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It should not take a head injury

*after personally sustaining a head injury & coma*

to figure this out...









A Satirical Blog

*(utilizing articles discussing facts)*

By:  Susan MeeLing

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.



When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.


If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.


You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 


Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.


Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Correction in timeline of dates of tattoos and a few other points

When I was volunteering at Nine Lives Books in San Antonio Texas, there were quite a few oddities at the time to put mildly in a few words.

It was 2005 when I began volunteering at #NineLivesBooks on 410 in the shopping center near the #Walmart and #SamsClub, as initially I had done some of the energy healing work in a booth near the back of the store in the esoteric book section. The manager of the store as well as the Psychic Faire named Lisa who was a proclaimed animal whisperer had made the arrangements for where each person would set up, of which by the time of my involvement many of the different individuals had a fairly large clientele following comparatively. In that year shortly after I had started setting up shop in the area, the owner Suzanne had decided to arrange for a commercial to be done for the Psychic Faire as Lisa had requested. Though I had asked if I could complete an energetic spiritual cleansing before the commercial, it would not be until later when I would be asked to do so as at the time Lisa had been in charge of doing such. During the weekends when the faires were going on, I did not have many who visited with me and being in the section I was in; I was able to spend much time reading the books throughout the section which was quite large.

After several months a few people did ask for a reading which I used the Goddess Oracle deck, and though sometimes the readings were a bit in depth for who I spoke with; later they had returned to say how clear the discussions were, for the way I put such into words for them. I had completed a few Reiki healing sessions and of the few, there was one which stood out quite a bit. I had completed a reading for the Mom's friend a few weeks prior and the Mom brought her son to see me, which he was not interested nor did he believe much about the Reiki healing. He and I talked for around an hour or so which I informed him of nor needing to be uptight about the stuff I did and knowing how my energetic healing can be done, because I knew not only of his disbelief though also because of his discomfort in the location; I told him within the time of one week, the energy would begin working for him and when it did, I told him he needed to drink quite a bit of water for the assistance as when it would permeate such would stun him because of his disbelief.

I told him how he could not rush the process and when he felt such beginning to work, to relax and not freak out as best as he could. He scoffed a bit which I simply smiled and told him "I know what I am talking about, just as I know not to touch you when working on you as you do not feel comfortable with such at this time. I know how to do such healing, in a quantum sort of way." Though he flinched a bit, that was when he felt comfortable enough to allow me to begin working on him. If I am accurate, I completed a Chakra Therapy session with Reiki healing to assist and I chose to add the Gemstone Therapy in simply because it was needed despite that not being the original agreement. When I was done I woke him from sleeping and asked what he saw and felt from the session, which he said he did not have words to describe what he saw or felt though was surprised he fell asleep. His Mom was surprised as well as she knew her son and had not seen him fall asleep outside of certain locations, and definitely not in a location with many people walking around and talking nearby.

Shortly after the commercial was videoed is when I began volunteering at Nine Lives Bookstore, assisting in the online section for the book sales. That was a bit nerve wrecking for me knowing of my problems with technology though the individual who had been working in the section named Daniel had taught me how to use the website for #Amazon, list the books after researching them, and look through the pages for any blemishes. As I know how to speed read, as I checked through the books I also read each of the books I listed. By the time I began volunteering I had already been introduced to Jamie Robles also known as Lazy Eye and her then ex-boyfriend Cactus Jack also known as Jeffrey Kuykendall Jr. Jamie said she had to introduce us because of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury and the after effects, as well as because of the points which I told her of not having seen many movies or read many comic books. As Cactus Jack AKA Jeffrey Kuykendall Jr and Lazy Eye AKA Jamie Robles were highly interested in both and more in regards of #PopCulture, it was unheard of to them for anyone to be lacking such sorts of knowledge.

Thus while the time of the Psychic Faires in between reading the books in the section and the few healing sessions and/or readings I had done, randomly I spoke with the two of them. However after awhile I was able to complete some spiritual energetic cleansings at the Nine Lives Bookstore, which Lisa Williams the animal whisperer had mentioned of problems having done so. Such did not bother me though the aspects which upset her had been in my opinion additional, because of Cactus Jack saying he for awhile had been trying to date Lisa and since the aspects of the situation I was in regarding my now dead-ex-husband and the open marriage-ish situation, the comments Cactus Jack said to her had seemingly caused a bit of a rift as Lisa Williams had been accustomed to the males of the store and those who went to paying more attention to her than any other female. When I learned later of a silent partner involved with Nine Lives Books and asked about who the individual was, most did not want to discuss Michael; of which in all honesty I did not know what a silent partner was until around 2015 or 2016, when I was told by an individual who was a silent partner for the club I volunteered at and he explained to me what that was. The Cat Sanctuary was a big deal at the time in the store and the different people who worked in the store had made quite a few comments one way or another in reference to the volunteers in that portion, which seemingly as I looked on there were quite a few who were taking advantage of Suzanne from both sides. Mainly in reference to such I saw what Lisa Williams was doing in reference to the energetic aspects while seeing the cat sanctuary individuals pulling on Suzanne's heart strings to help as she could, while wondering what else was going on which felt to be odd.

