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It should not take a head injury
*after personally sustaining a head injury & coma*
to figure this out...

 
 
 
 
 
 


After a Drill Sergeant threw Me into the metal part of the bunk when I was in Basic Training for the United States of America's Army branch at Fort Sill Oklahoma #FortSill #FortSillOK #FortSillOklahoma #OK #Oklahoma in the year of 2000 on Psalm Sunday, I have dealt with the situations as best as I have been capable to do so while taking care of the situations and asking for assistance as per the required explanations of the information to such facts first.  While making the attempts to get assistance for the aspects thereof as to the reality, the aspects of where and when as to the multiple attempts to ask for assistance for me.  As my journal blog for when I was ready to bring such as to my other works forward since as to the lengths of time as to where my modeling was as to the modeling page information, just as the other pages have the information as to such specifics, and just as this journal blog of mine is as to such facts.


If I had real friends (if as to having met in person face to face in person in real life as to the aspects of this particular reference such as from the state of Texas as to the state of Washington as to the years of 2000 through 2013 if I met within the state of Texas for such references), real (the areas of the tristate region as before the year of 2000) family, and real relationships in real life that recognized me as to the aspects of if as to the face to face in person who started in truth as I had started such in truth as to the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, as well as the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain that took 8.5 years to dissipate; then I guesstimate there would be the easier factors as to being capable for me to speak with others in truth in person face to face in person and/or through online measures as to such factors I suppose.  Though would such as to the knowledge of the ways as to how they began such discussions with me as to would there be such a situation, for them to consider as to such if factors as to such discussions with me in truth?


As to some suggestions and commentary within "Finding A Silver Lining" one of several of my bo0ks I personally authored/wrote/compiled as I can only speak and write in truth as per such clarifications as to the reality as to the specifics of such discussions/writings/videos as per my Official You Tube where I have satirical commentary where I comment about the factors as to having dealt with others' opinions about their pop culture references of #NJ #NJstate #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey, though as to for the most part I have actually preferred to be asked with politeness if as to having read my books and/or seen my website as just the same in reference to the timeframes when I was modeling as to having respect as to what I consider as respect, referencing if as to such polite manners as to discussions if as to such having been noticed because of the factors in my opinion as to having real discussions as communication would be if my website was seen before the year of 2023 as I first began my website in 2015; as in my journal blog posts as to the reality of the years of 2010 through 2013, as to the aspects of introductions as to those timeframes when as to various factors as I did not take selfies as I was actually working with photographers as to my creations of my outfits as per the description on the link to my modeling page(s) as to the references regarding my journal blog updates in the years of 2019 through 2022 as the timeframe onward as to the year of 2023 as to the factors as to how such journal blog entries will be as to such factors as to the aspects of the various topic points.


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 I was born and raised in New Jersey and grew up going throughout the tristate northeast areas mainly, and as to how the reality of when the importance of the situations as to the aspects of reviewing as to such facts regarding the logistics for several factors as to the considerations; the years of 2019 through 2022 as to the review process as to the aspects of the timeframe, prior to the timeframe of the 20 year memorial of 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 as well as before the 30 year memorial of February 1993, as to the northeast areas mostly known as to New York City #NYC #NewYork #NY #NYstate #NYU though also as to the #Pentagon Pentagon, as well as Pennsylvania #Pennstate #Pennsylvaniastate as to the reality of how many New Jersey-ians commute in either direction, depending upon what location for the commute. 


The factors though I have said at times, I re-re-re-re-re-re-grew up in the state of  #Texas #TX #Texasstate Texas as to such factors as to the timeframes, as well as all 26 of my SCUBA #SCUBA #SCUBADiving  Diving certifications I earned were through one school within the state of Texas as I also earned winning first place in a Texas Chili cookoff with more than 20 entries as well as my chili recipe as I am adamant about my recipes as to such aspects just as I am specific as to what it actually takes for me to cook in a BBQ as to the required preparations for when I have BBQed.   



I can sarcastically write, those who know of the Rules of the BBQ as to where I grew up as to the Rules of the BBQ as to such factors to the considerations of such preparations.  However that is to cooking food as to the differences of my journal blog entries, as to the factors as to proverbial aspects of food for thought as the difference of real food in real life as to the facts of the situations to such attention to the details as well as attention to the information.


Such facts as to the metaphors in some of such factors that only after reviewing such information as to the aspects of the fiction book series that were as to for My personal life as to such dreamland sorts of factors as to the differences of such hypotheticals, the references thereof as to such regards as to the logistical emotional with the real situations as per the names I was informed of at the timeframes referenced review as to My journal blog as to the situations overall.  


If as to my journal blog being found and read as to where what I consider as common sense, as to the aspects of my satirical saying   how it should not take a head injury to figure out. 
 

*(sometimes utilizing articles discussing facts)*
By:  (Reverend) Susan MeeLing
also known as

The One & Only


Lady Dori Belle


...and to biological consenting adults as...

Lady Liberty Belle

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My life  =  My personal life

My life experiences  =  My personal life experiences that some might have something alike or something similar to though theirs is not the exact as to My personal life experiences

My opinion  =  Susan MeeLing's personal opinion that some or many might agree with

My needs  =  My personal needs for me personally though some distinguishing factors as to the aspects where there are different facets of My personal life and thus as to the distinguishing factors as to the different areas of my life, thus for Me personally is going to be for Me personally as to such differences as to the aspects whereas of others as to the factors to the considerations.


The FACT books I authored/wrote/compiled that I published through Amazon for My profits and what I chose/choose for the financial aspects per book:
*  Finding A Silver Lining  (published in print book format in in the year of 2015)
*  Finding The Silver Lining  (published in print book format in the year of 2014)
*  The Modern Day Book  (published in print format book in the year of 2020)
*  The Adventures of Susan MeeLing, SCUBA Diver Extraordinaire  (3 volumes published in print format books in the year of 2020)

 

Fiction Based books I published through Amazon that can have metaphors or proverbial only as some books allow the financial aspects as to donations whereas the newer books do not have such same factors whatsoever as to the financial resources for Susan MeeLing also known as Lady Dori Belle also known as Lady L*** Belle as make sure to not assume that all books will ever be the exact same:
*  "The Curious Children Book Series:  (2 volumes published in the year of 2014/2015)
*  "Fail-Safe:  The Kenedy curse fused with Science Fiction Fantasy  (The New World Order)"  (1 book published in the year of in print format book form 2015/2016 that is the main book to refer to for each of the subsequent books in the series as the 10 volume book series published as the 9 additional volumes in 2021/2022 as not all books were allowed as per My personal choice to be published in print format as to the ideals I have had for My work as to how I personally chose to release My books as to My business plans)
*  "Paroxysm of the Lotus Book Series"  (3 volumes published in print format of books in the years of 2014 through 2015 and then 7 books were published in the year of 2021/2022)


To Contact Me to ask me what My needs, my wants, My preferences, My Ideals, and/or My desires is only to utilize My To Contact Form to ask me respectfully after explaining yourself as to such aspects first as asking Me is the best way to actually do so correctly to actually learn to know of what My actual needs are for the factors of as the same in reference to my wants and so on and so forth.  That includes though not limited to asking if there is something to assist Me with, arranging Book Signing, arranging requiring My permission first as to my needs for any appearance(s)/meeting(s), 


Do not assume that just because I authored/wrote/compiled books that you know Me, you know of Me as to such factors as to the factors of the reality of the social media.


If I personally have reached out to you directly as to requesting a meeting and/or meetings, I have done so with the factors of respect regarding the aspects of what I could figure as being respectful as to the time(s) as to upon your schedule though also as depending upon my schedule as well.  The contact information regarding phone numerical factors as to the aspects of My To Contact Form through My website, as to making attempts as to the ease to correctly communicate clearly.  


Ensure if you are going to ask about Me, to know the exact-ish amount of time the individual actually knew Me in real life in person face to face in person in real life to verify the correct numerical positions of time that they may have known Me or if they knew of me as to the facts.


My modeling is not the same as speaking with Me face to face at all, because that is not the same as in real life as to the facts that in real life in person face to face in person actually requires those facts of in real life in person face to face in person in real life where a human being in person face to face in person is in real life with another human being is the common sense for in person face to face in person in real life as there is a difference to getting My personal permission first.


I do not allow anyone to misinterpret ever, as there is the clear facts that if someone/anyone says they can interpret Me, ensure they actually have what I personally consider as the starting point of full foundation as to actual capacities to do so correctly as what I consider as the correct foundation as to making sure the foundation of theirs in not made out of sand as to the differences of whereas to the facts my foundation is forged from where the stones as to the rock of My foundation is to the sturdiness thereof as to My personal life as to My personal experiences as to Me personally; as in my personal opinion that imitation is not flattery at all in any capacity when in reference to Me.


Since I comprehend Myself as to My and what My needS are as to what My wantS are as to what My preferenceS are as to what My idealS are as to what My desires are, then as to My comprehension of such factors in reference to Myself as to My personal requirements as when I have written about My personal life experiences as to the words I personally have chosen to describe such facts, then as to My life = My personal life experiences.


Manners, respect, human decency, and protocols are as a beginning point for what My personal standards are for Me.

Make sure to be capable to distinguish when the facts of My journal blog are in the capacity of either facts with satire and/or facts with metaphors and/or facts with figurative and/or facts as literal as the reality that My personal life experiences are My personal life experiences as to where some might relate to what I personally have dealt with, the full combination of what I have survived is the difference as to where the distinction is.


I survived the attacks on the soil of the homeland of the United States of America as to the tristate areas of New Jersey, New York, and Pennsylvania in the year of 1993 in the month of February as well as the timeframe of 9/11 also known as 11 September 2001 because I was born and raised in New Jersey in the three-county/three-borough area that had the most amount of commuters to New York City as well as other factors of the reality as to the state of New Jersey that those factors of pop culture are usually NYCers or Pittsburgians or Philadelphians and not New Jersey-ians pop culture as the aspects of comprehending the facts as that pop culture only has small amounts as to the differences of the fullnesses thereof.


What I know for what My personal comforts are as to being capable to see as to such factors, translates to comprehension of Myself as to comprehending what is best for Me personally as to what is best for My work as well as what is best for My personal comforts.  As hours change to days and days change to weeks and weeks change to months and months change to years and years change to decades, I comprehend My personal needs as I comprehend I have made attempts for My personal needs to be correct for Me as to what My personal considerations are.


