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It should not take a head injury
*after personally sustaining a head injury & coma*
to figure this out...

 
 
 
 
 
 


After a Drill Sergeant threw Me into the metal part of the bunk when I was in Basic Training for the United States of America's Army branch at Fort Sill Oklahoma #FortSill #FortSillOK #FortSillOklahoma #OK #Oklahoma in the year of 2000 on Psalm Sunday, I have dealt with the situations as best as I have been capable to do so while taking care of the situations and asking for assistance as per the required explanations of the information to such facts first.  While making the attempts to get assistance for the aspects thereof as to the reality, the aspects of where and when as to the multiple attempts to ask for assistance for me.  As my journal blog for when I was ready to bring such as to my other works forward since as to the lengths of time as to where my modeling was as to the modeling page information, just as the other pages have the information as to such specifics, and just as this journal blog of mine is as to such facts.


If I had real friends (if as to having met in person face to face in person in real life as to the aspects of this particular reference such as from the state of Texas as to the state of Washington as to the years of 2000 through 2013 if I met within the state of Texas for such references), real (the areas of the tristate region as before the year of 2000) family, and real relationships in real life that recognized me as to the aspects of if as to the face to face in person who started in truth as I had started such in truth as to the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, as well as the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain that took 8.5 years to dissipate; then I guesstimate there would be the easier factors as to being capable for me to speak with others in truth in person face to face in person and/or through online measures as to such factors I suppose.  Though would such as to the knowledge of the ways as to how they began such discussions with me as to would there be such a situation, for them to consider as to such if factors as to such discussions with me in truth?


As to some suggestions and commentary within "Finding A Silver Lining" one of several of my bo0ks I personally authored/wrote/compiled as I can only speak and write in truth as per such clarifications as to the reality as to the specifics of such discussions/writings/videos as per my Official You Tube where I have satirical commentary where I comment about the factors as to having dealt with others' opinions about their pop culture references of #NJ #NJstate #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey, though as to for the most part I have actually preferred to be asked with politeness if as to having read my books and/or seen my website as just the same in reference to the timeframes when I was modeling as to having respect as to what I consider as respect, referencing if as to such polite manners as to discussions if as to such having been noticed because of the factors in my opinion as to having real discussions as communication would be if my website was seen before the year of 2023 as I first began my website in 2015; as in my journal blog posts as to the reality of the years of 2010 through 2013, as to the aspects of introductions as to those timeframes when as to various factors as I did not take selfies as I was actually working with photographers as to my creations of my outfits as per the description on the link to my modeling page(s) as to the references regarding my journal blog updates in the years of 2019 through 2022 as the timeframe onward as to the year of 2023 as to the factors as to how such journal blog entries will be as to such factors as to the aspects of the various topic points.


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 I was born and raised in New Jersey and grew up going throughout the tristate northeast areas mainly, and as to how the reality of when the importance of the situations as to the aspects of reviewing as to such facts regarding the logistics for several factors as to the considerations; the years of 2019 through 2022 as to the review process as to the aspects of the timeframe, prior to the timeframe of the 20 year memorial of 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 as well as before the 30 year memorial of February 1993, as to the northeast areas mostly known as to New York City #NYC #NewYork #NY #NYstate #NYU though also as to the #Pentagon Pentagon, as well as Pennsylvania #Pennstate #Pennsylvaniastate as to the reality of how many New Jersey-ians commute in either direction, depending upon what location for the commute. 


The factors though I have said at times, I re-re-re-re-re-re-grew up in the state of  #Texas #TX #Texasstate Texas as to such factors as to the timeframes, as well as all 26 of my SCUBA #SCUBA #SCUBADiving  Diving certifications I earned were through one school within the state of Texas as I also earned winning first place in a Texas Chili cookoff with more than 20 entries as well as my chili recipe as I am adamant about my recipes as to such aspects just as I am specific as to what it actually takes for me to cook in a BBQ as to the required preparations for when I have BBQed.   



