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It should not take a head injury
*after personally sustaining a head injury & coma*
to figure this out...

 
 
 
 
 
 


After a Drill Sergeant threw Me into the metal part of the bunk when I was in Basic Training for the United States of America's Army branch at Fort Sill Oklahoma #FortSill #FortSillOK #FortSillOklahoma #OK #Oklahoma in the year of 2000 on Psalm Sunday, I have dealt with the situations as best as I have been capable to do so while taking care of the situations and asking for assistance as per the required explanations of the information to such facts first.  While making the attempts to get assistance for the aspects thereof as to the reality, the aspects of where and when as to the multiple attempts to ask for assistance for me.  As my journal blog for when I was ready to bring such as to my other works forward since as to the lengths of time as to where my modeling was as to the modeling page information, just as the other pages have the information as to such specifics, and just as this journal blog of mine is as to such facts.


If I had real friends (if as to having met in person face to face in person in real life as to the aspects of this particular reference such as from the state of Texas as to the state of Washington as to the years of 2000 through 2013 if I met within the state of Texas for such references), real (the areas of the tristate region as before the year of 2000) family, and real relationships in real life that recognized me as to the aspects of if as to the face to face in person who started in truth as I had started such in truth as to the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, as well as the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain that took 8.5 years to dissipate; then I guesstimate there would be the easier factors as to being capable for me to speak with others in truth in person face to face in person and/or through online measures as to such factors I suppose.  Though would such as to the knowledge of the ways as to how they began such discussions with me as to would there be such a situation, for them to consider as to such if factors as to such discussions with me in truth?


As to some suggestions and commentary within "Finding A Silver Lining" one of several of my bo0ks I personally authored/wrote/compiled as I can only speak and write in truth as per such clarifications as to the reality as to the specifics of such discussions/writings/videos as per my Official You Tube where I have satirical commentary where I comment about the factors as to having dealt with others' opinions about their pop culture references of #NJ #NJstate #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey, though as to for the most part I have actually preferred to be asked with politeness if as to having read my books and/or seen my website as just the same in reference to the timeframes when I was modeling as to having respect as to what I consider as respect, referencing if as to such polite manners as to discussions if as to such having been noticed because of the factors in my opinion as to having real discussions as communication would be if my website was seen before the year of 2023 as I first began my website in 2015; as in my journal blog posts as to the reality of the years of 2010 through 2013, as to the aspects of introductions as to those timeframes when as to various factors as I did not take selfies as I was actually working with photographers as to my creations of my outfits as per the description on the link to my modeling page(s) as to the references regarding my journal blog updates in the years of 2019 through 2022 as the timeframe onward as to the year of 2023 as to the factors as to how such journal blog entries will be as to such factors as to the aspects of the various topic points.


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 I was born and raised in New Jersey and grew up going throughout the tristate northeast areas mainly, and as to how the reality of when the importance of the situations as to the aspects of reviewing as to such facts regarding the logistics for several factors as to the considerations; the years of 2019 through 2022 as to the review process as to the aspects of the timeframe, prior to the timeframe of the 20 year memorial of 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 as well as before the 30 year memorial of February 1993, as to the northeast areas mostly known as to New York City #NYC #NewYork #NY #NYstate #NYU though also as to the #Pentagon Pentagon, as well as Pennsylvania #Pennstate #Pennsylvaniastate as to the reality of how many New Jersey-ians commute in either direction, depending upon what location for the commute. 


The factors though I have said at times, I re-re-re-re-re-re-grew up in the state of  #Texas #TX #Texasstate Texas as to such factors as to the timeframes, as well as all 26 of my SCUBA #SCUBA #SCUBADiving  Diving certifications I earned were through one school within the state of Texas as I also earned winning first place in a Texas Chili cookoff with more than 20 entries as well as my chili recipe as I am adamant about my recipes as to such aspects just as I am specific as to what it actually takes for me to cook in a BBQ as to the required preparations for when I have BBQed.   



I can sarcastically write, those who know of the Rules of the BBQ as to where I grew up as to the Rules of the BBQ as to such factors to the considerations of such preparations.  However that is to cooking food as to the differences of my journal blog entries, as to the factors as to proverbial aspects of food for thought as the difference of real food in real life as to the facts of the situations to such attention to the details as well as attention to the information.


