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It should not take a head injury
*after personally sustaining a head injury & coma*
to figure this out...

 
 
 
 
 
 


After a Drill Sergeant threw Me into the metal part of the bunk when I was in Basic Training for the United States of America's Army branch at Fort Sill Oklahoma #FortSill #FortSillOK #FortSillOklahoma #OK #Oklahoma in the year of 2000 on Psalm Sunday, I have dealt with the situations as best as I have been capable to do so while taking care of the situations and asking for assistance as per the required explanations of the information to such facts first.  While making the attempts to get assistance for the aspects thereof as to the reality, the aspects of where and when as to the multiple attempts to ask for assistance for me.  As my journal blog for when I was ready to bring such as to my other works forward since as to the lengths of time as to where my modeling was as to the modeling page information, just as the other pages have the information as to such specifics, and just as this journal blog of mine is as to such facts.


If I had real friends (if as to having met in person face to face in person in real life as to the aspects of this particular reference such as from the state of Texas as to the state of Washington as to the years of 2000 through 2013 if I met within the state of Texas for such references), real (the areas of the tristate region as before the year of 2000) family, and real relationships in real life that recognized me as to the aspects of if as to the face to face in person who started in truth as I had started such in truth as to the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, as well as the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain that took 8.5 years to dissipate; then I guesstimate there would be the easier factors as to being capable for me to speak with others in truth in person face to face in person and/or through online measures as to such factors I suppose.  Though would such as to the knowledge of the ways as to how they began such discussions with me as to would there be such a situation, for them to consider as to such if factors as to such discussions with me in truth?


As to some suggestions and commentary within "Finding A Silver Lining" one of several of my bo0ks I personally authored/wrote/compiled as I can only speak and write in truth as per such clarifications as to the reality as to the specifics of such discussions/writings/videos as per my Official You Tube where I have satirical commentary where I comment about the factors as to having dealt with others' opinions about their pop culture references of #NJ #NJstate #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey, though as to for the most part I have actually preferred to be asked with politeness if as to having read my books and/or seen my website as just the same in reference to the timeframes when I was modeling as to having respect as to what I consider as respect, referencing if as to such polite manners as to discussions if as to such having been noticed because of the factors in my opinion as to having real discussions as communication would be if my website was seen before the year of 2023 as I first began my website in 2015; as in my journal blog posts as to the reality of the years of 2010 through 2013, as to the aspects of introductions as to those timeframes when as to various factors as I did not take selfies as I was actually working with photographers as to my creations of my outfits as per the description on the link to my modeling page(s) as to the references regarding my journal blog updates in the years of 2019 through 2022 as the timeframe onward as to the year of 2023 as to the factors as to how such journal blog entries will be as to such factors as to the aspects of the various topic points.


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 I was born and raised in New Jersey and grew up going throughout the tristate northeast areas mainly, and as to how the reality of when the importance of the situations as to the aspects of reviewing as to such facts regarding the logistics for several factors as to the considerations; the years of 2019 through 2022 as to the review process as to the aspects of the timeframe, prior to the timeframe of the 20 year memorial of 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 as well as before the 30 year memorial of February 1993, as to the northeast areas mostly known as to New York City #NYC #NewYork #NY #NYstate #NYU though also as to the #Pentagon Pentagon, as well as Pennsylvania #Pennstate #Pennsylvaniastate as to the reality of how many New Jersey-ians commute in either direction, depending upon what location for the commute. 


The factors though I have said at times, I re-re-re-re-re-re-grew up in the state of  #Texas #TX #Texasstate Texas as to such factors as to the timeframes, as well as all 26 of my SCUBA #SCUBA #SCUBADiving  Diving certifications I earned were through one school within the state of Texas as I also earned winning first place in a Texas Chili cookoff with more than 20 entries as well as my chili recipe as I am adamant about my recipes as to such aspects just as I am specific as to what it actually takes for me to cook in a BBQ as to the required preparations for when I have BBQed.   



I can sarcastically write, those who know of the Rules of the BBQ as to where I grew up as to the Rules of the BBQ as to such factors to the considerations of such preparations.  However that is to cooking food as to the differences of my journal blog entries, as to the factors as to proverbial aspects of food for thought as the difference of real food in real life as to the facts of the situations to such attention to the details as well as attention to the information.


Such facts as to the metaphors in some of such factors that only after reviewing such information as to the aspects of the fiction book series that were as to for My personal life as to such dreamland sorts of factors as to the differences of such hypotheticals, the references thereof as to such regards as to the logistical emotional with the real situations as per the names I was informed of at the timeframes referenced review as to My journal blog as to the situations overall.  


If as to my journal blog being found and read as to where what I consider as common sense, as to the aspects of my satirical saying   how it should not take a head injury to figure out. 
 

*(sometimes utilizing articles discussing facts)*
By:  (Reverend) Susan MeeLing
also known as

The One & Only


(YouTube)   Lady Dori Belle


 

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REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

28 February 2023: 30 Year Memorial from 1993 NJ/NY/NYC/PA

In 1993 the first mainly known attack on #NYC #NewYork #NewYorkCity #NY #NYU New York City in New York state occurred when several garages were struck with vans that were filles with fertilizer and such ball bearings, that several areas were damaged because of the situations that several did not pay attention to correctly per the timeframe of the differences since after 9/11 also known as 9/11/2001 also known as 11 September 2001.



This 28 February 2023 is the 30 year memorial of the attack where many who I once knew the most amount of individuals I personally knew in one overall area per the usual for the overall northeast of the northeast of the United States of America #USA #UnitedStatesofAmerica , when I was 10 years old in 5th grade when I was recovering from Mono/Epstein Bar/Bronchitis/Flu all at the same time and while this day of 28 February 2023 I am recovering from the lack of support that I actually needed instead of what occurred per my own personal needs and attempts referencing those I once knew in person face to face in person before the 20 year memorial in the year of 2021of 11 September 2001 per my attempts in the journal blog updates in the years of 2019 through 2020 per the 20 year of 11 September 2001 in the year of 2021, though per all such updates the capability to see the lack of what I personally would ever consider being emotional support from anyone and everyone I once ever knew in person face to face in person in real life back then in the timeframe of my journal blog updates in the years of 2019 through 2021; though obviously now in the year of 2023 on the 28th of February in the year of 2023 on the 30 year memorial, the lack of anything I personally would consider being emotional support for me for what I personally would consider actual real human being emotional support, however apparently there were not any real human beings I personally once knew in real life in person face to face in person because obviously those who I once knew in person face to face in person in the years prior to the year of 2020 had/have whatever they consider being emotional support from real human beings in real life in person face to face in person though such bothering to such factors of real human decency with the knowledge of the 20 year memorial of 9/11 and the 30 year memorial of today in the year of 1993 obviously such lack of common sense and/or lack of human decency per whatever levels of proof capable to be found and clarified for such verification is and are capable per such factors thereof to such differences of what real emotional support is.



The only way to try to make up for a failure is to actually make real genuine attempts to ask the one and only individual per such factor thereof, and if the real genuine attempts are actually proven to have been attempted in genuine truthful attempts per the facts proven regarding myself per such attempts of mine personally; the facts thereof per such attempts per the factors thereof thus I am clear, though per the reality of if not having asked me personally per such multitudes of ways to actually make the first step to do so though the follow through to actually accomplishing what it takes to actually correctly make up for such factors of such if; then per such common sense per such factors regarding the individual in this situations me myself, comprehending myself per what I consider per such factors as I would not allow others to ever think they actually knew what I would require for such factors before such per the example of #McCoy #McCoys #McCoyElementary #Carrollton #CarrolltonTX #CarrolltonTexas #StateofTexas #Texas #Texasstate McCoy Elementary School of Carrollton Farmers Branch Independent School District where I had not officially ever informed them themselves of what my personal considerations for making up such to me personally would actually be for such factors regarding what I went through additionally to what I was already dealing with per such financial factors and access to such factors without their involvement ever gain whatsoever per such clarifications regarding where I choose to live is where I choose to live because of my choice where I choose for myself since there is not any need nor want nor desire of me from them at all whatsoever regarding such facts per the Fort Worth Zoo situations per there not being any capacity of friendship with those individuals per what I would ever prefer or want for myself personally at all.



Those three females officially would need to be completely ignorant to actually think I would ever want to be real real friends with them personally at ask regarding after the #FWZoo #FortWorthZoo #FtWorth #FtWorthTX #FtWorthTexas #FortWorth #FortWorthTexas Fort Worth Zoo, because it should not take a head injury to figure out from my personal responses of how such is not and was not considered anything I personally would ever consider as friendship from those types per any such if situations regarding my daughter biologically and my son biologically and myself personally since that should not take a head injury to figure out. If they ignorantly thought that just because of Facebook of ever being what I personally consider being a real friend to the difference of what social media is, then such fctors thereof per such factors regarding. Just the same per such if factors of prior dating timeframes if not having kept up my personal requirements for real dating at all, then such factors of what my personal considerations are per real dating.



Thus such factors of the reality of such unwanted sensations regarding per myself because of the facts of how I would not ever belive in any support of me or for me personally of anyone and/or any group ever fighting for me to not have wht I personally require for myself as that would be the largest way to prove to me personally how unwanted I am in each nd every capacity per such not anything I ever asked for, not anything I ever needed, not anything I ever wanted, not anything I ever desired and with the amo9unts of specific clarifictions of the specific points in time of the exct amounts of time per such individuals officially not being capable to actually speak on my behalf to begin with per such not being allowed such factors from me personally because of the facts of the lengths of time where they would officially declare their lack of knowledge of me personally7 and their lack of capability to actually be capable to do and accomplish what my needs are for me personally per such in any capacity of such if factors. Thus such individuals would officially prove in such hypotheticals that instead of actually doing what it took to actually get to know me personally, they refused such factors of actually being allowed such for themselves and in such choices where they made the choices of their own free will to prove to me as well as everyone else within whatever city and/or state and within the United States of America per such factors thereof per such if situations of how unwanted I am per such factors because of the proof of such if factors per the ways thereof per such types who should officially in 100% be shown in full for exactly who they were from the start of their time all the way through to the current point in time per such if factors to prove themselves for themselves to comprehend such factors thereof officially per such if situations because maybe then I can actually be in a real relationship with someone I actually would consider being a real relationship among real friends that I would consider being real friends because that is the fact that real friends per such proof thereof would actually fight for the actual best interests for me for myself instead of ever fighting against such in whatever capacity thereof officially in my personal opinion and the proof is the proof because there is not bueaurocracy in such officially when the ink dries, it is in black and white officially without any grey areas at all.



Thud per such obviously not being a fan of mine per such factors per the common sense that those lying renne faire types that play those opposite day or opposite words games instead of actually speaking the truth per such writing the truth per such factors thereof and per such inclusion of if needed per the clarifications of metaphors to the clarification of just the facts, and thus those problems regarding those types that think such opposition is supportive when opposition is exactly what the word translates to in such references thereof officially per such exact description per the exact point(s) in time.



No one I once knew that actually care(d)/(s) about me personally would ever actually just be ok with what I have dealt with all by myself on my own all by myself per such amounts of and levels of, though such would actually ask me if they actually knew me in real life in person face to face in person most specifically to such differences of the online portions per such facts per the aspects of the number of messages and the in depthness of the messages per such factors directly.



