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It should not take a head injury
*after personally sustaining a head injury & coma*
to figure this out...

 
 
 
 
 
 


After a Drill Sergeant threw Me into the metal part of the bunk when I was in Basic Training for the United States of America's Army branch at Fort Sill Oklahoma #FortSill #FortSillOK #FortSillOklahoma #OK #Oklahoma in the year of 2000 on Psalm Sunday, I have dealt with the situations as best as I have been capable to do so while taking care of the situations and asking for assistance as per the required explanations of the information to such facts first.  While making the attempts to get assistance for the aspects thereof as to the reality, the aspects of where and when as to the multiple attempts to ask for assistance for me.  As my journal blog for when I was ready to bring such as to my other works forward since as to the lengths of time as to where my modeling was as to the modeling page information, just as the other pages have the information as to such specifics, and just as this journal blog of mine is as to such facts.


If I had real friends (if as to having met in person face to face in person in real life as to the aspects of this particular reference such as from the state of Texas as to the state of Washington as to the years of 2000 through 2013 if I met within the state of Texas for such references), real (the areas of the tristate region as before the year of 2000) family, and real relationships in real life that recognized me as to the aspects of if as to the face to face in person who started in truth as I had started such in truth as to the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, as well as the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain that took 8.5 years to dissipate; then I guesstimate there would be the easier factors as to being capable for me to speak with others in truth in person face to face in person and/or through online measures as to such factors I suppose.  Though would such as to the knowledge of the ways as to how they began such discussions with me as to would there be such a situation, for them to consider as to such if factors as to such discussions with me in truth?


As to some suggestions and commentary within "Finding A Silver Lining" one of several of my bo0ks I personally authored/wrote/compiled as I can only speak and write in truth as per such clarifications as to the reality as to the specifics of such discussions/writings/videos as per my Official You Tube where I have satirical commentary where I comment about the factors as to having dealt with others' opinions about their pop culture references of #NJ #NJstate #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey, though as to for the most part I have actually preferred to be asked with politeness if as to having read my books and/or seen my website as just the same in reference to the timeframes when I was modeling as to having respect as to what I consider as respect, referencing if as to such polite manners as to discussions if as to such having been noticed because of the factors in my opinion as to having real discussions as communication would be if my website was seen before the year of 2023 as I first began my website in 2015; as in my journal blog posts as to the reality of the years of 2010 through 2013, as to the aspects of introductions as to those timeframes when as to various factors as I did not take selfies as I was actually working with photographers as to my creations of my outfits as per the description on the link to my modeling page(s) as to the references regarding my journal blog updates in the years of 2019 through 2022 as the timeframe onward as to the year of 2023 as to the factors as to how such journal blog entries will be as to such factors as to the aspects of the various topic points.


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 I was born and raised in New Jersey and grew up going throughout the tristate northeast areas mainly, and as to how the reality of when the importance of the situations as to the aspects of reviewing as to such facts regarding the logistics for several factors as to the considerations; the years of 2019 through 2022 as to the review process as to the aspects of the timeframe, prior to the timeframe of the 20 year memorial of 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 as well as before the 30 year memorial of February 1993, as to the northeast areas mostly known as to New York City #NYC #NewYork #NY #NYstate #NYU though also as to the #Pentagon Pentagon, as well as Pennsylvania #Pennstate #Pennsylvaniastate as to the reality of how many New Jersey-ians commute in either direction, depending upon what location for the commute. 


The factors though I have said at times, I re-re-re-re-re-re-grew up in the state of  #Texas #TX #Texasstate Texas as to such factors as to the timeframes, as well as all 26 of my SCUBA #SCUBA #SCUBADiving  Diving certifications I earned were through one school within the state of Texas as I also earned winning first place in a Texas Chili cookoff with more than 20 entries as well as my chili recipe as I am adamant about my recipes as to such aspects just as I am specific as to what it actually takes for me to cook in a BBQ as to the required preparations for when I have BBQed.   



I can sarcastically write, those who know of the Rules of the BBQ as to where I grew up as to the Rules of the BBQ as to such factors to the considerations of such preparations.  However that is to cooking food as to the differences of my journal blog entries, as to the factors as to proverbial aspects of food for thought as the difference of real food in real life as to the facts of the situations to such attention to the details as well as attention to the information.


Such facts as to the metaphors in some of such factors that only after reviewing such information as to the aspects of the fiction book series that were as to for My personal life as to such dreamland sorts of factors as to the differences of such hypotheticals, the references thereof as to such regards as to the logistical emotional with the real situations as per the names I was informed of at the timeframes referenced review as to My journal blog as to the situations overall.  


If as to my journal blog being found and read as to where what I consider as common sense, as to the aspects of my satirical saying   how it should not take a head injury to figure out. 
 

*(sometimes utilizing articles discussing facts)*
By:  (Reverend) Susan MeeLing
also known as

The One & Only


(YouTube)   Lady Dori Belle


 

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REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

8th day countdown to the 20 year memorial of the 11 September 2001 attacks By A New Jersey-ian

As this is the seventh day of the countdown to the 20 year memorial of the attacks on 11 September 2001 which is the first year of ever being able to remember the day upcoming on my own as well as being the first year or the first 10 months since being on the east coast for the first time since the year of 1998 since being moved from the state I was born and raised in and the area of the tristate area which I grew up walking around after getting to the locations m when my biological father drove from #NJ #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey, despite having been able to write as well as the facts thereof I suppose if there are those who are from the east coast as I am though were in the area during the day of 11 September 2001 and despite the time between the year of 2001 to this year in 2021; I am going to guesstimate those who were either born and raised in the areas of and/or were in the areas of during the day of 11 September 2001, possibly recognizing the scatteredness of thoughts in an overall way as per having the ability to see such though in a different way as to the movement of thoughts as per the time getting closer to the day itself for the first few years.



Thus while some who I once had known may have their opinions as to whatever their choices of biases for their words could be, I had told those people in the state of #TX #Texas Texas #Texasstate when I knew them in person as to being careful what they say or write about the aspects of the attacks of 11 September 2001 while dealing with having been accused of lying as to a multitude of excuses to what they themselves were doing as well as the various aspects of my personal life. Despite having told people I knew in person throughout those years mainly up until the year of either 2011 or 2012 when listening to their complaints verbally in person about any such time either of the memorial and/or the commenting and/or the displays within the state of Texas as to the situations in certain times, I told those people to be careful as to their opinions of such as it was a delicate situation to which I thought their opinions were fully invalid of their opinions to what others were going through for them to make any judgements upon.



I told those people without the experiences themselves as to what occurred, they needed to take a step back and remove their ego from the view point to be able to actually have compassion towards those who they did not know as there are a lot more people who were impacted than the people in the state of Texas who complained had known about because of their view as to the size of the state of Texas and the surrounding states being their viewpoint of reference compared to the actualities of the size difference between the two areas; of which those same people laughed at my points brought up while adding their additional comments of their opinions as to how thy thoughts I should be acting in comparison to their opinions because of the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury. I was told simply because their opinion was because of the facts they complained about regarding the after effects they had said they had to deal with because of knowing me which the constant complaints and/or the questions which had come in reference to their inquisitive aspects about asking me why I would ever defend the northeast in the state of Texas; the multifaceted situations quickly began to unfold.



In the regards as to the complaints as to my after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury such as the memory deficits and the cognitive disorders, I cannot count how many people had told me their opinions of how they thought it should be considered easier for me to not have to remember who I once knew as they thought it was better to not have the ability to recall people I grew up with and grew up getting to know over the years. While I had been taken aback as to how any human being could ever say such to another about the type of situation before I was able to defend my viewpoint, I then dealt with being told by the same individuals as to their opinions as to their opinions of since it had been since before the year of 2000 as to their opinion why I should be the way they thought in their opinions about the day of the attacks while ignoring the fact as to my son and my daughter were both born in the month of September among several other facts. A group of females I knew in the #mysa #SA #SanAntonio #SanAntonioTX #SanAntonioTexas #SATX #MilitaryCityUSA San Antonio Texas and #Seguin Seguin area had been the first people who had such complaints and comments about the facts I was dealing with, within the group called the Jade Wolfe Coven in Seguin Texas in the year of 2004 while dealing with how my biological mother and my biological sister had been at such times as to telling me how they thought it should be easier just as others in the #SAPagan #SanAntonioPagan San Antonio Pagan community had their opinions at such times.



