Throughout the years of mainly 2009 through 2012 through my original Susan MeeLing though Dark Lily account on Facebook as already posted about and just as those times and just as those journal blog updates to my website www.susanmeeling.com for such attempts while the phone calls and the discussions in person face to face in person when I asked my own biological parents as I was told moved from Illinois to Texas in the year of 2003 though I am unaware if the Army branch off the United States of America did a maternity and paternity test in the year of 2000 to verify the reality of my biological parents to me personally because I am a natural born child biologically per such legal facts.
for assistance for the situations regarding my children I gestated life and gave birth to per the CFBISD situations and the Fort Worth Zoo in 2010; just per the situations in overall; where I should be asked first and need to be asked first and what my decisions are to be the decision(s) though having also known the reasons to ask for assistance per such knowledge of my own limitations for 2 decades at this point since waking up from my coma from my Psalm Sunday in the year of 2000.
I am most thankful; when living on my own that my schedule should not ever be impeded from anyone else ever at any point on time when I have not allowed anyone and do not want anyone's involvement with my work at all whatsoever per such mandatory requirements to speak with me without the tooth per not ever having been an option for legal options because of the facts that I would not and did not consent to such and no parent biologically of mine would ever allow such nor would I personally ever allow such personally officially, and if per such others then do not be surprised that I hate the tooth and hare you personally because of the needlessness that you are to my work www.susanmeeling.com and the other factors I was not interested in speaking with anyone else about unless I personally wanted to on my own without anyone else involving themselves to such tooth factors because if I wanted to speak about it would only be one way instead of what I have not desired and went against such to actually be with what was/is left of my biological my real family; though they would have had to reach out to receive me first when I first called in the year of 2019, and then the waste of my time apparently in the years of 2019 through 2021 for such attempts where they had to ask me to come over after I informed them I was back in Texas then.
Then again my biological family in Illinois would have had to be biologically tested for surity and such discussions of my cousin Jade per my Great Aunt Helen (biological Great Aunt per the generation) daughter Jade my cousin and her biological father (African American), thus per those areas of NYC and Pittsburg and Philadelphia and Staten Island and the state if New York per both sides of them; though the state of Pennsylvania and the state of New York per those Amish and Mennonites per my biological extended family from my biological mother's biological father's side of the facts and the differences also depending upon the overall.
When in the year of 2020 for the first time of seeing where what was the areas where what was my biological relatives, I made every attempt and effort to get back to my biological real family through telling the truth from the start at JBSA in the3 year of 2000 and through the years to 2013.
If I were believed and assisted correctly from the beginning, what family would I actually have been reconnected with other than my real family if I actually mattered correctly from the beginning start especially after the timeframe of when I gave up initially before the timeframe of September 2001 regarding myself and what I personally could ever do that I personally would ever think of my own work of ever being good enough for me personally to believe my work is of what my considerations are for me personally.
Since the timeframe of the years of 2019 through 2021 and into the year of 2022 despite such efforts of mine to reach out directly and wait for others to actually have the common sense to actually be real and decent human beings/homo-sapien-sapiens; what is it those individuals would haver done per such years and decades, though especially if there are real connections to real family per biological facts; then what would anyone else have done over such choices of theirs per the driving through in the years of 2020 and 2021 and 2022 of those areas if they were me per such differences of the biological facts.
I did not think it was rocket science to figure out such facts about my connections to the Amish and the Mennonites per such amounts of attempts to explain such individuals, not though such individuals after the years from 1998 through such 2000s have ever actually paid attention to correctly because only while such factors of what is actually considered correct per living and being alive per such factors would matter I suppose to others per the much to me it has always meant per such times of if factors and I do not consent to anyone ever just randomly involving themselves when I already clarified there is no one at all that has earned such from me personally to maintain and sustain per my considerations because of my requirements to begin with per such facts per Mustang facts and also the reality of since the year of 2001 after 11 September 2001 per my biological family in the state of Pennsylvania and my biological family in the state of New York in areas away from New York City and New Jersey; it is not difficult to know who has always been more about family and truth per such facts.
