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It should not take a head injury
*after personally sustaining a head injury & coma*
to figure this out...

 
 
 
 
 
 


After a Drill Sergeant threw Me into the metal part of the bunk when I was in Basic Training for the United States of America's Army branch at Fort Sill Oklahoma #FortSill #FortSillOK #FortSillOklahoma #OK #Oklahoma in the year of 2000 on Psalm Sunday, I have dealt with the situations as best as I have been capable to do so while taking care of the situations and asking for assistance as per the required explanations of the information to such facts first.  While making the attempts to get assistance for the aspects thereof as to the reality, the aspects of where and when as to the multiple attempts to ask for assistance for me.  As my journal blog for when I was ready to bring such as to my other works forward since as to the lengths of time as to where my modeling was as to the modeling page information, just as the other pages have the information as to such specifics, and just as this journal blog of mine is as to such facts.


If I had real friends (if as to having met in person face to face in person in real life as to the aspects of this particular reference such as from the state of Texas as to the state of Washington as to the years of 2000 through 2013 if I met within the state of Texas for such references), real (the areas of the tristate region as before the year of 2000) family, and real relationships in real life that recognized me as to the aspects of if as to the face to face in person who started in truth as I had started such in truth as to the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, as well as the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain that took 8.5 years to dissipate; then I guesstimate there would be the easier factors as to being capable for me to speak with others in truth in person face to face in person and/or through online measures as to such factors I suppose.  Though would such as to the knowledge of the ways as to how they began such discussions with me as to would there be such a situation, for them to consider as to such if factors as to such discussions with me in truth?


As to some suggestions and commentary within "Finding A Silver Lining" one of several of my bo0ks I personally authored/wrote/compiled as I can only speak and write in truth as per such clarifications as to the reality as to the specifics of such discussions/writings/videos as per my Official You Tube where I have satirical commentary where I comment about the factors as to having dealt with others' opinions about their pop culture references of #NJ #NJstate #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey, though as to for the most part I have actually preferred to be asked with politeness if as to having read my books and/or seen my website as just the same in reference to the timeframes when I was modeling as to having respect as to what I consider as respect, referencing if as to such polite manners as to discussions if as to such having been noticed because of the factors in my opinion as to having real discussions as communication would be if my website was seen before the year of 2023 as I first began my website in 2015; as in my journal blog posts as to the reality of the years of 2010 through 2013, as to the aspects of introductions as to those timeframes when as to various factors as I did not take selfies as I was actually working with photographers as to my creations of my outfits as per the description on the link to my modeling page(s) as to the references regarding my journal blog updates in the years of 2019 through 2022 as the timeframe onward as to the year of 2023 as to the factors as to how such journal blog entries will be as to such factors as to the aspects of the various topic points.


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 I was born and raised in New Jersey and grew up going throughout the tristate northeast areas mainly, and as to how the reality of when the importance of the situations as to the aspects of reviewing as to such facts regarding the logistics for several factors as to the considerations; the years of 2019 through 2022 as to the review process as to the aspects of the timeframe, prior to the timeframe of the 20 year memorial of 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 as well as before the 30 year memorial of February 1993, as to the northeast areas mostly known as to New York City #NYC #NewYork #NY #NYstate #NYU though also as to the #Pentagon Pentagon, as well as Pennsylvania #Pennstate #Pennsylvaniastate as to the reality of how many New Jersey-ians commute in either direction, depending upon what location for the commute. 


The factors though I have said at times, I re-re-re-re-re-re-grew up in the state of  #Texas #TX #Texasstate Texas as to such factors as to the timeframes, as well as all 26 of my SCUBA #SCUBA #SCUBADiving  Diving certifications I earned were through one school within the state of Texas as I also earned winning first place in a Texas Chili cookoff with more than 20 entries as well as my chili recipe as I am adamant about my recipes as to such aspects just as I am specific as to what it actually takes for me to cook in a BBQ as to the required preparations for when I have BBQed.   



I can sarcastically write, those who know of the Rules of the BBQ as to where I grew up as to the Rules of the BBQ as to such factors to the considerations of such preparations.  However that is to cooking food as to the differences of my journal blog entries, as to the factors as to proverbial aspects of food for thought as the difference of real food in real life as to the facts of the situations to such attention to the details as well as attention to the information.


Such facts as to the metaphors in some of such factors that only after reviewing such information as to the aspects of the fiction book series that were as to for My personal life as to such dreamland sorts of factors as to the differences of such hypotheticals, the references thereof as to such regards as to the logistical emotional with the real situations as per the names I was informed of at the timeframes referenced review as to My journal blog as to the situations overall.  


If as to my journal blog being found and read as to where what I consider as common sense, as to the aspects of my satirical saying   how it should not take a head injury to figure out. 
 

*(sometimes utilizing articles discussing facts)*
By:  (Reverend) Susan MeeLing
also known as

The One & Only


(YouTube)   Lady Dori Belle


 

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REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

9th day countdown to 20 year memorial of 11 September 2001 By A New Jersey-ian

In the 20 year memorial of the 11 September 2001 attacks which as per the scheduling as to what I had predicted several decades back upon when waking up from my coma after my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as I have already explained in person to multiple people as well as in writing of whichever aspects as to online messages and/or online postings and/or my books I authored which the distinction between the fiction and the non-fiction books was and remains important, of which the requirement for online regulations have been needing a push for the regulations to prevent stalking and hacking online even more because of the problems which have been proven to have occurred especially in reference to the portions of my Medal of Honor Art Project.



In the reference of my Medal of Honor Art Project, there is a point of which proves additionally to the points I will bring up that I had noticed in certain types of human beings as to their responses which when I was a teenager in #NJ #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey the few people who had believed me had made their opinions known. Due to their levels of finances from their parents and their refusal at such times to ever see anything outside of their own purview, I had taken the steps to maintain and sustain myself as per the refusal to be a part of the dramas that were occurring because the people were too lazy in their own lives as to the amount of free time they had on their hands to which without any medical reasons as to why they were as they were; I could not understand as to how such spoiled rotten behaviour had ever been allowed, which I suppose the irony about the terminology of the words spoiled rotten. I cannot think of one person I have ever met who as a child who was considered as spoiled rotten who ever turned into a worthwhile individual as an adult because of them not ever having learned what actual value is, and upon seeing how certain people were in New Jersey as to how little they valued human life; I thought of trying to figure out ways to show them the importance as to what their choices were lead to what occurred, which when pointing out the technology which was more involved in the upper northeast coast than other areas of which the point break in the middle of New Jersey meant that the lower half of New Jersey was similar to the #MD #Maryland #Marylandstate Maryland and the #DE #Delware #Delawarestate Delaware types of people compared to those who lived in the northern part of New Jersey and had more access to the city areas because of the closer distances between the middle point of New Jersey and whichever direction. Thus those who lived in lower New Jersey had much less than those who lived in northern New Jersey as far as resources, and those who did not see such back then were either blind through ignorance or blind by choice.



In turn the ways of which I grew up again repeating the portion about the fact of my biological father’s job having taken him to travel all over the tristate area in comparison to those whose parents did not have a job which had been of a constant traveling aspect, would and could not ever understand what that is like for a child. In such ways of the moving around, I had done the best I could to maintain myself as per what I had to deal with in reference to my biological sister as well as my biological mother. In turn because of those people in the state of #TX #Texas #Texasstate Texas who I thought were smarter than what I was seeing, had repeatedly proven to me that either they were enjoying living in the lies in their communities and refused to change anything themselves because of their enjoyment of that type of continuum because of whatever their own personal situations were at those times that they needed to work on for themselves and in my opinion did not need to involve me in any such ways despite whatever their desires might have been or might be. I am not the type of person who was ever able to tolerate any lying from anyone to which while when raising my minor aged children as I taught my son and my daughter, I told them to pay attention to others’ choices and learn to make the best decision to stay away from those who would use anything to try to corrupt them. In turn I had informed my son and my daughter I would have to get to a point to make a decision of which when they turned the age of a biological 18 years old that if required, I would have to go on in a different way in my life. As I did not explain that portion to adults I had known because I did not give birth to those adults as well as the fact they were not my son and were not my daughter, meant I did not have any obligations to them at any point in time despite their choice for what their choices have been.



