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It should not take a head injury
*after personally sustaining a head injury & coma*
to figure this out...

 
 
 
 
 
 


After a Drill Sergeant threw Me into the metal part of the bunk when I was in Basic Training for the United States of America's Army branch at Fort Sill Oklahoma #FortSill #FortSillOK #FortSillOklahoma #OK #Oklahoma in the year of 2000 on Psalm Sunday, I have dealt with the situations as best as I have been capable to do so while taking care of the situations and asking for assistance as per the required explanations of the information to such facts first.  While making the attempts to get assistance for the aspects thereof as to the reality, the aspects of where and when as to the multiple attempts to ask for assistance for me.  As my journal blog for when I was ready to bring such as to my other works forward since as to the lengths of time as to where my modeling was as to the modeling page information, just as the other pages have the information as to such specifics, and just as this journal blog of mine is as to such facts.


If I had real friends (if as to having met in person face to face in person in real life as to the aspects of this particular reference such as from the state of Texas as to the state of Washington as to the years of 2000 through 2013 if I met within the state of Texas for such references), real (the areas of the tristate region as before the year of 2000) family, and real relationships in real life that recognized me as to the aspects of if as to the face to face in person who started in truth as I had started such in truth as to the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, as well as the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain that took 8.5 years to dissipate; then I guesstimate there would be the easier factors as to being capable for me to speak with others in truth in person face to face in person and/or through online measures as to such factors I suppose.  Though would such as to the knowledge of the ways as to how they began such discussions with me as to would there be such a situation, for them to consider as to such if factors as to such discussions with me in truth?


As to some suggestions and commentary within "Finding A Silver Lining" one of several of my bo0ks I personally authored/wrote/compiled as I can only speak and write in truth as per such clarifications as to the reality as to the specifics of such discussions/writings/videos as per my Official You Tube where I have satirical commentary where I comment about the factors as to having dealt with others' opinions about their pop culture references of #NJ #NJstate #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey, though as to for the most part I have actually preferred to be asked with politeness if as to having read my books and/or seen my website as just the same in reference to the timeframes when I was modeling as to having respect as to what I consider as respect, referencing if as to such polite manners as to discussions if as to such having been noticed because of the factors in my opinion as to having real discussions as communication would be if my website was seen before the year of 2023 as I first began my website in 2015; as in my journal blog posts as to the reality of the years of 2010 through 2013, as to the aspects of introductions as to those timeframes when as to various factors as I did not take selfies as I was actually working with photographers as to my creations of my outfits as per the description on the link to my modeling page(s) as to the references regarding my journal blog updates in the years of 2019 through 2022 as the timeframe onward as to the year of 2023 as to the factors as to how such journal blog entries will be as to such factors as to the aspects of the various topic points.


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 I was born and raised in New Jersey and grew up going throughout the tristate northeast areas mainly, and as to how the reality of when the importance of the situations as to the aspects of reviewing as to such facts regarding the logistics for several factors as to the considerations; the years of 2019 through 2022 as to the review process as to the aspects of the timeframe, prior to the timeframe of the 20 year memorial of 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 as well as before the 30 year memorial of February 1993, as to the northeast areas mostly known as to New York City #NYC #NewYork #NY #NYstate #NYU though also as to the #Pentagon Pentagon, as well as Pennsylvania #Pennstate #Pennsylvaniastate as to the reality of how many New Jersey-ians commute in either direction, depending upon what location for the commute. 


The factors though I have said at times, I re-re-re-re-re-re-grew up in the state of  #Texas #TX #Texasstate Texas as to such factors as to the timeframes, as well as all 26 of my SCUBA #SCUBA #SCUBADiving  Diving certifications I earned were through one school within the state of Texas as I also earned winning first place in a Texas Chili cookoff with more than 20 entries as well as my chili recipe as I am adamant about my recipes as to such aspects just as I am specific as to what it actually takes for me to cook in a BBQ as to the required preparations for when I have BBQed.   



I can sarcastically write, those who know of the Rules of the BBQ as to where I grew up as to the Rules of the BBQ as to such factors to the considerations of such preparations.  However that is to cooking food as to the differences of my journal blog entries, as to the factors as to proverbial aspects of food for thought as the difference of real food in real life as to the facts of the situations to such attention to the details as well as attention to the information.


Such facts as to the metaphors in some of such factors that only after reviewing such information as to the aspects of the fiction book series that were as to for My personal life as to such dreamland sorts of factors as to the differences of such hypotheticals, the references thereof as to such regards as to the logistical emotional with the real situations as per the names I was informed of at the timeframes referenced review as to My journal blog as to the situations overall.  


If as to my journal blog being found and read as to where what I consider as common sense, as to the aspects of my satirical saying   how it should not take a head injury to figure out. 
 

*(sometimes utilizing articles discussing facts)*
By:  (Reverend) Susan MeeLing
also known as

The One & Only


(YouTube)   Lady Dori Belle


 

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REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

Why would I see as such, in truth?

When someone recognizes someone they know from when being in person with, what occurs?



Do they say, “Hello”?



Do they go up to them and ask how they have been, or what happens?



Years ago back from 2004 through 2012 if I went to a location I knew I would recognize someone, I would say “Hello” or something along those lines.



During that times in those years was usually how that went and visa versa if the other way around where if in the location and someone recognized me, they usually came up to me and said “Hello” or something along those times.



Only one time in those particular years around the 2012 point at one location a female walked up to me and greeted me saying “Hello” before telling me she and some of her friends had recognized me when I was driving around, pointed out where they saw me, and then we talked. Each of them in the areas knew about the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as many did during those years as to the specific locations I had gone to which recognized me, and then we spoke. I acknowledged such and we spent time together, before whatever occurred during the evening.



I do not know if at other times people recognized me when I have been out, though I know people have been informed as to the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury. Let me begin with the facts of having memory deficits as well as dealing with headaches and migraines, which means my need to have to focus more as to being able to remember what I have needed to do and then go along with whatever my plans were. When out I do not look for people I once knew whether now or at any point in time because of simply knowing of such, of which I do not know if at any point in time beyond the one point in time of if people recognized me as per having known in person. Now in the year of 2021 of not knowing though having picked up sensations as to some having known me only because of wording choices and such factors, though nothing more specific than that. In the reference since my website and my writings of which I suppose including my modeling and/or performances, I am not one who has denied the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as well as in reference to such times of afterwards. While few ever believed me as to the depths of the situations regarding the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as well as the after effects of my subarachnoid hemorrhage which took 4.5+ years before showing signs of improvement on the MRI and the CAT scans which I informed people I knew about in person as well as wrote about online before putting into my books “Finding A Silver Lining Written By: (Reverend) Susan MeeLing”, “Finding The Silver Lining Written By: (Reverend) Susan MeeLing”, and “The Modern Day Book Written By: Reverend Susan MeeLing”; I thought if there was the recognition of knowing me, such aspects of simply walking up respectfully to speak with me was normal or would be considered as normal.



