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It should not take a head injury
*after personally sustaining a head injury & coma*
to figure this out...

 
 
 
 
 
 


After a Drill Sergeant threw Me into the metal part of the bunk when I was in Basic Training for the United States of America's Army branch at Fort Sill Oklahoma #FortSill #FortSillOK #FortSillOklahoma #OK #Oklahoma in the year of 2000 on Psalm Sunday, I have dealt with the situations as best as I have been capable to do so while taking care of the situations and asking for assistance as per the required explanations of the information to such facts first.  While making the attempts to get assistance for the aspects thereof as to the reality, the aspects of where and when as to the multiple attempts to ask for assistance for me.  As my journal blog for when I was ready to bring such as to my other works forward since as to the lengths of time as to where my modeling was as to the modeling page information, just as the other pages have the information as to such specifics, and just as this journal blog of mine is as to such facts.


If I had real friends (if as to having met in person face to face in person in real life as to the aspects of this particular reference such as from the state of Texas as to the state of Washington as to the years of 2000 through 2013 if I met within the state of Texas for such references), real (the areas of the tristate region as before the year of 2000) family, and real relationships in real life that recognized me as to the aspects of if as to the face to face in person who started in truth as I had started such in truth as to the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, as well as the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain that took 8.5 years to dissipate; then I guesstimate there would be the easier factors as to being capable for me to speak with others in truth in person face to face in person and/or through online measures as to such factors I suppose.  Though would such as to the knowledge of the ways as to how they began such discussions with me as to would there be such a situation, for them to consider as to such if factors as to such discussions with me in truth?


As to some suggestions and commentary within "Finding A Silver Lining" one of several of my bo0ks I personally authored/wrote/compiled as I can only speak and write in truth as per such clarifications as to the reality as to the specifics of such discussions/writings/videos as per my Official You Tube where I have satirical commentary where I comment about the factors as to having dealt with others' opinions about their pop culture references of #NJ #NJstate #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey, though as to for the most part I have actually preferred to be asked with politeness if as to having read my books and/or seen my website as just the same in reference to the timeframes when I was modeling as to having respect as to what I consider as respect, referencing if as to such polite manners as to discussions if as to such having been noticed because of the factors in my opinion as to having real discussions as communication would be if my website was seen before the year of 2023 as I first began my website in 2015; as in my journal blog posts as to the reality of the years of 2010 through 2013, as to the aspects of introductions as to those timeframes when as to various factors as I did not take selfies as I was actually working with photographers as to my creations of my outfits as per the description on the link to my modeling page(s) as to the references regarding my journal blog updates in the years of 2019 through 2022 as the timeframe onward as to the year of 2023 as to the factors as to how such journal blog entries will be as to such factors as to the aspects of the various topic points.


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 I was born and raised in New Jersey and grew up going throughout the tristate northeast areas mainly, and as to how the reality of when the importance of the situations as to the aspects of reviewing as to such facts regarding the logistics for several factors as to the considerations; the years of 2019 through 2022 as to the review process as to the aspects of the timeframe, prior to the timeframe of the 20 year memorial of 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 as well as before the 30 year memorial of February 1993, as to the northeast areas mostly known as to New York City #NYC #NewYork #NY #NYstate #NYU though also as to the #Pentagon Pentagon, as well as Pennsylvania #Pennstate #Pennsylvaniastate as to the reality of how many New Jersey-ians commute in either direction, depending upon what location for the commute. 


The factors though I have said at times, I re-re-re-re-re-re-grew up in the state of  #Texas #TX #Texasstate Texas as to such factors as to the timeframes, as well as all 26 of my SCUBA #SCUBA #SCUBADiving  Diving certifications I earned were through one school within the state of Texas as I also earned winning first place in a Texas Chili cookoff with more than 20 entries as well as my chili recipe as I am adamant about my recipes as to such aspects just as I am specific as to what it actually takes for me to cook in a BBQ as to the required preparations for when I have BBQed.   



I can sarcastically write, those who know of the Rules of the BBQ as to where I grew up as to the Rules of the BBQ as to such factors to the considerations of such preparations.  However that is to cooking food as to the differences of my journal blog entries, as to the factors as to proverbial aspects of food for thought as the difference of real food in real life as to the facts of the situations to such attention to the details as well as attention to the information.


Such facts as to the metaphors in some of such factors that only after reviewing such information as to the aspects of the fiction book series that were as to for My personal life as to such dreamland sorts of factors as to the differences of such hypotheticals, the references thereof as to such regards as to the logistical emotional with the real situations as per the names I was informed of at the timeframes referenced review as to My journal blog as to the situations overall.  


If as to my journal blog being found and read as to where what I consider as common sense, as to the aspects of my satirical saying   how it should not take a head injury to figure out. 
 

*(sometimes utilizing articles discussing facts)*
By:  (Reverend) Susan MeeLing
also known as

The One & Only


(YouTube)   Lady Dori Belle


 

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REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

Day 3 countdown to 20 year memorial of attacks on 11 September 2001 By A New Jersey-ian

With 3 days left until the 20 year memorial of the attacks on 11 September 2001 occurring soon and as many situations which occurred on the day of, I will re-go over what I did, on that day with a few reminders. I fought to be emancipated from my biological mother and my biological father as well as my biological sister being near me to be able to join the #USArmy #USAArmy #USA Army branch of the United States of America’s #USArmedForces #USAArmedForces #USAAF #USAF Armed Forces because of the nightmare I was having since I was a child in the state I was born and raised in, #NJ #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey. I grew up walking around the #NYC #NewYorkCity New York City area and those who know the area know the amount of people who commute from New Jersey to #NY #NewYork #NewYorkstate New York and #PA #Pennsylvannia #Pennsylvanniastate Pennsylvania, which I grew up in the tri-county area that had the largest amount of commuters to that area. I was in second grade when that nightmare began which means it was 1989/1990 when I began having my nightmare of which it was a horrific sight to see as I was just a child, though admittedly the nightmare had other buildings and locations involved in my nightmare. My biological mother and my biological father thought it was because of what I had seen on television, though I was only allowed to watch movies and television shows which had a G rating.



By the time I was graduating 8th grade in 1996, I was ready to join though had not been accepted into #MAST #Marine #Science #Technology the Marine and Science Technology School with the #USNavy #Navy #USANavy #USN Navy attachment because of one answer as I was told by my neighbor at the time which I had figured had been due to the fact I had told the interviewers of a “fishy with teethies and a light on its head” that I had wanted to see again, because I thought it was cute.; of which I thought the words I used because of the lack of scientific name for the fish I was referring to, though it was found in the year of 2002 and is called the Angler Fish I though my neighbor Timothy Doody who lived across the street had said it was because of the one question that instead, it was because of my biological mother who had repeatedly been known to get in my way and needed to permanently be removed out of my life to be able to do what I needed to do for more for life as she did not get the memo years ago and continued onward needlessly not having gotten the flat out being told I did not want her involvement. Thus I went out after graduating early from high school to the recruiter’s office after I had been moved with my biological sister to #IL #Illinois #Illinoisstate Illinois, because my biological mother knew I was going to the military and she thought if moving to Illinois that I would not be influenced by the amount of military aspects as to the church I grew up going to called #OTC #oldTennentPresbyterianChurch #OTPC Old Tennent Presbyterian Church which had been used as a hospital during the #RevolutionaryWar Revolutionary War.



When she had chosen a public school to undo all of the work I had done in the #Catholic Catholic Parochial high school #SJV #SaintJohn #SaintJohnVianney #SaintJohnVianneyHS #SJVHS Saint John Vianney High School to be able to graduate one year early to get out of their house to go live my life, the problems she caused needlessly was having to graduate only half of a year or one semester early as per the amount of work which had to be made up because of her lack of ability to see and because of her personal issues which she needed to let it go because of the facts she knew she was the problem to begin with. When I went to the recruiter to be able to start my packet to get out of that house and get away from those people she only caused overdramatic problems complaining that I was being difficult, I had an attitude problem according to her, she claimed I was running away from my problems in comparison to running towards who actually needed my help, and etcetera; as per her overdramatic self-projecting ways, and as I refused to put up with her needless overtly ineptness, the facts of which by now I am sure have been proven as to how many problems that female and her daughter Patricia Ann Hom at the time name had caused needlessly to myself and others.