I have seen many types of people in the state of New Jersey, #NY #NewYork #NewYorstate New York, and #PA #pennsylvania #Pennsylvaniastate Pennsylvania of which I spent almost a full 16 years of my most formative years of my life in the areas thereof in comparison to others because of my biological father’s job. In turn those people who had whatever pop culture reference they had for whatever they thought occurred in New Jersey, annoyed and infuriated me as to how many times I needlessly had to defend myself for that aspect as well because of having worked on getting rid of my New Jersey accent when having to deal with the immaturity of those people I knew in high school at #CLS #CLSHS #CrystalLake #CrystalLakeIL #CrysalLakeIllinois Crystal Lake South who of which while I had gotten along with some people which is the same in reference to other such groups over the years; those people who had annoyed me to the point of their polly want a cracker sort of situations and the other such aspects thereof, I refused to partake of any such childish antics as I had already seen their behaviour in the tristate area.



In turn I made a promise to myself, which that promise I have kept.



In turn referencing the what has been called the adult consenting lifestyle community because of the fact of having been told of the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, they had consented to the knowledge of the facts having been told to them. In turn if they had chosen to ignore the facts I had informed them I would make them understand why they needed to pay more attention to the situations which I had pointed out to them and if they chose not to pay attention at the times when I knew them in person, they had already consented to knowing of the facts of the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury which meant there would not ever be a point which they could deny having been told or having had the ability to read about the facts of my after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury or at minimum being informed that I had survived a head injury on Psalm Sunday in 2000. In turn I had told those people that while they thought they had certain rights, if they made the wrong choices then their rights would be taken away from them by their own choices because of not being responsible enough to realize the requirement in the timeframe for the safety which was required. Having been within the state of Texas and the amount of people who had known personally someone who had a direct connection to whichever branch or division of the Armed Forces of the United States of America other than myself, meant they knew better if they truly cared about the people they were attached to in whichever way thereof in my personal opinion. If they did not ever actually care about anyone they knew who was a directly connected individual, that would be proven by whatever patterns of behaviour they would have to show their lack of concern and what they would need to work on within themselves instead of involving others in personal ways as would be shown if they did not change their attitudes themselves; which in turn would be a shame, because I had thought much higher of such individuals when I had known them if I had been accurate.



I was accurate, as per the situations which have occurred. For example since my transfer, I have noticed several specifics to which I remember from when I was living in Texas as well as when I was living in Washington state of which the problems of the ease of access to technology has made it far too easy for people who have a relationship problem or a personal problem as to not getting over certain situations to have needless access to impacting anything else in another’s life; to which such a merger regarding technology is of importance for, as per the amount of times others have done so without any concern for the genuine safety of others nor for the genuine care or concern for others as the patterns of behaviour would and have shown. For example the people who I once considered as family and who have not been able to maintain nor sustain that on their own, it is an irony that when looking back as to having considered them like family when looking at my biological mother and my biological sister for such reference aspects as to what I have known as family in comparison. When I look over certain other aspects it is the opposite in reference to the Basic Training aspects which if the Drill Sergeant knows your name situation as to if I recognize your name there is the same sort of reference to the Drill Sergeant aspects, however in comparison to such aspects; what the levels are fully depends upon the individual as per the same with a Drill Sergeant aspect of Basic Training, however the levels of such a responsibility is the difference.



Those people in reference to those within the state of Texas in the adult consenting lifestyle community who had been informed of my after effects as well as how my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury occurred in their definitions as to what they explained in their own words as to what they were willing to accept from the male who was dating Ms. Purple meant that my portion of having explained my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, would fully supersede any and all portions in all such ways at all times similarly to the fact I am and will always remain the one and only Executrix because of the legal reference points thereof to the timing specifically. In such notations in reference to the Bronze Star and the commendation thereof, the marker, and the legal aspects in conjunction with the fact of being an Ordained Reverend; I had told my ex-in-laws as to who was the only person who was ever allowed to go to return the Bronze Star and the commendation to the military individuals. If I am hypothetically accurate as to what I was told when I was in Fort Worth Texas for the final time because of how everything had gone twice as well as what I had already noticed in other people within the state of Texas as to that spiritual marriage aspect, I refused as I refuse to partake of such sorts of situations.



In such the reference to the technology merger portions of which every person will have their social media accounts linked to one another within each level of the social media platform as well as the links to the other social media platforms which will have merged all such accounts as per similarly to be able to have a similar version of my website in the smaller ways in reference to the aspects as to all such social media accounts being linked together for the ability for businesses to actually check to see who has called for which reasons, and if the requirement for the clarifications are needed for the situations involved the ability for each person to make their own portions known through such patterns of behaviour from the timings thereof. In the ways of which as I have learned as to the ability to have more than one social media account on a website, I had reserved my name on #Fetlife fetlife #LadyDoriBelle LadyDoriBelle with the securing of Lady_Dori_Belle though not ever having informed anyone to make sure that I was able to keep and maintain my name I created for all of time to keep in line with the respect to who had actually named me my name of #SusanMeeLing Susan MeeLing. As those who would not have ever had the wherewithal to ever think beyond certain points as I guesstimate, my Bok Gung and my Bok Pu meant a lot more to my upbringing than anyone was ever informed of because it was not their business to be informed of my Bok Gung and my Bok Pu unless I made the choice to discuss or write about such. I do not care to go into such details beyond the minimal I have, because they are my memories and my memories alone. I can and have gone into some of the details about what I have been told and taught, though I have no need to go into the larger details of my childhood and my teenager years in such references without a warrant to do so and because of the levels to my clearance as well as my personal background for such any and all situations which some have wished for more details have already been documented as to the minimal requirements as to such portions as well as have been informed through my writings as to my view points as to such.



Remember at the time in the beginning to middle of the year of 2008, I had made my comments about the at the time of a 2 Star General which in the timeframe between then and now is obviously a length of time which raises such a level of minimal requirements in reference to such by the legal standards thereof as well as the proof of such regarding other agencies and/groups and/or organizations of which with the amount of situations regarding the national security of the homeland of the #USA United States of America as to the additional portions of which to pay attention to for such contributing factors over the length of time as well as the numbers counted of each type of grouping thereof for the clarification purposes of which the proof of which brings such forward in reference to the aspects as to my clearance at the age of 17 years old. My clearance at the age of 17 years old with the additional aspects as to having clarified such aspects in person to some and online on fetlife to others who have seen and/or read such, those who would have the background and be able to verify the ways which raises the portions thereof; to which to maintain and sustain such a level the requirement to be able to progress forward as best as possible despite the circumstances, of which in reference to having been born and raised in New Jersey and after the amount of what it took to even get the transfer as required back in the initial portions of requesting the information in January 2021 as to the additional stresses put on me needlessly because of the situations already having been laid out for the details thereof.



What I have needed to take care of due to the situations as to others who have been showing the proof of their biases through any such direct connection to any involvement of what problems occurred in such times, in the merging process brings forward the information for all technology companies to review as well as align the patterns of behaviour as well as the timeline for the overall in ways to assist law enforcement with the known aspects of such references as to what I have brought forward regarding certain types of people. As the situations which had occurred in reference to the situations in the overall ways from my time in the tristate area, my time in the state of Illinois, my time in the state of Texas both times, and my time in the state of #WA #Washingtonstate #Washington Washington means the combination of the situations involved in the reference of the online portions of the ways which any interaction through technology measures ands all such connected aspects to all such ways in the merging of all social media accounts with the clarifications of as well as the additional accounts with the clarifications of is brought forward which for example, my biological father refused to carry a cellphone with him in a multitude of situations when he went places of which the explanation had been due to the fact of what he had seen when he was in the foster care system. In the ways which he had seen back in the 1950s and the 1960s as a first generation Chinese ethnic background male, the fact of him having been told if your own people don’t want you what makes you think others will; is something which I felt in multiple ways throughout my entire life, as it was known what he had said when I was handed over by the doctor to him because of my biological gender at my birth which followed having listened to my biological mother throughout the time in her uterus as to her hatred of my existence and the repeated times she had tried to have an abortion as well as the multiple times throughout my childhood and teenager years as to her making attempts on my life because of her wishes such an interaction as to the previously written portions as admittedly I have not discussed such with anyone in person because of my lack of belief there were human beings who would believe me as per such times of just bringing up those portions.