Mainly keeping to myself while speaking with Daniel and the financial manager Ken Westmeyer, the three of us spoke quite a bit together. While they knew of the aspects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, Ken and Daniel both had issues calling me Susan since such was close to the name of Suzanne; thus I told them of my middle name MeeLing, and that was the name I was known by there. Noticing certain oddities in reference to Lisa Williams' behaviour shift as the time went on as the portions in reference to her bringing up the need to point out she was the manager of the Psychic Faire as well as the manager at the store, when speaking with the males seemingly there were more aspects of contention developing when looking back now in 2020. As the time went on in reference also to the aspects of how the relationship situation occurred in reference to Cactus Jack and the set up there, after I was done with dealing with the lies from my now dead-ex-husband; I chose to get a few tattoos, to assist my memory problems because of the fact I knew I had written notations in notebooks to help me remember though I could not find them any longer. The first 7 tattoos were completed before the end of 2005, as there were also situations in reference to my biological mother specifically which I needed to pay attention to.

As there had been a doctor appointment at Lackland Air Force Base in San Antonio which is now #JBLM in which I had previously warned my biological mother to behave, there was a situation in which she began throwing a temper tantrum while screaming at me and crying while on post beginning in the smoking section near the hospital though moving to the section several yards away from the door entrance. She grabbed her cellphone to call my biological father her husband to help calm the situation down not paying attention to the fact, she was the one who had to calm herself down. I hung the phone up on my biological father because the situation had nothing to do with him and only had to do with my biological mother's overreaction which in irony, she was calling me overdramatic as she was wailing and crying over a few words I had said in the smoking section. As she called my biological father several times and handed me the phone several times which I hung up the phone each time because he had nothing to do with the situation and he knew of the realities in reference to when going onto a military installation to behave unlike my biological mother, she ran off into other areas crying and causing more of a scene than was necessary.

In my defense I thought if I had run after her and the second I put my hands onto her shoulders, the crying would have been worse as well as the aspects in reference to my headaches being elevated to migraine level already just from that situation. When going to my neurologist doctor appointment which I was waiting in the lobby a bit longer because of the doctor running late with prior appointments, I figured if the military police needed to speak with me they would have easily found me; as at the time my hairstyle was similar to what it is now, with the exception of the length of the whispies on the side of my head. I did tell my neurologist about what occurred just before the appointment which I was told if I was needed, the installation'[s police would get me. Since later in the months and years no one asked me about such, I figured my biological mother denied who brought her on post just as per her pattern of behaviour which can be seen; in reference to my biological sister's wedding and the family, she married into. Her in-laws were not told about me until much later from the beginning point of their relationship through the years of them dating and after their engagement, had been the first time I was introduced to her fiance; only because I had asked about the status change on her Facebook account, saying she was engaged. I had not known she was dating anyone and as much as I spoke with my biological parents throughout the years, that was not something which ever came up when asking about how my biological sister was doing. Thus at this point in 2020, I chalk such up to the stereotypical bahaviour as both those times were not the only times which I had been denied of being known by my own biological family not just in the state of Texas; though also in Illinois, New Jersey, New York, and Pennsylvania. I was accustomed to that well before my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, thus the aspects of the treatment which it did not phase me.

Nonetheless in reference to the first time I met Michael at Nine Lives Book Store, I had been told all sorts of stories about him which did not seem to add up when actually speaking with him and thus I did not see what others meant. Instead of the aspects in reference to the overt attitude, he seemed to be quite stoic though at the same time a bit quiet compared to what I had been told of the boisterousness. Though there were disagreements in reference to the terminology of words, I was able to joke around with him and he was able to joke around with me in reference to puns; which he even understood the aspect of my saying, two thirds of a pun as I did not have to spell out the word for him to understand the meaning. Though not a fan of the aspects in regards of the spiritual aspects, he and I still spoke of different topics which the others of the store seemed to have problems with in certain circumstances; as few understood how I could speak with him, as they were not able to find any common ground to talk about much.

