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It should not take a head injury
*after personally sustaining a head injury & coma*
to figure this out...

 
 
 
 
 
 


After a Drill Sergeant threw Me into the metal part of the bunk when I was in Basic Training for the United States of America's Army branch at Fort Sill Oklahoma #FortSill #FortSillOK #FortSillOklahoma #OK #Oklahoma in the year of 2000 on Psalm Sunday, I have dealt with the situations as best as I have been capable to do so while taking care of the situations and asking for assistance as per the required explanations of the information to such facts first.  While making the attempts to get assistance for the aspects thereof as to the reality, the aspects of where and when as to the multiple attempts to ask for assistance for me.  As my journal blog for when I was ready to bring such as to my other works forward since as to the lengths of time as to where my modeling was as to the modeling page information, just as the other pages have the information as to such specifics, and just as this journal blog of mine is as to such facts.


If I had real friends (if as to having met in person face to face in person in real life as to the aspects of this particular reference such as from the state of Texas as to the state of Washington as to the years of 2000 through 2013 if I met within the state of Texas for such references), real (the areas of the tristate region as before the year of 2000) family, and real relationships in real life that recognized me as to the aspects of if as to the face to face in person who started in truth as I had started such in truth as to the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, as well as the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain that took 8.5 years to dissipate; then I guesstimate there would be the easier factors as to being capable for me to speak with others in truth in person face to face in person and/or through online measures as to such factors I suppose.  Though would such as to the knowledge of the ways as to how they began such discussions with me as to would there be such a situation, for them to consider as to such if factors as to such discussions with me in truth?


As to some suggestions and commentary within "Finding A Silver Lining" one of several of my bo0ks I personally authored/wrote/compiled as I can only speak and write in truth as per such clarifications as to the reality as to the specifics of such discussions/writings/videos as per my Official You Tube where I have satirical commentary where I comment about the factors as to having dealt with others' opinions about their pop culture references of #NJ #NJstate #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey, though as to for the most part I have actually preferred to be asked with politeness if as to having read my books and/or seen my website as just the same in reference to the timeframes when I was modeling as to having respect as to what I consider as respect, referencing if as to such polite manners as to discussions if as to such having been noticed because of the factors in my opinion as to having real discussions as communication would be if my website was seen before the year of 2023 as I first began my website in 2015; as in my journal blog posts as to the reality of the years of 2010 through 2013, as to the aspects of introductions as to those timeframes when as to various factors as I did not take selfies as I was actually working with photographers as to my creations of my outfits as per the description on the link to my modeling page(s) as to the references regarding my journal blog updates in the years of 2019 through 2022 as the timeframe onward as to the year of 2023 as to the factors as to how such journal blog entries will be as to such factors as to the aspects of the various topic points.


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 I was born and raised in New Jersey and grew up going throughout the tristate northeast areas mainly, and as to how the reality of when the importance of the situations as to the aspects of reviewing as to such facts regarding the logistics for several factors as to the considerations; the years of 2019 through 2022 as to the review process as to the aspects of the timeframe, prior to the timeframe of the 20 year memorial of 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 as well as before the 30 year memorial of February 1993, as to the northeast areas mostly known as to New York City #NYC #NewYork #NY #NYstate #NYU though also as to the #Pentagon Pentagon, as well as Pennsylvania #Pennstate #Pennsylvaniastate as to the reality of how many New Jersey-ians commute in either direction, depending upon what location for the commute. 


The factors though I have said at times, I re-re-re-re-re-re-grew up in the state of  #Texas #TX #Texasstate Texas as to such factors as to the timeframes, as well as all 26 of my SCUBA #SCUBA #SCUBADiving  Diving certifications I earned were through one school within the state of Texas as I also earned winning first place in a Texas Chili cookoff with more than 20 entries as well as my chili recipe as I am adamant about my recipes as to such aspects just as I am specific as to what it actually takes for me to cook in a BBQ as to the required preparations for when I have BBQed.   



I can sarcastically write, those who know of the Rules of the BBQ as to where I grew up as to the Rules of the BBQ as to such factors to the considerations of such preparations.  However that is to cooking food as to the differences of my journal blog entries, as to the factors as to proverbial aspects of food for thought as the difference of real food in real life as to the facts of the situations to such attention to the details as well as attention to the information.