Once it was known I had spoken with the recruiters she had me locked away after lying to the medical staff to tell them she thought she knew me better, when she did not know herself as well as had the least of intelligence when it came to who I am as she admitted as to how I had been far more like my biological father than anything as her and the ways she had been as she wished I would be more like my biological sister Patricia; which I could not stand the sight of her, nor could I stand being anywhere around that female in the slightest as to how much similar to Anna as she had been, and I fully hated her by the time I was in eighth grade. I had learned she whined and complained to Mike and Anna because of the fact I was going to MAST and had according to them been accepted, though because of Patty’s complaining and her own insecurities as to the lack of capabilities in herself as she was too lazy to do the work on her own; they caved to her only child type of attitude because of how she was raised, and instead of going to where I needed to be back in the year of 1996, I had to wait until the year of 2000.



I vowed, I would do anything and everything to completely stay away from people such as those situations and would fully put a stop to any such types of people and situations such as those because they were the type who had nothing worthwhile to assist unless they leeched onto another person or people to then try to climb up what they did not earn and I hope to push that ladder out from underneath them to destroy that sort of situation overall because of already seeing the impact in a larger way as to how many had other situations similarly to that and the larger problems which arose because of people such as my biological mother Anna Louise Lally Hom and my biological sister Patricia Ann Hom names in those years. When my biological father began treating me more similarly to when in Basic Training as he had been in the #MerchantMarines Merchant Marines in the middle and later 1970s, I took it as preparing myself for the real work I would be doing to be able to fully be squared away at all times for when it came time for whatever I needed to do in conjunction with whatever my AIT would be after Basic Training. When they finally signed the paperwork for me to be able to be emancipated as I have thought since then was the terminology to be able to get away from them to go do what I needed to do, those people whined and complained about how they thought I was destroying their lives in comparison to going to do what I needed to do to multiple people around the #CLS #CLSHS #CrystalLakeSouth #CrystalLakeSouthHS #CrystalLakeIL #CrystalLakeIllinois Crystal Lake Illinois areas. I told the people I knew why I was joining, the few I knew who had not gone to collage in the area as to my reasons why.



In the time after getting to leave to finally be able to go on my way to save who I could and stay as far away from those people as I could not stand my biological mother or my biological sister, I refused to have anything to do with what they wished because those people did not ever know how to be truthful from the beginning moment of any such interactions and because of their wishes to remain secretive those people had caused needless problems continuously. I hated how they would lie to try to surprise me with only to bring forward my biological sister as though she was anything of worth when in reality I had always been the one who had done everything, and when the so-called surprise situations would be the garbage as to the ways her attitude had been to bring such forward in comparison to ever simply telling me the truth infuriated and enraged me as there was always major problems after such situations which I refused to be a part of. The overdramatic situations which she thought because she had been related to me meant it rubbed off on her which it did not, the coattail riding she tried to do was not an interest of mine because I saw what she had done previously to others from prior such situations that afterwards had spilled over into other areas which were unnecessary because of her ego, and she had wished for the facts of what I had done to be aligned with her though she was not good enough to do anything remotely close and yet wanted to act as if she was the same when she was nothing close to.



For those who understand the metaphor, she was similar to a female who married an O7 or above and then the stereotypical attitude though a female who was from a one night stand sort of situation compared to one who had been from the youthful ages to the scenario for the clarification. One small example was after I delivered my son which she asked Mike and Anna ‘Do I look different? Yes, I look different. I am an Aunt now, because my nephew was born and I am never having children of my own because of that.’



I told her my son is my son and later my daughter is my daughter as I am the only one who carried them in my uterus and I am the only one who went into labor with each one of them and I am the only one who pushed them into the delivery, in comparison to her just being alive. That is what I grew up with for a situation to review as I would guesstimate, there has been similarities to such an attitude problem. I have hated everything about her since before that moment, though the hatred admittedly only has grown when after they moved to the state of #TX #Texas #Texasstate Texas after I had woken up in Texas after my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury. However since some people within the state of Texas has preferred the prettier aspects in comparison to the realities as per able to see in the ways which news media explains how the different situations which are non emergencies go to try to fluff up the individuals involved in comparison to going over the truthful portions, you can look through my journal blogs about the 2020 election cycle with the links to the individuals on the ballots to review how the words seemingly are similar for each politician on the ballot as to the lack of information about any of certain candidates.



#electionintegrity Election integrity matters, of which those fluff pieces in comparison to the in depth portions have additionally been problematic as per the people who are voting in the areas have not been given the correct information about the people in a fuller way as to the length of achievements and/or failures as to what their personal backgrounds are. People have not been as enthusiastic about the in-between portions of election cycles mainly because of such portions in my opinion, as there has not been the truth of all such individuals brought forward for anyone to actually want to pay attention to such in the ways which the #POTUS Presidential election cycle has been known to be in comparison.



That in between portion of time is the preference to my biological sister because of the lack of ability to ever earn anything worthwhile on her own in my opinion, and has caused needless problems throughout the state of Texas as to the amount which has been gathered in information to hold over their heads in the ways which such to keep herself out of sight unless a celebration occurs and then she wants to be the center of attention when she earned nothing of value to actually contribute to such aspects in my opinion. However those in the state of Texas who know of such are the ones who have to have the courage to step forward as to such aspects in truth, however as to how situations went in the years of 2019 and 2020 as well as into the 2021 timeframe; I doubt that such has occurred, because of the facts presented as to the situations thereof even though I cleared the path for such to occur. In such situations as to having fought to be emancipated from such while I was being smoked or what is done in Basic Training for those who do not have such knowledge, my biological sister would join in the problems I was dealing with while yelling in my ear as she watched as Mike smoked me; no different than when other situations occurred when I was a child and a teenager, which I promised myself I would end all such types of situations for that and make things better to remove those problems from all of society as much as I could from that type of aspect as those situations were as needless as herself in my opinion. Those types of people had caused more problems than ever helped, and then when situations were overcome they wished to take credit because of their human atrocities thinking they deserved and positive recognition when in fact they only deserved to be treated as the same thugs they always had been and removed from existence in such life in my opinion.



Nonetheless as I continued to fight for my freedom of choice and my ability to go where I needed to be in comparison to anywhere around them as for clarification, I did not return to the state of Texas to ever have anything to do with my biological mother or my biological father or my biological sister. I had emancipated myself from them and I did not ever need to be involved with them, nor did I ever want or need anything to do with them. If they had the arrogance to think I had returned to Texas for them, they were delusional in all ways for all honest clarification purposes. I returned to Texas for the #SCUBA #SCUBADiving SCUBA Divers I once knew to man up and actually acknowledge me for my work as to my earned 26 SCUBA Diving certifications and them having known I had survived my SCUBA Dives where I landed at the bottom of the ocean as per the 10 year anniversary, though they did not have the decency to bring such a congratulations up nor did they feel the need to eat with me when I had BBQed when there when I made the food that they took in a plastic bag as to the additional portion of the theft of my belongings in comparison to ever being decent human beings as per the notations thereof. What atrocities I have seen from such individuals, I cannot begin to describe my actual feelings thereof to ever be as such as I cannot believe or I should say I do not want to believe though have to acknowledge as to the definition of atrocities by those individuals’ choices when I was there in 2019.



I am actually ashamed to have known such individuals if that is the case as to their lack of acknowledgement of me to me though their willingness to do so hypothetically because of how I physically look and whatever lies of garbage my biological mother and my biological sister had done out of a slight because of knowing I had needed to go to the Army and their problems I already laid out in my “Finding A Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing” book among other discussions in person, though because of the possibility of tits and ass that were brought with them to be able to keep those males occupied in comparison to actually paying attention to the truth is what it is for them to deal with in such regards hypothetically. How difficult would it have been to ask me if I knew I was awarded something in comparison to assuming I knew, out of curiosity f that had occurred? Was that so difficult to speak of, in comparison to hiding and acting as children who knowingly had done something wrong?