Shortly after the third meeting of Michael before I ever had been given a key to the back door, I had gotten several of my tattoos taken care of. I bring up the portion of the key aspect mainly because of Lisa Williams constantly or at minimum saying enough times for me to remember of her being the manager and having the keys to every area of the store, though such was not of importance in such ways to me personally. I understood why the manager was given the keys, which it did not make sense to me about why such was brought up to me. Though that had begun around the time of Daniel and Ken not speaking as much with Lisa Williams, at the time. As I showed the ankle tattoos I had gotten one of which is a greyscale flaming Rose heart with blood droplets and the other is a blue Lotus, I discussed my purposes for the reasons why; not realizing the cognitive aspects were quite prevalent back then simply for such as needing to see the symbols for the assistance for my memory. Not forgetting the Faery, Dragon, deer with Lily flowers, and Reiki spiritual symbol in my skin on my back area for the similar aspects to point out the cognitive disorders in reference to such supposed to be able to help my memory; when thinking about such now, in 2020. Though I had also gotten the tattoos in the center of my palms one red and one green, as well as the back of my hands of healing symbols as well in blue and in yellow which have additional tattoos to such in the skin in the back of my hands; all before the end of 2005.

At one point Michael had asked me about my tattoos and the reasons for such as he understood the aspects of my shorter hairstyle in reference to my headaches and migraines, though the coloring I chose had seemed a bit odd for him to see in San Antonio Texas. Though few had known as to how bad the marriage to my now dead-ex-husband had been at the time, I did not discuss much about that aspect as not wanting to pay attention to that when at Nine Lives Books and volunteering. The books were far more interesting to read as well as doing different healing aspects and energetic clearings, including the aspects in reference to a situation which occurred in 2005 or 2006.

There had been a situation which the cat sanctuary had taken in multiple feral cats just before moving the cats into the back area of the store where the online sales books were kept because Lisa Williams thought that would be better than in the front of the store, which drove Daniel away from the store and Ken kept the door closed because of. One day after Daniel and I went to drop off the books to the Post Office and went to Jim's Restaurant on I10 and Huebner, there was a phone call which came in for me from the store as they knew Daniel and I stopped by there and spent time with the retired military guys and sometimes their spouses in the smoking section. I was asked if I had a first aid kit in my car which of course I did, though was confused as to why the store did not have one in the store at the time; especially with the cat sanctuary, though such was not answered. I returned to the table, told Daniel we needed to get back to Nine Lives Books which I finished my coffee and cigarette while the waitress printed out the ticket to then go pay and leave to return to the store.

Walking into the front of the store as by then I still did not have the keys to the back door as such was different than the front door key as I was told, I saw one of the volunteers for the cat sanctuary covered in blood. After I spoke asking why they did not call 9-1-1 I went over to the teenager male and his teenager girlfriend, asking if they had called their parents yet. The male said he called his Mom though she was probably sleeping as it was around nap time for the other children, and when I asked about if he called his Dad he told me his Dad was stationed overseas. I knew that meant he had a military identification card as well as military insurance and such was confirmed, before I started getting him ready to get to my van to drive him over to BAMC. The girlfriend asked if she could go with which I told her she needed to call her parents and if it was okay I would let her stay with at the hospital or I would drive her back to the store, depending on what her parents said; though the hesitation to move the boyfriend to the car, was not needed at the time as much blood as he had already lost. His grey t shirt and grey sweatpants were completely saturated with blood from just above his naval down to the bottoms of his sneakers, and I heard the squishy sound when shoes are wet from the amount of blood he had lost up to that point.

In the van I admit I sped a bit more than normal to get the teenager to the hospital, though also with the energetic aspects I was doing to keep him awake and alive was what it was. He told me he was not going to tell the truth to the doctors, which I told him he needed to when the girlfriend said her Dad wanted to speak with me; which I did briefly and though he wanted to meet for coffee to talk, that was not my focus at the time for what was occurring. Thankfully when arriving there was not a line of cars as per usual for the time to get onto post, and we arrived at the Emergency Room fairly quickly; just around 10 minutes after leaving Nine Lives Books so I sped a smidgen around 11:30am, despite the lunch hour traffic normalcy and normal traffic for the area near Nine Lives Books no matter what time of the day. After getting him squared away with the intake aspects and as later I was told it was okay for me to leave the base at the time, I returned to Nine Lives Books instead of going to my house to recover. As I went to the back area there was a phone call from Fort Sam Houston which I spoke with the male who called asking about the situation, and I gave the information necessary for the son's survival and proper medical treatment to achieve such.

Though looking back now I can joke of the possibility of the son's Dad having been the one who I spoke with as the phone with the nurse in the Emergency Room had a phone call directly to the phone next to her from when I had checked the male into the hospital, which she then walked over to where the male and the girlfriend were sitting with me to say his Dad was on the phone and it was okay for me to leave as he was thankful I brought his son into the Emergency Room. As the phone for Nine Lives Books rang with the Fort Sam Houston Animal Control phone number just as I was closing the door to the back area, hence my ability to make a small joke about the possibilities of it having been so.