Such facts as to the metaphors in some of such factors that only after reviewing such information as to the aspects of the fiction book series that were as to for My personal life as to such dreamland sorts of factors as to the differences of such hypotheticals, the references thereof as to such regards as to the logistical emotional with the real situations as per the names I was informed of at the timeframes referenced review as to My journal blog as to the situations overall.  


If as to my journal blog being found and read as to where what I consider as common sense, as to the aspects of my satirical saying   how it should not take a head injury to figure out. 
 

*(sometimes utilizing articles discussing facts)*
By:  (Reverend) Susan MeeLing
also known as

The One & Only


(YouTube)   Lady Dori Belle


 

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REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

Instant





Do not ever copy me, as I already clarified before and have repeated my stance per such factors previously just as I clarified. Discussing my work with respect is one factor, though not having spoken with me about such is the reality if others had needed to accept the facts that speaking/writing with others instead of speaking/writing with me about me personally; is obviously exactly such facts.







I clarified there has not ever been anyone I personally ever gave permission to any creative liberties of me and/or of my work and/or of anything I have created or done at all.



I do not appreciate the tooth situation nor the arm situation at all whatsoever since it obviously proves the opposite of what I personally consider being care about me and/or care for me p[ersonally at all, whatsoever and is the 100% opposite of anything and everything I personally ever asked for and wanted and needed for myself personally from the start of the beginning. I personally do not consider such as a compliment to my work or myself for my work that I personally created and worked on myself, and thus per such factors of what would have been actual real comfort for me and what I consider actual comfort for me personally; obviously such factors of differences per such facts of the differences of situations per the area of New Jersey to the difference of the areas outside of New Jersey.



There is nothing and no one I would personally consider being supportive of me per the factors of supportive of me per such factors regarding this 30 year memorial per the first time I ever saw the evening skyline of New York City from New Jersey since April 1998 in the month of February in the year of 2022, and since there is per such facts that the factors of what I personally would consider being supportive of me personally; there is obviously such differences between those types that only consider technology as soothing to the difference of those such per myself that comprehend the requirements of actual peaceful balance for myself for such examples, and thus there has not been anyone I ever knew that per such emotional factors of support there has not ever been anyone at all whatsoever from the timeframe of the year of 1993 that I personally would consider per such worthwhileness per such emotional support factors per such work I assisted with per the legal Non-Disclosure Agreement per such Mustang or per such words of 'unbridled free spirit'.



Since I personally am not a lesbian and since I personally am a pansexual per my personal considerations per the timeframe of the clarifications per words, then such factors per such common sense regarding being a tomboy then per such factors of the difference between being a lesbian and being a tomboy per such differences that have been needed to comprehend that there are differences and there is just that without the requirement of actual comprehension thereof per common sense.



Thus when I went in person face to face or homo-sapien homo-sapien face to face in person meetings for such attempts for actual real friends and real family because no one who would have common sense would ever believe per the situations per the years of 2013 through 2019 that I was truthfully care about and cared for per what my personal considerations per such for myself are and would be considered per such factors of myself comprehe3nding myself and what I personally sought for myself personally per such other additional factors of other factors; thus per such factors thereof if I am accurate per my review of the timeframe from those years in the years of 2019 through 2022, then there is no one who would ever believe I was cared about per what my personal considerations are per such factors and thus there was not actual real support for me personally for the after effects of my head injury/TBI on Psalm Sunday when I was in Basic Training in the Army branch and also per such factors of the after effects of my subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain that per such medical profile of such factors of a medical escort on top of the factors of the daily escort for me personally per such legal definitions per the factors thereof and only per such platonic factors per the times thereof and thus same factors unless I personally consider per such factors per such after such agreements if I personally consider such and thus otherwise then just the platonic factors to getting the requirements taken care of correctly.



Obviously what my personal considerations are for rewarding me personally for my work per the only way that would ever be anything I personally would ever consider being per such per my work per only my personal considerations and per such factors thereof regarding my SCUBA Diving work, there has not been anything whatsoever that I personally would ever consider for me personally thus far that would ever be per my personal considerations of a reward for me personally for anything I would ever personally consider being a reward for me personally to actually enjoy per my personal considerations only and if others thought otherwise and I have clarified such facts of my personal considerations of what I personally consider being appreciation for my work; then such facts are the truth per such facts and anyone who said they knew me and what I personally would consider being fun and/or worthwhile and/or per what my considerations are/would be; then the exact amount of time with me in person face to face in person homo-sapien-sapien to homo-sapien-sapien in person per such actually getting along together per such factors thereof per such rewards for my personal enjoyment; then per such factors per the proof thereof per whether such per such for me personally, or per what I already clarified that would not be what I personally would ever consider for myself as anything I would actually personally need/want/desire/prefer/ideal/ask for just for myself personally at such exacts of exacts of exacts if I personally would have been asked instead of what did not occur at any point in time before for me ever.



