A follow-up to a prior article I sent to Leatherati in 2012

Many years ago I wrote an article which was published on #Leatherti called "Males submissives and Female Dominants in the Modern Day Community"

Personally when it comes to an array of aspects I have not denied being far more Dominant in various ways, though I am not and have not been a Professional Dominatrix. I have no qualms with those who have delved into the realms of the Professional Dominatrix aspect as for me personally, I know how my feelings can get and how in reference to various aspects the points of which my emotions could easily become entangled. Also with the fact that I am not willing to ever knowingly assist anyone to cheat on their spouse or relationship partner and as multiple messages previously as well as even more-so in discussions with individuals over the years which I had been propositioned to assist in cheating, and that is not something I am capable of. However with such a statement I also know there are Professional Dominatrix which do not assist with someone to cheat on their spouse or relationship, however the stigma of such in reference to being contacted about such usually has that underlying stereotype. There are more individuals who do not necessarily have a relationship they are in when contacting Professional Dominatrix as that is a point which some do not know of or realize, however personally knowing how I am and knowing how easily my feelings can develop into emotional aspects; I have personally chosen to not get involved personally within the profession, though I have enjoyed many discussions with all sorts of people throughout the times of being involved with the overall #BDSM/#LGBTQP/#Swinger Lifestyles.

As a quick clarification, not all who are involved with any of those lifestyles are professionals nor is every professional involved with those lifestyles. For example I would guesstimate though there is the adult film industry, there might be quite a few individuals who are far more monogamous than some might think of such. Just because of watching a video or clip online repeatedly, does not mean that each time of watching such is a new time with different people; as that is the same exact scene you watched previously, and the individuals did not change, though you may have noticed something different when watching such at the time of.

I will additionally state I have joked of how I could get into the Professional Dominatrix aspects though only under the guidelines of being in charge of interrogating terrorists, which would not be in any form of the traditional view of such though would be more along the lines of an interrogator; however the tools I would utilize for such interrogations, is the portion of which most likely hypothetically may not be allowed by conventional rules and regulations. I know I would have fun with that though possibly, it might be a bit much even for more of the lesser known interrogation groups for the United States of America to rid the world of terrorists. However, I digress.

In such a follow-up to my original article I wanted to add the points of which while I can respectfully agree to disagree with others and sincerely speak the truth, the aspects thereof only extend so far in reference of the public treatment of individuals. I have been able to get along and speak with all sorts of people throughout the years of my life of various backgrounds, beliefs, professions, and etcetera from my youth all the way through to this time in my life of which though limited more-so now because of the timing of the #COVID aspects; nonetheless the portions thereof in regards of the preferences when in the bedroom between consenting adults, I doubt I have not spoken with some who have enjoyed a different variety of scenarios between the individuals involved. I have not looked down on such nor do I look down on such, though I do have certain issues in reference to similar points brought up in regards of the overall aspects in certain ways within the lifestyle as I have seen; though I hope such has improved and continues to improve in a more positive and beneficial aspect.

Today I had my hairstyle taken care of by my hairstylist and as she cut the hair and we discussed several points, I had brought up an event I attended years ago as a volunteer. I helped set the location up in certain areas, I later went to the dungeon area to be a monitor, and later on I assisted with certain security aspects. I explained to her of when in the dungeon monitoring aspect there had been a group of individuals enjoying themselves and then I noticed a different group of individuals who were videotaping with their cellphones what was occurring between with the first group of, I stopped the second group from filming, and then there was a set of complaints because of my choice to get involved and stop the filming of the others without their consent to be videoed.

An ironic side note of which the event was around the #Easter timeframe and if I am accurate there is the odd connection in reference to #Fiesta in #SanAntonio #Texas, and the possibilities which could have been unknowingly to me at the times of in an odd correlation of the garbage involving Cactus Jack AKA Jeffrey Kuykendall Jr; though I did not bring that portion up when discussing with the appointment with my hairstylist today, about such. Though she also knows of my choice to give books to certain law enforcement agencies about the aspects of the 151 Road Warrior aspect which hopefully assists to bring justice, in multiple ways for the betterment of the overall good for society.

Nonetheless in regards of that particular event in 2012, after some squabbling I was not helping in the dungeon area as the owners of the event told me I should not be in the dungeon protecting the people who did not know they were being filmed from being filmed. I was told that was considered as acceptable for the event though many of the people who attended did not know of the ability of such at the time and I was told I was causing problems needlessly, when at the time I was stopping needless problems from arising as I thought for whomever was involved with not knowing of being filmed by others. I did mention I hoped there would be a point soon which that would not be considered as a problem in a bigger way for consenting adults and the aspects of the BDSM/LGBTQP/Swinger lifestyles would be more accepted and understood whether or not people chose to get involved with such; though at minimum a way to prevent such type of situations, from wrongly being utilized against them in an espionage way or an extortion way; albeit not the exact wording utilized during the discussion today, though during other discussions previously and I guesstimate later on possibly.

