In reference of combining all of my journals I wrote through my original #fetlife account which I will post the link at the bottom for the clarifications thereof, I am going to have the transparency brought forward as to what can be seen from the original posting dates as to the current timeframe of this day 28 November 2021 for those to see as to my original #Facebook accounts of Susan MeeLing as well as Lady Dori Belle for the additional ability to see the connection links as to what I had discussed for many years and decades in person as well as online as to such factors as best as I could as to the circumstances. Possibly such details will assist to make sense, in the comparisons thereof as to the amounts of details though in addition I do not pretend or hide myself from my truth which others should realize it is important to be honest and truthful in many more ways than just in one or two moments as it is imperative to be more capable to recognize the truth in such aspects of life for far more than some might have realized despite all of my warnings as to what I knew to bring forward to assist as best as possible.
I will begin with posting my newer updated journals from my original account and work backwards as to the irony I noticed. There will be plenty to read in the ways of, whether or not you choose to venture into the areas of the website fetlife.
Posted on 3 December 2011
This Past Year in the Dominant Mentors Program
...Wow...has it really been a year? Well...it has almost been a year...
17 December 2010...I remember the orientation like it was yesterday...well...it feels like yesterday...it really does not feel like it has been almost a year since I have started this Program...so much has happened and yet it feels like time has stood still almost...
I started the Mentors Program in Austin with the fabulous Lily Ma'am and Ms. Cenna; who if one does not know Them, one really should take the time to learn from Them as those two have so much to offer in experience, wisdom, and just in general. I cannot explain how much in awe I am of those two females and how much They sacrifice of Themselves for Their community, Their family, and Their friends. They are very strong and beautiful, it is amazing.
She who goes by Wouldn'tYouLiketoKnow who taught many of the Boot Camps and Intensives in Austin, also; an amazing person who has many things to teach, should one be open to learning from Her. So much wisdom, knowledge, understanding, experience, and the like just oozes from Her. As I highly respect Lily Ma'am and Ms. Cenna, I do so Her as well. She has taught much to me and to many and I am truly great-ful for Her time and effort.
The other Intensive/Boot Camp teacher that I had the pleasure from learning from while I was in Austin was a male named Drag. He was witty, interesting, informative, knowledgable, and fun. There was no stone that would go unturned in His class so long as He was there and no question that would go unanswered so long as he could help it. DEFINITELY a fun couple of classes.
Now, I did things differently...as I tend to do naturally...sigh...as a class, we were told we could look at the Mentors and see what we wanted to be a part of, if we wanted to be a part of anything in particular at all. ...sigh...me being me, I had to volunteer for several...well...more than several classes...why? Because I wanted to learn everything I could. Did anyone make me? Of course not...well...I take that back...someone did make me...I made me...I had to make me to prove to myself that I was worth my weight in salt that I could make this Program...I had to prove to myself that had tried my hardest...I had to prove to myself that I had tempered through the thick and the thin...I had to prove to myself that I was worth something...
Did I expect it to lead me to 2 Mentors a month? NOPE! ...sigh...but I grit my teeth a bore it because I chose that path and I said I wanted to be a part of those classes. I never thought I would get ALL of the classes I wanted...I thought I would only get SOME of them...well...I asked for them, so I got them... This Program is all about what one puts into it. I was all about putting my whole heart into it...so I did... I jumped in head first and let my heart lead me and let my feet take me where I needed to go. Though it sounds simple...it was not an easy road with everything that went on throughout the year...
My youngest, the reason why I was in Austin, was in and out of the hospital...several hospitals to be a matter of fact. In the course from October 2010 through March 2011, she had been in 5-8 different hospitals; all while I was going through the Program. She had caused injury top my eldest to the point where he had to go to the ER and be placed on crutches for several weeks and then she was hospitalized again after another incident. Once again, she was hospitalized, but this time she had to go to a Residential Treatment Facility; which is where one lives in for 24 hours, 7 days a week.