I promise, because I would not have ever asked for anything that has occurred per any event whatsoever per what I personally consider being an event.



By the way when the factors of the Army branch spoke with my biological factors, did they check their identification cards when in the year of 2000 or did they not remember to even think about checking such information from the start in that timeframe regarding me personally?



If such per the year of 2000 before Medical Hold Unit though per when in my coma, would then such importance for the hospital have been of importance for the Army to consider per such if factors?



Why would that ever be actually important since what would be important about my Basic Training per such overall factors, since if it was important the common sense factors per such memory deficits and cognitive disorders would be to physically be in the location of the most amount of memories from such lengths of time; thus it should not take a head injury to figure out there would be a reference of the immersion artwork mural per Bremerton per such if factors per such proof that such if factors of hypotheticals, per the state of New Jersey per my PCS/PCDS in the year of 2003 and no one else in my biological or church family was ever promoted along with me ever per such facts regarding the reality per the exacts of those exacts per the time and since there has not been the factors per the situations regarding the year of 2000, then the facts are I personally have not promoted anyone because of the requirements from the start.



Thus when I clarified I do not play games and I do not allow games to be played per ,my personal considerations that I personally already clarified in the year of 1993, then per such factors from that time forward per such lack of actual real assistances per my actual real needs in full per my choices per my time per my schedule per my requirements that no one ever asked me personally ever at any point in time about anything or anyone or any how or any way or any what per any point in time honestly per what I would ask for or need or prefer or desire or want or ideal ever at any point in time from the year of 2000; I promise that anyone at all who ever said or wrote otherwise to myself, has not ever at all ever been truthful about me to whatever level per such proof and accuracy.



Thus not one individual who would ever have said that I enjoyed playing games ever at any point in time before per the year of 2000 and/or since would not have known me personally, nor would know of my personal preferences at the exacts of the exacts of the exacts unless at such exacts of exacts they were specifically told at that exact for that time of that exact and only per such time of the exact and nothing further unless I personally discussed with whom would matter to the exact situations per my considerations only per such factors and the reasons why eve's droppers only cause needless drama instead of actually ever correctly being assistive because of the real requirements for actual factors per such if situations and thus eve's droppers would not officially be employees of mine ever per such facts unless they chose to be of my own knowledge thereof per such factors and my real family would not have ever done so per my considerations of what my considerations are per my real family per such factors in full per depending upon the factors thereof per the years before 1998.



If per the timeframe when I was only volunteering to clean when the setting up for the club was and nothing more than such at all whatsoever per anything or anyone else per such clear distinctions for such clarifications officially, thus per such factors per the version of a pass badge to get by to be capable to take care of other situations that needed my attention at the time more. Thus if there were messages left at the front desk for me, there was not any point in time anyone ever informed me officially of any messages for me personally at Clu b Sapphire ever. If there were to have been common sense per how much I assisted the club, then there would not have ever been any issues to ever give me the information from the start if my work was actually appreciated from the beginning per being Dominant within myself to comprehend myself and my requirements for myself best for me personally. Thus in my own Dominant factors of myself and not needing to ever explain myself per such timeframes to anyone who did not have the decency to ask me personally and any such hypothetical hinting bratty garbage of littles per such if factors, then per simply being myself per what was probably not noticed per such others of if factors of when I once knew them in person face to fac in person homo-sapien-sapien to homo-sapien sapien per such facts. Thus if others' misinformed factors of anything else that I personally did not ever volunteer for and would not ever volunteer for myself personally, I refuse all other factors from all others per those types of if factors in all capacities officially of any type of challenge of if factors that such unwanted factors per such hypotheticals officially.



