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It should not take a head injury

*after personally sustaining a head injury & coma*

to figure this out...









A Satirical Blog

*(utilizing articles discussing facts)*

By:  Susan MeeLing

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.



When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.


If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.


You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit.  Thank you in advance, as I do as I request.

Dancing, Modeling, Performing, and Writing; my payments are now due in full

When in #Washington state I went to a #Seattle #ComedyClub which the week of #RobinWilliam’s death I had told my now ex-boyfriend Jesse Leroy Hoover Jr, I wanted to go to try a #standup #comedy for that tribute. Looking back now I find it to be quite odd that same evening I met a female named Rebecca Shrader at that exact comedy club I went to, in #Seattle of #Washington state. Rebecca Shrader and I spoke outside of the comedy club in the sidewalk area before the time to go on the stage came, and later Rebecca Shrader had wanted to meet with me at #Alikibeach to talk over a cup of coffee. I state in writing of the oddities as to not realizing at that time in that year of the coinky dink of a female named Rebecca Shrader meeting with me on the exact night in the city of which I had google searched online of the comedy club for #openmic #standupcomedy, for someone who has the exact same name as one of the females who lost my daughter at the #ForthWorthZoo showing up to that exact location. If hypothetically that female I met at the comedy blub before the Alkiki Beach coffee shop was the exact same Rebecca Shrader who was one of the three females (the other two being Marcie Creamans and Sarah Brown ?spelling?) who lost my daughter at the Fort Worth Zoo in April 2010; hypothetically that is a bit much beyond a coinky dink and shows targeting and stalking across state lines, instantaneously. #FBI, just a quick FYI.

However in addition to such I am adding a few points for those who might need a specific set of descriptions in reference to performances as well as photographers I have done some modeling with, or performances for the shows of. This list will be written in an alphabetical order, but in such I will put the timeline as best as possible of what I can remember to attempt to make it easier. I guesstimate certain aspects of the phone switching stuff for technology aspects might not transfer fully with at the time of the modeling I was doing, thus hopefully this will help better for law enforcement. Each I had met through either #modelmayhem or through #fetlife, as there are several who had taken pictures of me at events; which I technically had not modeled for in the same capacity. Though I do not remember which email account(s) I had used to go through that aspect of arrangements, I will give as much from what I can remember as best as I can.

After having gone to the #FBI, #CID, attempting to find the #CIA but had reached out, #Congress, #Senate, #POTUS, #VPOTUS, #FLOTUS, #FFOTUS, the #SupremeCourt, the #Pentagon, the various branches of the #ArmedForces of the #UnitedStatesofAmerica’s military tops, #NOAA, #NASA, Mr. and Mrs. Gates, #Google, #Microsoft, Mr. Besoz, #Amazon, #ATT, #Yahoo, Mr. Zuckerberg, #Facebook, #GeekSquad, #BestBuy, (I write such because I understand some of the organizations and businesses have other people read the mail before it gets to their hands) and several others throughout in reference to what occurred in regards of my Medal of Honor Art Project and the #justice needed for the aspects of the stalking and the hacking; I know at this point I cannot go anywhere without individuals associated with, who might be paying attention to what is going on around me as well as who is within the nearby areas whether in person or online or through my cellphones. Thus as it is known though admittedly I forget, hopefully if the requirements for such are able to be found and figured out through.

I had never had an agent who represented me for any event I was involved in, I had never been paid for my modeling or performances, and I never gave anyone permission to represent me ever. If anyone had or has been defrauded by whomever told them a lie, that is something hopefully this can also assist with. Though I also had not known the ability to be paid, was ever an option until after some time in #Washington state; which could have really assisted, with a lot that had been going on.

