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It should not take a head injury
*after personally sustaining a head injury & coma*
to figure this out...

 
 
 
 
 
 


After a Drill Sergeant threw Me into the metal part of the bunk when I was in Basic Training for the United States of America's Army branch at Fort Sill Oklahoma #FortSill #FortSillOK #FortSillOklahoma #OK #Oklahoma in the year of 2000 on Psalm Sunday, I have dealt with the situations as best as I have been capable to do so while taking care of the situations and asking for assistance as per the required explanations of the information to such facts first.  While making the attempts to get assistance for the aspects thereof as to the reality, the aspects of where and when as to the multiple attempts to ask for assistance for me.  As my journal blog for when I was ready to bring such as to my other works forward since as to the lengths of time as to where my modeling was as to the modeling page information, just as the other pages have the information as to such specifics, and just as this journal blog of mine is as to such facts.


If I had real friends (if as to having met in person face to face in person in real life as to the aspects of this particular reference such as from the state of Texas as to the state of Washington as to the years of 2000 through 2013 if I met within the state of Texas for such references), real (the areas of the tristate region as before the year of 2000) family, and real relationships in real life that recognized me as to the aspects of if as to the face to face in person who started in truth as I had started such in truth as to the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, as well as the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain that took 8.5 years to dissipate; then I guesstimate there would be the easier factors as to being capable for me to speak with others in truth in person face to face in person and/or through online measures as to such factors I suppose.  Though would such as to the knowledge of the ways as to how they began such discussions with me as to would there be such a situation, for them to consider as to such if factors as to such discussions with me in truth?


As to some suggestions and commentary within "Finding A Silver Lining" one of several of my bo0ks I personally authored/wrote/compiled as I can only speak and write in truth as per such clarifications as to the reality as to the specifics of such discussions/writings/videos as per my Official You Tube where I have satirical commentary where I comment about the factors as to having dealt with others' opinions about their pop culture references of #NJ #NJstate #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey, though as to for the most part I have actually preferred to be asked with politeness if as to having read my books and/or seen my website as just the same in reference to the timeframes when I was modeling as to having respect as to what I consider as respect, referencing if as to such polite manners as to discussions if as to such having been noticed because of the factors in my opinion as to having real discussions as communication would be if my website was seen before the year of 2023 as I first began my website in 2015; as in my journal blog posts as to the reality of the years of 2010 through 2013, as to the aspects of introductions as to those timeframes when as to various factors as I did not take selfies as I was actually working with photographers as to my creations of my outfits as per the description on the link to my modeling page(s) as to the references regarding my journal blog updates in the years of 2019 through 2022 as the timeframe onward as to the year of 2023 as to the factors as to how such journal blog entries will be as to such factors as to the aspects of the various topic points.


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 I was born and raised in New Jersey and grew up going throughout the tristate northeast areas mainly, and as to how the reality of when the importance of the situations as to the aspects of reviewing as to such facts regarding the logistics for several factors as to the considerations; the years of 2019 through 2022 as to the review process as to the aspects of the timeframe, prior to the timeframe of the 20 year memorial of 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 as well as before the 30 year memorial of February 1993, as to the northeast areas mostly known as to New York City #NYC #NewYork #NY #NYstate #NYU though also as to the #Pentagon Pentagon, as well as Pennsylvania #Pennstate #Pennsylvaniastate as to the reality of how many New Jersey-ians commute in either direction, depending upon what location for the commute. 


The factors though I have said at times, I re-re-re-re-re-re-grew up in the state of  #Texas #TX #Texasstate Texas as to such factors as to the timeframes, as well as all 26 of my SCUBA #SCUBA #SCUBADiving  Diving certifications I earned were through one school within the state of Texas as I also earned winning first place in a Texas Chili cookoff with more than 20 entries as well as my chili recipe as I am adamant about my recipes as to such aspects just as I am specific as to what it actually takes for me to cook in a BBQ as to the required preparations for when I have BBQed.   



