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It should not take a head injury
*after personally sustaining a head injury & coma*
to figure this out...

 
 
 
 
 
 


After a Drill Sergeant threw Me into the metal part of the bunk when I was in Basic Training for the United States of America's Army branch at Fort Sill Oklahoma #FortSill #FortSillOK #FortSillOklahoma #OK #Oklahoma in the year of 2000 on Psalm Sunday, I have dealt with the situations as best as I have been capable to do so while taking care of the situations and asking for assistance as per the required explanations of the information to such facts first.  While making the attempts to get assistance for the aspects thereof as to the reality, the aspects of where and when as to the multiple attempts to ask for assistance for me.  As my journal blog for when I was ready to bring such as to my other works forward since as to the lengths of time as to where my modeling was as to the modeling page information, just as the other pages have the information as to such specifics, and just as this journal blog of mine is as to such facts.


If I had real friends (if as to having met in person face to face in person in real life as to the aspects of this particular reference such as from the state of Texas as to the state of Washington as to the years of 2000 through 2013 if I met within the state of Texas for such references), real (the areas of the tristate region as before the year of 2000) family, and real relationships in real life that recognized me as to the aspects of if as to the face to face in person who started in truth as I had started such in truth as to the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, as well as the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain that took 8.5 years to dissipate; then I guesstimate there would be the easier factors as to being capable for me to speak with others in truth in person face to face in person and/or through online measures as to such factors I suppose.  Though would such as to the knowledge of the ways as to how they began such discussions with me as to would there be such a situation, for them to consider as to such if factors as to such discussions with me in truth?


As to some suggestions and commentary within "Finding A Silver Lining" one of several of my bo0ks I personally authored/wrote/compiled as I can only speak and write in truth as per such clarifications as to the reality as to the specifics of such discussions/writings/videos as per my Official You Tube where I have satirical commentary where I comment about the factors as to having dealt with others' opinions about their pop culture references of #NJ #NJstate #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey, though as to for the most part I have actually preferred to be asked with politeness if as to having read my books and/or seen my website as just the same in reference to the timeframes when I was modeling as to having respect as to what I consider as respect, referencing if as to such polite manners as to discussions if as to such having been noticed because of the factors in my opinion as to having real discussions as communication would be if my website was seen before the year of 2023 as I first began my website in 2015; as in my journal blog posts as to the reality of the years of 2010 through 2013, as to the aspects of introductions as to those timeframes when as to various factors as I did not take selfies as I was actually working with photographers as to my creations of my outfits as per the description on the link to my modeling page(s) as to the references regarding my journal blog updates in the years of 2019 through 2022 as the timeframe onward as to the year of 2023 as to the factors as to how such journal blog entries will be as to such factors as to the aspects of the various topic points.


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 I was born and raised in New Jersey and grew up going throughout the tristate northeast areas mainly, and as to how the reality of when the importance of the situations as to the aspects of reviewing as to such facts regarding the logistics for several factors as to the considerations; the years of 2019 through 2022 as to the review process as to the aspects of the timeframe, prior to the timeframe of the 20 year memorial of 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 as well as before the 30 year memorial of February 1993, as to the northeast areas mostly known as to New York City #NYC #NewYork #NY #NYstate #NYU though also as to the #Pentagon Pentagon, as well as Pennsylvania #Pennstate #Pennsylvaniastate as to the reality of how many New Jersey-ians commute in either direction, depending upon what location for the commute. 


The factors though I have said at times, I re-re-re-re-re-re-grew up in the state of  #Texas #TX #Texasstate Texas as to such factors as to the timeframes, as well as all 26 of my SCUBA #SCUBA #SCUBADiving  Diving certifications I earned were through one school within the state of Texas as I also earned winning first place in a Texas Chili cookoff with more than 20 entries as well as my chili recipe as I am adamant about my recipes as to such aspects just as I am specific as to what it actually takes for me to cook in a BBQ as to the required preparations for when I have BBQed.   


I can sarcastically write, those who know of the Rules of the BBQ as to where I grew up as to the Rules of the BBQ as to such factors to the considerations of such preparations.  However that is to cooking food as to the differences of my journal blog entries, as to the factors as to proverbial aspects of food for thought as the difference of real food in real life as to the facts of the situations to such attention to the details as well as attention to the information.


Such facts as to the metaphors in some of such factors that only after reviewing such information as to the aspects of the fiction book series that were as to for My personal life as to such dreamland sorts of factors as to the differences of such hypotheticals, the references thereof as to such regards as to the logistical emotional with the real situations as per the names I was informed of at the timeframes referenced review as to My journal blog as to the situations overall.  


If as to my journal blog being found and read as to where what I consider as common sense, as to the aspects of my satirical saying   how it should not take a head injury to figure out. 
 

*(sometimes utilizing articles discussing facts)*
By:  (Reverend) Susan MeeLing
also known as

The One & Only

Lady Dori Belle


...and to biological consenting adults as...

Lady Liberty Belle

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My life  =  My personal life

My life experiences  =  My personal life experiences that some might have something alike or something similar to though theirs is not the exact as to My personal life experiences

My opinion  =  Susan MeeLing's personal opinion that some or many might agree with

My needs  =  My personal needs for me personally though some distinguishing factors as to the aspects where there are different facets of My personal life and thus as to the distinguishing factors as to the different areas of my life, thus for Me personally is going to be for Me personally as to such differences as to the aspects whereas of others as to the factors to the considerations.


The FACT books I authored/wrote/compiled that I published through Amazon for My profits and what I chose/choose for the financial aspects per book:
*  Finding A Silver Lining  (published in print book format in in the year of 2015)
*  Finding The Silver Lining  (published in print book format in the year of 2014)
*  The Modern Day Book  (published in print format book in the year of 2020)
*  The Adventures of Susan MeeLing, SCUBA Diver Extraordinaire  (3 volumes published in print format books in the year of 2020)

 

Fiction Based books I published through Amazon that can have metaphors or proverbial only as some books allow the financial aspects as to donations whereas the newer books do not have such same factors whatsoever as to the financial resources for Susan MeeLing also known as Lady Dori Belle also known as Lady L*** Belle as make sure to not assume that all books will ever be the exact same:
*  "The Curious Children Book Series:  (2 volumes published in the year of 2014/2015)
*  "Fail-Safe:  The Kenedy curse fused with Science Fiction Fantasy  (The New World Order)"  (1 book published in the year of in print format book form 2015/2016 that is the main book to refer to for each of the subsequent books in the series as the 10 volume book series published as the 9 additional volumes in 2021/2022 as not all books were allowed as per My personal choice to be published in print format as to the ideals I have had for My work as to how I personally chose to release My books as to My business plans)
*  "Paroxysm of the Lotus Book Series"  (3 volumes published in print format of books in the years of 2014 through 2015 and then 7 books were published in the year of 2021/2022)


To Contact Me to ask me what My needs, my wants, My preferences, My Ideals, and/or My desires is only to utilize My To Contact Form to ask me respectfully after explaining yourself as to such aspects first as asking Me is the best way to actually do so correctly to actually learn to know of what My actual needs are for the factors of as the same in reference to my wants and so on and so forth.  That includes though not limited to asking if there is something to assist Me with, arranging Book Signing, arranging requiring My permission first as to my needs for any appearance(s)/meeting(s), 


Do not assume that just because I authored/wrote/compiled books that you know Me, you know of Me as to such factors as to the factors of the reality of the social media.