Hopefully if there are payments that are due to me for such, I receive all of such quickly. I had not given any photographer/videographer permission to ever put cameras anywhere in any portion of my house(s) nor apartment(s) I was living in nor any hotel I went to nor any place I had been with the exception of knowing in public there are cameras in various locations and I never gave anyone permission to run my camera(s) on my cellphones or computers/laptops/tablets/etcetera at all times without using such for the specific intended purpose I chose, though at this point for safety aspects and since I comprehend people had lied about me; there are most likely cameras and monitoring devices which are in my apartment due to the lies which were said about me, but also with what I had written and my Medal of Honor Art Project.

The construction company which my ex-sister-in-law Susie Marie Nichols-Lopez had recommended who had completed the work on Grandma Nichols’ house as well, were not given permission to install anything except the rooms as per my description. However if such information is needed by the people who purchased my house in Carrollton Texas, then there is that additional information. The same in reference to #CactusJack AKA Jeffrey Kuykendall Jr in reference to his obsession with technology, he did not ever have permission as at this point I guesstimate it is comprehended of the reality of such. He never had my permission to record anything nor follow me nor have any contact with my son or my daughter, ever afterwards without my direct knowledge and involvement to ensure their safety. Due to the way his father had been with alcohol and giving some to my daughter without my permission and attempted to calm me down from such, his father Jeffrey Kuykendall had been informed not to ever give my daughter alcohol or anything intoxicating ever again; which their family did not defend my choice, with the exception of Jeremy Kuykendall. At Racheal Kuykendall’s wedding reception had been when Jeffrey Kuykendall was ordered not to ever do that, ever again; which had been before he had grabbed me, after my surgeries and no one in the family defended me. If there is an association with the group of males who jumped out of the trees to surround me at the Excalibur #RenaissanceFaire the last year it was called such in #Smithville #BastropCounty #Texas, whatever year the last year was for that event; would be the year of when they began stalking me, if hypothetically such connections are accurate. However if when I had to sell the house in Carrollton Texas because of what occurred to my daughter at #McCoyElementarySchool during the time there as well as during the #FWZoo field trip and the hospitals which my daughter should have been put into #SpecialNeedsEducation as I had repeatedly requested; if the people who purchased the house found any cameras, I did not install them nor allow them to be installed.

I understand the reality of rewriting the Torah and the Quran as well as the Old Testament and New Testament of the Holy Scriptures of the #Bible, though in a more modernized context as well as the pictures of modeling combined with my Medal of Honor Art Project might have caused the law enforcement agencies of the United States of America to get involved especially after realizing I had been taken out of the state of Texas and in Washington state, however I guesstimate there have been aspects which have proven if anyone claimed I was able to install techy techy devices; those lies of those people, have been proven to have been lies of those people. However because of my Medal of Honor Art Project and the need to verify certain aspects of while I am not happy about such type of monitoring because of the knowledge and comprehension it has to do with the hacking and stalking issues from before my Medal of Honor Art Project now, though I understand for certain safety precautions because of; I am not happy such aspects of justice have taken as long for what has occurred, in reference to what others did to cause harm to my Medal of Honor Art Project.

I do remember one day at Mike and Patty’s house Master Charles had said he had seen what I look like when I have orgasmed though never having had ever been with him, which caused Allen to inquire further. The first time I met Master Charles had been when I was dating Thomas Marsden AKA Raven_Marsden on fetlife and he definitely never had my permission, for anything ever. I was dating that male back just a few weeks before the 9-1-1 phone call I had written of prior, for the female in the apartment complex on USAA Boulevard; which was after the end of the association with The Jade Wolfe Coven as well as ending the dating of Thomas Marsden. There are several photographers I had not heard back from who either had done the photography in their apartment or house, mainly in the Austin area or Dallas area of Texas; however there had been two photographers who were in #SanAngelo who I had gone out to their house, and one had met for a church with a cemetery location in, the other in #Houston.

Aaron Stone who had a business called “Fearless Photography”: end of 2008 through to 2010

Aaron and whatever his girlfriend who was living with him at his house at the time when I met him had completed photography of me in a couple of parks in #DFW area of #Texas as well as in #Austin at what he said was his house, and later at my house in #Carrollton Texas during the construction phases of the second floor addition to that house.