I can sarcastically write, those who know of the Rules of the BBQ as to where I grew up as to the Rules of the BBQ as to such factors to the considerations of such preparations.  However that is to cooking food as to the differences of my journal blog entries, as to the factors as to proverbial aspects of food for thought as the difference of real food in real life as to the facts of the situations to such attention to the details as well as attention to the information.


Such facts as to the metaphors in some of such factors that only after reviewing such information as to the aspects of the fiction book series that were as to for My personal life as to such dreamland sorts of factors as to the differences of such hypotheticals, the references thereof as to such regards as to the logistical emotional with the real situations as per the names I was informed of at the timeframes referenced review as to My journal blog as to the situations overall.  


If as to my journal blog being found and read as to where what I consider as common sense, as to the aspects of my satirical saying   how it should not take a head injury to figure out. 
 

*(sometimes utilizing articles discussing facts)*
By:  (Reverend) Susan MeeLing
also known as

The One & Only


(YouTube)   Lady Dori Belle


 

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REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

Temper tantrums need to stay out of SCUBA Diving and away from children for the betterment of life

Years ago before how the #Cowboys #CowboysDancehall #CowboysDanceHallSATX #SATX #SanAntonio #SanAntonioTexas #TX #TXstate #Texas #Texasstate #concert #StoneyLarue Cowboys Dancehall San Antonio Texas Stoney LaRue concert in March of the year of 2013 had occurred as to the additional situations which I was already dealing with at the time, I had been given a pin at one point in time from some individuals in the #Austin #AustinTX #AustinTexas Austin Texas area in front of a smaller group of people as to something that occurred shortly before I had to move to the #irving #IrvingTX #IrvingTexas Irving Texas area from something I had done or something I had said that I cannot remember specifically though around the year of 2011 if I remember correctly. A few of the #TNG TNGers looked over and were upset as to how I had been given the purple and golden brass colored pin with a design on it as the purple background with the crass or yellow colored letters design, though it meant little as to their responses from the handing over of the pin to me at the moment as to the TNGers’ attitude as to the aspects of.


Though I remember my headache was on the brink of a migraine at the point in time as to back in that year around 2011 if I remember correctly though it could have been 2010 because of the timeframe situation though knowing it was before Irving, the situations in reference to the situation became more intensive and dramatic shortly after that situation. While in the reference to back when I was a child in the year of either 1990 or 1991 there was a point in time which my Bok Gung had pinned on a dress I was wearing at the point in time, because of the situation which occurred previously where my biological mother had tried to give my biological sister a leg up to the situation in the comparisons thereof. Whereas when my Bok Pu had learned about the amount of additional details my biological sister had been given, it only infuriated my Bok Pu and my Bok Gung because of learning who my biological sister had been sent to for the classes in the comparisons to how I had not been given any such assistances as to the ways which situations were as to the times though I do not doubt the same sorts of situations because of the ways such had been during the years before my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury and the ways life had been thereafter was not any different than the way I grew up with the exception as to the locations being different as from #NJ #NewJersey #NJstate #NewJerseystate #NYC #NY #NewYork #NYstate #NewYorkstate #NewYorkCity New Jersey/New York City area compared to Texas as to after the year of 2003 after they moved from #IL #ILstate #Illinois #Illinoisstate Illinois from #CrystalLake #CrystalLakeIL #CrystalLakeIllinois Crystal Lake Illinois as where both my biological sister and I had our initial drivers licenses from in the comparisons. If I recall correctly I had gotten my Texas drivers license after the time at the #JoP #Justice #JusticeofthePeace #Peace Justice of the Peace in comparison to the age as to such times.



