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It should not take a head injury
*after personally sustaining a head injury & coma*
to figure this out...

 
 
 
 
 
 


After a Drill Sergeant threw Me into the metal part of the bunk when I was in Basic Training for the United States of America's Army branch at Fort Sill Oklahoma #FortSill #FortSillOK #FortSillOklahoma #OK #Oklahoma in the year of 2000 on Psalm Sunday, I have dealt with the situations as best as I have been capable to do so while taking care of the situations and asking for assistance as per the required explanations of the information to such facts first.  While making the attempts to get assistance for the aspects thereof as to the reality, the aspects of where and when as to the multiple attempts to ask for assistance for me.  As my journal blog for when I was ready to bring such as to my other works forward since as to the lengths of time as to where my modeling was as to the modeling page information, just as the other pages have the information as to such specifics, and just as this journal blog of mine is as to such facts.


If I had real friends (if as to having met in person face to face in person in real life as to the aspects of this particular reference such as from the state of Texas as to the state of Washington as to the years of 2000 through 2013 if I met within the state of Texas for such references), real (the areas of the tristate region as before the year of 2000) family, and real relationships in real life that recognized me as to the aspects of if as to the face to face in person who started in truth as I had started such in truth as to the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, as well as the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain that took 8.5 years to dissipate; then I guesstimate there would be the easier factors as to being capable for me to speak with others in truth in person face to face in person and/or through online measures as to such factors I suppose.  Though would such as to the knowledge of the ways as to how they began such discussions with me as to would there be such a situation, for them to consider as to such if factors as to such discussions with me in truth?


As to some suggestions and commentary within "Finding A Silver Lining" one of several of my bo0ks I personally authored/wrote/compiled as I can only speak and write in truth as per such clarifications as to the reality as to the specifics of such discussions/writings/videos as per my Official You Tube where I have satirical commentary where I comment about the factors as to having dealt with others' opinions about their pop culture references of #NJ #NJstate #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey, though as to for the most part I have actually preferred to be asked with politeness if as to having read my books and/or seen my website as just the same in reference to the timeframes when I was modeling as to having respect as to what I consider as respect, referencing if as to such polite manners as to discussions if as to such having been noticed because of the factors in my opinion as to having real discussions as communication would be if my website was seen before the year of 2023 as I first began my website in 2015; as in my journal blog posts as to the reality of the years of 2010 through 2013, as to the aspects of introductions as to those timeframes when as to various factors as I did not take selfies as I was actually working with photographers as to my creations of my outfits as per the description on the link to my modeling page(s) as to the references regarding my journal blog updates in the years of 2019 through 2022 as the timeframe onward as to the year of 2023 as to the factors as to how such journal blog entries will be as to such factors as to the aspects of the various topic points.


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 I was born and raised in New Jersey and grew up going throughout the tristate northeast areas mainly, and as to how the reality of when the importance of the situations as to the aspects of reviewing as to such facts regarding the logistics for several factors as to the considerations; the years of 2019 through 2022 as to the review process as to the aspects of the timeframe, prior to the timeframe of the 20 year memorial of 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 as well as before the 30 year memorial of February 1993, as to the northeast areas mostly known as to New York City #NYC #NewYork #NY #NYstate #NYU though also as to the #Pentagon Pentagon, as well as Pennsylvania #Pennstate #Pennsylvaniastate as to the reality of how many New Jersey-ians commute in either direction, depending upon what location for the commute. 


The factors though I have said at times, I re-re-re-re-re-re-grew up in the state of  #Texas #TX #Texasstate Texas as to such factors as to the timeframes, as well as all 26 of my SCUBA #SCUBA #SCUBADiving  Diving certifications I earned were through one school within the state of Texas as I also earned winning first place in a Texas Chili cookoff with more than 20 entries as well as my chili recipe as I am adamant about my recipes as to such aspects just as I am specific as to what it actually takes for me to cook in a BBQ as to the required preparations for when I have BBQed.   



I can sarcastically write, those who know of the Rules of the BBQ as to where I grew up as to the Rules of the BBQ as to such factors to the considerations of such preparations.  However that is to cooking food as to the differences of my journal blog entries, as to the factors as to proverbial aspects of food for thought as the difference of real food in real life as to the facts of the situations to such attention to the details as well as attention to the information.


