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It should not take a head injury
*after personally sustaining a head injury & coma*
to figure this out...

 
 
 
 
 
 


After a Drill Sergeant threw Me into the metal part of the bunk when I was in Basic Training for the United States of America's Army branch at Fort Sill Oklahoma #FortSill #FortSillOK #FortSillOklahoma #OK #Oklahoma in the year of 2000 on Psalm Sunday, I have dealt with the situations as best as I have been capable to do so while taking care of the situations and asking for assistance as per the required explanations of the information to such facts first.  While making the attempts to get assistance for the aspects thereof as to the reality, the aspects of where and when as to the multiple attempts to ask for assistance for me.  As my journal blog for when I was ready to bring such as to my other works forward since as to the lengths of time as to where my modeling was as to the modeling page information, just as the other pages have the information as to such specifics, and just as this journal blog of mine is as to such facts.


If I had real friends (if as to having met in person face to face in person in real life as to the aspects of this particular reference such as from the state of Texas as to the state of Washington as to the years of 2000 through 2013 if I met within the state of Texas for such references), real (the areas of the tristate region as before the year of 2000) family, and real relationships in real life that recognized me as to the aspects of if as to the face to face in person who started in truth as I had started such in truth as to the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, as well as the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain that took 8.5 years to dissipate; then I guesstimate there would be the easier factors as to being capable for me to speak with others in truth in person face to face in person and/or through online measures as to such factors I suppose.  Though would such as to the knowledge of the ways as to how they began such discussions with me as to would there be such a situation, for them to consider as to such if factors as to such discussions with me in truth?


As to some suggestions and commentary within "Finding A Silver Lining" one of several of my bo0ks I personally authored/wrote/compiled as I can only speak and write in truth as per such clarifications as to the reality as to the specifics of such discussions/writings/videos as per my Official You Tube where I have satirical commentary where I comment about the factors as to having dealt with others' opinions about their pop culture references of #NJ #NJstate #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey, though as to for the most part I have actually preferred to be asked with politeness if as to having read my books and/or seen my website as just the same in reference to the timeframes when I was modeling as to having respect as to what I consider as respect, referencing if as to such polite manners as to discussions if as to such having been noticed because of the factors in my opinion as to having real discussions as communication would be if my website was seen before the year of 2023 as I first began my website in 2015; as in my journal blog posts as to the reality of the years of 2010 through 2013, as to the aspects of introductions as to those timeframes when as to various factors as I did not take selfies as I was actually working with photographers as to my creations of my outfits as per the description on the link to my modeling page(s) as to the references regarding my journal blog updates in the years of 2019 through 2022 as the timeframe onward as to the year of 2023 as to the factors as to how such journal blog entries will be as to such factors as to the aspects of the various topic points.


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 I was born and raised in New Jersey and grew up going throughout the tristate northeast areas mainly, and as to how the reality of when the importance of the situations as to the aspects of reviewing as to such facts regarding the logistics for several factors as to the considerations; the years of 2019 through 2022 as to the review process as to the aspects of the timeframe, prior to the timeframe of the 20 year memorial of 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 as well as before the 30 year memorial of February 1993, as to the northeast areas mostly known as to New York City #NYC #NewYork #NY #NYstate #NYU though also as to the #Pentagon Pentagon, as well as Pennsylvania #Pennstate #Pennsylvaniastate as to the reality of how many New Jersey-ians commute in either direction, depending upon what location for the commute. 


The factors though I have said at times, I re-re-re-re-re-re-grew up in the state of  #Texas #TX #Texasstate Texas as to such factors as to the timeframes, as well as all 26 of my SCUBA #SCUBA #SCUBADiving  Diving certifications I earned were through one school within the state of Texas as I also earned winning first place in a Texas Chili cookoff with more than 20 entries as well as my chili recipe as I am adamant about my recipes as to such aspects just as I am specific as to what it actually takes for me to cook in a BBQ as to the required preparations for when I have BBQed.   



I can sarcastically write, those who know of the Rules of the BBQ as to where I grew up as to the Rules of the BBQ as to such factors to the considerations of such preparations.  However that is to cooking food as to the differences of my journal blog entries, as to the factors as to proverbial aspects of food for thought as the difference of real food in real life as to the facts of the situations to such attention to the details as well as attention to the information.


Such facts as to the metaphors in some of such factors that only after reviewing such information as to the aspects of the fiction book series that were as to for My personal life as to such dreamland sorts of factors as to the differences of such hypotheticals, the references thereof as to such regards as to the logistical emotional with the real situations as per the names I was informed of at the timeframes referenced review as to My journal blog as to the situations overall.  


If as to my journal blog being found and read as to where what I consider as common sense, as to the aspects of my satirical saying   how it should not take a head injury to figure out. 
 

*(sometimes utilizing articles discussing facts)*
By:  (Reverend) Susan MeeLing
also known as

The One & Only


Lady Dori Belle


...and to biological consenting adults as...

Lady Liberty Belle

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My life  =  My personal life

My life experiences  =  My personal life experiences that some might have something alike or something similar to though theirs is not the exact as to My personal life experiences

My opinion  =  Susan MeeLing's personal opinion that some or many might agree with

My needs  =  My personal needs for me personally though some distinguishing factors as to the aspects where there are different facets of My personal life and thus as to the distinguishing factors as to the different areas of my life, thus for Me personally is going to be for Me personally as to such differences as to the aspects whereas of others as to the factors to the considerations.


The FACT books I authored/wrote/compiled that I published through Amazon for My profits and what I chose/choose for the financial aspects per book:
*  Finding A Silver Lining  (published in print book format in in the year of 2015)
*  Finding The Silver Lining  (published in print book format in the year of 2014)
*  The Modern Day Book  (published in print format book in the year of 2020)
*  The Adventures of Susan MeeLing, SCUBA Diver Extraordinaire  (3 volumes published in print format books in the year of 2020)

 

Fiction Based books I published through Amazon that can have metaphors or proverbial only as some books allow the financial aspects as to donations whereas the newer books do not have such same factors whatsoever as to the financial resources for Susan MeeLing also known as Lady Dori Belle also known as Lady L*** Belle as make sure to not assume that all books will ever be the exact same:
*  "The Curious Children Book Series:  (2 volumes published in the year of 2014/2015)
*  "Fail-Safe:  The Kenedy curse fused with Science Fiction Fantasy  (The New World Order)"  (1 book published in the year of in print format book form 2015/2016 that is the main book to refer to for each of the subsequent books in the series as the 10 volume book series published as the 9 additional volumes in 2021/2022 as not all books were allowed as per My personal choice to be published in print format as to the ideals I have had for My work as to how I personally chose to release My books as to My business plans)
*  "Paroxysm of the Lotus Book Series"  (3 volumes published in print format of books in the years of 2014 through 2015 and then 7 books were published in the year of 2021/2022)


To Contact Me to ask me what My needs, my wants, My preferences, My Ideals, and/or My desires is only to utilize My To Contact Form to ask me respectfully after explaining yourself as to such aspects first as asking Me is the best way to actually do so correctly to actually learn to know of what My actual needs are for the factors of as the same in reference to my wants and so on and so forth.  That includes though not limited to asking if there is something to assist Me with, arranging Book Signing, arranging requiring My permission first as to my needs for any appearance(s)/meeting(s), 


Do not assume that just because I authored/wrote/compiled books that you know Me, you know of Me as to such factors as to the factors of the reality of the social media.