Nonetheless around that point in time when such had occurred my now-dead-ex-husband then just ex-husband had already finished the training for the #TexasNationalGuard and was overseas, of which the situation where I was yelled at for saluting the American Flag and those who were graduating from that training before going overseas which Cactus Jack AKA Jeffrey Kuykendall Jr had participated in the agreeing of why he felt the excuses of which I had been yelled at were reasonable. I had not seen a problem with saluting the American Flag during the National Anthem of the Star Spangled Banner as well as those graduating even though I was not in a military uniform, as I was simply respecting the American Flag and those who were trained to continue on with what was needed for the time of; while being appreciative of my freedoms as well as being patriotic, not thinking such was a problem tp be grateful for.

Admittedly when SCUBA Diving years later at the USS/USNS Vandenberg and seeing the American Flag flying I saluted the flag on my descent, as well as upon my ascent safely. Just as during the time of the graduation how I cannot nor would I take the salute back, I cannot and will not take the salute back from when I was in the area of the Atlantic area of the ocean; and as ornery and as childish as such may come across, you cannot make me. :-P

Though there were additional situations in reference to Lisa Williams beyond the aspects of the managerial aspects as well on top of the aspects of the males not paying as much attention to her, she also had issues in reference to the cat sanctuary which confused me as she said she was an animal whisperer. If such was true it would make more sense for her to be around animals and not have problems with animals, in comparison I would think. I know there was a point which she was upset because of a set of books which were not kept in the Esoteric case in the section as when I had finished going through the books for online sales I asked Suzanne if it would be okay if I could check the cases since those books in the Esoteric section seemed to have a larger price tag which I thought that would do better online, of which when Lisa Williams had noticed and was upset because of my removing the books without getting her permission to go into the case as she complained; I had found the books were worth far more online than they were being sold for in the bookstore, which I had listed them online. Shortly after the cat sanctuary was being moved into the back section where the online books were with the larger number of people walking through the area; I went in one day to the area, to find there was a large section of the online books which were missing.

The Esoteric books I had been able to list online as well as several of the books which were role playing and gaming books which Cactus Jack had pointed out after Lisa Williams had complained about the fact I went into the case without her permission which had not and does not make any sense to me at this point still, had gone missing. Such also included the Big Blue Book, which had much military aspects in reference to several points in regards of Space Travel. Though I am unsure if the books which Cactus Jack had later on which I saw in the bookcase had been the same as what I had listed for Nine Lives Books, during the time of before the final separation before he became my now dead-ex-husband; both Cactus Jack and my now dead-ex-husband had discussed different ways to keep me silent and how to blame me for things as the portion of which my biological parents and biological sister had done to me already for so many years before then.

As I tend to admit what I actually have done and as I cannot and have not been able to tell a lie, the annoyances for being blamed for things I did not do have been and are quite annoying. I doubt I am the only one who does not like nor enjoy being being blamed for things I had not partook in and/or did not do, in a wrongful way. However I hope such clears the air, in multiple ways and aspects.

There was an additional point in reference to the ocean and healing aspects which such can be seen in reference of not only the portions of the energetic portions of Nine Lives Books, the teenager who I was able to get to the Emergency Room in time safely as well as a few other points. However also in reference to a point when my biological father who has diabetes was left without the ability to get into his house in San Antonio when my biological mother and biological sister had gone to #SanMarcos to check out the college there, prior to enrolling her into college. I had an odd feeling and sped over to the house to find him passed out in the backyard coughing, which I jumped over the fence to carry him over the fence, and to my car. I took him back to my house at the time, to get him healthy. In such portions of the strength as well as the healing aspects which I can do to assist various portions of the ocean, could be considered easy to be seen and quite self evident.

Non-photoshopped picture I took when SCUBA Diving at the Vandenberg during my safe ascent. See the cute little fishy?

In reference to the aspects in reference to the Star Spangled Banner's words in the lyrics:

"Oh say can you see

By the dawn's early light

What so proudly we hail

At the twilight's last gleaming

Whose broad stripes and bright stars

Through the perilous fight

O'er the ramparts we watched

Were so gallantly streaming

And the rocket's red glare

The bombs bursting in air

Gave proof through the night

That our flag IS still there

Oh save us that Star Spangled Banner yet wave

O'er the land of the free

And the HOMe of the brave"

... I can prove the flag is still there...while doing the healing energetic aspects...

The ultimate measure of an individual is not where they stand in moments of comfort and convenience, but where they stand at the time of challenge and controversy.

We must reject the idea that everytime a law is broken society is guity, rather than the law breaker. 

Freedom is never-more than one generation away, from exinction.  We do not pass freedom on through our blood stream because freedom must be fought for, protected, and handed on for the next generation to do the same.

Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.

It should not take a head injury to figure this out, because you are smarter.

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