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It should not take a head injury
*after personally sustaining a head injury & coma*
to figure this out...

 
 
 
 
 
 


After a Drill Sergeant threw Me into the metal part of the bunk when I was in Basic Training for the United States of America's Army branch at Fort Sill Oklahoma #FortSill #FortSillOK #FortSillOklahoma #OK #Oklahoma in the year of 2000 on Psalm Sunday, I have dealt with the situations as best as I have been capable to do so while taking care of the situations and asking for assistance as per the required explanations of the information to such facts first.  While making the attempts to get assistance for the aspects thereof as to the reality, the aspects of where and when as to the multiple attempts to ask for assistance for me.  As my journal blog for when I was ready to bring such as to my other works forward since as to the lengths of time as to where my modeling was as to the modeling page information, just as the other pages have the information as to such specifics, and just as this journal blog of mine is as to such facts.


If I had real friends (if as to having met in person face to face in person in real life as to the aspects of this particular reference such as from the state of Texas as to the state of Washington as to the years of 2000 through 2013 if I met within the state of Texas for such references), real (the areas of the tristate region as before the year of 2000) family, and real relationships in real life that recognized me as to the aspects of if as to the face to face in person who started in truth as I had started such in truth as to the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, as well as the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain that took 8.5 years to dissipate; then I guesstimate there would be the easier factors as to being capable for me to speak with others in truth in person face to face in person and/or through online measures as to such factors I suppose.  Though would such as to the knowledge of the ways as to how they began such discussions with me as to would there be such a situation, for them to consider as to such if factors as to such discussions with me in truth?


As to some suggestions and commentary within "Finding A Silver Lining" one of several of my bo0ks I personally authored/wrote/compiled as I can only speak and write in truth as per such clarifications as to the reality as to the specifics of such discussions/writings/videos as per my Official You Tube where I have satirical commentary where I comment about the factors as to having dealt with others' opinions about their pop culture references of #NJ #NJstate #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey, though as to for the most part I have actually preferred to be asked with politeness if as to having read my books and/or seen my website as just the same in reference to the timeframes when I was modeling as to having respect as to what I consider as respect, referencing if as to such polite manners as to discussions if as to such having been noticed because of the factors in my opinion as to having real discussions as communication would be if my website was seen before the year of 2023 as I first began my website in 2015; as in my journal blog posts as to the reality of the years of 2010 through 2013, as to the aspects of introductions as to those timeframes when as to various factors as I did not take selfies as I was actually working with photographers as to my creations of my outfits as per the description on the link to my modeling page(s) as to the references regarding my journal blog updates in the years of 2019 through 2022 as the timeframe onward as to the year of 2023 as to the factors as to how such journal blog entries will be as to such factors as to the aspects of the various topic points.


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 I was born and raised in New Jersey and grew up going throughout the tristate northeast areas mainly, and as to how the reality of when the importance of the situations as to the aspects of reviewing as to such facts regarding the logistics for several factors as to the considerations; the years of 2019 through 2022 as to the review process as to the aspects of the timeframe, prior to the timeframe of the 20 year memorial of 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 as well as before the 30 year memorial of February 1993, as to the northeast areas mostly known as to New York City #NYC #NewYork #NY #NYstate #NYU though also as to the #Pentagon Pentagon, as well as Pennsylvania #Pennstate #Pennsylvaniastate as to the reality of how many New Jersey-ians commute in either direction, depending upon what location for the commute. 


The factors though I have said at times, I re-re-re-re-re-re-grew up in the state of  #Texas #TX #Texasstate Texas as to such factors as to the timeframes, as well as all 26 of my SCUBA #SCUBA #SCUBADiving  Diving certifications I earned were through one school within the state of Texas as I also earned winning first place in a Texas Chili cookoff with more than 20 entries as well as my chili recipe as I am adamant about my recipes as to such aspects just as I am specific as to what it actually takes for me to cook in a BBQ as to the required preparations for when I have BBQed.   



I can sarcastically write, those who know of the Rules of the BBQ as to where I grew up as to the Rules of the BBQ as to such factors to the considerations of such preparations.  However that is to cooking food as to the differences of my journal blog entries, as to the factors as to proverbial aspects of food for thought as the difference of real food in real life as to the facts of the situations to such attention to the details as well as attention to the information.


Such facts as to the metaphors in some of such factors that only after reviewing such information as to the aspects of the fiction book series that were as to for My personal life as to such dreamland sorts of factors as to the differences of such hypotheticals, the references thereof as to such regards as to the logistical emotional with the real situations as per the names I was informed of at the timeframes referenced review as to My journal blog as to the situations overall.  


If as to my journal blog being found and read as to where what I consider as common sense, as to the aspects of my satirical saying   how it should not take a head injury to figure out. 
 

*(sometimes utilizing articles discussing facts)*
By:  (Reverend) Susan MeeLing
also known as

The One & Only


(YouTube)   Lady Dori Belle


 

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REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

Day 15 of the countdown to 20 year memorial of the attacks on 11 September 2001 by A New Jersey-ian

In this particular posting as per the ways of remembering as per seen in reference to when proverbially immersed within the state of Texas during the timeframe of 2019 through to earlier this summer regarding the timing within the state of Texas and the memory portions as per the ways which after my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury after effects, sometimes require a different way to see certain aspects thereof. In turn referencing the aspects as to why my biological mother as well as my biological sister had not wanted me to return to the east-coast as per their fear as to my being able to remember as well as their fear of me being taken seriously because of certain situations which occurred in regards of when I was a child growing up in New Jersey and the tristate area because they knew I can only tell the truth, of which the aspects of the ways my biological mother had already been in reference to the treatment of my biological sister; in such references how could anyone hypothetically see the situations turning out if the hypothetical aspects as to the realities of which the #USA United States of America's #USAArmedForces #ArmedForces Armed Forces #USASapaceForce #USSpaceForce #SpaceForce Space Force has been officiated into official knowledge, in regards to my biological mother and my biological sister having been informed as to the choice of preference being me in comparison regarding such patterns of behaviour found for such situations?



In such regarding memory aspects and as the ways thereof in such sights referencing when I was in #TX #Texas #TexasState Texas after how I wound up in #Washington #WA #WashingtonState Washington state as to the Irving portions, can some see why my biological mother and my biological sister would be severely against me wrongly going towards the direction of the east coast in reference to the aspects of being able to help and assist human beings in comparison? As there is the fact as to those who met my car I named Zippy the #VW VW #Beetle Beetle which looked like a #Bumblebee Bumblebee to me, what references can you see for those who knew/know my biological mother and/or my biological sister in the reference aspects as to the male who had been involved with the Bumblebee movie character as to when going to get help and inform the officials referencing the situations to when the treatments were as such when I was in the state of Texas; if I am hypothetically accurate regarding such portions of the situations previously written about on my website to be verifiable, regarding in the difference of me being a biologically genetically born female to that male character with the Bumblebee car reference to that movie? Can anyone who would possibly see such a reference to certain aspects as to certain other characters in the movie as well as their treatment towards the male character who was friends with Bumblebee and the Transformers in comparison to those who were the enemies to the United States of America and the world, in such references as to the pictures I have posted on my #Instagram Instagram account as seen in the postings of?




The four pictures in the gallery above show different locations of similar types of #UFO #UAP #UFOlogy #UFOlogyNews #NASA #MUFON UFO portions, though a bit of their transformative properties depending upon which lighting is available to capture the pictures and/or videos of. While some might think the specifics are always the same in such regards, there is the ways which the camera lens and camera lenses work to get the pictures of the various portions thereof. While there are the spiritual aspects in the ways of what are known as Faeries and Dragons for such more well known references, such are different than the aspects as to the UFO or Unidentified Flying Objects. In reference to the top left picture compared to the bottom right picture, you are able to notice the extreme similarities to the pictures in other postings as to the Green Dot aspects in smaller frames though due to the distance portions as to the metaphors of underwater photography as to the side mirrors of a vehicle as to the distance as to such portions of the Green Dot pictures and videos able to be seen in various references. In regards as to the specific colorations of the particular #GreenDotUFO #GreenDotUfology #GreenDotUFONews #GreenDotUFOlogyNews Green Dot UFO in the two pictures, the red halo surrounding such is an ability to see an expansion of the actual image of the UFO itself. While the possibilities as to the ways which the light changes the viewpoint as to the bouncing off the physical for the rays of such to shine through, the ways which in the bottom left picture to such with the top left picture in the gallery; you are able to see the ways which the shape of the said UFO can change among the ways of the lights regarding when looking towards such a direction to see such portions with the eyes.