I can sarcastically write, those who know of the Rules of the BBQ as to where I grew up as to the Rules of the BBQ as to such factors to the considerations of such preparations.  However that is to cooking food as to the differences of my journal blog entries, as to the factors as to proverbial aspects of food for thought as the difference of real food in real life as to the facts of the situations to such attention to the details as well as attention to the information.


Such facts as to the metaphors in some of such factors that only after reviewing such information as to the aspects of the fiction book series that were as to for My personal life as to such dreamland sorts of factors as to the differences of such hypotheticals, the references thereof as to such regards as to the logistical emotional with the real situations as per the names I was informed of at the timeframes referenced review as to My journal blog as to the situations overall.  


If as to my journal blog being found and read as to where what I consider as common sense, as to the aspects of my satirical saying   how it should not take a head injury to figure out. 
 

*(sometimes utilizing articles discussing facts)*
By:  (Reverend) Susan MeeLing
also known as

The One & Only


(YouTube)   Lady Dori Belle


 

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REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

Integrity & honesty and intelligence & compassion are more important than some may have realized

There are reasons why I refused to bad mouth my now dead-ex-husband in front of either one of my two children of which the results of the additional portions of such problems can be seen in a larger and longer portions of time, as to why it is important to always discuss the realities in truth in comparison to what aspects have been shown to occur not only in regards of those I once knew over the years though also more specifically in reference to my daughter #Letters4Lidia and my son #Letters4James.



I made the choice to keep my son and my daughter out of both portions referencing the first and second/final separations from their biological father, because of knowing the importance for them to be able to have their own childhood and their own ways to process the end of the relationship back then at those times. Whereas in such points I chose to keep quiet about such without ever speaking about the larger details in front of either one of my two children as to they type of problems their biological father had caused to them as well as others and myself, however my now dead-ex-husband did not know how to keep a promise such as what he had made back then and the promise had been including to not involving his family in what was not their business to begin with. As typical ex-in-laws are about certain aspects in which the stereotype of which even when they know the individual was wrong, the majority of times the stereotypical ex-in-law still does the same patterns of behaviour as to any and all such denials beforehand of which they had gone to lie about such an individual before. The same in regards to when there is a black sheep of the family which the stereotypical choices have been to not take responsibility for their choices and actions while trying to blame the black sheep for their problems they caused to begin with.



In turn even though the posting for is in regards of my daughter’s birthday, this is the wake up portions of what she had dealt with because of her biological father’s choices as to his failures to do as he promised regarding the facts of not involving my son or my daughter into the end of the relationship as well as the other factors involved. Though I have detailed many portions between my three non-fiction books “Finding A Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing”, “Finding The Liver Lining By: Susan MeeLing”, and “The Modern Day Book By: Reverend Susan MeeLing”; the choices of which in such regards as to how my biological mother/father/sister chose to respond as well as my ex-in-laws’ choices as to how they responded reflect exactly how they had been regarding any such dealing with those people, in regards of any and all truth which had been brought forward as to how they had treated me in person referencing whatever words they chose to use while additionally being able to take their choices of actions into consideration when in all such regards of.



Remember when I was pregnant with my daughter in the year of 2002, I was less than two full years awake from my coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury. Remember when I delivered my daughter after having been in labor for over a seven day period of time, I was only awake from my coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury. Remember when I delivered my daughter in the year of 2002, I still had the full subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain which would take another two and a half years before it would be able to show signs of improvement as to the blood clot on my brain slowly going away from the viewpoint of the #MRI MRI and the #CAT CAT scans. Remember the fact that my ex-in-laws as well as my biological mother/sister/father were fully informed as to my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, coma, and after effects. Remember what their words in discussions were at such times as well as afterwards to think about how my childhood and my teenager years had been during all such years, and then compare as to how it is known of what treatments I dealt with because of their failures to acknowledge such responsibilities they had to take themselves for their own choices and their own actions. Remember how they have chosen to speak to and about others, in such comparisons additionally for a larger view. Remember in reference to my ex-in-laws as to how they chose to raise their daughters as to their own teenager and young adult life choices, just the same as to my biological mother/sister as to how such viewpoints towards other females as to their choices of how they had treated and looked at other females who did not fit within a specific moulding.



