The mask in needless in all such ways in my opinion that is unless in reference to a different type of mask which would be in SCUBA Diving, of which there is a different location for that mask of which in the oddities and references as to such ironic twists maybe some SCUBA Divers can get the memo as to removing the mask on land about the actualities of in full truth on my SCUBA Diving for such a mask only meant for in the water. I have not ever been able to wear a mask in the proverbial nor the metaphorical sense of the word as quite frankly, I am simply just myself no matter where I am as it may have been figured out by now. I wonder at this point if someone who had stolen and/or been a part of stealing my #SCUBA #SCUBADiving SCUBA Diving gear use my SCUBA Diving mask and have vision issues because of not knowing because of the #UHAUL UHUAL problem and situation. If so that would not be my fault as the fact is thou shalt not steal, of which the hypothetically staged situation as to how my UHAUL had my SCUBA Diving gear which there was the phone call to the SCUBA Diving shop which my son was taking SCUBA Diving Junior SEAL lessons at which the individual at the SCUBA Dive shop in #SanAntonio #SanAntonioTX #SanAntonioTexas #MilitaryCityUSA #SATX #TX #TXstate #Texasstate San Antonio Texas had called me telling me that someone called and had asked specifically if I had been at the shop to see if they could drop off my photo albums as well as my SCUBA Diving certifications.
It once was the biggest blessing : I have had the BIGGEST blessing happen today... - LadyDoriBelle | FetLife https://fetlife.com/users/484330/posts/1184862
It once was the biggest blessing only because of my pictures from my photo albums as to my time with my son #Letters4James and my daughter #Letters4Lidia as those were the most important aspects as to why I was alive and why I fought to stay alive to be able to be a Mom to my son and my daughter, of which I suppose some thought however they thought in reference to whatever aspects their thoughts had lead them to think in comparison to taking a look at the larger picture in my life. In such references as to the fact of my SCUBA diving gear which would have been taken exactly where I needed to take my SCUBA diving gear to at the #FortSamHouston #FtSamHouston #NavyMarineSpecialWarfare Fort Sam Houston Navy/Marine Special Warfare Unit in comparison to whatever happened to my SCUBA Diving gear instead. While others may have thought my SCUBA Diving was a civilian recreational aspect, my SCUBA Diving as I had explained had to do with my direct connection to my Blue Identification Card of/for the Armed Forces of the United States of America as per my explanations in reference to why I had begun my SCUBA Diving as well as the fact I had used my Blue Identification Card of/for the #USArmedForces #USAArmedForces #USADoD #USAFDoD #DepartmentofDefense Armed Forces of the United States of America to check into the SCUBA Diving group to begin with.
Thus for clarifications in reference to the #Austin #AustinTX #AustinTexas #AustinDominantMentorProgram #AMP Austin Dominant Mentor Program as well as the #Dallas #DallasTX #DallasTexas #DallasMentorProgram #DMP Dallas Dominant Mentor Program, I used my Blue Identification Card of/for the Armed Forces of the United States of America to register myself with such as to the adult supposed to be consenting lifestyle in such references thereof. In such additional aspects to having already explained as to such details in reference to the meaning behind the Blue Identification Card of/for the Armed forces of the United States of America as to the additional portions in reference to having handed such over to Michael Roberts in reference to #NLB #NineLivesBooks Nine Lives Books in San Antonio Texas when he asked for an identification card regarding taxes; there are the aspects of which I have already explained as to the officializing as to the #USSpaceForce #USASpaceForce #SecretaryofState #USSecretaryofState US Space Force of the Department of Defense monitored and/or worked with the Secretary of Defense of the United States of America.
In such aspects additionally clarified previously as to the rave I went to and the fact as to the situations referencing the what is called being roofied at the rave during such times as to the #CID #CriminalInvestigationDivision CID Criminal Investigation Division at the age of 18 years old while having an Omega Clearance at the time of the age of 17 years old when I had fought to be emancipated to be able to join the #USA #USArmy #Army Army branch of the United States of America’s Armed Forces as to my prior attempt to achieve getting into #MAST #MarineScienceTechnologySchool #USMC #Marine #Science #Technology #School #USNavy #USANavy the Marine Science Technology School with the United States of America’s Navy attachment to the school which I had until my biological sister had complained about how she was not ever going to achieve what I earned up to such a point and instead of my biological mother and my biological father pushing for the forward progress because of her lack of ability to move forward in such ways, they had tried to needlessly hold me back from what I could assist with such accomplishments of which as an additional portion to write of briefly.
