Would it take a head injury to figure out if in reference to the Temple of Flesh aspects as to the facts of which not having been told of such situations by anyone before as to such portions of which the forced carrying on stage as to the violations thereof as to my rights, would it take a head injury to figure out any such problems which stemmed from such thereafter would fully be the responsibility of those within the groups thereof to fix and repair in my favor in comparison to anyone else?
Would it take a head injury to figure out any female to ever push for a male or another female to needlessly cause problems to an unattached legal widow female single Mom, would only show other such problems as to the women’s suffering needlessly because of such failures as to those types of females and males?
Would in turn only become what they said they hated in reference to all of those people I met throughout the years who claimed they hated the prostitution problems considered associated with the supposed to be adult consenting lifestyle if there were any such problems in reference to any sort of situation regarding any individual sent to be in my life and/or taken out of my life as to the usage of any type or version of what could be considered as such, in any sort of way or would that take a head injury to figure out and point out such hypocrisy?
What if they did not ever want or need to see within the lifestyle of which is and was as they said “only for consenting adults” of which if it is only for consenting adults then would that mean any time of which to ever push any individual towards the lifestyle in any way at any time would automatically go against what they themselves which they have claimed as to such, and then does that take a head injury to figure out they would inevitably become the exact same as what they claimed the lifestyle was not ever meant to be about as it was supposed to be considered a safe place for consenting adults to be comfortable in?
Would it take a head injury to see what those individuals I once knew claimed was supposed to be up to each individual for what each individual consented to on their own and if there was a choice of the decision to not be a part of that the decision would be upheld and respected and left to go on the individual’s own path instead of ever having to needlessly deal with a bunch of little dramas, in comparison to the aspects of the respectful and responsible aspects as to the ethical and moral avenue of such; of which would it take a head injury to figure out why my journal article on my original fetlife account #LadyDoriBelle Lady Dori Belle as to Etiquette would be of extreme importance?
Does it take a head injury to figure out though none had ever had the common sense to ask me about my background though only assumed because of my being a female as to such, would it take a head injury to figure out as to the BDSM & Lifestyle Collision journal blog as to how such had always applied to me as to the last portion of which went over the head injury aspects thereof?
How could it take a head injury to figure out consenting means consenting has to be begun on both sides as to any such portion and if any goes towards such the right to stand my ground and defend myself as I need, which in turn would not be living such 24/7 as to the what is supposed to be an adult consenting lifestyle; though would it take a head injury to figure out as to only being seen as to others as their failure to have any respect, as to such aspects as to constantly having the sensation of which to having picked up as to constantly being under attack in comparison to ever having the slightest sensation of ever having any sort of picking up as to ever being considered as welcomed instead?
Would it take a head injury to figure out the facts as to the regards as to how many times I had to defend other fe/males as well as myself from the years of 2004 into 2005 as well as from 2009 through 2013 in the state of Texas, there would not ever be a point in time without others acknowledging me in truth as to ever having any such sensation of any consenting portions as to the ways of which I had been treated and had to constantly defend myself and others?
Does it take a head injury to figure out that when I was less than 1 year awake from my coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury upon learning of Temple of Flesh, as to the ways which such people at chilis had only shown me how they did not respect others as to the ways which their choices had been at such times?
Should it take a head injury to figure out when I was only 4 and 5 years awake from my coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury the ways I had been treated in the San Antonio Texas supposed to be adult consenting lifestyle groups, as to not ever picking up any such sensations as to the consenting portion from my side as to such as just because of showing up to an event I did not think it took a head injury to figure out that just showing up to an event means any form of consent to any such types of aspects; or does that take a head injury to figure that out, as well?
Does it take a head injury to figure out the reference to the fact of being awake from my coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury for only 8 years and 9 years in reference to the Uniform Fetish Ball and the having been carried on stage against my will and fighting against such while others laughed at me while I struggled to get away before being put on stage against my will and having dealt with having been electrocuted or zapped by the microphone at that event, does it take a head injury to figure out each person who was there had seen me being physically attacked and physically assaulted while being sexually embarrassed as to the fact of such a personal question being asked of me against my will from having been taken on the stage as to does it take a head injury to figure out each person there had witnessed such an attack against me and stood by doing nothing to ever help of keep me safe from such while also laughing at my expense for what I did not agree to and did not want or need to be a part of because of others’ choices to wrongfully play games as to my not consenting in a large group of people?