In reference to that one point in time in the year of 2012 I had informed that female around 30 or so minutes into the discussion when I was asked if I had seen her and her friends when they were driving on the road, I told them I had not because of whatever I was taking care of in addition to the facts of simply making sure to get to where I needed to go because of being on the road. It did not make sense to me back then why such questions as to why would people driving in such a manner, though in this year of 2021 remembering how some had been in #CLIL #CrystalLake #CrystalLakeIL #CrystalLakeIllinois #IL #ILstate #illinoisstate #Illinois Crystal Lake Illinois as to how the teenagers would cruise the strip and yell out of the cars at one another which made little sense to me as to the ways which going from one area to another instead however that was something they did in that area of Illinois in comparison to what I grew up around.



When taking into consideration as to having been more modest as to the facts of being born and raised in #NJ #NJstate #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey and the north east coast in the 1980s and the 1990s, people do not normally run up to one another as per the ways in the southern regions as I learned more difficultly later after the year of 2001 to say hello to someone they knew. Though again such only occurred in the year of 2012 once to me in such times in comparison to the ways of what may have been at other times of if people knew me, with the exception of one other time in the year of around 2006 which a female who I had met and spent time with at #AllStarsSATX #AllStars #SanAntonio #SanAntonioTX #SanAntonioTexas #TX #TXstate #Texas #Texasstate #MilitaryCityUSA All Stars in San Antonio Texas which only when bringing up specifically the adult area in front of my two children which she had her child as well as to being more modest about such topic portions because of being in front of my two minor aged children as she was in front of her minor aged child. While some might be more comfortable as to their employment as to such aspects, others as I thought it was known do not always go into such details in such levels of comfort for whatever factors thereof.



In the reference to having been dealing with the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury which ranges from the constant headaches as well as the memory deficits and cognitive disorders daily, the factors of the migraines occurring at any point in time means I have to be more focused than others probably have to be when they have not had to deal with such luckily for them. In turn while in reference to the female who in the year of 2012 as to that situation, that simply has been the factor as to such realities as I do not go looking for people in such unknown areas and/or when running errands as to the factors of the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury.



While I know others have had head injuries or TBI situations, I do not know how many people have dealt with a coma for whatever length of time just as I do not know how many people have had a subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of their brain or anywhere for that matter as I have not ever met anyone who dealt with such by what they told me. I have detailed such factors of which in turn the subarachnoid hemorrhage which was barely ever discussed as to others’ preferences to discuss only the head injury part as to how it occurred in comparison to the other details, as they said they thought those were lesser details of importance compared to the details regarding the subarachnoid hemorrhage as those people preferred to discuss as they had. In comparison to in those times of knowing there probably was something in reference to the subarachnoid hemorrhage which was an impact as to the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, it simply was not a thought to discuss with anyone who did not ask me about such as per having been more modest than some may have thought me to be. However that does not change the facts of the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain as it does not change the facts of that being unseen without the MRI and without the CAT scan in the generalized areas, which in turn as to how the amount of tattoos I have had to get to make attempt to help the memory deficits as well as the cognitive disorders as to my after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury; the same in reference to my hair color as to assisting to be able to recognize as a flash from a reflective surface if a pain level was getting too much and/or assist with my memory deficits and cognitive disorders when out, just as the length of my hair to assist lowering my headache pain levels as I did not think it took a head injury to figure out that hair is heavy and when having headaches the pain level decrease is important to those in constant pain.



In reference to how others paying more attention by their choice as to what they chose to pay attention to in comparison to when in whichever discussions as to how not one person ever asked me what I paid attention to as well as how not one person started any discussions with “How are you” or something along those lives such as “I remember you from…” or “Do you recognize me from …” at any point from the years of 2001 through this year in 2021, with one exception in the year of 2000 when three males from my Basic Training had recognized me and asked me about where I had went because of the factors regarding how I disappeared overnight as to the coma I suppose as to the after point in time of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as to the hospitalization situation. Those 3 males from Basic Training told me that none of the females had ever told any of the males where I went or what happened and slowly the females started disappearing from the Basic Training area without a discussion from anyone else, which later I learned in the year of 2005 officially regarding Dr. Kerry as to having already written about and discussed as to how he had to ask me for my permission to look into my medical records as well as my military background officially in the year of 2003 when he first asked though around the year of 2005 was when he had gotten the details to speak with me about. The video below is much lengthier as well as has other details of other situations which in certain references I have either discussed and/or wrote about, though a set of situations possibly not thought about in such references.



However in such totality of only 3 times of which any individual(s) have ever spoken with me about any such factors and how such situations had been, the three males in #JBSA #FortSamHouston #FortSamHoustonSATX #FtSamHouston Fort Sam Houston were enraged as per being in Medical Training as to how not one of the females in Basic Training had told them the truth initially from the start though knowing of such factors of the other details informed to me as to the times in regards as to with Dr. Kerry. Back in the year of 2000 it made little sense to me as to why they were mad and upset at me as to why those females chose the paths they chose in such comparisons similarly to how as I had been told later as to my biological mother’s claim she had contacted the Congressman she had known a secretary in the office of when in #Woodstock #WoodstockIL #WoodstockIllinois #McHenryCountyGovernmentCenter #MHCGC #MCGC the government center in Woodstock Illinois as to her claim saying she spoke with a Congressman and there was a Congressional Investigation which the Drill Sergeant had gotten 7 years at Fort Leavenworth as to what I then told people in Medical Hold Unit as per being asked what was discussed on the phone before people began arriving at Medical Hold Unit from #FortSill #FortSillOK #FortSillOklahoma #OK #OKstate #Oklahoma #Oklahomastate Fort Sill Oklahoma as to how the situations went thereafter.



It makes little sense to me probably because of not ever having had anyone just speak with me in truth in the more recent years of 2013 through 2021 as to having known me or known of me as to any discussions begun by another person as to what they may have known except such side commentary from a peanut gallery type of situation, as to how others may have recognized me. Yet again while most paid attention and only wanted to discuss the factors either to the time of the coma and/or the way my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury occurred; the other details they did not ask me about in more depths, which was not for me to force to the discussion beyond what I had brought forward. The irony about them knowing of my headaches and migraines as to pain levels as many I heard complain about headaches when their spouse was around as to what I had been told, as to why I figured that meant they knew what levels of pain I had been in for such times; though I also do not know if those females were lying to their spouses as to whatever portions as to why they said they had a headache. Thus in turn I do not know what those males grew accustomed to in such references, as those were those females as to those situations. I also do not know what to the amount of times of those females telling their spouses as to such headaches as to what they repeated to themselves over such times as to what their brains naturally began to do because of such repetitions as to what they told their spouses as to such factors, as I can only tell the truth.



In the references as to how such reality for me comparatively would be for others as I do not assume the ways of any such situations, I have not ever known as to any other such times if people recognized me beyond the more recent situations I specifically have written about since the year more-so of in 2019 and 2020 as well as this year in 2021. If there were others who thought if they saw me and waved in my direction as to me being able to automatically think they were waving at me or not paying attention to the facts of being out in a public location as to other people in the areas, I do not assume anyone knows me because of the realities as to not knowing what other people are thinking and/or assuming. In turn because of how many times I have walked up to people and asked if I knew them and being told I had not because they looked like someone else and/or other such situations, by the time of 2001 I stopped doing so because of how many people had looked like someone I knew from another state and thus because of such I figured if people actually recognized me and visa versa the ease of such discussions in the comparisons.