In such regards as to the fact my now dead-ex-husband had confessed as to what he had told the neighbors around my house that I had owned during the first separation, I already knew during the second and final separation as to how it was going to be. He had confessed how he discussed me in front of my son and my daughter as well as how he had spoken about me to my biological connections as well as his biological connections, which he had not fully clarified because of their already biases against incorrectly at such times. However you can remember how the situation occurred in reference to the stolen valor on the dress blues and the Chief Warrant Officer 3 to #endstolenvalor the ending of stolen valor as to the choice and the stance I made, as per the availability to find such details as well as whatever video footage thereof from such locations overall as to the ways which each individual had responded during such a point in time and thereafter by each individuals’ choice to which they had the free will to make upon the ways of such times.



However this is a waking up and shaking people out of such slumber because look at the mental health situations which developed because of the failures on each individuals’ part as to what they chose to tell my daughter and my son as to the times of when their dead relative or dead connection though spiritual husband as to what problems for themselves they caused needlessly, because of their refusal to accept the truth at such times. The truth has been required for full acceptance as the partial acceptances are able to be seen as to the problems regarding the mental health portions, as per the length of time for such realities. While in certain circumstances it was not known at the time in reference to the year of 2000 or 2001 or 2002, the fact of having told others the truth and some seeing such in person as to such realities of choosing a piece here compared to the fullness of overall additionally proves as to the problems associated with those types of people who pick and choose despite all further proof in all such regards. I have limited patience for those types of people though their prior biases always fully show just as much as their trying to hide such fully shows as to how much they have hidden themselves from others, although additionally shows how much they have hidden themselves from themselves. With the failures as to acknowledge their own problems, weaknesses, failures, lack of responsibilities, unoriginality, and etcetera shows as to other mental health problems I would guesstimate their medical records in conjunction to their emails and their #socialmedia social media accounts would give further proof as to those types of patterns of behaviours for whatever length of time there could be in such references. In turn they would be seen to have projected their own personal problems onto others needlessly as to their own insecurities and failures as human beings to have humanity, in ways which would turn the stomach of even the higher aspects of atrocities. However in turn the ways of which the aspects in reference to how my daughter had been treated by such same individuals in reference to after the situations regarding McCoy Elementary School and the Fort Worth Zoo situation, would prove such when looking back in the reviewal processes for my daughter.



She would remember as to the amount of times in an overall way as to how many appointments in an overall I had been at in the earlier times, compared to afterwards. She would remember whether or not she had seen her biological grandparents and aunts at any appointment, in reference to the adult aspects and what such connection points were at such times. She would remember whether or not her biological grandparents and aunts assisted with situations after the San Antonio Family Court Room, or if they had waited and taken the time as per also additional aspects comparatively as to when she had been in care after the #SATX #SanAntonioFamilyCourt #FamilyCourt #SanAntonio #SanAntonioTX #SanAntonioTexas #Texas #TX #TXstate #Texasstate #MilitaryCityUSA San Antonio Family Court situation. She would be able to see in the timeframe of the year of 2019 to the current time in the year of 2021 how much I had thought of her regarding the #Letters4Lidia aspects of the larger portions of my concern while keeping her in my thoughts, as well as know that all such hashtag portions would only be of a minimal portion as to my care and concern as to knowing I do not speak the same ways as others have for such care. She would know that from my actions as to such times in those years as per my driving out to the area at such a time back in the year of 2020, and yet would have to accept the facts as she has had to accept the facts about what she had been put through by the biological connections thereof as well as the extended portions of which would be for those people to deal with the larger ramifications as it was not my fault they did not think about the technological recordings and such aspects for such full awarenesses regarding as to every individual aspect of their lives which they wrote about and/or spoke about in a public location with any type of electricity monitoring as to how many individual times they had been caught in such hypothetical criminal portions throughout all such aspects.



Remember as to how I had been treated in regards of luggage in the years of 2000, 2001, 2002, and 2003 in reference to my ex-in-laws and what similarities can you see in such references to the definitions of a feminazi compared to a feminist as per their words about other females to any individual they chose to speak with in person and/or wrote about online.



