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It should not take a head injury

*after personally sustaining a head injury & coma*

to figure this out...









A Satirical Blog

*(utilizing articles discussing facts)*

By:  Susan MeeLing

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.



When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.


If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.


You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 


Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.


Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Such is life...or those times...

My biological sister Patricia Ann Hom-Miller has been nothing more to me than a problem of which I have the feeling others have learned the hard way, of my warnings. Specifically more-so in the state of #Texas than any other location as when growing up in #NewJersey, most simply thought it was just a sibling rivalry; though Illinois could be included in such, just as the state of Texas. Unfortunately while certain aspects of sibling rivalry, there realistically was not a rivalry on my part until after winding up in the state of #Washington how such had occurred.

As after our biological parents and her had moved to the state of Texas under the false claim of being in Texas to help me with my son and my daughter, such actions and choices of theirs can prove otherwise. Also in addition the fact of my biological sister's infamous track record of the amount of males she had been with and the trails thereof, each male who has been with her can give their own account of how such had pun intended; gone down. My now dead-ex-husband had confessed to cheating on our marriage with my biological sister multiple times in #Illinois before the move, as well as when in the state of Texas after their move.

My biological parents were embarrassed of how I had fought to be emancipated from their control so I could join the #UnitedStatesofAmerica's #ArmedForces #Army branch, and even more-so embarrassed of the fact I did not complete Basic Training because of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury and after effects thereof. That did not stop them from taking advantage of such in reference to my headaches and migraines, to rummage through my property when I had to lay down from the excruciating pain. That did not stop them from using my memory issues and cognitive disorders to test me illegally, as none of them have medical licenses nor degrees; nor have I ever consented to such as I would not, though each of them had confessed to doing so in so many times, as I can recall certain situations on my back patio in my house in #SanAntonio Texas before that move. However when my biological sister started going to college in #SanMarcos Texas, that embarrassment which they felt towards me only expanded just as their resentment as I felt.

None of them acknowledged to their friends in the state of Texas of my existence and as a matter of fact when my biological sister had gotten engaged to who she later married, I wanted to meet her fiance at the time. I truly feel and felt bad for him and his family, as I know they did not know of my relations until much later. I met Zack with my biological sister Patricia Ann Hom-Miller at the #Starbucks in San Marcos Texas at exit 200, shortly after when finding out of their engagement; which was just a few months, before they had gotten married. My biological sister wanted my son to be the ring bearer and my daughter to be the flower girl and though I bought their outfits for the event, for whatever excuse in reference to my biological parents and biological sister; they did not expect me to be at the wedding for my biological sister to her husband, as they thought I would only drop off my children, and leave.

Each of those three were upset when I stayed as well as having worn a lavender and silver gown to the wedding as my biological sister complained of people thinking we were related though are, as well as thinking I might be a part of the wedding party. I had already dealt with quite a bit more than such written of in reference to my biological parents though more in specific of my biological sister, though in brief and quite honestly; the fluffier versions of the fuller picture, of what I dealt with over the years; not only because of my memory issues, though also because such to write of the furthered horrors, I did not feel the need to digress further into such as what I have divulged is quite enough.

Though it was not the first time nor the last time my biological parents and biological sister denied knowing me or being related to me as there was a time on a military installation my biological mother refused to acknowledge I had brought her on post to go to a doctor appointment with me before she threw a temper tantrum and walked away crying from the situation, and no one discussed the fact I knew she was picked up by the military police. As my hairstyle is similar now to what it was back then, there is no denying of me standing out on a military installation. However that is to the level of their different portions of their embarrassment of me, I suppose. Thus by the time of the marriage I guesstimate it was second nature to them to simply deny my existence, though their choice to take advantage of my son and my daughter wrongly while denying me as their Mom. If the move to the state of Texas was actually to help me raise my son and my daughter, then the situations which occurred in reference to my daughter and my son in school would have been helped in a much bigger and better way by them. Yes? Yes, they would have reached out to those they knew could have helped or at minimum guided.

I guesstimate, at minimum.