Such facts as to the metaphors in some of such factors that only after reviewing such information as to the aspects of the fiction book series that were as to for My personal life as to such dreamland sorts of factors as to the differences of such hypotheticals, the references thereof as to such regards as to the logistical emotional with the real situations as per the names I was informed of at the timeframes referenced review as to My journal blog as to the situations overall.  


If as to my journal blog being found and read as to where what I consider as common sense, as to the aspects of my satirical saying   how it should not take a head injury to figure out. 
 

*(sometimes utilizing articles discussing facts)*
By:  (Reverend) Susan MeeLing
also known as

The One & Only


(YouTube)   Lady Dori Belle


 

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REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

A Real Parent beyond just Biology, as a real parent actually cares correctly as to aspects for me

A real parent who cares about me would not get in the way of anything that would actually be for what the aspects of the child's actual best interests are, as that would not take a head injury to figure out.



A real parent that was a genuine caring parent who cares about me would only do what was needed for actual success as to what the child actually saw as to such success as to the proof of such work, and would stay out of the way as to everything that would be proven as to such successfulness.



A real parent who cares about me would not be such amounts of needless drama, as to when the child actually is capable to achieve more.



A real parent who cares about me would only assist in the correct ways as to what is for the child's best interests, as to the aspects of what the child comprehends.



A real parent who cares about me would not ever influence others as to causing any needless drama, any needless stress, any needless problems, and/or any needless situations as to what would be and is for the actual child's best/



A real parent who cares about me would actually be supportive as to where the aspects are as to what location as to such aspects and would not involve themselves in any negative capacity, ever.



A real parent who cares about me would actually seek for their child to be genuinely happy, as to such aspects.



A real parent who cares about me would actually believe their child, especially with the amount of facts brought forward.



A real parent who cares about me would not stir up any needless situations that would ever purposefully cause any harm to the child ever, as a real parent that would care would only be such as a real parent.



A real parent who cares about me would respect their child's decisions and accept the facts as to what and who their child is, as a real parent would only be as to such aspects.



A real parent who cares about me would be informed of the truth as to such aspects, would actually be supportive of that child and actually would put that child above the others as to if there were ever any other child as to actually being proud of the child.



A real parent who cares about me would not ever force their child into a situation that was ever considered as uncomfortable to the child ever, as a real parent would only seek for the child to actually be comfortable as to what the child's comfort choices are.



A real parent cares about me would accept the child for who they are as tro such aspects, as a real parent would be as to such aspects as to what the child actually needs.



A real parent who cares about me would not try to interpret anything as to such aspects from the child because a real parent would only speak and do in truth as to such teachings themselves, as a real parent would not ever cause anything that would ever be anything other than what the child actually needed.



A real parent who cares about me would not ever cause harm to that child's children if they had any either, as a real parent would obviously be capable to be a real grandparent.



You know, beyond just the biological factor because it takes more to be a real parent than just biological aspects.



A real parent who cares about me such as of a biological adult would comprehend the time of when to let go of such aspects and move on, as a real parent would not try to hold onto the coattails of what a child is capable of to try to hold them back because a real parent would comprehend when a child is above the age as to such aspects thereof as to the child being more capable than that aspect thereof.



A real parent who cares about me would only accept that when the child is above the legal age to make their own decisions, as to letting go and moving on with their own lives.



A real parent who cares about me would not be sneaky as to such aspects as a real parent when especially as to a child being above the legal age of adulthood as to being above the age of 18 years old legally, would allow the child to grow up and not be so dependent as to what would be unhappy for the child in every capacity.



A real parent who cares about me would actually comprehend the aspects of a child being above the legal age of 18 years old to actually let them go as to making their own oath as to how they chose, as a real parent that bwould be shown as to how responsible the child is would only be seeing such immaturity from such aspects of anyone that would ever be as to such aspects as to such nothing more than even as to such biological factors.



A real parent who cares about me would actually just stay out of the way and only be there when actually needed, instead of trying to push themselves in the aspects of being involved where they arte not needed and not wanted and not desired and not preferred and not an ideal.



A real parent who cares about me would not constantly push their child in directions that are not what the child needs or wants or desires or prefers or has any ideal for as a real parent would actually only assist if allowed as to what the child actually needs, as a real parent would not be so selfish.