In the references as to the movements being at such a distance as well as the types thereof being similar in some ways though varied when taking in consideration the following set of pictures.



You are able to notice in some ways as to the similarities within the pictures I took and posted on my Instagram account @wwwsusanmeelingcom #wwwsusanmeelingcom to be able to find on Instagram easier, however the reference aspects as to the lighting comparison to the area I grew up in referencing the house and backyard arial view at the time before there was as much light pollution as it is called regarding how many additional bulbs are in the sky for the viewing of the nightscape portions; as the third and fourth pictures are closer to what I remember seeing when growing up at the times in New Jersey in reference to the way the sky looked naturally to me at the times of. Such can additionally be seen through various pictures I have taken of some of which have been posted, though for the references for the initial aspects for such additional noticing with the naked eye compared to having to take with a picture as the cameras in whichever security location may have some images which correlate to others phenomenon that I have taken videos and pictures of as well as others and such referenced in regards of the #Walmart Walmart Film Developing areas and the pictures I had left at the counter when I had paid for my pictures I took and left the ones at the counter for those to find the situations as per knowing other aspects via explanations regarding portions about my Grandpa Gavett.



The lines within some of the pictures from the second portion are able to be noticed in New Jersey as a child though also throughout the United States of America such as during the #BethlehemStar Bethlehem Star the #NorthCarolina #NC #NCState #NorthCarolinaState North Carolina as well as the #Tennessee #TN #TennesseeState Tennessee areas, though also within the areas of Washington state as well as within the #Georgia #GeorgiaState Georgia area.



However while I have noticed such without a camera personally and have not thought to ask if anyone else could see such aspects before, I simply thought others could see that as well until learning more officially because of the amount of people in the #myusa #SanAntonio #SanAntonioTX #SanAntonioTexas #SAPagan San Antonio Pagan as well as the San Antonio #BDSM BDSM/#Swingers Swinger scenes, as to the ways of what connections and involvements to the Excalibur Faire as to my lack of belief in the individuals who had spoken with me about the normalcies as to such and the reasons as to why the lack of discussions in the areas of because of the situations thereof at such times. Whereas I though at the Excalibur Faire now Sherwood Faire in #BastropTX #BastropTexas #Bastrop #Smithville #SmithvilleTX #SmithvilleTexas Bastrop Texas people were only wearing the outfits and being themselves as I was to then learn they were only pretending at the times of the Excalibur Faire of what I learned they call Live Action Role Playing in comparison to just being oneself as I had been told, when the false accusations as to who I am occurred and when speaking with people outside of the Excalibur Faire; I had learned quickly to pay attention as per what occurred at such times, as per the false accusations and the situations thereafter of the whole event. If I felt there were situations when I was involved in other areas of the state of Texas which felt similar to such a time regarding the initial aspects as to the 2005 Excalibur Faire to the San Antonio Pagan community as well as the San Antonio BDSM and the San Antonio Swinger communities being as nonchalant as they were about the various portions I had pointed out as well as seen and defended against during such times before my hairstyle and my hair color to what it is now, I did what I could in the ways which I knew the Bible had discussed as well as other scriptures thereof regarding theological texts as to how such discussions went among those who seemingly might have a knowledge or an understanding for the warnings I could give as per prior descriptions such as the portions of being medically retired from the #USArmy #Army Army because of not graduating Basic Training in the Armed Forces of the United States of America though also with explaining there is not a single military base that is actually ever retired as per the laws which are more well known as eminent domain in various ways as to the lands of the different states as per security protocols which some can find in reference to #HomelandSecurity Homeland Security portions.



I repeat having given that truth to be able to define as such in the open without any hidden meanings, though admitting there was more I was seeing than some were noticing to pay attention to. In a pause to the picture descriptions though going in reference to how many wanted to know what I knew from being born and raised in New Jersey and the tristate area, I had explained multiple aspects as to how my biological mother and my biological sister were in such times from New Jersey to Illinois to the state of Texas as much as I could. What was believed of me during such times compared to what was believed otherwise is for the records of time, referencing such choices and actions thereof among other aspects which in turn referencing film as well as digital pictures I had taken when throughout various areas though more specifically in reference to when after my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury; I do apologize to the Walmart staff and employees thereof in reference to going through all of my pictures I took and only keeping the ones for the 45+ photo albums I had kept for myself in comparison to what pictures I had left, though I feel as though you were able to put a few things together referencing the lights as well as the lines in the various pictures and locations thereof in conjunction to the amounts of which had been left for those who would know to look into such details thereof. While not wanting to cost the company any additional charges for such a development as well as not knowing the laws regarding pictures being taken or pictures being developed as per the timeframe being awake from my coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as well as the comparison to whether I took the pictures or my now dead-ex-husband had used my camera to take pictures, I did hope there would be those who could discern the differences as per if those pictures with the squiggly lines and lights as well as other such portions were illegal at the time I did not want to get into trouble with the law enforcement of the United States of America in my defense as I thought those pictures would get me into trouble from when I was younger as I remembered being yelled at by my biological mother when going over certain information from my Grandpa Gavett when helping him piece a few things together.



In such times as to now in 2021 and though getting to the 20 year memorial to the 11 September 2001 attacks, I suppose the reference to the #Momento Momento movie might be in a way which some could see as to who in such references to the other character in comparison to the male who had a head injury and the tattoos thereof for the ways as to getting answers to fix and repair; albeit in my situation in a bit of a different way, though possibly some ironic twists as to such portions regarding my biological mother as well as my biological sister as to who they had closed their eyes to in comparison to the other way around in reference to the truth. In that turn as to the ways of memories from when I was a child growing up around the tristate area and the locations thereof in conjunction to how I can see at times, the situation referencing my drive from #illinois #IL #IllinoisState Illinois to #IA #Iowa #IowaState Iowa to #IN #Indiana #IndianaState Indiana to #OH #Ohio #OhiopState Ohio aspects as to the references additionally regarding the aspects as to the situation in Indiana regarding the 127 mile per hour law enforcement situation as to such pictures I have taken over the years and decades. In the references thereof to yesterday's posting among a few additional situations, the clarifications as to the Blue Identification Card aspects in the ways thereof for the purposes of the security explained and the different version of a #PR #PublicRelations Public Relations situation as well as the #DC #DamageControl Damage Control portions thereof as best as possible.



If you take a look at the timeframes as per such in reference to MUFON and NASA aspects, what years were a larger number of reporting from those who I did not know existed who believed and knew of some portions thereof to the aspects of extra terrestrials in the ways of? For example in the references reminding you as to the writing portions of coding compared to pictures when I was a child as well as a teenager from the years more-so from before 1987 to the time between 1987-1998, then what is the portions thereof regarding the time when I was not coding or involved with writing in such ways except for the radio station as to Z100 though pictures at such times for those references; while additionally taking into consideration from the years of 1984 through to 1997 of being able to go to the oceanic waters, as to those occurrences for the situational references to align for clarifications and reviewals. Then in such reviews the portions of sightings between 1998 through to the time of when I made the email contact to #Z100 Z100 after waking up from my coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury to the timeframe of when I went to #JCPenney #JCPenneyPortraits JC Penny Portraits for family pictures as per such times for the reference to such sightings in the timeframes of regarding the in-between; though take the equation a bit further as to the timeframe in reference up to getting involved with SCUBA Diving, while also taking into consideration the pictures from film I had developed for the reference aspects to the Blue Identification Card situations as to the clarifications thereof.



Why would if the hypothetical connection can be found to my biological sister and/or my biological mother for such references, why would they prefer one way compared to my way and what can you see in reference to the aspects of my memory situations in the state of Texas after returning from winding up in Washington state, to such other wishes they had for me not to return to the east coast areas as to my memories when taking such views into consideration as well to the ways of the opinions of my biological sister more specifically in the ways of how she had problems with the Armed Forces of the United States of America?



Why would such situations be able to be as such if the ways which were truthful as to their wishes, compared to the truthful aspects in full I had given without any strings attached in the comparison aspects?



As in the perception aspects especially at such times what would they have to lose if anything went sideways compared to what they would have to gain if they were able to keep up their front, in comparison to what would I have to lose if my and as perceptions of me in comparison in the ways as to the values thereof? In the short term? In the long term? In the longer terms? In the longest terms? Who would have the most to lose by all such standards realistically when seeing the value portions as per knowing finances and physical property cannot be taken with you when you go, in such reference aspects? Who would have the situation as to losing the most if the perceptions were fully reviewed in comparison to only what was allowed to be known up to such points if the perceptions could maintain which my biological mother and biological sister hypothetically would have continue wrongly as per their wishes for a free ride, as to who they would see first who would be of such a situation for their intentions comparatively to what they had known had been told to them in truth in that one and only visitation they had been a witness to?