What over-emotional aspects as to the choices of such have been on full display as to their choices and their connections in addition to any involvements thereof to any/all stalking/harassment/violation of privacy/lack of humanity/etcetera as to their choices regarding myself as well as others?



Why would I fully refuse to stay in the house with my ex-in-laws when my ex-mother-in-law asked me to stay during the month of December in the year of 2020, and what technological proof of any such words are there for any type of criminal prosecutions if any such aspects are plausible for any aspects legally with the pattens of behaviour for a circumstantial evidence way though at the same time the patterns of behaviour nonetheless?



Why have I cut out all such connections of my ex-in-laws and my biological mother/sister out of my life?



Why do I not care nor need any such discussions with those types of people as to their incapabilities as per what my experiences had been, and why would a full portion as to putting such on my website of such refusals be the equivalent of them being considered to have been put on notice for any such restrictions from ever being anywhere around me as per a restraining order for those individuals to stay away from me as well as keep their associations away from me?



How could if they read on my verified website be the equivalent of the minimal legal requirements as to having been informed as to the proof thereof as to why that restraining order for and towards such individuals be to remain as far away from me by the hundreds of yards away, be legally applicable if such needless problems have been proven to be found accurate as to such involvements on their direct parts and in their direct connections thereof through whatever messages they had sent?



While that additionally would mean that such realities as to why they were removed from my life, and why I have chosen to willingly refuse them. Additionally my choice to refuse them in my life and/or to have them involved to be a part of theirs as per my free will choice, as per the realities as to what they could wish though not be granted as per their choices in actions during such initial timeframes.



My rights have always superseded theirs and their complaints as to the facts of my rights always superseding their wishes of rights because their wishes of their rights are only wishes because of their choices, which took away any rights they had at one point to choose for themselves. The facts as to the knowledge and understanding of the after effects from the initial portion from 21 years ago shows additional mental health problems as while the complaints as to my hairstyle and my tattoos are what they knew they were not ever able or capable to manipulate my intentions thereof, which in turn they complained knowing as to the unfolding of all such truths regarding their inability to ever undo such aspects thereof. The reasons I minimally explained as to the reasons why the requirement for my hairstyle and my tattoos if they complained about once or especially more than once, if there were any wishes as to such to be used for the aspects of my ability to take care of my responsibilities then that would mean they would argue against any individual who has a #tattoo #tattoos tattoo to ever be responsible by their own words and their own choices.



However I have gone to the levels of which to make sure to take care of everything I needed to take care of to the level of permanently tattooing my flesh as to make the solid choice and solid decision to stop such patterns of behaviour as to those aspects, as well as my visual and full showing of my refusal to ever accept them or theirs in any portion of existence in my life. Think about how bad situations were for having to get to the level of getting multiple tattoos etched into my flesh in multiple areas in hopes to assist my memory to have a different life in such comparisons as to what I had been dealing with, just in regards from my childhood and teenager years through to the time of beginning my tattoos in the year of 2006 for such aspects regarding the portions of my biological mother/sister/father and my now ex-in-laws and such choices and behaviours thereof I did not need.



In such a reminder as to it has been 21 years of which such choices as to from the time of when I awoke my coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 would additionally show as to when they were told no and told to stay away and told to stay out of my life, as to their choices as to such stalking and harassment needlessly to myself as well as to others I have known which includes my son and my daughter obviously of which in turn the requirement to let it go on their parts as well as to let them go on my part to move onward and live in comparison to spinning the same wheels and thinking doing the same things would lead to a different result and what portions thereof to the mental health aspects for the reviewal as to such aspects thereof.



As I as well as many others who have tattoos as well as different hairstyles have been able to prove as to whether or not such aspects of responsible choices as well as responsibilities taken care of are able to prove, the choices as to others who have the right to not have a tattoo is their choice. However their choice to not have a tattoo or several tattoos is the choice for their body, as the words of which is truthful as to my body and my choice. It was not my choice to have a head injury or a coma, though how I dealt with my life as per each situation and overall portions thereof was and is my choice and my choice to make within the aspects of what information is available to make such a decision in such regards thereof. Those 10 Commandments, yet again.



