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Down the proverbial rabbit hole into much aspects
When I was stationed at #FortSamHouston #JBSA in the Medical Hold Unit was what it was called then but now is called the #WarriorTransitionUnit after my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury and medical after effects, I had received many counseling statements prior to receiving an #Article15. The Article 15 had been because of my attendance to a rave which at the time, no one had believed me about what had occurred as to how I had gotten out there as well as what had occurred. The purpose for the Article 15 as I was told had been because of the fact there were multiple illegal drugs in my blood, which I tried to explain to the Commander at the time Captain Beer of what had happened while then 1st Lieutenant Morning was in attendance as well as a few other soldiers including SGT Moreno, SGT Baber, and SPC Watson. With the Article 15 even though I was only an E1 who had not graduated Basic Training, I was put on restriction and ver betum ‘until can act like a soldier’. Also I was docked pay for 3 months, as well as I had extra duty for several months; but also had to check into the CQ desk every hour from 9:30pm/21:30 through to 2:30am.
The events which lead to such had been because I had been invited to go to a rave which in all honesty, I just wanted to dance. I enjoyed going to raves before I had joined the #UnitedStatesofAmerica’s #ArmedForces #Army branch, and I only had gone to dance. I thought it was not any different, than what I had attended before; though I also had not ever looked at going to raves prior to my enlistment to do anything other than to dance and enjoy the music. After having met E3 Jolliff and E2 Webker who were in Permanent Party and worked at #BAMC which is now #SAMC; Jolliff had introduced me to a group of people who were civilians in the #SanAntonio area. The female’s apartment which she shared with her husband at the time who she said was a #mysa #SanAntonioPolice officer, lived in an apartment complex which had wooden fencing at the height of 6 feet for those on the first floor; but the wooden fence met a wrought iron fence on the other side of the property. I was told her nickname was #PrincessJasmine and through those people, I had also met other civilians who associated with that female.
When it was time for the #rave which took place in #Austin #Texas, the ticket was purchased at a location similar to #PlanetK; though I am unsure if it was a Planet K which had been the actual location of the purchase. I remember the ticket had golden color lobster claws on the ticket and/or the lobster claws were red but had golden yellow around the lobster claws on the ticket as well as on the album cover of the CD. When the group of soldiers from Fort Sam Houston and I had gone with the group of civilians from San Antonio to Austin, I had not known I needed to bring my medication with me for my headaches and migraines. I had not been out of the coma and in Medical Hold Unit very long, as I think it was less than a month or two from the time of being stationed at Fort Sam Houston. There were several other soldiers other than Jolliff and Webker who had gone to the event, as there was a group of male soldiers in the same area of the barracks who had attended the event together. We all went in the female who called herself Princess Jasmine’s van from #SanAntonio to #Austin, and when in the region of #SanMarcos by my guesstimation; my headaches instantly turned into migraines, which the female #PrincessJasmine had said she could give me some #Advil to assist.
I told the soldiers during my Article 15 of this, including the fact the Advil had candy coating around the pill with the letters stamped onto the pills handed to me. Each one of them were the same brown color with the black lettering, and had the candy flavor on the pills; as there was not any water for me to be able to take the medication I was given. However no one believed me, when I told them at the time. I did not feel any different after taking the two Advil pills, and by the time we arrived in Austin it was still daytime. As the others were talking about other stuff in the front part of the dark blue mid 1990s minivan, I was in the back trying not to be in as much pain. I tried focusing on different things and then I started focusing my attention to the sky, and trying to calm my pain levels down in that way. I focused my attention to changing the shapes of the clouds as well as changing the location of the sun, so the pain levels would not be as horrific for my headaches and migraines; as the pain levels throughout my head were at different points. One of the males of the group had come closer to where I was in the back and asked me about how I was doing, as well as what I was doing. I think, that had been Jolliff.
He laid down next to me looking up trying to see what I was explaining to him, which he could not understand what I meant when I said I was changing the shapes of the clouds until I showed him by pointing and doing so. He sat up quickly and was scared saying “Oh my God, are you kidding me? Did you really just do that?”
I looked at him saying “Did I not mention I could do that before, when you and I went to dinner earlier?”
He looked at me asking “When did you learn how to do that?”
I asked, “Am I the only one who can? I thought others could as well, or is that just me?” Jolliff laid down next to me and asked me to show him again, so I changed one cloud from a pouf into the shape of a duck and another cloud pouf from nothingness into the shape of a dog, while still another cloud pouf from just a shapeless pouf into the shape of an elaborate fountain. Jollliff looked at me as I moved my hands around and asked “How long have you been able to do that?” I asked, “What does it matter? I told you I have been doing certain things ever since I was born, what is the big deal?”