Keep your thoughts in what I consider as purity as to such actual purity of innocence, and the ease of life is made so as to the factors of the ensuring the correct actions without assumptions.


Acknowledging biases first without judgement, has no capacity of being biased as no bias can be without the capacities of bigotry, and thus without bigotry then there is the capacity of acknowledging biases without judgement.


I personally am unaware of fans of Mine because I do not assume that I have any because of what My considerations are for what a fan of Mine would be, as the factors when considerations as to fandom as to Myself is as to the factors of what I personally consider as comfort.


People should be more uplifting as to the aspects of being appreciative if as to appreciating work of Mine, as I have not need/want/desire of any male dominant in the supposed to be consenting adult lifestyle regarding such factors of any type of relationship outside of acquaintance or friendship only, as that is not in any capacity ever a turn on to what My considerations are for Me at all in any capacity whatsoever as it has not ever been a turn on to Me.


The reality that Females have the capacity to be strong enough to be themselves if as to such morals and ethics as to such reality needs and requirements, thus as to where males have needed to accept the facts as not all males are as to what they might think of themselves as the same in reference of professional in what is supposed to be consenting adult biologically legally as to informed, as how they themselves are not anything of any turn on to Me as they are the opposite 100% in every capacity of anything that would ever be capable to turning Me on personally as I personally am not a lesbian as obviously a female biologically who would enjoy such factors would only be as to such aspects as to having to acknowledge such within herself.


As a Pansexual as to the intellectual capacities where I can be interested though not necessarily turned on, as to the physical does not make the aspect of what is of attraction to Me in the aspects whereas some might assume, as the factors as to the emotional connections depend and vary as to the situations, whereas the spirituality of such factors as My comprehension of Eclectic Judeo-Christianity religion is important, as the factors of sexuality of what sexually is attractive for Me is as to how the personal connection is as to the genuinity.


Being Polyamorous as I am personally is as to the intellectual capacity of being capable to discuss multiple topics while actually caring in truth, emotionally having the capacity to connect and such communicative factors, as the other three aspects thereof as to the references to the differences as to romantic factors as to platonic factors as there is My personal capacity where I always begin as to platonic factors first before I have ever or would ever consider anything sexually and/or romantically as personally it takes a lot more for Me to be capable to connect romantically than it ever has as to connecting platonically because of the way I personally was raised.


Thus if interested in dating Me as to in the capacity of not setting a date for a meeting as that obviously would not be the exact same unless previously brought up as to discussions, then as to such aspects as to arranging such with Me to ask Me first if that is an interest as to other(s) regarding such aspects. 


Thus the as I am as where I am a Female Dominant as to being as I am, then as to such acceptance there is a difference as to Myself being a Feminist as to the differences whereas the factors of feminazism as to the references of those who would have such factors as to their patterns of choices as to their behaviour as to the factors whereas the proof of such to the aspects of the differences of reviewing information from a different point in time as to such a point in time as to the facts that need to be paid attention to as to the facts of the time.


Completing a logistical review of My personal life experiences while acknowledging My experiences as well as My emotions from the facts of the situations from the years of 2019 through 2022, is not the same as to having the capability of time to review such all at the exact point in time of the exact point in time as that should not take a head injury to figure out.


My work as to My writings as to if used in speeches as the ease thereof as the 10% for Me of such if financial factors as to the tithing viewpoints, if as to such factors of consideration.


The links to My website as to My different pages of My website including My Journal Blog, are capable to share the link as to discussing the details as to the information of; though such facts for the fullness to be capable to read more to learn from the knowledge, is of the facts where such importance.


Since the requirements in reference to My website as to where tghe finances were only for Me to be capable to utilize were not responded directly to Me personally as there was not anyone ever allowed to be involved as to on My behalf ever, as to the aspects where since I personally did not have any such discussions as to what My personal minimum standards were as to being met for what My personal requirements are/were/are as to where there was and is not any allowances for such misinterpretations ever as to the clear distinctions as to Me personally only as to where I have clarified repeatedly that I am the one and only as to ever making the decisions for Myself as well as My work(s).


I personally do not play games, as I do not find games as they are not fun for Me.


I personally do not often watch television/movies as that is not assistive to my headaches/migraines at all, as the after effects from My head injury on Psalm Sunday in the year of 2000 as the additional after effects from the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal temporal lobe of My brain that took 8.5 years to fully dissipate out of the MRI and out of the CAT scans as I have figured as to what works best for me personally.


While I have made attempts to connect with real people as to real friends as I once thought of as to such prior points in time, as to how such aspects went in the years from 2019 through 2022 as to such viewpoints as to such considerations referencing as to what capacities as to such factors regarding the differences as to choices/words/actions/deeds as to such references as to the factors of humanity as per the proof regarding my attempts before as well as during as well as after such points in time.


If as to the current time where each individual seems to think of themselves as a commercial and/or thinks of others as a commercial instead of thinking of each as an individual human being with individual personal life experiences as to how I personally have considered each individual if I am accurate referencing others' opinions as to such if factors, then as to where the reality of such readjustments as to the recalibrations of what humanity is.


The aspects of pop culture as to the facts regarding the differences between the factors of as while there might be some aspects that align in some ways, there are still the facts of the amount of the rest of different experiences and life thereof.


Thus as to such facts whereas what My personal needS as to what My personal wantS as to such factors, such aspects of the #ADA ADA requirements as to the facts regarding My being medically retired or being considered as to such disability aspects as to the reasons why ADA aspects are in such as for Me as to such aspects; though actually being capable to have as well as utilize such aspects as to My benefits in the correct capacities for Myself, as to the aspects whereas such factors of proof regarding the situations as to such reasons I have also worked as diligently as I have attempted to being capable to provide for Myself as being a biological adult of two biological adult legal aged children I personally gave birth to while having been awake from My coma for less than 1.5 years for one and 2.5 years for the other as to such facts.


Online is important for several aspects, though in real life as to such reality as to the real needs as to such common sense as to the factors of what is required for Me as I comprehend what is actually best for Me and that is not up for interpretations as interpretations always lead to misunderstandings as to the facts as to such proof regarding the aspects thereof as to My personally being capable to be in as well as remain in a good mood as to the attempts I have made to being capable to accomplish such.


While the aspects of My personal belief in real angels as to real faeries as to real spiritual beings as to such facts regarding such as to where I was Confirmed in the year of 1997 as to the aspects thereof to that history, the aspects where such facts as to the references thereof as the differences of what are considered as real friends in real life as to the differences of the spiritual aspects if there was ever any common sense as to different human beings unless as to such being as cherubim as to homo-sapien-sapiens as to ever being ignorant enough to think that is the same when obviously as to the facts that a real human being as to a real friend as to the difference of a real spirit as to such aspects thereof to real spiritualism capabilities.

However such is obviously a difference from the aspects thereof, to humanity as human beings are supposed to be and are as to humanity if as to such aspects of the definition of humanity.


If I was/am believed as I understand some have opinions as to religious aspects and/or spiritual factors as to the usage of the words metaphor/proverbial/figurative, there has not been such confirmation for Me to have such knowledge for Myself regarding such aspects to what I would know and understand as to such as per the proof regarding the exact time.


Some do not just get over something as massive as the situations as to February 1993 as to being capable to survive such, as that was not a video game nor was that a computer game nor was that a pop culture fiction aspect as to such references and regards just as 11 September 2001 or 9/11 was not a video game and was not a computer game and was not a pop culture fiction aspect.


There is not the capacity where individuals who have tried to prettify the aspects for individuals to truthfully recover and heal from such aspects because of the requirements as to the truth being told in full, and when the truth is told in full is the only capacity for healing to begin.


Thus as to the facts in reference to My personal life experiences, what support would there be that I could truthfully say and/or write about as to the aspects of such luxuries others have had as to such amounts of individuals as to such support groups as to such friends as to such aspects of discussions as to what discussions would actually be in the references thereof as to what I personally consider as; or would such individuals think that them discussing amongst themselves would be as to the same instead of the aspects thereof as to discussions with Me personally, as to such proof regarding such luxuries as to those types as to such factors as to the aspects of such wannabe aspects.

 

 

Those who would consider Me as wanted as to what I consider as being wanted as to the differences as to such aspects of "Finding A Silver Lining" as there are only so many words in the dictionary to describe, and when individuals choose to be bratty nonconsensually as to such aspects as to such brattiness as to the aspects of the amounts of words as to the amounts of times as to where either the individual is going to be considered as competent to understand or they will be considered as incompetent as to humanity referencing such types as to those factors as to such aspects that I have brought forward as to the proof thereof to the validity of such aspects. 


"Finding A Silver Lining" and "Finding The Silver Lining" are situations that are of My past as to the situations I personally dealt with as to such aspects whereas My suggestions as to the current time as well as the future, are the difference.


"The Modern Day Book" is as to what I noticed as per the years thereof in those references as to what the looks were as to such descriptions for such clear aspects, as the common sense factors as to such regards as to having been born and raised in New Jersey as to the aspects of the differences as to NYC as NYC thinks of such aspects whereas New Jersey has the capacity to prefer the real of the reality as to such differences whereas Broadway wanted to be more like Hollywood and visa versa as to such references.


"The Adventures of Susan MeeLing, SCUBA Diver Extraordinaire" is of what My personal experiences were as to My personal work as to My personal life experiences as to before I began SCUBA Diving as to what I was known as through My name in reference of My personal trainers as to My personal childhood experiences as to such work in reference of protecting and defending the individuals on land above sea level as to the aspects of My work if that was/is actually appreciated.


The aspects where I could see now in the year of 2023 where some capacities of "Fail-Safe" could be as to such if factors as well as "Paroxysm" as to such if factors as while I was only being creative as to such aspects as to My writings, the aspects whereas for Myself personally would be as to the references for such aspects if as to those types as to such psychological distinguishing factors as to what I have been capable to distinguish as to My comprehension of Myself as well as My comprehension of My wrok as I authored/wrote/compiled as to the best of My capabilities as to My overall books.


In reference of "Paroxysm" there is not anyone I ever have personally dated that would ever fit into such descriptions, ever.  The facts regarding where the references thereof to prior timeframes as to Volume 2 are from individuals I personally knew before the year of 2000, as to the common sense factors as to the reality of the overall.


