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It should not take a head injury
*after personally sustaining a head injury & coma*
to figure this out...

 
 
 
 
 
 


After a Drill Sergeant threw Me into the metal part of the bunk when I was in Basic Training for the United States of America's Army branch at Fort Sill Oklahoma #FortSill #FortSillOK #FortSillOklahoma #OK #Oklahoma in the year of 2000 on Psalm Sunday, I have dealt with the situations as best as I have been capable to do so while taking care of the situations and asking for assistance as per the required explanations of the information to such facts first.  While making the attempts to get assistance for the aspects thereof as to the reality, the aspects of where and when as to the multiple attempts to ask for assistance for me.  As my journal blog for when I was ready to bring such as to my other works forward since as to the lengths of time as to where my modeling was as to the modeling page information, just as the other pages have the information as to such specifics, and just as this journal blog of mine is as to such facts.


If I had real friends (if as to having met in person face to face in person in real life as to the aspects of this particular reference such as from the state of Texas as to the state of Washington as to the years of 2000 through 2013 if I met within the state of Texas for such references), real (the areas of the tristate region as before the year of 2000) family, and real relationships in real life that recognized me as to the aspects of if as to the face to face in person who started in truth as I had started such in truth as to the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, as well as the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain that took 8.5 years to dissipate; then I guesstimate there would be the easier factors as to being capable for me to speak with others in truth in person face to face in person and/or through online measures as to such factors I suppose.  Though would such as to the knowledge of the ways as to how they began such discussions with me as to would there be such a situation, for them to consider as to such if factors as to such discussions with me in truth?


As to some suggestions and commentary within "Finding A Silver Lining" one of several of my bo0ks I personally authored/wrote/compiled as I can only speak and write in truth as per such clarifications as to the reality as to the specifics of such discussions/writings/videos as per my Official You Tube where I have satirical commentary where I comment about the factors as to having dealt with others' opinions about their pop culture references of #NJ #NJstate #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey, though as to for the most part I have actually preferred to be asked with politeness if as to having read my books and/or seen my website as just the same in reference to the timeframes when I was modeling as to having respect as to what I consider as respect, referencing if as to such polite manners as to discussions if as to such having been noticed because of the factors in my opinion as to having real discussions as communication would be if my website was seen before the year of 2023 as I first began my website in 2015; as in my journal blog posts as to the reality of the years of 2010 through 2013, as to the aspects of introductions as to those timeframes when as to various factors as I did not take selfies as I was actually working with photographers as to my creations of my outfits as per the description on the link to my modeling page(s) as to the references regarding my journal blog updates in the years of 2019 through 2022 as the timeframe onward as to the year of 2023 as to the factors as to how such journal blog entries will be as to such factors as to the aspects of the various topic points.


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 I was born and raised in New Jersey and grew up going throughout the tristate northeast areas mainly, and as to how the reality of when the importance of the situations as to the aspects of reviewing as to such facts regarding the logistics for several factors as to the considerations; the years of 2019 through 2022 as to the review process as to the aspects of the timeframe, prior to the timeframe of the 20 year memorial of 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 as well as before the 30 year memorial of February 1993, as to the northeast areas mostly known as to New York City #NYC #NewYork #NY #NYstate #NYU though also as to the #Pentagon Pentagon, as well as Pennsylvania #Pennstate #Pennsylvaniastate as to the reality of how many New Jersey-ians commute in either direction, depending upon what location for the commute. 


The factors though I have said at times, I re-re-re-re-re-re-grew up in the state of  #Texas #TX #Texasstate Texas as to such factors as to the timeframes, as well as all 26 of my SCUBA #SCUBA #SCUBADiving  Diving certifications I earned were through one school within the state of Texas as I also earned winning first place in a Texas Chili cookoff with more than 20 entries as well as my chili recipe as I am adamant about my recipes as to such aspects just as I am specific as to what it actually takes for me to cook in a BBQ as to the required preparations for when I have BBQed.   



