why I had been in a coma for several weeks which when I woke up from with headaches, migraines, memory deficits, cognitive disorders, and having gone from College Algebra with Trigonometry and Calculus to 2nd Grade Math; I do the best I possibly can despite the aspects of what labels me as medically retired, though more commonly known as a disabled veteran. However the fact of the matter as to having been taken off of the military installation as I had been as well as the fact as to the legal marriage aspects as explained, the portions thereof in reference to the legal aspects as to the protection rights of what is the reality in reference to when being in the consideration as a victim of being held hostage during such portions and onward through to the situations written about as well as having described in verbal discussions, means the legal responsibility of all such problems rests upon the shoulders of those who had been informed of such aspects if anything has ever gone awry.
Involuntary Servitude, Forced Labor, And Sex Trafficking Statutes Enforced (justice.gov)18 U.S. Code § 1512 - Tampering with a witness, victim, or an informant | U.S. Code | US Law | LII / Legal Information Institute (cornell.edu)DoD Instruction 1030.02, "Victim and Witness Assistance," Effective September 2, 2020, incorporating change 1 on August 12, 2021 (whs.mil)rs-eng.pdf (icc-cpi.int)Federal Civil Rights Statutes — FBI Comprehending the internet postings mean such are publicly open to be read and seen, I do the best I can to ensure the quality of which as best I can possibly.
Though I am unique in certain regards, I think there are many who can know and understand that I can only tell the truth which I specify the fact from fiction for clarifications and I have the best of intentions.
As a legal widow, medically retired from the Army, Mom of two children and remain as such; I am aware as to how much work it takes to maintain and sustain several aspects. While I remain unmarried by choice in all such ways, the clarifications for such aspects as to ensure the knowledge of for each I may meet as to whether or not you or yours are in a relationship. I personally am extremely respectful to others' relationships of which in reference to because of the books I have authored in combinations thereof, I want to clarify as to such aspects as to ensure the honesty of as well as to ensure the facts of which if I am informed as to a relationship of another as to my respecting your relationship and now stepping over any such lines.
Though I admit as to not being in a relationship additionally not because of searching for a relationship as if one occurs and I personally agree than such happens, however to clarify I do not ever have such officially in my thoughts because of the ways as to similarly to being Asexual as a Pansexual Female Dominant as the realities as to the adult consenting portions are mandatory to each side which as an Asexual I do not ever assume of any such relationship possible unless the other discusses such with me in person, however as a Female Dominant having my own self-control as to my Pansexuality my Polyamory is as simple as to the non-sexualized aspects at times of simply being more of as a Mom as I have been a Mom within less than a six month time from waking up from my coma from my Psalm Sunday year 2000 head injury and though I am mainly monogamous if in a relationship; there have been relationships which have had certain open agreements to such adult aspects depending on the time as to such. As my son #Letters4James and my daughter #Letters4Lidia are both now above the ages of 18 years old biologically, I can feel more confident to put such clarifications on the internet within the discretionary aspects of as being as modest as I am in the larger ways of because of being a Mom early on as to the timeframes from the years especially between 2000 through 2013 as to such re-growing up. I was born and raised in New Jersey though I woke up to re-grow up in the state of Texas, and thus how I am who I am in a multitudes of ways.