If I personally have reached out to you directly as to requesting a meeting and/or meetings, I have done so with the factors of respect regarding the aspects of what I could figure as being respectful as to the time(s) as to upon your schedule though also as depending upon my schedule as well.  The contact information regarding phone numerical factors as to the aspects of My To Contact Form through My website, as to making attempts as to the ease to correctly communicate clearly.  


Ensure if you are going to ask about Me, to know the exact-ish amount of time the individual actually knew Me in real life in person face to face in person in real life to verify the correct numerical positions of time that they may have known Me or if they knew of me as to the facts.


My modeling is not the same as speaking with Me face to face at all, because that is not the same as in real life as to the facts that in real life in person face to face in person actually requires those facts of in real life in person face to face in person in real life where a human being in person face to face in person is in real life with another human being is the common sense for in person face to face in person in real life as there is a difference to getting My personal permission first.


I do not allow anyone to misinterpret ever, as there is the clear facts that if someone/anyone says they can interpret Me, ensure they actually have what I personally consider as the starting point of full foundation as to actual capacities to do so correctly as what I consider as the correct foundation as to making sure the foundation of theirs in not made out of sand as to the differences of whereas to the facts my foundation is forged from where the stones as to the rock of My foundation is to the sturdiness thereof as to My personal life as to My personal experiences as to Me personally; as in my personal opinion that imitation is not flattery at all in any capacity when in reference to Me.


Since I comprehend Myself as to My and what My needS are as to what My wantS are as to what My preferenceS are as to what My idealS are as to what My desires are, then as to My comprehension of such factors in reference to Myself as to My personal requirements as when I have written about My personal life experiences as to the words I personally have chosen to describe such facts, then as to My life = My personal life experiences.


Manners, respect, human decency, and protocols are as a beginning point for what My personal standards are for Me.

Make sure to be capable to distinguish when the facts of My journal blog are in the capacity of either facts with satire and/or facts with metaphors and/or facts with figurative and/or facts as literal as the reality that My personal life experiences are My personal life experiences as to where some might relate to what I personally have dealt with, the full combination of what I have survived is the difference as to where the distinction is.


I survived the attacks on the soil of the homeland of the United States of America as to the tristate areas of New Jersey, New York, and Pennsylvania in the year of 1993 in the month of February as well as the timeframe of 9/11 also known as 11 September 2001 because I was born and raised in New Jersey in the three-county/three-borough area that had the most amount of commuters to New York City as well as other factors of the reality as to the state of New Jersey that those factors of pop culture are usually NYCers or Pittsburgians or Philadelphians and not New Jersey-ians pop culture as the aspects of comprehending the facts as that pop culture only has small amounts as to the differences of the fullnesses thereof.


What I know for what My personal comforts are as to being capable to see as to such factors, translates to comprehension of Myself as to comprehending what is best for Me personally as to what is best for My work as well as what is best for My personal comforts.  As hours change to days and days change to weeks and weeks change to months and months change to years and years change to decades, I comprehend My personal needs as I comprehend I have made attempts for My personal needs to be correct for Me as to what My personal considerations are.


Keep your thoughts in what I consider as purity as to such actual purity of innocence, and the ease of life is made so as to the factors of the ensuring the correct actions without assumptions.


Acknowledging biases first without judgement, has no capacity of being biased as no bias can be without the capacities of bigotry, and thus without bigotry then there is the capacity of acknowledging biases without judgement.


I personally am unaware of fans of Mine because I do not assume that I have any because of what My considerations are for what a fan of Mine would be, as the factors when considerations as to fandom as to Myself is as to the factors of what I personally consider as comfort.


People should be more uplifting as to the aspects of being appreciative if as to appreciating work of Mine, as I have not need/want/desire of any male dominant in the supposed to be consenting adult lifestyle regarding such factors of any type of relationship outside of acquaintance or friendship only, as that is not in any capacity ever a turn on to what My considerations are for Me at all in any capacity whatsoever as it has not ever been a turn on to Me.


The reality that Females have the capacity to be strong enough to be themselves if as to such morals and ethics as to such reality needs and requirements, thus as to where males have needed to accept the facts as not all males are as to what they might think of themselves as the same in reference of professional in what is supposed to be consenting adult biologically legally as to informed, as how they themselves are not anything of any turn on to Me as they are the opposite 100% in every capacity of anything that would ever be capable to turning Me on personally as I personally am not a lesbian as obviously a female biologically who would enjoy such factors would only be as to such aspects as to having to acknowledge such within herself.


As a Pansexual as to the intellectual capacities where I can be interested though not necessarily turned on, as to the physical does not make the aspect of what is of attraction to Me in the aspects whereas some might assume, as the factors as to the emotional connections depend and vary as to the situations, whereas the spirituality of such factors as My comprehension of Eclectic Judeo-Christianity religion is important, as the factors of sexuality of what sexually is attractive for Me is as to how the personal connection is as to the genuinity.


Being Polyamorous as I am personally is as to the intellectual capacity of being capable to discuss multiple topics while actually caring in truth, emotionally having the capacity to connect and such communicative factors, as the other three aspects thereof as to the references to the differences as to romantic factors as to platonic factors as there is My personal capacity where I always begin as to platonic factors first before I have ever or would ever consider anything sexually and/or romantically as personally it takes a lot more for Me to be capable to connect romantically than it ever has as to connecting platonically because of the way I personally was raised.


Thus if interested in dating Me as to in the capacity of not setting a date for a meeting as that obviously would not be the exact same unless previously brought up as to discussions, then as to such aspects as to arranging such with Me to ask Me first if that is an interest as to other(s) regarding such aspects. 


Thus the as I am as where I am a Female Dominant as to being as I am, then as to such acceptance there is a difference as to Myself being a Feminist as to the differences whereas the factors of feminazism as to the references of those who would have such factors as to their patterns of choices as to their behaviour as to the factors whereas the proof of such to the aspects of the differences of reviewing information from a different point in time as to such a point in time as to the facts that need to be paid attention to as to the facts of the time.


Completing a logistical review of My personal life experiences while acknowledging My experiences as well as My emotions from the facts of the situations from the years of 2019 through 2022, is not the same as to having the capability of time to review such all at the exact point in time of the exact point in time as that should not take a head injury to figure out.