In reference to my biological mother having brought up to her opinion as to how if I would just be the way she wished me to be when she was able to get my biological sister into the household of a family in the state of Texas to be able to use the fact of ‘her being born in New Jersey for the ways which she thought would get the ability to be infamous within the state of Texas and hopefully through more than the south; I could not believe what I was hearing at their house in San Antonio, as to how she could be as callous as to say such words about the situation. While my biological father noticeably spent more time away from the two of them as the time had gotten closer, I noticed my biological mother going over notes with my biological sister to have her practice to say certain words a certain way as per acting coaching classes for when she would be with whichever political family she was finding to be able to push my biological sister towards those people to be able to use the known facts of the yearly memorials for when it became a larger event for such times as the 5 year and 10 year and 15 year as well as the 20 year mark so she would be able to be on the stage and in the spotlight among the others while not having had any of the experiences as I had when growing up because of the years of the difference between the ages.



I told my biological mother when she informed me of such that my biological sister Patricia Ann Hom at the time though later the legal married name of Patricia Ann Hom-Miller #Miller #Millers though now might be Patricia Ann Miller, as to the fact of the year of her birth being 1986 of which if there were intelligent enough people within the state of Texas who could do the math from the years of 1986 to the year of 1998 as to the minimal amount of time my biological sister had actually ever spent in the northeast coast as well as the fact of her having been in the #CrystalLake #CrystalLakeIL #CrystalLakeIllinois #IL #Illinois #Illinoisstate Crystal Lake Illinois area when the attacks occurred; as I knew there had to be people who would not take kindly to the situation and would inevitably grow in hatred for such types of virtue signaling about the situations from those two, as there was nothing they actually had as a connection to the people of the area in the ways which they were pretending to portray to others.



In such of telling my biological mother as well as my biological sister when she walked into the kitchen, they would be wise not to push such a situation within the state of Texas as the people in the state of Texas who could find out about such would not appreciate the facts thereof and would view them as the stereotype of what they have thought of #Yankees Yankees all along despite the ways those people had been treated in comparison to me because of their ability to speak easier with their lies as per having practiced as many times as they had, in comparison to simply being natural as the speed of which they spoke had sounded fake as well as had sounded as though all of the accusations that were hurled were actually intended for my biological sister as well as intended for my biological mother as per both of them saying that the background of the amount of veterans within the state of Texas was why they thought moving to Texas while using me as the excuse to get to the state of Texas was critical for such aspects as per the prior knowledge as to remembering when I had delivered my son 9 days before the event itself.



I told people I knew in person before the year of 2004 about that reality as well as after the year of, though because of the focus at such times instead regarding the fact of my memory deficits and cognitive disorders; as to their opinions of the situation referencing me as I was informed the thoughts were those people thought I was changing the subject in comparison to the fact I had brought up the discussion to begin with, and those people were the ones trying to change which way the facts were being brought forward in comparison while also completely ignoring the facts as to I was born in the year of 1982 and the same year of 1998 as to being moved from New Jersey to Illinois for the length of time difference. I hope if my biological mother and/or biological sister do anything with anyone for any type of political propaganda as to the amount of people who will stand up against such portions as to the facts of such disgusting problems having been a situation which needlessly was using the people they saw as props in comparison to seeing them as human beings who were from the state of Texas and accustomed to being around some #USAVeterans #USAVets #USVets #USAVeteranCommunity #USVeteranCommunity #USveterans #vets #veterans #veterancommunity veterans and/or some Active Duty/National Guard/Reservists of the various branches and divisions of the #USArmedForces #ArmedForces #USAArmedForces #USAF #USAAF Armed Forces of the United States of America.



In the year of 2010 I was asked by a male in the #Austin #AustinTX #AustinTexas Austin Texas adult lifestyle scene at an event if I had any relatives in the area in college, as he thought there was something about my face which reminded him of someone else he knew in college. I had told him about my biological sister having being going to a college in #SanMarcos #SanMarcosTX #SanMarcosTexas #TXSW San Marcos as well as several other details about how my biological sister as well as my biological mother had been at the time, which he had told me he noticed as to some differences between what he had heard at the college campus as to what my biological sister had brought up in discussion and he as well as several others in the college and surrounding areas were in the process of vetting my biological sister’s story as to the amount of people who had already contacted the Crystal Lake Illinois area to find out the truth about my biological sister and the truth about my biological mother at the time in the year of 2010 as some had begun the searches back when she was in high school as per the ways they were offended as to the ways my biological sister had been acting at such times.



I told that male several additional names and locations for him and the groups of to go search and speak with about to ask about how my biological sister and my biological mother had been during the various years while also telling him some extra details I have not put into writing, as per the fact of knowing how such would be much better if I had not gone into such details for the ability when I had gotten t the point of publishing my first two books after registering them with the Library of Congress of my books “Finding A Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing” and “Finding The Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing” as to additionally knowing how certain people are and/or have been about paying off others to be quiet or in the case of technology; having certain wrongful alterations when the inconvenient truth was put on the internet. In turn I have purposefully kept certain specific details I have remembered out of any viewpoint to be able to ensure what I had discussed that evening as well as the other several following months of monthly or bi monthly questions about my biological mother as well as about my biological sister at such times. However they do not know how many people I had spoken with over each of the events as to such aspects just as they do not know each individual who had downloaded the links I sent in the dropbox locations as they do not know how many people printed out the paperwork just as they do not know how many people had put such onto different technology drives not connected officially to wifi which would have a different impact fully because of how that particular aspect has been coded decades ago at this point in time in the year of 2021 as pe the #Pridential Prudential contract for which I was coding through, at the time frame of when growing up in New Jersey and the tristate areas.



As it was known as to how some people had been the Armed Forces of the United States of America had put into place in the earlier phases of the technology development a fail-safe safe-guard as to if there were a number above a certain level who had with individual accounts of the technology realms to make any work towards trying to remove images/videos/recordings online, would fully trigger a complete meltdown of all fail-safes and a melt down of all safe-guards as to each individual image plus each individual recording plus each individual video whether a clip of or the video in full itself as well as each individual who had ever illegally been censored online in any possible way which includes websites; if that number were to be hit at any point in time on and through technology, the automatic leaks would ensure the first phases through the more commonly known only to those who had such knowledge within the email systems and email servers into the general atmosphere of the internet in full which would be a guarantee as to just from the emails being dumped fully every few months even after the initial patch, because of the trigger that was already pulled. Thus every six months if such has occurred with one email company of any type of massive leaks, from there the leaks would be every 6 months for those who would not have known about such in the coding realms from decades prior to such a hypothetical time. In turn if there was ever a lull in time which the email leaks were held up it would be an equivalent of a second and third and so-on depending upon the length of time as to what leaks would occur in which ways, and would additionally go into the more common known aspects as to social media in reference to messages as well as private covered view points of the social media postings throughout all online locations referencing the additional safe-guard fail-safe as to the amount of privacy violations per individual and per individual camera and per individual recording device and per individual location along with multiple other factors included for all such intensive purposes.



