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It should not take a head injury
*after personally sustaining a head injury & coma*
to figure this out...

 
 
 
 
 
 


After a Drill Sergeant threw Me into the metal part of the bunk when I was in Basic Training for the United States of America's Army branch at Fort Sill Oklahoma #FortSill #FortSillOK #FortSillOklahoma #OK #Oklahoma in the year of 2000 on Psalm Sunday, I have dealt with the situations as best as I have been capable to do so while taking care of the situations and asking for assistance as per the required explanations of the information to such facts first.  While making the attempts to get assistance for the aspects thereof as to the reality, the aspects of where and when as to the multiple attempts to ask for assistance for me.  As my journal blog for when I was ready to bring such as to my other works forward since as to the lengths of time as to where my modeling was as to the modeling page information, just as the other pages have the information as to such specifics, and just as this journal blog of mine is as to such facts.


If I had real friends (if as to having met in person face to face in person in real life as to the aspects of this particular reference such as from the state of Texas as to the state of Washington as to the years of 2000 through 2013 if I met within the state of Texas for such references), real (the areas of the tristate region as before the year of 2000) family, and real relationships in real life that recognized me as to the aspects of if as to the face to face in person who started in truth as I had started such in truth as to the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, as well as the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain that took 8.5 years to dissipate; then I guesstimate there would be the easier factors as to being capable for me to speak with others in truth in person face to face in person and/or through online measures as to such factors I suppose.  Though would such as to the knowledge of the ways as to how they began such discussions with me as to would there be such a situation, for them to consider as to such if factors as to such discussions with me in truth?


As to some suggestions and commentary within "Finding A Silver Lining" one of several of my bo0ks I personally authored/wrote/compiled as I can only speak and write in truth as per such clarifications as to the reality as to the specifics of such discussions/writings/videos as per my Official You Tube where I have satirical commentary where I comment about the factors as to having dealt with others' opinions about their pop culture references of #NJ #NJstate #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey, though as to for the most part I have actually preferred to be asked with politeness if as to having read my books and/or seen my website as just the same in reference to the timeframes when I was modeling as to having respect as to what I consider as respect, referencing if as to such polite manners as to discussions if as to such having been noticed because of the factors in my opinion as to having real discussions as communication would be if my website was seen before the year of 2023 as I first began my website in 2015; as in my journal blog posts as to the reality of the years of 2010 through 2013, as to the aspects of introductions as to those timeframes when as to various factors as I did not take selfies as I was actually working with photographers as to my creations of my outfits as per the description on the link to my modeling page(s) as to the references regarding my journal blog updates in the years of 2019 through 2022 as the timeframe onward as to the year of 2023 as to the factors as to how such journal blog entries will be as to such factors as to the aspects of the various topic points.


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 I was born and raised in New Jersey and grew up going throughout the tristate northeast areas mainly, and as to how the reality of when the importance of the situations as to the aspects of reviewing as to such facts regarding the logistics for several factors as to the considerations; the years of 2019 through 2022 as to the review process as to the aspects of the timeframe, prior to the timeframe of the 20 year memorial of 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 as well as before the 30 year memorial of February 1993, as to the northeast areas mostly known as to New York City #NYC #NewYork #NY #NYstate #NYU though also as to the #Pentagon Pentagon, as well as Pennsylvania #Pennstate #Pennsylvaniastate as to the reality of how many New Jersey-ians commute in either direction, depending upon what location for the commute. 


The factors though I have said at times, I re-re-re-re-re-re-grew up in the state of  #Texas #TX #Texasstate Texas as to such factors as to the timeframes, as well as all 26 of my SCUBA #SCUBA #SCUBADiving  Diving certifications I earned were through one school within the state of Texas as I also earned winning first place in a Texas Chili cookoff with more than 20 entries as well as my chili recipe as I am adamant about my recipes as to such aspects just as I am specific as to what it actually takes for me to cook in a BBQ as to the required preparations for when I have BBQed.   



I can sarcastically write, those who know of the Rules of the BBQ as to where I grew up as to the Rules of the BBQ as to such factors to the considerations of such preparations.  However that is to cooking food as to the differences of my journal blog entries, as to the factors as to proverbial aspects of food for thought as the difference of real food in real life as to the facts of the situations to such attention to the details as well as attention to the information.


Such facts as to the metaphors in some of such factors that only after reviewing such information as to the aspects of the fiction book series that were as to for My personal life as to such dreamland sorts of factors as to the differences of such hypotheticals, the references thereof as to such regards as to the logistical emotional with the real situations as per the names I was informed of at the timeframes referenced review as to My journal blog as to the situations overall.  


If as to my journal blog being found and read as to where what I consider as common sense, as to the aspects of my satirical saying   how it should not take a head injury to figure out. 
 

*(sometimes utilizing articles discussing facts)*
By:  (Reverend) Susan MeeLing
also known as

The One & Only


(YouTube)   Lady Dori Belle


 

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REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

8th day to the 20 year memorial countdown to 11 September 2001 attacks By: A New Jersey-ian

On this the 8th day to the countdown to the 20 year memorial to the attacks on 11 September 2001 in the year of 2021 of which this entire month is a bittersweet month for me personally as each of my two children were born in the month of September, my son #Letters4James was born before the attacks in 2001 and my daughter #Letters4Lidia was born after the day of the attacks in 2002. I know I have been dealing with the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury since waking up from my coma, though each aspect has taken years to work on and the time of my first reflection backwards to evaluate the circumstances I have dealt with in reference to before as well as after the situations in 2000 was officially in the year of 2013 into 2014 of which was the time went I heavily dealt with a large amount of reviewing of my own life and my own experiences while reviewing if I was ever good enough to be a Mom to begin with as realistically after as many situations as I did not see the aspects I thought I had was how I could feel had been what transpired for more than I realized.



However in reference to the additional portions as to having been born and raised in New Jersey and I grew up going around the different areas of the tristate northeast in the 1980s and the 1990s, September is a month of which is wonderful because of being able to have delivered two healthy children into the world after carrying them in my womb to as I could to raise them to grow up to be as best as possible while dealing with the aspects thereof. I had not ever given up on my son and/or my daughter as I always have and always will hope the best possible outcomes for them, as I have hoped I have done enough to prepare them the best ways I possibly could for the ways of the world while also keeping them as safe as I possibly could from each and every possible aspect as I could when with them for when the time came for each of the three of us to progress in the directions as such for the best in the short terms to the extreme of the longest terms possible knowing there had to be others who had gone through different circumstances in whichever combinations which could hopefully find more positive ways to look at life and progress forward in better ways.



I had seen an advertisement for a show a female named #ParisHilton had been working on with her sister #NikkiHilton who in brief had shown discussing certain aspects of assault which had not been known to some who have known more of the aspects as to what seemed as pop culture references, of which from the brief clip it seemed as though there was an ability for the two to be able to review the facts as to what each had gone through in such times and the experiences thereof to be able to see different ways of which each other had thought. While it seemed as though #NikkiHilton had been more reserved in the ways of which her responses as to keeping the feelings within while listening to her sister, it seemed as #ParisHilton maintained herself though was able to express herself with words which it seemed some who would not have known such a side of her to have been moved in a different way than what the initial perspective had been regarding the pop culture references. Both seemed extremely intelligent from the clip(s) I had seen though additionally the ways it looked had been a way which was more comfortable for the aspects to discuss, and yet much more to have gone over per individual perspective from several other topics.



While the background portions were from what I could see a lovely area the ways of such backgrounds seemed a bit familiar in certain regards, as I do remember seeing the larger #Hilton Hilton hotel in the #NYC #NewYorkCity #NewYork #NY New York City area as well as in #Pennsylvania #PA #Pennstate Pennsylvania and New Jersey in one or two spots in the college area districts. The building I remember from the New York City area if I recall correctly had several floors upward towards the sky to which when looking upward as I did what I could to count the windows and see the concrete designs around certain ledges and areas in the corners towards the almost cathedral style top, while I cannot remember which block specifically if remembering accurately and reviewing in an almost angled viewpoint depending which floor someone had been on during the day and days afterwards of the attacks on 11 September 2001 as to the year now as to how much of a way in reference to the saying I have had for decades at this point.



Once you know, you cannot unknow.



As per knowing what I have been able to see in different references though specifically regarding all such building styles within the New York City area as well as in the #Washington #WashingtonDC #DC #DCMetro Washington DC area near #VA #Virginia Virginia in reference to the #Pentagon Pentagon unlike the area where the field in Pennsylvania though still respectful as to such situations on the ground referencing such aspects, when I spoke with people in the state of Texas I told those people to mind their manners in reference to how they chose to speak about that day within the same year of 2001. While the people I had known in person including my own biological sister in comparison more-so to my biological father as well as my biological mother, those who have actually been on the upper floors of various skyscrapers in the New York City area to the skyscape up there; my biological sister would not be in any area remotely close enough to have any idea as to what the individuals of those areas had seen on that day, just as my biological sister would not have the slightest inclination as to the actual problems as she mainly walked around on the ground floor as possibly getting up a few stories in comparison to as I had been in multiple skyscrapers in the area of the tri-state in the northeast as per who my biological father had done work for as well as certain portions as to the connections thereof in conjunction with my babysitter’s husband who had worked security within and had two different offices in one of the buildings I mainly remember in the #WorldTradeCenter #WTC World Trade Center.



However with where I grew up after being born and raised in the largest tri-county area which commuted to the World Trade Center as well as New York City and areas in Pennsylvania when looking upward on a map, there were many who I knew who had traveled downward as well because I grew up in one of the major states of the original #13colonies #original13colonies 13 colonies and the rich history is abundant among the east coast in ways which no other area of the world has such a close proximity to because of the foundational principles of the beginning despite the ways certain events went throughout in the times of the past. There are many who I had grown up with who used different aspects as more became involved with various television and movies which were allowed for them in comparison to myself as per the rating guidelines I had to go with because of the rules which were mandatory as I grew up for myself, whereas most who know how certain aspects are for the next child in line for some families; my biological sister had been able to get away with watching far more movies as television as well as had stayed later than allowed, which in comparison I suppose is better to the long run in certain references when taking in consideration those who I additionally remember in reference to the #Amish Amish as well as the #Mennonites Mennonites. The Amish have a similar set of view points to the Mennonites as well as traditions in a multitude of ways as several Judeo-Christian congregations have though the Mennonites were able to get into the electrical aspects before the Amish of which in such particular traditions which are more similar to older world areas in comparison to the United States of America as an overall, the Amish would be considered closer to such aspects in the relative overall comparison to the other countries as per the ways to the limited exposure to electrical resources which in turn the same in reference to the technology portions. While I was made fun of in school for being excited to go to Lancaster and go around the areas which as those who have met me since waking up from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury coma, I suppose some could imagine me easily going and seeing other areas while my biologicals had remained on the preplanned trails.



