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It should not take a head injury
*after personally sustaining a head injury & coma*
to figure this out...

 
 
 
 
 
 


After a Drill Sergeant threw Me into the metal part of the bunk when I was in Basic Training for the United States of America's Army branch at Fort Sill Oklahoma #FortSill #FortSillOK #FortSillOklahoma #OK #Oklahoma in the year of 2000 on Psalm Sunday, I have dealt with the situations as best as I have been capable to do so while taking care of the situations and asking for assistance as per the required explanations of the information to such facts first.  While making the attempts to get assistance for the aspects thereof as to the reality, the aspects of where and when as to the multiple attempts to ask for assistance for me.  As my journal blog for when I was ready to bring such as to my other works forward since as to the lengths of time as to where my modeling was as to the modeling page information, just as the other pages have the information as to such specifics, and just as this journal blog of mine is as to such facts.


If I had real friends (if as to having met in person face to face in person in real life as to the aspects of this particular reference such as from the state of Texas as to the state of Washington as to the years of 2000 through 2013 if I met within the state of Texas for such references), real (the areas of the tristate region as before the year of 2000) family, and real relationships in real life that recognized me as to the aspects of if as to the face to face in person who started in truth as I had started such in truth as to the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, as well as the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain that took 8.5 years to dissipate; then I guesstimate there would be the easier factors as to being capable for me to speak with others in truth in person face to face in person and/or through online measures as to such factors I suppose.  Though would such as to the knowledge of the ways as to how they began such discussions with me as to would there be such a situation, for them to consider as to such if factors as to such discussions with me in truth?


As to some suggestions and commentary within "Finding A Silver Lining" one of several of my bo0ks I personally authored/wrote/compiled as I can only speak and write in truth as per such clarifications as to the reality as to the specifics of such discussions/writings/videos as per my Official You Tube where I have satirical commentary where I comment about the factors as to having dealt with others' opinions about their pop culture references of #NJ #NJstate #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey, though as to for the most part I have actually preferred to be asked with politeness if as to having read my books and/or seen my website as just the same in reference to the timeframes when I was modeling as to having respect as to what I consider as respect, referencing if as to such polite manners as to discussions if as to such having been noticed because of the factors in my opinion as to having real discussions as communication would be if my website was seen before the year of 2023 as I first began my website in 2015; as in my journal blog posts as to the reality of the years of 2010 through 2013, as to the aspects of introductions as to those timeframes when as to various factors as I did not take selfies as I was actually working with photographers as to my creations of my outfits as per the description on the link to my modeling page(s) as to the references regarding my journal blog updates in the years of 2019 through 2022 as the timeframe onward as to the year of 2023 as to the factors as to how such journal blog entries will be as to such factors as to the aspects of the various topic points.


Go read through the multiple journal blogs on my website after finishing scrolling to get to the journal blog area, now!

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 I was born and raised in New Jersey and grew up going throughout the tristate northeast areas mainly, and as to how the reality of when the importance of the situations as to the aspects of reviewing as to such facts regarding the logistics for several factors as to the considerations; the years of 2019 through 2022 as to the review process as to the aspects of the timeframe, prior to the timeframe of the 20 year memorial of 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 as well as before the 30 year memorial of February 1993, as to the northeast areas mostly known as to New York City #NYC #NewYork #NY #NYstate #NYU though also as to the #Pentagon Pentagon, as well as Pennsylvania #Pennstate #Pennsylvaniastate as to the reality of how many New Jersey-ians commute in either direction, depending upon what location for the commute. 


The factors though I have said at times, I re-re-re-re-re-re-grew up in the state of  #Texas #TX #Texasstate Texas as to such factors as to the timeframes, as well as all 26 of my SCUBA #SCUBA #SCUBADiving  Diving certifications I earned were through one school within the state of Texas as I also earned winning first place in a Texas Chili cookoff with more than 20 entries as well as my chili recipe as I am adamant about my recipes as to such aspects just as I am specific as to what it actually takes for me to cook in a BBQ as to the required preparations for when I have BBQed.   



I can sarcastically write, those who know of the Rules of the BBQ as to where I grew up as to the Rules of the BBQ as to such factors to the considerations of such preparations.  However that is to cooking food as to the differences of my journal blog entries, as to the factors as to proverbial aspects of food for thought as the difference of real food in real life as to the facts of the situations to such attention to the details as well as attention to the information.