While I am uncertain if my biological mother recalls such details embedded within the coding back from the years in the 1980s and the 1990s, I would not doubt there are those who have been involved with the technology software developmental phases as well as technology software coding as to who would be able to fully verify such aspects as what the levels of information waves hold and have in storage about the general public as to each individual and their patterns of behaviour in a generalized way. That is, except for those with head injuries and/to now called TBIs though other such types of situations regarding the health and well being of the brain activity as well as psychology portions in addition. Thus as my niece Marissa Marie Nichols-Lopez had gotten her psychology degree as I was told, I knew the facts of such portions I had told her to go into a different field in comparison to when she was younger to find a better path or the situations were going to be much more different than she and her family ever could plan for or think of. I told Marissa her sister and her cousins knew nothing about the actual realities of such technology and the ironic facts as to the #GeorgiaGuidestone #Georgia #GA #Georgiastate area in the location of #DewyRose #DewyRoseGA #DewyRoseGeorgia Georgia Guide Stones in Dewy Rose Georgia, as to the location my other ex-sister-in-law and her husband who was graduating in the United States of America’s Air Force #USAirForce #USAAirForce #USAF #USAAF in San Antonio at #LacklandAirForceBase of #JBSA at the only Air Force Basic Training location while they lived in Macon Georgia #Macon #MaconGA #MaconGeorgia the same year my original Blue Identification Card of/for the Armed Forces of the United States of America had gone missing when after on the Lackland Air Force base for the graduation ceremony of which I had filed a San Antonio Police Report about the identity theft problem of mine which I learned about and had to take full action on to fully clear all such aspects as per the amount of knowledge and understanding and comprehension of mine referencing my Blue Identification Card of/for the Armed forces of the United States of America; though only recently since that year of 2001 in the year of 2021, having been able to bring such details forward as per the legal requirements whether or not some people wish however they wish as such has been mandatory for the general public without censorship as to the realities thereof in full for far more than just one or two people’s or one or two groups’ of people’s egos.



However, each will make their own decision as to such portions of reality referencing the back tracing and back tracking from such times already having gone into place when the initial portions of the connectivity aspects began to move forward regarding the types of internet services available as well as the types of communication lines having been laid. In turn words are not considered as weapons no matter how many people might wish otherwise, which has been as known founding principle of the #ConstitutionalRights Constitutional Rights of the #USA #UnitedStatesofAmericaUnited States of America. The first day of any one individual within any area who would ever begin to develop any type of censoring type of programming software coding, would be when the official counting down from the specific number would officially begin as per the testing phases for the technology software and the requirements to inform anyone who would ever be in use of such because of the morality clause contracts signed in conjunction to such other portions thereof. As the multitude of companies for technology based portions had been in various areas around the world though mainly in reference to certain specific companies within the United States of America, the known mandatory portions of coding in such aspects regarding an additional number for which the Constitutional Rights would be a connection though indirectly as to all such technology devices’ information storage being held within a multitude of locations around the globe as well as other areas within the space portions of the orbit in conjunction with other locations around the Milky Way Galaxy to ensure such full realities once the term #Y2K Y2K was introduced online and with the news media having printed as many articles about the aspects of the Y2K movement began the official clock for the population of the United States of America and the world.



Thus all such would be revealed in due time, truly means exactly the words thereof.



Thus when the proverbial wash as per the saying it all comes out in the wash, is additionally just as truthful. In turn all of those who had ever made any tries to censor others in such technology ways would have to censor themselves in comparison, because of if simply speaking certain words near any technology device as to what leaks of their background details would be released through the technology measures of which at this point in the year of 2021 have been noticed; as per the technology advertisements which come up and have been reported in the news of seeing such trends, for the aspects thereof to clarify that particular truth for more to review for themselves. I suppose a sarcastic comment can be made about the truest fears of the unknown, in comparison to some prior discussions. However such would additionally reach a point within the healthcare sector as to if there were any who would ever deny the required medical treatments to any individual who had/has a direct connection to the various branches and visions of the United States of America’s Armed Forces as per that particular number being considerably different, than other numbers for such purposes as per the ways which was already known how certain people have tried to manipulate others through the required healthcare measures. In turn the facts of such portions would in turn mean the leaking of different aspects in different locations in different part s of the world for such technology aspects for other human beings to be able to read and go through, as per the ways of which aspects were intended regarding such fail-safe-guards and what would be considered as humane treatments for all human beings.



I suppose an irony in reference to the animal control center being renamed or a secondary or whichever number groups referencing the #HumanSociety Humane Society, for such portions thereof for certain types of individuals for the general portion of the aspects as to the realities for the overall general public watching aspects of each and every human being over the time. Thus from what I remember from just before applying to the #MAST Marine and Science Technology School with the #USANavy #USNavy Navy attachment and why I had pushed as much as I did initially when in 8th grade to go into the charter school at the time, I thought I could warn the leaders of the school about such situations if I could simply just get into the uniform of to be able to actually help and assist in the ways I thought were most ideal. However, I was not able to go to the school and if there are any connection points in reference to #WalterReed Walter Reed in #MD #Maryland #Bethesda #BethesdaMD #BethesdaMaryland Bethesda Maryland to my biological mother even if in a distant connection point then the guarantee as to all such portions of such aspects in full due to such overall connection points.



Remember in reference to the facts of simply speaking about the portions thereof near technology devices as to the similarity to writing in any such ways, as per the communication factors; which in turn for those who are blind would mean the #Braille Braille system and for those who are deaf the #AmericanSignLanguage American Sign Language system as well because of such types of cameras which could record and/or stream videos and how such aspects would be known to the automated technology for all such intensive purposes. Of which once the portions of handwriting of various types were to be able to be read through the automated technology programs to be able to distinguish various portions thereof, would in turn mean the ways of which the ability to use such portions regarding the technology software capabilities and the various levels thereof for the clearing as well as the clarifications.



In turn while some would go make new accounts and thus make new identities for themselves in wishes to think that could cover up anything previously, the simple connections from their emails was always what was needed to begin with as there was going to be a time which you could not make a new email with a new technology device before opening the programs even if the box which has to be checked for the later time frame aspects would ever come forward at such portions of time. Thus the #failsafe fail-safe safe-guards #safeguards full in place well before any such portions would ever be recognized, or in my case among a few others such as some of my classmates from #Asher #AsherHolmes #AsherHolemsElementary #AsherHolmesElementarySchool Asher Holmes Elementary School as well as some of the other children and teenagers who had been children of employees at #Prudential Prudential and/or the groups of people who had opened an office within one of the floors of the #WTU WTC #WorldTradeCenter #WorldTradeCenterAttacks World Trade Center who had been the only floor of people who all had made it out of the World Trade Center as safe as they could before the collapsing of the World Trade Center as they had a nearby location which all of the employees were able to run into to hide at the exact same time though a few different spot locations for the known collapse as per what I had been told by my biological mother in different times on the phone as well as in person. I told her when she was in the state of Texas she needed to make sure to tell as many people as she could about that situation specifically, and I hoped she had told people with a direct connection other than myself to the various branches and divisions of the Armed Forces of the United States of America for them to evaluate the situations and see what details they could find about such realities.



Ironically my biological mother crossed her arms one day in front of me and smiled saying she was planning on doing so, because how else would she be able to get herself with Patricia to the areas she preferred; which sent chills down my spine, though I asked if the thought to have me tell others would be more assistive to the findings of such people to help get such ball rolling in the correct directions. My biological mother smiled bigger and said that she thought it would be extremely helpful, of which I was already going to do so without her permission as she had forgotten as to how hard I fought to be emancipated from her as well as my biological sister; which in turn she and my biological sister had not known all of the people I spoke with when at #FortSamHouston Fort Sam Houston because of the ways the rosters were different before the attacks of 11 September 2001 because of the known safe-guards as to the fail-safes in such measures of actual safety for such technology portions in the fullest extents possible across all boards in all ways.



As my biological mother would think she would have any control only because of for a short time allowing her to be on the bank account for the #USAA USAA company to be able to have her social security number and all such information connected to do their own backtracing of such portions if ever needed because of the connection points I had been told about, as I thought that was the only way which I could give a direct link to the veterans as well as the Active Duty/National Guard/Reservists as well as the #Congress Congress with the #Senate Senate and the #WhiteHouse White House staff with the various levels and divisions of the #lawenforcement law enforcement because of how I was already being looked at as well as treated by the year of 2004. I thought if the ways which I could give them that information when she would fill out the paperwork on her own and they would have her fingerprints as to the paperwork, that the ability to assist in more ways if it was a good enough thought because of having random memories pop back and forth at the times of when involved speaking with until I could not tolerate their existences any further regarding my biological mother and my biological sister for all I knew they had already done just up to that point in the year of 2004. Ss to the plans of which my biological mother had already told me about, I had known that when the first separation occurred from my now dead-ex-husband as to how much work was needed in reference to the levels of various levels of the different types of #NationalSecurity National Security.