Though this is also one of many reasons why I got along better with males biologically than females biologically because of such needless opposite day type of such situations, because if I were to actually have and keep what I actually need at all times and what I personally consider per such factors thereof per my needs instead of such others; assumptions that have been the problem for far too long regarding what I have dealt with; such factors in my opinion where all opposite day type of lying renne faire types need to just per the some referencing everyone at all times the 100% truth at all times.



If others have complained they have per such factors of their personality wannabes then per such if actually telling the truth at all times per such factors of my life experiences per themselves per them always telling the truth at all times 100% of the time per the real truth, the difference that would make in all such factors for more than just myself per what I personally have dealt with instead of what I personally would enjoy per such factors of what my personal considerations are instead of what has not been enjoyable for me personally because of the facts of others' misinterpretations from others because of whatever the facts are per their prior programming.



Then again who actually of who I once knew would actually have known about my website and/or my work since such requirements of instead of what I dealt with for example of 2009 through 2013, the opposite of such factors I already clarified were problematic of each and every situation per such lack of comfort for me personally per such clarifications per the years of 2013 through 2019 per such factors of the common sense per my clarifications; per a joke that is not a joke about a monk who had only two words per such factors regarding the situations, because obviously not doing what I actually need and actually require and fighting against such instead of fighting for such is where each one of those individuals I once knew in real life in person face to face in person fought for their right to utilize those two words from which they were known per such prior factors regarding such situations of stirring up needless drama instead of actually doing what was/is needed at the exact point(s) in time to actually be supportive per what I personally consider being supportive of me and what I personally consider per such for me personally.



Then again if no one thought about me personally to begin with in such factors thereof then the common sense for such reasons why of such unwanted factors of such sensations per such common sense situations, per the proof of such factors per the reality of such types instead of such factors of actually being of such importance for life and for living per such choices regarding such factors.




Just because I have a journal blog it should not take a head injury to figure out there is a difference between writing where there has not ever been anything I personally would consider being a response to my writings per such lack of discussions per what occurs when there is emotional support per emotional support being real discussions instead of just reading and then doing absolutely nothing that would be considered assistive to the exact point(s) in time of when such emotional support if there were real friends and if there was real whether chosen or whathaveyou family if 6there actually were such for me personally, however since there is the clear facts that I personally have not had anything I would ever consider being any real discussion with anyone I personally once knew in real life in person face to face in person because there has not been any phone calls from such individuals ever at any point in time of actually informing me they knew per what respect would be if actually congratulatory of me per anything I have ever done before and thus my personal lack of any attempt per after such a point in time because why would I bother when there was not one person throughout the entire state of Texas from the years of 2009 through 2013 who was ever capable to give a decent respectful compliment throughout the years regarding my modeling and such other situations from the year of 2000 when I woke up and was in #MedicalHoldUnit #WTU #WarriorTranstitionUnit #JBSA #MilitaryCityUSA #SanAntonio #SATX #FWTX #SanAntonioTexas #SanAntonioTX Medical Hold Unit in JBSA in San Antonio Texas also known as Military City USA through the year of 2013, per such facts of the occurrences thereof during those years.



Thus since the 10 year memorial sit6uations in the year of 2003 per such overall factors that I personally did not need nor want nor desire at all per such factors per the clear distinctions I have updated per my journal blog in the years of my updates per 2019 through 2022 mainly, though such facts of what is and was best for me personally would be great if such actually7 would be for me personally and completed per what my personal considerations are for my personal best interests for myself instead of what occurrences from such failures of what my personal requirements are for what I would ever personally consider being emotionally supportive of me personally. Those others I once knew in person face to face in person in real life during the years from 1993 through 2001 did not understand anything at all in the larger factors thereof per what I personally dealt with, though additionally when the time was most important for such they also did not make any real attempts to do so per such points in time.



The facts of the year of 2003 when there was nothing I personally needed of that year referencing what I personally consider being emotional support for the memorial of 1993 per the facts that would require there being real discussions in person face to face in person during that exact point in time, because that exact point in time was the 10 year memorial of 1993 where many people I personally knew either commuted to the #WTC #WTCP World Trade Center and/or World Trade Center Plaza and while some might silently per such lack of real support for me personally per my personal lack of the desire to ever write anything per such choice of my preference of having real support in my real life in person face to face in person in my real life per individuals I personally trust and actually have sensations of comfort being around; however since there are obvious such lack of amounts of those factors officially per the facts thereof per the lack of any differences in major ways per the timeframe of the 10 year memorial of 9/11 also known as 11 September 2001 in the year of 2011; since that should not take a head injury to figure out additionally the 20 year memorial of 1993 was in the year of 2013, thus if I actually had the real support I personally needed would have been far better for my biological son and my biological daughter and myself personally amongst many more people who would have been capable to reconnect with those whom they knew alive in such circumstances though per the proof of the timeframes of what I personally dealt with instead of real support for the situations per the years per the individuals thereof officially per the facts per the reality of proof per the proof per that not taking a head injury to figure out.



It should not take a head injury to figure out the facts of what I personally did not need throughout the timeframes of such lack of support obviously began from my childhood hat I personally have not denied occurred though have attempted to have real support for myself personally per such factors, though admittedly the direct order from individuals from the situations when 2001 was per the times when the times after I delivered my biological son per the 9 days later when 9/11 occurred and the hospitalizations where when in the hospitals the assistances to the information per the areas per the timeframes of the facts when in #WilfordHall Wilford Hall. I still remember looking at the line of cars outside of the window area from the unit that the room was in for both times, per the line up of the vehicles per the entrance area for the base per the timeframe of 2001 in the months of September through November per the factors.



Again my personal life experiences are not for anyone else at all whatsoever per such copyrights and trademarks throughout, thus per such factors of my personal life experiences per such facts regarding the reality of such factors per such recognition factors per the aspects of what my personal considerations of are and not what others think of themselves per such factors of what hypothetical misinterpretations they have had if any such if factors though the proof of the lack of support for me personally because of any such if factors proven anywhere at any point(s) in time per such factors regarding my personal permissions per such factors that I personally had not given any such factors for any such situations to utilize without my personal recognition per each and every individual situation per such factor of if situations regarding specifically if I am the one and only per such factors per the common sense situations if there is/was/could be common sense for anyone else per such factors. Thus the lack of anything I personally consider being supportive of me emotionally per my personal considerations and not as any request at all per such common sense, just point6ing out the facts of what I already have dealt with per such larger amounts of time combined and the situations combined where I personally did not ask for anything negative to ever occur that I personally consider being negative since that should not take a head injury to figure out at all. Hypothetically if others I once knew were actually decent human beings per what my personal considerations per real support referencing such others' luxuries per what their considerations of emotional support though such failures referencing outside of themselves per such facts proven referencing any and all situations per such proof thereof per such facts, though since there has not been anything at all per such real support for me again not any requests for such; since it should not take a head injury to figure out the amount of journal blogs I personally have written to all of the lacking of personal support the entire time per each and every journal blog, because it should not take a head injury to figure out there is no such thing of emotional support per any points in time of my journal blog because I would have spoken with others in person face to face in person in depth instead of writing such factors per such online portions per the differences because of actually having the real support at the exact points in time to actually believe of my own personal real support instead of what has been proven to me personally throughout the years of 2000 through 2013 and 2013 through 2018 and 2019 through 2022 after the years of the 1980s and the 1990s per the proofs thereof such for the clarifications and the verifications.



If I had real emotional support per my personal considerations at the times of such importance, then my considerations of such prior individuals I once knew per such differences because thereof per such facts referencing the exact situations specifically regarding myself per such individuals who were not anything of real emotional support whatsoever and that is nothing for them to ever be proud of at all as there is nothing for them to ever take credit they did not earn for whatsoever since they did nothing to build my personal character whatsoever.



Referencing the situations regarding the facts of 2001 of the fullest amounts of lacking in any emotional support even with the direct orders from the doctors as well as the se4curity guards as there is nothing to go back from to ever have a real relationship with any individual who would actually fight against such requirements and direct orders per the humane needs and requirements per such factors, as there is nothing about those types of individuals who would ever or could ever be successful per actual real needs emotionally to begin with if they actually fight against real emotional support or any7 real support whatsoever for me personally and only reproves how they were not good enough for me personally to begin with to ever be involved in anything at all within my life personally per such facts proven and such includes the now in time per such factors thereof per the proof of there not being any real reason or any real need for them personally to in any such capacity of any such factors thereof officially because being nosey is not anything considered as real support for me whatsoever at all. I am not interested in such lacking of what I personally consider being supportive per such clarifications and verifications and updates and anyone who thought otherwise in my personal opinion lacks anything and everything that would ever be considered as what I personally consider being humanity and civility at all for me whatsoever because of the facts proven, and since the facts proven are nothing of real emotional or real support for me personally per such factors of what my personal considerations are for such factors; the reality of this point in time of the 30 year memorial is not for anyone else apparently because since there have not been any individual I personally met since the year of 1998 who had eve3r any direct involvement of the area of the New York City New York state areas at the exact point(s) in time of the 1993 attacks per such factors similarly to the timeframes of the year of 2020 when the first individuals I ever met from the area of the northeast per what I was informed per the timeframes per such factors of the northeast during the timeframes thereof in the year of 2001 per such 2020 timeframe.



It should not take a head injury to figure out per such individuals per such specific points in time per the exact locations per such knowledge thereof per such situations of those areas, thus per such factors since the year of 1993 proper though also since then per the obvious factor of if I had real emotional support from real people I knew at the exact points in time when I finally went to the east coast of if there were not coattail riders instead; there would have been real individual people with me in person face to face in person per being at my side when I went to the New Jersey and the New York state and the Pennsylvania areas in the years of 2020 and 2021 and 2022 in the exact same vehicle in the exact same points in time because going afterwards does not and will not ever count as anything I would ever consider being real support for me personally whatsoever since that should not take a head injury to figure that out whatsoever at all. It should not take a head injury to figure out those would only be wannabes instead of anyone that would ever actually be of real support for me because only those of real support for me personally would have been directly at my side in real life in person face to face in person with me at the exact point(s) in time where exactly physically being in the exact location side by side in person face to face in person in real life in the exact same trip in the exact same vehicle in the exact same location(s) at the exact same point in time when I personally am per such per no more than 10 feet away from me on the same floor on the same ground as it should not take a head injury to figure out having the clarify such facts per what real emotional support would be only reproves through such needless bueaurocracy per such factors of such explanations only the proof of all such failures throughout each and every individual who did not think about such before this point in time and/or actually had to have such an explanation for their knowledge of how their lack of support was always per such lack of real emotional support; though once again, nothing I personally would ever consider being emotionally supportive of me personally, when I already knew of such failures of those individuals I once knew at such points in time previously per such factors of well before such updates to my journal blog though my own hopes there would actually be improvement though such starting point of improvement starts with me since that should not take a head injury to figure out such facts either.