A real parent who cares about me would actually speak with as to maturity as to asking the child as to their needs instead of causing any needless problems as to such asp\ects as when not liking the response as a real parent would comprehend when the response is not what they like as to being a biological adult, then real parent would back off and step asider for what is actually best for the child.



A real parent who cares about me would support the educational aspects as to such factors instead of ever trying to stupefy such aspect as a real parent would comprehend the aspects of the importance of intelligence, and would actually value such aspects.



A real parent who cares about me that would be told to accept my boundaries would officially do so as to such aspects and also not cause any needless problems as to what the child would consider as needless problems, and not cause any needless situations as to the child considering such as needless situations, and not cause any needless drama as to what the child would consider as needless drama, and not cause any needless pain as to what the child would consider as needless pain.



A real parent wwhocares about me would have made things comfortable for the child to begin with from the start and would have made sure to maintain such aspects as to what the child actually nee3dfesd, instead of ever thinking of themselves as better or greater than especially when the child supersedes such aspects as to such low expectations.



If I had a real parent and/or real parents who cares about me, maybe that would actually be for everything I worked for as to such aspects.



Though as to such factors as to Kuan Yin where she had biological parents hated her so much that all they did was cause her needless problems and needless situations and needless drama as to wanting such aspects where when she finally escaped them over and over and over again as to what they could not comprehend was ever as to such aspects for her happiness when her father was made to see officially as to when he finally backed off and went on his way where Kuan Yin was finally capable to live her own life and actually be happy genuinely as to her Boudavistahood as to such aspects of Divinity.



There was nothing her parents were ever capable to do that ever was capable to bring her happiness and when in such legends as to such aspects of a younger sibling that was just as much of a needless problem in all such capacities, once they finally got the memo that they were not ever going to be good enough for what she needed for herself and once they finally accepted the facts thereof is when Kuan Yin finally was capable to go and be happy in all such aspects as once they finally accepted she was always different than they were and was not ever going to be anything like or similar to them as to her personality or her way of life; the amount of situations all of them had to deal with as to accepting the facts that all they were, was all they were.



While it took decades for those to finally accept such aspects after the decades of needless problems that Kuan Yin's parents and family had caused not only her though son many others as to how many damages they had to deal with the knowledge and the understanding and the comprehension of as to such aspects, as to all of those who knew of the depravity as to all that they were as to such aspects where those were removed from their throne officially and Kuan Yin was elevated to the Divine aspects fully.



Possibly there are those who know of such aspects and/or understand of such aspects and/or comprehend of such aspects as to what my life situations have been as to such lengths of time, as no parent would ever that would actually care about their child would ever see what I have dealt with and not look towards my biological aspects with anything except for the shame as to what they are and what they have been.



The common sense if there was actual intelligence in the world as to the aspects whereas to where others failed to pay attention to anything and tried to interpret as to such lists as to whatever capacity thereof as to what I compiled as to anything more than what such aspects were as to such as to only the products as to not the intentions, as to their needless mental health disorders as to such aspects as to labels. If there was real intelligence as to looking beyond such aspects as to the capacities of others to actually progress in real intelligence, as to such aspects as to actually being capable to be of actual real intelligence instead of such overtly too sensitive individuals as to such aspects as to such factors.



A real parent who cares about me just as someone who would truly actually care about me as to my actual real needs, would only be as to such aspects as to my actual real needs instead of what I have dealt with.



Possibly as to such aspects as to purchasing, maybe I should only purchase stuff where such is as to those people as to such aspects of being the one and onluy who as nto the year of 2008 as to where the only aspects were as to myself as to the one and only as there was not any allowances as to after that point in time as to such aspect sofficially because of being the one and only as to the will officially as per discussions as well as the facts that there was not ever any want of the second child officially as per such aspects as to whaty was clarified officially as to what my children's biological father had clarified that he did not want a second child whatsorver officially. The facts that such aspects as to how only my RCI as they were not ever allowed to be a part of such as that was not ever purchased for anyone else, as that was only for my choice as to my usage as to the legal aspects as to such reality that all have needed to accept.



The aspects where if as to such aspects where his want was for me to have an abortion to remove the aspects as to my second child as he did not want me to have the second child ever, as he hated the facts IO was pregnant a second time as to such hospital aspects as to the kidney stones.