By the time of being in the state of Texas the first time from 2000 through 2013 before the #CowboysDanceHall #CowboysDanceHallSA Cowboys Dance Hall #StoneyLaRue Stoney LaRue concert situation which I had told people that I had spoken with about the situations on the phone as to how the situation had begun, though they simply laughed on the phone because they thought I was making a joke instead of paying attention to the details of the discussion. Such had been problematic for many situations of which in reference to the aspects of the adult consenting lifestyle in a different area within the state of Texas, the few people who had been officially told as to how the Stoney LaRue concert had been were multifaceted to areas. In San Antonio I told Ken the SAFerret on fetlife for his name about the meeting which he thought was funny as he then discussed what he and his wife were dealing with in reference to their daughter as well as the San Antonio community, which I could not see how he could not see any correlation to anything occurring at the time.



I had told a couple in the state of Missouri on the phone which they were discussing other aspects as the topic of discussions went on in different ways, just as in phone calls as well as in person I had told Joshua Light(Cross)/now Mrs. Crystal Light(Kitty)/Stephanie Light (Flame) his ex-wife as to how the meeting occurred mainly in person referencing the females though on the phone with the male; which I had explained in “Finding A Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing” as to how that situation had transpired in reference to going to the house and the female Trish or as she had been called by others as Megere had left their household the day after she found out I was going to be going to Killeen to meet with them which Kitty had walked off with her cast on her leg smaller in length for the limp than the same type which had been on the female who said she was married to Kevin the male who said he was a Cajun (pronouncing the word as though the j sounded as a g) had worn that evening at the Cowboys Dance Hall Stoney LaRue concert and the situations thereof where again I was needlessly surrounded by individuals who had not accepted the answer I gave them was how I was not interested in speaking with those people as I simply needed my time to recuperate for myself to take care of myself from everything that had fully come down at the time as my entire family was destroyed because of the state of Texas’ people and citizens thereof. While I knew that not everyone in the state of Texas was to blame, I had known there were such a large number of people who had caused needless problems for me as a Mom that I just needed some time for myself in comparison to being bombarded by the amount of people who needed to take several steps back away from me to get their own stuff in order before ever thinking to contact me again as I was not capable to assist them with their problems while needing to take care of my own situation from the wreckage that was left in the pieces of rubble at my feet from the situations which had occurred.



In the other situations as to having told Sam Lewis in person twice in a row as per the scheduling as well as the people in the Dallas Texas area as well as at The Sanctuary which once was open though now closed permanently as per what I read online as was told by the male Ken, who was in the Navy as he said and again the situations in combination were unable to be seen as to how anyone else did not have their eyes opened at such times. The fact so many others wanted me to fix their problems for them while knowing about the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury made me wonder if the children and the teenagers I knew in the northeast who had dealt with what I had refused to put my son and my daughter through in reference to the divorce though it was not legalized as per the legal requirements at the time as explained to me as I told my now dead-ex-husband if he did return to the Army he was not going to leave the Army outside of a body bag, which was before the claim of his saying he was called in on the labeling of #IRR IRR (Individual Ready Reserve) as to the ways which he thought could go. I told him he had no choice as to what he was told was going to be and any fighting against would be considered as futile because of the fact when called in on IRR, there is not anyone who can legally make a choice otherwise because of the specifics involved with IRR; of which the portions as to the Individual Ready Reserve for those who know though the wishes to be able to pick where the stationing was, the reality as to what the orders would be were what the orders would be. In the following months from March 2006 onward as I have already explained and described later in writing as to how such situations went, there is the reality of the garage situation as well as etcetera which other people were informed of regarding such in the adult consenting lifestyle as well as within the SCUBA Diving community in combination with the #MilitaryCiotyUSA #SanAntonio #SanAntonioTX #SanAntonioTexas #SATX #SAPagans San Antonio Pagan community of which in such references to the having informed others of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury after effects the same portions as to the consenting adult portion of the overall view.



In reference to the technology merging all of the previous technology devices which had ever used the social media account(s) proven to be as to who began such and used such means the portions as to having the knowledge as to the technology recording every aspect as to when using the piece of technology for whichever aspect thereof, in which the reality as to the merging portions have been signaled to the aspects as to the social media portions additionally in reference to the timing of companies merging together as well as the merging of technology types. For example in regards of many companies referencing technology you are able to get your device, your number, your cellphone service, your data plan, as well as your television service and landline with the streaming capabilities at this point referencing such multitude of companies which have brought forward such services regarding the availabilities thereof to which the company provides for the fees charged. Thus additionally if paying for because ordered the higher speeds of the data plan as well as the highest speeds of the internet portions, the required fees associated with such are as what is owed only to who pays for the services in such references; as the individuals who had previously stolen electricity have had the same situation in reference to cellphone usages as well as wifi internet, which in turn another aspect to such merging portions to weed out those who wish to try to leech onward in comparison to paying for what they should pay for on their own. In such references to the social media platforms to the metaphor of the cellphone portions the requirement for the timeframe to review the overall portions as to the patterns of behaviour of the various types of individuals, had been a required aspect to review as per the safety and ability to progress forward into the larger aspects of the world and the etcetera as in reference to the officiating of the #USSpaceForce #USASpaceForce #USSP US Space Force.



In the references required for the US Space Force to be officialized the amount of situations of which had already been noticed through when the #NSA NSA had seen such behavioural patterns though because of the Non-Disclosure Agreements had to keep quiet at such times about the realities of seeing the multiple communication accounts from within the areas thereof, which in the ways in reference to the aspects as to later as the internet or what in an overall term is considered as social media as the intent was for the ability to communicate with other people by whichever means of approved comfort levels for the additional aspects of what payments were associated with the aspects thereof; when further research into space through #NASA NASA and other such associated aspects, the requirement for the general public to be able to have a chance to prove themselves as per the ways which during the #VietnamWar Vietnam War had proven a multitude of situations. For the example in the brief about the #KoreanWar Korean War as to the smaller portions of both the military and the civilian sides had briefly been able to be seen as well as known, because of the civilians who were incapable of handling the sights of the reality regarding when going to war. However there were civilians who thought that they knew better about such portions and thus when the Vietnam War and the civilians having being allowed to see the portions of the Vietnam War, so too were civilians able to show themselves as to how their responses were while the individuals who had gone overseas to handle the situations had been acting when on the soil of the United States of America. In turn regarding the time of #DesertShield Desert Shield and #DesertStorn Desert Storm while there had in certain areas been a larger amount of technology available in comparison to other areas, the field testing began in the medical terminology aspects for the reference. In the aspects thereof to the field testing there were inconsistencies in reference to different situations as well as people being blamed for crimes they did not commit, and the problems from such has been seen in the news referencing the amount of people who have had evidence finding them innocent for the crimes they were accused of. However because of such a view given, so too can it be seen in reference to the proverbial social media court as per the ways which some had not thought about others using other’s devices.



For example when I was in New Jersey while going to Saint John Vianney High School I had made my email account at Jackie’s house who was a freshman in the school at the time peppomint@yahoo.com for the reference, which as having only done the coding portions as per the ways of Prudential aspects there was not ever a need for me to sign out as per the signing in portion already having been squared away at the time for me. I did not have access to the internet as a child or a teenager in the ways which most people have had especially after the Y2K turn of the millennium because of how things were in where I was growing up, though once my biological sister needed such for the ability to talk with her friends from school was when the internet was arranged in the house in #Illinois #IL #Illinoistate Illinois. Though there was the desktop computer referencing the #IBM IBM/#DOS DOS which was in a separate area then the desktop for Prudential regarding the coding portions, I only went onto the Prudential computer when I had to work on the coding in comparison to when there was time as I felt as I wanted in reference to the other computer as per the lack of a need to constantly be in reference to now in regards of being online though in those times the lack of a need to only play games on the computer as I preferred to live life in comparison to being in such a situation as to what I was happiest doing in comparison.



In regards of those who had seen what I had written online as I explained repeatedly, I had only done so because of the requirement due to the situations and I had no desire nor any want nor any need to be online in the slightest as a different version of the way my biological father had viewed cellphones. I did not want to needlessly be annoyed by commercial aspects from the ways which had been going through just as I did not need to be called in for every little detail which others were capable to figure out on their own, in comparison to what I had to take care of and all such distractions were and remain unnecessary for such situations especially when having been informed of the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury. In such regards as to the situations in which the Vietnam War review as to both the military footage as well as the civilian footage to the current time of the Iraq War as well as the Afghanistan War after the attacks on 11 September 2001 of which when looking at such combined aspects, the problems to simply be able to get the transfer squared away as per requirement as per recently explained in brief portions as to after almost 21 years of having my Blue Identification Card of/for the Armed Forces of the United States of America; only after the transfer problems to get the equivalent of the IRR for the versions thereof referencing the transfer request initially in January 2021 as per the correct information to get the transfer taken care of as the lack of any requirement to explain anything to people who do not have the required level of clearance for any such measures regarding that apartment complex or that apartment complex company as previously written about, the fact of the 20 year memorial to the attacks of 11 September 2001 and having been born and raised in New Jersey to be able to have the ability to acclimate to the area of which I had only been back to for the first time since 1998 was in December 2020 has additionally been problematic for all such individuals who had needlessly added problems which have exacerbated all such situations already in hypothetical portions regarding upon my return to the state of Texas in the year of 2019.