I can sarcastically write, those who know of the Rules of the BBQ as to where I grew up as to the Rules of the BBQ as to such factors to the considerations of such preparations.  However that is to cooking food as to the differences of my journal blog entries, as to the factors as to proverbial aspects of food for thought as the difference of real food in real life as to the facts of the situations to such attention to the details as well as attention to the information.


Such facts as to the metaphors in some of such factors that only after reviewing such information as to the aspects of the fiction book series that were as to for My personal life as to such dreamland sorts of factors as to the differences of such hypotheticals, the references thereof as to such regards as to the logistical emotional with the real situations as per the names I was informed of at the timeframes referenced review as to My journal blog as to the situations overall.  


If as to my journal blog being found and read as to where what I consider as common sense, as to the aspects of my satirical saying   how it should not take a head injury to figure out. 
 

*(sometimes utilizing articles discussing facts)*
By:  (Reverend) Susan MeeLing
also known as

The One & Only


(YouTube)   Lady Dori Belle


 

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REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

Day 7 of Bonus Round of Thanks Challenge

The portions regarding my 60 Days of Thanks Challenge with the additional bonus round aspects regarding a multitude of which the details which need to be taken care of are something which I have not been afraid of for a longer amount of time than some might have realized, regarding the general and genuine care and concern for more than just one or two situations. I admit I did not know of the name Kennedy being associated with any portion of elected office when writing my book Fail-Safe: The Kennedy curse fused with Science Fiction Fantasy By: Susan MeeLing" as quite frankly as I have explained; I had a head injury of Psalm Sunday in 2000 which I had a subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain which took 4.5 years to clear up and start to show signs of improvement of the damages being lesser seen however, the damages from the head injury also know as a TBI remained permanent. I deal with headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory deficits, and I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry and Calculus to second grade math. I have explained such the amount of times I have which I simply wrote an entire book series FSL or "Finding A Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing" with "Finding The Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing" which I simply shortened to the FSL book series, just on the portions in reference to the before to what I could recall and to the after. In such a writing and the importance of ADA also known as the Americans with Disabilities Act compliances, each and every person who ever read such pages automatically would be required to follow such ADA compliances for the regards of the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury after effects as to what is most ideal for what is best for myself regardless of other aspects which could have been found afterwards in reference to other people because I was the first of such and only through my works of my words compiled with other articles and documentation for such situations would mean only such portions would have been made known because of my creation of my writings on my website as well as on any website I personally chose to be a part of on my own free will. However the reference of going from college Algebra with Trigonometry and Calculus to 2nd grade math with the cognitive disorders as well as the memory deficits and the explanations to which I have worked diligently to explain as best as I can and could, automatically such explanations and proof thereof including referencing the placement of the location per tattoo I have had completed for myself as a just in case sort of fail-safe for myself alone regarding my own needs compared to others' wants or desires; gives enough details from the shorter term words for certain assistance for others to know to be able to understand easier, because of how many times I have had to explain myself to people just in reference to the amount of doctor visits regarding being in Medical Hold Unit in 2000 at JBSA.


I am thankful for his and the others' contributions to make that location for the ability for the proper treatment and care for such a larger number of individuals and hoped and hope the betterment regarding other locations of bases as needed, if medivac flights are not as accessible for various situations due to the specific nature of as per specific ways I had been officially informed at such times regarding my particular involvement for such prior to and at such times before the newspaper article ever was able to be read in comparison to any other specific aspect to which I had not ever been officially informed of such aspects as per regards to the portions of my Medal of Honor Art Project as per such regards as officially having explained other portions thereof and the irony again of such aspects to such a Fail-Safe irony if such as to the types of cover ups I was informed about regarding when being creative and writing to author such a book; as how would if truthful regarding the name and description, how would Rose Fitzgerald Kennedy have been more informed and involved and look towards such situations if she had ever been slighted?