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In my life I have clarified several situations and if proven truthful as to the reality as to the reasons why I do not speak with my biologicals as to the situations as the factors thereof especially after 2021, as well as the aspects as to the paternal biologicals to my son and my daughter as to the factors of several reasons. The options as to the references regarding my To Contact Form as the reality that the situations that are as to such factors as hypothetically proven truthful as to such facts as to how the aspects of what is considered as respectful to begin discussions as per my own standards as I am not a child biologically in legal age and as the facts as to etiquette, the factors where the additional factors of what medical professionals I have already been to as to the references as to the requirements to ask in actual words for my real choice as to how it has been since 2000 and the medication types have not changed and thus as to the requirements of my personal permission to actually get from me to ever as to anything at all regarding the after effects from my head injury and/or my subarachnoid hemorrhage as I already went through over more appointments than most because of the facts from the years of 2000 through 2018. I have learned what is best for me medically and as to the other factors of individuals I personally once knew in person face to face in person in real life in person face to face in person, the factors of what I personally consider as real communication are a requirement to actually being considered as to an actual discussion as per what my considerations are as I am only an Ordained Reverend and that is to be accepted as my religion I created as the Eclectic Judeo-Christian Futurist religion only translates as to the religion as there is not a physical location of any church as I have not made that as such referencing an actual building location as if I were to be interested in such then as to the reality that there is only what I created as a religion. Thus the respect as to the requirements is mandatory as those who remember the strictness of protocols in the latter 1980s at Old Tennent Presbyterian Church as to such factors to the consideration of rules, protocols, and standards. After the years of 2019 through 2021 while I know whose phone numbers I did have at the time, then as to such if differences as to such if factors as to the aspects of respect where I personally have not ever purposefully given out anyone else's personal phone numbers ever as I made sure to contact them first to ask their permission as per the facts for one reference in 2012 in Austin Texas as to a situation where I was spoken with and asked to see if there would be the allowance as to an individual as I already wrote about as there was not anyone for me to discuss with as to those situations shortly thereafter because of their situations where those individuals have needed to grow up and be mature as to the reality as I was told about the specific names for that situation in the year of 2019 as the facts that individuals who are mature are capable to have real discussions as actual adults where words are actually utilized to communicate. After the year of 2013 as to the 20 year memorial of February 1993 as those facts referencing the combined situations I personally dealt with, my considerations of support as my considerations after that point in time of my life obviously changed my viewpoints as to the combined situations. I made my attempts to have discussions in truth in all timeframes however as to the years of 2019 through 2021, the reality of accepting that time continues onward and time is a specific measure where sometimes there is only a specific amount of time and such as to the 20 year memorial of 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 as to the situations where contacting me first as to the knowledge of if there actually was the respect of sensitivity to the reality as my journal blog and other writings after multiple discussions as to the factors of the truth as I personally dealt with throughout such times of the 1980s and the 1990s and the 2000s and the 2010s before the 2020s began.
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The idea I personally had in the earlier years of a support group for survivors of February 1993 as well as those who had personal connections in real life in person face to face in person as the main ways in the 1980s and the 1990s were as to the differences though start points in the 1990s as to online factors, where those who were born in and after 1984 along the east coast of the United States of America as to the factors mainly within the northeast, at the timeframe of around 1994 as to how such differences of opinions as to the situations. After 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 as to a similar-ish situation, though in a larger overall aspect as to the combined factors as to my location at the time as the same factors such as the year of 2008 through 2010 as to certain aspects of my attempts as to the northeast overall as mainly to the reference of 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 with the knowledge of February 1993 in the New York City areas as multiple discussions before as well as after to those years I attempted mainly within the state of Texas at the time as to the in person face to face in person though also as to the online factors as to my social media in smaller ways though such aspects of certain specific topic points as to the capacity to being capable to refer to the types of and amounts of attempts I personally made to work on such as I saw it as important. Since such factors in reference thereof as to before beginning my Medal of Honor Art Project as the amount of decades as where I have made the best attempts to continue working on my Medal of Honor Art Project Artwork, though when I informed officially as the years of 2021 through 2022 as to the facts in truth as to the differences between the specifics because of the obvious capability to see the difference of the framework around the pieces as the differences. I have personally written letters, emailed, made phone calls to multiple elected officials as well as in some references as to such multitudes of attempts however their staff members as to whether the individuals themselves as to receiving the information to discuss as per scheduling a meeting(s) as I am capable to remain platonic as to meetings because of the facts referencing being a responsible biological adult legally.