While they spoke with who they spoke with all I will say is I have told people, my daughter is my daughter and I have known what was the best for her from the beginning; however since other people thought their opinions of their biases were smarter and have done as they have done in reference to such aspects, do tell how do you plan to fix and repair what damages you have done in such regards? Why would my daughter every want to copy my hairstyle despite my having told her that the hairstyle I have is difficult for people in this state (meaning the state of Texas), for I only earned 26 #SCUBA #SCUBADiving SCUBA Diving certifications while as well as after and onward to keeping her and her brother safe from everything I could as she remembered me saving both her and her brother from her biological father’s abuse though she had not the words to describe the situation because of her being 1 year 2 weeks and 2 days younger than her brother.



Thus while she had known I had taken her and her brother to either one of their rooms in my house in San Antonio to get away from their biological father to keep them safe while dealing with what was occurring, because of how certain situations are for some children and teenagers as to their only ways to express such aspects is what they have as signs to see for the ability to describe such portions. Thus when in reference to the many times of which the three of us had been locked into either my daughter’s room or my son’s room when doing what I could to get them to safety to deal with the situations in reference to their biological father, there had been multiple times which I had to deal with being too weak to open the door after it was shut because of how he had locked the doors. It took a few years for him to realize I would not fight to open the doors and I would take care of my son and my daughter while doing what I could to heal myself instead of what was wished for, as to then deal with after getting them individually taken care of once the door was opened; then having to deal with the complaining and whining as to why I took care of my son and my daughter before ever going to try to open the door, as that was his excuse of thinking that I did not care.



The sad and pathetic times of such ways had been such a pathetic view of a cry for attention to which the fact he was their biological father and being mad that I was caring for my minor children as well as healing myself after the abuses I had endured which was his fault to begin with from the get-go, then the facts of which it took several more years before accepting the facts as to how horrific of a human being he had been throughout his entire existence. My son remembered more of the facts as to defending and protecting the two of them as he watched me jump over furniture to sweep him and his sister up as such went on, just as he watched me run in front of objects to swat them away from being thrown at either one of them. He had seen what occurred in reference to the front window as when I was feeding my daughter when she was an infant and my son as a toddler had been walking over to me and got under the table to knock something over by accident, he watched me leap up with my daughter in my arms to grab him to take him to my side as a shield to protect both him and his sister while the decorative items that were on the dining room table at the time were thrown at my direction. He had seen as I had held him in one arm and his sister in my other arm as their biological father picked up the Christmas tree candle that his mother gave as a #Christmas Christmas gift with her daughter Susie Marie Nichols-Lopez at the time, to use as a blunt object similar to a baseball bat of which in reference to my first larger event in the adult consenting lifestyle in San Antonio Texas in the year of 2004; my response as to when I had been willing for one chance to see what the sensation was, upon my back being struck was when I had come up swinging my fists and had to calm myself down instantly knowing and fully comprehending I was/am a Dominant.



However both of my biological parents had seen the damages to the candles, though all three of such were in full awareness as to the window situation because of the bottle which I had to put down to be able to grab a hold of my son to defend the two of them as well as myself while I could do what I could to get him to safety with his sister. Those people of #McCoyElementarySchool #McCoyCFBISD McCoy Elementary School of #CFBISD #Carrollton #CarrolltonTX #CarroltonTexas Carrollton Farmers Branch Independent School District thought they knew someone of which they knew nothing about, and those people thought they knew better simply because of their biases and opinions from whatever their symbols were as instead of simply having the human decency to ask truthfully and speak with me truthfully as only one set of parents had throughout such times; the ways of which such people within the city of Carrollton Texas had been, were merely a shell of what I had already seen before when growing up around certain areas within the tri-state area. Those people in that city area and whomever associated with which had acted in such ways had tried to push for my physical to not pass onward because of their biases because of how their discrimination against such had been as per my perception as to the situations thereof, which those people were going to have the rudest and crudest and most socially unacceptable awakening that they could ever dream of for their own personal in real life nightmares to fully surround them in which they would not ever be able to escape what the aspects of what their choices were because of there not being anywhere for them to hide themselves as much as they could wish for such until they went to the grave permanently though even then it depends how you view such when taking into consideration what I dealt with during my Medal of Honor Art Project trips and “The Modern Day Book By: Reverend Susan MeeLing”.



Though what could a genetically born biologically as a female who earned 26 SCUBA Diving certifications on her own without having anyone else pay for the classes and the work for, ever see as something to be inspired by according to those people in the areas thereof? What pictures from the times I have chosen to model in the ways of which all clothing had been on and anything which clothing was not as in a bikini modeling photoshoot had been photoshopped, can anyone truthfully complain about when being a parent or later a grandparent and so on to what could be found by their child(ren) and/or grandchild(ren) as to the timeframes in my personal reference of the times of the 1980s into this year of 2021 that I have done regarding a view of either way in such references especially regarding as a female? What could be considered as having the self-respect to be more modest with the choices of how I had covered myself despite my hairstyle and my haircolor and my tattoos which could be considered as something which my son and my daughter can be confident as to knowing that I only had ever willingly had pictures and/or videos of me in which I knew of that were where as always I had been clothed? Unlike any hidden cameras which would be considered as a violation of privacy especially in areas such as changing rooms, bathrooms, showers, bathtubs, bedroom(s), living room(s) of what is a privacy expected location, kitchen(s) of what is expected as a privacy expected location, and etcetera which would be considered as mandatory privacy requirements by all such laws and standards; however something of which my now dead-ex-husband had already done so without my permission, and when I found out about such and what occurred was what occurred n reference to a whether or not you want to believe such aspects as to coinky dinks as to weather aspects for such times.



I have already written about such, though I had minimally spoke with a few people about what had been done during such times of which when such occurred when in #SanAntonio #SanAntonioTX #SanAntonioTexas #MilitaryCityUSA San Antonio throughout the years as per the final confession of when he had admitted to more than just the few before my hairstyle and my hair color along with my tattoos. In turn the situations as to how little I could ever respect him for such a choice and the disgust as to him being anywhere near me as well as the vileness as to any who preferred his style in compared to mine, meant I would not be able to tolerate such situations from such individuals as per the ways as I am. There was nothing which he had said when his confessions began prior to when the time of being informed as to his death, of which I was not and remain not sad because of the lack of care I ever had for him to begin with. As I already tole people of how that so-called engagement had been, I had not ever felt any care nor any concern for that individual and when it came to the point in time of the Chaplain and the Major who arrived at my house in January 2008; the reasons as to such realities of why I knew were not only because of his confessions, though also because he refused my warnings as to what he complained about during the Halloween of 2007 as to being yelled at by people in the neighborhood about wearing his dress blues out during the trick or treating.



As my now dead-ex-husband had relied on his #PDA #PrivateDigitalAssistant PDA for everything as he had always relied on electronic aspects for what he had been doing as per the amount of time as he had kept that in his barracks room and was handed over to me from the agents from Fort Sam Houston when they delivered the boxes of the belongings at the time in 2008, as per how I had sent emails asking about what occurred as to why they were taking the time as they had been in reference to the situations as to what occurred at CID in which the prescription notification sounds were not stopping and the beeping was unable to stop as per how much battery life was in the PDA when they had given such over. I sent emails asking how to turn off the PDA as the sounds were making my headaches worse and the fact of no answer to anything I had sent about such, was beyond annoying for the first few weeks as after a certain amount of time the beeping would stop. As I did not know if the agents were going to need that piece of technology after awhile for whatever I had been accused of in reference to being called into CID as per the aspects of his psychosis as described from what I noticed though my opinion as to what was wrong with him in many ways, I did not ever get a response about such though I had given the PDA to my ex-in-laws because of not wanting or needing to deal with that problem any further.



In reference to #CID or #CriminalInvestigationDivision Criminal Investigation Division, I have had multiple meetings with CID over the years as per the first time I can remember being when I was put into Medical Hold Unit after waking up from my coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury in which the in the time’s pattern of BDUs had met with me as soon as completing the in-processing process with Specialist Watson as when they arrived to the area closer to the #USPS United States Postal Service area on Fort Sam Houston, I went with them as I had already been assigned what room in the barracks I was going to be in for the time as there was constant moving around because of whatever situations were going on in the Medical Hold Unit as well as the Army branch of the United States of America at such times in reference to my treatment and how whomever was speaking about me as however they were speaking about me at such times in whichever areas thereof. The first meeting with CID which the males were dressed in the year of 2000 pattern of BDUs wore, had been where they asked me about what occurred in reference to my head injury specifically in which they needed to know what day I specifically remembered last which had been the day of my head injury as I had gone to church because of the palms which were folded into crosses as I could not ever have one when I was a child due to my allergies from the plants causing an allergic reaction to my skin needlessly as some have tested in ways which my now dead-ex-husband had already done so in which when I had an allergic reaction because of what was put into my food the lack of any concern was nothing new for that type of so-called person. I am glad I had to have that wedding ring cut off of my hand, as the fact of the other portions of what in my opinion had been done illegally was ridiculous for such to ever be considered even by the so-called person themselves as to the requirements of such as to the medical degree though more importantly in such aspects as to whether or not I personally consented.


In such references, I have not consented nor would I ever consent to such for anyone as the automatic hatred that would build would remove such aspects from ever being wanted in my life for such choices to ever think such would be considered as acceptable by any measures thereof and is why the requirement of being informed of such procedures is mandatory as even when I went to Wilford Hall at Lackland Air Force Base there were legal paperwork pieces I had to read and sign before ever going through those procedures and phases thereof to which the end date was less than a 6 month timeframe as per the longest trial I had been a part of at that time and only after being informed of. It was known as to my medical aspects as thus the requirement for all such details had been mandatory as explained to me, of which in reference to the aspects as to how such portions hypothetically after being in the civilian sector; what is your personal protection for such choices if hypothetically having stood over the line and taken such a chance, in the longest terms possible for yourselves?



In the timeframe of CID when I was at the Medical Hold Unit, each time the agents were in the BDUs when picking me up to speak with me and then returning me to Medical Hold Unit. The times when in CID as to how many questions were asked of me about everything I remembered at those times compared to what was occurring in reference to inside of Medical Hold Unit as to how certain soldiers had been acting as well as mixing their medications with alcohol and playing games with their prescriptions wrongly, the times of such questioning became more intensive as per the rave situation as to the demand as to knowing who had been a part of taking me to the rave and who I was introduced to in order to go to the rave itself before how I wound up in Brackenridge in Austin Texas less than 3 months after waking up from my coma and thus the Article 15 officially despite explaining the fact I asked for the medication I was prescribed to be able to get though because of the distance between San Antonio and Austin had been why those people said that they would not turn around to get me back to Fort Sam Houston for anything I actually needed for myself. The female who called herself Princess Jasmine had said she had only 2 Advil pills left which she said would help my headaches, which that did not assist my headaches as the pain levels were far worse thereafter and then when at the rave itself and a male who I cannot remember his name though was friends with PV3 Webker (?spelling?) and PV2 or PV3 Jolliff; the situation which Webker banged on my door for over half an hour as the females walked by in the area and did nothing to assist, the complaints had to do with because Jolliff’s parents had him transferred out of Fort Sam Houston because of their pull in the military as to such situations. That was a massively huge problem in my opinion as to any family ever pulling someone out of such aspects which they are responsible for dealing with their consequences for what was the choice, knowing of the after effects especially with the fact of the two males having been in the medical field as BAMC/SAMC is known for.



