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It should not take a head injury
*after personally sustaining a head injury & coma*
to figure this out...

 
 
 
 
 
 


After a Drill Sergeant threw Me into the metal part of the bunk when I was in Basic Training for the United States of America's Army branch at Fort Sill Oklahoma #FortSill #FortSillOK #FortSillOklahoma #OK #Oklahoma in the year of 2000 on Psalm Sunday, I have dealt with the situations as best as I have been capable to do so while taking care of the situations and asking for assistance as per the required explanations of the information to such facts first.  While making the attempts to get assistance for the aspects thereof as to the reality, the aspects of where and when as to the multiple attempts to ask for assistance for me.  As my journal blog for when I was ready to bring such as to my other works forward since as to the lengths of time as to where my modeling was as to the modeling page information, just as the other pages have the information as to such specifics, and just as this journal blog of mine is as to such facts.


If I had real friends (if as to having met in person face to face in person in real life as to the aspects of this particular reference such as from the state of Texas as to the state of Washington as to the years of 2000 through 2013 if I met within the state of Texas for such references), real (the areas of the tristate region as before the year of 2000) family, and real relationships in real life that recognized me as to the aspects of if as to the face to face in person who started in truth as I had started such in truth as to the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, as well as the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain that took 8.5 years to dissipate; then I guesstimate there would be the easier factors as to being capable for me to speak with others in truth in person face to face in person and/or through online measures as to such factors I suppose.  Though would such as to the knowledge of the ways as to how they began such discussions with me as to would there be such a situation, for them to consider as to such if factors as to such discussions with me in truth?


As to some suggestions and commentary within "Finding A Silver Lining" one of several of my bo0ks I personally authored/wrote/compiled as I can only speak and write in truth as per such clarifications as to the reality as to the specifics of such discussions/writings/videos as per my Official You Tube where I have satirical commentary where I comment about the factors as to having dealt with others' opinions about their pop culture references of #NJ #NJstate #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey, though as to for the most part I have actually preferred to be asked with politeness if as to having read my books and/or seen my website as just the same in reference to the timeframes when I was modeling as to having respect as to what I consider as respect, referencing if as to such polite manners as to discussions if as to such having been noticed because of the factors in my opinion as to having real discussions as communication would be if my website was seen before the year of 2023 as I first began my website in 2015; as in my journal blog posts as to the reality of the years of 2010 through 2013, as to the aspects of introductions as to those timeframes when as to various factors as I did not take selfies as I was actually working with photographers as to my creations of my outfits as per the description on the link to my modeling page(s) as to the references regarding my journal blog updates in the years of 2019 through 2022 as the timeframe onward as to the year of 2023 as to the factors as to how such journal blog entries will be as to such factors as to the aspects of the various topic points.


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 I was born and raised in New Jersey and grew up going throughout the tristate northeast areas mainly, and as to how the reality of when the importance of the situations as to the aspects of reviewing as to such facts regarding the logistics for several factors as to the considerations; the years of 2019 through 2022 as to the review process as to the aspects of the timeframe, prior to the timeframe of the 20 year memorial of 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 as well as before the 30 year memorial of February 1993, as to the northeast areas mostly known as to New York City #NYC #NewYork #NY #NYstate #NYU though also as to the #Pentagon Pentagon, as well as Pennsylvania #Pennstate #Pennsylvaniastate as to the reality of how many New Jersey-ians commute in either direction, depending upon what location for the commute. 


The factors though I have said at times, I re-re-re-re-re-re-grew up in the state of  #Texas #TX #Texasstate Texas as to such factors as to the timeframes, as well as all 26 of my SCUBA #SCUBA #SCUBADiving  Diving certifications I earned were through one school within the state of Texas as I also earned winning first place in a Texas Chili cookoff with more than 20 entries as well as my chili recipe as I am adamant about my recipes as to such aspects just as I am specific as to what it actually takes for me to cook in a BBQ as to the required preparations for when I have BBQed.   



I can sarcastically write, those who know of the Rules of the BBQ as to where I grew up as to the Rules of the BBQ as to such factors to the considerations of such preparations.  However that is to cooking food as to the differences of my journal blog entries, as to the factors as to proverbial aspects of food for thought as the difference of real food in real life as to the facts of the situations to such attention to the details as well as attention to the information.


Such facts as to the metaphors in some of such factors that only after reviewing such information as to the aspects of the fiction book series that were as to for My personal life as to such dreamland sorts of factors as to the differences of such hypotheticals, the references thereof as to such regards as to the logistical emotional with the real situations as per the names I was informed of at the timeframes referenced review as to My journal blog as to the situations overall.  


If as to my journal blog being found and read as to where what I consider as common sense, as to the aspects of my satirical saying   how it should not take a head injury to figure out. 
 

*(sometimes utilizing articles discussing facts)*
By:  (Reverend) Susan MeeLing
also known as

The One & Only


(YouTube)   Lady Dori Belle


 

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REMEMBER:

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After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

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Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

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Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

​

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

​

​

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

​

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

​

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

​

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

Day 13 of countdown to 20 Year Memorial to 11 September 2001 By A New Jersey-ian : 29 August 2021

The day before my birthday of officiality though also in reference to being 21 years to the year of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury and waking up from my coma, I decided to kick off a new way I hand out or pass out my business cards in the proverbial way though my card nonetheless. Over the years I have gone through an array of designs and as I do, I tend to change things up a bit which I am thankful and grateful for #vistaprint vistaprint which I will continue to use in different arrangements however the idea I had began in the state of Texas prior to my transfer I had created officially through making my appointment. After ordering my pictures in the format I chose and per the design choices I picked when I was ready which today the day before my official 21st birthday of being awake from my coma from the Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury I survived, I handed out a few of my new creation idea though an older concept a bit of a revamping. If felt needed to just as with my prior business cards as to the similar sort of way as each business card is a different giving thereof though with the aspects today I handed out different versions and with certain ones, I hand wrote my website address on the back of the photo to assist with my idea to be able to remember who handed the business card version of to assist with the future contact as to the ways of which I thought might be ideal in this era of the year of 2021. With my idea for the style and difference in which the interpersonal discussions in person while also being respectful in such discussions, being able to talk at whichever times prior to and/or during the discussion as to writing down on the back of the picture of my website information for future contact.



In such there is the ways of being respectful if there is a relationship whether of whichever relationship for such aspects thereof to be respectful of and to, in order to be open and honest with the aspects thereof in comparison to some aspects I have noticed well before getting more specifically involved within the political spectrum after waking up from my coma after my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury. Thus if in a married or a committed relationship there is the honesty for the other to be able to know as to the location of such a meeting as well as the ways which the amount of other people around would obviously notice certain aspects if there were any who had paid attention, as for an example when speaking with a group of people one female had remembered a phone call discussion with another male candidate which the aspects thereof in reference to the ways of which technology has been involved with various aspects of human life since the beginning thereof; the ways to the length of some individuals' memory as well as the ways which can review more than just in reference to the internet portions, as per phone calls as well as the type thereof. As #TechnologyHistory #HistoryofTechnology #TechHistory #HistoryofTech #TechnologicalHistoryDevelopment #HistoricalHistoryofTechnologyDevelopment technology history is much more in depth and goes back much further than what people in the current year of 2021may have realized, even within the aspects of the #ElectionIntegrity Election Integrity and the #FactChecking Fact Checking situations in reference to the automated technology from the artificial intelligence coding in the spectrums thereof to bring forward the clarifications.



To the point of my idea for my handing out of my new version of my cards with the handwritten portion of my website in person, the ways which some aspects as to the ways which technology cameras as well as viewing screens at times distort the way the image/video looks as per the example of the curved television screen compared to the projection screen compared to a flat screen television compared to a desktop computer compared to a laptop computer compared to a cellphone and which brand thereof; which in turn the ways of which when able to speak with the person giving the pictures and my handwritten website address gives an availability to ensure the clarity in multiple ways as per the name portions as well as the identity theft problems. While admittedly I did not go into the specifics in the adult consenting lifestyle portions today, on my website I also have not hidden the facts thereof to my name within such areas of which in turn being respectful as to such portions additionally in the ways which the #OldGuardLeather Old Guard of Leather may know of and could possibly appreciate such measures in the modern aspects. In such inspiration from the #LeatherFlag Leather Flag and the emails back and forth with who I had thought and believed to be the one who had come up with the design concept, I wanted to honor such aspects of the ways of #OldGuard Old Guard #Leather Leather in reference to the etiquette portions thereof within the vanilla sectors and areas; of which while of course accepting and acknowledging of such portions in reference to the adult consenting lifestyle that particular portion having been minimal in concern referencing the relationships in such that sort of adult consenting specific way, beyond discussions asper knowing I am who I am and do not fit with everyone.