Such facts as to the metaphors in some of such factors that only after reviewing such information as to the aspects of the fiction book series that were as to for My personal life as to such dreamland sorts of factors as to the differences of such hypotheticals, the references thereof as to such regards as to the logistical emotional with the real situations as per the names I was informed of at the timeframes referenced review as to My journal blog as to the situations overall.  


If as to my journal blog being found and read as to where what I consider as common sense, as to the aspects of my satirical saying   how it should not take a head injury to figure out. 
 

*(sometimes utilizing articles discussing facts)*
By:  (Reverend) Susan MeeLing
also known as

The One & Only


(YouTube)   Lady Dori Belle


 

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REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

Day 28 Day of Thanks Challenge : of 60 Days of Thanks : Today with documents!

As with beginning my 28th day of thanks challenge for myself which others can take my idea of a 60 days of thanks challenge to find what they are thankful for, to be able to look within their own lives as to what they can be thankful and grateful for in life. I have to admit my own biases from my own experiences within my viewpoints, though I did not think I would be the only one who would do so because of knowing how many genuinely know how important it is to help oneself while doing what can be done to help others is important though making sure what is needed is properly taken care of. Whether that is in your physical life as to what you do, where you go, what you eat, exercising, and/or etcetera for such physical aspects. Mentally to take care of one's thoughts properly to genuinely and truthfully evaluate not only the details of one's life though other interconnecting portions of which impact and affect how the view of life, local areas, out to the world view is impacted as per actions and choices whether consciously or subconsciously. In such regarding the consciously and the subconsciously are several additional factors to responses in each way, though also affects the opinions and/or implementations as to what thoughts can lead to for the betterment hopefully depending who you are depends on what each situation can do though the physical also impacts such because of different muscular aspects as well to assist making different choices depending upon the situation and requirements thereof. Emotionally the impact of the health within the mental aspect of life can alter or assist or enhance the abilities noticed and/or adversely impact depending on balance levels of an individual's capability to be able to truthfully assess and review a situation to be able to see the best possible outcome with room available for a just in case, due to outside sources.


With such of the interconnection most closely between the mental and emotional, the required knowledge of oneself to understand the aspects as to the causes/reasons/excuses/purposes/etcetera as to the why and background(s) thereof assist with the further development from a young age into elder years which as certain aspects might change the other aspects might not necessarily which in turn finding the proper balance to ensure the best possibilities are of extreme importance. The spiritual aspects of life depending what each needs to find an inner sanctum of which being able to clear thoughts and emotions to be able to clear the way to process information in a proper way per person, depends upon how they were introduced to such and how the additional aspects impact the requirement for such a moment or moments of silence due to the external noises from various sources and aspects. Sexually the point above the biological age of 21 is of a different measure because of the endorphin releases which occur and dopamine levels which assist the clarity of thoughts, though there are those who are capable of certain aspects more willingly or freely those who are not as willing or not as capable to look at such in a freer way are usually more connected to other aspects in whichever combinations which do not allow the randomness others have seen such as and due to such the root chakra for such an example will remain blocked without such a situation because of the type of individual personality traits among the other combined background aspects. In turn the reasons for other portions may be as they are to whatever degree thereof however the aspects regarding the sexual aspects of biological adults at the age of 21 years of age in specific capacities are of importance, however that aspect has been ignored and wrongly so for the timeframes once cameras were invented because of the proof taken for a variety to styles of photography which had sent law enforcement agencies agents running to take care of.


Today thinking about the realities regarding my biological sister Patricia Ann Hom-Miller and the choice to ignore a fact she noticed regarding a discrepancy to the San Antonio Express News #mysa about the article written regarding the Brooke Army Medical Center at Fort Sam Houston in San Antonio Texas regarding the minimal portions of at the time though were extremely important to bring forward for others to know and be made aware of, that one portion regarding the relationship situation which she specifically noticed and made comments about while she knew if she was in a relationship and with whom; she made the choice not to tell me anything to do in reference to repairing or fixing the news paper article information for a correction ever, which in turn meant she took that news paper article to our biological parents and informed them. I did not know if she was dating anyone however they knew of the problems throughout the years of the legal marriage only to that male as they all knew I was doing everything I could without anyone else's direct help regarding speaking with each individual and group of the base at Fort Sam Houston #JBSA, with the exception of one meeting when the male Jeffrey Kuykendall Jr (also known as Cactus Jack) had gone with me to the legal office for JAG only because of the name sounding a certain way as told.


