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It should not take a head injury
*after personally sustaining a head injury & coma*
to figure this out...

 
 
 
 
 
 


After a Drill Sergeant threw Me into the metal part of the bunk when I was in Basic Training for the United States of America's Army branch at Fort Sill Oklahoma #FortSill #FortSillOK #FortSillOklahoma #OK #Oklahoma in the year of 2000 on Psalm Sunday, I have dealt with the situations as best as I have been capable to do so while taking care of the situations and asking for assistance as per the required explanations of the information to such facts first.  While making the attempts to get assistance for the aspects thereof as to the reality, the aspects of where and when as to the multiple attempts to ask for assistance for me.  As my journal blog for when I was ready to bring such as to my other works forward since as to the lengths of time as to where my modeling was as to the modeling page information, just as the other pages have the information as to such specifics, and just as this journal blog of mine is as to such facts.


If I had real friends (if as to having met in person face to face in person in real life as to the aspects of this particular reference such as from the state of Texas as to the state of Washington as to the years of 2000 through 2013 if I met within the state of Texas for such references), real (the areas of the tristate region as before the year of 2000) family, and real relationships in real life that recognized me as to the aspects of if as to the face to face in person who started in truth as I had started such in truth as to the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, as well as the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain that took 8.5 years to dissipate; then I guesstimate there would be the easier factors as to being capable for me to speak with others in truth in person face to face in person and/or through online measures as to such factors I suppose.  Though would such as to the knowledge of the ways as to how they began such discussions with me as to would there be such a situation, for them to consider as to such if factors as to such discussions with me in truth?


As to some suggestions and commentary within "Finding A Silver Lining" one of several of my bo0ks I personally authored/wrote/compiled as I can only speak and write in truth as per such clarifications as to the reality as to the specifics of such discussions/writings/videos as per my Official You Tube where I have satirical commentary where I comment about the factors as to having dealt with others' opinions about their pop culture references of #NJ #NJstate #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey, though as to for the most part I have actually preferred to be asked with politeness if as to having read my books and/or seen my website as just the same in reference to the timeframes when I was modeling as to having respect as to what I consider as respect, referencing if as to such polite manners as to discussions if as to such having been noticed because of the factors in my opinion as to having real discussions as communication would be if my website was seen before the year of 2023 as I first began my website in 2015; as in my journal blog posts as to the reality of the years of 2010 through 2013, as to the aspects of introductions as to those timeframes when as to various factors as I did not take selfies as I was actually working with photographers as to my creations of my outfits as per the description on the link to my modeling page(s) as to the references regarding my journal blog updates in the years of 2019 through 2022 as the timeframe onward as to the year of 2023 as to the factors as to how such journal blog entries will be as to such factors as to the aspects of the various topic points.


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 I was born and raised in New Jersey and grew up going throughout the tristate northeast areas mainly, and as to how the reality of when the importance of the situations as to the aspects of reviewing as to such facts regarding the logistics for several factors as to the considerations; the years of 2019 through 2022 as to the review process as to the aspects of the timeframe, prior to the timeframe of the 20 year memorial of 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 as well as before the 30 year memorial of February 1993, as to the northeast areas mostly known as to New York City #NYC #NewYork #NY #NYstate #NYU though also as to the #Pentagon Pentagon, as well as Pennsylvania #Pennstate #Pennsylvaniastate as to the reality of how many New Jersey-ians commute in either direction, depending upon what location for the commute. 


The factors though I have said at times, I re-re-re-re-re-re-grew up in the state of  #Texas #TX #Texasstate Texas as to such factors as to the timeframes, as well as all 26 of my SCUBA #SCUBA #SCUBADiving  Diving certifications I earned were through one school within the state of Texas as I also earned winning first place in a Texas Chili cookoff with more than 20 entries as well as my chili recipe as I am adamant about my recipes as to such aspects just as I am specific as to what it actually takes for me to cook in a BBQ as to the required preparations for when I have BBQed.   



I can sarcastically write, those who know of the Rules of the BBQ as to where I grew up as to the Rules of the BBQ as to such factors to the considerations of such preparations.  However that is to cooking food as to the differences of my journal blog entries, as to the factors as to proverbial aspects of food for thought as the difference of real food in real life as to the facts of the situations to such attention to the details as well as attention to the information.


Such facts as to the metaphors in some of such factors that only after reviewing such information as to the aspects of the fiction book series that were as to for My personal life as to such dreamland sorts of factors as to the differences of such hypotheticals, the references thereof as to such regards as to the logistical emotional with the real situations as per the names I was informed of at the timeframes referenced review as to My journal blog as to the situations overall.  


If as to my journal blog being found and read as to where what I consider as common sense, as to the aspects of my satirical saying   how it should not take a head injury to figure out. 
 

*(sometimes utilizing articles discussing facts)*
By:  (Reverend) Susan MeeLing
also known as

The One & Only


(YouTube)   Lady Dori Belle


 

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REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

Day 40 of 60 Days of Thanks Challenge

I am thankful for being able to breathe as to this day's of thanks challenge, because having the amount of knowledge and understanding with the comprehension of is quite a bit beyond annoying as to the levels of and yet; then there are the reasons why at minimum all I can do, is be thankful for breathing.


At my dead-ex-husband's funeral in January 2008 when my biological parents and biological sister had not officially been informed until after the obituary or if my ex-in-laws put the information on their facebook, which in turn means their jump to be back into my life because of them knowing the life insurance policy aspects; though they had to reach out to who they knew I was forced to be in a relationship with, as my now dead-ex-husband had told them about Cactus Jack AKA Jeffrey Kuykendall Jr and both discussed such with them. Instead of what some would have wrongly guessed, the confession meant everything from the beginning to the end of those particular times. Thus with the confessionals of what he had admitted to doing is to why also being the one and only Executrix as per legal laws for such times of his death and my being the only one in the first slot, as only the second is pulled in if and only if the first one was not alive during such times; though obviously I was and I am, still alive. As per such knowledge as to the Army active duty soldiers refusing to speak with my ex-in-laws as they complained about as well as I spoke to others about before writing about as to how the details went of such and how they additionally treated the Chief Warrant Officer 3, who had refused to speak with those people unless I personally had informed of such in that specific capacity as per legal. The portions of which none others had the legal authority to be able to speak with the military and the only allowance given was for my ex-in-laws to arrange the funeral home arrangements for their dead brother as per the Army standards and if they went over the limit that was willing to be paid, they themselves would be responsible for the entirety of such bills incurred. The funeral home would know that the Army refused to speak with my ex-in-laws though because of how the arrangements were made as per explained and shown, the reality of such agreements being acknowledged between those and those.


My niece Brieanna Marie (whatever her legal married only name is) who was upset as to the way the Army treated her, as well as Sondra Marie (whatever if she is legally married last name) were mad their mothers were not being talked with as they had no understanding or knowledge to the level they thought they had; and Sondra Marie waving around her dad's rank to such individuals who had been in uniform was not something new that they have not seen before. If it was uncertain as to the fact of just because your dad may have had rank in one area that you saw, it did not mean that his rank translated the same way unless earned for such; which in turn her dad or David had earned what he earned, and his anything of did not earn such a rank. If hypothetically correct and Sondra as well as Ariel Marie were both running their mouths about their dad's rank and how their mom was looked at on the military installation they were on in Georgia in Macon, they should probably take a look back in those times to truly think about how they saw compared to how their parents were actually seen back in those times. An enlisted dependent of any branch though in this case in the Air Force telling a Chief Warrant Officer 3 in the Army of how whatever is seen in another state, for another branch, with completely different job sets required is not going to end well for such types of dependents especially within the state of Texas. I know their mom's had gotten accustomed to how their dad earned his credit as they learned how to mimic the behaviour of their mom Lydia E. (surname) Nichols from whatever country she put on the Immigration Paperwork before her pregnancy to the eldest of those cousins moms when telling Grandpa Nichols about her having lied about who she was and the love of his life not being there as she had made a deal. Susie Marie Nichols-Lopez at the time later when she was pregnant with Brieanna Marie's father was a known illegal immigrant and had overheard a discussion regarding their mother's immigration status and what happened when Grandpa Nichols and her were arguing which the children could remember, and Joe was seen by his soon-to-be bother-in-law to have overheard everything. Look at the time of his first arrest, and see who knew he was going to be where. Who they call Grandma Nichols is the reason if you look at phone records as well, especially if in combination with the portions regarding the bottling plant she worked for MM of Miller brewing phone records as well as prior work situations she herself admitted to such as the Ex-Lax brownies, the fiberglass tampons, fiberglass pads, urine in the coffee, and etcetera that others have heard her joke about well before ever meeting me. It does not take a head injury to see who actually dropped the dime for a phone call to the law enforcement, even if for a supposed anonymous tip especially back in those times with payphones more available.