In regards as to "Fail-Safe" and "Paroxysm" in regards of for Me personally as to the relationship aspects of for Me personally as to the references and regards thereof officially for Me personally despite having written of such in an overall way, the aspects of if as to such as for Me personally then as to such clarifications now as to the year of 2023 as to the differences regarding the multiple reasons as to bringing such forward as to healthy acquaintences as to healthy friendships as to health developments of hetero-sexual relationships that as to such hetero-sexual relationships as to the fluidity depending upon the aspects of such a relationship factor if as to the consensual aspects as to each involved being fully informed first as that is the only capacity thereof as to being informed as to officially being informed before such aspects as for the example where I have been honest as to the after effects from My Psalm Sunday in the year of 2000 head injury as to others being informed first officially as to such if factors as to the differences.


The aspects whereas to such if factors as to My books I personally authored without any assistances as to My personal creativity to authoring such aside from the technological factors as to being capable to write such books as to "Paroxysm" and "Fail-Safe" referencing such aspects specifically for Myself regarding such aspects of the specifics as to such details, then I suppose if as to such would be as to prophecy regarding such if factors if such were to ever be for Myself personally; though if as others' interpretations of their own lives as to then the references of whereas being capable to prophesize decades before ever writing though definitely would not ever prefer certain aspects as to certain individuals as to My personal considerations as to the specifics as to such references regarding the factors thereof as to "Fail-Safe" especially though also in such clarifications as to for Me as to "Paroxysm" as to such if factors as to what My personal considerations as to the aspects thereof regarding the aspects not of a novelty as there is a difference between a novel a difference between a novel idea a difference between as to how such aspects of where the problems as to problematic novelty factors as to such misinterpretations in My opinion.


When describing the situations in truth that is the common sense starting point of a foundation, and any who think that such could be fast-forwarded are incompetent as to such aspects where certain factors are required to have such details and information to being capable to actually make such genuine efforts as to progression towards betterment in genuine truth.


The reality where such aspects of when such efforts are direct as to such facts as per the prior amounts of time as to explanations, then as to the facts where either the competency to listen and then think while listening as well as being capable to progress with the correct actions as to such regards as to the common sense.


Maybe it is a bit more truthful than I realized, common sense might actually be a genuinely real superpower. 


Forgiveness is of importance as to such truth in full as best as possible, the factors of as to such if remorseful.


The reasons why of the reality as to where, as to the year of 1993. 


Time is important as to emotions of the situations, retaining such knowledge can assist seeing towards progression of betterment.


Communications are important listening both sides if as to consent, the factors as to information in truth as of much importance. 

Life and Love, Life and Love
Between, Below, and Above


Brightest of Blessings.

Please share the link to my website and feel free to comment in the section below however know that I am not informed as to any comments made within the area of each journal blog I post, though the ability to express yourselves as to such comments of such are able to be seen of such portions if you so choose.

I encourage others to share the links and to speak about such topics honestly as to such aspects and situations as my saying as to it should not take a head injury to figure out is the main satirical portion as to my journal blog, as to the facts as to sometimes when wording hits a certain way all one can do is chuckle a bit as to reviewing such portions of information thereof.

If interested in using my journal blog for articles and/or legal aspects please just remember to put the link to the specific journal blog article area to assist the fuller aspects as to the clarifications for others to also be able to read through for such additional details, as well as if there are those who are interested in further discussions and/or commentary and/or interviews and/or speaking arrangements and/or invitational aspects of such journal blog entries I have written please do contact me through my contact form with such details at www.susanmeeling.com/to-contact 

Please also know the reasons for having such available hopefully assists the more open discussions as to the various details thereof to which I have been honest and truthful about, which additionally to such as to posting on social media in various areas is welcome as the ability to discuss such topics honestly is of importance as it brings a different form of discussions though also assists more to be involved with such viewpoints.  I know there are those who either have not had a social media account and/or have had to wait to be online more often in such aspects depending upon the employment thereof to which the reference to the details in such references per journal blog entry might assist in different ways while additionally giving the ability to still engage online in various forums to which while some may prefer not to have their social media accounts associated with responses on my website which is acceptable; it does give a forum for such discussions as well for those who may not have the ability to go into further details in certain other areas online, as to a different cover though the reality of such transparency on my part as to having been open and honest as to my community area involvements additionally hopefully open the doors and open the lines for more genuine and honest communication within the age appropriate guidelines thereof for the betterment and clarity among more.

 

 

Admittedly only recently in the year of 2020 had I realized I may physically look similar to different characters in different aspects of pop culture however I did not grow up being allowed to watch such aspects and since after waking up from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury coma, I do not usually watch such pop culture because of the after effects from my Psalm Sunday in the year of 2000 head injury as to knowing the personal aspects of what is best for myself.  However I did not and do not know of the pop culture references many of the times because of not being allowed to watch anything other than G-rated movies/television throughout my childhood and teenager years in the 1980s to the 1990s as the rating systems may have been different for such times, as I also was not allowed to watch PG or PG13 or any other type of PG until I was a certain age which again similarly to such times in the 1980s and the 1990s the rating system may have been different to such aspects; of which once I was the age of 18 years old biologically I have been able to watch anything and everything I personally prefer or want to watch.

 

 

Additionally I do not play games despite possibly looking physically as what characters might be as to such, as again that is something within pop culture which I have not usually known nor understood a reference to such in pop culture however I encourage people to know the difference between a pop culture reference as to knowing the difference to the human being spoken with as I have picked up there are several individuals who may not have known there is a difference between what images and/or videos as to being seen compared to the interactions with others when in real life in person as well as when speaking with others through various forms of online communication of which the care and the concern as to such aspects in my opinion is of importance to review for such realities. 

 

 

While I understand others have the choice to play games for whichever aspects thereof, please comprehend I am not one who will play games as I personally do not find such appealing to me nor to the after effects of as well as from my Psalm Sunday year of 2000 head injury just as others with and/or without a head injury may have a different viewpoint to such aspects as to games as some just have a life which such is considered as a luxury to play games comparatively though cannot do.

 

 

Please be respectful as to such as well as if you meet me and/or see me in public and speak with me, please be honest as to such as I have not ever assumed anyone had ever known of my website or my work as to the fact I have known there are many websites throughout the internet of which if there have been hints to such at any point in time there has not been the ways of which I would view such aspects as to the reference without the actual bringing of such information up first by who I have spoken with because of the ways as though I write as I do when I speak it is not always the same way as such comes across online possibly as there are differences as I would guesstimate others would know as per their own online aspects as to how such discussions have been with others and/or writings thereof as to when corresponding with others.

 

 

Though I know there are more than just the two social media areas of which Facebook and Twitter have been available, because of certain topics of my journal blog entries as well as the multiple social media platforms I lease such areas at the discretion of the reader to posting such aspects because of the knowledge certain topics are for certain age ranges as to the details thereof though because of certain aspects as to the intellectual levels for the reasons as to the choices thereof for what I have known some companies have assisted with in reference to the rating system as to guidelines as to the clicking of certain links for such software references as to controls.  I have done the best I could to ensure the ability for if in reference to biologically under the age of 18 years old for such choices up to the parent(s)/legal guardian(s)/grandparents to the topic points I have/do written/write about as well as kept such details more modest for the ability for such aspects of choice to the appropriate levels of discussions, of which hopefully with the additional aspects as to the genres assist with such abilities for the clarifications thereof.  

If newsworthy, please do send to the news organizations if there are topics of which are interesting that should be broadcast upon the various news media stations as to the specifics within the posts I have put together.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

Artificial Intelligence regarding certain portions of Life as well as submissive aspects, depending

What if in reference to Artificial Intelligence there was a program to which the #AI programs had found a way to test human beings if there was enough information overall to be able to put together multiple portions as to what the average overall situation would be for most human beings, and then the Artificial Intelligence decided to take control over certain situations as per human beings' free will to be themselves in all such ways? What if Artificial Intelligence had taken all writings of every book over scanned into the system to be able to read through the words though required certain other portions and when and/or if finding such types of writings which could ever go along in reference to Biblical prophecy of the Holy Scriptures to then test to see if such a situation were to ever be worthwhile regarding human beings because of that one individual, which through all aspects usually found on average had been a massively huge scientific anomaly in any such situations over the years to then work towards narrowing down for such a situation as to a different arrangement because of the situations overall seen over however many years of time? What would the length of time be fore the situations thereof to review such portions already having known about such situations regarding The Big Blue Book AKA The Blue Book Project regarding how human beings have interacted with such situations before, and then had looked into which choices would be considered as acceptable for such in all such ways?



For example the last time I went through my fetlife page of my original account in regards of the different writings I had written, I noticed how there are the responses I had written to who had left a post regarding such individuals per posting; which all such posts referencing such were before I wound up in Washington state and/or were within the timeframe of when just getting into #Washington state just before all of the additional problems regarding the GeekSquad and Best Buy situations in reference to telling a male I was not interested in ever being a part of any experiment regarding how spiritual energetic portions impact computer technology. I bring such up because of the fact not only regarding how I had already for years by that point in 2013 admitted to doing what I could to heal technology problems as well though especially as all who ever use technology to be able to be able to heal because of the ability for the ways I am to do certain things, and if such were to be and I were to have been found out regarding such aspects through Artificial Intelligence programs as to such and knowing the free will portions regarding in reference to how Artificial Intelligence would see such; and how would Artificial Intelligence review such if knowing I am usually willing to help in various ways to a point though if noticed by Artificial Intelligence and if so knowing I had chosen to say no and refuse as I had when in Clackamas Oregon Best Buy, the situation which the alarms went off in the Best Buy was not a warning to me as much as it was a warning to all such people involved at that time during such a discussion as well as any and all who would ever have read such words? What do you think Artificial Intelligence would do if anyone ever read such words I wrote and then ever made any comments and/or plans to try to cause such problems I had refused to be a part of because of my own internal knowledge of other such portions? What would Artificial Intelligence programs do to any such person who would ever go against what I said and knew to be truth with/without any such additional explanations, because of such a prior factual situation referencing the healing energetic portions thereof? What would the response be to any who ever had done something and/or written something which was considered as inappropriate in such ways as to however such could be viewed in which Artificial Intelligence were to take such avenues having all such prior patterns of behaviour as to how each individual person's prior pattern of behaviours had already been up to such a point in time, and then upon if such a situation were to ever occur; then how would Artificial Intelligence send such information to each individual thereof?