The reality of the timeframes of 2020 through 2022 per such lacking of what I personally7 needed at such exact point(s) in time of individuals I personally knew in real life in person face to face in person in real life that I personally once knew in real life, however since there was no one I personally once knew in real life in person face to face in person in real life who either paid attention to the reality of the 20 year memorial in the year of 2021 of that being its own concern because it should not take a head injury to figure out if someone and/or some people actually lost any amount of real people in real life in person face to face in person per such real connections per the situations per the exact months per the does not matter the exact year per such energetic factors without needing the calendar for a larger factor per such energetic factors of the emotional factors per such situations. Thus it should not take a head injury to figure out in my personal opinion if individuals at memorials of 9/11 and/or 1993 do not have real emotional responses, then why would they be speaking about situations they personally were to such if factors of words per such situations?



It should not take a head injury to figure out if there were real connections per the northeast of the United States of America per such in the years of the 1980s and the 1990s per childhood and teenager years, the real need internally to actually get to the areas themselves officially instead of any location that is considered being a tourist location first since it should not take a head injury to figure out if doing tourist stuff first instead of going to where would be for the memories to be capable to retain per such facts thereof per such each and every individual per such factor.



Thus in reference to where I personally went I personally have not and would not ever allow such to ever be considered as support for me because it is not support for me personally at all per such common sense factors, since support for me personally would require what I personally consider being supportive of me personally regarding such factors of real emotional support in references to such factors of my personal life experiences per such point(s) in time of the exact point in time and thus per such factors of anything thereafter is not considered supportive of me personally because of the facts of me personally not being there at all since that is common sense. Since I have actually asked per such explanations for the opposite of what I personally have dealt with and thus such having real friends and having real relationships and having real comfort and having real luxuries per my personal considerations thereof per for myself instead of what occurrences have only been the opposite of what my requests have been at each and every point in time per the opposite of everything I actually asked for me personally, because if what I personally asked for actually being what I actually needed/wanted/desired per when I would be capable to consistently be in a decent mood or even dare I write actually in a consistent good mood for myself instead of the garbage I personally have sensed per such situations referencing the complete opposite of what my personal requirements of what my minimum standards are for myself personally since it does not take a head injury to figure out I comprehend what I personally consider being minimum standards for myself instead of what failures from each and every other individual may have hypothetically thought for themselves of what they consider minimum standards are instead of what my personal considerations of my minimum standards are.



If my minimum standards for myself were exactly per what my minimum standards are for myself, then obviously I would actually be within what my considerations of my minimum standards are instead of what I personally did not ask for at all; especially in reference of the years of 2019 through 2022, since it should not take a head injury to figure out the lacking of any real support per my personal considerations of what I personally consider being supportive of me at any point in consistent time per such factors regarding what each individual has been capable to have for themselves per such complaining of theirs instead of anything I personally actually have needed per such factors, of hypotheticals per each and every individual thereof officially.



It should not take a head injury to figure out doing nothing except complaining about me is only doing nothing while complaining while doing nothing worthwhile that is assistive for me personally at all, per such factors then there would be nothing for them to complain about if they actually did what I actually needed for me personally instead since I personally do not and have not ever enjoyed complaining at all. It should not take a head injury to figure out that it is nothing of a good mood consistently per such factors regarding what I personally consider per such factors of what my considerations are for myself for a good mood at all, thus such factors of the failures regarding each and every individual attempt I have made per such factors because if my attempts were worthwhile for me personally per actually being capable to believe in real reasons to be in a good mood instead of the continued fact6ors of what has not been anything of what I would ever consider being a good mood for me whatsoever.



It should not take a head injury to figure out if anyone is supposed to that writing of mine above, then such individuals did not ever know who I am to begin with from the start.



It should not take a head injury to figure out then the lack of support those individuals would be per such factors of what does not do anything to keep me happy at all per such factors of I would actually have to be in a good mood from the start to be kept happy since that should not take a head injury to figure out at all, since such saying factors are not where I am in a good mood if such clarifications are required for such failures throu7ghout the entirety of such if factors.



It sho7uld not take a head injury to figure out the facts of my saying per such facts of my saying, since some things just should not take a head injury to figure out at all.



It should not take a head injury to figure out the amounts of attempts to get to people I personally once knew in real life to reconnect with them per such factors per the areas per the times, only those who would actually care about me personally would have actually assisted me per what my actual needs were/are per actually being capable to do so on time at the correct point(s) in time with the correct individuals specifically instead of anything else as there is nothing worthwhile to me personally for anyone of those look alikes or wannabes per such factors of those types of such individuals as those types are not anything assistive to me personally at all whatsoever because quite simply they are not them who I once knew in person in real life in person face to face in person per some factors such as within Illinois per such factors there and such other situations of such hypotheticals per the timeframes thereof in the north above the Mason Dixon Line areas per such proof thereof officially per such factors per such individuals that would not be anyone I personally consider being supportive of me personally at all since it should not take a head injury to figure out lookalikes are not the same as the authentic individual themselves officially.



Since such factors of what I dealt with in the years of 2019 through 2020 of those areas per where those who I once knew if they were actually supportive of me in the capacities of what my personal needs were per such points in time per the differences of my personal responses, since that should not take a head injury to figure out there is nothing supportive I personally would ever consider being supportive of watching/reading and then doing nothing that would actually be considered what I personally consider being supportive thus if not doing what I personally would consider being supportive of me personally, then there is nothing for them to complain about per such choices of their lack of support to what my personal considerations are per such for me personally per my considerations thereof per the proof of such facts. It should not take a head injury to figure out if I have clarified such per not being what I personally consider being supportive of me if there are any arguing per such factors thereof when the clear consistent proof of such factors per what my personal considerations are per what I personally consider per support per such specific factors because of my own capabilities to distinctively see multiple ways per such factors; however when the specifics per such specific situations of the levels thereof per such factors regarding the lacking of such support per real individuals per real support per such factors if there are no individuals who are capable to actually be good enough human beings per such factors thereof per such aspects of being supportive per just being there that would have been good enough, the failures of all such individuals who have failed to ever be even good enough to just be there to just lean on per such failures of all such individuals throughout the factors thereof per such common sense factors Biblically of no human being should be by themselves. It should not take a head injury to figure out obviously all such points in time of how by myself per such factors throughout all such different points in time, per such facts proven repeatedly per such facts proven per each situation(s) throughout such facts per such clarifications per such unhelpfulness and unassistiveness from such factors regarding the personal needs of mine per comprehension of myself.



Thus such factors of the attempts per my updates to my journal blog per the years of 20198 through 2022 all such individuals who proved their lack of support for me personally at the exact points in time because of their willingness to speak with others about me per such lack of support for me personally because obviously speaking with others about me is not anything supportive of me personally because when speaking with others about me and not doing anything that actually would be considered of what I personally would ever consider being supportive of me because of what my personal considerations of support are, then speaking about me and doing nothing actually supportive for me then translates to speaking about me and doing nothing supportive per my considerations of support for me personally since that should not take a head injury to figure out such lip service of empty words of air and the lacking of such follow through of actual assistance then per such lack of follow through with actual assistance. Again the only way to actually assist me is to actually assist me since that is not something that should take a head injury to figure out, and thus per such asking me personally to actually ask me to actually get the full information instead of what I choose to post about when I choose to post per such factors regarding such situations regarding the factors thereof per such lacking of supportive factors; because if there was the supportive factors per my considerations thereof, per the common sense of the immediate factors per such common sense per reality.



Due to the facts of such situations referencing 2020 regarding just before the 20 year memorial of 9/11/2001 also known as 11 September 2001 also known as 9/11 of that being absolutely unsupportive of me personally as well as absolutely unsupportive of those who knew individuals from where I was born and raised in the northeast, since it should not take a head injury to figure out that is a type of #endallstolenvalornow multiple reasons why to end stolen valor that should be ended at all factors in my personal opinion; since the aspects of what is not supportive of me personally to meet individuals who have done so regarding such factors of 9/11 and/or 1993 regarding such factors. Though I suppose those if factors of being accurate during such points in time of the year of 2020 while those others were capable to get support for themselves, the common sense of them getting support for themselves is them getting support for themselves and while in the common sense factors of what support for me myself per such factors thereof if any point in time of ever actually thinking about such and doing something about such for the actual assistance support for me personally. However if per such factors of such arguments amongst those who I once knew, then their arguments amongst themselves only reprove the lack of support each and every one of them individually and collectively have been and are in my personal opinion per such not ever being what I personally would ever consider being supportive of me personally at all and thus just letting me go is the only factor of real support realistically instead of holding onto what is not wanted to begin with because if I was wanted per such then I would be fought for to be with per such common sense of if per what I personally would consider being best for me myself per the facts regarding the proof of what support has actually been per what has there not been per such support for me personally regarding such factors.



There is nothing that per such timeframe of 2001 through 2010 where those who are biological relations to my biological son and my biological daughter that was ever anything of real support for me personally about such factors per whether in reference of my real medical needs and/or my real emotional needs per such timeframes of what assistance or actual supportive factors or actual real encouragement per my personal considerations of what encouragement is, I personally gave per the individual factors referencing after the initial announcements of the attacks on the World Trade Center referencing the Twin Towers per such factors regarding those situations, and thus per such factors referencing the situations regarding the lack of support per what I would ever consider being actually supportive of me personally; the factors of the reality when survivor of a head injury/TBI i8s capable to verify with coherent words, then there is nothing others can ever say that would ever be worthwhile of any of their involvements officially per any such needless situat6ions they caused per any such proof thereof to cause anything needlessly that is considered being unsupportive per such needless situations and/or needless drama and/or needless games and/or needless situat6ions per such if factors per that not being supportive of the survivor of the head injury/TBI to begin wit6h officially per such proof of being capable to verbalize and/or such levels of proof that any arguments to such against such are against such and invalid and unworthy of such factors of being involved with me to begin with in my personal opinion because of such amounts of prior irresponsibility per such needless situations caused to begin with from such if factors per such biologicals on either side of my biological son and my biological daughter where I personally should at this point in time just be capable to what my personal considerations are instead of anyone else at all per any and all such factors per the proof of where there has not been what my personal needs are in full at all times per being exactly where I personally am per that being the only way per such needs for me personally being for me personally. It should not take a head injury to figure out when having dealt with such situat6ions of such hypotheticals, the facts of comprehending myself and comprehending my needs per such factors of such hypotheticals are not anything supportive of me personally per there not being anything worthwhile referencing such in my personal opinion per not anything actually proving to me through showing me through such proof of actually being and actually doing what I personally consider being supportive of me per what my considerations are. Such needless bueaurocracy pushes forward the exact same sensations of what is not supportive of me personally whatsoever instead of what actually would be supportive of me, per such attempts I made because if there were those who are/were/are actually supportive of m personally then such actual real ease for me personally as the facts are per such the only way I personally consider enjoyment is only per such factors.