In the references of having been informed of the truth about every aspect and the problems of such in reference to the merging reasons additionally to the transfer requirement which should have as been explained in reference to the timeframe should have been by the end of the month of March 2021 for the full transfer to have gone through, of which if any civilian has had the transfer process in the ways of which were quicker and easier than what I had dealt with proves such additional problems in reference to the Vietnam War regarding the civilian problems of those population areas as well as the situations which individuals directly connected and remain connected to the different branches and division of the #USArmedForces #ArmedForces Armed Forces of the United States of America. However it had been known of problems in the communication systems in reference to the military branches and divisions of the needless in fighting and when the proverbial crabs caught in a netting situation if one crab starts moving outward how other crabs only know how to try to pull the crab back, though the stronger crabs are always able to get out of the netting because of their will and determination to live onward and survive in ways to live as such species of animals have their patterns of behaviours in the animal kingdom. Thus the reference as seen in regards of certain individuals who I once had known in person, f there are those who have had such connection aspects referencing such in regards of the ways which has already been known of in regards of certain types of individuals within the various ranking structures; it would be inevitable for the patterns of behaviour for the children of the ones who had already done so, to be brought outward to be seen as to what their father and/or mother had been a part of causing problems for within the various levels of which they were attached to of whichever units thereof.



In the ways of which such types of people within the military and law enforcement it was known in the civilian sector as to those types of individuals, of which because the military and law enforcement individuals are always held to a higher standard because of the responsibility which they have taken as soon as making the decision to go towards such which is contrary to the aspects of how some only view the oath portion as there is an internal calling for such and the ways of which such is can be at different levels depending upon your skill set as well as your capabilities as well as your patterns of behaviour. However in reference to the aspects of those within the ranks of the military and law enforcement the more training as well as experience as well as background aspects, the higher the amount of responsibility to actually maintain the correct levels of composure at all times because of the known aspects of there is no one who is ever retired from the military just as there is not one base which has ever been fully retired as to the aspects of Individual Ready Reserve. Such is able to be proven in reference to those who were no longer Active Duty/National Guard/Reservists when the attacks on the day of 11 September 2001 occurred, The amount of people who were in the veteran category have had that specific feeling regarding upon the decision to go towards such on that day, which proves my reference point in regards of which the aspects as to that specific reason to always have the veteran community as well as the Active Duty/National Guard/Reservist communities at their best possible shape in all such ways. As the situation regarding the official aspects as to the US Space Force being officially recognized as others can see the prior dates as to the times when a group had been begun compared to when they were officially put on record for such aspects, as per the more commonly known now of the portions referencing the #BigBlueBook Big Blue Book or the #BlueBookProject Blue Book Project for the reference to the situations regarding the US Space Force.




However just as there have been situations referencing the aspects as to the situations written about regarding the crab metaphor as to within the military ranks such as the paperwork aspects as well as the rank aspects to the false accusations throughout, so too has such been seen in the law enforcement fields which usually is within their own structures as well as the way they have looked at those who have a tie directly to the branches or divisions of the Armed Forces of the United States of America which such has been seen in reference to the news reporting thereof for such situations additionally to the reference as to the #PheasantCreek Pheasant Creek subdivision #HOA Homeowners Association males who were as a president for the Homeowners Association of which the second president was a San Antonio Police Officer who was moonlighting at a job for security when he had called about my shed and the situations as explained referencing that phone call which had occurred on the company phone line he had called me from which was a proverbial que to the technology automated system as per his choice of words to me at the time of that phone call around the year of 2004 or 2005. That set of wording choices he had used had caused the system of such to go into the phases of which had to check such situations as has already been discussed by others in such references, especially within the San Antonio Texas area of Military City USA as to the local law enforcement individuals of certain types and depending upon such connections the aspects of all such connections needing to be looked into fully and researched via the ways which technology systems have done so for years and decades.



Thus that particular #SAPD #SanAntonioPoliceDepartment San Antonio Police Officer who was moonlighting wherever he was as to the Homeowners Association additional connection, meant he had triggered the system of technology referencing such aspects at that second in time of a specific wording choice in the order chosen. Thus while at that time I simply completed what I needed to do as best as I could for myself, for my son, for my daughter, and for my property as the house was in my VA loan paperwork; the aspects as to the situations as to the loan amount as the reminder for the payment in reference to the graduation of my AIT, for those who may not have believed me though also only saw the paperwork which was altered hypothetically by my biological mother as per the fact such paperwork was written by hand in those times before the updating had occurred to various military branch locations. The fact of how my interview with CID occurred in reference to the photograph review in regards of the situation I wrote about previously, goes over such proof of the fact to that being accurate as to my memory though the cognitive disorders in reference to the ways explained in such overall portions as the ways possibly seen for the interconnection portions; though additionally the fact of not having any references as to any pop culture except in the most minimal of ways the only way to ever discuss any topic with people which I can give examples which they would be able to understand from the knowledge, is only in reference to my experiences for such relation. While I have been accused falsely as to being pretentious as well as self-centered and selfish, the fact of how I actually am in comparison in my opinion as well as from what I have been told by several people who I had met in person who had given their more positive opinions as to usually their surprise as to how modest I am in comparison to either what they had seen online in which they were being honest about and/or what they were told by others at such times when those individuals were being honest with me.



I appreciate honesty, as with the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury in conjunction to how I was raised to always tell the truth is the only way I can be. However regarding the facts as to only having had just now over thirty days of being able to have finally gotten the official transfer taken care of to transfer as though I had requested the information in January 2021 it was not until July 2021 that the approval for the transfer went through, of which because of the requirement for what I had needed to take care of the speed of the move to get to where I had needed to be in the month of March 2021 has required because of other people’s lack of getting the work done correctly for such and referencing once again the aspects of bias if there is even one civilian who had had a transfer process go through in the timeframe of less than 45 days compared to the needless stresses added to me which obviously as medical professionals know the stresses added to the chronic pain as per the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury has caused needless suffering to the pain levels I had already been dealing with simply from waking up from my coma; of which each and every individual needless stress which has added to my pain levels in turn then causing additional pain for which I am the one who actually suffers from such, has been a situation which others who have survived a head injury before me have already brought forward as to other such types of connection aspects which those individuals who say they have a heart beating in their chest I suppose might review such aspects differently than some I have dealt with.



In such references as to the portions regarding the social media portions of which to remember is from the beginning portion of the first time being able to send an email within the military ranking systems before it ever was sent to a college for the clarifications, means the reviewal processes before being allowed anywhere near a college student and the safety measures and protocols thereof for such known aspects as to the military grade aspects; means a minimum of such communications regarding 25-30 years before the message was ever sent, which can be seen in the reference portions as to the timeframe of officially instating the National Security Administration as well as the officializing of the US Space Force being the official signaling of the merging portions beginning point of taking place for all such social media portions for all individuals regarding whichever aspects thereof they have used social media for. In my personal situation I have only used social media for in reference to when I chose on my own to get involved with social media after my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, is different than before my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury.



When growing up in New Jersey and only having worked on coding in reference to Prudential upon Jackie finding out of my biological mother’s job and her friend Nick Palazolo (?spelling?) having been beaten up by me when he had joined into a fight on the bus with 4 other females who all also had been beaten by me during that one fight which my biological father informed the school staff that because of the fact of my size as well as because of the fact that those 5 people who were all bigger than me as well as weighed more than I did had surrounded and came at me, the fact of my right to defend myself was in order and there should only be penalties in their direction for what their choices were. The dean who was mad at me for disobeying him when he tried to railroad me because of being raised in #OTC #OldTennentPresbyterianChurch #OTPC Old Tennent Presbyterian Church in comparison to being raised in the Catholic Church despite the Apostle’s and the Nicene Creed which we read one every Sunday and the other on certain holidays though the acknowledgement of the Holy Roman Catholic Church was the one read every Sunday as he had told me for one of the causes he had in which additionally because of the finances to the school system at the time for that particular metaphor of a precinct, I was told my ‘parents were not allowed to be involved’ which when he had told me that, I ran to the hallway area to make the phone call from the phone on the wall to inform my biological father what was going on in reference to that fight he had known only a part about at the time as at that time I thought I had only been fighting Toniann in comparison to how I had found out there were 4 other people involved with the fight; which was shortly before I was pulled out of Tae Kwando and was not allowed to officially earn my black belt in addition to a few other factors, at such times. However in reference to such individuals which would have had trust funds arranged, just because of having a trust fund does not mean you are automatically trusted by everyone as finances are finances and trust is earned; especially in reference to the above pictures regarding choices thereof, for the references to clarify as to what the viewpoint is of various individuals depending upon your known transmissions throughout the internet portions thereof.



