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There at one point in time was an individual, now with irony intertwined
Years ago before my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury I had met a male with his friend during what was called cruising the strip during a time when hanging out with a friend I had in a different high school than where I had attended named Christina, who went to #CaryGroveHighSchool #CGHS whereas I attended #CrystalLakeSouthHighSchool #CLS. Whereas she was more attracted to Phillip Makowski's friend Chris just as I had been in honesty, Chris' friend Phillip Makowski was not that bad looking; however he was younger than me which I personally had an issue with, at the time. Both of which were football players on the #LakeInTheHillsHighSchool #LHHS
After speaking with the two of them each exchanged phone numbers and though I briefly dated Phillip Makowski after being convinced he was mature enough to date, he also did not understand my plans to not stay in Crystal Lake #Illinois because of my personal need to join the #Army branch of the #UnitedStatesofAmerica's #ArmedForces. Though I had gotten along well with his parents who lived in Lake in the Hills Illinois and went to Lake in the Hills High School of which he was also on the football team for, while his dad worked as a manager for the #Goodyear Tires in #CrystalLake. At one point when speaking with Chris at Phillip Makowski's parent's house I had told Chris the truth about the night everyone had met which included telling the truth about finding him far more attractive looking than his friend, who did not want to come to accept the fact I was not staying in Illinois just because he wanted me to. Though Phillip complained and whined trying to get me to want to stay in Illinois, he did not know and was not willing to understand there was no need for me to remain in Illinois.
Though he tried showing me different parts of Crystal Lake and Lake in the Hills to be excited about staying in Illinois for, he then was insulted because I told him there are movie theaters in other locations as well as football stadiums. When he tried telling me the strip to drive on was considered a big deal, I told him there are plenty of areas to drive which anyone can see much more than a little over half of a mile of road with many different buildings as well as open fields. When he tried to impress me in reference to his car not paying attention to the fact I had told him of my weekend drag racing, he tried telling me of the tires he could get which were an important portion of a car going fast. When I told him the tires are important for driving though had absolutely nothing to do with the power and speed of the engine, he tried telling me of how little I knew about cars. When I told him some of my babysitters were mechanics, he told me his dad was a manager of mechanics. When I told him there was a big difference between putting tires on cars and working on the engine itself for cars including the bodywork, he threw a temper tantrum claiming of my arrogance and being a know it all. When I told him he was being overdramatic, he started crying; and then he told me, he had cheated on me to try to make me jealous of him.
When that ended and he wanted to make things work, I reminded him of my need to go into the Army. He then threw a fit telling me he thought I was being over confident to go into a male dominated job, of which I explained I had been around a lot of males and I could get along with many more than he thought or understood in the smallest as well as biggest ways for his brain.
That apparently, offended him some more; though not as much as when telling him there was only one male who I had been in a relationship with up to that point who ever had me second guessing, and rethinking the Army. When Phillip asked if it was him after what I had told him already, I clarified the male who I had been involved with who lived in #Cleveland #Ohio was the only male who I had ever thought to reconsider such though knew I needed to go even still.
When I told him about that, he started crying more though when I had said "You are too young for me and always will be, whereas Thomas and I had something you and I will never have."
I had thought I saw a bunch of tears from Phillip Makowski up to that point, and I was proven the tears combined of all times prior could not measure up to the amount of tears when discussing the point in regards of my first love. Though Thomas had thought his parents owning a bus charter company would be a deal breaker for me, that was nothing which had to do with him himself. Who he had been, his personality, his charm, his charisma, his maturity, his experiences, his humour, and so much more had been far more of interest to me than anything he brought up in regards of his parents' company. However despite such, he had his life to live and I had my life to live which meant I needed to continue my path forward to joining.
Nonetheless Phillip Makowski had continued crying, and whining during that time. In such, why is it I have brought such up in reference to this particular journal blog entry?
Quite frankly a few reasons, which is ironic to me. There is a male who I admittedly have a crush on as well as the fact I have a thing for the #MarineCorps of the United States of America's Armed Forces, as well as #JohnnyJoeyJones #JJJ looks kind of like an older and more mature version in the face of Chris who I had been far more attracted to. I have listened to Johnny Joey Jones and his laugh, reminded me of the way Thomas laughed in one particular pitch when in a particular point of laughing. Then there are the portions of which the #Marines aspect more-so in regards of the letter M, while adding the point of which I have heard Johnny Joey Jones discuss football at times which reminded me of such.
