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It should not take a head injury
*after personally sustaining a head injury & coma*
to figure this out...

 
 
 
 
 
 


After a Drill Sergeant threw Me into the metal part of the bunk when I was in Basic Training for the United States of America's Army branch at Fort Sill Oklahoma #FortSill #FortSillOK #FortSillOklahoma #OK #Oklahoma in the year of 2000 on Psalm Sunday, I have dealt with the situations as best as I have been capable to do so while taking care of the situations and asking for assistance as per the required explanations of the information to such facts first.  While making the attempts to get assistance for the aspects thereof as to the reality, the aspects of where and when as to the multiple attempts to ask for assistance for me.  As my journal blog for when I was ready to bring such as to my other works forward since as to the lengths of time as to where my modeling was as to the modeling page information, just as the other pages have the information as to such specifics, and just as this journal blog of mine is as to such facts.


If I had real friends (if as to having met in person face to face in person in real life as to the aspects of this particular reference such as from the state of Texas as to the state of Washington as to the years of 2000 through 2013 if I met within the state of Texas for such references), real (the areas of the tristate region as before the year of 2000) family, and real relationships in real life that recognized me as to the aspects of if as to the face to face in person who started in truth as I had started such in truth as to the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, as well as the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain that took 8.5 years to dissipate; then I guesstimate there would be the easier factors as to being capable for me to speak with others in truth in person face to face in person and/or through online measures as to such factors I suppose.  Though would such as to the knowledge of the ways as to how they began such discussions with me as to would there be such a situation, for them to consider as to such if factors as to such discussions with me in truth?


As to some suggestions and commentary within "Finding A Silver Lining" one of several of my bo0ks I personally authored/wrote/compiled as I can only speak and write in truth as per such clarifications as to the reality as to the specifics of such discussions/writings/videos as per my Official You Tube where I have satirical commentary where I comment about the factors as to having dealt with others' opinions about their pop culture references of #NJ #NJstate #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey, though as to for the most part I have actually preferred to be asked with politeness if as to having read my books and/or seen my website as just the same in reference to the timeframes when I was modeling as to having respect as to what I consider as respect, referencing if as to such polite manners as to discussions if as to such having been noticed because of the factors in my opinion as to having real discussions as communication would be if my website was seen before the year of 2023 as I first began my website in 2015; as in my journal blog posts as to the reality of the years of 2010 through 2013, as to the aspects of introductions as to those timeframes when as to various factors as I did not take selfies as I was actually working with photographers as to my creations of my outfits as per the description on the link to my modeling page(s) as to the references regarding my journal blog updates in the years of 2019 through 2022 as the timeframe onward as to the year of 2023 as to the factors as to how such journal blog entries will be as to such factors as to the aspects of the various topic points.


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 I was born and raised in New Jersey and grew up going throughout the tristate northeast areas mainly, and as to how the reality of when the importance of the situations as to the aspects of reviewing as to such facts regarding the logistics for several factors as to the considerations; the years of 2019 through 2022 as to the review process as to the aspects of the timeframe, prior to the timeframe of the 20 year memorial of 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 as well as before the 30 year memorial of February 1993, as to the northeast areas mostly known as to New York City #NYC #NewYork #NY #NYstate #NYU though also as to the #Pentagon Pentagon, as well as Pennsylvania #Pennstate #Pennsylvaniastate as to the reality of how many New Jersey-ians commute in either direction, depending upon what location for the commute. 


The factors though I have said at times, I re-re-re-re-re-re-grew up in the state of  #Texas #TX #Texasstate Texas as to such factors as to the timeframes, as well as all 26 of my SCUBA #SCUBA #SCUBADiving  Diving certifications I earned were through one school within the state of Texas as I also earned winning first place in a Texas Chili cookoff with more than 20 entries as well as my chili recipe as I am adamant about my recipes as to such aspects just as I am specific as to what it actually takes for me to cook in a BBQ as to the required preparations for when I have BBQed.   



I can sarcastically write, those who know of the Rules of the BBQ as to where I grew up as to the Rules of the BBQ as to such factors to the considerations of such preparations.  However that is to cooking food as to the differences of my journal blog entries, as to the factors as to proverbial aspects of food for thought as the difference of real food in real life as to the facts of the situations to such attention to the details as well as attention to the information.


Such facts as to the metaphors in some of such factors that only after reviewing such information as to the aspects of the fiction book series that were as to for My personal life as to such dreamland sorts of factors as to the differences of such hypotheticals, the references thereof as to such regards as to the logistical emotional with the real situations as per the names I was informed of at the timeframes referenced review as to My journal blog as to the situations overall.  


If as to my journal blog being found and read as to where what I consider as common sense, as to the aspects of my satirical saying   how it should not take a head injury to figure out. 
 

*(sometimes utilizing articles discussing facts)*
By:  (Reverend) Susan MeeLing
also known as

The One & Only


Lady Dori Belle


...and to biological consenting adults as...

Lady Liberty Belle

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My life  =  My personal life

My life experiences  =  My personal life experiences that some might have something alike or something similar to though theirs is not the exact as to My personal life experiences

My opinion  =  Susan MeeLing's personal opinion that some or many might agree with

My needs  =  My personal needs for me personally though some distinguishing factors as to the aspects where there are different facets of My personal life and thus as to the distinguishing factors as to the different areas of my life, thus for Me personally is going to be for Me personally as to such differences as to the aspects whereas of others as to the factors to the considerations.


The FACT books I authored/wrote/compiled that I published through Amazon for My profits and what I chose/choose for the financial aspects per book:
*  Finding A Silver Lining  (published in print book format in in the year of 2015)
*  Finding The Silver Lining  (published in print book format in the year of 2014)
*  The Modern Day Book  (published in print format book in the year of 2020)
*  The Adventures of Susan MeeLing, SCUBA Diver Extraordinaire  (3 volumes published in print format books in the year of 2020)

 

Fiction Based books I published through Amazon that can have metaphors or proverbial only as some books allow the financial aspects as to donations whereas the newer books do not have such same factors whatsoever as to the financial resources for Susan MeeLing also known as Lady Dori Belle also known as Lady L*** Belle as make sure to not assume that all books will ever be the exact same:
*  "The Curious Children Book Series:  (2 volumes published in the year of 2014/2015)
*  "Fail-Safe:  The Kenedy curse fused with Science Fiction Fantasy  (The New World Order)"  (1 book published in the year of in print format book form 2015/2016 that is the main book to refer to for each of the subsequent books in the series as the 10 volume book series published as the 9 additional volumes in 2021/2022 as not all books were allowed as per My personal choice to be published in print format as to the ideals I have had for My work as to how I personally chose to release My books as to My business plans)
*  "Paroxysm of the Lotus Book Series"  (3 volumes published in print format of books in the years of 2014 through 2015 and then 7 books were published in the year of 2021/2022)


To Contact Me to ask me what My needs, my wants, My preferences, My Ideals, and/or My desires is only to utilize My To Contact Form to ask me respectfully after explaining yourself as to such aspects first as asking Me is the best way to actually do so correctly to actually learn to know of what My actual needs are for the factors of as the same in reference to my wants and so on and so forth.  That includes though not limited to asking if there is something to assist Me with, arranging Book Signing, arranging requiring My permission first as to my needs for any appearance(s)/meeting(s), 


Do not assume that just because I authored/wrote/compiled books that you know Me, you know of Me as to such factors as to the factors of the reality of the social media.


If I personally have reached out to you directly as to requesting a meeting and/or meetings, I have done so with the factors of respect regarding the aspects of what I could figure as being respectful as to the time(s) as to upon your schedule though also as depending upon my schedule as well.  The contact information regarding phone numerical factors as to the aspects of My To Contact Form through My website, as to making attempts as to the ease to correctly communicate clearly.  


Ensure if you are going to ask about Me, to know the exact-ish amount of time the individual actually knew Me in real life in person face to face in person in real life to verify the correct numerical positions of time that they may have known Me or if they knew of me as to the facts.


My modeling is not the same as speaking with Me face to face at all, because that is not the same as in real life as to the facts that in real life in person face to face in person actually requires those facts of in real life in person face to face in person in real life where a human being in person face to face in person is in real life with another human being is the common sense for in person face to face in person in real life as there is a difference to getting My personal permission first.


I do not allow anyone to misinterpret ever, as there is the clear facts that if someone/anyone says they can interpret Me, ensure they actually have what I personally consider as the starting point of full foundation as to actual capacities to do so correctly as what I consider as the correct foundation as to making sure the foundation of theirs in not made out of sand as to the differences of whereas to the facts my foundation is forged from where the stones as to the rock of My foundation is to the sturdiness thereof as to My personal life as to My personal experiences as to Me personally; as in my personal opinion that imitation is not flattery at all in any capacity when in reference to Me.


Since I comprehend Myself as to My and what My needS are as to what My wantS are as to what My preferenceS are as to what My idealS are as to what My desires are, then as to My comprehension of such factors in reference to Myself as to My personal requirements as when I have written about My personal life experiences as to the words I personally have chosen to describe such facts, then as to My life = My personal life experiences.


Manners, respect, human decency, and protocols are as a beginning point for what My personal standards are for Me.

Make sure to be capable to distinguish when the facts of My journal blog are in the capacity of either facts with satire and/or facts with metaphors and/or facts with figurative and/or facts as literal as the reality that My personal life experiences are My personal life experiences as to where some might relate to what I personally have dealt with, the full combination of what I have survived is the difference as to where the distinction is.


I survived the attacks on the soil of the homeland of the United States of America as to the tristate areas of New Jersey, New York, and Pennsylvania in the year of 1993 in the month of February as well as the timeframe of 9/11 also known as 11 September 2001 because I was born and raised in New Jersey in the three-county/three-borough area that had the most amount of commuters to New York City as well as other factors of the reality as to the state of New Jersey that those factors of pop culture are usually NYCers or Pittsburgians or Philadelphians and not New Jersey-ians pop culture as the aspects of comprehending the facts as that pop culture only has small amounts as to the differences of the fullnesses thereof.


