It has been 1 year since I have seen the evening skyline from the area of New Jersey from the Liberty Science Center parking lot from the first time I had seen part of from the year of 2020 from the year of 1998 regarding the one year point in tijme now of 2023 regarding the area overall that I had grown up in regarding New Jersey though also the northeast areas of the United Statesa of America, and while I personally have been thankful for each breath that I have had thus far and also have fought to be capable to continue living onward per my choices per my life and what I personally consider being of importance; the reality that I have also made attempts for those who I have known in person face to face in person that I once knew though also those who through online have known of me more than the factors of knowing me online because of discussions per such distinctions.
I have made attempts to be honest about such because of the importance per such amounts of situations that for myself personally though also for those who could have needed the assistance per such factors, pert the ways that I could best figure out per such points in time because of the real attempts for real contact to truthfully get to those who were family to me per such aspects per the additional factors of those who per such biological factors per such factors.
Thus since per such factors per the various situations throughout such points in time the reality of the amounts of situations per the amounts of situations that I personally was not speaking with others per just to talk about where I was born and raised, it was because of the situations of comprehending there was/were/are emergency situations per those who I comprehended needed me personally in person face to face in person though also online per such factors per the specific points in time. While the facts are per the specific points in time the year of 2005 per such prior journal blog updates per the specific year my hairstyle changed to the short pixie hairstyle and the haircolor per the bright red hair because of the amounts of pain levels that I woke up from my coma from my Psalm Sunday in the year of 2000 head injury/TBI from when I was in Basic Training in the Army, and thus per the journal blog updates in my website www.susanmeeling/com pert the exact same per www.ladydoribelle.com per the exact same because I just per the metaphor of my website have been the exact same background from exact same life experiences per being the exact same website per the metaphor of being the exact same individual the entire time. Thus per such amounts of attempts per the situations regarding how much I have and do still care about the biological children I gave birth to per the situations regarding per the attempts to keep my children safe despite the combined factors, while also maintaining and sustaining myself to the best possibility per being a responsible Mom to the two children I brought life per such regarding.
Thus per such facts that the reality of while there are those who I had met within the state3 of Texas per such timeframes from the years of 2000 through 2003, I clarified per such journal blog updates per the best of my capability because if others had actually listened to the completeess of per such points in time per such factors of individuals from where I was born and raised per such overall factors while comprehending the assistance where I could por such situations I had spoken with to get such assistances for the areas of the northeast per the additional factors of for the east coast per what I could remember per the timeframe of September through November of the year of 2001 per such explanations per when I was asked per such points in time per such clarifications per such journal blog updates per the logistical factors per the review per such overall per who I knew in person face to face in person and not per the reference of knowing of due to the difference of in person screen to face in person per such facts.
If per such points in time of Facebook and Fetlife per such individuals in the specific exact points in time of 2010 through 2012 per such in person face to face in person per such factors I introduced myself per my Facebook though also legal first name and legal middle name per in person face to face in person per such points in time while also being honest about such factors of the internet with other individuals I met in person face to face in person in conjunction about real life in person face to face in person factors, per such proverbials per such where I could explain per the only descriptive words I have had per my upberinging and my background per what I personally was around in the multitudew of factors throughout my childhood into my teenager years per sights/sounds/etcetera per such senses physically per such factors; per the differences regarding the situations per such facts that physical pain levels are measured per such medical factors in my personal opinion, per such what seems per common sense.
However if there are actually individuals in the world who have utilized the word headaches for anything other than the medical appointments I had per such points in time from the years of 2000 through 2013 per such main specifics per the fact of waking up on a military installation per being in the military per the Army branch of the Armed Forces of the United Statesw of Amewrica after only 16 years of life alive per such specifics depaite the legal biological age factors; the reality of the first individuals I spoke with about what I was dealing with per the pain levels, only had to do with the physical pain levels per nuerologsy per such factors in conjunction of the technitians who read MRI and CAT Xray type of imaging per the factors of what I had dealt with per what caused my head injury on Psalm Sunday in the year of 2000 per having already explained the Drill Sergeant factors that the Army and the Armed Forces of the United States of America with the Marine and Science Technology Schoolo with the Navy attachment with the conjunction of the legal factors of when I was a biological minor per such timeframes of 1996; the fascts are the reality that if I had attended Marine and Science Technology School with the Navy attachment per such acceptance and invitation per such how that is per such an invitation per receiving such invitation before the exact timeframe per the weeks prior for such ewvent per such acceptance of me per such type of invitation per the only type of invitation I have ever thought of being per such type of invitation per the additional factors per my invitation per Governor Christine Todd Whitman's office per the poster design contest because only after the entries per such an invitation per the surprise factors per the invitation to the Governor's office per the meeting and the situations. Thus the only invitation per such seeming common sense, though apparently per such possibility to such factors being per.