Since I had no clue as to how to go on Temporary Retirement Duty Leave up to Illinois after my paperwork was completed because of the ways which the situation had been as to the after effects as well as the time, I had gone through what I had gone through until I was able to get myself taken care of as to being able to get to where I needed to be as to despite the situations in reference to #Carrollton #CarrolltonTexas #CarrolltonTX Carrollton Texas as to the situations which were ideal at the time in comparison to what occurred. However I dealt with what I dealt with as best as I could despite all of the combined situations as to the overall regarding such factors, of which while the situations both in reference to the year of 1990/1991 to the year of 2010/2011 as to such differences in time as to the overall it has been an upset to me as to the wooden carved box that my Bok Gung and my Bok Pu had given only to me. Though the pin inside that was specifically just for me because I personally earned the pin myself on my own, was of importance more than some ever knew as the box was always important because of the significance as to who gave me the box as to having picked it out specifically for me because of the boats with the individuals carved along the side as well as the dual colorations as to the border areas being darker though the interior carvings being of a lighter color with the lacquer on the outside though unfinished on the inside. The ways which the box had been specifically carved from two different pieces of wood just for me with the brass hinges that got to a darker shade as per the oxidization time, was because of Bok Pu as to where she had came from and Bok Gung because he was able to afford the box being hand crafted just for me.



The pin which to the ironies to latter times in reference to 2010/2011 of such in the year of 1990/1991 as to the oddities of such corresponding timeframes and some oddities in situations, my biological sister’s responses similarly to the TNGers’ responses as to such times were of a way which now in the year of 2021 as to reviewing such portions has its own oddities regarding when after how my son #Letters4James and I wound up in #WAstate #Washington #Washingtonstate #WA Washington state after the Stoney LaRue concert as well as the combined situations in reference to my daughter #Letters4Lidia as to such points in time as to the college student male with the purple and yellow W knee high socks and the temper tantrum he threw about my words as to “It shouldn’t take a head injury to figure that out” as to the description of a situation I dealt with in downtown #Tacoma #TacomaWA #TacomaWashington Tacoma Washington where the male as to the ways which the Washington state area occurred had hidden in an alley way when I was approached and did not stand up for me as to any such aspect while the millennial male had continued on with such a temper tantrum.



Similarly to such a temper tantrum in reference to the year of 2003 after my biological sister was grounded by me as to what she had done in reference to the rules of my house when still in San Antonio as to how I did not allow her to drive her car anywhere except to her school, her dance, and then back to my house became an issue after my phone call discussion with the Mom of one of the two males who she had said the homework had to do with though was of a different aspect as to what I personally was not aware of until later when I questioned her similarly to how I was interrogated as to after the answering machine situation in the year of 2012 with the exception my biological sister was outside on the back patio compared to when I was inside of my biological mother and my biological father’s living room and dining room main area they had cleared out to put the lamp in for that interrogation as to such a time as well as difference of just myself compared to both of them tag teaming one another for the additional differences as to the questioning dealt with over the answering machine.



You know, similarly to the voice mail message I had left for the parents to be able to discuss with their son and their children as to the right they had to know of such a situation despite the missionary and the seminary aspects I had discussed as well as wrote about.



While my biological sister had been spoiled her entire life in comparison to what I dealt with as can by found possibly, the ways which her having not ever been punished for her choices was actually mild and brief compared to all of what I had dealt with up to that point in time because of her type of individual in the year of 2003 by all accounts in my opinion as to what I could have done comparatively as to the situations she had and was causing needlessly because of such overdramatic childish little type of behaviours. There after the phone call when I had spoke with Adam’s Mom as to the timeframe of what occurred that day when I went to pick up my biological sister because she failed to adhere to my rules of only where she was allowed to go, I had taken the keys away from her as she was not allowed to drive anywhere because of her inability to be responsible as well as follow the rules of which I had set in my house that she was allowed to stay in only because of my living in the area and it being my house as per the deed as well as my VA Home loan in all such comparisons. While I guesstimate there is the assumption otherwise, the facts are the facts as I had to explain to some of the Homeowners Association individuals who had wrongfully assumed it was ever anyone else’s as it was always mine.



