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It should not take a head injury
*after personally sustaining a head injury & coma*
to figure this out...

 
 
 
 
 
 


After a Drill Sergeant threw Me into the metal part of the bunk when I was in Basic Training for the United States of America's Army branch at Fort Sill Oklahoma #FortSill #FortSillOK #FortSillOklahoma #OK #Oklahoma in the year of 2000 on Psalm Sunday, I have dealt with the situations as best as I have been capable to do so while taking care of the situations and asking for assistance as per the required explanations of the information to such facts first.  While making the attempts to get assistance for the aspects thereof as to the reality, the aspects of where and when as to the multiple attempts to ask for assistance for me.  As my journal blog for when I was ready to bring such as to my other works forward since as to the lengths of time as to where my modeling was as to the modeling page information, just as the other pages have the information as to such specifics, and just as this journal blog of mine is as to such facts.


If I had real friends (if as to having met in person face to face in person in real life as to the aspects of this particular reference such as from the state of Texas as to the state of Washington as to the years of 2000 through 2013 if I met within the state of Texas for such references), real (the areas of the tristate region as before the year of 2000) family, and real relationships in real life that recognized me as to the aspects of if as to the face to face in person who started in truth as I had started such in truth as to the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, as well as the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain that took 8.5 years to dissipate; then I guesstimate there would be the easier factors as to being capable for me to speak with others in truth in person face to face in person and/or through online measures as to such factors I suppose.  Though would such as to the knowledge of the ways as to how they began such discussions with me as to would there be such a situation, for them to consider as to such if factors as to such discussions with me in truth?


As to some suggestions and commentary within "Finding A Silver Lining" one of several of my bo0ks I personally authored/wrote/compiled as I can only speak and write in truth as per such clarifications as to the reality as to the specifics of such discussions/writings/videos as per my Official You Tube where I have satirical commentary where I comment about the factors as to having dealt with others' opinions about their pop culture references of #NJ #NJstate #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey, though as to for the most part I have actually preferred to be asked with politeness if as to having read my books and/or seen my website as just the same in reference to the timeframes when I was modeling as to having respect as to what I consider as respect, referencing if as to such polite manners as to discussions if as to such having been noticed because of the factors in my opinion as to having real discussions as communication would be if my website was seen before the year of 2023 as I first began my website in 2015; as in my journal blog posts as to the reality of the years of 2010 through 2013, as to the aspects of introductions as to those timeframes when as to various factors as I did not take selfies as I was actually working with photographers as to my creations of my outfits as per the description on the link to my modeling page(s) as to the references regarding my journal blog updates in the years of 2019 through 2022 as the timeframe onward as to the year of 2023 as to the factors as to how such journal blog entries will be as to such factors as to the aspects of the various topic points.


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 I was born and raised in New Jersey and grew up going throughout the tristate northeast areas mainly, and as to how the reality of when the importance of the situations as to the aspects of reviewing as to such facts regarding the logistics for several factors as to the considerations; the years of 2019 through 2022 as to the review process as to the aspects of the timeframe, prior to the timeframe of the 20 year memorial of 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 as well as before the 30 year memorial of February 1993, as to the northeast areas mostly known as to New York City #NYC #NewYork #NY #NYstate #NYU though also as to the #Pentagon Pentagon, as well as Pennsylvania #Pennstate #Pennsylvaniastate as to the reality of how many New Jersey-ians commute in either direction, depending upon what location for the commute. 


The factors though I have said at times, I re-re-re-re-re-re-grew up in the state of  #Texas #TX #Texasstate Texas as to such factors as to the timeframes, as well as all 26 of my SCUBA #SCUBA #SCUBADiving  Diving certifications I earned were through one school within the state of Texas as I also earned winning first place in a Texas Chili cookoff with more than 20 entries as well as my chili recipe as I am adamant about my recipes as to such aspects just as I am specific as to what it actually takes for me to cook in a BBQ as to the required preparations for when I have BBQed.   



I can sarcastically write, those who know of the Rules of the BBQ as to where I grew up as to the Rules of the BBQ as to such factors to the considerations of such preparations.  However that is to cooking food as to the differences of my journal blog entries, as to the factors as to proverbial aspects of food for thought as the difference of real food in real life as to the facts of the situations to such attention to the details as well as attention to the information.


Such facts as to the metaphors in some of such factors that only after reviewing such information as to the aspects of the fiction book series that were as to for My personal life as to such dreamland sorts of factors as to the differences of such hypotheticals, the references thereof as to such regards as to the logistical emotional with the real situations as per the names I was informed of at the timeframes referenced review as to My journal blog as to the situations overall.  


If as to my journal blog being found and read as to where what I consider as common sense, as to the aspects of my satirical saying   how it should not take a head injury to figure out. 
 

*(sometimes utilizing articles discussing facts)*
By:  (Reverend) Susan MeeLing
also known as

The One & Only


(YouTube)   Lady Dori Belle


 

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REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

Justice, my Medal of Honor Art Project, books, and etcetera


I suppose possibly one day though I know not to hold my breath waiting for such, in my opinion.




When I had dealt with what I have dealt with regarding all such after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury and my coma to then wake up from the coma portion to go through everything which I have over such times, the pondering as to what had occurred throughout such times in between such to how I wound up in Washington state and that particular timeframe has been as it has been just as in reference to the culmination of events in just the time of 13 years from waking up at the time of realizing I was not in Texas anymore; to the point in time of returning to Texas only for a limited amount of time as per what I had planned for myself, because of what I knew I could personally handle for myself. I had not ever planned to be within the state of Texas upon my return in 2019 for an extended amount of time to which even though I dealt with getting an apartment I did not want in Washington state because of the situation at the time thereof only to ensure such portions were taken care of to then return to Texas regarding certain specifics thereof, I had accomplished what I had personally set out for myself to do. I had no one to actually speak with in person regarding such aspects during such times which in turn meant there was no one who actually knew as to why I had to return at such times despite what any might have thought because of the fact of not having anyone to actually speak with in comparison, as when one only looks towards one or two aspects whether in writing or what-have-you the portions as to the in person discussions are always more important than anything written regarding the larger aspects thereof to which the seemingly viewed assumptions only then go to the levels of which were however such was reviewed regarding the aspects thereof, however when there is the lack of the in person portions the only choice is to accept the fact that without the in person portions no matter how many words are posted online with or without pictures/videos is not the same as in person no matter how many wish the online portions are the exact same as per wishes some have had in ways I would guesstimate many who have gone after who they view as a known celebrity have learned regarding such portions. I would guesstimate when a known celebrity has been met in person there is a difference to who they are perceived as in comparison to while much might be considered as a larger part of who they are, in comparison to who they actually are themselves in an in person aspect when not having the portions of being in the public sector regarding the ways as to the general public aspects thereof.