I have gone over the situations in reference to the semitruck collision on I35 South in the year of 2008 as to the factors of which asked about if the way I handled the situation as to if I learned such from the #USArmy #USAArmy #Army #USA #USAA Army branch when in Texas, which being truthful though also dealing with everything that had literally happened moments before the situation as to knowing I did not learn anything directly from the Army as to how I took care of the situation. In some ways I suppose depending upon the situations as to who, I give credit where credit is due as I can as to telling the truth.



At this point in the year of 2021 as to my confusion as to any such occurrences as to the factors regarding whether or not people recognized me when I have been out at any point in time, I revert to the point of back in the year of 2001 after I had been pregnant with my son where I had gone to a class to learn parenting skills because of the reality as to having only been awake from my coma for less than a full year. No one until that class and no one since that class had informed me of how to speak with anyone or introduce as per the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as I have explained repeatedly and ironically been complained to as well as complained about as to my repetitiveness as to their questions and answers their questions the exact same way as to whatever their questions had been, in comparison to ever asking me something different or them paying attention to the other details beyond the initial discussion portions of. In turn while I was wrongly blamed for what others chose, I simply went along my own way as per knowing I had my own stuff to take care of because of whatever times as I figured other people were similar in such references as to the times as to getting things taken care of. I simply thought that was how life had been, because of what I had seen and been shown.



The class as described within the video on my official YouTube account as to the factors of, that was the first time I had ever been asked as to the details of in the year of 2001 as to being pregnant with my son at the time before latter being pregnant with my daughter. #Letters4James #Letters4Lidia I had worried about the realities of the overall and since there was no one else who was willing to inform me of such factors during those times as would have been much more helpful in comparison, I took the class as to making sure to help myself while helping my children as per the lengths of time. Since no one ever had recommended such to me though I have recommended to others as to parenting classes I additionally took later at the #JCC #JCCSA #JCCSATX #Jewish #JewishCommunityCenter Jewish Community Center in San Antonio in the year of 2002, I have not ever assumed anything without the aspects of learning which to the ironies as to how certain individuals have been in the years more specifically of 2009 through 2012 in the state of Texas as to their degrees and such portions.



Why would I ever assume I was recognized anywhere if people did not actually speak with me about recognizing me, by actually using such words?



What would ever be of a reason after as many times as to not recognizing another correctly in the city of San Antonio Texas as to the individuals within such an area as to ever just randomly walking up to someone and asking them, as what is the standard as to certain personality traits that is similar to personality traits from where I grew up in the areas of the north east coast in the years of the 1980s into the 1990s?



What would ever be a multitude of reasons as to my simply going along with my day as to whatever situations thereof, in comparison to randomly walking up to people after the situations I have additionally described as to #Excalibur #ExcaliburFaire #Sherwood #SherwoodFaire #SherwoodForrestFaire #Bastrop #BastropTX #BastropTexas #Smithville #SmithvilleTX #SmithvilleTexas Excalibur Faire now Sherwood Forrest Faire in Smithville Bastrop County in Texas after in San Antonio Texas that would be why to such responses if anyone ever recognized me and whatever they may or may not have done to get my attention instead of walking up to me calmly and respectfully to simply ask me if they knew me and I knew them when they had known of the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury?



Why would it be extremely frustrating to any such point in time of people who may have known me and/or told others they knew who were then around me to then speak with me in the specific wordings of in comparison to a free flowing discussion, as to any such point in time after my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as time went on even to this year in 2021 if people genuinely thought about a different side of such an equation in comparison to whatever they themselves thought?



Who would be so arrogant as to ever think that just because of whatever amount of minimal time as to spending with another as to thinking I would automatically remember them themselves in such a regard as per knowing of such after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as to what was the background as to where the individuals were known, and what are the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as would it take a head injury to point out those cognitive disorder and memory deficit portions truly?



For as many people who claimed me to be sensitive as to situations and claimed I was overdramatic in such comparisons, who would truly be the overdramatic individuals as per such factors as to those realities?



In the reference as to the extremely few males I had ever dated and/or been involved with as to the length of time as well to depending upon what levels of connections as to the emotional attraction as to such factors compared to the physical aspects or such, why would I be able to recognize such physical portions in their thoughts as to the comparisons of the physical reminders in such ways as why would such physical without the intellectual capacity for those individuals to think to use their words as to explain any such portions of which knowing the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury to ever recognize them and/or any individual I had been an acquaintance of/to and/or a friend and/or a relative and/or an ex-in-law and/or a relationship from some point in time as to such realities before adding the timeframe of my #SCUBA #SCUBADiving SCUBA Diving as what would ever be so arrogant as to another to think there would ever be the automatic recognition as to the amount of time in such comparisons as to the additional factors of did it take me to point out that I know what I have posted and thus why would once I post something to reread over it or relook at the meme in my account in such references to if people thought I should automatically remember them from when they were looking online though since it was online as to my not speaking with them in such a capacity as to knowing what they would look as and to their opinions as to such factors? Did that ever go through anyone’s thoughts, or did I truly have to bring such factors into the thought process for others?



I know there have been times I thought I recognized someone though because and especially depending on the situation as to such times, what would ever make anyone think I would run up to them as to if they knew me in person and where did they know me in person and how was I when in person compared to what their assumptions to such factors?



In one instance many years ago I thought I remembered someone who I had been involved with as to the time though he said nothing to me as I thought I saw him looking at me, as to such times which if the intention was to cause emotional pain to me than he had successfully done so; similarly to other such factors as to a small select number of males I once knew. In reference to females as to the factors thereof and how much they have changed their hair, their makeup, their clothing, and etcetera while knowing of the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury; why would it take that to be pointed out as to how unrecognizable those females would be to me, in such references?



Would it truly be egotistical for such fe/males to ever think that while they could recognize their own faces from their own lengths of time of looking at themselves as to how would I ever pay attention to such details to the length of time they themselves looked at themselves whether in the mirror and/or in pictures in such comparisons, as what would ever be any reason for any of such females to ever think that they would be recognizable to me for the lengths of time they looked at themselves in such comparisons?



Why would anyone who ever looked at my modeling pictures ever think that was anything different than a picture in their hands as does a picture in the hands have a discussion with you, and if there are programs which have a picture and/or group of pictures move to ways of a movie; what would ever make people think to not have recognized the difference as to the ways which I was told a male who had an Alexa had said that was his friend as that made little sense to me as why would that make sense to me?



I warned people about this in reference to the technological portions of which the ways of actually being too desensitized by the technological aspects of the ways which such factors as to their disconnections from others within such ways, as to the lack of common sense from such factors. However I was laughed at as to those times in the years of the 1990s into the years of 2012 and 2013 in certain discussions which in turn those who tap other people’s phone lines and/or apartments and/or cars and/or houses as to assumptions, how would you ever truly know what someone is genuinely feeling if you yourself do not have the common courtesy to actually ask as why should they tell you how they feel though you yourself not have the common courtesy to tell them how you feel and what situations as to the reasons why? Why would there ever be any such assumption of me as to others’ memories in the comparison to my own memories, and why would such assumptions of others in regards of then show other factors in reference to when on my Medal of Honor Art Project trips as well as when at other locations such as #ClubSapphire Club Sapphire or anywhere else for that matter?