Nonetheless because in the first few weeks of her failure to follow the most simple of instructions, I took away the keys as per being made the Legal Guardian. As she had not ever been disciplined before for anything she ever caused because of always having had me as a scapegoat, she learned when she was in Illinois after I went to the Army and then stayed in Texas as to having to deal with taking responsibility for her choices. The move to Texas as I had warned as many people as I could as to the ways of such, few wanted to believe me at the times in the years between 2003 through 2012 as to the levels of temper tantrums the spoiled brat type of the being the youngest though wishing to be the only child as to such factors and then having to accept responsibility for every wrongful choices made as to such types of individuals. Thus after speaking with the Mom and having to go to McHenry High School to pick up my biological sister one of the males with the shoulder length darker hair and the blond-ish streak threw a temper tantrum as to having seen me tell my biological sister to get out of my van to stand up, close the door, open the door, and get in without slamming my car door again or I was going to handle her in the parking lot east coast style.



The teenagers who had been at the area thought they could balk up thinking whatever assumptions they had as to such a point in time, of which the male with the skunk type of hair decided to speak without my permission and did not like that he was informed as such. When I took a few steps towards his direction inviting him to step directly to me in comparison to being across the way as a titty baby as per my words back then in the year of 2003, he whined and ran away scared though internally knowing what I meant when I spoke my words. Apparently, he had not actually heard what someone from New Jersey sounds as in truth when rightfully upset as to such a point in time. I dealt with my biological sister throwing a temper tantrum and when she finally got in the car correctly with the mandatory ways I had told her from the beginning, my son and my daughter laughed at my biological sister after I got into the car and told her she should not ever upset their Mom.



My biological sister rolled her eyes and mouthed off, which once we got back to my house I sent my children to the backyard to play on the swingset while my biological sister and I had an extremely important discussion which unlike in Crystal Lake South High School as to the year of 1998 if I recall correctly to the year; there was not a cafeteria table despite my patio table being there, as for that particular reference for the difference as to the discussion as to my words and the level as to the tone of my voice because of my son and my daughter being in the area and being a Mom while keeping my calm as to such. While later in the week where when I told my biological sister to get the dishes out of the dishwasher, my son then toddled over to where she was to bite her on her buttox in the same area where in New Jersey the Chow Chow dog at the pet store had bit her in the exact same spot. As I laughed hysterically remembering the time as my daughter laughed as well and began throwing food at my biological sister while my son kept his teeth sunken into my biological sister as I continued laughing, after awhile was when I went to get my son off of her as to telling her to not ever do anything to piss off my son as he just showed her what small aspect he was going to be capable of while my daughter showed her that she knew who was in the correct as to the situation.



My biological sister cried and could not believe I would not defend her against my two year old daughter and my three year old son as to the fact of how much of a spoiled brat she was, and how she always up to a certain point in time had someone to defend her in comparison to what over the course of my life I dealt with in such comparisons as to the example of not only the W sock situation though how I wound up in Washington state to begin with as to that evening when the males and females needed to stop bothering me as to their temper tantrums. The three males and the four females one who had a boot on her leg which went up to her knee cap area, as per explained in writing after telling a few people in different areas as to the time in the year of 2013 as mainly on the phone though a few in person before winding up in Washington state after #AZ #Arizona #AZstate #Arizonastate Arizona state around July or August timeframe as the situations from then are a bit difficult to remember from the situation as to the San Antonio Family Court as to the impact it had on me having to deal with such acknowledgement as to the situations I did the best I could for both my son and my daughter in regards of the #FWZoo #FortWorthZoo #DFW #FtWorth #FortWorth #FWTX #FortWorthTexas #FortWorthTX Fort Worth Zoo as to the additional situations as to the McCoy Elementary School #CFBISD Carrollton #FarmersBranch #FBTX overall combined with the #SCUBA #SCUBADiving SCUBA Diving aspects.



Unlike what my biological sister had always had being able to play with others’ emotions as to knowing how to get their attention in such ways as to the garage after what occurred in reference to the reasons why I called the parents as to the timeframe back in the year of 2003 as per what occurrences there were, the Mom and I spoke as to how Adam’s Dad had been in the #Dallas #DallasTX #DallasTexas Dallas area as to his job commuting though was on 11 September 2001 as to the last time she had to go to the school to speak with her son about something in the larger ways. I apologized for the situation as to having told her why I had fought to join the military in the reference to the #USA #USArmy #USAArmy #USAA Army branch of the United States of America, as I cannot remember if I told her about the #MAST #Marine #Science #Technology #USN #USNavy #USANavy #Navy Marine Science Technology School with the Navy attachment. Additionally as to how unlike my biological sister as to not having someone rush to my defenses the ways she had always been accustomed to, as per such circumstances as to the ways of in such regards as to how much I had dealt with in person when dealing with others in person.



