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During the #quarantine #lockdown of which is the 44th day of my own self-imposed quarantine before the 33rd day which the state of Texas #GovernorAbbott had imposed the lockdown quarantine because of the #coronavirus, today is 27 April 2020 which is one day prior to the day in 2010 when what occurred to my daughter at the #FortWorthZoo occurred. As because of the inequities of the staff members and adult volunteers involved in regards to what occurred during the Fort Worth Zoo field trip, which in my opinion have been proven over and over again in reference to those who had been involved as well as subsequently; such as my ex-sisters-in-law and my biological family.
Whereas my biological mother had been a substitute teacher in the state of #NewJersey, #Illinois, and #Texas; Anna Louise (Lally) Hom chose not to give me any assistance to the situations in reference to my daughter’s needs for Special Education; despite having been informed of what I had been requesting of #McCoyElementarySchool of #Carrollton Texas of #CarrolltonFarmersBranchIndependentSchoolDistrict, #CFBISD in 2010. My biological sister Patricia Ann Hom-Miller had denied any assistance or even the slightest bit of support to my son, my daughter, or I as she was too embarrassed because of how my physical features looked in her eyes. However that did not stop her from utilizing my children for her wedding to Zachary Miller when the two of them got married, as my son was the ring bearer and my daughter was the flower girl. According to my biological mother, sister, and father; I was personally not allowed to be in the wedding pictures because “of such an embarrassment of sore eyes” if I had been in the pictures, and instead I took wedding pictures, as I had planned.
However there was not any allowance for me to be photographed by the professional photographer the family hired according to my biological sister Patricia because of the fact I look the way I do. Though it was not until later had I realized possibly Zack’s family might know how to assist my daughter, instead of the offer being made; I was simply ignored and denied such. My biological father Michael Lee Hom had gone along with my biological mother and biological sister’s choice to lie to Zack’s family, about my biological sister being the only child they had; and it was not until a few months after their engagement that Zack and I had met, only because I demanded to know who my biological sister had been engaged to. I doubt he knew when my biological sister told him he was meeting her sister, he thought anything more than a sorority sister; until I explained, exactly who I am.
In reference to my two ex-sisters-in-law Mary Evongelina (Nichols) Osteen and Susie Marie Nichols-Lopez, neither of them offered any bit of advice beyond simply ignoring what the school had denied my daughter; just as my biological mother told me to simply, give up. Whereas my biological mother had experiences with school districts, my ex-sister-in-law Susie Marie Nichols-Lopez had many experiences of governmental aid assistance and who to ask for help in such. As she had been on multiple welfare system governmental subsidies for herself and her children (Brieanna Marie Lopez, Marissa Marie Lopez, and Joseph Anthony Lopez); Susie Marie Nichols-Lopez (named in the San Antonio Express News Article about her dead brother SGT Robert Walker Nichols (B: 19 March 1976 – D: 28 January 2008), Susie Marie Nichols-Lopez had denied of knowing where to look for any government assistance, for her biological niece or her biological nephew despite her sexist remarks about if things occurred to my son; which infuriated me in both cases. Susie Marie Nichols-Lopez saw no harm in making such a reference, whereas I could see the detriment in both ways and was told she thought I was over-reacting.
On the other hand Mary Evongelina (Nichols) Osteen with her two daughters in #Macon #Georgia (Sondra Marie Osteen and Ariel Marie Osteen) had chosen to only watch what I was going through in my attempts to get assistance for my daughter Lidia Louise Nichols and my son James Michael Nichols because of what occurred online, through #Facebook. There was never any offer for any form of assistance or support, though Mary Evongelina (Nichols) Osteen was quick to not listen to my warnings when it came to the situations involving her dead brother (my dead-ex-husband as it was the time of the final separation when he died), and had contacted her state representatives as she attempted to impress me with when at Staff Sergeant James Walker Nichols’ funeral in #Dallas #FortWorth in August of 2008. Albeit I had scolded her for not listening to me and my warnings when she toted that around as though it was something she could consider to be proud of, she did not want to listen to the fact she had put many soldiers’ lives at risk because of what she chose to do.
Since I knew to go up the Chain of Command and Mary Evongelina (Nichols) Osteen thought it would be better to start at the top with those she knew in Georgia as she said “…through the swinger lifestyle communities…”; I told her “I do not care how you know them, you need to stand down and let me handle what needs to be done so it is done correctly.”
As time went on throughout everything I was doing to ensure the best I could and while posting online in hopes there would be someone who could offer assistance to my children and I, instead I was berated and name-called by many; albeit mainly on #ModelMayhem in reference to what occurred to my daughter, rather than other parenting areas and forums on social media. However whereas I sent out many emails requesting assistance and help along with making multiple phone calls in attempts to get legal assistance for my children and I, there was nothing available for my children or I. Albeit I also had not know of online stalking or hacking (which would be fantastic if that justice and retribution were to occur instead of continuing to wait any further for such), which is a whole other ball of wax. In such when the time came in the end of 2012, I had contacted #CPS (Child Protective Services) again, about the situation. The first time I contacted CPS had been in the timeframe immediately after the situation at the #FortWorthZoo in 2010, the second time had been when my daughter was being released from #MerrillRidge #ResidentialTreatmentCenter in 2010, the third time had been in #LittleRock #Arkansas when my daughter was being released from #PinnaclePointe Residential Treatment Center in 2011, the fourth time had been when my daughter was being released from #LaurelRidge Residential Treatment Center in #SanAntonio Texas in 2012; and the final time had been in the end of the year of 2012 when I had to file paperwork because of the fact the #military #healthcare #insurance had dropped my daughter from the insurance, because of being labeled as high risk.