Otherwise there was no one to specifically assist me as I went up the Chain of Command on and throughout the post on my own and by myself once again without any assistance and the one group of people who biologically related to myself and my son #Letters4James and my daughter #Letters4Lidia who knew that type of aspect in the civilian sector, only made comments and did absolutely nothing to actually help or make even the slightest of a suggestion as to how to repair the information for accuracy especially taking into consideration of living inside of a 5 military base location city such as #JBSA only proving how much my biological family truly hated my existence further to what happened at Lackland Air Force Base as well as other times afterwards and prior. My biological family knew how much military hated stolen valor though also knew how much they hated cheating spouses even though my biological family knew and had proof I not once ever had cheated, nor at any point in time had I ever stolen valor. They heard stories from people they met about what occurred to people who assisted such and my biological family knew they did not correct the information at the time of the news article being first published, nor within the initial several weeks or months.


Thankfully whether or not the San Antonio Express News caught on to the situation in more detail or not at the time in 2008, later I discussed that discussion my biological sister and biological family and I had about that news article several times. Thus in reference to the in-laws to those people if your son Zack was dating my biological sister, they knew choosing to keep such a secret from you and your family would mean you would not want me nor need me at your wedding and thus when your daughter-in-law my biological sister Patricia Ann Hom-Miller chose to tell me on that day in your front yard at the side of the street near your mailbox that my son #Letters4James and my daughter #Letters4Lidia were the only ones you all cared about and wanted for the pictures, and according to both Patricia and Anna Louise Lally Hom that my children were the only ones who needed to be at your son's wedding during that whole fiasco; prior to what occurred in the Master Bathroom area when your soon-to-be daughter-in-law at that time had been mad that I brought a gown which matched the wedding colors, which would have been considered to others to be looked at as having a part of the wedding party family.


In my defense to who is Patricia Ann Hom-Miller's in-laws and guests at that wedding, I thought at minimum the choice of the light lavender colored gown A-line cut floor length with the Empire waistline for a small row of rhinestones covering the majority of my tattoos was more appropriate to the type of wedding I thought was going to be with a sheer matching lavender shawl to cover my shoulders despite the heat during the time. I thought the gown was a better choice to respect the fact you were holding the wedding on your property despite the outlying (pun intended for the last 2/3 regarding you know) situations, at minimum while respecting the fact of the colors for the additional aspect of dressing more modestly for such an event compared to the way I physically look even though being in Austin Texas. I recognized what I was seeing whereas I am fairly certain in other references, there were those who did not know nor understand necessarily.


Nonetheless including the reference to both the SCUBA Diving which no one ever discussed with me in depth or detail in regards of my biological family beyond which certification and nothing more the following year to that news article which obviously your son was dating and engaged to my biological sister longer than a few months, which in turn means those warnings I gave to people in San Antonio as well as Fort Worth as well as Dallas as well as Cedar Park as well as Austin and also San Marcos probably make a bit more additional sense as to what I had discussed back then compared to the additional information regarding the now in 2021 as well as since I returned back to the state of Texas. Ironically in reference to the Cowboys Dance Hall Stoney LaRue concert and timing in reference to whatever was going on in that aspect in March 2013 regarding Patricia Ann Hom-Miller's in-laws if not fully involved with additional problems needlessly because of Patricia as well as Mike Lee Hom and Anna Louise Lally Hom choosing to continue to keep such away from the truth. Anna and Mike had both walked into the house to see me laid out several times well before ever regarding to the backyard, just as Patricia had lived in my house in San Antonio and watched me get laid out because of being angry about catching her and him in the bed. She laughed, which I am fairly certain you might possibly know such a laugh in regards to other circumstances which would assist in such clarifications.