However a 17 year old from where I was from and the inability for anyone at Fort Sam Houston to access my military records at that time, was a an attitude readjustment needing correction as I can see reflecting back now as to such types of situations as time has gone onward to prove such aspects thereof while being in the state of Texas as well. You can revert to my previous posting journal blog entry for such aspects as to the problems with all such types of individuals who would find such as an acceptable aspect to ever put someone through, especially since the fact as to knowing I was only a few months awake from my coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury of which I had not been taught the name of colors or how to count by the time of initially meeting Jolliff and Webker as to such portions they had been fully informed of and made aware of. As they had been in the medical field in the military, they were fully aware as to the realities of such aspects and while it is great that Warrior Transition Unit was changed over to the location closer to BAMC/SAMC from Medical Hold Unit; that does not change the facts as to what I personally went through, nor does it change the facts as to everything that they are held responsible for as well as their personal connections and etcetera which would have had any willing part thereof to assist such continued problems which fully need s and is required for such to be stopped in full regarding such aspects as to any further hypothetical testing or what would be considered as such no matter what the specific wording choice is which includes others within the Medical Hold Unit and/or such associations especially with the fact of the official aspects as signed into official standing regarding #POTUS45 Donald J. Trump and his administration. It should not take a head injury that if CID back in the year of 2000 agents did not have the clearance to look into my military records when I was Active Duty in the Army branch as an E1 after having been known to not have graduated Basic Training for the Army branch, that is a clear indicator as to what I had put out there as to what my clearance level had actually been at the age I was at the time when entering the Army of the Armed Forces of the United States of America as Omega clearance and such aspects as to the facts as to my Blue Identification Card of/for the Armed Forces of the United States of America aspects in such additional proof as to who I am and who I have always been and who I had always been and remain honest for such.



In regards of the multitudes of times having been pulled into CID during the months from the time when I was in Medical Hold Unit and what occurred in reference to when I went to #IG the Inspector General as well as having gone to #EO Equal Opportunity as per having been informed it was illegal as to what was occurring, I went to the offices thereof and as explained the Master Sergeant with the Colonel and the (I am uncertain of how many stars) General had come to speak with me about the occurrences thereof in reference to the Medical Hold Unit though I had forgotten to tell them about the situations involved CID when in the Master Sergeant’s office at the time, though admittedly there was a lot of situations in a large way as to the timing in the year of 2000. As it has been noted and seen as to the change in name though also the change in location of Medical Hold Unit to Warrior Transition Unit, the realities as to just that visible move for the buildings in the city of San Antonio Texas as to the realities of what I had told others about from the years of 2000 through to current times as to the situations, is a physical proof as per seeing such when driving along I35 if you pay attention as the large parking garage spaces are near the Warrior Transition Unit for the clarification purposes for those who did not know what to look for in regards of the specifics.



Thus #DenzelWashington Denzel Washington who had been noted to have been at the opening ceremony as to the Warrior Transition Unit as to the assistances thereof for the larger aspects as to helping the individuals with various medical conditions after the attacks of 11 September 2001 with that situation, is something quite noteworthy as I saw in the paper of the #mysa #SanAntonioExpressNews as I had received the newspaper delivery to my house in San Antonio at the time as I had done so in Vancouver Washington receiving the Oregonian newspaper at the time when it was delivered as there were times when the newspaper had not been delivered or had gone missing due to the problems with the downstairs neighbor situation at the time as well as the front office leasing staff who had been biased regarding what they were told by others as per the situations after the Halloween event in Portland Oregon Halloween event which had the after party at the Velvet Rope in 2013 which I thought I had seen Steve from Temple of Flesh at the event as well as a few females from the San Antonio area scene in combination with meeting Sasha and one of her males in the Velvet Rope as described as to the situations already brought forward as to such situations in those particular references as to the problems with the stalking and harassment needlessly as to such. Anyone who claims they think someone asks for it is only victim shaming in my opinion which in turn the realities of when an individual is willing to make the efforts to try to shame someone who has survived such abuses, what does that actually mean in reference to the type of individual or so-called person in that situation?



Especially with such facts as to the photoshopping of my tattoos out of the picture when I had been known for such in my modeling, though it is what it is as to the cost of what could have been made at that point in time compared to what was minimally made which again as to clarify there was not any contract for those pictures or performance ever signed by me as per the choices as to whatever their particular situations were. In turn if Steve had been distracted because of John showing up and forgot to get the paperwork taken care of before the event, that is Steve’s fault and failure as to getting such taken care of. However as I was informed about other situations and including in reference to my SCUBA Diving, what dangers have come forward because of such lies and blaspheming wrongly of my name whether or not some have wanted to accept the reality of though truly need to accept such realities thereof? In turn per the aspects of the description of a Prisoner of War, is there a commonality in such references as to any recordings and/or images of me in any area which would be considered as expected to be private and if so; what has taken the length of time for such an actual concern enough for any such portions of what would be considered, if important for such? What is justice, and what does that choice show in reference to transmissions as to such treatments of me? The answer is the lack of concern or compassion among the human race as well as the facts thereof, is the answer. How many years since the situations began, depends as to which time of which year of such problems which such began and the length thereof in reference to the state of Texas does not end at the one year point as per the ways as to the start and end time is the specifics as to such harassment and such stalking in the regards of the laws and thus from the start time of the aspects while might be over one year the realities is if there is a continued portion of which the stalking and harassment continue upon such aspects; as to the portions of which the laws to protect against such situations would be considered as from only the end portion of such stalking/harassment/assault.



Thus as per putting such into writing and even if the timing had began in another year, the reality of the continuation of such would mean legally all such individuals involved with such portions in reference to the state of Texas would mean the facts of such having been continued hypothetically would then mean the facts of such continuations of hypothetically would mean just the same per day as a restarting of such aspects as to the perpetrators’ guilt over such time and the legal backing would then have the ability to track such time backwards for the length of abuses and what types of which the penalties of such would be compounded as a per day as to the per type of assault and/or stalking and/or harassment. Thus even if such began in the year of 2000 the fact of any such continuation would in turn mean the day of last which had done so would mean the start time for the ability to take all such reports as to the ways for such legal prosecutions of which since I have sent such and walked such directly into several offices and if the hypothetical of such continuations, the last day of which had been done would be the starting point of which the prosecution would begin for a date to review for all such aspects and a proverbial Hebrew reading of such for all such charges legally for the imprisonments as well as the damages to each individual(s)/group(s) involved for such a legal review of the known types of legal torts.



Thus in reference from the aspects as to Steve if such were to have begun in the year of 2005 when I was in the beginning portions though was still going on today in such a hypothetical the charges would begin from today’s date and then work backwards for each individual version thereof and would not have any statue of limitations for any connected crime that was found along the way as per the ways which are tied into investigations has been proven to have such capabilities for and thereof, which in turn because of the start date for the example being today that would mean any and all possible crimes associated just with Steve would mean any and all crimes found along the way would be able to get justice for each and every individual who was impacted by such aspects in my interpretation thereof. Thus if there was any extortion from such aspects because of others not having known as to the aspects of the leaks which occurred because of who Steve (Temple of Flesh : Stephen Gross possible legal name though there was a legal notification which had been sent to my apartment in 2019 which would be able to verify the documentation of the time for such aspects as to the notary process and the record thereof via the USPS for such hypothetical aspects as to the stalking and harassing as that would not cover one’s base as tit would only give the exact evidence needed for such portions for all such connectionary aspects additionally) had knowingly allowed in his house and that includes in reference to Krysta Avalon in such regards, the ways thereof would be able to bring forward justice for all associated individuals of all such times from the very first crime they together and/or individually had ever committed as per the time of whichever date of whichever year of which there are the compounded evidence aspects for each such legal case.



There is an irony if Steve has been being his own lawyer for the Temple of Flesh as a male named TM in the Austin community had once told me “Only fools think they are good enough to represent themselves in front of a judge in the court of law”, which if so then I suppose so in such reference points regarding such aspects as per my immunity regarding the #Ombudsman Ombudsman filing with my original email for such of susan.meeling@gmail.com and the additional emails sent as well as books thereof for the connection portion of such time for the #WhistleblowerProtectionAct #WPA Whistleblower Protection Act.



As to other situations in such reference to the CID portions thereof, the next time of being called into CID after having been asked to go to the Military Police station nearby to the CID office to be picked up by as I was told had been a CID agent for the interrogation I had told others about as well as described in my first book “Finding A Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing”; all of the people I was told were CID agents were wearing digital BDUs as per the design at the timeframe of the questioning which occurred after the Chief Warrant Officer 3 had asked me about the stolen valor which was on the dress blues in the picture from the memorial in the area of the #GiftChapel Gift Chapel. Thus the facts as to the E7 who was direct ordered not to go to the funeral in #FW #FortWorth #FortWorthTX #FortWorthTexas Fort Worth Texas at #Laureland #Laurelland #LaurelanFuneralHome #LaurellandFuneralHome Laureland Funeral Home had been promoted to an E8 and was in a darker blue jacket with a lighter blue with red stripe uniform and had the golden brass colored rank on the pointed part of his collar in the top portion of the uniform he was wearing just before the as I was told CID agent wearing braces whose rank was a Captain and the shiny rank in the same areas as when it was the timeframe of the year of 2000 when in the CID office in the year of 2008 in February after the funeral situation as already described before going up the Chain of Command during such times for such situations and notifying who I could where I could for such aspects.



For another example for a different amount of time for a start date of today for the hypothetical and then working backwards in time for such connected crimes for such references, the individuals of Nine Lives Books and all such aspects as to having begun volunteering in the year of 2006 though stopping my volunteering in the year of 2008 after the firearm situation in the Brigadier General’s office of which those so-called people had been told as to what occurred as well as about the garage in reference to how the forced situation was in reference to my now dead-ex-husband of which while the aspects of which the PDA aspect as to the situations regarding the CID investigation which I had told them of what I dealt with at Nine Lives Books and was laughed at regarding how I had been treated. What irony would be if such were to have been stalked and harassed since those times and then onwards which if such in the references of the portions of all such connected crimes to that particular reference as well as all prior reference aspects thereof for any connection portions as to the realities in such situations, as to the start date of the last time of such stalking/harassment/assault/accessory to commit a crime/premeditation to a crime/etcetera as to all such connected factors thereof. In such aspects there is the federal law which protects anyone with an immunity regarding any possible charges to any crimes thought of as per the starting point of the back dated portions thereof, as per the situation to having spoken with Animal Control after the situation regarding the First Aid Kit which Nine Lives Books should have had for the store though a professional medical kit for the Cat Sanctuary attachment at the times of opening their store.