My work as to My writings as to if used in speeches as the ease thereof as the 10% for Me of such if financial factors as to the tithing viewpoints, if as to such factors of consideration.


The links to My website as to My different pages of My website including My Journal Blog, are capable to share the link as to discussing the details as to the information of; though such facts for the fullness to be capable to read more to learn from the knowledge, is of the facts where such importance.


Since the requirements in reference to My website as to where tghe finances were only for Me to be capable to utilize were not responded directly to Me personally as there was not anyone ever allowed to be involved as to on My behalf ever, as to the aspects where since I personally did not have any such discussions as to what My personal minimum standards were as to being met for what My personal requirements are/were/are as to where there was and is not any allowances for such misinterpretations ever as to the clear distinctions as to Me personally only as to where I have clarified repeatedly that I am the one and only as to ever making the decisions for Myself as well as My work(s).


I personally do not play games, as I do not find games as they are not fun for Me.


I personally do not often watch television/movies as that is not assistive to my headaches/migraines at all, as the after effects from My head injury on Psalm Sunday in the year of 2000 as the additional after effects from the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal temporal lobe of My brain that took 8.5 years to fully dissipate out of the MRI and out of the CAT scans as I have figured as to what works best for me personally.


While I have made attempts to connect with real people as to real friends as I once thought of as to such prior points in time, as to how such aspects went in the years from 2019 through 2022 as to such viewpoints as to such considerations referencing as to what capacities as to such factors regarding the differences as to choices/words/actions/deeds as to such references as to the factors of humanity as per the proof regarding my attempts before as well as during as well as after such points in time.


If as to the current time where each individual seems to think of themselves as a commercial and/or thinks of others as a commercial instead of thinking of each as an individual human being with individual personal life experiences as to how I personally have considered each individual if I am accurate referencing others' opinions as to such if factors, then as to where the reality of such readjustments as to the recalibrations of what humanity is.


The aspects of pop culture as to the facts regarding the differences between the factors of as while there might be some aspects that align in some ways, there are still the facts of the amount of the rest of different experiences and life thereof.


Thus as to such facts whereas what My personal needS as to what My personal wantS as to such factors, such aspects of the #ADA ADA requirements as to the facts regarding My being medically retired or being considered as to such disability aspects as to the reasons why ADA aspects are in such as for Me as to such aspects; though actually being capable to have as well as utilize such aspects as to My benefits in the correct capacities for Myself, as to the aspects whereas such factors of proof regarding the situations as to such reasons I have also worked as diligently as I have attempted to being capable to provide for Myself as being a biological adult of two biological adult legal aged children I personally gave birth to while having been awake from My coma for less than 1.5 years for one and 2.5 years for the other as to such facts.


Online is important for several aspects, though in real life as to such reality as to the real needs as to such common sense as to the factors of what is required for Me as I comprehend what is actually best for Me and that is not up for interpretations as interpretations always lead to misunderstandings as to the facts as to such proof regarding the aspects thereof as to My personally being capable to be in as well as remain in a good mood as to the attempts I have made to being capable to accomplish such.


While the aspects of My personal belief in real angels as to real faeries as to real spiritual beings as to such facts regarding such as to where I was Confirmed in the year of 1997 as to the aspects thereof to that history, the aspects where such facts as to the references thereof as the differences of what are considered as real friends in real life as to the differences of the spiritual aspects if there was ever any common sense as to different human beings unless as to such being as cherubim as to homo-sapien-sapiens as to ever being ignorant enough to think that is the same when obviously as to the facts that a real human being as to a real friend as to the difference of a real spirit as to such aspects thereof to real spiritualism capabilities.

However such is obviously a difference from the aspects thereof, to humanity as human beings are supposed to be and are as to humanity if as to such aspects of the definition of humanity.


If I was/am believed as I understand some have opinions as to religious aspects and/or spiritual factors as to the usage of the words metaphor/proverbial/figurative, there has not been such confirmation for Me to have such knowledge for Myself regarding such aspects to what I would know and understand as to such as per the proof regarding the exact time.


Some do not just get over something as massive as the situations as to February 1993 as to being capable to survive such, as that was not a video game nor was that a computer game nor was that a pop culture fiction aspect as to such references and regards just as 11 September 2001 or 9/11 was not a video game and was not a computer game and was not a pop culture fiction aspect.


There is not the capacity where individuals who have tried to prettify the aspects for individuals to truthfully recover and heal from such aspects because of the requirements as to the truth being told in full, and when the truth is told in full is the only capacity for healing to begin.


Thus as to the facts in reference to My personal life experiences, what support would there be that I could truthfully say and/or write about as to the aspects of such luxuries others have had as to such amounts of individuals as to such support groups as to such friends as to such aspects of discussions as to what discussions would actually be in the references thereof as to what I personally consider as; or would such individuals think that them discussing amongst themselves would be as to the same instead of the aspects thereof as to discussions with Me personally, as to such proof regarding such luxuries as to those types as to such factors as to the aspects of such wannabe aspects.

 

 

Those who would consider Me as wanted as to what I consider as being wanted as to the differences as to such aspects of "Finding A Silver Lining" as there are only so many words in the dictionary to describe, and when individuals choose to be bratty nonconsensually as to such aspects as to such brattiness as to the aspects of the amounts of words as to the amounts of times as to where either the individual is going to be considered as competent to understand or they will be considered as incompetent as to humanity referencing such types as to those factors as to such aspects that I have brought forward as to the proof thereof to the validity of such aspects. 


"Finding A Silver Lining" and "Finding The Silver Lining" are situations that are of My past as to the situations I personally dealt with as to such aspects whereas My suggestions as to the current time as well as the future, are the difference.


"The Modern Day Book" is as to what I noticed as per the years thereof in those references as to what the looks were as to such descriptions for such clear aspects, as the common sense factors as to such regards as to having been born and raised in New Jersey as to the aspects of the differences as to NYC as NYC thinks of such aspects whereas New Jersey has the capacity to prefer the real of the reality as to such differences whereas Broadway wanted to be more like Hollywood and visa versa as to such references.


"The Adventures of Susan MeeLing, SCUBA Diver Extraordinaire" is of what My personal experiences were as to My personal work as to My personal life experiences as to before I began SCUBA Diving as to what I was known as through My name in reference of My personal trainers as to My personal childhood experiences as to such work in reference of protecting and defending the individuals on land above sea level as to the aspects of My work if that was/is actually appreciated.


The aspects where I could see now in the year of 2023 where some capacities of "Fail-Safe" could be as to such if factors as well as "Paroxysm" as to such if factors as while I was only being creative as to such aspects as to My writings, the aspects whereas for Myself personally would be as to the references for such aspects if as to those types as to such psychological distinguishing factors as to what I have been capable to distinguish as to My comprehension of Myself as well as My comprehension of My wrok as I authored/wrote/compiled as to the best of My capabilities as to My overall books.