Remember their claim was they were moving to Texas to help me with my children which with such sets of prior opinions they had made known in Crystal Lake Illinois when Patricia was in Crystal Lake Middle School as well as Crystal Lake South High School #CLS up until shortly after the 11 September 2001 events, only in 2003 did they decide to move to the state of #Texas for such a claim. What would all of those people in #CrystalLake, #Woodstock, #CaryGrove, #LakeintheHills, #BullValley, and other nearby locations such as #SpringhillMall in #Illinois have to say about what was said? Also in reference to my biological parents do you remember that construction worker who had not strapped down anything in the back of his truck which had been made because I was waving at him to pull the car over and he claimed I was flipping him off instead of paying attention to the fact all of the stuff was flying out of the back of his construction truck, which the sheetrock hit the side of the car where Eddie's daughter Katie was sitting? Do you remember how he refused to listen to me saying he heard my New Jersey accent and knew I was flipping him off instead of what I was doing which was waving at him to pay attention to the trail of debris his construction truck was leaving behind as well as hitting the windshield, and that male's excuse of a response even when he was told the truth? Do you remember how that male went off on me just because of my New Jersey accent and tried blaming me for whatever occurred in New Jersey, as well as saying he did not want any of that New Jersey stuff in Illinois? The irony, when you think about the claim made about the flipping off and what occurred to who I was engaged to at one point in time in between the time of the first and the second engagement do you not think?


Who, did he know? Who did he not care to tell the truth to, even though there was plenty of evidence? Did you repeat such a cycle to continue in reference to my biological family, ex-in-laws, McCoy Elementary School, #CFBISD, BDSM/LGBTQP/Pagan/Swinger communities, and etcetera? Out of curiosity Mike and Anna, what was the insurance information? Do you remember that fence situation regarding the property I owned and recognize the truck, Anna? A white Datsun truck, was that the same sending a message? To that construction worker male or company owner and to whoever you are related to, was what I grew up with not enough suffering? To that construction worker or company owner and family/associates, was what I went through after he had lied to you about such worth it in the long run to have done everything you hypothetically were a part of? Now that there is proof of the fact of extra terrestrial life as well as the life in the oceanic waters which in both regards I took care of personally, how proud of yourselves as to what those individuals have seen since you only understand such types of power? How does that feel to know they sought to speak with me about the existence of earth and whether or not to allow the Milky Way Galaxy to continue to be, for those who arrogantly went through my email without any legal rights informed appropriately; how does that feel, they saw you do such as well? How does it feel to know about the waters, the lakes, the rivers, the streams, the quarries, the reserviors, and etcetera were cleaned only because of me when getting to the oceanic waters? You have had the whatever attitude as had and know nothing of how such is, yet have had the denial within yourselves as to wrongly deny various truths despite being directly within all of your purview.


However of course only if it helps Patricia Ann Hom-Miller is there ever a need for anything from me, correct? Well, there is your clarification as to that which that family allowed into their grasps which personally, I am not interested in regards of due to such aspects of being told to keep myself away from a wedding ceremony to only look through the lens of a lens of a lens of a lens. Photoshopping someone into a picture because of a cutout is useless to such individuals regarding the space aspects, and truthfully disgusts them to see you think you would be able to outsmart their technology. I would say good luck with that, however that would be a lie if you truthfully thought you could outsmart their technology or ever thought their technology was less superior to yours arrogantly.


I knew my biological family had something to do with several aspects to which I had warned many throughout the Army as well as other branches and division of the United States of America's Armed Forces whichever branch or division as needed as well as throughout the civilian sectors where I had been in the state of Texas, well before they ever set foot on the land of the state of Texas. If you read the books I mailed and/or the dropbox link that once worked, you would know the brief details might rekindle a memory from the time we met and spoke about such realities regarding my biological family as well as other extenuating circumstances and situations.