If I personally have reached out to you directly as to requesting a meeting and/or meetings, I have done so with the factors of respect regarding the aspects of what I could figure as being respectful as to the time(s) as to upon your schedule though also as depending upon my schedule as well.  The contact information regarding phone numerical factors as to the aspects of My To Contact Form through My website, as to making attempts as to the ease to correctly communicate clearly.  


Ensure if you are going to ask about Me, to know the exact-ish amount of time the individual actually knew Me in real life in person face to face in person in real life to verify the correct numerical positions of time that they may have known Me or if they knew of me as to the facts.


My modeling is not the same as speaking with Me face to face at all, because that is not the same as in real life as to the facts that in real life in person face to face in person actually requires those facts of in real life in person face to face in person in real life where a human being in person face to face in person is in real life with another human being is the common sense for in person face to face in person in real life as there is a difference to getting My personal permission first.


I do not allow anyone to misinterpret ever, as there is the clear facts that if someone/anyone says they can interpret Me, ensure they actually have what I personally consider as the starting point of full foundation as to actual capacities to do so correctly as what I consider as the correct foundation as to making sure the foundation of theirs in not made out of sand as to the differences of whereas to the facts my foundation is forged from where the stones as to the rock of My foundation is to the sturdiness thereof as to My personal life as to My personal experiences as to Me personally; as in my personal opinion that imitation is not flattery at all in any capacity when in reference to Me.


Since I comprehend Myself as to My and what My needS are as to what My wantS are as to what My preferenceS are as to what My idealS are as to what My desires are, then as to My comprehension of such factors in reference to Myself as to My personal requirements as when I have written about My personal life experiences as to the words I personally have chosen to describe such facts, then as to My life = My personal life experiences.


Manners, respect, human decency, and protocols are as a beginning point for what My personal standards are for Me.

Make sure to be capable to distinguish when the facts of My journal blog are in the capacity of either facts with satire and/or facts with metaphors and/or facts with figurative and/or facts as literal as the reality that My personal life experiences are My personal life experiences as to where some might relate to what I personally have dealt with, the full combination of what I have survived is the difference as to where the distinction is.


I survived the attacks on the soil of the homeland of the United States of America as to the tristate areas of New Jersey, New York, and Pennsylvania in the year of 1993 in the month of February as well as the timeframe of 9/11 also known as 11 September 2001 because I was born and raised in New Jersey in the three-county/three-borough area that had the most amount of commuters to New York City as well as other factors of the reality as to the state of New Jersey that those factors of pop culture are usually NYCers or Pittsburgians or Philadelphians and not New Jersey-ians pop culture as the aspects of comprehending the facts as that pop culture only has small amounts as to the differences of the fullnesses thereof.


What I know for what My personal comforts are as to being capable to see as to such factors, translates to comprehension of Myself as to comprehending what is best for Me personally as to what is best for My work as well as what is best for My personal comforts.  As hours change to days and days change to weeks and weeks change to months and months change to years and years change to decades, I comprehend My personal needs as I comprehend I have made attempts for My personal needs to be correct for Me as to what My personal considerations are.


Keep your thoughts in what I consider as purity as to such actual purity of innocence, and the ease of life is made so as to the factors of the ensuring the correct actions without assumptions.


Acknowledging biases first without judgement, has no capacity of being biased as no bias can be without the capacities of bigotry, and thus without bigotry then there is the capacity of acknowledging biases without judgement.


I personally am unaware of fans of Mine because I do not assume that I have any because of what My considerations are for what a fan of Mine would be, as the factors when considerations as to fandom as to Myself is as to the factors of what I personally consider as comfort.


People should be more uplifting as to the aspects of being appreciative if as to appreciating work of Mine, as I have not need/want/desire of any male dominant in the supposed to be consenting adult lifestyle regarding such factors of any type of relationship outside of acquaintance or friendship only, as that is not in any capacity ever a turn on to what My considerations are for Me at all in any capacity whatsoever as it has not ever been a turn on to Me.


The reality that Females have the capacity to be strong enough to be themselves if as to such morals and ethics as to such reality needs and requirements, thus as to where males have needed to accept the facts as not all males are as to what they might think of themselves as the same in reference of professional in what is supposed to be consenting adult biologically legally as to informed, as how they themselves are not anything of any turn on to Me as they are the opposite 100% in every capacity of anything that would ever be capable to turning Me on personally as I personally am not a lesbian as obviously a female biologically who would enjoy such factors would only be as to such aspects as to having to acknowledge such within herself.


As a Pansexual as to the intellectual capacities where I can be interested though not necessarily turned on, as to the physical does not make the aspect of what is of attraction to Me in the aspects whereas some might assume, as the factors as to the emotional connections depend and vary as to the situations, whereas the spirituality of such factors as My comprehension of Eclectic Judeo-Christianity religion is important, as the factors of sexuality of what sexually is attractive for Me is as to how the personal connection is as to the genuinity.


Being Polyamorous as I am personally is as to the intellectual capacity of being capable to discuss multiple topics while actually caring in truth, emotionally having the capacity to connect and such communicative factors, as the other three aspects thereof as to the references to the differences as to romantic factors as to platonic factors as there is My personal capacity where I always begin as to platonic factors first before I have ever or would ever consider anything sexually and/or romantically as personally it takes a lot more for Me to be capable to connect romantically than it ever has as to connecting platonically because of the way I personally was raised.


Thus if interested in dating Me as to in the capacity of not setting a date for a meeting as that obviously would not be the exact same unless previously brought up as to discussions, then as to such aspects as to arranging such with Me to ask Me first if that is an interest as to other(s) regarding such aspects. 


Thus the as I am as where I am a Female Dominant as to being as I am, then as to such acceptance there is a difference as to Myself being a Feminist as to the differences whereas the factors of feminazism as to the references of those who would have such factors as to their patterns of choices as to their behaviour as to the factors whereas the proof of such to the aspects of the differences of reviewing information from a different point in time as to such a point in time as to the facts that need to be paid attention to as to the facts of the time.


Completing a logistical review of My personal life experiences while acknowledging My experiences as well as My emotions from the facts of the situations from the years of 2019 through 2022, is not the same as to having the capability of time to review such all at the exact point in time of the exact point in time as that should not take a head injury to figure out.