Nonetheless in reference to the aspects of that situation I had fully disagreed with the known factor of the biases from the dean’s decision for any punishment in my direction of which while in comparison I had only 2 weekends of Saturday suspension compared to their 2 months of Saturday suspension as well as their 2 weeks of in school suspension, I fully disagreed with the zero tolerance policy against fighting because I was defending myself and not fighting. As explained then in 1997 as well as later on in person and then later in writing, I had been assaulted three times before I ever took a swing after the length of the drive of such situation from Toniann Farinella beginning as soon as leaving the property of Saint John Vianney High School to the point of where getting to the intersection to turn onto Church Road as per Monica’s parent’s house next to the church as well as Pastor Broadie and his wife’s house on the other side being the last thing I saw before I began defending myself. The next portion of what I saw was when the bus driver had said “Susan, we arrived at your bus stop. Come on, go home and get yourself cleaned up.”



However in reference to the school’s zero tolerance to fighting policy of which in my defense I believe as I believed back then as I still believe that I had not fought with such details thereof to the fact of which the length of the distance the bus had traveled as well as the length of time which the traffic situations at that time in the area of New Jersey in addition, as to having been innocent the entire time and was only defending myself from what had occurred. In turn the situation in my opinion I had more than the right to defend myself as to the amount combined as well as the fact as to learning it was a total of 5 people who had been involved which I had to defend myself against, in comparison to what was thought of and seen as one individual; which in turn in my opinion there should not ever have been any penalty nor any suspension to me, for what occurred and only those who were involved with the situation on the bus should have been the only ones who were punished for their choices.



In such a reference as to Jackie who lived in #Manalapan #ManalapanNJ #ManalapanNewJersey Manalapan New Jersey or on the border of #Marlboro #MarlboroNJ #MarlboroNewJersey Marlboro and Manalapan either the towns individually and/or the townships having been a freshman and friends with one of the people on the bus after she and I had watched the movie #CatsEye Cat’s Eye by #StephenKing Stephen King, after the situation on the bus had brought up the portion about email addresses being considered as a new thing in which I had heard of email addresses before though had not created an email address for myself to use; of which the portions regarding what occurred as to the log on situations at the time and creating that email at Jackie’s house just before the situations had progressed in the aspects of what was occurring between Toniann and I at the time as to Jackie also having been friends with Jen, who had been the individual who had started the situation to begin with for lying to Toniann at the time. I told Toniann before it got bigger of a situation as to only being able to tell the truth which as per whatever was normal for was what the response was at the time and/or what she was accustomed to was the response as to the time thereof, which as I knew back then was because of the others’ involvements had been the cause as to the situation when I had to move without warning had been as to why when it was her birthday as to the small birthday token regarding the time.



I had been at the area of #SaintJohnVianney #SaintJohnVianneyHS John Vianney High School to see briefly the area of Holmdel New Jersey though had been unable to allow myself to go back to the school at the first or the second or third time I had gone back to the east coast area, as knowing the fact as to how many had caused problems as well as held me back from being able to return to New Jersey at those times before December 2020 as per after moving in 1998 though the after effects after waking up from my coma from the reality of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury; which the irony about how some had commented about my childhood best friend’s name my Big Blood Brother having had the situation which occurred to him, as to the irony in a multitude of metaphors and aspects thereof. In urn regarding having been moved to Illinois and having dealt with other situations which Jackie had been spoken with when I had been in Crystal Lake Illinois, the situations which occurred thereafter in the school was beyond ridiculously annoying as per all assumptions that were falsely made claims against me which I have gone into the details thereof already. In a multitude of ways which my later response to such aspects in reference to after my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury when initial is the portion of standing my ground during such situations until I realize those involved have no hope for the situation as to their clouded biases as to their inability at such times to pay attention to the larger aspects, with my direct involvement to which then is a point of which I go on my own way as there is not the requirement for me to waste my time nor waste my energy on such types of situations as to the facts able to be proven.



In turn with the knowledge as to being informed of the levels which emails were then available to the general public meant when looking back now in the year of 2021, the portions of which the myths I had heard about in reference to the ways of what was made referencing technology portions as to the situations behind in the fuller ways seem almost surreal regarding the amount of realities seen when reflecting back upon such aspects now. Despite the fact as to the 20 year memorial of the attacks to the tristate areas I grew up going around as well as the east coast area as those who have been born and raised in the tristate are know most well as to the whole east coast connection though especially the specifics of travel from New York and Pennsylvania through New Jersey to Maryland to Delaware to #WashingtonDC #DC Washington DC to #VA #Virginiastate #Virginia Virginia through the #Carolinas Carolinas and #Georgia #GA #Georgiastate Georgia to #FL #FLorida #Floridastate Florida, the additional aspects going northward from such an area mainly to those who are born and raised in the middle part and northern so for the state of New Jersey. While I dealt with all of the situations in reference to the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury and those who failed to believe me about the realities thereof, those same individuals doubted me in reference to having been born and raised in New Jersey because of whatever their view points were regarding their thoughts as to what I should sound as when speaking with them. In addition to the lack of concern or attention to details as to my biological mother/father/sister going on about my memory deficits and cognitive disorders, this is the first year ever that I have been able to go over such details while being able to get to the area since before the time of 11 September 2001 of which is the 20 year memorial to which when taking into consideration the fact of only having been able to get the transfer officially approved and completed at the end of July 2021 after putting such forward initially for the correct information in January 2021; the irony as to the term for the name for the state of Texas being the term of friendly because of the amount of military connections within that state, I had thought it to be odd and weird as to the term when there are injuries on the battlefield under one particular category of being called friendly fire regarding the state of Texas as to such ironies regarding my Medal of Honor Art Project as to the hypothetical situations in such overall combinations thereof.



In those aspects to those who I once knew within those regions as to the ways which the high school drama from Saint John Vianney High School to Crystal Lake South High School, if the hypothetical similarities in reference to the biases from those who I once knew in Texas to Washington state to Texas and then transferred the full requirement as to all such merging in full in all such aspects. Literally just over one month from the transfer and the situations of which the proof which would be through such technology devices of any such prior contact and/or furthered contact to anyone in any area I would go to in reference to the Blue Identification Card of mine of/for the Armed forces of the United States of America and such prior minimal descriptions though only more recently in the past few months having broken the silence as to such as my ex-in-laws had refused to accept that they did not have the clearance to be allowed such information as to the details of and the same in reference to my biological mothers/sister/father at any such prior times before. The aspects as to the Universal Code of Military Justice in the ways of which the aspects thereof because of my particular type of military identification card of the United State as to the portions of the official forming and officializing the US Space Force as the requirement to have only certain types of people to be involved with such work, as per the requirements to make sure the capacity of character of each individual is known and available for the ability to clearly distinguish as per such safety and security measures. As per the multitude of pictures and videos in the larger amount of numbers per time of such pictures and recordings in a shorter amount of time comparatively, the merger portions as to the social media are absolutely mandatory for the clarification portions to which will assist the aspects as to the verification processes across all lines in a multitude of ways for the betterment and the progress forward.