Thus in turn per such factors regarding since the one year marker of time from the month of February in the year of 2022 when the first time I saw the evening New York City skyline from the #Liberty #LibertyScience #Center #LibertyScienceCenter #LSC #NewJerseyStrong #NJ #NJStrong #NJTP #GardenState Liberty Science Center since the year of 1998, this just a small amount of time since first seeing such since the 20 year memorial of 9/11/2001 and the 30 year memorial of New York City situations in the month of February of the year of 1993; now in the year of 2023 after seeing such for the first time only a little over one year ago completely by myself without any friends in person face to face in person with me per such homo-sapien-sapien factors, I would 100% disapprove of anyone at all who would poll such when I personally comprehend myself best and comprehended what would have actually been best for me personally per such support factors per such amount of time to pre-plan if those meetings alone in person face to face in person per such exacts per those exacts at those points in time per those years of 2019 and 2020 and 2021 when such multiple requests and phone calls and emails and attempts per such factors of the 20 year and the 30 year per the knowledge of where I was and what support I personally needed at the time of 2001 and 2003 and 2011 and 2013 that I sought honestly and genuinely in truth because I had believed at that point in time that I had real living homo-sapien-sapien friends and family before the point in time of February 2022 when it was clear per such factors that every living homo-sapien-sapien that I once knew per human being had died and I am the only one alive because those whom I had once considered being friends per such factors would not have ever per such if factors of what my personal considerations per New Jersey friendships at such points in time of the years per such because a New Jersey friendship is far more different apparently possibly and thus family per such factors also depending upon whom is considered being family and the age factors per such timeframes of then to the differences per time.



Those who I once knew would not have ever needed to be informed of the time per the age per the year, those who I once knew in person face to face in person all of those years ago per such factors whether per the northeast areas per my warnings to such Texans #Texans per such factors of the situations per the timeframes of 2000 through. The hypocrisy per if factors of Bremerton #Bremerton apartment mural factors per such facts of the reality of immersion facts, per such northeast #USA United States of America per all such hypotheticals per where is the support for me personally since such support if actually truthfully support for me would be exactly where I am per that is what support actually is per several factors per such common sense that should not and does not take a head injury/TBI to figure out.



Personally, I am working on what is for me personally happiness for me personally per such factors of what I personally consider for myself. Thus per such factors of the length of time per such clear attempts in the years of 2003 through especially 2010 per such attempts to get physically to the state of New Jersey per such PCS/PCDS per the facts that Medical Hold Unit should have per such commands from the orders per such paperwork for my PCS/PCDS to get the assistance per such facts that the requirements per such orderly room facts; the needless pop culture problems per common sense if per such knowledge that I am a born and raised New Jersey-ian per such facts, then when I clarify such facts per what my comforts per the differences of what are annoyances/uncomfortable/unwanted/unnecessary per such factors of actual real New Jersey; then do not blame anyone other than the others per the raising locations per such surroundings they came from per the individual per such individual factors, instead per in my opinion that makes sense.



Since I also have not signed any legal agreements myself personally ever allowing anyone to be involved officially, then per such factors thereof per the legal requirements to get my permission first and if anyone says they have legal documentation I personally signed myself; then I require the legal paperwork to be brought forward for me personally to review each contract supposedly that I signed to verify and clarify if there was any other such factor, and if such individuals cannot provide such for me in genuine truth then there is not any reason that is acceptable for anything I personally have dealt with per such if factors especially per my website and/or my books and/or my artwork and/or my paintings and/or my journal blog and/or etcetera because I personally would not ever accept any offer without reading all of the information officially per the legal documentation real genuine requirements and nothing per such "Fail-Safe" fiction book not asked for or wanted lying renne faire types ever per such not accepted from them factors or any other factors per such fiction books of fiction book series I personally authored.



However most important per prior posts since I went for those who I cared to see amd cared to be around and hoped for per real friends and real family and real per what I believed per real actualities of genuine friendship, however upon the review timeframe beginning in the year of 2019 where for the first time of thinking in more depth further than I already was working on because of the clear distinctions per the after effects from my Psalm Sunday in the year of 2000 head injury/TBI and subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain after effects; though per such cognitive disorders and memory deficits, obviously there would not be anyone truthful to return to as any type of friendship and/or relationship for any type of lying and/or games needlessly per any such type of situation and thus anything that would lead to the 1980s and the 1990s per the northeast of the United States of America per the pandemic then; I suppose if per such accuracy upon reviewing the time from the years of 2013 through 2019,mainly upon the beginning from such times of the years of 2000 through 2019.



How would someone actually be capable to explain to me personally that such would be worth it for me personally per such if factors of accuracy, per the timeframe of my journal blog through the years of 2019 through 2022?