Should it take a head injury to figure out the female named Sarah who was with John Virreal also known as Celtic Cowboy on fetlife in the years I knew him at the time as well as the Excalibur Faire situations as well as the other aspects as to which Sarah and John had gone over in various times and details thereof as to the various types of domestic terrorist attacks against me as well as others for each and every such connected aspect as to the ways hypothetically seen and found, in the multitude of ways thereof; and thus does it take a head injury to figure out from the moment which I was officially first attacked as to defending myself though in addition to defending others and in addition to the having been taken on stage against my will, does it take a head injury to figure out I had every right to stand my ground and find a way to be able to officially stand my ground while protecting and defending others as to the facts of which Temple of Flesh began officially as per what I had been informed of within the city limits of San Antonio Texas? Does it take a head injury to figure out my right to stand my ground and protect who I could inside of the loop of Military City USA as to the location thereof as well as the amount of military connections as to the aspects of my Blue Identification Card of/for the Armed Forces of the United States of America, as to my oath I took when I had officially been able to join the Army branch in the year of 2000?
Does it take a head injury to figure out any such tries to ever make me wear any clothing I personally do not want or need to wear for myself, only perpetuates such aspects as to continuing needlessly to force such an unwanted and unnecessary sensation for myself as to all such aspects as to what I personally prefer for myself for my comfort?
Should it take a head injury to figure out there is not any way for me to ever feel comfortable because of such aspects as to the combined situations until full rectified in my personal preferences as to such aspects as to the length of time of which all such situations have gone on needlessly, and does it take a head injury to figure out without having such recognition correctly after the length of time as to such combinations as to only seeing in such purview as to only such assaults in the ways thereof as well as to the forced aspects wrongly as to the violations repeatedly of the 13th Amendment in conjunction of sexual harassment as well as the situations thereof only being seen as the lack of actual concern for what would actually be considered as to me for my best interests as to such wrongful perpetuation as to such situations which have already been gone over repeatedly to such aspects?
Does it take a head injury to figure out if any wishes as to such changes in my viewpoint thereof then there is the delusional martyr situation as to the fact of which I would consider such others as delusional as to ever thinking there would ever be any such willingness ever again without such situations to correctly be taken care of in ways which I personally felt comfortable with in such comparison, as to then others must have been willing to martyr themselves as to any such wishes as to the length of time as well as the amount of situations of which I have had the right to see such aspects as I have as I do not think it takes a head injury to figure out if anyone else were to ever have been put into the combined situations in full of which I have as to ever seeing any other ways; or does it take a head injury to see such, in such ways?
Does it take a head injury to figure out when I had to defend myself repeatedly against being groped and grabbed when at any Temple of Flesh event in the city of #SanAntonio #SanAntonioTX #SanAntonioTexas #SATX #TX #Texasstate #TXstate #Texas #MilitaryCityUSA since 2004 while also having felt the need to defend other females when walking around the Temple of Flesh events from 2004 into 2005, how could there ever be any point in time of ever looking at any comfort from those types of locations with those types of people in those types of situations?
Should it take a head injury to figure out after having given those people my Blue Identification Card of/for the Armed Forces of the United States of America to check in for the first event after I told the individuals I had met about the flyer in reference to #Chilis #Chilirestaurant Chilis restaurant, I was not interested in just whatever those people were involved with as I wanted to ensure what had been told to me one way or another before I made my choice as to whether or not I personally got involved with those types of people?
Why would it take a head injury to figure out when I had told different groups as to about telling those people No repeatedly at Chilis as to the Temple of Flesh though having forgotten because I was less than 1 year awake from my coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury in reference to first learning of Temple of Flesh, des it take a head injury to figure out how many people and locations those types of people would have caused needless damages to for each and every individual who had the right to stand their ground and say No to those people for the right to choose as I have repeatedly done so at this point?
Should it take a head injury to figure out if my biological father and/or my biological mother and/or my biological sister got involved with any of my royalty payments and such aspects knowing I would not know of the amount of people within what is supposed to be the consenting adult lifestyle, would only repeatedly put me into harms way for not having the awareness as to the numbers of people who could have and/or would have bought the books in the adult portion and thus would only cause those individuals who purchased such to think I knew which in turn would only cause needless drama additionally to what I had already been and had gone through as those people had always been the dramatic and overdramatic ones to begin with as does it take a head injury to figure out if they hypothetically had done so as to the ways I told people as to how they had wished my biological sister to be more special than she ever was?
