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It should not take a head injury
*after personally sustaining a head injury & coma*
to figure this out...

 
 
 
 
 
 


After a Drill Sergeant threw Me into the metal part of the bunk when I was in Basic Training for the United States of America's Army branch at Fort Sill Oklahoma #FortSill #FortSillOK #FortSillOklahoma #OK #Oklahoma in the year of 2000 on Psalm Sunday, I have dealt with the situations as best as I have been capable to do so while taking care of the situations and asking for assistance as per the required explanations of the information to such facts first.  While making the attempts to get assistance for the aspects thereof as to the reality, the aspects of where and when as to the multiple attempts to ask for assistance for me.  As my journal blog for when I was ready to bring such as to my other works forward since as to the lengths of time as to where my modeling was as to the modeling page information, just as the other pages have the information as to such specifics, and just as this journal blog of mine is as to such facts.


If I had real friends (if as to having met in person face to face in person in real life as to the aspects of this particular reference such as from the state of Texas as to the state of Washington as to the years of 2000 through 2013 if I met within the state of Texas for such references), real (the areas of the tristate region as before the year of 2000) family, and real relationships in real life that recognized me as to the aspects of if as to the face to face in person who started in truth as I had started such in truth as to the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, as well as the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain that took 8.5 years to dissipate; then I guesstimate there would be the easier factors as to being capable for me to speak with others in truth in person face to face in person and/or through online measures as to such factors I suppose.  Though would such as to the knowledge of the ways as to how they began such discussions with me as to would there be such a situation, for them to consider as to such if factors as to such discussions with me in truth?


As to some suggestions and commentary within "Finding A Silver Lining" one of several of my bo0ks I personally authored/wrote/compiled as I can only speak and write in truth as per such clarifications as to the reality as to the specifics of such discussions/writings/videos as per my Official You Tube where I have satirical commentary where I comment about the factors as to having dealt with others' opinions about their pop culture references of #NJ #NJstate #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey, though as to for the most part I have actually preferred to be asked with politeness if as to having read my books and/or seen my website as just the same in reference to the timeframes when I was modeling as to having respect as to what I consider as respect, referencing if as to such polite manners as to discussions if as to such having been noticed because of the factors in my opinion as to having real discussions as communication would be if my website was seen before the year of 2023 as I first began my website in 2015; as in my journal blog posts as to the reality of the years of 2010 through 2013, as to the aspects of introductions as to those timeframes when as to various factors as I did not take selfies as I was actually working with photographers as to my creations of my outfits as per the description on the link to my modeling page(s) as to the references regarding my journal blog updates in the years of 2019 through 2022 as the timeframe onward as to the year of 2023 as to the factors as to how such journal blog entries will be as to such factors as to the aspects of the various topic points.


Go read through the multiple journal blogs on my website after finishing scrolling to get to the journal blog area, now!

Share the links of my journal blog, too!




 I was born and raised in New Jersey and grew up going throughout the tristate northeast areas mainly, and as to how the reality of when the importance of the situations as to the aspects of reviewing as to such facts regarding the logistics for several factors as to the considerations; the years of 2019 through 2022 as to the review process as to the aspects of the timeframe, prior to the timeframe of the 20 year memorial of 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 as well as before the 30 year memorial of February 1993, as to the northeast areas mostly known as to New York City #NYC #NewYork #NY #NYstate #NYU though also as to the #Pentagon Pentagon, as well as Pennsylvania #Pennstate #Pennsylvaniastate as to the reality of how many New Jersey-ians commute in either direction, depending upon what location for the commute. 


The factors though I have said at times, I re-re-re-re-re-re-grew up in the state of  #Texas #TX #Texasstate Texas as to such factors as to the timeframes, as well as all 26 of my SCUBA #SCUBA #SCUBADiving  Diving certifications I earned were through one school within the state of Texas as I also earned winning first place in a Texas Chili cookoff with more than 20 entries as well as my chili recipe as I am adamant about my recipes as to such aspects just as I am specific as to what it actually takes for me to cook in a BBQ as to the required preparations for when I have BBQed.   



I can sarcastically write, those who know of the Rules of the BBQ as to where I grew up as to the Rules of the BBQ as to such factors to the considerations of such preparations.  However that is to cooking food as to the differences of my journal blog entries, as to the factors as to proverbial aspects of food for thought as the difference of real food in real life as to the facts of the situations to such attention to the details as well as attention to the information.