Thus who was there for me personally when I dealt with driving through and seeing everything in the year of 2020 per such times in person face to face in person in my real life with me in the car per such biology homo-sapien-sapien facts in full with me fully during such and in the same exact vehicle per the seats, and since there was not anyone there at all with me personally throughout such points in time when I was completely by myself per all such factors; who is a true friend of mine, per such without any replacement factors of physical superficial factors that definitely would not be family of mine that would ever do that to me personally ever.
Possibly a different consideration for the work per the times per the years of 2014 through 2022, per such if factors of symbolicness if such factors of what I saw are the reality per such if situations.
Thus, who was a friend truthfully to me personally when seeing and seeing and seeing through such years now in the year of 2023 and how I did not ask for any reenacting or repurposing of the American Civil War whatsoever either, because I remember how my Grandpawpaw was about such factors regarding others after the newspaper situation in the 1990s that I brought to his awareness though from 2001 onward, though through the years of 2001 through 2019 who knew me in person face to face in person in real life in my real life per the difference (not in a bad way just clarifications) per the facts; the reality my Grandmawmaw was brought such from me first though she was dealing with several baby momma situations at the time that had other situations per whatever factors per those times. Just per if such were actually about me being alive and me enjoying life with my family and my friends per such factors of being PCDS for the third time in the year of 2003 to the northeast of the United States of America, the reality of the incompetency levels of making the known choice for my best for me personally becaiuse of the requirements for the timeframes then and not anything sexual at all regarding the name of the first base location whatsoever per whatever those individuals thought of during the timeframe of Medical Hold Unit instead of what was actually needed at the exacts per the exacts[ it should not take a head injury to figure out if those television shows and/or movies and/or pop culture are not photoshopped and there are real work employments far outside of what specific of one specific of one specific instead of the fullness of all reasons; it should not take a head injury to figure out when the one and only person to ever have asked is me (Susan MeeLing ~ legal last name factors aside) then the one and only individual is the one and only individual to ask platonically per such timeframes that such Army Captain in the Navy Marine Special Warfare Unit office that I called out being a needless problem for the US Navy because they know they are lower ranking Captains in the Army branch and yet it should not take a head injury to figure out when calling out to a Navy installation base per such factors and then the reverse per such call ins is the Captain rank in the Navy far outranks the Captain rank in the Army then it should not take a head injury to figure out the facts and not be lying renne faire titty baby morons about the facts that when that Captain in that office was called out through/by my words when I personally spoke the truth to the XO and the CO of the Navy/Marine Special Warfare Unit in the year of 2000 the correct regards of manners and etiquette and respect at all times per such mandatory requirements to speak in truth at all times between installation bases because of the interworking and innerworkings that some are just not at the security background level per the requirements for human being lives to live alive for more future factors in the factors thereof. If such Amazon employees are given the directions they can follow to drive then they are to follow such directions from the start officially per to not inconvenience the individual or the business(s) involved at all per such delivery locations, and thus the facts that I am not a part of the employee factor and I am not interested in the if factors of involvements without my permission because of my requirements per the state of Washington business laws; it does not take a head injury to figure out the requirement legally to get my personal permission from/for any/all factors from me first legally including U"CMJ legally if factors, though the legal requirements to ask me only in truth without hinting otherwise the facts of the state of Washington laws per them having turned such to as hobby instead of a business with me for larger factors in the correct factors of openness.