Whoever chose to get into what was not for them to get into regarding my personal information please do remember my clearance level is most likely a smidgen above yours since I earned such at the age of 17, as clearance levels are not given as participation trophies as each clearance level is earned. Anna started having problems after I was sick with Mono, Epstien Bar, Lymes Disease, Bronchitis, and the Flu all at the same time not because of the amount of concern as that would have been seen if she listened to the doctor and had taken me to the hospital instead of having Mike go to college to break the law by practicing medicine on a minor child when going to RN school though in community college at the time of and had not actually gotten as far into that school yet; if I am correct, for that particular purview. The work situation was because at the time I was sick, and I was unable to get onto the computer to work. If she remembers correctly when after the Tae Kwondo competition, the Saint John Vianney High School #SJV bus situation, when she would take me into her job at Prudential; her boss Mr. M (last name with a tree frog meaning) had wanted to speak with me about a few situations in his office asking specific questions about coding words and technology aspects which I answered. Less than a full year between those times of when going into the office prior to the bus situation, what was it you noticed he said which lead you to know he knew? His daughter was in which tower at the World Trade Center, which daughter of his was there, and why was she there? Was that a part of the group you knew who had been practicing if there was an airplane that hit the World Trade Center buildings, how to evacuate the building? How long were they practicing to evacuate, and what were the plans as to the causes to practice such drills? Were those people who were the only people of an entire floor which were able to escape without anyone being injured from what you told others and I Anna, who was it you knew and what was it you knew about such to tell me as well as others after you got to San Antonio Texas with the couch that I had slept on during the time when I was sick in 5th grade when you refused to take me to a hospital? I listened to an online YouTube show where a male talked about only having Lymes Disease in the area near New Jersey along the east coast and he was hospitalized for 5-7 days, just for Lymes Disease. I had Mono with Epstien Bar with Lymes Disease with Bronchitis with the Flu all at the same time, and you were annoyed I had been a burden for being out of school for several months.


Maybe it should not take a head injury to figure out if you took me to the hospital to be correctly taken care of by actual medical professionals instead of literally practicing medicine and illegally in the state of New Jersey I must add in the 1990s, I would not have been such a burden to you and others as well as most likely those problems you had at work with coding would not have been as much of a problem.



My modeling picture above where I am holding a hammer was taken by Casey Romanaskey(?spelling?) in 2011 after the initial engagement though before the second engagement: the ring is my children's birthstone and is my Mother Ring in case any wondered : know your left from your right side when looking at a picture please instead of playing games as I am not a station for you to have fun in that sort of way if you forgot : The picture below showed how proud I actually had been to be engaged to who I was engaged to both the first and second time though that ring was not replaced by that individual as he had been informed as to some of what I had dealt with while he was at Basic Training at the same military base I had gone to for Basic Training as he was told when discussing such with me back then in 2009 as well as 2010 :

He told me his dad had everything taken care of for his military career and yet, I warned.


I am not engaged now, as I have not been engaged since 2011 in February as I was told via a text message before I left Cedar Park to go to Dallas for that FVD event




Now it probably makes sense to one group of guys when thinking about what I warned in Medical Hold Unit about my biological family when I took a stand in the orderly room of that Medical Hold Unit office inside of the base near Broadway Bank and the track area with the helicopter nearby as to why I wanted to listen, to Eminem before his music and lyrics became a bigger explanation as to what I heard in his voice simply by listening. I did not hear the anecdotes when he was rapping and singing at any point in the initial time, I heard why he had such anecdotes as to why he was seeing the world through the way he saw. Those who were annoyed initially at such as time went onward and as life went as such along with furthered details, can you see why it did not matter at the time as to your rank as to what I actually heard regarding Marshall Mathers and seeing how much further along he could go if he pushed that part forward for more to know to find a way to relate to understand from their own experiences and upbringings despite the satire?


Hey, Eminem or Marshall Mathers or what-have-you: How hard was it when looking back now in 2021 for me to take a stand on a military post being the only one who had not graduated Basic Training there and already having been put in for that Article 15 for the unknown of alcohol as I thought otherwise though before the Austin situation despite such to stand up in front of E4 and above ranks to listen to your music and win, each time because of one single deal which was made? As long as a song of yours was on the radio Marksbury had to listen in the office which he did not like at all, and I told him he would learn to like your music and others would learn how much you actually overcame to get to that point to be on the radio. Others thought of you as you know and have seen, I decided to simply be myself while knowing and understanding and comprehending more than I realized admittedly; though additionally, only recently have I seen what you look as, which is quite ironically funny in its own right. If you did not know just in case though I think your are smarter, your picture of what you look as and your hairstyle just as the artist Pink who I enjoy her music very much and heard similarly around the same time; the irony of both of your initial hairstyles, and apparently color too. Pink, thank you so much. I am so glad you were able to show how much can come from a background which circumstances lead a different and yet like path, and have been able to bring such forward with such in ways which people are able to rethink about how they view life as well as view aspects thereof. Especially to both when taking a look back upon your records, song lists, and etcetera; how much the ability to see as I told people to pay more attention to than what they saw with their eyes, thank you.