In a multitude of ways seeing the details of what my biological mother was boasting and prideful about in reference to the greed she had been pushing in the slothful ways as to how she thought would be easier to get the financial backings of which she would fail because of all such efforts due to the safety of the larger population of people in comparison to her wishes, as per the facts as to mother and my biological sister knowing which levels of technology the people in the state of Texas had in comparison to when growing up in Illinois regarding my biological sister and the work my biological mother had been a part of in the known ways as well as the underground ways; whether or not some people wanted to believe me, over the years from my childhood into my teenager years and after my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury in my biological adult years, despite the restart in reference to the various damages to my brain because of the blunt force trauma or TBI regarding my head injury; as the after effects from my subarachnoid hemorrhage and the length of time for it to dissipate would be I suppose a way of testing prior situations in reference to cold case files, from some people’s portions as to the situations thereof regarding the different medical conditions which may have been in question.



I know from the amount of people I have had to deal with regarding their opinions and their biases as well as their comments in such aspects has been difficult for me to remain calm in various situations, though I have done the best I could to focus my attention and keep myself calm to the best of my ability; as the facts as to having certain time delays in reference to social media was known was going to be problematic back in the 1990s referencing the aspects of such development within the news media sectors as well as the radio stations initially, because of how certain people had chosen to act when on the live portions as per the known aspects of which the time delays were going to cause glitches within the system overall as some had noticed back in the 1990s and early 2000s. Thus those who could be cleared in full would be cleared in full, those who could be cleared in part could be cleared in part, and those who would have to face the facts of all such portions would have to face the facts of all such portions.



In such a reference to the ways which my biological mother had pushed my biological sister and the situations referencing other such different versions of the matchmaking sort of aspects in different ways, the facts as to such portions of if ever betrothed would be removed because of the facts if there was one particular of which the 10 Commandments requires in reference to the faithfulness in such regards in reference to the specifics of being in the know of compared to the difference of being in the thoughts as to possibilities. In turn the realities of which would be uprooted and such a different set of portions would be in place for such situations as per the officializing as to the #USSpaceForce #USASpaceForce #USSpaceForceDoD #USASpaceForceDoD #DoD #DepartmentofDefence United States of America’s Space Force within the aspect of the Department of Defense officiated by #POTUS45 #DonaldJTrump President of the United States of America Donald J. Trump and the administration thereof with #VPOTUS47 #MikePence Mike Pence to fully bring forward as to the reasons of why such portions have been required.



By the time my biological sister had called me on the phone to complain about having the nerve to speak with people and acknowledge the fact of being biologically related to her while she knew of what I was dealing with in reference to the situations regarding my daughter and my son, my responses were shortened because of not being willing to give her any inclination as to how many people I had already spoken with for the years before about her lies as well as the same for my biological mother. I told them not to do such at all because when the truth came out they would not ever be able to pay enough money as there would additionally not be enough time for it to be found because of how I knew and know the situations were referencing the connection lines, as they also would not have anyone who would have enough money to find each and every individual piece of evidence in any amount of time to prevent all of the details from coming out and trickling to be able to fully stop their plans as they told me. I told them they were immoral and unethical to ever being in front of the cameras as to wrongly using the situations in a lying way as to ensure that the embarrassment of the political family/families as to ever having them within a camera angle shot, and if they had people who paid attention to such facts they would not be willing to take the highest risk as to putting such out into the spectrum within the state of Texas or anywhere in the entire United States of America as because of the social media as well as having known that more people as the years went on from the attacks would slowly begin to start searching for people they once knew and remembered from the timeframes because of the reminders of the timeframe. I was laughed at by the two who had told me they thought they knew Texans better than I had, which despite what I dealt with I had thought I knew better more in the lines of simple integrity and morality as to the facts thereof.



When I was laughed at and made fun of for having brought such up for the discussions over the years during the times when discussed, the fact my biological sister kept calling Texans ‘typical southerners’ was a problem as the fact of how Texans are about their state. I told my biological mother and my biological sister that though the state of Texas is in the south, there is not one state that compares itself to the state of Texas unless in a comparison portion nor are there people who are from the state of Texas who would ever put their state next to or in the overall category with the other southern states; which I was told that they thought it was just because of seeing the amount of Texas flags when driving, and going around various locations. I told my biological sister and my biological mother, I thought those flags were a reminder for them to know which turf they actually were located in as Texans are not shy about their Texas pride however they choose to show their Texas support as per each individual being different and having their own ways thereof. While I was made fun of and laughed at for such aspects, I was told to mind my own business and only if my business had anything to involve them were they ever interested in knowing what I had to do as their opinion of me has been as their opinion of me has been.



I can make a sarcastic joke about how New Jersey I have always been despite others who wished I was different than what a real New Jersey-ian is at the core of their being, which I can joke as to what I imagine as to how when I mailed the eight books I authored and one book being compiled of mainly my writings though the supporting documents as well as supporting articles in full format as to not hiding the facts from such; while admittedly having kept other documents out of the printed and published book because of as can be seen in the posts as to previous times as I have added as to the actual amount of documentations I have always had over the years of regarding what occurred in reference to my daughter’s situation though not all of the documents had been scanned up to the technology devices and since the situations went as they had when I was in Washington state in the year of 2018 to 2019 as to the knowledge when having to put such in the dumpster for other additional gifts of which were fully attached and embedded energetically as to what in full repercussions would come forward as per a metaphor. As one of the staff at #McCoy #McCoyElementary #McCoyElementarySchool #McCoyCFBISD #McCoyCarrollton #McCoyCarrolltonTX #McCoyCarrolltonTexas #Carrollton #CarrolltonTX #CarrolltonTexas #CFBISD McCoy Elementary School Carrollton Farmers Branch Independent School District law firm had falsely and illegally made a claim about the thought of simply being attached to the Army branch of the Armed Forces of the United States of America, how she and others had thought I had several cases of various military grade ammunitions and weaponry in the apartment I was at in comparison to the size of the location and the door size to be more specific as to the pallet size for the cases for the shells for certain weapons just for one example to think about. As it was claimed falsely by Nona Matthews as well as Principal Dawn Rink as to their biases of thinking that all people who have an attachment to a military installation of whichever type, would automatically have the direct access to any weaponry at any/all times just because of having a military identification card.



I had known that set of comments regarding such false claims if they ever made a law enforcement report about the storage of military grade weaponry such as bouncing betties, grenades, bazookas, M-16s, and etcetera along with multiple cases of the ammunition for the firearms and the tanks as to how the legal responses would be in such regards as to all such individuals who would ever think to make and file a false claim within any law enforcement group and/or agency and/or organization because of the knowledge as to other facts. I had already dealt with Nona Matthews who had refused to accept multiple aspects including having failed to shake my hand because she thought my tattoos would go into her skin to be seen physically, which was the most stupid words I could hear come out of an attorney’s mouth in one of the meetings she had not gotten the non-disclosure paperwork signed for that meeting to begin with as per it having occurred multiple times and the fact of the mediator thinking one signature for one day meant that it was covered though I knew that it was mandatory for each mediation meeting because of the different mediators involvements as to the requirement for each mediator to have a signed document for their involvement with the mediation. In the timing of such a knowledge and understanding, I fully comprehended as to what type of lawyer I was speaking with and what type of law firm I had been going up against before that meeting though was verified with the mediator portion.



As to the house I had in Carrollton Texas despite the layout and the size, I do not think it takes a head injury to figure out that living in a coldesac within the neighborhood I had bought my house in as to how quickly that would have been seen.



It should not take a head injury to figure out the situations as quickly as they had developed as to how quickly that would have been immediately reported as per seeing, as I do not think it takes a head injury to figure out when I was told that the police had shown up to my house when I was in #CedarPark #CedarParkTX #CedarParkTexas signing the paperwork for the lease agreement for the house rental because of what occurred due to the #FWZoo #FortWrothZoo #FTWorthTX #FWTX #FortWorthTexas Fort Worth Zoo field trip in April 2010 as to how moving my household belongings through my biological father and my biological mother as well as a male I met named Phillip Omstead as to how those people in that area of that neighborhood had stuck their noses into business which was not for them to ever get involved with.