However while dealing with the acclimation to the energy in the area as the ways which I had dealt with when returning from the state of Washington to the state of Texas after how I wound up in Washington state with my minor son at the time as only the Lights when they were out of their house they were able to meet my son in comparison to any of the other groups listed as was at their house at the time near the Fire Truck and EMS station as well as the railroad tracks, while dealing with the problems from the female Trish leaving as soon as she found out I was showing up to stop by the house the inability to go into further details as to the situations at hand. Collin who is Stephanie’s son went with his daughter and my son to the nearby #McD #McDonalds McDonald’s as I gave them some money to be able to get something to eat as while Collin had needlessly already dealt with the situations referencing Trish who wished to be a Mom to Collin though was incapable of being a Mom to her own child, the situations of such overt drama as to how she had gone around the Austin community seeking sympathy because of how difficult her life was as she saw in while mad and temper tantrum throwing when I would not give the slightest bit of sympathy to her at those times as well as any time thereafter s there was not any need for her to ever receive sympathy in my opinion. She had both of her parents as well as both of her child’s parents and the extended families thereof in conjunction with the household in that reference and anyone else she had in her personal life directly, who was willing to help her. I was not ever willing to give up anything to ever give the slightest bit of assistance to that female simply because of the amount of attention she kept trying to get from me in her direct way of which she learned the only way I ever noticed her homeliness was when the aspects as to those who I knew were speaking with me about other topics, and she piped in as to add something she thought was considered as important compared to what actually was being discussed at such those times. However that is enough, regarding that.



I hate brats mainly because you cannot spell brat without the word rat, of which is ironic in reference to my ex-sister-in-law Susie Marie Nichols-Lopez during the years I had known them before returning to Texas as to how she always called her eldest daughter Brie-Brat, which those who know and understand the reference from where I was born and raised had instantly caused my hackles to go up proverbially. Brieanna Marie (Nichols-)Lopez had already been caught bringing alcohol into school as per the situations she was dealing with as per the lack of parental supervison as well as the lack of correct and proper discipline for the types of behaviours regarding such, of which the cellphone voicemail as to such aspects and the furthered situations regarding my daughter and my son and I. The irony if that niece had been upset because of my choice to take time to give to her little sister who had been stuck in between that female as well as her little brother who was the only male, I had known of such situations beforehand regarding a like arrangement to a degree in reference to when growing up in New Jersey. While I had thought when going over the Hughes’ that meant all three of the sisters and I would spend time together, I was informed only when getting there to only spend the time with one in comparison to having been friends with all three those years as the eldest sister was a babysitter at a point of mine and the middle sister was in my grade as the younger sister and I got along even though she was my biological sister’s age range; though they have an older brother, who had been the individual along with Pastor MacKenzie in reference to the aspects in addition to General George Washington’s involvement with the Old Tennent Presbyterian Church; of which that family lived in #Freehold #FreeholdNJ #FreeholdNewJersey Freehold while the church was in Manalapan and thus the situations regarding the larger aspects when reflecting upon such times.



Yet upon reflecting upon such times additionally to the time in comparison to the numbers of those I had personally known who I had lost; while everyone else in the United States of America and the world has been able to process their losses for the past 20 years in their ways I suppose there are those in whichever areas who have claimed my choice is viewed as selfish comparatively to their twenty years of being able to deal with the events on 11 September 2001 whereas this is literally the first year I have been able to go through such information and experiences. In turn please do excuse my attitude which might flow from this computer screen while you read this, however in my defense the reality of 20 years since the attacks to the area I was born and raised in with my most formative years of infancy to almost 16 years old in conjunction with all other such combinations might be a bit more clear as to my personal viewpoints as to even the slightest mention of the smallest situation in such regards by some random individual while they pass along since the transfer went through. Maybe you can look within yourselves to envision how you would deal with all such combinations as I have dealt with, prior to judging my responses in person and/or online.


In such I am reminded of that Homeowners Association situation with the San Antonio Police Officer reference as to the research I had done on the company referencing #Procomm Procomm as to prepare to go before the legal counsel at the office for the shed situation which the individuals in the board had fully dropped the ball and had not done the work they should have done, which after finding out about the #USMC #Marines United States Marine who had dealt with a Homeowners Association which was in Georgia from what I had read who had caused the damages and the foreclosure of the house over the American Flag pole he put in his front yard; I brought up that particular aspect as to the additional details referencing the legal defenses I had per the paperwork in the ways of the Homeowners Association Covenant, which in turn that attorney for the Homeowners Association had informed me that he would speak with the team of lawyers that I suppose it takes in reference to a larger company across all sorts of state lines within the United States of America as per the fact Georgia and Texas are in tow different areas with two different coast lines for a type of border.



I suppose an ironic portion as to a code I found in reference to a crossover situation to look at additionally to the other such facts of which in the reference to having put my website online as well as in reference to having posted the links to two different files through my dropbox account as to then post the links for the assistance and specifically remembering having done so in the area of and for the #LATimes LA Times: #CALegal #CaliforniaLegal #CaliforniaLegalCode #CaliforniaLegalCoding The Legal California Code, Corporations Code - CORP § 8337 says in a brief summary from #WestLaw website:


In any action or proceeding under this article, and except as required by Section 8331 , if the court finds the failure of the corporation to comply with a proper demand thereunder was without justification, the court may award the member reasonable costs and expenses, including reasonable attorneys' fees, in connection with such action or proceeding.



What an irony in reference to the Marine’s situation as well as a few other aspects thereof which can be reviewed regarding such similar laws in other states which simply have different coding numbers, which how such legal teams review such portions regarding the federal laws is something which the procedures thereof is their reviewal as to reviewing such details in full of all such aspects for the completion of all such problems and situations for the clarifications across all boards for the larger aspects for the situations of the past to now to have the betterment of and for the future.



The irony in other was as to the property value being repaid to the individual who purchased the house and property, the repayment for the lien and foreclosure on the house to the Marine, both were taken care of in reference to the moving of all furniture and belongings, restitution was paid for both being inconvenienced though a higher number to the Marine and his family, as well as the fixing and repairing of all of the credit issues which had been incurred for such restitution of all of the stresses and etcetera from such a situation being proven that the Homeowners Association and board had caused needless problems to the Marine of which his house was fully removed from the Homeowners Association and was able to do whatever he wanted with the house and property. That attorney had spoken with his group as explained and three days after that meeting, I had received a letter of variance for the allowance of my shed to remain in place. The following week was the letter from the board requesting assistance to the Homeowners Association in the area of Pheasant Creek to which I have already explained as well as wrote about the situations thereof to which that San Antonio Police Officer refused to be at any of the meetings and then the meetings were changed last minute because of arranging my schedule as per the requirements thereof to which I had left the board because I had already saw what they were doing in other areas before as per having grown up in New Jersey and after going to the different areas throughout the tristate area such types of childish behaviour was ridiculous to see in any biological adult who did not have any type of Special Needs specifically in reference to the aspects of Cerebral Palsy or such situations as per the after effects of a TBI as per the realities thereof. In turn when speaking with my coldesac neighbors Arnold and Emily about such shortly afterwards had been the situation which Emily was notified of the situation regarding a legal situation in reference to #SVU, of which the information card had been sent to protect her and her family which caused me to wonder about other situations as to what protections from any such possibility as those aspects being needed for individuals who have had various situations of that type involved as well as the life threatening portions to be protected from.



With the knowledge as to what my Grandpa Gavett had complained about in reference to my maternal Grandmother not being willing at the time to properly handle the situation regarding my biological mother and how she had been in reference to her older brother who died when she was in elementary school to the ways which my biological mother perpetuated such problems with my biological sister to how such situations went through the additional connection points thereof and the ways of what occurred in reference to my daughter because of what occurred because of #Carrollton #CarrolltonTX #CFBISD Carrollton Texas Carrollton Farmers Branch Independent School District McCoy Elementary School staff and volunteers, I said I believe in breaking the cycle of the patterns of behaviour where absolutely mandatory as per the additional aspects as to the ways which my ex-in-laws had been and continued onward as I guesstimate in such choices as again the irony of the spelling as well as the additional portion as to Breianna in the naming overall as well as the Brie-Brat as to the spelling of the word brat needs the word rat to spell as well as pronounce the word itself of which that type of upbringing would spawn the stereotypical versions in the state of Texas as to the certain neighborhood’s wording of a hood-rat; which in such references to those who know of such realities, they have their explanations they can go into regarding the ease for certain aspects in comparison to earning such portions thereof which of course Brieanna can my biological sister had gotten along swimmingly. I knew that was a problem that day in the year of 2003, the weekend after I had spoken with the Mom of one of the two males named Adam as I had been informed of in reference to how my biological sister had a threesome in our biological parents’ bed before they had moved officially from Illinois to Texas as during the timeframe when I was put as the Legal Guardian over her.