Brieanna Marie Nichols-Lopez, Marissa Marie (Nichols-)Lopez, and Joseph Anthony Lopez had all seen how their Grandma as well as their mother had utilized whichever system to get the most amount of bang for their time as they would know from when they had to go through whichever lines for whichever portions of whichever stamps and who was given which portions while spending what amount of cash; as Susie Marie (whatever the last name legally is now like Sweeney) would take her children with her while she would do such works, and show the patterns of behaviour right in front of them. Brieanna Marie had stolen a price tag gun to be able to reprice clothing in stores, and when Susie Marie told me she learned how to take the price tags off of the plastic wrapping I admit I learned how to do so that way I could purposefully get caught though not purposefully get caught though purposefully get caught as to see which pathway lead back to certain portions; as I had few who believed me as to what I had told them about my ex-in-laws and the amount of levels they would go to in order to try to circumvent the system wherever they could. They refused goodwill stores though preferred Ross and such types of stores and once I learned how to kind of do the type of and found one which would make absolutely no sense to be on such a type of ticketed item, I walked up to the cashier to show them how the way my ex-sister-in-law and others were doing the stuff I saw to be able to show them when I either paid the actual price or returned to the cashier to not actually purchase; at minimum it was hopefully a way to set such in motion to be noticed at a location which would have a higher level of security for whichever area in the state of Texas I had gone to knowing a Best Buy was nearby to the store and thinking such might have an additional set of assistance. I did so in front of my son and my daughter so they saw what the problems were with copying actions without thinking as they saw their cousins in Texas and their aunts as well as their Grandmothers on both sides, so they knew better because of how we would talk at home compared to what they saw and heard in such locations. My son and my daughter always knew and know of how I had been when explaining if there was a situation out in public which needed further discussions, though they also knew my memory deficits and cognitive disorders as they knew about my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury and did not know of the fuller after effects of the times; though I knew at some point they would be able to see even if I could not remember to discuss, I would always leave a trail of breadcrumbs for them to be able to piece together whatever the situations fully connected were to find the actual portions compared to what others told them they knew nothing of. Only in person aspects would give a different perspective or if unable to do so, then the interconnection of links of websites which would be able to be found for my specifics would hopefully be easier to genuinely put the larger puzzle together as to the bigger aspects not necessarily paid attention to at such times; because of whatever extended circumstances were surrounding each, in whichever time. If I guesstimate accurately even with the medications I was prescribed because of the time compared to, the natural responses in public would be easier to see a clearer picture in comparison for extremely specific times which would clarify more than in comparison to the only online versions of which would make sense I had hoped.


I knew as much as I attempted for the best for my son #Letters4James and my daughter #Letters4Lidia for explaining as well as discussing with in conjunction to other portions, I knew as much as I was doing for my own children that meant there would be additional aspects of those who I have known over the years for the ability just in case for their own clarifications as sometimes certain portions are not always known whether or not there is technology involved specifically.


What my biological mother, biological father, biological sister, ex-in-laws, and some who I had known over the years did not necessarily understand despite knowing; I had always told the truth about where I grew up as well as each aspect I had spoken of which each year those who specifically knew me prior to my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as well as specifically knew of the areas and could verify as per their own personal impact after 11 September 2001, there was a different type of connection which stems from childhood and teenager years which can be stronger than some realized well before the events on the day of. I did not remember that many names and/or faces of people initially at first simply because of it only being a little over 1 year and maybe two or three months from waking up from my coma. I knew there would be those who were going to need to find someone if just anyone who reminded them of what good memories from such times prior to as per having to remain walking around and/or living in the area, or if visiting when going back after the proverbial and literal smoke had cleared from the full sky along the entire length of the east coast because of the way the current of the oceanic waters pull on that side of the United States of America. Texans who had not ever been out of the area and only saw such in movies, television, and/or online would be incapable of understanding the impacts of such; unless you were to watch and listen to the 9/11 documentary which the 2 French Film Makers had the only footage within the towers that was allowed to be released from those events due to the investigations which were mandatory and needed to find the fuller roots of what actually occurred on that day as well as the events leading up to through the historical references simply because of the religious portions specifically involved with the 11 September 2001. Personally I remember later that evening after having spoken with who I spoke with earlier to help where I could, I looked at the cordless phone as saw the 9-1-1 tab and I realized it was an emergency for the specifics to that particular day in official capacities though also in unofficial capacities because of the overall situation and the underlying aspects not at the surface at the moment of the events.


Whereas who I had been forced to be in a relationship with regarding my children's biological father as well as the secondary portion referencing the way as well as how had been regarding Cactus Jack AKA Jeffrey Kuykendall Jr of the 151 Road Warriors who encircled the city of San Antonio AKA Military City USA, his younger brother Jeremy had listened a bit differently to what was actually going on comparatively to how he knew how his older brother was and could be and I had talked in a different way. I had spoken with Jeremy as he had many questions in an extremely specific way compared to his brother which Leslie the fiance at the time picked up on, though in a way of which she saw differently herself regarding as to how she saw what was looking to be her soon-to-be-brother-in-law if that went through as she would be able to see from their little sister as to how the two combined would be in comparison to if she chose whether or not to have a child from that lineage and how to proceed. I told Jeremy about the documentary with Leslie which I told them they would be surprised what they saw and heard compared to what was going on in the news and needed to know I personally, needed to take multiple breaks to actually watching and listen to the entire movie documentary. I gave them a few examples as to how and why such would be considerably easier to handle, though because of the knowledge the aspects as to much more details were a difficult aspect to handle. I did not know who else would have seen such from where I grew up regarding such times, and I knew there had to be a way to clear the air as best as I could from where I was at as I knew there had to be more than I knew though I did not know I knew because of the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury. I knew where my biological mother worked though I did not remember the people which I was supposed to according to my biological mother such as the frog last name that started with M who was a manager and had a daughter who survived the Twin Towers attack, and was a part of the office possibly that escape unscathed which stemmed out from Prudential in Holmdel New Jersey; or if she had not survived, the manager himself to be able to think about who he knew which was a part of which groups which had been a part of what portions once the 30 date was over for the last prior contract as per the Non-Disclosure Agreement which cannot be backdated as per a new contract by law as per breaking the statues of agreements from prior rulings as per the mandatory end date as per each and every legal contract by law with the exception of the larger general public in comparison to in a sector whether military or civilian or in between such groups. Thus Anna would have been able to discuss from the end of the 30 years of her first contract any and all details she could and she would know such as I remember telling her that when looking over a secondary additional contract after spending time with the college students at the university my biological father had gone to take care of some work a few weeks prior, to when she was reviewing the packet of filed paperwork. I explained I knew there was not a legal way which technology companies with the exception of specific military, law enforcement of specific higher ranks and specific jobs of employment; which could be held to the legal same standard of the maximum of 70 years, for no further extensions passed such a time as the Founding Fathers and Founding Mothers of whichever groups/organizations made sure to put that specific rule in place even if there was a connection to another lengthier investigation as per the need and requirements as agreed to within the conventions and treaties agreed to. However that manager would know as would his family, and that includes those who went to the family picnic BBQs at Prudential grounds. However all of the children and teenagers who would hang out and play together at the picnic BBQs would not be held to the same standards of the employees of Prudential because of the legal requirements against abuse of child labor, as ruled in such policies over the time and legal requirements. Thus I and other children could talk as long as they did not become employees of the company and sign their own agreements and yet their 30 years or 20 years of 10 years would be within their contract agreement for their first clause signed, which would be the same aspects referencing the legalities of the Non-Disclosure.


