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It should not take a head injury
*after personally sustaining a head injury & coma*
to figure this out...

 
 
 
 
 
 


After a Drill Sergeant threw Me into the metal part of the bunk when I was in Basic Training for the United States of America's Army branch at Fort Sill Oklahoma #FortSill #FortSillOK #FortSillOklahoma #OK #Oklahoma in the year of 2000 on Psalm Sunday, I have dealt with the situations as best as I have been capable to do so while taking care of the situations and asking for assistance as per the required explanations of the information to such facts first.  While making the attempts to get assistance for the aspects thereof as to the reality, the aspects of where and when as to the multiple attempts to ask for assistance for me.  As my journal blog for when I was ready to bring such as to my other works forward since as to the lengths of time as to where my modeling was as to the modeling page information, just as the other pages have the information as to such specifics, and just as this journal blog of mine is as to such facts.


If I had real friends (if as to having met in person face to face in person in real life as to the aspects of this particular reference such as from the state of Texas as to the state of Washington as to the years of 2000 through 2013 if I met within the state of Texas for such references), real (the areas of the tristate region as before the year of 2000) family, and real relationships in real life that recognized me as to the aspects of if as to the face to face in person who started in truth as I had started such in truth as to the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, as well as the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain that took 8.5 years to dissipate; then I guesstimate there would be the easier factors as to being capable for me to speak with others in truth in person face to face in person and/or through online measures as to such factors I suppose.  Though would such as to the knowledge of the ways as to how they began such discussions with me as to would there be such a situation, for them to consider as to such if factors as to such discussions with me in truth?


As to some suggestions and commentary within "Finding A Silver Lining" one of several of my bo0ks I personally authored/wrote/compiled as I can only speak and write in truth as per such clarifications as to the reality as to the specifics of such discussions/writings/videos as per my Official You Tube where I have satirical commentary where I comment about the factors as to having dealt with others' opinions about their pop culture references of #NJ #NJstate #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey, though as to for the most part I have actually preferred to be asked with politeness if as to having read my books and/or seen my website as just the same in reference to the timeframes when I was modeling as to having respect as to what I consider as respect, referencing if as to such polite manners as to discussions if as to such having been noticed because of the factors in my opinion as to having real discussions as communication would be if my website was seen before the year of 2023 as I first began my website in 2015; as in my journal blog posts as to the reality of the years of 2010 through 2013, as to the aspects of introductions as to those timeframes when as to various factors as I did not take selfies as I was actually working with photographers as to my creations of my outfits as per the description on the link to my modeling page(s) as to the references regarding my journal blog updates in the years of 2019 through 2022 as the timeframe onward as to the year of 2023 as to the factors as to how such journal blog entries will be as to such factors as to the aspects of the various topic points.


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 I was born and raised in New Jersey and grew up going throughout the tristate northeast areas mainly, and as to how the reality of when the importance of the situations as to the aspects of reviewing as to such facts regarding the logistics for several factors as to the considerations; the years of 2019 through 2022 as to the review process as to the aspects of the timeframe, prior to the timeframe of the 20 year memorial of 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 as well as before the 30 year memorial of February 1993, as to the northeast areas mostly known as to New York City #NYC #NewYork #NY #NYstate #NYU though also as to the #Pentagon Pentagon, as well as Pennsylvania #Pennstate #Pennsylvaniastate as to the reality of how many New Jersey-ians commute in either direction, depending upon what location for the commute. 


The factors though I have said at times, I re-re-re-re-re-re-grew up in the state of  #Texas #TX #Texasstate Texas as to such factors as to the timeframes, as well as all 26 of my SCUBA #SCUBA #SCUBADiving  Diving certifications I earned were through one school within the state of Texas as I also earned winning first place in a Texas Chili cookoff with more than 20 entries as well as my chili recipe as I am adamant about my recipes as to such aspects just as I am specific as to what it actually takes for me to cook in a BBQ as to the required preparations for when I have BBQed.   



I can sarcastically write, those who know of the Rules of the BBQ as to where I grew up as to the Rules of the BBQ as to such factors to the considerations of such preparations.  However that is to cooking food as to the differences of my journal blog entries, as to the factors as to proverbial aspects of food for thought as the difference of real food in real life as to the facts of the situations to such attention to the details as well as attention to the information.


Such facts as to the metaphors in some of such factors that only after reviewing such information as to the aspects of the fiction book series that were as to for My personal life as to such dreamland sorts of factors as to the differences of such hypotheticals, the references thereof as to such regards as to the logistical emotional with the real situations as per the names I was informed of at the timeframes referenced review as to My journal blog as to the situations overall.  


If as to my journal blog being found and read as to where what I consider as common sense, as to the aspects of my satirical saying   how it should not take a head injury to figure out. 
 

*(sometimes utilizing articles discussing facts)*
By:  (Reverend) Susan MeeLing
also known as

The One & Only


(YouTube)   Lady Dori Belle


 

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REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

Over in One Evening as to apparently regarding Club Sapphire & Westboro Baptist Church

The first evening I ever attended Club Sapphire in the year of 2015 in the month of November, I met a couple who the female of the married couple as to the last name of Miller asked me "Of everyone you see here tonight, who do you find attractive?"



Additionally after having sent my books to a few different locations as well as including the Westboro Baptist Church as to actually believe that those types would be capable to be educated as to their failures to appreciate anything at all as to the aspects of what is correct, instead of what they have been as to my personal judgements of their types as to their failures as to their choices. When taking into considerations "Finding The Silver Lining" #findingthesilverlining, I would guesstimate they could easily see themselves in each and every one of the titles I referred to as per my original journal blog updates as to the difference as to who has been truthfully cared about as to the difference as to my opinion of them. As per "Finding A Silver Lining" #findingasilverlining as to such aspects I authored/wrote/compiled in truth as to such aspects, possibly such attributes are capable to be found easily as to such hypotheticals as to such generic types as to the differences to such aspects of such overall factors as per my journal blog updates referencing such hypotheticals. Then as to how I sent the majority of my books through UPS #ups in Camas Washington #camas #Camaswashington #washington #washingrtonstate #wa #wastate as to my PO Box at the time, as to the difference between UPS and USPS #uspsas to such aspects additionally if any such changes were made as to the aspects thereof because of the media mail aspects referencing those types of such hypotheticals as to the title aspects as to such aspects to such considerations as to what I clarified in the years of 2004 through 2012 throughout the state of #Texas #Texasstate #TX #TXstateTexas as to those types However in such hypotheticals unlike other congregations as to the aspects of name tags as well as the facts as to what I dealt with in Baptist Camp Lebanon #baptist #baptistbabies as to the timeframe, I suppose those types as to the baptist congregations as to such situations as to the massive distinctive difference between #Presbyterian #PresbyterianUSA #OldTennentPresbyterianChurch #OTPC #OTC Presbyterian Churches as to such aspects of the historical capacities as to Old Tennent Presbyterian Church to the overall factors hypothetically.



Where would such be capable to find as to "Finding The Silver Lining" as to such hypotheticals as to baptists, hypothetically to such titles within those pages as to such of their own hypothetically and why would they ever consider themselves as worthy of anything beyond what they were gifted as to just the aspects only of as to what has been allowed instead of what those types have done and been proven as to such hypothetical connections?