Thus in this timeframe per the reality of such factors per the 7 stages of grief per such prior journal blog factors per myself having the comprehension that I had the small amount of time to be capable to make the attempts per such explanations per where I was born and raised per the 20 year memorial after I had not been capable to get back to the northeast of the United States of America per such facts per individuals who had been capable to clear such factors per the timeframes of, thus the points in time per such factors are the only references per the words per the descriptions per the exact points in time per the exact situations per what my personal life experiences are per what is the combinations thereof per such factors in a small portion and minor part of my life experiences.
In such points in time of waking up from a coma with a subrachnoid hemmorhage in the frontal lobe of my brain per such factors in the year of 2000 with my personal background per such educational factors, per the situations per the exact points in time per such situations. I hopefully have encouraged my biological children more positively in better ways per such factors of the combinations of what I grew up around per such factors per the differences of what I grew up through per such factors; per the distinctive differences per such specifics importances, per the attention to the information correctly per such factors of importance because of while having biological minor aged children in those exact points in time of those exact years per such exact points in time; per such specific responsibilities per such specifics per such exact points in time.
Thus while those who chose per such choices per the timeframes thereof per such discussions with whomever they knew to the difference of discussions with me per such factors per asking me my preferences per myself per my background of where I was raised and grew up, the situations per the factors of how such timeframes per the references regarding such attempts because the in person face to face in person matters per such in person face to face in person immediately per such timeframe exactly per such facts regarding the after effects from head injuries/TBIs.
Thus it should not take a head injury to figure out when only 16 years old alive per such years of life and living per the combinations of the exacts per the exact individual, when the doctors per such hospital factors are per the real reasons for a hospital per such combinations fully per such smaller facilities though also the larger more important facilities per such medical specifics per the exacts thereof per my cranium per such headaches per such pain levels per such nonsexual factors per the facts the entire time; it should not take a head injury to figure out speaking only with medical professionals from whenever I woke up from my coma throughout each day per such medical factors of discussions, per the facts that those would be my first discussions per waking up from my coma per such location of a medical hosptial per such facts in the year of 2000 per such differences to then add that I was stationed in Medical Hold Unit after the length of time from my coma and waking up and the length of time in the hosptial per such factors prior to ever being stationed in Medical Hold Unit per such timeframes of months per such factors.