Nonetheless the 70 year agreement is only under specific circumstances and cannot begin with the 70 year term as per military and higher law enforcement branches and divisions of the United States of America's Armed Forces, which is a caveat which if there is ever a specific circumstance without prior abuses of such to do so would be a minute loophole of such situations; however again, the prior causes of hypothetically could not be taken into the consideration for the legalities, due to the national security need to before the 3-5 year mark as to decide as to the 70 year as if it were to be prior to the 3-5 year time of such a possible investigation would only be such a circumstance so long as such abuses of power had not occurred prior to such groups and locations of organizations previously being grossly negligent of such sorts of extensions if such were to be. I knew plenty of people whose parents had employment of all sorts and types growing up where I grew up in New Jersey and where I went to, which with such knowledge of the after effects and yet not knowing of such after effects I knew I needed to be able to find a way which the phonebook could not assist the same way as people who would remember such would recall easier. While some might come across what I would write and possibly not know me or of me at such times though was at the time when they needed an extra boost, I had no idea who would meander across my profiles on whichever websites overall and hoped if there was something which would be helpful the assistance could be where possible for them to find what they were looking for and searching. I knew some portions would not be pretty as especially the tri-state area would know for certain specifics regarding public discussions out in the open, though I also knew such aspects were not going on only in the tri-state area. I knew my son and my daughter would need such reminders as well and thus, that was a simple way to at one step at a time figure a way which the specifics could be known only if in person though other aspects online to link together, while each individuals' perspective would be able to see their own outlying circumstances; however you choose to view that particular word, of outlying and to who was actually around such situations in person comparatively at which times. I figured regarding the area and the time which more would know specifics I would not in reference to a public generalized view as per what I was seeing in Texas about New Jersey, I did not understand the life they were speaking of from such a perspective as they described in which ways discussed or briefly shown. Thus with Jeremy and Leslie as their family, I knew they needed to see a different perspective once I was informed of the brief amount of details as to the 151 Road Warriors situation for which way they each would choose to go as they each knew I did not approve of the overall aspects and I knew there had to be a minimum of one who could not stand the situation in the slightest who would need the vindication for the ability to progress forward correctly. However I warned repeatedly before handing the VHS tape over, I could not watch it all the way through and had to take multiple stops to handle what I was seeing and what I was hearing. I was appreciative and I am appreciative of the editing as to the situation regarding the more graphic portions as what I was already listening to and seeing aside from such portions on the screen, was much different than what I knew others would be seeing; however those who would have such a type of connection as to growing up in the area, I knew I needed to get moving and work as fast as I could to make sure I gave the ability for justice as much as possible to be able to piece situations for them together to put their own circumstances in their own larger ways to what they would need for themselves for the betterment. I knew I could not write for each and every individual, though I knew each individual had their own portion of which over time the bigger picture could come together to be able to find the key piece to what was needing to be unlocked to reveal more than just one or two sides seen via the media of whichever type.


I knew what situation I was forced into though I could not explain in actual speaking words as per the headache and migraine pain levels and though the zapping from the keyboard at times was ferociously painful, I knew I needed to continue forward because of knowing if I forgot to put one aspect down even if a minute one seemingly; how much more that small little portion might actually be the piece of glitter, which makes the puzzle piece clearer for the correct location, to put into place, to see the larger portion of the picture, prior to completing the overall puzzle to know what the truth had always been and what specific portions needed to actually be seen compared to what was being shown. Law and Order specifically SVU had been extremely helpful to remember certain aspects I knew after the news and before, to think about what I could remember as I knew my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury occurred for a reason though I could not know as to why or remember what was seemingly needed more quickly with each aspect. My biological mother figured out I was working on that when in Crystal Lake Illinois after my daughter was born and the problems which occurred during that week, which my biological father and my biological sister would fully remember how infuriated I had been as to how my biological mother had allowed her dog Dakota to bite my children's feet needlessly to make them bleed as she defended the dog trying to say she could not bring herself to put the dog in a closed off area compared to how I was raised and knowing such were my son and my daughter and how I had been treated compared to my biological sister who had been upstairs in her room with the door closed with my now dead-ex-husband their biological father. She knew, I was not joking when I said I was ready to leave and began packing the entirety of everything brought with for that 1.5-2 week stay in 2002. By the time my biological father walked into the house I had already put everything at the front door to leave when he walked in, and asked what happened as I was enraged. I told him what his wife cared more about than my son and my daughter, the garbage about my biological sister, and a brief larger explanation as I went to grab the rest of the luggage as my children were taken down to safety to keep away from the dog Dakota what she called a Peekapoo. That dog looked like a race car went wrong as the tail was on the top of the back with its poop hole, the back hind legs looked like the big wheel racers with the shorter legs in the front, its face looked like it had been kicked in the a$$ hard enough it flew across a room and its face looked as though it his a brick wall and the eyes bugged out.


My biological mother said she thought it looked like a Chinese Dragon, which I made my own personal commentary about dragons and etcetera regarding her and Patricia Ann(abomination). Shortly after that and knowing they would not see me in Illinois ever again after that trip, all of a sudden they discussed moving to the state of Texas. Can anyone tell as to the real reasons, simply from the Christmas time trip and certain circumstances the second they learned of the death compared to when prior just by a few months in January 2008? The newspaper article came out and that was when all of a sudden, according to my biological family they felt a need to be nearby all of a sudden though mainly my biological mother and biological sister compared to my biological father who took a step back to see a bit before getting involved in seeing in a larger way as to how the situations actually had been all along such as the fact I had to jump into the backyard to get him out of the heat into safety because of his wife taking the keys to the house purposefully reminding me to take him back to the house when done and a weird feeling I had gotten which lead me to grab my son and my daughter to run towards the backyard and jump the fence to carrying him over to the fence line to get him into the van to go to my house to get his health from the diabetes back to proper levels. As a different individual would know in a version of lemonade and sweet tea mixture for a brief spot, that was a different version as to what I had done for the 32 cup percolator of coffee to get the situation properly squared away for the levels of needed amount of required healing energy for the particular situation. I do admit, I can see more than one or two ironies.


My ex-in-laws knew of such, they also knew of who Patricia Ann(abomination) was looking to get involved with, they had updated her as to what they were informed of through their biased lenses, as well as when the funeral occurred those who were around my biological sister and biological mother know exactly as to how their personality traits were during the timing the first knew compared to the timing of when they actually spoke about what occurred and the thereafter. I know I was not discussed by my biological family to the who to be engaged to, though they too had technology and were able to see for themselves upon learning as to who as seen when you show your cellphone to someone or computer to someone to discuss. I gave warnings repeatedly to both sides before learning that Cactus Jack AKA Jeffrey Kuykendall Jr who I had not ever wanted to be involved with and was disgusted as to how the forced situation had been, had decided to without my permission tell them only to later ask if it was okay after I knew he had already done so as per how his family would know how he had been the whole time. I knew he knew someone to be able to get the 151 Road Warriors Alamo Drafthouse 410 situation under complete control and I knew I did not care as to what the excuse was as the need for others who were needlessly impacted as to such childish and callous behaviour needed to stop and whoever would have pushed for such against the will of who was doing the correct job to prosecute such a situation would need additional aspects immediately, though I had to move silently when getting such situational information. I allowed the relationship to continue only enough to get enough people to meet with Cactus Jack AKA Jeffrey Kuykendall Jr to be able to in person listen to his own renditions and then ask about the additional portions his friends he had introduced me to and details of for each discussion of which I knew was a domestic terrorist situation which would help to unlock the keys to the truth regarding the 11 September 2001 attacks; such as those who would try to use a religion which had mainly a peaceful transition away from sharia law though through reenacting such a easily done online though in person through SCA and Renaissance Faire aspects, there had to be a connection which someone who would have had to deal with being forced to cover up the situation would be enraged by knowing the impact in a major way compared to.