Christina Aguilera, your voice I could hear how much and the levels thereof upon listening to that Mulan song and though I enjoyed many more of your songs which were hits though more of the albums; I knew from hearing how you sang and the power thereof, was something to listen to for more to behold various aspects in a clearer way longer term. Brittany Spears, I could tell from the synthesizers admittedly however the lyrics of one particular song I have to admit in reference to other aspects I felt regarding your songs while also enjoying the ability to dance; yet that one particular song which I feel you among others might be able to figure out easily, stuck in a very different way about your particular music. I was glad to hear a news article about you deciding to get into painting, as I thought that might be a different outlet for you on a level which seemed more befitting to see a different way. While such I saw was bright and colorful, I could also see you being able to translate that in a different way to explain such types of views where you were able to express what you saw and went through in a way which may not have been as well known though would stop people to look to actually know what you and those you knew had gone through needlessly.


Then there is the music I grew up with and learned about over the years in comparison to after waking up from my coma from my head injury on Psalm Sunday in 2000, which Ice T and Ice Cube though certain aspects I know were worded differently for certain aspects I am glad you were able to find words without specifically naming names unless fully required for certain neighborhood type situations. Foxy Brown, I cannot ever get that beat of yours with Jay Z as a song I cannot dance to at any point; however both having quite a few lyrics, which I could fully relate to just as the WooWoos as I knew them way back when if I recall correctly the neighborhood and area when listening to them in the street practicing or at the playground going back and forth; though most know those guys as being a part of the WuTang Clan, which not as a name dropping portion though out of respect for clarification and yet their lyrics and beats were what I paid attention to as a few around where I grew up hanging around when not at school and not at church were fascinated as to how my feet moved as well as the rest of me as they could see when I went with the music which I did not understand in the slightest.


Queen Latifah I remember listening to you on the boombox before ever getting to listen to the show you were on when I was in 5th grade, which certain lyrics I heard made a bit more sense when listening while I was on the couch and I wish I could have seen what you looked like then and though now there is the technology with the digital aspects which can technically help to see; because of the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, the definition of what I saw to what I see is different. However, I am glad to have been able to listen to you and the actresses and actors as Max was a favorite of mine for her personality on that television show. She made me laugh a lot when I was sick, and I knew there were things I could not understand as a 5th grader; though I really liked her character, a whole bunch. She seemed ornery and diligent in whatever she was doing, and her sense of humor was fantastic when I could hear. Which then brings me to The Nanny, which while that time it reminded me of the people I was missing from my school while I was at the house at the time and I could hear some of the family members I knew at those times in the voices of some of the characters on the show from each portion of. My daughter in some ways as she grew reminded me of a mix between the two daughters on the show, whereas my son reminded me of the character Brighton a bit as he grew up. The irony in reference to the CC name and Miles because of the amount of miles I traveled during my Medal of Honor Art Project trip as well as during other times throughout the state of Texas before winding up in Washington state, though again an irony nonetheless in a few ways admittedly when adding technology to that mixture. Whomever the dad was and however that went as I started to get better, I was not allowed to watch after as schedules went as they had after a certain point when returning to school.


The combination in such a brief way makes me think of the song by Coolio from the timeframe when looking back now in 2021 to then as time went through from New Jersey onward, which I guess I found a few to name for the longer terms from when they initially began to find a culmination. I enjoy Country Music such as Garth Brooks, Reba McEntire, Dolly Pardon, Johnny Cash, Don McClean, Jim Croce, George Straight, Tim McGraw, Carrie Underwood, Faith Hill, The Judds, and so many more along with the Newsboys whose song Shine is still a favorite from before my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury; which I suppose a joke can be made, about that particular song and my life. Huh?


Nonetheless returning to the portions about such times regarding the overall portions throughout this particular entry, hypothetically if such were true as hypothetically if all such prior writings and statements are true; then why is anyone surprised as to how I became, myself? Then again, was I ever truly any different or was it the situations were different and yet the same?