Nonetheless, I took multiple pictures during the wedding and they refused to allow me to be in any of the wedding pictures at all. They did not want me to the back wooden patio in the pictures near the stairs of the white house, simply because of the embarrassment of what they thought of me; though my son in the suit I bought him and my daughter in the dress I bought her, were considered good enough in their view. Yet the pictures I paid to have developed through #Walmart would prove such of what images I took compared to the images taken by the photographer, they paid. That pesky having to fill out the form on the envelope sort of proof aspect, would match the address to one of my prior houses; though specifically my house, in #Carrollton Texas. As much as they may have denied my existence, my bank payment would also prove such in addition to that.

However the portions which people I knew in #Austin Texas when I lived in #CedarPark Texas at events I attended which certain people recognized the last name when I discussed military aspects, a few asked if I had a sister in San Marcos in college. Later I got in trouble with my biological sister for acknowledging we were related, as she had told everyone she was an only child. I dealt with a phone call complaint about such and was not invited to the graduation ceremony because of how her and my biological parents were not wanting me to be there, as per the aspects of their embarrassment of me hypothetically. If I were to be inaccurate then most likely the other people at the wedding as well as the military installation would have been told of me, correct? Though most likely after I sent the books I had written up to the point in time in 2016 to my biological parents, my biological mother probably cried a bunch and then contacted my biological sister and her husband to have them meet; and then the books given, which most likely my biological mother cried when doing so and then Zach's family being informed of me and being able to find more evidence in multiple ways.

While my biological parents and my biological sister moved to the state of Texas, I woke up here. I was re-grown up in the state of Texas, as well as had done my #SCUBADiving training in the state of Texas. Though it was an upset to them of my connection to and not forgetting my son and my daughter being conceived as well as born in the state of Texas while also growing up in the state of Texas, in this era there are too many connections points to attempt to erase as such is impossible.

Again, I have felt bad and feel bad for Zack's family. Granted they were able to get the truth at some point, that was not before the involvement from my biological family. I suppose I could attempt to joke as how much of a surprise it must have been for them to learn the one who was denied at the wedding had been the original and first live baby Jesus Christ in over a decade at #OldTennentPresbyterianChurch, and the history thereof that church; while not forgetting by then, I had already gone SCUBA Diving, and that whole aspect thereof as well; and if any of them had ever seen any of the corsetry modeling pictures of mine, the irony in conjunction along with. Most likely unbeknownst to my biological family, they did not know who I knew throughout the state of Texas nor who knew/knows of me.

Additionally the aspects of which none of them knew of until much later, of what I had done in other aspects in reference to helping in the little ways I could on that fateful day which I had been made fun of for my nightmare I had as a child and how the aspects were far less impactful despite the major impact it was in 2001. Many others had done much more than I there is no doubt of such in any possible way, though much was able to be avoided and improved. Thankfully there are those who listened and heeded my advice, and such proof if throughout plenty of books in reference to legalities for what is regulated in regards of flying on commercial airlines and going through the #TSA.

There are few stories able to be found of what occurred in the news in reference to all of the holdover delays during that time, as well as the quarantine aspects of that time in the areas specifically affected during that time. Though it is known of the many people who had to get hotels if possible, or those who were not able to; sleeping in the airports, because of. Though I know there are no news articles of what the officers and medical professionals including the fire departments having to have dealt with, despite the cries heard and felt when at the time of. I have discussed many aspects in reference to Kuan Yin, for those who know what her aspect of Buddhavista aspects are. For those who do not, she is the one who refused to ascend into the stars at the time because of the cries of the world and bringing compassion and hope to all those in need of such; or the equivalent version, of the female version of Jesus Christ to the Buddhists. Different languages, similar meanings I suppose one could jest.

Thus in reference to such my biological sister has had her multiple issues in reference to the realities thereof and such poured over into her interactions with others, which in multiple aspects is of her own doing. Her choices have lead her upon the path she chose and thus if such truths were fully revealed to Zack as well as his family in a bigger way, then at minimum they were able to save themselves from the furthered aspects of the problems of. In reference to my biological sister however she has continued to choose and her inability to simply acknowledge quite a few points and aspects in which ignoring, the portions of which are an ironic twist of various portions of fate. While paying attention to what was of importance though ignoring facts hopefully has ceased for her, though as well as those she had chosen to deny the realities of.