I do not have any staff members that I personally hired, as my journal blog updates as to the reality of being capable to have such to be capable to actually have individuals who would actually understand the specifics at the exact time when the needs for the factors of my work at the specifics thereof officially; however since as to the situations as to my attempts referencing my books as for my choices as to how I make the decisions for my business as to such factors as the time is always important. In reference to my Medal of Honor Art Project there have been contractors to getting the framework and the glass taken care of as well as the locations I have taken such pieces when I complete them to, however personally as to such aspects of my daily or weekly or monthly or yearly work as to the difference as for me personally is different than the pieces themselves. Thus as I have given my business card with my contact information and if individuals of businesses were/are interested in arranging a speaking arrangement in person face to face in person with me and/or book signings, then there is my To Contact Form to fill out and explain in truth the reasons and I will make the decision if I actually receive the messages to read on a computer to make the choice for myself if there is not a phone call to actually speak with on a cellular phone as my personal business requirements as since unlike other locations as to other businesses as to such differences referencing the work officially as well; the references regarding scheduling with me as to such aspects are important whether as to a personal factor and/or a business factor as an Entrepreneur's business depends upon what their business is and since I am the Entrepreneur to my personal work as well as to my personal life as well as to my business as to only the allowance of my personal choices as the facts I would not allow anyone I ever once knew in person face to face in person or online to choose in any capacity especially as to what is supposed to be the consenting adult lifestyle as there is no one I personally would ever allow or trust as there was not anyone who made any attempts to earn my trust as in my opinion as to the trying to think that social media is in the same capacity when it is different as to such factors for myself because of my personal background.
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As many individuals who have told me they 'knew how people from New Jersey are', there have been very few individuals who have ever actually proven to me outside of the pop culture references they have had instead of them ever having a real actual genuine reference such as myself as to how real New Jersey-ians can be as not all New Jersey-ians are the same as do not allow the size of the state of New Jersey to fool you as the population numbers are of importance as to the citizens thereof as well as the number of travelers throughout the different locations of the state of New Jersey. It should not take a head injury to figure out when the numerical as to the amount of individuals that have and do travel throughout the state of New Jersey as to the length of time it actually does take to earn the trust from a born and raised New Jersey-ian, as unlike other cities that might be the size of the state of New Jersey as the population plus the commutes are important as I told individuals who I met in the state of Illinois as I told the individuals throughout the state of Texas as to such facts as the thoughts of only online were good enough for my type of New Jersey-ian; as to the difference as to the amounts of situations, as depending upon where and when as to the individualized factors of each individual New Jersey-ian. I have noticed how many have tried to say all New Jersey-ians are the same and there is not that factor because it is not the same for each and every New Jersey-ian as the supposed factor they said was usually, only because of the size of the state instead of paying attention to the information as the information is the main importance of the facts as the facts are the truth. There is a difference between pop culture New Jersey as the difference of the reality of New Jersey, and the facts of how such trust is earned requires protocols being followed ass the state of New Jersey has multiple factors where the proof of protocols are in a metaphor as to the tollways as to the tollbooths for a proverbial metaphor as to individuals born and raised in New Jersey as to the tolls per as to actually earning the trust of a New Jersey-ian, as to those proverbial references. If others who have went to college in the northeast and/or east coast of the United States of America were to think about such a metaphor, I would guesstimate especially if they went to college in the areas before the year of 1995 would be capable to agree as to such a proverbial metaphor as time matters just as authenticity matters as the 10 Commandments in truth matter as the truth matters.
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Though I did have a house that was my home as to my personal creation for what was best for me as well as my family that I gave birth to biologically, then as to the situations as to such facts. The references as to how many useless times I have had to move needlessly from what my personal needs as to my personal requirements has been unwanted in every capacity, as to the references of what is of actual comfort for me is what I comprehend is best for me personally. The needless problems as to what was my apartment as to such similarly needless problems from the hypotheticals thereof as it would be fantastic to actually have to keep as to use what I comprehend as to my personal needs for me for my comfort as my ADA properly correctly consistently being accomplished correctly, would be amazing and yet a miracle as to such aspects of my needs actually consistently correctly as I comprehend for my best interests for me would be as to such factors.