I admit I did not vote for then President of the United States of America #44 Barack H. Obama's particular policies in certain references and had made my choice as I had for the reasons regarding the Armed Forces of the United States of America, however I did and do agree with a few statements he made. Instead of the meme seen before of the empty promises regarding the changes, it is actually the time to as seen and known in some degrees as to the reasons as to the multiples of the why. The policies in which I had disagreements with in reference to the social policies had to do with picking and choosing only certain groups for only certain jobs only because of a specific box checked compared to the experiences available to assist despite certain educational portions as #45 President of the United States of America Donald J. Trump had pointed out, which sometimes the education is important without any experience though if you have experience which can be proven with and/or without the education is extremely valuable and important. Equal opportunity has been around for awhile though in such needing of that aspect, the equal opportunity means actual equality across the board in comparison to only one or two boxes checked in the larger aspects as well as the minute details. There are those throughout various levels of the governmental systems of the United States of America as well as the world since adding the technological factors, who have seen more than their fair share of a multitude of patterns of behaviour; just as the same in reference to being which are throughout the galaxy, as well as throughout the universe.


POTUS45 had cleared up the air well before he had ever announced with Ms. Melania (First Lady of the United States of America Mrs. Melania Trump) to take a chance in the political spectrum after having had experiences in a multitude of areas with a large number of people and groups as having seen much in reference to the public aspects regarding technology in conjunction with such patterns of behaviour, and the administration had brought forward many aspects to pay attention to well before the culmination of pieces to a large puzzle though finding the minute details here and there. As then VPOTUS though now POTUS#46 Joseph Biden as well as then SLOTUS Jill Biden though now FLOTUS Jill Biden have seen in addition with the Congress and the Senate with the White House and the Pentagon, as to the realistic portions referencing to what is known as the Blue Book Project or what I know as The Big Blue Book from what information was within such pages when reading through before returning back to the bookstore I was volunteering at called Nine Lives Books in San Antonio Texas for the online sales area while the Cat Sanctuary was still around. They too knew of such situations as per the timeframe as they spoke with each at the time and though certain aspects might have been considered as normal at one point in time, those times are no longer the same and the changes needed are and have been around waiting for the exposure to the light.


There is not an official organization I have been a part of officially which has specifically been informed in reference to such aspects as to other portions of what I have completed over the years, though admittedly there are interconnecting links which is different regarding names. There was a point in time when I was healing from the time after the SCUBA Diving situation in 2010 while dealing with other aspects regarding the school and district among other portions I had been dealing with and going through by myself, in specific aspects. It was the time in between though just before the second engagement to the same male at the time from the first time of the willing engagement to him and a little bit of time before the New Year's Eve celebration though after the Thanksgiving celebration I had helped with for those who know, in which an individual in the lifestyle community in Austin had told me about a female he was involved with additionally who had been listening to another male in the same community as well as Army logistics who used my name at the strip club as I was told. I called the individual from the location at the time when told outside on the patio to inform of not to do so for a few reasons as I instantly looked upward to the second floor area outside, the brand new and unpainted trash waste city receptacle in the back corner, the specific location of the trees nearby compared to when driving into the property, the way the patio had wrapped in certain locations though not in others as would have been less difficult to build, the smoothness of the wood and the tightness lacking any gaps between the patio flooring or even one single hole from any portion of the wood despite however long I was told about the amount of time the location had been used, who had informed me of my name being used and the New Jersey as well as Army connection when looking, the layout of the walls and locations thereof regarding the room locations and drops or lifts as well as window locations and what was outside; when as well as prior to that phone call that evening, which some thought I was weird for standing outside so long smoking when seeing some TNGers walking outside while still on their cellphones as well as near the tree with the light using a flash; just as I had seen in the Temple of Flesh event in 2012, when I was told to go outside instead of protecting anyone from being recorded when at that event after already having brought up being told about other ex-relationships having taken information such as drivers license information or identification card identification for the local area as per required for such a type of age restricted location of events and few paying attention when I brought up such at the time.


That information seemed exactly the same as the information regarding the letters I was being sent by the Army and the DoD from 2001 through to 2012, as to part of the main information being released because of a breech in security. Ironically that particular male who used my name in that strip club as I was told at that location during that time, would have known about such aspects as he and I spoke on the phone when he was stationed at Fort Hood (*ahem* in regards of a specific family lifestyle situation as to who was told and then who was told to tell me*); though did not discuss much in specifics, beyond what I had already written to this point. Maybe a specific shirt was being worn not as an antagonism, though as a signal to such for a just in case situation?