It should not tale a head injury to figure out how those types of those people are, regarding such choices just as I do not think it takes a head injury to figure out when the rapper #IcedT rapped about F-the Police; those are the types of people referred to as those types of people are the first to cry wolf, and thus those types of those people are always the ones who are the most guilty of the most amounts of crimes in hiding and have been needing to be brought forward into the light for more people to see those types of those people’s connections and their choices thereof in full.



I did not think it took a head injury to figure out those types of those people are the types of rats, people who are born and raised in New Jersey would instantly clash with and yet those types of those people would only think in their mediocre ways and not ever have the capability to see the larger aspects until such was fully too late for those types of those people as per the required justice in such ways which they thought they could hide behind.



I did not think it took a head injury to figure out as to how such people have looked at me in such regards, in reference to my own biological mother as well as my own biological sister as per their own ways as to how they had been in the same reference aspects thereof.


Should it have taken a head injury to figure out those types of those people who have a lot of time and a lot of money would be the largest targets of which technology portions would be looking for to search to get a hold of the most, in reference to the multitude of portions as to how those types of those people have been the ways which those people have for as many generations of which to be able to backtrack for such abilities to find such connections thereof?



Does it take a head injury to figure out some siblings have had rivalries for centuries, and does it take a head injury to figure out the easiest target was always going to be how my biological mother would have easily been seen as herself as to such types of those people of which they would know to go after that type of situation as per knowing to tell of how they knew how Texas really works?




I can joke sarcastically the document situation as well as the technology situations as well as where I grew up spending time at certain areas having an influence only people who are truly from the state of New Jersey, would ever be able to actually know as well as those who went to such locations for schooling would be able to recognize as to the attention to details as a New Jersey-ian by birth simply has naturally if they had thought about such portions thereof. The sarcasm being, those could be considered as the Bouncing Betties as per how many people throughout the state of Texas had told me to use my words. Well since I owned my boxes of pages as well as owned my various pieces of technology and I own all of my copyrights to all of my books in the legal ways because of my legal first and my legal last name in my author name of my legal middle name which has to do additionally with the timing of the copyrights themselves for such additional connections as to the way the numbering system works in such Library of Congress ways, I suppose such could be the equivalent of such a metaphor now when reflecting in the year of 2021 as I have been reflecting since the year of 2019 in reference to the updating f my website as well as continuing onward with my journal blog #TheOrneryPSA The Ornery PSA.



As to all such associated individuals and groups would be able to prevent them from the embarrassment as they physically saw me in comparison to what would be if they put my biological mother Anna Louise Hom (maiden last name Lally) and my biological sister Patricia Ann Hom-Miller as per the last legal name known though since some people have been able to change their legal name easier and easier, the requirement for all such court document ties to be strung together for all such portions for the correct background checks as to the realities of the amount of registered aspects being required for the safety and well being of the law abiding citizens and the safety thereof especially in reference to sexual offender registration mandatory aspects as well as the regards as to the bankruptcy claims which had skyrocketed as well as the identity theft problems in order to correctly have such bills paid to the banks as well as the federal reserve for those who have wished to skip out on their college tuition fees which have been known as to some in the regards of the legal aspects for the name and the social security numbers having been the ways to keep such balances paid through the checks thereof to pay the full amount plus all such interest and late charge fees for the aspects of the non-bankruptcy abilities of the aspects to the #Financialaid #Finacialaidcollege #collegefinancialaid financial aid as such loopholes have needed to be closed off and the payments have needed to be paid in the ways thereof for a length of time which has gone well past the past due dates hypothetically.



In my opinion as a side note, I have wondered about such situations since the problems referencing how my biological sister had looked up to my ex-sister-in-law Susie Marie Nichols-Lopez at the time of such portions just before that ex-in-law family associations having declared bankruptcy together as per the ways which together they had discussed as to their plans as to defraud the companies of their credits applied for to be able to purchase the products and run up the bills as to then later declare bankruptcy for the portions thereof while keeping the items as per the ways of what was explained to me. As I did not know who I could ask if that actually was legal, I spoke with several people I knew over the years as to the situations thereof prior to putting such in writing in my first book “Finding A Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing” registered with the Library of Congress.



As the proof as to such portions of in full descriptions over the times of such clarifications with the conjunction aspects to my non-fiction books with such additional aspects of information, the additional aspects as to the realities of how pain problems when higher as to the aspects of how some others have simply had emotional overreactions in comparison to those who have chronic pain for years and decades and the differences thereof regarding the aspects to online portions as well as the aspects as to those who have been listed as to who was around such technology devices of mine for the reference aspects thereof in reference to the portions thereof.



The aspects as to why I needed to be back along the east coastal areas are quite clear to me, as when going to the #pentagon #PentagonCity Pentagon City area and having been through the areas before my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as well as after more recently in reference to the 6 January 2021 event; just before my suspicions were fully confirmed and the timing of my ticket as though it was not enough as to being less than 30 days from transferring and less than 30 days from the 20 year memorial of the attacks on 11 September 2001 and all such portions thereof while dealing with all such other situations as per the reflections thereof regarding the aspects of the equivalent of a body bag as per her dead father as to the garbage bag hide and go seek regarding my daughter’s voice from when in reference to after the Fort Worth Zoo field trip with the McCoy Elementary School aspects before getting to the Pentagon City area.


What is the saying in reference to magicians? “Look this way”, and something on the other side occurs?



For whatever it has been worth the #Washington #WashingtonMonument Washington Monument is the same size from the view point from when I was a child when I went to the area when I was a child, though as an adult. I am several feet taller as an adult compared to when I was a child in Asher Holmes Elementary School; as I remember walking arounds the base of the building structure with my biological father because of needing to see every individual architectural angle of the building as how excited I had been to see a monument for #GeneralGeorgeWashington #GeneralAndPresidentoftheUnitedStatesofAmericaGeorgeWashington #GeneralandPOTUSGeorgeWshington #POTUS1 General George Washington, as per the history of #OTC #OTPC Old Tennent Presbyterian Church and the private office out back behind the church on the hill.



The same I have brought forward in reference to the #StatueofLiberty Statue of Liberty as to where I know for a fact I could see such from the parking lot when I was a child, as to the area of her crown from the street level. How many people in the area were looking in the direction of the World Trade Center during the attacks on 11 September 2001 from the multiple high rise building skyscrapers as to the horrors before their eyes, and how few looked over towards the Statue of Liberty on that day?



As per the attacks thereof as to 11 September 2001, what is the reason which military associated branches and divisions of the Armed Forces of the United States of America use a flash bang for?



What if in conjunction to the flash bang, there was a smoke grenade as to the areas?



What would those who would know more in detail as to such aspects be able to take into consideration for the areas of #NY #NYC NewYork #NewYorkCity #NewYorkstate New York City World Trade Center areas, for the closest and yet not closest nearby for such aspects of symbolism to the pride of the nation of which she stood for by ironically looking at the fact there were two French film photographers who had been the only ones who had footage released from the areas as to the metaphor in reference to the Statue of Liberty?



What is nearby to the area of the #PA #Pennsylvnia #Pennsylvaniastate #pennstate Pennsylvania crash site though would require a specific aspect as to the larger portion in one direction to the smaller-ish portion in another direction to the specifics as to the #USArmy #USAArmy Army side of the Pentagon, to take into consideration for the aspects of the flash bang with the smoke grenade for those who know more of such areas?



In reference to Pennsylvania I would think the #LibertyBell Liberty Bell as well as the Smithsonian building as per the shock after the attacks being a major confusion portion, and those of the employment being focused more elsewhere it would seem as though a maze because of the differences which might have been noticed because of such map systems.



Though I do not know what is in #VA #Virginia #Virginiastate Virginia specifically if there is a situation nearby as to any specific symbolism to take into the same sort of consideration as to the Statue of Liberty and the Washington Monument, of such a different aspect as to a larger version of proverbial chess pieces to then play in my opinion wrongly a game of a version of hide and go seek while a follow the bobber sort of aspect.