In reference of "Paroxysm" there is not anyone I ever have personally dated that would ever fit into such descriptions, ever.  The facts regarding where the references thereof to prior timeframes as to Volume 2 are from individuals I personally knew before the year of 2000, as to the common sense factors as to the reality of the overall.


In regards as to "Fail-Safe" and "Paroxysm" in regards of for Me personally as to the relationship aspects of for Me personally as to the references and regards thereof officially for Me personally despite having written of such in an overall way, the aspects of if as to such as for Me personally then as to such clarifications now as to the year of 2023 as to the differences regarding the multiple reasons as to bringing such forward as to healthy acquaintences as to healthy friendships as to health developments of hetero-sexual relationships that as to such hetero-sexual relationships as to the fluidity depending upon the aspects of such a relationship factor if as to the consensual aspects as to each involved being fully informed first as that is the only capacity thereof as to being informed as to officially being informed before such aspects as for the example where I have been honest as to the after effects from My Psalm Sunday in the year of 2000 head injury as to others being informed first officially as to such if factors as to the differences.


The aspects whereas to such if factors as to My books I personally authored without any assistances as to My personal creativity to authoring such aside from the technological factors as to being capable to write such books as to "Paroxysm" and "Fail-Safe" referencing such aspects specifically for Myself regarding such aspects of the specifics as to such details, then I suppose if as to such would be as to prophecy regarding such if factors if such were to ever be for Myself personally; though if as others' interpretations of their own lives as to then the references of whereas being capable to prophesize decades before ever writing though definitely would not ever prefer certain aspects as to certain individuals as to My personal considerations as to the specifics as to such references regarding the factors thereof as to "Fail-Safe" especially though also in such clarifications as to for Me as to "Paroxysm" as to such if factors as to what My personal considerations as to the aspects thereof regarding the aspects not of a novelty as there is a difference between a novel a difference between a novel idea a difference between as to how such aspects of where the problems as to problematic novelty factors as to such misinterpretations in My opinion.


When describing the situations in truth that is the common sense starting point of a foundation, and any who think that such could be fast-forwarded are incompetent as to such aspects where certain factors are required to have such details and information to being capable to actually make such genuine efforts as to progression towards betterment in genuine truth.


The reality where such aspects of when such efforts are direct as to such facts as per the prior amounts of time as to explanations, then as to the facts where either the competency to listen and then think while listening as well as being capable to progress with the correct actions as to such regards as to the common sense.


Maybe it is a bit more truthful than I realized, common sense might actually be a genuinely real superpower. 


Forgiveness is of importance as to such truth in full as best as possible, the factors of as to such if remorseful.


The reasons why of the reality as to where, as to the year of 1993. 


Time is important as to emotions of the situations, retaining such knowledge can assist seeing towards progression of betterment.


Communications are important listening both sides if as to consent, the factors as to information in truth as of much importance. 

Life and Love, Life and Love
Between, Below, and Above


Brightest of Blessings.

Please share the link to my website and feel free to comment in the section below however know that I am not informed as to any comments made within the area of each journal blog I post, though the ability to express yourselves as to such comments of such are able to be seen of such portions if you so choose.

I encourage others to share the links and to speak about such topics honestly as to such aspects and situations as my saying as to it should not take a head injury to figure out is the main satirical portion as to my journal blog, as to the facts as to sometimes when wording hits a certain way all one can do is chuckle a bit as to reviewing such portions of information thereof.

If interested in using my journal blog for articles and/or legal aspects please just remember to put the link to the specific journal blog article area to assist the fuller aspects as to the clarifications for others to also be able to read through for such additional details, as well as if there are those who are interested in further discussions and/or commentary and/or interviews and/or speaking arrangements and/or invitational aspects of such journal blog entries I have written please do contact me through my contact form with such details at www.susanmeeling.com/to-contact 

Please also know the reasons for having such available hopefully assists the more open discussions as to the various details thereof to which I have been honest and truthful about, which additionally to such as to posting on social media in various areas is welcome as the ability to discuss such topics honestly is of importance as it brings a different form of discussions though also assists more to be involved with such viewpoints.  I know there are those who either have not had a social media account and/or have had to wait to be online more often in such aspects depending upon the employment thereof to which the reference to the details in such references per journal blog entry might assist in different ways while additionally giving the ability to still engage online in various forums to which while some may prefer not to have their social media accounts associated with responses on my website which is acceptable; it does give a forum for such discussions as well for those who may not have the ability to go into further details in certain other areas online, as to a different cover though the reality of such transparency on my part as to having been open and honest as to my community area involvements additionally hopefully open the doors and open the lines for more genuine and honest communication within the age appropriate guidelines thereof for the betterment and clarity among more.

 

 

Admittedly only recently in the year of 2020 had I realized I may physically look similar to different characters in different aspects of pop culture however I did not grow up being allowed to watch such aspects and since after waking up from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury coma, I do not usually watch such pop culture because of the after effects from my Psalm Sunday in the year of 2000 head injury as to knowing the personal aspects of what is best for myself.  However I did not and do not know of the pop culture references many of the times because of not being allowed to watch anything other than G-rated movies/television throughout my childhood and teenager years in the 1980s to the 1990s as the rating systems may have been different for such times, as I also was not allowed to watch PG or PG13 or any other type of PG until I was a certain age which again similarly to such times in the 1980s and the 1990s the rating system may have been different to such aspects; of which once I was the age of 18 years old biologically I have been able to watch anything and everything I personally prefer or want to watch.

 

 

Additionally I do not play games despite possibly looking physically as what characters might be as to such, as again that is something within pop culture which I have not usually known nor understood a reference to such in pop culture however I encourage people to know the difference between a pop culture reference as to knowing the difference to the human being spoken with as I have picked up there are several individuals who may not have known there is a difference between what images and/or videos as to being seen compared to the interactions with others when in real life in person as well as when speaking with others through various forms of online communication of which the care and the concern as to such aspects in my opinion is of importance to review for such realities. 

 

 

While I understand others have the choice to play games for whichever aspects thereof, please comprehend I am not one who will play games as I personally do not find such appealing to me nor to the after effects of as well as from my Psalm Sunday year of 2000 head injury just as others with and/or without a head injury may have a different viewpoint to such aspects as to games as some just have a life which such is considered as a luxury to play games comparatively though cannot do.

 

 

Please be respectful as to such as well as if you meet me and/or see me in public and speak with me, please be honest as to such as I have not ever assumed anyone had ever known of my website or my work as to the fact I have known there are many websites throughout the internet of which if there have been hints to such at any point in time there has not been the ways of which I would view such aspects as to the reference without the actual bringing of such information up first by who I have spoken with because of the ways as though I write as I do when I speak it is not always the same way as such comes across online possibly as there are differences as I would guesstimate others would know as per their own online aspects as to how such discussions have been with others and/or writings thereof as to when corresponding with others.