Since Presbyterian Churches such as Old Tennent Presbyterian Church being registered with the congregation overall of Presbyterian Church USA, hypothetically that does not take a head injury to figure out such hypotheticals as to those types as to whatever proof thereof could be as to the differences of baptists to southern baptists to reborn baptists to reborn southern baptists as to such aspects where they have just been as they have just been hypothetically.



Her husband was in a different area of the club when I looked around as I thought it was an overall type of question as to the one evening as to an overall sort of viewpoint as to in a difference as to in the capacities of what I consider as to what I look for as to the physical aspects, and in the overall viewpoint with a few scans of looking at everyone at the club that was in the dance floor area as well as taking a peak into the lobby area as to in less than a 60 second timeframe to the difference as to what it actually takes to get my attention as to pointing to a male behind the counter named Doug as I was informed when I pointed out the individual.



I later learned in the year of 2016 that Doug was/is Ruby's husband and as to how the situation was for me at the timeframe of, as to why I just quickly gave a small response because of the aspects as to not believing there would be such a viewpoint of me anyway as I know how I look and I have been told multiple times to my face what others' opinions of my physical look is as to the years well before the timeframe of 2015. There are also the aspects as to the online factor as to having read the comments about me as to others' opinions as to my hair as well as my #tattoos tattoos, and there have not been many times where I have ever received a compliment as to what I consider as a compliment as to such aspects of the facts where others who have received a compliment from me as to being honest.



For example when I have complimented people about their hair and/or makeup, I have been genuine as to my opinion as to how good it made them look. When I gave a compliment of the clothing others wore as to my being genuine as to how their clothing fit as to how stunning they looked for the timeframe, just as similarly as to when I complimented someone's shoes as to informing them honestly that I liked how their clothes fit with their look for the aspects of. When I told males that "You are a lucky man, to have such a beautiful woman on your arm" as to how genuine I had been about such aspects as to what I believe a genuine compliment is as maybe those types could learn how to have manners and etiquette as to how such aspects of what is considered as being appreciative as to the differences as to how such has been hypothetically as per each individual as well as each individual situation as per each day of per each week as per each month as per each year as per each decade.



Granted for the decades well before ever to the year of 2015 #2015year #yearof2015 through the year of 2018 #2018year #yearof2018 in the month of August, as to what others told me their opinions were and how then having heard 'if someone is mean to you that means they like you' as I disagreed fully because only in my opinion apparently as to how a genuine compliment is actually being gracious as to the genuine aspects of what is liked and/or appreciated as to such aspects.



Thus as to after that evening as to speaking with several males that looked-ish like Doug, though as to such aspects of what it actually takes for me to have the comfort as to ever being willing to go further as to my personal aspects because despite how I physically look as to my being very shy as to such aspects. Sure, I can admit if there is a need as to an emergency as to how swiftly I move to take care of situations. For example as to a point in time when a female front office worked had a stomach issue and having seen her outside of the club as to being concerned as to recently before that point in time having been told that "Ruby has told all of the employees and the volunteers that they need to have their own personal cup that has a lid on it and I thought you should know too", towards the end of the year of 2016 or 2017 as to how 'Ruby did not want to waste cups' as to what I was told additionally about the paper straws before the stopping of having straws in the club for a clearer reference point of time.



Later in the timeframe towards the beginning of 2018 I was told in his room as to the Cowboys Dancehall situation as to when I went to my room, "You know, Ruby doesn't like you. Why do you bother doing anything at the club when she hates you?"



I did not truly think there was anything as to such aspects, though I did remember a point in time when I was willing to walk away from Club Sapphire around the end of the year of 2017 #yearof2017 #year2017 or the middle timeframe, because of the facts as to how the volunteers were being mistreated and as well as to how I learned Ruby thought it was a good idea to turn up the heat as to the clothing situations against what is morally and ethically correct as to individuals' comfort as to instead as to how I just went outside to cool off because I refused to be a part of such needless games and needless situations as to such immaturity of someone who is however many decades older than I. Those types as to such aspects as to needing to accept the facts that some people do not go as freely as others as to such factors no matter what, and the more of a push in such immature aspects as to how the more I will push against such aspects because I am not a swinger and I do not have any intention of ever becoming a swinger. I enjoy the atmosphere of as to such, that is all.



Personally as to my choices as to what it is for me to actually have comfort, I am not the type of person who can or could ever go so easily because of the facts even before my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury #Psalms #PsalmSunday #yearof2000 #2000hear . However because of being born and raised in #NJ #NJStrong #NewJersey #NewJerseystate #NJstate New Jersey as to the aspects thereof also growing up in the overall tristate northeast areas as to such aspects of just being open minded to such aspects and accepting people for who they are without ever pushing them in a direction that is uncomfortable in any capacity as to such in any direct involvement, as to having the #etiquette etiquette and #respect respect as to others having the aspects as to the freedom of choice without coercion and the freedom of choice without any needless problems as to without any needless interactions as to what obviously was not as to such situations as per the situations as to the accuracy thereof as to what actually would be and/or is to what the considerations as to comfortable for what I consider as comfortable for as what not one person has ever had the decency to ask me what is comfort for myself.



I doubt I am the one and only who has such a viewpoint, as to such aspects as to the of free will.



When I have made the attempts for what is comfort for me as to getting such accomplished as to making orders as per Amazon for myself as to what my needs are for me to have for me to use and for me to keep to use as to my choosing as to such common sense aspects, as why would anyone think I would need to see others use instead of what such orders are as to for myself for my needs or would such homo-sapien-sapiens need to have that aspect of common sense for educations?



Thus as to how if individuals who attended Club Sapphire in the years after September of 2016 as to the warmth in the club as to the fact that the ruby room had to have fans brought in because of the aspects of everyone complaining about the heater regarding in the dancefloor areas as well as the back, because of the central air. However if Ruby and Doug went to the back as to when all of a sudden the club was not as hot for everyone else as to such aspects, as to the hypotheticals of if factors.



I am capable of having real discussions with people as that is a personal need of mine to ever have the starting point of comfort to ever be a part of such aspects and all must officially be truthful because of the aspects as to who I personally lost as to my friends and my family in the 1980s and the 1990s, because of that epidemic. Though I suppose hypothetically that would not have ever been any common sense as to anyone who would ever actually care about life continuing onward as to while being capable to enjoy, as I can arrange for myself what my comfort level is as the reality as to how many have only caused me needless stress when they try without being honest officially. Each and every hypothetical as to such aspects as to such if factors, I was not ever interested in any relationship with Doug at all as to the one time I was asked as to the aspects of what I saw that could be considered as for the physical aspects only instead of being asked what actually is fully attractive to me as to what my considerations are as per the lifestyle as to how I was introduced as to individuals as to those who are a part of the Old Guard. Hence the aspects of Leather History as to my knowledge as to the differences as to the east coast Leather to the difference of the west coast leather as per my discussions because of people I knew in the 1990s #decade1990s #decadeofthe1990s #1990sdecade mainly, as well as later on as to after the year of 2005 #yearof2005 #2005year as to such aspects as to who I once knew in person face to face in person in real life.