Thus per the technological factors I guesstimate per the industrial technological revolution considerations, I guesstimate the similar factors of the 1980s into the 1990s ENRON factors per the news per the different 5 boroughs of the New York City areas throughout such times though now in the timeframe of the year of 2023 in the month of June on the 2nd of the month of June in the year of 2023 per such writing typing factors for this journal blog today though when read on and through my website when published fully from the links I send out though the ones I" have only posted and whether such to review later or such factors thereof per posted per such factors thereof per those moments per those exacts per such postings per such time per such exacts accessible easily per common sense that the needless situations in the state of Texas per the situations of if factors per the Army and the Navy having to reconcile and such factors per their choices per their decisions per the facts per legalities per 7 years old biologically legally per intellectual/emotional/spiritual-religious/physical/sexual per my timeframe of when I woke up from my coma from my Neurologist's perspective though my descriptions I attempted per my efforts in the year of 2000 to explain also and unlike others per possibly there are patterns in my behaviour that if I had been correctly assisted to arrive at Fort DIX in the state of New Jersey per the multiple factors including Marine and Science with the School of Technology and the United States of America's US Navy/Marine/Coast Guard attachments that may make a bit of sense for those such per the Navy Marine Special Warfare Unit inside of Fort Sam Houston in JBSA in the state of Texas in the United States of America in the world on/in the planet of the Earth within the Milky Way Galaxy within the overall Universe-ish per the dimensional plane/plain/--- levels allowed per if factors of allowance(s) per the Laws of Nature and the Laws of the Universe within and throughout the Space.
My family I grew up with, is not an option for discussions nor writings at all especially since the reality of for one individual per such 3-7 days of respite first with other living family and friends per real in persona face to face in person real life support emotionally per choices/decisions, since how much before 2001 did I not have with me and what would such be per the consideration of common sense after 2001 through the year of 2019 other than some memories and thankfully some varying types of --- and how much else did such others expect of me while what factors of themselves would they have to and need to accept the facts of the situations since what would others obviously know and/or understand obviously far better than I since I obviously would not know what others would know per such exacts per such exacts per such exacts that those others would know. Since it does not take a head injury to figure out in my thoughts I suppose, why would it take a head injury to figure such out and then genuinely such efforts per manners and gentleness per the facts and the situations per such facts reality thereof per my online factors the of me knowledge though someone who does not like talking on a phone as a child such per myself and someone such per myself who did not like talking on the phone as a teenager, the only time I -ish liked talking on a phone per socializing per less than .00000001% of the time though still honest since why would that matter for such facts honestly?
What individual would ever believe that they could ever handle such completely on their own and completely by themselves alone when all such work, and thus per the reality of so-called care about family in the areas thereof; why would it ever matter for me so much to return to the northeast of the United States of America if there is any common sense since why would that ever matter outside of NYC when so many pop culture types pay more attention per such factors instead of the larger overall that brings others together to the areas.
Thus it was just the only family biologically at the time that I could have reconnected with after the year of 2001 situations, though since I am the idiot that I have been per such self-deprecation so-called factors; obviously if I was smarter and had real individuals that would have understood my stupidity from the lack of all such words for those types to actually do what would be assistive for me and my family per such years, then those individuals can if there are any reports of larger groups can accept the facts that their choices were per such factors.
In turn per the state of Texas per the areas thereof my biological family per the state of Pennsylvania and the state of New York and the state of New Jersey for the largest groups of for me personally, those individuals throughout the years of 2001 after September 2001; why would I believe that who I am actually matters, since why would my family matter per such factors?
Obviously if they were my real family then they would remember the rules from New Jersey from when going to the house because they would have to know I spent less than 24 whole months within the state of Illinois and thus the high school stuff would not apply per the length of time of however those factors are per that area per the difference of the younger factor related to me per such factors of sibling aspects, that individual had from 1998 through 2003 instead of the less than 2 full years in that area.
I did not think that such others without at those times of those years from 2000 through 2013 per such years only, 7 year old/2nd grade math factor per the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain for those 8.5 years would ever have to have their memory factors put forward per such differences of being a Middle Schooler and High Schooler in New Jersey per the difference of high schoolers and middle schoolers friends and meetings in the state of New Jersey in the northeast or anywhere per the difference of the midwest areas of Crystal Lake Illinois; though what would they know about family per such differences, of what I would know about family per only my considerations of what I personally consider family being to me personally that I would needs to be fulfilledfor me personally to have correctly for me only from my orders only for me (Susan MeeLing / Susan ("legal last name) factors that such situations of if factors of Amazon employees who did not ever get my allowances for such if factors of the mandatory requirement to in truth fully soeak with me otherwise the reality of my rank would be already known to those who actually were/are-ish in the know and such factors thereof such time of such full exacts of exacts of exacts of exacts before judging if the fullness-ish of such are correctly of such attention correctly platonically or did it take a head injury survivor to point that out to you others who might read my journal blog and/or such social media factors however though such factors of legal and ethic and moral laws first such as my Constitutional Rotections first and always.