None of those times were any of those agencies able to assist my daughter, my son, or I; thought arrogantly told me, “just keep trying”.
At this point back then I was exhausted and now, I am sick of trying.
When the sixth time of contacting Child Protective Services in San Antonio Texas had been to legally relinquish the legal parent rights to my daughter while never denying being a mom to my daughter, had been only because of the inability to keep her safe from what had caused multiple problems for her as well as my son and I. Due to the fact the female CPS worker and the male CPS worker Louise had told me I needed to make an attempt to get one of the members of the biological family of my children to try to assist, I was told by the female CPS worker of what to write in a message to Mary Evongelina (Nichols) Osteen. After typing the #messenger on Facebook in front of the CPS worker, the female looked it over and approved of everything written saying of how I “had written everything Mary would need to know about the financial aspects of the benefits from her father’s death”, though she wanted me to add putting visitation with my son as “an additional incentive” because of knowing I had not seen Mary Evongelina (Nichols) Osteen since my #SCUBA Dive trip when that whole USS/USNS #Vandenberg situation occurred shortly after the family vacation in Georgia.
I had disagreed with the female CPS worker and told her not only did I not feel comfortable with the setup, however I also did not feel comfortable using my son in such a way. The female CPS worker told me “That should make Mary want to help, if nothing else”; which I wholeheartedly disagreed with that female CPS worker and warned her, of how over-emotional Mary Evongelina (Nichols) Osteen gets when she throws a temper tantrum. After the female CPS worker along with Louise the male CPS worker had stood watching the female CPS worker read over the message, she then told me to hit the send button to Mary Evongelina (Nichols) Osteen. I was told to inform the female CPS worker of Mary Evongelina (Nichols) Osteen’s response as soon as I received one, and before the end of the day I forwarded the message from Facebook to the CPS worker. The following few weeks to month and a half, was a whirlwind which I had to deal with even more on my own.
Realistically yes, my now ex-boyfriend Jesse Leroy Hoover Jr had been the only person in the courtroom I knew semi-personally who was there for me. The first court appointed lawyer Robert had been horrific to work with as he had told me in an email of which I “could not return [my] daughter to the pet store as if she were a dog”, which then I faxed documents to the San Antonio #FamilyCourt Judge’s office to review for such behavior unbecoming of a lawyer who was supposed to be helpful. The second court appointed lawyer did wonderful in her attempts to help my daughter and I, and though the CPS worker’s lawyer attempted to lie and then change her story when on the stand and lied; I wrote handwritten notes to the lawyer Mrs. Cortez of what was said by the female lying on the stand, after speaking with her in the hallway before she got on the stand and lied under oath. Afterwards on the 4th of July in 2013 my biological mother thought for whatever excuse it would be a good idea to attempt to reach out to me, which I informed her that there was an irony of the timing of her attempt to reach out to me being #IndependenceDay and the fact of my emancipation before joining the United States of America’s #ArmedForces #Army branch.
I do not doubt she started throwing her temper tantrums and ran to Zack’s family to show them how she thought I was so mean for being honest, after all of the mistreatments I had received over the years. I also do not doubt for one second when I mailed the books I wrote up to that point in time to my biological parents, my biological mother then ran over to Zack’s family to cry some more about all of the truth I had written. However what I also do not doubt is if my biological parents did not alter the books, Zack’s family probably was a bit taken aback by several details throughout the pages of in specific the FSL books and while my biological family probably attempted to lie further as did most likely my ex-in-laws; there is little doubt in my mind many were able to believe their lies, any further.
While many who knew me over the years could possibly see the signs I would author books, some might not have realized how many I would author nor the amount of books I would author on my own; though it would be fantastic to actually be on the #WorldsBestSeller List as soon as possible to begin receiving my #royaltychecks as I did not write anything I had over the years for free in regards to my published books; and though I had sent out copies of my books, I was hoping the fact of my royalty checks to begin immediately would have occurred, as sending through to various locations for my benefits. I admit despite the fact many could see it coming in reference to my choice to author books after several discussions well after beginning various journals and blogs, I would not be surprised if there were some who had a period of disbelief of the information in black and white. The irony of my colors for the #BDSM, #LGBTQP, and #Swinger lifestyles being of the colors black and white; of which I was ridiculed for relentlessly by many over the years, including conversations from my dead-ex-husband when he was alive. That point being brought up there were several points in reference to which spiritual and religious aspects which my now dead-ex-husband had wrongly gotten into of mine, and then he was warned of the ramifications which the debts owed, he would be responsible for the reaping of to bring forward everything which was owed to me. In such the spiritual marriage to my ex-sisters-in-law and their children had been the day they chose to put items which were religious though not of #JudeoChristian based, which includes my ex-mother-in-law; especially knowing and assisting in the arrangement of the #SaintPatricksCathedral in Fort Worth completing the funeral rights, knowing their family member was an Atheist.
