To each, their own

After much training that I put myself through to learn from my SCUBA Diving instructors to be able to accomplish what I needed for myself after the Jewish Medical Journal I read for my own research for another way to better myself and my medical conditions, I did as I needed to do for myself. If that comes across as selfish to not want to be in additional pain that I dealt with on a daily basis, I did not realize that bettering oneself would be considered as such. How many people go to doctors for such a reason, to assist their medical conditions? Yet the names I was called by those who were actual blood relations did not believe me, and those who are ex-in-laws thought I was wasting my money. I did not realize that such would be considered as selfish, though I also had several individuals I knew in SCUBA Diving who thought that because of the time and money I put into my own health and wellbeing, that such was only because of my dead-ex-husband's death instead of paying attention to the fact that if I had attempted such before his death that would have been the cause of my death; as he would have caused problems to my SCUBA Diving equipment instead of allowing me to be able to find a way to recover from the medical after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, the ironic way hypothetically my ex-sister-in-law had done so in reference of my SCUBA Diving gear before going to the Georgetown Aquarium and how she told me that my children did not need to see me SCUBA Dive in front of them after I caught her zipping up my SCUBA Dive gear bag when in Georgia in 2009.

However at the same time, I did not find the Jewish Medical Journal's research until November of 2008. Though I would not be surprised if some people had thought it was stupid of me to tell my ex-in-laws that I had signed a will which was changed afterwards of the belongings of mine to go into their possession, though the irony of being in control as the only executrix of my dead-ex-husband; when thinking about the aspects of certain choices made by my ex-in-laws to put things into his casket against my consent. Their desire and need to have him with them until their total and their complete death, their wish had been my pleasure to grant them when they did not heed my warnings.

In such of a different type of STD as instead of a Sexually Transmitted Disease a Spiritually Transmitted Disease of which because of being the one and only executrix, being the only one who can be gone through to request such a removal of. However the price of such redemption is not for the faint of heart, nor for the weak. There is much pressure involved with such a cleansing as such requires the genuine repentance of such among a donation which is dependent upon which sins were committed, and thus that sort of spiritual divorce from such would require much. Those gates which were opened are something no one can close except through my will and my choice to do so, and annoying me is not the way to such. While some might wish to be able to delete such problems from their existences, their is no cancel button for such. The choice is up to each individual and it is not through some other individual who states their way is better than mine or their way is of more importance than mine, for it is known of my upbringing just as it is known what I have gone to the depths of ; just as it is known what I have created, and it is known of what I have done in regards of bringing the long physically dead back to life in hypothetical aspects when taking my Medal of Honor Art Project into consideration. However there is one individual who I dressed, taught, as well as after his physical death who I brought back from the grips of death to nurse back to health and revive his life and existence. I hope such was not squandered, though I also know of such problems which occurred after certain revelations.

Is it not an irony that the first book in the New Testament of the Holy Scriptures of the older writings, is of his name? Or is that simply a coinky dink, some had overlooked?

Such is not a business transaction, though it is my business of how things are conducted.

Nonetheless the aspects of my SCUBA Diving training which I put myself through and chose the school I did to earn each of my 26 SCUBA Diving certifications, has been helpful in various aspects. That which I learned before SCUBA Diving and before my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury that was able to be retained compared to what was forgotten completely and is an attributing factor to the memory deficits and cognitive disorders as well as the headaches and migraines and why I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry and Calculus to 2nd Grade Math in reference of religious and spiritual aspects in life, though also assisted my SCUBA Diving in a multitude of ways from what I learned through such. Has that stopped the problems from the Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury after effects for me, in the slightest? No, it has not.

Some might wonder why is it I can do certain things though cannot heal myself from the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, which is actually quite simple.

From the dawn of time with human beings on the earth, how many things have been altered from the natural state of existence? How many advances have been made which has altered the original DNA from the first human beings on the planet, compared to where human beings are now? Additionally taking into consideration the amount of technology throughout the world and the preference and ease of electrical items to assist the human race to progress, what is of help and use? In such aspects when considering such the next portion of which why had it been considered as selfish of me to seek to better my health conditions as best as I could, when others who complained about me doing so also went to various medical professionals for the betterment of their health? What shots and immunizations did I receive before joining the Army for the United States of America's Armed Forces, what shots did I receive during Basic Training, what shots did I receive when I was in the coma, what did I get when after waking up from my coma to this very day, and what medications in conjunction of whatever type has been in my physical system throughout such times?

Now take an additional consideration of where I landed at the bottom of the ocean when SCUBA Diving in 2009 in reference of when in the waters of the ocean near Cozumel and what swirls around in that area of the ocean continuously, while taking into consideration where I landed at the bottom of the ocean out from the coast of Boca Raton Florida not just the waters themselves but also the underwater volcanoes forming and the composites in that area, as well as when I landed at the bottom of the ocean in the Matthias Abyss where the Vandenberg was sunk in conjunction of being within the outer limits of the Bermuda Triangle and the energetic aspects thereof on top of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury after effects. Who else has that combination of after effects in full, and survived to live?

Oh wait, I know the answer to that. Only, me.

Yet, how is it that others have had the audacity to consider me as selfish to attempt to find better health methods for myself as well as others who might have some of the aspects of which I have dealt with?

There have been many over the years who have called me various names such as arrogant, conceited, snobby, and etcetera of a mere mediocre sort of name calling compared to far worse names I have been called by those I had respected for whichever reasons I had for such. Yet each of those individuals who had called me whatever name was also seeking their own medical treatments for each of their illnesses, and when finding something that genuinely worked for me in SCUBA Diving; among a few other aspects more name-calling from those who had no clue nor idea of what I dealt with at that time, or in full completely. Does that in turn actually make them the exact same names they called me, though for themselves when in the derogatory aspects?