In turn while I did not think it took a head injury to figure out as to acknowledging as to being involved with the adult consenting lifestyle as I did conceive two children through the ways which conception occurs despite the situations at the timing of though in reference to the overall portion of such actions in reference to various portions of the adult consenting lifestyle, I also have not denied having been a Mom before authoring the different books and book series I have authored and compiled. Thus with the aspects as to having created the idea for such a possible original aspect comparatively because of the timing as well as the ability for my own website address to be put onto the back portion of my picture handed personally, I thought the idea for an innovative portion as to how many people have been more entrenched within certain forums of the various areas may have needed a way to look towards stepping out of the proverbial internet box to relearn how to speak with people again in comparison to simply grabbing for something to then walk along or forget who gave the card or conversely forget who the card was given to and then when contact occurs having forgotten about the initial portions of handing over the business card as not everyone who has company or a group of people working for them can remember each and every person they have given a business card to as to who might call for an appointment for such aspects of messages. In the aspects thereof as to the limited number of available pictures to have such completed with, the ways as to the updating throughout the year for such different portions and the ways which the view of #Baseball Baseball or #Basketball Basketball or #Pokemon Pokemon or #Magic #magick Magic and etcetera types of cards in such references; though only in the ways of such having been handed over personally with the website aspects, unless having chosen to write additional portions. In turn with the #socialmedia social media links to my specific accounts for additional ability for verification purposes, hopefully my idea is creative enough to assist with such prior portions previously written about and discussed in person as well.




During my time speaking with a few people while still getting to know the area there had been the point of which in part having discussed why I vote the way I vote, which I do not mean in the reference as to political party for such aspects. The individuals and groups who know more specifically from when in the timeframes prior to winding up in #WA #Washington #WWashingtonstate Washington state though there as well in reference to the first year, I have made the choice to only vote within the #Presidential #POTUS Presidential election cycle if I have moved during such a point in between the times of Presidential election cycles. Thus while in the year of 2000 I voted a complete #GOP #Republican Republican ticket as I had in 2004 and 2008, the in between times of which the voting is yearly for has been where for a choice I have made regarding the situations referencing the local and state election portions as to waiting to get to know the ways of the particular style of wording as well as the specifics of the ballots themselves because of the ways such aspects are per precinct area as well as other such district lines. In turn in reference to when moving officially within the state of Texas I did not vote except for the Presidential election cycles mainly because of the aspects of after my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury and not having the knowledge base of the ways which the voting occurred at such times, because even though I did not vote prior to being able to the ways which the wording for the ballots as well as the presentation of bills in the ways to read through the information thereof were different than what I had read about in #IL #Illinois #Illinoisstate Illinois as well as in #NJ #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey/#NY #NewYork #NewYorkstate New York/#PA #Pennsylvania #Pennsylvaniastate #Pennstate Pennsylvania sections of the newspapers. When I was growing up in New Jersey and going to school each week we had to complete homework in the current events portion of classes in #Asher #AsherHolmes #AsherHolemesElementary #AHES Asher Holmes Elementary School, of which I learned much about various areas of life especially within the Sunday Newspapers; of which when being in the state of Texas for the first few years of my life after waking up from my coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, it seemed important for the local and state areas to have people who knew far more about their own areas and demographics than I could or did at such times. I would not have the words to put together if ever to learn as to any needless problems beginning from the timeframe as to when I was in elementary school, especially after all the aspects as to what has occurred in reference to the attacks on 11 September 2001 as the situations which I personally dealt with back then and onward were unnecessary for such to continue and the ways to which certain types of males.



Some who did not believe me about the technological portions such as Grant Ginsberg as well as Ross Albert among others such as Adam Landau; were informed directly as were others during the timeframe when growing up in New Jersey however similarly to those I knew in Texas as to having been informed of such aspects as to the length of time differences between the 1980s into the 1990s in the northern areas of the United States of America, such individuals in the southern areas of the United States of America had not believed me about the realities just as similarly at the times of 2000 through to 2013 as the same in certain references in #OR #Oregon #Oregonstate Oregon as well as Washington in the years of 2013 through to 2019 before my return to the state of Texas in 2019. Thus between the years from 2000 through to 2008 elections, I had voted mainly within the areas of the Presidential election cycles. Upon the situations in the Carrollton #Carrollton #CarrolltonTX #CarrolltonTexas #CFBISD Texas area in 2008 through 2010 my ability to understand more fully beyond the importance of the federal levels of the United States of America in comparison to the local and state levels, meant I needed to make sure I felt comfortable with my choices. As the ways which situations had gone in 2009 through to other years, with each move I had made because of being able to be near the hospital my daughter was in as well as be closer to my son for what he needed while they were both minors at such times compared to now where each are above the age of 18 years old biologically though still available if I am informed of the requirement for assistance; the realities of which to now being 21 years out of my coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury of which I am only 1 year older than my son in such references and only 2 years older than my daughter in the references of, the aspects as to finding what path is best for myself while also being available if either needs my assistance where I can assist as per continuing to do the best I can to live my own life while also leading by example as best as I possibly can for them as well as others who might see a need for something I have posted and/or written about in fuller details as the ways which technology is realistically more accessible online for those who are not able to get out of the physical locations though can get the access to online for such help and assistances if any.



Though I had to deal with being forced because of the situations due to the overall aspects as to having to legally relinquish my rights as a Mom, I did not ever give up on being a Mom; despite what others' opinions have been, though what such choices in the backgrounds thereof regarding such individuals and how such occurrences have been as such is for as such to be reviewed. While I have hoped for better assistance for my son, my daughter, and I regarding the situations which occurred and the after portions thereof; I have not had the return contact in a multitude of regards in return to various portions as to the emails sent after forms had been filled out and phone calls made over the years, which in reference to the last straw breaking the proverbial camel's back as to the portions of my first two books in the way which officially had been registered with #LibraryofCongress The Library of Congress for my safety and security as well as to ensure that all possible ways of reaching any level of the #USA United States of America's law enforcement and government agencies as well as the #USAArmedForces #ArmedForces Armed Forces branched and division to give the required portions of all possible within a clear and concise format as best as possible for the ability to help others while additionally helping my daughter and my son as well as myself in such regards as the portions of my first two books had been created to best assist knowing legal portions additionally in the just in case either my son and/or my daughter needed a cliff-note version of a legal guide for their particular aspects while leaving my aspects of my books a per the legal first and legal middle names only as mine in full due to all other such connection points as to the various books I later authored and such as I continue with my works throughout as per ability as best as I can regarding what I have been working on such as #TheOrneryPSA The Ornery PSA and my #MedalofHonorArtProject Medal of Honor Art project as well as my paintings and other such aspects thereof.



I wish I could say with 100 percent certainty as to when in #FWTX #FortWorth #FortWorthTX #FortWorthTexas Fort Worth Texas after the Bethlehem Star timeframe though certain specifics admittedly, did not add up to me despite the amount of time between in the specific of 2013 to 2020 as per certain specifics during a few phone calls previously regarding such portions as to what my daughter would have specifically said in the ways of a different version of the Semper Fi aspects; of which if my ex-in-laws' had not gotten a blood test to verify the aspects at the times of, I had written about after telling others of the situation regarding the Child Protective Services and the kitchen situation with the hospitalization aspects after the initial portions of the official paperwork because of what occurred due to the #McCoyElementary McCoy Elementary School of Carrollton Texas of CFBISD because of the final aspects as to the Fort Worth Zoo situations as to having to listen to Sandra Goodwin tell me about the Child Protective Services not having given the full amount of assistance or records to help my daughter as much as could be possible referencing such aspects because of the known connections within the various sectors as to the local and state politics to which the Irving situation had informed of other portions as for what to which for in a multitude of ways and reasons regarding other outlying circumstances. In turn what had been noticed as per prior to how I wound up in Washington state as to the same upon when returning to the state of Texas and the specifics thereof to which many portions have been written about for the clarifications of the ability to find all portions of such aspects in the various aspects of the different types of media as there has not ever been any way to ever fully unplug any technology device which has a recording system, as those who know about airplane #Blackbox blackboxes know of such aspects additionally in reference to submarines and boats; to which the aspects of any camera type of device and/or recording device does not ever stop transmitting messages of any type nor stops any recordings in any ways in any official context, which I had learned about in the years when I was growing up in New Jersey and seeing the pieces when I was a child as to the permanent portions of in all devices beginning which the beginning timeframe for such had been prior to my birth by a few decades which would be around the time when my biological mother and her two other half sisters had gone to college and the ways of such portions they had taken from Grandpa Gavett's cameras and working thereof to the college campuses to do as some have seen since the times thereof.



However they were not the only ones who had done so as there have been several dependents and/or spouses and/or relationship individuals who have wrongly gone through others' belongings, to which though shalt not steal and thou shalt not covet what is not yours probably makes a bit more sense in the current timeframes as to more than just thou shalt not covet thy neighbor's spouse. However since I have brought forward a few examples which are on top of the known reports as to military computers as well as military CD-Roms and/or floppy discs and/or other devices with information over the years though having personally received letters starting after the first several months after my ex-sister-in-law's husband David Osteen had graduated Basic Training from Lackland Air Force Base in #JBSA #mysa #SanAntonio #SanAntonioTX #SATX #SanAntonioTexas #MilitaryCityUSA #MUSA San Antonio Texas, just a few weeks before 11 September 2001 though additionally when looking back to such aspects as well as remembering news articles and reports over the years before applying to #MAST Marine and Science Technology School with the #USNvy #USANavy #Navy Navy attachment. As to the previous references regarding timeframes, the aspects as to the technology timeline can be reviewed for such timing aspects for such pieces in the various aspects to everything online remaining online though the requirement for the clarification purposes as per the situations regarding filters and/or hacking and/or programs which search for such and etcetera which #GeekSquad GeekSquad and #BestBuy Best Buy references would assist such clarifications as to the lists of names as to who had been around the different pieces of my technology over the years to who I can remember in ways to assist clarifying at minimum from my side as to any accusations against me falsely and inaccurately for such portions thereof for the consideration of the realities as to other aspects of possibilities.