Thankfully the #Priest listened to me and instead of the funeral rights being completed in the sanctuary, the rights were completed in the cafeteria; which angered Mary Evongelina (Nichols) Osteen and Susie Marie Nichols-Lopez, though their living brother Tony Walker Nichols and both Mary Evongelina (Nichols) Osteen’s and Susie Marie Nichols-Lopez’s husbands were appreciative of when they learned, I had spoken with the Catholic Priest that day. Tony, David, and Joe (Jose) were surprised I had spoken with the Priest though when I informed them of why and what I felt, each of them gave me a knowing nod. The picture of Grandma Nichols leaning on her dead-son’s casket with red carnations could be considered as symbolic for her knowledge and understanding, of what she and her daughters had allowed which ironically; was taken by Brieanna Marie Lopez. To this day I cannot comprehend the fact my ex-in-laws wanted to take so many pictures of and at the funeral with the open casket of my dead-ex-husband, though in a dichotomy and backwards coinky dink to my biological sister’s wedding; could be joked of such a grim wedding spiritually for those ex-sisters-in-law of mine and their children.
Though my children had not put religious or spiritual symbols into the casket, they did have my permission to put something into the casket which they felt to be appropriate though non-religious. I had told the others if they were to put anything into the casket with their dead-relative, for it to be respectful and tasteful for the situation. Grandpa Nichols and Tony had known certain aspects, and thus put Judeo-Christian symbols into the casket as I was the only adult who had not known at the time there would be funeral rights to be performed by a Catholic Priest in a Catholic Cathedral as I thought the Priest would be meeting everyone at the #LaurelLandFuneralHome instead of actually driving out to the Saint Patrick’s Cathedral. Thus while my ex-in-laws might not want to admit their spiritual marriage to their spiritual husband, my dead-ex-husband; they took the pictures themselves of their spiritual wedding and the irony of my son being the ring bearer at my biological sister’s wedding and his name meaning, as well as my daughter being the flower girl at my biological sister’s wedding and her name meaning. The fact my son put a skateboard into the casket, I believe the bolts could symbolically be considered as rings; whereas my daughter was the flower girl at my biological sister’s wedding who put a rainbow colored turtle into the casket, similar to various colors of flowers.
My ex-sisters-in-law and their children, my ex-mother-in-law, and my ex-boyfriend Jeffrey Kuykendall Jr AKA #CactusJack had all put into the casket various spiritual and religious items of which were against the Athiest non-religious beliefs and all except myself; knew of the plans for the funeral rights that would occur at Saint Patrick’s Cathedral including Jeffrey Kuykendall Jr AKA Cactus Jack, as he had been informed by Susie Marie Nichols-Lopez. As everyone except for my children and myself wanted to be in the pictures taken, another dichotomy of contrast to my biological sister’s wedding; those people of their own freewill and choice, permanently memorialized their spiritual marriages. Another dichotomy of the fact only my two ex-sisters-in-law and my dead-ex-husband of that family had defended incest with my now-ex-boyfriend (despite the fact the San Antonio Express News wrote fiance in their article at the time because of Jeffrey Kuykendall Jr AKA Cactus Jack)’s insistence to the author of that article, another dichotomy of one of my favorite childhood television shows having been The Addams Family.
While I have not found my proverbial Gomez or visa versa, the aspects of my son and my daughter’s personalities being similar to Wednesday and Wesley Addams is a bit of an oddity in its own right. Another oddity of my children and I watching Nightmare Before Christmas each year since they were little for both Halloween and Christmas, can be another oddity which can be joked about in certain regards. Then the question I suppose to inquire would be if the ex-in-laws want a spiritual divorce from their spiritual husband AKA my dead-ex-husband and since that occurred in 2008 of their spiritual marriage and I being the one and only Executrix, what are the laws for alimony owed for such a divorce if wanted and desired by them? Also, is there a ;aw against necrophilia in The United States if America since Mary Evongelina (Nichols) Osteen and Susie Marie Nichols-Lopez insisted to show me a picture of their dead-brother/spiritual-husband in their bedrooms? Mary Evongelina (Nichols) Osteen showed me the picture of her dead-brother/spiritual-husband’s picture in her bedroom set up in Macon Georgia, similarly to my then fiancé’s picture in my bedroom; just as Susie Marie Nichols-Lopez had shown me the similar setup in her rental house in White Settlement Texas. Are there any such laws against necrophilia in The United States of America, or have the laws not evolved that far in this era yet? If as my biological sister Patricia Ann Hom-Miller had a threesome in our biological parent’s bed in San Antonio Texas as well as sexual relations in our biological parent’s bed in #CrystalLake Illinois any of my ex-sister-in-laws children had in those areas, does such also qualify as necrophilia?
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