In turn if such was a bitterness because of whatever anti-religion aspects as to Michael Roberts of such portions and Suzanne Farnsworth, the timeframe of such aspects would be an immunity for me as to such a plotting and planning and though had been in the year of 2007 the reality of which the back dating would occur from the last time of any such violation of privacy and/or any stalking and/or any harassment while etcetera of such though also the possibility of delinquency of a minor as per my amount of time out from my coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury in conjunction with the practicing medicine without a license and etcetera of each and every individual crime thereof hypothetically found for such aspects and all such individuals connected as to such portions which with the Hebrew reading of those aspects would go backwards to which the company Half Price Books would be able to prosecute Suzanne Farnsworth and whomever she is/was connected to for such additional crimes as to the backdating of such portions of which with a history of mental health repeated residential facilities which she and her sister had been admitted into as well as had admitted to; the portions as to what was discussed in Governor Christine Todd Whitman’s office when I was in 8th grade about the mental health facility to what would occur to the general public if so many were wrongly denied the medical treatments thereof which in turn the reality of the requirement to remove those individuals fully through the aspects of far too many crimes committed and would be able to be put into an actual prison system as per the release aspects if not having maxed out the time from the health insurance and was able to pay out of pocket for the treatment(s).



Which in turn they would all be subject to imprisonment just as explained in reference to the situations regarding my own daughter as much as I do not like to have to admit such realities thereof though is the truth and since the portions of which the facts as to having acknowledges what she had done to her brother after what occurred at the #FWZoo #FortWorthZoo during the McCoy Elementary field trip in April 2010 as per “Finding A Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing” details such aspects and acknowledgements thereof despite any legal name changes which would be able to be back traced because of all of the paperwork which has to be filed with the court system and cannot be kept hidden legally as per the requirement for sexual predator registrations should have such mandatory aspects for clarifications for the truth aspects as to such portions because of the legal name changes for such hypotheticals to my sexual assault case back in New Jersey as to Baptist Camp Lebanon iof Brian Cantrell had changed his legal name though the proof thereof regarding such stalking hypothetically and/or any involvement to any problems in my life at any point in time and/or anyone he would have ever been connected to the realities of which the backward tracing for the timeframe of starting in such a hypothetical of today 3 September 2021 and going backwards to review every individual crime possibly ever committed as well as the ability to go after each and every law firm associated with such aspects thereof as to RICO among more aspects, as per the ways which #Enron had been able to be as big of the news story it had been among the aspects as to far more in reference to the aspects of which had been connected had been able to come forward in the Hollywood aspects as well as the various television shows as the time went onward afterwards to such legal cases and the connection points thereof once the prosecutions had began in the official court rooms beyond what currently is considered-ish in reference to the social media aspects.



In the references to the facts as to where I was born and raised as well as grew up walking around, those who had hacked the security camera systems in the World Trade Center referencing what cannot be unseen and what cannot be unheard, those realities of which should have made you more human if any such problems were caused by such aspects; where were you when you could have sent such videos in specifics to the law enforcement agencies sooner, or were you the same way as to when Princess Diana had gone through such portions and left her children because of those types of situations which were inevitable to come forward and outward as per the facts of if ever having developed the film and/or if ever had put such onto a computer as per the ways which automated technology would be able to work on facial recognition the same in reference to automated technology being able to look through pictures to be able to find the common thread for the timeframe as to the additional aspects of the surrounding locations in any and/or all pictures which would or could have hypothetically ever been developed and/or uploaded onto any type of computer device. Thus those children of #PrincessDiana Princess Diana and the entire Royal family would be able to get the justice as needed, as #AdamWalsh Adam Walsh was not the only person I had hoped would be able to find a way to get justice for his son having gone missing. The same back tracing for such aspects can be reviewed for such connected crimes as per the ways which the statute of limitations if the crimes were already registered as per a criminal activity for such portions at the timing thereof, as per clarifications as needed for such patterns of behaviour as well from the current times backwards though also from the current times to look into for such forwards; especially with the expansion of the traveling aspects into space as much as has been worked upon over the years, to which #BlueOrigin Blue Origin and #SpaceX Space X as to the civilian versions of the #NASA NASA aspects in conjunction to work with in regards of the officializing of the =#USSpaceForceDoD US Space Force #DepartmentofDefense #DoD Department of Defense.



Some aspects as to the realities as to what the #TrumpFamily as well as the #HiltonFamily as to those within the city of New York in the high rise buildings and skyscrapers saw in person as to the complaints I dealt with in reference to when people complained in the state of Texas as to the video footage on the news, my only complaint had been that the faces of some of the people who had jumped from the buildings were shown of which otherwise the facts of the matter were the facts of the matter. The other side is the reality of which the faces of such aspects in such times were needed and are needed for others who could possibly have been able to know such individuals of which there is the double edged sword regarding such portions, as the reality of the attacks on 11 September 2001 all of the various individuals throughout the city of New York did not have the luxury at such times on that day in that month in that year to have such situations seen and heard to be unseen or unheard. The cries of which were within each apartment or condo or flat cannot be undone, just as those hearing such when on the ground cannot forget the ways as to the soot hitting their flesh as they ran for cover where they could as where they could get away from the cloud smoke and flying debris. Just as when watching the French Film Documentary 9/11 those individuals cannot unsee nor unhear nor un-smell the areas of which such portions had been at such times, the same in reference to the aspects of all types of commonly known and uncommonly known portions of social media cannot be unsent through the systems thereof as the choices made cannot be undone just as the situations involved cannot have a do-over to the events of 11 September 2001 as some in the state of Texas might have wanted in other such ways.



Those Active Duty/National Guard/Reservists/Veterans cannot un-lose their friends and family, just as their time cannot be taken back from them as those situations which have been survived however so are how such have been survived however so. In turn while some have complained about the fact I am medically retired and what complaints have been about the facts of how I have created my own website as well as have done so out of my own pocket, cannot complain about such portions as per not having ever been paid officially for all of such work which would mean all of my disability checks due to me over such times are all of my disability checks due to me because of the facts thereof as to the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury being a proven fact of which all such aspects thereof as my biological mother and my biological sister complained about to me to my face for the after effects I deal with on a daily basis as to my headaches and the multi-weekly migraines as well as the memory deficits and the cognitive disorders have always been protected in my favor regarding all such aspect as to my VA as well as my SSI because of the fact of not ever having been paid for my work for the required amount of money which is over $10,00.00 as per the last time I had been informed of which I have not ever been paid that amount of money for any of my book sales which even with the aspects as to having created my own business the protection aspects additionally in my favor legally because of the Ombudsman immunity for my protections at all such times.



Which while some people may have contacted Ombudsman after me; their protection only starts from the day that their file was approved to be looked into if there are not any other crimes that they knowingly had perpetrated as if they had been the causes as to any such problems before they reported to such, the fact of which they would not have ever had immunity as the ways I have always had immunity as per the #ADA ADA Americans with Disabilities Act as per having woken up from my coma with the fact of the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain which took 4.5+ years to start to dissipate. Thus all such wishes to permanently stop such are denied and by law the back0pay as well as any type of holdings are mine for which none could ever have legally had any authority over to begin with, as per the lack of any need to be hospitalized for mental health aspects or any other such portions associated with the mental health portions as I have fully proven that despite my disabilities I have been doing the best I could for such capabilities of what I can and could. If people who have had amputated limbs who had ever survived any type of TBI can continue to receive such benefits without any holdings back, then so too am I able to have such without any holdings back from me.



In addition to being an Ordained Reverend since the year of 2005 as to the facts of additionally as to the tax exemptions being fully in my favor in addition to the #ConstitutionalRights Constitutional Rights of my Freedom of Religion which is in line with the #JudeoChristian #JC #Jewish #Christian Judeo-Christian format within the Constitution as per my being baptized as a #Methodist Methodist before being baptized as a #Presbyterian Presbyterian in conjunction with my #MyConfirmationOfficially Confirmation Graduation in the year of 1997 to become an official member of the Presbyterian Church which is officially recognized as to such additional tax exemption status for me to the aspects thereof my Ordained Reverend aspects, despite not officially through the Presbyterian Church itself though my Confirmation thereof with the additional portions thereof regarding all of the payments due to me now in full with the maintaining of my checks as per the legal requirements having been maintained the entire time thereof despite what others who had wished otherwise have complained about due to their choices in reference to how they viewed whichever branch and/or division of the Armed forces of the United States of America.



Additionally as to the amount of work I have done which has not ever been compensated for in the ways thereof was not ever considered as volunteering in my thoughts as to having explained as to I had been working on different aspects as best as I could and the reasons thereof honestly and genuinely as per prior explanations, while my biological mother/sister/father might be upset that is what they have to deal with regarding the truth as per the complaints and the crying my biological mother did when she saw how the disability payments of such. She had been fully removed upon learning from the crying that she had to see for herself regarding after what she saw online when she searched before they had moved to Texas, of which I think that is the legal definition of premeditation to commit a crime and yet additionally proving exactly how I had dealt with being treated as a child and as a teenager and as time has gone onward referencing such aspects as to my biological mother which includes the ability to go backwards in such aspects and the connecting portions thereof in regards of #Prudential Prudential being able to prosecute her for the aspects of her false reporting and falsifying documents in the multitude of ways.



As my biological mother and whomever such associated as per whichever aspects proven had lied and has the hypothetical patterns of behaviour for such portions thereof as to situations which have proven themselves such as the #GeekSquad GeekSquad being able to go legally after my biological mother and my biological sister for their involvement as to the so-called updating and yet they had entered their malware coding problems; which additionally has been required for finding a legal way to bring such forward to prosecute in all such ways as to the facts thereof having been presented as best as I could. Additionally in reference to the aspects as to only having posted going to certain events the aspects as to the stalking and harassment problems of which the online aspects in the common social media would be looked into for such times, as to if had gone to a location which was published online as to the if there was a reason to actually be involved in comparison to sending others in such a ways of harassment and stalking as my biological mother had done and admitted to in reference to the San Antonio Pagan community which in the addition portions thereof for such backwards timing for the reviewal of for all such connected crimes thereof for the reviews as to the initial last day of such in whichever hypotheticals proven thereof; and the same in reference to anyone involved from the state of Texas specifically regarding how I wound up in Washington state being able to be prosecuted for all such crimes as to the facts thereof from the last start date as to ever continuing such crimes would be able to be worked backwards for the example of ClubFEM, as to the situation if any such connections of the stalking/harassing/invasion of privacy/recording illegally of any type in what is expected as a private location/etcetera in conjunction to my Medal of Honor Art Project trips of which in conjunction with “The Modern Day Book By: Reverend Susan MeeLing” details thereof and so on and so forth which also extends to the SCUBA Diving and other such portions explained in all of the combined aspects of all of my non-fiction writings for all such connection points thereof for the crimes backwards from the hypothetical of if in reference to today 3 September 2021 which in turn would automatically extend both to my son #Letters4James as well as my daughter #Letters4Lida though they would have to be taken into custody for the processing of the situations regarding the mental health facility aspects for the corrections as to the actual medical treatments for their benefits in comparison to the hypothetical test trials of any such medications since being involved with all of my ex-in-laws as to the foster care system aspects and such connected portions thereof.



