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Much more than meets the eyes
Whether my ex-in-laws would like to believe about their dead relative of my dead-ex-husband or not, I did have to go to the hospital on multiple occasions because of their relative just during the time of my pregnancy with my son. The first time I went to the hospital was because of the time when he hit my pregnant stomach and the story told to the doctors in the emergency room at Lackland Air Force Base as to why his handprint was on my pregnant belly, was because of the Miniature Schnauzer dog named Sasha being on the couch and him going to swat the get off of the couch. I was several months pregnant with my son, and though I felt contractions immediately afterwards; it took several days before the contractions stopped after going to the emergency room.
There had been another time in which I had to go to be taken to the emergency room because of the abuse from my now dead-ex-husband, in which the stuff put into my food had caused problems during my pregnancy with my daughter; which he had admitted to after the problems I felt, just before a time afterwards when I was admitted into the hospital for kidney stones. When in the hospital room after the emergency room area he whispered in my ear, of how he had continuously put some sort of powder onto my food when he was alone in the kitchen. Knowing whhich food was a craving for the time when I was pregnant, he had done so throughout both of my pregnancies with each one of my children. Both during the pregnancy for my son and the pregnancy for my daughter, the powder which I do not know what it was called had essentially caused the problems during each of my pregnancies in reference to the contractions which began throughout the different times which I went to the emergency room for during each pregnancy. The excuse given for such had been to test whether or not certain aspects he had read about had been accurate, and only because of being hospitalized for the kidney stones had he thought he should stop putting whatever powder on my food was he willing to stop. That of course was only the powder substance, that did not include the herbs he had added and admitted to doing so.
Though he only told me and obviously did not tell them of what he had been doing to me during my pregnancies with each of my children, the hospital records during my pregnancies are as they are. Then taking into consideration the time which he hid underneath the bed to scare me when the day after watching the movie the Exorcist to shake the bed and then grab my ankle when I went to run away from and landing on my pregnant belly, that was seemingly not enough for him to stop being a problem after going to the emergency room for that as well.
However while they also did not want to believe the facts of that when admitted to them in the later years as each of the ones I knew at the time of in 2007, had told me similarly to my biological parents of how they would have done worse to me; the fact is one of my ex-sister-in-laws Susie Marie Nichols-Lopez had been in the area when a phone call occurred and the Home Depot employees told her she needed to get me off of the property, because of the argument on the phone in earlier portion of the year. That one argument on the phone should have been enough for them to know what type of individual their relative had been, though the aspects came out more fully after his death in 2008 when the Chief Warrant Officer 3 had attended the funeral to discuss the stolen valor on the dress blues uniform. Those who have read or read this blog in the link can easily see by the Vietnam ribbon of such that he pinned onto his own uniform knowing there was going to be portraits taken, was one of many ribbons and medals including the Purple Heart with the Oak Leaf clusters which the Chief Warrant Officer had questioned his family and I about. Thus not only was he abusive to my son, my daughter, and I; he abused the military of the United States of America's Armed Forces good graces, for the time within. That of course does not forget the aspects in reference to other times throughout the length of the eight years of legal marriage only.
For another example when moving out of my house in San Antonio Texas and the company which purchased the house most likely found a set of hooks on the outside of each of my children's bedroom doors, they probably did not find the strings used to keep the doors tied shut after my children and I were locked into the rooms because of the anger for something I had done wrong and the stuff I had to do to keep my children and I safe. Though he had joked about doing so to my children and I to others, I do not think they understood the truth behind each of the jokes. However such not being in my house in Carrollton Texas nor in the rental houses or apartments that I had since then, would be able to prove of the fact that was from my dead-ex-husband and not I doing so as unlike my dead-ex-husband; I actually love my son and my daughter, and I did everything I could to protect my son and my daughter as proved by each of my actions.
Maybe it in some ways has been a good thing that none of my books have sold in a bigger way up to this point, as I could easily see my ex-in-laws attempting to get the ability to sue me for writings of the truths of the situations involved at the times of. There has not been any profits made from the sales of my books, despite the amount of books I have written and had hoped to be able to have my books on the World's Best Sellers lists for each one with the profits thereof. I still hope for such though the ironic dichotomy of which if my ex-in-laws thought because of my Medal of Honor Art Project I had been making all sorts of financial gains, such would prove other aspects in reference to their hypothetical pure greed in regards of some of my ex-in-laws comparatively. For example if my other ex-sister-in-law Mary Evongelina Nichols Osteen along with her two daughters thought only because of the fact I had written and published the books and had begun my Medal of Honor Art Project that meant the sales of the books were astronomical as I have and had hoped would be profitable to go after not only my Medal of Honor Art Project though also other aspects, the irony of the hypothetical joke proverbially being played upon them.
While I am grateful at the fact that many aspects of which I wrote about in reference to in my first book "Finding A Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing" had been assisted throughout various areas of the United States of America in seeing the progress of the ways military are taken care of medically better than before as well as some other advances, then ironically my ex-in-laws would have to sue the United States of America's government for using my books as the foundation point because of the truth in such pages. Then again, such would be proof of the realities in which I had endured and would completely negate their possible arguments of badmouthing the situations which I had survived and endured. If hypothetically such were a problem for my ex-in-laws in such of my complimentary book to the first called "Finding the Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing", what I heard in a commercial for Vet TV as the comedic relief for those who have endured such types of situations though not the exact same but along the same lines; is another aspect to be taken into consideration, as comedy assists the pain from the emotional aspects. However I am glad to see there is such a type of outlet for military guys as though I did not graduate Basic Training and do what I had wanted in reference to fighting on the front lines knowing what my nightmare had been, I am glad the individuals who made such have done so to help many to be able to have a different viewpoint of such times and smile.