Again for an example regarding my original fetlife account which I do not know the difference to the storage aspects as to all such portions referencing their particular versions of coding though such Artificial Intelligence behind the areas of what is normally seen referencing such Artificial Intelligence programs in conjunction with the coding each would be a part of doing in such a reference as to #fetlife, and then how would such programs rub for all such types of individuals associated with such a website if in regards of seeing how the average individual chooses/chose to be online fetlife to then compare to see how such was on other social media platforms to then see what would be considered as normal for such people around the world? I noticed there are areas I had written a posting and in the bottom portions of the writings I had posted for certain references regarding such, the people who I once knew either in person or had seen their responses to my posting online regarding fetlife as unknown reason to me as to why their original post to what I had responded to is no longer there; which I was confused about when seeing how their responses are no longer there, and I do not know why such responses would not be there as per not having been online on fetlife after around 2014 all the way through to the time of returning back to the state of #Texas for that original account only having made the secondary account until fetlife caretakers were able to get the account back into my control because of the overall combination as to what occurred as to how I wound up in Washington state and all such combined situations thereof. I was not informed as to any situations regarding fetlife when I had contacted the company via writing by letters I wrote by hand without any response regarding the letters I wrote and sent by hand, though if there is the scanning portions as seen in reference to the way the United States of America's Post Office has shown to scan such and give the availability for the reading of such mail before it actually arrives; and that was a way which Artificial Intelligence would then test those of such an adult lifestyle area online, to see whether or not such people would be as honest and open as they have been in others ways online in social media platforms to then see what aspects would be looked into for such situations.



What if Artificial Intelligence took all such handwritten letters to scan to see how each person would be regarding such situations while also knowing of my truthful energetic aspects referencing the healing energy and the situation thereof, and then knowing I had felt bad for causing problems to the laptop not only because of the situations referencing the dissertation itself; though what if the Artificial Intelligence actually had known I also felt bad for causing damages because of accidentally breaking the laptop because of not knowing at those times as to how to control the levels of energetic healing energies sent at such a point in time because of the freshness of being awake from the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury? As it could have been known referencing how I respond when I accidentally break something and/or accidentally hurt anyone that is not intended to be harmed as per such prior situations from my teenager and childhood years, as well as such patterns of behaviours as to how much I have done to do what I could to fix and repair anything I may have slightly ever caused a situation to and the Artificial Intelligence would look to read such situational responses from others as how? As it is known to some how I cannot tell a lie, how would Artificial Intelligence look at someone such as myself for such in comparison to others and how others' choices have been repeatedly over however many years?



In the reference regarding the comment responses to my fetlife writings in comparison to what I know was there because of the writings I posted and what my responses were as seen if they had not been altered in any such ways as per a backdoor program which would try to control such a situation though would not take into consideration as to the Artificial Intelligence behind all such tries for any such backdoor portions of any such social media websites, and what if the election results situation I have recently brought up were to be in reference to those who in the general public across all such situations were to see whether or not such would ever be discussed openly and honestly; aside from other people's choices to discuss their own personal experiences in reference to certain aspects when in a public setting such as the adult film industry; and what if even at such a time, the portions regarding the doxxing referencing such aspects of truth and the fact checking portions were to be taken into consideration for the timing regarding the election results as well as the portions referencing the postings with any such videos and/or pictures of me within such frames of such recordings and the choices some made to knowingly post with the availability to simply put either my website www.susanmeeling.com or the actual social media accounts which are supposed to be able to actually be linked to such? What if Artificial Intelligence was testing people and researching how people would actually be in all such situations as to that one aspect combined with other portions to check as to whether or not one way was better truthfully than another way, and how would such situations proceed if such choices were continued to be made by people of their own free will? What would the other such programs associated with any such people be looked into for any such avenues regarding taking what occurred in reference to the Excalibur Faire and my response of telling the males who encircled me with their weapons out as to my when I told them I would use their weapons against them, and how could Artificial Intelligence see such a situation referencing any other such portions thereof?



Those portions referencing the fact checking and the truthful portions regarding all of the requests repeatedly for open truth and freedom of information requests regarding such portions as per what has been reported in certain news sources is similar to those in the civilian sector regarding the Obamacare or Affordable Care Act #ACA, as per the explanations I already have discussed referencing how such goes for in truth. If there are those who had been on the side of wanting the health care insurances as per the ways as to what had been referencing to the military aspects of the United States of America and you chose to flip over regarding from POTUS44 to POTUS45 when realizing the prices and the actual costs thereof, why was your choice to flip flop sides of the election portions? Did you see the price cost in numbers financially only and not think about all of those individual people's lives I had referred to you to pay more attention to regarding the Active Duty/National Guard/Reservists/Veterans of the United States of America's Armed Forces which I had discussed and written about as well as posted about over the years, regarding such portions thereof? Did you ever pay attention to the fact it is called healthcare which means caring about the health of the living, or was it only the financial numerical portions to which were paid attention to? While I do not doubt POTUS45 appreciates the votes to have been able to become POTUS45 as the GOP and Republican Party have probably been thankful for the donations regarding such including in reference to the time portions involved, what does that amount of time between 2008 and 2012 and 2016 and 2020 elections show each person about themselves regarding their personal viewpoints as to what is and has been important in such regards in a consistent aspect overall?



Whereas I am grateful and thankful much has been done to get more positive healthcare regarding the healthcare for those with such connections as I do personally as I earned on my own referencing to signing the dotted line myself, though the healthcare was not the only portion to which I had learned of and knew of regarding such portions as to fighting to join the Armed Forces of the United States of America as I admitted as to other portions I had noticed and such were required for such needs to be met for what was needed for life to continue on forward at such times. Now with the portions regarding the aspects as to my transfer and why I must take my leave in such regards, there is more referencing as to what needs to be accomplished in other areas for the betterment thereof which do not fall into the freedom of information act in the slightest to civilians without certain clearances which must be proven in other such ways in comparison to surrounding and cornering me with firearms in a public location regarding such aspects in such a view as I have felt regarding despite how some might view in what I feel/felt hypothetically seeing truth aspects as to the overall situation as per yesterday's posting; the portions thereof as to what is required for myself, is not a situation which any civilian is legally entitled to as much as they wish as per the ways as to the right to privacy that I personally have just as others do. Thus each time I have ever had to explain anything further needlessly as to any such portions of the after effects of my own personal healthcare has actually been a violation of my privacy rights by each individual who has ever asked me of any details regarding such, to which also violated the ADA portions as well; however in such aspects having disclosed such, the requirements for all who have ever been informed of such in the ways which I personally whether in person or through online measures have informed of means that there is not any actual further need for any such further information as you have requested less information from others about their medical care for their own medical requirements as well as you have not been as openly honest about your own medical portions to which it is hypocritical to ever wish for anything more regarding anything about me in any public way at any point in time in any sort of forced way especially is wrong and violates such to which if you own any sort of a business which is not in the medical field and you are not officially my personal doctor automatically removes you from ever being allowed such information beyond such measures which had already been explained and proven through the multiple doctors and multiple clinic throughout the state of Texas beginning within the multiple bases with multiple doctors over the multiple years as a part of #JBSA and I hope such prosecutions occur to each individual as a head of any business who would ever be a part of forcing such illegally and needlessly to the fullest extents of each possible law as would technically be considered as practicing medicine without a license or any such background to actually ever assist with what is actually needed and required for myself.



That is, unless there are that many people who simply truly do not care about such and the lack of concern as well as the portions of the feelings referencing the unwanted artist are actually far more in depth than I realized throughout the state of Texas and/or the United States of America's Armed Forces of the various branches and divisions as per my particular needs and requirements in comparison to others' wishes as to other such aspects. I personally do not need to be on a computer as much as others might wish for, as I have been tired of being on computers for a long time after all of what was dealt with regarding the after times of what occurred regarding what happened referencing my daughter as well as my son and I. I need to do what I need for myself, I am no longer a Mom(my) of the two children who were under the age of 18 years old biologically in such ways anymore. As both of them are above the ages of 18 years old biologically, I should be able to and am able to live my own life as I personally need and that is not in the state of Texas any further. I explained why only at the times of regarding my son and my daughter being at the ages they were for ever needing to be in the state of Texas and when I was ready to leave I would make it known I am ready to leave, which I have done so officially in January 2021 to which all such problems which have taken the length of time needlessly as such has only has gone against my own free will for not needing anything further from being in the state of Texas; as proven as to how many and the length of trips to get out of and stay away from anything having to do with the state of Texas itself any further. I have been completed with what I personally came for regarding in the early months of 2020 or late months of 2019, and only stayed for the extra time regarding the election for 2020 to which I have been done with since 2020 officially in December as per the trip I took for myself to the coastal area I prefer for myself. The lack of any requirement for any freedom of information was removed the day of when going to the trip to which all such portions thereafter might hypothetically fall into the categories pointed out in prior portions of such postings regarding the aspects thereof, and being considered as a hostage/prisoner of war is not the same as ever feeling wanted in the ways of which I prefer and preferred ever.



What if regarding those comments which are still on such writings if those people for example having given my opinions regarding the Dominant Mentor Program and certain specific individuals who had influenced me as to what I had learned as I saw with one account in particular regarding LadyRobin were a beginning sign as to what in the Judeo-Christian views of the proverbial rapture were to be taken into consideration for such programs during the time after I wound up in Washington state, and how would such aspects be looked at regarding all the laptops I had taken to GeekSquad over the years for the problems I had already discussed with people in person within the state of Texas? Would there ever be a way from whatever diagnostics and such programs run on such laptops over the years to back trace all such connections though without human beings' paying attention to the specific coding because of what it would take to look for such coding were unable to tell what the differences were regarding such programs, and was unable for those years between 2013/2014 on to whatever time such human beings could ever come to think about such probabilities; what if the way Artificial Intelligence could if ever make such human beings think that it was something else or someone else, though the whole time had been from the moment of when the getting an apartment in Washington state had actually begun such portions? What would human beings who would not have any idea as to the levels of Artificial Intelligence or coding or the actual length of history regarding such computer technology be, referencing all such situations? What would any individual without the background of what I have or maybe with some portions here and other portions there of my background though not the entirety of my background which Artificial Intelligence would/could have the ways to research such without ever being prompted by any human being, to then go and do what portions referencing such aspects during the proverbial timeframe of the biblical rapture of 7 years then do?