I returned to the state of Texas to be within the lands of the state of Texas as to clarify what occurred as to how I wound up in #WA #Washington #Washingtonstate Washington state and all such situations in between as well as if there were any individuals who would step before me, to clarify all such portions if I knew them to explain what occurred; however since so many had feared and went into hiding before the #COVID COVID situation when in the year of 2019, I went onto my computer for such clarifications due to the lack of integrity from such individuals to stand before me in such regards to have a discussions after having contacted to make the attempts to extend the olive branch proverbially yet again to those people. Once it got to a certain point, there was the obvious lack of interest as to actually speaking with me in person and the lack of my need to be anywhere involved with those people as per their choices. As per having been denied as much as I had, I refused to be a part of anything further within the groups of people I once knew because of the facts of how such situations had gone overall during the timeframe from before getting my apartment in the year of 2019 starting in July to the time of my transfer as per having seen how cowardice such individuals were upon my return to clear the air.



In such references then to have the problems which occurred to get my transfer out of the state of Texas as that was the last straw for my personal view point as to the denials of those people as well as the fact of knowing there had been those I met who had only needed to acknowledge they had seen my website to be honest when speaking with me, instead the situations went as the ways they went due to whatever individuals who had not the slightest bit of integrity or human decency in my opinion to speak with me in truth having internal motives surrounding their beings however so in such regards in comparison to meeting me with truth as per the perception from my view.



In such references regarding the aspects as to why I fought as much as I did officially since the year of 1996 to get away from those types of situations and those types of people as just think of a New Jersey version in the 1990s in comparison regarding how the 2020 election cycle had been if there are any connections to my biological mother and/or my biological sister as to how I had been treated in the state of Texas, though was my entire childhood and my teenager years as to how all such situations were in a proverbial metaphor for a difference in time and location as to those types of people and those types of situations repeatedly. Why did I fight to get out of their purview, and why did I not ever want nor need nor desire to ever have anything to do with those people ever again? Just look at the videos and the pictures from when I was at certain locations knowing the facts of my past, and see as you would see from my perspective in comparison for my life which I promised I would end such aspects as quickly as I could.



By the way for anyone who ever thought if there ever was an award or acknowledgement ceremony, I was not ever informed of any award to me or in my name nor was I ever presented with such. Thus if anyone thought I had ben informed and were hiding because of, the facts are I was not ever told of such. I would not ever allow my biological mother nor my biological sister nor my biological father to take any award in my name as I know they would not ever have the human decency to inform me of such as I know they would wish to hold onto such for wishing they ever did anything to earn such when it was always mine to begin with. The same in reference to my ex-in-laws, for all intensive clarification purposes. Thus if there ever was something ever acknowledged of my work,. Those people had stolen my valor which they did not ever have permission to do from me. If that occurred I hope all such awards are taken and stripped from those people and handed over to the rightful owner, which is me and me alone. I refuse to allow such lies to ever be if that was the case, as those people did nothing of worth and should be exposed in all such ways as the lack of worth as well as the lack of abilities to do anything except for hide and lie as to the facts thereof.



However in the realities of having to clear up portions, at minimum despite having had to the reality of those who may have stood up and spoke against those people in my favor; at minimum anything my biological mother and/or my biological sister and/or my biological father and their associations held against you, those chains have been broken off of you proverbially because even though situations went as they may have at minimum there were some good times in such comparisons overall and at minimum unlike other situations, I had made the choice to willingly stand with and next to you while speaking with you in full truth if can be seen as such despite the other portions thereof. Again I did not want to have to get that piece of paper going, though knew it was the only way for what I was seeing and what I was picking up energetically when I had been in Washington state in 2013 for whatever that is worth. I hope for the genuine positive in honesty, as I have seen people in the tri-state area use those tactics before wishing that would be something acceptable to do to others when going through such areas themselves and being a part of such themselves and/or having family a part of such aspects and wishing to keep such under-wraps in comparison to taking care of the actual needs thereof wishing to continue such shame when it has been them who had been the shameful ones to begin with in far more ways as per ability to find and see.



Any who assisted in such portions, I hope you burn just as much in my opinion. There is not one person I have ever given permission to make any such decisions for myself, for clarification as per taking into consideration my modeling and my performance aspects as to my prior journal blog entries as I had not seen my biological mother or my biological father since the year of 2012 and I only emailed in response to my biological mother in July 2013 before I wound up in Washington state after the Cowboys Dancehall Stoney LaRue concert situation and the San Antonio Family Court; of which I hope all transmissions of all technological portions of their of any and all involvement, is fully revealed of all of their correspondences in full as to all such situations they caused problems for in all such ways and including all of their connections including their political family they married into named the Millers in Austin. Fully expose all of them I say! Amen.



The reality of taking from early October 1999 through to March 2000 to be able to go into the Army branch as per the first discussions with the recruiter at the Crystal Lake South High School job fair for Seniors in high school through to when the smoking began in the end of November 1999 to the time of finally signing the paperwork to go to the #MEPS MEPS station in March 2000 to leave for Basic Training in the end of March 2000, those people had been as such the entire time though while I had to live in that house with them until I could escape and get away from those people. I hate them fully, and I hope only ill-will towards them and those they have associated themselves with as to the political abomination of a marriage in 2010 to the portions thereof already explained in person as well as in “Finding A Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing”.



Again if those people accepted an award, how many people did I tell in person as to how much I hatred those people? Why would you ever give anything to those people in my name when that would fully be considered as blasphemy? That is their fullest definition of all 10 Commandments being broken by those involved as per the obvious portions already having gone over in all such ways, and the problems to such are your fault for believing their lies in comparison to pay attention to the truth and the details thereof. Though if the Army at the military base had given such to my biological mother and/or my biological sister and/or my biological father, I hand delivered those papers as well as mailed such books to The Gift Chapel and needs to get taken care of and squared away correctly as they were not ever allowed such aspects as per my commands and would be the equivalent of in such ways thereof as to allowing stolen valor to continue wrongly. #EndStolenValor



In such regards as to the time after Basic Training when I had my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury and woke up from my coma in #BAMC #SAMC #JBSA #SanAntonio #SATX #SanAntonioTexas #MilitaryCityUSA #JBSA Brooke Army Medical Center in Fort Sam Houston of JBSA in San Antonio Texas I had awoken in the hospital bed in BAMC as I was told later, though I did make a phone call as I remember in reference to calling my biological father from the bed I was in at the time which I remember telling him even though he told me as well from what I had told him back then as to the look of the medical room as well as the lack of medical personal to take care of me in the nearby area in Texas. In such situations as to the aspects thereof later I do remember calling Melody Mondini as I remember being moved into a room with other people in the hospital and being able to speak with a couple who I cannot remember their names, though the wife if I recall correctly was in the hospital and her husband was by her side the time I was there. I remember they and I went to the smoking section when I could walk around and we discussed the situations as to what occurred to me during my time in Basic Training as well as the aspects as to how I woke up at Fort Sam Houston as to being medevacked to the area for medical treatments. I remember they told me they knew a lawyer who would be able to help, though it seemed important to me to wait for such aspects as I remembered my nightmare and needed to stop my nightmare from being the nightmare I saw for years.



I had noticed there were changes as I slept to my nightmare which were good, though it was not good enough at such times as there were still far too many buildings and affected areas which when I was in Medical Hold Unit is when the portions of waking portions as to my visions while being asleep yet awake enough to go through such not in a sleep walking way in a vision aspect as there are massive differences; thus I was able to change a few situations around and take other aspects to remove and move into other aspects during such times when I was in Medical Hold Unit. I usually awoke out of such works with a Charlie horse pain, and then was when the aspects were completed for what work I could do up to such a point. My biological mother was willing to speak with me on the phone knowing she was calling a military installation which automatically meant all phone calls were recorded from such times as per the fact as to her additionally calling from her work which weas at the #McHenryCounty #McHenryCountyGovernmentCenter #MHCGC #Woodstock #WoodstockIL #WoodstockIllinois McHenry County Government Center in Woodstock Illinois.