Thou shalt not have any other Mom raising such as to teaching the truth, as the truth has always been available for those who have made the choice to seek such truth as the one and only Mom who gave birth to my son and my daughter.



Thou shalt not steal or use my name in any ways other than the truth nor shall you use my name in any such vanity aspects as to wishing to use the clout of my name from what I personally have done in ways which your falsity of such aspects to wish for such a better connection, in comparison to what once was if your choice to not disclose the full truth in all such ways as to the times thereof.



Thou shalt remember my birthday and keep it holy through such proper respect, in comparison to wishing to curse such though only in turn cursing yourselves on what is holy from holy regards in your own lives as would hypothetically be able to be seen in the wishes of such towards and which directions such wishes had gone.



Thou shalt honor the truth of my son and my daughter’s biological aspects of which the truth of my dead-ex-husband as well as the truth of myself, as to the only way to honor is to tell the truth and only the truth in all such aspects and ways thereof. The irony as to my now dead-ex-husband having confessed such portions and in the hypothetical choices of such connections as to their failure to comply with what he had wanted himself, as per his confessions to me the one and the only Executrix which he had chosen for the time he was declared dead in full truth physically in comparison to those who wish the aspects as to the otherwise in reference to the aspects of me and my life. Yet the irony of which if that were actually true, then the stalking/harassment would have been differently if there was the truthfulness to such aspects. Though as by their choices to schedule their lives and schedule their choices and schedule their actions as to what my plans have been, only shows a different aspect as to the similarities of what had been confessed to me as to the knowledge and understanding to comprehend the realities of who I am in regards to specific wording in biblical texts and Hebrew Old Testament texts as well as the confessions from my dead-ex-husband as to such as to having realized the realities of which regarding starting the day.



Thou shall keep alive any and all such aspects as to character, reputation, endeavors, works, and etcetera as only the truth aspects as to the importances thereof.



Thou shalt be loyal, faithful, and true to the relationship aspects to for the highest good as to myself and my son and my daughter.



Thou shalt not steal in any sort of way of which even such aspects as to the financial portions as to the realities thereof regarding intellectual property rights as there was the confession as to having used my research ideas in reference to the T-gnome in regards to the meeting at Dr. Sun and Dr. Sun’s house as per the aspects shortly before discussing gardening and one of the other lab area PhDs being upset and asking about what degree I had to ever be able to discuss all of the aspects I had brought forward in the discussions thereof.



Thou shalt not bear false witness against they neighbor of which was clarified as to the realities of the amount of needless lies to people in comparison and though I knew there were those who had not believed such portions as to the time between the first and second/final separation, I knew there was the reality such would be fully revealed as to the truthful aspects despite the situations at such times as I was lied about regarding my virtue and situations thereof which the realities as to the garage situation fully reproved my innocence as to such portions as to my modesty regarding such types of situations. I had admitted such realities as well as the discussions at the times in the year of 2006 and 2007 of which at such times the other two involved were honest in such explanations as to how that had become, though the ironic admittance to my ex-in-laws as well as to my biological mother/sister/father by both individuals as to the choices thereof while in full awareness as to the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury. I began my tattoos in the year of 2006 knowing I needed to fix and repair where I could as to my memory deficits and my cognitive disorders of which by then my hairstyle had been as such since the year of 2005 and as I had noticed a massive difference, the facts to which my tattoos had been able to help me in more ways over time have proven such furthered aspects to assisting due to the energetic portions infused in regards of the overall as well as other such situations to assist me. In some ways in review later regarding now in the year of 2021 I have wondered if there are other aspects as to my tattoos of which in an evidentiary way has been an admitted fear of mine more recently, within the timeframe beginning that particular wondering and fear of around the year of 2017; however since that has not occurred as to such portions nor any reasons or causes or excuses as to any aspects as to why, I have shuffled such off as just being an irony in thought.