In such regards as to in comparison to the plans I personally had for myself when a known celebrity has their group of individuals they work with in person compared to other such portions, I would guesstimate they actually collaborate together and have actual discussions back and forth within the group(s) with such people in comparison to the assumptions as to when there has not been such discussions regarding such in a detailed format to which actually most likely works better than assuming the portions of whatever would have been jotted down or written would be taken into consideration because of the actual ability to discuss in further details as to what is required in comparison to what is wanted compared to what is desired. I would guesstimate the actual discussions in comparison to only reading to then assume all portions of such notations in a brief format however such is put together is much more detailed than any such writing could ever be for such, as why would anyone ever assume there would not be the need to actually discuss such portions in person in ways to actually have such discussions regarding such aspects for the portions of those aspects ever be assumed regarding such without actual discussions? I would guesstimate there is not any individual who actually has such a situation who could truthfully disagree as to how many problems were caused needlessly when the lack of discussions in person occurred, in comparison to the proper ways such went when discussing the additional thoughts and details in such situations and the problems which occurred only because of the choice not to have such discussions to clarify the realities thereof as to the other details which would not have been written about or jotted down regarding such; with the thought as to the requirement for actual discussion, as so many have preferred more details and yet the details of which for such portions not having been discussed, then only has lead to the portions of additional situations. I would guesstimate if in reference to people who know they are celebrities compared to those who just are as they are would have had multiple discussions about such portions as to their particular needs in person compared to assumptions, as I would think that in order to be anticipatory the requirements for discussions would actually be required for clarification purposes.



For example while I had written what I had and compiled the paperwork as I had, I would guesstimate there at this point would be the assumption as to which portions were more important compared to what actually had always been more important. While I was not ever informed of ever being considered as a celebrity as I had not actually ever looked towards such a life to be quite honest, as what I thought was a celebrity in the civilian sector was an individual who chose to actually want to go in the direction thereof in comparison to how I am and just have simply been. While I know as hearing there have been those who have been thrown into the spotlight because of something they did which usually meant there was a group of whoever who spoke with them about such informing them of the situations in comparison to having to figure out on their own regarding of such as a possibility, I would guesstimate those who actually had the discussions thereof even if thrown into the spotlight; at minimum had warnings as to what the portions thereof were, in comparison to in reference to my Medal of Honor Art Project and/or my books and/or my paintings and/or my website in comparison. As I was not raised a way in a constant portion thereof each and every day the way I had seen regarding my biological sister in comparison, I had not ever had such portions for myself and those aspects thereof regarding how such went for her were obviously not anything remotely close as to what went for myself as a child and into my teenager years and obviously into my adult biological years. As in comparison to constantly being told one way or another as to a multitude of aspects, I had been left on my own to just simply be and live as life went in comparison to ever being told the words she had been told regarding what others' thoughts and opinions were in any such positive ways. In comparison all I had been told were each way as to what I personally screwed up, what others' negatively saw of me, the problems which they blamed me for, and etcetera; in comparison to actually ever being told as to the portions of which was ever considered as to anything worthwhile as while I have been asked multiple questions and the words to describe such at times, the response referencing the words in response are as they were. Whereas the portions as to the actions being louder than words at certain times, the actions after such words were regarding after actually having spoken with in comparison to actions being louder than written words as hypothetically assumed.



I wrote and compiled my first two books in the order of which I had regarding all of my books in culmination for the ability to actually explain what I had gone through and experienced, I suppose the assumption on my part was that I would actually ever get to speak about in discussions with the knowledge others actually had read such words and would inform me of such prior to ever discussing anything further. As it was not known to me as to anyone who had actually read such first two books of "Finding a Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing" and "Finding the Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing" whether through the books being mailed and/or the links I put up only in reference to such books, I did not ever assume anyone ever actually read anything I had written. Despite being a prolific writer or author as both are the same in regards of my opinion for such at minimum in regards to how I write, I have not ever assumed or thought of many ever reading such quite frankly because of not thinking anyone would ever take the time to do so as per prior situations in a multitude of aspects. Those who once knew me in person I would guesstimate the aspects to my actual personality when in situations with other people in person would be considered as more quiet and modest compared to my physical appearance, to which in turn while some discussions can get to outlandish topics the portions thereof regarding my actual personality would be considered far more reserved than ever being the ways as to my physical appearance. In such aspects of how I have always been regarding such the assumption to ever think anyone had actually read such was not ever a thought process, because of how many times I had been told if there was anyone who would actually care about such words; there would be the discussions thereof regarding such portions, in regards of those I knew in the tristate area who were authors of whichever books they had authored. I was told by such individuals they knew not to speak of certain portions because if an individual had not made the choice to have common courtesy to inform of such portions officially, there was not ever the requirement nor the need to ever go into fuller details about such beyond whatever topic point was brought up because of the requirement as to informing of such officially in comparison to ever assuming there would be anyone who would read through such details because of the amount of information which was discussed at such times in the 1990s mainly regarding such aspects. Since such individuals I knew when I was growing up regarding the individuals who were biologically older than I had explained such and I had been known to be able to read in different ways referencing the energetic portions thereof, the portions as to going over such details as to how to properly follow etiquette protocols for being an author were extremely important to pay attention to as per their discussions with me.



The portions as to ever assuming that anyone was as the writings of whichever genre written about were the exact same were exactly such, assumptions to which the spelling thereof only shows such portions thereof. Thus in reference to the regards as to my first two books only in such a reference, shows as to why I would not ever assume anyone had ever read such words. In conjunction as to the easiest way as to simply just acknowledge such in truth regarding the aspects thereof whether the books were received through being mailed or through the links I created only for those two books on purpose for such only two books meant the reasons for which were in regards of only those two books being released by me, because of the reasons I personally saw because of my legal rights to choose which books I chose to release in such a manner in comparison to learning of other such portions and the choice being taken away from me by whoever had made such a choice thinking whatever thoughts as to their choice; in comparison to the choice I made for myself regarding each of such books, for my own safety as well as the safety regarding my son and my daughter in comparison to whatever was assumed by whoever made such a choice as to take away my choices for such portions thereof without the concern as to such safety protocols I personally had put into place for such by my choice as to how I chose to release such writings of mine. In turn the aspects as to the choice taken away from me because of how such books were released without my permission ever regarding the process as to make such a priority for myself regarding the aspects thereof all other such books removed my choice, and any such who prefer their choice to be for all such portions of life in turn in my opinion their choice was removed from them with such an aspect thereof. That was not considered as a positive aspect in my opinion as the choice was ripped away from me in ways are different than how my son and my daughter were ripped away from me, to which what my choices were did not seem to matter upon learning of such; despite knowing and understanding and comprehending my choice does matter, yet apparently not to those who took that choice away from me wrongly in my opinion.