What does your physical appearance look similar to in comparison to mine, which as how many complaints I had received in such comparisons both in person as well as online; why would I ever assume I was anything of any importance to anyone, or ever considered anything more within the aspects of not ever having been asked?



How many females really complain and go on about an ex-relationship or a former relationship that in such differences as to the few minimal relationships I have ever had than the few males I had ever been involved with had not ever known as to how I had been in person being different than others as to how such would be in the factors of, as why would I ever assume any would ever recognize me as to such without being officially told in discussions comparatively? Why would anyone I ever knew ever think that I would go discussing all of the details as to such factors of a prior relationship in such references as to other prior relationship aspects, as what types of situations have been of normalcy to others that I was not informed of? What would ever make if the hypothetical of such in reference to knowing whatever prior situations as to how I have not ever been alike to other females as to such relationship factors ever think that I would ever discuss anything the ways of other females, as to whatever their prior experiences were?



Are there individuals who I had been involved with who had done so in reference to such tapping of lines and/or stalking me and/or having other people ask me questions as to instead of them just speaking with me, and why would that be?



If there is the reference as to prior relationships as to whatever their prior relationships were, why would any such assumptions have been as to how such would be in comparison and how cruel are you in such references to ever test such factors in comparisons to just asking by using words to speak with in comparison to whatever possibilities to me in such ways? Whether acquaintance, friendship, family, relationship types thereof; who are you to assume I would recognize you as to such in the references when you sought to see if in such hypotheticals in comparison to having any common courtesy or human decency as to simply just speaking with, and asking? What is it you have done and/or you have been a part of that would ever make you think I would be anything similar, when knowing and literally having such physical differences in conjunction with the different background thereof as what in your background made you think that would ever be normal and what about me has ever been considered as normal to others?



If in reference to acquaintances and/or friendships of prior times, why would you ever think yourself to be a friend if you tested me in such ways? If there was a falling out and such assumptions were made why would you think I should remember you as what times were of what situations and why would such a combination be of such levels that you would think I should remember you especially if you knew the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury which in turn, what type of problems do you have if you asked me and I did not remember you as what is your ego level to think of such factors to ever be of which would be if you did not give me any reminders as to where I possibly could have as what about your physical appearance in your thoughts is of that level of remembrance in such factors? Are you constantly surrounded by people who recognize you on spot and know you immediately such as employment, community areas, local places you normally attend, and/or etcetera? What would the difference be of your aspects in the comparisons to mine, in such references to review on top of the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury? If I was thought of as mean or what words thereof, who truly would be the ones who were of such comments in the comparisons thereof especially when knowing about the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as what would ever make others think that their time was worth of what levels of why?



If you have the luxury of multiple people around you on a daily basis who would remember and recognize you as to such lucky you depending on the numbers correct, as to such hypotheticals?



What is the number of people who I had around me on a daily basis where I would recognize such and be recognized by such, in the longest amount of time thus far when in reference to in person? The answer especially after waking up from my coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury would be my son and my daughter, compared to any other individual in the larger aspects beyond the few relationships I had here and there. Depending of the relationships thereof and the types thereof, why would anyone ever think their time to me was as to what their thoughts were if they did not tell me as to such factors as why would I ever assume that I ever meant anything to anyone? What would any such portions of such times ever lead me to believe of any such a viewpoint in person as to such factors, as which relationship had I ever been in ever have such aspects thereof?



If you left me and/or you pushed me away, what memory of yours would be the last memory I had of you in person? The answer is your back, as that would be the last thing I saw of you as to such times with whatever emotional connections thereof to the timeframe of; that is if it was in person, remember?



What positive relationship did I ever have that ended however such end as to what length of time compared to the levels of what I had been dealing with, and why would that be of importance for people to take into consideration in addition to such after effects?



If you walked away from me and/or you pushed me away, what would be of the last memory as to what occurred as to such a time?



Who told which portions of what aspects in truth comparatively, and why would I ever be blamed for what you chose not to say to me in truth as why would that be of importance in any such regards?



If you did not ask me for clarifications as to your emotional stance, why would it be assumed as to me going after to you chase you down for answers as what is your past that you would assume I would ever be the ways of prior such situations?



As I have not done so for any friendship or relationship of any type before and thus, why would I begin such as to whatever the situations had been?



What is your past that would be considered as normal to you in any such relationship, in comparisons of what I have dealt with?



Taking into consideration as to how I grew up as to if I ever made any attempt to speak with the clarify a situation as to my childhood and my teenager years, what would the ability to see such factors in reference to the times I had been pushed away and/or walked away from as to what my responses have been in the comparisons and why would that be important as to any such viewpoint thereof in such combinations as to locations and people involved as to the locations why and the people thereof as to their prior patterns of behaviour in such comparisons?



Why would others’ patterns of behaviour compared to while yes a pattern of behaviour to mine in the reference to the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury though what in my past would ever bring such an assumption forward as to anyone ever thinking otherwise compared to the combinations thereof, in conjunction as to the SCUBA Diving factors on top of the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as why would I ever think as to how others had thought of themselves and/or how they thought I should have been as to whatever their assumptions were as to such times?



Out of the very few relationships I have ever been in because remember I did not start dating until I was older than 16 years of age biologically which was only a little bit of time over one year to my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury and coma with the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain, why would anyone think whatever they thought about prior relationships in the comparison to me?



In reference to such prior relationships of minimal proportions as to the numerical aspects, there are only a few which in certain specifics would have certain details to which would be of importance to pay specific attention to the detail factors of which to the relationship last as to the last time seeing before winding up in #WA #Washington #WAstate #Washingtonstate Washington state in 2013; what was admitted to in reference to wishing having known it was me before making a choice, and did that reference SCUBA Diving as to such an individual? Would there be the need for SCUBA Diver Police as to such a reference aspect, and why?



In regards of moving backwards as to the more poignant aspects to which when I was engaged twice to the same individual, what was occurring during the second engagement that I was dealing with compared to the first engagement timeframe? What did you remember as to the situations regarding SCUBA Diving as to the Polar Bear SCUBA Dive on New Years in the year of 2010, and what occurrences were going on in reference to McCoy Elementary School in the same town my SCUBA diving school had been in at the times of what occurrences were happening in such timeframes as to what you noticed if there was any such a noticing? Would you see any reason as to SCUBA Diver Police for such factors, and why in the references thereof?



When taking into consideration the two in-between relationships to such factors as to the couple as well as the #Irving #IrvingTX #IrvingTexas Irving Texas timeframe, what was I dealing with in the combinations thereof in the year of 2010 into 2011? Though SCUBA Diving was not involved, did you look at my pictures at any point in time and what did you see in my profile accounts online?



In regards as to the two different individuals who had asked for my help as to Mentorship aspects in the years of 2010 and in 2012 within the #BDSM BDSM supposed to be biological adult and supposed to be consenting lifestyle aspects, what would have been going on in my life that I was dealing with in such comparisons to the assumptions as to the times thereof?