It should not take a head injury to figure out when there is nothing sexually attractive whatsoever per anything of what I have dealt with per such timeframes of 2019 through 2022, then it should not take a head injury to figure out any individual thinking this would ever get my personal proverbial motor running only knows 100% nothing about me personally at all to what would ever be for me to ever be in such a mindset at all whatsoever and would officially prove 100% of what uselessness there is per all such factors of the supposedly consenting factors per there not being any real consent from me because of the requirements of being informed before officially. Thus if any such factors of failures regarding prior situations where a real relationship once was per such points in time to the difference of now where there is nothing of such factors regarding such needless drama types where the official failures of all of those types of lying renne faire types of where when I actually comprehend myself per my own personal factors, the lack of anything that officially would ever be attractive to me personally per such amounts of stress needlessly as there is nothing sexually attractive to me personally at all about one night6 stands in any capacity whatsoever and thus the failures of those types to ever think that would ever be supportive of me either when I have clarified t6hat is not anything I personally consider being worthwhile to me personally at all per my own personal religious beliefs in conjunction to my own personal morals and my own personal values. Thus reasons why if known about a marriage then there is nothing turned on per such factors of either side if I personally am not attracted to both, additionally of where such factors of what my personal considerations are per such if factors of where the time specifically matters just as much as the specific situations at the time.



Thus those types in the supposedly consenting factors when an individual comprehends themselves per what their own best interests are per what is best for themselves personally any individual and/or group at all that needlessly involves themselves per such unwanted types of whatever they themselves feel good for them to the difference of what is best and is of best sensations for me personally, and since such of those types needing to comprehend how unsupportive they are per any such if factors officially per what my personal requirements are for myself personally per my factors; then any such pushes in any capacity of what I personally do not consider being for my personal best interests, then such factors of what is not for my personal best interests at all and is the 100% opposite of anything that would ever get me personally to ever believe I am attractive whatsoever because of such ingenuinity per such hypotheticals as there is nothing attractive to me personally about an individual who is not actually attracted and interested in me personally whatsoever. Those types who possibly believe that makes them feel attractive, well that is what makes them feel attractive in the difference of what I personally require for me to personally consider myself attractive per what my personal considerations are.



I did not think it took a head injury to figure that out, though since so many people have thought of New York City instead of #NJ #NJstate #NewJersey #NewJerseystate New Jersey #NewJerseyStrong #NewJerseystate when knowing I am born and raised in New Jersey per such annoyances of those types needing to comprehend New Jersey is New Jersey and New York City is not New Jersey at all. It should not take a head injury to figure out when Atlantic City could not get the same factors of New York City because it was and is not allowed to be anything like New York City referencing #Atlantic Atlantic City in New Jersey because of other requirements, then such types need to just accept the facts that not all areas need nor want nor desire such white and/or black washing factors per such situations per the reality of in certain individual factors there re some grey areas though depending upon the individual depends upon the amount of what levels of white washing or back washing factors per such situations and whether such factors are actually factual matter very much as well per the facts mattering because the truth matters because the 10 Commandments #10Commandments #10CommandmentsMatter matter in each situation.



It should not take a head injury to figure out such facts, just as it should not take a head injury to figure out if I personally was actually supported and individuals I once knew in person in real life face to face in person in real life if they actually were supportive of life and living per such differences of the choices of such responses per the proof thereof per such knowledge thereof officially.



It should not take a head injury to figure out the lack of support for me in the months of August and September and October and November and December of the year of 2001, thus the lack of support for real life and real living per the proof thereof referencing the facts depending upon the individual(s) and the individual situations per such specific points in time.



It should not take head injury to figure out in the year of 2003 the lack of support for me personally per such facts thereof throughout the entire year of each and every individual(s) nd each and every individual situation(s) per the proof thereof to the clear distinctions of if I had real support for me personally per what I personally required at that specific point in time to the difference of the point in time now and yet6 the lack of any real differences to the lack of support currently because of what I personally consider being supportive regarding individuals I once knew in real life, though such per those who I once knew per such factors of who I once knew. The proof of who actually cared the most per such proof thereof per such factors per the facts thereof per my journal blog updates per such proof of real attempts in real truth, thus such choices and actions as well as inactions prove the factors thereof officially per the years of 2019 through 2022 though I suppose they wanted such factors per their own needs to not be involved in my life at all and not involved in anything I personally would consider being supportive of me personally per such factors referencing the truth of such situations of what I personally consider being supportive of me personally because my personal opinion matters.



Since the fact of such proof of the facts regarding such factors when supporting others that is supporting others and not supporting me, since that should not take a head injury to figure out.



It should not take a head injury to figure out if arguments about me unless it is arguments of what is actually for my personal best interests for me personally per my considerations of what I personally consider and then actually doing so can only be the factors of what is actually supportive of me, though when there is no need for any arguments whatsoever then such factors of causing any arguments instead of doing what would be supportive of me then translates to the same lack of support because it should not take a head injury to figure out being supportive of me would be of if such factors where and when and how and why and with whom I could actually relax in such facts of the need for such regarding what I personally consider such instead of what is not relaxing for me personally at all.



I can use my saying how I choose to use my saying since I do not have to be in a horrific mood constantly to be capable to use my saying since it should not take a head injury to figure that out either, though apparently for some it might take one who survived such to point out such factors thereof to think about to such viewpoints of such if factors.



It should not take a head injury to figure out if my saying is that stunning, then think abou7t what situations are per such to actually be at that level per such and what levels of real intelligence are per such differences of lacking intelligence per such factors regarding such situations of hypotheticals of what I personally did not and do not need to use my saying per such factors.



Additionally I owe no one to speak my saying since having created my journal blog since the amounts of times I had said such previously before my putting such in the references thereof per the factors of my saying in my journal blog per the reality of the lack of intelligence pointed out in such references regarding using the saying to begin with, since I was informed of being in second grade math from my ASVAB scores per after having woken up from my coma from my Psalm Sunday in the year of 2000 head injury in Basic Training per such connections referencing such points in time per such factors I have dealt with regarding the lacking of common sense. I acknowledge not always being correct about anything and everything per such factors of acknowledging the after effects from my Psalm Sunay 2000 head injury/TBI during my Basic Training specifically because of the 8.5 years it6 took for that subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain that it took to dissipate because I would not have had a subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain if it were not for that head injury/TBI on Psalm Sunday when I was in Basic Training just per the same facts the dent in my skull from the head injury from when I was in Basic Training would not be there if I did not have a head injury/TBI in Basic Training per the factors thereof per not having been informed of such officially until the year of around 2017 or 2018 though possibly as early as 2016 of when a hairstylist had brought up noticing the factors thereof and after such lengths of time of such factors others just need to accept that reality that has been the reality and remains the reality and will always be the reality of such facts regarding the situations that occurred officially.



Thus per such factors regarding the truth of such situations the lack of supportive factors of those types who complained about my hairstyle and/or my hair color yet they do not deal with my headaches physically themselves, they do not deal with my migraines physically themselves, they do not del with my persona anything themselves from such specifics thereof officially per any such physical factors per in any such capacity from the starting point at all whatsoever and thus they themselves have not ever actually suffered per such factors at all whatsoever. It should not take a head injury to figure out the same for the subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal lobe of my brain that can be the same in reference to the length of time it took to dissipate just the same as that is the truth where they have officially not ever actually dealt personally with such, because of the requirements of the facts of the personal specific experiences thereof from such choices of theirs to try to say they were impacted when they were not impacted at all whatsoever officially per such facts at the specific exact point in time of such factors specifically per such facts.



It should not take a head injury to figure out if others are made to think and are capable in better ways from such an abrupt saying that does not translate support to me personally by causing anything needlessly for such factors to be utilized at all per such factors nor does it translate to support to me through anything I personally consider as lacking in manners and/or lacking in intellectual factors of such points regarding such situations, then per such factors of the lack fo support when in any such capacities of ever being rude and/or socially unacceptable per such factors per the references regarding the regards thereof per such factors; and since I do not need discomfort to write nor use my saying, then such any uncomforted only reproves the lack of support instead of anything supportive of me per my personal considerations and does not assist me personally whatsoever per such factors of anything I personally would prefer and rather be doing instead of such factors.



I do not need/want/desire/prefer/have any ideals for lack of support of me personally regarding the situations per such factors of what has not been supportive of what my actual needs are for me personally, though it should not take a head injury to figure out asking individuals who have failed to be capable to keep me in a good mood would be the opposite of who to ask to actually get such accomplished for me to be in a good mood consistently per such factors per such amounts of their failures to do so per such facts proven per what my personal considerations are for me being in a good mood.



If I am not in a good mood because of such factors from others per such situations, then I am not in a good mood from such factors from those types of those individuals per those situations and thus per such it should not take a head injury to figure out the facts thereof per such factors that I personally did not ask for and I personally did not need and I personally did not want and I personally did not desire and I personally did not prefer and I personally did not have ideals for per such factors referencing anything I personally consider being anything less than my personal minimum standards in full of what my personal considerations are because of my upbringing in the combined factors of my capability to think for myself of what is best for me to make the attempts to actually accomplish such for myself for me per if I had real support and if I had real care about me and if I had real care for me personally then the reality of being capable and actually having and keeping such for myself personally instead of what I personally have already clarified has not been keeping me in a good mood whatsoever such as the amounts of lacking of what I personally consider being support that I personally did not ask for the lacking thereof whatsoever.



Though that would be what my biological mother and my biological father and my biological little sister would ask for instead of anything I personally would ask for fort myself personally, and the proof of such factors per the facts of such unhappiness regarding my entire personal life referencing the proof of such factors in each and every capacity thereof where they might try to say they were supportive of me through pushing me into situations I personally did not ask for and I personally did not want and I personally did not desire and I personally did not ask for per such factors at all whatsoever because of their failures to ever comprehend that is not supportive of me per what my actual needs/wants/desires are to ever push me in any direction I personally do not have anything I personally would ever consider being good memories at all per such combined factors per the facts and thus such lacking of supportiveness for me personally is and has been and will always be considered the failures of each of them individually personally per such factors thereof in my personal opinion because when someone such as myself does not need to be pushed to get stuff accomplished when it is actually enjoyed.



For example, my Medal of Honor Art Project Artwork as there are ways of what respect for such actually is to the difference of such hypotheticals per "The Modern Day Book".



It should not take a head injury to figure out those types who in such if hypotheticals of wannabes and attention seekers types per such knowledge of either way they would get bratty attention per such lying renne faire types per such knowledge thereof to whom they would complin to because those types see any attention s good attention because of those types, instead of ever actually when if such factors of such comprehension regarding such if factors regarding those types to learning the truth that not all attention is good attention because it should not take a head injury to figure out if such capacities of where those types stir up needless drama because of attention seeking behaviour just for yourself instead of such factors of actual work, since it should not take a head injury to figure out that when the real situations are the real situations then anything else is considered as needless drama instead of the real situations where such real situations are not needless drama those attention seeker types per such selfishness per such differences between my modeling per the years of 2009 through 2013 per actual modeling per through actual contracts that I personally signed on paper in person face to face in person per almost each specific photographer from that exact point in time of the exact locations per the exact points in time per no other points in time per such factors thereof per such reality and my capability to remember the real pieces of paper per such factors of the exact timeframes and the exact individuals per the specific locations per the facts thereof per while some might think of models being dumb because the models in the pictures do not speak words in the pictures obviously per such common sense factors; thus per such common sense factors of my modeling per there not being words spoken in the images whatsoever per such factors thereof to how some may have needed to comprehend models actually have more than just their looks per such factors.