What I know for what My personal comforts are as to being capable to see as to such factors, translates to comprehension of Myself as to comprehending what is best for Me personally as to what is best for My work as well as what is best for My personal comforts.  As hours change to days and days change to weeks and weeks change to months and months change to years and years change to decades, I comprehend My personal needs as I comprehend I have made attempts for My personal needs to be correct for Me as to what My personal considerations are.


Keep your thoughts in what I consider as purity as to such actual purity of innocence, and the ease of life is made so as to the factors of the ensuring the correct actions without assumptions.


Acknowledging biases first without judgement, has no capacity of being biased as no bias can be without the capacities of bigotry, and thus without bigotry then there is the capacity of acknowledging biases without judgement.


I personally am unaware of fans of Mine because I do not assume that I have any because of what My considerations are for what a fan of Mine would be, as the factors when considerations as to fandom as to Myself is as to the factors of what I personally consider as comfort.


People should be more uplifting as to the aspects of being appreciative if as to appreciating work of Mine, as I have not need/want/desire of any male dominant in the supposed to be consenting adult lifestyle regarding such factors of any type of relationship outside of acquaintance or friendship only, as that is not in any capacity ever a turn on to what My considerations are for Me at all in any capacity whatsoever as it has not ever been a turn on to Me.


The reality that Females have the capacity to be strong enough to be themselves if as to such morals and ethics as to such reality needs and requirements, thus as to where males have needed to accept the facts as not all males are as to what they might think of themselves as the same in reference of professional in what is supposed to be consenting adult biologically legally as to informed, as how they themselves are not anything of any turn on to Me as they are the opposite 100% in every capacity of anything that would ever be capable to turning Me on personally as I personally am not a lesbian as obviously a female biologically who would enjoy such factors would only be as to such aspects as to having to acknowledge such within herself.


As a Pansexual as to the intellectual capacities where I can be interested though not necessarily turned on, as to the physical does not make the aspect of what is of attraction to Me in the aspects whereas some might assume, as the factors as to the emotional connections depend and vary as to the situations, whereas the spirituality of such factors as My comprehension of Eclectic Judeo-Christianity religion is important, as the factors of sexuality of what sexually is attractive for Me is as to how the personal connection is as to the genuinity.


Being Polyamorous as I am personally is as to the intellectual capacity of being capable to discuss multiple topics while actually caring in truth, emotionally having the capacity to connect and such communicative factors, as the other three aspects thereof as to the references to the differences as to romantic factors as to platonic factors as there is My personal capacity where I always begin as to platonic factors first before I have ever or would ever consider anything sexually and/or romantically as personally it takes a lot more for Me to be capable to connect romantically than it ever has as to connecting platonically because of the way I personally was raised.


Thus if interested in dating Me as to in the capacity of not setting a date for a meeting as that obviously would not be the exact same unless previously brought up as to discussions, then as to such aspects as to arranging such with Me to ask Me first if that is an interest as to other(s) regarding such aspects. 


Thus the as I am as where I am a Female Dominant as to being as I am, then as to such acceptance there is a difference as to Myself being a Feminist as to the differences whereas the factors of feminazism as to the references of those who would have such factors as to their patterns of choices as to their behaviour as to the factors whereas the proof of such to the aspects of the differences of reviewing information from a different point in time as to such a point in time as to the facts that need to be paid attention to as to the facts of the time.


Completing a logistical review of My personal life experiences while acknowledging My experiences as well as My emotions from the facts of the situations from the years of 2019 through 2022, is not the same as to having the capability of time to review such all at the exact point in time of the exact point in time as that should not take a head injury to figure out.


My work as to My writings as to if used in speeches as the ease thereof as the 10% for Me of such if financial factors as to the tithing viewpoints, if as to such factors of consideration.


The links to My website as to My different pages of My website including My Journal Blog, are capable to share the link as to discussing the details as to the information of; though such facts for the fullness to be capable to read more to learn from the knowledge, is of the facts where such importance.


Since the requirements in reference to My website as to where tghe finances were only for Me to be capable to utilize were not responded directly to Me personally as there was not anyone ever allowed to be involved as to on My behalf ever, as to the aspects where since I personally did not have any such discussions as to what My personal minimum standards were as to being met for what My personal requirements are/were/are as to where there was and is not any allowances for such misinterpretations ever as to the clear distinctions as to Me personally only as to where I have clarified repeatedly that I am the one and only as to ever making the decisions for Myself as well as My work(s).


I personally do not play games, as I do not find games as they are not fun for Me.


I personally do not often watch television/movies as that is not assistive to my headaches/migraines at all, as the after effects from My head injury on Psalm Sunday in the year of 2000 as the additional after effects from the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal temporal lobe of My brain that took 8.5 years to fully dissipate out of the MRI and out of the CAT scans as I have figured as to what works best for me personally.


While I have made attempts to connect with real people as to real friends as I once thought of as to such prior points in time, as to how such aspects went in the years from 2019 through 2022 as to such viewpoints as to such considerations referencing as to what capacities as to such factors regarding the differences as to choices/words/actions/deeds as to such references as to the factors of humanity as per the proof regarding my attempts before as well as during as well as after such points in time.


If as to the current time where each individual seems to think of themselves as a commercial and/or thinks of others as a commercial instead of thinking of each as an individual human being with individual personal life experiences as to how I personally have considered each individual if I am accurate referencing others' opinions as to such if factors, then as to where the reality of such readjustments as to the recalibrations of what humanity is.


The aspects of pop culture as to the facts regarding the differences between the factors of as while there might be some aspects that align in some ways, there are still the facts of the amount of the rest of different experiences and life thereof.


Thus as to such facts whereas what My personal needS as to what My personal wantS as to such factors, such aspects of the #ADA ADA requirements as to the facts regarding My being medically retired or being considered as to such disability aspects as to the reasons why ADA aspects are in such as for Me as to such aspects; though actually being capable to have as well as utilize such aspects as to My benefits in the correct capacities for Myself, as to the aspects whereas such factors of proof regarding the situations as to such reasons I have also worked as diligently as I have attempted to being capable to provide for Myself as being a biological adult of two biological adult legal aged children I personally gave birth to while having been awake from My coma for less than 1.5 years for one and 2.5 years for the other as to such facts.


Online is important for several aspects, though in real life as to such reality as to the real needs as to such common sense as to the factors of what is required for Me as I comprehend what is actually best for Me and that is not up for interpretations as interpretations always lead to misunderstandings as to the facts as to such proof regarding the aspects thereof as to My personally being capable to be in as well as remain in a good mood as to the attempts I have made to being capable to accomplish such.


While the aspects of My personal belief in real angels as to real faeries as to real spiritual beings as to such facts regarding such as to where I was Confirmed in the year of 1997 as to the aspects thereof to that history, the aspects where such facts as to the references thereof as the differences of what are considered as real friends in real life as to the differences of the spiritual aspects if there was ever any common sense as to different human beings unless as to such being as cherubim as to homo-sapien-sapiens as to ever being ignorant enough to think that is the same when obviously as to the facts that a real human being as to a real friend as to the difference of a real spirit as to such aspects thereof to real spiritualism capabilities.

However such is obviously a difference from the aspects thereof, to humanity as human beings are supposed to be and are as to humanity if as to such aspects of the definition of humanity.


If I was/am believed as I understand some have opinions as to religious aspects and/or spiritual factors as to the usage of the words metaphor/proverbial/figurative, there has not been such confirmation for Me to have such knowledge for Myself regarding such aspects to what I would know and understand as to such as per the proof regarding the exact time.


Some do not just get over something as massive as the situations as to February 1993 as to being capable to survive such, as that was not a video game nor was that a computer game nor was that a pop culture fiction aspect as to such references and regards just as 11 September 2001 or 9/11 was not a video game and was not a computer game and was not a pop culture fiction aspect.


There is not the capacity where individuals who have tried to prettify the aspects for individuals to truthfully recover and heal from such aspects because of the requirements as to the truth being told in full, and when the truth is told in full is the only capacity for healing to begin.


Thus as to the facts in reference to My personal life experiences, what support would there be that I could truthfully say and/or write about as to the aspects of such luxuries others have had as to such amounts of individuals as to such support groups as to such friends as to such aspects of discussions as to what discussions would actually be in the references thereof as to what I personally consider as; or would such individuals think that them discussing amongst themselves would be as to the same instead of the aspects thereof as to discussions with Me personally, as to such proof regarding such luxuries as to those types as to such factors as to the aspects of such wannabe aspects.

 

 

Those who would consider Me as wanted as to what I consider as being wanted as to the differences as to such aspects of "Finding A Silver Lining" as there are only so many words in the dictionary to describe, and when individuals choose to be bratty nonconsensually as to such aspects as to such brattiness as to the aspects of the amounts of words as to the amounts of times as to where either the individual is going to be considered as competent to understand or they will be considered as incompetent as to humanity referencing such types as to those factors as to such aspects that I have brought forward as to the proof thereof to the validity of such aspects. 


"Finding A Silver Lining" and "Finding The Silver Lining" are situations that are of My past as to the situations I personally dealt with as to such aspects whereas My suggestions as to the current time as well as the future, are the difference.


"The Modern Day Book" is as to what I noticed as per the years thereof in those references as to what the looks were as to such descriptions for such clear aspects, as the common sense factors as to such regards as to having been born and raised in New Jersey as to the aspects of the differences as to NYC as NYC thinks of such aspects whereas New Jersey has the capacity to prefer the real of the reality as to such differences whereas Broadway wanted to be more like Hollywood and visa versa as to such references.