Should it take a head injury to figure out if such in reference to my adult book series as to those people showing my biological father/mother/sister as to the situations I dealt with when I was growing up as a child and a teenager in the references thereof, especially if they without any actual legal basis because of the facts I would not have been put as a legal guardian to my biological sister in the year of 2003 if any of their illegally falsifying under oath if they had stood in a court of law hypothetically as to such aspects as to handling my own finances as I have obviously done everything I possibly could to have taken care of my responsibilities if those people would have accepted No from me to begin with as per my emancipation to join the Armed Forces of the United States of America in the Army branch to begin with?
Does it take a head injury to figure out my choice as to my Mission statement in the adult book series was my choice to make in reference to knowing my books were going to be more than what those people ever thought of me and ever thought of my abilities though if that was a problem for such individuals, than fine it does not take a head injury to figure out I can rescind and fully make the public statement here as to not ever being willing to donate to any such adult groups ever as to my royalty checks as there was only the aspects of looking towards helping to begin with in such references; though since such aspects would have been looked down upon by those types of people who would refuse to see anything good or positive from such, then the full rescinding of such an offer as to my donations of what I had ever right to choose as to what to do with my own finances, and thus does it take a head injury to figure out I should have been able to receive all of my royalty checks for my usage to begin with from the beginning of such aspects in full now? My mistake I suppose of ever seeing any value in helping smaller areas getting help they needed I suppose, in reference to if there is any such hypothetical truth to such in reference to each individual who would have pushed such an agenda.
Would it take a head injury that if I have earned royalty checks though withholding such from me while following me around and/or sending people to follow me around which in turn would mean stalking would also in turn mean because of the financial aspects of which I earned hypothetically would in turn mean a furthered aspect as to #DrMaryEdwardsWalker Dr. Mary Edwards Walker as to the Civil War as to the violations needlessly of the 13th Amendment while additionally proving in such references as to the amount of females who had caused the problems for which Dr. Mary Edwards Walker had been captured because of their jealousy and greed to begin with because of what Dr. Mary Edwards Walker earned on her own in comparison to having only been the stereotypical female at the timeframe of the Civil War as does it take a head injury to figure out any female who would ever assist with harming another female is a feminazi and not a feminist as does it take a head injury to figure out a feminist would only lift others up in comparison to ever pushing another down and against their will to ever force what another female considers as fully uncomfortable?
Would it take a head injury to figure out if there ever was a female and/or a group of females who would ever go after me in any such ways as described hypothetically as to the facts I had brought up in defense of males as to how certain types of females are just as guilty as to not accepting No for an answer and thus would they themselves be assaulters of such types, as to if ever such were found for such problems as would it take a head injury to figure out just because I wrote about a situation at an event there is a difference between the consent from that time in comparison to the full non-consent as to this point? Though I would have fun with the turn around aspect as to if such aspects and getting those females on the cross if such were to be a hypothetical situation as to the repercussions of if such were to be, as there would be no holding back on my part in such comparison to what occurred if such were to be true in such regards as yes I did break a few tools with one swing.
Does it take a head injury to figure out that even though the transfer went through after fighting as much as I had for the transfer to go through though still not having had any of the royalty checks for me to spend on my own via my own choice as to the lack of consent on my part for such due to such financial denying of such hypotheticals would in turn mean a different version of a combined physical, mental, emotional, financial, sort of aspects as to the lack of the correct payments of such finances for my choice of my usage which in turn would it take a head injury to figure out the portions as to the 13th Amendment violations; as well as would it in turn be considered a violation of the 13th Amendment as well as sexual discrimination as to my gender biologically as well as the facts thereof to such the Paroxysm series as to ever wish to try to force such a situation and/or deny such a situation as to the aspects as to a different version of the 13th Amendment and how would that be different from my now dead-ex-husband and/or my biological mother and/or my biological father and/or my biological sister as per what I already explained as well as remember under oath, as to having wrote about in reference to “Finding A Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing”?
Should it take a head injury to figure out anyone from the moment of which I have said I would not be a part of such any further in reference to my website as to the lifestyle in such ways unless I am personally comfortable and if I am not personally comfortable than I will not be a part of such, does it take a head injury to figure out any such pushing against such to try to push the speed along would only either cause me to permanently walk away and not ever feel any need to ever return to the adult supposed to be consenting lifestyle in the ways which I once had been due to such aspects?