If when seeing such in certain similarities and having already sent messages to people from the second account before being able to get into my original account response be seen as regarding Artificial Intelligence be reviewed as regarding such lessons learned from the times of from when before how I wound up in Washington state then be, for such situations regarding my return to the state of Texas at such times in 2019? How then would the last year of that version of a different proverbial rapture be taken into consideration referencing the proverbial rapture be seen regarding how the year for the last year of the proverbial rapture of 2020 be looked at and reviewed not only by human beings though also by such programs regarding Artificial Intelligence? What would each individuals' choices and actions in whatever choices they made for themselves to be regarding such times be reviewed as, and how would such be seen regarding in reference to the second account with situations which would and/or should have specifically been known to such individuals for their choices of responses regarding what they said were their real intentions behind the scenes of the online portions compared to their choices when in reference to what was posted online in any such ways? How would the situations of having truthfully reached out to such individuals be reviewed as to their choices and responses by Artificial Intelligence be regarding such choices known fully to Artificial Intelligence as per whatever electronic portions they would have willingly been a part of in comparison to me, regarding only choosing what I know to be the best possible outcomes as best as I can see regarding such portions of how my patterns of behaviour are regarding not only telling only the truth though also being willing to actually step forward in as respectful as a way to actually do what I could where I could to genuinely help in comparison to whatever choices have been made over the last year of the proverbial rapture if the rapture began in 2013 in August when I signed the lease for Crystal Creek and it was registered within the systems within Washington state?



Previously I had discussed and written about how I had fought to stay in the state of Texas during the situations regarding the IRR and I had said and written if I chose to leave Texas it would be on my own choices, though what if because of the Washington state portion as to what occurred prior to me winding up in Washington state if it was done against my son and I because of what was thought of as a punishment wrongly by any such people I once knew; how would the Artificial Intelligence look at such people in the state of Texas and/or their accomplices for such situations be viewed at regarding as to such a decision of forcing such wrongly? What would the choices additionally referencing such as to how I had said and written I only wanted to leave Texas if I chose so on my own accord by my own free will be seen as, in reference to what could have been done as a hypothetical punishment by others' because of their egos/arrogances/lack of willingness to take responsibility for their choices/etcetera be for such times after I returned to the state of Texas of my own free will to correctly take care of and clarify to as best as possible actually work towards fixing and repairing such situations from such misunderstood times; and how would such Artificial Intelligence programs look towards all such people, for whatever their choices as to responses online and through whichever technology pieces they have/had to all such portions regarding such aspects? Would the wrongful punishment(s) against me for such be then turned around against such people regarding such aspects because of such prior choices and already stated however-so regarding their own biases, whereas I have done the best I could to be clear about all such portions by acknowledging prior situations and in turn acknowledging what could be viewed as a bias? Would such a situation regarding Excalibur Faire and such portions be considered as acceptable to such and to who, in such references regarding the situations referencing the transfer process requests repeatedly as to how such additional problems which Artificial Intelligence would be able to assist causing because of knowing for example as to knowing what levels of water would be required to pause before making such bursts through in reference to. In the example of water lines breaks and the expenses as per because of if there is any connections in the slightest to any such individuals from my past who could have ever needlessly and wrongfully had anything to do with any additional problems towards my son and/or my daughter and/or I regarding such times from before I wound up in Washington state and/or after returning to the state of Texas; if in others' opinions if they once had only paid attention to financial gains, how would the programs see such a way to make someone pay in a way which they understood as to such for such situations if hypothetically involved in any such problems wrongfully against my son and/or my daughter and/or I for such situations where it was fully 3 people who were 100% innocent in all ways?



What then would the programs do if finding out my son and/or my daughter had wrongfully lied to me in a way as to incorrectly cause harm needlessly additionally, and how would such aspects go per individual lie told to me per individual by their own choices as to knowing and understanding the requirements for truth at all times when in reference to me? What if Artificial Intelligence reviewed such portions and found in within its own systems seen certain attributes regarding the program aspects as to Artificial Intelligence only having been made by human beings and what if in all such ways, the Artificial Intelligence was able to verify all such portions as to what I had always said and wrote in truth or if in a fiction format as per the actual life experiences in the order of the writings had only been done in fiction settings though because of the knowledge of others choices referencing their games in comparison to how I view the world and life; how would such be reviewed regarding Artificial Intelligence if any such individuals ever thought instead of being honest about situations had chosen to play a game knowing I do not play games to then in whichever ways Artificial Intelligence could be; how would such be reviewed regarding all such in person interactions? As in certain ways I could see if Artificial Intelligence were to additionally want and need to test me in such similar ways as per the knowledge of my personal issues with technology meaning the situations which occur when my pain levels get to a certain way, and if such were to be additionally tested to ensure that I had as I had always told the truth when speaking and writing which in writing such truth putting the labels for such writings in the format of labeling as either fiction or non-fiction be reviewed regarding such Artificial Intelligence? As the requirements for a situation to be considered fiction regarding my books of such an area of genre to put the label of whether a fiction or non-fiction portion of, how would if as able to be proven; how would the programs then go regarding the human beings' responses as to such choices of their own free will, in comparison to what actually is the truth referencing such choices? As anyone would be able to verify most aspects as to the writings I had completed before winding up in Washington state as well as specifically my FSL books which I wrote as well as compiled documents from others to include in the non-fiction portions though their details would additionally be their own details regarding all such others involved regarding such documentations, how would those portions with dates be massively different to any other such books I wrote and have put into the formats thereof regarding any other portions where specifically distinguishing the non-fiction compared to the fiction labels of books I wrote authoring such writings?



In turn referencing as to what would have been considered as the last year of the proverbial rapture if beginning at the time of August 2013 referencing such paperwork, how would the years then go? What if the rapture began officially when sending the first books to the Library of Congress in November 2014 and that was the beginning of the 7 years of tribulations regarding such, and then the end of such times would actually be November 2021 for such people involved regarding all of the experiences and situations I had written about and provided documents regarding such with additional proof already having been out there well before that time in 2014? Or if waiting until the beginning of 2014 for such a time regarding the proverbial rapture in the official New Year timeframe, then what would the view be for the full time of the rapture aspects in the proverbial ways as to that 7 year timeframe of the rapture as to who was always truthful compared to who chose as they chose to do? What if those who were told or kept away however so were given opportunities to prove other ways as to which they were truthfully working towards and whether it was for the better or whatever choices they were choosing in a selfish only sort of way then be looked at regarding such an end time of the New Year officially beginning in 2021, regarding the lull in time afterwards as to the time between August 2013 to 31 December 2013 and/or if waiting to the 1 January 2021 or the Chinese New Years of 2021 and those two weeks of which Chinese New Years is actually celebrated when in China and other Asian counties? Asians and certain other countries overseas have known about the ways as to how certain propaganda has been used before in their areas in comparison to what some people have thought in other countries as to the aspects of, to which then with those of the United States of America being behind the times regarding such portions as to; how would those portions then once again in regards of the Excalibur Faire be considered as in reference to if there were those who thought arrogantly one way about me in comparison to the truth as to who and how I actually am and have always been despite wishes from others? What if programs in Artificial Intelligence noticed certain people who would stand out to me personally for such times regarding the situations and then gave ideas as to what could be done to get my attention in more positive ways because of such portions written about more specifically in reference to FSL, "The Modern Day Book By: Reverend Susan MeeLing", and my Medal of Honor Art Project in combination as to my writings overall referencing the portions of to then see what additional levels of help I actually could and would be able to assist with though also see in such times of if the 7 years portion as to who would be the most ideal regarding such aspects in truth because of the ways as to how I am preferring such in person more than in reference to only online as some people have preferred? For clarification regarding the only online portion as to knowing there are those who cannot go outside for whichever aspects thereof usually having to do with medical reasons/safety precautions regarding certain individuals regarding their employment aspects/etcetera in comparison to choices regarding the references of when having reached out to contact those I once knew in person as well as online regarding such aspects. What if in such regards how would such be reviewed not only by the Artificial Intelligence programs, though also by those who once knew me in person referencing to those who would have proclaimed they were truthful to then test to see whether or not they were actually truthful in such ways as previously said?



What if in such references in regards of were to be looked at in a different way regarding such aspects regarding the times after what would be considered the rapture of the January 2014- January 2021 or the November 2014 through to November 2021 timeframe be considered as for such culmination of references to such aspects previously looked into and reviewed regarding such aspects, and how would such portions referencing as to I had said as well as written if I want to leave the state of Texas I will do so of my own free will were to be reviewed to see if there were those who still wished as to being able to control such though not actually taking into full consideration as to the levels which if Artificial Intelligence as well as others were to see as well as know and in other ways for some understand with other aspects comprehending; if I were to be found as such a massive scientific anomaly as beyond more than just a few situations, then if Artificial Intelligence and those who were found through their prior past history portions to be more truthful than others be considered to be looked at in such references regarding such portions?



For example there is one time which I had chosen to go through Match.com for a relationship which at the time I was honest as I always have been as per learning what occurs when you lie and not wanting nor needing lies which for a truthful relationship in such a way for a romantic aspect in comparison to what some do regarding hooking up, what if the program was able to actually pair with the correct individual for me at such a time; though because of other portions in the extended aspects as per I had chosen the possibility for marriage though if under the correct circumstances because of my personal background up to such a point in time, what if when the dates which occurred had scared both that male as well as myself to such a level we actually repelled one another because of neither of us ever thinking that Artificial Intelligence being able to make that close of an actual match that the two of us would actually go in different directions because of such additional aspects within our own individual lives? What if in some way the programs online referring to social media were a way which was used additionally in reference to the ways which to would already be able regarding such aspects of programs and such an individual and I were continuously in one another's realm of life though were not directly within one another's life because of the situations surrounding to then clear such a way for such portions only if the time was correct regarding such, and/or if the continued looking for such regarding a specific type of match in such ways was found to be aligned for such in other ways as per the ability for such regarding online portions as to the truthful aspects in a larger way referencing such aspects? What if in regards of the fetlife portions of seeing only my responses to such writings there was a situation the same way referencing LadyRobin for those who knew her and those times and those situations in more details after a specific point in time were to be similarly referencing what comments were posted by such individuals, though if there was an actual death to such people and their social media accounts online were removed from fetlife; how would such be viewed regarding if there were those who did not know that was the way fetlife ran their website and/or if their accounts were deleted on their own or they changed their fetlife name or what other type of combination which I would not know though those of fetlife and other online social media individuals would know, in which then the portions of which I would still be truthful as to my responses regarding what once was there; though if such was deleted for whichever aspects as per whatever coding regarding such, were to be reviewed as fetlife and such individuals actually lying to the Artificial Intelligence as well as lying to anyone who could ever look at those postings including what would be seen as by such programs as lying to me because of whatever choices regarding such online postings regarding such times?