 

 

Though I know there are more than just the two social media areas of which Facebook and Twitter have been available, because of certain topics of my journal blog entries as well as the multiple social media platforms I lease such areas at the discretion of the reader to posting such aspects because of the knowledge certain topics are for certain age ranges as to the details thereof though because of certain aspects as to the intellectual levels for the reasons as to the choices thereof for what I have known some companies have assisted with in reference to the rating system as to guidelines as to the clicking of certain links for such software references as to controls.  I have done the best I could to ensure the ability for if in reference to biologically under the age of 18 years old for such choices up to the parent(s)/legal guardian(s)/grandparents to the topic points I have/do written/write about as well as kept such details more modest for the ability for such aspects of choice to the appropriate levels of discussions, of which hopefully with the additional aspects as to the genres assist with such abilities for the clarifications thereof.  

If newsworthy, please do send to the news organizations if there are topics of which are interesting that should be broadcast upon the various news media stations as to the specifics within the posts I have put together.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

Combining Original Accounts for Clarification: #45 of 88

In reference of combining all of my journals I wrote through my original #fetlife account which I will post the link at the bottom for the clarifications thereof, I am going to have the transparency brought forward as to what can be seen from the original posting dates as to the current timeframe of this day 28 November 2021 for those to see as to my original #Facebook accounts of Susan MeeLing as well as Lady Dori Belle for the additional ability to see the connection links as to what I had discussed for many years and decades in person as well as online as to such factors as best as I could as to the circumstances. Possibly such details will assist to make sense, in the comparisons thereof as to the amounts of details though in addition I do not pretend or hide myself from my truth which others should realize it is important to be honest and truthful in many more ways than just in one or two moments as it is imperative to be more capable to recognize the truth in such aspects of life for far more than some might have realized despite all of my warnings as to what I knew to bring forward to assist as best as possible.



I will begin with posting my newer updated journals from my original account and work backwards as to the irony I noticed. There will be plenty to read in the ways of, whether or not you choose to venture into the areas of the website fetlife.



Posted on 21 December 2012 and as an oddity as to the day specifically...there is just a pure irony...



Day Nine: 2 Pictures That Describe You...ALSO...21 December 2012..."The End of the World"...oooooo...



Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why...

26 December 2012

I am difficult...and I know this...and I whole heartedly accept that...




Due to the fact that I am difficult...and a pain in the ass who sometimes just cannot follow instructions...due to several issues...I will admit...I am going to be a little shit who does not adhere to the ideals in this exercise within The List, as I have to be the one who cannot choose JUST TWO pictures; as stated...



Nooooooooooooooo...I cannot narrow things down to 2 pictures...I have to be the ass hole who has to have more...because I am me...because I am difficult...because - apparently - I just cannot follow these rules...because I am a little shit ass pain in the butt...and so on...



However, at least I admit it; unlike other people...



Just sayin'...



...so...without further adue...and in no particular order...



Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why... ...well...maybe a few more than 2...




1LadyDoriBelle

This picture, describes how I have to feel some days; as I AM "The Lone Ranger" when it comes to raising my children. I have to be able to manage 2 different children, with 2 VERY separate needs. With the Writing that I have mentioned about me getting to; and not having the ability...this is part of what I was going to go into.




I do have a handsome, quick witted, gentlemanly (in the making), creative, loving son; whom is a Gifted and Talented rated student. I have to make sure, as a mom should, that he is always taken care of - whether with friends, family, school, and so on and so forth. I need to get him to school, Strings, and whatever else planned for him; on time, but preferably early...




I am a stickler for time...




I do have a wonderful, artistic, caring, sweet-natured, loving, beautiful daughter...who...unfortunately has Special Needs; and has to have help through short and long term stays at Mental Institutions... Due to everything that she has been through, she has not learned to cope (yet) about things with every day life, and the world, but I am and have been doing everything that I can think of and most of what is suggested to me (if it has not already been done); in order to aid my daughter through her processes.




With all of that...this was part of what my Writing was going to be about...




I have now accepted that, yes...I have TWO CHILDREN with 2 SEPARATE NEEDS that must be taken into consideration AT ALL TIMES. I have for the most part, always tried to put my children first. I am a human and I have and do make mistakes, for as much as I DESPISE that perfection in my eyes can never be reached for myself...sigh...I have to always do my hardest to try my best at everything. ...ESPECIALLY with my children...




Coming to this conclusion; on of all days; 21 December 2012...the supposed "End of The World Day"...in a way...it really was "the end of the world" for me...in a lot of ways... I am TRYING to get to that Writing...but things keep popping up...so...whenever it finally gets written (if ever)...it does...




Anyway, as I was saying; I came to the realization that I do not have 2 children that can be raised quote - un-quote "normally"...I have to raise my TWO CHILDREN in 2 SEPARATE manners...yet at the same time, not only treat them equally and as one...but at the same time; keep them updated on each other, for the amount of time that they have been apart and missing each others' lives...not only saddens me and breaks my heart...but it also shows me what I am missing...constantly...and I hurt...and I am in pain about it...




I digress...that is for the Writing...




So, with that, my children and I are not a family in my sense or ideals of a family...at all...anymore...and most likely...never will be again...




The Florida Trip showed me the wonders and the beauty of my children and my relationship together...with the two of them interacting with each other...with them individually and as a whole interacting with me... ...sigh... I miss that time ever-so much...I wish for it's return almost every single day... ...sigh...




So, as far as this picture is concerned; it shows an example of how I have to live my life, as best as I can. I have to "become" Wonder Woman, in order to save the world for my children and for myself.





2/1Happy Veterans Day to all who served. Thank You, all for your time and service. Also, to the families and friends of Veterans, thank you for Your support. For, without Your support the Veterans would not have been able to handle what they had to deal with...You were and are Their rocks...so...YOU ROCK!!! Thank you, All! – LadyDoriBelle




I believe, that in every generation...there will always be some form of "War" on something...whether it be the "War" on drugs...the "War" against the homeless being homeless...the "War" in general...



We, as the United States of America; have chosen to create a Bill of Rights to keep us and ours safe. In order to be able to create this Document...there were males, and soon females; who stood up proudly to say; "I am joining the United States ___(enter Branch of Service here)___"; for whatever reasons they had in mind.




Without ANY of these Fe/Males...we would NOT be The United States of America...we would belong to some other government that does things extremely differently...and without nearly as many rights as we have.




For all of those who say, "Peace over War..." and garbage of the sort...without "War" there would not be any "Peace"...think about it...




I cannot commend any person who joins the Service, in any Branch enough for their bravery to put their lives on the line for whatever reasons they chose to enter whatever Branch. Whether or not one joins strictly for Patriotism...for we all chose why we joined for whatever reasons...but there is literally; maybe only 5% of the USA population who has military experience...and that is pushing it...