In the ways of other discussions today as to the portions of technology being much older than some who are considered as Millennials or the next generation called the #GenerationZ #ZGeneration Z Generation and so on with other such names for the decades born per usual prior to the turn of the millennium in the year of 2000, I suppose I can sarcastically make a comment about the Z Generation and having emailed #Z100 Z100 radio station as many of the people now have been more accustomed to listening to music and have the references thereof in more comparison to the television or the video games references of pop culture in the prior years beginning around the year of 2010 as per the amount of time in a car listening to the radio and/or the #itunes itunes portions for the references as well to mp3 players. While I know which music stations I played in my car when driving my son and my daughter around as well as I know which musicians I had played music as well as editings thereof for language portions of when in my car when my son and my daughter were in the car I was driving, which I paid attention to what was considered as acceptable music for their ears to pick up while such driving and distances there. The same in reference to the children born after such a point in time of around the 2010 year, would as I guesstimate have begun to get more involved with #YouTube YouTube and online watching of shows to stream. In regards of books authored just as to musical genres as to the videos ratings as to the television shows as to the movies for such clarifications, the portion of which in regards of my books I have authored and compiled have been labeled for such genres to ensure when the technology portions are caught up in regards as to such portions as to the types of labeling as per the ways such does and has occurred; the clarity for at such portions of my writings will be in line for that particular roll out, which in the year of 2021 will be a short time from this point as to the ways which such aspects for all books will be as the process began already. In the online forum of the internet #Amazon #AmazonKDP Amazon had been a large aspect to such in line with #BarnesandNoble #BarnesNoble #BN Barnes and Noble as well as #BordersBooks #BirdrsBookstore Borders Books, which there was something about the way #BordersCafe Borders Cafe had made their frozen Chai drinks which always was perfect blending which I enjoyed as I spent many hours in a Borders Books near #CLSHS #CrystalLakeSouth #CrystalLakeIL #CrystalLakeIllinois #CrystalLake Crystal Lake in Illinois.



As I did not view such as a library per-se the situations at such times of requirement for reading through such materials for the notations of prior to stepping forward in other aspects as well as the situations at the house I was in, the portions as to having the books in the house was out of the question as per what I had already dealt with regarding my biological mother and my biological father as my biological mother demanded an exorcism of the house when she found some of my books regarding religion and spiritual studies. Ironically when taking what occurred in the #SanAntonioPagan #SAPagan San Antonio Pagan community when she pretended she had no clue beforehand as to what I had studied additionally despite the aspects of my Confirmation Class for/from #OTC #OTPC #OldTennentPresbyterianChurch Old Tennent Presbyterian Church, the overreactions which some in Lackland Air Force Base among others within the state of Texas have learned in person; I have been asked how I was able to turn out to be more well adjusted and normal compared to what was expected, when meeting certain individuals from my past in my life. While some joked it had to do with my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury my response in joke was that it calmed me down compared to the fury and rage which had once normally bubbled up to the surface when being angered by my biological mother and/or my biological sister, as the situations were not in a fair field regarding how the lies had been believed referencing what my biological sister and my biological mother had perpetuated needlessly and how such clearing of all such portions was and is mandatory for many other reasons than some may have realized.



In turn the aspects as to technology having been around far longer than what the year is of 2021 regarding the amount of cellphone usage, when looking back to when the first website was made on the internet in comparison to the time when the first email was sent in comparison to when the first computer was built in comparison to the time when the #EnigmaMachine Enigma machine was more well know to the portion of time with the first radio controller capabilities; that is actually the beginning portion of the time when technology had begun to be more widely available to human beings, throughout the years. Thus when taking into consideration of #radio radio broadcasts to the television to the cable television compared to the #satellite satellite television to the online streaming to the cellphone streaming of various aspects, the ways to see the intersections of timelines for the integrated technological portions within different areas of life. Seeing the years which the aspects of radio broadcasting referencing the radio comptrollers to the actual radio stations as well as the launching of satellites into orbit around the earth compared to the aspects of space shuttles and such portions, the ways to look at the aspects of submersible vehicles to the portions of #SCUBA #SCUBADiving #SCUBADiver SCUBA Diving and the in between aspects are able to be noticed additionally for such regards as to the length of time which human beings who are alive and while be alive have not ever had the time where there was not a form or type of technology throughout any portions of existence for the past 100+ years from this year in 2021. When adding the realities of what I was taught about from my Bok Gung and my Bok Pu about the regards as to the #Chinese Chinese #Mandarin Mandarins compared to the #American American #Mandarin Mandarins compared to the American Born Chinese Mandarins compared to the additional portions in such references, having been the only child my #Cantonese Cantonese Bok Gung (Great Grandfather) and my 1/2 Mandarin and 1/2 Cantonese Bok Pu (Great Grandmother) had taught me during the years of 1986 through 1996 is of such value with the additional teachings directly from my Grandpa Gavett as well as others such as my Grandmawmaw and my Grandpawpaw; in the levels of various levels of experiences from first hand accounts as well as first hand hear-saying as to the times thereof, are something I treasure greatly in addition to being born and raised in New Jersey as well as other areas of the northeast in the years from my birth to 1998 which is before the attacks on 11 September 2001, though having the distinctive memories from the time of the 1993 attack on the World Trade Center as per the news leading up to as well as other portions regarding several aspects at such times as to the leading up to events in specific ways in an overall region.



With the ironic portion as to the 21 year mark as to having survived my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury and waking up from my coma just before my official birthday on 29 August, while I am thankful to be alive and have survived the additional portion of the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the front temporal lobe of my brain which took 4.5 years to begin to show where the blood was receding inside of my brain to dissipate while dealing with daily headaches and multiple times per week migraines at the point of waking up and having gone from high school level of College Algebra with Trigonometry and Calculus also known in high schools as College Algebra with Trigonometry and Calculus AP coursework while in College Level Biology as well as College Level Geometry to 2nd grade math; I am alive and thus the first official birthday of ever bringing up such a point specifically online, as the way I was raised especially in reference to the biological comparison, my birthday had not been as big of a deal to anyone which in turn because of what occurred when I had pointed such out as a child there was the lack of a need to bring such up additionally to what was being dealt with as soon as being put into Medical Hold Unit among the other portions each year after from such a time of waking up from my coma in 2000 somewhere between 6 through 9 or so weeks after my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury in Basic Training when in the Army branch of the United States of America's Armed Forces.



I am thankful at minimum despite the after effects in full of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, I am glad I had the clarity for the where-with-all not to sue to government of the United States of America for several reasons at such a time. The first main reason is because of the fact as to being in the labor and delivery ward in Wilford Hall at Lackland Air Force Base in JBSA San Antonio Military City USA in the year of 2001. If I had been involved with a lawsuit at the time as per my nightmare having been more constant though able to change certain portions of through the time in Medical Hold Unit to be lesser in comparison by far when the attacks on 11 September 2001 occurred if I had been involved with a lawsuit, the facts I brought forward at the moment in time which I had would have been unable to assist with during such times in the ways which I was able to help. Despite the fact of knowing the multiple tries on my life by those within the various branches and divisions of the military and such government agencies at the time up to as well as afterwards for awhile until realizing who I am in actuality, those portions of which no one would have been able to live on after the day of 11 September 2001 if I had not intervened in the ways I had is the fact of the matter as to everyone who was able to live had been able to do so because of the aspects thereof. It was a point in time which in the year of 2001 to each individual prove themselves and their actuality as to worth regarding what could be accomplished and allow human beings to continue to live, which while some may need the reminder as to the formation officially of the #USSpaceForce #USSF #SpaceForce United States Space Force being put into place officially for such portions more recently when #POTUS45 POTUS45 Donald J Trump and the administration with #VPOTUS47 VPOTUS47 Mike Pence along with such spouses and family with the staff thereof for such realities to be brought forward beyond the aspects of #BigBlueBook The Big Blue Book also known as the #BlueBookProject Blue Book Project.



Technology such as larger computers as the Enigma machine and a few other aspects began elsewhere than on earth for clarification, to those who might have wondered. The same in reference to certain types of traveling devices such as what is used in #NASA NASA as well as other such space traveling types of groups, as per some evidence which can be seen within The Blue Book Project for several examples though there are paintings and hieroglyphics for other examples to see in various locations from the distant past to the human being evolutionary paths for the time when the technology would essentially align to several aspects of energetic frequencies upon as well as within the earth itself. There are multiple people over the millenniums which have had visitations as well as experiences regarding such phenomenons and such documentation has been limited due to the fact as to the fear of the unknown portions, though the curiosities at the same time of such portions as to the unknowns. In turn the pun is intended, the looping cycle for human beings needed to be scratched for the awakening to such for the occurrences thereof to be able to clarify which human beings were more accepted and acceptable than others and for which causes or reasons.