Such facts as to the metaphors in some of such factors that only after reviewing such information as to the aspects of the fiction book series that were as to for My personal life as to such dreamland sorts of factors as to the differences of such hypotheticals, the references thereof as to such regards as to the logistical emotional with the real situations as per the names I was informed of at the timeframes referenced review as to My journal blog as to the situations overall.  


If as to my journal blog being found and read as to where what I consider as common sense, as to the aspects of my satirical saying   how it should not take a head injury to figure out. 
 

*(sometimes utilizing articles discussing facts)*
By:  (Reverend) Susan MeeLing
also known as

The One & Only


(YouTube)   Lady Dori Belle


 

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REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

Day 29 of 60 Days of Thanks Challenge :

I am not certain this particularly is something for me to be thankful for despite the fact of needing certain aspects as realistically having to come to the realization of who I grew up with and how, is still a challenge in itself; however hopefully, there are those who can be thankful from this particular posting. While it is additional irony of 1+1=2 while taking into consideration the aspects of the additional number of 9, my birthday ironically as well when adding such to the equation when looking at the events in a different way regarding this day of thanks as well as the total number regarding the day of 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11. When adding the 6 to such you get the number 8, or the infinity symbol sideways. I admit for those in specific aspects I will post what hopefully will give enough for within at certain points, which will be italicized in this post for such to piece together while maintaining safety regarding other aspects underground. Whether or not some believe certain portions of my life and existence previously to now, the specific portion regarding the stuff I saw growing up regarding my biological parents was what it was.


First in reference to the fact my biological mother worked for Prudential doing information technology software programming and yesterday's post additional portions, I told people of what I grew up seeing and hearing. The underground well nearby to the house and what I saw moving through, the fact she went to #Rutgers #University in the Biology Department for her Master's Degree program, her hatred of the #USAirForce for the United States of America's #USA #ArmedForces because she said her dad (not my adopted Grandfather) told her only lesbians go into the Air Force which instead she went to college, the aspects regarding the upbringing and jokes she made such as how I sounded as though I was having battery acid thrown onto me while I was upstairs when I needed a diaper change despite my biological father's workshop from home being in the next door room less than 15-20 feet away, her jokes about such and the fact that all jokes are based in some form of truth, the time when I should have been hospitalized which not one religion would allow such to stay home with the medical aspects especially Scientology back then in the early 1990s as that type of level of illnesses would have been mandatory for medical portions as per such standards which would mean hospitalization as per Dr. L. Ron #Hubbard said in discussions over the years, as well as the fact while she was on a recorded phone line at the McHenry County Government Center in Woodstock Illinois when she admitted on that recorded phone government line that she knew people who had planned and practiced when an airplane would hit the World Trade Center Towers #WTC and how to exit the building; which all or almost all of those people as I was told on that recorded government line as to her knowledge up to a point, which those who are families and survivors of that particular day should especially want her asked about such, as well as each person she spoke with about that whether on the phone and/or in person and/or in writing of any type.


My biological mother had a separate desktop computer in their bedroom when in #NewJersey which had a black screen with green letters/numbers, a cream/beige color outer hard shell, and had the dialup working continuously on that computer as well as the secondary desktop computer which was similar in design though #IBM programming with the blue and white screen comparatively in the dining room area in the 1980s and 1990s. I know the IBM/#DOS had such capabilities because I was able to play pool online with others on that computer and have some discussions, while playing the game of pool on that computer in the dining room in the later 1990s on top of what I have already explained/written about of what I had seen or been told about or knew. That computer in the bedroom with the green and black, turned on randomly as well as had a few situational problems regarding programming needs; though there were two profiles I saw on that computer, which Anna had arranged herself.