In such references to that situation, when my biological father was at #handbells handbells on Wednesday evening and the three of us were at the house at the time in #NJ #NewJersey New Jersey; the reasons why Anna could not stand seeing Sasha's eyes was what in my opinion had to do with her denial psychologically of the situations which had occurred, from that situation as to the glowing from the direction in that area waypoint towards just a small distance behind though not as far as the babysitting house reference for the overall viewpoint as to the locations thereof. My biological mother as well as my biological sister had similar responses to the area though where my biological mother only had the problems regarding the area from the ground floor-ish point in the bedroom, my biological sister had an issue with the entire backyard area when she finally had to confront the facts on her own when I was given my own room in the jewelry area of the upstairs because of the constant problems. When she had to deal with everything she had tried to deny over the years from that incident, she began to have a psychological breaking and collapse loosing her mind because of the problems which my biological sister had refused to acknowledge such truths as to what they as well as I had been told.



When taking into consideration my meeting with Pastor Broadie at the #RobertsvilleBaptistChurch #RBC Robertsville Baptist Church on Church Road as to the questions I had about the situations in regards of the Bible and accepting Jesus Christ is the one and only saviour for the world, that was around the year of the Vacation Bible School race with the cement blocks and the tires to run through in the parking lot area and backyard of the Pastor's house in the area for additional clarifications for the reference points thereof. While my biological sister refused to accept what had occurred regarding that particular situation as well as others for me, neither her nor my biological mother could accept the fact as to the choices made; which for those who knew my biological mother, biological sister, and my biological father as to the discussions during such times as well as with the reference as to the various situations at such times in regards of me the ability to see such timeline references may be more easily to notice in comparison to when the years were back then in the middle-ish 1990s.



The problems my biological mother and my biological sister had tried to project onto me for their own inabilities to cope with the facts as to what occurred as well as the combined situations thereof before as well as afterwards, are able to be found through various connection points I guesstimate. In the aspects as to when my biological sister had her own room in the backyard area facing of the house when I was moved toward the Northern facing area, she began playing with her porcelain dolls more and telling her porcelain dolls how much more she loved them as well as started arranging them in odd ways which when I had told my biological mother about, she began being more involved with her porcelain clowns which was even more frightening then when initially growing up as I had explained my facing my fears regarding the Sugar Skulls #SugarSkulls modeling with the portions of time regarding Sam Lewis as to how he wanted to make a new design as I was told as to the Sugar Skulls which I thought looked like either clowns or looked as Dios de los Muertes types of facial paint though at the same time because of the ways I saw such and the requirement to do so; when meeting with Sam and Nikki Lewis for the first modeling session regarding the Sugar Skulls, I had told them about the aspects of when I grew up in New Jersey going to #OldTennentPresbyterianChurch #OTC Old Tennent Presbyterian Church as well as what was going on in my life at the timing of while also telling them about my background referencing in brief as to the ways of which the facts of the gravestones regarding the original Death Angel compared to what the pictures of the cherubim type are as well as the ways of why the differences were and always would be important for such clarity.



In a metaphor regarding the situations at the time regarding my daughter as well as my son and I in the combinations within the state of Texas and the timeframe after the 11 September 2001 attacks and following events thereof, I had told Sam and Nikki Lewis that people in the time had thought more of a prettier aspect regarding how death actually is and the problems which such causes from the cherubim ones who wished death would be less gruesome had been a situation which was causing needless problems. When an individual chooses to deny the truthful aspects of something as simple of a fact of life as death, hat else is that individual failing to be honest about in other references? If someone wishes to cover up the actualities with the manipulation of the images taken compared to the truthful portions as to such aspects, what else of such areas are being hidden which need to be brought forward into the light for the actual truthful knowledge for understanding of? When taking into consideration as to the ways which my son and my daughter and I were treated by my biological mother and my biological sister in the areas more specifically in San Antonio as well as Austin Texas to their friends and their associations, what similarities can be seen in the references to the acceptances in truth of the realities of compared to the wishes which were only wishes compared to how the word weak also begins with the same letter and we wish you as per how much my biological mother and my biological sister love that Christmas song for such aspects of metaphorical portions for the reviewals of.



How many heard either one or both combined almost similar to the Siamese Cats from #Disney Disney's Lady and the Tramp movie the words of We Wish You and can think of how the song for the Siamese Cats to such words as to the ways which such had occurred referencing the aspects as to the hypotheticals as to my biological mother and my biological sister, though since my biological sister married into the Miller family in the state of Texas; who would be able to notice anything within the state of Texas and the name of Miller in multiple locations and areas thereof, depending upon which areas are looked into for seeing such aspects as to also hearing the we wish you portions to the metaphor proverbial aspects as to the Siamese Cat song to the Christmas song of We Wish You?



For clarification to the DEA and Medical Professionals in reference to the MMJ aspects, I have not added any MMJ to my system regarding in any format since the initial posting of using the MMJ for the clear portions for the details for the realistic needs for such clarifications for the ways of such words and metaphors regarding the references to assist explaining as best as I can. Nonetheless in such ways as to how I can see though the ways to be able to explain such at times are difficult admittedly, hopefully the portions as to the aspects of clarifying can assist the aspects for the medical portions of Medical Marijuana compared to the aspects of the recreational portions additionally taking into consideration the timing from being involved personally with using and being around handbells for such pain level references to such additional needless discomfort to such portions. While the reality of which the maintenance to the apartment complex is required per such portions and while I did not give any warnings nor explanations to anyone within the state of Washington as per the altitude changes so quickly for me as well as the being above the Mason-Dixon Line in an area I had not ever been that I can remember before though has similar plants to the area where I was born and raised in, additionally to my apologies to Walmart for the photography development situations as well as such portions as to the invading which occurred because of some from the state of Texas as per however such situations had gone in the ways thereof via proof of whether truth was spoken or if drama was stirred; at minimum being involved with the transfer as to being able to clarify before any such portions as to the opposite of the ways which Washington state area had gone, the ability to ensure the transparent aspects additionally in such clarifying ways in the overall to such aspects included in "The Modern Day Book By: Reverend Susan MeeLing" to the Finding books as well for such hypothetical connections.



In turn the aspects as to after that one visitation which both my biological mother and my biological sister had been with me at the time, the situations regarding a metaphor to the male from the mechanic area of Jim M'Lady #Oldsmobile Oldsmobile, #Isuzu Isuzu, #Nissan Nissan and the painting of the word HOE onto the back windshield of the car I drove at the timeframe of as to the 1986 #Dodge Dodge Grand Caravan at the time in 1999 as to the ironies in metaphors differently. One can review the portions as to the Do Or Die Garage Experiment to the acronym of which my biological sister was born in the year of 1986 ironically, which the beige with wood paneling can be reviewed however such in the regards as to the symbolism and the aspects of the word itself in other such references as to males having used the paint to put onto that Grand Caravan vehicle; however such portions as to the state of Texas upon my biological sister's move to the area, and the first week of her time in high school as to such possibilities possibly found and/or seen in other regards as to such a situation. Symbolically from what is out there, of course. In turn the amount of porcelain dolls she had loved so much and played with all the time in that area of the house especially after when she was forced to deal with the facts of that area and seeing the reminisce of the glowing which her psychological breaking began to slowly shatter before whenever the burst would go through and the final portions of the psychological collapsing and breaking of my biological sister would occur, had been ignored repeatedly over the times as I had warned which the situations of which rarely had my biological father noticed such though only when he was able to get away from both of those two females to evaluate for himself over a bit of time. He was able to get that briefly-ish in reference to the situations regarding when my biological mother flew out from #Newark Newark Airport and saw my response regarding the car collision I had informed to Toll Booth Teller for the collision to be able to get help to the situation, as well as in reference to the #LacklandAirForceBase #JBSA #MilitaryCityUSA Lackland Air Force Base carnival situation which I had pushed for my son and my daughter to get onto the Tea Cup ride as I handed my camera bag and my purse to my biological father to get assistance through running to a situation involving the bounce house and the string attachments at the timing of to get the children out of the areas before the full collapse as best as I could. Just in time to see my son and my daughter able to leave the Tea Cup ride to run into my arms for a hug, I was able to get my camera and my purse back to be able to go onward for the day without anyone else noticing as I thought.