My work as to My writings as to if used in speeches as the ease thereof as the 10% for Me of such if financial factors as to the tithing viewpoints, if as to such factors of consideration.


The links to My website as to My different pages of My website including My Journal Blog, are capable to share the link as to discussing the details as to the information of; though such facts for the fullness to be capable to read more to learn from the knowledge, is of the facts where such importance.


Since the requirements in reference to My website as to where tghe finances were only for Me to be capable to utilize were not responded directly to Me personally as there was not anyone ever allowed to be involved as to on My behalf ever, as to the aspects where since I personally did not have any such discussions as to what My personal minimum standards were as to being met for what My personal requirements are/were/are as to where there was and is not any allowances for such misinterpretations ever as to the clear distinctions as to Me personally only as to where I have clarified repeatedly that I am the one and only as to ever making the decisions for Myself as well as My work(s).


I personally do not play games, as I do not find games as they are not fun for Me.


I personally do not often watch television/movies as that is not assistive to my headaches/migraines at all, as the after effects from My head injury on Psalm Sunday in the year of 2000 as the additional after effects from the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal temporal lobe of My brain that took 8.5 years to fully dissipate out of the MRI and out of the CAT scans as I have figured as to what works best for me personally.


While I have made attempts to connect with real people as to real friends as I once thought of as to such prior points in time, as to how such aspects went in the years from 2019 through 2022 as to such viewpoints as to such considerations referencing as to what capacities as to such factors regarding the differences as to choices/words/actions/deeds as to such references as to the factors of humanity as per the proof regarding my attempts before as well as during as well as after such points in time.


If as to the current time where each individual seems to think of themselves as a commercial and/or thinks of others as a commercial instead of thinking of each as an individual human being with individual personal life experiences as to how I personally have considered each individual if I am accurate referencing others' opinions as to such if factors, then as to where the reality of such readjustments as to the recalibrations of what humanity is.


The aspects of pop culture as to the facts regarding the differences between the factors of as while there might be some aspects that align in some ways, there are still the facts of the amount of the rest of different experiences and life thereof.


Thus as to such facts whereas what My personal needS as to what My personal wantS as to such factors, such aspects of the #ADA ADA requirements as to the facts regarding My being medically retired or being considered as to such disability aspects as to the reasons why ADA aspects are in such as for Me as to such aspects; though actually being capable to have as well as utilize such aspects as to My benefits in the correct capacities for Myself, as to the aspects whereas such factors of proof regarding the situations as to such reasons I have also worked as diligently as I have attempted to being capable to provide for Myself as being a biological adult of two biological adult legal aged children I personally gave birth to while having been awake from My coma for less than 1.5 years for one and 2.5 years for the other as to such facts.


Online is important for several aspects, though in real life as to such reality as to the real needs as to such common sense as to the factors of what is required for Me as I comprehend what is actually best for Me and that is not up for interpretations as interpretations always lead to misunderstandings as to the facts as to such proof regarding the aspects thereof as to My personally being capable to be in as well as remain in a good mood as to the attempts I have made to being capable to accomplish such.


While the aspects of My personal belief in real angels as to real faeries as to real spiritual beings as to such facts regarding such as to where I was Confirmed in the year of 1997 as to the aspects thereof to that history, the aspects where such facts as to the references thereof as the differences of what are considered as real friends in real life as to the differences of the spiritual aspects if there was ever any common sense as to different human beings unless as to such being as cherubim as to homo-sapien-sapiens as to ever being ignorant enough to think that is the same when obviously as to the facts that a real human being as to a real friend as to the difference of a real spirit as to such aspects thereof to real spiritualism capabilities.

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However such is obviously a difference from the aspects thereof, to humanity as human beings are supposed to be and are as to humanity if as to such aspects of the definition of humanity.


If I was/am believed as I understand some have opinions as to religious aspects and/or spiritual factors as to the usage of the words metaphor/proverbial/figurative, there has not been such confirmation for Me to have such knowledge for Myself regarding such aspects to what I would know and understand as to such as per the proof regarding the exact time.


Some do not just get over something as massive as the situations as to February 1993 as to being capable to survive such, as that was not a video game nor was that a computer game nor was that a pop culture fiction aspect as to such references and regards just as 11 September 2001 or 9/11 was not a video game and was not a computer game and was not a pop culture fiction aspect.


There is not the capacity where individuals who have tried to prettify the aspects for individuals to truthfully recover and heal from such aspects because of the requirements as to the truth being told in full, and when the truth is told in full is the only capacity for healing to begin.


Thus as to the facts in reference to My personal life experiences, what support would there be that I could truthfully say and/or write about as to the aspects of such luxuries others have had as to such amounts of individuals as to such support groups as to such friends as to such aspects of discussions as to what discussions would actually be in the references thereof as to what I personally consider as; or would such individuals think that them discussing amongst themselves would be as to the same instead of the aspects thereof as to discussions with Me personally, as to such proof regarding such luxuries as to those types as to such factors as to the aspects of such wannabe aspects.

 

 

Those who would consider Me as wanted as to what I consider as being wanted as to the differences as to such aspects of "Finding A Silver Lining" as there are only so many words in the dictionary to describe, and when individuals choose to be bratty nonconsensually as to such aspects as to such brattiness as to the aspects of the amounts of words as to the amounts of times as to where either the individual is going to be considered as competent to understand or they will be considered as incompetent as to humanity referencing such types as to those factors as to such aspects that I have brought forward as to the proof thereof to the validity of such aspects. 


"Finding A Silver Lining" and "Finding The Silver Lining" are situations that are of My past as to the situations I personally dealt with as to such aspects whereas My suggestions as to the current time as well as the future, are the difference.


"The Modern Day Book" is as to what I noticed as per the years thereof in those references as to what the looks were as to such descriptions for such clear aspects, as the common sense factors as to such regards as to having been born and raised in New Jersey as to the aspects of the differences as to NYC as NYC thinks of such aspects whereas New Jersey has the capacity to prefer the real of the reality as to such differences whereas Broadway wanted to be more like Hollywood and visa versa as to such references.


"The Adventures of Susan MeeLing, SCUBA Diver Extraordinaire" is of what My personal experiences were as to My personal work as to My personal life experiences as to before I began SCUBA Diving as to what I was known as through My name in reference of My personal trainers as to My personal childhood experiences as to such work in reference of protecting and defending the individuals on land above sea level as to the aspects of My work if that was/is actually appreciated.


The aspects where I could see now in the year of 2023 where some capacities of "Fail-Safe" could be as to such if factors as well as "Paroxysm" as to such if factors as while I was only being creative as to such aspects as to My writings, the aspects whereas for Myself personally would be as to the references for such aspects if as to those types as to such psychological distinguishing factors as to what I have been capable to distinguish as to My comprehension of Myself as well as My comprehension of My wrok as I authored/wrote/compiled as to the best of My capabilities as to My overall books.