Then there is the facts regarding the year of my SCUBA Diving certifications being a reversed spiritual number combination as to when adding the 1+1 = 2 as to the year of 2009 regarding how all such portions had gone in the references thereof as well as all such portions found, of which the reality of all such connected aspects as to the ease of seeing how my biological sister’s political family marriage being easily manipulated as to the ways of the SCUBA Diving Instructors from the Carrollton Texas area in both NAUI as well as PADI because of their hypothetical jealousy and envy as to wishing they could be able to go to where I had gone and wishing as to being able to actually have the genuine experiences of being in the waters of the ocean where I had been. While some may have assumed as to boasting or pride back in the years of posting such images through my original #Facebook Facebook and #fetlife fetlife accounts as clarified, in comparison it was helpful for the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as the ability to keep everything together and organized as per common sense.



Should it took a head injury to figure out there was nothing to be jealous of in those regards as the reality of being able to have such an experience in the SCUBA Diving areas I went to, means you would have had to experience every individual aspect of my entire life and every individual second thereof?



Does it took a head injury to figure out there is nothing and that is nothing to actually be jealous of, as I did not think it took a head injury to figure out if you yourselves do not like you own lives then what would make you think you would do any better in someone else’s life in their position and their proverbial and metaphorical shoes?



Who would think it takes a head injury to figure out just because you wear someone else’s outfit as clothing, does not actually ever transfer anything from them to you?



Why would it take a head injury to figure out to earn an experience regarding the work of which is involved in my type of SCUBA Diving, means the requirements thereof all experiences having to be personally done the exact same way without messing one individual portion of such up?



I did not think it took a head injury to figure out when I told you there was nothing to be jealous of, the facts of telling you the truth.



Though does it take head injury top point that portion out of which to keep yourself maintained as per the realness of the seven deadly sins, in such regards as to such problems thereof having needed to be found for the patterns of such types of behaviour?



Why would it take a head injury to figure out that an individual admitting to tampering with SCUBA Diving gear is automatically a prosecutable offence of attempted murder, as per the requirement as to SCUBA Diving gear to go SCUBA Diving?



As that was admitted during a set of phone calls in reference to that male having admitted such on the phone as well as having admitted the portions of other aspects thereof, I did not think it took a head injury that was the time when the law enforcement should have gone to actually take care of the situation as per the justice due to me for all such aspects as to what occurred because of the situations caused by such a monstrosity of a so-called person being within the SCUBA Diving community as well as a SCUBA Diving Instructor.


Who would ever want to be certificated by a SCUBA Diving Instructor or associated with such a SCUBA Diving group and/or types thereof for such aspects as to having caused such problems as well as the after portions thereof, when SCUBA Diving is already something you have to get additional insurance for if you want protection?



Who would ever want to be involved with SCUBA Diving for the aspects of such having taken the length of time it has taken to actually have such brought forward by those who knew me in the truthful ways thereof, in comparison to the biases and discriminations as well as sexual harassment and sexual discrimination as occurred throughout the state of Texas as per each of my 25 of 26 SCUBA Diving certifications? The aspects as to the disgusting comment about the sea cucumber as to any sort of phallic reference while on a SUCBA Diving trip to earn 2 of my SCUBA Diving certifications as to the references repeatedly of getting wet and the laughter thereof after wards about such portions, where in comparison I was giggling and excited to get to my work. The amount of overtly disgusting references to various aspects of the male genitalia in my direction only when I went through each and every SCUBA Diving certification regarding from certain SCUBA Diving Instructors comparatively though in addition to the classroom references from some of the other students to such aspects, in conjunction in reference to the aspects of International SCUBA compared to the SCUBA Toys location when at the lake and no one standing up to say a word while the rolling of the eyes or the shrugging of the shoulders took place referencing such being asked for yourselves when good people stand or sit by and do nothing. I told plenty of people throughout the SCUBA Diving community as to the reasons why I was getting involved with SCUBA Diving to which the facts of earning 26 SCUBA Diving certifications while constantly being harassed as well as sexually harassed as well as commented with discriminatory references as to my biological birth gender as per the rampant sexism throughout the overall aspects at the time of 2009 as well as the fact one of my bathing suits was stolen from the area when I went into the water and the prior comments which had been made already regarding the behaviours thereof; I do not forgive any such aspects and additionally, how open is the area of which my bathing suit was put to dry out? Which specifically proves the facts of how I was treated at each of my SCUBA Diving certification classes whether I was at which ever body of water and/or whichever certification thereof, except for the class certifications which I was the only one student at the class for the SCUBA Diving certification with only one other regarding my SCUBA Diving Instructor.



In the same aspects thereof though specifically in reference to my SCUBA Diving accomplishments and my books I authored and put together for my creations of, as I have already gone over how there has not been given any granting of any permission to use my SCUBA Diving books in any capacity because of the legal requirements of my work of my SCUBA Diving which all of such is proven by my works and records thereof; as my cellphone company would be able to prove the cellphone records as to who actually had been where as well as which discussions thereof, as per the NSA Homeland Security aspects which Edward Snowden had brought forward regarding the truth of all such portions thereof within the NSA, as well as other government branches and divisions thereof. The clarifications of what was required was the portions of clearing the aspects in the conjunction aspects as to the social media technology device usages and by who as to clear all such portion for the prior written portions to clarify the one and only person who has ever accomplished all such feats, with the proof thereof as a quick additional appreciation to POTUS45 and family and staff who had made the trip to the Austin Apple location for the clarifications as to being able to notice such though additionally respect the election process and the #electionintegrity election integrity and #factchecking fact checking portions because of the fact of not having spoken with POTUS45 in person. Which though a part of the #Republican Republican party, the aspects of which if there has been an investigation as to the depth levels (pun intended) as to the situations regarding what occurred in reference to my SCUBA Diving and how such had occurred to begin with; I am uncertain as to what the legal portions are for such aspects thereof, regarding investigation coverages depending upon the choices and situations thereof in reference to the influences.



How many technology towers were/are nearby the Clear Spring SCUBA Park, in the references thereof for the discussions which had occurred? Remember, all SCUBA Divers and all SCUBA Diving Instructors in the timeframe of 2009 were completely informed as to the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury of which they all knew how to do arithmetic correctly or they would not have been allowed to be SCUBA Diving Instructors; which by technicalities in reference to Cozumel/Cancun and that particular timeframe, what are the laws in reference to such aspects in that particular country for what had occurred in regards to the other SCUBA Divers who were all informed as well as the SCUBA Diving Instructor? Additionally as it was known about my Blue Identification Card of/for the United States of America’s Armed Forces, what does that mean in reference to the push for me to go to Cancun/Cozumel instead of where I had preferred in the United States of America? What are possible legal terminology for such aspects especially when taking into consideration of having told the male who I had to deal with as a roommate who I had told Patti Stewart I did not want to have a roommate though the comments thereof regarding such, in reference to the male who was in the room who had admitted on the phone call when I was in Washington state in 2019 when speaking with him for such clarification purposes as to what I had remembered to clearly be able to bring such forward as well as the Corona situations? Is that considered as per the alcohol put into my hand of the Corona beer, as to contributing to the delinquency of a minor because of the aspects as to having explained as to having to be taught the name of colors as well as having to be taught how to count to ten because of the problems and damages after waking up from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury or TBI? Can/could satellites capture images and/or videos and/or recordings of such, and what about those transmissions of the aspects to the US Space Force in the Department of Defense?



I did not think it took a head injury to figure out there additionally is something called to the accomplice to cover up a crime of assistance to after the fact regarding my SCUBA Diving and all such situations in reference to my SCUBA Diving gear #UHAUL UHAUL situation, or whatever the specific correct wording which still means the same thing.






It is an irony as to the location for one hospital in San Antonio compared to the name of the funeral home, when looking over such aspects of which the portions of what my ex-in-laws owe in comparison to ever wishing to be paid by me for what they had ordered and what they had said they would pay for the extras of; the reality of which I have not ever been required for such legal responsibilities as to their financial aspects thereof, which is not my fault if those people did not pay as they said they were going to and my son and my daughter and I did not need any additional problems from such types of so-called people in the references of if there is any connected portion to such aspects. Though I did go walking around for the aspects to keep in mind referencing if there has been any additional occurrences which has pun intended arisen from the situations if there was hypothetically any problems which should not have ever been directed in my direction, as to such realities as I had told people since having been out of Medical Hold Unit in December of 2000 to then be medically retired from the Army.



In such references additionally, the fact of which in the year of 2019 had been the first time I had ever seen or met with a CID agent as told in civilian clothing while carrying a firearm. I had not ever been inside of that office on #JBSA Joint Base San Antonio where anyone in the office was wearing civilian clothing, as every time prior each were wearing BDUs or a version of a class A uniform. If that is a new protocol I was not informed of such changes though additionally have not kept up with certain changes in uniform attire since my infuriation regarding the Ranger beret regarding how the color went from black to tan, as it made little sense to break traditions as to the portions of why the beret was the color black to begin with. Grandpa Nichols and I went on about that for hours one afternoon at his house back when I first read about it and went to take my son and my daughter to go to see my now ex-in-laws, as he and I were infuriated as to such aspects while all of the others in the house as well as my now dead-ex-husband could not see why such was extremely important. While I know there are reasons to change out the uniforms after a certain amount of time because of the known stolen valor problems over the decades and why such changes have been made to prevent the problems thereof, however that seemingly is a #Bandaid Band-Aid to a gushing wound in comparison when looking at the fact I had written about the truth in reference to Graham Central Station and the stolen valor though not fully because of the aspects of that individual having a military identification card when I had checked such as per my commanding him to prove his verification. In turn the fact as to Graham Central Station being closed down as well as the fact as to all of the signs around San Antonio which say “Military City USA” in my opinion, shows how many times as to having to deal with finding others who have stolen valor incorrectly and having to deal with such situations thereof usually in a bar location or a dance club location sadly and yet thankfully to be able to find a way to end such problems.