"The Adventures of Susan MeeLing, SCUBA Diver Extraordinaire" is of what My personal experiences were as to My personal work as to My personal life experiences as to before I began SCUBA Diving as to what I was known as through My name in reference of My personal trainers as to My personal childhood experiences as to such work in reference of protecting and defending the individuals on land above sea level as to the aspects of My work if that was/is actually appreciated.


The aspects where I could see now in the year of 2023 where some capacities of "Fail-Safe" could be as to such if factors as well as "Paroxysm" as to such if factors as while I was only being creative as to such aspects as to My writings, the aspects whereas for Myself personally would be as to the references for such aspects if as to those types as to such psychological distinguishing factors as to what I have been capable to distinguish as to My comprehension of Myself as well as My comprehension of My wrok as I authored/wrote/compiled as to the best of My capabilities as to My overall books.


In reference of "Paroxysm" there is not anyone I ever have personally dated that would ever fit into such descriptions, ever.  The facts regarding where the references thereof to prior timeframes as to Volume 2 are from individuals I personally knew before the year of 2000, as to the common sense factors as to the reality of the overall.


In regards as to "Fail-Safe" and "Paroxysm" in regards of for Me personally as to the relationship aspects of for Me personally as to the references and regards thereof officially for Me personally despite having written of such in an overall way, the aspects of if as to such as for Me personally then as to such clarifications now as to the year of 2023 as to the differences regarding the multiple reasons as to bringing such forward as to healthy acquaintences as to healthy friendships as to health developments of hetero-sexual relationships that as to such hetero-sexual relationships as to the fluidity depending upon the aspects of such a relationship factor if as to the consensual aspects as to each involved being fully informed first as that is the only capacity thereof as to being informed as to officially being informed before such aspects as for the example where I have been honest as to the after effects from My Psalm Sunday in the year of 2000 head injury as to others being informed first officially as to such if factors as to the differences.


The aspects whereas to such if factors as to My books I personally authored without any assistances as to My personal creativity to authoring such aside from the technological factors as to being capable to write such books as to "Paroxysm" and "Fail-Safe" referencing such aspects specifically for Myself regarding such aspects of the specifics as to such details, then I suppose if as to such would be as to prophecy regarding such if factors if such were to ever be for Myself personally; though if as others' interpretations of their own lives as to then the references of whereas being capable to prophesize decades before ever writing though definitely would not ever prefer certain aspects as to certain individuals as to My personal considerations as to the specifics as to such references regarding the factors thereof as to "Fail-Safe" especially though also in such clarifications as to for Me as to "Paroxysm" as to such if factors as to what My personal considerations as to the aspects thereof regarding the aspects not of a novelty as there is a difference between a novel a difference between a novel idea a difference between as to how such aspects of where the problems as to problematic novelty factors as to such misinterpretations in My opinion.


When describing the situations in truth that is the common sense starting point of a foundation, and any who think that such could be fast-forwarded are incompetent as to such aspects where certain factors are required to have such details and information to being capable to actually make such genuine efforts as to progression towards betterment in genuine truth.


The reality where such aspects of when such efforts are direct as to such facts as per the prior amounts of time as to explanations, then as to the facts where either the competency to listen and then think while listening as well as being capable to progress with the correct actions as to such regards as to the common sense.


Maybe it is a bit more truthful than I realized, common sense might actually be a genuinely real superpower. 


Forgiveness is of importance as to such truth in full as best as possible, the factors of as to such if remorseful.


The reasons why of the reality as to where, as to the year of 1993. 


Time is important as to emotions of the situations, retaining such knowledge can assist seeing towards progression of betterment.


Communications are important listening both sides if as to consent, the factors as to information in truth as of much importance. 

Life and Love, Life and Love
Between, Below, and Above


Brightest of Blessings.

Please share the link to my website and feel free to comment in the section below however know that I am not informed as to any comments made within the area of each journal blog I post, though the ability to express yourselves as to such comments of such are able to be seen of such portions if you so choose.

I encourage others to share the links and to speak about such topics honestly as to such aspects and situations as my saying as to it should not take a head injury to figure out is the main satirical portion as to my journal blog, as to the facts as to sometimes when wording hits a certain way all one can do is chuckle a bit as to reviewing such portions of information thereof.

If interested in using my journal blog for articles and/or legal aspects please just remember to put the link to the specific journal blog article area to assist the fuller aspects as to the clarifications for others to also be able to read through for such additional details, as well as if there are those who are interested in further discussions and/or commentary and/or interviews and/or speaking arrangements and/or invitational aspects of such journal blog entries I have written please do contact me through my contact form with such details at www.susanmeeling.com/to-contact 

Please also know the reasons for having such available hopefully assists the more open discussions as to the various details thereof to which I have been honest and truthful about, which additionally to such as to posting on social media in various areas is welcome as the ability to discuss such topics honestly is of importance as it brings a different form of discussions though also assists more to be involved with such viewpoints.  I know there are those who either have not had a social media account and/or have had to wait to be online more often in such aspects depending upon the employment thereof to which the reference to the details in such references per journal blog entry might assist in different ways while additionally giving the ability to still engage online in various forums to which while some may prefer not to have their social media accounts associated with responses on my website which is acceptable; it does give a forum for such discussions as well for those who may not have the ability to go into further details in certain other areas online, as to a different cover though the reality of such transparency on my part as to having been open and honest as to my community area involvements additionally hopefully open the doors and open the lines for more genuine and honest communication within the age appropriate guidelines thereof for the betterment and clarity among more.

 

 

Admittedly only recently in the year of 2020 had I realized I may physically look similar to different characters in different aspects of pop culture however I did not grow up being allowed to watch such aspects and since after waking up from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury coma, I do not usually watch such pop culture because of the after effects from my Psalm Sunday in the year of 2000 head injury as to knowing the personal aspects of what is best for myself.  However I did not and do not know of the pop culture references many of the times because of not being allowed to watch anything other than G-rated movies/television throughout my childhood and teenager years in the 1980s to the 1990s as the rating systems may have been different for such times, as I also was not allowed to watch PG or PG13 or any other type of PG until I was a certain age which again similarly to such times in the 1980s and the 1990s the rating system may have been different to such aspects; of which once I was the age of 18 years old biologically I have been able to watch anything and everything I personally prefer or want to watch.

 

 

Additionally I do not play games despite possibly looking physically as what characters might be as to such, as again that is something within pop culture which I have not usually known nor understood a reference to such in pop culture however I encourage people to know the difference between a pop culture reference as to knowing the difference to the human being spoken with as I have picked up there are several individuals who may not have known there is a difference between what images and/or videos as to being seen compared to the interactions with others when in real life in person as well as when speaking with others through various forms of online communication of which the care and the concern as to such aspects in my opinion is of importance to review for such realities. 

 

 

While I understand others have the choice to play games for whichever aspects thereof, please comprehend I am not one who will play games as I personally do not find such appealing to me nor to the after effects of as well as from my Psalm Sunday year of 2000 head injury just as others with and/or without a head injury may have a different viewpoint to such aspects as to games as some just have a life which such is considered as a luxury to play games comparatively though cannot do.

 

 

Please be respectful as to such as well as if you meet me and/or see me in public and speak with me, please be honest as to such as I have not ever assumed anyone had ever known of my website or my work as to the fact I have known there are many websites throughout the internet of which if there have been hints to such at any point in time there has not been the ways of which I would view such aspects as to the reference without the actual bringing of such information up first by who I have spoken with because of the ways as though I write as I do when I speak it is not always the same way as such comes across online possibly as there are differences as I would guesstimate others would know as per their own online aspects as to how such discussions have been with others and/or writings thereof as to when corresponding with others.

 

 

Though I know there are more than just the two social media areas of which Facebook and Twitter have been available, because of certain topics of my journal blog entries as well as the multiple social media platforms I lease such areas at the discretion of the reader to posting such aspects because of the knowledge certain topics are for certain age ranges as to the details thereof though because of certain aspects as to the intellectual levels for the reasons as to the choices thereof for what I have known some companies have assisted with in reference to the rating system as to guidelines as to the clicking of certain links for such software references as to controls.  I have done the best I could to ensure the ability for if in reference to biologically under the age of 18 years old for such choices up to the parent(s)/legal guardian(s)/grandparents to the topic points I have/do written/write about as well as kept such details more modest for the ability for such aspects of choice to the appropriate levels of discussions, of which hopefully with the additional aspects as to the genres assist with such abilities for the clarifications thereof.  

If newsworthy, please do send to the news organizations if there are topics of which are interesting that should be broadcast upon the various news media stations as to the specifics within the posts I have put together.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

Day 20 Countdown to 20 year memorial of 11 September 2001 by a New Jersey-ian

When I was in #WA #Washington #WashingtonState Washington state after how the situations had already gone by the time of around the year of the middle-ish portion to the end of 2014 regarding all such combined events, I had a few other situation additional pile on top of everything else which had already occurred referencing all such previously discussed as well as written about situations to which just after sending the initial portions of the first #LibraryofCongress #LoC Library of Congress paperwork my son had begun being more teenager-ish which I was already doing the best I possibly could up to such a point in time. As up to that point not many people had ever believed me in regards to a multitude of situations whether taking into consideration as to the few who believed me about where I grew up as well as what I had seen in reference to being born and raised in #NJ #NewJersey New Jersey, the after effects from as well as my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, the situations which had occurred which actually had lead to the #CowboysDancehall Cowboys Dance Hall situation referencing the #StoneyLaRue Stoney LaRue concert in March 2012, the visions I had regarding such nightmares and etcetera over the years and decades, and so on and so forth; to which while some had wished the portions of what I had already dealt with were not real for such situations, none could wish more than I as to those aspects thereof.