The only place that would accept her in the south was in Arkansas, so in April, I placed her in there. I would travel every other to every 3 weekends from Austin to Little Rock to visit her (13 + hours one way) from the beginning of April all the way until I finally moved back to Dallas (if you read my earlier post about Lilith Grey you'll understand the story a little better) in July 2011. Throughout the time from April through July, I had 2-3 Mentors per month, plus I still visited my daughter, plus I took care of my son, plus I ran my house, plus I had my long distance relationship with my boyfriend, plus, so on and so forth.
My first Mentor in April, was Ms. Lisa and She was one of the sweetest people I have ever met. She took me in as Her first Mentoree and guided me on my path as I was ever-so nervous. She aided me in confronting mentally and physically what I needed to in order to control myself.
Then, Sir Sparks, gave me an intense several classes and meetings which challenged me to think about many aspects of safety, myself, and what I am and am not willing to do.
Sir Scott gave a seductive class on how to approach many topics with a variety of people and subjects, and gave me ways to not be afraid to show sensuality.
Arielle opened me to what I truly am inside.
Lady Robin pointed out to me many aspects of different subjects, made me submit to my firey desires, and aided me in bringing my love for protocol out.
Sir Steven tied up my time with the tricks of the trade.
Finally, in Austin, JR guided me about the style of life.
To all of Them, I am greatly appreciative and humbled by my experiences, the information They have aided me with, the knowledge They have bestowed upon me, and all of the help They have given me. It has truly been an honor to work with all of Them and be under Their wings.
So, then I moved to back to Dallas. Close to my daughter, but not close enough...it would have to do...my son didn't want to move to Arkansas and I had to think of him as well...he wanted DFW...we were going to move back to DFW after she got out of the hospital...so might as well not move twice...right?
So my son and I move in with my boyfriend and we create this household. We start unpacking my son and my things, as I am told my daughter will not be out for several months to who knows how long in July. So, we are still unpacking things in August when the hospital tells me, "By the way, the insurance company says they will not pay anything past this date in September..." Well...my boyfriend had a 2 bedroom apartment...not a 3 bedroom...so we had to look for a new apartment...repack my stuff and my son's stuff...pack my boyfriend's stuff...and so on...AND I still was doing the Mentor's Program...THANKFULLY the Program leaders and Mentors were patient with me...
So, we move...again...this time...ALL of us...sigh...and I am still going to Intensives...still meeting with now 1 Mentor per month...still going back and forth to Arkansas, but now ever other week to every week to almost twice per week at times...and still taking care of other things...
So, my first Mentor in Dallas? None other than the awesome Mr. Jeep...he gave me ao much information.
Then...the scariest Mentor to have of all...the Creator of the Mentor's Program...I was sooooo nervous when I found out I had Master Walker for my Mentor...I cannot even describe the fear I had when I read the schedule...but then...meeting with Him...I learned sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much...I cannot even put it into words...
Next was Master Thunder...inspirational to say the least...I just have yet to wrap my mind around our session together.
Finally, kKay...I did not know what to expect...and all I can say is I am pleasantly surprised.
Then the Intensives in Dallas were so amazing! And there was so much to learn!
Master Ken is very kind, caring, and knowledgeable about all the subjects He teaches. With His submissive, he is fun, lively, and has a different form of teaching that will enchant you.
Then there is Master Neko...can someone say FANTASTIC!?! Soooo very intelligent, comprehensive, thorough, and willing to share information. He wants to educate people...He wants to see people grow...He enjoys seeing people learn...
Finally, but definitely not least, there is SirBlue. If one does not know who She is; one needs to look Her up, find Her in a crowd/event/function or something. She is just too much to take in. Her classes have so much energy that one cannot go away without learning at least 10 new things to incorporate into their play/scenes/lifestyle/etc. I have only been privy to a couple of Her classes, but the few that I have been a part of have knocked me off of my feet. I still remember my first class, and I probably always will as She just has so much to offer. I cannot help but to recommend taking a notepad into Her class.
From Lily Ma'am to Wouldn'tYouLiketoKnow to Mr. Jeep to Master Neko to SirBlue; I have been blessed to have been surrounded by so many wonderful Mentors and Teachers this year from which I have had the ability to have learned so much from. I truly appreciate all of their time, effort, energy, and support. It has been an honor.
Well...I guess a lot has happened in the past year, huh? ...it all just went by so quickly...yet it didn't seem so quick...well...
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