Nonetheless a different break down of the renamed painting series of No Answers to Not Afraid being more appropriate:



Looking Down

I'm not afraid, I'm not afraid (yeah) To take a stand, it's been a ride Everybody, I guess I had to Go to that place To get to this one Now some of you Might still be in that place If you're tryin' to get out Just follow me I'll get you there


The Not Afraid Painting Series


While admittedly I was not afraid to take a stand in multiple ways in odd sorts of ways regarding quite a few additional oddities regarding not only the Fail-Safe book though also other situations regarding such a particular view as well as a different song, in conjunction with a tattoo as well as a set of arranged candles to which an ironic twist of such a name while not realizing at the same time while only being creative when writing such a book as Fail-Safe.


Pondering

You can try and read my lyrics off of this paper before I lay 'em But you won't take the sting out these words before I say 'em 'Cause ain't no way I'm a let you stop me from causin' mayhem When I say I'm a do somethin' I do it I don't give a damn what you think I'm doin' this for me, so fuck the world, feed it beans It's gassed up, if it thinks it's stoppin' me I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly And all those who look down on me, I'm tearin' down your balcony No if, ands or buts, don't try to ask him why or how can he From "Infinite" down to the last "Relapse" album he's still shittin' Whether he's on salary, paid hourly, until he bows out or he shits his bowels out of him Whichever comes first, for better or worse He's married to the game, like a fuck you for Christmas His gift is a curse, forget the Earth, he's got the urge to pull his dick from the dirt And fuck the whole universe I'm not afraid (I'm not afraid) To take a stand (to take a stand) Everybody (everybody) Come take my hand come (come take my hand) We'll walk this road together, through the storm Whatever weather, cold or warm Just letting you know that, you're not alone Holla if you feel like you've been down the same road


The Not Afraid Painting Series


While admittedly I was not afraid to take a stand in multiple ways in person as well as online which some might have pondered to and amongst themselves since there is not one individual person who has absolutely at all times been with me for each second of each minute of each hour of each day of each week of each month of each year of each decade including regarding the change over to the new millennium, who would easily see who being regarding whichever situation as to the first 9 lines regarding whichever portions aside from the additional ionic portions to my modeling and just as one particular Leatheratti made after being on fetlife article which went quickly swiftly about many discussions and groups; there are a fewer number of individuals who at an earlier time and earlier year to such on Model Mayhem which had a similar sort of situation regarding such, however only with the photographers and the models and artists who were looking at such for that particular earlier point in time which possibly the ability to see some crossovers from the Model Mayhem to the fetlife and the Leatheratti could be noticed in other references. From line 10 through 16 those who knew I had made my backyard into a gardening area and when the initial hole was dug from the natural formation regarding my backyard in San Antonio the situations which occurred instead was altered needlessly to be put in an area which was unforgiving to the water in a phallic shape to which was dug after having defended against stolen valor at Graham Central Station regarding my stance, the particular lines for such might make a bit additional sense as to how much that particular had tried to change my particular views of such at such times; which I refused to allow such to continue, as many others have taken a stand against stolen valor.


Thankfully.


Searching Okay quit playin' with the scissors and shit, and cut the crap I shouldn't have to rhyme these words in the rhythm for you to know it's a rap You said you was king You lied through your teeth, for that fuck your feelings Instead of gettin' crowned you're gettin' capped, and to the fans I'll never let you down again, I'm back I promise to never go back on that promise In fact, let's be honest, that last "Relapse" CD was eh Perhaps I ran them accents into the ground Relax, I ain't goin' back to that now All I'm tryin' to say is get back, click-clack, blow 'cause I ain't playin' around It's a game called circle and I don't know how I'm way too up to back down But I think I'm still tryin' to figure this crap out Thought I had it mapped out but I guess I didn't, this fuckin' black cloud Still follows me around but it's time to exercise these demons These muh'fuckers are doin' jumpin' jacks now I'm not afraid (I'm not afraid) To take a stand (to take a stand) Everybody (everybody) Come take my hand come (come take my hand) We'll walk this road together, through the storm Whatever weather, cold or warm Just letting you know that, you're not alone Holla if you feel like you've been down the same road And I just can't keep living this way So starting today I'm breaking out of this cage I'm standing up, I'mma face my demons I'm manning up, I'mma hold my ground I've had enough, now I'm so fed up Time to put my life back together right now (now) It was my decision to get clean, I did it for me Admittedly, I probably did it subliminally For you, so I could come back a brand new me, you helped see me through And don't realize what you did, believe me you