He scooted closer to me and rested his head on my shoulder, “Can I stay with you like this, forever?”
I said “We have the rave we are about to go to, how can we stay like this forever if we are about to go dance?”
He laughed and asked “Can we be together forever, later?”
I asked “How long would that take?” He asked, “Why do you ask so many questions?”
I looked over to him “Are you not asking me questions, first?” He laughed and as he went onto talk about other points, I continued trying to maintain my pain levels and not allow the pain to affect as much as it was at the time.
Later we went into the parking lot which was once either a #Kmart or larger building similar to such which the business had closed down and the area was rented, for the rave to take place for the event which occurred. I think either a #Citgo or a #Texaco gas station was on the other side of the parking lot, but I cannot remember fully. The group I was with went inside of the event after the local #AustinPolice had checked everyone’s identification cards and then the ticket counter, had allowed everyone in. While admittedly I had wanted to return to the base, I knew no one would take me back to the base; so I had to endure the rest of the evening, since there was only one vehicle which took everyone of the group to Austin. Inside of the event my pain levels continued rising instead of lessening which one of the males from the group who was not wearing a shirt but had parachute-style pants with sneakers on walked over to where I was; asking me if I was feeling better yet. When I told him the pain levels were not getting better, he told me he had gotten a few pills to help my pain levels. That set of pills looked like tulip flowers, lavender with speckles, and tasted similar to the grape flavor of #Flintstones chewable vitamins. Afterwards that male returned with a bottle of water, which I remember there was a weird flavor to the water taste; including what seemed like sediment at the bottom of an older bottle of wine when getting closer to finishing the water.
The next thing I remember is I was in a hospital emergency room with a binky in my mouth, with a male standing next to me with a clipboard. I remember he told me I was in a hospital and the staff had contacted Fort Sam Houston of #JBSA, but he was supposed to attend that rave I was at. Since there was a female who did not show up to work, was why he had been called in to the hospital to work instead of being able to go to the rave. The next thing I remember is laying down in the back seat of the golden colored #Acura or #Lexus four door car with light beige interior, as the female First Sergeant from #PuertoRico who had been in charge of a Basic Training Unit before her assignment to Fort Sam Houston; was driving as her daughter looked to the backseat at me, in and out of consciousness. I remember being wheelchaired into the BAMC emergency room for bloodwork before being carried up the stairs to my barracks room, by a male soldier.
Later when I woke up in my barracks room I went to walk out to go to the bathroom, and the male who had given me the two tulip shaped flower pills was sitting on the floor outside of my room. He stood up instantly and began yelling at me for not telling him or anyone I had left, and I went to the bathroom before returning to explain I was in the hospital. He followed me into my barracks room before he left afterwards; and I had not seen him or anyone from the group knowingly after that. I did get the Article 15 for what occurred and though no one in Medical Hold Unit believed me at the time as to what occurred and how it had, later I was told by Sergeant Moreno there was enough of one of the over twenty drugs in my blood to kill an adult elephant and he was unsure how I survived one of those but was absolutely flabbergasted I survived the combination of; though he also informed me I was at #BrackenridgeHospital, albeit it took me awhile to remember such. I dealt with the Article 15 and the aspects of, though it was months after the extra duty was over when the restrictions were removed after I had contacted different levels of the divisions at Fort Sam Houston because of a suggestion made to me. Though I have written in more details of such in prior journal blog entries, this of course is the brief aspect of.
Despite that suggestion was made by who is now my dead-ex-husband, other than my son and my daughter of which of course I love my children; there was only so much which could prepare me for what was necessary for what I would soon deal with in regards of the horrors I dealt with, compared to certain groups of females in working together later. If the need for such is of importance at this point whether in reference to what occurred back in 2000 or whether in reference to what occurred since then up to and including my Medal of Honor Art Project, there is my written statement of such events on top of what I previously talked about and wrote of.