A part of why she had wanted to apply to McHenry County Government Center was because of memories she had in some situation regarding Woodstock, though I do not recall what she was talking about before my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as to the Woodstock aspects though maybe some others know what the reference is to when she was a teenager in the later 1960s into the 1970s as to what would have been in such a reference aspect as to Woodstock being the reason she chose the McHenry County Government Center regarding her choice of where she applied to for work in the year of 1998 as to the possible additional factors to take into consideration as to the #Prudential Prudential work and other such portions I have already explained and written about to tie all such portions together as to the group she knew who had an office area within the #WTC #WorldTradeCenter #WorldTradeCenterCommission #911Report #911CommissionReport World Trade Center and had been the only entire office group who had survived the attacks on 11 September 2001 without death or injury of which if an injury was minimal from the debris before getting into the spot they hid they had known to go to as a bunker from the blasts underground whether or not the belief is there as to the areas since.



As I refused to adhere to what my biological mother and my biological sister had wished in reference to hating the Armed Forces of the United States of America’s various branches and divisions as much as they had regarding how my biological sister when in college tried to get me to feel sympathy for her because she saw how many people with military backgrounds were taking the jobs she was wanting, and because I had told her she could go join and become a part of such to give herself a leg up instead of putting her legs up; she did not like my response and could not understand how I did not have sympathy for her or others, to be able to work in certain areas because of their lack of experience even with the college degrees. I told her that the military assists with college education if earned as per the grade requirements, which she refused to see anything of value or worth and said she was going to get involved with the local enforcement to be able to fight against me for the problems she wanted to see fall regarding the military in the overall of the United States of America. I refused to allow such portions and she as well as my biological mother had not known of how many people I spoke with, about their antics to destroy their plans as to what they had been working on taking Mao Ze Doong’s workbook not paying attention to the fact that Mao Ze Doong had been called in when all of the local state areas of China had overrun the areas with needless corruption to which the college students who had gone to the Untied States of America had thought that meant they could do certain aspects as per what occurred when they were spending time with the Americans in comparison. When their protesting and rioting became too much they had called in Mao Ze Doong to destroy the college students who were causing problems, which is part of why my biological father went searching for the four he had put through college to be able to try to save them unknowing of the situations as to those particulars as he did not send them to college to do such portions as per sending them to learn and better themselves through the education in comparison to what occurred inevitably regarding such aspects.



Initially what was not known or possibly if ever, Mao Ze Doong was merely a consultation advisor in modern terms I suppose would be more ideal in comparison. However when the visions as to what was seen as to the situations thereof was when Mao Ze Doong was pulled into the proverbial fray via various legal court situations as Mao Ze Doon had been informed about a multitude of aspects, regarding the plots and plans of several individuals who had wished to go over the heads of the Cantonese as per the aspects as to what they knew. The Mandarins as well as the Cantonese who had been able to go over to the United States of America to be able to go to college had responded differently as the Mandarins were paying more attention only to their #USConsitution #USContitutionalRights #ConstitutionalRights Constitutional Rights, whereas the Cantonese knew to respect the rights of the Constitution and only bring such forward when necessary in comparison to those timeframe aspects as to those Mandarins as to the throwing such around in the proverbial crying wolf aspects thereof compared to the Cantonese who knew while there were problematic portions everywhere the choices were up to the individual as per the Cantonese styles of other aspects which align for the metaphor in comparison to the teachings thereof that I had grown up with in reference to my Bok Gung and my Bok Pu.



Thus when #TiananmenSquare Tiananmen Square occurred it was because of how many of the that timeframe Mandarins had caused so many problems within the local areas that the military had to be called in to stop the problems, as they were using biowarfare learned from the Americans in the colleges against whoever they felt in comparison to ever earning their way upward because of their own issues as to such times as they thought it had to do with status when it had to do with the education itself as well as the experiences as at those times it was not so much as the status because of the misconception due to the ability to research aspects online more in comparison to the ways of those times when such first began to move forward and radio/movies/television was censored far more in those decades than a rating system. Thus the irony in such portions as to wishes from others as to the aspects of the ways of the proverbial too many cooks in the kitchen aspect, to the portions when taking a look at the size of the lands of China to the aspects thereof to actually pay attention to the details at such times until the ability to look into the population aspects as it was the females who had caused the problems to begin with because of other such factors at such times as their refusal to move forward more positively became more of a problem in comparison to the facts as to earning such on their own. As per the males in the United States of America being attracted to the look physically in comparison to such and when the Visas to return to the country of origin occurred, their view as to what they thought they deserved through such measures became problematic as per the ways which military individuals who know of females being stationed repeatedly in South Korea as to such references for such portions of view points as to the aspects overall in such comparisons as to being able to ask for such references though the truth of which needing to be explained in comparison to the overall assumptions as to such times for certain examples. However the males in China upon the females’ return from America were not willing to be a part of such aspects mainly because of the attitudes as to the bringing up what someone else had purchased for them and the aspects thereof in such regards, to the view points thereof.



In such regards as to my biological sister and my biological mother as to how my Bok Pu had chosen to push them towards because of my biological mother’s slight against her for the name choice she had given and was ignored, my Bok Pu had made her opinions known as to what she was willing to do to my biological sister back in the year of 1986 for the portions thereof. When my biological father stepped in to try to save my biological sister from what was occurring, my Bok Pu had said her words which permanently cursed my biological sister to fully ensure all such portions of which my biological mother had ignored the warnings thereof and thus worked towards educating me as to the ways of the Cantonese as well as the older Mandarins as to a multitude of aspects thereof as her being ½ Cantonese and ½ Mandarin and my Bok Gung being full Cantonese. In such regards as to how such correlates as to the factors thereof in the current year of 2021, I suppose those who have the lengthier aspects as to such portions of my biological mother and my biological sister can review such portions as to the facts able to be proven.



In such regards as to the day of 11 September 2001 when my now dead-ex-husband had ran upstairs from when he was supposed to be in college classes and awoke me from finally being able to go to sleep, I asked why he was at the townhouse which the television turned on without any prompting and showed me the screen of the portions of the first Twin Tower burning and the second airplane as it was flying into the second Twin Tower. I spoke as I quickly glanced towards looking at my 9 day old son and then seeing the computer desk to the other side of the bed, hoping someone could hear me telling to ground all of the airplanes as well as hopefully anyone who could make a call to their loved ones before doing whatever was needed to be done to prevent any further damages to be able to do so before I leapt out of my bed to get ready to do what was necessary. Though my now dead-ex-husband was infuriated with me for speaking such words, I dealt with as I dealt with the get myself cleaned up to go speak with who I knew in the apartment complex would be returning from their shift at Lackland Air Force Base to inform of what needed to be done as I remembered from the after timeframes as to the attacks when the 1993 situation occurred in New York City at the time regarding certain aspects thereof as to different people I knew from such times and their portions of assistance and help to get such squared away.



The females in the office were blankly staring at the television screen as I walked through the door with my son laying in his car-seat to see such, and asked what they were doing. They asked what they could do and I told them to donate blood, think of ways to get supplies to the location, and if nothing else then pray for the assistances for betterment. When the Air Force Tech Sergeant had walked through the door I was standing by the television and turned the screen to the side asking him if he had listened to the radio on the way to the apartment complex, which he had told me he had not. I told him to get his coffee and get a cookie to be able to go outside, as I knew we needed to speak as I knew the aspects I saw were from my nightmare though were much different than my original nightmare which while good; the focus needed to be upon what needed to be taken care of and thus I grabbed a Sprite to drink and a cookie, to pick up my son’s car-seat and walk outside into the front stairs area to speak with him about what he needed to do to prepare as well as help other guys with what was going on at the time.



As the Tech Sergeant and I spoke I informed him of what occurred in reference to the World Trade Center as I had not known if I recall correctly as to the field in Pennsylvania as to that point in time when speaking with him as to what had occurred, and I informed him as to what was needed in reference to him emptying out the back and the bed of his truck to be able to get onto post much quicker to be able to get to post to be able to relieve who was on duty who had needed to get to wherever he needed to get to as quickly as possible. I informed him that he would need to tell others as to clearing out all such portions to make sure that the ability to go through the checkpoints quicker would be easier for the military police as to being able to go through the vehicles as well as when they used a mirror to look underneath the framework as to any additional concerns just in case, which would assist him and others to be able to get on post and get to what needed to be taken care of in a smoother way in comparison; as the situations referencing the time was needing the fastest and most correct work as possible, because of the possibilities of other portions to be able to square away other aspects thereof. Though I had written about this as well as spoken with others about this situation and timeframe over the years, I had only more recently recalled the portions as to in the year of 2011 as to sending my initial portions to #TyePublishing Tye Publishing though such was shortly before the timeframe regarding Irving in the points of and after my #VW VW #Beetle Beetle I named Zippy though after I had gotten a new car as I knew Zippy would be as Zippy is in such references as to other such aspects as to how Zippy does her thing.