However in such a sarcastic joke I suppose can be made, just as I have been able to take pictures and videos of the aspects thereof in reference to this journal blog entry as well as other pictures and videos I have taken whether via film and/or digital aspects as to the Unidentified Flying Objects as well as other energetic frequency situations whether of the spiritual realms or what-have-you. I suppose for such a sarcastic comment joke-ish, there were a few cameras which may have caught images of me during that time possibly around the year of 2006 at the Air Force Base Military Police Station area; to which I was not officially informed of any warnings given to my biological mother as to what occurred in the year of 2005 as I would not ever risk breaking such a code in the regards of security, if that had been an issued aspects which she had chosen to ignore and fail to tell the truth for such aspects. As the timing of 2006 to the timing of 2005 comparatively in reference to the ability to look within my military and medical records for/of the Armed Forces of the United States of America would have been completely sealed off from anyone and everyone who did not have any official reasons to ever look for such information or aspects thereof. In such proof I would guesstimate as per when sending out to the #LibraryofCongress Library of Congress had been the first time anyone was able even with higher into the highest clearances of various ranking structures was ever able to begin to find some of the portions regarding my military and my medical records of/for the United States of America's Armed Forces, because of the red flags which were hypothetically initiated in the timeframe of my son's birth and/or just earlier in reference to my ex-in-laws who were from Georgia at the time as per the glowing situation as per those who may have noticed if hypothetically accurate regarding the initial activations of the Blue Identification Cards at such times for/of the Armed Forces of the United States of America. If accurate that glowing beacon seen when activated is not able to be explained nor able to be seen to others without such an identification or specific type of clearance aspects with whichever backgrounds being of minimal concern for such regards though in the initial aspects thereof, to which the reference aspects as to the MEPS station as well as other such proven portions as to the posting yesterday for other such aspects of clarification purposes for the assistances though also the non-transferrable aspects in the ways clarified.



In such references as to scanning as well as the aspects as to technology fitbit portions as to the reference aspects to picking up or touching a Blue Identification card without the permission of whose identification card it is, such portions as to the technological aspects as to the assistances some may have been able to notice in other technology sectors as to additional information as to the portions thereof being more capable to be found as well as depending upon the situation certain glitches are removed from the programming software for the ease of access comparatively in various aspects outside of the facts regarding Dr. Kerry in 2003 regarding his searches and length of time after having to get my personal permission to be able to even begin to look into such portions. In turn the aspects as to it being known by whomever in such references as to the official clarifications of the United States Space Force being declared official by #POTUS #POTUS45 POTUS45 Donald J Trump and administration aspects thereof to the comparison of the Lackland Air Force Base 4th of July situation of being able to see me in the locations at such times though also the clearance aspects thereof, the situation regarding the one visitation my biological mother and my biological sister and I had been encountered by such beings and their choice thereof compared to the wishes as per such other aspects might be more clearly able to be defined and seen in such regards as to the true requirement for transparency in transmissions regarding the social media sectors. The requirement for further explanations is per going through the proper etiquette of the measures to request further explanations if needed or if in the situation which I am in regarding the clarifications thereof while having already reached out though knowing of the need to make my way to various locations, once the timing is correct for such; though also in reference to the aspects as to the writing online portion to the coding aspects. When taking into consideration as to how many sighting in comparison to when I had wound up in Washington state as well as the lesser number of pictures posted in reference to me as well as my son and my daughter in the various areas of the social media sectors I had been involved with personally to the reference additionally of #Irving #IrvingTX #IrvingTexas Irving with my #SCUBA #SCUBADiving #SCUBADiver SCUBA Diving portions as per such aspects, how could some view the portions of the number of sightings compared to the aspects some might wish I did not write as much though the requirements thereof able to be noticed and/or seen for such reference portions as to such sightings thereof? Adding the situations involving the #electionintegrity election integrity aspects, possibly some can see different portions as to the requirements for making sure I go through each detail with a fine toothed comb as best as I can wish as much details as possible allowed for the ways to clarify such aspects as to the safety and security for the knowledge and the understandings thereof to which in different ways as to the technology aspects to the transmissions thereof.



Whereas my biological sister had not been willing to discuss what occurred in the backyard sighting situation and chose to go on a path which the lying that occurred repeatedly was beyond measures even for the area I was walking around as a child in certain combinations thereof when taking a look into such viewpoints, however the time in the southern room when she was alone in the area as I was in the North; she was forced to take every single portion into view as she no longer had the ability to blame me for what she had seen as well as she could no longer deny what those beings had told her about the ways as to the choice thereof having been me from the beginning and her inability to cope with the facts at such times, she began to act outwardly and involved others to do what she was incapable of doing herself which when after the move to Illinois because of the voices from the porcelain dolls she named after her friends at the time getting into her head as to what she was fighting as to having been told already, the aspects as to her reference of It's A Small World regarding New Jersey had begun in such a metaphor. Every time our biological mother wound up the clowns after the room separation she ran to her porcelain dolls for their coldened comfort as per the ways which porcelain dolls are not stuffed animals, and the songs being played began to drive her to madness and insanity in that room. Following as I would guesstimate in regards of #CrystalLake #CrystalLakeIL #CrystalLakeIllinois #CLS #CLSHS Crystal Lake South High School in Illinois when the portions as to her having to take responsibility for her actions and her choices after the 11 September 2001 attacks as to whatever she had said to others and/or posted online about my in regards to any portion at all, the situations hypothetically were a similar situation though different regarding the location as well as the people and the ages thereof.



After the point in 2002 after the New Year's Eve party with Dee and a few people who knew Jimmy from #AmericanIdol American Idol where they were informed as to how badly the situations were both immediately before as well as immediately after moving out to Illinois from New Jersey from multiple angles and ways of sight including having met my now dead-ex-husband and knowing of him spending time with my biological sister which they would know as to how such had gone for the verifications thereof to her having been with him in that way in 2002, the fact of running away to Texas to try to escape what she could not escape from New Jersey in Illinois just as from both New Jersey and Illinois to Texas, at minimum I did the best I could to warn as many people as I could about how she had been and what she was as per situations which were/are factual and able to be proven in truth as per the phone calls always having been recorded on landlines before ever becoming cordless which is obviously before the cellphone aspects.



In turn the aspects additionally to the facts as to having already explained the #rave rave and #Brackenridge Brackenridge situation to the additional portions as to my Article 15 for not knowing beer was considered alcohol with my Company Commander having been named in reality Captain Beer as to the underage portions of having to be 21 years old biologically, I had also informed others on #FortSamHouston Fort Sam Houston in Medical Hold Unit before #WarriorTransitionUnit #WTU Warrior Transition Unit as to the realities of all phonelines having been recorded on a military installation which meant anywhere a military installation is there is the automatic monitoring of the phone calls. While some phone areas are monitored and only checked here and there if needed, there are other situations where there is a 24/7 monitoring of all such phone lines. In turn I thought others knew of such aspects regarding phone lines of any type when having to pay the electricity bills or the water usage bills as per the ways seeing the portions of the calculations regarding the specifics for the charges, to which I thought others saw such a sign regarding the phone call portions as per the ways to the names of the cellphone plans with such crossover metaphors which in turn the Blue Identification Card aspects and the clarification portions as to the situations referencing the transmission aspects in a more clear and concise way. In reference to the aspects regarding the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as well as others having had a head injury before me as well as others having had a head injury after me, the portions to which such clarifications additionally can be seen as to the need for such clarifications and requirements thereof in the ways which the wording portions as to the situations I deal with over the years.



In the portions of what timing after how I wound up in Washington state as well as the #GeekSquad GeekSquad situation to the accidental warranty aspects as to the timeframe in 2013 and the minimal online portions here and there compared to what I had once been writing which is more close to what I write more often as per the current times though upon returning to Texas in 2019, the aspects as to having prepared to author books while also writing online was known and in the works as per prior to Irving situation aspects. In turn the twisted irony as to the amount of writing in such combinations to the technology aspect in comparison to ever having pictures of myself online as just myself in comparison to with others such as my son and my daughter, in such references to the automated technology for the additional portions as to the pictures and videos regarding the #GreenDot #GreenDotUFO Green Dot and the #TicTac #TicTacUFO Tic Tac situations; how do such timeline of aspects in sightings align, in the ways thereof in such variances? For those who have paid more attention to my modeling the actual answer is my writing has been more well known by far than what I physically look as though because of the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as well as the situations as my reasons for my tattoos in all such portions thereof compared to what details I could go into of such connections to the memories or I suppose only going over certain memories regarding the specifics as well as the locations thereof, the technological portions have known of such of me far longer in such ways which in the aspects as to what occurred to how I wound up in Washington state and the such aligned portions thereof previously written about to this journal blog entry; the ways of which in a different way as to bringing forward the possibility of modeling as per the requirements regarding the verification processes, which those in software companies and design would know a version thereof for such portions.