On a different point though in certain ways a bit similar, when I was in #Washingtonstate at the club I had volunteered at in #SeaTac area; there was a male who was around my height with broader shoulders who seemed to not understand no means no. He had annoyed me particularly as he had continued to bother some of the other females and when he would not stop harassing one of the females, there was a verbal altercation another week in which other volunteers had gotten involved to stop that male from continuing to bother the people at the club. That particular male was extremely close to actually having a physical altercation and though I did what I could to keep myself calm, that male should be thankful all of the others who were there who stepped between he and I had; as I was ready to cross that line, because of that male’s attitude. Despite having been composed and calm, had the males who stepped in between not; that male would have been introduced to the water behind him which the reader may be able to see how this particular portion of going down the proverbial rabbit hole can go into. Though as there was the male who my biological sister had associated with who had lit a can of hairspray on fire and aimed towards my house when in San Antonio #Texas almost looks similar to that male who was in the #Calvary cover, I do wish I had pulled the trigger that night on that male in reference to that point I had written about.
If that particular male had either been from the group of the rave time and/or had caused problems for my Medal of Honor Art Project as he was wearing a calvary cover as well as the patent leather dress Class A shoes to the club; I do not appreciate being stalked and I do not appreciate being harassed; nor do I appreciate the problems caused to my Medal of Honor Art Project among the rest of the states which I went to and through. However I definitely do not appreciate if those ‘people’ had caused problems for my son and my daughter and I will not ever forgive anyone who purposefully hurt my children ever, and I doubt any parent who loves their child(ren) would ever feel any differently to such. Though the Article 15 was during the time when Captain Beer was being removed from Command because of the problems he had been causing for the dancers at the #WildZebra, Captain Morning took over the office for a while up until his orders were changed to #Kentucky because of the two females who had been changed from #SouthKorea to #FortSamHouston to be Chapter 13ed out of the Army; because neither of those two Choleva or Sybert were capable of performing their jobs, when stationed overseas.
As a different point in reference to those two females as well as the female who was my roommate in Medical Hold Unit who was originally from #Houston #Texas who also was being Chapter 13ed out of the Army; personally I am glad those individuals were removed from the Army, prior to everything that had occurred thereafter. There was quite a bit well beyond what is known in reference to the attacks of 11 September 2001 as well as the afterwards of such including up to this day; however those particular females would have been a problems when overseas in reference to how the military of the United States of America has had to deal with certain aspects in regards to the enemy, in my opinion. I guesstimate such would able to be proven, in certain references. However beyond that had been certain circumstances which I could see certain similarities between my ex-sister-in-law Mary Evongelina Nichols Osteen's eldest daughter Sondra Marie Osteen who was born in the area of Fort Worth Texas though grew up in Georgia when her mother took her out to Georgia with her husband David Osteen, to grow up and live as well as her second daughter Ariel Marie Osteen when comparing Sybert and Choleva to those two ex-in-law's daughters.
The eldest daughter Sondra Marie Osteen seemed closely to the personality of Choleva as the aspects of only caring about the materialistic portions of what others could do for her instead of for the aspects of actually getting to know someone seemed more important to Sondra Marie Osteen and similar to the aspects of the fact Choleva was being Chapter 13ed out of the Army Branch of the United States of America's Armed Forces mainly because of her learning of the aspects of the realities of the title of Queen for a Year when in Korea and the after effects if choosing that particular path by choice, Sondra Marie Osteen had looked to me as similar in references of caring more about the material possessions which others could purchase for her. The fact Mary Evongelina Nichols Osteen of naming her daughter after Mary's aunt Sondra who had many mental health problems because of the schizophrenia that was considered more-so than the fact she could not tell the difference of the spirits she was seeing at the time in conjunction to the portal of which she had grown up nearby because of certain outlying aspects, the choice of Mary to name her daughter after that particular aunt had essentially been how she had cursed her own child to repeat the same patterns of behaviour as what her aunt had gone through in my opinion. When I had been told about such choices by Mary Evongelina Nichols Osteen as she wanted to name her eldest Sondra to honor that aunt, even Great Grandma Nichols was disgusted in the choice Mary Evongelina Nichols Osteen made.
She had discussed such with me in great detail when I had gone out to Alabama in 2002 and again later in 2009. From the points Great Grandma Nichols had brought up about the personality similarities between Sondra Marie Osteen and her Aunt Sondra when she was alive, there were so many coinky dinks involved; I was unable to forget the alignments in various ways and when I pointed such out to Mary in 2008 about what was said in 2002, she laughed and said 'that would be funny if that became the truth'. I told her she should be careful because what her aunt dealt with when she was alive was quite a bit more than some knew how to understand at the time, and Mary continued saying how funny she thought it would be if her daughter became a more modern version of her aunt as Mary loved that aunt the most out of the 12 aunts and uncles she had. As Sondra Marie Osteen was allowed to pick what her younger sister's name would be when Mary Evongelina Nichols Osteen was pregnant, Sondra chose the name Ariel simply because of the #Disney movie #TheLittleMermaid. When Mary told me about that background story after discussing the portions of the reasons why she named Sondra Marie Osteen as she had, I warned her of other aspects to be carful of despite being too late for Ariel Marie Osteen's choices.