In reference of "Paroxysm" there is not anyone I ever have personally dated that would ever fit into such descriptions, ever.  The facts regarding where the references thereof to prior timeframes as to Volume 2 are from individuals I personally knew before the year of 2000, as to the common sense factors as to the reality of the overall.


In regards as to "Fail-Safe" and "Paroxysm" in regards of for Me personally as to the relationship aspects of for Me personally as to the references and regards thereof officially for Me personally despite having written of such in an overall way, the aspects of if as to such as for Me personally then as to such clarifications now as to the year of 2023 as to the differences regarding the multiple reasons as to bringing such forward as to healthy acquaintences as to healthy friendships as to health developments of hetero-sexual relationships that as to such hetero-sexual relationships as to the fluidity depending upon the aspects of such a relationship factor if as to the consensual aspects as to each involved being fully informed first as that is the only capacity thereof as to being informed as to officially being informed before such aspects as for the example where I have been honest as to the after effects from My Psalm Sunday in the year of 2000 head injury as to others being informed first officially as to such if factors as to the differences.


The aspects whereas to such if factors as to My books I personally authored without any assistances as to My personal creativity to authoring such aside from the technological factors as to being capable to write such books as to "Paroxysm" and "Fail-Safe" referencing such aspects specifically for Myself regarding such aspects of the specifics as to such details, then I suppose if as to such would be as to prophecy regarding such if factors if such were to ever be for Myself personally; though if as others' interpretations of their own lives as to then the references of whereas being capable to prophesize decades before ever writing though definitely would not ever prefer certain aspects as to certain individuals as to My personal considerations as to the specifics as to such references regarding the factors thereof as to "Fail-Safe" especially though also in such clarifications as to for Me as to "Paroxysm" as to such if factors as to what My personal considerations as to the aspects thereof regarding the aspects not of a novelty as there is a difference between a novel a difference between a novel idea a difference between as to how such aspects of where the problems as to problematic novelty factors as to such misinterpretations in My opinion.


When describing the situations in truth that is the common sense starting point of a foundation, and any who think that such could be fast-forwarded are incompetent as to such aspects where certain factors are required to have such details and information to being capable to actually make such genuine efforts as to progression towards betterment in genuine truth.


The reality where such aspects of when such efforts are direct as to such facts as per the prior amounts of time as to explanations, then as to the facts where either the competency to listen and then think while listening as well as being capable to progress with the correct actions as to such regards as to the common sense.


Maybe it is a bit more truthful than I realized, common sense might actually be a genuinely real superpower. 


Forgiveness is of importance as to such truth in full as best as possible, the factors of as to such if remorseful.


The reasons why of the reality as to where, as to the year of 1993. 


Time is important as to emotions of the situations, retaining such knowledge can assist seeing towards progression of betterment.


Communications are important listening both sides if as to consent, the factors as to information in truth as of much importance. 

Life and Love, Life and Love
Between, Below, and Above


Brightest of Blessings.

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Please share the link to my website and feel free to comment in the section below however know that I am not informed as to any comments made within the area of each journal blog I post, though the ability to express yourselves as to such comments of such are able to be seen of such portions if you so choose.

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I encourage others to share the links and to speak about such topics honestly as to such aspects and situations as my saying as to it should not take a head injury to figure out is the main satirical portion as to my journal blog, as to the facts as to sometimes when wording hits a certain way all one can do is chuckle a bit as to reviewing such portions of information thereof.

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If interested in using my journal blog for articles and/or legal aspects please just remember to put the link to the specific journal blog article area to assist the fuller aspects as to the clarifications for others to also be able to read through for such additional details, as well as if there are those who are interested in further discussions and/or commentary and/or interviews and/or speaking arrangements and/or invitational aspects of such journal blog entries I have written please do contact me through my contact form with such details at www.susanmeeling.com/to-contact 

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Please also know the reasons for having such available hopefully assists the more open discussions as to the various details thereof to which I have been honest and truthful about, which additionally to such as to posting on social media in various areas is welcome as the ability to discuss such topics honestly is of importance as it brings a different form of discussions though also assists more to be involved with such viewpoints.  I know there are those who either have not had a social media account and/or have had to wait to be online more often in such aspects depending upon the employment thereof to which the reference to the details in such references per journal blog entry might assist in different ways while additionally giving the ability to still engage online in various forums to which while some may prefer not to have their social media accounts associated with responses on my website which is acceptable; it does give a forum for such discussions as well for those who may not have the ability to go into further details in certain other areas online, as to a different cover though the reality of such transparency on my part as to having been open and honest as to my community area involvements additionally hopefully open the doors and open the lines for more genuine and honest communication within the age appropriate guidelines thereof for the betterment and clarity among more.

 

 

Admittedly only recently in the year of 2020 had I realized I may physically look similar to different characters in different aspects of pop culture however I did not grow up being allowed to watch such aspects and since after waking up from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury coma, I do not usually watch such pop culture because of the after effects from my Psalm Sunday in the year of 2000 head injury as to knowing the personal aspects of what is best for myself.  However I did not and do not know of the pop culture references many of the times because of not being allowed to watch anything other than G-rated movies/television throughout my childhood and teenager years in the 1980s to the 1990s as the rating systems may have been different for such times, as I also was not allowed to watch PG or PG13 or any other type of PG until I was a certain age which again similarly to such times in the 1980s and the 1990s the rating system may have been different to such aspects; of which once I was the age of 18 years old biologically I have been able to watch anything and everything I personally prefer or want to watch.

 

 

Additionally I do not play games despite possibly looking physically as what characters might be as to such, as again that is something within pop culture which I have not usually known nor understood a reference to such in pop culture however I encourage people to know the difference between a pop culture reference as to knowing the difference to the human being spoken with as I have picked up there are several individuals who may not have known there is a difference between what images and/or videos as to being seen compared to the interactions with others when in real life in person as well as when speaking with others through various forms of online communication of which the care and the concern as to such aspects in my opinion is of importance to review for such realities. 

 

 

While I understand others have the choice to play games for whichever aspects thereof, please comprehend I am not one who will play games as I personally do not find such appealing to me nor to the after effects of as well as from my Psalm Sunday year of 2000 head injury just as others with and/or without a head injury may have a different viewpoint to such aspects as to games as some just have a life which such is considered as a luxury to play games comparatively though cannot do.

 

 

Please be respectful as to such as well as if you meet me and/or see me in public and speak with me, please be honest as to such as I have not ever assumed anyone had ever known of my website or my work as to the fact I have known there are many websites throughout the internet of which if there have been hints to such at any point in time there has not been the ways of which I would view such aspects as to the reference without the actual bringing of such information up first by who I have spoken with because of the ways as though I write as I do when I speak it is not always the same way as such comes across online possibly as there are differences as I would guesstimate others would know as per their own online aspects as to how such discussions have been with others and/or writings thereof as to when corresponding with others.