In my opinion what consenting adults do, is exactly that; what consenting adults do, as agreed upon by the consenting adults.

As she and I spoke as she styled my hair I had told her after I had been told not to monitor the dungeon, I was sent outside to the security area to help out there. I knew some of the males who were running the area and we spoke for awhile as I also met a newer individual who was getting out of the Marines at the time, and he and I spoke for quite a bit of time. At some point I told him I felt I needed to check the perimeter and he walked with me, as we went around the exterior portion of the parking lot. He and I joked about the thoughts some of the people in the hotel across the street had to think in reference of the windows as well as the stairwell with the open windows, able to see into the top portion of the smoking section as well as the parking lot area. Later when I went inside for something and returned outside I had noticed the Marine was not with the security guards and asked where he went, then told them I had a weird feeling and if I did not return in five minutes to go looking for the Marine and I. I walked to the back portion and found the Marine being yelled at by two civilians one male and one female, the male had longer hair as did the female.

Both were brunettes though the female had longer darker hair in a pony tail, and were wearing grey shirts with some black spots making stripes with a design on the front of their shirts. One shirt had more color on the front portion of the t-shirt compared to the other, though both were wearing blue jeans and sneakers. Each were taller than the Marine though not by much, and their shirt designs in reference to the grey coloring would be similar to a t-shirt I have which I got when I was in Utah in 2019 though the way it looks now since being worn and washed; however the color design was clearer than the gray aspects on my t-shirt now. Though I do not know if the Marine was ready to start throwing down, I felt it was important to get his attention elsewhere and though not the smartest thing to put my hand on his shoulder when walking up from behind him; popping my face to where he could see me seemed to get his attention, and his heartrate to calm down from beating so fast. The male and female walked off as the Marine and I returned towards the entrance of the building for the event, smoking and talking with one another.

Later when outside I smelled something weird and the Marine and I went for another walk, to then see the dumpster next to the smoking section ablaze. The tarps covering the sides of the chain link fencing had nylon strings which were blowing in the wind which held the tarps in place, and there was a long and tall tank with pipes behind the dumpster that was on fire. I ran inside to get the owners as quickly as I could to get a fire extinguisher, and he ran out with such while I did what I could to contain the flames from jumping upward and outward any further than when first seeing the fire. Initially finding the flames starting to pouf out of the sides of the metal bin was a portion which caused me to run faster while focusing to keep the flames from pushing further to the sides of the exterior, and thankfully the owner of the event was able to get the fire extinguisher to put the flames out of the dumpster when he got there.

I have to giggle a bit as I described to my hairstylist that I had been wearing a corset (spiral steel), a pencil skirt, and stiletto heels that had platforms with a 6 inch heel as I ran swiftly through the parking lot area to get the owner of the event. I can only imagine how funny that had to look comparatively, to simply wearing jeans and a t-shirt to run in sneakers. I giggle to myself as it probably would have been easier to move around in jeans and sneakers wearing a t-shirt, though I was dressed for the event for that night. Nothing new for me personally either way as I have done certain similar things in regards of running around in multiple styles of clothing, though it probably was amusing in reference of the corset aspect and a pencil skirt with stiletto heels. That parking lot had uneven ground areas and a few potholes, which I am glad I was able to maintain my balance and keep going. Though, I still have to laugh to myself. The outfit I was wearing would be closest to the picture below, for the event if accurate; though definitely the skirt for certainty.

Thus in reference of the aspects in regards of the portions being taken care of and handled, were good to be done for the safety of the overall event, as well as the people attending, and in the nearby areas especially in reference to the flames from the dumpster fire in conjunction with whatever type of tank that was with whatever and wherever those pipes lead to throughout the building and/or the nearby area of the downtown area of San Antonio. Returning to the original aspect in reference of this particular posting of my journal blog entry, the portions of which in reference to the treatment of various specific groups within the communities of the BDSM/LGBTQP/Swingers has been a personal aspect which I have noticed. I can be respectful of many points of view though I cannot respect those who cannot respect others' identities in regards of various aspect, as the treatment of how some prefer is what has been a person contention in my opinion.

Those who are male Dominants which can accept others for such just as any other particular portion thereof, I have not qualms with; though when male Dominants attempt to look down upon male submissives for their particular enjoyments and fetishes is where I have had personal problems with, in regards of the treatment of the male submissives. In reference to female Dominants whether or the Professional aspects or just simply enjoying being a female Dominant, I have not been able to understand why such has been a difficulty. Whether in reference of male Dominants who think that females should only be submissives while ignoring the male submissives and thinking less of them as men when in my opinion in many ways I think of them to be more masculine for being able to acknowledge their enjoyment in comparison to thinking only one particular way, as the treatment of female submissives I have seen such to be in certain regards wanted by those particular female submissives within certain contexts; though the respect of which is still of importance, for each side of what is consented to. Personally I enjoy a good male submissive, who prefers to be involved with a female Dominant; though I can enjoy a balanced aspect as I can acknowledge my own weaknesses and shortcomings, while appreciating such strengths in other aspects and avenues. Again, I do not think I am the only one in such.