When I asked about the middle name for both of them being Marie the irony is multifold as Mary said it was a change of her first name which aligned with certain aspects of rent movie she enjoyed which the name of the character was called Marie to always be able to influence her daughters no matter what, as well as several other points in which Ariel Marie Osteen reminded me more-so of Sybert in comparison to Sondra reminding me of Choleva. If recalling The Little Mermaid accurately the point which Ursela tells Ariel to use her physical appearance and body language to attempt to control males, is pretty similar to the aspects of how Sybert had done so with her fiance at the time, as well as how I saw Ariel handling various situations as early as in her teenager years. Much to my surprise, her mother Mary had encouraged such behaviour while also showing such with how she had been with others she had sunken her claws proverbially into.
The irony of certain aspects of Mary Evongelina Nichols Osteen herself and the correlations of the hag Ursela in which the personalities, have their own similar traits I would guesstimate some who knew and/or know Mary Evongelina Nichols Osteen could correlate certain similarities with their own experiences. However unlike the character Ursela having some magickal powers in the movie, Mary Evongelina Nichols Osteen only knew how to be evil in my opinion. To me it is also a bit ironic with the aspects of the middle names for her two daughters, as well as if I remember correctly Uresla had two little oceanic lemmings who did bidding for her at her whim which Sondra Marie and Airel Marie Osteen could hypothetically fit such a description in various ways. As Mary Evongelina Nichols Osteen seemingly wanted power she never was capable of handling the way Uresla in The Little Mermaid movie had wanted, ironically if certain other correlations of such could be found beyond simply my personal opinion and views of; those particular coinky dinks are for others who have known her far longer and in greater detail, to make such assessments of for themselves of course.
In a different point all together my personal childhood favorite movie had been of the Disney ones #BeautyandtheBeast as I preferred Belle's character of being intelligent of her own accord, seeing the greatness beyond simply looks, and then there are other ironies whether in reference of libraries as well as personality traits. Though the movie by Disney of #Mulan came out when I was already in the #USArmy Branch of the United States of America's #ArmedForces and my name given to me by my Great Grandfather and my Great Grandmother of MeeLing in correlation of how I fought to be emancipated to join the Army branch and though not the same as the storyline of Mulan though certain similarities in many ways, I can joke maybe something along the lines of simply being born that way. Also taking into consideration the aspects of preventing my biological father from dealing with certain additional aspects in reference to my biological mother and biological sister in conjunction of my head injury occurring on Psalm Sunday in 2000 and being where I was during the events of 11 September 2001 as well as my biological father not being heavily interested in technology for many years, then there are other ironies of a multitude of aspects.
If in turn certain points which I wrote about and later sent him the physical copies of the books I wrote up through the first 8 books he was able to see certain aspects of which my biological mother and biological sister had done in various ways, then other ironies in multitudes of ways not just for him but also for my biological sister's husband and family she married into among others in the state of Texas and elsewhere. Though I also liked the character #Tinkerbelle mainly because of the Faery aspects, there could be some similar aspects seen in various ways among a few others which I will not directly go into at this particular moment. I will state though the irony of my biological mother's favorite ride which I had to go on so many times the one time of going to Disney in #Florida of It's a Small World, and the ironies of idiosyncrasies to such in this overall sort of assessment. When adding aspects of SCUBA Diving and the areas I went to the bottom of the ocean from in two areas over there, then other correlations could be made in various ways and degrees.
In certain regards despite not having seen the movie Mulan until after waking up from the coma several years after it had come out and hearing the voice of the singer #ChristinaAguilera and in multiple ways of being able to relate to various aspects of what has been made aware to many in the general public, I can see certain aspects which as to why I personally looked up to her in a multitude of ways for her strength not only of her voice but also her character and what she has stood for. My favorite song which she sings with others is tied between the one with #LilKim of Can't Hold Us Down and the #MulanRouge song with #Pink, #LilKim, #Maya, #Misdemeanor, and a brief interlude with #NicoleKidman however that song from the movie Mulan Christina Aguilera sings is one which is ironic and iconic in many ways in reference to when could I recognize the person I see in the mirror.
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