Thou shalt remain faithful in belief and aspects of in regards of the agreements made, in the contexts thereof to which how such is viewed in the regards is how such is viewed in the regards as to contractual portions.



Thou shalt not covet what does not belong to another of which I do not covet what does not belong to me, though there are the admitted aspects as to seeing the good and the beauty in multitudes of aspects and ways thereof.



Thus with such portions of which in regards as to my daughter on her birthday the reality of which I had made the best possible choices I could make despite the facts as to every individual I had once known who was older than me either biologically and/or mentally referencing such aspects had made the choices they had made, of which in such regards as to whether or not I have proven my ability/abilities regarding additionally my responsibility/responsibilities to take care of what I am supposed to take care of in turn would at such times be proven one way or the other.



Thus while I hope my daughter’s birthday goes well just as I have in reference to my son’s birthday, it has been of importance as to ensuring the best I could do was done so. While if I had posted pictures and the aspects of, it seemed it would have caused further needless damages to her and the situations involved. It also seemed if I had done so my ex-in-laws would wish to be able to take such and cause needless problems for my daughter’s mental health which I guessed was occurring as to the ways they had been as already having told people about the ways they had been in reference to their known bankruptcy portions, their assisting to steal, their lies, and etcetera; though additionally in reference as to how my biological mother/sister/father had been in which situations I could remember, including the wedding my biological sister had been in reference to the #Austin #AustinTX #AustinTexas Austin Texas area of which the discussions with a few individuals in the adult consenting lifestyle community in the area had been of a problem for her as to my acknowledgement of existing as per a phone call which she was mad that I had acknowledged knowing her and being related. While the irony as to her problems over such aspects, she had to remember I had to deal with the phone call about when she had the threesome in our biological parents’ bed and house in San Antonio. Thus, no one could be more embarrassed of another sibling than I in such references to topics of discussions especially when taking into consideration as to my modesty as well despite different topics I have written about and/or discussed. I simply am modest and meek, despite my physical appearance and background as to having been born and raised in #NJ #NewJersey #NewJerseystate #NJstate New Jersey.



Thus while in the timeframe after the San Antonio Family Court situation while I could have posted more pictures as to what was going on in reference to my son and I’s situation though admittedly at the same time the aspects as to how we wound up in #WA #Washington #WAstate #Washingtonstate Washington state, I knew I could not assist my daughter’s mental health if there were pictures of my son and I having any type of anything during such times because of the sensitivity of the situation regarding the overall portions referencing #McCoy #McCoyElementary #McCoyElementarySchool #McCoyElementarySchoolCFBISD #CFBISDMcCoyElementary #CFBISD #Carrollton #CarrolltonTX #CarrolltonTexas #FarmersBRanch #FarmersBranchTX #FarmersBranchTexas #FWZ #FWZoo #FortWorth #FWTX #FortWorthTX #FortWorthTexas #FtWorthTX #FtWorth #FtWorthTexas McCoy Elementary School of CFBISD in Carrollton Texas especially in regards as to the Fort Worth Zoo situation and thereafter as well as before in regards of the #specialneeds #specialneedseducation #ARD #IEP #TXTEA #TEA special needs education as per what I had brought forward in the beginning year for the new school year officially within the year of 2008 into the year of 2009 which I had been ignored by those staff members wrongly as to what I new was best for my daughter and my son and I in comparison to those people’s assumptions.



However it is important to also notate the fact of such a choice to do so while creating my website as to the ability to bring forward how I was working on making sure my son and my daughter could be proud of me as their Mom, would be available regarding the knowledge I was and am working on various aspects while doing the best I could to make sure they are taken care of and have what they need in what ways I could as well as want as to the reference of which the social media aspects have been able to bring certain aspects forward regarding my writings and works on other social media websites of which I have verified the situations thereof. Though hopefully my original #Facebook Facebook accounts can be returned to me and/or merged for the clarifications of for all such aspects, the ability of which being able to bring such forward to make sure my daughter and my son knew as to how much they mattered and matter to me. Additionally hopefully such clarifications have brought forward assistances in other positive ways as per if there are any legal portions which had needed clarifications, though additionally as to my SCUBA Diving being only my SCUBA Diving and the clarifications as to all such portions in reference to the aspects thereof as to what is mine is mine and is mine alone. I had brought forward in “Finding A Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing” after having written about such in my original fetlife account as well as having discussed such portions in regards of the UHUAL as to my SCUBA Diving gear, of which with the #UHAUL letter as to the confirmation as well as the phone call of such SCUBA Diving gear being my gear fully those legal copyrights as to what is mine per additional timing of prior postings as to my SCUBA Diving pictures always remaining in my copyright control as per the fact as to the UHUAL situation having been reported as well as the letter thereof.