After the points of which with a certain amount of rules which were followed as per my instructions, I allowed her to invite a few people over to my house. Which the sunk hair boy had been brought over for the move they watched, which unlike how I had chosen to raise my children as to with respect; those teenagers for the most part, acted similarly to my biological sister. Birds of a feather, in such regards. In the point in time which when they were in my backyard as to the timeframe and the male who had seen my supplies decided he thought he had a right to what he did not ever have any right to, of which when he lit the hairspray on fire with the lighter and directed the flames in my house’s direction towards where my son and my daughter were sleeping I lit up and handled the situation as per the ways already described as that male obviously was not raised correctly as to keeping his hands to himself and needed to be informed as to who my biological sister did not understand or know who I had always been.



I warned him to back off and when he did not stop and aimed the flames towards my physical direction, I blocked the flames and when I returned the flames back in his direction was when he put the can of hairspray down and the lighter down. When he picked it up again as to the childish tendencies of that type of teenager little personality, I repeated the same responses as he was then going back and forth between my house, myself, the group of teenager, and then my neighbor’s and my fence line. That fence line being around 10 years old by that point would have caused a neighborhood fire instead and when I refused to repeat the same aspects as I had moved the can of hairspray as well as the lighter away from him, because of that little type of teenager bratty temper tantrum and that type who similarly to my biological sister as to the failure to grow up at such times; was then when I went upstairs to get the firearm out of the gun safe and when I grabbed the Baby Desert Eagle firearm, I calmly walked down the stairs to handle the teenager boy myself.



After cocking back the pistol area while holding onto the grip to ensure he heard the sound directly next to his head, the group put their hands up and looked at the area where he and I were at by my backyard window near the living room. He decided to put the hairspray can down slowly as well as put the lighter on the table slowly to then walk away as he tried to tell me his dad was a Sherriff which meant little to me as to the facts of the laws. I informed everyone the time was for them to leave which was when at the time my biological sister said she was sorry to those people before complaining to me, in comparison to taking responsibility for her choices as to knowing it was my house to begin with and her false claim as to the move from Illinois to Texas to help me with my son and my daughter was fully revealed as she was not going to change her patterns of behaviour.



I doubt she has, just as I doubt those individuals changed for the better as to my personal opinions as well as such situations because unlike the situation at Fort Sam Houston in BAMC as to when I returned the Bronze Star situation there was a problem caused in dangerous proportions as to that little teenagers and their type as to such in comparison to the situations which of my being respectful as to the knowledge a Bronze Star actually means something to those who actually earn it in comparison to whatever movies and/or televisions shows and/or video games such types think that playing makes them anything such as when in reality it only shows them what they wish they could have accomplished in real life in my opinion. In my opinion those types of video games which the military is involved are the ways which such escapism of which knowing some of the realities of though not having it within them as to such factors of actually doing the work required to actually truthfully earn such, and the wishful tendencies as to what they could wish to be good enough to handle in the real life such situations in such aspects thereof as they would not be the player they would be the individual as to what aspects thereof if it was in real life in person when in person with another in comparisons to the digital portions of what they wish they could accomplish. In my opinion as to such, of course.