Thus while my son and my daughter had seen my metaphorical wings as they grew up when shielding them and protecting them from their biological father, what my daughter had told the staff at McCoy Elementary School was the truth the whole time as to what she had seen and they equated it to other children who were watching Wizards at Waverly Place in comparison to the truth of what my daughter and my son had seen me do in person. While such a time my son and my daughter in the years of and after 2008 as to the amount of work I had done to keep them and I safe in the best ways I possibly could, my son and my daughter also knew when I had gotten my surgeries as well as knew they saw me taking care of my house in Carrollton as I have discussed as well as I have described of which if Cactus Jack AKA Jeffrey Kuykendall Jr had been honest; he would have clarified as to the fact as to what work I was doing around my house such as all of the cooking, all of the cleaning, though I could not handle doing the gardening for awhile because of the healing processes as I had three surgeries in a less than 5 month timeframe.



When I had begun my SCUBA Diving certification classes both my son and my daughter would see me studying my books while they played in the backyard and when we would talk whether during snack time or whichever meal, we would have discussions about various topics. My daughter knew what work I had been putting into everything I was working on and she began studying books from her library with me, as did my son at times. Some days and afternoons we would all be reading and working on our studies and other times one or both would be running around and playing whether in the backyard or in my house, as I did as I needed to do for myself and my classes. My son and my daughter knew of each certification class I was taking at each time as we would speak more than apparently as I learned what some others have had in whichever circumstances thereof for themselves as to their parents/guardians, which my daughter was as determined as ever to have a similar hairstyle to me because of how much she had been inspired by what she was seeing at home. As those at McCoy Elementary School claimed they thought it was child abuse as to me allowing my daughter to have a similar-ish hairstyle to my hairstyle, those people at McCoy Elementary School and with the city of Carrollton Texas in various locations had acted the same towards us. My son and my daughter watched as their Mom defended the choices I had made as others who have been in Texas know how the commentary goes in the passive aggressive ways as to wishing to being coy and actually being minimally as possible in any such ways to a New Jersey-ian, of which those who know New Jersey-ians, that is not how you earn the respect from one. Similarly, that is not how you earn the respect from someone who is a part of the Armed forces of/for the United States of America of whichever branch and/or division thereof; especially during such times, as then in the years there in Carrollton Texas of 2008-2010.



Of which in reference to my SCUBA Diving and the ways I was particularly treated as well as viewed and commented about to my face at the different locations during the array of the SCUBA diving certification classes, as the truth of 24 of my 26 SCUBA Diving certification classes having been not any different referencing the comments made on the flight from the DFW airport to the Cancun/Cozumel Airport throughout at random times being absolutely disgraceful referencing what others had been allowed to do as well as had been allowed to speak about in comparison. The reality of the 10 year mark as to which they had the option to admit such portions they had done between the time of 2009 onward, of which unbeknownst to them at the times in 2019 as to how I would walk away completely from that groups of individuals permanently as I had informed them of my involvement with my medical retirement and reasons as to why I personally had gotten involved with SCUBA Diving. While there are a few times of which such types of discussions had not officially been as bad as others referencing the portions thereof such as being told by William Talent or who I have called SCUBuddah as to the song he had referenced as to #Nickelback Nickelback and the song called Sex, in regards as to the situations fully explained at such times of the sexual harassment as well as the sexual discrimination.


Since there are females who have graduated Basic Training and AIT, is there any portion of which the reference to the percentage number of males to the field of SCUBA Diving during the timeframe of the year of 2009 which can be cross-referenced to the treatment in certain situations regarding various situations within the various branches and divisions of the Armed Forces of the United States of America which can be noticed in the ways as to such SCUBA Diving Instructors and/or situations have been? Especially if such had been seen and heard by others as at such times, referencing the ways in which such comments were made in multiple groups of multiple times in multiple locations as to the various usually male SCUBA Diving Instructors at the various locations; of which again, how many years out from my coma was I? If wanting to go back in time a bit further in comparison as I had told such SCUBA Diver Instructors as to having had the subarachnoid hemorrhage which took over 4.5 years to begin to dissipate and the aspects thereof being their profession and business, what is the arithmetic if the final portions of the last remaining portions of what was the aspects of my subarachnoid hemorrhage had been gone towards the end of 2007 or beginning of 2008; how many years out of such a situation, would that make me in reference to years old? Is the correct answer, one year old? However as per legalities again, I have proven to be capable to maintain myself enough to the minimum requirement as to what the various levels look at regarding certain aspects. Such as since I can make sure my bills are paid on time, I am responsible enough to manage my finances. As I have made sure to maintain myself in the general health way as to a daily shower as well as clean clothing, the same aspect is able to be notated. As I keep my living/work space clean and use the sanitation cleaning chemicals I use, there is the additional aspect of such requirements to proving of being able to function properly enough.



It is known I had gone to the specific medical facility I was told to go to in order to check up on the feelings of which were needing to be reviewed as to what I had been informed to do in reference to the appointment with Dr. Kerry in reference to after I had informed him of my SCUBA Diving as well as having informed him of the situations which were occurring up to such a point in time as I had not seen him from the years of 2007 through to 2012 until my first appointment at the Selma area Veteran Medical Facility, and as he had told me of the need to go as per the amount of reminders in that one appointment mainly; I had gone to such recently of which in the fact of being sort-of medically looked over as the fact as to not having had the stethoscope portion to listen to my lungs, or any other normal vital sign checks beyond the temperature as well as the pulse with the blood pressure check the proof of being released shows additionally of my health despite being a lot to be able to transfer where I needed to.



As per the portions of having specifically brought up to the staff as to the reasons why I was there in minimal parts, the ways of such treatment as to the portions of the US Navy SEALs as well as MARCON and Special Forces who have SCUBA Diving backgrounds specifically, shows if they have had such similar aspects of the ways to speaking with the medical staff at a Navy Medical hospital as Walter Reed is known for such connections as well as such carelessness for their medical treatments when taking into considerations the training in conjunction with the work and employment styles thereof; for the medical aspects which are of concern regarding what they have brought up to their doctors over the years and what they have needlessly been ignored in my opinion without official context thereof, as to the medical treatments for the conditions thereof if they were feeling symptoms in such aspects. However more recently I can remember listening to #VigilanceElite Vigilance Elite having said something about the medical care, after I had finally had the transfer go through in regards of what had been dealt with in reference to the apartment and apartment complex management company referencing such aspects after arriving having noticed such though before ever finding Vigilance Elite having known and thought of such in which I had remembered the discussion with Dr. Kerry about such aspects.



As I had not been asked anything about what I personally had been feeling at such times as the staff’s focus instead was on the aspects of what I had been told to do as to going to Walter Reed if I felt the need to go for my health. In turn the evaluation process was not what was needed at such time, though the proof as to a multifaceted aspect since the #POTUS President of the United States of America and the #VPOTUS Vice President of the United States of America have been known to get medical treatment at the facility of. However I specifically did not ever request anyone’s assistance regarding the aspects of my SCUBA Diving work, for the clarification portions thereof as asking for knowledge is not the same thing as asking for assistance officially in regards of the Jewish Medical Journal email I sent; of which since I additionally had not been able to go over such details with the medical aspects thereof when at Walter Reed, there has not been the aspects of which my medical aspects to bring such forward to discuss as per the in person requirements thereof for the actual references to such questions either. There is not the need to go over such outside of a medical facility, as per the ways such questions are supposed to be asked and answered in such medical question portions thereof.



In turn while I had enjoyed the ability to see the areas I had and additionally enjoyed taking a detour to go to the beach, the aspects thereof as to the seriousness and severity of such portions was fully ignored by the staff in such reference aspects in which it seems as though such portions have become far too common in far too many areas as the complacency of such has not been helpful for many individuals with such backgrounds for several decades back to around the timing of the Vietnam War for such aspects thereof. In turn the portions of which has not been helpful nor assistive to the additional portions as to how certain types of civilians have gone through with other needless problems as to the treatment of those who had been in whichever branch or division thereof the Armed Forces of the United States of America, though also shows the lack of paying attention to details in reference to the reality of which I have dealt with needlessly as to the aspects of having acknowledged I did not graduate Basic Training and the discriminatory treatment from multiple individuals who have graduated and gone on to do as what-have-you as well as having been in the state of Texas when I woke up from my coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 had injury; think about how you have treated my son and my daughter and I, which unlike their biological father I did not ever steal valor and yet I have been treated by such hypothetically, how?



You have treated my dead-ex-husband when he was alive better than I have been treated regarding quite a few situations realistically, which I suppose there is that childhood saying come to life for you. If you love him so much, why don’t you marry him? Right? I guesstimate such makes a bit more sense, as to that fact.



I did not ever ask for such assistance nor did I give any information which would have been allowed for you to use for any such research within the United States of America, of which the facts thereof as to the situations as to how such hypotheticals have gone including in reference to any dating and/or friendship and/or acquaintance and/or what could have been considered as like family and/or etcetera; at the end portions of the “Finding A Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing” in reference to the documents as well as the legal suggestions was the only portion of that book which was ever officially or unofficially asked for such assistances to, as my SCUBA Diving work has as I have repeatedly told people in person as well as in reference to writing such online, I have not give the permission for anyone to complete any of the training aspects thereof in regards of my SCUBA Diving books as the requirements as to the instructor portions are not for consideration when I learned what I learned for such before I ever went into get my SCUBA Diving certifications as explained in the first volume book as well as in the second volume book of my three volume book series of “The Adventures of Susan MeeLing, SCUBA Diver Extraordinaire By: Reverend Susan MeeLing”; especially any and all connections regarding what occurred to my daughter/my son/I because of those so-called people in the state of Texas in the Carrollton and other such areas.



I did not think it took a head injury to figure out just as the permissions were and are mandatory for any such usage as to what I had described after I had created the video of my creation of the Underwater Wedding during my Underwater SCUBA Diving certification class, any such try would shorten the distance to the depths of SCUBA Diving you would be allowed to go to for any such usages thereof without my permission and the possibilities of the actual death and/or injury while doing so or possibly thereafter would be a higher risk than SCUBA Diving itself.



Does it or should it take a head injury to figure out any SCUBA Diver and/or SCUBA Diving Instructor who had been at the Clear Springs SCUBA Park when I had been SCUBA Diving in the year of 2009, as well as the same in reference to those connected to such as at any point in time who would be ignorant to think lying to me would ever be a safer choice than to telling me thew truth, would show exactly why those times?



I had told SCUBA Divers not to go to the Valhalla SCUBA Diving location as it was irresponsible to do so within having specific gear thereof would mean all such aspects proven as to the types of games those types of people have been willing to play and the statute of limitations for attempted murder as well as accomplice to after the fact of murder, do not ever get dropped nor do they ever change for those directly involved regarding the specific knowledge thereof with the exception of for my son and my daughter in the after the fact portion because of the facts to the timing thereof though specifically the location of being at one of the water areas which I had earned some of my SCUBA Diving certifications. I hope such portions are enough to bring forward such prosecutions against all who had been a part of the hypothetical cover up to my SCUBA Diving in all ways, as per whatever lies which were wrongly accused in my direction which in the proverbial aspect thereof:



Ye without sin, cast the first stone.