During this time of COVID and everyone being limited in the places they can go and the distancing required, the civilian sector is able to know what it is like to be in situations which the ability to go out anywhere and everywhere comparatively; gives the civilian sector the ability to have insight into what it is like to be stationed on certain military bases, during and after the AIT time of training. How such shows the ability or I should write the lack thereof, to be able to go to any place wanted to without the approval of the United States of America's governing authorities. For example the fact only certain movie theaters have recently opened up, is one example. If you look at the timeframe of the quarantine being for several months with so many places such as hair salons being closed down for somewhere around 2 to 4 months, that is around the timeframe of Basic Training for the United States of America's Armed Forces. The Air Force, Coast Guard, and Navy Basic Training are around 7 to 8 weeks, whereas the Army Basic Training is 9 weeks, and the Marine Corps Basic Training is 13 weeks. That is only the time for Basic Training thus if you take into consideration the main quarantine had been from around February of 2020 through to April or May of 2020, you can see the correlation of time.
Since I am writing this on 23 September 2020 and though many restrictions have been lifted and some movie theaters are open as well as some businesses including the hair salons and barber shops, from around the time of April or May to now in September of 2020 you can see the length of some of the AIT or job training schedules for such for some of the shorter training time schedules compared to some of the other job requirement schedules. For what my job was going to be had I graduated Basic Training from the Army branch of the United States of America's Armed Forces at the time in 2000, the training for my AIT was around the time of 5 or 6 or 7 months; which depending of the job in the military, depends of the length of time for the schedule for the training of. Again because of the fact in reference to the aspects of the COVID, one is able to see certain military aspects in reference to not being able to go to certain locations during the two different times. The first timeframe of the COVID and being able to go to the grocery stores mainly, would be similar to going to the DFAC in comparison to the second timeframe which only being able to go to places which allow the social distancing in such being similar to the AIT or job training times with going to the grocery stores which in turn would be considerable to the AIT.
While I know there are some who go through additional training depending upon which job they go into for the United States of America's Armed Forces, such is another set of timeframes for which have different requirements all together only after the successful completion of the Basic Training and the AIT equivalent. However such training situations are for those who have proven to be worthy of such titles earned in specialty fields of each, which require a different mindset for the capabilities of. Thus in reference to my ex-in-laws who had problems with how I viewed such circumstances and situations in regards of my dead-ex-husband as well as the views of the United States of America's Armed Forces, I ask this set of questions.
Did it take a head injury to figure out the aspects required of those who have been willing to join the United States of America's Armed Forces have a strength within them, that is not uncommon to them?
Does it take a head injury to figure out those Constitutional Rights are extremely important and have been taken advantage of by those who were unwilling to defend them, while those who have been willing to defend them have dealt with some uncomfortable circumstances for the greater overall?
Should it take a head injury to figure out when you thank someone for their service to the United States of America's Armed Forces, to genuinely be sincere in your gratefulness for what they endured?
Could it take a head injury to truly have to see that what each member of the United States of America's Armed Forces has gone through to ensure the safety and wellbeing of the masses takes more than just what is initially thought of, or could it have been more simplistic to know the different individuals gave much more than some realized?
Though my ex-in-laws might be upset in reference to the truth of which I had endured from my dead-ex-husband, so too is the truth of which many have endured throughout various aspects not only in reference of the timeframes thereof though also in reference to enduring such and surviving to overcome various situations. The truth does not always show in Hollywood type of movies and shows in the fullest form with all of the grit, though points are gotten across for the glory of which endures; though the situations between the most difficult of times to the best of times, is also needed for a clearer understanding from the knowledge. Thus yes while my the aspects of which was endured in reference to how my dead-ex-husband had treated my son, my daughter, and I as had been described and realistically by my words quite minimal into the fullness of; such times were not as rose-colored glasses as some may have wanted to believe, though personally I had hoped for better for my son, my daughter, many others, as well as myself.
I hope more are understanding of the timeframes in which the different people throughout who have sacrificed for the United States of America's Armed Forces and the world, have been able to read such and understand or at minimum know it takes more than just one aspect to such sorts of endeavors. Though I obviously did not run such, I can easily see such aspects alignments. Can, you?
I look forward to when the time can go into the betterment of, and the aspects of which can actually be united with ones cared about and cared for in a more personal way. I doubt, I am the only one.
Why such a picture for this particular post in my journal blog entry, one might ask? I can make a joke in reference to both of my children being of their innocence while also joking about my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury in conjunction with the SCUBA Diving white fins as well as the Vandenberg SCUBA Dive itself. Nonetheless, I am still grateful for my Freedom of Expression, Freedom of the Press, and Freedom of Religion all because of those guys who have been willing to sign that proverbial dotted line to ensure such for many others as well as myself.