Nonetheless as to those types of little bratty teenagers in the year of 2003 being not any different than the TNGers as to the Austin Texas area of such as I had informed others as to the facts of what I dealt with when growing up as I told them of the situations in reference to my biological mother, my biological father, and my biological sister as to such situations as per a phone call which I dealt with in addition after the problems regarding the abomination of a wedding which my biological sister had as to such points in time in the year of 2008 or 2009 and that lingerie aspects as to such as already explained though thankfully as to her lack of ability to get over seeing the pictures of my now dead-ex-husband and the facts as proven multiple times as to her wishes as to being more involved in other ways as to that abomination of such epic proportions as to the overall aspects in my opinion as to the ways she had cried over such a sight in comparison to ever paying attention to the details as to the actual length of time as to when I woke up from my coma being less than 1.5 and 2.5 years in reference to delivering my son and my daughter as well as the fact when she was in my house as to I still had the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain at the time as to the lack of human decency in my opinion as per such temper tantrums as she complained about not having been at the Justice of the Peace in regards to the lingerie aspects as to such immaturity as well as lack of any intelligence as to the arithmetic to such realities as to the pathetic portions of such immaturity in my opinion as the same with those other teenagers as to the other three as to the two males and one other female.



The fact those teenagers could not do the correct math at the time as to such aspects in the comparisons, only show what levels of intellect as to the public school system in my opinion as to the fact they were unable to realize what they were doing to the realities and their lack of any such humanity as well as their lack of intelligence to think outside of their own egos and arrogance only showed as to what levels they had been and what levels the general public school system in the areas of both where my biological sister had gone to school as well as the difference in backgrounds as to the upbringing factors of which the intellectual portions were something I focused upon more than just the physical appearances in the comparisons as to such aspects. Maybe there is something to say about such amounts of overt visual stimulation as to the lack of intellectual capacities as to the flashing of the lights in the background, of such as to the news reports back in the 1990s as to how certain types of video games were causing the impacts as to such times of the health complications as I had been concerned about the intellectual capacities as to the times as well as the common sense factors.



However in reference to my wooden customized box only crafted for my usage as to the specifics of as well as the same in reference to the pin I personally earned back in the year of 1990/1991 to the irony as to the timeframe between as those who could guess can know as to the temper tantrum when that customized box was presented to me after the first meeting before the pin, as to the situations regarding how that went as to such times regarding my biological sister’s personal problems as to failing to see how certain factors are earned in comparisons to cheater types of aspects.



While the wished portions as to how the situations had occurred in reference to later in the year of 2010/2011 of which that different pin as to the time and location thereof, the ways of which additionally such ironies as to the factors of which my Bok Pu warned my biological mother as to what she would be held accountable for just as she was warned as to what my biological sister would deal with and be held accountable for as to the ways of such a disrespect as to the specific name which was supposed to be though the choices were as the choices were by that aspect. Since it was not important to me, I did not care about ever learning the name nor care about learning the spelling as it was little in importance to me as the realities of what I dealt with during the year of 1986 was unnecessary for me to ever learn that aspect of which I would not doubt as to how it would be wished for such to ever have been something which I would have taken a look at.



Then again, why would it matter to me? A name is for each individual as per the meanings thereof, to which the choices made by who the choices were made by similarly to my biological sister choosing to hyphenate the last name in comparison to fully changing her last name meant she repeated the same situations for herself as to the ways thereof to the biological mother aspects for the first go around which the first time cannot be unknown as to once it is known as to such factors as there would not ever be any point in time even if later she fully changed it as to ever having anyone in that family as to the husband factor who would ever be able to unknow that the initial beginning was where she had chosen such as to the ease for a divorce from him in comparison to ever paying attention to what an actual marriage is supposed to be regarding the name factor as to respecting the parental and family aspects of what the last name comes from in such references. Thus the situations as to my legal widow last name as to Grandpa Nichols as to the respect and such factors in the comparisons as well as each of my children regarding my son and my daughter, despite how the Justice of the Peace had gone.



I had looked for the pin shortly after the W sock situation though with everything that was occurring at the time in the year of 2014 or 2015, the other factors as to such times were of importance to the multitude of factors involved as to ensuring the best possible outcomes for my son and my daughter and myself as to what was necessary as to bringing various portions forward as to the realities in culminations thereof. While I knew my son was having difficulties as to certain factors the reality of not being able to figure out certain factors as to the combined overall as to the situations which occurred and the situations being discussed as to those times when I made a phone call to the VA Crisis line as to the larger portions as I had already noticed several factors as I had already discussed and wrote about, since no one I knew personally had ever been able to assist in such times as to the situations and what was being perpetuated needlessly I had to find a better way for the aspects for myself as well as to knowing I needed to ensure a productive member of society in comparison to what I had already seen before.