In reference to the battery acid comment, my biological mother's siblings would be able to discuss who went through what when she was babysitting them as well as what they had done to them and/or saw each other from their oldest to their youngest and would be able to explain why their father my adoptive Grandfather would explain certain aspects about his prior work within the United States of America to me as his Granddaughter compared to other biological Grandchildren of his own blood for such information and details as they would know from experiences just as if Patricia Ann Hom-Miller were to be honest with herself as to who actually chased her around the kitchen with a knife and who came to her defense to deal with such among a few other things when looking at the babysitter situation I dealt with as well as who was accepting as to knowing what I was dealing with until Patricia came along and was kept safe from him though think about it as to the prior discussion and who had to defend who back then and who dealt with which beatings more-so with that sort of already discussed proof from Anna and Mike discussing such with whomever they spoke with about such throughout New Jersey and #Illinois and #Texas as well as online/phone calls/text messages/emails/etcetera. Also take into consideration how Anna felt the need to take care of all of the updates for each of the laptops which were taken to #GeekSquad at #BestBuy within a short amount of time, compared to when I was nowhere near her to touch my laptop computers or the desktop which once was in the #CedarPark house in Texas before she took it over completely for that desktop around 2010 or 2011 before I moved back towards the #DFW area of Texas; though she was the only one who had used that desktop, as I had my laptop which inevitably had gone to Geek Squad shortly after whichever updates she put onto such which my insurance accidental warranty purchases apparently can be joked no longer covered her mistakes in life any further.


Adding the fact she chose to move to Texas only after Patricia Ann Hom at the time was having problems at #CrystalLake South High School after what similarities regarding the time in San Antonio prior to as well as the first weeks of high school at McHenry High School #MHHS #MHS, which can anyone notice an ironic name for both? A female I had told so much about my biological family to who was from #Abilene Texas and her husband was in the Air Force when they met though lived in San Antonio Texas near a couple I had dated at the time in 2012 said "birds of a feather, flock together." Both used technology as they did and Anna had a thing about taking my cellphone to my biological sister at times, which in turn technology guys would known and understand and comprehend the situations regarding such.


With the addition of the couch being preserved after when I was sick prior to then getting to Crystal Lake Illinois and the first and only male who I dated who ever sat on that couch and ate food had fallen asleep which if you know about Mono, would be an automatic symptom of him having been needlessly exposed to freshly kept fabric with the higher proximity of the additional ingestion of food and drink on such a fabric; if she knew who his parents were when he and I were dating and she had some sort of vendetta against for a connection to the Armed Forces of the United States of America, Anna admitted through her own choice as to such times through all of the insurance paperwork for the healthcare as to all which was occurring at such times because of the additional banking aspects of paying the copay fees of the time out of pocket.


Is such considered within the statute of limitations for a few aspects such as attempted manslaughter and/or murder for a few of the prior aspects in both the states of New Jersey and Illinois, though when adding the choice to bring that couch when with a Biology Masters Degree would know to have contacted the #CDC or similar about such for proper aspects to dispose of such a situation such as that particular couch prior to then bringing such to the known Military City USA of San Antonio Texas with 5 known Armed Forces military bases for the United States of America? Doing such with the couch in conjunction with the aspects of moving to Texas and specifically where when taking into thoughts as the portions regarding she said on a government phone line in #Woodstock County Illinois at #McHenryCountyGovernmentCenter #MHCGC in 2001 the week of 11 September 2001 that she knew people who once worked with her at #Prudential who had gotten an office in one of the Twin Tower buildings which all of the people had practiced drills to evacuate the building when an airplane would hit the towerS.


By such accounts from her own mouth shortly after waking up from the coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury which those at Brooke Army Medical Center would know how the responses were from her and Mike regarding phone callas as well as whenever they got to #BAMC at #JBSA, as to the time as to being informed as Anna would have been contacted about the hospitalization transfer because of the emergency contact information. If she chose not to tell my biological father Mike, he would know whether or not there was a change in her pattern of behaviour around the time shortly after Psalm Sunday in 2000 as to whether or not she knew and decided not to tell him and/or Patricia about the injury. Since I was told I called the house and spoke with Mike who had no idea about such while knowing the fact of the matter regarding the emergency contact information being filled out and even though I was 17 years old, there is a difference in hospitalizing for an attempt during Basic Training and a difference between what occurred regarding my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury where a drill sergeant threw me into the metal part of the bunk. I was obviously unconscious when in a coma comparatively which would mean even though I had been emancipated by law, they were contacted and informed; though most likely was Anna, whether at home or at work. How she acted compared to Mike and Patricia, would be what the staff at Brooke Army Medical Center would know as to what behavioral patterns to see.