Thus while I have my personal preferences as to how I arrange the climate for where I am as to how I live as there is not ever anyone who could ever actually consider what comfort is for me as to without actually speaking with me in person face to face in person in real life, as to what my personal considerations are because I have my reasons of doing so after having had discussions before where others interpretations of what was said as to the difference as to the aspects of the exact aspects instead of such assumptions because assumptions are interpretations instead of anything that would actually be considered as comfortable to me. Since the fact as to my cognitive disorders as well as my having went from #college #algebra #trigonometry #calculus College Algebra with Trigonometry and Calculus to second grade math as to such aspects in conjunction of my headaches and my migraines, anything that is not considered of comfort to me is what is not considered as #comfort comfort to me.



In the first year of my volunteering as to the official capacities thereof as to how such official capacities were as to those times to the same reasons as to before as to when I was in the state of Texas as to the years of 2009 #yearof2009 #2009year through 2012 #yearof2012 #2012year #mayanCalendar as to such aspects, what it takes for me to be comfortable to ever get involved publicly is only my choice as to freedom of choice as the aspects thereof similarly. It took me and two other people to speak with one another at more than 15 to 35 different events for hours, before those individuals and I had one scene as to such aspects in the year of 2011 or 2012 because of my levels as well as because of their own situations as to what levels of comfort are required as to the difference of BDSM #BDSM where mandatory communication with real words in person face to face in person before ever actually going forward with someone if taking health and wellness into consideration in the short term as well as the long term. In reference of another scene I had been a part of as to how many events that took before I was willing to ever be involved as the fullest amount of regret comes from each of the two or three other scenes I did where it was a rushed situartion, as to my full lack of comfort and I promised myself in the year of 2012 I refused to ever put myself in that sort of situation ever again. I promised to myself that if I ever had the sensation of anyone every trying to npush as to such, as to how I promised myself as to how much I would close myself off as to any such possibility as to the if factors as to how my needs are to be met as I am important and my free will choice is important to me. The facts of the difference of verification timeframe processes as to #Fetlife Fetlife to the difference of Twitter #Twitter and/or Facebook #Facebook as to the length of time as to what possibly could be to meeting if as to such ever were to be willing as to each side, as to the length of time to the differences hypothetically as to the reality of Fetlife.



Thus if as to such aspects as to where other staff members and other volunteers were told as to the cups with lids as to anything like the aspects as to Austin Texas #Austin #AustinTX #AustinTexas as to Brackenridge #Brackenridge as to how there is nothing moral or ethical about those types whatsoever as there is nothing of value or worth as to any enjoyment for me, as to the reality of what my personal needs are as to such requirements to be met for such aspects in full officially as to what I consider as real and actual enjoyment for myself. There is nothing attractive about the aspects thereof, though the reality of the only options as to that evening as to who was there as to my viewpoint as quite frankly as being an Asexual as to an Intellectual as to my requirements as to such facts as to being met as to what I saw. #Pansexual #AsexualIntellectual #Asexual #Intellectual



However that is not what I would ever choose for myself as to in any capacity thereof as the sskinny males are not attractive to me at all, as when taking into consideration as to the physical body style of most individuals as to who I spoke with most often as well as who I had the most amount of comfort around as to the thicker body styles as to such aspects of what is actually attractive to me personally. Thus as to how the song where the lyrics of "36 - 25 - 34 only if 5 foot 2" for an example as to what my personal aspwects of physically attractiver as to such aspects in those partivular references, the individuals who I had scenes with were not of thinner aspects as to what others have complained about as to what they saw though what is of attractiveness to me as well would be the age of an individual as I do not like males who are younger than me as they are not attractive as to such aspects of immaturity.



Thus as to how Seattle Washington as to such college aspects where there was a news report as to how colleges require a legal waiver signed with a checklist before being involved with an individual as to such aspects of a party event, the oddity as to such aspects as to the situations as to the age thereof who I was not attracted to as to that situation I did not want and did not ask for as to August #August #MonthofAugust in this year of 2022 #yearof2022 #2022year as to the clear aspects as to why I only went for less than 3 hours fully clothed instead of wearing my normal outfits as to the club because of the one hundred percent aspects as to those situations of those types unwanted aspects as to what I clarified as to my sensations as to such situations as to the club because of my own aspects as to the situations as to the reality as to my personal requirements of what comfort is for what my needs are for me.



Being in the nude and/or undressed as to others who I am not in a relationship with as to what I consider as to my needs for a relationship, are not attractive to me as the aspects of I accepted myself a long time ago and only who I choose for such of my own free will as well as the other individual's free will as to what I consider for such aspects as the only capacities thereof ever allowed officially as to such situations is the only way to a starting point as to any such aspects as while I can be supportive of those as well as protective of those to their rights as to the aspects of my freedom to choose for myself as obviously only individuals who would appreciate such for themselves would be as such as to myself as to what common sense is.



Not one homo-sapien-sapien would ever take such into consideration as to what my needs are for myself, as only people and human beings would take such into consideration and do so as to such aspects thereof for what my needs are.



Thus anyone who has thought of themselves more attractive because of whatever others have told them as to their opinion as to what their opinion is, instead of what my opinion is as to the aspects thereof. Those years when I was volunteering at the time were as to those years, as obviously as to such differences as to the situations as well as what I am seeking as to such aspects. Where those years if something occurred as to what the aspects of agreements were as to the situation, however now in the year of 2022 going into the year of 2023 #yearof2023 #2023year as to how that amount of time as well as the amount of situations as to the complete difference as to what I am seeking for myself for the current time as well as for the future as such is not up for interpretation nor discussion as to the aspects of what my needs are for myself as to such relationship aspects.



The reality of such relationship aspects as to in person face to face in person as to the consistency as to such aspects of #monogamy monogamy as to my personal requirements as to the #10Commandments #10CommandmentsMatter 10 Commandments would be where what my work is as to accepting my work as to my work while accepting me for who I am as well as the monogamous aspects as to the consistency thereof as to the in person face to face in person in real life requirements as to my considerations of monogamy, are as to such aspects of my requirements and someone who would actually want such with me would accept such aspects officially as well as prefer such aspects as to them being only with me in person face to face in person in real life as to such private time aspects as well as the only me with them in such private time aspects as to such situations as to monogamy officially as to real life in person face to face in person and as to such aspects as to those times when I did not ever enjoy myself as to any such modeling factorts as well as the lack of payments for my modeling work as to the aspects of my finances for me to use for such aspects of the banking aspects as to the financial situations as per checks as to such deposits for my modeling during those years as to why my choices as to such aspects for the reality of where obviously if my modeling were appreciated during those times as to where I would have been paid specifically for my modeling as well as my outfits I created would be where I kept my outfits and/or my choice as to what my choice would be as to such with the financial compensation for my usage only as per the updates per my journal blog in the years of 2019 through 2021 mainly.



Since I do not seek anything that is of a short term aspect whatsoever at any point in time though especially now, the aspects of friends with benefits if off the table officially as one night stands were not ever an option as to such aspects officially referencing myself. Thus my personal requirements as to my life as to how I was not allowed to date until I was legally 16 years old and how I maintained that truthfully, as to how it was not until December #december #monthofdecember of the year I turned legally 16 years old. The strict aspects known as to my biological father being a Trustee of a historically registered church and my biological mother being a Deacon of that historically registered church, as to anyone who has been raised in such a type of household either maintains such rules as I did or is as to however my biological little sister turned out as we are nothing alike whatsoever and we have not ever been anything alike whatsoever as per the facts that type is not comfortable as to what I consider as comfort for as to all such combined aspects as to what my needs are for me. Thus if others prefer my biological little sister's type, then go towards those types and stay away from me and stay out of my life as well as stay out of my work officially.