Does it take a head injury to figure out that to cause me to hope for the full destruction of the entire adult lifestyle in every such ways for any lack of respect as to accept I said No regarding to if there has been the sales to my books I authored though because of the lack of my royalty payments to me for me to use as I prefer in each and every point in time thereof as the lack of such acknowledgement additionally hypothetically because of others knowing as to my not having my royalties to use as I prefer, which in turn does it take a head injury to figure out I would not and will not ever return to the adult supposed to be consenting lifestyle without such aspects in my full control and until such a time and to remain fully as such; would there ever be such aspects ever viewed as such as to the requirement of telling the truth as if I have done so in reference to explaining such as a mandatory requirement, or have I been unclear to such a point?
Should it take a head injury to figure out through the technological means as to the lack of the need as well as the lack of the requirement for such a lifestyle group and community thereof as to the facts of such supposed to be of consent and when consent has been ignored as to the aspects of the non-consent as seen in reference to the lack of correct acknowledgement as per if already knowing of my works and the fact thereof to my royalty payment checks due to me in full for my use only as I particularly choose, then should it take a head injury to figure out when there has been the wrongfuly lack of respect then there is the lack of the need for such a type of lifestyle in the world and should only be within the aspects of the consenting relationship(s)?
Does it take a head injury to figure out anyone who would push someone against their will and without their consent to the adult lifestyle would fully be showing as to such wrongful as to their abusive tendencies, their stalking and harassing behaviours, their lack of respect for any individual at all, their inability to be a biological and intellectual adult, their failure to see their own #metoo me too connections, their inability to pay attention to the correct details, their violations against the #13thamendment 13th amendment as to such aspects as to forcing such aspects and the lack of any such payment compensation as does it take a head injury to figure out they would then be trying to push forward a different and wrongful aspect in my opinion as to the prostitution in comparison to the adult consenting lifestyle as to the #swingers swinger and/or the #bdsm bdsm communities for any and all such types of trying as to such aspects depending upon who they had gone after claiming they were against in certain areas thereof as well as what does that mean in reference to female empowerment if such females are or were to ever be found to be a part of such as to the unwillingness on my part as to ever willingly be a part of?
How would such individuals who would have stood against certain groups and types of individuals within the adult lifestyle think if they were to have thought about such aspects as to the last above aspect questioned as I did not think it took a head injury to figure that out, or does it take a head injury to figure out there is not excuse nor reason nor cause which I would ever find to ever be considered as acceptable as does it take a head injury to figure out I would full refuse such a game and would fully refuse ever being a part of such even in not being informed though the slightest energetic picking up of such aspects?
Should it take a head injury to figure out in reference to not having remembered until the year of 2019 as to certain problems referencing Temple of Flesh of which upon remembering such problems during the reflection timeframe and the reviewal portions from the years of 2019 through to 2021 because of the amount of medications I had been on over the years as well as the fact of the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury of which the medications were a part of giving aspects as to the additional fact the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain which took until almost halfway through the year of 2004 before the lessening of the amount of blood on my brain began to show such in the MRI and CAT scans as to such times, would mean it would be the responsibility of every individual involved with the groups and the associations of Temple of Flesh to show whether or not they themselves were responsible and moral and ethical individuals in comparison to the opposite ways thereof as to having told such individuals the truth of such aspects; of which does it take a head injury to figure out if any individual connected and/or associated with Temple of Flesh were to ever be found through any measures whether in technological aspects or through people or both as to my SCUBA Diving gear and/or associations to #SCUBA #SCUBADiving SCUBA Diving, would in turn be considered as responsible financially for all such problems caused thereof to each individual and the largest amount of financial compensation would be fully due to the individuals who had the most about of needless problems due to such aspects involved as to any specific targeting simply because of the connection to the Temple of Flesh group?
I though from what I was told by people in the year of 2005 as to there not being prostitution as well as there not being anything forced against anyone’s will as to such aspects to which does it take a head injury to figure out what occurred when I was carried on stage against my will and as to having explained such as to all such aspects thereof to try to force a repeat would only repeat the first portion of being against my will instead in such comparisons, or does that take a head injury to figure that out as to how anyone with a common sense brain would be able to see such and figure that out?
Does it take a head injury to figure out the fact as to how many individuals I had defended over the years when in persona at a Temple of Flesh event which includes myself repeatedly as I had told others about over such prior times to how I wound up in Washington state in the year of 2013 as to the #Cowboys #CowboysDancehall #CowboysDanceHallSA #CowboysdancehallSATX #CowboysDancehallTexas #StoneyLaRue #Concert Cowboys Dancehall Stoney LaRue concert in March 2013, if there are any direct connections to anyone involved with Temple of Flesh for when as to how and/or after winding up in #WA #Washington #Washingtonstate #WAstate #OR #Oregon #ORstate #Oregonstate Washington state and/or Oregon because of the #Halloween Halloween event as well as the #VR #VelvetRope Velvet Rope in #Portland #PortlandOR #PortlandOregon Portland Oregon before #CS #ClubSapphire Club Sapphire in #SeaTac #Seattle #SeattleWA #SeattleWashington Seattle any such needless problems and damages thereof as to the repercussions legally against each individuals associated and involved willingly to such aspects as to the problems hypothetically caused by such connections thereof in full to recompense all such aspects and problems caused needlessly to such in every possible way if necessary as to however such collections would occur?