In such breaking the cycles of which certain situations are required to stop history from repeating itself then I have to make my recommendation as to having been informed of the same patterns of behaviour in reference to such as well as the repeated hospitalizations regarding my biological daughter in acute as well as residential facilities for the actual general public’s safety as to the contacts she can make in reference to the social media accounts, which in turn additionally as to the requirement in my opinion of the long term state run facility which in the reference to the irony of what I had asked Governor Christine Todd Whitman about the safety as to such portions in time. In such aspects the merging of the social media platforms of all such linked accounts which have been proven to be used by the individual thereof as per the clarifications in reference to the list I had given of names in the reference of technology direct contacts seen/known of to the clarifications as per required via the aspects of the officializing of the #USSpaceForceUS Space Force by #POTUS45 Donald J Trump’s and his administration. In turn my recommendation is such a permanent facility for my daughter to correctly be taken care of in comparison to what has occurred, and the measures to assist teaching her in the proper ways in comparison to what has been repeated as seen with those individuals’ choices for such combined references to review.



I told those people I once knew in person in reference to the multiple aspects as to how I was incapable of seeing how blind they had been for so many situations, of which even in regards of when Lady Robin name on fetlife who had discussed problems from what she described as to various situations occurring in the adult consenting lifestyle in the area of Austin Texas; again I could not understand as to why so many people were blind to the reality of such situations, as many times as they had already seen such realities and knew directly someone who had been immediately impacted though those people wished for sympathy regarding the situations they had caused for themselves which in my opinion was not possible for me to find any sympathy within myself for the situations brought before me due to the combination factors as to what I was doing the best I could to remain as calm and collected to take care of what needed to be taken care of. As I was called many names to my face while dealing with the multitude of aspects and the situations thereof after having told people in person about what I was additionally dealing with in reference to the online messages and the irony of how I wound up in Washington state with my minor aged son after what occurred to my minor aged daughter as having only been of a minor age out from my coma after my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, in reference to requiring the transfer for many reasons overall one reality just thought of is having to leave behind certain aspects to move forward regarding such aspects thereof as per a discussion referencing what my biological father told me which can be reverted to the #SCUBA #SCUBADiving SCUBA Diving portions.



While in the reference to thinking that there would be something major to celebrate regarding having survived 10 years after all of my earned 26 SCUBA Diving certifications in the timeframe I had done so in as well as surviving all of the depth levels I had SCUBA Dove to in the areas I had achieved on my own, I suppose there is irony as to the situations currently in reference to the 20 year memorial of the attacks in my home areas on 11 September 2001 as I was supposed to be stationed in Virginia upon completing my Basic Training for my AIT. Of which while others throughout the areas I had known people in person regarding in the state of Texas who had not wanted to believe where I was born and raised in for the reference portions as to how many people I personally knew, the portion as to where I was supposed to be stationed did not ever cross their minds in the slightest as to my personal feelings and opinions thereof that situation because as they told me after I had already informed them which in turn reproves the adult consenting lifestyle portions; I did not graduate Basic Training which means I did not go to AIT, and yet which side of the Pentagon was hit on 11 September 2001? As my biological sister had already explained her continued hatred from the era of my biological mother and her siblings ages of time during the Vietnam War into the state of Texas as well as the timeframe of after the attacks of 11 September 2001, the lack of my ability to see how ignorant so many people had been to various situations thereof during the years I was in Texas most specifically from the years of 2000 through to 2013.



However additionally to all such combinations as to the additional portion of the 20 year memorial timeframe as to the SCUBA Diving after the aspects of my son and my daughter, the current focus requiring to be upon the merging portions for the clarification purposes for employers as well as more specifically in reference to the higher levels of law enforcement as well as the various specific specialties of certain individuals to have the correct clearances with such approvals regarding the correct background checks for the clarifications; as in reference to the number increased in pictures/videos of the images in the sky as well as water areas as I have taken though in different ways comparatively as my SCUBA Diving pictures specifically from the USS/USNS General Hoyt S. Vandenberg #Vandenberg at the bottom of the ocean and the #Boca #Florida #FL #Floridastate Boca Raton Florida area pictures to the arial footage I have taken in the combined amount of time of such a brief portion thereof, the importance for all such clarifications across all such board in the overall social media aspects for the clarifications of the correct individual having the accreditations of which they deserve for the choices they have made. In such regards as to where I went SCUBA Diving on the east coast out from as well as the fact of the types of drama having needlessly continued regarding into biological adults as I have seen, while the SCUBA Diving group I had gone through of PADI at the International SCUBA location which the individuals had made the choices as they had made during when they were informed as to my Florida SCUBA Dive trips; I had left from the port of Boca Raton Florida for that SCUBA Dive which I landed at the bottom of the ocean and took such pictures, just as the resort I stayed at was in Boca Raton Florida. I have discussed as to my discussions on the phone with my ex-in-laws in the area of the resort of which possibly with the Rescue SCUBA Diver reference, some might be able to see what word in Boca Raton Florida in a specific way can be found.



I can sarcastically joke that is why certain types of east coasters from the tristate area only call the area Boca, in comparison to how other people discuss the area. Thus when writing about such the requirement for the clarification though those who know are those who know. In turn regarding SCUBA Divers of whichever type in the state of Texas region, which SCUBA Dive Instruction style is located where?


I suppose at minimum for one positive which informs all who were at Clear Springs SCUBA Park as to your status level in such varied aspects though especially if you are involved or have a SCUBA Diving certification of whichever level when taking into consideration there is only one person who dropped to his knee, regarding the aspects of when I was back at the area in the year of the 10 year anniversary of my surviving all of my work at such times in the year of 2009 when I had been in the area in the year of 2019. Pun intended, let that sink in for your own evaluations regarding those who I have known in person before I wound up in Washington state. However in such references to such SCUBA Divers of whichever type, when taking into consideration as to the name and spelling of such locations whereas I had wrongly been blamed for multiple aspects; what is it you are able to realize as to the situations you should have paid attention to the details thereof, possibly having prevented the drama or at minimum the levels of such drama regarding such aspects?



Thus as I look at the fact there are 9 days to the 20 year memorial of the attacks on 11 September 2001 with all such portions in the regards of the individual social media platforms merging the known portions together as per the one linked account thereof with the name choice of which for such is the first account made and/or in a combination of the first account made with the names following in order per the aspects seen in hyphenated last names to be able to assist in such clarifications as to the merging of each individual social media platform account per individual for the ability to easily be able to tell from such as to a quick glance as to the individual online as per the ways some aspects go. Thus in reference if in the full ways of all of my facebook social media accounts aside from the pages as per not knowing of such an ability before when originally creating my only two original accounts though because of the situations as to how I needed to create a third account because of not being able to remember due to the situations involved at the time as to the additional aspects as to the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury would look as: Susan_MeeLing-Lady_Dori_Belle or the other option for me would be as Susan_MeeLing-Lady_Dori_Belle-L.D.Belle for those reference aspects. Though I suppose the last name used which is still on such account could be considered as well as far as what I can remember thus in turn the name being: Susan_MeeLing-Lady_Dori_Belle-Dark_Lily



Thus in reference to fetlife while the original name was Ms_Flutterby of which I know there has been concern regarding the adult consenting lifestyle communities of such a situation regarding only having met Ms Purple around 1.5 years later as to an irony, though the aspects of the merging portion assisting many throughout various areas for their own clarifications for such additional reason. As such was changed to the name I had been working on creating for myself until I could get such squared away more clearly the account would essentially look as for such merged aspects:

LadyDoriBelle-Lady_Dori_Belle-Reverend_MeeLing



In both situations the combined lettering without the hyphening or the underlining would be an option for such possibilities as to those specific account on social media as it is more commonly known as social media, in comparison to the email situation. In that particular aspect as to the merging aspects the original name and all such portions in the area of the embedded portions in comparison to the social media more commonly known as social media, to be able to clarify as to such though also removing such aspects as to the accounts themselves as per being able to have such merged together would then free up more space for the future generations while assisting additionally regarding the cooling of the servers as well as the lines throughout the grounds in combination with the lines in the overhead areas as to reduce the emissions which would assist the ozone layer to be able to repair while also assisting the power grid to work more smoothly as per the glitches from the different interruptions as per the ways of priority in specific circumstances regarding communications across as needed to assist with the speed as well as the clarity to hear the actual words used as per the sound levels as well as the wifi impacting hearing for certain individuals; as with those who have multiple varied portions of implants would know regarding electronic devices such as pacemakers as well as anti-seizure implants including insulin pumps before ever going into the actual hospital aspects in comparison to simply walking around. In addition to stopping identity theft online regarding such problems additionally, the ability for companies of whichever type to clearly be able to know as to the verifications for the hiring process as well as especially in reference to the Armed Forces of the United States of America’s branches and division thereof, the requirement for such clarity in a multitude of ways for several reasons.