I suppose in a metaphor to certain types of individuals per their opinions of the lifestyle per the number factors to the difference per the metaphors per such relationship factors per the references thereof officially I suppose, per such difference per my personal opinion regarding relationship factors. Though through such metaphors of my modeling I personally posted the images thereof from my modeling sessions specifically in the difference of family pictures where such was not modeling officially I suppose the factors thereof while multiple photographers for just the images per my modeling, there not being anything of such viewpoints other than just me myself per such factors regarding the aspects thereof for the majority of my modeling images. I suppose in a different metaphor whether an individual considere(d)/(s) me as an acquaintance and/or a friend and/or relationship from such prior points in time of this point in time of 2023 on the 28th day of February in this year of 2023 on the 30 year memorial day of 28 February 2023, how many situations I by myself per such factors thereof to such differences of being alone with another whom I actually prefer to such factors to the facts proven in pictures regarding such facts. Thus I suppose a bit of a failure of others to ever think that just because of modeling for multiple photographers when the reality of such payments and the recognition per the factors of what I consider in the correct respectful ways would actually be the correct measurement of what considerations referencing what I personally would consider being a successful model, in my personal opinion.



When my work whether my modeling and/or my art paintings and/or my Medal of Honor Art Project Artwork, since that is not anything other than such factors per my own personal considerations specifically were required to actually be what I would consider being encouraging to me personally and encouraging for me personally per my personal considerations; then the common sense per such factors per the situations referencing the clear distinctions per what I personally would consider being encouraging to the fullest difference of all such proven factors per the exact points in time of such situations proven, regarding the facts thereof. It should not take a head injury to figure out anyone that would try military factors at all would officially end all factors of such modeling work I was doing per such lack of common sense per such factors regarding my personal work regarding such complete factors. Thus my such if situations per those types of ever thinking that would ever be encouraging to me about and/or for my modeling, the failures in all such capacities when going off of those lying renne faire types of such worthlessness per all such factors officially and fully per each and every type and each and every time per such facts proven.



If my work was actually truthfully per my considerations actually appreciated correctly then per such anytime and every time they ever tried pushing instead of staying out of everything that actually would be considered being encouraging for me and encouraging of me would only prove such factors referencing such types instead of anything that actually would be what I personally consider being encouraging for me and instead of anything I would consider being encouraging of me personally, per the facts. I did not need such pushes before at all and thus any pushes without anything that I personally consider being worthwhile for me then only has proven for what such factors regarding the updates to me journal blog per such factors, the common sense per such factors per the proof of those types of their intentions instead per such facts proven of those situations.



Some individuals actually do require positive encouragement per what their considerations are for positive encouragement of such factors, thus if any such hurt feelings per such factors regarding my words to such differences of what words were chosen previously from such individuals towards me personally per such proof that not all attention is good attention I suppose if they were to actually think about such if they actually could think for themselves per such factors regarding such if situations when there would have been the requirements to believe in actual real support though such prior timeframes instead of seeing the proof of such from at the exact point(s) in time of the exact point(s) in time of actual point(s) in time of writing to the difference of updates per logistical review per the common sense that a logistical review of the times before should not take a head injury to figure out the additional situations of the times before through the times of the updates since it should not take a head injury to figure out the exact point(s) in time are the exact point(s) in time of such thoughts and actions and writings per such exact point(s) in time only per the requirement of the truth at all times 100% and the facts of such truth at all times per such from the exact point(s) in time forward through such exact point(s) in time.



There were rumors about a few things that lead to 1993 regarding certain factors within New York City proper per such factors thereof at the exact point(s) in time, though no one at those exact point(s) in time had believed me when the exact needs were at the exact point(s) in time. Thus such factors of the rumors I was told about regarding others per such factors, I made the attempts for such lengths of time to actually speak with the correct individuals per such factors thereof for such lengths of time that in this point in time of the 30 yer memorial per such lack of discussions with whom I would comprehend the real factors thereof for such real needs per the correct factors instead of the proven factors of prior biases per such if factors referencing such types instead of actully getting me to the specific individual(s) to speak with of those types of attention seekers per the proof of actual importance per such facts. Thus with the reality of such 30 year memorial of the 1993 situations, this 30 year memorial of what has been nothing new for me personally for such considerations of anything I personally would consider being my considerations of comfort for myself per such a point in time because of the facts regarding real support.



Then again I personally gave up believing that such would or could actually happen for me personally because once the timeframe of May in the year of 2021, I comprehended there was no one in the area who was going to be supportive of me for what my personal needs were at that exact point in time because of such amounts of situations referencing the facts of the differences per what my personal needs were at those exact points in time.



Just the same per the facts of individuals who were in the silent majority per what I already wrote about in my journal blog updates per such factors and through such commentary of mine in my journal blog per the journalism factors intermittently in the year of 2020 and 2021 per my attempt per such beginning factors in conjunction with My YouTube Channel #YouTube #YT per with my Facebook of what my credit for me personally would be because of my personal work because obviously that would be where I personally would actually believe in my work being worthwhile as there is no one who would ever believe their work is worthwhile if others do not properly give the credit correctly at all per such factors regarding the situations, per the common sense of how unwanted such factors per all such sensations because of the facts proven. It should not take a head injury to figure out if wanting and/or needing and/or desiring to actually have such capacities of believing my own worth and believing my own value, then such common sense factors of doing so correctly would officially require such at all times per the obvious at the exact point(s) in time mattering just as much as the future points in time per such common sense.



It should not take a head injury to figure out each and every individuals' failure to do so per such factors thereof per my work officially, then per such factors of proof of all lack of support and all lack of encouragement for me personally officially per the common sense proof thereof per such facts. It should not take a head injury to figure that out and it should not take a head injury to do what is correct per such facts, per it should not take a head injury to figure out per such not taking a head injury to do such requirements per what my personal requirements are and have been and always will be per such facts per such 10 Commandments per such truth matters in full 100% because that is the only truthful way truth matters is the full truth 100% immediately as best as possible in genuine truth per such facts per the only capacities thereof per such truth mattering factors since that should not take a head injury to figure out at all.



The factors regarding the proof of such lack of support per not anything I personally ever have or would ever ask for of/for myself since that should not take a head injury to figure out the multitude of attempts I personally have made per such lengths of time, if I were to actually believe at this point in time of actually being cared about per such obvious factors per what my personal considerations are for me to personally believe I am cared about and cared for per such factors per such factors per since obviously writing about such has not actually produced fully exactly what I personally have had in mind at all whatsoever per such amounts of attempts to discuss with and the amounts of attempts in writing per such attempts at real communication per with me obviously since I have not written to others for my personal factors to just write for no reason at all because it should not take a head injury to figure out writing for no reason at all would be completely ignorance per such factors just the same per such factors of speaking per having real reasons.



Thus this 30 year memorial per such timeframes of this year of 2023 where the prior years of 2019 through 2022 were per such points in time per such facts thereof per the 20 year memorial factors to this point in time of the 30 year memorial facts, and thus per such facts per the situations regarding the facts thereof per such situtions per what my personal considerations are for such support for what my personal considerations are per me personally mattering per what my personal considerations are per the sme per what my personal considerations of being supportiuve per such are.



I suppose if eve's dropping and not having the understanding from the knowledge per such factors regarding alone to the difference of by myself to the difference of such factors, then obviously such proof regarding any such if factors per such if individuals only such proven factors per whatever capacities thereof per the proof per such factors per such individuals per the proof thereof officially because only what I personally consider being supportive matters being the survivor per such facts. It should not take a head injury to figure out the survivor per such factors would br the one and only person to ask what would be best for them instead of ever trying to push what oviously repeatedly has been proven to not be assistive to me personally at alll per such factors of all by myself is not anything of supportive to me personally at alll whtsoever and only proves how unwnted I have been this entire time officially from each and every individual I personally met in person face to face in person at whatever point(s) in time per such factors thereof per such proof from the timeframes thereof per whatever proof from the timeframes thereof officially per 2019, because it should not take a head injury to figure out the 20 yer of 9/11 also known as 9/11/2001 also known as 11 September 2001 per such facts of arithmetic. It should not take a head injury to figure out you count 1, 2, 3 per such facts of the 30 year from that point in time of 2021 of the 20 yer memorial per the 30 year memorial of 2023 of 1993.



It should not take a head injury to figure out anyone at all who may have sid whatever they chose to say though the proof per the act6ions and the inactions speaks louder than all of their words combined regarding me personally per such factors per the proof of not anything I personally asked for when I returned from when my biological son and I wound up in Washington state in the year of 2013 to the massive difference of making ther choice of my own free will in the year of 2022, since it should not take a head injury to figure out my personal choice for the encasements of my Medal of Honor Art Project Artwork pieces per my first choice from the start. It should not take a head injury to figure out if others actually respected my work then the needless situations per Bremerton Washington would not have been the useless problems such factors were because my work and my process for my work would have been respected correctly, instead of what occurred.



Nosiness to a work location is not supportive at all, especially when it is none of the business of the aspect6s thereof per the work itself. If such factors of the energetic work I had completed and was still working on per such December 2022 and such, it should not take a head injury to figure out such facts of those hypotheticals per their completely unsupportive aspects because of the requirement to actually ask me instead of those types per such assumptions per because of those types of those individuals per the 9-1-1 phone call per because of my personal rage at each and every one of those individuals per the hypotheticals thereof per not actually getting from me personally what my actual requirements per actually asking me correctly instead of assuming.



Those hypotheticals of those individuals officially not only disrespected my work YET AGAIN instead of what would be what I personally consider being respectful, and reasons why I have worked to be capable to hire my own staff per actually ensuring they are competent enough to get things correct per my personal requirements instead of such hypotheticals. Since no one in the entire state of Washington had asked me about my website or my work whether regarding my modeling from before no differently than each and every individual I once knew in person face to face in person except only one female who asked me about one photographer though not about my modeling itself, the same factors per anywhere else per such lengths of time in any respectful capacity of what I consider being respectful if knowing about such before to ask me. It should not take a head injury to figure out if others did not ask me personally about my website, then I would not discuss my website if I did not have the need to personally to do so per the same in reference of my modeling per the same in reference of anything I have worked on including my books because it should not take a head injury to figure out to ask with respect if actaully needing to know such factors if actually recognized.



It should not take head injury to figure out if not having the records of proof to purchase per such factors per my finances for me to ever autograph such books officially would then not ever be in any capacity of what would the worth be for me personally to my work at all since such should not take a head injury to figure out, I had my own busdiness plans for my work per such factors of if I would have been asked personally.



Since there has not ever been such despite my multiple attempts to request and actually have a meeting bevcause requests are for such to actually be correctly done per such common sense factors of if having sent my personal phone number per such factors, it should not take a head injury to figure out not doing so to such return contact the proof of such unwanted factors per my personal considerations instead of such immature references per such prior writings for the references of what I already experienced and/or lived through such times and my personal lack of the need to relive such factors regarding the situations I already dealt with because when those types of useless individuals think that reliving a situation is helpful when it is not helpful or assistive at all personally per such factors of what would have been best instead, the common sense per that being fully lack of cre about and fully lack of support in what my personal considerations would ever be for myself personally at all. Those types would not ever be capable to ever say in truth they ever had my personal best interests in mind or most importantly in heart per any such factors thereof officially, then again those types are not of my personal best interests per such factors of such if types of those situations to begin with from the start if such failures to understand I comprehend myself and I personally am not interested in each and every factors thereof for all such individuals personally at all and thus per such factors per there not being anything I personally consider being worthwhile for me personally currently because of the facts because it is not depression when the facts are the truth and the truth is the facts since that should not take a head injury to figure out either.