Then when you add how she knew Mike had diabetes and refused to let him have the keys to the house in San Antonio after they finished moving when she took Patricia to San Marcos to look at colleges, and when I dropped him off at their house he did not know she had taken his keys away from him. If I did not drive over to that house when I had because he had not answered the phone as I knew he should have, he knows what medical state he was in when I arrived. He knows I climbed over the fence to get him, he knows I carried him over to the fence to lean against to climb up because of the lock, and he knows I carried him over the fence to get to my van to take him to my house to fix the problems so he could live. If he remembers and if Patricia remembers, Anna was pissed off to see him at my house. How that went afterwards, is what only they can discuss and describe as to her anger and rage. I know she kept a stash of extra wooden spoons and other implements when I was a child growing up in New Jersey underneath the kitchen sink to beat me with, which I suppose I can joke as to why I went to the level I had about #SCUBADiving gear as well as #BDSM tools for protection for me against her from such hidden memories from childhood and teenager years though they did come in handy for other aspects regarding safety of the waters and clarity thereof. By the way, what could a #SCUBA Diver with 26 earned SCUBA Diving certifications know?


As a side note Anna hated the fact I had been the chosen one by my Great Grandparents as well as my adopted Grandfather, despite her trying to convince them she could do better with her compared to what she had to deal with in reference to me. Additionally Anna telling me about how mad she was I did not die was not just from when I was a child, as how do you think convalescent leave went when I was in Illinois when at the house? Not forgetting Mark who was married to her sister my biological Aunt Eddie who said when I was in Crystal Lake at his and her house after my coma how glad he 'was to see my New Jersey attitude adjustment, made things better for' him. My biological cousins Kate and Allie would know why such a comment was made to me, as per what they had told me and shown me as to what was occurring to them at those times in 1998 and 1999. Both, were involved with programming if I recall correctly. He was out of #Chicago and thus when I defended myself against his comment about my breast size at the age of 15 years old, there is quite a bit which obviously after #BaptistCampLebanon was not necessary to add to such a time for me personally; which no one else at that table stood up for me, except my biological Aunt Eddie. That was a sign in regards of what I already had been told in reference to my cousins Kate and Allie, in reference to their laundry only he was allowed to do; and what they caught him doing with their panties, which I had confronted him about prior to the time I poured the soup in his lap during that dinner. He complained to Anna, and well...


On a different recorded government phone line while I was at Fort Sam Houston in San Antonio Texas in my barracks room, there were multiple phone calls made and received. I told my newer company Commander Captain John Morning about the aspects I could remember as well as what my biological mother had told me on that line as well as prior discussions I could remember from my childhood and teenager years, of which the governmental organizations of the Armed Forces would also have been given a specific signal on one of the phone calls with him which would actually prove such a point referencing what I told Anna anytime when ending the phone call with her while also in reference to Mike during certain phone calls of certain topic discussions. I told Captain Morning about the meaning of the numerical portions of 8-3-1 which he knew I meant, though after the events of 11 September 2001 I knew I needed to use such even more sparingly than I already had for such words; as knowing such specific words would automatically trigger such an emotional response as I have not taken such words lightly ever, admittedly in certain situations the need for such a signal would be seen as such a signal in other references because of having explained such depending upon the situation. In reference to telling my son #Letters4James and/or my daughter #Letters4Lidia those words as a Mom, always meant as a Mom in such. In reference to specific individuals of which at some point there may have been a relationship, depends upon the situations which would make most sense regarding those specific words and to who such a call sign was referring to and connections thereof among the Armed Forces of the United States of America.