However in such regards as to the aspects to the timeframe of 11 September 2001, the discussion with the Tech Sergeant went on as I gave him a few additional pointers to be able to maneuver quickly while preparing the individuals he was in charge of during Basic Training to be able to get squared away correctly. In those portions as to the aspects of when noticing the maintenance male from the staff for Songbird Apartment and Townhomes had arrived shortly after and I asked him to sit with the Tech Sergeant and I, I had informed him of what was going on inside of the office regarding the females who had their attention glued to the television and their tears in comparison to thinking about what they could do to help from where they were in such references of which to guide them in a different more positive direction in comparison to staring blankly and crying as the facts of the situation was as it was and the choices of which needed were important to get going and get moving towards what needed to be done. As the Post Office employee from the #USPS USPS had arrived to deliver the mail, I invited him as well to sit and speak with us as he had been early to deliver the mail for the day and I figured he had not known as to the situations as of yet which I had warned him to begin doing extra checks to the mail pieces because of the situations I remembered from the initial months shortly after the attacks in 1993 as to the while powder which had been sent in various packages at those times. As the four of us sat on the stairs speaking with one another and as they asked me several questions in addition, they each went along their ways as to going to take care of what needed to be done as best as possible.



I had told the Tech Sergeant as he knew of me being medically retired from the Army as to if there was additional assistance the military needed from me, to let me know what I could assist with regarding information to be able to help get things taken care of correctly as I knew it was just the beginning as to the times then. Though I was still dealing with the infection from when delivering my son at the time as later in a few weeks I would be hospitalized for the medical treatments thereof from the delivery process as to what was needed for my health, initially in the first few days thereafter the Tech Sergeant and I met at the office to step outside onto the stairs to speak for several hours because of the questions he had from his higher ups as to the situations on the ground regarding such portions as to what I could remember as to the 1993 attacks for the clarification aspects as to assist where I could. I knew he knew the overall aspects as to where I was born and raised because of having spoken with him for a few weeks or months from when moving into the complex, though the aspects regarding such a time was a jumbled portion to a degree I think when looking back now as only a few times had he used a pen and notepad as to the discussions.



Shortly after by a couple of weeks, my son had a temperature develop and he needed to be hospitalized because of the temperature he had as above 103.2 as to the multiple times I had checked his temperature to verify I was feeling the correct temperature as to knowing he was/is my first born and knowing how some over reactions have occurred regarding a first born child as well as some underreactions; though I wanted to make sure, and thus when taking him to the #ER Emergency Room at #WilfordHall Wilford Hall on #LacklandAirForceBase Lackland Air Force Base, the ways which I had explained previously as to the various individuals and the questions which occurred when my son was hospitalized as similar in a multitude of ways as to later when he was released and when I had been hospitalized for the infection which occurred from when in the labor and delivery ward during such aspects. The staff allowed me to keep my son in the room with me as to take care of him as the aspects as to the inconvenience to take care of responsibilities in regards to my son’s and later his sister and their biological father to be helpful, was as it was at such times.



Thus in reference to the aspects as to what was required to take care of myself while taking care of my son and answering which questions I had been asked when either the medical professionals as well as those who were wearing medical clothing in comparison to any such medical professional, had different aspects as to their particular energies referencing what had actually been taken care of in comparison. Thus in such regards as to the Walter Reed situation the pre-knowledge as to the difference between medical professionals, those who were in regards of the correct and positive medical dressed staff back in the year of 2001, and then what I had deal with in comparison to when going to #WalterReed Walter Reed this past month in the year of 2021 as to what actually was required in comparison to what actually had occurred. In such regards as to the facts of which the portions I had gone to speak with about the specifics thereof in comparison to writing, there is not the requirement for the writing portions as to what occurred in reference to my #SCUBADiving #SCUBA SCUBA Diving portions for such clarifications as to the facts thereof as per the portions brought forward more specifically within this particular journal blog entry as well as other such writings within my website on The Ornery PSA as to not being willing to assist in such references as to the ways thereof for the facts as to what has yet to correctly be acknowledged as to my SCUBA Diving and to which is my right to choose such aspects as to the disrespect to my work as to such times as to not correctly acknowledging my SCUBA Diving by my standards of ethics and morals for such portions. In conjunction to my SCUBA Diving gear there is the difference to such portions as per my SCUBA Diving style compared to recreational SCUBA Divers, of which since such aspects as to have been of such a recreation then they can play their games with themselves and leave me out of such portions to the point of when it is realized it is not nor has SCUBA Diving ever been recreational as per the facts of life; when my recognition has been recognized correctly in comparison to any hypotheticals involving any other such portions, then I will go into such aspects as I refuse to go into those details as per my choice and no I do not care as to others’ feelings or opinions thereof.



I will not contribute to #EndStolenValor stolen valor from me as to such portions and thus in such references if it is that important which I know it is, the requirements thereof are the requirements thereof. It is mandatory for such aspects as to my work is my work and though some might wish it would be considered as good enough the ways my biological mother and my biological sister have been in such regards, no it was not ever good enough for that aspect in any such references or regards. When taking a look as to the responses from the beings in the ocean as to the aspects of the #HurricaneKatrina Hurricane Katrina timeframe as to the Lackland Air Force base referencing such portions to the #HurricaneIda Hurricane Ida to the #GulfofMexico Gulf of Mexico aspects, there is more than enough proof as to the overall opinions as to such portions with as well as without my bias acknowledged in such factors thereof. The importance of such recognition correctly in comparison to ever wishing something would be acceptable regarding such aspects to those who actually earned such has been important because of the questions which go after such portions thereof and due to the facts as to not one of those people I once knew ever being able to correctly answer such questions and would only lead to the injury and/or death of those who would think it was easy work, would be arrogant as to such aspects as nothing I have ever done or been a part of was ever as easy.


While it could be considered to some when only viewing the portions lightly as to the ease as getting involved with my biological sister in such ways in those particular aspects as per her patterns of behaviour as per the #McHenryHighSchool #MHHS #MHS McHenry High School first week of school regarding my biological sister and the bedroom portion as able to be found and proven, the reference to such regards as to the real reasons to why they had actually moved out from Crystal Lake Illinois to the state of Texas in comparison t the lies they had told to others as to the proof regarding their actions and patterns of behaviour over such times and years thereof. I doubt my biological mother remembers every individual she had spoken with in reference to her complaints over the time as to when I was fighting to be emancipated to be able to get away from her and my biological sister to be able to go do what was actually needed, in comparison to how she wished I would stay at the local level in comparison to moving towards the federal levels and such portions. I doubt my biological sister remembers each person she whined and complained to in such references as well, as to both before when living in Illinois as well as after she had gotten to Texas.



I doubt they recall each location and such portions as to which discussions could have been overheard and/or seen by security cameras as to the aspects thereof during such times from the end of the year of 1999 through onward, just as I doubt they have access to each and every technology device they ever had over the years regarding such portions thereof. I doubt their ability to realize how many actual programs have been able to register all such information as to such, just as I doubt they can count that high as there are not enough aspects to the physical body for one individual technology device including the ligaments as well as the blood vessel for such an analogy for the metaphor. Thus in such regards as to the realities of which I had informed people as best as I could when I was growing up in New Jersey and going around the tri-state areas as I had, similarly to when after having been moved to Illinois in the year of 1998, as just the same in reference to when in the state of Texas before winding up in Washington state in the year of 2013 before going back to the state of Texas and then when done clarifying such portions transferring out to go do what I needed to do for myself as well as others in the ways I saw as most ideal compared to what some might have wished to be as acceptable n comparison.