 

 

Though I know there are more than just the two social media areas of which Facebook and Twitter have been available, because of certain topics of my journal blog entries as well as the multiple social media platforms I lease such areas at the discretion of the reader to posting such aspects because of the knowledge certain topics are for certain age ranges as to the details thereof though because of certain aspects as to the intellectual levels for the reasons as to the choices thereof for what I have known some companies have assisted with in reference to the rating system as to guidelines as to the clicking of certain links for such software references as to controls.  I have done the best I could to ensure the ability for if in reference to biologically under the age of 18 years old for such choices up to the parent(s)/legal guardian(s)/grandparents to the topic points I have/do written/write about as well as kept such details more modest for the ability for such aspects of choice to the appropriate levels of discussions, of which hopefully with the additional aspects as to the genres assist with such abilities for the clarifications thereof.  

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If newsworthy, please do send to the news organizations if there are topics of which are interesting that should be broadcast upon the various news media stations as to the specifics within the posts I have put together.

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After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

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Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

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Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

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Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

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After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

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Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

​

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

​

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

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In reference of combining all of my journals I wrote through my original #fetlife account which I will post the link at the bottom for the clarifications thereof, I am going to have the transparency brought forward as to what can be seen from the original posting dates as to the current timeframe of this day 28 November 2021 for those to see as to my original #Facebook accounts of Susan MeeLing as well as Lady Dori Belle for the additional ability to see the connection links as to what I had discussed for many years and decades in person as well as online as to such factors as best as I could as to the circumstances. Possibly such details will assist to make sense, in the comparisons thereof as to the amounts of details though in addition I do not pretend or hide myself from my truth which others should realize it is important to be honest and truthful in many more ways than just in one or two moments as it is imperative to be more capable to recognize the truth in such aspects of life for far more than some might have realized despite all of my warnings as to what I knew to bring forward to assist as best as possible.



I will begin with posting my newer updated journals from my original account and work backwards as to the irony I noticed. There will be plenty to read in the ways of, whether or not you choose to venture into the areas of the website fetlife.



Posted on 18 December 2021



Day Two: 9 Things About Me...



Day Two: Nine things about yourself.




18 December 2012




From _rhonda; I was lucky enough to find this list of exercises to do.




I decided that I am going to go through the list and work on myself each day; it obviously will not stop after Day Ten, though. I try to better myself as each day goes on. Sometimes I am successful and I choose the "correct" path for ***me...***and sometimes I am a failure...




Either way, whatever choices I make; I proudly own up to everything that I say and do. If I know that I am right about something, or if I feel strong enough about a particular topic/situation/etc; anyone who knows me, knows that I will open my big fat mouth and say whatever I think needs to be said...whether or not anyone or all agrees with my opinions. As they are exactly that; my opinions and no one else's, and no one has to accept my thoughts as their own, unless they are so moved to do so.




Personally, I was moved to go through and expand this list, and as I read it; it struck a cord with me. Recently, I have purged myself of the negative aspects of my life, that I could; and as much as possible. I have purposely removed situations/people/objects/etc that were expendable, unworthy of me/my time/my energy/my money/my being/and so on...and I not only rid myself of the bull shit garbage...but I walked away from the messes, leaving them all wherever they landed...and I am not turning back, for I want, I desire, and I need my happiness within myself...and that negativity was holding me back...so it is now and forever released it...




May all the negativity and strife within me and outside of me, forever be gone; never to return. May all of the negativity, garbage, and all things not for my or my children's highest good flow out of us and away from us, to be released to the universe. May the universe then take everything negative, burn it to the ground so that the ashes may transform it all and wash it clean to be a pure bright light of a positive nature, full of grounded light and love.




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So...Day Two...Day Two: Nine things about yourself...




And without further adue...and in no particular order...


  1. I absolutely LOVE big dogs.





My first pet dog was a half Collie and half Husky breed; who was the most awesome dog in the world. My parents told me that the reason we ended up with him was because of 2 reasons. The first reason was because the owner of the dog was going to put him down, as he kept running away from her yard; and it never failed...he always ended up playing in the swamps nearby, that the military was using for training purposes. He would end up popping out of the swamp to go meet all of the soldiers and play, but half the time; he scared the hell out of all of the recruits; as he was covered in goop and globs of debris from the swampy area, he looked like a monster, from their description. He was always returned to the female, as he had his collar on with a tag, saying whom he belonged to and where to return him.




After a while; the female was used to hearing, "Ma'am, your dog has gone AWOL and we have him here. We cleaned him up for you, and whenever you can; please come and pick him up."




My parents were iffy about taking him, until, as my parents and the female ~ who was once a Foster Parent to my father, in his later years of the system of orphanages ~ I had a slice of pizza, that I was given to eat and entertain myself. According to my parents, when I was done eating the majority of the pizza, I gave the dog the crust to eat. For some reason, I thought it would be a good idea to say, "I want my crust back!" and before anyone could move; I physically opened the dog's mouth to remove the crust.




Everyone sat back down in amazement, for the dog just looked at me, and cocked his head to the side. I held onto the crust, decided that "It is too gooey", and I returned the dog his crust.




This is where the second reason comes into play, as to why my parents took the dog...he was so gentle...




My Dad named him AWOL, but we called him "A", for short. He lived until my 13th birthday, and then we had to lay him to rest in the ground, as one day; A did not wake up, while I was at a camp.




The way it was broken to me was cold, cruel...and yet...true...




As my sister and I were sitting at Burger King eating, after I had been picked up from camp, and all that had happened there; my Dad starts off with:




"So...you know how you two fight over who is responsible for giving A his water and who is responsible for giving A his food each night? ...well...you are not going to have to worry about that anymore.,."




...sigh...




Funny, yes...NOW...but my Dad's joking way to aid the situation of the lost pet of over a decade...not so much humor found then...




Just sayin'...




That dog, was my very best friend back in the day...and I still miss my boy...




The other pet dogs that I had, came after my head injury. Granted..."technically" the dogs were in my name at the vet...however...I NEVER chose those damn Miniature Schnauzers...those were my ex-husband's dogs, through and through...




I have been claimed by only 2 other dogs...both big...until the one that I have now...




Dionysus was my first baby. He was a Black Lab/Chow Chow/Akida mix...and he was GORGEOUS...and the sweetest dog in the world...well...to me...not so much to my ex-husband...(should have paid attention to that brick upside the head there...should have known to take a hint from Dionysus when he did not respond to Robert whatsoever. When I first introduced Dionysus to the household, he met Nick and Princess, Robert's dogs. (Nick - short for Niccolo Machiavelli and Princess - in honor of the book "The Prince" that N.M. wrote...which apparently was the bible for Stalin and Hitler; unbeknownst to me at the time...), Dionysus sniffed them both, and both dogs sniffed him. Once each dog had a whiff of Dionysus...they RAN back to Robert and started to jump on his leg for attention. My boy then moseyed over to my ex-husband, sniffed him, shook his body, and walked back to me for attention.