Thus the choice to take in reference to how I chose to release the only two books I had chosen to release ever thinking the same was ever going to be done for all of my other books was an assumption which was at the detriment in comparison to ever being helpful to me, and put such hazards into place which were needless and unwarranted to which the portions thereof only caused needless stress and needless strife to my life as well as in addition to what my minor son and my minor daughter were already going through. However I would not be surprised if the portions of whoever made such a choice either did not actually raise their own child(ren) in person or they did not actually have any child(ren) to begin with, in which the regards to such safety protocols would not have been paid attention to regarding my choice; or if they did have child(ren) their own lack of true and actual concern for their own aspects thereof. If ever considered as a female rights individual regarding who had made such a choice which took my choice away, then the regards of such would be considered as hypocritical regarding all such aspects regarding such an assumption that the other books would ever be done in such a way. In such regards that would not be considered as anticipatory though would be considered as greed in comparison because of the assumptions I would ever do everything the exact same way, however if had actually ever read the Finding books then the actualities of how I explained the ways as to which I cook food not ever being the exact same was already in explanations and the assumptions as to choosing to take my choice away wrongly would and is only considered as an illegal and immoral unethical violation of my rights to choose.



If any within the pages regarding the legal documents complained and made such a choice regarding the documents which legally were required to be given to me for the legal aspects thereof, that assumption upon their part was a secondary proof to all other such prior choices they had made regarding their prior choices as to how they had already been in their own lives in my opinion though the proof thereof would be the proof thereof to show whether or not they ever actually took such situations seriously regarding the treatment thereof received; especially in reference to both the aspects of McCoy Elementary School and the staff as well as the adult biologically volunteers/their spouses/family as well as all such connected thereof to such all situations, my biological parents/sister/extended family biologically only, my ex-in-laws, and those who refused to accept and acknowledge the truth of what I had actually gone through as myself whether on my own or as a Mom. Regarding such in reference to the McCoy Elementary School situation including the Fort Worth Zoo, I legally had ever right to publish such as I had already written about everything I went through as it was occurring regarding what I could muster the strength to be able to go through which details at such times. While I do not doubt the arrogance regarding thinking just because I physically look as I do being the excuse as to why such assumptions would be, that only further perpetuates such portions of problems regarding all such types of assumptions regarding those types of people who would think simply because of my physical appearance that I would ever be anything remotely close to their assumptions as well as their stereotypes; despite having already explained as to how minimally I ever fit into any such stereotypes, and even though I can discuss multiple topics does not actually mean I ever feel or felt comfortable discussing such with just any individual. In actuality and in proof regarding what had been my choice for such aspects, my choice to not release any of my other books other than the Finding books was actually the showing of such portions regarding as to what my personal comfort levels were and always had been regarding such portions thereof. Thus I do not see such as any form of respect as to any portions of my writings and only is seen as a lack of respect to my writings as well as the lack of respect to me as myself, in all such ways. I chose to send such books in the mail only to make sure I did not hide anything from who I mailed the books to in comparison to whatever was assumed regarding such a choice to mail my other books, to which again repeats the safety portions regarding myself as well as my son and my daughter's safety. In turn such disgust as to assume all people in adult consenting lifestyle areas are the same in reference to such aspects, only proves the aspects to which I warned people to not ever assume anything about me and to verify with discussions in person for any such clarifications in the fullest of truth in comparison to ever thinking they had a full idea as to who I am by assuming they could go off of one portion of any such aspect; because they themselves had already chosen to write and post whatever they chose to write or post meant they would automatically know as to how such cannot be assumed regarding to who they are in person in full, which was agreed to as to the portions thereof. Thus I have not and do not look at such choices by anyone to have done so to ever be considered as a favor though seen as the complete opposite as an attack against who I am, what I stand for, and the portions thereof regarding the safety aspects to which in comparison to whatever was assumed would only be seen as anything except such what could be regarding as because of the lack of thoughts regarding such a choice in my opinion.



In reference to my book series regarding the Curious Children Book Series, the choice to not allow such to be published in the link manner was to pay attention to the fact of which to pay attention to the fact of children. You literally were supposed to pay for such regarding such books because of the payment required to actually take care of children if you have any or if you take care of children as per the requirements to actually do so correctly as possible, meant you were willing to have other people pay the price regarding what your children were to go through which includes yourself as well regarding the governmental aspects thereof in comparison to being in control of the choices made for your own children because of the aspects to which the payment of the books was meant for the acknowledgement of how much your children were actually worth to you by the small choices thereof. Due to the release of such without my permission means the way I view such in comparison to the Finding books series as to the overall collective of life experiences in various ways for some people in some ways and other people in other ways meant in the ways as to how I view the portions of the world after waking up from my coma after my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury meant all such areas in random broken up pieces, to which was how I have viewed my own life and figured there were others who saw their lives as such as well though I thought there were more who were willing to take the steps to be able to work on such regards in comparison to wanting everything freely given to them in comparison to what it actually takes to live a life beyond just surviving one day to the next day in my opinion.



In my opinion in comparison to the CCBS being a specific module of writing for children to have actual time with their parents/guardians in person for the family life which is required for such a capacity in comparison to only online, I thought in doing so regarding making the choice to not release such where just anyone could read would also in turn be a way to stop others from seeing children as play toys in comparison to what had already been survived regarding my own childhood and teenager years to see there is a payment which each child pays because of others who wish pedophilia were accepted which it is and has been and continues to be refused and rebuked fully as pedophilia regarding underage children is wrong and should be considered as illegal and I do not think many disagree as to immoral.



It was intended to be purchased specifically to find ways to stop such problems regarding those who thought the idea was acceptable and has not ever actually been acceptable ever, as per the requirements for what children and teenagers need to be able to grow up without such problems regarding having to go through such as well as go through the recovery processes thereof in comparison to what those who perpetrate such crimes have thought or lack of concern for thereof regarding such children. The ways as to which I had chosen for those books was to actually bring forward family time together in comparison to just another online portion to look at away from actually spending time with their parents/guardians to actually have real discussions to which I do not doubt such occurred; though not in the ways which I had chosen for such, and not in the approved methods in my opinion regarding the portions of such not being free as per time being more costly than some ever paid attention to before regarding the raising of children. When taking such a view regarding how such had been chosen without my permission, how many children endured situations thereof because of others' assumptions and then were the ones who had to deal with such in comparison to the portions of actually paying for such themselves as to the wrongs committed against? Thus the view of such being released only repeated my only childhood and teenager situations as to multiple assaults to which my biological mother and biological father had assisted and could not and did not care in the slightest as to what problems it caused for me personally, to which only perpetuates such additional needless situations simply because of the ways I had chosen such to be for such additional reasons in comparison to whatever assumptions were made regarding the first two books only. In turn the ways to which viewed of how such released without my permission not only was/is perpetuated by such regarding the CCBS, though also further perpetuated regarding the what was supposed to be the consenting adult book series regarding PotL for adults only; thus such portions of what I dealt with and survived was only further pushed into the directions to which I had intended not to be, regarding such choices as to not release such regarding the portions of why I chose to release only the Finding series the way I had chosen to.