What personal acquaintances would truthfully be capable and would do so per what capability is per doing so instead of just knowing can do so per the difference of the words obiously per such facts per those hypothetical needless buearocratic types per such facts of how unnecssary those amounts of times per if there were not needless unwanted gamers per such factors instead of what was sought per actual real friendships per how the reality of such factors if I am accurate; are not and were not assistive to me and/or for me personally per such factors of good memories from my childhood immediately without any needless additional situationsa that were just a re-going through what I personally already dealt with and moved on from my childhood long ago before sucvh times and I personally do not appreciate those types that would ever think I would ever need or want or desire to ever re-go-through such per those useless types of unwanted psychologists that think relivin g such is helpful when it is nothing more than needles drama for me personally that I would not and do not believe in anything worhthiloew from such for me personally to ever have dealt with such personally and has only been the proof I did not ever ask for such factors ever at all from the start of the timeframe in the year of 2000. Those useless types that do not appreciate those who have moved onward have needed to get over themselves per such egos and haughtiness in my opinion, per such facts that when an individual moves on then they move on from such trauma that was overcome before. The hypocisy per the mural situations per Bremerton when that would have been capable befo0re the year of 2005, is beyond an enraging factor regarding any such hypothetical if situation per suych timeframes from the years of 2000 through 2005 per such if factors and thus the year of 2010 per such common sense per such review of such prior times now that does nothing for such prior times for me personally obviously.



As I clarified in my journal blog updates from the beginning in the year of 2019 per September, the factors of reading and then doing nothing to assist me per such factors except to gossip about; if per such factors later per such situations that could have been assisted at those exacts per those exacts per those exacts, then the chain would have been capable to be broken before per such factors regarding those hypotheticals and thus longer and longevity in prosperous life factors per my considerations of the length per the time per depending upon the situation(s).



Personally when I went back to Texas at the timeframe of the year of 2019, I was not aware of any such if factors of any type of any games from others beyond those video and computer game types that I did not play. The same per such factors where only having attended one renaissance faire per the one weekend per Excalibur Faire only per thaty year of 2005, the facts that was not anything before nor anything since per the factors of the entire weekend and such overall situations I already clarified; then per such facts per the situations and thus, my work #SCUBA #SCUBADiving #SCUBADiver #PADI #SSI #NAUI SCUBA Diving per the distinctive differences per my capability to distinguish when per such communication from me personally per such exacts clarified per such exacts per the best possible per such and only per my comfort especially now in the year of 2023 and forward per my personal considerations only.



Thus when reading my words and knowing the words per my writing/wyping/compiling are per only the reference for the exacts thereof per the differencwe of others reading my work, then per such distinctions of individual facts per the reality of the reading of my words is the difference of me personally typing such and/or when writing such myself per me per my legal name though my website that I created personally www.susanmeeling.com nand my modeling only Lady Dori Belle when I modeled per the difference of having my picture(s) from images be produced and made Since per such legalities already clarified in several legal factors per such, the facts per such legalities brought forward per my legal modeling name per such facts per my overall per such timeframe of first Mustang facts per having been involved with modeling as a preteen also per the name of Susan MeeLing since New Jersey is per how New Jersey in the northeast is per the biological female normalcy including legally though the news(papers) per the clarifications per such per Maiden last name and/or legal per the time last name only because of the facts regarding the reality of certain facts per Marlboro Middle School at the same time of my interview reviews in truth.



Thus the if factors per such timeframes of the years of 2000 through 2022, who per such factors per the truth if there is life other than myself per such who I once knew in person face to face in person in real life homo-sapien-sapien to homo-sapien-sapien per such face to face in person per biologically obviously per such factors and obviously online per such facts per common sense in my opinion per the proof thereof such facts because obviously technology can only do so much just as homo-sapien-sapiens can only do so much though obviously if only one makes real genuine attempts in truth genuinely then such factors of one either leads for more of the factors thereof per such facts. Thus I went for life and living per such factors of my personal considerations of peaceful balance for me personally per such facts thereof and thus if there were those who I once knew who were alive and living at those times per such factors of 2000 through 2022 that I could have reconnected with per my considerations, then per such factors per the exacts of exacts per exacts per the truth matters per the 10 Commandments matter.