To which in my opinion their needless interference has accomplished what no one has before in conjunction with the adult consenting lifestyle groups in reference to the specific aspects as to the #BDSM BDSM/#Swingers Swinger portions as what my now dead-ex-husband could not get me to do before referencing not wanting to have the slightest involvement with such individuals as per the situations thereof regarding the truth being told as mandatory. I did not ever think there would be a day when I was a child growing up in the tristate area of which I would ever have to think about how to explain of ways to approach in truth, when in person. I had thought all people had told the truth which is hypothetically irony in reference to the Amish, the Mennonites, smaller towns within the United States of America, and other countries in reference to being told the truth whether online and/or in person. I did not ever think whether as a biological child or a biological adult as to ever thinking there would ever be anyone who would lie so much that there would be a need to ever think about a writing needed for such aspects, though I am glad I paid attention to the news when I was growing up in New Jersey as to being able to read about various warnings which many had discussed the dangers of being on video games as well as the movies being released at such times in the 1980s and 1990s depending upon what you had watched and been interested in. Though I do not remember any warnings about those who do the #RennaissanceFair Renaissance Fairs or any warnings about the aspects thereof as to how such has bled from the areas thereof into the general public areas, as to the situations which I have seen and noticed.



In the aspects of being a Dominant in my life 24/7 means to be in control of myself and in control of my responses as best as I possibly can in every such possible way, of which whatever others’ viewpoints as to what they have considered as a Dominant whether male or female is as such. The reality of which I suppose is an additional factor to review is the word aspects as where there is Facebook the reference to the word book for such, to the aspect of the word in the word fetlife as to the term life; as to the metaphor of which is there a psychological aspect to seeing the words each time of going to in which the aspects to the differences between which as the flashing lights behind the computer screen affect and impact the ways which in Japan during the 1990s as to the ways of the video games because of the types of technology pieces in such areas at those times, compared to the aspects of what is more commonly used now to such a reference aspect for such reviewals? The wondering thereof additionally as to how such a possible impact referencing the psychological health and well being in regards as to the problematic situations which I had written about and others had been told of in reference to Alicia, and when she had found me passed out on the back patio because of the flashing computer laptop screen from what had been on that screen at the time as I had told people about though no one cared at such times as it had not impacted them yet.



I have fully walked away from the portions thereof both aspects in reference to the BDSM/Swinger aspects as well as walked away from the civilian versions of any involvement with such types of SCUBA Divers in which to involve myself with on the levels once possibly thought of or pushed for and had been informed, as in reference to the SCUBA Divers I had met in person I was not interested in those people in the ways they had tried pushing me towards as per multiple discussions regarding such. Several male SCUBA Divers used the saying of ‘she doth protesteth too much’, which I repeatedly told “No” to such male SCUBA Divers more specifically certain SCUBA Diving Instructors in the area of Clear Springs SCUBA Park which by the way, the legal transfer of ownership had occurred both in reference to Clear Springs SCUBA Park as well as International SCUBA for the reference to the aspects as to Medical Hold Unit to Warrior Transition Unit as well as the fact of Medical Hold Unit from one area on Fort Sam Houston to the area closer to BAMC/SAMC to the aspects of at one point in time there were two International SCUBA Diving shops as one was in Garland and there is the one left in Carrollton Texas.



Let me guess, one of two things occurred. One the pool foundation cracked and was cheaper to put the building for lease on the market until the price had dropped low enough to be able to get a fixer upper price, which is a stereotypical thing for real estate practices when the insurance company will not pay for such damages to be fully replaced because of the costs involved and thus the fact of waiting until the lease drops down in price to be able to afford to then put in a new pool as per the costs thereof. Or was it the other choice which having been the last place I had gone to go into the pool area after I had gone SCUBA Diving at the Peacock Springs Caverns of which because I did not wear that SCUBA Diving gear that I wore when I was at the USS/USNS General Hoyt S Vandenberg, the wishes to ever consider such as a different type of Mikvah without my permission to begin with and the Thou shalt not take/covet in vanity aspects? Again revert to the truth about the area of Clear Springs SCUBA Park and know, that is only a wish of yours and the effects of such should have begun to start sinking in in reference to the aspects as to the truthful intentions thereof as to what occurrences thereof because of the fact of being an Ordained Reverend and the portions of which require my personal permission in reference to such Laws of the Ocean; of which the weather, has always been based from the ocean for clarification. The disgust as to how I was treated for such portions to ever be thought to be considered as acceptable for any such hypothetical references the latter of the two portions, as to how I would and do view that particular aspect if such portions thereof.



When it got to the point of telling those same SCUBA Divers which includes Instructors for clarifications the word “Red” as to their needless advances as their thought as to how they had viewed dating, was not what I was interested in any of those individuals at such times. as I explained my reasons clearly beforehand as to my purposes to getting involved during such times with the exception of one SCUBA Diving Instructor though because of my particular morals and ethics as to why I had not made any attempts to get his attention in the ways of which I had been interested in because of my particular ways. Aside from the fact I look as I do and while I do have the hairstyle and the tattoos I have had put into my skin, I do not actually find males with a lot of tattoos appealing in such ways and thus the fact of being opposite in that regards as to the amount of tattoos and reasons thereof compared to someone who did not have tattoos or many tattoos to think would ever look at me in such a way seemed impossible.



If I were to have a type then the only things which would be as such in the physical aspect is clean cut hair as well as minimal tattoos if any at all and while I can be attracted to such with some tattoos depending upon the reason(s) for the tattoos, I suppose it might be considered as odd to some as to the ways which I personally look at such because of the amount of tattoos I have. Despite having the physical appearance as I do, I do not nor have I actually ever liked my own tattoos as per the knowledge and understanding and comprehension as to why each minute detail for each individual tattoo and each individual curvature to each individual location in all such connected portions as to each of the reasons as to the overall portions has not ever been something I have ever actually liked as it is just another reminder as to the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury in other ways as per having to get to that point.



In reference to the BDSM/Swinger portions it was only for discussions as per the times to be in ways of adult aspects while in control of what I chose or chose not to get involved with, unlike what I had dealt with previously and yet due to the problems which have occurred; I can see how such portions were not ever as such to which the lack of in person involvement to any such lifestyle portion has been the ways it has been, as per the ways which I had admitted in person as well as online to my name and explained such referencing the aspects as to being known as additionally the name of Lady Dori Belle when I was asked in 2017. It only took from winding up in Washington state in 2013 to 2017 for anyone to ever ask me in truth about such portions at any point in time, of which if there was the knowledge aside from the fact I wrote such on the paperwork in reference to both the Velvet Rope location as well as Club Sapphire paperwork in reference to the name I had gone by in the lifestyle in different measures of the discussions though only 2 discussions in total. One which I had brought it up and the other where it was brought up to me, of which both discussions were in truth on my side as to if it was already known as to who I had been the whole time than the problems as to the lack of truth in such locations additionally to the portions of the ways which when in the Dominant Mentor Program had gone in such reference aspects. In turn the portions of which the scene can remain as the scene in the locations thereof as to my lack if interest due to the collective portions thereof across multiple state lines and the same situations in each location having occurred repeatedly in the ways thereof, to which while some could have whatever opinions thereof; again my comfort level to which requires the truth being spoken, is mandatory.


Though I wonder if there were those who knew SCUBA Divers and SCUBA Dive Instructors who could not care about the slightest aspects as to the actual safety of all such portions as per just another day just another dollar sort of view in comparison to the sacrilegious actualities as to all such portions thereof, fully disgusting all other aspects in reference to what I had accomplished and earned on my own and yet having the nerve and the disgusting portions of such haughtiness to ever think such arrogance would ever be considered as acceptable in regards as to the ignoring of the fact of who I am in such regards in the actual truths thereof. What is it that was wished to be achieved in such references? Ironically I do like the song by #ChristinaAguilera Christina Aguilera of the Genie song, though none have correctly rubbed in the proper ways of which would ever be considered as acceptable in such reference aspects and in such regards as to the aspects of sexual harassment additionally to such portions in full thereof. I loathe all of you if I am accurate, and please comprehend as to such aspects towards the oceanic aspects thereof to the rising of the oceanic waters for such references to other such realities as to what has occurred.



Why did I ever bother to actually save the people of earth from such situations, I truly do wonder at this point. My son would not have had to deal with all such portions, my daughter would not have had to deal with such portions, and I without a doubt would not have ever had to deal with such portions.



Though nothing new as to that spiritual marriage portion to my dead-ex-husband as he had sold what was not his to ever sell of mine to others, thinking that he could make a fast dollar until some people learned of what was occurring and then all of a sudden he was in the ground; though it took a year or two, it still occurred fairly quickly when he had confessed as to what had been done and what he was scared of from all the occurrences as to what was realized in reference to me.



It is not an option it is mandatory as such is non-negotiable in both aspects regarding SCUBA Diving as well as in the BDSM/Swinger portions thereof, at all times. Aside from the fact of the feeling which children who think the way to be big is to stand up to the largest individual and then run off as a child does after annoyingly poking or bothering the bigger aspects, in reference to SCUBA Diving the only way to get the attention in which was hypothetically sought is to drop down to the bottom of the ocean yourself and meet with them yourself. That is the only option for those hypotheticals as to what I have picked up in reference to the annoyances thereof, to which you are more than welcome to go drop down to the bottom of the ocean yourself to speak with such individuals yourself as annoying me will only rile them up to case damages to the land aspects which people live upon. Thus the typical human being behaviour such as at a bar situation with known aspects of Armed Forces branches and division types of individuals in the location to the alcohol aspect in comparison to ever thinking about the fact I was in the ocean fir such aspects and not on land for those regards, means you would have to go into the ocean to drop down to where I had gone to then speak with them yourself in person at the bottom of the ocean and I am not referring to my tattoo either.



I do not recommend it because of the high risk aspects as to the lack of ability to successfully go through all of the Sphinx-type of aspects upon getting there; however if you feel you are big enough to cause problems to me instead of what it would take for you to have such for yourself personally, you would have to drop down in the same type of SCUBA Diving gear and nothing more than the exact type of SCUBA Diving gear I had worn to then deal with all the aspects thereof in the ocean.



If the preference is to not go to the area yourself which I recommend the latter portion as to not going though if you feel risky enough you can do so at your own discretion and at your own risk, then you have to simply accept the fact as to who I am and respect such correctly.