Does it take a head injury to figure out while taking classes and going to demos for the bdsm when learning about the fact of the requirement for consent to ever be involved with an individual in such references and my making sure to clarify my understanding of consent as to what I had already acknowledged what I had been dealing with up to that point in the year of 2005, they individuals who taught such a class as well as the individuals within such a lifestyle would mandatorily have to accept if any individual said they did not consent as to such a reality?
Should it take a head injury to figure out when those people who I told were officially telling me what I was dealing with in 2005 and later in the years of 2008 through 2012 was wrong and horrific while those people telling me that was wrong and horrific if ever having to do anything where they made any choice to go against what they preached as to not having accepted No for an answer, would it take a head injury to show their full hypocrisy as to not accepting No for an answer while claiming a safe place for such individuals?
Would it take a head injury in which would be the largest oxymoron of such all because how would anyone ever believe such would be a safe location if those types of individuals kept going after someone who said No repeatedly only to learn that almost every problem which was in such a hypothetical individual’s life stemmed directly from such a connection, of which specifically had said No to begin with to such types of individuals and thus if those individuals had accepted No to begin with the amount of needless problems throughout such a hypothetical individual’s life would not have ever been and in turn there was only those types of people to begin with; or does it take a head injury to figure that out, and see such connected portions thereof?
Who had been the problems’ origin to begin with and if they had accepted No for an answer as does it take a head injury to figure out that life for me would have been so much better if those people had stayed the away from me unless actually being helpful in the ways I need(ed) and preferred, as does it take a head injury to figure out I will not participate when I do not feel comfortable?
Does it take a head injury to stay away from myself though also in reference to such truths as to my daughter #Letters4Lidia and my son #Letters4James as to such so-called biological and intellectual adults as to the hypothetical of causing needless problems in such references as to my knowing what was better for them when such times, though does it take a head injury to figure out if anyone from such locations as McCoy Elementary School having any such connections to either the SCUBA Diving and/or the supposed to be adult consenting lifestyle they themselves would eb hypocritical as to any such claims about me and would fully be able to be shown for all such aspects as to their hypothetical connections and involvements thereof? Who, would be found more and less responsible as well as who would be found to be better or worse?
Why would it take a head injury to figure such out or has only such aspects been nothing more than a game to others of then which I wonder, why did I ever care or bother to care as to ever taking care of any such portions as would it take a head injury to figure out without such actual aspects ever being recognized correctly would only turn into the portions of which I would not ever see any reasons of which anything was ever worthwhile without such?
How do you get someone to 100% feel as an unwanted artist? Take a look as to how such has gone over the past several years and I do not think you need a head injury to figure such aspects out, as per the amount of writings and works thereof as to the lack of return contact correctly as per such situations as to the realities of such fully as well as the constant needless battles as to getting such situations correctly taken care of for myself as does it take a head injury to see there is not one situation that in any such context would ever be considered as comfortable without such acknowledgement correctly as to my books as to such aspects as well as my works as why would I ever think or see any such being wanted as to the ways which I would personally view as to what being wanted would actually be? Why would I ever view what others see as considered as wanted when I do not view the world in the ways which others view the world, of which does it take a head injury to figure out the only way to find out what would make me feel as wanted as an artist would be to specifically ask me personally in person in comparison to assuming anyone else would ever have the slightest inclination as to who I am or what my preferences are as does it take a head injury to figure out stalking me would not ever get such answers as even when having put such specifically into writing into view as to such why would I ever see myself as a wanted artist in such ways if that has yet to correctly be done to begin with?
Does it take a head injury to figure out I am not the stereotypical female and thus when I specifically say and/or write something, there is not the requirement of reading between the lines as does it take a head injury to figure out that if I have proven repeatedly as to not being the stereotype, then the only way to accomplish ever having me feel as wanted in the positive ways would be to only do as I have said and/or written as to such specifics of what would actually make me feel as wanted and welcomed?
Or is it that I and/or are other people, truly considered as to being that stupid?