Since what I personally consider being my family per such traditions, the facts of such real per the such factors of getting to know me per such in such differences of getting to know of me per through online; the factors thereof personality factors, per the situations.
Thus my family that I could have reconnected with in 2010 or sooner or such, obviously per such factors of my attempts and efforts per the reality of others actually reaching back and correctly assisting me per that being the only way per such depending upon the situations. Who cares about family, per what proof would there be per efforts in truth when the reality of such facts about the Amish and the Mennonites per such years in the 1980s and the 1990s per such facts though what personal friendship(s) per common sense outside of the social normalcies would such areas directly be more o[en of though manners per such facts?
I suppose since that Excalibur situation in the year of 2005, what would be of importance of the differences per such facts?
Why would such facts of my biological family ever matter in the northeast of the United States of America per the difference of the state of Texas per such memory deficits and cognitive disorders, though why would such be when if such factors of the state of Illinois and the biological family that I had in Crystal Lake Illinois per my biological mother and my biological father and my biological little sister per 4 years younger per her birth and then she had to grow up just like everyone else per such facts that she was informed of since she was young per Old Tennent Presbyterian Church and the amounts of trying to ride coattails that were not hers to ride from the start especially when all she had been to the Amish and the Mennonites per such times were the needless problems of overexposure and the lack of respect to the religion and customs of the traditions per anyone else finding such out for themselves per the reasons why of many she was not allowed to be in such factors such as Marine and Science Technology School with the Navy attachment and if such individuals ever wondered why per such factors; when they needed to let me go to begin with for me to progress and succeed, then they should have let me attend Marine and Science Technology School with the Navy attachment for me to graduate and then they would not have ever had any reasons to ever complain about me at all and would only have to complain about my biological little siter for not being what age requirements and the educational background through the specific experiences per the exact life experiences per the exact life experiences mattered in full with such the most for Marine and Science Technology School with the Navy attachment and since it was a high school and the facts of elementary school are the age differences in conjunction of the fact of background; the common sense that Mike brought up about asians was not good enough for the Marine and Science Technology School with the Navy attachment in the year of 1996 and since the arithmetic factors per such were apparently different at those exacts per such differences of many reasons the school pushed and while my biological parents needed to realize that the longer they held on the less of a chance my biological little sister would ever have in real life in person face to face in person real life experiences per what the needs and requirements however there was not anything else they were going to allow per such factors per the Armed Forces of the United States of America.
If other longer term families of the Armed Forces of the United States of America have ever wondered why such amounts of lengths of time to ever get multigenerational factors, if other individuals would just accept the facts of themselves and just accept the facts of the others to just let them go and live their lives to actually be per such instead; then how many more would there have been and would be if such types that are not capable for the Air Force per the same types of requirements per such mandatory facts, and just because of the civilian general contractors the reality of reasons why the lack of the same per such payments though if they were to actually correctly complete the arithmetic for costs of living in full then the reality of what the truthful per month would be per such facts of all such costs per net monthly per the full length per the full time per the full per such financial income after their education costs and their taxers per such and their etcetera banking stuff outside of whatever businesses they work for per their employment unlike myself per not being employed and since my attempts per such efforts per the reality of the situations per differences of family.
Thus if anyone went to those states of Pennsylvania and/or the state of New York and met with Amish and/or Mennonites that would have proven in a different way if they knew me personally per a specific set of wording and their responses instantly on the point of the exact point in time, if they tried to ask about me per such times though was when per the different orders to the timeframe per Pennsylvania orders and New York state orders in the years of 2001 after November and 2002 per such timeframes since obviously certain types of those individuals would not ever have the common sense of anything of what I personally would be of importance for such families and lives for others to get to them correctly to assist while I reconnected with my family in living and life instead of who possibly of what extension of whomever of however many of whatever distance of if factors of if factors; because obviously such orders in the year of 2001 despite my not graduating Basic Training per the differences of the supply facts.