I can make a joke sarcastically that when I earned my blue belt in Tae Kwando #TaeKwando #TaeKwondo as to my biological father saying I was not allowed to go any further than such as to the reasons thereof legally, and thus since the color of sapphire is a blue color as to such factors to such hypothetical symbolic considerations as to locations as to on my own as to when by myself.



I can still speak with and get along with those in that sort of aspect as I know how to be mature as to such capability to agree to disagree as to choices, though as soon as to such types ever thinking that their way is anything other than their way as to when those types of needless problems as to what I consider as needless problems begin as to such aspects as those types just need to accept they are their type as to I am my type.



When I went on my first date because I was asked as per my rules as I learned as to such aspects as to when I made any attempts as to outside of what my rules were as I adopted my rules for myself as they were and are comfortable for me as to my personality traits before my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, though especially after waking up from my coma with the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain I could see the reasons for such aspects of importance for me as to what my own comfort level is and remains officially because of the majority of people I actually spent the best amounts of time with as to the #Amish Amish and the #Mennonites Mennonites and the #Mountaineers Mountaineers as to the modesty factors as well as the traditional aspects as to what is of comfort for me. That is to be accepted that my rules for me are what are best for me as to what is where happiness for me actually is, as I probably would not have been invited to #MAST #Marine #USMC #Marines #MarineBiology #Marina Marine and #Science Science Technology #Technology School with the #USAN #USNavy #Navy #USCG Navy attachment if as to such aspects as to the differences as to other biological females as to myself as to that timeframe in the year of 1996 #yearof1996 #1996year hypothetically as well as the amount of work I have completed as to wherever that has been assistive would probably be as to whatever levels of others as to such differences as to if anything I ever worked on was and/or is considered as worthwhile as to such aspects as to common sense. I was invited to MAST because of my preference to be a Marine Biologist, and what aspects of where the proof as to such aspects for my larger career as to such factors as both the aspects of on land above sea level as well as the water aspects as to such references as to the proof regarding my work as to what work has been and remains the most of importance to me as to individuals who would actually appreciate me would accept those facts.



Thus as to the if factors as to those situations as to individuals as to how their marriage and/or their relationship aspects as to whatever capacities thereof as to the differences as to such situations, the reality of where I have walked away from relationships where there was a husband and wife and/or a wife and wife and/or a husband and husband if I sense such aspects where the discomfort of their own relationship aspects could be as to being respectful of marriage as I actually appreciate such aspects as per such hope for myself as to what I believe a marriage is supposed to be. Though my personal preference to a monogamous marriage as to being married to a male who I chose and who would choose me as to free will as to the longest terms as to what my belief as to the sanctity of marriage is supposed to be as to the respects towards one another, and meeting the truthful needs thereof to such aspects in real life genuinely unconditionally as to how love is supposed to be.



Just because I dealt with settling before as to those as to such settling downward before, as to how I am not willing to settle downward for such aspects as to what my personal needs are for such situations if ever as to such factors and if others are willing for themselves with others as to their factors as to such as to their choices for themselves as to such.



Yes in the first separation as to the promise I made and kept to and for my son and my daughter as to the aspects of waiting until they were around the legal age of 18 years old as per my second promise to them as to such reasons I already gave, and I kept my promises. During the second and final separation from their biological father as to my promise to my son and my daughter as to not being a stereotypical ex-wife as to such aspects where I kept my promises, and for such examples as to the factors thereof in brief as to the second and final separation as to the following brief:


* When he moved out of my house from my VA Home Loan through Wells Fargo finally as to such aspects as to despite the needless problems as to the garage situation as I made attempts to explain to people if they would have believed me immediately as to such aspects instead, then as to such aspects when he called on the phone as to my giving the phone to my children for him to speak with them despite how much he sped off of the phone with them to then annoy me as to such aspects of where I did not need to speak with him as to such situations unless it had to do with the #USAF #USAAF #UnitedStatesofAmerica #USA #UnitedStatesofAmericasArmedForces #ArmedForcesofhtUnitedStatesofAmerica Armed Forces of the United States of America officially as to the common sense


* When he graduated from the Texas National Guard #TexasNationalGuard as to the #StarSpangledBanner #NationalAnthem Star Spangled Banner situation as to the American Flag ceremony despite having been yelled at by a non-born-and-raised as per the aspects of when having contacted Senator John Cornyn's office as to my #SCUBA #SCUBADiving SCUBA Diving as to seeing if there would be the capacity of even though having been born and raised in New Jersey and the northeast tristate area as to having earned all of my SCUBA Diving certifications as to through only one school within the state of Texas in Carrollton Texas #Carrollton #CarroltonTX as to the responses through email as to how such whomever answered those emails as to not considering me as a #TexasSCUBADiver Texas SCUBA Diver as to not having given me any explanations as to why though as to all such Active Duty and/or non-born-and-raised-Texans #Texans and/or Reservists and/or dependents and/ot Veteran #Veterans #VA for such considerations as to the aspects of even if within the Texas Military #TexasMilitary as to such considerations as to the common sense aspects of where I earned 26 SCUBA Diving certifications as to that one school in Texas and all of my work as I had completed in the state of Texas as to the aspects of those types as to such official lack of appreciation for my work because of the common sense aspects as to what would be considered as actual appreciation for my work as to the 23 SCUBA Diving certifications I earned in the state of Texas specifically as to those lakes/quarries/hot springs/area of the Gulf of Mexico as to any proof as to such aspects such as to Lake Travis if any such situations where there was more life as to human beings living as to such aspects after the year of 2009 as to my work and protections thereof to the considerations as to club sapphire for such hypotheticals as to the aspects thereof. Though I took my son and my daughter to Camp Mabry for that graduation and in front of both of my children as to the aspects of how instead of appreciating the facts as to what the fuller aspects such as February 1993 as well as 11 September 2001 as to the work thereof as to such situations as to what was shown as to such choices, as only individuals and human beings as to people would actually be appreciative of such aspects as to those hypotheticals as to whether or not knowing of my status regarding my Blue ID Card of/for the Armed Forces of the United States of America including the aspects of the Army #USA #USArmy #USAA #USAArmy #Army and/or MAST as to the Navy aspects. Obviously only people who would ever want or need any such aspects as to such spiritual channeling as to the mandatory requirements as to such factors of #General #GeneralGeorgeWashington #GeneralWashington #POTUS1 #ComanderinChief #CIC1 General George Washington would comprehend that my needs for such are only as to my needs for such, if ever having respected his work and/or respecting history overall as to being capable to learn from such aspects as to the timeframe thereof to the timeframe now as even with the factors of the requirements for the aspects as to the #USConstitution #USAConstitution Constitution of the United States of America as to such mandatory factors officially as to common sense if ever there were historians who actually appreciate the truth as to his choice as to me and only me for such channeling officially as per "Finding A Silver Lining". Thoe who have used the Constitution as to such aspects could only have such officially as to such inspiration as to the work as to General George Washington obviously whether in the United States of America and/or the world, as to such aspects thereof to such factors as to what common sense is and would be to such.