It should not take a head injury to figure out if I am uncomfortable in such pain level factors then I am not ever going to believe I am wanted per what my personal considerations are, since it should not take head injury to figure out the amount of attempts I have made to not be in pain at all and any such factor that ever adds pain at all to me physically per anything additional to my physical headaches that then go towards migraines would officially be against in every capacity of me ever being capable to believe I am wanted per my personal considerations and thus anything at all that adds to that physical pain in whatever capacity I personally consider per such factors of then only reproves how unwanted I am especially per any individual ever making any choice to further such at all because it does not take a head injury to figure out that anything I consider per such per my personal considerations and my considerations are what matters most to what my needs are instead of those types desires of such factors of the lack of comfort thus per such unwanted factors because it does not take a head injury to figure out how to live and let live if ac6tually caring about life and living per such those if they are actually mature per my personal considerations only because when I have already clarified the facts thereof per the facts thereof per such clarifications.



It should not take a head injury to figure out if I am nowhere near you physically at all and you physically cause me pain in any capacity thereof purposefully there is not in any capacity of what I would ever consider myself being wanted at all because I am not an immature brat, and thus such factors of not doing anything to anyone else directly officially would officially then translate that the facts are the facts per such facts.



When I have not ever went out of my way to ostracize anyone else then there is obviously not taking a head injury to figure out if per such per myself from others then there is not any capacity of ever believing of being wanted, because it should not take a head injury to figure out how immature and unworthy such types officially would be per such common sense factors if they actually had real intelligence and actual civility especially per such specific points in time of such factors for each and every one of those hypotheticals per such if factors per the proof of such unwantedness I personally have sensed because there is nothing about such needless stre4ss of me to ever prove to me that I personally am wanted because of the facts I comprehend myself and I comprehend what6 I personally consider being wanted would officially be per such sensation for myself personally if such were actually done to successfully achieve such factors instead of what has only proved to me personally how unwanted I am personally and business factors officially because no one would ever believe their work is considered important with such situations that such hypotheticals per the proof thereof regarding the amounts of situations per my work per my considerations since that should not take a head injury to figure out.



When I comprehend myself for what I personally consider being wanted per such factors of my personal considerations, those types of lying renne faire types that think there is interpretations when there is nothing to interpret unless I specifically say and/or write such per there being a hypothetical and/or metaphor and/or figurative because otherwise unless I specifically refer to an experience and/or situation I have lived through then the facts are just the facts.






I personally do not need to fight when there is not the actual need to fight per whatever factors thereof and thus when I went to push myself, I do not need for others to assume they are being helpful when the factors of when injuries are needed to be worked on then such factors regarding the factors thereof officially. I do not go to a doctor unless I comprehend for myself of such emergency needs because hypothetically since I have dealt with what I have, hypothetically I comprehend myself and comprehend at the exact point in time what is required. The factors of having to argue in whatever capacity personally is not anything I personally enjoy at all whatsoever hence why I do not like video games at all and the only arcade game I ever liked was #XMen XMen though oddities about Sailor Moon #SailorMoon I suppose for just now having 2 pop culture references from before my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, thus such types of those who do not understand such factors from such points in time are not capable to do so per such facts.



It should not take a head injury to figure out the same in reference to 1993 and 2001 September 11, because it should not take a head injury to figure out some individual's experiences in their lives are what they are and envy/jealousy of such is such an unattractive quality regarding individuals who have actually told me they were jealous of me for having survived 1993 and/or 2001 in the years of 2004 and 2005. My haircolor and hairstyle change apparently was not enough of a sign, I suppose I can satirically write now in the year of 2023 when logistically reviewing such factors per this paragraph.



Thus per such unwanted factors from them per such involvement instead of asking me what my actual needs were/are per such factors regarding the situations per having been told specifically, though such non-New Jersey-ian factors from the year of 2003 regarding Texas at all regarding my biological mother/father/sister from what I was told per my multiple attempts to inform the truth regarding the facts there is a difference between New York City to stop by because of the differences per such stopping by in New Jersey because of the massive differences per such factors of if in the neighborhood is different in New York City per such difference to New Jersey per such in the neighborhood factors per such respectful factors. Such is the same in reference to relationships per such factors of differences per the facts, thus such factors regarding situations per if truthfully wanted from the start the facts are from the start such reality would be.



Whatever type thereof per such fighting for such factors per their prior choices then per such lack of support for me personally per the common sense factors of what my personal personal factors are, and that is not for my biological son nor my biological daughter to ever be involved with personally for me at all whatsoever in any capacity at all no matter what officially because of the facts. It should not take a head injury to figure that out at this point in time, officially. It also should not take a head injury to figure out such factors are not anything I personally needed in the state of Texas when I refused to return to Illinois so I could actually work instead of being around them per such facts that work is best when not around them and without their involvements whatsoever, as I would guesstimate any and every time they have ever gotten involved others have been capable to distinguish my personal mood and thus when my personal mood is not conducive when they are involved and/or around per such facts thereof per the facts thereof officially per their need to accept that and retain that.



I comprehended what I personally needed for myself personally in the year of 2000, it did not take a head injury to figure out I comprehended I knew where my real friends and my real family was from the start for several factors of comfort.



It should not take a head injury to figure out when they fought the ways they did in the year of 1992 and 1993 about what was actually best for me instead of what they did not provide at all per what my actual needs were/are at such points in time, then they were not ever going to be capable to make up for that massive failure at all.



It should not take a head injury to figure out the factors thereof per not being capable to make up for 1992 and 1993 from their choices per such factors thereof the reality7 of the factors of the year of 2001 where they were not and are not capable to make up for the facts of August in 2001 where they fought to watch a movie marathon instead of what was needed at the exact points in time, and thus they cannot ever make up for that to me personally for the reality thereof just the same where they cannot make up for anything else regarding the years of 2001 through 2003 at all for such facts regarding the reality that if trying to make up for what cannot be made up for then such failures regarding each individual thereof instead of actually progressing forward.



It should not take a head injury to figure out if you do not do what is actually needed or actually make genuine attempts in the knowledge what is actually considered an attempt and what is considered being a try to the difference of what does not count officially per such halfa**ing per those types of such hypotheticals per such if factors per laziness does not have the capacity of being made up for either because there is no such thing as making up for a situation officially because the exact point in time(s) are the exact point(s) in time per such factors. For example the logistical review also known as my journal blog updates per such exact points in time of the exact points in time of what was thought about only specifically in the timeframes of the updates also known as my journal blog updates, thus per such factors proven of what individuals I once knew who did not ever have anything per such worthwhile factors of humanity per such if situations of failing to see how unsupportive in each and every capacity they were before such points in time to begin with and the factors of unsupportive thereafter regarding the years of 2019 through 2022 per my personal comprehension of what I personally would consider being supportive of me personally because of comprehending myself.



The same in reference to the 30 year memorial of 1993 just the same in reference of the 20 year memorial of 11 September 2001 per such actual direct impacts officially at the exact point in time per such facts because learning about such after the exact point(s) in time is learning about such in the exact point(s) in time, and thus the exact point(s) in time actually do matter because the truth matters especially to those who actually did survive such factors in conjunction of those who have direct friends and direct families directly associated with such factors; thus anything thereafter per such points in time, are exactly that per such after from that point in time and not the exact same thing whatsoever at all because of the facts of the exact point in time mattering because the truth matters because the 10 Commandments matter.



Thus per such facts referencing the 30 year memorial timeframe where such factors of whatever social media factors during the timeframes thereof per the proof of regarding myself personally per such timeframes of the months of February through April of such factors of the considerations, though such common sense per such not taking a head injury to figure out per such timeframes from the year of 2001 onward per such common sense factors per the online if factors whether per emails/text messages at those points in time with the conjunction of phone calls before the timeframe of the social media known more now per such #FB #Facebook #Meta #Twitter #Fetlife #LinkedIn #FourSquare #4Square Facebook/Twitter/Linked In/Fetlife/Four Square/etcetera types #FB #Meta #Facebook #Fetlife #Twitter #LinkedIn #FourSquare #Square #4Square #Amazon #SusanMeeLingsNeeds4Comfort , if such factors thereof per such additional factors of the in person face to face in person factors or the if factors of hermit-ish type of factors because of the reality of such common sense situations since that should not take a head injury to figure out either in my personal opinion per such factors I suppose including such timeframes of August through December depending upon the situations per what comfort levels if such factors regarding what support would be considered per such factors if there actually was support for me personally to begin with.



It should not take a head injury to figure out when knowing of an injury and then poking at such injury the responses thereof officially, since it should not take a head injury to figure out what lack of support that actually is per such factors referencing the realities thereof per my personal survival(s) per such factors.



It should not take head injury to figure out if such information was/is important of such factors regarding 1993 and/or 9/11 by now at this point in time, I would have been asked about such factors in a real situation I personally would consider being of per such factors despite the amounts of attempts I personally have made to attempt to actually speak with whom I comprehend is best to speak with about such factors because the reality is the staff members are not privy to certain factors and since I can think for myself per such comprehension factors thereof per such facts regarding the facts thereof per each individual who has needlessly been in my way per such unwanted factors officially per such factors thereof per the opposite of my personal needs and the opposite of what would ever be considered being closure per such factors regarding the official factors regarding what the reality of such facts thereof are.



It should not take a head injury to figure out per what time I had involved in the Texas TEA Party Movement #TexasTeaParty #TeaParty in conjunction with having been an honestly open Republican #Republican in the years more specifically of 2007 through 2013 when in the different areas I was in during those years in the state of Texas before being involved with the San Marcos #SanMarcos #SMTX #SanMarcosTexas 2019 and 2020 rallies in conjunction of the Round Rock #RoundRock #RoundRockTX #RoundRockTexas #RRTX rallies and the #LibertyHill #LHTX #LibertyHillTexas Liberty Hill parades in conjunction of the phone calls I worked on throughout the weeks per through the Williamson Republicans #WilliamsonRepublicans , and a few other events per such points in time regarding those who I once knew in person face to face in person of if factors per the 2020 election cycle year per such factors of if situations similarly per such if timeframes per the reality of such factors per the proof of if hypotheticals. Thus any who had been per the truth factors thereof per the timeframes per such timeframes of review per my logistical review per the factors of after the times thereof within the timeframe of the logistical review per such timeframes of my journal blog updates, the if factors regarding the situations of a different version of a Tale of Two Cities of a metaphor reference in certain factors of possibly another reference to the Great Gatsby in other references regarding such if metaphors.



It should not take head injury to figure out the deeper references regarding the metaphors, instead of what might be remembered from the Cliff Notes version. I was informed some thought of me as snobby during the years of 2010 and 2011 regarding my personal references to the differences of such pop culture movies/television/streaming during those years, however it should not take a head injury out when the facts are the truth the truth are the facts per the proof and conjunctions thereof per such factors of attention to the details to the differences of attention to the details and the information.