Per such factors with the medical care per such timeframes that was assistive-ish per the physical pain levels though not per such factors per the specifics per the exact points in time, per such attempts per such physical pain levels of headaches per the medical terminology per the medical miolitary doctors per such specifics from the timeframes thereof and throughout my medical care timeframes per such references of not regarding Obamacare refereces per "Finding A Silver Lining"; since I clarified such facts per such journal blog updates per having clarified that if I had real assistance for me personally per such exact points in time per the proof thereof in conjunction per if I actually had real assistance for me personally per such direct orders per such profile factors per the specifics thereof per my medical profile per such capacities, instead of what others might have mistaken and misconstrued per such specifics pere such exact points in time per the years of 2000 and/or 2001 and/or 2002 and/or 2003 and/or 2004 and/or 2005 and/or 2006 and/or 2007 and/or 2008 and/or 2009 and/or 2010 and/or 2011 and/or 2012 and/or 2013 and/or 2014 and/or 2015 etcetera per such facts that I personally was not ever playing any games per such factors knowingly because of the facts per when I woke up from my coma and from the timeframes before to where most individuals get the chance to actually enjoy life per having such time per their own backgrounds of what is considered being acceptable per such factors such per completing such homework assignments before going out to party per such factors of the specifics; thus since per the examples per the year of 2001 per the connection per 1993 both references specifically per New York City New York state, and the area in the state of New Jersey being such factors per the amounts of people who traveled/commuted through the state of New Jersey to get to the areas in person face to face in person instead of such immature individuals per such immature needless bureaucracy per such immature needless problems per such immature factors of their incompetency to distinguish in person face to face in person to distinguishing in person screen to face per such factors; I suppose per such hypotheticals, per such combined factors per whatever proof thereof per such factors per such specific points in time per such if factors that those individuals would not be in the category of special needs at all whatsoever per such factors per the differences per such facts per those needless buearocratic factors per such situations per the exact points in time per such needs in my real life per such specific reasons I went directly to such factors per my real needs per such factors per the memory deficits per the state of Texas per such situations because of the timeframes per such refertences of individuals I once knew in person face to face in person per such in person face to face in person references per such timeframes specifically per such factors while needing to maintain the correct shcedule for myself to complete my work that I should have been capable to accomplish completing if I had the real assistance I needed at the exact points in time per the exact direct orders per such factors that medical common sense per such overall general public per such just accepting the facts instead of thinking they deserve more than they do not per such factors of the individual medical per the individual per such individual medical care per such factors per there not being a socilist factor per such communist ways per certain types of medical factors per the proof thereof per such facts and those who have survived certain factors of life and living per such resiliency and strength per such factors of perserverance per the fact that per three situations in an average factor per the proof thereof such situations per the hypothetical factors per the timeframe of my journal blog updates per my logistical review per the years of 2019 through 2021 when at the most crutial point in time of my personal life of my personal needs per such real support per the real factors of genuine attempts in full; then per such factors thereof per the difference of the efforts per the attempts per such factors regarding each and every individual depending upon the situations per such facts known, and the ease to just be honest if they had the capacity to do so with genuine respect per the specifics and knowledge thereof per compassionate living per common sense per the respect of life and respect of living.
However per such facts that since I comprehended the 20 year memorial that since per the exact point in time of 2018, the comprehension of mine per such time per the facts thereof per my attempts; in conjunction of what I explained per the factors that either my biological son and my biological daughter would be in person face to face in person with me per such factors of where I was born and raised per what a real family would have been for me personally if I actually had a real family per such specific points in time per such factors of the years of 2000 through 2013 per such proof thereof per such factors of hypotheticals per such hypocritical factors per the entire biological factors per either side of such facts per such assistance factors for me in such clear distinctions there was not ever any need for any one of those individuals to ever have any factors of bureaucracy per such factors of the proof of such immaturity the entire time from those factors of what I personally did not ask for and what I personally did not ever consent to per such individuals' involvements per such, and in conjunction per such factors per the proof per such years thereof 2008 through 2023 per such any factors per their faults per what they did not need to be a part of per my childhood and my upbringing. The proof of their bigotry pert the area of the northeast of the United States of America per such unwanted factors of those types of stereotypes per such specific proof per my multiple stands against per such stereotypes, though only per such individuals who actually do not fit within such stereotypes per such factors per the descriptions per such facts.
Thus per the proof of per my profile per such CID factors in the year of 2019 and 2020 per JBSA in Military City USA in the state of Texas per such journal blog updates per the specifics regarding the biological paternal factors per the specifics thereof officially, per such factors regarding the proof per my accuracy per the correct picture per such accuracy from the year of 2000 through that point in time and thus per my accuracy per that point in time; per the accuracy per such points in time throughout when I was in Medical Hold Unit and others had not known per such factors outside of the military installation, though I also had not needed to be off post per such factors at the exact points in time unless my choice per my free will to go out if I personally chose to do so. While I was/am thankful per such vehicle that oibviously per such levels of the fullness thereof per the difference of such others per the needless games per such needless bueaurcracy per such needless situations per such needless problems per what I dealt with, per such picking and choosing is not the fullness thereof per such proof regarding any such hypotheticals per the factors of who I am per the differences of who they are.