While a male online as per having already written about regarding on fetlife known as HC_Coyote or however the spelling thereof in the #Austin #AustinTX #AustinTexas #TX #Texas Austin area of Texas had been overdramatic in regards as to his problems and the Get Off My Lawn situation referencing the Kinko de Mayo situation in 2010, those portions which were overdramatic on his part which seeped further into other problematic situations in the Austin Texas and other such situations had only progressed further even though that male claimed he was better than others simply because of his ego in comparison to actually having such proof of what would ever make such for an actual genuine consideration for such portions as to such a realistic claim in ways which would be considered as something positive and worthwhile.



However in such situations those who have known how that male had been and what situations were caused thereafter such times while the problems were already as such were during those points in time from 2010 onward through, had been known to who has such details thereof for such larger aspects as to the childish and little aspects referencing the portions of the labeling in the adult consenting lifestyle community for such types of behaviours from a biological adult without any medical situations which would ever qualify under the ADA at such times in 2010. However having learned of the police report through the #APD Austin Police Department as to the timeframe after he had threatened to hit my on my head or as he wrote pat me on my head which again my hairstyle is short because of how much pain the headaches are in reference to the weight of my hair, thus while the claim of the response being considered as supposedly threatening to that male in comparison to him threatening to further worsen my physical pain levels which there was not anything which was ever said or done in my defense that I had been made aware of at such times; I dealt with as best as I could onward, as best as I could despite all of those combined situation as to only up to the point of those months in 2010 and then onward as such had continued with minimal help or assistance in person as was needed in comparison while paying for everything on my own without the financial assistances beyond my monthly payment for my disabilities from the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury while waiting for the house I had purchased to make a home to sell so I could pay the additional medical bills for my daughter's hospitalizations as per the medical insurance of what would be covered and what additional fees I had been told at each of the hospitals such as the $1,250 per week on top of the deductible payments at the hospital at the residential treatment facility in the #MerrillCreek Merrill Creek/#LibertyHill Liberty Hill area of Texas as per the medical records and documentations I provided for such additional proof when living in Cedar Park at the time despite the lack of belief by many who I spoke with in person at such times though within other prior posts on my website in my journal blog in conjunction with "Finding A Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing" to hopefully assist more clear knowledge and understanding from such times when publishing such portions thereof to hopefully help my daughter's care while also hopefully assisting my son to know more for his understanding as well as hopefully help others to be able to make sense of the situations for themselves and their families.



Nonetheless as it was already known as to what I was dealing with in reference to my daughter and what help I was doing the best to get squared away for her as a first grader going into second grade in elementary school while my son was in second grade going into third grade in elementary school for those who had not known the actual grade levels of which in reference to while I had posted such for other parents to be able to educate and help themselves while doing the best I could for myself as their only living parent without any assistance of beneficial aspects as their biological father had died in 2008, by the time of 2014 at the point of which being in Washington state and the other additional portions of which having dealt with being electrocuted or zapped as I have previously explained and written about more-so more recently starting in writing around 2019; the overall combined situations with the added lack of knowledge or wording to properly explain in an orderly way as to the thoughts which were going faster than I could put in clearer sentences for such discussions as per the levels of needless additional stresses from such ostracizing and the electrical portions, I had gotten to my last straw referencing something in regards of who and how I wound up in Washington state had said, something my son had done purposefully regarding being a teenager, and the room I had been kept in at such times adding to such ostracizing in such regards. I heard something on the news which said as per being considered as a veteran as to the possibility of finding some sort of help, and I fully gave up hoping any further in that year of 2015.



There was nothing I could tangibly see which was worth what I was going through any further and while I knew the lack of ability in reference to what I could do any further in all such ways, I felt nothing short of a pure and complete failure as a Mom as well as a human being. There was nothing which made any sense to me in ways which I could actually do anything worthwhile about, the amount of time which though for some in the portions as to the linear view point might seem short though when taking into consideration of the ways which my thoughts move as to one minute feeling as a linear hour before my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury; which in turn after my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury ironically despite as to how other portions referencing the aspects as to other situations, one second feels as a linear hour and probably a part of what the Neurologist had explained in regards as to the portions of the neuropathways as the linear versions compared to the ways which my thoughts go. Logically to a degree I know and understand that from the timeframe of 2009 regarding my #SCUBA #SCUBADiving SCUBA Diving aspects through to the portions of what began in 2010 referencing my daughter in regards of the #FortWorthZoo #FWZoo Fort Worth Zoo though the situations having begun in regards of such in 2008 in the month of May, by the time in 2015 and referencing the seconds equaling hours for myself; the seemingly feeling of eternity as to how long such portions had been going on for such aspects, I could not think of anything further as to what to correctly do in the slightest.



Having already had to go through the legal processes of the San Antonio Family Court situation in the reference aspects to my daughter and knowing I was doing everything I possibly could for my son while trying to figure out how to take care of the situation for myself and the situations as to the zapping/electrical portions shortly after the e cigarette situation in addition to such a time, that particular either news report or commercial was the last point of which I could think of to give a try. I called as my son was talking about living with someone else compared to me because of everything I was doing wrong as per such situations and as much as I personally hate to admit I cried not only in front of my son, though additionally on the phone call to the veterans crisis line. I could not handle how much of a failure I felt as to actually break down and cry in front of my son as all I could think of was how my biological father would look at me for ever shedding a single tear as per the way I was raised in conjunction with the ways as to which when growing up in New Jersey as well as the combined aspects of going to #NYC #NewYork #NY New York City and #Pittsburg Pittsburg as well as #Philadelphia Philadelphia, which for those who actually know such portions as to the 1980s and the 1990s beyond the portions in reference to my biological father; when having been born and raised in such an area during those particular years in specific, crying is considered a massively huge weakness especially in the earshot of another human being.



To additionally have to call what is for veterans though not having graduated Basic Training or AIT and crying on the phone when knowing there were guys who could use the time on the phone comparatively who had actually completed Basic Training and AIT who had gone overseas in comparison to myself as per the ways which I had the aspects in reference to how I viewed the surgery portions, that phone call was an even bigger weakness to me because of the fact as to not having graduated Basic Training or AIT or gone overseas or done what I had originally signed up to take care of in the specific manners which I had thought as per the ways as to what I had been taught referencing more-so along the lines of my Grandpa Gavett; as to how such a viewpoint would be if he had been alive or able to hear me, as well as those who know/knew Jose/Joe Castro my babysitter's husband referencing such aspects of the emotional portions as per the ways of such times in addition referencing the northeast areas at such times of the 1980s and the 1990s. Knowing how some females use tears to get what they want and doing everything to be the opposite of such a stereotype in such additional aspects and those particular portions thereof as per because of such portions of those types of females, the stresses from such had all added up in conjunction to having reached out to as many locations of various individuals over the amount of time over such years regarding as much and as many situations as I had; there was not any possible way for me to ever look at such a time, without seeing such a large number of weaknesses within myself in all such ways. The amount of doctors, neurologists, neuropsychologists, psychologists, psychiatrists, religious counselors, lifestyle coaches, and etcetera from the time of waking up from my coma in 2000 through to such a point in time in 2015; what or who could I do or speak with, which would actually know or understand or begin to comprehend for such portions as to begin actually as to such?



I was already incapable of being a good enough Mom for my daughter and my son together and had to go through such portions as to my daughter while doing the best for my son and there it was where my son was at the point he was, and I could do nothing worthwhile for him as his Mom either as it felt to me. Then adding the portions of knowing the time being taken away from those who had been able to successfully complete such training in Basic as well as AIT, and I only felt as though I was simply being a cry baby as per what I had already been called by others to my face in various areas in the adult lifestyle communities in the various areas thereof as well as within other groups I had known in person aside from my own biological mother ironically as well as my biological sister and my biological father while as to my ex-in-laws of such portions in other references; which in turn the lack of anything worthwhile was seemingly more and more prevalent to me personally, as to which the ways as to how such portions had been seen through my eyes. In all honesty I could not stand the sight of myself when looking in the mirror to get a haircut which was and is required more frequently with shorter hairstyles, and to color my hair as well such is a mandatory portion additionally which the aspects thereof was nothing short of the sight of so many weaknesses additionally when taking a shower as per each individual dot of each individual tattoo I had to get because of the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury. Yet to others especially being a female and at such times, my tattoos were either looked as a fad or a fetish or anything other than what they had been intended for referencing my personal choices for myself and such reasons thereof to which while some had expressed their opinions of such disgust and shown such in realistic portions thereof as per various choices and actions; in turn seeing such ironically only showed me as to what I could have been if I had not had the Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, and after effects thereof.



Being a female having to have short hair and the amount of people who mistook me for a male in comparison to being born as a biologically genetic female in conjunction with such other aspects, I felt the ways which others had told me they wished for me in reality of being dead though internally as so many others had told me to my face as well as in messages as to their wishes for me in comparison to their hopes of anything positive or worthwhile of such aspects and I felt nothing short of being considered as a beast in all such hideous ways thereof. Ironically with it being as cold as it is in Washington state as well as the problems referencing such zapping aspects, the requirement to wear longer pants as well as longer sleeved clothing worked for such aspects as to not have to see such, and yet at the same time backfired each day as per the need to see my tattoos to be able to assist my memory deficits and cognitive disorders; thus the largest double edged sword in the biggest proverbial aspects, to which when being alone in the shower to thus be freezing because of the water not being warm enough to actually help my skin warm up as well as the portions as to the zapping aspects as to the heater upon stepping out of the shower, there was the lack of balances in multiple ways.



Yet not really much new in such references as to the ways which the pain from turning on the air conditioner no matter what, and other such portions which I had told others over the years I had known them as to such portions of the amount of constant situations. Then adding the plants of the area looked familiar though the memories regarding from when I grew up in the northeast being confusing more-so than what had been confusing when living in the state of Texas, I could not tolerate the situations any longer which infuriated me further and I hated everything about myself as well as about my life and all such past portions thereof; with the exception of my son and my daughter, as there was nothing which ever seemed worthwhile which I had done or accomplished at any such point in time when looking over so many aspects.