In reference to the random dating situations between the first separation and the second/final separation from my now dead-ex-husband, what was I dealing with during those years? What about after the year of 2008 as to what in regards of those random times of smaller dating situations was I dealing with in the comparisons thereof, and why would that be of importance to take into consideration as to random people as to whether an acquaintance or a friend or family in such references as to the factors combined?



When looking as to the factors as to the only relationship I had in regards of the latter times in my SCUBA Diving, what was your preference as to how you viewed others as to their opinions of you being involved with me as to such factors as to how you had preferred to have such situations as why would that be considered as to important in the conjunction factors as to how I had been treated by other people in the combinations thereof? Why would you ever assume I would run after you in such references as to you have made the choices you had made of being embarrassed of me as to such relationship aspects as to the factors thereof, and how did that bleed over into other such situations?



What similarities to who I was engaged to twice have in such references as to the embarrassment factors as to the situations which occurred, as to the times thereof? What egos of others as to their choices as to their viewpoints as to their opinions of what they thought I should have had a memory compared to the factors in the comparisons to the realities, and why would such be of importance in reference to what occurred regarding Washington state as well as during my Medal of Honor Art Project trips as how arrogant does someone have to be to think that minimal times as to such factors in the comparisons thereof as to the ways of in such references? Why would I ever assume that anything I posted was ever considered of importance as to any such times, and why would I think anyone who did not discuss such in person with me in truth as to ever thinking it would ever be considered of importance as what in my past background would ever give anyone such a thought process?



If you are going to go off of how my biological sister had been raised and how my biological sister had been treated, what have been the massively huge differences in all such comparisons as to the way my biological sister had been raised and treated in all such compared to how I had been raised and I had been treated as who truly has more arrogance and more snobbiness and such to those factors when in person as to such in person treatments or in my case as to the mistreatments as to the knowledge of such factors?



If having been tested without a medical license as to doing such, who is and who are any of you people to ever do so to me in any such regards as to ever testing me as to any such factors?



Who are any of you to make such a choice as to do so to me as to your own free will of doing so and making such a choice as to the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, the after effects from my subarachnoid hemorrhage, the after and during effects of my headaches and migraines, as well as the additional factors as to my SCUBA Diving and any other such portions of my life as who are any of you to ever do so without a specific specialized medical license of such factors in the possible conjunctions as to a religious officiant official aspect as to such as who are you to think you have ever had such a right in the comparisons to my rights and my protections?



In reference to the female regarding how she was upset because of the supposed fact she knew someone at one point in time and thought she had the extension of her Dad’s medical license which she did not as to such factors as no one does as per the earned portions compared to who was the same female in reference to the garden gnome situation as to San Antonio in the year of 2012, what problems did people read about in such references as to my response and why would such any response be considered as lesser than as to such a time in the hypotheticals as to if the factors of such others were testings without any medical specialty license as to such times and why would when I know what is of importance to the specifics for my medical best interests is the problem regarding to the length of time to actually do what is best for me as to all such medical individuals as to the licenses thereof as to since I am the one who has dealt with such factors as to the lengths of time; why would I know what is best for myself, and how could such be viewed in regards as to the pain levels on top of everything that could have been reduced back in the year of 2012 and 2013 though still only has gotten worse in the comparisons as to my headaches and my migraines which then impacts my memory deficits and cognitive disorders as to my teeth situations which had not ever been a problem before the medications I had been prescribed over the years from 2000 into those years of 2013?



Why would that important factor which could have properly been taken care of by now in the year of 2021 be of importance to any such factor and due to how others have proven they lied about me and proven as to such false claims about me and the mandatory clearing of all such factors as to removing all restrictions/wrongful labels as to me be important as to such clarifications for me as well as for others?



What would be of importance in reference to such factors as well as why would there be the sensation as to #DrMaryEdwardsWalker Dr. Mary Edwards Walker as to such #POW Prisoner of War situations as to any others who had done so to me, in comparison of ever taking responsibility for their own choices and their own actions?



How annoying to me would it be to ever have to deal with being rescued from anything in such a regard as is there anyone who ever knew me who could honestly say I would ever see such without being informed of and did anyone ever think if such was ever realized and the need for such was a hypothetical situation, as to what actually would have been needed instead of what occurred as to such factors in the hypotheticals thereof as why would anyone ever think after everything I have been through I would ever be calm without such actual official discussions? What about my past would ever give anyone the slightest inclination as to if such factors hypothetically were regarding the years prior to the year of 2018 onward to now in 2021, of what would ever give anyone the intelligence or lack thereof to not see that I would not view such as helpful without actually speaking with me as to such factors in the comparisons thereof if only to see such as others having been wrongfully playing games and wrongfully treating me in the factors with such cruelty as to the socially unacceptable protions of such rude behaviour as to ever thinking as to being calm as to such a realization as to the hypothetical factors thereof to the lengths of such amounts of time?



Why would any SCUBA divers ever think I would be kind as to that combined set of factors as to my responses and why would any military connected individuals be surprised as to my responses, as what is it? Just because I am a female, what is the assumption in such comparisons as to the responses in the regards thereof to what I have dealt with as to such comparisons as to what would your responses have been if you ever had dealt with such factors with the known background combinations thereof?



In such references as to the facts of what I dealt with in regards of Basic Training, what would ever make anyone think as to what I dealt with would be considered as a calming factors?



In regards as to my time in Medical Hold Unit or now Warrior Transition Unit, what would ever make anyone think that I would be calm as to what I dealt with?



In reference to having been pregnant and having delivered two children while still having had the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain, what would ever make anyone think I would be calm as to the situations that occurred thereafter and such choices by others as to how such situations had gone?



In regards as to what occurred throughout the time in reference to when still having had the subrachnoid hemorrhage as to the ways which went, what would ever make anyone think they were ever correct as to how they had tested and mistreated me in such references?



In reference to the aspects after my children’s biological father’s death as to the amount of people who would have seen those dress blues pictures between who I had given them to as to who they had shown, why would I ever know you saw such pictures and depending upon who spoke with you and their biases about me what would be assumed on your part compared to me?



In reference as to the factors of what situations regarding the situations where such lack of intelligence as to simply just speaking with me in truth, why would my responses as to figuring such out be expected as to any other such ways thereof?



Who would be so arrogant as to thinking without in person discussions in person with the other to ever fully know what someone is thinking without such a two way discussion as what would such arrogance be as to ever assuming the realities ever being known without such a two way discussion, or would such arrogance be that there would be the knowledge from such prior discussions and/or situations and what arrogance would such be as to those factors in the comparisons to ever taking into consideration how different of my background to such as why would that ever be kindly looked upon in the times of the possibilities as to the hypotheticals being realized as to the year of 2019/2020/2021 and what problems did you cause in such arrogance as to ever think of your importance to be so high as to think your personal background made you something in such references as to why you would think I should recognize you as to such factors in such comparisons?