However the facts thereof as to the portions of the backgrounds of actual individuals regarding the local and state election portions just as much as in the federal elections are required for the background in full of such individuals to actually be known, in comparison to the wishes as to who such portions are for the realistic aspects as to truthful #Electionintegrity in all ways through genuine #factchecking fact checking. If you have nothing to ide and you accept yourself, then what is there to genuinely fear if you are able to explain such portions for why such can be much better in the comparison to the ways such has been for far too long? When the knowledge as to the facts as to the technological portions are more fully aware to more in such references, then what would the purpose be to try to hide in such references in the ways of which can actually be clarified? It does require the truthful portions thereof as to such aspects, though it is much easier to tell the truth as to such awareness when taking such into consideration compared to the lies which have needlessly been perpetuated. Thus if in the hypothetical as to anyone ever taking credit from me through the aspects of ever accepting any award of any type in such hypotheticals without informing me thereof, then the portions as to explaining my rightful enraged portions as to such disrespect as to the aspects thereof as per viewed as per how would you feel if such were done to you if you had done work which deserved recognition?



I doubt any who would have earned a college degree would ever feel comfortable with someone they hated ever taking such portions as to the degree, if I guesstimate accurately in such regards. Thus, why would anyone ever think after I had told them I fought to be emancipated from my biological mother/father/sister ever think such would ever be considered as acceptable to me or anyone in reference to the overall aspects thereof? Who could truthfully ever think that I would ever fin those people of being worthy to ever speak on my behalf, in comparison? What questions would they ever be able to answer truthfully, with the exception of what I allowed them to know through my pictures and my writings? The answer is just as my biological mother and my biological sister are to me, nothing bigger than the size of an egg from which a uterus can carry in the fallopian tubes in my opinion.



I suppose in a way I can take a childhood rhyme in a different aspect as to the ways which Military City USA has a ring around the city of San Antonio, for a song which many know with different words.

Ring around the Rosey (my first tattoo being completed within the city of San Antonio as a reference in regards of Platinum Tattoos though also the same town my biological sister had annoyed my biological mother to annoy my biological father to move to San Antonio)


Pockets full of poser posies


Ashes, Ashes (Asher Holmes Elementary School who would know of the truth as to the aspects of the differences of childhood patterns of behaviour as well as other such portions of classwork and awards)


The posers all fall down (Instead of the Bye Felicia as heard on #RuPaulsDragRace #RuPaul #DrageRace RuPaul’s Drag Race in such aspects as to Bye Patricia though can also equate to the female named Felicia from the #NWSAHM #Northwest Northwest Stay at Home Mom’s group referencing the wedding during the #SanAntonioSpurs #Championship #NBA #NBAChampionship #Mavericks San Antonio Spurs versus the Dallas Mavericks NBA Championship game situation of which I would think #SpursFans would view that wedding as well as her attitude and the situations thereof as sacrilegious as well as an abomination as to her attitude about her wedding as to the location in the Fire Department Hall on I10 near the dance club she liked to go to called the #TheIndustry Industry Club)




After the work which was put into what I had accomplished regarding moving such portions for my nightmare to be far less than the comparison as to what the attacks on 11 September 2001 could have been on that day, I am thankful for those who were able to ground the planes and get what could be taken care of squared away as to prevent the other situations as per the #TSA TSA no fly lists have shown as to the realities thereof regarding what aspects are required for safer flight travels as well as such various organizations and agencies thereof in the capacities for such portions for the betterment as to the length of time for such. I am thankful for those who were able to be able to make what phone calls they were able to make in reference to the #Flight93 Flight 93 aspects as to the Pennsylvania field crash, and what they were able to prevent as to the building that plane was headed for in comparison to what could have been. I am thankful for those who were able to organize to be able to assist the pilots to be able to land as quickly and safely as possible regarding such portions and while the individuals may not have known in the airports as to such times of what had occurred initially, I am thankful there were those who were able to take the time when could to explain such portions once they were able to leave the airports to be able to assist where possible for such knowledge and understanding.



I am thankful the damages to the Army side of the #Pentagon Pentagon were not as bad as could have been as per the situations thereof admittedly adding my own bias as to the branch I had been able to fight to be able to enlist in at the timeframe of, just as I am thankful for all of those who were able to get the situations taken care of as best as they could at such times in the areas overall in #Arlington #PentagonCity #Virginia #VA #Virginiastate Virginia as to such situations. I am thankful those who were able to get to safety regarding such situations on 11 September 2001 were able to despite the debris and such aspects thereof, just as I am thankful for the police officers in law enforcement an the fire department officials as well as the emergency medical services to get as many people to live and survive to live onwards to be able to which includes whichever buildings were able to be opened to help give cover to those who were running in the streets to get to safety as best as they could when the portions as to the World Trade Center aspects had fallen and crumbled to the ground. I am thankful for those who had been able to survive and live onward to hopefully be able to move forward in more positive directions, and have the ability to accomplish more than what may have been thought of for the times thereof and onward.



In a different way I am genuinely thankful as to all such portions though in such references, I am extremely thankful for #Eminem Eminem, #DrDre, Dr. Dre, #Pink Pink, #ChristinaAquilera Christina Aguilera, #LilKim Lil’ Kim, #JayZ JayZ, #SeanCombs Sean Puffy Combs, #Ludacris Ludacris, #Eve Eve, #DMX DMX, #WuTangClan Wu Tang Clan, #Beyonce Beyonce, #DestinysChild Destiny’s Child, #QueenLatifah Queen Latifah, #BiggieSmalls #Biggie #NotoriousBIG Notorious BIG, #Nelly Nelly, #GarthBrooks Garth Brooks, #CarrieUnderwood Carrie Underwood, #TimMcGraw Tim McGraw, #FaithHill Faith Hill, #RebaMacEntire #RebaMcEntire Reba McEntire, #CourtyMusicians Country #Musicians, #Rappers Rappers, #Rhianna Rhianna, #NoDoubt No Doubt, #GwenStefani Gwen Stefani, and so many more for their musical assistances in what they have been able to work with others to bring forward regarding various ways to process different situations and review various portions in self-reflection to different circumstances thereof over the years as it is known it is not as easy as some might think such to be in the various ways thereof to bring such aspects forward.



However admittedly as many musicians as I have enjoyed their music and adored such as #Mozart Mozart, #Bach Bach, #Vivaldi Vivaldi, and #Tchaikovsky Tchaikovsky over the years my personal choice has always been Eminem or as I learned his name being #MarshalMathers Marshal Mathers later on in the year of 2019 or 2020 in some oddities as to portions regarding “The Curious Children’s Book Series By: Susan MeeLing” as when I first listened to whichever song was on the radio when I was first in Medical Hold Unit and stood my ground needing to hear him speak truth more as to knowing there were far more who could know and understand from what he could bring forward as to not knowing his past though hearing in his words and feeling such portions emanating from the radio speakers as to what he was capable of more than what Marksbury as we were similar to a brother sister sort of situations which I could guesstimate Watson would be able to have seen and known during such times arguing over the music listened to and the reasons as to such.



In those times as to the year of 2000 after being stationed in Medical Hold Unit while being taught the names of colors and soon from that point being taught how to count to 10 by the Navy and the Marines at a different area of Fort Sam Houston, I knew simply from hearing his voice as to what more he was able to bring forward in different ways. I did not know him at such times admittedly and I do not know if I ever actually met him as I would have to be told as to such, though I knew he was capable to take whatever his prior life experiences were to bring forward a different type of awareness that him and Dr. Dre were in knowledge and understanding of in a multitude of ways back then. As the music developed over the years and the aspects which I could feel as to coming forward regarding such realities, the aspects thereof in reference to how much he would be able to assist where he came from in other ways additionally. Later I learned of the #FlintMI #MI #Michigan #Michiganstate Flint Michigan portion as to the water aspects brought forward to attention by #MichaelMoore Michael Moore, there are ways which in comparison to a foundation regarding the building and the construction thereof as to the bottom upward as to the ways as to the water pipelines as to the opposite view of the foundation aspects to the top downward for such portions as to the ways the #Keystonepipeline Keystone Pipeline as been put into place as to the aspects thereof.