As the situation in reference to the pictures and videos when I was in the state of Texas as well as other situations though more-so in reference for this aspects in the timeframe within Texas at the rallies for the timing of the 2020 election cycle, the election integrity and the fact checking portions for such symbolic portions are more known regarding the current point in time of the year in 2021 with the 20 year memorial from the attacks of 11 September 2001 being 15 days away from now for the posting. In such reference aspects as to the ways which certain professions and employments have needed a clarifying when as many documentaries about other portions in which only certain aspects have been referenced and yet the portions about the Police Officers #oliceofficers regarding #lawenforcement law enforcement situations have been more well known recently to see, the aspects as to the counter balancing of such aspects already having been seen in reference from the Vietnam War timeframe to the current timeframe as to the ways which bringing such forward in the proper ways for the clarifications of for the genuine fact checking as well as the integrity for the knowledge of such portions of various jobs beyond only one or two movies of specific types and certain details to such aspects regarding the #USSpaceForce #UnitedStatesSpaceForce #SpaceForce United States Space Force aspects of official portions regarding extra terrestrial aspects within the #MilkyWayGalaxy Milky Way Galaxy as well as throughout the universe to be able to step forward in the ways as to best assist such portions for the clarifications thereof as how social media has been additionally regarding the general population.



In the additional aspects as to wondering why the #PADI PADI Junior Seal SCUBA Diver Program was not more widely available in the public school system and only recently have learned as to mainly only beginning in college is when SCUBA Diving certification classes have been instituted compared to back in the year of 2009 officially seeing such portions and wondering why as to such for as many certifications as are available through different types of SCUBA Diving certification cards thereof such as PADI and #NAUI NAUI as well as #SSI SSI with #NOAA NOAA, I was confused as to that the purposes were as to that lack of involvement in the ages for which were or are in the elementary as well as middle school into high school age ranges and yet the ways as to having child swimming classes in the SCUBA Diving shop seemed odd to me for such a combination to occur. While I had discussed with Patti Stewart about my son and my daughter getting involved with the Junior SEALs SCUBA Diving class when they were older in a few years to then in 2009, though also the school if there were willing individuals to such; I was ignored regarding the time of discussing that aspect as to living in Carrollton Texas compared to wherever Patti Stewart had lived as a possibility referencing certain types of children in certain types of households as to those types of behaviours which have been wrongly allowed by some parents when they knew and know their child(ren) had completely done something wrong though wish to blame it on someone else because of their parent's money or their trust fund accounts to which those times were intended to come to an end as per other situations which were put into place because of the ways which such individuals have had problems long before the general public was able to have the technology portions. For those who can review such look at the type of people who were first brought forward when technology became available for the elitists in the higher echelons of society to when the current times are for those who have been caught on camera, in such references to see the connecting metaphor in such alignments as to seeing how many portions of the recording in the proverbial akashic records has actually been going on in comparison to other such aspects of thoughts for the timing thereof. In the aspects to the length of time regarding the aspects thereof to the ways which some reviewals can be looked into regarding the connected aspects thereof similarly to a different way to the back tracing as to the portions regarding the situations, as explained in reference to my biological sister's patterns of behaviours over such points in time in the ways thereof.



For example in reference to the time in 1997 how was she acting when she had been informed before I had been informed as to the move to Illinois from New Jersey, from those who recall from those years comparatively? From the point in time when she learned or had demanded to move from Crystal Lake Illinois to the state of Texas in regards to those who knew my biological sister, what similarities in personality traits thereof can be seen in reference to the moving portion? In that same reference to Crystal Lake Illinois to those within the state of Texas during the years when I was in a different state location as to the behaviours thereof noticed and seen, which aspects are similar to the ways my biological sister has chosen to conduct herself while also how has she been in reference to relationships of whichever type regarding such timeframe similarities? In turn regarding the transfer process and the time thereafter, what similar patterns of behaviour can be seen and noticed to such prior examples of patterns of behaviour? How has her in person been in comparison to her online presence in comparison, to the various stents in time? Has only certain problems arisen and how so in such references as to the ways which my biological sister's patterns of behaviour to when she has to deal with the in person compared to the online person, and how could such election integrity aspects be crucially relevant referencing the ways some people have chosen to use technology to the aspects as to the clarifications and clearing of such situation at this point in time to the 11 September 2001 memorial from the 20 year point?



I remember the time when seeing the glowing in the area explained was around the year of 1993 or 1994 or 1995 regarding the meeting portion though had seen them multiple times before personally, though because my biological sister had demanded such a meeting they had told her it was a one time only card for her. In such a way which my biological mother wanted to have more of a choice regarding the meeting of such, they had explained as to their choice for the path of human beings to survive and live onward to prosper in the correct ways and mannerisms appropriate for the spacial travels to which were coming far too quickly at such a time. Whereas some had believed my biological mother and biological sister during those times as they had already denied the aspects as to my visions over the years up to that point in time, there was not the way for the truth to come out without me getting more specifically involved though the ways as to out-speak as well as the portions as to outlast the situations to be able to actually explain such defenses as to the ways which had been during such times when living with those people. My childhood regarding all of the work and chores I had to do while my biological sister and my biological mother lived it up with the ways of such affording financially comparatively, there were many reasons why they pushed me to the side for their version of the spotlight. When it came to the situation as to the pictures referencing such in different ways as to the distance and the brightness thereof the UFO back then in New Jersey, I remember wearing a colonial style long sleeve nightgown with lace on the sleeves and somewhere else with a pattern of smaller roses throughout the nightgown when it occurred.



The time afterwards to such the rumors which were spread by my own biological sister and my own biological mother because of their envy regarding the choice made and was officiated fully as to the choice as Bok Pu had already informed of the choice, my biological mother and my biological sister had a crack which in both portions of their psyche in my opinion because they were as they were the ways which they refused to accept the reality was going to be a problem if they did not just accept reality. In regards as to what occurred referring to the anointing processes with different oils and herbs they had in a different suitcase or atache case than I had seen at the times of, was an odd experience to put mildly. When inside later my biological sister complained that I had been touched in comparison to her which she ran to her porcelain dolls and cried into their lifeless vessels of which the clowns in the first floor area started winding up as she cried, which additionally had been a problem I had with those porcelain clowns as to the freakiness to such coinky dinks as the song was send in the clowns for those porcelain clowns and the music thereof comparatively to when I had gotten a boombox and was when I was able to have my own room finally.



While my biological sister's mentality and emotional state began to dwindle and shatter before her eyes, she started bringing up situations to which she convinced others to lie to protect her thinking they would actually remain loyal to her if they were ever questioned outside of where she had been. The situations which occurred to me began what she started trying to claim for herself though was unable to prove such because of those who were not as well known able to verify the specifics of, which as the lies in New Jersey began to fall down my biological sister began to lose her mind. When in reference to learning about the move from New Jersey to Illinois the night of my what was supposed to be my Sweet 16 turned into my Bon Voyage party, to which because of the situations I could not discuss the upset within my heart because of the ways which New Jersey was in the 1990s and the fact as to the tri-township area I grew up in as to how quickly such gossip would make its way around. For such viewpoints in reference to the viral aspect as to the internet now, that was in person back in the 1980s and the 1990s; which protection laws had begun to be put into place because of to what level certain people were seen to have responded to such individuals when they were out living their lives. In such references as to what later is more well known as to the #PrincessDiana Princess Diana situation regarding because of how certain people had chosen to be about pictures of various royalty and/or celebrity aspects the ways which certain laws and regulations began to start moving forward for the protections of because of the ways which certain situations had gone. The situations as to the Blue Identification Cards as to such portions in a way which could be noticed in reference to multiple aspects thereof, is a different situation though along similar lines regarding how certain situations have arisen from such aspects. As I have acknowledged to having sent my books to various individuals, groups, and businesses; there is one particular individual which it seemed there was a requirement for the aspects as to send such for the awareness for the protection portions thereof. While fully capable of physically defending himself in my thoughts the only reference I could give as a proverbial situation is how many toddlers, do you think you can truthfully handle?