Just because a female or a male is a submissive does not entitle anyone to automatically view them as their personal submissive, as the consent has to be given. Just as each submissive does not automatically have each Dominant whether male or female as their particular Dominant as the agreements between such are to be discussed within each particular situation as far as what is considered as acceptable and consented to, whether in the professional aspect or whether in the relationship aspect in my opinion. However I doubt I am the only one, who could view as such in any scenario thereof. While I have had the experience of which female Dominants agree who prefer more-so in the relationship aspects, it is in reference to the Professional Dominants which some have not understood why I could not be a Professional Dominatrix as they could easily see my Dominance and Sadistic traits; however the points of which the feelings and emotions, was the points of which had been missed by some. I know I cannot be the only female Dominant who could easily allow feelings and emotions to cross over, and in such that entangles into different aspects thereof which may not have been considered beforehand. While there have been some male Dominants who have been able to understand such and have been respectful in regards of my opinions, the aspects of the points in regards of feelings and emotions is not exclusive to females nor male submissives.

Though there had been a point of which I had received threats because of certain male Dominants who did not believe I was and am a female Dominant and threatened in regards of having me kidnapped and kept at the foot of my capture's bed to 'show' me of how they thought a female should be and the irony in reference to certain aspects in regards of how I wound up in #Washington state as well as what occurred, I have not changed who I am nor my stances of such in reference of my female Dominance; and though I can have some aspects of which could be viewed in certain ways as submissive in reference of caring for and ensuring the safety of various aspects, that does not negate my own female Dominance at all despite what some might have thought. Though at the same time do not make the mistake of attempting to utilize the term safety in reference of attempting to have that as a point of reference especially when it is not considered in an actual safety aspect and it is of someone simply being arrogant and/or being selfish, as that is not considered as being safety conscious in such and is viewed to me as arrogance and selfishness while not caring about safety realistically as well as attempting to be manipulative wrongly.

In such in reference of male Dominants who attempt to dominate a female Dominant whether in a non or in the Professional aspect in my opinion, that shows a lack of dominance of the individual attempting to do the manipulation; as such would then show in my opinion, the inability to get someone to willingly be a part of such instead. That in turn brings further problems to the BDSM/LGBTQP/Swinger communities beyond what is already dealt with in the overall society view, and does not assist such to be more accepted when attempting to do so. Thus whether a Dominant or submissive, whether a Professional or someone who enjoys and prefers a relationship, whether a male or a female when such is agreed to with consenting adults the enjoyment and the fulfillment of the relationship aspect agreed to is of importance in consenting to what has been agreed. Personally I think and this could be my own personal biases though nonetheless I have thought and I think that male submissives have not been given the due credit they deserve in the various communities because of the outlook some have in reference to their personal enjoyments, and that particular portion of my opinion remains the same from back in the earlier days of my time in the lifestyles through to when I wrote the article linked above to the current point in time now in August 2020. Possible biases again though I know many look highly upon the female Dominatrix individuals throughout compared to the female Dominants who enjoy the relationship aspects more-so, the view of both in my opinion has been overshadowed by the stereotypes of which is only in the thoughts thereof instead of getting to know the people involved individually.

While there too are stereotypes in reference of male Dominants as not all male Dominants are seeking to control all individuals, it is those who have gone after male submissives which have given such individual identifying factors a bad outlook in the general view of society; though such in each reference is a personal choice, and personal preference thereof. I would guess in reference of the individuals who attempted to continue bidding higher numbers to attempt me to get to become what I am not, hypothetically were actually those male Dominants who wanted to attempt to manipulate and control the aspects thereof in order to wrongly prove a point. In such, giving a bad view of such sort of aspects throughout the lifestyles and not assisting such throughout the general communities thereof. While I do not doubt there could have been male submissives which in the professional realms of their careers were accustomed to listing a number for the monetary aspects and simply buying their way and accustomed to doing so because of the differences not necessarily realized between the business world and the relationship aspects of life, such too could be a hypothetical possibility. While it could have also been those who were too immature to be a part of the lifestyles and had thought simply because of the 50 Shades of Grey series that meant they automatically thought they actually knew the realities of and/or heard a Rhianna song about S&M, that does not mean the automatic understanding of each individual. Those particular points were most likely to open people's eyes and consciousness to possibilities for the ability to look into oneself and find what is ideal for them and their own lives, while not forcing such on anyone who did not consent to such. I doubt I am the only female Dominant who after the S&M song and the 50 Shades series came out, had a bunch of teenagers attempt to discuss how they were all of a sudden Masters.

I will end this particular journal blog with a comment I made in response to an 18 year old male who attempted to explain how he read 50 Shades of Grey and listened to the song S&M while telling me how he thought that meant he was a Master which he did not have a positive response or outlook to my point:

"You have not fully learned how to masturbate yet, and if you cannot master masturbating for yourself; what makes you think you could Master, anyone else?"