I know when I had walked around the New Jersey capital building of being able to find various locations with hidden artifacts, which were fascinating to me; though I knew to keep my hands to myself, despite being able to run around before the security guards took me back to be with my class which I did not want to be with because they were not at the level I was at as I did not feel nor was there ever the need to lower myself in such references to which the questions asked because of the severity of the situations I saw, the realistic portions as to the possibility of other such aspects such as the Washington Monument as I know it had a basement underneath the building as well as an entrance to several different tunnel systems underneath the capital areas of #Washington #WashingtonDC ##WashingtonDCstate #DC #DCstate Washington DC. I know there was what looked as a multiple level or multiple story level maze underneath the grounds of in comparison to what I heard when a female I met had informed me she was told of going through the one underground system, which confused me because of her saying only one underground tunnel. However the reviewal portions for such aspects similarly to the portions in reference to the Hawaii portions thereof which for the preparation for such work would be considerable depending upon purposes, referencing such aspects as to the parts of being under my SCUBA Diving as per my style; however my preferences are my preferences regarding the ways of, yet such aspects in reference to the DC area I wonder about the #Ellipse ellipse area as to the ground formation geographically.



In the reference aspects to the geographical land portions around the area of the Washington Monument from what I remember from when growing up in the ways of being able to randomly go to the area as per the Washington DC area Aquarium as to the additional portion for several times having gone to the Washington Monument as well, the land layout seems odd from what I remember. As I admit I could not remember to find to look where the pool location is referencing the in ground area; however if there has been any sinking within the areas as per noticed as to even though the timeframe of being in Washington DC as to the fountain and pool area in the ellipse area location being during the winter, the aspects as to the various war memorial area being as open as it was with the water being off during the time was confusing admittedly. I remembered there were pictures from the newspapers in the 1990s with the waters flowing in the fountain areas, which the flowing water has always prevented pipes from cracking as per the ways thereof with the proper insulation aspects.



In reference to the aspects as to New Jersey from the areas I went from specifically referencing my main childhood and teenager areas of growing up, everything for the most part was the exact same to the degrees as to being able to minimally go to walk around as per the personal emotional aspects as to seeing such as well as being in the areas as to.



However in reference to Asher Holmes Elementary School regarding the aspects as to the parking lot areas as well as some of the playground areas seen and the forest areas, to the majority of such seemed the same with several differences here and there from what I had noticed as per the same in reference to Old Tennent Presbyterian Church with the exception of the monument behind General George Washington’s office area between the church on the hill and Neff Chapel. However the large tree which once was in the center of the area in the field by the parking lot of Neff Chapel was completely gone sadly as that tree had many important aspects within which had been where only the upper youth group ages were allowed to play tag, as the younger youth group areas were only allowed the location by the playground area as they were not allowed to go to the field near the Pastor’s house either at the times in the 1980s and the 1990s because of how those aged children in those years were behaving at such times. While it was nice to see various aspects at the time in December 2020, the portions of which such aspects to review and see in person were as they had been of which the aspects thereof are as the realities of regarding the technological portions thereof to such situations.



In such aspects of which the situations regarding which memories in specific beyond such realities I have already gone over; such additional portions are the memories of which I had been looking for in a multitude of ways as I have known about those of different backgrounds who have wished to hide behind a religious aspect as to thinking in certain ways for the choices which were made and known about, as to what agreements thereof as per knowing my biological mother as well as my biological father as well as my biological sister having gone to Old Tennent Presbyterian Church when they had made the choices to go to New Jersey without telling me when they were going until after they had gone telling me their opinions as to why they had not wanted me to go back to New Jersey, while additionally when in the state of Texas shortly thereafter as to the aspects of which my biological sister had been pushed towards the political family as she was. It was not uncommon back in the 1980s or the 1990s for such situations to have occurred in such references to which there are multiple aspects of which plenty of political individuals have gone to overtly too mane lengths to wish to cover up all such aspects and were not ever allowed to in the beginning phases anyway as per what aspects Ms. Rose had been a part of informing as to my Grandpa Gavett of what she knew was mandatory for all aspects referencing what she knew was mandatory for the clearing of each portion as she was infuriated as to how many times she had been requested to assist or asked advice without the proper etiquette followed and the ways which her (ex)-husband and the family had been in such references as to the constant coverups.



Her wishes to prevent her grandchildren from being put into such a position though because of how her (ex) husband had been, she knew her requirements to work with certain other agencies and groups and organizations to be able to stop all such portions especially after several discussions with who then became POTUS Ronald Reagan had been of importance as she had informed me when I had a meeting arranged with her as to some oddities she noticed in various connections I do not remember as to what thereof.



I do remember her laughing as to when Easter would come around as I would dig through the handful she would give me when we spoke that afternoon, as she watched how I went through the jelly beans to get them in order the way I preferred to eat my jelly beans. When we talked she asked me why I ate my jelly beans in the order I had chosen to, and I suppose the reference aspects as to one color being my favorite and finding such in the stores later on to only that one flavor in a larger bag was a bit of a reminder from my childhood and younger teenager years as to whenever that meeting particularly took place. She said she knew how tiring the burden had been and having seen what certain aspects were regarding the ways of something she discussed which I cannot remember at this point in time, she said she was glad as to how different I had been compared to certain individuals from New Jersey and asked me to promise I would be the complete opposite of my biological sister as it was needed more than ever for such times. I made my promise to Ms. Rose to do everything I could to not be anything in any way similar or like her, and I remember the smirk she had when I had said so and then rattled on about a few other topics with her before the meeting had concluded.



While my memories from where I was born and raised are multifaceted and multifold as per the combinations thereof regarding the overall east coast areas though mainly within the tristate areas, in reference to those who have the similarities as to myself as my biological father in reference to the 20 year memorial of the attacks on 11 September 2001 who do not want or need to be out in a public location with the ways certain types of people as per explained referencing the aspects as to the hypotheticals regarding my biological mother and my biological sister and such hypothetical ways for politicians to take the attacks of 11 September 2001 memorial 20 year anniversary to use the amount of the backgrounds as per what was described by my biological mother in the year of 2004; such problems I had told the females and their husbands within the Jade Wolfe Coven at the times of as well as the San Antonio Pagan community, in conjunction with the San Antonio BDSM adult consenting groups I had been involved in with before my hairstyle and my hair-color changes and my tattoos in the years in combination thereof as to my involvement regarding different unseen to some security aspects because of the type of situations involved. In the aspects as to taking the stand as to varied aspects after reading the book by a couple named The Millers, the aspects of reading such in the multidimensional view points as per the other books in addition at the times of before my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as well as obviously after my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury had brought forward a different set of aspects I looked into regarding when reviewing such referencing myself.



While I had not discussed with people in person as to having later been able to read through The Big Blue Book and when done reading through taking it back to the store I was volunteering at to keep good n my word as to the allowance thereof, the situations in reference to what began to occur after reading the Big Blue Book or the Blue Book Project has been a combined aspect as to which the details are far greater than the initial processing of which to have ever written about as I have already for decades taken pictures of which the images have been far more than what has met the eyes I suppose is the best way to explain to a degree. As the time gets closer to such a memorial date as to those who do not need to go into the front portions of being in front of the cameras in groups to have such a virtue signaling as per the aspects of proverbial pomp and circumstance, I know my biological father and I cannot be the only ones who prefer to simply process the situations for themselves in whichever quieted manner and location thereof.



I admit I was looking to have a situation on the beach in New Jersey though upon finding out that the area was prebooked as per the situations regarding such types of situations as described by my biological mother, the lack of interest to promoting any such aspects in those particular regards because of the facts as to the normal psychological responses for people who have actually had such a direct impact from the attacks of 11 September 2001 as to the same in reference to other such aspects regarding those who have been involved with the various after times in reference to the involvement in regards of the Iraq War and Afghanistan War; as most who have had a direct impact to a varied array of specific circumstances do not ever step out into the limelight in the ways immediately as to having to process such portions realistically, as how many celebrities who were born and raised in New York City and/or New York state and/or Pennsylvania and/or New Jersey and/or Maryland and/or Delaware and/or Virginia most specifically other than political figures have gone out to the locations to be in the general public view point as to being seen and speaking with the individuals who have attended such locations and situations to discuss their feelings?