As to such aspects as to the proof regarding such situations, as to how he hated my daughter and how many times he tried to kill her himself as to how many times I made attempts to save her life despite the aspect such as the window in my house where he went to throw both her as well as the bottle and the only one I could catch was as to making the choice for himself as to obviously choosing life instead of the bottle. The facts are as to the BAMC ER aspects where he shot himself with a 22 in his stomach in the year of 2004 when I was in Selma Texas at the time where my biological father drove him to the Emergency Room and my biological mother watched my son and my daughter while then calling me at the location of, where I had to drive to deal with that situation because of his need to let me go so I could move one with my life as to what my needs were at those times as to being a Mom as best as I could as well as then later as to letting me go to live my life with all of what I need to live my life as comfortably as to what I have needed for decades at this point as to such hypotheticals as to my needs being fully met all times as to what I comprehend my needs are.



Thus as to such aspects where my daughter biologically needs to accept he just did not ever want to be a dad to her, as to the proof as to such amounts of times those biologicals of both sides have needed to accept.



My RCI was only for me as to such aspects as to the lack of such being in the will as only the finances as to the life insurance policy was as to such aspects, and that was only for me to use officially first as there was not any allowences for those biologicals of either side to be involved ever officially as they have needed to accept as I have made multiple attempts as to such clarifications as to how everyone has needed to accept the facts as to the truth as I have presented over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and ove and over and over and over and over and over and over again.



Those homo-sapien-sapiens just need to let it fo and move on, as I have needed to actually progress forward without their needless drama and without their needless situations and without their needless problems permanently.



The reality of how many times their biological father tried to kill them as to how many times I went to save their lives, as to the ridiculous amounts as to such aspects as to how those types have needed to accept the facts.



Though who assisted me as to my actual needs as to the actual genuine needs, and who actually assists me now officially as to being capable to actually relax as to as I comprehend as o my actual needs in full at all times as my actual needs are?



I told him in the year of 2007 that if he made the choice to leave as to the facts that he was breaking the aspects as to the situations as to what my needs were and are as to such aspects as to the legal requirements as to my actual needs, and as to such aspects as to as soon as he signed the paperwork as to how he was not capable to take care of my needs in full at all times as per the caretaker aspects as per in the actual correct ways as to what all of my needs were/are as to the mandatory in person face to face in person in real life as to the real actual care as to being exactly what I need at all times as to such in real life in person in real life face to face and/or at my side as to my actual needs at all times as to such mandatory aspects as to my needs as per me being the one and only Sponsor as to my work as well as per such aspects as there is nothing at a distance as to such that would ever be considered as good enough for my actual needs at all times.



My daughter actually made attempts and went to kick the tire block out from the area when he was working on a car when she was a child, as to how he had said how he thought she was trying to kill him in his sleep when as to the timeframe as to such aspects as to the situations in 2007 as well.



I made attempts to tell people as the if factors if they would have believed me from the start, as to how she had actually spoken as to how she wanted him to die as to the last time before the aspects as to when the Chaplain and the Major arrived to speak with me about their biological father. In my opinion as to my daughter having caused her father's death as to the aspects as to how she had messed with his medications, as to how he had brought such forward as I made attempts to tell others as to such aspects as to CID when I asked about the medications.



Though why would I ever be taken seriously, as what truth have I ever brought forward that was ever correct?



Where would the proof as to such aspects as to the various schools be of truth as well as the aspects as to such factors of medical care centers as to such aspects in reference to such facts, as when will it be that I am actually believed and actually taken care of correctly as to my actual needs as to my actual happiness as to my actual wants as to what I actually require?



Why would anyone ever fight for me, as to such aspects as why would I ever be of actual importance?



Why would I ever believe I could actually be happy as to such aspects as to actually being kept happy as well, as with such aspects as to those types as why would I ever be capable to believe I could actually enjoy life as I actually need and as I actually want and as I actually prefer?



What have I ever completed that would actually be worthwhile of real celebration as to what I consider as real celebrations, as what have I ever been capable to do that has explained such instead of such ignorance as to only just as pictures as what low levels of intellect would ever think only s to pictures ever being worthwhile as to such combinations of with words as should I have had that abortion instead of as to such aspects of saving my daughter's life?