When looking into my prior modeling images there is one photographer who I cannot remember what he looked like, though his first name fully and truthfully annoyed me because of the reference to my dead-ex-husband in conjunction of the fact Phillip Makowski always used the word dumb to describe something he did not like or agree with while crying. Thus each point in the references above while crying, he would add something along the lines of 'That's dumb why you think that way' or 'That's dumb to think tires have nothing to do with speed, you're dumb'. However I am fairly certain additionally and ironically in football when practicing, you actually run into and hit dummies.
What also reminded me of such has to do with the male who had went to an event after the situation at #MidnightRodeo in which after slapping a male within a group of 4 who would not leave Alicia and I alone, of which I was reminded of seeing the waitress who I enjoyed giving her tips in quarters because of her Grandmother's collection to get every state possible. Admittedly I think I had told her years prior I had ordered online a roll of Australia quarters or coin equivalent of, because of adoring the platypus animal. I remember talking with her more than dancing or speaking with any males at the club, as she was far more interesting to me than many who I had seen at those times.
As a quick side note: The irony in reference to 2012 being the timeframe of the Midnight Rodeo, and former President Ronald Reagan with a saying about something, in reference to midnight.
The night when the male who Alicia convinced me to allow to go to an event in #SanAntonio at Mike and Patty's after his friend told me 'If you're offended then you can sla...' of which then he was surprised I slapped him for offending me, and Alicia fell over off of the table laughing telling him 'I can't believe you gave a Sadist permission to slap you if she felt offended by you! She's a Dominant and a Sadist! That's the stupidest thing, I've ever seen and heard from someone!"
When the friend of his was taken out to the parking lot, the male who attended the event later had said he and his ex-girlfriend had gone to #BDSM events before in #Chicago. That was a location I had told many including while also offending Phillip Makowski of which I knew I would have fit into the area far better when moving from #NewJersey, than Crystal Lake. Those who have lived in and/or know of those area's particulars, can completely understand why that was and is the realistic truth. However much of when looking back now in 2020 to those times in Crystal Lake to the time in #Texas modeling for Robert Dombowski and then later in reference to Midnight Rodeo while adding the friend with longer hair who was staying in his then fiance's parent's house in San Antonio doing house reconstruction work while trying to get into the skirt of one of the waitresses at an Irish Pub off of 281 and 1604 area of San Antonio, of which I think the male who Alicia convinced me to allow to go to Mike and Patty's had said that his name was some form of the name Phillip.
Since it is known of the situations in reference to my Medal of Honor Art Project as well as adding the problems that particular male had with my choice to join the Army branch of the United States of America's Armed Forces as well as being upset there was not any emotional connection to that male whatsoever in high school which also hurt his feelings when I told him the truth of, I could see in this era especially how certain males seem to be more feminized even when heterosexual football players in reference to back then in 1999 which had annoyed me back then; if the situation in reference to the portions of which the high schooler Phillip Makowski continued to throw temper tantrums of the truth of being a never was continued passed 2000 and beyond well into the timeframe of my Medal of Honor Art Project, then that would equal to over 20 years of such a fit.
If such to be true in regards of including the male who wore Marine Dress Blue pants which were wrinkled outside of the club I volunteered at in Seattle Washington, then there is an additional irony in regards of that cutie Johnny Joey Jones. Despite knowing biologically younger than I, that particular individual I would have no problem with the minor age gap of. I can tell while he has a light hearted aire about him, he still has maturity as well as experience which there are abilities to connect and relate to. In reference to the male who wore such with a button down white shirt with a collar with points on the side in combination with the Marine Corps Dress Blue pants and Class A patent leather shoes, I knew there was a problem on sight. Admittedly it took me a bit to realize in a fuller sort of way, however it is also known of my not graduating Basic Training.
Since Phillip Makowski also was highly involved with video games which was why his dad had done what he could to get Phillip Makowski a job at the Goodyear Tires in Crystal Lake to as his dad said "Get rid of the tire around his stomach, no one wants to look like the #MichelinMan, and I don't want the Michelin Man as my son"; there are additional aspects, to which some actual connections though not in the way wanted by Phillip Makowski which could hypothetically be seen and noticed.
My modeling in the Dallas area in 2011 at a studio of which the irony of the X in my dress as well as made with my arms, in regards of a double X; as there was the X in Illinois named Phillip Makowski and a second X of Phillip Omstead which could be a cousin by the physical looks of.