I was made fun of for not knowing pop culture references by multiple individuals, and yet none of them knew to the level of competition they envoked when telling me they knew games better regarding the computer. There was absolutely no knowledge to the fullest level of which I had been involved in during my childhood, there was nothing in my background which they would ever be able to trace as to who I specifically knew as even with the online aspects the levels of which to try to figure out the truth with such individuals as from the east coast tri-state area who would know of such sorts of behaviours; would completely pown the ones who would be arrogant enough to play games while seeing other portions which they would be able to work through from their own situations, as there is no competition as competition from when growing up in the tri-state area which those who grow up in such a region know and those who visit the region can feel. If picked up and the competitiveness is for those who can survive such an area from another state and allowed to for specific purposes always, as that particular streak does not go to those who are meek nor mild though might present themselves as meek and modest. However someone who has been allowed to enter the area to live in the location to be allowed to repay what kindness the state had allowed such to be a part of to see and enjoy regarding specifically New Jersey and all entailed with which reasons seen in a specific perspective and the unknowing knowing as to the whys as to such though not necessarily, a large misconception has been going on for the region for far too long. If from the south specifically and/or the mid west, the knowingness as to the interconnections of a much larger picture is always required for the proper responses and the clear purposes as to the causes and reasons for such. Has anyone ever met a tri-states who seemed they had a bit of pent up aggression? Now, enter people who would think such as the 151 Road Warriors they could ever be able to do anything regarding those who were on the ground level of where video and computer games began compared to the development later on the west coast. Add a bit of wanting to rectify some situations which felt needed to look into previously though outlying circumstances and you have a mixture of which those who needed to deal with specifics would be able to find solace with while those who needed a different type of education which only the north and the northeast in its own unique way, make sure what can be possible is made possible by whichever means possible for what needs to be done for the best possible outcome. Whereas some might think they were geniuses at one aspect, you do not know or understand the complexities of the north east coast through reading anything without immersing within for longer than a few days on a weekend; that is unless you have an experience in the area, which makes you realize certain aspects as to how the north east coast actually runs if you are a known outsider compared to someone who actually grew up in the areas of or considered areas of a different type of treaty arrangements only known to those who walk such grounds. Scooters as seen in Austin do not give you the slightest view in the larger way, though you do see in the starting portions as to how such is actually going to go in such areas similarly within the state of Texas.


I warned people to be careful what they write and/or say regarding the events of 11 September 2001 as unlike anything prior, that would be remembered each and every year whether or not the larger number anniversary such as with seen regarding Pearl Harbor and D-Day events of history, as the amount of the younger and elders who were in such areas and knowing of more in person, would not be as forgiving as others would wish for regarding certain types of individuals; as the events of 11 September 2001 or 9-1-1 were around the world a larger impact, and they needed to realize to be more cautious as to how they chose to interact and respond. Who paid attention to which warnings, is who paid attention to which warnings. I was surprised as to how many within the state of Texas by the time of 2005 were extremely nonchalant about the actual day as to being within a larger area with multiple military individuals which was not making sense until later in 2008, to see a portion as to what the problems were stemming from in a multitude of ways. I realized by around the time of 2009 if you were in a certain type of perspective, your views were askewed and you were refusing needlessly to see the actual change as to the way the world was actually moving towards no matter how many people wished one way or another. The events of that day and the ability to move around the United States of America and the world more easily, I could see how that was a situation which needed to be looked into further which possibly could assist to unlock the key needed factors to open the reality for such to actually be known as to what was simply just a pretty view compared to the backgrounds thereof and actualities. History did not need to repeat certain aspects and yet, apparently it did within a shorter amount of time for more to open their eyes to see the truth had always been out there.


My home area is where what my ex-in-laws would think they knew from what they saw and those along the east coast know such sorts without ever having to be told, and my biological mother/sister/father were in the Crystal Lake Illinois mindset as they were already losing the east coast mindset before they moved to the state of Texas. I had previously to 2003 told many individuals and groups about both aspects as to my biological mother, biological father, and biological sister while also discussing my ex-in-laws from which experiences there were to be able to discuss as discussions with others tend to go. I knew my biological mother knew something she was not sharing correctly and I knew she was incapable to ever learn as to how Texas truly does things in similar ways to the tri-state area, though over a larger spread of land to have some additional time to think in the car compared to the traffic in the tri-state area. Their arrogance would be their downfall regarding my biological parents and biological sister, as I saw how Grandpa looked at them compared to when he saw his own biological children just as I saw my maternal Grandmother and how her other children and grandchildren were compared to in reference regarding my biological sister in comparison to how viewed me. They know how their experiences over time had been and can correlate upon their own terms though also keep in mind those I knew in person specifically after I had told you about how my biological parents and sister were referencing the east coast area and their embarrassment of being related to me, they refused to tell me they were going to a biological family reunion until after the trip was already booked and they told me they did not bother asking me because my son and my daughter did not need that side of the family according to my biological mother. Those who know how she is, you know what aspects were during such. I actually was upset about not getting to go as I thought it would have been great for my son and my daughter to meet their extended cousins while being able to actually get to know who I was related to and may have known more at one point, though they also know how my biological mother and biological father and biological sister had been and how they needed to be the center of attention in whichever ways they could gain sympathy for your views to be as they preferred compared to what you already knew from your pasts with them in person. Whereas I know there are those who went through similar circumstances which I survived despite being called a victim of child abuse by my own biological mother and biological sister and biological father, I know there are those who are survivors of child abuse and needed a way to find a clearer path to not repeat the patterns of behaviour they saw in similar circumstances.


I would guesstimate if such was as doing the best I could for my son #Letters4James and #Letters4Lidia there would be those who such as their cousins would be able to even though having known of what was available information aspects allowed at such times, there would be an availability for a more genuine connection compared to the other aspects thereof as I knew I could not have been the only child and teenager and adult going through certain situations even if not at what the combination has been at such times. Take females on the east coast who have already dealt with the machismo to push through to be able to be their own individual in their own lives such as the way when growing up specifically within the 1980s and 1990s within the tri-state area have an extremely different hardness than any other area of the United States of America, which no other area within the United States of America can deny because of the space proximity comparatively for such a larger combination. Those females know lineages in larger ways as to who was helping with which areas genuinely, compared to who was causing problems needlessly for other females while climbing up however climbed up and the repercussions which in the long terms as adding up the weight of which to see a different path once realized to repair and fix where can within one's own family while working in a larger way as seeing how similar in more ways than not to different minute aspects. Elders who had already seen such in the multitude of ways compared to the youth growing up in a post 9-1-1 world, I knew it was the beginning of WWIII at the time of that year. As time has gone on for specifically those of whichever ages more in knowledge deeper as to the realities of the east coast and tri-state areas when looking back in time in more modern views, how all of the signs were truly there though the cluster was more than some truly could see for whatever aspects thereof. I knew a female from the Jade Wolf Coven who preferred to care more regarding Michael Moore which she was not seeing the larger aspects combined with the 9/11 documentary, which she wanted to have more of his children which I warned her about as there were those who truly understood that aspect seen in regards of certain areas of the Michael Moore Fahrenheit 9/11 combined with the differences and yet specifics which many more can understand regarding specifics of the sounds falling and military/law enforcement/fire department/EMS for emergency situations in the French Film documentary 9/11. Whether the after impact effects or the sounds themselves, I had warned as to being careful because there were and are individuals who that particular set of sounds with other portions are not regarding the speaking necessarily when I referenced to Christy. She refused to see what I was meaning at such a time and being in the state of Texas as well as within the city of San Antonio after growing up in Abilene Texas as she met her husband when he was stationed at Goodfellow Air Force Base, she among others she knew could not see the impact as to what they were not seeing around what would occur. She laughed when referencing the swirling clouds when I had cast a circle within Mike's house and she laughed about how I was in the shite portions as she was in the darkness as birds of a feather, of which ironically in some ways as she was infuriated as to how I had protected her husband from her types of ways. Of which if the voicemail situation regarding Brieanna Marie to my daughter Lidia Louise of her biological father's voice was a part of the equivalent to my choice to literally energetically protect Mike and at the point I told him he would wake up to her garbage and leave her to take the children he could save as I told him about the protective energetic aspects I had done for his two daughters and his one son, if she viewed such as to viewing me as a homewrecker and those who would have known how she had been in person as well as online such as Ubi Uzzi on facebook with Steve from Jamie and Steve; the ironic complexities as to the levels which I warned others of her psychosis. I was not able to warn my biological family nor was I able to warn my ex-in-laws, however I was able to warn the female Dominants as well as several in a few lifestyle communities throughout the state of Texas.