When I was in the brief process of shortly returning back to for only a short amount of time to be in the state of Texas and briefly stopping by Joshua and Crystal Light’s house to be able to briefly stay in my own room in the back of the house and have a small amount of discussions prior to leaving, I went to go to take care of what I needed to as I could feel I was being lied to from both of them as well as a few individuals who stopped by their house. I left and got what was needed to get myself taken care of to then go get my own apartment in another area of the state completely before leaving the state of Texas to go on my own way as I could not believe I had ever considered that situation as a family sort of situation in my opinion, though then again I suppose I needed to see which view of family such had been considered as per the situation. As I had not remembered those individuals being more similar to my biological mother and my biological father though the facts of how such situations as to the feelings thereof were enough for me to be just a ready to not have to be in the area to speak with or deal with ever again, as there were far too many lies spoken directly to my face that I personally could not handle dealing with their one or the sight of either one as I am done with that sort of behaviour. I had not seen so many lies surrounding two individual people to the levels of which I had seen when at their house that I could not stand being around the levels of which the disgust was too much for me to personally handle being anywhere near the area of, and though I had tried to deal with what I was seeing in reference to the levels of their lies as they did not tell me the truth while each played on their laptops more than ever speaking with me while I was there as well as the tone of their voices I was not ever willing to deal with such situations ever again.
I do not know what occurred during the time I was in Washington state, though I did not feel the need to ever deal with such aspects. I had briefly stayed in the house for a little under one month before going to drive off around several locations to return briefly for a little under another month before getting my own apartment and though I had listed the location as a place to send my mail briefly I had officially put my change of address through the USPS as soon as moving into my own apartment. I am not willing to deal with such levels of those types of lies, and I have no need to be a part of such lies either. I felt as though both of them lied to others about situations and some involving their lies about me, which I could not stand the sight of such individuals and any such lies if hypothetically what occurred about me by those people can be asked to me as to what was hypothetically said as to be able to clarify on my own as to what is and is not truthful as to what may have been said about me. We were not ever sexually involved for clarifications, and there was not any willing sexual contact from me or ever by me at any point in time involving either of the two of them upon my return or even before I wound up in Washington state as there was only the one public-ish play session with BDSM tools only and nothing more than that for full clarification under oath as per already having gone over as to the situations referring to the #VA #VAstate #Cirginia #Virginiastate #Dinwiddie #DinwiddieVA #DinwiddieVirginia #CombinedCourt Dinwiddie Virginia Combined Court on 7 October 2021 and my fines I paid are in full as to the memo line for additional clarification which had been accepted by their combined court.
Since I learned of a head injury situation referencing the two of them for additional clarification there is not and nor would there ever be any marriage to those individuals as those individuals were not ever considered as anything to me other than family and I would not ever be a part of such willingly ever as those individuals do not have the ways of which I personally find what those people consider as comfortable as comfort to what I personally prefer for clarifications since I noticed Joshua Light was playing some game called Gor and I am not interested in any such portions thereof from what was explained to as that type of a video/computer game is not something I would or could ever find anything worthwhile, as I do not believe in such aspects of such a slave based game and I would not ever be a part of such willingly if the after effects from his head injury and her head injury are problematic as I do not know what people in the Austin area of Texas did in reference to when they had their collision.
Which their head injuries did as they did though I am not willing to be a part of any such portions ever again and ever at all for clarifications. I did not want to ever be involved in any such ways as to any type of relationship beyond specifically as either family type friend of friends with a possible benefit though none was ever achieved as I could not even be friends with them when I was there, as there was nothing of what I remembered of those two people as to what once was my friends. I am fully cleared away from those two and I do not need to see those people again, nor do I want to or in any way do I desire to ever see those people again nor is there any need to ever be around those people again as per what I personally picked up as to sensations was not healthy and was not something I would or could ever have any feelings as to any such safety nor any such positive aspects thereof from.