In an example of when I was moved from New Jersey to Illinois and having met one of the neighbors when the moving truck for #Mayflower Mayflower was at the house in Crystal Lake when I was speaking with the moving company employees from #Russia Russia who were kind and interesting to speak with about several aspects which the male neighbor was surprised I was speaking with the movers, when I went to introduce myself as was explained as he did not know why I would speak with the males I was speaking with. When I informed him I had not seen anything they had done incorrectly and did not understand the judgement being made at the time, Dale Horris had commented about in the area the people did not speak with the staff members of whatever work outside of being at work for the employment purposes which made little sense to me. As he asked where I was from due to my accent while standing in the front yard as the movers continued smoking their cigarettes as I had told them not to pay any attention to Dale's choice of words as he had not been able to tell them what to do, which the movers chuckled and continued talking with one another as Dale had gotten upset that I had got the males laughing as they smoked their cigarettes. I was told as to his opinion as to what I was doing within the first few minutes of meeting him, which those who knew me in person when I first moved to Crystal Lake Illinois and/or knew me in Texas who had complained as to my attitude; t that time I was literally in the state of Illinois from New Jersey as a 15 year old, for less than 5 hours. I suppose you can guess as to what words came out of my mouth towards that male trying to tell me what he thought I should do in the house I was moving into, as he stood on my biological parents' house land property and you are able to figure as to his responses initially as per the teenager male in the area thereof if you have not already met that particular individual to know of the whining and complaining while pretending to puff up his chest as though he was ever capable to be strong enough to start a fist to cuffs sort of situation.



Nonetheless in my way back then before my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as the 15 year old teenager that I was after being born and raised in New Jersey however while over some time later while getting to know about Crystal Lake Illinois as well as the nearby areas with the different people in the areas, there was a bit of time to get to know Dale Horris or Dale Horrowitz from Crystal Lake South high School who lived in one of the coldesac houses nearby to the house on the corner which my biological mother and biological father had purchased. There was a point in time which two salesmen walked up to the front yard after having dealt with several situations up to the point in time when speaking with Dale Horrowitz about different situations at high school that he knew about regarding the others in the school, which when the point I noticed how much he knew about others I had asked him about himself in comparison to hearing about other people's situations. That had caused him a moment of pause asking me why I would ask such a question which confused me, though it was as it was and as the salesmen walked closer to my biological father; he pulled out a machette from the garage area and began swinging the machette because of whatever the situation was at the time. The two males as I thought were salesmen in lighter tan brown slacks and button down shirts with sweater vests went to speak with Mike about whatever the schpeil was, the situation when Mike turned around with the machetti in his hand though already having been swinging it in plain sight of the two males; had been when they took a step backwards before yelling at Mike about something, as they ran off down the street. Dale had said something about them or him having narcs as friends, which I asked why he thought narcotics would be a friend in that way in comparison to another human. He laughed at me asking me to remind him where I was from and I brought up New Jersey, which he started laughing and saying that had to be why as to the cause for my biological parents and my biological sister and I to be in Illinois as he thought we were on the DL which made little sense to me in any regard.



As the assumptions referencing what I had already dealt with in Crystal Lake South High School and other locations as to being from New Jersey, it made little sense as to what the aspects brought up in discussion had been from the year of 1998 onward as per having not the slightest clue or inklination as to why anyone had spoken with me as they had for such times and about being from the northeast area overall though born and raised in New Jersey. I was told about some television shows and movies that some had been into though explained I was not allowed to watch movies or television with a certain rating above what was allowed, which I was laughed at as well as being from New Jersey for such laughter; which additionally meant little and made little sense to me, as to why that was funny or a situation to laugh at me about regarding the assumptions. When the court situation was brought up, I did admit to the assault I had to testify on which then I was asked about the witnesses which made me wonder what he was talking about as I had only told Rachael the following morning before telling the female at the #Baptist #BaptistCampLebanon Baptist Camp Lebanon as to my apologies for not having listened to her and the accuracy for such prior to speaking with the counselors and the director of the camp for the legal prosecution. Having been told about a fee caused my skin to crawl as the thought of being under a fee annoyed me and infuriated me to whatever his reference was though in later times other such portions can be found as to situations thereof, as to my personal thoughts and opinions as to such aspects as such has to be consenting in comparison to which consenting means in person discussions and does not mean assumptions from anything without actual proof for then it is not an assumption and it is a fact. In turn regarding other aspects while some might accept the current time of a zoom call or a video chat as to such which in my definition of in person, that does not count for any such agreements as it must be in person as to the discussion for such agreements or if through verified written means through online typing as to such messaging in comparison for any portions as too discussions as per agreements to be brought forward for validation.



As it has been known about photography and videography filters and such situations thereof for however long such has been a situation, that particular situation as to the requirements as to the verification processes thereof whether through verified messaging system such as through the website aspects and such connected email messaging accounts and/or through the direct messaging through the website depending referencing the online portions for such in comparison. While there are the purposes for security footage when in a public area to which when working on my website does not include the portions of any such wishes, as per the privacy requirements in all such ways; whether or not anyone else likes the realities of such, as I had not ever accepted recordings in a private location as expected and supposed to be in such references as per the apartment complex is supposed to have a guaranteed privacy aspects within the interior portions of an apartment location per apartment as the lease agreement is not for the general public the way getting a hotel room at a public location is. In such aspects to ever overstep such boundaries as to the violation of privacy as well as such aspects as to Constitutional Rights violations when taking into consideration the additional aspects as to my Medal of Honor Art project in conjunction to the fact of my Ordained Reverend aspects, which in turn the violation of privacy in regards of anyone or everyone who would ever partake illegally as to such portions to ever overstep such legal boundaries. Despite the fact of being a Blue Identification Card Holder of/for the United States of America's Armed Forces, that especially makes such apparent in all such ways as per the privacy required regarding such portions and as to such being reviewed as actions of which would be both under the Constitutional Rights and Amendment as well as the Privacy Rights though also in reference to the clearance aspects to with all would immediately be subject to other legal federal laws of such involvement in conjunction as to the anti-slavery laws from the defeat of the Confederates in the Civil War.



To which while some I have known over the years when in person in the state of Texas such as another New Jerseyian as I was told about who had similar stories to discuss as to what I had been through in reference to Crystal Lake South High School specifically ass to the gym class meeting situation with Susan Ross, the aspects as to some with the background as I was later told about in a bit more detail in the year of 2019 as to Joshua Light as to the ways which he had been informed of if when someone looks into his background when he was in the Army. While I had already discussed as well as wrote about the references in regards as to the Captain rank at the time Dr. Kerry at Camp Bullis having to ask me for my permission to get into my military and medical records for the aspects of finding out more specific details in 2003 as to such, though possibly some of what was found could be assistive to the fact of knowing a total of 5 cards versions in total were given today in the public setting at the time of. In turn the situations as to verifying the signature aspects of certain collectible items to the auditing portions for the clarifications as there is not one poster from the Temple of Flesh Exotic Easter which I ever had signed nor any card thereof for clarification purposes, as I have signed an extremely limited number of paperwork aside from a lease agreement or mortgage and/or title paperwork over the years after the Army paperwork for such additional clarifications beyond car automobile paperwork contracts which my son and/or daughter had not handed me many papers to sign when they were in school for additional purposes for such aspects; to which if my son and/or my daughter and/or anyone else had ever tried to pull off forging my signature, I can verify each document I would have signed in the similar manner as to at CID for the picture reference thereof for the clarifications as to I can only tell the truth and if my son and/or my daughter and/or anyone else ever said in a claim that there was a signature of mine otherwise beyond what I have already written about and/or discussed that would be for the legal portions to review for such aspects in ways the law enforcement agencies.



In such the need for clarification for some possibly would have to review such for the federal prosecutions thereof for forgery of my signature as there was a point at the Tacoma Pearl location of the LDS church which I was asked to sign a piece of paper which I had signed the blank paper page on the wooden clipboard though not anything else in such references which it was a larger signature which would make it easier for the aspects of technology to be able to tell if there was a smaller version made for a copy and paste aspect which would still be forgery of my signature for clarifications as to any such hypotheticals in any such possible ways as per the referencing to "The Modern Day Book By: Reverend Susan MeeLing" as in reference to legal documents the legal signature differs from the aspects of my website name which though is my first and my middle name I do not sign legal documents with that nor have I done any autographs in such other aspects for the clarifications thereof for those who might wish to copy such it would be a forgery because of how I am about a multitude of protectionary aspects. Thus if someone such as Temple of Flesh and/or other groups had decided to try to get such a situation going to anyone and everyone who may have purchased something with a claim as to my signature, I have not ever been asked to ever sign any merchandise and I have not ever done so for clarification. While I have written and then signed in the back of books I authored and//or compiled, that signature is not the signature which would have been used for any such portions beyond the type thereof. The same in reference to my Medal of Honor Art Project pieces as I do not sign the paper in the signature ways, I only sign my initials in specific areas for multiple reasons and none of my paintings artwork has ever been officially signed as prior what is on my website without the typing portions as to my paintings are the ways such were completed at the times of posting on my website on purpose for such aspects as well. In reference to the legal paperwork for what was initially called Guardian Assholes, the signature for the paperwork was a specific way on only one page of the stapled paper for clarifications in November of 2015 only for the description allowed of what was agreed to verbally and in that document only for that show as per the legal requirements anyone who knows any technology laws and any privacy laws for areas such as Washington state would know is similar to the New Jersey and New York City laws of the 1990s even in the years after the 2000s and fully nullifying all portions in reference to such false claims hypothetically in which some could wish to be allowed what they are not allowed and had been denied repeatedly to which need to accept the fact as to such portions for the clarifications thereof knowing such aspects and the wishes to use such for the lack of concern and lack of care as to the security thereof.