Thus what I physically look per my hairstyle and/or my hair color would not ever matter at all if I am the one and only with such factors per the information regarding such factors of the layouts of the areas, just equally per my tattoos would not matter per what I physically look per such factors of if such information was/is actually important per such factors.



It should not take a head injury to figure out the facts of my attempts each and every time I mentioned New Jersey and the commute per such attempts from me to being capable to actually get back to where I specifically comprehended I needed to be in order to actually take care of what needed to be taken care of at the exact point(s) in time per such factors, and thus per the differences regarding the state of Texas per when I fought to be capable to actually reconnect with others while taking care of all of my updates and working on such factors; it should not take a head injury to figure out if others do not ask for my schedule per informing me of theirs for a meeting, then it should not take a head injury to figure out the needless problems from such types of those types to ever think otherwise per such wastes of time in my personal opinion. It should not take a head injury to figure out if you are not privy to my schedule officially, then you are to ask me per informing me of you7r schedule to work with since that should not take a head injury to such invitations for me to be capable to prepare myself per such common sense in conjunction of manners and human decency.



It should not take a head injury to figure out the difference of walking into a business in person face to face in person in real life to a physical location of a store to the difference it should not take a head injury to figure out of meeting with someone who created a website, since I have clarified there is not the physical location of the factors of my website and since the references regarding what I personally have not ever done regarding such in person face to face in person meetings per through my website per the timeframe of beginning my website and thus at the round the timeframe of when I began my business; thus per such factors regarding such differences per the factors of having authored books per that location of Amazon being the location for those references per my books I authored in conjunction of the pictures from my Medal of Honor Art Project Artwork online per such factors per the differences. Just because of the timeframes when I did model there is not the same factors referencing such situations and yet such oddities referencing the same per such if factors since there was not one individual within the entire state of Texas from the years of 2009 through 2013 who had ever acknowledged my modeling images and/or my modeling name to me personally at all, without such prior discussions with me personally about such factors.



It should not take a head injury to figure out that did not matter per whether the references regarding the vanilla sector and/or at events, thus if such Facebook original account of mine regarding my original account Lady Dori Belle to the now The One & Only Lady Dori Belle Facebook account, the factors of such clear distinctions per the differences of such hypotheticals per such factors thereof per the lack of support and the lack of fans per such factors in any such capacity of what I personally needlessly have dealt with per in my personal opinion of those millennial yolo types of lying renne faire types per those aspects thereof per such attention seeking behaviour when there was not the real genuine care for me and/or of me to begin with per such if factors per the hypotheticals per the proof thereof per such coattail riding factors of if situations because when there is nothing to stir up for one individual because of the facts regarding the situations those who would be attention seekers per the factors of the needless drama situations per such if factors of drumming up such clients to the differences of an individual who actually is seeking a real relationship per such specifics of the real relationship factors per oneself; then when finding such perfectly and not needing anyone else's involvements whatsoever for the personal relationship factors, then the individuals per such personal relationship factors regarding such dating and/or towards marital factors are the reality for such facts.



Thus it should not take a head injury to figure out despite my age, my comprehension of myself and my best interests for myself personally.



Thus it should not take a head injury to figure out in reference to my clear factors there has not ever been the need for others to involve themselves regarding personal relationship factors of mine unless such needless drama from such individuals per such factors of breaking the 10 Commandments per such factors of the common sense per those types per t6hose situations per such facts proven regarding such hypotheticals per the situations per the proof thereof, because no one who would actually truthfully be interested in someone would actually allow such others involved at all unless the two initial factors fully discuss in person face to face in person together first and then in full discuss with another truthfully first otherwise such automatic failures from each other officially begins such needless problems from those others from the starting points thereof per such unwanted intrusive factors regarding such if situations per the prior points in time.



Maybe if others were not so unsure of themselves in relationship of their own shortcomings per such factors regarding such others of those types per the 10 Commandment situations because an individual who is strong within themselves will not tolerate such factors regarding such wishy washiness regarding the factors thereof to such if in real relationship from such factors of in real life in person face to face in person in real life fully, because that is the only way I personally consider dating and/or such marital factors per such official factors because if a relationship is ended per such factors such per the references of such prior relationships since I have not dated anyone at all per what I would ever consider being a date and additionally per such factors regarding such sexual factors per not having been involved at all with anyone per my personal considerations since 2020.



Thus not dating anyone at all and not married to anyone at all though a legal widow from the year of 2008 officially because of my personal requirements mattering most specifically per my personal considerations of what I personally consider dating being and if it is not anything I personally would ever consider being dating, then the facts are per such regarding the facts per the truth. I personally require several factors officially to consider dating to begin with and if I am asked then I am asked, if not then the factors are per the factors of are being because of requirements of me to personally actually informedly agree to begin with because while I am born in the millennial timeframe DO NOT BLAME ME for what other millennials think a real relationship is instead of the facts of what is the differences for such factors.




However during the 2020 election cycle during the Advantage app if I remember correctly, I think I had gotten the Captain status or the Eagle status per the 5000 requirement in the area per the state of Texas in the year of 2020 and I am uncertain whom I spoke with during such points in time though per such factors regarding my work during that point in time since such factors regarding 2 the time where five would bring forward the third viewpooint regarding such clarifications per such who I am of suvch if factors of those who once knew of me in person face to face in person at whatever point in time before the year of 2020. I suppose the 20-20 vision might make sense per some individuals per the if factors of prior situations per the proof of if factors to those points in time well before all of the situations from the last time seen in person face to face in person knowingly so per both individuals at the exact same time in the exact same location physically, because depending upon the issues per the hypotheticals per such if factors regarding accuracy of mine.



Thus if in reference to certain situations I recognized from other timeframes of my life, the situations now in the year of 2023 on the thirtieth memorial per 1993; I am thankful for delivery per such factors for just one factor, though per such prior clarifications per such differences when in regards of an entire book to the difference of one page of that book if there was any common sense per such factors of those types of those individuals who I would guesstimate per such if factors of POTUS45 regarding the pop culture references regarding such if situations per then the factors per the truth of those areas per the lying renne faire types per the silent majority per those journal blog references of those years per the -ish journalism-ish, per the Old Dominion #OldDominion #OldDominionSoftware writings I had completed in the time of around September of 2020 through to around March 2021 around April 2021 for some references about such per the upcoming cycle regarding the 2023 elections into the 2024 and onward election cycles.



While I personally have been an open and transparent Republican everywhere I have ever been honestly having discussed such for over 2 decades now in multiple areas in multiple types of situations, in the year of 2020 I was just exactly myself in the daytime hours per the ways of the evening hours per the difference of certain factors of situations admittedly per the outfits I wore per depending upon the locations depending upon the years though my hairstyle and my haircolor depending upon the year since my hairstyle and haircolor change was in the year of 2005 around June or July though I have needed the version of my hair color choice for decades at this point though the short pixie hairstyle is not the length I personally had the ideal for regarding my hairstyle with my haircolor only per that reference. However in certain areas certain individuals would know just per the factors of the reality, thus since such factors regarding the situations per such discussions.



Thus if others per the supposedly consenting adult lifestyle silently majority factors per the 2020 election cycle just the same per the timeframes of either 2000 through 2013 depending upon where I personally knew them in person face to face in person though more-so the years from 2009 through 2013 per the facts that the situations regarding the importance of time referencing such facts that the 2020 year was the one and only 12 month cycle per the election timeframe to do so of if factors. Thus if per such silent majority types per the 2016 election per such if factors regarding the situations of hypotheticals, then the reality of such factors per the 2020 election cycle would fully shine through per such if factors in the fullest truth of such.



Thus per such situations when I had worked on a few situations where I had already obviously known the lands of the state of Texas per such differences regarding my Medal of Honor Art Project trips planning and such factors per the common sense it should not take a head injury to figure out per such altitude differences per the conjunction of energetic factors, thus per the if situations regarding such if factors of silent majority types per the 2016 and the 2020 election cycle who did not assist the factors regarding volunteer hours before the timeframes of the actual election in November of 2020 and such other additional events per such factors thereof personally per such aspects; then in my opinion per such factors, the reality of such if types per such political aspirations of such if individuals of election factors per the timeframe per time mattering per the factors of ripping off the bandaid per such metaphorical references. Thus while I would not be surprised of if factors per depending upon the individual of such if factors, depends upon such if factors per the timeframe of exactly in the year of exactly such references regarding the if situations of the 20 year memorial of 9/11 also known as 9/11/2001 also known as 11 September 2001 references per the specific exact point(s) in time of the 2020 election cycle year per the facts such individuals of any such hypothetical would then if not per the exact point(s) in time openly per such factors per the exact point(s) in time per the facts of the reality of such if factors per such election cycle times from this year of 2023 onward.



I would guesstimate individuals who could not discuss 9/11 per the 20 year memorial factors depending upon such factors would then be per such if situations per now on the 30 year memorial of 1993 per such if situations, thus my condolences to each and every individual who actually personally knew someone in person face to face in person in real life regarding that specific point in time of that specific year of 1993 of that specific factors of situations that while I was only 10 years old I prayed much for betterment and life despite the situations during the time. While I have written much about many factors of topics throughout the times and while condolences yes for those directly impacted from 11 September 2001 per such real life in person real life factors in conjunction of the factors of differences regarding the situations per the exact point(s) in time, and thus while I am uncertain if who was President of the United States of America had offered such condolences per such individuals though here such is mine personally.



My condolences for all who lost someone/some people at the exact time of and because of the situations in February in the year of 1993 to all of those who had survived the 28 February 1993 attacks whether you learned of such back at that exact point in time of the including following month of March 1993, or of such later per the timeframe depending upon the factors of employment(s)/deployment(s) upon such a return to the United States of America; of where I personally am thankful for your survival, per such regards per the situations. The City of New York also known as New York City's skyline in the evening hours though also in the daylight hours were noticeably different from New Jersey near the Liberty Science Center facing north, in the year of 1994 especially from the year of 1993.



The sights from my personal trips from the timeframes within the end of the year of 2020 through February 2022, I have made the best attempts possible per such factors per such attempts per the timeframes of 2019 through 2022 regarding my journal blog The Ornery PSA #TheOrneryPSA . Though I had been told of few situations in the state of Texas though the reality per such factors of such condolences per such if factors per the year of 1993 per such if situations, whether a Republican or a Democrat or Independent #Republican #Democrat #RNC #DNC #Independent .



Though such situations in the year of 1993 now 30 years ago in the year of 2023, the ways towards reviewing time to a specific minute point in time is important for such considerations per the current point in time and the future towards such progression towards betterment with the conjunction of the US Space Force #USSpaceForce with NASA #NASA per the knowledge of the 1994 solar eclipse and the information per the starting factors of the 2017 eclipse with the upcoming 2024 election though also the solar eclipse where the earth's view from the land towards the heavens is wonderous though the view from the other side of the alignments while the sights must be amazing so too must such sights be per the areas of the oceanic waters per the areas of closer to the northern pole for the references of such phenomenon per the various waves capable to be noticed.



Per this point in time of the reviewing of time for this 30 year memorial timeframe of this journal blog of this posting on 28 February 2023, those whom I knew at the timeframes of when I was a child in Asher Holmes Elementary School per such overall factors from the ground upward to such factors of many who I had looked up to literally and figuratively.