What had occurred thereafter, is what occurred thereafter. If she had gotten involved with my life because of her own inability for true happiness, then the aspects of who she affected by such are great and vast; and for her reckoning to deal with, in such ways and aspects thereof.

Now there was an individual I once knew named Thomas Marsden who had been in the #ROTC Air Force training at UTSA similarly to Cactus Jack AKA Jeffrey Kuykendall Jr who unlike Cactus Jack who had quit the ROTC for the Army branch, Thomas Marsden was kicked out of the ROTC Air Force at UTSA for multiple suicide attempts. Similar to Cactus Jack AKA Jeffrey Kuykendall Jr who was into movies beyond anything which had ever been allowed for me as a child or teenager, Thomas Marsden had been into movies much more similarly. His attempt to get my attention of the power behind such in reference to his obsession with the Asian culture had to do with a movie called #TheLastSamurai in which at the time when the character played by #TomCruise had bowed to the Emperor, Thomas Marsden fell over crying uncontrollably. I looked over at him crying and wondered what was wrong with him, as I dealt with Thomas Marsden crying some more because of how he claimed the beauty of the symbolism was lost on me.

I suppose he was correct as the aspects which I knew of certain portions of #Samurai training and battle were quite a bit in detail, as well as admittedly the inability to feel the slightest bit of empathy for a male who was crying over a movie which was not about getting emotions riled up in that sort of way. That happened shortly before that same male attempted to tell me he would not be involved with any female who wore corsets, of which with several other aspects was perfectly fine for me to end the relationship. That also had been around the time of Christine from the Jade Wolf Coven who was upset because I did not help her then separated husband to cheat on her though not cheat on her as she ended the relationship with him and kicked him out of his house, who was also upset because I also did not fight to stay involved in the Jade Wolfe Coven. I guesstimate she had a bit of bipolar disorder among a few other psychological situations going on, nonetheless around the time of the two of them leaving my life had been a few other circumstances.

A childhood toy which my biological parents and biological sister had nicknamed the victim of child abuse #2 had gone missing from my apartment, just before the timing of a much needed 9-1-1 phone call I made in reference to the apartment complex on USAA Boulevard. Later I learned despite pulling out a sword I had in case it was necessary, a couple weeks later I learned of the death of a female in the apartment complex around the timing of my phone call. If such technology problems began in a higher form back then because of hypothetically Thomas Marsden and Christine of the Jade Wolfe Coven, would that mean the two of them would be the equivalent of being able to be charged with a form of involuntary manslaughter or involuntary murder?

I have stopped by the Prue road police department to give them information in case that particular case was still open, since my apartment was on the second floor overlooking the front area parking lot near the office and I had called 9-1-1 that evening. There was a blue colored card table and chairs on the back patio, which one particular chair which was the chair I sat in was near the Redbud tree. If Christine had something to do with that, then there is a twisted irony of her claim to being a Democrat and for female rights not only for the reference point of the female from my apartment complex there though also in reference to my own rights.

If Christine had also been a part of causing problems while following along during my Medal of Honor Art Project hypothetically, so too would be a twisted irony of claiming to be for empowering females to only tear such down. Then again since she hated anything associated with the military for the United States of America the dichotomy of seeing the ease for her to go after my Medal of Honor Art Project as she had said she saw the Michael Moore movie about 9-11 and said she wanted to have all of his babies; which in a different and twisted way, there are some ironic aspects when looking at how certain males are and how she coddled Thomas Marsden when I would not coddle him for The Last Samurai nor other aspects, though similarly to the way my biological sister had problems with military background individuals getting jobs before she could because of their training as well as their education. She had felt those with the military background were not as good as she was for going to college, which even though I informed her there were plenty of guys who went to college both before/during/after their time in the military; their experiences in conjunctions with their training had been why they were chosen many more times before civilians without such because of knowing how to remain calm under pressure. Though I made suggestions such as the Peace Corps since she did not want to look at military service, my biological sister turned her nose up at even the slightest suggestion of mine for such.