Steve worked as a manager at the San Antonio Gentlemen's Club, though was married to Jamie which I had done the protection for their son when at the house for an evening and if when Jamie died and Stephen had not cleaned up his act as he had repeatedly been warned by Jamie to do or she knew her parents would not ever allow her son to see them again; I do not doubt he refused to change his ways, as Jamie and I were far closer than Jamie and Christy which Christy despised her friend she found being more interested in me than speaking with her. I warned them I was only going to be a satellite sister to who needed me the most, which I warned others about such as well in such a conjunction when absolutely necessary for clarifications in a similar way to how in reference to my son and my daughter; however in a larger way as sometimes the need for the initial view to be seen and realized in such a 9/11 aspect to when revealed respond accordingly to then as needed give such a clarification which the constructive criticism makes more sense in comparison to the initial in direct view, when able to take a step back. Jamie was given that opportunity when I called her seeing her phone number in the cellphone of my dead-ex-husband when getting the cellphone from CID, which I knew was a sign as per the CID aspects referencing Brackenridge and the rave. I grew up in New Jersey and had seen a lot in different locations which the Army knew I had survived, as they had completed my background check initial paperwork to begin around November 1999 before the paperwork for my emancipation from my biological parents and biological sister 6 March 2000. They would have known about prior Child Protective Services complaints, the Baptist Camp Lebanon court situation, my International Tae Kwondo competition which I earned 2nd and 3rd place in sparring and form as a Green belt first entry against brown belt with black stripe and tape above for the ranking from all over the world, Saint John Vianney High School bus fight, the forced cheerleading, the forced Beauty Pageant, and the forced hospitalization when I rightfully refused to comply to what was known as wrong. My biological parents would not think just as my biological sister would not think to contact anyone except who they knowingly had scammed as well as those who they knowingly had set up to be able to pretend they knew nothing, while knowing how they were would be revealed later as they would show up when they needed something without ever bringing anything with them or sending something before hand with the underground etiquette which only certain individuals of certain groups would truly understand and comprehend. They did not know or pay attention to the Valentines Day card with the scope drawing though they made fun of me for it and showed multiple people, which would make sense to them as to why subconsciously the choice to show while my biological sister would gladly joke along as per her own prior aspects which others would be able to give their portions as to as well as what occurred in the short term comparatively in long terms. I warned people of a multitude of such however, my ex-in-laws were not warned of such with the exception of my ex-brother-in-law Tony Walker and his wife with their children. I had done so in person and only one of the children other than my son and my daughter had been able to know in person as well as listen to me when I discussed certain portions especially with the reasons we were going to Oklahoma during the time, as I knew Tony Walker was doing what he could to teach the girls self-defense. I showed them my bag and I handed it over to them letting them know it was important for them to learn how to keep themselves safe in a multitude of aspects, while their cousins listened as well. Joseph particularly began to pay attention and asked questions about the online portions while the others went through their time with Tony Walker for the hunting lessons, as I was adamant about the safety precautions for the firearm training as I could see something different which I knew Tony Walker and Joseph would be able to work on with Gail's son Robert; as the dogs Freja and Ganesh were at the location, as I knew the need for that type of a reminder would make more sense in the long run for the name choices and how the females saw how my dogs responded no matter the length of time. I did feel bad having to make the choice for such regarding the Sherriff who I had gotten the Great Danes from, however I knew he needed to focus more on what I knew he had to know more about in comparison to Ganesh and the name would make more sense to him as well when realizing such a choice of a name. He had seen in person despite how Ganesh was the runt of the litter and yet bonded extremely well with, the time when first visiting as to the difference from less than 2 weeks of being with me as to how the behavioural patterns were being corrected in a way proper for the size of growing to 200 pounds as the runt. He knew how I am about such and he knew I had also spoken of the Homeowners Association situation along with the neighbors, and as the 151 Road Warriors situation was something I knew he would have to know someone who knew someone, the way to put such together in a different way regarding the levels of finances involved as well as people and locations with connections.


What people do not realize or maybe did not realize before I wrote a few things, what coding occurred in the background along with the messages back and forth between coders; you are seeing in the social media aspect, or at minimum have seen such aspects as to how coders in certain references had been regarding to one another though behind the scenes. I know my son, my daughter, and Joseph had listened more intently in the car ride upward as they saw me driving; and though quiet as per his usual after so many years of what he had seen and heard, I knew he was listening extremely intently as to the differences in how I spoke with my children in comparison to what he was seeing; similarly to the aspects as to when at his Aunt and Uncle's house in Oklahoma, which gave Tony Walker the time he did not have with his dad in such a way while at the same time giving the three cousins time together showing the abilities within the situation while also the other cousins seeing the patience he actually had and then slowly making their ways towards healing and mending as needed. I was posting pictures and explanations as time went on, however I am as I am about taking pictures as best as possible for the ability to assist my memory; I cannot say or write the same about others referencing my biological parents or biological sister and the same in reference to my ex-in-laws more specifically referencing my ex-sisters-in-law and ex-mother-in-law beyond what images were put where in that abomination of a house, such as the stolen valor pictures in almost every room of that house. Joseph would know much more and with one particular picture I pointed out to him that I truly did not like nor appreciate for him, I looked towards him one day when he was younger and told him "You can see your future here or you can change it for your betterment. Which, is your choice?"


The females of the ex-in-laws laughed and said it was where he was meant to be as I looked towards Grandpa Nichols and we both said he had his own choice, and with such a trip for the beginning of which many were completely unaware of as there are needs for those who are in considered as the shadows and yet are still out in the daylight compared to those who play games behind the shadows such as how Christine had said she preferred to mess with people as those who know who I am referencing to would be able to give their own descriptions as to such events as her problems with how I had been as I had always been; as she wished she could prove there was no such thing as Jesus Christ or Divinity or the One and asked me if I would ever save her from the Christ's followers another evening after she had been drinking and I had taken her back to the house from Joe's Volcano. I asked if she was going to continue on such a path as she had already been warned as to both sides of my children's biological family, she fell over asleep. Jamie and I spoke with one another for several hours clearing up the air as she had already told me she had spoken with her family about me as her mom knew some small town situations they were needing answers to, which we updated one another and she said she wished she knew certain information about other aspects specifically regarding Christy and Mike from the situation; though she did not elaborate as to what occurred more in depth beyond the amount of drama that had needlessly been stirred up after Tina was more official in the Jade Wolf Coven after Christy brought in a female named Sarah who had an Air Force branch husband as Steve still worked at the San Antonio Gentleman's Club and each I knew except for Sarah which since I had not met her and was not interested in looking her up; I simply moved on with my life after the situations referencing the portions regarding such a female to think as Christy would wish, to have even the slightest bit of control I had in one flick. I knew myself and as Corrinne would know from New Jersey, I was quite capable in reference to solitary work. I knew if doing such types of energetic portions depending upon would be quite specific and the requirements for what I felt for the comfortability to work with others in such a way, would be extremely different than most as well as would not be as the ways of which some wished me to practice when referencing the Jade Wolf Coven or any other coven to be honest. I was viewed as arrogant wrongly for such a view though they were told I was only going to be a satellite sister for those who needed me, and thus whichever took such as such took such as such and they made their choices which in turn the long term repercussions of such behaviours is a longer term impact which the scarlet letters of are unable to ever be erased from online or technological aspects for certain specific types of guilt such as the wrongful pedophilia and what is done to those who willingly choose to violate such I have made known regarding my opinions in person as a teenager in Crystal Lake Illinois more specifically as only a few people in New Jersey would have heard my specific statements about hydrochloric acid to stop such or apparently it is called a chemical castration in a different way as the Child Protective Service reports filed in reference to who of where in addition to when at the time of needing to make a report myself as needing the help as I had done for others before such as in Asher Holmes Elementary School regarding a sleepover and a female whose dad had already been abusive; I told my biological father I went to sleep in my red sleeping bag and I woke up in the other daughter's sleeping bag as she woke up in mine, which she told me she needed me to see what was going on if anything ever happened to her and/or her mom as she was adopted as Asher Holmes Elementary School would have those records from such time. I remember that following week after telling Mike, the teacher said she would not be back and I blurted out of what occurred which each person in that class in 4th grade listened and while some laughed others paid attention to what was going on regarding such as they recognized certain portions instantly. Mike did not necessarily as I would know officially, though it was known how Anna had been regarding a different type of babysitting situation. In San Antonio one day at their house I confronted Anna about that specifically and her nonchalant response was it was a better deal, and she thought I should feel better that Patricia did not have to deal with all of that as to what was next as she knew about how David had been in Old Tennent Presbyterian Church as others in his class had been informed of through high school and their computer workings for classes as New Jersey had a large amount of schools which had computer desktops throughout the entire state before or around 1980 compared to the other areas of the tri-state. Colleges would have had the computers first of course though, and such would be for the length of paperwork and homework back then.