Admittedly there had been a small select few which those particular words meant as exactly as I meant them and returned in such in specific timeframes when in Texas prior to winding up in #Washington state, however life goes on as life goes on; of which especially in such a situation the specific interferences from my biological family Anna, Mike, and Patricia had been notated as has been notated. If they chose to discuss and write about such in reference to that particular two engagements individual, then they have such additional aspects to deal with because of the threat to damage government property as well as the damages incurred to such referencing his finger if having to do with such because of not liking the fact if seeing me genuinely be happy and smile; which had always driven my biological mother mad, as to how dare I be happy in my own way doing my own thing without her approval or permission despite being an adult and taking care of my own life. I fought to be emancipated for a few reasons, though that particular portion regarding her was just an icing on the cake to get away from her grasp. I realized such in Medical Hold Unit #MHU #WTU orderly room when on the phone and discussing if I were to return back to Illinois what the situation would be, which her idea of charging me monthly rent to then charge me for the car I paid for that was in their name because of the legalities of my biological age, as well as charge me for insurance, while also having the same curfew as when in high school was a no go. When she realized I was seriously staying away and staying in Texas after the second holiday to flying to go visiting in Illinois and that fiasco about her dog Dakota which she would not keep away from my 1 year old son and 3 month old daughter from attacking them when nowhere near either one of them and yet only after she brought that dog towards the area which I defended my children from that, the crying and overdramatic waste of tears for attention towards her feelings about her dog compared to my children bleeding because of her dog's bites; she realized when I started packing everything to leave early, she knew I was no longer ever going to go to Illinois only because of that situation. What happened less than one year, after that?


That is correct Texas, they moved to San Antonio! P.B. in name for such a situation from such a creepy female, much?


Nonetheless, there are those who also know they did nothing to help my son or my daughter or I as their false claim and their lies repeatedly proved over and over again.


Whether or not the people who my biological sister had married into after denying to invite me to their wedding while asking for my son and my daughter to be the ring bearer and the flower girl as well as all of that other additional aspects had known the fuller details of at the time, that still stands in reference to the reality of literally denying my children's Mom from being with them for their ability to do a photo opportunity with the female pastor and the other mixed group of people in the picture to give the false impression of unity in that picture; completely unsanctioned by me for any public or official use because my children were not Mike nor Anna's nor Patricia's to ever use for any promotional anything, and as I was and am their only biological Mom as well as the only legal guardian of both of my children at that time; I refuse to ever allow any such pictures with my children from their wedding for any purposes ever for any type of gains for such as well as refuse to endorse anyone they may have donated to regarding any political contributions to whichever party and/or elected officials they may be related to and/or know and/or were at that wedding and/or in those pictures. None of them ever had any permission from me, which they legally would have needed at those times before ever using any pictures for any promotional pictures. If such has not occurred, then no problem. If such did occur, then there is the reality of the fact as to who I am and what I had done referencing cleaning the waters in the state of Texas among a few other recent timing aspects for that particular unholy wedding and abomination of all that was and still remains holy unlike those involved with such trickery. If such was used, I revoke such non-existent privileges they took illegally upon themselves as per the laws in the state of Texas for such needing express permission and rights granted which I did not do nor will I ever allow.


I do not care who I may have chosen to personally endorse as to being involved personally by choice, however I refuse any and all aspects referencing my children's pictures being used by anyone without my express permission for any age of which I was still legally their guardian. That Grandfather Clause is technically not needed, as that law has been around and still stays around regarding such types of works within the state of Texas regarding pictures and/or videos taken by anyone at that event which includes the hired photographer because she did not get me to sign any waiver ever allowing her to use my children's pictures for any publishing for her photography and I refuse such to be allowed for such an unholy and illegitimate wedding vows in the spiritual or religious aspects; unless they prefer to acknowledged being married into a Satanic cult, by such religious and spiritual definitions already written aeons ago. That choice is up to the Millers as well as those particular Hom, family members. Maybe they will endorse Satanism, though which version of Satanism would they be referring to? Would they be referring to the Church of Satan which actually takes care of those who are actually important, or would it be referring to how they take care of themselves in the narcissistic way as described by the female from Abilene regarding the views she had which ironically would align more with the #HomMiller situation; far more than with what I had read of the #ChurchofSatan, and what I personally know Anton LeVey would be disgusted and disgraced if they were to try to even consider such a disgusting aspect as to try to pawn off their problems yet again onto such a group.