I knew in my mind then, that something was up...but I did not know or for-see the results that happened.




My ex-husband and I became ex-husband and ex-wife for many reasons, as most marriages end up when divorcing. There is never just ONE reason...there are always multiple reasons...but it is for each couple/individual to cope with whatever the result of the end of the marriage is...obviously...though it was only a final separation as the divorce had not been able to be processed...




One of the reasons, which was the most prevalent reason, was due to his abuse towards me.



...mental...physical...emotional...spiritual...sexual...everything one could imagine and more. I always tell people how Robert had passed away on the same day as the male who played the Joker in the Dark Knight, of 3 of the same medications, as the Army had perscribed him over 27 - though they only admit to 17 in public...nonetheless...the medication overdose could have been prevented on Robert, as well as all of the other soldiers who have overdosed on medications, across the military. However, I digress...




I went to see that movie, specifically because of that connection, and when I walked out of the theater and spoke with my friends who took me...my response to the Joker's character and the hype made about him was very simple.




I said, and have continued to say: "That Joker character in the Dark Knight looked like a newborn kitten with his evilness; compared to what my ex-husband put me through..."




Sad...but true...and I hate it...but I own it...




Dionysus, picked up on the tension between Robert and I, when he was in the house. Anytime Robert came anywhere near me, Dionysus would immediately stand up and watch his every move.



When I noticed that, I kept that to myself and never told Robert that I noticed that...but he picked up on that on his own, on several occasions.




If Robert and I ever went into a match, for whatever reason; Dionysus' hair would stand straight up, as soon as the argument began, and he would stand next to my chair, if I was sitting. If I was standing, he was within a 5 foot distance from where I was...watching...and...almost waiting, to a degree...




The second Robert raised his voice, Dionysus would stand right in front of him, bearing his teeth, still with his fur standing up, It became to the point, where Robert ordered that the dogs were put inside; and as soon as they were, the first time that happened with Dionysus; I was warned that if he bites the kids; he will be gotten rid of. I told him that I agreed, but I did not think that would be an issue, as Dionysus loved my children and would play with them; allowing them to stick their fingers so far up his nose - that they probably scratched his brain; he would allow them to lay and sit on top of him while laying down; he would run to the scene if there was even a sniffle, before a cry to kiss the kids' tears away...I had no fear for Dionysus attacking my children.




However, what did happen is Dionysus attacked Robert one day. I was in the shower and I had called for Dionysus to join me, so I could bathe him. Whatever transpired in the bedroom...I will never know...though I speculate...




At some point, Robert ran to me, in the shower, with blood dripping down his arms, and scratch marks that were extremely apparent on his half Dominican and half Cherokee skin. He started yelling about how it was done by Dionysus because of something about the kennel...and the only thing I remember after that was hearing my ex-husband say: "He is going to be put down. If he did this to me, he can do worse to the kids."




Instantly, in the shower, I welled up with tears, for my baby. I did not (and still do not) understand what all that transpired...however...all I know is, I left the house to cool off and clear my mind a bit. I saw some friends who helped me to calm down about the situation before I returned to the house. I pulled the van into the driveway (yes, I have owned mini-vans before...I AM a mom, for crying out loud...and I am not a fan of SUVs...), and as I stepped out, I closed the door behind me, noticing my parent's vehicle in the coldesac. As I walked to the front door, as we never used the garage for anything but storage, I heard a loud bang before a yelp, and then I heard another bang, before silence.

I stood in the front porch for a bit with my head down. I did not know exactly what that was...but I had a feeling...and my feeling was NOT a good one...




When I was finally able to open the storm door, to work on unlocking the front door - as the key was finicky; my mom came and opened the door for me. The look on her face said it all and I was over-ridden with sadness and guilt, for I knew that I had just heard my baby puppy's death...and I felt him by my side, even though he was not physically there...and I stopped in my tracks on my way inside when I felt him...and I stood in silence for I do not know how long, with my head as low as it could go.




As I stood in the dining room, a little bit later, Robert walked through the area with a large black construction trash bag...and I knew... The ass hole even purposely pushed me with the bag as he walked by, when he could have gone a different way, that was easier, and had less obstructions. When he arrived at the front door, he turned to look at me, smiled a look that still gives me the shivers, before opening the door to leave, saying: "Lock the door after me, please."




My mom walked into the kitchen, and I just stood where I was before, except pushed over a bit. I felt my baby for a little bit...and then...he was gone...




...I sighed and let out a whimper for him, before I made my way to where my parents were; outside, on the back patio. I looked at my garden, and even the colors of the flowers that I had planted, looked a different shade of their original colors...they were not nearly as bright...or standing tall...many were hunched over... I looked around the backyard, and saw all of my greenery, a sickening shade of green, to the point of almost pea soup color. I stood at the door, and I scanned the whole back area to look and see...maybe I was wrong...maybe my baby was still home...but no...




I saw this area, where a whole 8 foot section of fence was placed against the fence line...I knew...that was where it happened... I stood, looking...hoping he would come through...but to no avail...and that was when my father told me to sit down so he could explain what happened while I was gone.




Robert went around the yard, beating my dog, for the supposed "attack" before he became tired of my dog continuing to fight back. Robert then, went upstairs to the gun safe for the pistols, and came back downstairs. My Dad told me that he followed Robert out to try to talk with him, but by then, Dionysus apparently saw Robert; and flew to hide.




He did hide within the two fence sections,,,and as he laid there, hiding from this monster...Robert used his 22 to shoot my dog in the back of the head, executioner's style. However, due to the fact that it was a small caliber, and the fact that Robert missed the exact point of where to kill...Robert had to fire a second shot, which finally ended my poor baby's suffering...I hope...




When Robert returned, no one could look at him, and the dumbass did not understand why. So, when my parents left, there was a full fledged interrogation about what happened while he was gone. The beating commenced...and...later...well..."wifely duties" came into play...




I finally left Robert, only to stupidly return 7-9 months later, as he "promised that he changed and was accepting of me and all of who I was..."




Yeah...the time together lasted less than 6 months, as he started to make life altering decisions for the family, without consulting me...and I caught him in a web of lies...unfortunately...the first of many that I found out or figured out about...sigh...




...to this day, every so often, I end up finding out something new that he had hid from me...from relationships with other females...to lying about the most ungodly thing to lie about...to so on and so forth... Initially, I found out new lies almost every day to every other day. Slowly, it dwindled down to every week to every other week...and now...only about once or twice a month, something new comes forward...




It sucks...to say the least...




Anyway, back to dogs...




My last puppy was MY BABY...he was all over me like white on rice...he loved the kids, and he was a friendly as could be...so long as he liked you...