It should not take a head injury to figure out the differences of such factors, per the difference of myself personally and if certasin types of individuals only think care can be given per certain factors instead of real medical care then per such factors of real medical assistances per such paperwork that I needed to get taken care of per those exact points in time though per such hypotheticals per such if factors of where I was not supposed to ever get pregnant from the start per such CID factors; then it shyould not take a head injury to figure out the factors thereof, per such situations and the timeframes thereof per the if factor that such was supposed to just do as he was told per such infantry factors per the situations thereof per the factors per the proof of such in the factors per such timeframes per the exacts thereof to the specific points in time of the years from 2000 through 2008 per such failures he had been per such specifics per the direct orders and the proof per such factors is the proof that is to be known immediately and fully per the only reasons to post for asking for assistance per such posting to attempt to communicate per such posting per such attempts though such attempts require the correct per such factors of real truth in response per the only way to actually assist correctly per such reaching outy per such attempts whether real phone calls per a phone number I choose for myself per my choices per such points in time throughout each time I had gotten a cellphone number per such moves per such explanations in my journal blog that I disagreed with others that I needed a new cellphone number when moving because a cellphone number is supposed to work anywhere on earth per such factors instead of what would be landline phone numbers per such factors where I also chose the phone numbers myself when such accounts were arranged per my personal choices per the specific phone numbers from the year of 2000 per my specifics per my choices from and the choice I made per phone number combination per each and every point in time.
Thus if per such factors of others having considered me per such factors of the terminology metaphor reference of the Farmer's Daughter being me personally known name of my legal first name and my legal middle name per my legal birth per such specific importance factors being me myself no matter how I type me or Me or myself or Myself per such needless drama from those who needed to comprehend the facts are that in multiple areas of life and living are multiple areas of life and living and thus my legal name per my legal birth and such legal factors per throughout such situations in the state of New Jersey per such upbringing per the facts I already and others have clarified if per the real truth per such facts; then I, Susan MeeLing per other factors per the metaphor of the song lyrics, would then such be that the factors of my biological children I gave birth to then per such factors or would such factors be per such parental factors being the Armed Forces of the United States of America per such metaphors and references?
It should not take a head injury to figure out that such factors of differences per a biological adult per the differences of a biological minor per such facts per such differences per the reality, thus per such factors of proverbial adoption metaphors per the differences of actual real adoption per such metaphors per such factors thereof regarding such if situations per the year of 2000; it should not take a head injury to distinguish the differences from a biological adult per the differences of a biological child also known as a biological minor per the legal age per such life living per such facts that there are two factors of life and living per the gestation biologically per such uterus factors and the life outside of the uterus per such life and living facts.
Thus it should not take a head injury to figure out that per such facts regarding gestation metaphors per the factors of the year of 1993 and/or the year of 2001 per depending upon the individuals themselves per their own personal life experiences in real life whether their real life is in person face to face in person and/or their real life being per depending upon their employment to the difference of depending upon socializing per social media, and thus it should not take a head injury to figure out socializing online per such truth factors per such 10 Commandments mattering per truth mattering per such facts mattering because the facts per the truth per such facts overall. Thus per such situations regarding the timeframes per such real life experiences per such specifics thereof per such examples of New York City per such 1993 year and 2001 year per the size of the actual overall geographical locations per such specifics per such common sense, then when in reference more recently of the 20 year memorial or the gestation starting point per the reference of the year of 2001 per other individuals per their lives per such facts per the 20 year memorial in the year of 2021, then per such facts of life and living anniversary per the 20 years would officially be per the timeframe of per such proverbial metaphors of birth per such factors per the year of 2022 per such references per since my journal blog updates per my logistical reviews per such factors of my fact books per such specifics per the listing factors I specifically listed per such genres and have not allowed anyone to change such factors ever per such clarifications of the requirements per my permission regarding my work from my personal life experiences per the facts only per such genres of facts only; and thus per such factors regarding the situations per the fiction books per such factors of relatable words though not relatives at all, per such factors of relatives per biological factors per genetics/ethnic backgrounds.
It does not take a head injury to figure out per such factors that when individuals who only watch certain factors of television/movies/streaming per such specific linear one factors only, per such flat screen television and/or computer screen factors per such differences per the in person face to face in person differences of face to screen in person differences; it should not take a head injury to figure out the differences.