Nonetheless the multiple healthcare appointments I have had over the years have been proven as to my clear health as per already also posting the pictures from my medical records as to my blood test taken, and all such portions thereof for the full transparency as to my medical records in those portions; thus, non hypocritical as my ex-in-laws may have wished to prove otherwise as to such aspects as per my ex-sister-in-law Mary Evongelina Nichols Osteen's personal problems as to anyone who refuses to deal with that type of needless drama. As she learned the hard and difficult way in 2001 at Grandma and Grandpa Nichols' house, not all dogs love her as Julio made her bleed after biting her as hard as he had and then caused Ariel Marie Osteen (maiden name) and Sondra Marie Osteen (maiden name) to run around the house scared and screaming while crying as the football sized Chihuahua chased the two of them around the house while barking and yipping until they locked themselves into the same bathroom as their dead-uncle who had played with the toilet paper to make dolls to burn with flames in that same bathroom they hid inside of causing additional laughter from all of the adults in the house as Ariel and Sondra cried hysterically because of Julio outside of the door scratching and clawing to get at the two of them. Admittedly before then, I had not ever seen that dog or type of dog maneuver around in such a way especially with the weight disproportion as it was an extremely odd sight to see.



As per the ways to which having crossed over states lines yet again outside of the areas, those laws as to the requirements of which the state of Texas laws do not apply in other areas though with such portions of if hypothetically involved then the aspects of harassment and stalking additionally to the prior times with any such involvement as per written about in "The Modern Day Book By: Reverend Susan MeeLing" which in turn the violations of repetition regarding any and//or all such individuals as per the criminal penalties thereof as brought forward if such hypotheticals regarding such connected individuals within the DFW region of the adult consenting lifestyle as per already brought forward. Personally I do not care if there are those who wish for more information, as quite frankly the few who have gotten the memo to fix and repair the correct ways as to the prior portions already written about and registered through the Library of Congress in a consistent way has been up for the reasons as to why the lack of bringing such forward further in the general sector among other reasons. When the aspects are actually taken care of properly then the possibilities of such further discussions or writings, however the requirement to go into any details in such references is of minimal concern to me in a multitude of ways as to the general public as to the lack of ability in certain situations as to the discernment required for various aspects due to what has been seen in a multitude of ways regarding even with more recent events involving the aspects as to how certain situations have gone regarding the simplest of forms regarding truth. While admitted biases as to multiple aspects the realities as to the honesty is important more than some may have realized not only in reference to the fact checking and the election integrity portions, though also in everyday life.



In reference to those who are into such political aspects, what could have been more befitting for POTUS45 reelection as well as the local and state elected officials' races than bringing forward the truth as to having the knowledge that my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury in the year of the 2020 election was from the ability to survive through my own determination though also in reference to the medical healthcare and other such aspects as to my connections to the Armed Forces of the United States of America hen I was in the branch of the Army during Basic Training at to the point of being a 20 year timeframe of the survival portion in that election cycle? Or, was it all just for a show and theatere in comparison though if it was for a show or theatere in comparison, then what an opportunity for such times which has gone onward as one cannot get back the time for such aspects. In turn with the 20 year memorial of the attacks of 11 September 2001 and the requirement for my transfer for a multitude of reasons, I will be where I need to be on the day of the 20 year memorial as my home coast is where that requirement has been for myself the entire time. While in the year of the 2011 timeframe the opportunity to have had such aspects if that political theatere was important though the aspects of the truth in reference to the situations at the time would have cluttered up the portrayals I suppose in such comparisons, as that inconvenient truth would have muddled the proverbial waters for such aspects to have been brought forward to attention immediately back in that timeframe for the 10 year memorial. Though yet again in the reference to the year of 2010 and the ways which some had wished they knew my biological parents and biological sister better as well as my ex-in-laws, do tell me when any of those people had realized that in 2010 was 10 years since I woke up from my coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury which both sides had known me as well of the injury portions and after effects thereof in the year of 2000 into 2010 from such discussions in person and what they saw in person. My son and my daughter were children at the time which in turn with what they were dealing with, the responsibility was not for them to take onto themselves of remembering or bringing such portions up for discussion in comparison. However such additionally shows such proof regarding the other side and the treatment of me, in such references and regards.



thus 29 August 2021 will be 21 years since I have been able to survive the aspects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury and the aspects of my coma from such, which at minimum I am in the area which I had put in for the transfer in January 2021 though was able to get to the area on 31 July 2021 after the situations which had occurred regarding the apartment complex as well as the apartment complex management company situations. I stopped by multiple locations and reached out to several groups of individuals and individuals in other ways, which in such references the knowledge was always available and known through me having given such information. Thus each had the knowledge all along and made the choices as to how such choices had been made, which then in reference to if the focus of such a holding needlessly was due to the timeframe of the upcoming 20 year memorial of the attacks as to 11 September 2001 as per the prior portions of the previous posts as well as this particular journal blog entry posting; how is it that a 20 year survival of such a major situation could ever be considered lesser than in reference to the 11 September 2001 attacks when taking into consideration the fact of how many head injuries and TBIs have occurred especially within the military over the years from the timeframe more noted as to the 11 September 2001 attacks, without having acknowledged such initially to think that would not look staged as well as less than genuine by those in a state which has such a high population of Active Duty/National Guard/Reservists/Veterans who have either had a TBI themselves and/or have friends/family in units which they are still going through the first stages of the medical portions of the after effects from a TBI or head injury?



However while the aspects of the BBQ Picnic which the discussions about the technological portions and the history of such development phases over the past two centuries unofficially though officially over the past 75 to 100 years, the additional aspect to think about is in reference to the film and the negatives from the film photography and videography aspects mainly since the 1930s of the film videography being more well known though the aspects as to how such developed further as time went onward into the 2000s into the digital formats of photography and videography while the development of software programs enhanced other aspects and the growth of different forms of technology in the general public sector. While Mao Ze Doong had within the regime made the choice to the Tiananmen Square situation after the amount of college students who had gone through some high school into the colleges during the timeframe of the mid to late 1960s and onward for their Bachelor's Degree and/or the Masters Degree and ho the situations had gotten to the points of which they had, the commentary about what some have said is a myth about being stationed in South Korea as to catching something; the myth for such reality is in a nearby different location which the myth as several aspects of oral traditions have proven to have gone such as in the childhood game of telephone, that reality was from a different time in a nearby location as to the whispers as to the realities of what had transpired regarding the times thereof for a viewpoint to take the timelines into consideration as well as what medical availabilities in comparison to such locations with the additional aspects as to what was taken when people were in college within the United States of America during the timeframe before Tiananmen Square which could cause an uproar situation if they did not have anymore of such aspects regarding if other drugs were used than Marijuana at the time of that situation. Possibly the CHAD/CHOP situation in Seattle Washington could be considered a minute version of the amount of people having been mailed some of the possibilities and/or since the TSA was not at the levels they became after 11 September 2001, what could be considered as plausible for the mental states as to such medical conditions fairly prevalent if untreated as I had to research and learn about not only in regards of the pictures from Basic Training though more along the research and homework I had to do in the Austin area Dominant Mentor Program which I had been made fun of for being as studious as to the realities for the well being and health at minimum for myself and if I ever had or could or would get involved with a relationship in such a type of way? The fact I had to research and complete a minimum of a ten page essay referencing the medical conditions as well as what can occur if the individual is left untreated correctly, as to what in the Seattle Washington CHAD/CHOP situation seemed in certain regards to both sides thereof aforementioned.



I have hoped to no matter how high risk I might be considered for various aspects, I hoped to always remain clean and clear at all times in every situation of every type permanently at all times as I have done everything I could to be as safe and responsible as possible despite the multitude of situations I have been around and/or involved in. When taking into consideration having been born and raised in New Jersey and having gone to the beaches on the New Jersey coastline during the years of my childhood and teenager years up to the year of the summer of my 15th birthday for the last time I had been out to the ocean before being moved to Illinois in the year of 1998 around in the month of May, there are a few news reports some might be able to see what levels of natural immunity to several aspects I have had for decades in conjunction to several other aspects to which I have survived. For example in 2022 will be when I had initially been sick in 5th grade though I survived such when back in school as to what would be in 2023 of 30 years from such as well as 10 years from what happened at The Sanctuary in Dallas Texas, just as in reference to last year as to surviving 20 years from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury and coma, just as earlier this month in August 2021 has been 12 years since I survived all of my 26 SCUBA Diving certifications I earned though more specifically the depths of the oceanic waters I had landed at the bottom of the ocean in to surface safely and alive more importantly to live onward. While this year will be 10 years since the Irving situation in a few months additionally though in such ironies of certain songs as to different types of reminders as to such portions referencing the situation at The Sanctuary when Marie was with me from the Austin community as to going to the storage unit to pick up my belongings which my ex Patrick Kennedy had taken everything out of the storage unit that was mine and left such fully empty as he had already prevented me illegally from getting my belongings out of the apartment on Meadow Creek via already having dealt with physically disarming him from the double barrel shotgun he had pointed in my face, which when his then new girlfriend Jackie Daniels had informed me in the smoking section about their relationship as the others within the area at the time had seen and heard; I did not know they were dating or involved until she had told me of such, which I had told her to be careful because of the situation with the firearm as to the loaded shotgun. She shrugged her shoulders at me telling me how she enjoyed being shot at which seemed weird as well as odd for such an enjoyment, though that was/is her kink and definitely not my kink; though that occurred a few months before the final paperwork as well as the Cowboys Dance Hall Stoney LaRue concert in March 2013, a few weeks or months before learning of the identity theft problems to clear an eviction and other problems which had been on my credit report and needed to be removed in full for what was not mine to take care of which I had not ever been nor ever needed to be evicted from any location of which what occurred with Patrick Kennedy after the timeframe was unknown to me as per not having ever been informed beyond that point in time as to the other previously written about and discussed portions of the ways such times had gone.