Thus I comprehend(ed) myself best and the only way to actually get to know per certain factors of how born and raised New Jersey-ians are, is per such facts thereof instead of only relying upon technology 100% of the time for each and every factor when there is the reality of homo-sapien-sapien factors where humanity is supposed to actually be per the genuine facts per what per is humanity even if it is being honest and asking genuinly with concern truthfully instead of hiding because of not having the belief of anything in common to speak of that would ever be consoling though the factors of such hypotjheticals not ever having the common sense before because of those types that thi9nk they know anything at all of what ius best for when not having anyone else to ask per what peers are and thus when what peers are would be required then only asking the one and only would be the one and only way per getting such answers per such respect and manners platonically from the start even if having seen on social media possibly though verifications per such manners and if claified then clarified.



Thus now per such factors per the knowledge of if situations from others per such years of 2019 through 2022, those who I went directly to and made direct attempts for first directly per such direct factors per such firsts despite possibly the last to know instead of paying attention to the facts they were the first to know from me directly from the beginning and if others had not played needless games per such factors thereof regarding SCUBA Diving despite the factors of if situations; the reality per such facts of when such lengths of time per the years of 2013 through 2019n the factors thereof per such if hypotheticals per the intentions in truth from the start of the start per the start of the exacts per the start before such review timeframes of the years of 2019 through 2022.



I was always honest fr4om the beginning and most specifically 2000 through 2013 per being 100% honestly and genuinely myself from the start, and such considerations per such viewpoints during the exacts of such exacts per exacts of exacts per the facts per the year of 2019 before how the points in time of the year of 2019 were per such if factors per such prior timeframes of what others who others would know of such others per such others if factors per the differences per myself of such lack of anyone to speak with in person face to face in person about such depths or ever per anyone at all who actually correctly care(d) for/about me per my personal considerations at such exacts per the exacts of the exacts per the facts per such exacts without biases per such exacts per time exacts from me personally.



However for whatever that ever meant to others is whatever such meant to others, what such translates to me and for me personally per such factors per such depending upon the factors thereof for me personally per my considerations per the factors of who/what/when/where/why/how such factors per the direct ways genuinely with respect and manners with honesty and genuine care.



I do not waste anything per best as possible, however that is what I personally do the best to ensure such factors regarding the factors of the actual bests per such only though just per such per such others per such others per such situations depending upon such knowledge I suppose and real choices thereof in real life and online per such factors per such facts and thus acquaintences are a one and/or two way choice though friendship(s) and relationship(s) per dating per such factors are a two way factor per such if situations and that does not always translate to technology per such two way factors per such aspects of for life and living per such facts and since I do not have the online factor of dating online because of not interested per such factors personally then per such dating factors per not online though can seek per such if factors though must per such respect per my considerations per meeting for if factors if though I have not denied the facts of my prior emotional factors of connections and my reasons why per such care.



Though I suppose when I told others that I have the capability of being friends with those who I had dates with before per such factors because of such, then if per such proof I suppose such factors thereof per such if situations without pretenses and respectful from the beginning and possibly depending upon situations per the factors of others' proof per the factors of if was still kinder per such words and choices per such if situations that others have needed to clear up themselves per such if gamer factors.



My type of born and raised New Jersey-ian per who I am, is because of where and when and such facts per my childhood and my teenager years prior before the latter teenager years and when at those times was when I was becoming a biological adult per the legal factors though at that timeframe when those situations from the timeframe of 2000 through 2008 the subarachnoid hemorrhage situation and the orders that were for me to return to NEw Jersey before the beginning of August in the year of 2000.



Thus if someone else had volunteers to such factors, that individual had the volunteers and I did not have anyone inform me of any such factors ever at any point in time whether per employees of others and/or volunteers per such factors ever having been informed to me previously per any such additional if factors per whatever possible point(s) in time that I may have needed to be informed of such per the references of informing me officially if such if factors per such possibilities per the exacts of exacts per such exacts of the exacts per the exact time per the exact year per the exacts month per the exact day of that month in that year of if factors per such hypotheticals per any point in time after waking up from my coma and being in Medical Hold Unit per such times only per then the after per such factors regarding me being assigned my own personal staff that such individuals per my PCS/PCDS to New Jersey through such factors that as the one and only who would know what would be required per such factors then per such staff and arrangements for myself that would be required if I was informed correctly and if others would accept the facts that my biological age is my biological age per such Mustang hypotheticals and when others have been capable to adapt per such factors per the specifics of my choice per such factors for myself personally; then per such factors regarding the mandatory beginning for all specifics per the starting point per planktonically including even if per such online prior factors per being emotionally mature per the intellectual facts of the online differences if per such and the specific locations only per such.