If the voicemail regarding Brieanna Marie and Sondra Marie with Ariel Marie had to do with the Jade Wolf Coven as they would think it would be easy to go through such endeavors just as they would do so referencing if hypothetically referencing Patrick Kennedy in regards of the taped message which lead to my being interrogated by my biological mother and biological father in their San Antonio house has to do with the problems of Christine's psychosis of what she said was bipolar, depression, schizophrenia, obsessive disorder, and other psychosis she explained; I had warned multiple people including Master Charles as well as Joe Rose about the female named Christy from the Jade Wolf Coven, though others as well who made whichever choices as to whichever warnings they chose to believe or not or what-have-you. I could see such a female contacting my biological sister under a guise as per the way the two have similarities of only child syndrome despite place, the constant competitiveness in ways to purposefully cause harm for any type of attention instead of learning how to earn proper attention in a positive way, as well as proper grammar when speaking in comparison to only throwing temper tantrums and crying at each opportunity to gain the sympathy for the tears produced from a blond naturally blue eyes female who looked similar to Molly at Mike's house one evening though almost looking as a cousin to Christy.


Whereas I had taken a step back from the BDSM/LGBTQP/Swinger lifestyles in 2005, the Jade Wolf Coven continued to go forward with such as well as in the San Antonio Pagan Night Out community. I would not doubt if there was a cousin or friend of the Jade Wolf Coven who would have found out about my going to the Excalibur Faire and the situation referencing being surrounded by the 5 males with unsheathed weapons while dressed in tattered clothing which they said was of a troll with makeup type of mask, which I handled as best as I could as I stood my ground. Christy would have no concept as to the fact I was told to be myself and if as occurred, 5 males with weapons surrounding me was not something I had not defended myself against from before that day in a much more confined area when doing so. Saint John Vianney High School in Holmdel New Jersey learned of such, though was not informed of my International Tea Kwondo trophy earned level for that year which I earned 2nd and 3rd place in sparring and form. I did not test for other aspects I was trained in, though Tony Walker as well as the cousins with Gail discussed such in a further detailed depth about defenses.


I warned my ex-in-laws as best as I could about the Jade Wolf Coven however instead of thinking about certain aspects, the funeral which had occurred as to the religious pieces which was ordered not to put into the casket for my ex-in-laws dead relative with what they knew was told and informed of as stolen valor; the final sealing from the first portion referencing my dead-ex-husband was in 2004 as the Jade Wolf Coven was informed of for what his purpose was going to be for what he owed by his choice to go into my altar cabinet and literally play with fire, the second sealing was when Cactus Jack AKA Jeffrey Kuykendall Jr had volunteered to be a part of the situation as he had and what was already taken care of regarding the candles was taken care of prior to flicking the lighter, the third sealing was the tattoos he did not want to listen to me and take care of properly, the fourth sealing through onward was the confessions; and then when the final portions were added as I warned my ex-in-laws to stop and not go put anything into his casket as I only allowed certain individuals and not a blanket overall as they knew and had purposefully gone to the Asian Import store for each piece they were breaking direct orders as to their choices, the irony as to the way my biological sister looks in comparison as well as the wedding she chose to have ignoring me when I warned her previously as well as she denied me to her wedding after she had asked for my son #Letters4James to be the ring bearer and she asked for my daughter #Letters4Lidia to be the flower girl; though was upset I stayed after driving from Carrollton Texas to Austin Texas for such as well as purchasing all of the clothing they wore to the wedding, of which they went to get their nails and hair done before the wedding and told me they did not need or want me to go with them for even their eyebrows to be done. My son and my daughter went with those females and watched and listened as to how those females spoke of my son and my daughter's Mom, and however they chose to handle themselves is how they chose to handle the situations of which the abomination of a wedding was commenced well before they left for their nails to be completed as per prior situations they had been warned of even though they thought they knew better. As such would be considered for an unaware individual to be prepared for a public overreaction, I simply kept quiet and to myself until the time for their abomination of a wedding began which encircled each of my biological parents and biological sister as well as their associations within just as the pictures Brieanna Marie and Sondra Marie and Ariel Marie wanted to take pictures of during the funeral in January 2008; for the abilities to find the similarities, to get the justice required as I had warned many of prior for both sides of my children's biological families and attachments thereof to such in each way for justice.


My ex-mother-in-law making such choices as to not only lie to Grandpa Nichols she had been warned as to change her ways for the better and each time she would say she was changing and she would change for the better as she was changing, and yet there was not a change in the slightest regarding her. There is the SouthPark episode which Sadaam sings to Satan and if you look at such caricatures to my ex-mother-in-law to her daughter Susie Marie as well as grandchildren for both from to meaning the two female biological adults to one another as well as the female adult biologically as to the children from such as to who Grandma Nichols had called in the police tips to get her daughter's children's father arrested as Grandpa Nichols had warned Grandma Nichols the second each of the children were out of the house and away, he would finish the battle she brought though he warned her if he was unable to do so himself; he promised he would find someone who would clear the air for everyone to know, as he knew he was not the only Vietnam War veteran who had dealt with such sorts of trash as his modern wife who played tricks on others as such as she had. He chose to keep the red haired female's picture by his head and if you were to look at the female who was flown from New York City to the funeral for your dead relative, did you recognize as to who she actually would have looked as in the drawing and how did Grandpa Nichols react when seeing her for the first time in decades? People in Alabama would have examples as to how Grandma Nichols had been referring to the chickens and the gas charges in conjunction to Fort Polk Louisiana and anywhere else they had been stationed at the time until Fort Worth Texas which each can give their own viewpoints as to such especially with additional referencing portions of which others such as my ex-brother-in-law David Osteen and ex-sister-in-law Gail Nichols who would be able to give a more specific perspective as to my ex-mother-in-law as would Joe Lopez and each one's specific extended family as to the treatment levels as to Grandma Nichols; as Mondo did not get addicted to any prescriptions of drugs until after Grandma Nichols thought she knew better than anyone else, and has been involved with more aspect than she has ever been willing to admit to as I would have known seeing Anna my biological mother do as not ever care about the repercussions though now it is time for justice for their choices and others' choices as such in full in my opinion.