What type of overdramatic responses were you realistically the problem of in the comparisons as to what I have falsely been accused of and what wrongful claims had been made of me between which years prior to the timeframe of 2019 through to this year of 2021, as what do you patterns of behaviour as well as your online of whatever type history prove to your choices as to your situations in the comparisons to what I personally have dealt with and why would you ever think I would not be absolutely infuriated as to such stalking and harassment as to any and all such types of choices as to the lack of common courtesy and lack of human decency as to ever think I should be appreciative in comparison to the realities of which the needless problems which occurred were/are due to who’s arrogances in the comparison of myself?



Who told you that you were that special constantly and what is that, as I would not have that as any such knowledge or understanding for myself now would I?



What are your assumptions in the comparisons to when there have been the actual in person when in person two way discussions, compared to the assumptions from such stalking and harassment?



How does one pull another in such references as to actually having the sensation of being wanted and needed in a positive way and mannerisms thereof in comparison to the ways of which stalking would be a way of how would be viewed as the preference of the lack of discussions with me in truth and harassment would only be seen as causing problems to the situations to me needlessly, along with such mistreatments thereof as why would I ever have any sensation as to the factors of any such ideas to ever being considered as wanted and needed in a positive way when how could anyone ever view such as being wanted and needed in a positive way to such factors?



What about being lied to when the other knowingly starting the discussion in a lie which in turn would mean they would be lying to themselves to thinking to getting all such truths involved in the comparisons, who would ever have any such sensation of the other person being lied to while the lying began in the side of who would ever be able to truthfully say or write as to any such actualities of being wanted or needed in a positive way as how would that ever be seen as such in truth?



How could anyone ever think in the comparisons to myself as which as I know I do not have the specific knowledge as to the specific individual of the specific as to who to contact and thus the overall portions as to a to whom it may concern in comparisons, to there only being me to directly speak with as to any such portions of which then how would or how could anyone ever think that a blanketed invitation would ever be considered as being specifically wanted or specifically needed for any such discussions?



Why would anyone I once knew of whichever capacity ever think that having to tell someone to start a discussion with me in a lie to then expect the full truth thereof as to such teenager and childish sorts of ways in comparisons to actually simply speaking with me in truth in person while in person with me as why would I ever view any such portion as to ever preferring to see me and speak with me in person in truth, as would that viewpoint thereof then be as to what ways?



How would any male as to who I once had been involved with ever compare me to any other female in such capacities as to ever think as to what those females had been as to who I am in such regards, as why would I ever think there would ever be any genuinity in such references if having the same sorts of situations as to such prior females in the comparisons to when in reference to me as what about me would be of complete difference as to the factors thereof and what is the normalcy to whatever gender and whatever sexuality as to when speaking about someone else as to interest as to what occurs instead as to such factors if the reviewing thereof had not ever been thought about before as why would that be in such considerations thereof?



What would ever be of where I would ever see literally in person regarding such as to the factors of which would ever be where I was actually wanted in a positive way as to any such portion and/or type of a relationship in the comparisons thereof, as what would ever make anyone think that in the reference to tapping and/or stalking and/or harassing to ever be a way to actually be informed officially as to such factors unless fully removing every aspect of what I once would have known and then at what point does that show such hypotheticals as to what levels of abuses thereof to such factors when in regards as to the amounts of evidence as to such history and patterns of behaviour as to such regards on each side of each situation for each individual involved?



In regards of #CID CID to the situation in reference to my now dead-ex-husband and the hypothetical sexism as to not having the intelligence to look into my background as to seeing the connection points in the year of 2008 as to the combined factors as to such a situation, and then what about that dress blues picture that was sent in by my ex-sister-in-law in comparison as to the factors of which even if I sent in such to the military; what would the fact I did not graduate Basic Training be of importance to such factors, as well as the combinations of my background which would be of importance to take into consideration as to that particular interrogation that I dealt with in 2008?



What in reference to when I was engaged the first time in the combinations thereof be of importance in regards as to the factors of his safety in the ways regarding not discussing such, and what patterns of behaviour as to the length of time before the years of 2009 and 2010 be of importance as to the closed portions without the in person discussions be as to the combined factors thereof to such regards of any type of relationship factor in the comparisons as what additionally would having grown up in the north east area in the 1980s and the 1990s in the situations I dealt with be of importance for such considerations to which then what levels of needless stalking and wrongful harassment show others as to who they had always been in such comparisons to myself and what I dealt with as to such times and situations needlessly?



How could anyone with such a viewpoint ever realize as to what their choices had been to push me away and having lied about me would ever make me care about such individuals as what would the problems which needlessly had been caused to me, would ever make me want to view such portions in another factor thereof; as how would it ever be possible to view anything in a positive way if the constant factor is always that other people have lied in such wishes as to the truth and yet have failed to see that it is their starting off in a lie which while wishing for the truth immediately in such comparisons and then why would their feelings be hurt as to their choices to begin with a lie and their problems as to such regarding anything else?



What would actually have them feeling as to their wishes of their importance in the comparisons thereof as to such factors, when the reality of the situation has always been their problems as to if having believed me to begin with as to only being able to speak in truth would then be what problems for each individual as to what their choices have been as to such aspects?



How would in the regards as to the CID as to their sexism as to the factors of the interrogation as well as each portion thereof thereafter including the San Antonio Express news article among other factors in comparisons with the aspects of what began in reference to my daughter #Letters4Lidia, my son #Letters4James, and myself #Justice4Me #Justice4SusanMeeLing #Justice4ReverendSusanMeeLing #Justice4LadyDoriBelle #JusticeNeeded4Me #JusticeNeeded4SusanMeeLing #JusticeNeeded4ReverendSusanMeeLing #JusticeNeeded4LadyDoriBelle as to then in regards of my SCUBA Diving as then onwards in other such factors as to the ways which CID could have spoken with the individual who actually had been at the funeral in #FWTX #FortWorth #FortWorthTexas Fort Worth Texas which was the Chief Warrant Officer 3 and not the funeral director; as what importance would that have been in the year of 2008 onward, as to the dress blue picture and the JC Penney factors thereof to #EndAllStolenValorNow #EndStolenValor #EndAllStolenValor #EndStolenValorNow ending all stolen valor?



How do you end all stolen valor, immediately?



You tell the truth and give the credit where the credit is due correctly in comparisons, and each area where there had been situations undoes the stolen valor by contacting me directly as to such factors for the correct ceremony/ceremonies as to what occurred in such hypotheticals as to the factors of where the possibility of such recognition occurred to fix and repair such situations in the correct manners thereof immediately.



Why would I ever have any sensation as to ever being needed or wanted in any such positive ways, when there has not ever been an official invitation asked of me specifically to me and informing me specifically of such factors as to any such recognition as what would that mean when that has not ever occurred as to going directly to me for such a discussion as what are other people’s normal ways as to any such of a specific invitation? The only experiences I have had is when others in comparison to myself ever being specifically invited as I was considered the guest in such references as there was not ever one point in time where I specifically had ever been invited as myself in comparison to whether in the overall blanketed invitation, or the specifics of actually just being invited to anything specifically just myself or if in a relationship it was that other and then I was only the after thought in such connection as there has not ever been a point in time where anyone specifically invited me to any such event or any such recognition as to how the minimal examples I have ever had.