* When my children's biological father was stationed overseas on top of the phone calls as to such aspects then as to a minimum of 2 or 3 weekends as to where I would drive from San Antonio Texas also known as Military City USA in the state of Texas #SATX #SanAntonio #SanAntonioTexas #MilitaryCityUSA to Fort Worth Texas #FWTX #FortWorthTexas #FortWorthTX for the weekend for my children to spend time with that side of their biologicals as to the several hundred mile drive one way and then the several hundred mile way return drive as I was the only one who drove as to from around March or April of 2007 until around September of 2007, when then I would pick him up from Fort Sam Houston of Friday as to then drive to Fort Worth or stay at my house as to having time with the children to then return him to that area as to the medical care as to such for the week as to the obvious difference as to what I have dealt with as to such years and decades obviously to such differences and despite the JC Penny dress blues pictures as to such aspects of the difference as to those as to the state of Texas as well as any other hypothetical as to my reasons to take the stand as to ending all stolen valor as to such aspects as being told by a Marine recruiter in front of the Army recruiter and both agreeing to the aspects as to my choice as to consider myself a soldier only if I graduated Basic Training as to the common sense aspects as to considering myself as per the Army discussion in the office of the Medical Board finalizer as to Medically Retired as to the aspects of his career of 25+ years as where would such aspects of my stand would that have ever proven as to such aspects of proof to such worth as to what would ever be as to actual appreciation to me and for me as to such a stand as to what I consider as? Since I have clarified as to how such situations have been as to how the aspects would actually be, as to the difference as to their interpretations as to the reality of my considerations officially. Additionally as to those in Fort Sam Houston as to varying ranks as to the Army as well as the Marines as well as the Navy having accepted and appreciated such especially the #USSF #USASF #USSpecialForces Special Forces and the #NavyMarineSpecialWarfareUnit Navy/Marine Special Warfare Units, then if as to such others who would not do such work as to the hypotheticals thereof as to such aspects as to the proof as to such hypotheticals thereof including the Air Force and the Coast Guard hypothetically as per such proof. If it is okay for a male to do so, then what would the definition as to a female as to my situation be as to such hypotheticals as to the definitions thereof?



[By the way as a side notation: When I was stationed in Medical Hold Unit though sent to the Navy Marine Special Warfare Unit and having checked into the orderly room after stopping at the coffee station where I found a yellow piece of paper similar to the Psalm Sunday service, I saw the aspects of an invitation to a different type of Special Forces as there was only one piece of paper as to after the CO and the XO had gotten my full file as I was excited as to the possibilities as to what occurred after CID as to such situations as to Brackenridge. I told others about this before writing about such in "Finding A Silver Lining" as to such aspects of their knowledge of my invitation to MAST and the aspects of the rave, where such hypotheticals as to a discussion with my tristate area as I do not know what state my biological father was born in as to how he told me after the situation where I found my biological little sister after the Mercury Sable silver car they drove from Illinois to Texas as to that three situation in our biological parents' house before they ever lived in the house situation as to his words as per New Jersey/north east terminology as to such aspects of differences to others' interpretations as he "did not send Patty to be the best little whore in Texas" as to the aspects as to where a biological female being called a whore as to the aspects of what a male version of a Pimp would be as to business only as to the religious aspects as to the references thereof instead of as to such overly sexualized pop culture references as to the common sense for those who were actually born and raised New Jersey-ians as to the overall northeast tristate area would comprehend as to the specifics thereof as to the aspects of asexual intellectual business factors. Since there were some situations as to the house in New Jersey as well as other aspects as to Asher Holmes Elementary School only after the year of 1990 or 1991 as well as the situations as to Old Tennent Presbyterian Church regarding the difference between my Sweet 16 party to the difference of Patty's Bon Voyage party as to such hypothetical proof as to such situations as per such clarifications that have been capable to be verified as to the aspects where the common sense that Patty would be considered within the terms of a trick or a ho(e) as to such stereotypes as per the educational background as per the aspects of earning education as to the hypothetical differences as to such aspects thereof as she would only think in the pop culture ways as to the common sense differences as to who actually paid attention to the rules and followed the rules correctly as to such aspects of honoring parents as to such respectful ways. If as to Mike having changed the Miller's mind as to if they had wanted me and had them pick Patty instead because of the physical looks as well as the aspects of what the time was as to the length of time from my coma as well as the aspects as to the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain as to the if factors as to whatever ease of such was as to those hypotheticals, referencing the situations as to who my Bok Gung and who my Bok Pu are/were as to the aspects of where they were only Patty's Great-Grandparents. Since the aspects as to how Broadway as to such length of time as to the younger and the faster aspects as to such situations as to the references as to where in three locations I am the original baby Jesus Christ as to where she was only the baby Jesus Christ halfway as to one location, for such considerations in the conjunction of my total background as to such facts found as to the trinity aspects for such references of those hypotheticals as to the references as to such Judeo-Christian values as per actions and words aspects. CID was informed of such as well as MAST among others for the clarifications, and after the aspects of the yellow piece of paper as to when I was informed Sergeant Love was being transferred from Fort Sam Houston to the Pentagon several weeks after that piece of paper for those military and civilian aspects to consider and accept as to the factors thereof.]


* As per my promise to Grandpa Nichols as to if I was ever officially informed of anything regarding his son as to how swiftly I would inform him as to having kept my promise despite such second and final separation aspects as to once I was informed as to the aspects of from Talil to Germany for that aspect as well as the situations as to January 2008, as to my keeping my promise as to such facts proven. If there are those who could ever appreciate such even though such aspects as to the difference of situations, though some similarities as to some as to the aspects thereof to the proof.



* Then as to where I could have made Grandpa Nichols a 4 volunteer tour Vietnam veteran and a 6 tour as to a Drill Sergeant as to Fort Polk Louisiana #FortPolkLA #Louisiana #Louisianastate #LAstate #LA additionally as to the aspects of where I took a stand for the #BlackBeret Black Beret as to such acknowledgement as to such factors drive from Fort Worth to San Antonio, I made the arrangement for the burial services as to the DFW National Cemetery for such aspects as to his earned medals and ribbons as per some of such as to the Chief Warrant Officer 3 aspects where in the year of 2003 as to Grandpa Nichols continuously being thankful I had named my son James Michael as he said almost every male hated their middle legal name almost and/or more than he hated his middle name as to the aspects of where he hated the term Walker because of some of the work he had dealt with during Vietnam #Vietnam as to discussions he and I had about some factors as to my knowledge as to from my Bok Pu as well as from my Bok Gung as to China before Mao Ze Doong. Though such situations where the dependent to the year of 2001 Air Force enlisted graduate who thought she could use her husband's rank to tell the Army Chief Warrant Officer 3 what he needed to take care of, as anyone who comprehends such aspects as to the differences. Then as to my promise to Grandpa Nichols as well as those he knew as to the aspects thereof as to the situations referencing the Bronze Star as well as the amount of rank at the time in conjunction as to the situations from the months of February 2008 through April of 2008, where Grandpa Nichols was proud of me for such aspects as to his medals and his ribbons as well as the factors as to the 2 Star General's office as to the first meeting as well as the chapel area in BAMC's basement, and the situations where I had survived as to handling the situations where those as to the situaitons as to from Iraq as to their capacity to be capable to get the assistances they needed as to the situations at the time. Though of course as to those in that 2 Star General's office who only saw him being kicked out of his office for my meeting that he arranged for me with the aspects as to the Bronze Star because of the requirements that were previously arranged with me as well as those who went overseas, and thus if those from that 2 Star General's office complained as to the reality that he had done so of his own free will as per his email to me to ask me for a scheduling request as to in his office that he offered for the three soldiers and I to meet as to the aspects of the facts. The fact I was still respectful to the rank of that 2 Star General as to even after the situations before the time of the memorial as to the aspects thereof as to the basement chapel, then as to such factors as to the situations for others to consider as to Grandpa Nichols' pride as to how I remained calm despite the situations overall as well as the work I did for more who earned actual valor respectfully.