For additional clarification I did not remember Patrick Kennedy had such as a last name as in the New Jersey as well as New York City and state areas, there are a few locations which have the name Kennedy as it is a commonly known last name. However where credit is due despite the other situations, the ten year mark to any type of what would be considered as a birthday party for me had been arranged as a dinner with Patrick and my son at the time as my daughter was in the hospital in Little Rock Arkansas at the time for another round of the mental health assistances needed for the problems which stemmed from my niece Brieanna Marie Nichols-Lopez (maiden name) having repeatedly played my daughter's biological father's voicemail to Grandma Nichols in her ears when at my ex-sister-in-law's house in White Settlement as well as the additional portions regarding the problems at McCoy Elementary School in conjunction to the needless problems associated with the male who went on the Cancun/Cozumel trip who caught the Puffer Fish as he admitted on the phone as well as on the Bremerton Navy/Marine shipyard in 2019 when after checking into the base with the identification cards required to be scanned for entrance. Thus while to Fort Worth Zoo problem was in part having to do with the biases as well as the irresponsibility of the adult volunteers as per biases as per prior situations, however my ex-sister-in-law's daughter Breianna Marie Nichols-Lopez had made the choices she had made during such times and there is not any regret for having pulled the van over to the side of the road to chew into her military style though I do regret not smoking her the way she needed to be smoked. I do find it ironic as to the tattoo situation referencing the question she had in regards of the ink on her shoulder in reference to Anthony her first born son coming out of her shoulder, as per written about after having described the situation. As per similarly to Grandpa Gavett telling my maternal grandmother to correctly educate her daughter who is my biological mother for the correct discipline, the same can be said in reference to my having told my ex-sister-in-law Susie Marie Nichols-Lopez (new married last name sounding as Sweeney or Sweety) in reference to multiple aspects though especially about getting her eldest daughter under control better as she had already brought vodka to her elementary school in 6th grade as well as other such problems from the facts which she refused to pay attention to in other ways regarding other warnings I had given to her about the situations overall.



I learned she had twins after having various plastic surgeries which was money supposed to be used for her children in comparison to being given or being left to her to use for herself, which if what I was told had been accurate a few months ago in reference to the kitchen situation at Grandma Nichols' house then the warnings I had given to both Grandma Nichols as well as my ex-sister-in-law had fallen on deaf ears as to correctly managing Breianna Marie Nichols-Lopez as I would guesstimate in reference to my ex-in-laws who had ignored my commands as to what should not have been put into their dead-relative/spiritual husband's casket for their spiritual marriage to him permanently as per the actual contracts well before that point in time; those teenagers probably started acting more differently in the schools they attended as well as with the other people they knew at such times not because of the death per-se though because of not listening to my commands which if those people convinced my daughter to allow them to put such into the casket wishing such a loophole to ever be considered as accepted which obviously hypothetically from such after portions would be accurate in full, those people are responsible for the additional situations to my daughter as well as my son and I which is fully their responsibility to pay for their debts in full as my son and I are fully cleared of such portions as I had made sure of such regarding myself especially. Those debts are for those people to pay and my involvement is only for clarifications as they have not ever had any legal nor authority officially in any recognized capacity over any such portions of my life, which the Superman comics among other portions would clear such; though so too would all such portions referencing anti slavery laws for all such portions, which in turn all such aspects of the anti-slavery laws would be considered as treasonous for those ex-in-laws which in my opinion they should be prosecuted for if found as proof thereof in all possible ways because of the realities regarding my Blue Identification Card for/of the Armed Forces of the United States of America.



Those people were warned by Grandpa Nichols to be less stupid, though in multiple ways I guesstimate they did not heed Grandpa Nichols warnings just as they refused to pay attention to my warnings. Personally, I have a lot of hope for those people though a Grandpa Gavett mixed with a Grandpa Nichols type of hope in honesty though if my biological sister and/or my biological mother having involvement then add my Bok Gung and my Bok Pu to those styles of hoping of mine for such types of people.



I have always made sure to pay my bills on time as well as make sure to take care of balances as soon as learned of though only fighting such if inappropriate or unjust in more than one or two aspects as to such aspects of ever fighting any such legal cases, as the portions of what I have needlessly dealt with over the years needs to come to a full stop for such situations and the clarifications as to all such portions as to why need to be brought forward in full in all such ways for the clearing and ways for the best possible movements forward for the human beings on earth as what do others on earth have to say for themselves when those who have been in space stations for a bit of time have to explain of themselves just as in reference to the human beings who have been sent outward in prior aspects as to the portions of the technology history aspects for such clarifications? What if they found something and brought it back with them to earth, and then how do you think such clarifications and acceptances might be extremely important to take into consideration referencing the larger general population in the United States of America as well as on earth? I think such learning and aspects thereof might be a bit more important to take into consideration with the seriousness required for such situations, as the ways which some aspects could be depending upon which space shuttle they had been sent outward on depends upon the trajectory upon other portions as well for such official portions of the #USSpaceForce #USASpaceForce #USSF US Space Force clarifications being officiated by POTUS45 and administration thereof as well as since.



In turn the aspects of what occurred in the various circumstances has not ever been asked of me though I also had not known of who I could trust with such information as to especially after what occurred in reference to the security situations to assess how to take my SCUBA Diving gear to JBSA as anyone with intelligence would do to ensure the correct transfer to take place in comparison to assuming or being arrogant to think I had not known better, though in such hypotheticals as to such ignorance regarding my SCUBA Diving gear the aspects thereof are what you put me through needlessly additionally as thou shalt not steal and thus that zipper situation in all aspects is fully for you to be blamed for that additional needless pain which I do hope you have the capability to feel what I went through in full as per debts and the eye for an eye within the Biblical portions for each aspect I dealt with and continue dealing with until such is actually fixed and repaired correctly. However, why would such situations referencing Irving be of importance or matter for anyone else? You did not deal with it, and it did not officially involve you so what does it matter in any such ways thereof?



Where were you when in reference to my SCUBA Diving depth levels and after portions in the time of, to which then why should I care about others' opinions when such has yet to have been brought forward by others in the spectrum thereof the reality of what I had done other than by myself? Where were you after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, at each step of the way? Where were you in regards of when I needed to make sure things were taken care of at Fort Sam Houston in the #MHU Medical Hold Unit, as well as when it became the #WTU Warrior Transition Unit, as well as when I had gone through the Chain of Command and the situations involving the Two Star General's office each time? Where were you in reference to the different interrogations I had dealt with, and where were you when such portions had begun to begin with for me? Where were you in regards to each headache and migraine I have dealt with, and where were you when what occurred in reference to my daughter and my son and I as per such times? Where were you when others had chosen the paths as they had in reference to me, where were you when my biological mother/sister/father had been as they had in each portion of time in reference to my son and/or my daughter and/or I?



What have you done to genuinely help my son, out of curiosity?



What have you done to genuinely help my daughter, out of curiosity?



What have you done to genuinely help me, out of curiosity?



When the attacks on 11 September 2001 occurred and the initial after portions thereof as well as over the years since, where were you and what were you genuinely doing to help? who were your intentions to help, in honesty?



However with the official aspects as to my birthday though the 21st year of the time since waking up from my coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as to the 20 year memorial of the attacks from 11 September 2001, what portions have genuinely been made to be better though in admitted biased aspects as to myself? In the state of Texas there had been several people who had told me they thought if there was enough time which could go by that I would remember more memories from my childhood and teenager years which when I told them my biological mother as well as my biological sister feared and were scared of if I had ever remembered anything in larger details from my childhood and my teenager years, which those people laughed and said they thought that such would be scared and fearful about the possibility of happy and positive memories coming forward for me from my time with those people. I told those individuals I knew I had remembered the happier moments from my childhood and my teenager years though as certain types of people need to learn when I say no to something it means no in ways of the traffic signal of red, however since it was a larger number of people from the #ustin Austin and the #DFW DFW areas of Texas who had thought they knew better in comparison; it would not be a surprise to me how much crap must be piled all over their faces proverbially in all such ways, as I told them to leave that alone and not to bother me with their thoughts as to what they thought could be for such times. I did not ask for their help for such and I told them to not do anything to ever get involved as I told them to leave it completely alone instead of ever thinking they ever knew anything which would be considered as worthwhile, which in turn I repeat the portions referencing The Modern Day Book By: Reverend Susan MeeLing as well as the other such writings for the references in such regards as to additionally my Medal of Honor Art Project trips as well as the needless stalking and harassing from the reference of my Medal of Honor Art Project trips if not within the specific capacity of which would not include civilians obviously and especially from the Pagan community and/or the Excalibur Faire turned into Sherwood Faire groups and/or the adult consenting lifestyle groups of individuals within any connection to my biological mother/sister/father and/or my ex-in-laws and/or as already explained in writing for such regarding those civilians of Texas. Higher law enforcement and Armed Forces of the United States of America branches and divisions of the Armed Forces of the United States of America such as the Active Duty/National Guard/Reservists/Veterans who can go to a VA healthcare facility for treatments and those with Blue Identification card of/for the Armed Forces of the United States of America are exempt, as long as the specifics of the connections in relation to my biological mother/father/sister and/or especially my ex-in-laws.