Andres Photography: 2009 or 2010

Park in either Austin if in 2010, or Dallas area if in 2009

Airport Photoshoot: 2010

The photoshoot with the airplanes as well as the farm equipment and motorcycles were arranged through the female who played Galinda for the Wizard of Oz photoshoot with Art Cantu Photography, as she knew the photographers.

Art Cantu Photography: 2009 and 2010

Dallas area, he (former Marine) and his wife (from New Jersey or New York) with their son had a house if I am correct near the #Richardson area of Texas and before the #WizardofOz photoshoot, they had rented a couple of hotel rooms in the nearby area of #DeepElum.

Austin Art & Glamour Photography: 2010

His duplex house was set up as a photo studio similarly to Saint Elmo Sound Stage, but inside of a smaller residential community.

Blackrose Photography: 2010

Austin area of Texas, a park near a water area

Casey Romanski Photography: 2010

Deep Elum in Dallas Texas, the Constantine wire was near a construction area being rebuilt across the street from the club with the stage the pictures are on

Craig Naked Lens Photography: 2010 or 2011

An underground event where the password was needed for the location of the event or the name of the event was Blue Waffles or Disturbation.

Dallas Runway Model Photography: 2010 or 2011

The male known as Hoodie or Hoody on fetlife during that time who had gotten married to Lilith for the Heaven and Hell wedding ceremony at #TheLizzardLounge had arranged the fashion show with #TexasLeatherMasters and I do not know the name of the fashion designer who had hand sewn the different outfits for the Sin runway portion.

Dionysian Photography: late 2009 and 2010

He had met with me in public at a restaurant before the photoshoot at my house, while my then fiancé was at Basic Training. Later Maitresse Renee and Jason had told me they hired him to be a photographer for some of Maitresse Renee’s work, and then Jason had discussed putting in security cameras in the house which I had given him a few ideas to keep Renee safe from certain aspects. Though I did not know Donnie_Darko AKA Phillip Omstead had been messing with the stuff as he had asked me about being a ‘Power couple’, which he thought would be a good idea; telling me just before one of the events at Renee and Jason’s house. I did not agree to such which upset him and that night or the night after he had asked, was the event which Renee’s mom arrived at the house during that event.

Duct Tape Dave: 2010 and 2011

He was taking pictures at Maitresse Renee’s and Jason’s house for several events they held for multiple groups of the Dallas area of Texas, as well as a couple of events when in Austin Texas.

Edge Boudoir Photography: 2010

San Angelo area of Texas

Gerald Goh Photography: 2010

Granite store warehouse in Dallas Texas

Jay Shirtz Photography: 2010

House with his fiancé in Dallas area of Texas

Joseph Lopez Photography: 2010 through 2011

San Marcos Austin area of Texas, he lived with his wife and their two or three children

Lance Selago Photography: 2010

Dallas Strokers Motorcycle Club photoshoot

LeBlanc Photography: 2010

Dallas Strokers Motorcycle Club photoshoot, the flat black paint motorcycle was his or his friend’s

Lenny XXtremeposure Photography: 2010

Austin area of Texas, at his house

Made By Sam Photography: 2010 through to current in 2020

Originally started in his and his wife’s Nikki’s house in Austin Texas near Lucksinger Lane before he got Saint Elmo’s Sound Stage Studio and if you look at certain ironic coinky dinks, the Dauschund dogs barking to get attention before returning back to the state of Texas

Marc Salas Photography: 2009

At my house after some of the construction had been completed, but not all of the construction had been done yet. There was a male photographer who I had a session with after him but I had never received the pictures from and he and I emailed back and forth several times, which he said he mailed the CD; though it never arrived at my house.