Having the intellect to acknowledge when the assistance is required in comparison to assuming as to being in such regards as, has been something which I have brought forward in a multitude of ways. It is not weak to acknowledge weaknesses as it takes much to acknowledge such factors in my opinion, as how would anyone ever actually get help for themselves to better themselves if in the ways of such had not been sought to find such betterment ways for when seeking such to betterment the ways thereof could be made better as to if there is the actualities of such actually correctly stepping forward in comparison to the assumptions as to the what is behind.



In reference as to how my SCUBA diving had been as to the ways thereof to the 10 year anniversary compared to what occurred, the situations thereof to which such aspects are as to what realities such are of my work. It is something of which I earned on my own as to the lengths of time of my personal aptitude for such, and it is what it is as there has not ever been the genuine need for me to personally go through such details as I already know what I did to handle the situations. Those who understand such aspects I took care of what I needed to take care of in the year of 2009, and in the year of 2019 into the year of 2020 I then gave the species of aquatic life the names I gave them that I had taken the pictures of myself during the timeframes I had been in the area SCUBA Diving. I did not have anyone to report to as to the time as the ways which the situations were as to such point in time, and thus with the ways as to the situations I went along as I had as to what needed to be taken care of as best as possible for my son and my daughter and I in the year of 2009 onward.



If in turn such teenager temper tantrums had continued forward as to that type of spoiled bratty type of behaviour as to what is unnecessary as well as unhelpful as to the ways life actually has and what is meant to be for further, the ways of which if the factors of from 2003 went forward as to those types of individuals in such a needless way as to the larger netting thereof to the internet portions I suppose I have to admit something and confess.


I forgot to warn my biological sister and her friends as to the realities of technology, as to such times with all of the other warnings which were given repeatedly.



In my defense, I thought there were plenty of warnings I had already gave as to the amounts of to the lack of correct attention as to the timeframes thereof. Though hopefully in reference to whose Mom I had spoken with as to the understanding as to having done the best I could, as to hopefully assisting in the more positive helpful ways as to such times despite the circumstances thereof.



As an additional side notation, all such photoshop and filer type of images and videos might need to have a marking as to ensuring the individual viewing such would be able to distinguish the truthful portions of such pictures in all such ways in comparisons to the aspects as to the ways some situations may have been. It might be more helpful than some might think as to such factors or show the side by side for the clarity of both to assist in other such future portions thereof, in my opinion.



A picture of me modeling in #DeepEllum Deep Ellum in the year 2011

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Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Model Author Susan MeeLing

It should not take a head injury to figure this out because I thought you are supposed, to be smarter.

If there are those who find such interesting enough to research further to bring forward more information in reference to the forefront for more detailed information, as usual I request the courtesy of the same which I do in reference to how I refer to articles for reference points when writing my journal blog entries; for each one used for reference starting points, to research for clearer understanding from such knowledge.

 

That is common sense, good etiquette, and good karma; whilst lifting others upward, in positive ways.

Quotes which mean a lot to me:

"The ultimate measure of an individual is not where they stand in moments of comfort and convenience, but where they stand at the time of challenge and controversy."

"We must reject the idea that every time a law is broken society is guilty, rather than the law breaker.  Freedom is never-more than one generation away, from extinction.  We do not pass freedom on through our blood stream because freedom must be fought for, protected, and handed on for the next generation to do the same."

"Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.  Though best to be able to share in person with who matters, until that time occurs being able to see what is possible through such is a feat to notice.  One must be happy within oneself prior to being happy with another, though such can be enjoyed if living in one's own truth is as such. and then as to the capability to progress forward with another and/or others depending upon the situation(s) and individual(s)."  ~  A Quote From Me, Reverend Susan MeeLing also known as Lady Dori Belle

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