A brief clarification, I am not aware to ever having met anyone from the Vigilance Elite show or episodes as this is of my own free will as per the ways which I reference others' writings to give the credits as per the assistance to be able to explain points of views as to what I am writing about. While I do not always have the prettiest situations to refer to regarding various aspects thereof, the situations in the combinations thereof are or were as they are or were. Though for the clarifications thereof in the just in case any of such were ever in any location I was ever nearby, the ways as to the technology portions as to being within a certain proximity for such portions to clear up all such situations as best as possible due to such triangulation portions as well as the aspects as to other prior quotations and/or links to the websites themselves and/or references through the hashtags as per the ways which certain aspects have gone the individual separation as to the specifics thereof to be able to determine which is who has been important for awhile at this point in reference to the technology version of time in comparison to the linear version of time human beings are more aware of and accustomed to. When in reference to a prior meeting before my Grandpa Gavett had died as I was once able to ask him for the clarifications of such encounters, the explanations as was told to me were for me to explain as best as I could in ways which others would be able to know to understand.



Some thought growing up in New Jersey in the 1980s was rough, think about that set of situations to add on top of such portions for a moment. It worked out when I was younger though as I did not speak much to begin with as per the ways such was in the house I grew up in, which I did the best I could to make sure I asked my son and asked my daughter individually as well as together when they were younger if they had anything they needed or wanted to talk with me about as often as I could to make sure I gave them the opportunity I did not have as when I was growing up in a multitude of ways as per how situations had been regarding the rumors and the ostracizing which happened extremely quickly when I went into kindergarten because of being 4 years old when everyone else was already 5 years old or turning 6 years old because of the change in the precinct lines earlier and the change of the dates for the birthday to begin kindergarten which in turn because of being in the year which that switchover occurred I was one of only a small group of children whose birthday was considered as being younger when the school year started as I began kindergarten in 1986. I suppose I could repeat a sarcastic commentary from above in this posting in regards of that wording on the 1986 Dodge Grand Caravan, though the point has been made in such references. However in such regards as to the adult consenting lifestyle as to the ways which some such as my biological sister and my biological mother have viewed as well as commented about the worth of only certain specific groups and types of employment regarding individuals of the Armed Forces of the United States of America's branches and divisions thereof in comparison to how such in reference to myself, the aspects as to the ways which my biological sister rebelled to the point of in her complaints about the Armed Forces of the United States of America and the job aspects as to finding a police officer on the local level of the state of Texas though connected to a political and/or business associated family in the Miller last name as I was informed of later on.



As Vigilance Elite has brought forward several points in reference to the situations regarding how some individuals Sean has interviewed regarding such, he has been able to find a multitude of situations which once is a situation and twice is a coinky dink though three times is a pattern; which in such patterns of behaviour and finding the aspects as to the multiple connection points thereof, the ways to which the situations which had been noticed in the San Antonio community as well as the DFW community regarding the adult consenting lifestyle. In turn sending the first two books to Rob O'Neill after listening to a news report on Fox News as per the feelings I picked up in various aspects as to something which caught my ear about a restaurant and what I remembered from New Jersey about the fur coats situations as well as the Princess Diana situation, admittedly I did not think about the location of the state of Montana to the state of Washington with such distance aspects to my Medal of Honor Art Project; however I figured he was and is smarter than to jump to a conclusion as to such aspects unless he was informed by people who once knew me as well as such biologicals to my children, which in turn I guesstimate at this point as to the possibilities as to what rumors were perpetuated needlessly and which truths were actually informed of though if ever he can tell me himself if ever to meet. Nonetheless the portions as to what I picked up energetically I have explained to which if accurate as to per the ways which #VigilanceElite Vigilance Elite has brought forward in other interviews as well as #MikeDrop MikeDrop episodes among others in different arenas of life, admittedly having not thought of my own safety regarding anyone ever finding out about my Medal of Honor Art Project as I figured one small website in the massive aspects as to the internet seemed minimal to anyone really looking into me and what I was doing. I figured when I had gotten to the point of when needed I would be spoken with in truth and asked of such being officially informed as to the agency associated to such as per protocol aspects I thought were in pace referencing the aspects as to such a specific type of project for artwork, as per the specifics required through such prior situations I thought had already been established for the situations thereof. However if such had not been realized in reference to Rob O'Neill receiving the first two books for such types of employments associated with that particular aspect beyond what I learned about in reference to #ChrisKyle Chris Kyle in the state of Texas the same year as to a few other situations at the time which such ironies in different ways, possibly the feeling they did not know how many situations regarding even just within the state of Texas were as such as per the veteran population as well as the Active Duty/National Guard/Reservists who are inspired by such aspects.



Though in turn while such as #RobONeill Rob O'Neill and living Medal of Honor recipients to the aspects of which had been known in part as to the ways some people have problems unless a certain checked box proverbially is met, the ways which some view such individuals at the same exact time because of knowing some of the training though needing to remember they are still human beings and just as all human beings need a bit of time for themselves and need a way to be able to be themselves the portions as to certain expectations of some individuals can be heard in the Eminem song The Way I Am as to certain situations also seen in the music video by Ludacris intro though not in the radio song as to the song Get Back as to the concern I had felt was important for such individuals such as Vigilance Elite as well as living Medal of Honor recipients as well as such individuals as Rob O'Neill and others for such portions to what I had noticed in New York City as well as areas when reading the Sunday newspaper as well as standing in the lines regarding the checkout areas as to the Paparazzi sorts of situations in the #People #PeopleMagazine People Magazine covers.



Being a Mom simply just kicked into overdrive regarding the "Finding A Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing" and "Finding The Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing" of which since I had already had the feelings in reference despite the situations as to how I wound up in Washington state as well as the electrical portions among the memory issues, as to a different reference in the metaphorical portions as to the piece of paper regarding what I could feel referencing how my biological sister and my biological mother had been in a few references as as to the paper. As I was able to have a way into seeing a way to do what protective portions I could from if I was accurate as to the situations regarding my 4th of July 2013 email to my biological mother and how she was known to be in reference to stirring up my biological sister, as when the situations regarding the phone call Matt West heard after I had brought him back to life at the timing after the driving from San Antonio Texas to Arlington Texas area referencing what I picked up on and felt he needed help with; he had heard the phone call regarding what my biological mother said knowing I had signed the official paperwork beginning the official steps in the legal relinquishment to my biological daughter though still always being a Mom which how could my biological sister hurt me the most, other than causing problems to my son and my daughter when she figured out I was correct the whole time as she learned how inept she actually had been and as per the day she complained about the military guys taking what she thought was her job and the same situation as to when in reference to the New Jersey visitation started happening I would guess there are those who can review such a time in which the patterns of the proverbial green eyed monster began stirring up again in her. I warned as many people in person as I could warn about my biological sister, which in turn when in Washington state and knowing I had sent the email to our biological mother as to her email to me; I knew Lackland Air Force Base's situation as to 2005 was the smallest portions, as to how that situation could go.



In turn while despite the ways which situations were as such during the times of in the combined aspects in fuller ways, the only thing which seemed good enough to be able to save who could be saved when the same biological mother who had been a part of the interrogation with my biological father inside of San Antonio; I figured the safest thing I could think of when learning about the IRS paperwork, was to do so in such ways as to the ability to get as many squared away for that aspects of safety when told of. I knew my biological sister would use her married into family for all of the additional purse strings as per the way she and my biological mother had been in reference to the tristate area and my biological father's debts being called in with her and his sister Linda, which those debts owed were still collected in the end for clarifications as per the ways I was informed all debts owed were paid in full when called for despite the backtalk. Though I was not informed as to how such debts were paid in full, I know there was not a mortgage payment for the house in Illinois and I know there was a full mortgage payoff with the full value of the property as well for such debts during the time being paid in full from what I was informed of later when they were in San Antonio Texas in my San Antonio house backyard. In the knowledge as to the software coding as well as the other aspects as to the ways which my biological mother and biological sister were at such prior times as well as their wishes for me to stay away from the east coast in fear of my memory returning to inform correctly as to why in various aspects, when the GeekSquad situation to the accidental warranty situation occurred there was not any way for me to stand by even from above on the map location to the different locations of the states in reference to getting the word to though in a covert sort of way as per knowing how they have been in the past in person. I knew they would not see the portions as to the books and especially to the Library of Congress as well as how businesses have to be filed with the birthday and with the legal names for such times as to registering my books with the Library of Congress with my legal first as well as my legal middle name in the titles thereof, for the additional backup sources for the legal rights to always remain as mine even if the business name went as it had as per the Civil War portions already brought forward as well as the Superman comic book legal ruling in conjunction. When that reality in full hit with all such other clarifications as to my health and my well being as well as the clear portions of my medical and the portions of what is allowed to be known as to my military aspects as to the Blue Identification Card for/of the Armed Forces of the United States of America as those two had gone snooping as they have been known to do and I would guesstimate have been caught by others as to their snooping though the claim initially of not knowing to then the claim of confusion as to why you would be upset they were in the area to the next claim of them looking for something in that are to the next claim of someone else told them to go there though the actualities later found out as to not having been told and so on and so forth as to those two's patterns of behaviour, which again should be able to be found in multiple regards as to such.