Thus now in a timeframe where the solar eclipse in the years of 1994, 2017, and the upcoming year of 2024 seem important per such exacts now per such situations from a combined factor per such 127 combinations per 1999 and while possibly an oddity of 2009 per such if factors of 1999 per additional situations from some racing evening times per such ease of the differences of words per the terminology of red lining per such highest amounts of speed per such factors of not cruising per Crystal Lake knowledge normally per such high school factors though actual of actual of exacts of exacts per reasons why I could safely and securely maintain the speed per such prior situations that I found a song online per #YouTube YouTube in the year of 2020 called #MenInBlack #MIB Men In Black and since I did not grow up watching any movie or television above the G-rated movie line and I only saw 1 movie in the theater in New Jersey above the rating of G in the 1990s that was not a romantic movie called Titanic per such factors of any if situations and I only saw a cheerleading movie and I walked out on a different movie that was just the level of interesting to me personally and only in the year of 2001 since appreciation of my strength and appreciation of my fortitude and appreciation of my attempts per my work per the actuals per the differences though per such appreciation per what my personal considerations are per my specifics only for me personally because that is what appreciation is per the facts if actually appreciated at all.



Thus per such factors of if situations of when being genuine from the beginning, that is not a test to push and not a challenge ever at all especially when competition is not interesting to or for me personally since I personally do not enjoy competitions per having had enough when before the time when I graduated middle school per the time previously added into such factors obviously. Since per such board meetings because of being the first citizen of the United States of America to actually successfully per such International Taw Kwondo regulations per the length of time per such competitions, per such me being the first to do so up to that point in time per what was explained per such factors; such waivers per me personally, because of the factors of success regarding the factors of me from my work and my training and reasons why I was only allowed to earn up to a Blue Belt legally in the United States of America and the International factors and thus my Green Belt with my Black Stripe and tapes per such factors during the timeframe of per being a Green Belt per the entrance for me and when the United States of America learned the truth in New Jersey about the facts of the actualities about International Competitions.



The board at the time in 1996 was kind and accommodating thankfully for the others per the family per my personal request for them and also sensing the importance per the responses from certain individuals, the International Tae Kwando board said I had done the USA a favor for allowing such for the Mom and Dad per the factors of hidden first place though because of my choices per such factors that per such perception of my sparring being of importance and my form per such choices per the Internation Tae Kwando board opinion for such First Place USA in the year of 1996. Thus, my style of SCUBA Diving is a bit different per my work when such times per such factors per the Oceanic and some Fresh Waters possibly also something to do with Marine and Science Technology School with the Navy attachment.



Since such factors of 127 situations and the factors per a multitude of factors per such, I suppose certain if factors of those if hypotheticals of if situations per such if others per such others volunteered per such factors per them per not knowing not for me personally and thus if factors; then I suppose such clear distinctions per the clarifications per such factors of if situations, and thus my temperament if correct per such clarifications though such possibilities of if considered harsh per such then per my apologies per the overall if considered per such factors. However the reality of multiple energetic sensations per such timing and factors thereof, the Solar Eclipse in the year of 2024 in my opinion is important and if per such facts proven per such wording terminology then per such factors regarding possibly those whom I once knew if such manners an though if per such factors then the reporting to for such volunteering would require the distinctive clear distinctions for knowledge of information per my choice(s) with manners per my considerations.



Since my website has the contact form to arrange a meeting with me to preschedule and not within such other factors per hour, the factors of volunteering for me per such if situations per the prior years different than from when being legally a biological adult per such decisions officially per my accuracy per such verifications per such, and thus per what should be and should have been and should always be made easier and maintained properly for me soonest though also such notifications in truth per such per my knowledge officially in the correct capacities for my understanding and my personal comfort and my personal enjoyment for me personally per my choice(s) per my considerations for me personally.



Thus since the timeframe now in the year of 2023 in the month of May, there is just a little over one ear before the time of the Solar Eclipse in the United States of America and yet it is in 2024 instead of what I have been dealing with needlessly per my opinion and the proof thereof regarding such facts. If my work was what I consider being appreciated, then the beginning portions would be to ask me honestly per such common sense in truth. I prefer what is now of importance to me regarding such exacts because for the first time of actually being where I want to be personally for such times for what is of interest for me personally and in the area I need for myself, when I made attempts without hiding anything and being directly honest from the beginning and exactly per such exacts honestly per such writings and discussions without guessing for others per what was/is intended only for me per such not guessing games per my hatred of games such per those types and that fact of how those games were not and are not assistive to the after effects from my Psalm Sunday in the year of 2000 head injury/TBI/coma after effects and/or my subarachnoid hemorrhage after effects and/or my cognitive disorders and/or my memory deficits that such individuals per others need to accept the facts that those situations were not assistive for me personally at all and the honesty would and is most important from the start in truth with manners per such facts in the United States of America and the world.