Who can truthfully say they have ever known someone who directly had been impacted by the events during the attacks of 11 September 2001 which had been inside of the areas thereof which did not have at minimum several tears form in the initial brining up of being directly within the area, to however the length of time to getting to the details thereof regarding such portions? In my experience usually there is a minimum of 3-4 tears which well up in the eyes and then the usual portion is to go to the bathroom upon the mere mention of the attacks on 11 September 2001 regarding being within the city of New York, as my own honesty in reference to such I think I usually look in a different direction to deal with my own connections though not having been there physically. The realities in reference to the French Film makers regarding the documentary of the Firefighter location and the only inside footage of within the World Trade Center Towers and having grown up knowing one of the top security individuals for the building he worked in, while certain locations seemed a bit unfamiliar as to the decoration aspects as I did not go in every individual entrance when I had gone to the World Trade Center buildings; I did and I do know the specific types of bouncing of the sounds from the wall areas, which would have some of the portions thereof. It did seem a bit odd regarding certain aspects, though the emotional ties to such aspects have been explained before in regards to my view of.



While many had their disbelief wrongly as to my truth in my opinion as to the fact of all such portions easily being able to get the truth of through the ease of various measures, depending upon what your particular vices are and/or have been in reference to the years between 2001 through the current years such. When in college or high school or middle school or elementary school depending upon as well as the other portions of such connection points which the technology would capture as per the levels of the security cameras all over, various aspects of the different cellphone as well as water towers in the state of New Jersey. For one example that is only a small view as to how many technology towers and security cameras in the reference to at eye level on the ground as per the differences between the field in Pennsylvania, to the World Trade Center, and to the Pentagon for such reference aspects as well for the reviewal of a different version of visual triangulation aspects. In turn as those who were in other areas of the United States of America, how many had been told to go home such as my now dead-ex-husband had been told to leave college to return back to the townhouse at Songbird Apartments as it was odd to me, because of the fact as to the timing for the east coast time or Eastern Standard Time to the time in the state of Texas and the college class was around 7:30am though the apartment complex office was open and going at the timeframe when I had walked into the front office door at the time as per prior discussions and writings.



However the fact of the matter as to how much my biological mother and biological sister had wished for the aspects of my now dead-ex-husband to have been the preference in their view points as to how the ways preferred regarding such aspects, in comparison to ever paying attention to the fact I told them in person in conjunction with my biological father as to the confessions my dead-ex-husband had done upon realizing exactly who I had always been and apologizing for every aspects he possibly could upon such revelations. Whereas if honest Cactus Jack also known as Jeffrey Kuykendall Jr had been aware as to the confessions which were made at such times for several weeks and into around 1.5 months before being told though had been upset to the length of time spent in my backyard with my now dead-ex-husband to know those times from after the Halloween trick or treating in 2007 onward, those times were confessions regarding all of what he had done wrong as best as he could apologize to me for and keeping the promise as to what contract he had been willing to partake in referencing the aspects thereof to such a contractual agreement. Thus on 31 October 2007 as well as the following weekends each weekend through to the weekend before 28 January 2008, each weekend what was needed to be given for such reference aspects as to what he owed me.



What were going to be what the aspects are as he had told my biological mother which excited her that he was looking into certain religion portions just as when informing my biological sister that they would always be together as he promised her and the excitement unwittingly as to what he actually meant for such aspects, just the same in reference to the aspects as to my biological father having been told by him as to the realities of the timing referencing having left me in the backyard for a length of time after I had been knocked unconscious from the abuse which had occurred that afternoon. When I was told of what specifically he had discussed with them, I told him he needed to tell my biological father one more time before whenever such aspects were going to be as far as his debts being paid as at the time I thought he was going to start proving himself once he had gotten out of the Army. I admit even though I had seen the situation in the year of 2006, I did not realize what was going to occur in such reference potions regarding the 28 January 2008 aspects until the soldiers had arrived at my front door and then everything clicked and made sense.



However of course in comparison to evaluating the fuller portions of all such angles in comparison to jumping to conclusions because of ego or what-have-you, I would not be surprised if the whining which stemmed from the Chaplain in some ways as to what I was informed of as to whatever occurred in reference to Pastor Hugh Mackenzie as he was a Chaplain in the Army at the time of the 1993 World Trade Center attacks and from what I had been informed of regarding how his response and other such aspects at the time of when at Old Tennent Presbyterian Church in December 2020; while not told officially as to what occurred, the fact of a new Pastor at the location as I was told and from what I have seen online is a situation regarding what I told some of the congregation about to pay attention to when it came to Mandy’s Mom and how none of them had said anything though stood by and did nothing about the situations. When he and others started returning from being activated for the Desert Storm and Desert Shield aspects and the rampant cheating on spouses which had occurred just as the ways which my maternal Uncle Leonard Gavett had dealt with upon his return because of his then wife Yvonne and the three children Elizabeth Gavett, Sarah Gavett, and Esau Gavett within the New York State areas thereof; it would not surprise me because of when he found out as to the children being involved and his sister my biological mother having been friends with Yvonne and we visited the area when he was overseas, if she was informed as to Yvonne cheating then the bitterness as to such a situation. In turn the reference to the same though in a different way referencing the Old Tennent Presbyterian Church congregation and the facts to then Pastor Hugh Mackenzie’s wife with his only daughter at the time, the situations thereof referencing the same aspects.



It is one aspect to have an agreed to arrangement if there is such in honesty, though telling the truth to others who might know of or find out is additionally important as for a multitude of reasons. I was informed that was not the case when the confessions were occurring as per the problems regarding other phone call aspects as I had explained as well as had written about despite the facts having been discussed in person among many with all three involved in the discussion such as in reference to #IHOP IHOP on #Bandera Bandera and #Blanco Blanco in San Antonio Texas as to all such details as to how that had occurred regarding in the garage and including the ways as to the forced so-called proposal. However in addition to the #SanAntonioExpressNews San Antonio Express News in Military City USA and people doing what they could to make a name for themselves by over sensationalizing problems they caused by such aspects while not genuinely caring about anything other than the numbers, that has been problematic since the invention of the television as when in reference to the movies it was slow process as to other people looking at the movies and televisions in such ways.



As soon as the televisions became more normalized in people’s houses, the situations thereof as to the aspects of #Hollywood Hollywood grew to what it has/had. However the ways to maintain such integrity in comparison to how some have wished has been a concern for several well before the aspects as to the media sources, as it was known how much work #WaltDisney #Disney Walt Disney had put into other portions thereof which ironically in some ways might co-align to certain aspects in reference to prior writings about such in the multifaceted aspects as to additionally the handbell choir competition. In the aspect thereof regarding how competition is different depending upon as when in the reference of not knowing of a competition, then what is the actual value at the point if figured out as to any such type? Thus if not said in person as to any such aspect of a competition in the ways of an actual competition such as the handbell choir portion, if not actually knowing of the aspects in a formal way as to such then what is the reality for those who might have had such an a skewed viewpoint for far too long? What is then for such an individual to think about as to the facts hereof and the trail of whatever would be in the rear as to the situations thereof, referencing whatever aspects were caused by such a proverbial competition? In order to ever feel confident as to an actual competition from my personal experiences before my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as such was the last competition I can recall ever being involved with other than track and field as I did not consider the cheerleading aspects as a competition despite the reality of the statements thereof due to the lack of seriousness by those cheerleaders who thought they could steal the aspects which I told them was a stupid idea though because of the equivalent of extortion because of them threatening to tell my biological parents I was unwilling to participate with such needless portions as they were not ready for what a real cheerleader competition was, I only was involved with 1 after waking up from my coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury when in SCUBA Diving when I won first place in that first time of the Texas Chili Cookoff held by International SCUBA; which I told people about and had not ever been informed as to how Texas Chili Cookoffs were, as to not having grown up in the state of Texas as I only re-grew up though because of that male’s arrogance referencing such aspects as to the Yankee commentary then there is the fact of the 20 year memorial of the attacks on 11 September 2001.