Since my biological sister had been involved with assisting my now dead-ex-husband to cheat on me when during the time before the first separation which obviously would be before the final separation, during up to the points of the final separation she had kept in contact with my now dead-ex-husband; as did Christine of the Jade Wolfe Coven as she and Jamie had informed my now dead-ex-husband of anything I did with and without them, until after the ending of the time with the Jade Wolfe Coven. Christine's obsession with #AntonLeVey and thinking she could do any form of magic when not knowing anything beyond what she read in a book which is not the fullness thereof and also claiming she read everything he ever wrote, when I questioned her about notebooks and handwritten material which was not in books published in the same way; Christine claimed there were no such things, by Anton LeVey. I have a feeling original members of his covens as well as his children, would be able to fully disagree; same thing in reference to questioning her about seeing his artwork, and paintings. Some might find a few similarities when it comes to certain artwork paintings, though specifically the naming of the artwork. Yes?

There too, I informed Christine the spirit of Anton LeVey wanted nothing to do with her as the same in reference to who she claimed who was her patron named Lucifer. Christine who was born and raised in #Abilene Texas and lived in a house off of 151 and 410 area with her then husband Mike and their two elder daughters and one young son did not like that reality, and she told me she felt hurt and offended. However easily I could see how if she had found out about my Medal of Honor Art Project as well as her failed attempts to do magic as she claimed she could do all sorts of cursing yet she had to be directly involved with such in reference to stalking people and following them around in comparison to instead of as how magick actually works, energetically and realistically for the alchemy aspects. Thus hypothetically making her nothing more than a wannabe and a pretender, though also an ironic coinky dink in reference to Cactus Jack and the 151 Road Warrior aspect during the #FiestaSanAntonio Texas event whatever year that had been.

While this journal blog entry goes over quite a few different points the similarities of treatment from the groups referenced in more specific of my biological sister, the Jade Wolfe Coven specifically Christine, and then Thomas Marsden in conjunction with the movie aspects of Cactus Jack AKA Jeffrey Kuykendall Jr and the spillover into such and being upset I did not fight to stay a part of their lives because I was not willing to deal with the overdramatic aspects of among other purposes; may make some sense, to quite a few who know of who I am referring to.

My ex-sister-in-law Susie Marie Nichols-Lopez who had known Cactus Jack AKA Jeffrey Kuykendall Jr as well as my now dead-ex-husband had wanted to introduce him to his family had purchased knowingly stolen goods from #HomeDepot and #Lowes to return the products to the stores for store credit gift cards and was mad I would not partake in such had been friends with my biological sister, and had gotten along quite well with Patricia Ann Hom-Miller; of which both asked themselves before asking me, wondering why I could not be more like Patricia Ann Hom-Miller.

Similarly having been asked many times by others why I could not be like other people they preferred to be involved with over me, I simply am just me.

In turn if my biological parents took the books I sent to them in 2016 to Zach and/or his family most likely being upset of how dare I write anything without their knowledge and/or how dare I do anything in reference to my Medal of Honor Art Project in certain references, possibly the aspects of the SCUBA Diving and the landing at the bottom of the ocean sort of thing may have stood out among a few other points thereof. Then again that may have stuck out to those who have military backgrounds specifically those who have been on Navy ships whether they were a part of the United States of America's Armed Forces #Army, #AirForce, #CoastGuard, #MarineCorps and/or the #Navy; and/or if they ever saw a Navy ship in person through travels and/or living along the coastline somewhere.

To ironically use a quote from Christine when she was drunk at Joe's Volcano one evening and making a joke at the same time in a different way since the placement of a specific tattoo, "Wow. This table, is so deep."

I can giggle, at minimum.

A picture I took when leaving a port to go SCUBA Dive, when in #BocaRaton #Florida.

The ultimate measure of an individual is not where they stand in moments of comfort and convenience, but where they stand at the time of challenge and controversy.

We must reject the idea that everytime a law is broken society is guity, rather than the law breaker. 

Freedom is never-more than one generation away, from exinction.  We do not pass freedom on through our blood stream because freedom must be fought for, protected, and handed on for the next generation to do the same.

Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.

It should not take a head injury to figure this out, because you are smarter.

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