The Not Afraid Painting Series


While admittedly I was not afraid to take a stand in multiple ways beginning with the last line in the portion of regarding a supposed joke referencing searching through the radio stations only when my Eminem songs were not playing on the radio when SPC Marksbury was annoyed by such a musician which I told him, he needed to listen to the lyrics more clearly as I could feel how much more Eminem had to get out into the world for more to look at situations differently beyond just the beats to dance to which the last line of the song going upwards as I suppose can be possibly seen as a two way street because of a multitude of aspects. How many could read such a section of lyrics upwards compared to the downwards and see the difference as to how such could be applicable in several aspects, which when searching through could be reviewed just as strongly as when reading when going up to down in comparison from downward to upwards?



Almost

I been through the ringer, but they could do little to the middle finger I think I got a tear in my eye, I feel like the king of My world, haters can make like bees with no stingers and drop dead No more bee flingers, no more drama from now on I promise to focus solely on handlin' my responsibilities as a father So I solemnly swear to always treat this roof, like my daughters and raise it You couldn't lift a single shingle on it, 'cause the way I feel I'm strong enough to go to the club or the corner pub And lift the whole liquor counter up 'cause I'm raising the bar I'd shoot for the moon but I'm too busy gazin' at stars, I feel amazing and I'm not I'm not afraid (I'm not afraid) To take a stand (to take a stand) Everybody (Everybody) Come take my hand come (Come take my hand) We'll walk this road together, through the storm Whatever weather, cold or warm Just letting you know that, you're not alone Holla if you feel like you've been down the same road




The Not Afraid Painting Series


While admittedly I was not afraid to take a stand in multiple ways though more regarding such responsibilities as a Mother or as a Mom referencing the fifth line with the seventh line and the ninth line, make a specific alteration to such a song set of lyrics to then read either upwards to downwards or downwards to upwards in a combination thereof as well which the final line does still make sense to the feelings at times regarding the top line when regarding different scenarios throughout aspects of life and portions thereof in my opinion.





In turn having from the first time of putting into writing officially as well as when in regards of officially publishing my books per FSL specifically, such ADA compliance regulations actually would have been considered as officially beginning by the timeline of events for the online portions in regards of the legalities. Thus the first email would technically be considered as the first official behind the scenes information thereof, the first public social media posting would be considered the first official out in the open of such information and ADA requirements to officially begin as per writing such within the United States of America homeland soil, as well as the first time of explaining such to any individual who could have or would have spoken about such after effects with another would automatically mean such similarities officially regarding such ADA also known as Americans with Disabilities Act would take full effect back in 2000 upon waking up from my coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury. Explaining I went from college Algebra with Trigonometry and Calculus to 2nd grade math was a way to take the memory deficits in a larger way with the cognitive disorders in a larger way with a shorter explanation, as the fact as to more people knowing the requirement for math in whichever area of life they work in as simply the date and time for a calendar are required to know numbers in a correct order for the ability to properly be completing or working on something by and/or for a specific amount of time.


I had been in college at the same time of being in high school as well as taking summer school courses to which my SCUBA Diving certification classes as well as the adult lifestyle Dominant Mentor Program electives for my graduation, can easily show the level of which my studies were regarding a larger amount of information in such a short amount of time from when I officially first learned how to read as well as spell as well as write as a child in the 1980s. I had to be taught the names of colors as well as how to count to 10 was as far as the JBSA was able to get to help and assist me before being taken off of the JBSA regarding Lincoln Green apartments in San Antonio, which was around 3 months from waking up from my coma to be pregnant before the 7 month mark in full from waking up from my coma. While some remember what they learned in their elementary, middle, high school, and college courses about history; I went from college Algebra with Trigonometry and Calculus to 2nd grade math. That means in all subjects regarding any such materials in reference to the overall regarding school work with such memory deficits and cognitive disorders combined would in turn mean, would have gotten to such a lower level unless I worked to fix and repair myself as best as I could for the best overall for myself as well as my son and my daughter because of having delivered two children before being a total of less than 3 years awake from the situations regarding the after effects in total after waking up from my coma.