So what the events of 11 September 2001 were not as bad as the way my nightmare had been in regards to being able to stop such aspects, when looking at my life circumstances? What was the big deal about my SCUBA Diving certifications or what I had done in such references, regarding any such accomplishments? Who cared about what I created, or what possibilities thereof? What was the importance of anything I had done in the multitude of ways, when I could not properly square away the smallest portions of such overall aspects regarding my son and my daughter as our family? Sure I had done other such aspects, though what was such as a big deal when taking into consideration what was/is the most important aspects as to what was/is most important to me was not good enough for them? I created, carried, and delivered my son and my daughter and could not do enough to keep them safe and do everything as a Mom for them to grow up within the home I had made as well as properly function according to what society had considered as normal in the civilian sectors of life; albeit due to circumstances in which I could not officially control and yet being a Dominant Female the portions thereof whether in the adult consenting lifestyle or in what I chose to be a part of in the other areas of life as I would guess some might notice at various times in what I had gotten involved in, to such aspects was a different portion as to which what was my own personal worth in such regards when looking at such portions? Having to actually go before a court and relinquish my parental rights as a Mom was the worst thing I ever had to go through, which believe it or not was worse than what I dealt with in the culmination of what I dealt with in reference to my son and my daughter's biological father in conjunction with the portions of what I could recall of my childhood and teenager years when growing up as per such doubling of such aspects in different ways though combined nonetheless as to how much I was blamed for what others had done incorrectly; which admittedly is my opinion as to such aspects, though nonetheless my opinion when looking at such portions.



When the irony of apologizing for when I saw what I did was incorrect and then being told of how weak that made me come across while others saying as to having not to apologize and the mixed messages thereof regarding those portions, what was it that was considered as the point of anything? What sense could I ever make of such portions and what could I do, which would ever be considered as good enough ever? Though I had said it well before ever creating the title for such books of writing such, what silver lining could I find? Literally, figuratively, and metaphorically I had appointments to have my hair pulled out as well as had to do such myself as per the ways of such pain levels at such times; as that waxing was actually less painful to have done, than allowing my hair to be the length which it had been previously to remain. The irony, I could feel my hair follicles growing in thicker which was the irony of ironies for such additional aspects for such considerations as to the physical pain levels to my headaches and migraines. Yet at the same time of knowing it takes some amount of strength to admit a weakness, it still does not change the facts as to the ways as to how I was raised and how my views had been in such regards as it was not until when going through my #BoatSCUBA #BoatSCUBADiving Boat SCUBA Diving certification course which I had ever learned it was considered as intelligent as well as helpful to when not being able to actually assist to get out of the way as of anything which actually is considered as more helpful than harmful because when you are unable to help or assist if there is a problem on a boat when out on the waters of the ocean than you are the additional cause if there is any sinking or damages.



I then shattered and made the call to the phone line and explained such portions to which the male on the other end of the hone line listened and made what recommendations were possible, though had already been attempted previously in regards of the aspects I could bring up on the phone call as per knowing I could not go into every aspect of every detail in the fullest combinations thereof due to several aspects as per other situations because of the time referencing certain portions and the clearances thereof. By legal standards for certain situations as I had explained to some individuals using the metaphors of technological aspects as to the 10 year or 15 year or 20 year or 25 year example for several aspects, I knew for certain situations I could not allow myself to break protocol standards on the phone call in the larger details of other portions to which despite not having graduated Basic Training or AIT the regards as to certain situations and the 20 year mark not having been met at such points in time or the 25 year mark of such standards meant I could not go into such larger details as I technically can at such points for certain aspects. While I will guess some would consider my Grandpa Gavett being one portion which is correct, though additionally the regards as to the aspect as to my biological mother working for Prudential and the coding portions additionally as well for such situations is another aspect as well because of what I had to assist with during such points in time during my childhood as legally by such standards I was not allowed to speak of such or write of such until 2020 as per the 15 year make when I had done the math after remembering from waking up from my coma after my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury from 1990 which I just realized I could have officially discussed beginning in the year of 2005 however because of as I suppose my issues of having gone from College Algebra with Trigonometry with Calculus to 2nd grade math has to do with what I thought was only allowed last year.



In such aspects prior to going into further details there was a male I knew in Illinois who had liked the group the Insane Clown Posse which he had considered himself a Juggalo regarding the music portion whereas though I had purchased one of the CDs because of a few soundtracks a different individual I had known who lived nearby named Dale Horris had brought up, a male I had met from #PrearieRidge Prairie Ridge or #CaryGrove Cary Grove named Brian though I cannot recall his last name had a friend who had committed suicide which as per the ways as to facing fears in reference to the aspects of not only regarding the situations in reference to the Sugar Skulls modeling photoshoot; the male named Brian who lived in his mom and dad's basement and had friends over at random, had listened to a song by the Insane Clown Posse as per playing the CD at the time which he had not been happy to hear the song played because of a friend of his. Similarly to the individuals I had known within the state of Texas who found it difficult to believe as to not having been to concerts despite where I grew up as many knew of #MSG #MadisonSquareGarden Madison Square Garden and plenty making fun of me for being considered as a square comparatively as per what was expected from me because of being born and raised in New Jersey and few ever believing anything good could ever come out of the state of New Jersey, that male from summer school if I recall correctly as to having met during the second session because of my need to graduate high school as per the schedule I had set for myself because of my nightmare and visions had been upset if I remember the name correctly of Andy having committed suicide because of the medications he was on as per the depression portions as per the situations within the mid-west which was shortly before the #Columbine Columbine situation in #Colorado #CO Colorado which one of the males in my high school at the time had said one of his cousins had been killed in that situation.



When later I had met with Brian who was around 5 feet 10 inches or so, lighter brunette, lighter brown-ish colored eyes, some freckles on his face, semi-broad shoulders, and heavily into the beginning portions of the Juggalo scene from what I was told; had said his friend named Andy had killed himself because of a few people he had known in school bullying him and finding the music from the Insane Clown Posse to help him cope with the situations, the ways which some have said other music had assisted them with other such situations comparatively despite the other surrounding situations. When later I spoke with Brian in person and asked him where his friend had gotten his CD, Brian demanded to know why I would want to know where he had gotten the CD; as per knowing certain situations as to what some had done, regarding the bootleg versions when I was growing up in New York City mainly as to the subliminal messaging within certain CD bootlegs compared to the official released versions. Brian had gotten mad as his friends had when I had brought up such details in the basement, which was a short lived situation as per the inability to deal with the anger from such a situation as well as the lies having been told regarding such portions. I asked to see the CD which he said was from his friend who committed suicide which was made for him from Andy, which the CD had odd markings within the part where the CD was put into the CD player which infuriated Brian as well as his friends that I would mention anything being wrong with the music which I was unable to explain in words what I had meant regarding the CD itself. When pointing to where certain lines were on the tracks and had attempted to explain the record vinyl portions of some records, the males grew irate because of their thought as to bringing up the music itself compared to the CD itself and how such would play on the CD player compared to other CDs purchased in a store.



When I pointed out there were far too many lines on the CD compared to the lesser amount of lines when feeling the CD, later when they calmed down they had told me it was a CD Rom CD compared to a CD from a CD store which I had thought was odd for such aspects. When I asked if the CD could be played backwards I was laughed at despite making such an attempt regarding the CD, while asking about which medications their friend had been taking at the time as per thinking of something I remembered being told about from someone else in the New York area as well as the Pennsylvania area about certain music groups doing something within the music for certain types of effects when they were on stage as per some music companies having the software to install a different aspect which seemed odd to me when looking at Brian's CD. I left shortly after how mad they continued to get in such references as they thought I was making fun of the music in comparison to the questions I had about the CD itself, which made little sense to me as to why they would get mad about the questions about where they had gotten the CD. Prior to leaving I asked if I could listen to their version of the CD to compare to the CD I had purchased at a store, which there was a major difference not only in the sound quality of specific tracks though also in regards as to the ways which the songs switched from one song to the next. When bringing such portions up in reference to the details, that made the males angry yet again as they thought I was making fun of the music once again in comparison to asking about the CD the music was on.



While some might have a better idea as to what I was referring to back then in if I recall the year was 1998, the following time when seeing the teacher Mr. Stoner I had asked him about what his opinion had been about the CDs which were purchased in a store compared to a CD-Rom regarding music; which he had not seen what the difference could be in such comparisons, nor understood my questions regarding the CD for music compared to the CD-Rom for a computer. It made sense to me the questions I was asking and yet it made little sense to me as to how there was not one person I spoke with thereafter from such a point in time which saw what the reference was to my questions, which if there is anyone who read through my journal blog entries the possibilities of the knowledge and understanding as to what my references were regarding the oddities of the comparison of the CD and what seemed as a bootleg version on a CD-Rom to record made of vinyl and certain bands when playing the record backwards as to certain sound differences as to such different influences regarding such portions as to the impacts of the music from such while the musical portions were playing in the subliminal sort of messaging ways.



I remember having gotten in a lot of trouble with my biological father for making attempts with his records and his record player when I had learned how to do certain types of mixing when using the red and white child version of a record player, as the vinyl records which were mine compared to the vinyl records which were his not only the differences of music though what the needle did in reference to the records when I made such attempts in the middle 1980s before showing a few people what I was doing with music when in certain neighborhoods I grew up walking around when my biological father had business work in such areas regarding his watch and jewelry business. While some in those days liked what I was showing them with some of the record players as to the music, my biological father was not happy with when I would do such as well as when changing the speed of the record playing on my red and white record player when I had taken a few of his records to put onto my record player. I dealt with those situations needless to write, especially regarding those who know of such types of introductions to a switch in the nicest ways possible to put such; though regarding the rooms as to which such types of conversations occurred, and what versions of introductions thereof during such conversations.