Whatever occurred after I wound up in Washington state within their lives as well as within the adult supposed to be consenting community needs for the community as well as those people to discuss and figure out what their situations are, to figure out what needs to be done as I am not willing to be a part of any such portions involving those people ever again. I was informed by Carl as to a bunch of drama which stirred up in the Austin area and if such has anything to do with those two people, I am not willing to be a part of any such needless drama as there is nothing I need from that drama as I cannot stand drama. I have refused to be a part of drama and there was far too much which seemed to be seeping from throughout the two of those people, of which I refuse to be a part of ever. Those who remember me from when before I wound up in Washington state of which those two had seen me last before I wound up in Washington state and had met who had been at the #Cowboyws #CowboysDancehall Cowboys Dancehall in San Antonio as well as the ex-wife Flame or Stephanie’s Light’s son Connor had met my son before leaving as to the problems caused when their relationship at the time with Trish or as those who remember her by what she called herself at the time as to the female names Megere with the child she had named Damien which she had tried to get my attention and I refused to deal with her because of her childish wishes to get my attention as to trying to claim she and I were the same when there was not ever any comparison as to her psychosis as to what I saw as to her having wished because of my Big Blood Brother from my childhood being named Damien she thought that made us the same which she did not like the fact I told her to her face she was nothing similar to me and though there might be some things alike to me there was not anything which would ever have the measuring up to me in any such sort of way.
I could not believe as to the levels of which the drama needlessly caused by her upon when she found out my son, that male from Cowboys Dancehall in San Antonio from the #StoneyLaRue Stoney LaRue concert, and I had been at their then house in #Killeen Killeen by the fire station, though that female had caused far too many needless problems when I had been involved with the lifestyle as to her wishes for the playing of such games when I told her I was not willing to be in any type of public or private competition with her as she thought stirring up such drama was necessary for her to propel which I did not need her to propel myself and I was not and am not interested in ever having anything to do with that type of female as to that type of female has disgusted me for years well before ever meeting her around the year of 2011. There was not nor is there any need or desire or want to ever have anything to do with that needless type of garbage, and I refused to be a part of such and left as quickly and as swiftly as I could after all of the problems I was already needlessly dealing with from the various areas throughout the state of Texas before and after I wound up in Washington state.
I remember there was a point which when I was in Vancouver Washington as to Kitty or Crystal Light saying that she and Cross or Joshua Light were looking at getting married which then I told them congratulations though there was not going to be any involvement from me as to such, and I was not willing to return to the state of Texas for either one of them back then as I did not return to the state of Texas for them as I had multiple other situations which were of extreme importance to take care of in comparison as there was not anything beyond a quick check up before leaving to go on my own and away from those individuals as there was not anything I could tolerate from the time of my return to the state of Texas from those individuals. I am completely done ever being a part of such a group overall as to the ways which the adult supposed to be consenting lifestyle had been in that particular area, and I do not need nor do I want nor do I desire to ever be a part of such situations ever again. The amount of complaints I dealt with over each choice I personally made from someone I was not ever going to be involved with in any sort of romantic and not in any sort of sexual and not in any sort of way beyond such discussing topics as to Joshua Light before moving to Irving, was too much for me to personally tolerate especially after living in San Antonio in the year of 2012 as there was nothing I could be a part of in reference to them as to their style of BDSM was not anything remotely close to what my style of BDSM had been and is.
In reference to the problems as to the amount of needless drama surrounding the Austin Dominant Mentor Program as well as the Dallas Dominant Mentor Program, I personally could not tolerate such aspects as to the amount of lies which were being told to each other as well as about the program as well as about and to me. Those situations as to individuals who wanted and needed to learn the correct ways of BSDM as to especially the Leather portions are of importance to learn to be able to know of such portions and while there was the problem as to the situation which Master Walker had wanted me to be an ambassador I could not deal with the amount of situations going on in my personal life as to the overall aspects and the additional problems as to the surrounding situations as to the rumors of the individuals outside of the Dominant Mentor Program were not helpful either as I was not and am not and will not be willing to be a part of such amounts of needless drama.
There is not any need for the levels of which the lack of open and honest communication which is available as to the multiple levels thereof to which if there is not the open and honest levels of communication there is not any way to genuinely consider as a community as there is not a community standard of which any of those people were willing to agree to before I had moved to the Irving area in 2011, and I could see there was not any actual changes for the betterment upon my return by what I had picked up in the overall energetic portions of the driving around the state of Texas throughout the years of 2019 into 2020 to 2021. As I explained in my writings, I am done dealing with those particular aspects especially since of any individuals those two had not ever honestly acknowledged anything I had personally done in reference to my website or my books though had hinted in ways which creeped me out and had not ever made me feel in the slightest of ways as to any comfort as to being around such. I am thankful the male I met that had moved from #MO #Missouri Missouri named Andrew or Oz had been in the area, as the ways to which I could not feel any comfort while in the area of Joshua and Crystal Light’s house was unexplainably uncomfortable in more ways than any such words can fully express.