Per such growth per such times of this prior 30 years and the knowledge of if possibilities per such civility and humanity, I am thankful and grateful for many factors of life and living despite the situations of support regarding such facts per what real support is considered per myself per such references regarding of such facts of me and for me personally instead of such misappropriations per such if factors of what I myself at times have made mistakes where I have made attempts per such factors per such proverbial reaches across the aisle per the viewpoints regarding openly and honestly per whatever clarifications per such timeframes per the situations.



While I personally can only write for myself personally per my words per such specifics from my personal life experiences and situations I have lived through and survived, while doing so I have made multiple attempts here and there to assist others along the pathway per such admitted factors of being a Republican since the official year of 2000 though in my own other ways per such factors of when possible such per the factors of some modeling portions per the factors of my modeling in the years of 2010 through 2013 in conjunction per such factors of discussions throughout the years to the additional point in time of the 2020 election cycle per calling outside of my district zone area to assist where I could because I figured the assist was necessary from what I noticed per the zones per the Advantage app having the capacity for me to choose per such phone line numbers per such factors in the year of 2020.



Thus per such additional rallies in the Austin downtown areas in conjunction of other events throughout while also working on my Medal of Honor Art Project pieces, the additional work per such factors of my journal blog per such factors per the situations of some reference points proverbially across multiple situations possibly. The factors regarding 1993 memorial this 30 year memorial after the 20 year memorial of the 2001 factors, while others might have such support factors in such factors thereof per such factors depending upon such point(s) in time per such specific factors regarding the choices of for and what levels thereof per the choices and the options capable to actually do so and the actions per such if factors per the specifics per such choices per the exact point(s) in time for such authenticity factors when reviewing such timeframes from 2020 through now in this year of 2023 on the 28th day of February.



While I offer condolences and hopeful factors of brightest of blessings per such forward progressions in the genuine New Jersey ways for those whom have met such and depending upon where in such a small state does actually matter, because any biological female or female in general would be capable to truthfully sy that size does matter.



Thus such areas of differences regarding the factors of the state of New Jersey though the distance thereof from the bottom most area to the City of New York additionally per such factors regarding certain areas of Pennsylvania and New York state areas, and while facial recognition is more common now in the year of 2023 the differences of the megapixel and such technological advances from the year of 1993 towards this point in time of 2023 is astronomical; yet such factors regarding the footage upgrades, per such developmental phases per the factors regarding such specifics per the license plates in conjunction to much more per such factors I guesstimate many more can know of and/or understand per such differences of the times. While I personally have not worked on anything referencing such types of technological advancements personally per those factors at all officially, the factors regarding the reality of the footage from the year of 2001 to the difference of the footage from the year of 1993 on top of the vehicle registrations. However remember the facts the scanned tollway passes were not at that point in time of 2001 if I remember correctly from 1998 construction where I was growing up, though the factors per depending where and when per such specifics additionally.



Thus with two different timeframes of the number one to the number two to the number three per the references of the 10 year memorial in 2011 to the twenty year memorial in the year of 2013 and thus the 20 year memorial in the year of 2021 of 9/11 also known as 9/11/2001 also known as 11 September 2001 per this year of 2023 per the thirty year memorial from 1993 on February 28 in the year of 2023, and thus per such more awareness each may have to the situations. Thus to progress forward towards betterment it is important to review and reflect upon the prior timeframes of various situations to review such factors in truth, and thus per the 30 year memorial per the northeast northeast coast of the United States of America's states per such locations though per such individuals; I hope the beginning of the new day will bring forward a sense of calming factors to be capable to progress towards betterment in truth with having learned from history per such reflections of time of the reality that we currently are making history at this very second. In order to progress forward in truth the reality per such factors per the individual choices matter, and such emotional responses per the facts of the reality of who I once knew in person face to face in person in real life in those years of the 1980s into the 1990s before 1993 and then those who I met per such 1993 through 1998 per such individuals who had survived then from the 1993 factors. Thus this year of 2023 per such twists and turns throughout such multitudes of situations and areas, from the year of 2020 is a bird's eye view to this point in time of 2023.



There is a difference of the exact point in time of the exact point in time to the difference of when per such differences of such exact points in time, and thus per such exact points in time of the situations with the 20-20 vision per only after all situations combined per the logistical review factors per the years of 2019 through 2022 because of the exact point in time of the exact point in time of reviewing such timeframes previously per such factors of metaphors per the considerations of each watches a movie/television show/streaming after the times of such situations even in some possibilities of Live footage per such if factors; thus per the situations of updates per the review of such logistical factors per the prior times at the exact point in time per such logistical review timeframes of 2019 through 2022; the sight of the evening skyline per the areas of the state of New Jersey per such factors of February in the year of 2022 though reviewing such this year of 2023 in such conjunctions, the factors regarding such amounts of situations being normal for someone with my personal life experiences per my background because of the individuals I have met in real life in person face to face in person per the 1980s not having as much technological advances per the 1990s when such began and thus per the digital camera for the general public outside of cellphone cameras was not until the after timeframes of the 2000s per certain areas and thus film was still used in many factors of areas per depending upon what company factors were in charge.



Thus per such personally myself not having had a digital camera before the timeframe of 2009 personally for me to use, everything else I had was on film per such developments usually through Walmart and/or Sam's Club and possibly Costco in the years of 2001 through 2012 mainly though from 2001 through 2011.



Since such situations to the best of my capability to getting such taken care of to digitize the multitudes of pictures I took and also some from depending upon the timeframe, the situations per such points in time of what would be best for me personally would have been to actually have the real support I actually needed at the exact points in time per such in the exact points in time per this 30 year memorial. However having remained surefooted to the best of my capability per such factors despite the situations per what I have personally endured during these years without real in person face to face in person support regarding emotional support per what a friend would be or including such factors of a dating relationship/marital factor per such situations of the factors of when most needed matters for trust in truth because trust in truth is most important in many factors of life and living to be capable to make the correct choices at the exact point in time, per such best possible factors per the exact points in time.



While I am unaware of what others who have voted for Republican and/or Democrat nominees before have been doing since the official factors of COVID19 in 2020 through to now in this year of 2023, though with such hopeful prospective opportunities per such points in time hopefully this moment of calm could possibly bring forward a brighter tomorrow and future days and weeks and months and years and decades and centuries forward in betterment per my hopes personally of course.





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Remember, since I was either six or seven years old I have been giving warnings as to the best of my ability as to the visions I had which began when I was in second grade of Elementary school.  The first warning I gave officially as to my nightmare vision compared to my dream vision was in the year of 1988 or 1989, compared to the online writings and my books as well as my journal blog entries year timeline for the information.


If anyone is upset please direct your upset towards those who had made the choices to constantly needlessly block my warnings and/or try to explain otherwise as to their trying to curb their responsibilities, in comparison to the responsible and respectful choices as best as I could possibly do so as a child starting as to such information at the age of when I was six in 1988 or seven years old in 1989.


I made every attempt to inform as best as I possibly could, though hopefully the clarifications throughout my various books and writings as well as journal blog entries compared to the amount of people in multiple areas which I had spoken with about in person from the years of 1988 or 1989 through to 2012 more continuously before 2013. 


In the year of 2019 is when I began reviewing such details and onward through the years since 2019 more officially, however I made the attempts to give the warnings and what others' choices have been as to whatever proof thereof to who you should be speaking with as to what they told you in comparison as to the upset and anger with in comparison.


How many assistances I have made attempt towards betterment as to the clarifications from the year of 1988 or 1989 onward did it truly have to take for each to genuinely pay attention, as I have been making the best attempts to assist for the best possibilities how?

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

REMEMBER:

After the head injury caused a coma while I learned how to deal with the headaches, migraines, cognitive disorders, memory problems, and other medical conditions I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry & Calculus down to 2nd grade math.  Here is how logic works for someone like me::

~  It took awhile for the doctor's recommendation to use sticky notes, to help remember.

~  It took several months to realize sticky notes moved, let alone to remember to speak with the doctor.

~  After I finally remembered to ask the doctor about the note problem, notebooks were recommended.

~  When I could remember to pick up a notebook, it took a long time to learn similar to sticky notes, notebooks are not always where they were placed.

~  After I was able to organize the notebooks over several months I still had not learned notebooks are not always readily available, at the necessary time.

~  When I remembered to speak with the doctor about the notebook problem the doctor had few other suggestions, to assist memories better.

~  After several events and adding up sticky note and notebook location problems, I realized my skin goes everywhere I do.

~  Wanting my tattoos to only be for me and not for public consumption I started the ink on my legs, able to hide easier.

~  It would not be until many tattoos and several years later I would realize my memory problems were usually not as bad when wearing shorts, capri pants, or a skirt.

~  Between 3-5 years after my first tattoo I had the first tattoo completed on my arms, and my memory has slowly progressed towards an easier memory jolt.

 

 

When I say "it should not take a head injury to figure this out" it is partially in humor from personal experiences, towards understanding.

 

If I can laugh at my mistakes after recognizing and dealing with them, so can you.

 

You have the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I lack in order to put everything together to fix the problems seen with abilities I do not have. 

Utilize the information within the blog to find genuine repairs and instead of complaining of the "hurtful" commentary, prevent the issues from reoccurring.

Then again, it should not take a head injury to figure that one out.

Do make sure to link my journal blog entry articles to yours if you refer to my works for any of your research in the slightest, for proper credit. 

 

Thank you, in advance.

Model Author Susan MeeLing

It should not take a head injury to figure this out because I thought you are supposed, to be smarter.

If there are those who find such interesting enough to research further to bring forward more information in reference to the forefront for more detailed information, as usual I request the courtesy of the same which I do in reference to how I refer to articles for reference points when writing my journal blog entries; for each one used for reference starting points, to research for clearer understanding from such knowledge.

 

That is common sense, good etiquette, and good karma; whilst lifting others upward, in positive ways.

Quotes which mean a lot to me:

"The ultimate measure of an individual is not where they stand in moments of comfort and convenience, but where they stand at the time of challenge and controversy."

"We must reject the idea that every time a law is broken society is guilty, rather than the law breaker.  Freedom is never-more than one generation away, from extinction.  We do not pass freedom on through our blood stream because freedom must be fought for, protected, and handed on for the next generation to do the same."

"Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.  Though best to be able to share in person with who matters, until that time occurs being able to see what is possible through such is a feat to notice.  One must be happy within oneself prior to being happy with another, though such can be enjoyed if living in one's own truth is as such. and then as to the capability to progress forward with another and/or others depending upon the situation(s) and individual(s)."  ~  A Quote From Me, Reverend Susan MeeLing also known as Lady Dori Belle

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In such references if there are any inaccuracies then I will fix and repair such details on my website, as per such.


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If I have known you in person when in person in positive ways and/or ways which might need clarification(s) as to mature discussions, there has always been the welcome open door policy as to contacting me through my contact form if you were not given my new phone number though such is online regarding my website more recently published online as to my Website Business Phone Line: (360)-713-4937.

Thus far there has been only one who has known the contact form area to speak with me on a phone line was simple and capable to do so through, in truth.

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