In reference especially to any of those who had put anything into the casket when they were direct ordered and commanded to pay attention to my direct orders after the Chief Warrant Officer 3 situation which when the Chief Warrant Officer 3 would not recognize my daughter for such portions what a sad and pathetic portion of such individuals in my opinion to think when a Chief Warrant Officer 3 snaps to attention when I spoke meant that was who he had known and understood and comprehended who was and is Command over such despite their wishes. However the facts are the facts for such as per the officiation of their spiritual marriages to my dead-ex-husband their dead-relative for them, which to go over in brief the past 21 birthday aspects per year since waking up from my coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury:

* 2000: rave and Brackenridge in Austin Texas situations

* 2001: in labor and delivery to give birth to my son #Letters4James

* 2002: preparing for the birth of my daughter #letters4Lidia and the McDonald's birthday party situation

* 2003: preparing for my son and my daughter's first birthday with each other as well as getting my house in San Antonio ready because several of my ex-in-laws were driving to San Antonio for my son and my daughter's first birthday party, and they complained I did not drive to Fort Worth for their ease for the time as they also complained while in my house about such after disobeying to not bring unapproved dogs as well which they were warned they would not have many chances after that problem set of situations

* 2004: after picking myself up off of the concrete patio after a conversation when in the process of taking care of lawn maintenance making sure the rest was taken care of as best as possible before being locked in a room after defending my son and my daughter while defending myself at the same time later that same day

* 2005: dealing with the first separation as well as a soon-to-be-ex-girlfriend at the time after the situation at Lackland Air Force Base regarding my biological mother and the smoking section situation at Wilford Hall

* 2006: the birthday presents which Atlantis Discovered owners had put together for me when told as to the birthday for me as it was the first birthday I had ever received a birthday present and knowing they knew my preferences in comparison they picked out the perfect items, however each piece was broken when the garage situation occurred and the argument about the dress blues situation shortly before going to Tyler Texas to find the blackwater and turn over the bathtub I found in the area when driving the Ford Focus wagon for those who would have accessed that internal GPS system

* 2007: taking care of my son and my daughter while dealing with the situations at the time just before the phone call about the supposed injury from what the Specialist on the phone had said and the move for my then ex-husband to Germany prior to the point of Fort Sam Houston in the newly named Warrior Transition Unit which once had been Medical Hold Unit

* 2008: Grandpa Nichols was in the hospital while I was taking care of my son and my daughter as best as I could after getting my surgeries taken care of after moving from San Antonio Texas to Carrollton Texas

* 2009: dealing with the portions of which I had achieved several aspects while in reference to my SCUBA Diving in the #Boca #BocaRaton #BocaRatonFL #BocaRatonFlorida Boca Raton Florida area as well as the #FLKeys #FloridaKeys Florida Keys area regarding both drops for both sets of SCUBA Dives while preparing for my son and my daughter's birthdays and recovering from the drive from Florida to Alabama through Tennessee through Arkansas into Texas at that time

* 2010: adjusting to the move from Carrollton Texas to Cedar Park Texas while taking care of my son and doing the best to take care of my daughter who had been in the residential treatment facility in Liberty Hill Texas to get the school the birthday cakes in time while also dealing with the Texas Education Agency as well as the law firm for the McCoy Elementary School of the Carrollton Farmers Branch Independent School District as well as modeling to know what I look as after the realization as to how much more different I looked because of my hairstyle with my hair-color and my tattoos and adult consenting lifestyle aspects regarding going to events to speak with people about topics other than the situations I was dealing with though because of having posted about such and people having read about such they asked me further details and then later complained about what I discussed with them when it was what they had asked me about to begin with in reference to discussions

* 2011: the only birthday party-ish ever thrown for me in comparison though the colors of black and white were used for all of the flatware and plates including the cups and all of my gifts were in the colors of black and white which were given to me in front of my son who had been tasked by Patrick Kennedy to help with my birthday party planning, which the picture below is of one of the gifts given to me for my birthday for such additional clarification as to the additional proof as to the lack of attention to details referencing the security and safety portions thereof during such years as per the #BoA #BankofAmerica Bank of America in Dallas Texas as well as #DeLoitte DeLoitte in conjunction to the Exotic Easter event which he had left to go change into a different clothing and masked hood to then be upset that he was physically grabbed by the collar while not paying attention to the facts as to who I had been the entire time as per the actual Star of the Show


* 2012: I was dealing with having disarmed my daughter in BAMC while dealing with the medical insurance paperwork while dealing with my daughter being in another residential treatment facility while doing the best I could to make sure I was taking care of my son while dealing with the law firm for the CFBISD school district and dealing with the Texas Education Agency as well as dealing with the Child Protective Services as for the second time I called the CPS with the medical professionals requesting the insurance to take a larger consideration as per the requirements of the multitudes thereof for my daughter as well as my son as well as my safety in the situation as well as dealing with Alicia as a roommate after the situations of which was still being dealt with regarding the 4 of July 2012 situations while also dealing with Ana and Matt having been speaking with my biological mother and my biological father as they tried to force me into a relationship thinking that was going to be a beneficial relationship in a good way in comparison to what was going on and what an actual proper relationship requires in comparison to what lies I was being told by them about several aspects as they admitted together as to having purposefully messed with several aspects of my son and my daughter and my lives while additionally dealing with the needless drama from females and males involved with ClubFEM as well as other situations combined, all while dealing with the after portions of the time from Irving as well as SCUBA Diving and obviously the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury

* 2013: dealing with the portions of the San Antonio Family Court testimony as well as court case hearing and all such portions thereof in conjunction with the electrical portions as to the GeekSquad and Best Buy aspects while doing the best I could to take care of my son while dealing with trying to figure out how we wound up in Washington state when the last portion I remembered was being in the process of the application for a Florida apartment while dealing with other such aspects as to the overall portions in reference to Vancouver Washington above the Mason-Dixon Line though more importantly not having gone SCUBA Diving in the Pacific area of the ocean and the proverbial turf aspects as to the SCUBA Diving portions before winding up there to which, hypothetically viewing of the winter storm with the snow in conjunction to the landslide portions and other such odd weather phenomenon as to the warnings I had given and told people not to mess with and not to play games with situations around the time of going to the Puyallup Washington location for a PADI SCUBA Diving shop to speak with while working on getting ready to publish my first two books and attempt to organize my photo albums to be able to be digitized for all of the pictures I had taken with film into the photo albums I had organized as best as I could as quickly as I could with what was going on over the years to that point

* 2014: getting into the Lakewood rental house while getting my son squared away for school while dealing with the zapping and preparing to take a break from my first two books of writing to begin my Medal of Honor Art Project workings and etcetera

* 2015: my son and I were taken to #OG #OliveGarden Olive Garden where I had gotten drunk off of the half a shot of Bailey's and the carafe of coffee which for the first time ever my son saw me in person have any intoxicating item of ingestion aside from the medications which I had been prescribed by doctors while such other previously written aspects

* 2016: if not 2015 year and switch the two for the year of 2016 of going to #RL #RedLobster Red Lobster for the dinner and such continued aspects referencing the pain levels as to the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as well as the other combined portions while working on my Medal of Honor Art Project in conjunction with continuing to write books as well as my paintings as per the time while hoping the best for my daughter at the same time as well as working more on my website for the updating thereof

* 2017: Solar Eclipse

* 2018: the situations had been where my son had wanted to go to an Accelerated High School class to then go into the Army branch of the United States of America's Armed Forces after going to the Blue and Gold Camp week and meeting a group of females who he thought he knew better about the Washington state laws and how such actually goes to which he moved in with the Featherlys as told after the meeting with Caramel Featherly and Tia whatever her last name was outside of the #Steilacoom #SteiilacoomPublicLibrary #SteilacoomWA #SteilacoomWashington Steilacoom Library as to their opinions which I disagreed with and had nothing of any want or need to do with the lies which were being told to me however the situations in reference to knowing the way the laws were/are in the Washington state area and how such was going to go whichever way as chosen which in turn the aspects of having to needlessly deal with being told opinions as to their thoughts as to my care and my concern about my son after everything I had personally already done when they decided to get involved as to whoever's behest in comparison though was the year after a whiny teenager from the Bothell area was embarrassed because I had called my son over when the tennis coaches were not doing their job paying attention to actually coaching the teenagers and the whiny other teammate's coaches had complained because they were not adult enough to walk over to me themselves to actually tell me their feelings about how I had coached my son better than the tennis coaches had of which the taller of the male tennis coaches told me while the waters of the ocean were to the behind of him as he informed me as to the amount of money that male's mom and dad pay for his tennis lessons; which the tennis coach from the whiny teenager's side had heard me inform that coach from Steilacoom as to obviously the coach was not good enough or worth the money being paid as per the fact as to that whiny male only knowing how to hit a ball in one direction compared to actually playing tennis, as it was not known as to when I had played tennis when growing up in New Jersey I was undefeated throughout each year I had done so in camp as usually with the exception of 2 matches the final score was 40 Love in my favor of course. However nonetheless it would not be a surprise as to the other situations because of the requirement as to the grades and the ways of which all of a sudden after guessing the football coaches heard me pop off and stand my ground against each aspect I suppose, as to my son being picked up by the football team though attempting to steer him in a different direction because of several factors which when the grades were not up to a B minimum for all classes was when the Accelerated courses were asked for.