However in reference to the phone call I had to make in regards as to what occurred in reference to the veterans crisis line which having had to admit such weaknesses at such times as well as before and after such points in time such as the reasons as to why I have been on disability for years and as the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury have proven as to not having been able to hold a normal job or regular employment nor having been paid for any work over such points in time in reference to any modeling or performances I have ever done, another set of reasons as to a feeling of personal failure regarding such aspects as to the lack of having seen the financial benefits which could have assisted my daughter's situation while taking care of my son and doing the best as possible for myself as best as I could despite all of the combined situations such as not only the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury though also additionally what occurred after SCUBA Diving where I had landed in such times and references thereof. In the regards as to that particular point in time and not one person other than Allie from my #CavernSCUBADiving #CavernSCUBA Cavern SCUBA Diving certification class ever asking me any questions in reference to my health briefly after the USS/USNS General Hoyt S. Vandenberg #Vandenberg to check as to what could have been noticed initially; the main portion she had noticed had only been in reference to my buoyancy compared to anything when on land in person, when speaking with me compared to anyone else who might have ever noticed any aspects which might have been considered as of a concern to take into consideration especially if they had known of such portions and/or noticed anything which might have been considered of concern.



In such references if there was anything which had additionally been noticed and anyone had any prior knowledge of such and had chosen not to say anything regarding any such medical recommendations as to who to speak with or to ever get checked out and not forgetting the medication aspects which most people I knew had only recommended for me to speak with the doctors to request for more medications in comparison to what I thought I needed less medications as per my discussions with my doctors; since some had thought in comparison to the medical backgrounds required to ever make any recommendations as to medications within the non-medical professional aspects and/or ever messed with such medications whether in reference to myself and/or my daughter's medications and/or anything additional to my son, those particular legalities as per if ever any such findings of those aspects through technological messaging means of any type, would be in regards as to law enforcement and #DEA DEA investigations I suppose after listening to a video on #YouTube YouTube from #VigilanceElite Vigilance Elite's episode 10 as to certain aspects which could be of additional concern to the CID investigation regarding the rave situation and Brackenridge for such portions which I had discussed with some people when I was living within the state of Texas before how I wound up in Washington state in 2013.



Again, I had seen Sam Lewis before I had seen the Lights regarding in the Killeen area and had stopped by The Sanctuary in #Dallas #DallasTX #DallasTexas Dallas Texas prior to as per descriptions in "Finding A Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing" which had been sent to several individuals as well as the links put online briefly through the #dropbox dropbox portions because of the way I was feeling as per previously written about and described in my journal blog entry. While I had thought the portions of the possibilities for the financial aspects regarding only if there was the sales and only if the payments occurred, there is the fact of not having ever been paid for any of the modeling which I had done in reference to the Sam Lewis aspects of modeling just as per which there was not an official contract signed for such portions as to what I had chosen to do referencing the initial phases of such releases. However since the ways which some seemingly may have hypothetically been impatient and/or ever had been upset as to my choices for my books and then illegally took such choices upon themselves for their impatience and/or refusal to pay attention to details as to my way being different and allowed their greed to over take their emotions in comparison, there is the fact of the illegal portions of releasing my intellectual property and the illegal portions of using such for any medical research or any type of research without my particular permissions regarding such anti-slavery laws as well as the realities to other such legalities in reference to the #ADA ADA compliances as well as specific requirements regarding safety precautions especially after the targeting which had occurred illegally and the harassment and stalking portions as to what occurred in reference to my Medal of Honor Art Project to which such portions of the situations and not having discussed with me in person as to how such realities were required for such; the legalities thereof as per whatever ramifications are as such, however such goes regarding the responses thereof as per the situations which have proverbially surfaced and developed as per what has been noticed within various news media portions and social media regarding the water main lines as to the apartment complex as well as in downtown Austin and the snow storm which occurred after I had gone out to the east coast just shortly before the first request of information for the transfer out of that apartment complex. The wishes of some referencing other portions of in comparison to what I have needed for myself personally compared to others' wishes, are exactly as such to which others' wishes compared to my personal needs as to being where I need to be as well as the aspects of the Blue Identification Card are of importance for other regulations to pay attention to.



In the reference as to the Blue Identification Card and those who have the more well known aspects thereof regarding whatever aspects of specific employments as the average means would know what such portions would be, to which whatever the average of such means are in the overall aspects thereof for such an identification card of the clearance portions have already been brought forward in minor ways; though such average means of the Blue Identification card, has specific aspects of commanded privacy portions for the safety regulations of the Armed Forces of the United States of America to which such additional safety precautions for such individuals and what the levels of what each has for the availability to assist with the National Security of the United States of America regarding whatever portions thereof via the specific oath taken by such individuals to protect the #HomelandSecurity Homeland of the #USA United States of America from any perceived threats regarding whether such is proven after such investigations is up to the associated agencies and/or organizations and/or groups regarding such portions as to the National Security of the United States of America's homeland as well as #USArmedForces #ArmedForces Armed Forces thereof associated connections. While the term medically retired is of a specific identification card to which some have such clearances for why they have the identification card associated with being medically retired, such portions as to what is brought forward regarding such aspects as hearing such in reference to the episode 10 of Vigilance Elite; what connectionary points in such overall average regarding the combined forces thereof and the specific types, have certain protections especially because of the specialties of such training and the capabilities thereof for the specific aspects thereof for the National Security of the Homeland of the United States of America and have the equivalent of the Chief Warrant Officer rank though between the military/veteran/civilian sector in such comparison for those who know and understand to comprehend such a different ranking structure as per such explanations given to me when I had initially received such an identification card.



For clarification purposes regarding such, my ex-sister-in-law Mary Evongelina Nichols Osteen had known of such portions because of Grandpa Nichols regarding the time when that situation had occurred, to which the legalities if such portions were ever found as to the red flags which would have been set off if such was ever looked into regarding ever able to be found in the Georgia area and however such red flags began to send off such portions thereof; is a different set of legalities regarding the safety and security regarding other such protocols. Though there is an additional irony as to how my ex-sister-in-law at the times had looked with a tanner skin tone and lighter colored hair to a female I once knew in #AsherHolmesElementary #AsherHolmesElementarySchoolAsher Holmes Elementary School named Aileen and another named Crystal Celeste who had been friends with one another, which the two of their individual personalities seemingly fit into the ways my ex-sister-in-law had been acting when discussing several aspects, as the ways when they would try to explain various portions of what their parents' backgrounds were as to how such similarities seemingly came through quickly and easily for such portions. An additional irony is how many people I once knew in the state of Texas who told me they had hoped to know what I was like before my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury and the thoughts they had were they thought the memories I had recalled at such times were only the smaller ones which I agreed though where the larger disagreements had been was where they thought I could have better memories from my childhood, I told them I knew that from the psychological points of view as to such being the better memories and the ones which I could not remember were considered suppressed memories; which those people especially in the Austin are of #Texas Texas thought I was being overdramatic and there were more positive memories, which I told those people they did not have any studies to the levels I had which meant they knew nothing about the facts I had already brought forward. I told those people the reality of which only the more positive memories were what was at such times and when they said they wanted to do things to trigger my past memories, I told them they would be responsible and then deal with anything that went wrong if they did not back off and stay out of such an aspect.



While those people thought because they were going through college that gave them any rights which I told them that meant nothing, the arguments and disagreements went as such had gone which I told those people I did not want nor need any of their opinions nor what they thought as assistance; as I told those people just because they took a beginning to Psychology class and not having taken #Psychology Psychology 101 or other associated classes, they also did not have a license which was considered as acceptable. I told those people to not get involved just as I told those people do not send anyone in my direction unless I specifically ask for such, which I told those people I had already been and was going to a Psychologist and if I thought there was any worth to going to a Psychologist differently I would make he choice to make my appointments for such and not to annoy me with any such problems additionally as I told those people they were not as intelligent as they thought of themselves to be. I told those people they were not capable of handling the situation and would only make things worse which those people thought because they thought they had an idea, I told those people even if I were to go into a larger amount of details there were doctors with far more in their backgrounds which were incapable of being able to fully process the backgrounds of my life; which I told those people to not get involved as I told those people there were psychologists which enraged me and made problems worse when having gone to such and after several appointments when I asked what if any recommendations were possible, those Psychologists said they had known of some with some aspects as to my background though not in the combination thereof.



In such I told those psychologists as well as having told those people do not bother me if you are incapable as per the ways of the aspects of my Boat SCUBA Diving certification because obviously if such was incapable to be assisted in others' combinations to not bother me in such ways, as I was and I am not willing to be anyone's guinea pig to which those types of ideas which are from prior situations; I told many individuals to back off and not bother me with such a lack of ability as they would only cause more problems instead of ever being worthwhile for such tries, as when those people could not actually help themselves there was not the ability for those people to know how to help me unless I told them what to do and only if they were intelligent enough to ask me as to specifics in various ways for the clarification aspects. While those people similarly to the psychologists in different areas including Carrollton Texas laughed thinking their degree was more valuable as per what they had to pay for their college, I told those people their piece of paper's cost did not equate to the actual value as in the ways of other degrees as when you get into Psychology to try to work on your own problems; then you are not actually helpful in my opinion, which the various psychologists thoughts their ways of which I call the fluffy bunny sort of view point were not worth anything to those who have backgrounds which those fluffy bunny approaches would ever be of any worth or of any value as there are those whose backgrounds would make their fluffy bunny attempts when they thought they were bigger, look smaller and weaker than the babies of such fluffy bunnies.