Thus per such factors regarding the areas of if factors, I suppose I can also see why others would not want their biological children involved with the Armed Forces of the United States of America per depending upon the branch and depending upon the MOS per branch per such types possibly. Thus what hypocrisy would such ever be per such factors of the biological children I gestated life and carried and delivered per the facts only in the years of 2001 for my son and 2002 for my daughter; what would ever be hypothetically hypocritical per my PCS/PCDS orders changed from the year of 2000 to New Jersey for such assistances per the year of 1993 and February, the PCS/PCDS orders changed to the state of Pennsylvania after November 2001, and the PCS/PCDS orders again changed to the state of New York in the year of 2002; though why would any of that actually matter to others within the state of Texas and anywhere that would not be in the need to know the details whatsoever legally from such points in time, and what hypocrisy would there be to any of those to such others per their connections per them also per such biological factors, what support would ever actually be considered that would ever be the equal and opposite facts for those if factors of if possibilities per what was not for them anyway of if factors of the PCS/PCDS orders of if complaints not to NYC and such if factors of pop culture types aand what levels of capability per such real responsibility would be capable to be noticed?
Though, would it be on time?
What is the difference of renaissance faires per the difference of the Amish, the Mennonites, and the Mountaineers who per relatives blood kin of mine would such matter to those per such times of the years from 1998 through 2019 ever have realized or known truthfully before or since the year of 2020 and thus what length of the amount of time was there and what length of time was others' choices and how and when and who(m) and where and etcetera instead of such obvious facts per the difference of adopted children such as the Broadway #Broadway #BroadwayBank factors of differences per electives or extra curricular activities or hobbies?
I suppose it should not take a head injury to figure out the differences of me when I was in Medical Hold Unit at Fort Sam Houston in the State of Texas in the year of 2000 after I had prevented a few security problems per a trip with a few soldiers from JBSA per the reference of such sights per the metaphor of the Democrat symbol, and thus it should not take a head injury to figure out the sarcastic comment I made in reference to the MEPS station and per such factors regarding me personally having the knowledge of if having to decide to decide for myself for per such though the comments and sarcasm per such factors regarding such statements I said in that orderly room during those days during those weeks of hours in the year of 2000 per such facts. I suppose also such factors regarding how it should not take a head injury to figure out the odd reference regarding the banking name per such other factors regarding a metaphor of a phone call discussion in the year of 2003, though that would be what others would know of who they would per such times to figure that out in facts to accept first and then progress through the depending upon(s). I suppose it should not take a head injury to figure olut while maybe there are more than one type of renaissance faires in the state of Texas, facts of experiences at such events are still the facts of experiences at the events if proven per such outside of the timeframes thereof per such situations per the exacts per the exacts; whether the exacts of being at the faire at the exact time thereof or at another time thereof per the location and thus the differences per the importance of time in truth because there is not any timestamp on the hypothetical viewpoints from above such per airplanes for one example or the fact that even Elon Musk had a report about him that he went into some details of an internet airplane net factor and it should not take a head injury to figure out when no translates to no from me personally permanently because without the tooth there would not have been such from the start and my decision 'in full of my being informed officially in truth fully first for such to be ever considered consensual for me personally and since I hated phone calls from the start just the same per the distortions from the televisions and movies per the lack of my reasons to see or watch such on the screen to live and when I personally needed to be on such device technologically then I personally would choose for myself for my best for me personally and then others because grammar matters since human beings are supposed to be capable to distinguish for themselves such information to understand for they themselves.