By the time I was given Ganesh, I was separated from Robert. He had his own apartment and was living his life away from mine, for the most part. We do have 2 children together...so...there had to be some interaction...even if it was me forcing him to take responsibility and actually BE a father and not a sperm donor...though those attempts failed miserably or ended up in HEATED arguments...which OF COURSE, Ganesh was put away upstairs for...




My boy grew up quick from a 6 month old, 38 pound puppy to being a full grown 200 pounds of pure muscle as an adult.



He was the most docile creature I have EVER been around, and funny as all get out. I never had his ears clipped, as I saw no need to, so his ears were HUGE and floppy...and covered his eyes and most of his face, whenever he laid down or started to run...THOSE were funny times, as he never did learn to not shake his head while running full speed; as he would always step on one of his huge ears, and then tumble to the ground.




Butterflies and Sparrows were the bain of his existence... LOL! Ganesh was MAYBE 7 months old when a butterfly came into the yard and he followed it around to watch what the butterfly was doing. At some point, the butterfly landed on Ganesh's nose and stood there for a moment, before Ganesh yelped like a little bitch, and ran as fast as he could, shaking his head...and falling...and then getting back up to run away, still shaking his head...repeating the stepping on the ear and falling...to repeat 5-7 times, before he finally made it to me to "save him"... LOL! He hid under my chair, with his head between my legs whimpering for who knows how long... Ha! My titty baby...




Sparrows were just flat out mean to my boy, as whenever they would come to his food dish (as I had an automatic feeder and water dish outside for him; the Sparrows, most of the time would just sit there and look at my dog. Ganesh would slowly try to move closer, but as soon as the Sparrow squeeked, he jumped backwards, in a defensive stance; but with his head low. SO CUTE!!! And SO FUNNY to watch!!! I would stand behind the door that lead out to the patio, and I would watch for sometimes half an hour of these shenanigans going on, LAUGHING hysterically. When Ganesh would notice me, finally, he would run to the door as if he was saying, "Mommy, get them! Save me!!!"




So, I would step outside, the Sparrows would look at me and watch me as I would slowly walk over to his food dish. They would squeek a sound before they would fly away, usually to the fence to watch and see when I would go back inside. I swear, they purposely messed with Ganesh, once they figured out how much of a pansy he was. LOL!




The absolute SWEETEST dog...but the most stupid dog at the same time...but still...the SWEETEST boy anyone could meet. Gentle as ever with the kids, and anyone he met. He never jumped unless I tapped my chest and said "Hug", he never took food from people's hands ~ as I taught him that so there would never be a chance of an accidental nip, he was one to back his ass up ~ as if he was a semi ~ and put his ass in my lap...his front paws would be on the floor and his hind legs would be on me... LOL!!! Oh how I miss him...




Now, we have the family dog, Harley Quinn. We saved her from where she was living, at a dungeon's facility and yard, and we took her home to give her a place of love. She is so much like me, as whenever a noise is made outside, she barks until the people moving or the ones walking by or anything that annoys her, stops whatever it is doing, and there is no more sound. The second there is more sound, she is barking, as if she is telling them to "Shut the hell up, as it is ruining her beauty sleep..." LOL As much as I enjoy silence...it always amuses me when she gets pissy about noise.




My son and Harley have gotten along like nothing I have ever seen. She will pace back and forth through the home, laying down here and there, until my son comes home. Once he is home, she is by his side, almost at all times. It is always fun to wake my son up for school as I wake up before he does, to have a cup of coffee before starting the day...or maybe sometime 5 cups...depends on the morning...




Anyway, as soon as I say, "It's time to wake up *****"; she is up and bouncing around, with her tail wagging as fast as possible. She will run to the stairs and bounce around as she waits for me to get there, before she curries up the stairs...and watching her 70 pound, fat ass run up the stairs, is always amusing. When we get to his room, she always waits until I give my son a kiss and run my hands over his head a couple of times, before she will jump onto the bed and start licking his face until she is pushed away by him, for he finally will admit that he is awake. If he does not sit up quick enough for her, she will bury her face, into his neck and kiss him relentlessly, before she winds up getting underneath the covers to lay next to him, with her belly showing...and she will keep scooting closer and closer to him until he rubs her belly; once again, finally acknowledging that he is awake.




Harley Quinn makes getting my son ready for school, all that much more pleasure-able than just being able to wake him up with hugs, kisses, and nibbles on his nose. That half Australian Shepherd and half Blue Heeler mix dog is one of the best additions that I have ever made to our home. :)

  • 2.) Gardening is one of my biggest passions.




To watch a seed or a bulb transform from this little pod to a full blown plant...is always such a treat for me...




My Dad used to make me help him with the gardening chores, such as breaking up bulbs when they were too crowded in a bed, to mixing additives to make the plants get the nutrition they need, to making to to remember to wear gloves for there are things in the dirt that bite you if you disturb them, to Latin names of plans so I know the difference between different breeds of the same common name, to so on and so forth...




I despised doing it then, as it took away play time with friends...but now...I enjoy working with the earth to create life for plants that I find to be beautiful.

  • 3.) SCUBA diving is another passion of mine. In the first year of learning, I did over 73 dives...all in lakes, lagoons, and SCUBA set up areas...but nonetheless...over 73 dives that were longer than 30 minutes...and...oh...




The feeling I have when I am underneath the water...it does not matter whether I am at 10 feet or 100 feet...the feeling is the same...




...pure enjoyment and bliss...




My favorite creature of the ocean...I will never be able to be with, as it lives in the Marianas Trench...if I had the ability to SCUBA dive...not be in a damn vessel...screw the fact of pressure smushing my body into a piece of dust...I would SO go diving there if I could...and it was possible...and I would not die...




Just sayin'...




However, the creature that I would adore being in it's presence, underwater; would be the Whale Shark...such a cutie patootie!!! And they are so gentle...and like how I like my dogs...the Whale Shark is one of the largest whales in the ocean...and they are sooo cute!!!




I want one as a pet...and while I am making pet requests...I SOOOO WANT a pet Platypus...they are just so adorable and pure awesomeness! Never mind the poisonous aspect...they are just so damn cute!!! ...and a Hippo as well...don't know where he would fit...but...if I am making requests...I figured, I would add that one into the mix... ;)

  • 4.) I love cars. Not just cars in general...but old muscle cars...and cars that have power in the engine that make it purr...and cars that go FAST...




...and I DESPISE automatic transmissions...




So, almost ever classification of a car that I owned...was and is a manual transmission...as it is the ONLY way to go...

  • 5.) This one ALWAYS gets people...LOL...




I like Country music.




Yes, I know that I was born and raised in New Jersey...




Yes, I know that my hair is the color that I dyed it...




Yes, I know that I have tattoos all over the place...




...however...I still like Country music...not all...but a lot more than most would or could ever guess...