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When I was working on my Medal of Honor Art Project before the situations as to the year of 2018, the factors of common sense as to asking me personally in the correct as I have explained format as to the references as to such factors as to such situations that have not been anything I personally asked for in reference for myself because of the facts as to the references of the situations of others' misinterpretations hypothetically of such if factors. Thus creating a religion is not the same thing as assumptions referencing others' assumptions hypothetically, as the reality of what the multiple attempts I have made as to actually accomplishing my own comforts for me to have for my choice(s) for my utilization(s) as I personally choose as the common sense facts.
This website of mine is where everyone is to grow up immediately as to from the capacities thereof and retain permanently as to such factors officially, as the reality that I personally am not a church as I personally am a human being who has repeatedly made attempts in the direct capacity as best as possible as it has been up to others to have the actual courage to correctly accomplish such factors such as to actually ask me as to such factors in the capacities of if situations as to my Medal of Honor Art Project. If as to such factors as to the reference to what was supposed to only be in reference to my Medal of Honor Art Project Artwork as to such common sense instead of such ignorance as I am not a Medal of Honor recipient and I am not artwork nor am I art as I am a human being as the aspects of the differences as to such facts. There is not any reason that would ever be justified to me personally as to such if factors as to the references of such if factors regarding such as to the reference thereof where the tooth as to such factors as the requirement of my personal informed consent as only such in real discussions as what I consider as real discussions with me as to what I personally consider as real discussions as to the only way to ask me as such through phone number factors if having been given as to only other option as to the To Contact Form for where I answer as I do not have staff personally because if I had real staff personally then as to where such requirements would actually be accomplished correctly such as to my work in reference of my Medal of Honor Art Project.
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I have taken my work seriously and such aspects where as the requirements for my work to correctly be worked on, such amounts of needless pushing as to such aspects of the process I personally had completed to being correct for my work in the correct capacities. There are only those as to the collection factors as to my other portion of what I have been working on and just because I took some pieces to a military installation as to there not being the capacities of where such is worked on in the same factors as to my comprehension of what is best for my work on my Medal of Honor Art Project. There is a difference from spirits as to General George Washington as to such immaturity as to having been chosen myself as to such individuals who have needed to just accept the facts, as real humanity is when genuinely being happy for someone's success is of actual importance while understanding success still requires other factors to maintain and sustain correctly. That is unless such a viewpoint of as to in an electoral factor because of authenticity of if factors of the proof referencing some of the journal blogs, on my website as well as the proof of such if factors.
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Nonetheless as to being as a Mom of two biological adult aged children legally now as one with Special Needs Education in one background of requirements as well as the other who is related as well as knowing technology aspects a bit more in depth as to such times as to my frustrations from the arithmetic portions to the technological portions for the understanding as to such levels, the aspects of which the ways to best calculate the best for my children and myself while hopefully assisting others can be noticed as to such aspects thereof for more to be more aware and cognizant of possible choices of how to be true to oneself while also honest with others and being protective where I can be helpful to, I hope such clarifications assist whatever gender/ethnicity/sexuality/community/interests/ background/etcetera as to biology to assist the understanding from the knowledge as to unless certain specifics are brought forward as to several aspects I am fairly modest in multiple ways.
I thought however such a clarification might be needed for some individuals, for the comprehension as to being a single legal widow though also not in a relationship as to respecting others as it seems important to respect the relationship aspects of others more now than ever before. Thus for clarifications if interested in me, it is up to the individual to inform me of such.