Such facts as to the metaphors in some of such factors that only after reviewing such information as to the aspects of the fiction book series that were as to for My personal life as to such dreamland sorts of factors as to the differences of such hypotheticals, the references thereof as to such regards as to the logistical emotional with the real situations as per the names I was informed of at the timeframes referenced review as to My journal blog as to the situations overall.  


If as to my journal blog being found and read as to where what I consider as common sense, as to the aspects of my satirical saying   how it should not take a head injury to figure out. 
 

*(sometimes utilizing articles discussing facts)*
By:  (Reverend) Susan MeeLing
also known as

The One & Only


(YouTube)   Lady Dori Belle


 

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REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

Combining Original Accounts for Clarification: #40 of 88

In reference of combining all of my journals I wrote through my original #fetlife account which I will post the link at the bottom for the clarifications thereof, I am going to have the transparency brought forward as to what can be seen from the original posting dates as to the current timeframe of this day 28 November 2021 for those to see as to my original #Facebook accounts of Susan MeeLing as well as Lady Dori Belle for the additional ability to see the connection links as to what I had discussed for many years and decades in person as well as online as to such factors as best as I could as to the circumstances. Possibly such details will assist to make sense, in the comparisons thereof as to the amounts of details though in addition I do not pretend or hide myself from my truth which others should realize it is important to be honest and truthful in many more ways than just in one or two moments as it is imperative to be more capable to recognize the truth in such aspects of life for far more than some might have realized despite all of my warnings as to what I knew to bring forward to assist as best as possible.




I will begin with posting my newer updated journals from my original account and work backwards as to the irony I noticed. There will be plenty to read in the ways of, whether or not you choose to venture into the areas of the website fetlife.



Posted on 16 February 2013 with a few additional comments on 28 November 2021 in the posting of for the clarifications compared to prior posts as to the combining factors as to the points made after the link as to the defining area as to the link for the comments below as to the additions, as best as I could bring such forward.



All Forms of Relationships: from acquaintances to/and/or friends to/and/or more...(involving me)...



To all M/males & F/females that It May Concern;

  • Before I get to the point of this Journal Entry, a bit of a rant...nothing new...right...?...

;-P




As I have called and been told how I am "narcissistic" for writing all of my Journal Entries, that I have posted, because everything I have written on my page; has "been seen by other people as egotistical," because of what I choose to write about, on my page.




Personally, (laughing as I start this) if one is to say that I am vain because I decide to write on my page, in my journal area, about my thoughts/opinions/feelings...well...I guess...I will just continue with the "trend" of "my conceitedness" and my "self-centered nature..."




...I mean...Why should I change that now?



;-P




LOL




If Journal Entries were not meant for expressing the person's personal views towards something, or they are "bitching" about whatever topic they so choose on their page...




...personally...I did not know that any one person who needed permission from any other entity for what is posted on one's own page of Journals - unless it is outside the realms of TOS...really...there should not be an issue...




However...for some...apparently...they have their magazine subscriptions that they personally need to deal with, which no one else can help them unless they are willing to help themselves grow to get better.




...sigh...




Oh well, for them and all who think that way...




...because...well...IF me writing Journals about any topic that I have an opinion/thoughts/feelings towards is "narcissistic"...then...I would guess anyone who has ever written on their profile page about who they are and what they are associated with or what that person so chooses to put about themselves in their profile...that would make that person just as narcissistic by that definition...right???




;-P




Or am I *"too ignorant because of my head injury/[insert whatever problem one has with or about me here]?



;-P




As I said...which I guess IS in a way, "being egotistical"...maybe...I am going to write what I want on my profile page; I am going to write what I want in my Journals; I am going to comment wherever I please and however I think is appropriate for my thoughts; and...well...I am basically...just going to do as I please; within the limits of the laws and contracts that I have subscribed to...




...and...well...that is about it...




...so...nothing has really changed in that arena...or will...so...yeah...it is what it is...




So...without further a'du, as I think that my self-centered ass has rambled on enough, about the above...probably going over-board in some ways...but...eh...




So, I will now and finally get to what this Journal Entry of mine is about, on my page.