Personally I knew of the car situation before recently seeing the video Beautiful by Eminem regarding the #Detroit #DetroitMI #DetroitMichigan Detroit Michigan areas, as much as I had always been interested in cars over the years because of how much of a proverbial gearhead I had been as a child and a teenager. While remembering as to my racing which in my defense regarding a few times of being on the open road depending upon the situations as to the speeding not being speeding so much as maintaining my skills up to par, regarding such aspects referencing Irving despite not having wanted to go into such details as per the thought no one would believe me the ways as such prior times had been even with the more recent aspects as to the #USSpaceForce #USSpaceForceDoD #USSpaceForceDepartmentofDefense #DepartmentofDefense US Space Force with the Department of Defense having been officialized through the administration of #POTUS45 POTUS45 #DonaldJTrump Donald J. Trump.



I have admitted to speeding when I have been speeding though additionally as such of which I do not speed for no reason, for clarifications. I do not speed to be reckless nor to I speed to cause any problems as per the situations I have explained though for clarifications as to #IN #Indiana #Indianastate Indiana in the year of 1998 regarding such portions thereof, the situations to which when having been considered as such in comparison to the situations having gone on have been such reasons which I have not liked to admit because of the factors thereof during such times whichever times they may have been in such regards. In turn while the definitions thereof for certain aspects in the civilian sector may be considered as such the realities to which portions as to my Blue Identification Card of/for the United States of America have a different portion as to which I have not ever wanted to use in any such prior aspects of such speeding tickets depending which times thereof, because of the fact of knowing how I physically look in conjunction as to other such realities thereof depending upon the location of the state I was in for such regards as to the facts of the overall portions.



Even more recently as to not wanting to admit such aspects despite my thoughts at the same time in the multifaceted ways thereof as I do not have the capability to only think about one or two topics at the same time which you can review how I write as to a smaller portion as to the ways which my thoughts move without having to focus on typing in comparison to only speaking in comparison to only thinking, the portions thereof as to the aspects of which have been difficult for me for years to bring forward such clarifications and the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury have not assisted in several references because of the assumptions some people have had over the years regarding the aspects thereof. Being born a biologically genetic female additionally to my tattoos and my hairstyle and hair color in conjunction with other people’s biases and wishful thinking regarding such portions as to, has additionally been a problem which has been required to clarify against those who have wished to think they knew more about such when they have known nothing more than what they were told or what they read in such reference aspects thereof.



In turn the references regarding how males who have been in the Armed Forces of the various branches and divisions of the United States of America’s Armed Forces have been treated better in all such references compared to the facts thereof, in comparison to what I have dealt with over the years since the year of 2000 which has been a problem which has been required to fix and repair in full as to such aspects as I am not the only female who has had and survived a head injury or a TBI. The chauvinistic situations from such sexism and egotism of such portions additionally seen in reference to the SCUBA Diving community as to such regards as well as the viewpoints thereof to the physical portions of what I look as in comparison to others, has been a major problem which has been requiring a full rectification in all such ways. Thus despite the state of Texas only having a one year portion when the continued aspects go on past that one incident those little individual aspects continue to add upward especially if continued of which then the one year statue is removed fully as per the facts thereof for any such point in time thereof to such an assault as well as the aspects as to any such additional considerable crimes, which in turn from the time noticed as well as the times continued as well as the times backwards all add up as to the facts of not being able to use the one year statue of ;limitations when such has perpetuated hypothetically; of which all such legalities would mean all such individuals in conjunction to each individual crime thereof hypothetically would be able to take into consideration for all such combined charges and the lack of the one year statue of limitations for such portions would be a nothing because of the portions thereof.



For example today if there are any such individuals from within the state of Texas who had ever committed any crimes who had continued to stalk as per the aspects as to invasion of privacy from the aspects to any such connected portions thereof would be considered as the first day of which would overrule the portions of the one year statue of limitations as per the location thereof, to then be able to trace backwards for each additional day/week/month/year for all such aspects to then also connect all such crimes for the legal prosecutions because of the connected portions and that one year statue of limitations being not considerable and/or invalid due to the connected aspects seen in prior laws and torts thereof. In turn the portions of which connected to whichever state additionally to such crimes thereof hypothetically would be able to be prosecuted within a court of law aside from the social media court aspect as a metaphor for such, as to the legal portions of such prosecutions to all such individuals and all such crimes in the ways which #ENRON ENRON had initially began and went backwards as well as such on the ways of the legal prosecutions as per those statue of limitations being considered invalid because of the facts as to the connected crimes as to the timeframes thereof in all such conjunction portions which would mean if such connections were found as per the hypothetical regarding my biological mother to the World Trade Center and attacks on 11 September 2001 because there is not a statue of limitation for murder there would be the additional aspect as to the lack of statue of limitations for all such connected portions forwards to this timeframe as per the ways thereof regarding the legal portions of collecting such information on the proverbial time trail thereof and all such caught in-between for such aspects depending upon the laws and regulations in place during such times for the legal prosecutions because of the associated ties to such connectionary portions.



However those within the jurisdictions thereof as to what would be considered as per review regarding such portions, would be who would be able to decipher as to whether they push forward with sch realities I think would be considerable for such aspects thereof for the consideration in front of such legal systems and courtrooms. I would guesstimate someone such as #JudgeJeanine Judge Jeanine and #KimberlyGuillfoyle Kimberly Guilfoyle as well as #DanaPerino Dana Perino of #FOX #FOXNews Fox News would have the legal backgrounds as well as experiences thereof with other such individuals as to the legal possibilities of such portions for the reviewal processes thereof as to whether such as to the validity as to the aspects for such legal portions, for the reviewals thereof as to the areas of which both the east coast and the west coast legal portions for the aspects thereof for the legal references as well as the legal torts thereof in conjunction with the aspects of to the middle of the United States of America for such aspects among multiple other legal firms for such aspects including the individuals within the #USSenate #Senate Senate, #USCongress #Congress Congress, #USSupremeCourt US Supreme Court, and the #WhiteHouse White House staff members thereof might agree additionally to the various #JAG JAG officers as to the possibilities thereof for such review to such legalities and such possibilities if agreed to the look into such matters thereof.



In such regards as to the possibilities of any such possible awards there is one person I know for certain who would be able to discuss as to the ways which would be considered as blasphemy to ever have my biological mother specifically though also my biological sister in any such involvement to my award as to having heard in person while on the phone with my biological mother yelling at me for being upset as to the situations regarding the initial legal paperwork regarding the San Antonio Family Court system situation, of which Matthew West would have such knowledge despite how such aspects had gone though he had met Patrick Kennedy and possibly did not know as to the longer term connection to me in comparison to whatever might have been said as to such times. In turn Matt West would have possibly stood against any such portions as to the garbage I know my biological mother and my biological sister would have spewed turning such cesspool problems to the aspects thereof in full as to ever thinking they would be considered as accepted to ever be considered to hold onto my award when in reality, all such oceanic portions would hypothetically continue stirring up all problems throughout all waterways until the proverbial Pharaohs gave up what was not ever theirs to begin with.



Thus those people who if such is the reality if there has ever been such award(s) to me, must let it go completely and return such awards to the groups and/or agencies and/or organizations immediately for the proper ceremonies if such has ever been a situation. If thus has ever been a reality to such portions, the realistic care and concern for #EndStolenValor stopping stolen valor of all types is a mandatory especially when taking in consideration as to the technological portions thereof for such records already known. I suppose, who wants clean water and healthy land to grow?