Thus any such hypotheticals as to those aspects as to the other portions as to those biologicals as to Georgia who had defended their incestual relationships with one another as to how my son and my daughter's biological father defended his relationship with his sister Mary as to such oddities as to how proud she was to discuss such with her husband David Osteen in Grandpa Nichols' house as to their swinger aspects, though also how her brother had brought up how excited he was to be capable to spend time at that house with her as to when he had the time when done with Fort Benning Georgia as to during the weekends as how odd would such connections to the swinger lifestyle be as to club sapphire as to those aspects as to such hypotheticals as to the mural on the wall as to the purple and grey colorations as would it take a head injury to figure out even if there is not the aspects of procreation as to the energetic problems as to that type of situation?



I suppose in some ways as to the original states within the United States of America depends as to the viewpoint as to such perceptions as to the aspects thereof to the state of New Jersey as to whatever stereotypes thereof possibly, to the stereotypes as to the original state as to Georgia #GA #GAstate #Georgia #Georgiastate of such if factors that I officially would not and do not know of; though since Mary considered herself a Georgia Bell as to such aspects as to what she claimed, I suppose if as to the state of Texas as to the aspects thereof to such hypotheticals then only the second child of that biological female Ariel would be a born and raised Georgian as to the if factors.



Additionally as to such if factors as to the aspects thereof as to my SCUBA Diving, then the facts that my son and my daughter were born on a military installation as to the aspects where such hypotheticals as to such reference aspects thereof to such viewpoints to the considerations. Though since they were not officially raised in such aspects as to my being the one and only Sponsor as to such aspects as to my Blue Identification Card of/for the Armed Forces of the United States of America, thena s to such hypotheticals as to such considerations as to the overall aspects of such hypotheticals for each to consider as to authenticity if that is actually important to more.




A feminist lifts other females upward as to how their choices as to their free will as to such aspects of consensual aspects as to the reality of what a feminist does, as only feminists give the leeway of freedom of choice as to such aspects as to the consensual aspects without coercion in my opinion as the same as to male feminists or what modern day chivalry is as to such aspects.



A male who is chivalrous will wait for a female as to informing him as to if she is interested and if she informs him of being interested then as to his free will choice without coercion as well as without causing major damages as to such drama as to when he chooses to ask that individual he might be interested in, as to the aspects of a date and a chivilrous male would not ever push against a female who is not interested in such aspects whatsoever and has made it extremely clear as to such aspects of such a female's choice as that would obviously show what type of situation that would be as to any male who would ever push against what a female actually prefers as that would be a machismo sexist individual who would not ever be capable to actually be what the female needs for life to actually be genuinely as to such comfort levels whether such aspects of physical might meet as to such as the personality must match as well as other factors as to what is of comfort as to the female as time as well is of importance as to such aspects.



Thus if at one point in time as to whatever that one point in time might have been as to such aspects, as to the reasons as to the aspects as to whatever that once was as to whatever once was as this year as to the year of 2022 as to such aspects as to how such officially is different as to all such individuals I once knew as to however I once knew them. I will not ever find the weather in the state of Texas comfortable ever as to who I am, and thus as to such aspects of despite the size aspects as to the physical where others might find such aspects as to whathaveyou as to such as to this year is much different as to how everything went and thus as to what my needs are to being what my needs are as to such massive differences officially. Additionally there is not the ways to ever force such aspects as to the electrical factors as to how I have sensitive skin as well as dry skin and Excema, and thus as to any such tries to ever force such as to the common sense aspects as to the differences as to the references regarding such tries as to the aspects thereof as to what is natural to me as the light bulbs in Washington state were for only when in Washington state as to the aspects of that state specifically.



Thus whoever was lied to by others as to any such aspects of what my comfort and/or as to such types as to the tries to ever figure such out as to the aspects of what is actual to my comfort, as to the time and the place and the year and the overall situations instead of how only those who would ever appreciate even one aspect of my work should be capable to find a situation that would be good enough as to such aspects per the proof as to such situations as to such one time aspects of the if factors as to those types as to such hypotheticals as to homo-sapien-sapiens as only human beings would be capable to actually think correctly instead of the interpretations as to such aspects of hypotheticals as to the kindergarten aspects as to those types as to their unwanted immaturity.



Mature people ask the one and only to ask without causing needless problems as mature individuals are capable to have real discussions with real words, as the aspects of how those who would be immature would not understand or know apparently hypothetically.



Who in the overall way as to what I found attractive as to Washington state would be one male in such overall way as to during my Medal of Honor Art Project trips, and that is the only male I personally found attractive as to such point in time as to though the timeframe was as the timeframe was. Since as to such aspects of where I personally need to be now currently as to such aspects as to what my needs are currently as to the specific aspects thereof, and if that male had asked others to speak with me and/or give me his information as to how no one ever did. Similarly as to such aspects as to how there was not ever any point in time where I ever received anything from anyone ever as to any possibility of a gift if there ever was such as to the hypotheticals of if factors, just as there was not any messages given to me ever as to when I was volunteering of such if factors as to anyone at any point in time for such clarifications as to those if factors.



Thus if individuals had left any such messages for me at Club Sapphire and/or left anything for me as a gift and/or had ever given anything to Club Sapphire in reference to me, there was not anyone who ever had given such aspects to me ever and I do not know of if as to such aspects though if so as to those individuals as to being capable to ask individuals at Club Sapphire as to such aspects of if there were ever to be any such aspects whatsoever though I suppose if so some might be capable to understand as to my responses as to such lengths of time as to my journal blog updates if anyone ever wondered why as to any such if factors. As I can only tell the truth especially those who once knew me in person face to face in person before the year of 2015, as to the facts of such as to how I am.



If as to such aspects as to anything left possibly for me other than the $20.00 bill as to how I thought such was something I could get in trouble for as to finding a $20.00 bill as I did not know the laws as the Blue Moose Club in Coralville Iowa security guard/bouncer/EMS individual had chuckled when I asked what I should do with what I found as then I gave such to the DJs, because of what seemed important to do as to being honest. I was given a $50.00 gift card to Amazon #Amazon the first Christmas #Christmas I was volunteering at Club Sapphire as to the oddity as to such aspects regarding the situations as to if as to such factors because of my books as to how that obviously being an insult regarding such aspects of if factors to the difference as to what would be considered as appreciation if as to such aspects of as to such hypotheticals, from Ruby and Doug as to those types of trying to such aspects instead of the aspects as to where I cooked Pumpkin and Caramel Pecan pies for others as to what real Christmas gifts are as a gift card to an online store as to such aspects that I published my books through would not be a gift to me for my volunteer work whatsoever.