My Personal Opinions About Different Forms of Relationships; Between F/females & M/males; in a Variety of Degrees:




...before I start on...my disclaimer...




First, the question is: Who am I, of all people; to write anything about any type of relationship? Whether it is vanilla or BDSM, related?




Well...in all honesty...I am a "nobody," in any way, shape, or form.




Personally, my experiences, and lack there of, do not qualify me at all to ever give any sort of "relationship" advice...however...this is not advice...this IS the way that I personally view different relationships; and no one, under any circumstances, has any obligation to agree or believe a word that is written; here, or anywhere I write/post, for that matter.




The next question: What experiences DO I; of all people; who is a nobody; actually have?




Well...(if one wishes to call it THAT) I was 'married' for 7+ years...I have been involved with the BDSM Lifestyle Scene since 2004, in a variety of cities and states (though other state experiences came before AND after my initial and FULL exposure to the Kink Scene); though I am EXTREMELY particular about whom I play with, privately OR publicly, I have had over a handful or two of play partners (with and without sexual contact) and I have had about 3-5 actual D/s with boyfriend/girlfriend sort of attachment; throughout my few years of first actually and fully joining the BDSM Lifestyle



Public Scene, in 2004; and a other things here and there, as well...




HOWEVER...




Even though, if one wishes to call the above "experiences"; at the same time I fully and completely admit; that I have many areas that I lack any experience at all, within the vanilla and/or BDSM realms.

Though it is important to remember, and at the same exact time; I despise and loathe every single thing about it...one must remember that I had a TBI in the Army, at 17 years old...and after I awoke from my coma, it was then that all had noticed and realized that a large percentage of my memories were completely GONE, and some have not ever returned...

With the head injury; it changed a lot about me and who I was...because I did not KNOW who I was...at all...one could have told me that blue was actually orange, and I would have believed it; when I first came out of my coma. Knowing that, because so much of my memory has been destroyed; I have very few memories of any relationships that I have had with people before the injury occurred...as well as after the injury, as well.




So...all in all...that is pretty much my "experiences" and lack there of experiences, that I do and do not have...




I have laid it all out as to what I am not and what I partially am...I guess..."narcissistically"




;-P




...I am what I am; and I am not what I am not...




Now that what I do have/lack in experiences with relationships; the following are as I stated above, in red; My Personal Opinions About Different Forms of Relationships; Between F/females & M/males; in a Variety of Degrees:




...mine...and no one else's...possibly...




...




* TOPIC #1: F/female and M/male Friendships...well...ANY sort of Friendship...honestly...




In my opinion, once again, before I go on to my different points; these stated below in regards to M/male and F/female friendships, in not only relevant, in my eyes for BDSM Life, but for vanilla life as well.

  • Point One: Honesty, open communication, and truthfulness; at all times...




Though this should be self-explanatory; one would think; some need to be made clear of all expectations, with this part.




I do not see any point in lying or hiding oneself from someone who is considered a "true friend" to me. In return, I would think...or maybe that is MY problem, that I think; that one would be just as open with me as I am with T/them.




Now...granted...I also do not see the point in hiding who I truly am...from anyone...but at the same time; not all are able to be as forth coming with T/their BDSM/sexual Lifestyle, as I am allowed the freedom of.




That being said; with me being as open as I am about who I am and all about me; I expect anyone who is a "true friend to me" would be the same in return, with T/themselves and T/their friendship with me; for there should be nothing to hide...

  • Point Two: Attraction...




This part, is a little bit more difficult. As one may be attracted to the other and it is not reciprocated; the hope for true friendship remains the same, for me.




I would hope that whether or not the attraction was mutual, or even possible to accommodate; I would hope that T/those who are still interested in pursuing a friendship with me, would still be Point One, with me, at all times; just as I would be with T/them, in return.

  • Point Three: Time...




Yes, this is an important one for me, as well as all above; in my personal opinion.




If one does not spend "REAL time" with me; meaning: outside of whatever situation(s) that we have met at; whether it be through text/phone/personal messages/spending physical time in the same place outside of the "normal realm of which we know each other"/etc...




...if one does NOT do that/continue to keep lines open between us/spend time together/whatever...then one cannot consider themselves a "true friend" since there has been no further connection made between us, outside of where we know one another from...




As I said, texts/calls/personal messages/physical time spent together outside of the original meeting place(s)/and so on...THAT is how one can/will start a "friendship" with me.