George Straight, Jason Aldean, Deirks Bentley, Garth Brooks (not the Chris bull shit character that he came up with as an alter ego...that was RE-***-ED!!!, Carrie Underwood, Alan Jackson, Toby Keith, Blake Sheldon...the list goes on...and yes, the majority of my iPhone's music section has Country in it...Dance and Country are a close match...but Country still beats the second largest section of music that I have...

  • 6.) My patio is my nest...if I am not taking care of the kids, running errands, cleaning something, or the like...and my headache is not so bad that I need to lay down...and when my migraines are not affecting me...




The patio is exactly, where most likely, one will find me.

  • 7.) I adore a metal-smith and a jeweler's craftsmanship. Whether it is an original piece of jewelry that was custom made (my Dad went to the School of Bouleva and had his own jewelry repair business when I was younger) ~ so I adore unique pieces of jewelry...ESPECIALLY filigree...or a sword with Damask Steel...the way people have learned to manipulate the metals of the earth, always amazes me.

  • 8.) I love to cook...almost anything and everything...




From pot roast to Hungarian cookies to pasta to etc...

  • 9.) I am a fan of pipes...how they look...how they are made...what they are made of...their shape...their carvings...the type of stems...ALL of it...




And of course, my absolute favorite is Meerschaum...



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Such aspects as to the transparency as to taking the step for such clarifications is important as to such realities, as the ways which such has been brought forward in the multitude of ways as to the realities as to the reasons why of such clarifications because of the need to be capable to genuinely prove such factors in several instances of which I take safety and security a bit of importance as to the realities of what I have seen and noticed as to various factors thereof.



As far as the number 8, I suppose I can make a different sarcastic comment about a few situations in reference to certain situations of which the occurrences thereof in different ways as to the picture from the 51 of 88 as the reality of such situations has been important for the actualities of the truth in reference to my works in the multitudes of ways thereof which while some wish otherwise the factors of the truth needing to be told as to the realities thereof has been of importance for over a decade of which if each and every individual who had made the choices they had differently and actually had correctly acknowledged me in the proper ways then the situations which transpired would not have occurred as to the ways which they have of which in turn if such individuals would actually break their silence and actually speak the genuine real truth of such situations as to how much better the situations would actually be in comparison as to how such has been as to such factors thereof.



It has been 12.5 years...just for one situation while the rest of such aspects have been of the realities which have been required to come out for such a length of time...I have done so and had waited for lengths of time for someone to actually speak with me in truth to ask me in truth as to such factors however I guesstimate such individuals did not think about my Blue Identification Card of/for the Armed Forces of the United States of America nor did they think about the clearance aspects I suppose as to such realities of which how difficult would it have been to simply ask me the questions in truth back then in comparison to the length of times even in the current point in time of 29 November 2021?



What has truly taken others so long as to actually ask me as to such factors, well before I ever actually authored and compiled the aspects of my books over such lengths of time as was it truly that difficult?



The irony as to how many people I once knew in the SCUBA Diving community though instead of them simply asking me in truth and the one individual who had ran off from such a point in time in 2009, as to that amount of time as to their choices in such comparisons as to the situations thereof. It has always been something with the correct individuals as to speaking with in the comparisons thereof as to the ways of such situations, as while I have discussed multiple aspects there are plenty of situations of which it would have been far more intelligent to just ask me in genuine truth in comparison to what I have dealt with needlessly as to what seems as other people's egos in comparison to any other aspect in comparison.



Why would I have such a sensation of an unwanted individual as to such aspects, well I suppose it does not take a head injury to see what actual timeframe that began as to depending upon the individual(s) themselves.




After how many years, why would it take such difficulties from so many others in the comparisons as to simply asking the one and only who would the only one who could give all such answers?



Me, or am I and have I truly been as hideous as to what others have told me to my face in the situations thereof as to my physical viewpoints as I did not think I was as atrocious as to how such comments have been as to such points in time; though I did not ever think of myself as massively beautiful the ways of other females I have seen, I did not realize as to how truly horrific as to how such individuals must have thought of me as to such points in time which such could have simply been asked of me in truth.





Me #ReverendSusanMeeLing #SusanMeeLing #LadyDoriBelle in the year of 2021

I know I am not Melania Trump or Naomi Campbell or RuPaul, though I did not realize how much of a sore to the eyes in such references as to my physical aspects until the reviewal portions as to such points in time referencing beginning in the year of 2019 onward as I had not thought it was that bad in comparison as to how other people's lives have been in the comparison to my physical look.



By the way when as many people who do not assist in polling do not get considered as to such factors, in comparison to the ways of others' as to such aspects how horrific truly has my physical been as to such individuals in such aspects and comparisons thereof?



At minimum there are the reasons for each one of my tattoos of which as to such SCUBA Divers, I would not have had to get as many as I had afterwards if there was actually the genuine care and the actual help and assistances as to such times in comparisons as to what occurrences there were. Even the military as well as law enforcement has made addendums to tattoos, what are your problems as to such factors when reviewing such hypotheticals as to the same in reference to those California Hollywood types or am I incorrect as to such polling situations to such considerations as to how few had ever commented and/or remarked as to my modeling images?

Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

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After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

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Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

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Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

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Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

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After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

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Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

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Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

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Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Model Author Susan MeeLing

It should not take a head injury to figure this out because I thought you are supposed, to be smarter.

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If there are those who find such interesting enough to research further to bring forward more information in reference to the forefront for more detailed information, as usual I request the courtesy of the same which I do in reference to how I refer to articles for reference points when writing my journal blog entries; for each one used for reference starting points, to research for clearer understanding from such knowledge.

 

That is common sense, good etiquette, and good karma; whilst lifting others upward, in positive ways.

Quotes which mean a lot to me:

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"The ultimate measure of an individual is not where they stand in moments of comfort and convenience, but where they stand at the time of challenge and controversy."

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"We must reject the idea that every time a law is broken society is guilty, rather than the law breaker.  Freedom is never-more than one generation away, from extinction.  We do not pass freedom on through our blood stream because freedom must be fought for, protected, and handed on for the next generation to do the same."

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"Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.  Though best to be able to share in person with who matters, until that time occurs being able to see what is possible through such is a feat to notice.  One must be happy within oneself prior to being happy with another, though such can be enjoyed if living in one's own truth is as such. and then as to the capability to progress forward with another and/or others depending upon the situation(s) and individual(s)."  ~  A Quote From Me, Reverend Susan MeeLing also known as Lady Dori Belle

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In such references if there are any inaccuracies then I will fix and repair such details on my website, as per such.


Though there are the aspects of which if you would like to speak with me in addition to possibilities of opportunities for me, the welcome aspects as to contacting me through my contact form.


If I have known you in person when in person in positive ways and/or ways which might need clarification(s) as to mature discussions, there has always been the welcome open door policy as to contacting me through my contact form if you were not given my new phone number though such is online regarding my website more recently published online as to my Website Business Phone Line: (360)-713-4937.

Thus far there has been only one who has known the contact form area to speak with me on a phone line was simple and capable to do so through, in truth.

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