If as to such aspects as to those situations as to that one question for that one evening as to such aspects, those situations of needless drama as to such needless situations as to such insult of everything I ever worked on as to the aspects thereof as to such slighting of the aspects regarding such aspects were not appreciated as well as is not appreciated whatsoever. Thus as to how I was informed that Ruby wanted to be the face of Club Sapphire as to Ray having informed me of such as to how others informed me that Ruby Zahn had the need for everyone to know she was the one and only face for Club Sapphire, as to such aspects where it was and is confusing as to how the Miss Sapphire competitions as to those who might actually be interested in such whereas I have not ever been interested in any capacity of ever being involved in such types of competitions ever as that was not ever anything I personally was ever interested in as to just having my own needs as to such aspects as to what was of for what levels as to such times. Thus if the one time I asked if one song was available for one dance as only for such aspects of just to do what I wanted for one evening as to what would have been as to just for that one evening as to for one song that instead of such aspects of other times as to just for one evening for one song, then as to such amounts of needless problems as to such needless drama as to such needless situations instead of what I actually sought.



Remember my biological little sister and I do not and did not ever get along despite posed pictures as to such aspects and/or any such factors as to any photoshopping as to what would require the aspects as to such verifications as to the ease of to ask me instead of assuming as to such hypotheticals as well as any other individual() as to the clarifications as to the time as to the year and the month as to such factors as to any such tries to ever claim anything that would not ever have been anything different than as to pictures as to such situations as to how club sapphire had arranged such for events only and not as to actual aspects as to the if factors as to some of those homo-sapien-sapien types of hypotheticals as to such differences as to the perception as to the aspects of if at an event of such differences for the clarifications of such hypotheticals. Whereas the aspects of situations of when I willingly took pictures with only at 3 events as to such aspects of with only a certain selection of people, as to such respect to those individuals as to the if factors only as to my not ever being willing nor ever giving any consent as to any such aspects ever as to such aspects I have clarified as to the reality as to the NDA situations as to the timeframe of such pictures as to those events officially as to the aspects thereof of if factors as clarified.



I despise when homo-sapien-sapiens think they can interpret, as what low levels of intelligence as to such aspects as to ever thinking one time would ever be as to anything other than one time as to such officially as to that type of that area as to that sort of that aspect as when I have attended as per how a Pansexual is as to how Pansexuality is to each individual to define for themselves and if others interpret instead of ask the individual as to how such aspects are obviously misconstrued as to what would be defined more detailed as to an Asexual Intellectual as to such obvious differences as to the artificial intelligence as to hypothetically because of one part of the one word shortened as to such aspects of Pansexual. Thus if as to such clarifications and verifications as to such aspects of those types as to such swinger differences as to the aspects of the overall lifestyle, then as to such pin pointing interpretations as to such situations as to the needless problems as to such needless stress as to such needless drama as to what individuals who require discussions with real words as to real in person face to face in person as to the comfort levels of the individual as to in what is officially consenting as to only when officially being informed of first as that is the only way I would ever as to such consensual aspects as to the viewpoint thereof to such a definition.



However if as to such types as to from when the reality was as to the aspects I clarified as to what my review as to the aspects thereof to such factors as to the time as to only in the years as to 2009 through 2012 as to when I once modeled as to how there was not any point in time where I was paid for such modeling nor was there ever any point in time where I was paid for my performances, then as to my having officially removed such aspects from regarding the aspects of those pictures from that one point in time of my life as to what once was as there was not the comfort for me then as to such aspects where individuals have needed to accept the facts as to the reality of what was not of comfort to me as to my comprehension as to what comfort is for me as to my modesty. Thus as I have clarified as to such name portions thereof as to Lady Liberty Belle for the clear distinction from such points in time, I have my personal requirements as to being met for such aspects for my starting point as to such aspects as to my life as to my work as to what promise I made to myself.



Thus as to such clear aspects as to who I am as to my requirements for myself to be met officially, as to the reality of my own personal needs for my own relaxation as to what is comfortable for me.



Thus since the aspects of what needs to be accepted if as to such aspects of what once was as to the difference of time as to what now is, as to such aspects as to the aspects of what requirements are still the same as to my minimum standards as to what my comfort levels are for myself.



Since there was not one person who had been capable to speak with me in truth as to knowing of my modeling and my performances when in person with me face to face in person with me as to such aspects referencing such timeframes from the years of 2009 through even now in the year of 2022 as to such regarding respect as to what I consider as to such aspects of respect, then as to the reality where my personal needs as to what I seek now in this year of 2022 moving towards 2023 and onward as to such aspects thereof as to such differences regarding the aspects thereof to such situations as to what my needs are now. If I personally get to a point in time where my personal needs are fully consistently met as to the aspects thereof officially, then I will reconsider as to such aspects in the references as to my choice of my free will as to my website.



Thus as to how I seek the length of time as to such aspects as to my considerations of the length of time requirements, then as to such aspects where I have cleared out my friends list from my official account as to ensuring the clear factors as to the if situations as to those who I once knew as to the if aspects of them wanting to review such aspects as to the only way as to such aspects through my official first fetlife account as per the link. If such who I once knew in person face to face in person are serious as to such aspects as to the aspects thereof to the situations as to the reality of my personal needs, then as to such aspects as to starting as acquaintances before progressing forward if as to such aspects are genuinely wanted as to the reality of such factors as well as to the if situations as to such aspects as to the requirements I have personally set for myself as respecting me as well as respecting my work as well as respecting my freedoms as per my new name though the same account as to Lady Liberty Belle.



Since Facebook could reinstate my original accounts to me as per having reached out to contact them initially in the year of 2018 after the month of September as to such aspects where that would be the only way to ever show respect to me and my work as per such aspects of the requirements, then as to the only way they would ever be capable to ever show me the respect for my work as to such lengths of time as well as the legal factors as to my proof of my life as well as how I legally cannot ever allow anyone to ever be as to those aspects of my social media accounts as to such aspects of the legal requirements of my approval for each aspect and since I have clarified as to such situations repeatedly as to the aspects wherein to such hypotheticals as to the if factors as to Facebook being investigated as to the Congressional situations as well as Amazon.



Once again as to maturity as to such aspects as to the one and only person to ask would be me and the amount of times as to such aspects of my attempts to reach out to schedule a meeting as per having given such details to be capable to do so when I was ready to launch myself as to my business as to my work on my terms as to my conditions as per the legalities as to my background, as well as the facts remain the facts and since I do not allow such others to such involvement as to the reality of such aspects as to the lack of my permissions as to any such social media accounts of mine as to the requirements regarding February 1993 as to what has been proven as to 11 September 2001 as to the aspects thereof to such one and only factors.



Just because of speaking with once does not ever constitute any agreements as per the legal requirements as to such aspects of the one and only to actually review the details in full as to such information, as to those needless and unwanted aspects as to the aspects of respect and etiquette as to such hypotheticals as to the 2020 election cycle as to the proof as to such aspects of the lockdowns as to such aspects as to the proof thereof as to such hypotheticals as to the mask situations as well regarding any such if factors as to those who wanted publicity instead as to the aspects of the validity of their own experiences as to such aspects thereof to the legal requirements as to the work of such aspects as because of the sensitivities as to the real work.