In my heart of hearts; I cannot thank the people who have put their lives on the line and those who lost their lives to the degree that I feel in my heart for them and for their families. For without those soldiers' friends and family...there is not much they see fighting for...so for all of those who are friends and family of soldiers...reach out to them every once in a while...they need that reminder that someone DOES care about them and what they are doing...whether or not the person agrees with the soldiers' choices.





1LadyDoriBelle



This one pretty much says it all...




I do not care about what people think of my hair cut or color...




I do not care about what others think about my multiple tattoos...




I am not concerned about whether or not every single person that I come across or who comes across me, agrees with all of my thoughts and opinions...we are ALL allowed to think freely... ...for the time being...




I am not concerned about how others view my life...I know it sucks...I know that I and my life are not ideal or perfect...I know that I have issues - and I deal with them as best as I can - and if you don't like it...

...refer to the picture above...






Arboretum – LadyDoriBelle




This picture speaks to me on so many levels...




So many times...so many days...I feel like my feet will not allow me to go and enjoy the beauty that is right in front of me... I feel as if I just cannot reach that field of glorious flowers where I can enjoy their colors, scents, growth patterns, leaves, petals, and so on and so forth...and they are RIGHT THERE...just a little bit in front of me...




I feel as if I am SO close...yet...SO far away...




I just cannot move myself or motivate myself to get into that field and to enjoy all that life has to offer...




I see others and how easily it is for them to be like the fey and just jump in and slide down one of the stalks, as they shrink into the ones who enjoy the plants for all that they are...and I am green with envy as I just have not been able to make myself go down that path...




...I just have tried and tried...and my roots just wont budge...my limbs are just too stiff, as they barely sway in the wind...I feel as if I cannot grasp that which I desire for something always comes along to trim the edges away that are just within reach of the new day's sun...




As nice as it is to be proclaimed as having "nice form"...within...the darkness of my soul...it just takes over and I can never believe a word of that from those who say as such...I have been "trained" to not accept compliments as forms of anything good...or anything at all...as they just have felt empty - for I feel empty... ...7.5 years of an abusive marriage can do that to someone... Though the compliments are welcomed and refreshing from all that I typically hear...it fills me with nothing but sadness...for I just DO not and CANNOT see it...




So, I stand wherever my feet are planted...and I look at the glory before me...and I long to be able to jump into the field of flowers as if I was the size of some faeries...and I wish so much to be able to let go and reach out and just be...

...but as time has gone on...I have come to the understanding...that...for me, at least...that happiness and frolicking within the gorgeous earth and life before me that I seek...just will have to be out of reach...for however long...





1I took my children to Florida for our first "Official Family Vacation", as their father considered visiting his family a "Family Vacation." I disagreed and I begged for the ability to have 1, but to no avail; until WAY after we separated and he died. ~ This is a Pelican that was on the dock and swimming around the area that I was standing at; as my children and I waited for the Captain of the ship, for the Dolphin Excursion I was about to take them on. The deal was, we were going to go out to the ocean from the Florida Keys on a boat to see Dolphins in their natural habitat. Yes, I could have had a session where one swims with the Dolphins, but I am a SCUBA diver, and I am against keeping animals caged for the sole purpose of petting them. Zoos, I can deal with, as the natural habitat is created for the animals, so it is not too much of a change from where they were prior. Though, I still am not a fan of Zoos, either. Back to Mr. Pelican... He followed me around, wherever I went, on the dock. First, he was swimming all over the area of water, from the tip of the dock; all the way out to the other side, where the water met the tree line. At some point while the kids and I were waiting, Mr. Pelican decided to make his way towards me, to check me out and look at me...I suppose... He let me get close to him, before he backed away on the dock; after he perched. Then, I would step back, and give him his space while he would look at me the whole time. My kids were staring at all of the Tarpin coming to the top of the water and jumping out to splash; so they could have not cared less about him; just as he could care less about them. I suppose...it was all about him and me... When the kids did realize that the Pelican had been on the dock, kind of dancing with me a bit; as when I would back off, he would slowly make his way to me. ...but only to a point... Once Mr. Pelican waddled to a certain point, he would stand there and just look at me, and I him. At some point, I would try to get closer, and when he felt uncomfortable, he would back away. This continued all the way until the time that the Captain of the ship showed up. I am able to have a picture that I took digitally, of the kids standing about 3-5 feet away from being next to Mr. Pelican; and that was the time that the Captain arrived. She told us how this little guy lost his ability to fly, so, the people there take care of him. However, she and all the people there could and did tell me about how Mr. Pelican has NEVER done that before. Some people were watching in the distance, and as we all talked before the trip; I was explained to REPEATEDLY, how he was not social. He would come to the docks where the bread/left over fish were thrown, and he would slowly approach, watching the person for the entire time, before he would take the food and run away. I think that is pretty cool. He was my buddy for the day. :) And when we returned, he waddled towards us, as if to say "good-bye" before we left. However, right as we were pulling up to dock, the storm that was supposed to not happen until 3-5 hours later...followed us back to shore and hit right as we were getting off of the boat. We had a little bit of rain as we were getting back; but as soon as we stepped off of the boat, the downpour and torrential rain began, instantly. – LadyDoriBelle




Hmph...people are quick to throw away the power of symbols that come into one's life, so quickly. Native American, Egyptian, Asian, Buddhist, and so on traditions and symbolism that has been around for ages; has stuck well with their meanings. If something unusual comes into your life...research the spiritual meaning...you may find something that you never thought of or knew about yourself to think of...




So, that is exactly what I did with this little guy who decided to stay by my side, the majority of the time that the kids and I were waiting for our dolphin trip. Yes, while the Dolphin has it's own medicine that it works with, we were purposely there to see them in their natural habitat...we made the effort to visit them and see them and be witness to their glory...




However...that was all planned and what was to be expected.




This little guy...was completely NOT expected, as he followed me around once he caught sight of me. I was told that he came closer to me than anyone before; and many were amazed, as they figured this buddy was injured somehow and could not fly; as they never had seen him once he showed up.




Here is something else that I was planning on putting within that Writing...but I did not realize that...well...let's just say that the Pelican Medicine...almost pretty much says it a lot...




QUOTE FROM 2nd PAGE:




*"Buoyancy *


Unselfishness

Pelican people can rise to the top no matter what life throws at them; no matter how weighed down them become with life’s trials and tribulations.




Emotional turmoil is often the weight in a Pelican person’s life.




Pelican teaches you how not to be overcome by your troubles, but rather to rise above them.




Pelican shares nesting sites and food with others and therefore teaches unselfishness.




Teamwork is key for a person with a Pelican totem."




IN RESPONSE:

I do not know about if I can rise to the top, no matter what I have to deal with...but I strive to survive the best that I can.