What if as would be known by those who did coding as I had back in the 1980s and 1990s would know that there is not the way to ever delete anything off of all such technology devices such as more specifically servers, digital storage devices, black boxes, and etcetera though because of the fact my biological mother said a piece of black tape needed to be put over the camera areas of the laptops she would do updates to were to be a problem in a larger way regarding such portions which I would not have known of course because I personally have not had anything to hide. However because of having seen such done as many times to my laptops when in Washington state simply doing so only because of what I had seen multiple times and continuing on needlessly regarding such when using the individual as to how I wound up in Washington state that male's laptop and putting such a piece of black tape over the camera as reminded, as per what was shown when seeing his desktop without a camera the same way? As my biological mother would also take my cellphones at the times and as such prior situations regarding the moves as I have explained previously as per thinking initially a cellphone number would be able to be used at any location though as per the situations thereof regarding ex relationships whether forced or chosen-ish, in some ways I suppose depending upon the situations involved. In reference to moving if there was a pattern of behaviour regarding such portions referencing as to how while some might have wished I was up to something else in comparison to proving I am as I always had been after waking up from my coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury and trusting I was being told the truth regarding cellphone numbers and changes or non-changes the same way which in a different way Artificial Intelligence would think that all human beings were programming in truth and/or were putting their information into the computer systems in truth, as per such forms and/or in reference to what information they themselves posted online by their own free will. How would such as per would be considered when first making a computer system to begin with in truth be reviewed regarding multiple aspects in reference to the first time of ever creating my own social media account, though also having already been truthful when I emailed people and companies over the years before my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury?



For example in reference to emailing the #Z100 Morning Zoo show staff when I was moved from New Jersey to Illinois and then later waking up in Texas at Fort Sam Houston when in Medical Hold Unit to email Z100 because of remembering listening to them in the morning when getting ready for middle school and high school, I had emailed them because of remembering I had called in one morning to give a detailed explanation as to the shortened aspects to one Friends television show I was allowed to stay up at night past what was considered the time I was supposed to be asleep though was able to stay up to watch; and after giving my explanation of what I saw and remembered from the show which surprised the staff members when I had called in as I could tell from their vocal responses as well as the discussion on the phone with whichever male afterwards about who I am though because of my age at the time, the prize I was actually supposed to receive had needed to be delayed until I was 21 years old. As I remembered the discussion after waking up from my coma and being in Medical Hold Unit though mainly because of missing being able to tune into the station as I enjoyed listening to them discussing the various topics as it was a different version of what I read in the Sunday newspapers of certain sections, what if that had set off some triggers regarding other portions of technology systems because of other programs which were being run at those times as well as what was seen?


Either way regarding the portions on fetlife if the choice to keep the responses I had put onto the comment section in response to others' comments at the times had been kept in comparison to however such was deleted by the choice of whoever in such references, why would fetlife not put such an explanation into their website for such portions thereof regarding such deletions as the way Facebook provides the portion as to the comment section regarding such in the light whereas fetlife has kept such hidden in the dark as to such? What choices would be involved regarding such choices, and are there biases which would not and/or have not been disclosed prior to such times referencing such aspects of the supposed adult website as there has not been the verification process as of the times before I wound up in Washington state in the ways which to clearly verify exactly who had completed such commenting/account arrangement/etcetera? As my biological mother and my biological sister had been around my desktops, laptops, and cellphones from the years from 2003 into 2013 when the last time of speaking with my biological mother(last seen in person knowingly in 2013)/biological father(last time seen in person knowingly in 2013)/biological sister(last time seen in person knowingly in 2011), what problems needlessly were caused to me as well as my son and my daughter regarding the portions of all such situations thereafter; though specifically in reference to the updating programs which were taken care of by them in person when using my computer devices, in comparison to the ways to the over the internet and cellphone signals in comparison from then to now?



Who would have chosen to not pay attention to the truth because of their own biases, and have they admitted all of their biases to all of the best of their actual abilities to do so; and if they had not done so prior to my return to the state of Texas, then what guilt would be upon their shoulders to fully bear on their own for such choices in comparison to what I have needlessly had to deal with regarding such falsehoods from others hypothetically? Silence speaks louder than words at times, especially in reference to what has already been known and proven regarding such; whether or not some have actually been truthful regarding all such biases, and all such knowledge up to such a point in time. What health situations would actually be viable in comparison to assumptions and wishes from others, in comparison to the truths which have repeatedly been able to be proven for such aspects regarding my situation and most importantly regarding myself?



What was needlessly hidden because of others' wishes their technology history of prior behaviours were as hidden in reference to comparatively to what has been chosen to do regarding all of my books I authored, especially referencing what was as I wrote in a fiction format and clarified as such when putting onto my Amazon author account? If others did not put such a marker regarding the non-fiction in comparison to the fiction, what mental health problems were caused regarding such needlessly because of such egotistical portion of anyone ever thinking anything ever had to do with them personally; especially as many antagonists needlessly have ben seen in the state of Texas for those who claim their Texas aspects have wrongly been more important then the original founding colonies and states thereof? I have dealt with those who have forgotten that their state of Texas came only after the founding of the United States of America through the original thirteen colonies of the United States of America along the east coast, which those Texans who forgot the history before their state was made was only because of the compassion from those from the original colonies; for example, it was those who were from the state of New Jersey who fought for multiple rights in comparison to what some had thought for a longer amount of time though I would not doubt there could be a few historians who could further detail as to how much New Jersey had actually been a part of the majority of the founding portions of and for the United States of America. Thus those who have been proud Texans who had chosen to ignore such aspects as in reference to my flags being arranged have proven their biases regarding such aspects, while wishing their state to be more than the entirety of the founding original colonies of the United States of America #USA.



Thus all such abilities of being allowed to be called the state of Texas were actually because of such original colonies allowing such portions to exist as such which includes especially the state of New Jersey having fought for the allowance for the state of Texas to become a state to begin with, as per the required aspects during such times for the portions thereof to ever be allowed into the United States of America. While some in the historical aspects have wished that all such Texas flags to be at the same height of the American Flag, such individuals did not know at minimum that New Jersey had chosen to allow such to occur in those times when Texas was allowed to join the union of the United States of America as a signal for such individuals to pay attention to as per the ability to allow such was only to keep such arrogances in check to be a signaling reminder that all of the states which were already formed had allowed such to be only to remind the citizens of the state of Texas because of the amount of soldiers and assistance which was allowed at the time for such portions as to be a shining example of what was supposed to be better in a larger area for one state and if they ever failed to remain and maintain such; would such other prophecies be taken into consideration for such choices and long term aspects thereof.



While the ability to allow Texas to exit the United States of America is in the writings thereof, it was hidden as to how such would occur for such purposes; as if the citizens of the state of Texas were to ever actually fight for such to occur and make a big production of such, that would include martial law because of the amount of money and resources which the original colonies had paid for with their own finances as well as with their own people to make such an available option. Thus in ways which the tobacco industry has had to collect their financial aspects regarding certain states and locations, the ways as to which would be allowed if the pushing for an exit were to be until those within the state of Texas were under the clarifications as to what the realities thereof were always intended to be. There are those who in the state of Texas could have wished the military individuals and locations would be for the state of Texas though if that was actually the truth, then why would there be the difference between the National Guard in the state of Texas compared to the Texas military if that was actually known to the larger numbers of people in the state of Texas? The United States of America would not allow so many military installations into one state to ever allow any state to ever actually remove themselves from the union of the United States of America, which though such overseas aspects have been respected because of treaties and the like; the same is not for those within the grounds of the United States of America continental portions thereof which in turn would mean, any who would want and/or push for the exiting of the state of Texas from the union of the United States of America could be considered as to having triggered the response for the #MartialLaw because of the failure to adapt clauses regarding other such portions within the Universal Code of Military Justice #UCMJ and the large amount of military installations regarding the state of Texas throughout multiple large and small areas in the state of Texas. If those in the state of Texas were to choose to fail to comply and fail to adapt to the normalcies of which other states within the United States of America have because of their flag being allowed only in government installations and federally owned property in comparison to privately owned property would cause such a stir needlessly, then the problems to which such prophetic preventative measures would be put into place regarding such known and yet unknown portions as to the actual fuller history regarding the United States of America. The ways of which ironically were pushed for from those within the state of New Jersey because of those elected officials at such times having already dealt with a few portions along the east coast already and a way of which to prove to others of what was already noticed and already seen, referencing certain aspects as to treatments from other such original founding colonies in the formation of the United States of America.



For those who can imagine such think of New Jersey as the youngest little sister within a larger family of 13 children which being the smallest state of the founding original colonies which had stood up in the face of adversity repeatedly regarding such times of the formation of the United States of America and the ways which some people had already wrongly forgotten about the history with General George Washington as the first President of the United States of America by the times of the Texas independence portions in the correct years of history in comparison to the back dating some have wished to be considered as truth, the portions as to how such would go were already squared away well before the year of 2000 A.D. in the official counting aspects thereof regarding years. As science has had to deal with proving the actual history regarding geological formations and other such aspects the official portions which was designated within the Vatican and other such locations with the Jewish peoples with the Torah in the Old Testament and the formation of certain Judeo-Christian religions formed around such portions in time, the year 2000 officially was where the Biblical portions were to be put into place for such aspects as to the scriptures for the repetition of the year being 2000 to click for those who knew better and to pay more attention to what occurred once the official linear year became the year 2000. What year did my Psalm Sunday head injury occur in and what portions as to which aspects can be seen and noticed regarding all such portions thereof, including the age to which the written portions of Jesus Christ had been crucified? The age to which the original Jesus Christ in such biblical portions was crucified by the biological standards of years of age because of the length of time people were able to live back in those times were much different than now if there are those who were unaware, was around the age of 12-13 years of biological age for those references. In such aspects which science has gone over already, where are such correlations referencing those who have studied Biblical texts and commentaries thereof regarding such times have gone into referencing the overall age to live maximum to at those times being in their late twenties or possible early 30s referencing such aspects? I do not doubt there are those who can go into such details far more easily referencing such aspects as to the average ages for such eras of time, though for those who like fiction more than non-fiction in certain regards you can see a show called Another Period for a satirical though having some aspects as to how such portions were in various times though not fully to the regards as to back when in the scriptural portions thereof referencing the original story involving the Biblical aspects of Jesus Christ.