It also should not take a head injury to figure out my biological father having been born and raised in New York state before ever moving to the state of New Jersey, that he would not be a born and raised New Jersian.
It should not take a head injury to figure out my biological mother being born and raised in Illinois is not the same as being a born and raised New Jersey-ian, per who I was raised by per the specifics per the timeframes.
It should not take a head injury to figure out being honest and truthful with a child who picks up on energetic frequencies per the proof thereof from childhood, it should not take a head injury to figure out the truth matters more and most.
It should not take a head injury to figure out the situations regarding myself being a born and raised New Jersey-ian and the specifics per the lengths of time and other factors thereof per such proof, if individuals I once knew actually had needed and/or wanted and/or desired to meet in person face to face in person who I actually knew in real life in person face to face in person and/or the possibilities of in person face to screen in person factors of individuals I personally once knew in real life per such factors regarding other references per the facts proven regarding NASA and the US Space Force per the official factors; I suppose possibly per such if situations per such factors where such pop culture references would not be the same factors, then per such possibilities of possibly having saved them from such other hypotheticals per such factors of the if situations per such Pennsylvania and New York state areas per the individual states per of New Jersey and/or Pennsylvania and/or New York per such factors specifically.
Thus it should not take a head injury to figure out when I was per my background combined per the timeframe of when I was invited to attend Marine and Science Technology School with the Navy attachment per near the US Coast Guard Basic Training location for the one and only location of the US Coast Guard Basic Training similar to how the Air Force Basic Training location per such differences of the overall training locations, however one Basic Training location for all enlisted per such factors per the references regarding the state of New Jersey per the US Coast Guard and then the factors of the Air Force per Lackland Air Force Base per such differences of the Army only per such multiple locations of Basic Training per the nondiffferences in the Marine Corps and the Navy per their one locations per Basic Training in the United States of America per such facts possibly capable to comprehend reasons now per my stance per ending such problems regarding the situations I could notice and pick up upon during the timeframe of just the years of 1999 and 2000.
If I have been accurate per such statements per such factors regarding the reality thereof per such timeframes since the year of 1999 per discussions with multiple military individuals of the Armed Forces of the United States of America in the months of September through December 1999 and the months of January 2000 through March when I was finally granted the clearance from such, though because of the situations in reference to the Marine and Science Technology School with the Navy attachment also known as MAST; since what I noticed when waking up from my coma and being on JBSA per such factors in the year of 2000, the reality per such factors regarding the situations per my biological age in conjunction of my upbringing per the full capacities thereof per such factors and since I was in a coma per such factors at those times and not ever asking for such per ever again per such situations and having made such attempts per such it should not take a head injury to figure out I did not ask for a revamping of the American Revolutionary War nor had I ever asked for a revamping of the American Civil War at any point in time per such obviously would not be appreciated by me at all per such factors regarding life and living and such attempts per such real people I once knew in my real life in person face to face in person without any screens and without any filters.
Thus since it has been several weeks since I have posted because of my own personal factors that I personally should not have to constantly post because that was not my assignment officially per the Army branch and the Navy/Marine Special Warfare units, in conjunction that was not my assignment from the timeframe after the time of 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 also known as 9/11/2001; since it should not take a head injury to figure out an assignment is an assignment, and getting the work completed correctly per such requirements per such specifics thereof per such facts in the conjunction of when I was in Basic Training per such assignments.
It should not take a head injury to figure out when the facts per such assignments per the year of 2000 regarding the hair situation and the dependent situations, it should not take a head injury to figure that out.
Per such if factors regarding others per such factors of anger or such factors regarding their words per such self control factors per such combined in such references, then per such factors per the common sense per such migraines since I woke up from my coma in the year of 2000 after my head injury during Basic Training in the Army since I had not ever heard the word headache before that timeframe of the year of 2000 when I was in Medical Hold Unit and thus those individuals who had heard such word headache before me per whatever factors of themselves they can take into consideration per what causes they might have for why they were told someone else had a headache per the differences regarding when having woken up apparently with the pain levels of migraines though such specifics per the factors per the timeframes thereof per such exacts. Thus I suppose I should have been given the terminology only per migraines and then the levels of the pain factors of 1 through 100 since the year of 2000.