I give my ALL to my children and to those who mean something to me...ANYONE who has ever had any experiences with me CANNOT deny that fact...




Teamwork...ha! ...sigh... That one is a strong one with me...




First, TEAMWORK...that is the definition...




All that being said; when I view teamwork...I view it in that manner...where there is nothing but honesty and genuine care for the greater whole...




...a community might learn from that to build itself up to be better... ~ ...I'm just sayin'...




I strive to work with people to learn whatever I can and as much as I can, from each encounter that I have. There is ALWAYS something to be learned from every interaction with a person...it does not matter who it is...




One can learn how to become more independent through interactions with another...




One can understand another person's point of view, and then they apply that to their own personal belief system...for whatever cause or reason...




One can learn meanness from some...




One may attain knowledge from others, that are not necessarily found in the public knowledge base...




One may learn a new technique...




And so on an so forth...this can be applied to life...as well as BDSM...




QUOTE FROM 1st PAGE:

"Brown pelicans will fly straight down to let the water out. Since water is the element that carries emotion, this aspect of pelican's medicine – the letting go of the water in the pouch - reminds me of a saying I have posted above my kitchen sink: Let feelings flow; then let them go. It epitomizes how healthy it is to let ourselves feel all our emotions, yet not hold onto them."




Something that I was once again; going to write about in "The Writing" that I have talked about...




I have learned...I must learn to let go...




I need to let go of a lot more than just what I think holds me back from my highest good in order to achieve happiness...




...I also need to let go of whatever the Divine shows me that I must release...whether or not I want to...and whether or not I like it...I need to learn how to let go of whatever is preventing me and my children from attaining our best of blessings...accepting them within ourselves and within our lives...and let go of everything else that just DOES NOT MATTER...




Very slowly, I have come to this understanding and this realization...very much close to the Mayan's "End of The World" day...possibly on the drive to Austin...possibly at the party...possibly when with friends...possibly the drive home...or even possibly all of the above...and possibly more...




I must let go...




I must release all of my expectations...




I have to relinquish all thoughts that I have of being able to control any situation before me...




...I think that one is the hardest...




...sigh...




I need to just give up everything...and hope for the best...no matter what comes my way...




QUOTE FROM 1st PAGE:

"One characteristic of these times that will only increase as an essential quality of life is cooperation. There is an unselfish quality to this totem. Pelican people know how to love deeply and unconditionally. It's also important to balance giving by caring for oneself. It's all in the balance."



Ha! Another one that I was going to write about...




I know that sometimes...well...a lot of times...I give too much to someone or to something that is not worthy...whether it be a situation or a person or a group or an item or just some...thing...



I have learned that I need to learn to take care of myself a lot better than I have been. Though, I repeatedly go to doctors for a variety of reasons...sometimes I will admit, there is not much seriousness or belief in the situation presented to me...whether it is a new medication (I DESPISE when that has to happen...)...




I also need to take care of myself whenever a new event that comes up from someone I know and care about...and it is just too much physical pain for me to bear in order to show them how much I appreciate and support them or their cause...no matter how bad it makes me feel if I miss it and seeing them...I always feel HORRIBLE when I have to do that...



...however...I need to learn to let that guilt go...I need to learn how to accept my physical limitations, but not allow them to become a crutch, at the same time...




I need to take vitamins more consistently...




I need to pay more attention to what my body is telling me; rather than pushing myself beyond the extremes of my profile...to the point of being bed-ridden for days... I need to stop that...




I need to balance myself between my children and their care...as well as myself and my care...




I need to learn how to balance in so many ways...




QUOTE FROM A DIFFERENT PAGE: [http://www.starstuffs.com/animal_totems/dictionary_of_birds.html]

"Pelican demonstrates the power of reflection and insight, buoyancy in life and how ride the air currents of life. He teaches to rest and relax in spite of life's heavy weight. Pelican balances use of good fortune and abundance with responsibility and priorities. He has the ability to navigate emotions and aids in recovering what is lost whether it be emotional, mental or spiritual. Are you seizing the moment and enjoying what is before you? Do you recognize the abundance you already have? Perhaps it is time to count your blessings? Pelican aids in tapping into your feelings and putting them to wise use all the while peacefully balancing the world on your shoulders."




Do I reflect within myself? OH BOY, DO I EVER!!! Unfortunately...sometimes too much...




I do need to learn how to relax...and TRULY relax...not just accept the surroundings, but still keeping an eye out for the other shoe to drop... I am missing out on so much...




QUOTE FROM A DIFFERENT PAGE: http://www.nativeamericananimalmedicine.com/animals_o_thru_t.html

"Pelican Medicine - Meaning: Self-Sacrifice, Plunge-Dive, Abundance"




QUOTE FROM 1st PAGE:

"Full-grown pelicans weigh about fifteen pounds. One of the most unique things about pelicans is that they cannot sink. Air sacs beneath the skin add buoyancy. Are you able to rise up after defeat? Find inner serenity when things get difficult? Pelican medicine can help."




I have been defeated...in so many ways...




I have been beaten down to the breaking point...and then squished further, just for the enjoyment of the other(s) involved...




I have literally, been left for dead; if not for those who cared enough to get involved to aid...




...and...yet...I am somehow still here...above ground...breathing...and living...or...well...trying to, at least...




However, I know now, that I need to try harder to reach out for my wants, needs, and desires...instead of just laying down and accepting what I think is the only thing that can be done...




I need to get in gear, grab myself by my boot straps, put on my "Bad-Bitch" panties, strap on my "Don't Fuck With Me" bra, strap on my...well...strap on...and get ready for whatever may come at me...and learn how to enjoy everything happening at the same time...




QUOTE FROM 1st PAGE:

"She usually lays two eggs. Both tend the nest and feed their young regurgitated food. This symbolizes that one should teach young people (especially our own children) by example, and only what we have digested and know ourselves. The adult can fly as much as 100 miles a day to find enough food to feed the two chicks."




I found it interesting that Pelicans only lay 2 eggs at a time...and...well...I have my 2 and my ONLY 2 eggerittos...




I am PROUDLY cut, cauterized, snipped, and burned; after a piece of the tube was removed...I wanted 2...I had 2...I AM DONE...I am not about to have a litter...



Though...I digress...




With this, I have and I will continue to fly to the ends of the earth for either one of my 2 children...not another soul could make me have the ability or determination in order to do that...period.




QUOTE FROM 1st PAGE:

"Pelicans have an uncanny ability to sense change. They can tell when a storm is coming or the tides are turning, even when seemingly asleep. As change on the planet accelerates, many of us are experiencing the same sensitivities as pelican."




OH! I DESPISE CHANGE!!! EVER-SO MUCH!!!




However...I can feel it coming in the winds, at times...and THAT is when my guards are put up INSTANTANEOUSLY...




...even though I know that I need to learn how to deal with it... ...sigh...I am working on that too...