Thus additionally solidifying my ownership rights in all such aspects as to my pictures from my work, because it is known as to the fact I would not ever allow anyone else to take credit for my work from my experiences as well as the documented proofs thereof. In turn while some might have wished to prove otherwise in such regards in reference to SCUBA Diving, what has been shown as to any individual involved with such portions and whether or not they are responsible and decent individuals would be able to be seen through such technological correspondences over such years. In the reference as to only one person ever hearing unedited and unfiltered as to how my biological mother had treated the situation regarding the San Antonio Family Court of which if the political family aspects are true as to the problems regarding how they had made whichever choices they had made if they knew about what my son and my daughter and I were dealing with, as to their connections for such to be reviewed in which ways of the evidence to such aspects in all such ways which obviously includes the technological correspondences as to their choices as well as their opinions over such times and involvement or lack of involvement thereof. In turn if they were lied to by SCUBA Divers who were as however they were and/or are, those portions of such truths additionally are able to come forward with all such full exposures thereof.



10 year anniversary to actually celebrate and positively influence people whether male or female to better themselves and educate themselves while having others assist in teaching and instruction, would have been something I thought had been of importance. However the facts of which the lack of the celebration at the 10 year anniversary point by the aspects as to the BBQ I had started, shows whichever aspects thereof to review for such portions in time when I was at Clear Springs SCUBA Park and all such interactions with those cellphone towers and the like nearby and overhead above the water park itself as to any such additional hypothetical legal situations to take into reviewal for such invasion of privacy and theft as the bathing suit I asked in anyone had turned in regarding the owner named Brad despite knowing there is a sign of which says the area is being recorded who had claimed no one knew of anything about my bathing suit. Theft is not a way to ever show appreciation in my opinion as it shows laziness and sloth to be wasteful with such time and energy, as to go to such levels



Appreciation is of a way of respect, and that was not nor could ever be considered as respectful regarding theft of my property. That is not a way to show acknowledgement either when taking such into consideration as to the facts of which would and is viewed as to hiding of such, in comparison to the acknowledgement of such. For a different example though along some similar lines in regards to what I have already posted about the differences as to the musical sounds on a radio compared to a cassette compared to a CD compared to a burned CD, I had discussed such with my ex-brother-in-law telling him I had noticed the situations when at the property in #OK #Oklahoma #OKstate #Oklahomastate Oklahoma as well as his neighbors at the time. Though that discussions was over a decade ago to which is ironic as to the connection aspects as to the then Principal Dawn Rink saying she was Ms. Oklahoma one year decades back, as to the additional portions as to the fact she had emailed with him about the firearm situation as to the claims against me wrongly for the problems which were caused by others in such comparison. It would be ironic if whoever began such a situation referencing my 2nd Amendment Rights were to ever be upset or bothered in regards as to the other situations, as per the 2020 election cycle year with the #electionintegrity election integrity and the #factcheking fact checking as per other timeframes.



Why would it be considered as acceptable regarding to question me about my 2nd Amendment Rights I earned for myself on my own, though ever if hypothetical as to any situation regarding discussions in a hypocritical way as to their claims as to such times for such discussionary portions in reviewal processes when taking such into consideration. The same irony in reference to the hypothetical hypocritical portions regarding the American Flag and the Pledge of Allegiance aspects in my opinion, for then they would have to admit such hypocrisies or face the possibility of which those Amendment Rights being removed from them as the rallies in the election year of 2020 would not save them from such though would entrap themselves by themselves as to their hypothetical choices to remain hidden and/or silent about such realities as to the facts of if any were to be connected to such individuals and/or groups thereof and lying to my face about such while taking a stand to protect the 2nd Amendment and other references regarding such Constitutional Rights as it would be by their own doing to remove such by making the choice as to proving other portions as to what I had written after discussing as to why I had taken those firearms to my ex-brother-in-law’s house and why I did not need those firearms.