The additional problems regarding such a release without my permission and without any concern for my or my son or my daughter's safety is only perpetuated regarding such problems as to the sloth to ever think as well as the greed for information which officially was not ever earned and could not be earned in such ways, because of the requirements I personally chose for myself regarding such aspects thereof. If the character names were changed regarding any portions of the series regarding my books in reference to "Finding the Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing", "The Curious Children Book Series By: Susan MeeLing", "The Paroxysm of the Lotus By: Susan MeeLing", and/or "Fail-Safe: The Kennedy curse fused with science fiction fantasy By: Susan MeeLing" by anyone who had illegally downloaded the latter of the 3 book series because of what would be considered as the version in print of online plagiarism for any such aspects which is illegal in print and should be considered illegal online as well especially since I registered purposely such with The Library of Congress for such books in my legal first and legal middle name; such regulations regarding such a process for the in print version as well as the online versions which have been registered with the Library of Congress ins such regards should be taken into consideration for such portions regarding the proper wording and the names thereof for such purposes regarding the aspects of all such similar legalities. As I chose to register as the name I have gone by officially in most ways as well as legally registered afterwards in reference to the naming portions, there is not cause for any to ever try to subvert the aspects of my Freedoms afforded to me by my Constitutional Rights which I earned on my own; while the aspects of freedom of the press and freedom of expression have been written about, that does not include plagiarism in the slightest as per the aspects of the illegal aspects of plagiarism in ways of writing as well as music as well as artwork and the likes thereof as already made into laws across the United States of America. Additionally since I had began my website as well as all such portions as I have on my website the portions of which only the allowances to quote while giving the credits to me regarding such portions, are protected by the United States of America's laws and statues and the grandfather clauses of such are always pertaining to such portions across the earth in all such ways as per the Constitutional Rights and Amendments as well as the laws and statues thereof for such regards to which all such protections are in my favor legally as well as in my favor morally and ethically as well. In turn the additional portions regarding Intellectual Property Rights as well as the Copyrights and all such other portions are and will always be in my favor, because of the portions thereof regarding such preexisting laws in other countries as well; despite the aspects of females as per the portions regarding being the one and only Executrix in reference to my dead-ex-husband.



I refuse officially and have unofficially refused such portions of any comments regarding such because of the lack of respect regarding such to ever think the small descriptions of my books regarding such online would be assumed regarding such, and any who would wish to force such would only perpetuate the lack of concern regarding those who have survived an assault not forgetting as to how many I had dealt with because of my biological mother more specifically as well as my biological sister; though also regarding what I survived regarding my now dead-ex-husband and other such situations, which I refused fully and rebuke such in all ways. Again there are reasons to which discussions in person are actually important just as it is important to actually ask questions in truth in comparison to hinting, as per the situations to which have been problematic for such portions in time. Any fe/male who would be considering such as accepting must only want and need such for themselves to be repeated repeatedly regarding such portions as to what I survived and the same in regards to any male, I suppose from the perspective as to what the purposes I had chosen for my own books regarding such to the opinions which were not ever asked of me regarding what my choices had been regarding such. While some might have wished for such information previously regarding such aspects in reference to the topic portions thereof, that does not disclude the portions as to my own choices and my own safety regarding what was written as a fiction novel series. The portions to which I have always had the ability to feel energetic portions does not mean the energetic portions to which of ever crossing the line to ever assault another in such ways; which in turn the assault perceived regarding such release of my books without my permission only perpetuates the needless problems I had already gone through and did not not need any further aspects thereof, as most who have endured assaults do not always act the exact same way regarding such portions thereof to which the assumptions as to are and have always been problematic regarding such types of people who would ever assumed that it is as simple as another day going on. Just because I have to re-go-over each day because of any such rest is actually explained as such to which then the portions of which any complaints regarding such when the only memories in reference to a location such as the state of Texas and such situations which occurred regarding such a location and the people thereof was and is only perpetuated regarding simply being within the state of Texas after the additional portions thereof from such a time regarding such, to which the possible claim of ever having cared about me and/or my son and/or my daughter are only seen in my perspective as the lack thereof.



The genuine concern as my children's biological Mom always have such precedence and as I had legally and officially removed the legal aspects as per being emancipated from my biological mother and biological father when I was 17 years old biologically, and technically I was legally put in charge as the Legal Guardian to my biological sister in 2003 to which that was not ever officially removed to being the legal guardian of my biological sister; all such portions of which to wish to turn such around would be and is considered illegitimate to any claim my biological sister would wish to have, as our biological parents made me the Legal Guardian of her affairs in full at the age of when she was 16 years old to go to school in the state of Texas and had not ever removed such legal guardianship powers and rights from such portions ever officially. In turn the wish to ever have any legal rights over me would be considered fully null and void because of the notary aspects as to which had to be done in order to correctly get her registered and taken care of regarding her schooling, and since such was not ever legally removed from her record as to who the Legal Guardian is as me; the portion of which she could wish for other portions she was made aware of before she moved to Texas, is still technically valid despite the portions of being biologically an adult. I only looked at my biological sister' aspects of running away to another male and their family exactly as such, she was running away from the facts of the truth she did not see as to why I was chosen yet again to be the only one in charge as to the fact of her irresponsibility and the fact of her lack of concern regarding such areas of multiple portions of life. While she legally is now the portions as to who she married in comparison, I suppose I can additionally joke about that spiritual marriage to my now dead-ex-husband and the portions as to the facts as thereof regarding such choices she made of her own free will.