I noticed such has been changed, which I appreciate.


I did know that particular individual as well as his wife at the time in San Antonio Pagan community before their split and unlike anyone else as I was told by each of them, I stayed out of whatever was going on in reference to the in-betweens of their particular situation. I had been friends with both of them prior to their divorce just as I had remained as such for awhile thereafter and only hoped the best, however both along with myself would easily have known and seen such sorts of situations in other locations throughout the state of Texas because of the triad connection of the city/state with the two different specific communities which expanded outward into other such areas such as the Excalibur Faire in Bastrop/Smithville Texas and into such beyond such as the BDSM/LGBTQP/Swinger lifestyles; well before the school district situation regarding the treatment of my son, my daughter, and I in the state of Texas with the largest population of active duty mixed with national guard mixed with reservists mixed with veterans and how such went in regards of. Read through the entry again, once you finish this part and think.



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Thus with prior explanations and writings the legal aspect proven thereof regarding the situations in as much detail as possible without denying my bias from my personal viewpoints while also not denying the facts in comparison to trying to whitewash something that cannot be cleaned ever even with bleach, as somethings are not the same as fabric for a wedding dress to get a stain out. Sometimes you just have to accept the fact you spilled something and made a mess and the only way to properly take care of cleaning up such a mess is to begin by acknowledging there was a mess to begin with, and instead of trying to wipe away what you know what there to squeeze back into what you want of a receptacle; is simply just only possible to be one way, and one way only. I told people about my color choices for BDSM as well as SCUBA Diving were black and white, though some may not have seen the fuller reasons as to why; though one female who had always been of extreme importance to me despite other situations surrounding though I think she realized a bit, who had been in an area when I was asked about the specifics as to my color choices of black and white. I think she along with those others within that LaMadeline Restaurant backroom area whether a part of the lifestyle or the staff employees who were fantastically helpful, as to those specifics from then being brought forward to such a time as now in 2021.


Thus in reference to the 28th day of Thanks Challenge, I am thankful despite how much I repeated myself and annoyed others to the ironic point of being annoyed that I have had to repeat myself so often I can remember repeating because of how many times of being told I had repeated; I am glad and thankful to be able to clarify such repetitive portions which may not have made as much sense in certain times, though hopefully make more sense and are clearer now.


I admit though upon finding Sailor Moon just as a few other aspects, I was hooked on the aspects involving Sailor Moon and the Sailor Scouts. As childish of a view as such might be, there might be a few who can recognize themselves in such a way to my favorite childhood time show in a different way than what they might have thought I viewed them as. With certain twists and metaphors in irony could it be considered as such irony of having a pet cat named Teeners as my children could not pronounce Athena who was a small little black cat and the tiny runt of the litter, as well as a white cat which was just as protective as my dog Dionysus named Emerald Isis which because of a specific individual had met the same fate because of; and yet my dog Ganesh, when thinking about certain ironies of that particular show and series into movies?

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Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Model Author Susan MeeLing

It should not take a head injury to figure this out because I thought you are supposed, to be smarter.

If there are those who find such interesting enough to research further to bring forward more information in reference to the forefront for more detailed information, as usual I request the courtesy of the same which I do in reference to how I refer to articles for reference points when writing my journal blog entries; for each one used for reference starting points, to research for clearer understanding from such knowledge.

 

That is common sense, good etiquette, and good karma; whilst lifting others upward, in positive ways.

Quotes which mean a lot to me:

"The ultimate measure of an individual is not where they stand in moments of comfort and convenience, but where they stand at the time of challenge and controversy."

"We must reject the idea that every time a law is broken society is guilty, rather than the law breaker.  Freedom is never-more than one generation away, from extinction.  We do not pass freedom on through our blood stream because freedom must be fought for, protected, and handed on for the next generation to do the same."

"Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.  Though best to be able to share in person with who matters, until that time occurs being able to see what is possible through such is a feat to notice.  One must be happy within oneself prior to being happy with another, though such can be enjoyed if living in one's own truth is as such. and then as to the capability to progress forward with another and/or others depending upon the situation(s) and individual(s)."  ~  A Quote From Me, Reverend Susan MeeLing also known as Lady Dori Belle

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