I did not know of any President of the United States of America named Kennedy, nor of any officials or businesses with the name of Kennedy; though I did find a female who has a show on FOX News which her name is Kennedy as well as her show being named after her name, as in other references regarding my website being named after me for the assistance of clarity in full. In turn while only being creative and not knowing of any other actual possible connections previously regarding anything remotely close to such a situation, I did not actually know until years after beginning to type about the storyline regarding the book I wrote called Fail-Safe in brief as I was piecing random situations which I thought would be interesting together as I saw different flowers around different areas as well as other situations regarding wanting to write a book which was different than other books I had written up to the point thereof as I began writing such around the year of 2015 in the beginning months of January while working on my other book series and my Medal of Honor Art Project while taking care of my son and myself as best as possible despite how we wound up in Washington state.



Such situations regarding the female character named Rose Fitzgerald to Rose Fitzgerald Kennedy truly was just a small aspect regarding the portions of being creative, and nothing more in reference to anything other than. If such individuals were offended as to how such was created I cannot apologize because I was being creative and had not any clue to such information, as per the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury. However after learning about such similarities in 2019 while at different Texas events, there was not any portions which seemed abnormal as quite frankly I did not ever think the reality of what I wrote regarding Fail-Safe was anything more than what I had written in the science fiction aspects because of simply being creative as I explained to several regarding the timeframe when in Washington state as possible due to such issues I had explained and written about referencing what occurs regarding certain problems with technology; usually meaning the technology electrical portions are so disproportionate to the amount of work being completed, that the electrical impulses cause me greater amounts of needless pain because of the lack of proper sorts of coating protection which each situation which has been such as problematic has been able to show such situations regarding the levels of additional needless physical pain. to which if only simply asked honestly, the amount of time it has taken for anyone to pay attention correctly has repeatedly been a constant problem and has shown such failures repeatedly as many times as I have literally and metaphorically and proverbially repeat myself; to the irony of others getting annoyed by my repetition and yet not paying attention when they should have paid attention and should pay attention, as to the levels of various proof over the years to which such ADA also known as Americans with Disabilities Act would require the lesser amount of problems and lesser amount of additional needless pain levels.



Anything other than such portions regarding such ADA compliances in reference to having officially been the first to have done so and thus the first and only who has put such in a fuller context to which is easier to bring such situations into a clearer light for the transition for which the proper care, is actually taken care of properly not only for myself though also for those who have such similar medical conditions and situations which I explained in my writings referring to online as well as FSL after having discussed repeatedly with multiple people being informed in an official context. However again regarding the Fail-Safe book which was supposed to be a book series which in turn such aspects have not been needed to be written further until the comfort levels are at a location which I feel is appropriate, in comparison to anything further beyond such aspects as ironically since there is the reality of a female named Rose Fitzgerald Kennedy would if possibly truthful in the descriptions of what those family members' Mother and/or Grandmother and/or Great Grandmother and/or Great-Great Grandmother and/or connection through sister/aunt/cousin of such aspects would know as to being a female and how she would review personally as to various situations and events regarding such aspects; if accurate as to writing of such aspects regarding her background life and such events, only in a creative way which in turn if there are those who believe in ancestors other than Asians and how such would review the treatments regarding what I creatively was looking at in writings in comparison then how she would review as to how such aspects have been in FSL terms would be however such would be reviewed as such in the ways of her opinions of her family members and associations thereof if such were to be accurate and truthful regarding Fail-Safe and the Kennedy portions to Rose Fitzgerald and her dad as well and what occurred thereafter when the failure to properly do as was told had been ignored and how such went as how such went for if it was that she had gone through such as I only creatively wrote about then the portions as to which Rose Fitzgerald's descendants would know of how she reviewed such treatments to innocence and what she warned of if the compliances and work she had done for her daughter and more would be recognized as to what would be required to fix and repair.