The combined knowledge of the marriage into the #Miller Miller family within the state of Texas in the older area of Austin communities knowing the sight of old money as per the ways I was raised and who I was introduced to over the years thereof as well as who I was taught by as well as who I had helped to teach which classes as per the being 4 years old in kindergarten and 5 years old in 1st grade to 6 years old in 2nd grade and so on as to my intelligence levels to a degree before my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury because of the required standardized test for placement in the 1980s, I could esily see my biological mother and my biological sister calling in their own favors from such individuals to call in their own favors and running out of such favors in the ways thereof to owing quite a few whomever such few would be. I did not know it would take a head injury to figure out when my biological mother, biological sister, and my biological father joked about me being a Victim of Child Abuse as well as them having named my stuffed animal as a Victim of Child Abuse to who that actually would reference in a dual sort of way when taking into consideration several aspects as to what I was doing the best I possibly could to keep my daughter as well as my son safe in reference to the situations after the #FWZoo #FortWorthZoo Fort Worth Zoo in #CFBISD Carrollton Farmer's Branch Independent School District through #McCoyElementary McCoy Elementary School the same month as my biological sister' abomination of a wedding to the male who was offended because of the command to take off his sunglasses and take off his cover when speaking with me, regarding the first meeting with the local law enforcement individual who worked at a nearby correction facility to the San Marcos Texas area as I was told referencing Zach/Zachary/Zachariah Miller; of which some know how there have been situations which the local and state police officers have needed to remember their training and the ways they work are from the Armed Forces of the United States of America's Military Police training, when taking several aspects into account.



While he might have been lied to about me regarding my biological mother and/or my biological father though definitely through my biological sister lying, as per her wishes to overtake the state of Texas the ways she had seen in movies as well as television shows. However the ways which Susan Ross a pommie who had been awarded the ham award at the Crystal Lake Beauty Pageant who was the same female I referred to regarding the gym class as well as who refused to believe me when I told her I did not want to be a cheerleader just as she refused to believe me about the forced situation regarding the beauty pageant as well as other such situations as per her telling the high school police officer as to the situations she assumed regarding what she claimed to have known about the people from New Jersey, for such additional clarifications as to how some people know what level certain types of people get in reference to #BeautyPageant beauty pageant competitions I would guess. Then add the pommie situation for such additional hypotheticals to the other aspect of me being cast as Maiden Marion in the Robin Hood play which her friend Becky who also was on the #Varsity Varsity pommie squad who had to make the dance routine for when in the play, and how could such overdramatic high school type situations be a situation which some could hypothetically find quite a bit more for such connection portions thereof regarding the bitterness as to others making a choice which I was not a part of though the ways to being in the situation and how such situations went during such times which had needed and needs to be stopped as per the larger safety portions thereof regarding the ways which such transmissions if such situations in reference to the social media aspects thereof to the other connectionary points additionally. However I had warned my biological sister about how certain situations were at Crystal Lake South High School which I refused and kept refusing to be a part of as to seeing much further, which she had refused to believe me until she learned for herself in full.



When the discussions occurred about how I told her not to assist cheating on with a spouse as she had as well as at the same time of telling her that the military personnel who had the background and the training for the forensic major as she wanted to go out into the field, I told her she was out of her league compared to what background and training as well as experience to such individuals compared to her and those similar to her in my opinion. The situations as to how such unfolded as per the ways I had done what I could to warn as many as I could, have turned out as such has gone regarding such warnings. The email from my biological mother on the 4th of July in 2013 after already been told as to having to disarm my own daughter from the firearm she was holding that she took from an #MP #MilitaryPolice MP's holster when at Fort Sam Houston #BAMC BAMC/#SAMC SAMC Emergency Room among the other situations which she tried to convince me to give up and I refused as to do the best I possibly could for both my son and my daughter, I knew my email response of informing her of all such independences from all such connections to her and hers were in a nutshell within that email as per the relinquishing of ever being involved with such portions as to my biological mother and my biological sister especially with such references to how I knew such situations were occurring whether they were to admit to me or not there was the knowledge all would fully be revealed in such timing as per the ways which Irving situations and what other aspects thereof had already been foretold of the portions. In turn the ways which to fix and repair was going to be mandatory and fully required as per the multitude of situations in the fuller aspects, to which such portions of which Rob O'Neill had to be sent such books.



I did have a bit of a moment when those books were returned to me, though I knew he had received my message though would require a further explanation. I knew he would have military guys around him who would be able to actually give military portions of what the aspects were to reading such in reference to those first two books, as I knew there had to be others who could see the signs of such portions in various timeframes to which they would be able to get themselves squared away while helping others to get taken care of as I knew when hearing who became POTUS45 Donald J Trump was running for the Republican Nominee for the President of the United States of America. However I also knew there were many who did not believe me in person when in reference to the various discussions in "Finding A Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing" as well as "Finding The Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing" over the years I knew who I knew, which I hoped there would be those who would be able to see such patterns to correctly assemble the pieces referencing such aspects while keeping themselves safer from such portions in the ways which possible. The portions as to the aspects of the pictures and videos I have taken in the regards as to this particular journal blog entry of such types, it is normal for me to see such aspects in the various ways thereof in the pictures and images to a degree. Irving is an extremely different example as to what I have seen in comparison and the situation regarding when at The Sanctuary in 2013 in the back smoking section area as to the bright light and the sound of the train with the helicopter sounds, that was extremely different than the Irving situation. However back in New Jersey there was talk about an earthquake which occurred in some point in the 1990s, which I was confused as to not having heard an earthquake that evening though having heard a different sound and the lights thereof as it was a big deal in the school bus ride to either #Marlboro #MarlboroNJ #MarlboroNewJersey #MarlboroTownship #MarlboroMiddleSchool #MMS Marlboro Middle School or #SJV #SJVHS #SaintJohn #SaintJohnVianney #SaintJohnVianneyHighSchool Saint John Vianney High School as I honestly cannot recall which bus ride that particular discussion occurred on if there was not a dual situation during such times as to such portions.



In some ways there are aspects which admittedly due to the electrical portions when writing in such notebooks to hand over to Mrs. Catherine Caramel in #TempleBethHatfiloh #TempleBethHatfilohOlympia #TempleBethHatfilohOlympiaWA #Olympia #OlympiaWashington #OlympiaWA #TBHOW Temple Beth Hatfiloh in Olympia Washington, as to the aspects as to the crossing of information to clear up such additional aspects as to the ways which may have been noticed regarding the time as to assimilating back to the energies within the state of Texas before really going out to meet with anyone as per the electrical portions as to the zapping for such references. Though hopefully the majority of such aspects in addition to the handwritten letters mailed to the various locations of people for such portions as well as the drop offs in other locations of paperwork as well as for such copying to have for the records thereof in the various ways as to the copy machines such a #Xerox Xeroxes in #FedEx Fed Ex and/or #Kinkos Kinkos and/or #UPS UPS and/or #OfficeMax Office Max and/or #OfficeDepot Office Depot and/or #Staples Staples over the years, in the multitude of locations and times for such portions to have gotten taken care of while also remembering personal use printers referencing the similar ways as to per laptop I had as well as the amount of desktops in combination for such relevance for the printers and software aspects to the programs thereof for such documentations and paperwork regarding the McCoy Elementary School and the Fort Worth Zoo as well as the Carrollton Farmers Branch Independent School District situations throughout the timeframes of such portions both before as well as after the timeframe beginning with the Texas Education Agency in the year of 2010 onward which would obviously be before when their legal law firm which has been associated with LegalZoom in Austin Texas had gotten involved as well as afterwards to the varied situations combined.