Thus as I have gone over the #13thAmendment #ConstitutionalRights #USConstitution 13th Amendment of the Constitution of the United States of America, I have always felt personally as to the feeling as to having fought for such a terminology because if you pay attention to what I have dealt with as to the facts as to such aspects as to the anti-slavery laws as well as the 13th Amendment meanings thereof in such additional portions. The 13th Amendment issues were hypothetically seen in other areas within the civilian sector as to the #CivilWar Civil War in the modern timeframe, and as the fact of technology probably seeing the aspects as to the #BDSM BDSM community there possibly could have been a situation of which my background and my openness at such a location I had been born and raised in regarding the tristate area of which my main times were within the #NJ #NewJersey #NJstate #NewJerseystate New Jersey area of which those who know the area comprehend as to the amount of closeness and the commuters to both #NewYork #NewYorkCity #NewYorkstate #NY #NYC #NYstate New York as well as #PA #Pennsylvania #PennState #PAstate #Pennsylvaniastate Pennsylvania areas.
Again, the numbers as to who I personally lost in the year of 1993 as well as in reference to the overall attacks on 11 September 2001 because of the airplane aspects as to both the state of #IL #Illinoisstate #ILstate Illinois state and #OH #Ohstate #Ohiostate #Ohio Ohio state areas in reference to 11 September 2001 as well as who I grew up with over the years who may have hypothetically been on one of the planes which were found grounded which the #TSA TSA Product-No-Fly-Lists items can be a sign as to what I would know of certain individuals I knew who flew constantly over such years at the time of as well as the individuals at the church I grew up going to at #OTC #OldTennentPresbyterianChurch #OldTennentPResbyterian #OldTennent #Presbyterian Old Tennent Presbyterian Church.
I had my plans to get my SCUBA Diving gear where I needed to get my SCUBA Diving gear however whoever stole my SCUBA diving gear to then take my photographs to the SCUBA Diving shop where my son was taking his classes as to such problems of stalking as I had already brought forward, thou shalt not steal though I am glad for my pictures; even though I had not been able to keep the pictures I had actually taken in such references in the long run, because of the needless problems I was already dealing with before the timing of when my SCUBA diving gear and other such property of mine was stolen. I had already reported such to my insurance company through #USAA USAA at the time which there was the issues in reference to mainly the after effects from my SCUBA Diving at such a point conjoined as to the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, though since none of the SCUBA Diving Instructors I had known had assisted in any such aspects to genuinely help me where I actually had needed such at those points in time as per whatever they choose to explain themselves for such choices and assumptions; it is what it is as I thought life was more important than collecting items which have more value elsewhere than in someone’s garage comparatively to, though what would I know as to my SCUBA Diving gear other than I know my SCUBA Diving gear and what I had personally collected myself for my work.
By official aspects as to the fact of which #POTUS44 POTUS44 #BarrackObama Barrack Obama was in office with then #VPOTUS45 VPOTUS45 though now #POTUS46 POTUS46 #JoeBiden Joe Biden, that was as to such a potential view as to an act of war against the Armed Forces of the United States of America by choosing to whatever plans were found via the #NSA NSA #USNSA United States of America’s National Security Administration as to the technological aspects of such messages/phone calls/text messages/emails/online accounts/social media/etcetera as to such hypothetical plans as to cause problems to then steal my SCUBA Diving gear as to if there was any such mention as to my direct connection as to the Army branch and/or the aspects of wondering about my Blue Identification Card of/for the Armed Forces of the United States of America to needlessly cause drama and problems to me as a legal widow with two minor aged children with the after effects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as to the facts thereof to be seen if so then could be considered as those individuals’ version of their aspects as such an official declaration of war as to the ways which certain individuals had made such choices in reference to the individuals returning to the United States of America from the #Vietnam #VietnamWar Vietnam War as to the timeframe depending upon as to the #Iraq #IraqWar Iraq War and/or the #Afghanistan #AfghanistanWar Afghanistan War timeframes.
In such additional aspects under oath as already having explained such via the reference to my journal blog on my website as #TheOrneryPSA The Ornery PSA as to the following links of which the #VA #VAstate #Virginia #Virginiastate Virginia state combined court aspects, I have such links for the review at your leisure to read through as well as the free download as to what I was going to officially discuss and was able to briefly though was able to hand over the documents to the presiding Judge in the courtroom of which by the official payment of the fines as to the memo areas and the check having been cleared for all such fines associated as to the combined court as for the full clearing in all such references.