I only wrote of such creatively regarding the curse portion because of making fun of myself for being able to heal and being able to use energy to heal in deeper levels and further ways outward than most ever knew I could, despite what portions had been explained such as the laptop with the dissertation on it and the levels to which all areas such would have been spread to for such healing energies to genuinely be able to fix and repair; which if satellites were already in orbit, that would include such portions and outward further because of the healing energetic portions I was working with to be able to correctly fix and repair such situations as much and as best as possible with the highest amount of quality for each aspect as possible in a fuller and better way. However if such were misinterpreted as anything other than creativity as to forgetting about the realities which some would have seen in person as well as in writing, only those who would fear such a truth being revealed as to anything they had to hide from would be who would see such as anything other than myself being creative and since I was painting pictures as well as my Medal of Honor Art Project, then such misinterpretations as to the intentions regarding such pictures would easily be able to be seen. I once had a female tell me she knew how some had done a self-fulfilling prophecy which I explained I would do what best I could to avoid where as best as possible regarding those portions as I learned ways to which to better assist and do more to genuinely help compared to causing such situations or problems, as much as possible.




In such knowing internally of what is considered to some as strong willed, I cannot forget as to where I actually learned a bit more regarding words and how to be able to speak while dealing with my headaches and migraines as per waking up from my coma after my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury. On the radio shortly after emailing Z100 Z Morning Zoo, a new song to me came onto the radio to which annoyed some of the soldiers as I was excited to listen to a musician called Eminem and the beat with the upper higher sounds balanced with the bass and the drums was extremely different to what I had heard growing up in the tristate area. I took a stand listening to such as the lyrics in combination were more of what I could know to relate to in a larger way than most of some aspects I listened to and enjoyed the music of, with the culmination of the musicians Missy Elliot as well as Christina Aguilera and P!nk though enjoying others I heard on the station(s) as well. The lyrics of one song though at the same time quite a few more songs and albums regarding my personal appreciation for Eminem and all he had survived and endured to live onward and make the best as best as he could just as with the 3 particular female musicians in the larger overall way while feeling sympathy for a female musician named Jessica Simpson as it felt as though her voice was there though her voice was muffled compared to what she could sing; seemed important in certain ways a bit differently, than some who were around me in Medical Hold Unit and the barracks building on Stanley Road near the Broadway Bank. I suppose the ironic twist as to the term more known in reference to Broadway despite not having been able to go to the actual Broadway Theaters, and after one symphonic show which I fully enjoyed at the Majestic Theater in which Tchaikovsky's music was being played was truly a fantastic event with scenic surrounding which felt amazing despite the headaches and migraines intermittently as the amount of dancing I could feel within as the individual strings were moved through the strands of the violins and the flutes with the drums and the musical instruments flowing together. However, that would be a few years before being able to have gone to such a symphony compared to first hearing Eminem.




In some ways I wonder if beyond just the portions regarding Fail-Safe the particular set of lyrics can ironically be added regarding the painting and names thereof regarding how I paint such types of pictures and the ways I make such in the ways I do, though the ironic 4 part pieces to make the whole 1 is an ironic twist in other ways regarding certain aspects thereof which to bringing such aspects of being creative; I am glad and thankful for such, and in some ways possibly some can see other portions regarding each book series and/or book which could relate to both the lyrics from the Eminem song as well as the painting(s) I created at such times. I was unable to actually get my artwork out from the location at the time as per the locks being changed when I went back and the inability to do so regarding such, I do as I can to remain calm about such aspects thereof regarding such portions despite knowing there were ways to which would have been better and would not have arisen such situations if had been correctly done without such problems which Rose Fitzgerald Kennedy would have been known to be enraged by in regards of if hypothetically accurate as to the portions thereof and those who would have known her in person would be able to verify what such was remembered and what would have been considered as how she would view such if there was ever a time which I could have somehow been able to meet her when I was growing up in the 1980s into the 1990s to onward after 2000 if she truly was a real person as I had been told of some aspects in reference to the 2020 election cycle randomly.