  • Point Four: Sharing...




Now, I do not mean, in order to "be friends" we have to "share" partners/toys/homes/clothing/etc in order to be friends...




;-P




...dirrrty minded people...shame on you...




;-P




What I mean by when I say that Point Four is "Sharing"; I mean in the aspect of sharing who one is genuinely and truly within themselves, with me.




~ share with me, your thoughts...




~ share with me, your opinions...




~ share with me, your feelings...




~ share with me, your experiences...




~ share with me, who you are...




~ share with me, where you have been...




~ share with me, where you would like to go/where and what you want to see yourself doing in the next week/month/year/decade/etc...




~ share with me, what you do and do not like...appreciate...enjoy...




~ share with me, everything...




As one genuinely and honestly shares with me...I will share just as much with them and in the same manner...




* TOPIC #2: BDSM Lifestyle and/or Romantic and/or D/s Relationships...which...once again...pertains not just to M/males' and F/females' relationship together...but, since I am Pan-Sexual; it applies to any form, for me...

  • Point One: Every single bit of TOPIC #1...




In my opinion, and with me;




~ I personally cannot and WILL NOT have a sort of relationship in a D/s sense or in a romantic sense, or in a BDSM Lifestyle sense, or in ANY sense...for that matter...should TOPIC #1 and all of the sub-points not be followed, at all times...

...with all of that being pointed out for the absolutely #1 thing for me, when wanting anything further than just a friendship with me...we shall move onto...

  • Point Two: I flat out want to be the Number 1 Priority in your life...(minus job (depending)/children, of course)...




If I am willing to get involved in any form of relationship with anyone that is beyond just a friendship; ad it has formed into a BDSM and/or romantic relationship; I DEMAND that I am put above all else.

  • AND BY THE WAY...

  • Point Two:




...if we have been "true friends" or acquaintances or had some form of relationship before starting the "New Form of Relationship Between Us"; then I expect that it is completely understood that I want to be and I will be the center of your world...if not...don't bother wasting my time...I do not want and I do not deserve anything less, than what I want/need/desire for my relationships...




With the above included; I also expect that I will be put ABOVE any other person that is interested in my "partner", in every single way, shape, and form...




So...basically...if I am put in second place or I am "dropped" for a new piece of hot ass...whether that particular relationship with that new person works out in favor or not...there will NEVER be any sort of trust that could be built back up to even thinking a "friendship" could EVER be possible, again...for you have shown your true colors as to not honestly wanting me to begin with as well as only using me for whatever reason of you not being able to handle being without someone romantically in your life...because of whatever issues YOU have...

  • Point Three: Just as I will accept you for who you are; I expect the same in return, where I am accepted for who I am...




With this point, I have no problem coming out and putting everything out on the line when I say that, if one is to become involved with me in any form beyond a "friendship" or "being acquaintances"...well...hell...even with true friendship with me...; then one MUST understand:




~ I am who I am now...




~ I am going to become that which I strive for...as best as I can...




~ I have my preferences, just as you have yours; and so long as my preferences are respected and lines are not crossed over...the same will be returned to you...




~ I say what I mean and I mean what I say...period and end of story.




~ I walk the talk that I say...and I always will strive to do as I say, versus telling others to do what I say and not what I do...




~ I expect you and I are to be partners before being anything else, if romantically involved; unless one is a submissive/slave to me...then (possible) re-negotiation will take place...




~ I expect you to say what you mean and to mean what you say...and then actually DO IT...though in a non harming and positive way of moving forward towards actually assisting and helping in the correct ways in comparison to overtly emotional and/or overdramatic and or mistreatment sorts of ways as I actually have needed to the more positive aspects of life in comparisons to what has been dealt with as to such levels of proof as to the ways as to the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury in the comparisons as to what has been assumed as I guesstimate as to such factors...what is it to actually get the help I need in the ways which I know are for my best interests?




~ I have my weaknesses...you have your weaknesses...if together...we SHOULD work with our weaknesses together to find where the other's strengths are; so we can have a better relationship together...




* TOPIC #3: In Summary...




There will not be any specific points made, in this part of my Outline in my Journal...