Remember, I told my ex-in-laws as well as others to not put anything into the casket as a warning. Remember, I told multiple people around the state of Texas as to what I had warned about my ex-in-laws and the whole situation regarding that funeral. Remember, I discussed the implications well before I ever put such in writing for years. Remember, I chose to be kind enough to give the warnings in comparison to letting you find out the hard way on your own. Remember, I did not want to ever take away anything from people who did not earn such. Remember, I have been responsible regarding what my personal responsibilities are and have been. Remember, I did not ever lie. Remember, I do not and have not stolen or ever cheated or assisted cheating knowingly. Remember, I did not ever covet what was not mine. Remember, I have made the choice to remain as unbiased as possible. Remember, every time I fought for something in whichever ways I had to fight for meant there was always a larger purpose regarding such aspects which some did not want to pay attention to regarding such aspects thereof. Remember, all such fighting always meant that I was and am correct in such regards with minimal areas that need any type of correction or addition to such information already given in truth. Remember, many musicians/artists/celebrities have used different names than their legal names regarding their musical endeavors to which such protections have always been available for such as well regarding the various influences as per the ways which to do the best I could to ensure the safety and sanctity thereof as per morals and ethics as best as I could which to not detract nor to take away from though to give credit where credits are due as their works are their works and the portions of respecting such have been important to me as I would guesstimate important to them as well rightfully so.



There is not the perceptions of ever being wanted because of such portions additionally because of the inability to ever have spoken with me in truth regarding such knowledge, though the choice to not admit such also only shows the guilty feelings regarding having read what was known should have been paid for. Thus I suppose a reverse look into the portions of the rallies and the amount of open carry regarding such as a wish to protect themselves from such portions which is not considered as a protection of themselves, though seen as a fight to cause problems regarding the situations thereof which was known to be illegally read regarding such links in my opinion regarding such Paroxysm books. In turn the aspects of more law enforcement officials as well as the National Guard being put into place only shows the further portions as to such situations regarding how those in law enforcement know when a criminal is being pursued as to the levels of caution required in reference to what weapons are openly displayed regarding the firearms which were abundant in such references of the rallies in 2020, as well as how such feelings are regarding such assaults referencing to the force in such situations visually regarding the after portions in the more specific reference to how such had been regarding my dead-ex-husband referencing the descriptions in my Finding book series. The needless problems regarding the transfer process out of the state of Texas continues as it has continued to perpetuate such feelings and perceptions in regards of my feelings, and how I have seen such portions thereof. However, I should not have had to actually go into the descriptions thereof as per the situations obviously only seen in my view as to the repetition of the lack of concern and the lack of humanity regarding such portions for such times since January 2021 as can be reviewed regarding all such writings thereof in conjunction with the prior writings as well as Finding A and The Silver Lining books I wrote and compiled. Thus the portions as to what might at one time have been seen by some as a positive was not ever seen as such because of the lack of truth to which when the only person speaking in full truth is surrounded by a large number of individuals with firearms after all such portions having been written about and proven regarding the Finding book series alone, how could such ever be seen truthfully as anything other than the attacks and continued abuses in various ways thereof? How could any fe/male ever see differently regarding the knowledge thereof in reference to such times regarding only in 2000 through 2007 though ended officially in 2008 regarding such, when taking those portions into consideration? With the additional aspects as to the Paroxysm series being released without my permission, how could such be seen in a different way honestly? If there was actual concern, where was the concern actually placed? Was the concern only for the per-view or was the concern actually placed into who had actually had authored such fiction books, regarding the aspects thereof?



I do not see where the portions of any concern could actually be in regards of myself with the exception of the law enforcement and the National Guard portions, despite what I had already dealt with and survived regarding such additional aspects of the uniformed portions regarding such experiences in the state of Texas as well as what occurred regarding the time in Washington state and on my Medal of Honor Art Project mainly in reference to the specific situations regarding the Great Falls EconoLodge hotel and the Montana Vortex situations more specifically. I cannot see how any such aspects would ever be considered out of genuine concern, and can only see how such portions are in regards of how known celebrities are treated in comparison to being in my thoughts as unknown because without ever actually acknowledging such in truth the portions of my perception of being unknown to others regarding such choices regarding all such discussions in person as well as the show thereof done by others wishing for whatever they were wishing for in comparison to my personal needs and requirements thereof. If I am inaccurate as to such a psychological break down of such events and situations thereof, I have only studied multiple psychological college textbooks as well as other such textbooks and other smaller books regarding others' commentary regarding such portions thereof regarding the various topics in comparison; which most of the psychology books were read before my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury with only a minimal amount of books in comparison after waking up from my coma from such. Despite having volunteered in a bookstore regarding the online portions thereof the areas to which I had been able to go read books in the tristate area of not only the public libraries though also college campus libraries as well as specific other libraries regarding certain individuals' businesses as well as the private libraries of others who were known in such areas, the comparison to the number of books I read after waking up from my coma are extremely minimal in comparison to percentages. If going into the regards of needing numbers for such portions the percentage of books in numbers, material, information, and etcetera before my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury would be around 90-95% before with only a 5-10% after waking up from my coma after my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury. There are a smaller number of books I did not have the ability to read in person before my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury to which ironically for one book in particular, I was able to read the actual notations in far more depth levels in comparison to the big blue book or known as The Blue Book Project from my Grandpa Gavett's notations regarding other such portions thereof from the time when he was personally involved with such regards to which that was literally the only book I had not read in such a format regarding the timeframe of when volunteering at the bookstore. Otherwise all other such books were merely a version of re-reading what I had already read as per the multitude of libraries throughout the tristate area, the notations and paperwork from my Grandpa Gavett, the scrolls/specific statues of history and not replicas/paperwork notations/paintings/etcetera from my Bok Gung and my Bok Pu, as well as the libraries my Grandpa Gavett had associates take me to regarding other such locations to be able to read through such portions thereof.



There is a reason as to why Belle from the Disney movie was and is one of my favorite characters at the time of the movie going into the theaters, as I could easily see such portions thereof in more regards as to the portions of the libraries and the books in comparison to ever actually being thought of to be seen in such a light thereof regarding the love portions regarding between the cartoon aspects thereof; however admittedly the portions regarding Mulan was more of a connection portions aside from the swimming regarding The Little Mermaid regarding the ocean itself. The assumptions as to how such should be in wishes regarding other people in regards of myself compared to myself choosing for myself, is beyond the portions to which I could ever calmly write about because of the amount of lack of concern seen and felt to which I have the right to stand my ground regarding my rights and my choices; which the ironic aspects as to those who had chosen to illegally release and in turn have others illegally read through only adds to such portions to every right to defend myself in any and all such ways regarding any such perceived portions thereof throughout the United States of America as well as the world itself as per the more than 4 people having knowledge of such even in the most remote areas of the world regarding such portions by even other countries' laws which personally I have problems with regarding such portions of the sharia laws, though ironically because of such portions of only needing 4 males to witness such the realities thereof which only proves such portions as to the right to defend myself as well as continue onward in my ways as per my needs and my requirements. The ironic portions as to what I personally have required for myself and in turn how I see other such individuals is as per how they choose to show themselves to which as that portions was illegally and immorally removed because of whoever chose to step outside of all such boundaries as to the portions similarly to my dead-ex-husband as he had done as he had chosen before his death, meant the portions as to which of such was always problematic during such times and is only seen as problematic in comparison to ever seeing such as caring or concern in truth when such truth has not been spoken to me ever officially regarding such portions regarding more than one situation and more than one time per regarding such portions. If it was wanted by those within the state of Texas for me to not ever want to return to the state of Texas after the initial reasons as to why I returned, then the successes thereof are permanent and I suppose a congratulations is in order for such individuals who would have wanted such regarding me; though I suppose I can make a joke at this point referencing certain other aspects regarding the regulator for SCUBA Diving, and then the regulator for other aspects thereof if such portions were ever considered as of worth and/or importance thereof regarding such writings and books as well as art paintings and Medal of Honor Art Project Artwork because of the aspects combined.