* 2019: I received a happy birthday phone call from the phone number my son had at the time as I was on the east-coast after stopping by a few locations to request assistance in specific ways as well as ask if the requirement for the technology pieces I had at the time for review while taking care of a few things before going back towards Washington state for a few things along the oceanic waters as well to which I had wished to be able to see my son for his birthday though such was denied as I had figured as to such because of the amount of lies I was being told and annoyed by, as per the previous portion as to it having been 10 years since my SCUBA Diving achievements which had not ever been officially or correctly recognized at such times and of which the Laws of the Ocean kicked into full gear for the hypothetical portions for such viewpoints as possibly noticed and/or seen; though none had returned contact to me, nor had asked me any specific questions in honesty which in turn I went to go handle which situations I could

* 2020: Presidential rallies and election work at the time of with such previous descriptions already having gone into regarding such aspects to which the 20 year anniversary of such a survival was known to me though it was as it was in the rest of Texas for the 20 year survival portions from my coma and from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury during Basic Training at Fort Sill Oklahoma when in the Army branch of the United States of America's Armed Forces after my initial return and arranging thereof while acclimating from the electrical portions from what occurred when I was in Washington state and the additional portions thereof as well as the possibility of time at the Montana Vortex briefly

* 2021: I began the first few hours of my official 21st birthday typing up this journal blog entry which when taking a look at just the past 21 years of such in one day for the past 21 years, I suppose I can sarcastically write as to how my childhood and teenager years must be imagined in reference to what I had gone through and dealt with in reference to being able to asp best as possible dealt with all such combined situations to remain as calm as possible under such levels of pressure; though I do not think it takes a head injury to figure out to deal with all of that in one day each year in brief for 21 years, possibly I had a bit of stress in my childhood and teenager years which had kind of assisted in such aspects for good or bad or indifferent depending upon the overall view as to why to not ever judge any type of an actual or a proverbial metaphor of a book by its proverbial cover or outer aspects seen externally however so



However it is what it is in reference to the #Pacific Pacific area of the ocean regarding the aspects of as I had done the best I could to contact and keep in contact with my son while keeping in mind the portions of the east coast in reference to the #Atlantic Atlantic area of the oceanic waters while additionally taking into consideration as to the #GulfofMexico Gulf of Mexico waters in a few locations along the coastline during such times, as an addition to the reference aspects as to Irving and other such occurrences in regards of such aspects within The Big Blue Book or The Blue Book Project; though ironic when taking into consideration the name of the color for the project, and a specific identification card type for only specific individuals within the Armed Forces of the United States of America as to other such aspects regarding transfer situations as well as other such situations thereof for consideration regarding the clearing and such fixing and repairing various portions thereof as per such knowledge of the official portions as to the United States Space Force being signed officially into record for such hypotheticals thereof.



In the reference to the aspects as to the meeting at the BBQ to which I wondered if having children involved with the political scene in reference to the larger numbers of people in the overall area and being able to ask questions of when the timing of the candidates referencing when townhall meetings and the like are held, as to the ways which as seen in the earlier decades as to the ways which some had used children as I had been informed; there are not many Democrats nor many Republicans who have younger children involved with certain length of term members in the Congress or in the Senate, as usually it is a larger number of college aged students who are in the areas of such individuals comparatively as to such portions of pictures and videos. I had wondered why would some teach children to get involved with the political portions as to the events thereof in areas which the scanned identifications were not enforced and the open areas as to the ability to have a line of sight in just the one location with a bounce house to jump around within of which for children ideal, though the overall surroundings thereof regarding the line of sight caught my attention as well as the aspects of the ages around while also the questions being either stopped as per a child in the area being a child and/or what was explained to me as to the ways which apparently politicians and babies in regards of the ways certain pictures once looked possibly.



However in this era with the ways which technology focuses upon the positioning of various aspects just as those with certain backgrounds tend to review certain areas and portions thereof, it did seem odd and off putting when taking a look around the areas within the line of sight regarding when the children were running around. It just seems odd when thinking about earlier portions as to the Governor of New Jersey Christine Todd Whitman as to the timing of Baptist Camp Lebanon situation as to several other factors which would not be a surprise if finding certain connection points in different angles of specific time, as per the ways which technology can back check as well as back trace certain aspects as per the ways which the timing thereof referencing my biological sister getting in a marriage into a family within the state of Texas with the Miller last name and other such portions which occurred shortly after her legal marriage into that family referencing my daughter and the Fort Worth Zoo situation.



For clarification the initiation rights for the aspects as to the connection points to Irving, do not include such portions of which has been informed to me about certain groups of individuals who think pedophilia is or could ever be accepted by such beings which it is not accepted and looked down upon with disgust as well as disgrace in a multitude of ways of which while I could simply point to other timing situations which I have acknowledged to such truths in other references as to such clarifications as to the hypothetical portions thereof in the timing references and the amount of situations found within the tristate area in the year of 2001; though in such references as to what I have gone over in discussions as well as in writings the aspects thereof for such a view point as to ever thinking such would be accepted in any such ways was and is not tolerated regarding such types of beings for clarifications, aside from my own personal bias as to having survived what I do remember dealing with as a child as written about beyond Baptist Camp Lebanon as to the male babysitter my biological mother had chosen at the time until Patricia became of age for being babysat by that individual of which there is a portion as to the biblical eating of the bread reference regarding such portions in which still is considered as the legal definition similarly for clarifications especially with the combination of the age regarding such. Timing is just odd, I suppose when looking at such aspects especially when thinking about the news reports of which Greece had a law situation which some had flocked to which I wonder if the wishes if the out in plain sight are thought of when not considering the knowledge of the underground caverns and caves as per the other aspects already having gone over in reference to safety and such aspects thereof in regards of concerns to take a look into if such matters as I have thought it has as per writings as well as explanations previously.



However with the aspects of being 21 years awake from my coma as to the ironic portions as to what occurred when I was 29 years old in reference to the other portions regarding having not the slightest concern for Patrick Kennedy's complaints regarding his costume that evening of such other ironic portions as to other prior when in New Jersey and at a sleepover regarding the specifics thereof having occurred in a multi-faceted aspect especially when taking into consideration the wrongful murder of my good name and my reputation by such callous individuals and careless lack of thoughts hypothetically, there is the fact as to I have lived another year or I suppose as I personally normally just say because of how situations had been and had continued over such times; I have been breathing, or shortened as I'm breathing.



While there has not ever been any official message in which was sent to my message area within my website for any such discussions or portions thereof which in reference to specifically reaching out by any who I once knew through the specifics of the direct contact other than one individual I had known when I was in Crystal Lake South High School as I was told via such though had not seen in person nor had responses since only a scheduled timed phone call instead of the ways such once had been previously, the aspects as to the repeated aspects shown as to the unwanted artist has been repeated in my opinion as to the situations thereof as to simply telling the truth as per if having had known me and/or known of me in the open areas thereof and/or via the most simple of ways as through the contact message area in truth and genuinity in comparison to what has occurred as documented. While if such were as simple as the ways which had already been arranged for such clarifications, it is also ironic how many people have known more about the Blue Book Project or as I have called it the Big Blue Book and if there were those who had not figured it out about the color aspects prior to such portions of my having written; if such was not previously noticed before my writing such by any individuals, well maybe those who had tried to push college might want to bring forward what degree(s) they earned and the grade point levels thereof for such clarifications as to such an oversight while being able to defend ass to what their levels of colleges have in comparison to my 26 SCUBA Diving certifications which again I thin that common sense truly might be an additional superpower.



Though there is an additional irony about this my birthday the 29th of August being the countdown day, of number 13 to such reference aspects.

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Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

REMEMBER:

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After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

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Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

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Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

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Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

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After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

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Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

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Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

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Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Model Author Susan MeeLing

It should not take a head injury to figure this out because I thought you are supposed, to be smarter.

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If there are those who find such interesting enough to research further to bring forward more information in reference to the forefront for more detailed information, as usual I request the courtesy of the same which I do in reference to how I refer to articles for reference points when writing my journal blog entries; for each one used for reference starting points, to research for clearer understanding from such knowledge.

 

That is common sense, good etiquette, and good karma; whilst lifting others upward, in positive ways.

Quotes which mean a lot to me:

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"The ultimate measure of an individual is not where they stand in moments of comfort and convenience, but where they stand at the time of challenge and controversy."

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"We must reject the idea that every time a law is broken society is guilty, rather than the law breaker.  Freedom is never-more than one generation away, from extinction.  We do not pass freedom on through our blood stream because freedom must be fought for, protected, and handed on for the next generation to do the same."

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"Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.  Though best to be able to share in person with who matters, until that time occurs being able to see what is possible through such is a feat to notice.  One must be happy within oneself prior to being happy with another, though such can be enjoyed if living in one's own truth is as such. and then as to the capability to progress forward with another and/or others depending upon the situation(s) and individual(s)."  ~  A Quote From Me, Reverend Susan MeeLing also known as Lady Dori Belle

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In such references if there are any inaccuracies then I will fix and repair such details on my website, as per such.


Though there are the aspects of which if you would like to speak with me in addition to possibilities of opportunities for me, the welcome aspects as to contacting me through my contact form.



If I have known you in person when in person in positive ways and/or ways which might need clarification(s) as to mature discussions, there has always been the welcome open door policy as to contacting me through my contact form if you were not given my new phone number though such is online regarding my website more recently published online as to my Website Business Phone Line: (360)-713-4937.

Thus far there has been only one who has known the contact form area to speak with me on a phone line was simple and capable to do so through, in truth.

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