Then additionally those who are within the BDSM/#LGBTQP/#Swinger communities in the state of Texas where I had been involved, guess which city in the state of Texas my biological sister and her then new husband were living in? They were in #SanMarcos, Texas. Guess which city the house was to have the wedding in which I was denied being invited to, was ridiculed for wearing the colors to match, and my son and my daughter were wrongly used as props? That is correct, if you guessed in #Austin Texas. Those Miller family individuals had a two story house in white with shutters on a well manicured landscaped property almost like as if in a Homeowners Association area #HOA, which had around 1.5-3 acres for that wedding somewhere not far from #LakeTravis. Of all of you in the communities I had been a part of, do you remember what I warned you about my biological family? In reference to San Marcos specifically since you heard from me first hand about when I was interrogated by my biological mother and my biological father after they had been re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-informed of my involvement with the BDSM lifestyle while not forgetting my biological mother had done the updates to my computers which would have had my modeling pictures on the laptops as well as the book I was working on writing at the time and my email addresses and #fetlife and #facebook accounts open when she ripped the laptop from my hands each time they showed up to where I was living, what did I tell you about that interrogation I had dealt with at their house in San Antonio? More specifically, what did Mike say in reference to him having been to the Red Light District? Also, what did I tell you about what Mike said about when he was informed about Patricia Ann Hom-Miller's threesome in their bed the first week of her in the new high school, prior to her officially telling me she had been assisting the dance instructor to cheat on his wife at the dance school she went to by their house they had left empty during such times?


That is correct if your answer was Mike said he "Didn't send her to Texas to be the best little whore, in Texas."


Who was playing who, in such times? Remember, I did not and do not play games. Be smarter.


However additionally to the aspects of the knowledge Anna Louise Lally Hom had prior to leaving New Jersey, as I already also had discussed maps which not all of the maps were from the wetland areas near the house in New Jersey that Mike was upset about in reference to my school report in 8th grade Science. The maps also were for areas Mike had traveled to, such as how he had been a part of the rattlesnake roundup in Texas among #Nevada as well as #California and Washington state from what I can remember. There are underground caverns which the underground well and a location in the San Antonio area of a house which had an access point to the underground caverns and caves in a #Swan Road area, which my biological parents were still a part of my life at that time as my then roommate would be able to know as she spoke with them and saw them when she went to pick up her belongings after I contacted her Dad which they were not informed as to who her Dad was when I contacted him as an FYI. I do not know if she had brought that portion up to my biological parents, however in my defense the bills were due and though not much owed when looking at the finances; the portions of other aspects might make a lot more sense now, then it did back then.


I took an oath to protect and defend my country the United States of America against all enemies both foreign and domestic, and since they preferred to domesticate themselves among Texans after what occurred in prior locations of which each state had been warned by me in one way or another beyond and in addition to their own experiences; my biological mother's knowledge of such information and choosing not to report such to her own chain of command within the offices of the McHenry County Government Center to then go onward as she and they had into the state of Texas with such additional portions, in my opinion the information comes across as treason as well as being a traitor to the United States of America or such informational choices to neglect to inform her own in those areas. Yes, I had spoken with her and allowed her to condemn herself on the phone and was where I was knowing there had to be someone out in somewhere which would hear the information and take a deeper look into the outside aspects.


I had applied to a Marine and Science Technology #MAST charter school with a United States of America's #USNavy attachment when I was 12 years old, which my biological mother threw a fit about. Those in Crystal Lake would know how that went in reference to my choice to want to go to the Armed Forces of the United States of America, for such a reference as to how that went regarding that school prior to going to the recruiter's office in Illinois 3.5 years later. Anna and Patricia were calmer in Crystal Lake about my joining the Army branch after fighting to be emancipated, compared to when living in New Jersey and bringing that up for the first time as well as the process for the application all the way through the interview portions. That would be the time when officially the Armed Forces of the United States of America had begun my background check and had initially begun to track me and what I was going to go into, on top of other official and yet unofficial aspects as well; prior to ever signing the paperwork to go to the #MEPS station when 17 years old, for clarification. There were plenty of paper-trails as to my whereabouts and a few physical pictures developed here and there aside from school pictures though there was only 1 family picture taken other than church in reference to my biological family, which just so happened to be a few weeks before leaving to go to Basic Training. If my biological parents loved me as much as their false claims and lies were when they actually acknowledged me then why, only then for a so-called family picture with those people standing near me in 2000?