Thus in reference to any events that were not the blanketed overall invitation, I was spoken with on the phone or messaged. What would the normal be to anyone else as to how such invitations have ever been to such regards, especially when taking into consideration my only memories of such are after waking up from my coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as what would any other reference be as to any such type of any invitations be? While I have sent handwritten letters asking for a response as to the ways which I had sent such letters out, there has not been the response of which with the exception of in regards to FLOTUS Ms. Melania Trump responding that such at that time was unavailable and there has not ever been any such response other than such in regards as to any written letters I personally have sent or emails or such aspects as to those who I specifically had sent out requests to beyond the few minimal responses as to what I already explained as well as already wrote about.



Why would I ever see anything differently, literally?



Thus what would ever be considered as to the factors of any such invitations when only done in the references of my examples though far and few between, those particular examples would mean what in regards of any who would have assumed otherwise because of whatever their assumptions were for what examples they have had in their lives for which portions thereof compared to me?



Why would I ever see any other way, in such regards?



Why would I ever think anyone would ever want or need me in such a positive way as to any such lack of invitation or in reference to the overall invitation, in such comparisons?



What would ever have anyone think that I would be of whatever their prior experiences have been as to other such examples be, when those are other people’s experiences and other people’s examples; which would mean since those are other people’s experiences and other people’s examples, what would that mean in the comparison to other people to me?



In reference as to who I was engaged to twice to what would ever be considered of importance at the time in the year of 2010 for me to remain silent as to the #Corona Corona situation from a male who was a SCUBA Diver who was working towards instructor with an Army Ranger background as to the specifics of as well as the #USMC #Marine Marine, who had invited me out to Rich’s house just after I picked up the mail?



Why would me showing Rich as to the sensation Rich being possibly gay or in the LGBTQP community in such regards as to discussing what my then fiancé knew as to my modeling as well as what he knew of such combined situations, be of importance about my corsets I told him about and only because of the others being in the area as to them seeing such as why would that be of importance?


While my then fiancé the first time was in Basic Training at the location I went to Basic Training at where I had my head injury on Psalm Sunday in 2000 after the situations as to what I was told at Fort Sam Houston Texas as to the females from Basic Training as well as the situations in reference to when in Medical Hold Unit as to the discussion with my biological mother when she was at McHenry County Government Center as to her saying there was a Congressional Investigations, why would Dr. Kerry have to ask me for my permission to look into such details when he was a Major as well as the length of time be considered important to that Corona situation?



Why would I ever be quiet to such as well as what aspects as to SCUBA Diving already had occurred as to what additional factors of such regards would be of importance as to waiting to ever speak and/or write about such realities I personally dealt with which had been known and seen by him up to the point when he went to Basic Training before the hand situation as to the finger as to the tank shell as to the #bumleblee bumblebee in the state of Texas at Fort Hood in the year of 2010 then over such years be considered as important, and for whose safety?



My son’s safety, my daughter’s safety, who I was engaged to at the time’s safety, as well as my own safety are the answers to such factors. However admittedly the extended connections as to who I had been engaged to his family’s safety as to not knowing what connections thereof to such points in time, as well as what friends they have had over such years in comparisons to myself.



As to the timeframes of such examples as to the few relationships in the overall especially after waking up in the state of Texas as to the total numbers of, why would I ever discuss anything as to such sensations emotionally to any such portion with anyone I personally knew as to such times as to what trust levels did I actually have the ability to have regarding such individuals to ever speak of any such portions thereof?



Why would I ever speak with my ex-in-laws about any relationship to the sensations as to the emotional portions, as who would ever have thought that to be of any intelligence referencing their situations as to the dress blues situations among other such factors such as the knowledge of my subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain and the knowledge of me being pregnant with my son and my daughter while raising them as to the factors thereof; as what would ever be considered as what I could ever trust about any such factors as to those people in truth, and why would that be of importance to think about?



If you have had the luxury of multiple people you could go to in such ways of trust in the ways of compared to me, what would the difference be as to ever trying to send someone instead of just yourself as to speaking with me in person when in person in truth in comparison to under a pretense or under a lie in comparisons; as why would I ever see as to what aspects thereof, other than the sensation to pick up of such a false impression as what would ever show any such genuinity in care and concern regarding in such factors thereof?



Would you then only be starting such in the beginning in a lie and thus in turn only get the lies you fed yourself in comparison to starting in the truth, and how would such a difference be?



I cannot answer that as I guesstimate few can as to such, as depending upon how such a beginning portion actually had been as to the deciding factors thereof.



What about in reference to the ways of the reality to my childhood and my teenager years with the combined portions as to the ex-in-law factors, as what about my biological mother/sister/father be of ability to ever find anything to trust about any such regards thereof to such patterns of behaviour as what was their preference as to who in which relationships they had been introduced to and why did they prefer such individuals in comparison to who I had preferred?



In such regards as to not wanting nor needing to ever date or be in such a type of relationship with even the slightest aspects of my biological mother/sister/father and the same in reference to my ex-in-laws, why would I ever want those people involved with any such romantic portion of any relationship to that knowledge factor as how creepy is it that my biological sister was sent to my house to the wedding night portion in such regards as our biological mother and biological father as to the disgust as to such aspects I personally felt in the ways of such abominations as well as the situations of what invitations as to who in comparisons?



Who had I met throughout which areas as to the ways such situations have been that I would ever have any sensation of being able to trust to discuss any such emotional factors as to any such individuals regarding relationships and even with the reference to psychologists, who of they had ever been emotionally intelligent enough to even process the factors of the combined minimals as to those particular times of such in the minimal capacities?



Thus if in reference to any such tapping whose fault would it actually be as to assuming there would ever be any such discussions with who and why would there ever be such factors assumed as to who I would speak with, as what are those females in the references of patterns of behaviours in differences compared to mine as why would I ever ask any advice from such individuals as to my personal relationship aspects as to any such point in time as what are their patterns of behaviour in all such comparisons to my patterns of behaviour as what about those people would I ever be able to trust in such regards as to my emotional or any type of my actual well being after what patterns of behaviour?



Why would there ever be any sensation of anyone actually caring about me and my best interests when taking into consideration the lack of such discussions begun in truth as to such portions, as to what I had already told others about before putting in writing and then the deciding factors of being able to distinguish between which writings as to the genres intended in such comparisons?



Who was the first person I had ever dated who had received a message from someone from my past who had ever been told otherwise as to who I am in such references and who actually asked me in person as to any such hypothetical, of if that had ever occurred and what occurrences as to the realities of what the relationship had gone down which path and why was such a choice as to the factors thereof as well as the patterns of behaviours as to such a hypothetical regarding such factors?



What is the problem with that ease of technological portions as to hiding-ish behind a computer device as to such wishes to remain anonymous in the comparisons thereof to the realities of technology, and what would the factors of #GeekSquad Geek Squad as to #BestBuy Best Buy be of importance in reference to any such portions of whatever individuals thereof to any such rumors which were began in which year as to who and why would the overall connected patterns of behaviours over such lengths of time ever be considered as important throughout whenever that began all the way through to this year in 2021?