In reference of those who scoffed at the reasons for my tattoos and the explanations thereof, how many of them have since gotten a tattoo of their own? Of those who criticized my hairstyle only after years of health aspects to attempt to assist my headaches and migraines, how many of them had or since then have started coloring their hair? Is it considered discriminatory to look at me crossly because of my hair color compared to the hair colors that have been chosen by others, and why is that excuse considered as valid?

I grew so tired and weary of having to reexplain my medical conditions to people who had the nerve to demand I explain such to them who were not doctors nor were they medical professionals, in reference to my medical after effects; I simply wrote books, so I no longer had to explain such. Yet the irony is even still for whatever excuses thereof for certain individuals, the need still has had to be. In hopes to save my daughter from having to deal with the same sort of garbage as I have had to go through, so too was included in reference of my first book specifically; in hopes she as well as her brother would not have the deal with the constant barrage of individuals who had no right to be as inquisitive as they had been, in my opinion. I had explained myself so many times to non-professional medical personnel to simply get them off of my case and leave me alone unless they actually wanted to discuss something other than my medical after effects; I remembered so many time as such had occurred, I had written such for publication.

Do people go up to blind people who are knowingly blind, to ask them how they became blind? If so, what rights is there to do so, when not a medical professional? I do actually know of a female who went blind and if such occurred after my warning to her of who she informed me of who she was dating and she laughed saying she 'enjoyed that sort of thing', then I at minimum did my part to warn her of who she was getting involved with, and if such occurred while she was dating such an individual who she had been warned of; what more could I do, for such? Nonetheless in reference to such blindness occurring to her afterwards of being warned whether it was during the time of that relationship or afterwards, surely there could be corrective aspects for such. I only recall meeting her twice, once before that individual began dating an ex-boyfriend as well as the other time being after having dated and broken up with him. If I remember correctly, she had bragged about being involved in multiple scene locations during the first meeting to me all around the United States of America; of which no offense to her, I was not impressed.

However it was not because of the locations nor the jobs she had done for such traveling, it was simply because of not being impressed simply because it was her life and not mine to be a part of. In the ways of which the discussion had gone it seemed as though the energy of which was being portrayed had been in a bragging sort of way which of course I could have been wrong, though she would be the one who would clarify such sort of purposes for such intent. There was a female who had gone with me to the storage unit to pick up my belongings from which that particular ex-boyfriend had stolen my belongings from and if the relationship she had toted at the second meeting had been utilizing such furniture of mine from the time of when with my now-dead-ex-husband which was what he had stolen from me such as the dining room table and matching chairs as well as the cork cut out artwork and large Asian fans for only a few examples though also the fact my SCUBA Diving gear had been told to me of being sold through Uhaul and a self-proclaimed as said by the SCUBA Dive employee at the shop good samaritan had delivered the pictures and SCUBA Dive book to the SCUBA Shop my son was attending in San Antonio Texas for junior SEALS; it is a bit of an odd coinky dink, in other sorts of ways. Mainly because of the fact he said the female on the phone described my hairstyle, though also tattoos which were not visible unless I wore shorts or a skirt to the SCUBA Diving shop; which I did not, at the time in 2012.

I wish I could say she did not sit or eat from that particular table though I have no way to confirm such, however do people ask her or others constantly as to why or how are blind? In reference to those who I had seen and helped in reference to Hobby Lobby and such specifically in reference to the COVID mask situation, that female should not have had to wear a mask though I suppose that had to do with people annoying her and her husband of wearing a mask during the COVID aspects to the point it was easier to simply comply instead of standing up for their rights because of the already constant harassment. Thus unless you are a medical professional, why are you bothering or attacking people which you have no legal right to ask or go after with such questions? Even stores which the requirements have the mandatory to not ask questions beyond if the individual has a medical condition, so why is it random people feel they have rights they do not? If such has been felt is a right, then they must feel the same aspects for themselves are of the right for others to know publicly as well correct? In this era of so many technology devices to communicate such sorts of measures are quite easy to make occur for everyone no matter what your major and/or minor medical aspects are and thus those who walk in areas to avoid people who cannot and do not wear masks, also shows publicly of others choices and actions.

Just as how the toilet paper situation which people had reacted as how they reacted in the beginning of the year for 2020 when the situation began, so too have the situations that have followed suit. Whether people chose to research and think for themselves, or whether they continued to fight for the masking without any proof. Are such individuals the same as such to those who want information about others' medical aspects, though are unwilling to have their own truths be known? Some might find such as crass or opinionated or whatever the label of such, however nonetheless since I actually was able to remember being so annoyed by such; I knew, I could not be the only one. Granted I did not go into the depths of the situation pun intended in reference to having landed at the bottom of the ocean where I had during SCUBA Diving, though I also did not have anyone to discuss such with when feeling as though was a secure situation to go into such details of.

Despite my preference of less governmental regulations as per being a Republican, there are purposes for certain aspects thereof in regards of a multitude of reasons. While some could be upset I guesstimate others can comprehend why in multiple situations, I did not feel the need to discuss or write in further aspects in regards of multiple situations including though not limited to the SCUBA Diving situations. Has that affects to my medical conditions since waking up from the coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, in the slightest? No, it has been more than just in small ways. However nonetheless if people could not understand the simplest aspects of the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury in the general public, how could they ever know or understand anything in reference to the after effects from my SCUBA Diving experiences and more? What right did they have anyway beyond what I explained whether in discussing, writing, and/or pictures? The answer is if they are not of a governmental agency nor had a part of such sorts of aspects of SCUBA Diving, is they had none. I had simply been kind enough, to give such explanations within the limitations I felt were needed at the times of. I did not feel the need to be conceited despite, what others had discussed and/or said.