Those leeches such as labeled regarding those in reference to my biological family as to what had been done as Lackland Air Force Base would know as well as Fort Sam Houston, where were they when 2012 at the emergency room occurred, and was there any difference in Anna's behaviour regarding such situations in reference to when talking with others? Or as I warned people about her going from being cruel and inhumane in every way possible to sounding as though she might actually care in some way, does that come across more clearly from that female known as my biological mother or egg donor make more sense now? Lackland and Fort Sam Houston, how was her behaviour towards what happened to me as well as what happened to my daughter similar?


Anna had wished she could make Patricia the favorite of our Great Grandparents and was infuriated my Bok Pu refused to accept Anna's excuse of Patricia being born on my Bok Gung's birthday to be the same as just naming Patricia with the middle name she was supposed to have, which those who know the Asian culture know how much of a disrespect that is to not only my Great Grandfather/Bok Gung for insulting his intelligence as well as his place; though also insulting his wife and her involvement with the life that could have been for Anna's favorite, though not theirs for obvious reasons in reference solely to the Asian aspect. Thus if the Miller family was looking to marry into such a family heir sort of situation, they picked the wrong one when they chose Patricia Ann Hom. My Bok Gung and Bok Pu hated and despised Anna for what she did, and they tolerated Patricia because of how Anna was raising her. Those who know anything about the Asian culture or more for those who do not know the Asian culture, Anna disrespected the entire family ancestry of both the Cantonese and the Mandarin side. She was told she disgraced the family name just as she was told I was the only one who was able to carry on, which those who know how she gets knows how her response was. If Mike actually had paid attention, he would have known Anna had given the specific information as to who owed him, and how much. Linda would not have ever known where to go, without Anna having taken her there or shown her personally the information from your workshop. I got in trouble for telling her when I caught her rummaging, I would tell on her to you. If you remember how messy the workshop had been shortly before you found out about what Linda had done, you know you saw something off because of how much I got in trouble for being in the room; despite not being able to get to tell what occurred, because Anna would not shut up and stop crying. Lackland, you know.


Since I have brought such up, I had thought when she wanted to go to Lackland she was ready to turn herself into the authorities because of her insisting on going to that particular appointment set. Instead she threw her temper tantrum about me, denied being who she was, and threw all sorts of fits as per her usual which you would not have known of how much I was telling the truth in reference to Captain John Morning as well as Medical Hold Unit if she did not get picked up by the MPs on post. That was her on a calm day when I was growing up in New Jersey, by the way. However, Prudential employees who worked with her as well as church congregants during such times would be able to discuss whether or not in truth as to what occurred is up to though I would think they would not hesitate to inform about Anna due to the various aspects which went on. I had to go into the office otherwise I would deal with more if I did not take from the offering plate, which I did not want or need to do; which additionally because of leaving some money in the envelope instead of taking what they knew would be there was another problem I dealt with because I would not take everything away from the church I was growing up going to. Pastor MacKenzie said he knew how difficult my biological parents were in church when I spoke with him, though at the times when I was growing up I truly doubted if anyone ever really saw the truth of the larger aspects as well; which I would not doubt if at such a church location if there were hidden cameras at some point in time, as it is in the state of New Jersey after-all and it once was used as a hospital during the Revolutionary War with Armed Forces of the United States of America's connection of course. I dealt with what I dealt with even after being forced to do so, which was why I did not ever do it again; as it was wrong to begin with as I stood up against, though it was what it was as I could not undo what I had done in such a way. I know Anna was in charge of several aspects as a Deacon just as Mike was in charge of several aspects as a Trustee of Old Tennent Presbyterian Church and I was told there were situations which occurred at the church after Mike, Anna, and Patricia had returned to Old Tennent Presbyterian Church after the 2001 September 11 attack which split the church.