For example if Grandma Nichols were to lose any source of income she would instantly jump to make it where one of the children which would automatically have access to their own income feel as though they should move into her place to be able to take advantage of the cash in any area hidden as the technology has caught up to her scheme of gaming the food stamps to sell for cash, the purchasing of known stolen hot items to sell for cash, the advertising of other situations so she can sell for the cash; or she has gotten Home Depot, Lowes, Walmart, Target, and etcetera gift cards because they once used to be untraceable though with the mandatory identification cards and the lack of cash being more widely accepted and their lack of technology availability regarding those people would be the next chance they would think they would have to be able to gain any access to any financial aspects of which then they would try to hack into a phone which they would think would be where the finances were to then be caught by the NSA for such types of illegal hacking for prosecution as there would be the trail of the coding errors to track to find the original source as to which coding had been used as per text messages and phone calls which would last longer than a certain amount of time to try to triangulate the phone to only find out they were not ever given a phone which would have ever been allowed to get such information and the banking systems would have already been alerted as per the situations regarding the fraudulent alert I put out on my credit report years ago after going into the bank in person multiple times and the bank paying attention to each and every location I would go to ensure to find each ping to catch each one after what had occurred in 2013 and the Blanco San Antonio Police Report as well as the Obudsman which in turn if it meant my daughter went to prison for not learning to keep herself under control then so mote it be as she should have paid attention to what she was taught and I warned the mental health hospitals as to the background in full of what she had been exposed to as well as how I noticed she was learning how to manipulate the system to which I knew it meant she needed to be stopped and put an end to my own care for her choices to take such a risk after learning the hard lessons she had already had to learn she should have known better than to be as arrogant as she had seen more of the failures of my ex-in-laws of which the fullest extent of the law for prosecution against my own biological daughter would be mandatory as well as all of her associates for trying to be as her Grandma Nichols; as I also had informed the Dallas and Fort Worth Police Department as well as the rest of the state of Texas where I could, out into the United States of America, and then to the world as to what types of people should not be allowed to exist any further for such constant tries to overrun a system they did not want to learn how to be better human beings instead of what had occurred. I had done all I could do to actually make situations better and hoped and hope I have though part of being a Mom means having to have the ability to love tough and if that means cutting the cords and removing all forms of contact for such because of the refusal to be better despite all made efforts in genuine honesty in full truth to only be lied to again and again, my ex-in-laws played into Grandpa Nichols' and his friends hands at each and every individual turn as they have been watching her and those people's movements for an extremely long amount of time well before I ever met that family and my own biological family moved to Texas the same sort of tracking.


Welcome to the military and lifestyle collision, are you ready?




My ex-mother-in-law who would purposefully choose to arrange aspects the way the Kennedy family had as her obsession with how perfect their life had been was part of other portions as to what drove her and others to lie to come to America because of the simple question, ask not what you can get from your country but ask what you can do for your country. How many people have sent money back to the country they came out from instead of keeping the money they made in the United States of America within the country to then use as wanted when as what-have-you, and what has not been helpful in the slightest for doing so and yet other countries have somehow gained finances? How to stop sorts of behaviour for stealing illegally, means the restrictions are fully put into place and the requirements to make sure to handle correctly what is needed as there is no longer the time pickpocketing is allowed to be hidden as well as the aspects of technology cannot go through such ever again as per what has already occurred; and thus the time of which the new world order is put into place, of which the ordering of the world for organizing such sorts of situations for a newer viewpoint to distinguish more clearly for the organization of the proper logistical portions thereof. I had categorized various aspects regarding my biological family as well as my ex-in-laws of which I hope for the genuine betterment, not the half a**ed worthless short term gains which only land such types of individual into prison types of situations. Whether that is the prison system itself of the prison system of being on the welfare state to which you owe the IRS/United States of America's government for each individual penny you cost such for whatever you used and/or benefited from however so. I learned from the Enron situation that while the larger aspects were needed for such, the portions referencing individual people of specific circumstances were not as widely paid attention to. I saw the impact on the literal ground floor in several areas and ways of my interact which at a point I think someone higher up in the IRS had a point of which realizing there had to be a way to not destroy the entire family unit, as I could not be the only one who saw such impacts to children. However when with proven multigenerational aspects of when taking into consideration how my ex-in-laws have their different connections and their own influences throughout where they think they have, compared to where has actually been seen and held for whatever purposes as per their own patterns of behaviour. Thus until legal aspects the Artificial Intelligence goes off of what the prior patterns are for such individuals as my ex-in-laws as per the type of video games they prefer until they get their lives together correctly, or the next generation begins to learn from in the ways which by their own choices of free will to use technology means the ability to have the traceable aspects all around the world and the clarifications needed for proper thoughts of forward progression compared to repeating the same patterns of behaviour comparatively to what could and would be better for the current short time into the longer terms into the longest possibilities. As such ex-in-laws children and grandchildren have already taken pictures, video taped, recorded, and etcetera however they chose to whether or not within the legal confounds of the law and with such consequences for such choices including connections thereof to any form or type of contact in any way; their legacy has already been set in stone and their choices are based upon what each individual step is compared to the free reign they once had, just as the same is to be said for in reference to my biological mother and biological father and biological sister as it would not surprise me in the least if a bunch of arrogant individuals did not pay attention to the fact the Army had to release me from the restrictions illegally placed on me because of the overstepping of boundaries and each individual who purposefully chose to come after such was dealt with in individual manners and ways because of the amount of overreach in such times. I could easily see civilians as well as military specifically overstepping their bounds especially if someone had a male profession normally who would not have any respect for females in authority to have the need to be the poster child for the reasons as to why such authorities are granted to the opposite gender to put such individuals in place by informing the spouse of such and the warnings previously in place for going over the line, and having to be reeled back in for correctional training as to what not to do in the general public sector that you knew not to take out from the military sector just because you wanted to get your jollies.


Such males in certain professions which they think they are the Dominants are where they have been wrong the entire time as the movies have been brought forward as to the amount of females behind the scenes of which such jobs have been allowed, however those who have overstepped such training and were incapable to keep such in check has been the portion of prophecy which few ever knew of as to the amount of problems obviously regarding stolen valor; though how such individuals would refuse to acknowledge Command's orders to stand down and what the problems occur for such individuals who cause insubordination for someone known to have a specific type of Clearance, which in turn that type of individual would and should know better if such a clearance were to be revealed as to what reasons were unbeknownst to another with such a clearance though a male dominated field of profession such as the same regarding my SCUBA Diving certifications and accomplishments including the allowance to be allowed to breath after catching a Puffer Fish; those in both sectors of which to pay attention to the times, was also needed to be brought forward. You cannot have just any female be able to bring such attention to the amount of situations as I mean please, I was 17 years old when I fought to be emancipated to be able to join the Army branch of the United States of America and I wanted to either go into the Infantry or Calvary or Combat Arms to go into the Special Forces to handle whatever was needed to keep the United States of America safe from all threats whether foreign and/or domestic; as to the Republic for which it stands. As such balance needed to know the difference between a feminazi who would push down any and all fe/males compared to a feminist who works diligently to life as many upward as possible while stepping upward too, the difference is quite clear.


The first sets of co-ed United States of America's Marine Corps has begun and thus those male aspects of which the Infantry, Calvary, and Combat Arms with and without Special Forces shows with how such has been as to the treatment of the overall regarding all of which within brings forward such a new era of time of which finding the balance while maintaining higher standards is of importance in comparison to lowering standards to weaken as certain types have been known to do and been found to be needing such opening of the eyes for the better for more. A type A male dominant type with a profession which once was dominant though over time as such a profession goes the need for such a type of personality to be able to properly acclimate to the general public instead of causing more problems as such in a different way as per military training, would fail to ever sere the importance of a Dominant Female in any type of way or view except in the narrow minded little version to which such types of personality traits are not necessary for the short term currently to continue as the long term into the longest term requires people to actually work together instead of bicker and fight because of the lack of ability to go out as once had and yet not having what thrills once were because of the type of employment to which such a type of collision would bring forward a change which would surprise many and yet surprise none at all depending upon who is who.


I am thankful I was able to give warnings and hopefully such warnings were helpful more-so, in comparison to the overall amount of aspects I have had to deal with needlessly. However I did say I wanted to go Enlisted for such an endeavor as per what I knew already regarding the levels of enlisted, Chief Warrant Officer, and Officer from the bottom to the top to be the first female Command of the United States of America's Armed Forces by the time I was 37 years old as I wanted to make sure whatever I did was correctly done with the proper amount of information to be able to as unbiasedly give suggestions as needed and/or whatever meetings as per requirement; while being able to earn a living on my way up and find a way to write for a more balanced understanding for religion and spirituality for a clearer view of understanding.