I am not the one who has been causing the problems regarding the land situations, it is all of those who have purposefully been making the choices to cause needless problems as to the situations thereof who have been the cause of the additional problems to the land as well as to the water. Thus if you want to feel big and bad then go do what I did in reference to dropping down yourself, otherwise the aspects of which those needless annoyances as to what I have already dealt with are only causing needless problems to the waters as seen in reference to Clear Springs SCUBA Park though additionally because of the knowledge as to the 10 Commandments having been broken by each individual in such aspects at that location on top of the additional portions of having ignored the 10 year anniversary of my survival of such feats which in turn the lack of respect shown in such ways in that particular location specifically because of my person ties to what once was there as to the works I had done referencing getting the endangered species to grow fruitfully among all of my SCUBA Diving certifications I earned at that location as well to having created my Underwater Wedding which again there is not one person who has ever been given permission to ever complete my idea especially in that location.



With the graveyard nearby as well as the fact as to my Medal of Honor Art Project, how do some review how my swimming went when at Clear Springs SCUBA Park and picking up on the details while being informed by the species who told on those SCUBA Divers and such portions thereof to me? I know there has to have been those who knew there were cellphone an electrical towers around that area of water to which in turn, the fact of which situations have brought forward the additional needless problems from such abominations of marriages that were unapproved and the situations thereof to those who assisted and/or promoted such meant and means those people are responsible as to your spiritual marriages in the ways I have already described as such because they knew it was fully mine to choose.



What is it that right to choose situation to which Democrats supposedly support, in such references to the aspects thereof? What is it in reference to required consent in such regards as BDSM/Swinger aspects in such adult consenting lifestyle ways as to which the discussions require words for the consent. Thus again while I



and if something occurred in that sort of way then would be discussed as to such portions, of which the realities as to the lack of any applicants in the larger numbers meant the lack of interest as seen from such portions of the lack of responses in the required ways at such times for my personal comfort level.



In reference to the civilian aspects of the SCUBA Diving which others were a part of despite my SCUBA Diving certifications I earned, what a similar situation as to the treatment from such SCUBA Divers as to the people I had gone to the Excalibur Faire with who once were considered as more than what they had degraded themselves to. Again the irony in reference to the voting portions thereof as to the flip flopping problems within the political spectrum as being truthful to who one is during the switchover to the modern era of which when the fact checking and the election integrity were brought forward was seen to me at minimum by the updating aspects of the years, as to the 2004 timeframe update to the year of 2020 as to a smaller aspect of the technological social media revolution. In such a revolution as seen all such merging portions as I already described in prior postings as well as this particular journal blog entry in which admitting my upset due to the levels of which the pain levels have yet to subside which is nothing new from when my now dead-ex-husband was alive as all he would ever do was cause me more pain and not ever the comfort I needed and I required; which in such reference portions such can be seen in the multitude of ways regarding the in person treatment, as well as the ostracizing portions as per the ways of when I was kept locked away in a room while protecting my children after having dealt with the ramifications of daring to be a Mom. In turn those particular times of the year of 2004 in my life are the ways of which the updating portions can be seen, in which the fires from the laptop situation as well as the aspects of my healing energy capabilities as well as additional power sources for such additional aspects to what energetically I can already do gets amplified and strengthened further though ironically at the timing of the update as to the timing of which was just before the separation point and instead of the ways which some might have viewed in other references; I do not need to repeat history to learn.



Since they view college as important for the aspects which they specifically view one piece of paper compared to accomplishments in a combination thereof, I do not think it takes a head injury to see the reference aspects as to Excalibur Faire aspects to the portions referencing my biological mother and my biological sister in specific. However it additionally would not surprise me if the attempt to arrange a marriage situation and speaking with my biological father to him pointing towards my biological sister as per the ways of such thought processes and belief systems to work within the state of Texas as per the situations already having described and discussed as to such, of which do you in the state of Texas actually want your state and all cities and areas to be the exact same as what occurred in reference to the New Jersey and New York as well as Pennsylvania areas? You chose to keep those people in your direct contact areas in comparison to ever keeping me in the genuine honest truths, of which did you expect something different from them only because they physically look more aligned to a Texan compared to physically being aligned as to how people from the areas of New Jersey and New York as well as Pennsylvania look?



My hair color as well as my hairstyle, is extremely New Jersey as well as extremely each one of the 5 main boroughs as a physical viewpoint as to my direct connection including the portions physically of those I spent more time with in person referencing specific areas of Pennsylvania as well as my memories of where I grew up walking around with the people who I had spent time with in person when in the areas at such times; just as my biological sister and her physical appearance reflects where she had been which is irony, as to how many considered me as the sheltered one comparatively. However my viewpoints and my personality traits as well as my beliefs and patterns of behaviour encompass all of the areas in the states of New Jersey, New York, and Pennsylvania compared to the perceived aspects which Texans who only know of such through the pop culture reference would have the incorrect view points of such portions as per the biases already having gone over in such multitude of references. In turn the tattoos I have in the ways thereof additionally prove as to where I grew up walking around as per the symbolism in addition to the portions of the reasons for my tattoos, which aligns in the history portions of tattoos within the east coast areas as to having a meaning behind as well as for each possible viewpoint as to getting a tattoo in comparison to how the view points were in the state of Texas over the times I had been there.



For those who had problems with my tattoos and my hair, why would you ever go to the east coast for anything if you have ever had a problem with such and additionally to my wording; why would you ever go anywhere near the east coast for any aspects other than to cause drama needlessly, which the east coast has always known how to deal with such types of people upon finding out such connection portions. How has such a connection portions of what I rebelled against in reference to the view points of my biological mother, biological father, and biological sister differed from what the true view points of Texans are if you were to only look at the view points in comparison to the physical view thereof?



Similarly to when people had taken the wording from the 2016 Presidential debates to compared without the physical view points between then Democrat Nominee Hillary Clinton and Republican Nominee Donald Trump during those times, how can such a reviewal in reference to those people in comparison to myself be reviewed as to who truly is exactly who expressed in comparison to the other portions in reference to my biological mother and my biological sister and my biological father in which circumstances thereof?



I do not think that takes a head injury, to figure that out.



Thus in the reference aspects as to having seen the snippets from the #ParisHilton #YouTube advertisement, I suppose it is not any wonder why I have liked her makeup and purchased such over the years when I have found it as per actually seeing her face in the regards of had seemed a bit surreal knowing the difference as to her looking as she does as also knowing there is the reality of which there is the respect of which to see the aspects of reviewing the makeup portion as to the masking aspect as per make up to me is as the cover up sort of aspect in a different way because of the portions thereof. I could see in the aspects as to my tattoos as to the realities of such before knowing to think about the locations of New York City in such regards and the views of the areas, which those who I knew in the state of Texas had made comments about which I did not understand such pop culture references as they had to be explained to me. However I do remember someone saying she was from New York which upon hearing she was from New York I warned people as to what they said as per the realities of knowing far more than was realized hypothetically by some individuals, of which when taking into consideration of how such situations have occurred regarding stalking across state lines as to my Medal of Honor Art Project; what could have been done which you may have done in reference to the hotel rooms I had booked for myself, and what reference do you know as to such possible situations for you yourselves to take into consideration as to the aspects as to the technology potions and aspects thereof? I have a feeling that there might be those who which in reference to that privacy aspect, might have an unsettling feeling at the pit of their stomach when thinking about any locations which the BDSM aspects as to there not being any way to consent to being hit with an impact aspect within the state of Texas which additionally the sodomy portions to such portions as to laws within the state of Texas and other states as well.



I remember there was a point when I heard Maitresse Renee talking with several females from ClubFEM though I cannot recall which ones who had discussed a scene they were working on to roll up someone they had been contracted for in a carpet, to then put into a trunk to take to her house when out at the restaurant if I remember accurately just before the engagement occurred which was the engagement that I had been informed of others being upset because of simply being excited as to having been able to be a part of such. I did not ever have such an invitation previously before, and had not since as per the situations as to how my life had gone in such ways thereof. However that discussion regarding the carpet situation to essentially kidnap someone when her soon to be fiancé at the time had walked somewhere in the restaurant, which if such occurred and because of the possibility of extortion because of already having gone to a Professional Dominatrix then there is the reality of such additional security problems as to the another day another dollar aspects realistically in reference to the United States of America’s Homeland. However when I had told people of my concern then as well as other times after that, I was laughed at and told they thought I was overreacting because I had already talked about and posted about the threats I had been receiving as to such a point in time. Yet then there is the fact as to how I wound up in Washington state with my minor aged son, and the situations of what occurred regarding my daughter up to then. While additionally remembering as to the other portions since returning to the state of Texas and standing my ground as to when I was in the state as to what had occurred in reference to that fully being considered unacceptable as to what I had dealt with, which when it was time for me to take care of other important aspects in such realities; what other such problems thereof along such ways as to the typical aspects as to certain types of individuals, who only care about what selfish aspects thereof.




I wonder if #EdwardSnowden Edward Snowden had seen as much in regards of the hotel security cameras, all over the place.



It is irony at this point as I suppose I should ask, what does it feel as to be told the truth at all times when speaking with people? What is it to actually be cared about when speaking with others in truth, and what is it to be appreciated without having to put any writings out? What is it to be genuinely cared about, and loved? What is it to be informed of accomplishments in comparison to having to figure it out on one’s own, for such aspects? What is it to be told genuinely a congratulations for achievements, one did on one’s own? What is it to be taken care of correctly without expectations at such times, in return? What is it to actually feel such work is considered as of any importance? What is it to actually be believed, on the first time of explaining a topic? What is it to be taken seriously, despite how physically looking as? What is it to actually feel and genuinely be safe. I suppose such can be written in reference to both before as well as after my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, in regards as to what I have dealt with in the times thereof?

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Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Model Author Susan MeeLing

It should not take a head injury to figure this out because I thought you are supposed, to be smarter.

If there are those who find such interesting enough to research further to bring forward more information in reference to the forefront for more detailed information, as usual I request the courtesy of the same which I do in reference to how I refer to articles for reference points when writing my journal blog entries; for each one used for reference starting points, to research for clearer understanding from such knowledge.

 

That is common sense, good etiquette, and good karma; whilst lifting others upward, in positive ways.

Quotes which mean a lot to me:

"The ultimate measure of an individual is not where they stand in moments of comfort and convenience, but where they stand at the time of challenge and controversy."

"We must reject the idea that every time a law is broken society is guilty, rather than the law breaker.  Freedom is never-more than one generation away, from extinction.  We do not pass freedom on through our blood stream because freedom must be fought for, protected, and handed on for the next generation to do the same."

"Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.  Though best to be able to share in person with who matters, until that time occurs being able to see what is possible through such is a feat to notice.  One must be happy within oneself prior to being happy with another, though such can be enjoyed if living in one's own truth is as such. and then as to the capability to progress forward with another and/or others depending upon the situation(s) and individual(s)."  ~  A Quote From Me, Reverend Susan MeeLing also known as Lady Dori Belle

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