...as I was going to write about...





1LadyDoriBelle



This is only part of the blessings that I wish for others...even those who have wronged me...




I must learn how to accept this within myself...and that is why I chose this picture to be the last one in my gallery...




As many blessings, well-wishes, and care that I send and give towards others...I have learned...as I was going to write about...once again...that, I must learn this for me as well...for I too deserve to walk in a Sacred Manner...and revel in every step taken...




...




You know...as I look back through this before I submit it for publishing on the site...I realized...almost all of this is what I was going to write about...so...




I guess I will just finish it here...




...it only makes sense...




...though...I admit...it is sad that it took me all the way until that point to realize that I was writing my Writing...just without knowing it...




...hmph...




...go figure...




21 December 2012 ~ The Mayan's prediction for "The End of The World"




...and to a degree...for me...it really did become a reality...




Obviously, not in the way where the Earth has blown up into smitherinies and the Universe imploded within itself...

...and...yet...to a metaphysical degree...for me it had...




I will explain...




I have journals that I have created for each child. In each book, I will randomly write something that I want to tell them, or my love for them, or how proud I am for a success that they made themselves overcome, or etc...




Yesterday, I wrote to them about Christmas and whatnot...but I realized that most likely, until they are much older in age...they do not know about the "Mayan Day of Doom"...so...I wrote a little about it to them.




Throughout today's exercise...I have touched on many points and conclusions that I have come to from that day, and here, I am going to try to put it all together...




On 21 December 2012 (12/12/12), was the day that the Mayan Culture predicted that would be the last day for existence.




No one truly knew, one way or the other...but everyone made their jokes and commentary as they felt...however...no matter what...each person that knew about the "Day of Doom" did at least one of these things...

  • 1.) Pray...or some form of hoping to their belief system, with possible ritual...that IF this just so happened to be the truth...that their good deeds out-weighed their bad-deeds - should there be an afterlife...

  • 2.) Spend time with friends/go to a party/whatever...for the just in case that this just may be the last day on earth...

  • 3.)* Live life as normal, and hope for the best...




I knowingly and un-knowingly did both that day...and I guess...throughout that weekend...

KNOWINGLY

  • SITUATION #1.) I did make a prayer to myself...I will completely admit it freely...because...in all honesty...who knew?

In personal belief, I do not think that one person could come up with the EXACT date that "The End" would be...for...in my opinion...I think that is pretentious for anyone to assume that they are "All-Knowing" enough to have that ability...hence...that person/group would basically be a "God-Like" being...

I do believe that the Divine is within every single being and creature within the universe...however,..I am not going to start talking religious beliefs...I am just going with the "Over-All God/dess" Divine Being...whatever one believes it is called...

  • SITUATION #2.) I made sure that I spent extra time with my handsome man and my parents, before I left to go to Austin. Had I not gone to the Apple Store...I would have made it to see my daughter...but...a phone is kinda important...though...at the same time...not as important as my children...but still...it is an excuse - but I did need my phone for the trip...

THANKFULLY, I was able to visit with her the next day...for longer than I expected (and I SO appreciate)...and we had so much fun together... I am still smiling from the time with her... :D

  • SITUATION #3.) That day was life...looking back on it...that IS my life...

And that is part of my discovery to "The End of the World" for me...

UNKNOWINGLY

  • SITUATION #1.) I know that I was hoping and wishing for the best situation, in all ways...what I did NOT realize, is in that wishing and hoping, it made me realize that I was holding on to too many things, to keep on my plate...




I realized that it was time to start to let go...




I realized that I need to heal more than I have thought...




I realized that things within me, within my surroundings, within my life, within my children and their lives, within everything that was a part of me and who I am...it is time to give up on certain things... ~ somethings I already know...and somethings I do not know... ~ either way...I am hoping that I am working on allowing things that are not for my highest good to pass through and pass around me...and not to allow it to affect me negatively anymore...to allow things to "just be"...and go on their way; only keeping the positive aspects...and ALLOWING myself to ACCEPT the positivity to engulf me and mine; in the best ways possible, as all that gook goes and vanishes; out and FAR away from us...and me...

  • SITUATION #2.) In some ways, I knew that I was allowing myself to flow a little bit more freely at at all my gatherings, with each group of people.

Looking back...I did not realize how much inhibitions I allowed to come out of me...

...and as I look back...there is no regret...only joyous thoughts and memories...

  • SITUATION #3.) I realized, as I said...I WAS living my life...




Being with my son...in any way, shape, or form...THAT is living my life...




Spending quality time with my parents...THAT is living my life...




Doing everything that I possibly can do; in every way possible that I am able to, my daughter...THAT is living my life...




I realized that those 3 entities...THOSE ARE MY LIFE...




...they are me and I am them...and we ebb and flow as life's river takes us on each of our individual journeys...




...together...and apart...



I realized...that when my times are apart...I need to live MY life...MY WAY...to PLEASE ME...




...I...I think...I think that it is almost time for a trip down an unknown road...for...it...it has been QUITE some time...




Day Nine: 2 Pictures That Describe You...ALSO...21 December 2012..."The End of the World"...oooooo... - LadyDoriBelle | FetLife



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How much irony as to the facts of what once was my life as to the point in time of the Mayan calendar, how simply to see how in that moment how accurate I was despite what I was sarcastically writing as to making the best of the situations combined. Ironically, I suppose...







My son #Letters4James and my daughter #Letters4Lidia, I truly did the best I could and I hope you truly know as well as understand as well as comprehend the reality of such truths. I love you both, and I hope the best possibilities as I have genuinely in truth worked for the best possible outcomes.

Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Model Author Susan MeeLing

It should not take a head injury to figure this out because I thought you are supposed, to be smarter.

If there are those who find such interesting enough to research further to bring forward more information in reference to the forefront for more detailed information, as usual I request the courtesy of the same which I do in reference to how I refer to articles for reference points when writing my journal blog entries; for each one used for reference starting points, to research for clearer understanding from such knowledge.

 

That is common sense, good etiquette, and good karma; whilst lifting others upward, in positive ways.

Quotes which mean a lot to me:

"The ultimate measure of an individual is not where they stand in moments of comfort and convenience, but where they stand at the time of challenge and controversy."

"We must reject the idea that every time a law is broken society is guilty, rather than the law breaker.  Freedom is never-more than one generation away, from extinction.  We do not pass freedom on through our blood stream because freedom must be fought for, protected, and handed on for the next generation to do the same."

"Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.  Though best to be able to share in person with who matters, until that time occurs being able to see what is possible through such is a feat to notice.  One must be happy within oneself prior to being happy with another, though such can be enjoyed if living in one's own truth is as such. and then as to the capability to progress forward with another and/or others depending upon the situation(s) and individual(s)."  ~  A Quote From Me, Reverend Susan MeeLing also known as Lady Dori Belle

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