A psychologist my daughter and my son went to at the time of living in Austin a male named Sean was offended by such a comment, which I told that male the ways which he was going about his approaches were beyond incorrect that I had hoped he would be put under review and if anything was required for his full removal out from the psychological world thereof because of his inadequate ways I had hoped the sooner the better as he seemed to only think because he wrote one thin little book that made him better than he ever could be seen as such. He told me he thought I was being mean while sitting in the psychologist office as he sat in the chair, which I told him the fact he said what his feelings were meant he proved my point as to how weak of a psychologist he actually was and how his fluffy bunny ways were unhelpful for any child or teenager and definitely for any adult throughout the state of Texas whether or not they had any military associated background as such a small way to bring up his feelings when he was supposed to be intelligent enough to do anything worthwhile meant in my opinion that he had no business to ever be involved with anything in the psychological aspects of such. That male named Sean told me he knew people in the psychology aspects which I told him that sort of wording meant he truly was smaller than he had proven himself to already be when the aspects of psychology are supposed to be helpful in comparison to adding more needless problems which when he said he thought I had not gone through anything which was considered as painful compared to his past, I told him his choice to bring such portions up only repeated what I had just brought forward. I told that male named Sean who claimed he was better because of his what I call the I love mne wall of papers regarding his degree and backgrounds thereof meant nothing to many who actually had backgrounds, and those pieces of paper were seen only as flammable materials to me as well as others who actually had situations which his paper was not worth the ability to actually be helpful even for kindling to such a reference as most likely his tears had dampened the paper and would only be something which would be nothing more than a wet blanket. He jolted back offended while crossing his arms, which I told him his body language repeated my sentiments and he was nothing of worth in my opinion which I told him he would prove himself as to such worthlessness over a short amount of time. When he told me what some of his friends thought of him in the psychology aspects, I told him his friends meant nothing to me and him bringing up such aspects again repeated the little portions of himself and how his ego which was not supposed to be a part of when assisting in psychological developmental aspects as to how little use or help he would ever be with the exception of assisting to show what not to be as.



When asked what I meant, I told him that such types of problems were only of those who had nothing in their background which actually would or could be able to relate to anyone who had more in their background and his type of psychologist was probably because he was too lazy to put the work in to get a real medical degree because of whatever his mommy and daddy told him and when in the aspects of college he seemed as one of those people who could not handle when he learned his mommy and daddy thought more of him only because they had made his life compared to the rest of the world's view. I told him he seemed like the type whose mommy and daddy constantly told him they thought he was special and yet to the rest of the world he was nothing more special than a fleck of dust floating in the wind which he probably learned when he was in college by others telling him such in different ways, which in turn repeating the fact of him being lazy in comparison to ever getting a degree which he had to work for; as in my opinion just because you got a degree to help yourself in such a background of psychology in comparison to getting a degree to help yourself in business to also additionally help others, meant little worth in a larger way. I told him that his attitude as well as his wishes to be associated with bigger than who he ever could be was nothing different than the females who run around chasing the Rodeo winners of a competition and his type of personality would be and has been a problem for such in the real world regarding the assistance which he claimed he was trying to help, though realistically only wished to ever be good enough to help such people. I told him his wishes for such was not the correct reason to ever get involved with psychology and people such as him were worthless throughout the areas of the state of Texas and throughout multiple areas and fields, as I told him that his approaches to try to help children and teenagers were nothing of worth and had been the causes for the woosification of the general public because most likely in his past he met a real man who was far more capable than he could ever be which hurt his feelings and instead of taking such a situation to be better personally he probably threw a titty baby temper tantrum fit and went in the ways which usually females have gone; which in turn the woosification of the male population, because of such wishes to ever amount to anything as to such others, though not ever being good enough to do so himself.



He stomped his foot as a child does when not getting their way as he told me he could show me how important he felt he was, which I told him that was another tell tale sign as to how minimal he was always going to remain and how I hoped he would fully be removed from the gene pool permanently to not ever rejoin the population. I told him that his lack of a spine made him more weak and moveable than the piece of paper on his wall torn into multiple pieces in the breeze of the wind compared to being of anything of actual substance; which was something similar to both Aileen and Crystal when in regards to their opinions they were spewing when in Asher Holmes Elementary School because they thought because they read a book, that ever made them of anything worthwhile in such a longer term comparison for those I had told in the Austin and later in the San Antonio communities as to telling them not to push for such aspects as once they knew they would not be able to unknow such realities. There were several people such as the male Travis known online as HCCoyote who were told the same sort of aspects, which the similar sorts of responses were as to the psychologist Sean who was incapable of accepting the fact of such weaknesses within themselves and because of the inability to accept such weaknesses in themselves the lack of competency in multiple other aspects throughout life. Those who have the capability to acknowledge weaknesses of whichever type cannot go to those who are incapable of such aspects because those who are incapable of acknowledging their own weaknesses mean they are incompetent to ever assist those who they wish could be as weak as them, and thus those types of people only try to break down those who have already acknowledged such portions of their lives and are only additional causes as to why the problems of the United States of America have gotten to the points they have at the time of the beginning of the year of 2011 in my opinion.



I suppose an additional hypothetical in reference as to why I may not have thought of the timing regarding the 2005 aspect, may have to do additionally with situations regarding such portions which in turn would make sense in a different way as per that being the first official year which the full kick off referencing the timeframe of the officiality of that particular identification card as per the timing as well. While at the times from 2001 through to 2005 regarding the aspects of such timing and the situational events thereof in conjunction with the portions regarding what was the required safety for such aspects, in some ways I suppose there are abilities to see different reasons why that aspect as to explaining the Blue Identification card aspects as to such a metaphor for the aspects of the Blue Identification Card had not been written about or spoken of regarding such aspects as per the knowledge in certain areas of the Armed Forces of the United States of America; though hypothetically regarding the civilian sector and the veteran sector compared to the Active Duty/National Guard/Reserve aspects as per the situations at the times thereof in the year of 2005, such reasons can be noticed in other such ways and regards thereof as per the transition portions regarding those with such identification cards. I am aware that the retired Mustang General if I am accurate had been one who also had a Blue Identification Card, which in such aspects as to what portions involved with the timing when he was specifically called in as explained when just before meeting him as well as the situations thereof might additionally make sense to those who are in the know more-so of what that particular rank and such aspects entail in larger details at such a timeframe.



However since there were the problems furthered by the time of Kinko de Mayo regarding such portions as to HCCoyote as those who know of such situations and the references as well as the additional aspects as to how that individual had been especially with the references as to him having defended the #TNG TNG community at the time while he had been who I had referenced regarding the temper tantrum of having a blow dart gun when at the only TNG event I had gone to because of the combination of that as well as the smaller than my size female kidney situation at the same house, that individual had complained more than any female I had met in quite some time and reminded of me of the song lyrics from #KatyPerry Katy Perry of the song Hot and Cold in a multitude of ways for a more well known pop culture reference which hypothetically a few others could agree. By the way, why would someone with any background of heavily recorded portions of psychological disfunctions be allowed to get a degree in psychology to ever work on other people out of curiosity? If I am accurate, there are plenty of self-help books which do not cost the American tax payers money for such aspects to take into consideration. I wonder how many people who have gotten psychology or such related type of degrees have such a background referencing such aspects as to those portions with multiple institutions which have wasted the American tax payer finances, additionally because of being incapable to make something of themselves to further genuinely in positive ways assist to progress more in a positive direction in conjunction to those with such similarly related types of backgrounds in the multitude of ways; unless such has been utilized as a way to evaluate and review the conditions of the overall human psyche to evaluate what is of worth regarding such portions, as well as the determination required to genuinely better the situations thereof in comparison to trying to project their own internal struggles onto others in comparison to ever genuinely assisting them to find ways to heal themselves to step forwards in more positive ways.



In turn while the possibilities of such situational problems and hypotheticals thereof regarding such associated connections and aspects thereof my opinion would be similar regarding how the female Suzanne Farnsworth who had admitted she and her sister Cindy Farnsworth had been repeatedly institutionalized and had multiple personality flaws which they had gone through multiple psychologists as well as psychiatrists to try to find a root cause while additionally the aspects as to the Nine Lives Bookstore situation to which they sought further answers as they claimed, though in my opinion were only trying to find ways to justify their behaviour choices in comparison to ever actually working on themselves as the ways which to ever actually find a genuine way to accept their own weaknesses as to such portions of which is required to ever genuinely begin to work on oneself before ever being able to actually do anything beneficial to try to assist others as they claimed to have been able to do. In my opinion the fact as to how they had to accept and deal with the fact of the situations regarding what once was the cat sanctuary and the ways of how such had gone, shows the symbolism as to the reality for such levels of which in my opinion can be seen in reference as to the levels of involvement which they had required to accept the realities of what they were incapable of ever being able to do on their own due to their inadequacies and how the reference aspects of seeking others who they would manipulate to ever thinking they were more than they had not ever actually been. As both were admitted to having been told though they refused to accept the aspects of their multiple personality disorders, in such additional reference points as to such aspects for the symbolism with their cat sanctuary and other such prior patterns of behaviour; I suppose the joint efforts of being able to see such situations for the symbolic portions thereof, can be evaluated by those who hypothetically could have more knowledge and understanding as to the varied levels of the details thereof. Though those people had been told similarly to the situations referencing the people in the Austin adult consenting lifestyle community and similarly thought they could ever teach me a lesson, which I had told them if anyone was going to do any teaching of lessons it would be me teaching those people as to where their inadequacies were for them to work on fixing themselves in comparison to ever being capable to try to fix or repair anything for a long lasting aspect as they wished they had the capability of the ones not only in reference to myslef as to such patterns of behaviour.