I admit I knew I could have officially copyrighted in the Library of Congress such portions of my Medal of Honor Art Project Artwork, though because I was not sure who to ask or who to contact in reference to such regarding my creations I did not want to step over any such boundaries as to such because of the portions of the levels of protections regarding the emblem as well as the purposes themselves. It might not make sense now or maybe did not make sense previously to such times, however the completed portions are only in reference to the aspects as to when I complete all portions which only occurs during the portions of the drop off in comparison to the painting portions themselves because of how such has had to be done for the historical and spiritual rubbing portions regarding such aspects. There was also my concern referencing the aspects as to making sure as to respect all aspects of not only the Medal of Honor award itself, though also the aspects regarding the individuals themselves, the units and brigades associated with, the family members of, and etcetera regarding such aspects as to not ever be egotistical enough to ever think that could ever be copyrighted in the Library of Congress because of the fact of so many lives being entangled within each individual piece to which I was able to see how such could be misconstrued and ensuring the aspects of following the protocols of the regulations referencing to the UCMJ as well as the laws within the United States of America against slavery as to why I made such choices; which can be seen in reference to the aspects of "The Modern Day Book By: Reverend Susan MeeLing", "The Adventures of Susan MeeLing, SCUBA Diver Extraordinaire By: Reverend Susan MeeLing" (because I already copyrighted such portions in my books "Finding A Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing" and "Finding the Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing"), and the same regarding the () for the book with my Medal of Honor Artwork and Paintings as such had already been copyrighted as to the situations though not the names of the people referencing my FSL books. However all such portions despite what some might wish for regarding my Medal of Honor Art Project Artwork pieces if there ever was an individual and/or business which would ever think to try to take such portions illegally, I already had such portions copyrighted as to my background and the portions thereof as to ever try to won such pieces in comparison to myself regarding the overall portions could be considered for being in violation of the UCMJ as well as other estate laws as to the portions regarding the Medal of Honor award as well as the different individuals which are considered as family members to each Medal of Honor recipient; which they would have the legal rights and authorities to discuss which avenues would be ideal for them to go after such individuals and companies thereof legally regarding any such rights legally. Hence the completed pieces of my Medal of Honor Art Project have actually only been copyrighted on my website which is partially the same referencing copyrights, though different regarding those particular pieces and thus the portions of ever being considered as an employee compared to the only rightful owner is quite varied in comparison. Any such try for an insult in such regards would continue to be nothing different than regards as to how my dead-ex-husband had repeatedly tried to think he was better in comparison to the fact he had to confess as to how much better I had always been regarding all such avenues, which includes the portions as to my work for which all such aspects of the Bachelors of Science degree was actually earned by me due to all of my writings which were put together regarding the dissertation/papers/research project regarding the T-Gnome, and etcetera for such regarding the Bachelors Degree from UTSA and the PhD program worked within regarding such aspects thereof as I created the development processes as to such research as well as created the energetic portions for the medium to work as it had regarding such portions.



There I suppose I can see how such would be wanted of me though not wanting me as myself because of such aspects regarding several other portions thereof which would have to be willingly in comparison to ever being forced, to which the portions regarding such transfer portions though only written of on my website more recently the first email regarding such a transfer process information request was back in January 2021 in comparison to this month in July 2021. I do not always write about nor discuss all such portions especially when I am not in person speaking with another in person as while some wish their choices regarding if they willingly had knowingly been a part of portions compared to any such forced aspects regarding such technology recordings/videos/images/etcetera would be considered legally as extortion by legal definitions, as per the realities thereof as per not ever signing anything within the state of Texas for such or any other state location regarding any such portions as would be required legally in referencing to any such videos/images/recordings of the voice regarding all such locations as to where I went per my Medal of Honor Art Project specifically for the historical and spiritual rubbings for any such publication aspects as I had previously told the male named Joey as well as Andrew Fast in regards of asking if that would be of interest to discuss what possibilities as per what I would require for such to ever be considered and as such was not ever discussed further in turn that would illegitimatize all such portions if ever thought the one contract would ever cover such as it did not as per the portion I had specifically said the discussions were mandatory for such a process as to knowing I would need certain specifics which I still have ever yet to go into regarding such portions thereof for the aspects regarding my Medal of Honor Art Project trips; especially in reference to my Medal of Honor guys' personal aspects to their opinions regarding the respect they themselves required for each individual portion of my Medal of Honor Art Project trips regarding any such portions associated with that show initially named 'Guardian Assholes' as they truly did crap all over the actual intentions of my Medal of Honor Art Project if that was ever an assumption and they themselves would be held accountable for ever assuming that was ever allowed as it was not specifically because I had said such needed to be discussed with me in further details.



The fact I specifically said I was the one who they would have to discuss such with in person when speaking with them in person thus in turn means the problems of such other aspects regarding their particular willingness to go against such a specific ruling by the one and only who had created such regarding my Medal of Honor Art Project, shows the lack of respect and the lack of concern regarding such regards to the individual Medal of Honor recipients and their families in my opinion regarding if hypothetically the illegal aspects of that which would be considered as stalking and harassment in reference to my Medal of Honor Art Project trips and their lack of concern for the actual process as well as their lack of respect for the safety of each area I went to and all such people living in each of the states and towns I went through would in turn be able to be seen and show through regarding such aspects of their choices to be as their choices hypothetically were to be. Thus their willing choice to go against as I had said was required to discuss with me what was actually needed if there are any upset regarding their spiritual marriages, is actually by their own free will to have knowingly gone against what I specifically said needed to be discussed and any they lied to regarding such permissions would be kept in such covered aspects within the regards of such previously written portions thereof. However the ending of such regarding my Medal of Honor Art Project would also be considered because of the wrongful lack of respect and the wrongful lack of justice regarding such portions thereof, as seen regarding the portions as to the stalking and harassing aspects as explained. though yet again not in the ways which of myself ever feeling wanted as per what I personally needed for myself to ever feel wanted in the ways which would be comfortable to me.