I knew a Pastor sees more than meets the eyes, though the irony regarding a few additional aspects referencing such. It was known as it is known about the current Pastor as to the connection to the United States of America's Armed Forces, of which additionally if Anna and/or Mike had purposely chosen and/or known about the situation regarding Pastor MacKenzie's wife and my friend Amanda's Mom; that is up for them to deal with and repent to the Pastor and his daughter as well as the congregation about, as well as another point. My friend Laura and Amy and Sarah's Mom and Dad only had theft of property after the Old Tennent Presbyterian Church photo phone directory, though I do not know if they knew what Anna actually did. I admit I was annoyed as to Amy being upset about the break ins because of the specific aspects she was upset about compared to being in a loving and caring family, though most likely not as necessarily understood at such times. However knowing and realizing certain portions regarding what Anna's job had been at Prudential, they would know which times and where they were as well as who they were with if there were to be something which occurred while they were all together and/or the response from Anna and/or Mike in reference to when they were informed. That is a long list of Anna's trails of tears along mixed with more, as it was not just one or two situations.


If hypothetically the facts have already proven themselves among additional information being assistive regarding such details though especially in specific to the 11 September 2001 situations, if such recordings are still in existence on earth I would guesstimate the Armed Forces of the United States of America would have such records among several other safe houses to be able to guard such on earth; though obviously the additional copies of such recorded phone calls, are where they are within the space locations throughout as required. Honesty, is the best policy.


Though I had encouraged my son and my daughter to get involved learning about religions and spirituality, I did not ever encourage either one of my children to ever steal or lie especially to the church; though I taught them to follow the moral and ethical codes of the 10 Commandments among some additional aspects, such as within the Jewish Community Center #JCC in San Antonio Texas; which I discussed certain aspects of my biological family in the classes with the class and the teachers as well, regarding my biological family's actions. Additionally to add regarding such points, my biological mother and biological sister were hell bent on proving their theory and research as to whether or not they were able to prove to the military what they knew about what they had read or been told of the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as they refused to believe the Armed Forces of the United States of America's doctors and medical field had any idea about how to treat me because of the after effects from surviving the Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury.


I can say I know my adopted maternal Grandfather, my Bok Gung, and my Bok Pu are actually proud of me; in full truth, as usual. Despite the fact of being told the opinion in reference to the biological aspects of the legal times portion, those three have not ever doubted nor have ever felt as though I disgraced the family or the ancestry. I almost felt my maternal Grandfather smiling when I stood up for myself at Dr. Sun's dinner table defending the Armed Forces of the United States of America in a different way, regarding questions being asked oddly in a way which I remembered Anna coaching others to ask questions to others in such a way because she was too scared to get her own hands dirty yet wanted everyone else to wait on her hand and foot. I do not doubt some may have seen such hypothetically, in quite a few ways.


Thus I am thankful I know my Grandfather, my Bok Gung, and my Bok Pu are proud of me which does mean a lot as per my upbringing; though having to bring such information forward and having to admit how weak I had been and felt as a child and as a teenager and after my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, that is a heavy burden. Hopefully such answers assist more, if there were ever any questions needing further clarifications regarding such details.



There is a difference in the words and the meaning at times, though the care and concern there.

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Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Model Author Susan MeeLing

It should not take a head injury to figure this out because I thought you are supposed, to be smarter.

If there are those who find such interesting enough to research further to bring forward more information in reference to the forefront for more detailed information, as usual I request the courtesy of the same which I do in reference to how I refer to articles for reference points when writing my journal blog entries; for each one used for reference starting points, to research for clearer understanding from such knowledge.

 

That is common sense, good etiquette, and good karma; whilst lifting others upward, in positive ways.

Quotes which mean a lot to me:

"The ultimate measure of an individual is not where they stand in moments of comfort and convenience, but where they stand at the time of challenge and controversy."

"We must reject the idea that every time a law is broken society is guilty, rather than the law breaker.  Freedom is never-more than one generation away, from extinction.  We do not pass freedom on through our blood stream because freedom must be fought for, protected, and handed on for the next generation to do the same."

"Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.  Though best to be able to share in person with who matters, until that time occurs being able to see what is possible through such is a feat to notice.  One must be happy within oneself prior to being happy with another, though such can be enjoyed if living in one's own truth is as such. and then as to the capability to progress forward with another and/or others depending upon the situation(s) and individual(s)."  ~  A Quote From Me, Reverend Susan MeeLing also known as Lady Dori Belle

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