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I had posted about such in my fetlife account as that was the only thing which had been a positive aspect as to being able to have my pictures of my children and I together as to everything else that was occurring in my life up to that point, of which that was the last thing I ever was able to find anything to be happy and grateful for in such a way in reference to the photo albums as to what I was able to have at such a time and was working on digitalizing though because of several aspects as to what occurred when in #Vancouver #VancouverWA #VancouverWashington #WA #WAstate #Washington #Washingtonstate Vancouver Washington and #Portland #PortlanOR #PortlandOregon #OR #ORstate #Oregon #Oregonstate Washington and Oregon areas as to not having been able to accomplish such though additionally as to having admitted to at one point in time doing what I could to save who I could via the ways of which those who understand certain unconventional measures for certain situations regard as to the faxing of the 211 form as to a way I thought which could have helped to save and assist though apparently as to the #IRS IRS phone call this past week as to how I had failed in such aspects of which I had made the attempt to help where I could in such regards as to what I had thought was the adult consenting lifestyle in comparison to what I had reviewed as to such recent times as to the ways thereof if I am hypothetically accurate as to such aspects within my book “The Modern Day Book By: Reverend Susan MeeLing”. However I admit to having had refiled such aspects more recently as well as my handwritten letter of which on the phone the IRS agent said the handwritten portion was needed for such aspects, to which I had done so in my handwriting for the ways thereof this past week in the year of 2021 compared to back in the year of 2013.
Due to how everything by each individual and each group in the totality of had ever been by the time as to shortly thereafter, there was nothing for me to smile about and nothing for me to enjoy the way I once had enjoyed as per the choices which were made without my consent and without my knowledge of which the facts of what occurred shortly thereafter were the last things I needed and the last thing I wanted for my life of which I had written about on my original #fetlife fetlife account as quite frankly I was a Mom in less than 1.5 years after waking up from my coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury of which part of the after effects other than the headaches/migraines/cognitive disorders/memory deficits had been at the time in the year of 2000 as to teaching me what colors names were and how to count to 10 back in the year of 2000 compared to the current time of 21 years later or even 3 years after waking up from my coma.
Thus all such happiness is completely gone as there truthfully has not been anything in the other aspects of my life which was ever anything worthwhile in my eyes as to my son and my daughter were my life, and there was nothing and there was not anyone who would ever be able to replace my son and my daughter. I was already at my last portion of the straw of which I personally could not see anything which was worthwhile in any such regards because of how little anyone I once knew had ever believed me or ever actually had cared about me and my wellbeing in comparison to what they arrogantly thought and what they had their biased opinions of in comparison to what I personally had actually needed for myself. Thus in such if any were in a mindset as to thinking they would ever get such a look from me in reference to what once was in my eyes if they did not realize if I did not have my son and my daughter in my life as to being their Mom in the ways I knew of being a Mom, then such individuals failed because of the facts they were and are my life though I had looked at other aspects of which were of importance to the larger overall aspects in comparison to one or two areas.
The facts of which in such regards as to the adult supposed to be consenting lifestyle was only in reference to the time for an in between time of my responsibilities to the aspects thereof, and nothing more than that. It was only to be able to balance having various adult discussions about a multitude of topics while wearing clothes which I did not have to wear when going to my children's school and taking care of my responsibilities of which I knew once my children were over the age of 18 years old biologically, I would have my choices to make and I wanted to make sure I could do whichever choices I preferred. Thus I had made the choice to explore as responsibly as I could as per the situations thereof, to which as how situations had been in reference to the adult supposed to be consenting lifestyle there were ups as there were downs and the downs were far more than the ups in my opinion especially in reference to the modeling in corsets and gowns compared to the performances in the ways thereof which I kept myself covered in the areas most important as to my personal modesty despite the #StarSpangledBanner Star Spangled Banner as I knew and know that the Armed Forces of the United States of America have assisted to providing such a Freedom of Expression as to the ability for artists to complete such works as well as the facts as to which I had created my routine and my outfits as to such on my own for that timeframe referencing #ToF #TempleofFlesh the Uniform Fetish Ball as to already having stood up against stolen valor at the event though additionally previously; though I would not be surprised as to any assumptions by others who had seen such, and because of the biases in reference to my hairstyle and my haircolor as well as my tattoos as to such assumptions as to what I had dealt with in reference to #McCoyElementary #McCoy #Elementary McCoy Elementary School in #Carrollton #CarrolltonTX #CarrolltonTexas Carrollton Texas before the SCUBA Diving aspects which were not any easier as some in New Jersey such as Amy Hughes would not have understood just as the male name William Talent from the Stevenson Trucking company did not understand as to how much more important other aspects were in reference to the aspects of my life as to any such points in time; however hypothetically when you only care about the bottom line, there is not any room for growth as to which ways one can review as per the semi-truck collision in regards of the year of 2008 when going on I35 South after being at the #Comfort Comfort Inn in #Addison #AddisonTX #AddisonTexas in Addison Texas if I recall correctly as to the times around the month of May.