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Thus in all capacities proper grammar is required as to the factors thereof as to if there was common sense as to such metaphors as to the proverbial if others would have actually paid attention correctly to the details and the information as to the facts, as there was not any want of mine to ever go to Washington state to begin with in the reference to the year of 2013 as I clarified there is a difference as to the state of Washington as to the individual as to such facts. Though I suppose when such aspects of the 1980s as the 1990s as to such hypotheticals as to such if factors as to those types, as to the proof as to where such proof would be in such references of the East Coast as to the west coast situations as to such situations where now currently there are more options for communication and yet the proof as to such if factors as to the requirement for the correct motivation to actually accomplish such as to the proof as to such regards as to the timeframes from the 1980s and the 1990s as to the situations since then as to the proof thereof as to such hypotheticals through to the year of 2022 as to the proof thereof as to who took work seriously and the differences as to such factors.
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In the year of 2023 to progress forward as to then progressing upward as per such aspects, the situations where and what and when and how and who as to such factors as to my personal comforts as well as the progression of such works; if actually important enough to do so, as well as actually needed as to the considerations thereof as to what I consider. If my Medal of Honor Art Project Artwork is actually considered as needed, then as to such aspects where there would be such truthful discussions with me as to the needs thereof as to such requirements as the reality of communication is important for my ADA needs as to the facts of the differences as there are multiple factors as to staff aspects though as to the comprehension I have as to where both the in person face to face in person as well as the online factors as to such regards in such time.
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My physical headaches each day as to the facts of after waking up from my coma from my Psalm Sunday in the year of 2000 head injury during my Basic Training in the Army as to the facts as to such reasons why San Antonio Texas is now called Military City USA as to the reasons to end all stolen valor and thus as to the reality of the reasons why I am only going to refer to such as per the reasons proven as to my personal foresight as to the year of 1999 before the timeframe of other such proof of such situations, and since my Blue ID Card as to the aspects thereof do not have such a requirement as then as not the Army though as the Armed Forces of the United States of America as to such combinations thereof such as my invitation as well as my overall factors as to such timeframes from then to now. However if as to my Medal of Honor Art Project as to such other factors, then as to such situations as to the timeframe of such factors as to what would actually keep me in a good mood consistently.
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While I have worked on the situations as best as I could despite such factors thereof as to more than just 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 as well as the factors of February 1993 regarding the truth, then also as to such facts of when I went through such aspects at the Lodge at Madrona where I comprehended the requirement to be capable to distinguish the timeframes for such clarifications as there would not be the requirement for the personal staff for such factors as the other situations as to the pause for such aspects; and then from such a point in time as to such work to progress as per the needs and requirements as I can see as to the multitude thereof as per the proof of NASA and the US Space Force formation as to other such factors of work regarding keeping protections as to on land above sea level as well as such other facts.
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When I began the aspects of thinking about the electoral route for myself as to the situations where such attempts were made as to the truthful factors as to the if situations as to such electoral aspects in such prior reference to such Governorship as to the regards thereof the updates though also in reference to journal blog entries as to my journal blog, as to such aspects where the if factors as to the support from such references as to the timeframes thereof as to such situations during the timeframe thereof as to such factors as to the situations as such attempts as to such in genuine truth. As many individuals who have sought such FOIA aspects as well as have brought forward the word transparency, it is odd as to such if factors as to individuals I once knew in person face to face in person as to such times as to the years before 2020 as to such references to such factors as to the additional references of my SCUBA Diving as well as the factors of the news as to the world news as well as the news in regards of the United States of America as during the years of 2019 through 2021.
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Thus as per such aspects in the larger factors as to the if situations in reference to Commander in Chief of the Armed Forces of the United States of America as the President of the United States of America aspects I decided to consider for myself as I can see the importance in both aspects, and yet as to the situations where the if factors as to my bid for CiCPOTUS as to the references thereof for the election cycle year of 2024 and if elected as to the if factors to the second term would be as to the if factors in honesty from me. Possibly there will be a support in reference to such hypotheticals, as when I was a teenager I had seen as to my consideration of murmerings as to the situations at random times more recently from the years of 1996 around the month of May.