Since he had actually needed me to actually be happy genuinely when he realized all of the damages and destruction he caused me needlessly, why would it be such a situation as to actually being capable to be happy and remain happy as to what my considerations are as to actual happiness instead of others' interpretations?



If as to such aspects as to the situations as to any aspect as to such regarding my children's biological father's aspects, then why would it be that as to such aspects other than as to how his wishes were for me to actually be genuinely happy and genuinely cared for and genuinely loved and genuinely cherished as to the reasons why he had made the life insurance as to only for me to always only being at the top without any other female?



Since he hated all other females other than myself, what would that be as to any female I ever elevated as to being a true feminist as the only females he liked were those if I personally approved of such though would they be capable to maintain and sustain my standards correctly?



Or does that too take a head injury to figure out as to such aspects as to the branches and divisions as to the units he disgraced as to such aspects as to Grandpa Nichols' wishes for me as well, or would there ever be the aspects as to such attention to details as well as attention to the information?



Since such aspects as to the reality where such ease for me as to such aspects of the paperwork he completed for me before he went into the Army in the year of 2007, as to such proof as to such aspects as to all such clarifications as to how he was making attempts for me as to what was and is for my best interests as to the facts.



It should not take a head injury for all of those homo-sapien-sapiens to figure that out, as his paperwork was filled out by him as he showed me before he went to Fort Sam Houston in the month of January 2008 s well as before he went to the Army in the year of 2007 as to how he claimed as to IRR status in the year of 2006 as to how those homo-sapien-sapiens have needed to accept as to his biologicals as to such facts as to how he comprehended how much he had been a needless problem as to such aspects where he saw everything wrong with how those factors were done as to the year of 2000.



Why would it take a head injury to clarify so much, or would that be the intellectual levels lacking as to all such others?



Since he said he wanted me to find and do what it was that actually made me happy and what kept me happy, what is the amounts of needless problems and needless situations and needless drama as to such amounts of time as when do those throughout the world finally accept such facts?



How many others who decided to involve themselves needlessly as to all such situations have been needing to back off from what I actually have needed for myself as to for my happiness as to for my success, as when does that actually occur consistently for me?



When the facts as to all of my needs as to such care aspects as to giving me the care as to my actual needs as to such aspects of the requirements as to such factors in the capacities as to what I have comprehended as to my actual needs, the reality of such aspects as to my actual needs as to how there has not been anyone who has officially taken care of my actual needs as per all such factors as to the legal requirements as to such aspects of my care needs at all times per such factors thereof as per the proof as to such aspects of such hypotheticals.



Where is some capacities there have been little bits here and little bits there as to what was not enough as nto what my actual needs are as to while there have been a few silver linings in my past, the reality of such aspects as to what my full needs are as to such aspects beyond my past as to my current time as well as my future.



The facts are the facts as to my actual needs in full, officially.



Thus as to how my fact books :Finding A Silver Lining", "Finding The Silver Lining", "The Modern Day Book", and "The Adventures of Susan MeeLing, SCUVA Diver Extraordinaire" are all situations similarly as to such aspects as to the majority of my journal blog are references as to my past as to such aspects as to the difference of the typing in the current time for the future reading as to such aspects; as to the reality of my future is to the actiuons and choices as to my actual needs for my current time as well as my future needs as to such progression for myself forward as to with in real life in person as in real life in person as to my actual real needs, as to the real life as to such aspects as to care giving as to my actual needs.



Thus as to such aspects as to the requirements as to such submission as to such aspects as to my needs are as to the Top priority, as they have always been needing to be the Top priority as the continue to need to be at the Top priority as to such aspects as to being the Dominant aspects as to such factors as to my medical and other such needs as to such Dominant Top priority as to myself at all times as to such aspects as to my repeated attempts to take care of such aspects inb the overall combined factors as to such references and regards as to the military if as to such aspects is the payment aspects and not myself to ever pay for such aspects as to the common sense as to the care giver payments as to such differences as to anyone else's assumptions as to such hypotheticals as to any invasion of my privacy illegally as if there were to ever be anyone as to such online aspects as to such fraudulent representation as to such aspects as to the online factors as to the difference as to the legal requirements as to care giver aspects as per the aspects of such legal requirements as to such factors officially as to such requirements as to the background checks as well as the involvement requirements officially as to such regulations.