Again, I had not ever seen myself in such a role as a known celebrity as a known celebrity is informed as to such as per what I had thought and figured regarding how such aspects had gone and would go in comparison to what has occurred. If there was actual respect for such portions as I said had to be discussed, then such portions would have actually been discussed with me in person as required regarding my Medal of Honor Art Project because it was not just a rubbing of a grave stone marker as I guesstimate more assumed than ever actually had believed at such times when initially beginning my Medal of Honor Art Project. There is not the need to ever actually go over the process for such for how such is fully completed at this point regarding the full processes thereof regarding the actual work involved with each individual piece to accomplish completing the actual aspects of each Medal of Honor Art Project Artwork piece in my opinion, because that is not anything which could ever be learned through watching nor trying to listen to anything as per the portions thereof have nothing to do with what is audible by normal human being measurements and such insult to such aspects regarding my Medal of Honor guys would have been viewed as to how such would be viewed; though it is my opinion regarding such aspects with their spirits informing me as to their opinions regarding such aspects thereof, for whatever that is worth. Regarding the signing of the dotted line and the Honorable Discharge in which the portions regarding the aspects thereof in reference to my Medal of Honor Art Project trips in reference to the aspects of knowing the security portions of such referencing to the aspects of the areas I was going to at this point in time in comparison to only knowing I was going to the locations in regards of the markers for my Medal of Honor Art Project trips though also knowing of the fact as to my Medal of Honor Art Project portions being considered as different compared to some other types of art, I can be appreciative referencing such as though the preference in comparison is what it is; the making sure I was being respectful to the areas of the Medal of Honor recipient markers and the locations thereof, I can understand and comprehend regarding the fact having to do with Medal of Honor recipients and their families.



As I have already written and explained to a degree, I know while my physical look is of an individual who would be the stereotype of the time to not be respectful the reality is as per my upbringing outside of my biological mother as well as some extended portions regarding my biological parents' background and what has been proven regarding multiple aspects thereof regarding my biological sister and the comments made regarding such; I also know how some have wished to view me in a different light in comparison to who I actually am and have always been through my own patterns of behaviour standing up for the rights of those in the uniform of the military/law enforcement/fire department/EMS of the divisions and branches of the United States of America's Armed Forces over the years despite how certain aspects were possibly perceived regarding how my the aspects of my ex-in-laws in certain references as well as my dead-ex-husband having stolen valor as well as having had multiple uniforms regarding other countries which I had discussed and written about in the ways to hope to find a way for the ability to get answers to bring such forward. I admit my own ignorance if I were to have actually found out which countries and the fuller aspects as to how to take such to law enforcement as well as how to explain such as per knowing how the realities of the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury have been reviewed as well as discussed by others in regards of the threats which I was told would be put out if I were to ever speak out against the facts of what was occurring during such times; however that was a high risk I was willing to take to be able to expose such situations to be able to bring the important aspects to the individuals of whichever groups/organizations/agencies I knew my Grandpa Gavett had been a part of helping form though could not remember all of the ones he had shown me the paperwork of regarding his involvement and training aspects as when I went to the Marine and Science Technology School with the Navy attachment I thought that school would have been ideal referencing the situations regarding my biological mother and the portions of which my biological father had some connections to bringing those aspects forward because of the names involved which I recognized in an overall sort of way, which in regards of the Army branch of the United States of America's Armed Forces I thought about the church I grew up going to in reference to Old Tennent Presbyterian Church and General George Washington's private office behind the church which he did as he had regarding the Revolutionary War to bring forward the new beginning within the lands of the United States of America. Maybe a bit childish for certain references as I was only 17 years old biologically to take such a stand against my biological parents and other such connected aspects to them in reference to what I knew I fully understood and comprehended at such times, however I was still in the correct place and the correct time to be able to change the course of history regarding being in San Antonio Texas to be able to get such portions taken care of while in the barracks before getting to the area which I was able to complete the most amount of assistance in the background the way I knew how to as per my choice in regards of which apartment had been transferred to at the timing of as well.



Whatever punishments thereof were suited and are suited for such individuals to have dealt with regarding such choices to remove my choice after what they had already put my son and my daughter and I through which in turn would only legally show such individuals as illegitimate as to having any humanity in my opinion as per the choices previously made regarding my son and my daughter and I regarding my books I wrote and compiled, the importance regarding the labeling of the specific types of book genres in comparison was always important and required to which the release of such aspects I doubt was ever taken into consideration regarding such portions as per what I had seen in reference to the one book in comparison to looking up all books regarding the Fail-Safe book which there was not the explanation of such beyond being in the title; however such was not ever in the title and only in the description regarding CCBS and especially PotL to which the PotL fiction series was the most important to actually label correctly regarding such an illegal release of such regarding my books as per the information within such pages regarding how some would assume that was real referencing such aspects regarding myself in comparison to simply just seeing such as a fiction book series to which in regards of looking backwards the importance for the ways certain aspects are properly squared away the first time around in comparison to going back to then have needless portions of stress added because of others' wishes for other portions; is only and has only been needlessly problematic to which having been involved with the adult consenting lifestyle only adds such unnecessary pressures which I had already dealt with in the state of Texas before I wound up in Washington state, and the electric portions of zapping was not needed for the additional regards as to what has always been my choice regarding such times as I am not the stereotypical Female Dominant, I am not the stereotypical LGBTQPer, and I am not the stereotypical Swinger to which to give such a false impression because of whoever chose to release such without my permission only put all such groups and individuals thereof at risk needlessly as they were already considered as a high risk group of individuals and simply did not have the protections previously in the same ways as already known. I would guess the individual(s) involved did not care nor did they ever see such security risks when choosing to do so in any such ways and most likely if they ever actually began to care, it was only after their own portions of such were impacted in comparison to ever actually paying attention to the larger aspects for such portions wrongly as the arrogance to ever think you know every individual aspect is an arrogance which pride has always been a problem for more than just the individual who is so prideful to ever think they know to ever understand; in comparison to the idea they had concocted in their thoughts, in which their own ego would always be their own downfall as to their own problems they themselves began on their own and when such was/is figured out I truly hope as per the ways I truly hope.