If an emergency occurs in reference to the official formation of the US Space Force, how quickly might someone with the correct ability to assist need to be able to move out if required though the verifications thereof being correctly vetted?



With the ways certain individuals have been in reference to contacting companies for the complaints as to the phone calls additionally, what is the



I have the view point of which I obviously have clarified several aspects to which an additional aspect is to why I have left the BDSM/Swinger community in the overall aspects to which in turn those I once knew who had been the initial cause for me to leave such a group and community thereof, I do not think it takes a head injury to figure out that it was due to how sch was treated was why the final choice had been made to completely walk away from the individuals once known. I could not see anything of value though I had tried for multiple years to overlook what I had experienced when I had been within the state of Texas while I was evaluating such in the state of Washington as I had been volunteering where I had, however upon realizing in the year of 2019 as to the energetic portions of which picking up people I once knew having been in the area and had not spoken with me though the timing as to when those people from Texas showed up the energetic similarities as to when I was in Texas to then was undeniable. I refused to partake in such antics and childish behaviour to which in my opinion after the problems which occurred in addition to the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as well as what I was dealing with while being a Mom and less than 2 decades out from my coma, I could not see how such adults could be considered as adults for not having the intelligence to realize when I told them about my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as to that being their information as to being informed of their consent to speak with me meant they were under the obligation to be truthful at all times with me as per knowing that a head injury can occur at any time to anyone which the side effects will differ per individual.



As per having officially transferred and having informed online those people associated with such a lifestyle are not welcome in my life nor are or have they ever been welcomed in the lives of my son or my daughter, to which my refusal to be a part of a group of people who had refused to accept the fact I had spoken the truth the whole time about a multitude of aspects; the fact of having a male who was working in the medical field admit to me that he was using the medical tools in the adult community with people who did not consent to him, doing so, meant I would not tolerate such behaviour as well as if I ever had to make a choice and those people ever came after me and mine; that would be the final nail in their coffin as they were already on my last nerve back in the Austin Texas area in the year of 2011, of which everyone at that event as well as three other events at that location were officially put on notice as to what I was going to do if the problems continued. Each individual I spoke with including Lady Robin had told me they thought I was overreacting of which when I told Lady Robin about the male dating Ms. Purple, she laughed and told me there was nothing to worry about. She told me she knew him better and that because of her time knowing him that was considered as what I should take into consideration, which I refused to accept that answer and I refused to accept that response. A few weeks later Lady Robin told me she had spoken with that male and he was not happy that I had told her about how he had told me what he was doing at the events and had been doing for over a year and a half at that point in 2011, which in the knowledge as to more aspects about the brain functions than some may have ever thought because of their view point of me as well as their view point as to my background; I refused to allow such situations to occur. While I have not denied nor hidden as to my headaches being a daily occurrence, migraines being several times per week, memory deficits, and cognitive disorder as well as my education having gone the way it had from College Algebra with Trigonometry and Calculus to 2nd grade math; I did not think it took a head injury to figure out any individual using their employment background within the adult consenting lifestyle community, was unethical and immoral and depending upon the employment the reality of the requirement to reel in all such activities from each Active Duty/National Guard/Reservist/Veteran/Blue Identification Armed Forces of the United States of America holder.



Upon the following last few months I was involved with the Austin community due to the amount of people who had acted similarly to each person I had noticed had contact and consensual involvement with that male who was dating Ms. Purple and informing each one I could about the problems I noticed, they instantly blamed me instead of seeing what the problems actually were. Instead of looking around at what problems were occurring those people blamed me for my head injury, instead of ever taking into consideration what I had told them had always been the truth. Those people instead of being humane had acted as the ways they had which when bringing up the realities of what damages what could be done in reference to that type of manipulation, those people laughed at me in my face. When I had told them in further detail as to the realities of what hypnosis could possibly do in those types of locations because of what was around the area, they told me that they thought what was occurring to my daughter as well as what was occurring to me meant they thought that I was too dramatic to be thinking the way I had; which when I told them I refused to be a part of such and if I ever had the feeling of such types of situations, I would completely walk away from all such connections in every way as to work toward bettering more that would pay attention and listen to the facts. They told me they would do exactly as the way my now dead-ex-husband had done though in their own words as to how they would contact people wherever I went because they thought they knew better than I did, when I disagreed those people stepped closer as trying to bully me to stay involved which when I refused they took another step closer. I found it odd for as many people claimed that there was good about the BDSM community in reference to people having the choice of what their choice is to be respected, I had not seen such from any individual I had met involved with that lifestyle. I saw how more of the males who had been rejected act more childish than the males I saw in high school who were broken up with, which was a massive concern because of the additional aspects to what I had already written about Professional Dominatrixes and the submissive males in the #Leatheratti Leatheratti article which was published among a few other blogs on the fetlife website.



In a different reference point in regards of the merging of such, the additional ability to review as to the actual complaint process to make sure that there are legitimate complaints in comparison to what some have done over the years because of in my opinion of what some have shown to a lack of ways to express themselves in a more positive aspect or find something to be positive about in comparison to. While some have had legitimate complaints which rightfully have needed to be fixed and repaired in a timely and productive manner as especially through when the aspects of legal portions are involved, as most lawyers and law firms are required to move quicker as per the Bar Association aspects when the law firms as well as the attorneys have the 30 day maximum in several instances across the board for a multitude of reasons; which in turn when certain types of law firms have preferred to draw out a court case until the statue of limitations which they have known better for the example of the CFBISD then when they do not have the allowances they once had in reference to ever working with the complete such portions; in turn I have watched where such types of law firms loose out on much more than they would have lost regarding their egos hypothetically, regarding they cannot purchase their dignity back.



As per the ways which had been discussed in person as well as online as to what I was needlessly dealing with and the requirement for what I personally need in reference to the specifics at such times as to the application process and the complaints from people who had not ever actually applied and who had not sought to apply because of the facts as to the requirements as to what the truth and honesty portions of were in reference to the requirements thereof, as per arranging such when I was in the Austin community area when I had created that particular questionaire myself. As per the facts as to the few who had ever sent in a completed application and in addition to what I was dealing with as none had paid attention to the realities thereof regarding what I had shown others in person as well as to what I had dealt with, of which even Alicia if she was just honest as well as Discordia or Erika had been honest as to having my laptop open on the back patio and being passed out not because of the assumptions; because of the threats which I had told and shown people as to what I had been dealing with for years, by the time of 2012. I am reminded of a #SouthPark SouthPark episode which Butters has to go through all of the messages and gets tired and burned out because of the amount of situations, of which I suppose the actualities of such realities as to how much I actually had dealt with in reference to what I had told people I dealt with might be hypothetically able to be noticed regarding such aspects. Maybe there are a few situations which might make additional sense to the latter portions of this journal blog entry as to why, I do not like surprises.



In turn I additionally told those people that male who was dating Ms. Purple the name on fetlife, had dealt with what I was dealing with and while some thought such was considered funny or a game; there is a pondering I now have in a different aspect, as to the combination of the SCUBA Diving portion to the adult consenting lifestyle as per the locations of the portions for the different locations for the main two United States of America major SCUBA Diving certification companies as per the areas of the headquarters. In the various areas throughout the state of Texas how many #BDSM BDSM/#LGBTQ #LGBTQP LGBTWQP/#Swingers Swingers who have ever gone SCUBA Diving despite certification as per who would have access to such, who was certified through the school of #PADI PADI based in Santa Rosa California compared to who was certified through the school of #NAUI NAUI based in Boca Raton Florida? How are such individuals associated within those groups as to the ways thereof regarding comments as well as in reference to the spelling of the nickname for my ex-sister-in-law’s eldest daughter Brieanna or Brie-Brat which I thought I saw a female who looked similar to her in glasses in the lobby area of Club Sapphire, in such aspects hidden in plain sight to see? Any references to such a terminology found while the time I was in Washington state after the Cowboys Dance Hall situation come forward, regarding such situations? Also in reference to such aspects, who told the truth about their actual experiences in such areas as to who told a lie and would be the equivalent of such a naming in a different way as to such aspects for those types of lies which males are most known for being responsible for the problems as to what occurs in reference to when they spread a rumor that is not true about a female they have known or been