While I had been called all sorts of names regarding such temper tantrums as toddlers trend to throw when they do not get their way during the terrible twos, I suppose such symbolic portions can additionally be seen in such regards as the time has gone on. While those people in a combined aspect of such in the references in this particular journal blog entry in conjunction with other journal blog entries have been written have wished to be able to know more in depth which in some ways they had gotten what they had asked for, the portions as to what I had told them about the overall proportions of what I have known of myself as well as my life additionally can speak of such aspects in the proverbial and literal as well as metaphorical ways. While some civilians run to the aspects of wanting the military grade aspects there are those who have such backgrounds who can easily explain why there is the differences to the military grade aspects as per the amount of associated portions of required knowledge and understanding to handle such situations to which the training involved for such portions, is not something of the civilian sector who has no clearance nor background to be able to truthfully handle the aspects thereof and the reasons as to why such portions are more along such lines in comparison in my opinion; of which I could envision military associated individuals telling civilians that they do not actually want such for themselves as I had regarding the healthcare aspects in such a reference though in other ways as to other portions thereof, I could see the regards as to military associated individuals running to stop such portions to warn the civilian sector as to such because once at a certain point thereof to such regards the ways thereof cannot be undone once the levels get passed a certain level. Just as in the Armed Forces of the United States of America the ability to adapt to such portions is one of two ways in the chaptering aspects for a combined overall simplified viewpoint thereof as you either adapt and work with in whichever ways, or the other portion to which if there is the failure to adapt as to how such portions are and go.



In reference to the 20 year memorial from the time of the 11 September 2001 attacks, while I know for a fact the realties of those who I had lost in regards just from the 1993 attack are lost to me; those who I could remember even in the smaller portions of such from those times of who or where I could remember such aspects, the strengths thereof from such lessons in time have been what has made such in the hardnesses of stronger stone when combined together for the foundational aspects in other ways which hopefully have been able to assist more to look and seek for more positive aspects in other areas of their lives for the betterment of themselves as well as others despite how such situations have been and how such portions have gone. The aspects as to which the memories which have slowly and yet quickly began to return as what I told people in the state of Texas as to what my biological mother and my biological sister had wished I would not ever go back to the northeast area of the United States of America, which in some ways there is a bit of a feeling to which the favorite ride of their regarding #Disney Disney of #ItsASmallWorld It's A Small World might not have fully had such portions of the lyrics fully surface from their subconscious as to that particular song and the situations thereof over the years in such portions of additional aspect. Whereas back in the 1990s when I had been there my issue mainly had been because of listening to my biological mother singing in the highest portion of the octaves as to the voice thereof, and yet there is admittedly an odd sense of calming when taking into consideration as to my particulars referencing where I stand in such spectrums within the adult lifestyle consenting community to which possibly I might be able to find some enjoyment from that particular song for that particular ride referencing the aspects as to the oddities thereof. In some ways, maybe just maybe it could be the happiest place on earth depending upon who you are.






I suppose in some ways there can be a satirical comment made about such a reference to the It's A Small World aspect to my book I authored, #ParoxysmSeries "Paroxysm of the Lotus Book Series: Volume Three: Celestial Chastisements By: Susan MeeLing" to which could be seen in a different way regarding the adult consenting portions as per the "Paroxysm of the Lotus Book Series: Volume Two: Portraits of Partnerships By: Susan MeeLing" to the overall aspects as to the varied portions of interpersonal relationships in some ways. Since more recently I learned of there being a Club 33, is there an idea for a possible collaboration idea in a different way you might like to contact me to discuss as per the legal requirements due to such portions as to the aspects thereof in a copyright aspect of my intellectual property rights that might be an interesting idea for such possibilities in a uniquely different way? Possibly such portions of which the situations thereof for the ways which such assistances could be for a more clear and yet shorter way to have a different viewpoint of such, in a more healthy aspect as to such portions of the adult portions in the ways to work towards a possibility as to the ways which the shortened version of songs and visuals as to such give a point of view which can assist to change the perceptions of how adult consenting lifestyle aspects can be reviewed in comparison could be taken into consideration; as it is known just because of the ways which such had been illegally leaked referencing the book portions of what I had written from what I have seen since finding such, the ways of which a collaboration would be required if that were to be something which would be needed in such references to the aspects because of the specific order which the writings flow in regards to more specifically the third book as to the additional portions of the second book as I would not be surprised if there were to be situations which there have been those who have seen different proverbial behind the scenes aspects as to how some have seen #DisneyWorld #DisneyLand Disney depending which areas such individuals had been in the areas thereof.



Though it was only one trip to Disney when I was a child for the handbell choir competition Old Tennent Presbyterian Church had been involved with, I know there are some situations which there are those who may not have seen or known of such during the times of to which those who had noticed certain aspects after those who had gone on the trip might not have put together in reference to the other aspects connected when seeing such portions in a different way as to some of the situations which began to occur to the different congregation members and the families thereof; though by the time of such occurring to others it would not be a surprise to some at this point as per having explained quite a bit, as depending upon who the situations as to such patterns of behaviours some had survived went as such situations had gone for others despite what some may have hypothetically thought regarding their viewpoints at such times if the hypotheticals are accurate which I had noticed in ways which others had not wanted to believe me in such times regarding the aspects thereof. It had been a situation which I had quickly noticed after returning to New Jersey as to the levels of situations which were going on shortly after such, though because of how few at such a time had believed me the ease for some to simply push that particular thought from their mind was simple compared to what I had noticed fairly quickly as per the terminology the sins of the father or in other aspects the mother depending upon who was reviewed in such varied aspects thereof for such a possibility to look into regarding such aspects.



While the situations referencing how the noticing as to the musical portion differences as to the time when I was a teenager in Illinois as to the ways such has had the impacts it has in the larger ways more known by law enforcement agencies, there could be a way which such a version thereof could be worked into a way which could be considered a s bit different comparatively while maintaining the family friendly portions thereof. As despite the combined situations which has occurred over the points in time of my life, there are the ways which having to work through such situations on my own which might be considered in a different perspective even though each individual has their own opinions thereof in which view points of theirs compared to the aspects of the larger overall viewpoints of such combinations as to the ways which I have had to deal with looking at such portions due to the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury. Such a double edged sword of the aspects thereof regarding the combinations especially when taking several portions into consideration, as while some might have wished as to what their wishes were; the lyrics of the It's A Small World do have certain reference points, to which the ironic aspects thereof can be seen more easily if read and thought about in such regards for those who do not naturally pick up such reference correlations when listening and/or seeing a music video.



It's a Small World (It's a Small World) Richard M. Sherman, Robert B. Sherman

To be read in a musical reading format such as handbells for an example:


It's a world of laughter

A world of tears It's a world of hopes And a world of fears

There's so much that we share That it's time we're aware It's a small world after all It's a small world after all It's a small world after all It's a small world after all It's a small, small world There is just one moon And one golden sun And a smile means Friendship to ev'ryone

Though the mountains divide And the oceans are wide

It's a small world after all It's a small world after all It's a small world after all It's a small world after all It's a small, small world


Source: Musixmatch Songwriters: Robert Sherman / Richard Sherman It's a Small World (It's a Small World) lyrics © Walt Disney Music Company, Wonderland Music Company Inc., Wonderland Music Company Inc



However when taking into consideration the #StephenKing Stephen King movie and book Cat's Eye as to the Smoking Cessation group portion of that book/movie, is there anyone else who had noticed any situations if they had gone to Disney and seen anything within their own lives as to certain situations knowing that Walt had dealt with a lot of situations referencing his childhood and his upbringing which he had survived? I know there are several movies which he had sought a Mom being a better role model for which the movies were begun in such ways to where the situations of the time were not as well known for the ways which some aspects had been overlooked due to different aspects to which is there a possibility of the equivalent of what was seen in the Peter Pan movie, of the lost boys though in both sides in reference to both males and females in such circumstances which might not have been taken into consideration previously as per how such situations had been brought forward by Walt back in the days and times of when first beginning the aspects of in the larger ways around the time when more Hollywood and other such broadcastings had begun? Why was it called broad-castings, when one thinks about the terminology of those years terminology for the word broad regarding such portions as well as the additional wording of casting? While some have seen psychology as a pseudoscience which in various ways which depending upon which aspects seen into in reference to the intentions, I have dealt with several who had thought of such aspects as to the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury though also in the reference as to my nightmare and visions over the years; which I know I cannot be the only one who has had such portions to deal with in various reference points in time, though the combined aspects being a larger portion of combinations which has been as such has been. As the original location in the #FL #Florida Florida region near the #BT #BermudaTriangle Bermuda Triangle area is well known to some, is there a reference to such to look into regarding such portions for consideration as to the energetic frequencies which could be noticed referencing such situations for some to review adding the aspects as more in specific to the movie #TheLittleMermaid The Little Mermaid in other portions as to the situations thereof the ways which the ocean cleanses in a different aspect to look into regarding such portions as to the energetic aspects?

Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Model Author Susan MeeLing

It should not take a head injury to figure this out because I thought you are supposed, to be smarter.

If there are those who find such interesting enough to research further to bring forward more information in reference to the forefront for more detailed information, as usual I request the courtesy of the same which I do in reference to how I refer to articles for reference points when writing my journal blog entries; for each one used for reference starting points, to research for clearer understanding from such knowledge.

 

That is common sense, good etiquette, and good karma; whilst lifting others upward, in positive ways.

Quotes which mean a lot to me:

"The ultimate measure of an individual is not where they stand in moments of comfort and convenience, but where they stand at the time of challenge and controversy."

"We must reject the idea that every time a law is broken society is guilty, rather than the law breaker.  Freedom is never-more than one generation away, from extinction.  We do not pass freedom on through our blood stream because freedom must be fought for, protected, and handed on for the next generation to do the same."

"Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.  Though best to be able to share in person with who matters, until that time occurs being able to see what is possible through such is a feat to notice.  One must be happy within oneself prior to being happy with another, though such can be enjoyed if living in one's own truth is as such. and then as to the capability to progress forward with another and/or others depending upon the situation(s) and individual(s)."  ~  A Quote From Me, Reverend Susan MeeLing also known as Lady Dori Belle

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Thus far there has been only one who has known the contact form area to speak with me on a phone line was simple and capable to do so through, in truth.

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