In such regards as to what I had worked to prove referencing to myself in such regards of protecting my son and my daughter in the ways as best as I could, the facts of which would be proven regarding the aspects to the levels of which all such portions of what I have dealt with in all such ways as to why I had chosen to create my website as to the seriousness as to all aspects of life I have always been whether people paid more attention to my physical looks in comparison to who I am. In the references of needlessly putting anyone through what in the full combinations as to what I have dealt with in the situations thereof being known, the ways of which to such aspects as to the combined portions of the 20 year memorial of the attacks on the day of 11 September 2001 as to what aspects to review regarding the treatment by others in all such references as to the situations only more recently learned by others as to what I personally have allowed in regards of because of my right to privacy. However since such has been disrespected as to what aspects I have earned and what I have done regarding my works as to the facts able to be found by others' free will choices in comparison to the realities of each individual knowing of the aspects to my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury after effects and situations thereof regarding such portions, the full release of what is due only to me is fully required regarding the situations which should have been from the beginning as to my rightful aspects being fully correct.



In turn my daughter and my son are able to know along with all other such individuals with the ability to access the internet in whichever ways thereof as to the levels of which all portions have gone to, for all of eternity. Who I am and what works I have done as to the best of my abilities are fully known and aware thereof, just the same as all others in every way they have chosen of their own free will for all eternity. Such aspects as to the clarifications of such portions at minimum on my part regarding what I have dealt with which can be proven in such references and regards thereof, are capable to be seen and recognized as to the regards of. Hopefully good enough for my son and my daughter, though in addition to the aspects of each individual regarding whatever their personal choices for their reflections as to what they were willing to participate within in their particular choices. Whatever such choices, have been.



In turn the aspects of the betterment in more positive ways that are actually beneficial and correct, is of importance.

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Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Model Author Susan MeeLing

It should not take a head injury to figure this out because I thought you are supposed, to be smarter.

If there are those who find such interesting enough to research further to bring forward more information in reference to the forefront for more detailed information, as usual I request the courtesy of the same which I do in reference to how I refer to articles for reference points when writing my journal blog entries; for each one used for reference starting points, to research for clearer understanding from such knowledge.

 

That is common sense, good etiquette, and good karma; whilst lifting others upward, in positive ways.

Quotes which mean a lot to me:

"The ultimate measure of an individual is not where they stand in moments of comfort and convenience, but where they stand at the time of challenge and controversy."

"We must reject the idea that every time a law is broken society is guilty, rather than the law breaker.  Freedom is never-more than one generation away, from extinction.  We do not pass freedom on through our blood stream because freedom must be fought for, protected, and handed on for the next generation to do the same."

"Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.  Though best to be able to share in person with who matters, until that time occurs being able to see what is possible through such is a feat to notice.  One must be happy within oneself prior to being happy with another, though such can be enjoyed if living in one's own truth is as such. and then as to the capability to progress forward with another and/or others depending upon the situation(s) and individual(s)."  ~  A Quote From Me, Reverend Susan MeeLing also known as Lady Dori Belle

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In such references if there are any inaccuracies then I will fix and repair such details on my website, as per such.


Though there are the aspects of which if you would like to speak with me in addition to possibilities of opportunities for me, the welcome aspects as to contacting me through my contact form.



If I have known you in person when in person in positive ways and/or ways which might need clarification(s) as to mature discussions, there has always been the welcome open door policy as to contacting me through my contact form if you were not given my new phone number though such is online regarding my website more recently published online as to my Website Business Phone Line: (360)-713-4937.

Thus far there has been only one who has known the contact form area to speak with me on a phone line was simple and capable to do so through, in truth.

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