Milind Kothaire Photography: 2010

Airport Photoshoot in the DFW area of Texas, at a private airport

Mitch Todd Photography: 2010

Airport Photoshoot in the DFW area of Texas, at a private airport

Modeling/Belly Dancing at a Gloryhole Girls’ event: Oblivion Photography: 2010

I had coordinated with Lilith who had taught the class for the Dominant Mentor’s Program in Dallas for the Belly Dancing routines I did, and she found Dusty Dawn on fetlife to be the in-between belly dancer; which Dusty Dawn had not wanted to pick out her own music and let me choose the song for her.

Olympian Photoshoot: 2012

At a house in Killeen or Austin Texas which Flame, Cross, and Kitty had known the photographer who allowed Trish AKA Megere to take a few pictures

Paco Romero Photography: 2010

At his and his wife’s house

Robert Dombowski: 2011

At his studio which he taught photography classes in Dallas

Temple of Flesh: 2009 and 2011

In 2009 I had been the opening performance act of the strip tease for the swing version of The Star Spangled Banner played and sung by The Denver Mile High Club and in 2011 I had been the “most wanted of the shoppe” in the show Pervs in Toyland, the ballerina poster girl who had lead all of the others in the revolt against the characters ‘Bitch’ and ‘Douche’. Those who did not realize there had been any #Photoshop in reference to Temple of Flesh posters and flyers, I am sure there are plenty who can see otherwise; and I had always spoken the truth. The first row of three pictures is from my performance I had not been paid for in 2009, and the second row of three pictures is from 2011. I have never had tattoo removal as I believe when you get a tattoo for such to be permanent unless getting one out of the vending machine; however I did not do so in either case first because as a child my biological parents would not allow me to and secondly, because I am biologically an adult despite the mentality aspects of the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury.

While I was in the midst of dealing with specific issues in reference to McCoy Elementary School, I had attempted while living in an apartment in #Irving #Texas to get help through various means. When I had not heard back from any lawyer I called who did not have the phone pick up when I called as well as emailed, I decided to try another measure which had been to write about what occurred. I received an email response from Tye Books Company which the person told me to email me a book and when I had, I received an email stating the book I sent them was not good enough for them to publish ever. I continued doing what I could since there had not been any response whatsoever and though I had continued trying, I am still awaiting for the credit due to me; as well as my actual payments I earned in full. If the individual at Tye Book company had illegally registered my writings because of their denial email; I hope there is justice in full as the individual from the company said they would not use my life story, and as it is mine and mine alone. Ironic of a news article I recently read about Sea Lions, and Seattle area of Washington.

However, here are a few other pictures taken which I had not seen or received contact from the photographer since the photoshoot in Houston and a few other locations in Texas; though I did model once in Seattle with Turley as the photographer.

It should not take a head injury to figure this out, because you are smarter.

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The Ornery PSA

Quotes which mean a lot to me:

The ultimate measure of an individual is not where they stand in moments of comfort and convenience, but where they stand at the time of challenge and controversy.

We must reject the idea that everytime a law is broken society is guity, rather than the law breaker. 

Freedom is never-more than one generation away, from exinction.  We do not pass freedom on through our blood stream because freedom must be fought for, protected, and handed on for the next generation to do the same.

Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.


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Brightest blessings to all, for the highest good.

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The modeling pictures are of me and while I have images of other aspects in my journal blog entries as well as links to articles, those are those journalists' work and I have given them credit for such without taking any credits from their writings/photography/etcetera.  Hence why I posted their names, the companies the journalsts worked for at the time, and so on. 


While I did not state the photography of such were mine; again in reference of the links to the direct articles in my journal blog, being fully available to be seen as to not take credit away, from each of the photo-journalists and writers thereof. 


The same is in reference of my first book "Finding A Silver Lining By:  Susan MeeLing", in reference to credits due to each individual writing within that specifically are for legal purposes of references and for examples; in comparison to my own writings, of which are the majority of within those pages.

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