Having been born and raised in New Jersey as to such realities of technology length of time differences compared to the rest of the United States of America as well as in comparison to the rest of the world, what would such factors be considered as to of importance in such references and why from the years of the 1980s to now in 2021 as to what I personally have dealt with and what is it that people truly can say that I personally did on my own without ever being tested or pushed or caused any needless drama in comparisons to just being myself as to such comparisons?



Why would my only being able to tell the truth be of importance in such regards, and why would it matter as to how I have been pushed away; as why would anyone who could review any such portions ever see as to why the amount of defenses of myself would be necessary as to what I have dealt with for how long, as to why would that be considered of importance in such patterns of behaviours as to others’ assumptions as to the situations thereof and why would I ever have any such sensation in such combinations thereof to ever being wanted in a positive way or cared about truthfully as what relationship of whichever type has actually been of which was begun in truth on both sides of the situation without being forced or manipulated needlessly by others?



What would ever be considered of importance regarding such combinations, and why has when in person with others been more important to me in the combinations thereof to the comparisons?



Which experiences in person with others has been with the most minimal factors of problems when we were in person, with one another?



The answer is my son, my daughter, and I for the majority of such factors.


Only in the secondary would certain relationships be in the references thereof until other individuals interjected their opinions as to such regards thereof, in the comparisons; which in the third aspects would be in reference to the community aspects and areas thereof in whichever capacities, which then what would be of importance as to any such viewpoint regarding the factors thereof to the ways which I would see and view the situations in the larger ways?



Now whereas my son and my daughter are no longer of the minor biological ages though the situations are different, how am I still the same as to how I once had been in such regards? What responsible parent would make sure to keep their children actually safe as best as possible, in the references thereof; to which the extension as to the caring about others in genuinity be of ways to review such portions, regarding other factors as to why?



In reference to prior romantic-ish relationships where was if you had children as to such factors in such comparisons to the ways of which I had to make sure for my son and my daughter, in such reviews to the differences to your childhood and teenager years in what I had to keep in mind for my son and my daughter in such comparisons to other areas outside of where my then biologically minor aged children were in such references as to such times?



How were your parents treatments of you and your siblings in comparison to how I had been mistreated in such comparisons, to the ways of?



Which relationship in the factors of the in person when in person have I actually been pulled closer to in the knowledge of others with such words as to the factors of being involved with, compared to what may have been assumed and/or thought of by others as to the discussions as well as the being with in such regards ever have been?



That answer, is none.



That has not ever been in certain regards though usually I am the one who has had to do the introducing in the comparisons to the other way around outside of family or a few friends introduction, as truly there was only one individual who I had been involved with in such a relationship who had introduced me to his friends as his relationship at the times in all such differences compared to if I had put such an introduction forward for that answer.



With the culmination as to what has been said to my face, around where I have been, as well as online; what would be the reasons as to why I would view the ways I have as what would ever be the sight for me to ever see being wanted and/or needed in a positive way, in any such point in time?



If your answer is a picture or a set of pictures which were arranged and posed for, what is your viewpoint then for such a factor in comparison to the realities in comparison of real life when in person with another in person?



Why would I view such, the ways I have?



When not inviting me for my own honoring in any such ways as to a correct and proper invitation, why would I ever see anyone ever wanting or needing me in any such references or regards as how would that only be seen as others’ ego and others’ arrogance as to such factors in such comparisons as to their recognition in comparison to what actually would be recognizing me in the regards thereof to such factors? What would ever be the actual viewpoint as to such recognition factors as would the recognition actually be that the person/people once knew of such or would it be the actual recognizing of me as myself as how would it ever be viewed of recognizing me as myself if I am not there as to such a recognition in such hypotheticals as whose ego would that actually be stroking in such comparisons as to myself actually being recognized in such factors?



How is that any different than any relationship I once had been involved in, as why would that ever show me anything other than the same exact situations though with more people in such comparisons and who were they actually to me instead as well as what importance would such actually be in the comparisons? Is that a participation trophy in a different way in such comparisons as to the actualities thereof instead, and what is my opinion of participation trophies in comparison to actually earning as would that be considered as a version of stolen valor in a smaller factor thereof in comparison to the valor of actually being with in the regards of if when in the actualities of by choice?



What is important about choice and free will, in such references?



What has the free will choice been in the reference as to whether to actually be with me in person while in person face to face, compared to the factors of such other aspects?



How can people truthfully see as to how disconnected from humanity they actually have been, for how long as to what length of time?



What is the length of time which then in turn, I have been pushed away as to such factors as why would anyone think that other than an actual invitation in truth ever be viewed any other such ways as to in the references as to just me as myself or if in regards to the few times when I had been in a relationship as to the other(s) in comparison to how such invitations were possibly and what proof thereof as to who was actually considered as being wanted at such a location in the comparisons to as I had been told later in the references of in such regards?



Why would I ever believe as to any such factors of ever being considered as wanted or needed in such a positive way, as to the realities of which what personal invitations have ever been directly only to me as to such regards in the ways which I would recognize as to such as where has any such portion ever actually been extended in the ways which would actually register as only for me in such comparisons to any blanketed or multiple factors thereof to such comparisons in the ways as to any such works I specifically had completed on my own and to my recognitions as to such in those particular ways in honesty for me to actually know of to understand and comprehend as only in such references?



What, is etiquette?



Thus if there actually ever were such a situation of recognition as to my work does it take a head injury or a SCUBA diver instructor license to figure out that the invitation would be directly to me with such details in specific, or would the reference to how such instruction occurs in person compared to teaching/preaching be a difference to take into consideration for the in person with others in person compared to a blanketed overall portion?



Maybe going back to the top to re-read might be of importance, or re-reading such from here backwards might assist the clarification processes as to what I have personally dealt with as to such factors. When technology has had more invitations than I have had to such situations as to being brought along, where is the situation of what to consider as to the recognition as to what has been viewed as to who as more important in which ways?




Pictures of me in the year of 2021

Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Model Author Susan MeeLing

It should not take a head injury to figure this out because I thought you are supposed, to be smarter.

If there are those who find such interesting enough to research further to bring forward more information in reference to the forefront for more detailed information, as usual I request the courtesy of the same which I do in reference to how I refer to articles for reference points when writing my journal blog entries; for each one used for reference starting points, to research for clearer understanding from such knowledge.

 

That is common sense, good etiquette, and good karma; whilst lifting others upward, in positive ways.

Quotes which mean a lot to me:

"The ultimate measure of an individual is not where they stand in moments of comfort and convenience, but where they stand at the time of challenge and controversy."

"We must reject the idea that every time a law is broken society is guilty, rather than the law breaker.  Freedom is never-more than one generation away, from extinction.  We do not pass freedom on through our blood stream because freedom must be fought for, protected, and handed on for the next generation to do the same."

"Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.  Though best to be able to share in person with who matters, until that time occurs being able to see what is possible through such is a feat to notice.  One must be happy within oneself prior to being happy with another, though such can be enjoyed if living in one's own truth is as such. and then as to the capability to progress forward with another and/or others depending upon the situation(s) and individual(s)."  ~  A Quote From Me, Reverend Susan MeeLing also known as Lady Dori Belle

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