I prefer to work with others in unity for actual genuine betterment per such facts of the actual real considerations of life and living per such facts, though such acceptance per such facts regarding such real intentions per such calibrations regarding the reality.



What is friendship in other areas, per the differences of where I was growing up in northeast New Jersey as a Pansexual Intellectual Senses?



What relationship factors thereof per such familial factors with the knowledge my biological father was raised in foster care and orphanages and such connections in the northeast of the United States of America beyond the areas of the Amish, Mennonites, and Mountaineers; since does it take a head injury to figure out the city locations per the locations on the day and the weeks and the months of September and October and November in the year of 2001 and why would that be of importance, or does it take a head injury to point that out also per such Mrs. Hardwick and Mr. McInerny per such factors regarding my non-biological Uncle Lippy per the #Aamco Aamco station?



Per such distinctions in the year of 2020 in the month of December I had stopped by Old Tennent Presbyterian Church, Asher Holmes Elementary School when it was other hours per when growing up per bicycle riding in the other parking lot, and other such small stop locations in the timeframe including #CrownePalace #CrownPalace Crowne Palace Chinese food for Dim Sum; though also later randomly in the year of 2021, and 2022. I stopped by a few houses I could remember at such times, though having the knowledge of time per such factors per the attempts per such factors since I know how New Jersey-ians are who move to the state of New Jersey from other areas per such information requirements per honesty for clarity per such factors regarding my updates to my journal blog per such clear distinctions per just in cases per the clear factors they know who they spoke with and they know who told them what factors per such regarding me personally per whatever exacts per the exacts per the exacts of time in those times per such facts whereas I would and do not know of any such if factors. However such clarifications possibly needed for such northeasterners for such factors thereof, hopefully such aspects are good enough despite the length of time though possibly hopefully good enough per the amounts of attempts and efforts per such honestly per being myself and distinguishing through the proverbial per the if literal per the if metaphorical per the if per such just being factual and honest with manners per the best possibilities most specifically in person face to face in person and during real phone calls and during real meetings per such per the difference of my journal blog(s).



However being pansexual platonically per situation seems less perplexing to me personally than to such factors, though being a hetero-sexual per such facts regarding seemingly to me per common sense.

Commentaires


Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Model Author Susan MeeLing

It should not take a head injury to figure this out because I thought you are supposed, to be smarter.

If there are those who find such interesting enough to research further to bring forward more information in reference to the forefront for more detailed information, as usual I request the courtesy of the same which I do in reference to how I refer to articles for reference points when writing my journal blog entries; for each one used for reference starting points, to research for clearer understanding from such knowledge.

 

That is common sense, good etiquette, and good karma; whilst lifting others upward, in positive ways.

Quotes which mean a lot to me:

"The ultimate measure of an individual is not where they stand in moments of comfort and convenience, but where they stand at the time of challenge and controversy."

"We must reject the idea that every time a law is broken society is guilty, rather than the law breaker.  Freedom is never-more than one generation away, from extinction.  We do not pass freedom on through our blood stream because freedom must be fought for, protected, and handed on for the next generation to do the same."

"Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.  Though best to be able to share in person with who matters, until that time occurs being able to see what is possible through such is a feat to notice.  One must be happy within oneself prior to being happy with another, though such can be enjoyed if living in one's own truth is as such. and then as to the capability to progress forward with another and/or others depending upon the situation(s) and individual(s)."  ~  A Quote From Me, Reverend Susan MeeLing also known as Lady Dori Belle

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In such references if there are any inaccuracies then I will fix and repair such details on my website, as per such.


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If I have known you in person when in person in positive ways and/or ways which might need clarification(s) as to mature discussions, there has always been the welcome open door policy as to contacting me through my contact form if you were not given my new phone number though such is online regarding my website more recently published online as to my Website Business Phone Line: (360)-713-4937.

Thus far there has been only one who has known the contact form area to speak with me on a phone line was simple and capable to do so through, in truth.

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