How ironic is it my SCUBA Diving certifications were all earned by me in the year of 2009, though I was not competing with anyone else for clarifications regarding human beings. I did not think it took a head injury to figure out SCUBA Diving in my style of, there is not any type of competition to ever be had in such references. However if there was a baby like temper tantrum thrown because of such aspects thereof and the portions of not knowing about the fact as to having cleared those waters as well as having gotten endangered specifies of fish to grow which are no longer there at the Clear Springs SCUBA Park because of the problems in reference to hypothetically metaphorically ever even thinking though also keeping mind of actually speaking any such blasphemy regarding my name in those waters and/or any other waters I had specifically been in when SCUBA Diving, I had told those SCUBA Divers at the time in the year of 2009 when looking upward as to the situations they should be more careful about. I had given a hint to only one SCUBA Diver Instructor I had during the timeframe of when in my certification classes at such times, which I told him the most beautiful SCUBA Diving trip I could think of would be to go ice SCUBA Diving during the Aurora Borealis at night as looking upward to see the colors of the lights bouncing off and through the ice seemed as though would be a stunningly beautiful experience to full enjoy the view just as seeing how the marine life respond during such portions seemed would be amazing to notate. After the #Solar #SolarEclipse #SolarEclipse2017 #SolarEclipse17 Solar Eclipse in 2017, I have a feeling as to how accurate I truly was as to such portions in time; as I noticed certain oddities when I was in 6th grade at Asher Holmes Elementary School, during the #SolarEclipse1994 #SolarEclipse94 as to what I had noticed within the areas as well as the classmates and teachers during the timeframe of



As the situations referencing the 20 year memorial of the attacks on 11 September 2001 get closer and the irony of the eighth day as to my first round of books, once finally able to get everything regarding the transfer taken care of and squared away was when I had planned on writing to author other aspects. However due to the situations referencing other additional situations which have required my attention before getting to such aspects, responsibilities are important to take care of first. However that is a different aspect in reference to the impatience of others who are accustomed to the immediate portions when having forgotten things take time to get squared away when initially getting a move forward though the requirements for the amount of time it had taken to simply have the work accomplished, if anyone wants to complain please direct all of your complaints towards the actual individuals and actual groups of individuals involved compared to ever blaming me for what is not my fault.



I have dealt with enough and I do not need nor want nor desire any further problems because of such teenager type behaviour as I will not tolerate such garbage from my own biological children, thus no one else has any higher ground than my biological children to me when taking such realities in consideration. Any publicity is not always good publicity as remember, technology is abundant and all over the place to which to pay attention to referencing all such aspects before assuming anything further from this point forward in time. As the additional insensitivities from such individuals as to the timing of in which I actually found a way to remember my own birthday without the assistance of anyone else though while being pestered and annoyed by such which whether or not you want to acknowledge sand accept the realities thereof, the facts of which it only took 19 years to remember for the first time on my own of my own birthday though a stop in between because of the situations going on in reference to #electionintegrity as well as #factchecking and other such portions during the election cycle of 2020; however what impatience problems bring with such technological portions, as remember there is no such thing as a burner phone as that is a myth regarding the bump portions of the #Apple Apple #iphone iphone illusion as though you ever actually had a choice for such regarding how cellphone technology is to the reference aspects of the movies to the televisions to the desktops to the laptops to the tablets to the cellphones for such regards as vehicle transportation aspects to such similarities.



Thus while there are those who had not remembered the #subway subway system within the various metroplex areas during the 1993 attacks as well as possibly for more in regards of the attacks on 11 September 2001, while you were focused on whatever you were focused on; did you think and/or care about those who have been involved with the aftermath of the attacks on 11 September 2001 between when on land only as to additionally to the above portions due to the airplanes, though did you remember about the ones who had been below within the various modes of such types of transportation? Did you think about those in space in the space stations or what-have-you, or did you remember such was in the sky? Did you think about those who were on boats in the water with limited capacity for signals as to when they would make it ashore, or did you think bout those such as the #Amish and the #Mennonites who have the equivalent of technology as to being out in the middle of the ocean regarding the metaphors?



The disgust I have in reference to stolen valor extends quite a few ways of which those people within the state of Texas who either had a problem with me for whatever aspects of while not paying attention to the details especially if having called me a Yankee as many throughout that state had before my certifications for SCUBA Diving as well as after SCUBA Diving certifications had done to the opposite contrast as to those who had been ignorant to think I could ever be the ways they were about various aspects regarding being born and raised in New Jersey; as it is ignorant to ever think to try to steal valor as a reference aspect to having been born and raised in the state of New Jersey, just as the portions in reference to other such aspects thereof which would instantly get the authentic New Jersey-ian to be hot under the collar referencing such aspects as per it is known to true New Jersey-ians as to always telling the truth as well as those who were in the area of New Jersey for school or work in the 1980s and/or the 1990s as the known repercussions as to what has been known to happen as per the proverbial hypothetical myth as to the #NewJerseyDevils #NewJerseyDevil #Devils New Jersey Devil. Is it irony as to the name of my Big Blood Brother?


Only a true New Jersey-ian sticks by the hockey team of the New Jersey Devils, though can like and appreciate other hockey teams as well. It is ironic as to the hockey team the male who I met at the Cowboys Dance Hall and Stoney LaRue concert situation before I wound up in #WA #Washington #washingtonstate Washington state as he like the #PAPenguins Pennsylvania Penguins of which two references as to Patrick Kennedy being from Pennsylvania and all such legal situations thereof as per already written about after discussing with some throughout the San Antonio area, or in reference to was my fiancé twice at one point in time referencing that situation regarding how he was not informed as to what I had dealt with while he went to Basic Training at the same base I had gone to for my Basic Training when he went in 2010 and what occurred as soon as he left; compared to the aspects additionally referencing my biological sister who I refused all such aspects of already previously and would and will continue to do so as per the facts thereof as to already knowing what is in store for her as to what situations thereof, which there is not any amount of portions to which will ever wash her clean from the spiritual aspects thereof in guarantee as my Big Blood Brother made a promise to me first and has kept his promise for an extremely lengthy amount of time.



Forgiveness is for those who earn it and prove such, to which such tactics hypothetically which began the RICO investigations within the New Jersey and New York City areas are especially seen throughout the hypotheticals in reference to my biological sister and her associations thereof in the ways which my biological mother had willingly pushed for such aspects thereof. If she were to be honest with herself as to the sound of the tone of voice referencing phone calls in regards of when I spoke to her in my apartment compared to when muy son was in the car compared to my apartment later, there Is nothing except for her to look back to such times to figure out which portions were which warnings to her and my biological sister for such aspects in the fullest context as to my Freedom of Religion and my Constitutional Right as I earned unlike either one of them earning such as all they earned was my reference to a comment I made to Rick on the phone in reference to what occurred regarding what I was upset about at that time for what was done.



I have already proven myself to be capable of being on my own as I have taken care of my responsibilities to which the wishes and what my biological mother was too ignorant to see as per the portion referencing the USAA aspect as to the reality thereof regarding having been informed as to what she had been doing, as that was something others did not take into consideration until whenever they thought of such. Just as people came to speak with me and ask me questions about such as in reference to Austin Texas as to the questions about my biological sister, the same in reference to the aspects of how I had gotten my intel from what those people were up to well before my biological mother had gotten involved with the #RedHatSociety Red Hat Society.



It is, what it is as to who those people were as to what names as to which places as to what discussions lead to what points where from the year they moved to the state of Texas in the year of 2003 through to the year of 2012. I do not know who used which technology devices during such times or where regarding the various aspects of the multiple groups such as the San Antonio Stay at Home Mom’s Group and such portions associated thereof, as well as the family in the DFW region regarding the aspects of the football team of the #Cowboys and other such portions throughout non-phone call discussions which would mean my biological mother and my biological sister as well as any of who they may have hypothetically sent and etcetera; as to who else had been informed regarding the in person aspects, to all of such groups. I was asked by one person if there was a song which they could make about me in reference to a show they were working on, which they sang a little bit of the Christmas jingle sounding song which I admittedly forgot to ask what the beginning of the name of the song would be called as well as which series per the show.


I wonder, though.



My son, my daughter, and I: year 2008

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Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have.