Thus as to such hypotheticals as to anything as to "The Modern Day Book" as to such hypotheticals as to such factors thereof as to such illegal paytments as to the online factors as to the complete difference as to such aspects as to the legal requirements for the paperwork as to what the legal requirements for actual real care giving as to such real legal payments as to such differences as to any such factors as to any hypotheticals as to such factors, as to the legal aspects as thorugh the paperwork as to the VA system as to where I personally have to be involved as to such aspects as to those aspects to such legal requirements officially. Since there has not been such aspects at all as to such legal minimum standards as to such aspects as to the real care giving as to my actual needs as to the aspects as to the submission required to me as to such factors for my best interests, there is only as to such aspects as to such factors regarding such references to the legal requirements as I have clarified as to where the online aspects are not the same as to such references as to such aspects in any capacity thereof to what I referred to back in the year of 2006/



Thus as to such clarifications that are the legal requirement as to such aspects as to such factors through the background checks as well as other factors thereof, there is not anyone allowed to be as such care giver without my approval first as then as to such legal requirements as to the background checks as to such in conjunction as to other VA requirements officially as for me and for my best aspects fully.



Thus if I was cared about correctly and cared for correctly, then as to being capable to relax as to such aspects as to my attempts to get what I have needed taken care of officially as to such mandatory requirements as to the factors thereof officially. Thus while some might have their opinions as to what they think of such aspects, when I comprehended such aspects as to the actualities in full as to such references as to the differences as to such aspects as to the if factors as to then having taken such only as to what legal requirements as to howe my children would not ever be allowed to such aspects as to my needing to remember as to such aspects as well as the facts as to what my needs in full are as to such aspects as to only a male whom has earned my trust and can maintain and sustain as to my needs is allowed as to such factors officially as to such submission requirements to me fully for such aspects as to partially an employment though also partially as to a relationship as the relationship aspects is first and foremost as to such aspects to the requirements as to the real life in person in real life aspects as to my needs as there is nothing about any biological relation allowed to such aspects ever and since the only way I would ever be a lesbian as to such aspects of a female who biologically as a born female transitioned to being a male as to the only aspects thereof to such situations. Otherwise, I am a Pansexual who as to such intellectual aspects as to such attraction as to in the intellectual capacities only and not as to what my full needs would officially be as long distance is not allowed at all whatsoever legally to such care giving for me as to my needs.



Thus as to such aspects as to who would be capable to keep me happiest as to such references to such aspects as to such factors, as to the common sense for such references while being in a good mood consistently would be a beginning start as to such regards as to common sense.



Thus while I have made attempts to bring myself upwards while as best as possible being a feminist as to bringing others upward as to if they are intellectually capable enough, as to the common sense as to the other legal requirements as to such aspects thereof officially.



Since I am a tomboy as to such references as to my verbal aspects as to such references, then as to such refards as to the aspects of such common sense as to my actual needs to communicate in person in real life in person as to such aspects as to in real life.



It must be of my own free will as to such aspects as to the reality as well as to such aspects of my personal requirements as to my comfort levels as to my being the one and only Top priority, as to being Dominant as to such aspects of my care as to what all of my needs are as I comprehended back in the years previously.



Thus as to making attempts as to actually getting to do something that would actually be what I personally actually could enjoy as to being capable to actually see myself as to how such would be as to my needs, the aspects as to what my considerations are as to such ethics and morals as to the facts thereof as to such starting points as to the aspects thereof as well as to my beliefs as to the 10 Commandments being mandatory for me as to being as for the other as for me as to him following the 10 Commandments to me as to such submission aspects to me as such is not and has not ever been up for interpretations especially from others who would not know nor understand nor comprehend as to such aspects as the ways as I have known and understood and comprehended as to such aspects as to my needs.



Thus the application as to my original fetlife account being a biological adult as well as the length of time as to as well as my children being biological adults as to now as to such differences where they are not the priority anymore at all in any capacity as I am the one and only as to such Top priority always and only as to such permanent aspects as to my needs as to what I created as to a starting point for what I comprehended about myself, as well as comprehending as to how such needs would change as per the times; as to the aspects as to what my needs are as to such aspects where to the proof thereof as to how each before has not been anything remotely close as to there not being allowed any such remote factors at all, as to such in any capacity thereof whatsoever to such aspects as to those others' interpretations hypothetically.