It should not take a head injury into figure out that I would not ever need someone else to run my accounts of originality for me, as I would not ever and have not ever entrusted anyone to ever be as to such aspects of my social media accounts ever as to such legal requirements as to before such technological factors as to those hypothetical situations as to common sense as to honoring me as well as my work correctly instead of those types as to such overzealous such as to those aspects as to such situations as per the proof thereof as to such legalities as to the hypotheticals as to those types who disrespected the north east as to that needless and unwanted aspects of any involvement to my work of those of infowars as there was nothing of respect from such homo-sapien-sapiens as per the amount of how their needless drama.



Thus as to such hypotheticals as to my legal aspects of protections as well as to how they were not wanted as they were not invited as to the one and only who would be capable to invite, as to the proof as to such aspects as to the difference of those types's trying as to such aspects of press as to the reality the press requires actual papers as to the common sense as well as to the aspects of decency and respect.



Obviously those types as to any such hypotheticals as to ever thinking they could ever know as to my actual wants/needs/requirements as to how my choices for such would be as they were not of interest to me to begin with, as obviously if they sought me out as to the one and only way as to etiquette and respect regarding my protocols.



February 1993 as to the larger overall those homo-sapien-sapiens did not know of nor lose the amount of people I had, and as to such similarities as to such aspects as to those westboro baptist types as to such needless and unwanted drama as to such aspects as only homo-sapien-sapiens who lack the substance would have to go to such lengths of overdramatic situations. in what guesstimations as to my opinion as to the proof as well as to such pop culture types as to such hypotheticals as to the military industiral complex as to the mental health aspects as per the proof as to such situations as to such factors as to their name of their show(s) and the aspects of such hypothetical proof. However if as to such year of 2007 aspects of such factors, there is no need for me to sing the national anthem so long as they are involved whatsoever in whatever capacity thereof as to such live in person as to such aspects as obviously there are enough videos of me doing so.



Obviously there is not the aspects of any appreciation as to the situations referencing my SCUBA Diving work as to what I consider as to such factors because if there actually were to be such, as to how the aspects would actually be and would have actually been at the specific time(s) required.



Thus immaturity is not an option, nor are overdramatic aspects, nor are needless situations, nor are such unwanted aspects as to what my considerations are as to the aspects where my personal familial aspects as to chosen family; those who are as to who chose me as family are the Amish, the Mennonites, and the Mountaineers. Such hypotheticals as to such aspects as to the situations where I could have saved their lives as to after 2001 as to any such involvements, would only be an abomination as to those hypotheticals officially.



The Amish refused to have their pictures taken or used unless per such requirements legally and even with such, as to their issues with the aspects of film photography as obviously digital photography would be an issue if such were to know of the facts as to the aspects thereof hypothetically such as camera phones and/or laptops and/or webcams as to such religious respect as to such Judeo-Christian relgious backgrounds.




The Mennonites were only okay with certain aspects thereof though officially strict of each and every aspect as to what was/would be considered as acceptable as the respect must be, as to the aspects thereof as to such requirements as to the protocols afain as to the Judeo-Christian background as to religon.



The Mountaineers were a mixture as to the half and half situations, as they saw both sides as to the Amish and the Mennonites as to such larger factors as to the overall and as to such religious aspects as to the combinations as to the Native Americans with such aspects as to the Amish and the Mennonites regarding the facts.



The aspects as to how I am might make a lot more sense to each and every individual and/or homo-sapien-sapien that I ever knew at any point in time with such small details, as I remain the same as while hypothetically those types remain as to such hypotheticals as to trying such aspects where the lack of respect as to such types of outsiders as to those types of homo-sapien-sapiens.



While boring to some who would not have the capacity to ever comprehend such though need to respect and accept such facts, the situations are as the situations are as to what my needs as for my comfort as to such common sense aspects.



Hypothetically as to any "The Modern Day Book" references as to such hypotheticals as to my work as to such situations as to the aspects thereof to any phone calls as well, as the interpretations as to such lack of any worth to those types who interpret as to such aspects instead of the larger picture as to the overall factors of my actual needs for myself as to my work as to what comfort is for me. Such sexist machismo unwanted aspects as to such hypotheticals as there is only my way as to my work, and if as to such aspects where those types as to such overdramatic aspects as to the unwanted situations from such involvement as to the differences as to such situations as to what is considered as respect to my people overall as to such triggers.



Those types who have yet to ever give me what my needs are consistently in full as to such aspects where the proof as to such aspects of what my considerations are as to the differences of their hypothetical interpretations, there is nothing chivilrous as to any such aspects of those types as to such aspects as to what in this modern time of the year of 2022 towards the year of 2023 and onward that I would consider at this point in time. Then again as to those renney faire types as to their failures to adapt to the modern times correctly, as the facts are the facts as to such hypotheticals.



What I considered as comfort at one point in time is different as to the current point in time, as common sense would be to those with real thought processes to being capable to distinguish such aspects. Obviously the aspects of even being capable to appreciate the breath of life as to such aspects as to the common sense factors, as the facts are that if my work was different as to how many more lives would not be alive as to after the day of 11 September 2001 as to my work.



It is not as to my knowledge thereof as to the Freedom of Information aspects whatsoever as to the clearance is of importance, as to the common sense for such work as to the requirements. However my name is to be recognized correctly as to such official aspects as to such information as to those details, as the importance of the validity referencing such aspects is actually of most importance.



I was as I remain the same as I am, as to the situations.




A PICTURE I TOOK WHEN OUT AND ABOUT, IN THE YEAR OF 2020 OR 2021.



I was as I remain the same as I am, as to the situations.




تعليقات


Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Model Author Susan MeeLing

It should not take a head injury to figure this out because I thought you are supposed, to be smarter.

If there are those who find such interesting enough to research further to bring forward more information in reference to the forefront for more detailed information, as usual I request the courtesy of the same which I do in reference to how I refer to articles for reference points when writing my journal blog entries; for each one used for reference starting points, to research for clearer understanding from such knowledge.

 

That is common sense, good etiquette, and good karma; whilst lifting others upward, in positive ways.

Quotes which mean a lot to me:

"The ultimate measure of an individual is not where they stand in moments of comfort and convenience, but where they stand at the time of challenge and controversy."

"We must reject the idea that every time a law is broken society is guilty, rather than the law breaker.  Freedom is never-more than one generation away, from extinction.  We do not pass freedom on through our blood stream because freedom must be fought for, protected, and handed on for the next generation to do the same."

"Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.  Though best to be able to share in person with who matters, until that time occurs being able to see what is possible through such is a feat to notice.  One must be happy within oneself prior to being happy with another, though such can be enjoyed if living in one's own truth is as such. and then as to the capability to progress forward with another and/or others depending upon the situation(s) and individual(s)."  ~  A Quote From Me, Reverend Susan MeeLing also known as Lady Dori Belle

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In such references if there are any inaccuracies then I will fix and repair such details on my website, as per such.


Though there are the aspects of which if you would like to speak with me in addition to possibilities of opportunities for me, the welcome aspects as to contacting me through my contact form.



If I have known you in person when in person in positive ways and/or ways which might need clarification(s) as to mature discussions, there has always been the welcome open door policy as to contacting me through my contact form if you were not given my new phone number though such is online regarding my website more recently published online as to my Website Business Phone Line: (360)-713-4937.

Thus far there has been only one who has known the contact form area to speak with me on a phone line was simple and capable to do so through, in truth.

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