It is ironic as to the amount of insects which showed up to the state of Texas when I arrived in the year of 2019 to get my apartment shortly thereafter having driven in circles around the city of San Antonio, when you review such times. Thus when looking at the 10 Plagues to the Miller family regarding such portions of such Biblical aspects; the embarrassment is on you hypothetically, for your choices at such times to believe who you should not have as per the facts as to the realities thereof your son and your daughter-in-law having been as atrocious as per their raising from their childhood having been brought forward as simple to be seen in reference to your son and your daughter-in-law as to them thinking the halfway point between #SanMarcos #SanMarcosTX #SanMarcosTexas San Marcos Texas to #Carrollton #CArrolltonTX #CarrolltonTexas Carrollton Texas being at exit 200 at the Starbucks on the opposite side of the #PrimeOutlets Prime Outlets in the area in my opinion though I doubt I am the only one for such a larger opinion for such review. Hypothetically, who are you compared to Ms. Rose when I had learned directly from her in comparison when growing up in the areas I had in the tristate areas? If I am not mistake her choice was you were supposed to be intelligent enough and respectful enough with the proper etiquette to show when meeting with her, and how did you raise your son regarding such portions in similarities to my biological sister having been raised? In such regards as to my Bok Gung and my Bok Pu to Ms. Rose from my biological sister to your son Zack Miller, what would Ms. Rose and my Bok Pu have in common regarding such viewpoints thereof for your consideration hypothetically in all such reviews thereof in whichever aspects as to political or not? How many comments would Ms. Rose make about your abomination of a wedding in comparison to the aspects as to what she was more intelligent and more well aware of, compared to what you had done during those times? Additionally, what was her opinion as to stopping such problems she saw not only in her family compared to what you and your family did? Additionally as Ms. Rose did have housing where she did, what is your housing compared to her North Hamptons location regarding such aspects for your attitude and ego compared to what she had when she was alive? Who are you to ever hypothetically consider looking down on me as to the ways you chose to treat my biological sister, when Ms. Rose refused to ever allow my biological sister for any such classes as per my Bok Pu’s and my Bok Gung’s as well as my Grandpa Gavett’s viewpoints thereof to that which you chose?



Since you obviously would be Democrats when I was at that garbage hideously dress affair some have called a wedding in the area of Austin Texas, let me inform you as to how Ms. Rose would review your pictures as to the location. Your son’s attire was less than adequate as the fabric of the thinness was pitiful, as to being able to see through such a dimly lit picture. You son’s pants were not appropriately ironed nor starched to what would ever be considered as appropriate for any type of a formal even or affair, and his hair should have been properly taken care of in comparison to the mess it had been in while you then new daughter-in-law’s dress was far less than appropriate and looked as to the typical whore-ish design as per her shoulders being out in any such pictures for what was considered as a so-called formal event. The shoes additionally your son and such individuals he considered as his best men to bring forward were not appropriately shined in any such respectable ways, and the claim as to that jacket which was worn was not appropriate as to the coloration of the overall background of the pictures taken. Your new daughter-in-law at the time looked pathetic as to the ways of her makeup as well as her hairstyling as to the simpleness not being striking enough for any long term length of time as it was merely a ho-hum type of style seen thousands of times before, which just as your abomination of what you considered as a wedding was just as ho-hum as to the attire within such a location.



In regards as to the so-called maid of honor attire and the maids of so-called honor as to their backgrounds for certain ones, what would ever make you think that wedding picture could ever be of any long term values in such ways in the year of 2010? Additionally your virtue signaling to wishing to have the elaborate view point as to having such an individual marry those people together in such a lack luster back patio without having any type of covering to at minimum bring some life to any such aspects, would have been viewed as the equivalent of a wish thinking a po’boy sandwich to a hoagie in the overall portions. The ways which your chairs did not have anything which would signal anything beyond a backyard picnic would have been considered as laughable for such a view point as to how Ms. Rose taught me, and the minimal attire shown in such ways only showed the lack of taste as well as lack of respect to the elders who had been in attendance to such viewpoints of the shoulders as well as the ankles by such females with the lack of any style to their clothing as well as to their individuality within such aspects thereof. Their shoes, I will not even bother as the equivalent as to the male’s shoes for such regards would be considered as enough. What the parents in the wedding pictures of each side had worn were not ever considerable to have any longer lasting aspects in time as per the facts of being such understated realities which were already politically in the works which meant the lack of foresight to any such longer term aspirations of political portions, and the in turn portions of which to ever think to re-do such or have a re-vowing ceremony would only show how you failed massively in all such prior portions of which would be reviewed as a false signaling to anything of value as well as anything of worth to the aspects thereof as to you only can do the wedding once for the long term portions into the longer term aspects thereof. In turn Ms. Rose from the way I was taught would see your son and your then new daughter-in-law’s wedding as nothing more than the stereotypical wishful thinking you could ever have such a viewpoint as to being of a longer term value as to such portions, and again any such renewal of those wishful thinking vows would be just as ho-hum as the initial wedding itself.



As technology can tell as to photoshopping and all such aspects thereof, any such portions to try to use any pictures I took with anyone would show up in the #Factchecking fact checking aspects to any political wishes as to any such support as I do not support you and I do not support my biological sister as it is fully known and fully aware in all such ways thereof. Thus if ever thought would be considered as acceptable yet again a larger failed attempt and the full ousting of all such individuals of any of your connected financial contributions would fully be in question to all such connected political figures as to their actual work compared to the portions of any such political contributions, as per the fact checking technology portions as well as the #electionintegrity election integrity. Ms. Rose would see your political attempts as feeble minded and if you had ever met her beforehand, I suppose you would know how valid all such comments are to be true regarding such viewpoints thereof. In your pictures there is not even any sort of actual genuine emotional connection between your son and your then new daughter-in-law which additionally can be seen in those hideous so-called wedding pictures. In turn as to my pictures when I was out during the areas of political rallies during the election cycle of 2020 with all; such public area cameras and etcetera, the lack of any ability to ever use such as per the facts of how much I stand up against any type of stolen valor #EndStolenValor in turn would oust yet again and would fully remove all such blocks you wish could ever be as per the number of programs per one individual technology device.



Let me clarify for that one version of one technology device for the aspects of programs, I mean one security camera for such aspects thereof for only one connection of one security camera and such connected programs for such information for the reference aspects as to the numbers of parts within one physical body for the wishful thinking as to finding the combined connections of each and every individual aspect thereof as that is only in reference to one camera. That does not include what would be in reference to two cameras connected to one monitor and etcetera for the clarifications thereof, for all such purposes. Thus additionally in such hypotheticals, you Millers need to let it go. I refused you just as much as you refused me, thus there is not one need or requirement as to any such connections beyond what I already emancipated myself from regarding your choice for your married in to your family hypothetically of course regarding such a wishful thinking aspect to the portions of my biological sister and biological mother to that problematic portion thereof.



There is nothing new about what you had done as you wish that you would have ever had the staying powers of which the aspects Ms. Rose had been able to secure for her chosen in comparison, if there actually could be something such as regarding any type of comparison other than what is the best and then what you hypothetically had done.



I prefer to remain incorruptible just as I prefer those who prefer such aspects in such incorruptibility as best as possible, as I actually care about the development and the progression forward of the human race in comparison to holding any such portions back.



Though I think such snarky attitude I could joke, there might be a few within the #Page6 #PageSix Page 6 and such aspects thereof to #FashionProgressio fashion progression, in various ways who might agree. I admit, I wonder what RuPaul and the group thereof could think about such a set of remarks, and how such could be viewed thereof as I do like them very much especially #MichelleVisage Ms. Michelle Visage. Then again she would know how a New Jersey-ian would be, as well as the areas thereof for the commentarty in various forms. I am thankful she and many others were able to survive and stay as safe as possible from those points in time, and continue to live onward. I admit there have been times when I have watched RuPaul's Drag Race and seen certain arrangements of clothing in the aspects thereof, I thought I could recall something fairly like such designs from when attending a few locations when I was younger in certain areas for certain types of party scenes back in the 1990s mainly for the ones I noticed with admittedly a smaller chest if I recall correctly from the voice energetic portions to the difference of the actual voice sound as per what is normally heard.




Picture of me in the year of 2021

My opinions are my rightful opinions as per the facts I earned my Constitutional Rights on my own, in comparison to only relying on others to have my Constitutional Rights which I appreciate such portions of the abilities thereof from the various angles to be able to have and maintain such portions overall regarding Constitutional Rights and Freedoms of mine fully thereof. There is a lack of requirement regarding aspects as to trying to silence such because of my Constitutional Rights having superseded all such portions before it was ever in question to such aspects thereof possibly, as I actually fought to earn my own way and have all such aspects fully in my favor and all such immunities for myself and my website as well as my works in full thereof at all such times and any such trying against would mean any type thereof to any such wish of any individuals' violations of my Constitutional Rights which would need to be removed from them in full from ever at any point in time of ever being a problem ever again in 100 percent capacity for eternity.



Amen.

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Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.