While some read mythology within their video games, computer games, board games such as Cactus Jack AKA Jeffrey Kuykendall Jr and others in comparison; I took Latin for years in a Catholic High School after and during going to church at Old Tennent Presbyterian Church which I was raised unable to watch movies above a G rating until when allowed, prior to making my own choices for myself. Despite the technology aspects which I had not viewed technology as a game despite having played some much younger when I was in my earlier years up to around the age of 6 or 7, I was done playing most types of games as those did not keep my attention in the slightest long term. However with such that means what I have taken pictures and/or videos of which are only for my use when I take such and have taken such unless I am asked specifically within certain protocols of which asking in genuine truth in comparison as stealing always leads to problems especially when regarding technology, as you simply do not know who coded what now do you? After Irving 2011, would it be safer for everyone on earth for people to keep their technology hands to themselves instead of hacking?


Maybe it might be safer in the longer term for a bunch more hypothetically, as who knows how such comes back to your doorstep and which one especially regarding my Medal of Honor Art Project as that particular portion of which the responsible choice to be respectful is much more important than some might have realized as to the etiquette.


My ex-in-laws are exactly as they are just as in an overall reference because of title portions in my own thoughts and ways additionally depending as to each choice made by each individual thereafter, such is up to and has been up to. For such choices are such aspects as to which if going to a technology state to then continue as to how had treated me before, there is not a wonder as to the drama that was stirred up after I began volunteering though only after a certain point in time. As per reports as each has to be legally done for businesses each night for the company's benefit otherwise if the company chooses to not keep such a log for each day/night of events such as minutes in a meeting for a board though in a larger way depending upon the business, then the business is subject to the legal requirements to bring such areas up to code as per legal standards which the fine print always has for you to read. For example when signing a government document form to tell the truth and there is in the fine print of a fine and prison penalty depending upon, I suppose depending which way you look at my biological mother/biological father/biological sister and/or my ex-in-laws such is up to your interpertation as to how which path is which way you would prefer to go especially when adding such additional outlying connections wherever such might just be for the correction to bring forward the proper education possible. What would a bored Special Forces individual who would no longer be able to be involved with the same training get involved with, and who would make rules of which such an individual would not allow such and what would the circumventing of such be if such an individual found out? For example I knew a male is such a field who was mad at a female Dominant in ClubFEM who had refused to allow him to teach military tactics in such a lifestyle in the Austin Texas area to which I defended her and gave him options as to other areas as to look into, of which what the choices were as per such thereafter those two individuals would know as to how such would have gone as per the realities and connections thereof. Such an individual having been from New Jersey would have a problem with a female Dominant and think such could be made if was dominant enough to make a situation for such a Female Dominant such as pictures, to then think such a recorded situation would then be considered as acceptable only to reveal to the level of such would hypothetically go against any type of female whether Female Dominant of any type or what-have-you in whichever lifestyle event location. I contacted legal locations for only, which would have a specific type of known technology way to get such red flags sent after warnings were given prior to having to drop the links to FSL after all of the threats I received several who were in person with me had seen at different times and/or the effects of. 1 in Dallas, 1 in Austin, and 1 in San Antonio were already primed with the warnings which were needed and certain individuals with or without the type of clearance though in knowledge of such a type of clearance and/or have such would make specific decisions as per what their truest intentions were from the start of getting involved with the communities; as I sent the links privately before posting for the ability for such levels to be aware though what their awareness was would be dependent as to what they had already been doing prior to and what positive or what-have-you choices for such individuals of such groups as would be known as well before any event I had attended which obviously others would have as well depending upon the situation. I have a thing about safety, and I could see how such types of situations could be considered as more than worth the risk or the bill associated with such as it was known as to what I was dealing with regarding my daughter's situation and taking care of my son; and those of the Jade Wolf Coven among other prior situations discussed such as the Homeowners Association and law firms, the culmination of what can and has already occurred was boiled over and fully overloaded well before I entered the scenes thereof. As now there are recommendations for assistance if being threatened repeatedly as I was being threatened and had discussed in multiple locations and multiple events which some who would have brushed off the clearance would be the first to see as to why, as to the outlying circumstances as to how such a conclusion could truthfully be made with whatever biases were as per what times and why. Someone would think the aspects of certain portions would not be as deserved only because of such specific type of male aspects of employment to then show more than what was underneath the surface, and bring forward more aspects as to the realities such as. I was informed as to a fundraiser about a situation which seemed as viewed as viewed, which possibly there are situations as to what other circumstances which were in plain sight though other aspects which too were in plain sight. Hopefully such clarity has been able to be brought forward in a more positive aspect as such types of situations which a New Jersian would know far more than others would be prepared to realize; would automatically be something I could see the Jade Wolf Coven getting involved with, and with my biological mother and biological sister wanting to prove a point with my ex-mother-in-law and ex-sister-in-law, who would they target to hate me more than anyone else throughout each area of every portion of any lifestyle and how would they set something up with all of the warnings I had already been giving? Did anything come to the surface as to the real reason as to which dramas were actually started by who compared to who was blamed needlessly, and why yet?


I have not fully officially been informed, though I have a good feeling more were open to see who had seen before in other locations more so and were able to take a step back to realize how much was actually going on in a much larger way than initially noticed in just the years of 2004-2012 before 2013-2018 and then with 2019 onward to now, possibly more connection points as to warnings I did make every attempt to be as clear as possible might make sense with the addition regarding the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury and the medications added within the first what-have-yous of waking up from my coma as well as Brackenridge. The subarachnoid hemorrhage did take 4.5 years to start to dissipate as I informed people, which I also explained I had been tested and it was proven I had memory deficits and cognitive disorders as well as having gone from College Algebra with Trigonometry and Calculus to 2nd grade math. Who would look as such as a try to think such would mean would secretly need something that was not ever needed in such a way as would have no clue or idea as to the fuller background of a female growing up in New Jersey in the background I had growing up and knowing my own Dominance and my own Independence, for a possible question as to a hypothetical as to which locations of which cities have what aspects I warned about referencing a collision on multiple sides? I warned of not playing games with others' mental wellbeing or children as that is a bad combination regarding the situations overload, as the need for actual work and healing the proper way instead of covering up to mask does need more as Rose Kennedy brought forward when she stood up to fight for more rights and continued onward despite the situations she and her family had dealt with to overcome to be stronger. However with getting such the need for a balance to prevent going overboard was pertinent as well, which such a level would know the actual details without needing to read the official documentations for such aspects as per specific clearances which some would not have been allowed such accesses because of the lack of the background requirements as such an individual should have known of to begin with. My biological mother worked for Prudential in Holmdel New Jersey, and would be called to travel on an airplane to go to coding locations back in the 1980s and 1990s and I helped do the work while she was gone from the Prudential computer back at the house. My maternal Grandfather was a part of several groups and organizations and agencies developments on the literal ground floor as well as assisted writing policies as legislators would understand the amount of people such takes and not always having the specific names involved at such times in each location, who worked with my Bok Gung and my Bok Pu to legally assist refugees who were escaping MaoZeTung from the Cantonese and Mandarin aspects which my biological mother insulted both as per the middle name choice and such were as they are for such; however had assisted with my Grandpa for bringing forward training as well as some training manuals, before getting into the research aspects of certain books and projects well outside anyone else's per view as per the requirements for the need for such sorts of work for which sorts of aspects. What would a November 1999 through to March 2000 amount of time be able to get squared away without interruption for a background check, for one seventeen year old female in a household of four to complete which job training for which fields looked into and why?


Pick the correct side, and loyalty is important even in the midst of turmoil as at the end when chaos actually finishes clearing out such situations; then the ability to not see the eye of the storm though see the rainbow forming on the other side of the wall of, brings forward a lighter atmosphere which the genuine ability to breath clearly and move more freely with a bounce in the step can genuinely be more appreciated. I am thankful I was heavily taught about loyalty, to make sure I am on the right and correct side of what is needed in my opinion.

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Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Model Author Susan MeeLing