I now admittedly kind of wonder if such is a reality and was not a science fiction fantasy as to which portions were accurate which in the more minute ways compared to the larger aspects of, which if the aspects of only later remembering one male who had the last name of Kennedy though was not a portion as to any regards to the actual situation referencing Fail-Safe; then if such is accurate I can see how such would be assumed one way, compared to myself simply being creative and the processes I was working on during such times. However is what it is and such would only be proven in such ways which that particular family aspect would be reviewed as per how she would review them as per such choices, if there is the accuracy thereof to a larger extent. I do find an irony regarding the learning about a Dallas location area, a library with books, and a few other situations as to which I had not known about and if told about in school; would it have been something which would have been learned at such times is what I would not know regarding before my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, as the specific classwork reference is to the portions regarding the cognitive disorders and the memory deficits as well as having gone from college Algebra with Trigonometry and Calculus to 2nd grade math to which those portions of classwork specifically is not remembered for such without a specific special presentation of work for such a class.


In a different way I suppose I can make a joke to a reference about water bottles and such, as the computer teacher wanted to try to get me to like cats for several years as she knew I preferred dogs and knew about my pet A and she said she hated dogs because of how she thought dogs instigated problems; yet the irony of the truth regarding how many fights cats start needlessly with dogs, and yet dogs needlessly have been blamed for what the cats had done. Thankfully the larger dogs have been able to genuinely get their aspects as to name types cleared as such has to do with the raising of the dog(s) as well as the treatment towards such dog(s) and their specific types of breed(s), in comparison to learning how similarly to smaller dog(s) the cats have been the problem each time. The only time a larger dog attacks without being officially provoked is when they are Military trained and/or Police Law Enforcement dogs which have specified training to go towards situations to get the situations taken care of correctly, to which is not an attack though a part of their reasons for their employment for such specific types. I suppose I can in turn make a sort of joke regarding such, again to the song Not Afraid as I did take a stand to be able to listen to my Eminem's music on a military installation when being an E1 before E0 because of the Basic Training timeframe of not graduating as well as the article 15 which had the regulations as such; which people had made fun of me in the civilian sector about having to be on such restrictions at those times, which they were warned as to what could occur to them if they did not pay attention to the correct signs as I knew there had to be some who were as such for when correct compared to when stepping over the lines regarding such as seen now for those who have had such TBI situations from what was learned from my time in Medical Hold Unit and the situations thereof in a larger context and the Center for the Intrepid which Denzel Washington assisted with as well as the move towards Warrior Transition Unit from the once Medical Hold Unit area as per the way the students were treating certain Permanent .Party soldiers within the Medical Hold Unit as guinea pigs wrongly as well as other situations associated to such times.


Lyrics found online to add to my website via Google: Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Matthew Raymond Burnett / Jordan D. C. Evans / Marshall Bruce Mathers / Luis Edgardo Resto / Matthew Jehu Samuels Not Afraid lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Universal Music Publishing Group, ME Gusta Music


I'm not afraid, I'm not afraid (yeah) To take a stand, it's been a ride Everybody, I guess I had to Go to that place To get to this one Now some of you Might still be in that place If you're tryin' to get out Just follow me I'll get you there