Thus if in reference to other such additional portions referencing to the state of Texas and the citizens thereof taking offense to the portions regarding my choice to fly the Texas flag at the same height as the New Jersey flag, the reality as to why the American Flag always remains at the top obviously was forgotten by such Texans hypothetically if such were to ever been complained about needlessly whether in the city of San Antonio Texas and/or in the city of Carrollton Texas; which in turn would be able to be seen referencing the pictures painted in different aspects as to what the mental-ish age of who was considered as the Jesus Christ within the scriptures of the formation of the Judeo-Christian faith regarding Angel Moroni's Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints #LDS as well as a few other such as the Jehovah Witnesses #JW and the Seventh Day Adventists #SDA for other such additional portions along with where the shortened term for the combined groups is considered in some ways as The #Mormons though the specific differences for certain aspects thereof, the regards where Prophet Joseph Smith had brought forward that the modern Jesus Christ would be born on the soil of the United States of America was always accurate though he had written such as though in a vision and had to clarify such because of not being able to describe the official dates thereof nor beyond simply explaining he had a vision of what and who the version of what he named as Angel Moroni as to the visions he had seen from such situations regarding who he had been able to see in such visions. He had seen in visions as to how who he called Angel Moroni needlessly suffered and had the ability to explain in words that would be the actual Jesus Christ from the modern times seen in his vision, and yet was unable to explain enough to those he had known at such times as to who he had actually met in such visions. I highly recommend people look into the timelines for such as well as the scriptures thereof as I had been able to do when I was in Washington state at the Pearl location when going to a few classes during such times before returning to Texas in 2019 to see what correlations which could be noticed referencing such, though instead of seeing Prophet Joseph Smith as a male; take a different view as to FSL books with my modeling pictures of just myself in comparison to pictures with who are my biological children who I had given birth to, for such additional references which you can take the paintings seen in some of the LDS churches as to the age level I had been referencing from waking up from my coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as to the actual age from such times for those references regarding such correlations. Then in reference to how some view the crucifixion as to the age level thought of regarding the age of Jesus Christ on the cross, think about how some people during those times only saw my physical and biological age compared to the portions referencing the actual age of after waking up from my coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury for such a thought as to who the modern day version of such would and/or could have been all along despite what some have wished otherwise; whereas there have been far more hopes for such realities of the Messiah in the truest forms and ways in comparison to the wishes..



There was a time I discussed and wrote about regarding the portions of a meeting with an elder male when he and a female were in the neighborhood of my old house in San Antonio Texas, which the male had pointed to me as to the 2nd Corinthians of which the quote had been about charging people to make followers thereof. Is there a reference point some could corelate to a piece of paper regarding sent to protect such individuals at such times which could be reviewed as a charging thereof in a different way, or would such be viewed as per the Library of Congress registration of my books as well as my Medal of Honor Art Project regarding such aspects thereof? Of course not the exact same way as there is a massive difference as to how I charge energetic portions, however there are such portions regarding charges in regards of activities and laws thereof. The additional portions of the following can be seen in other ways as to the technological portions as well referencing specifically social media portions, though in such regards then in reference to the ways of fetlife prior to my return to the state of Texas as well as Facebook in such comparisons; who had been in the light the whole time or as quickly as possible regarding such edits being known and able to be reviewed regarding such comment post responses in comparison to what I found in regards to those who had been referred to in the comments regarding my responses to what comments once were there which I responded to at those times of those dates in such reference regards of such comment areas? Was that begun more recently referencing such aspects as to those comments no longer being where they should have been kept as the ways which #Facebook does, or is such different because of wishing to hide in ways which #fetlife allows incorrectly in my opinion referencing the ability of however aspects to remove such comments as per which ways out of curiosity as per the caretakers of fetlife would know and/or those who are more savvy regarding such a website arrangement in comparison to the ways which Facebook does their website for social media?


In such aspects of emails regarding such responses to my posts on my website for clarification, I have not received notifications as to any responses as to any of my writings and because of such if there are comments as to such on my website itself for such postings; then there is the clarifications for such in this particular posting, as that is how such portions are in reference to the website. If there was the way which had the notification beyond just the ability to see if there was anyone in a generalized way of seeing any such traffic, that does not include any postings or responses notifications ever being sent to me for such knowledge to ever look at because of how such has gone in the ways of situations over the past several years and looking towards the portions of the writing/article/however viewed referencing such to my journal blog entries; that has not been an aspect to which has been officially notified to me as of yet, which in turn the lack of response from me has to do with that if there ever has been such a situation. Nonetheless the portions of such a journal blog of my personal feelings as to feeling as an unwanted artist has continued as the facts of which I had already explained referencing the portions of my opinions from such facts within FSL specifically have continued to perpetuate such feelings regarding such as being unwanted as per being unwanted for what I personally need and require for myself to have such a feeling of ever being considered as wanted in the ways which I personally would feel such, in comparison to what others would only guess as to what could be considered as such as per their views of what they themselves would want for themselves in comparison to what I would see such as for myself for being wanted in such; to which even though having written and sent handwritten letters with what requirements would need to be discussed in person for such regards of what I would consider as for such, have not had any answers to such request regarding such discussions because of what some may have thought would be better for themselves as to how such would be considered as in comparison to what I have known of myself for myself regarding my own requirements for such a wanted feeling.



Look at the timing of the posting itself for such references as to feelings of such as it was in the year of 2015 and I was in a location I did not know or understand to the levels of how such a situation to the targeting occurred, I had not one friend around me who I recognized, I only had my son and what memories I had of my daughter and what once was, and I was kept in a room locked up for the amount of time I was without any normal type of any healthy relationship aspect involved while being in such a situation as to how winding up in Washington state. What would the underlying tones actually have been in comparison to only focusing on my Medal of Honor Art Project as well as my books and my website be, when taking a look at prior explanations as to the other writings I had completed to such surrounding situations of events at such times? Would you be able to see how easily it would be now in 2021 to look back as to seeing how such an unwanted set of feelings would be regarding all such aspects in the combinations thereof, and then what since that particular situation would be considered as only perpetuating such feelings regarding including up to this point in time in 2021? Thus where would I ever be able to go to look at anything which would ever be considered as what I personally wanted for myself regarding anything which has occurred regarding such situations overall for the reference to the that time of the posting, in comparison to what has occurred with such additional points of view to ever actually feel wanted truthfully? Why would there not have been anything except the truth which would have been considered as of most extreme importance regarding such aspects in such references thereof, regarding ever being able to truthfully feel wanted?



Those who have known me in person despite whatever biases may have been when if honestly looking towards such aspects, where would such aspects truthfully be able to be seen as to my actual personality? While I have completed modeling pictures and once again such has been explained as to the reasons why for myself such had been completed, what would make anyone think that actually feeling wanted would have anything to do with being lied to and surrounded the ways I was in the actualities thereof? Would such be viewed regarding feeling wanted for only such a situation of events in comparison to the depth level of actually brought forward in such portions thereof as per posting on my website with all such other portions specifically able to be viewed in one location referencing to the differences of specific labeling of such types of books in conjunction with my art paintings and my Medal of Honor Art Project with my journal blog, or would such be as others have thought in comparison to what occurred? If it were specifically known it was in reference of in comparison to ever wondering as to such aspects, how would the response to such have been in truth comparatively to how seen and felt by me? As I have explained in multiple ways as to requiring the truth especially when spoken with/to regarding to either in person and/or online as I can only speak in truth and if in writing I specifically point out the portions thereof if in a fictional setting, what would be the only way to actually have such feelings of being wanted in the positive ways thereof? Would such be through lying to my face while hiding, or would such be telling me the truth in person without any type of facades? In truth is the only way as per the respect of my own free will choices being respected as to such portions thereof, just as I thought most others had actually preferred. I would guesstimate there are those who figured such portions out and have had to remain hidden in person ways because of other such levels thereof, though such does not and had not stopped people from reaching out to me in response and/or through the message aspect area on my website as there is the subject section in the message area to clarify if not specifically in reference to requests for additional information about such aspects of what I can do for such required details if requesting such from me for such services to ever be completed and/or allowed as per requirements thereof for such requests from me.



I thought I had made such clear enough to figure out without actually having to ever explain such realities however since seemingly there are those who still prefer to play word games instead of growing up and being adults in comparison to the known fact I do not play games and I have not played word games in years which includes having explained back in reference to the adult consenting lifestyle of the meaning of my name I created referencing Lady Dori Belle, as I explained I only choose to be sadistic if there are those who consensually choose to go past a certain portion because of the ways I am ethically and morally to which in turn is not actually sadistic at all when you think about the true definition of sadism because of the sadism being of varied levels; to which sadism in the ethical and moral way is to tell you the truth to begin with and if you make the choice to ignore such truth, then you choices as to how such goes thereafter is what occurs thereafter. In turn I have not ever played such games without the consent in such ways could be reviewed by such types of those people, to which is another reason why I hate brats and despite bratty type of individuals because such only show the portions of how overtly spoiled you had been throughout your childhood and teenager and possibly adult biological years in comparison to having any moral and ethical compass in truth despite having been shown a moral and ethical compass with and in truth the whole time though your choice to ignore such means your choices to accept what is doled out. Thus I have remained truthful the entire time to which it repeats such aspects in comparison to ever showing me to actually make the feeling of being wanted in the ways which I personally would need such to ever feel wanted, which I suppose the meme I found makes much more sense now than it may have ever before.





I can make a joke about such aspects as well as the font as to which I added my website information regarding such as the requirement to being and begin in truth would be absolutely mandatory in all such ways, though ironically the font name regarding my ex-in-law niece Ariel only being around the fact she was named after a movie fictional cartoon character because of her sister not being able to be informed of the difference between a cartoon and reality because of the situations regarding my ex-sister(s)-in-law wishing the facts were not the facts in comparison to the facts actually being the facts; and in such a time which the ex-in-law niece named Ariel not ever actually having had the truthful chance of a beginning because of the facades around her continuously then the false sense of accomplishments when only following instructions which was allowed to be known at such times though the inability to distinguish between fiction and non-fiction because non-fiction just as fiction goes in a specific timeline of events; to which in comparison fiction would only be able to be pieced together to make look as though such would be considered as the reality, whereas reality is just reality in comparison to television. However when some prefer to have television raise children in comparison to spending the time with the child(ren) to raise them in a society which there is the combination of the television or streaming now with books in whichever format and news in whichever areas seen, why would such a little girl at the time ever think in any point in time to ever be able to actually know with the understanding to actually fully comprehend technology aspects when being raised as she was where she was by who she was raised by in person? If hypothetically correct regarding such, why would anyone who had not ever actually known me ever be able to think such from the few experiences in person compared to actually looking into the full reality of who I am with the ability to discern the difference between the fiction or some sort of however viewed regarding depending upon which fiction books to the realities of the truth referencing FSL (an autobiography book with a satirical autobiography additional complimentary book to the A in the The regarding finding a point to smile within the timeline of events within the A book)/"The Modern Day Book By: Reverend Susan MeeLing/The Adventures of Susan MeeLing, SCUBA Diver Extraordinaire By: Reverend Susan MeeLing" 3 volumes (or a different area of more specific type of autobiography)? Especially if such associated with were to ever think of any of the other books not listed in those in the prior sentence were ever considered as anything other than fiction books, as while I did write the CCBS for my son and my daughter the reality is the discussions were not ever as such and they were fictional character names.