I have clarified as to such aspects repeatedly, and just as to how my social media was not as to a news report as to what was actually occurring in real time as to what the needs for such real assistances were as to those specific times as to now such time being different as to those prior times were as to my past though as to what differences as to my current timeframe as to the aspects as to the future for me as well as who I choose and who accepts me for who I am as to such aspects as to who I am and my needs as to such immediate aspects as to the reality of such facts.



Thus as I consider as needless games as to such unwanted and unnecessary aspects as to what my needs are officially, as the same as to what I consider as needless unwanted problems as to what my needs are officially, as to the same as to what I consider as to the aspects of needless unwanted drama as to what my needs are officially, as to what I consider as to what is actually needed for me; as such hypotheticals as to their opinions and their interpretations as to their immaturity as to such aspects as to the differences, as to the aspects as to the aspects of what the aspects are as to the factors regarding such requirements as to my best interests.



Thus no bankruptcy aspects are allowed from anyone, just as to such college debts are not allowed from anyone as to the aspects as to the starting point because of the needs as to my legal requirements as to the background aspects as to such facts as well as since the situations as to such hypotheticals as to my apartment as to my mural aspects as to such situations those involved as to all such factors as to their legal requirements to pay all of those debts they caused immediately fully as to such aspects as to the situations as well as repay me as to such aspects of my payments made as to the if factors as to ever showing my work without my permission to begin with as to the additional inconveniences they caused me needlessly in all such factors a to each aspect thereof officially per aspect as to such references thereof in full to me for my usage as to such aspects of the finances for my usage immediately as to such hypotheticals proven to such aspects in my account for my usage for my ease as to such aspects fully as to my bank as well as all such refunds as to the aspects of such online factors as to any of their misconceptions as per my updates to my fetlife account as per the following link.








Thus as to my medical needs as well as my well being as to such aspects as well as my work as to such factors as to what I actually have comprehended as to my needs this entire time as to how my needs would be as, as well as how my needs were going to be for such aspects as to the facts. Thus being honest about all such aspects as to the requirements as to my needs as to such aspects of communication as to such truth, the reality of what my needs are as to what my actual needs are as to a real discussion as to such aspects for the starting point.



Thus being willing and open to dating as to being honest about such aspects as to my needs while being honest about my past as well as being honest about my work as well as being honest about myself, as to such requirements as to such genuinity and honesty thereof as to such facts.







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Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Model Author Susan MeeLing

It should not take a head injury to figure this out because I thought you are supposed, to be smarter.

If there are those who find such interesting enough to research further to bring forward more information in reference to the forefront for more detailed information, as usual I request the courtesy of the same which I do in reference to how I refer to articles for reference points when writing my journal blog entries; for each one used for reference starting points, to research for clearer understanding from such knowledge.

 

That is common sense, good etiquette, and good karma; whilst lifting others upward, in positive ways.

Quotes which mean a lot to me:

"The ultimate measure of an individual is not where they stand in moments of comfort and convenience, but where they stand at the time of challenge and controversy."

"We must reject the idea that every time a law is broken society is guilty, rather than the law breaker.  Freedom is never-more than one generation away, from extinction.  We do not pass freedom on through our blood stream because freedom must be fought for, protected, and handed on for the next generation to do the same."

"Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.  Though best to be able to share in person with who matters, until that time occurs being able to see what is possible through such is a feat to notice.  One must be happy within oneself prior to being happy with another, though such can be enjoyed if living in one's own truth is as such. and then as to the capability to progress forward with another and/or others depending upon the situation(s) and individual(s)."  ~  A Quote From Me, Reverend Susan MeeLing also known as Lady Dori Belle

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In such references if there are any inaccuracies then I will fix and repair such details on my website, as per such.


Though there are the aspects of which if you would like to speak with me in addition to possibilities of opportunities for me, the welcome aspects as to contacting me through my contact form.



If I have known you in person when in person in positive ways and/or ways which might need clarification(s) as to mature discussions, there has always been the welcome open door policy as to contacting me through my contact form if you were not given my new phone number though such is online regarding my website more recently published online as to my Website Business Phone Line: (360)-713-4937.

Thus far there has been only one who has known the contact form area to speak with me on a phone line was simple and capable to do so through, in truth.

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