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Possibly the work from the years of 2020 through 2021 gives enough of a starting point in a fuller combination for individuals to be capable to have some aspect of real knowledge as to myself, as such a possibility of hypothetical candidate aspects officially in the year of 2023 for the year officially of 2024 unless required sooner as then there is a staff to a degree already as an all in one as to the Washington DC location.
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The Ornery PSA
Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school. The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.
If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.
I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013.
In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.
How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?
When I have repeatedly and always will be permanently so as to those related to my son and my daughter biologically as to their biological father's side of the family where they are not wanted in my life, they are not wanted in my work, they are not wanted in my business, they are not wanted at all. I permanently have banned Mary Evongelina [Nichols maiden last name] Osteen as the last known legal married last name from my life permanently officially as to the exact same as to her two daughters as the names I once knew them as Sondra Marie Osteen and Ariel Nicole Osteen as they have not ever been wanted or needed to ever be involved in my life, nor wanted or needed to be involeved in my work, nor wanted or needed to be involved in any of my business. The aspects of where the boundaries are set and the aspects of those needing to accept such aspects permanently for themselves, officially as to the same as to the reality of the legal factors as to such situations wjhere the estrangement officially occurred referencing if situations as to my son and my daughter's biological father as he was not wanted to be involved with to begin with as I did not want to be involved with him ever as per the way the reality fo the situation as to the Justice of the Peace as to the acceptance as to such aspects as to all of them as to the reality that is the facts. He was bnot wanted and he was not needed as to such aspects as to what my actual needs were, and as the proof as to any and all such aspects of what was not ever wanted as to such aspects as to thast situation as per the facts.
I was awake from my coma for less than 6 months when that occurred as to how I was taken off of a military installation and told not to tell anyone, as the subarachnoid hemorrhage was still in the frontal lobe of my brain for another 8.5 years from the year of 2000.
I was awake from my come for less than 1.5 years before giving birth to my son while still having the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain and only 2.5 years awake from my coma when I gave birth to my daughter, that needs to be accepted as to the facts that there was not any consent ever to be given at those times officially.
There was not the actual care about me and care for me as to what I would ever consider as actual carte about me and actual care for me as to those aspects, and the proof as to such reality is as to the situations I have dealt with instead of what actual care would be as to such aspects.
Only someone who would actually care about me and actually care for me would only do so in the correct ways as to actually doing what is actually best for me as to such aspects as to such differences as to the viewpoints thereof as to what I consider as to such aspects, as obviously in the state of Texas is not the same as to the weather as to above the Mason Dixon Line whatsoever as to having Eczema as well as sensitive and dry skin.
Why would I believe I could ever actually be cared about and cared for correctly at this point in time, as to anyone who has ever read this journal blog and/or spoken with me knowing of such and/or seen me who could have actually gotten me the correct care as what length of time does that actually take as to correctly doing so?
The ultimate measure of an individual is not where they stand in moments of comfort and convenience,
but where they stand at the time of challenge and controversy.
We must reject the idea that everytime a law is broken society is guity, rather than the law breaker.
Freedom is never-more than one generation away, from exinction. We do not pass freedom on, through our blood stream.
Freedom must be fought for, protected, and handed on for the next generation to do the same.
Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.
Love is dependent upon various levels of for the type of love such as family, and/or friend. Romantic Love is dependent upon some similar factors, some like portions, common goals, several interests along the same line, time together, and a bit more; though in each circumstance, it is up to each involved to make the effort to continue forward together.
If there are those who find such interesting enough to see further to bring forward more information in reference to the forefront for more detailed information, as usual I request the courtesy of the same which I do the best I can as to referring points and notations in reference to how I refer to articles for reference points when writing my journal blog entries; for each one used for reference starting points, to learn.
That is common sense, good etiquette, and good karma; whilst lifting others upward, in positive ways.
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