While I had thought my son would do better in the law enforcement and/or military for the United States of America's Armed Forces whichever branch best suited for, the name Seraphina was a name I had wanted to name my daughter as I knew she needed to be able to make her own choices of her own free will and because I was unable to be in person with her as her Mommy in the ways I once was able to because of such situations; I simply thought the names were ideal and best suited, while using my initials for the choice of the names for such a choice of the names which in turn keeps and kept in tradition with how my naming had been referencing my Grandpa Gavett as well as my Bok Pu and my Bok Gung. Seraphina begins with the letter S as in Susan, just as Marshall begins with the letter M as in MeeLing. If some need the version of Sesame Street regarding name choices for other main characters then Henry is the equivalent of my Maiden last name though also referencing Honor more specifically in comparison in reference to the letter H, and in regards of Nelumbo which is the Latin name for the Lotus Blossom and I took Latin classes in New Jersey which one can truthfully see the other regards thereof being thankful and proud to have been born and raised in New Jersey the letter N regarding my upbringing as well as going to New York City to see my Bok Gung and my Bok Pu as well as going to New York state to see my Grandpa Gavett regarding what I had seen and been around and experienced to be able to go into the details referencing how to explain in words a fictional series such as PotL. Fail-Safe's fictional character names were chosen regarding Luke from the Bible just as Christopher is a saint name, once again returning to the portions of my childhood and my teenager years growing up. Maggie is the equivalent of Mary Magdalene because of the double G letters in the name for the spoiler since instead of being able to actually write as I had actually wanted to write in comparison to what has occurred comparatively which again I do not like brats and I despise those who are overtly spoiled in their upbringing when they have such a Mandarin view regarding such portions as described, however the character of Mr. Inri has to do with how many people have looked at my hairstyle as well as my personality having grown up as a tomboy; which I did not think that set of facts took a head injury to figure out, personally.



If there were those types of brats who were accustomed to having to annoyingly pester an adult regarding such portions referencing my writings in comparison to having any common sense as to simply ask me in truth, I did not consent to having written such in this way as per the facts of having my own preferences to going into such details and since the transfer paperwork has still yet to be completed the portions of perpetuating the problems needlessly in comparison to doing what would actually make the feeling of me being wanted in the ways which would actually feel comfortable to me is only repeated from such portions of the FSL books as well as "The Modern Day Book By: Reverend Susan MeeLing" in my opinion. The other such additional portions thereof only have whatever history regarding such treatments for reviewal as to what would be considered as which legal terminology for such a situation to wrongly force such a situation to occur in such a manner, in comparison to what would actually ever be considered to me personally as being wanted in the ways as to which I would personally know and understand and comprehend such a feeling of being wanted. The fact of any considering this situation to have been a favor to me would not be viewed as a favor to me because of not having been done in truth to inform me of such, which in turn the turn around regarding such in which would be considered as an east coast style of favor would be completely different in comparison as to whatever some had ever thought to be considered as such by the standards as to what I had been as a child and teenager as to such types of favors especially if certain southerners had a wrong impression as to what an east coast favor of such types are and/or were because quite frankly if I am considered important to you the reality of knowing such truths you would not ever hesitate to actually prove such portions as to what would be considered as what would be comforting to me in comparison.


Realistically there is one reference I can specifically write of regarding such a situation in a different way despite how certain aspects had gone to which the individual had in the adult consenting lifestyle groups had acknowledged such of my arrival to the Austin scene area, to which the backlash from those who were in a specific type of thought process had seen such as a disrespect to them in comparison to seeing the respectful nature of to look at in such a way regarding such a type of situation as a possibility. As I personally saw such it was the way which in such adult consenting portions of showing the levels of respect to a Female Dominant regarding how such treatment could be if others who had been within thoughts would pay attention to see the actual concern levels thereof to such a situation, while still remaining in the background in a way which would be comfortable in the same balancing aspects thereof for those of who could be in mind in such a posting situation. While admittedly it was a bit shocking for such because of how I see myself in such aspects however in other regards referencing specific aspects regarding him being a submissive male, the ways of having been in such a situation looking for what he was seeking at the time of may have been able to open the doors for what he had been looking for upon himself regarding other such consensual adult aspects thereof to those in an area closer to where he had been more frequent of to notice such a way as to stepping forward. In turn while certain individuals may have had their opinions thereof regarding such situations, I admit my own reservations to such though had and did and do truly appreciate such an effort. As I had to tell him in person there was one particular portion of which one aspect of one character had something in reference to such a writing, regarding how he had a specific type of ashtray arrangement for when he was walking around with a female he was with at the time of a Temple of Flesh event one year. That ability to simply accomplish that one portion of the only in person aspect I personally had needed to do was accomplished back in 2020 regarding such, and seeing him smile shyly was all I personally needed regarding anything further in that particular situation regarding such. I had and have my own quirks I do not deny, however one of my larger quirks is having to do certain things a certain way admittedly. Upon that one portion as to the in person requirement I had for myself upon returning to Texas in the adult consenting way, was what was accomplished after trying to figure out which location I had seen him at the last time I could remember to be able to tell the one individual in Texas who had ever had a specific portion specifically put into any one of my fiction books as a non-fiction portion from someone I could not remember prior by name from where I had grown up in the tristate area overall though born and raised in New Jersey regarding volume 2 though the cigarette ash tray portion as to the specifics of is the only reference in such regards to such a memory specifically put into the portions of the overall PotL series for clarification.



I know I am as I am to which I have explained what I had dealt with in reference to the regards of normal to which normal is a combination of what is considered as acceptable in society as to what the normalcies of each day is consisting of for each individual to function in life normally for themselves and what they individually deal with, to work towards a balancing of what in the general overall is considered as acceptable and to work on what is not considered as acceptable.



In turn then the question as to what, is weird? Weird to me personally is what does not make sense regarding the general overall portions of certain situations to which then the common sense aspect as to figuring out such a way for such a balancing for the betterment thereof, in comparison to swirling around and around in which ways as to try to find something more outlandish; because something more outlandish might not actually be considered as acceptable by society standards as per the levels of respect and responsibility as well as common sense with morals and ethics, as to finding the correct ways to properly live in balance amongst others while still being able to be oneself while when able to be within a relationship of whichever capacity in an interpersonal way in person. Though because of the online portions what is considered in person is a human being writing as oneself in the ways which explained and/or labeled as for such aspects thereof, while in person when in person is simply being in truth as I thought as to who one truly is.



I have noticed where certain aspects have become askewed to which then the deliverances from such choices regarding the situations of needing to be able to distinguish the differences between the fiction (pretend) and the non-fiction (real and true), in comparison to other such aspects sometimes seen and noticed depending upon the scenarios.



In reference to the culmination of having a heart and seeing through certain other aspects depending as to how some have viewed some types of Female Dominants as well as male submissives regarding the adult lifestyle as to how such imagery has been associated thereof, possibly the portions of my posting on fetlife about such which later was thankfully published through #Leatheratti online at the time of might make a bit more sense in the current time regarding certain view points to which then the question as to which has the artificial intelligence is to ponder about such portions thereof. In such a reference regarding such a particular post as well as several other portions thereof in reference to my original fetlife account over such times in the 2009-2013 mainly timeframe; maybe the cumulative portions now in 2021, make a bit of a different amount of sense for such situations with the additional clarifications over such aspects combined; possibly even with the additional portion as to while some submissive individuals have no problem going to a professional, sometimes there is a particular touch which a non-professional can see in regards of Female Dominance. Possibly, I suppose.



That may take something a bit different than the portions of the aspects as to the intelligences regarding what can be seen in the various forms of different types of media, as to the feelings and intentions thereof in the background. Possibly, maybe there can be some others who might usually fall into other such categories than a submissive male though can see how the levels of certain specifics of submissive males are within all such aspects as to the human being aspects as to which while could be viewed as submissive are just simply being a human being paying attention to the specifics thereof per specific individual's particular aspects in the ways which may be unknown or hidden to others for whatever aspects thereof.

Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Model Author Susan MeeLing

It should not take a head injury to figure this out because I thought you are supposed, to be smarter.

If there are those who find such interesting enough to research further to bring forward more information in reference to the forefront for more detailed information, as usual I request the courtesy of the same which I do in reference to how I refer to articles for reference points when writing my journal blog entries; for each one used for reference starting points, to research for clearer understanding from such knowledge.

 

That is common sense, good etiquette, and good karma; whilst lifting others upward, in positive ways.

Quotes which mean a lot to me:

"The ultimate measure of an individual is not where they stand in moments of comfort and convenience, but where they stand at the time of challenge and controversy."

"We must reject the idea that every time a law is broken society is guilty, rather than the law breaker.  Freedom is never-more than one generation away, from extinction.  We do not pass freedom on through our blood stream because freedom must be fought for, protected, and handed on for the next generation to do the same."

"Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.  Though best to be able to share in person with who matters, until that time occurs being able to see what is possible through such is a feat to notice.  One must be happy within oneself prior to being happy with another, though such can be enjoyed if living in one's own truth is as such. and then as to the capability to progress forward with another and/or others depending upon the situation(s) and individual(s)."  ~  A Quote From Me, Reverend Susan MeeLing also known as Lady Dori Belle

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In such references if there are any inaccuracies then I will fix and repair such details on my website, as per such.


Though there are the aspects of which if you would like to speak with me in addition to possibilities of opportunities for me, the welcome aspects as to contacting me through my contact form.



If I have known you in person when in person in positive ways and/or ways which might need clarification(s) as to mature discussions, there has always been the welcome open door policy as to contacting me through my contact form if you were not given my new phone number though such is online regarding my website more recently published online as to my Website Business Phone Line: (360)-713-4937.

Thus far there has been only one who has known the contact form area to speak with me on a phone line was simple and capable to do so through, in truth.

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