If it were to be late, would it be worth it for the individual who would consider such lateness for such if factors and why would there ever be anything other than the emotional and intellectual for such if factors of if situations and why would that actually matter for me personally per such efforts and attempts of mine since why would it be important in regards of Illinois per such pop culture references of New York City per the differences of the state of New York or the state of Pennsylvania or the state of New Jersey since what would be of the timeframe in the year of 1999 and the year of 2000 that would be in reference that would be something others would know and understand per what other teenager types would be per the differences personality and patterns and what would the importance of choices and decisions and verifications be and how important is the truth from the beginning when an individual is above the age of certain understanding levels or would the arrogance and the haughtiness per such if factors of pop culture have been the problem that I clarified and why would their families matter now in the year of 2023 referencing others I once knew in the years before 2020 though also-ish before the year of 1998 matter and if others from such other families might remember per such years in the northeast of the United States of America per the 1980s into the 1990s because remember back then per the amount of others' staff to go through to ever get the combined factors of a meeting?
It should not take a head injury to figure out now in the year of 2023 when writing and posting this per typing instead of actually going where I have needed to per such other failures of knowing of acronyms of LOL or YOLO and then being aware of the technological areas and then such fact thereof per military installation base acronyms per other such factors per the length of the information instead of assumptions for a one word or a one syllable or a one sentence per the difference of two or three or five syllable words in multiple sentences, since it should not take a head injury to figure or point out that other bases probably have different acronyms for their employment instead of such low ASVAB level scores per the timeframe per the reality of the area and the factors thereof per the differences of being an outsider per such per the difference of being whatever level of insider per such [er the difference of being one who walks between on the thin fine line per my comprehension of knowing I do not know everything and I do not understand everything and I do not comprehend everything and having already for such lengths of time acknowledged such facts because of the reality and such factors. Hypothetically of if factors when knowing I personally did not and do not watch much televivison and/or movies and/or streaming and/or other pop culture references specifically per such having been acknowledged honestly already,
Thus per such if factors, why would I ever believe I have had real emotional support for me in my real life per human being facts per my specifics per the reality of such exacts of exacts of exacts?
Why would my requirements of starting platonically and only per my decisions per my free will per without any coersion without any force per such factors of anything beyond platonic ever be any problem because why would it ever be a problem for others to begin with, if the real and the genuine and the authentic per such overall though also minute factors actually matter?
In reference to any prior or current or future-ish employee of Amazon thast did not ever get my permission from the start of the beginning and mandatorily needed my permission officially before ever of such if factors, and thus the Instagram post per the one and only paycheck that I ever received from the entire time of such books online through Amazon for me to have the finances monetarily for me to decide per common sense of bills and payments to go and expeerience for myself and since such if factors thereof who had not ever gotten my
If I myself am supposed to be happy per such factors currently, then when such factors of I suppose it depends upon who considers what per those factors and since I personally did not have anything to do with anything officially regarding anything per any planning factors; it would be common sense that would not be though what would such be of such factors when the considerations of this time?
Who have I actually known that is actually themselves and alive at this time, though I guess it would be whatever choices of those times of those individuals of their free will of their choices for themselves and yet who(m) did I run towards that was truthful with me at whatever start of whatever situation of whatever time of whomever around of however so though of my own free will of my own decisions of my own desires for myself only with whom I deci]de and of such agreeable conditions that were intended from the beginning from only Susan MeeLing.com from the beginning to accept the reality permanently to then possibly progress if earned and if maintained and if sustained correctly per the facts of my free will decisions only and all others adhere to such facts.
When would such time of the amount of attempts and efforts I made for me also, or was it before because of grammar per the difference of memes per the difference of the amount of information thought about correctly per instead of whatever levels thereof per intellectual resources internally of such individual experiences seen in real life in real human being sensations per the differences of seeing or however physically through technology factors thereof officially however and thus the factors regarding the situations of if factors per the knowledge of whomever of however per such if factors per such conjunctions of if situations oer what attention to what detail(s) to the difference of what my considerations for me only for my decisions of for me of my best for me personally only of my own interests for my best for me or did others not think about that until...?...?...?
What am I supposed to consider for me to enjoy and have fun, realistically?
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