You can try and read my lyrics off of this paper before I lay 'em But you won't take the sting out these words before I say 'em 'Cause ain't no way I'm a let you stop me from causin' mayhem When I say I'm a do somethin' I do it I don't give a damn what you think I'm doin' this for me, so fuck the world, feed it beans It's gassed up, if it thinks it's stoppin' me I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly And all those who look down on me, I'm tearin' down your balcony No if, ands or buts, don't try to ask him why or how can he From "Infinite" down to the last "Relapse" album he's still shittin' Whether he's on salary, paid hourly, until he bows out or he shits his bowels out of him Whichever comes first, for better or worse He's married to the game, like a fuck you for Christmas His gift is a curse, forget the Earth, he's got the urge to pull his dick from the dirt And fuck the whole universe I'm not afraid (I'm not afraid) To take a stand (to take a stand) Everybody (everybody) Come take my hand come (come take my hand) We'll walk this road together, through the storm Whatever weather, cold or warm Just letting you know that, you're not alone Holla if you feel like you've been down the same road Okay quit playin' with the scissors and shit, and cut the crap I shouldn't have to rhyme these words in the rhythm for you to know it's a rap You said you was king You lied through your teeth, for that fuck your feelings Instead of gettin' crowned you're gettin' capped, and to the fans I'll never let you down again, I'm back I promise to never go back on that promise In fact, let's be honest, that last "Relapse" CD was eh Perhaps I ran them accents into the ground Relax, I ain't goin' back to that now All I'm tryin' to say is get back, click-clack, blow 'cause I ain't playin' around It's a game called circle and I don't know how I'm way too up to back down But I think I'm still tryin' to figure this crap out Thought I had it mapped out but I guess I didn't, this fuckin' black cloud Still follows me around but it's time to exercise these demons These muh'fuckers are doin' jumpin' jacks now I'm not afraid (I'm not afraid) To take a stand (to take a stand) Everybody (everybody) Come take my hand come (come take my hand) We'll walk this road together, through the storm Whatever weather, cold or warm Just letting you know that, you're not alone Holla if you feel like you've been down the same road And I just can't keep living this way So starting today I'm breaking out of this cage I'm standing up, I'mma face my demons I'm manning up, I'mma hold my ground I've had enough, now I'm so fed up Time to put my life back together right now (now) It was my decision to get clean, I did it for me Admittedly, I probably did it subliminally For you, so I could come back a brand new me, you helped see me through And don't realize what you did, believe me you I been through the ringer, but they could do little to the middle finger I think I got a tear in my eye, I feel like the king of My world, haters can make like bees with no stingers and drop dead No more bee flingers, no more drama from now on I promise to focus solely on handlin' my responsibilities as a father So I solemnly swear to always treat this roof, like my daughters and raise it You couldn't lift a single shingle on it, 'cause the way I feel I'm strong enough to go to the club or the corner pub And lift the whole liquor counter up 'cause I'm raising the bar I'd shoot for the moon but I'm too busy gazin' at stars, I feel amazing and I'm not I'm not afraid (I'm not afraid) To take a stand (to take a stand) Everybody (Everybody) Come take my hand come (Come take my hand) We'll walk this road together, through the storm Whatever weather, cold or warm Just letting you know that, you're not alone Holla if you feel like you've been down the same road


Lyrics found online to add to my website via Google: Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Matthew Raymond Burnett / Jordan D. C. Evans / Marshall Bruce Mathers / Luis Edgardo Resto / Matthew Jehu Samuels Not Afraid lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Universal Music Publishing Group, ME Gusta Music

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Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Model Author Susan MeeLing

It should not take a head injury to figure this out because I thought you are supposed, to be smarter.

If there are those who find such interesting enough to research further to bring forward more information in reference to the forefront for more detailed information, as usual I request the courtesy of the same which I do in reference to how I refer to articles for reference points when writing my journal blog entries; for each one used for reference starting points, to research for clearer understanding from such knowledge.

 

That is common sense, good etiquette, and good karma; whilst lifting others upward, in positive ways.

Quotes which mean a lot to me:

"The ultimate measure of an individual is not where they stand in moments of comfort and convenience, but where they stand at the time of challenge and controversy."

"We must reject the idea that every time a law is broken society is guilty, rather than the law breaker.  Freedom is never-more than one generation away, from extinction.  We do not pass freedom on through our blood stream because freedom must be fought for, protected, and handed on for the next generation to do the same."

"Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.  Though best to be able to share in person with who matters, until that time occurs being able to see what is possible through such is a feat to notice.  One must be happy within oneself prior to being happy with another, though such can be enjoyed if living in one's own truth is as such. and then as to the capability to progress forward with another and/or others depending upon the situation(s) and individual(s)."  ~  A Quote From Me, Reverend Susan MeeLing also known as Lady Dori Belle

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