I am extremely thankful for having been able to read such legal torts over the years of my childhood as per being intelligent enough to be in kindergarten at the age of turning 4 years old and growing up in the tristate area as well as having been raised by an Army Chaplain while going to see General George Washington's spirit as per the Revolutionary War having had the Battle of Monmouth reenactments as well as the Colonial reenactments to learn from history being presented in the various ways mainly known throughout the entire east coast regions, as per being a part of the original 13 colonies in comparison to those who learned later in life about the history aspects through the books in the public school system and/or the private schools they attended. I am extremely thankful for my Grandpa Gavett as well as my Bok Gung and my Bok Pu for having taught me about history as well as many aspects as to their backgrounds of life, depending which portions thereof for such times. I am grateful for the opportunity to work on my memories from being able to get the transfer portion, though I am extremely thankful to be able to have rung handbells as the sounds thereof and other such portions have brought forward a few memories to put mildly though also reproved certain aspects I had noticed previously which as per the ways which some have wrongly played games with the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury and such portions thereof; the ability to have known the keys to which would unlock such portions for myself, as to be able to work through such portions and clarify what prior memories I have had though had not ever spoken of before because of the intensities thereof to the additional portions as to few ever believing me in multiple regards of various references. The solidifying of the United States Space Force into the Armed Forces of the United States of America is something which I am extremely thankful and extremely grateful for in reference to the staff during the timing of the official signing of during #POTUS45 POTUS45 Donald J. Trump being in office with #VPOTUS #VPOTUS47 VPOTUS47 Vice President of the United States of America Mike Pence with such staff and associations, as it has admittedly taken me awhile to realize more have realized such portions than I had initially thought be the various situations over the years. However the clarifications in honesty in my opinion as per such portions thereof truly needed the clarification purposes to assist such truth in comparison to opinions in comparison to hearsay, which the aspects as to the GeekSquad situations and the technology portions as to who is at the use of the technology is important to take into consideration as to the technology version of hearsay if there are the situations regarding the filters being a viewpoint which technology in reference to the way Instagram has such to the aspects of such technological situations for clarifications to various aspects possibly in question thereof beyond the aspects as to the admitted portions as to the ground formation and situations thereof in the Mike and Patty reference as to the location I cannot remember the name of though the same type of stones and the freshly painted trash can.



While the aspects as to the discussions with the male with the kilt in Austin had been in the open and honest as I thought all people were in the adult consenting lifestyle just as I thought in all aspects of life people were honest, it had not ever been a thought until after the poster was shown to me about when I was in the Exotic Easter performance; as it was a picture of me though it looked as what I would have looked as in pictures with lesser amounts or if any tattoos, and the discussion to explain the difference because of the amount of time the male had said he took to clean and clear up the pictures for what was wanted in comparison to how I look(ed) the situations as to such times as to additionally having to defend myself at the event as per the irony of others not knowing who I was because of the situations referencing the poster pictures as to how I was treated though had defended others in the various events Temple of Flesh had held in a similar manner though not as much as I personally had to defend myself that evening of my performance as per the situations that were as to why I had not taken my SCUBA Diving gear in while in a relationship with that male as per prior situations which his breeches of protocol as well as breeches of security in the ways which has been explained in reference to the #BOA #BankofAmerica Bank of America in downtown #Dallas #DallasTX #DallasTexas Dallas as well as the #DeLoitte DeLoitte situations for such levels of failures in my opinion as well as his underestimation of the actualities of all such surrounding situations to the perspectives of all such views. I suppose an irony in reference to the name as well as Ms. Rose if the ironic twists thereof in just being creative, I know for a fact how Ms. Rose would think as to such situations if any such involvement were any further regarding especially my Medal of Honor Project in such regards as to the additional portions of the family lineage known to those within such circles if the same ironic aspects thereof to Ms. Rose and the Fail-Safe book. Then again, so would he if accurate as to the required corrections she had told her family she had personally put into place because of what she said she was already tired of seeing repeatedly from such individuals and how she was tired of cleaning up their messes for them.



In the references to the situations minimally discussed in reference to when I had first returned to the state of Texas as well as in reference to when meeting with some of the groups regarding in the adult consenting lifestyle scene in Austin, the ways which certain individuals had told me that there were some situations which had occurred five years before which in such reference aspects as to who my biological sister had married into referencing the LegalZoom aspects as well as the state capital area being Austin Texas as to such portions as to not realizing Legal Zoom was based in Austin as to how such situations could have been referred to regarding the staff members of the company as well as all of the lawyers in the area regarding such additional portions in combinations.



However more than what I had ever written about was found from what I had been informed of when speaking with Carl as to the amount of pedophilia within the Austin community had been rooted out as to the additional aspects as to what Lady Robin had said was a problem when I was still living in Cedar Park Texas before ever getting back to San Antonio Texas, referencing such portions as to later on in the timeframe of the years of involvement. Additionally I had been informed of the ways which certain individuals such as Travis had gone in regards of him and his wife at such portions in the lifestyle, in conjunction to having already informed others as to the fact that many of the neighborhoods in the multiple housing areas looked as though they were a part of Homeowner Associations and had been why I made sure to always wear clothing which could be easily explained when if having to walk through the neighborhood or if I was needing to change clothing to my outfit because of the length and/or the color as to doing so as to not bother any of the party or event holders' neighborhoods. I lived in a Homeowners Association neighborhood once and once only, and I refused to ever put anyone through what I had personally dealt with because of the variances thereof in such an area. I have been cold in multiple climates and altitudes which wearing a jacket was normal for me as per how cold I can get at times, even in the middle of summers in the state of Texas at various times. While making sure as to stay out of the view of if there were different board members in the areas of the house party I had attended by simply covering up and wearing modest clothing on the outside of my outfit to remain out of view from such board members, I had noticed outside of the location for the Kinko de Mayo location as to some of the neighbors getting out of their houses by the second or third event I had been at the location for. I watched how some people in the neighborhood were going to look at the vehicles in the area and as a group of people loudly walked through several areas of blocks of streets towards where the event was at, I saw one of the elder females ask the group to quiet down and then watched as they yelled at the female. I went inside to inform the male who had owned that house which he was busy with other situations, though I had informed him of a few situations regarding other aspects; which I had noticed at several other Austin city event locations and places, which whether a munch or an event the ways which certain individuals had chosen to carry themselves in the open areas had perplexed me and in various ways still perplexes me as to how they could have chosen such a path though noticed they were friends with Travis when they had gotten into the party.



Though in Austin was several times when multiple people had asked me if I was related to my biological sister which I had told the truth and by the time of when I had received a phone call from my biological sister about admitting the truth as to having been related to her the problems which she went on about regarding ever being known to ever having any association with me disgusted her and when she tried to demand me to stop telling the truth which I could not do so, our biological mother intervened and tried to tell me the same garbage which she knew I could not. In such problems as to the ways which those two regarding my biological mother and my biological sister were trying to overtake as per the ways which they thought the #DNC Democrat Party was better for the state of Texas than the #RNC Republican Party as per prior discussions as well as writings thereof, the irony if such prevented me from getting my SCUBA Diving gear to the correct location for the situations while #POTUS44 POTUS44 Barak H. Obama had been yelled at me about my voting choices in the Republican mainly aspects to such an irony though having voted in some of the Democrat Party aligned aspects depending upon my opinion for such timeframes. In the regards as to holding such out in ways of spite had caused multiple injuries and deaths because of those people's choices and lies, which in turn the aspects as to the fact my biological sister thought she was able to handle the situations as to being in the forensic field she can deal with such portions herself on her own for her responsibilities. However such aspects as to the portions of which when she has to deal with her own choices and take the heat for what her choices were and have been, I suppose it truly is a small world now regarding to a few people I met from the northeast area in the state of Texas at some point while not forgetting the individuals I met from Illinois more-so especially in reference to the situation at Mike and Patty's as that male as well as the group of individuals he was associated with which Alicia had spoken for and vouched for had been from Crystal Lake Illinois for clarification and one of the males said his sister was a pommie while another said his sister was a cheerleader for whatever that is worth.



In the point as to the timeframe of the 20 year memorial of the attacks on 11 September 2001, I knew afterwards there was a longer life which people could live in comparison. Aside from the choices I made during that time and who I spoke with when the initial situations in the first three months after the day of had come forward, I made a promise to which each and every promise I have made I have done the very best to keep each and every promise. I took the choice of the path to lead which opened the doors for more in comparison to other aspects because of seeing more in several ways, which the situations in reference to Irving in such references to the pictures in this post and other aspects as to having had such a dialogue with such beings for a very long amount of time. I promised I would keep true to the #10Commandments 10 Commandments as I was told it was extremely important and realized more-so as to such importance in regards of the laptop #Reiki Reiki situation fire, which in turn making the choice to refrain myself as needed in reference to responses had been important to what I could see from the situations in different aspects.