What is allowed to be known outside of the spectrum of what they put out into the sectors they choose, the portions of which the actualities are have been different compared to when simply going along with their daily lives to which only when choosing to accept such a portion in comparison to having such aspects of recordings outside of what was arranged in knowledge of in the official capacity; there are the portions to which those individuals have and/or would see such portions of what the choices had always been. Though what has that ever mattered to anyone else in comparison, realistically? I am uncertain what truly ever mattered as I thought the truth was always the most important aspect to living a proper and great life, in comparison to hiding in the dark and wishing things to be different. If such portions regarding how I wound up in Washington state had to do with when the last time I had been to a group location in San Antonio Texas which was a house location regarding Mike which the situation was as described referencing the male named Allen who had actually pushed and shoved me no differently except as to where and the location of when I landed on the concrete path in the backyard had anything to do with how I wound up in Washington state, what other problems did such a group and individual cause to others within the adult consenting communities I had been involved in after I refused to return to the location to attend any further events because of the lack of proper etiquette? What other problems were caused to the community after the same time around such of my article on Leatheratti referencing submissive males and Female Dominants occurred, as that was the first location I spoke with someone asking about if the group W.H.I.P.s I had created could hold such meetings on one Friday evening each month, which I was told there were not any submissive males who would ever be interested in such and they were not worth the time to allow such to ever be a part of. Those portions as to the 4th of July event in 2012 after what occurred in regards of having to disarm my own daughter was discussed in the backyard area of that house and was laughed at in the ways of how I described such, though it did not change the fact I had to do so in the slightest; which what care or concern was ever taken into consideration as to what I personally went through regarding such situations overall as well as in reference to that one particular situation itself, is able to be seen in reference to how I had been treated by others thereafter regarding such a time from March 2012 at JBSA, in San Antonio Texas, as well as various areas throughout the communities I once was a part of within the state of Texas.



Then for such rallies to have as many firearms in the Open Carry aspects after getting involved within the election process in Texas in 2019 and 2020, how could such be reviewed regarding all such portions of such additional aspects; in reference to the if known portions of my books having been read in reference to "Finding A Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing" specifically, as to the amount of times thereof? Not one person in any such group had ever admitted to having seen my books to read first nor ever admitted to seeing my website unless I brought it up afterwards, to which then why would I ever see myself as any type of celebrity? Why would I ever assume that anyone would ever know who I am without them specifically telling me they knew me, or knew of me, or knew of what I had been working on? Only someone egotistical would automatically assume that would be considered as common knowledge to me, as the internet areas are far larger than the amount of people in the world as per the capabilities thereof in my opinion. The lack of concern, the lack of compassion, the lack of safety attention, and the fullness of the lack of what I actually needed for myself in regards of ever thinking that would be viewed by me as anything for myself as per the reasons stated and published regarding the reasons for such rallies and events was for the re-election of POTUS45 and VPOTUS48 as well as the different aspects of the 2020 election individuals in conjunction with the Republican Party. I had not ever thought any of such was ever for me as it was not ever stated or written to me or discussed with me at any point in time such could ever be considered as such to which the realities then as per how I naturally am, means the aspects as to what was written in my journal blog The Ornery PSA only proves such not ever having been viewed for anyone else other than who had been discussed and/or the purposes thereof regarding the rallies/events/parades/meetings/etcetera.



Why would the feelings of the perpetuation of feeling as the unwanted artist article and such portions regarding the situations thereafter ever be as such, someone might wonder? Simply because I am not egotistical to think everything is about me in comparison, as per the way I had grown up. I explained previously in person as well as in writing as to how I do not ever assume automatically and how I do the best I can to actually look at the various angles as to multiple situations in comparison to simply jumping to conclusions, however I am the only one who I can truthfully say and/or write such about in those regards. Each other individual would have to figure such portions out for themselves as to whether or not they automatically have jumped to conclusions in comparison to getting the actual details thereof, in comparison to assuming automatically. There is a difference to assuming automatically and actually taking the time to truthfully think about the overall situations as well as there is a difference to having an ego in comparison to acknowledging what actually occurred in truth, though what would such matter to anyone who had at such points in time had assumed the portions they only had an idea of in regards of each portion I had ever discussed or wrote about? That is an additional problem regarding male Dominants who think they are capable in ways of other such aspects and who wish to try to make a Female Dominant anything less than She is because of their own insecurities as per the ways seen in comparison to also how such male Dominants think that male submissives are weaker than they actually are, as well as the perception of if hypothetically accurate regarding such portions; just because of being asked as to if the possibility for the group to have meetings at a location does not actually make you a submissive male, as that is only a propaganda situation as to how such is viewed in comparison and was easily able to be explained if the time was actually taken in comparison to jumping to conclusions off the bat wrongly. What would a male who would be offended by such being asked by me for the ability to help the community do in reference to asking if others could be able to be a part of such a group to hold attendance for submissive males and Female Dominants who in the portions of would not be in the professional aspects thereof, just for one evening a month do?



I suppose if that was a portion regarding removing the label as to all Female Dominants are pros in comparison to all Female Dominants whether professional or not, still have their own aspects as to their own enjoyments. It is ironic if that is the case referencing such a location as realistically, the portions referencing Dr. Rubel being a part of the location to teach and speak with the class in the common area where the location was in reference to the Marine comment would be the joke at such a time as to who was in that same spot referencing the timing of the Marine comment later on. Though yes Dr. Rubel did make a comment about even though I was late to showing up which I do not like being late because of the respect to the others whose time is valuable as well regarding such respects, he had commented about how I had at minimum took the time to dress appropriately in front of the entire class; to which there are those in various communities of the adult consenting groups which already have known about others' comments as to how I have dressed and my choices of outfits as per whichever event I have chosen to go to for such, and know of how such backlash for simply wearing what I felt comfortable wearing regarding such a location had been at such times. Who would have thought such an ego would be so wounded because of the comment positively of taking the time to respect the presenters and the speakers would have gone to such levels in the San Antonio community regarding such, though I suppose that has been seen since my return to Texas in 2019. What else is new? That is something I dealt with regarding my dead-ex-husband as well, as his problems were with me wearing what I chose to wear among so many other problems needlessly.



In such childish antics as to the problems regarding such portions of such egos and arrogance, the situations went as the situations went to which the portions thereof after having explained to others in the times before winding up in Washington state which included explaining and showing some the threats I had been dealing with; I cannot count the amount of times I had been beaten while doing the best I could to keep my son and my daughter safe from the beatings I had dealt with, to then only be locked in their rooms with them whichever times until whenever the letting me go out of such areas finally occurred back in my house in San Antonio as well as then later on regarding when in Washington state. Non ever believed me about the abuses I dealt with regarding my now dead-ex-husband from the years of 2009 through 2013 before winding up in Washington state just as few ever believed me about the threats I was dealing with from the times thereof even when showing them of such, however winding up in Washington state and being kept locked up in the room while being electrocuted being in the areas above the Mason-Dixon Line on the west coast still have yet to be brought forward in the court of law regarding such portions. What is it to actually ever get justice, out of curiosity? I have heard there is a feeling which occurs, though I would not know what that feeling actually is.





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Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Model Author Susan MeeLing

It should not take a head injury to figure this out because I thought you are supposed, to be smarter.