All in all, what and who I am at the core, when it comes to any form of "relationship" beyond just me seeing someone in the same place, at the same Conference/party/event/munch/Dive/Gardening Expedition/trip/etc...the above is ~ ...what I look for; ~ ...what I want; ~ ...what I desire; and ~ ...what I need...




* ...let alone the fact; that is what I DESERVE...




To A/all who have finished and/or have skimmed through this Journal of mine;

I thank Y/you for Y/your time and I wish Y/you the brightest of blessings and while I am certain there are others who have like-minded thoughts and opinions, the aspects of are what they are.




Respectfully and Sincerely,

Lady Dori Belle AKA Reverend Susan MeeLing AKA several other names though simply just me as in the references as to such claims in comparison to the proof of such works, what is the actual definition of narcissism compared to the realities of what areas I have worked to assist as best as possible for the betterment...





www. fetlife .com/users/484330/posts/1416216



For as many who had told me their degrees were of importance as well as their views as to the instructional aspects as to such different situations comparatively, I wonder which would be considered as actual narcissism in comparison to bringing forward truth as to having the ability to assist others as to reviewing their own personal lives as to whichever possibilities as to the connections as to the proverbial portions in the comparisons thereof as to being capable to relate to the discussions thereof as to such points in time throughout life.



Thus in the truthful aspects as to the definition of a narcissist is to only propel themselves forward in such regards, would I truly be considered as one or would the reality of the definition actually be of the opposite to such aspects as to the actual definition thereof?



According to dictionary.com

narcissism [ nahr-suh-siz-em ]SHOW IPA

See synonyms for: narcissism / narcissistic / narcissist / narcistic on Thesaurus.com 📓 High School Level

noun

inordinate fascination with oneself; excessive self-love; vanity. Psychiatry. narcissistic personality disorder. Psychoanalysis. erotic gratification derived from admiration of one's own physical or mental attributes, being a normal condition at the infantile level of personality development.



According to Merriam-Webster.com

Full Definition of narcissistic : of, relating to, or characterized by narcissism: such asa: extremely self-centered with an exaggerated sense of self-importance : marked by or characteristic of excessive admiration of or infatuation with oneselfa narcissistic personalityHe was a very narcissistic man, not too concerned with the world.— Oliver SacksBut



when a mother's narcissistic needs are so great that she cannot relate to her child as he really is, she loves her child as a self-object—that is, as someone put on this earth to meet her needs.— Sue Erikson Bloland— see also NARCISSISTIC PERSONALITY DISORDER



b: displaying or marked by excessive concern with one's own physical appearance… she describes the bind created for women by the judgment that a woman preoccupied with her looks is narcissistic and a woman who is not is unfeminine.— Carol Gilligan



Our narcissistic culture has turned us into a nation of body-image "junkies" using everything in our power to carve, reshape, remold, and recast our bodies' natural shapes and processes so that they are better fitted to our desires.— Andrew Kimbrell




Synonyms & Antonyms for narcissistic Synonyms

  • egocentric,

  • egoistic

  • (also egoistical),

  • egomaniacal,

  • egotistic

  • self-absorbed,

  • self-centered,

  • self-concerned,

  • self-infatuated,

  • self-interested,

  • self-involved,

  • self-loving,

  • self-obsessed,

  • self-oriented,

  • self-preoccupied,

  • self-regarding,

  • self-seeking,

  • self-serving,

  • selfish,

  • solipsistic

Antonyms

  • self-forgetful,

  • self-forgetting,

  • selfless,

  • unselfish


Since the reality as to knowing the facts as to I am but one person throughout the entire world and comprehending as to my website is only one throughout the entirety of the aspects to the internet, that view as to such prior claims before I would guesstimate might have a different reality to actually see in such references comparatively as facts are different to opinions of others if correct as to such when only based in biases compared to facts proven if understanding the definition clearly.



Though would it be considered as narcissist to be honest and open, or would it be considered narcissist to hide and do whatever it is that the attention seeking would be to such aspects of what would or could be considered for such aspects thereof as for the most amount of time I only knew the Narcissus plant as to the Daffodil flower as a female I met in the Jade Wolf Coven had to explain to me what that term actually was in comparison to gardening though ironically she did have blond-yellowish hair and she was kind of a massively huge hippy in comparison so...





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Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Model Author Susan MeeLing

It should not take a head injury to figure this out because I thought you are supposed, to be smarter.