Thus there was not ever going to be anything further in such references if I chose as such and since the only way I had ever viewed the lifestyle at such times was in the lenses I had seen though, there was not ever going to be any sort of way which if altered by another as to altering my view beyond what I would eventually come to hate as to such aspects because of such portions. I did not ever get involved with the adult consenting supposed to be lifestyle for anyone other than myself, which in turn the problems which needlessly occurred only fully pushed me away from such aspects because of the additional needless problems when in reference to my Medal of Honor Art Project trips of which the male name Master Walker who had been a part of the Dominant Mentor Program which I had heard of there being drama surrounding him specifically within the Austin area though no one would speak of what occurred which made little sense to me. When I had to transfer from the Austin area to the Dallas area because of doing the best I could for both my son as well as my daughter in regards of my daughter’s hospitalization in #Arkansas #AK #AKstate #Arkansasstate Arkansas as well as making sure my son was correctly taken care of, the #DFW #Irving #IrvingTX #IrvingTexas the DFW Irving Texas seemed ideal at such times as best as I could get taken care of.
In such times I was already involved with the Dominant Mentor Program of which the fact that Master Walker had wanted me to be an ambassador to the program and I had told him no because of not seeing anything which would assist what I was working on as to my creations of my Underwater Wedding as well as my creation of the Underwater Travel System, to which no one was informed of such a process and no one ever asked me why I had worked as much as I had for my ability to earn my total 26 SCUBA Diving individual certifications through #PADI PADI though I would guesstimate such additional assumptions as to the #SanAntonioExpressNews #mysa San Antonio Express News article and their failure to report the whole truth in full as to the forced situation regarding Jeffrey Kuykendall Jr also known as Cactus Jack and the problems thereof associated to such situations as to the #Fiesta #FiestaSA #FiestaSATX #FiestaSanAntonio #FiestaTexas Fiesta San Antonio #Madmax MadMax 151 Road Warrior problem and the ironic aspects as to my doing what I could to get legal assistance as to law enforcement in comparison to the biases against me simply because of how I physically look in such additions to the lies wrongly told about me and such assumptions thereof as to the additional aspect of #CampMabry Camp Mabry. While needing to remember the amount of firearms in the larger Austin rallies were far too much for me to be able to handle at such times after everything I have personally been through of which while I am a proponent for the second Amendment I am also a proponent for safe firearm aspects, of which the sensation of the amount of lying directly to my face while knowing of there being many individuals with firearms both open carry as well as concealed was not anything comfortable to me ever as I have already previously detailed as to my personal problems as to such sensations as the lack of ability to feel comfortable or safe within the entire area of the state of Texas after everything I had been through already up to such a point in time.
The only time I personally felt any bit of safety or comfort was when with the #YoungRepublican Young Republicans when at the office area when in the areas with #JustinBerry Justin Berry, #USCongress #CongressmanChipRoy Congressman Chip Roy, and #CongressmanMichaelMcCaul Congressman Michael McCaul, #CarrieIsaac Carrie Isaac, and #MackenzieKelly Mackenzie Kelly’s staff members to a degree and them themselves as the dinners compared to the laser tag in my opinion were more enjoyable though in my preference the #Pinballz Pinballz location seemed more ideal at such a time for reccomendations. Though I personally had some situations as to the energetic portions as to the levels of situations I had dealt with from the years of realizations between 2000 into the year of 2013 and then from my return in the year of 2019 through to the year of 2021, I could not believe as to how much stolen valor I was seeing before my eyes around the state of Texas in of any such a place to have seen such levels and amounts of. It was a lot for me to deal with as it was as to what I personally had gone through up to such a point in time, however I did the best I could to not show any fear or timidness as to what I personally was picking up energetically while dealing with processing what I had been through. Additionally as to feeling odd connections to the east coast as to multiple individuals when I realized as to the year and began working towards my transfer which I knew I needed to be elsewhere even though I had previously acknowledged as to looking towards running for Governor of the state of Texas, I needed to be where I personally needed to be for the 20 year memorial of the attacks on 11 September 2001 as I had not ever had any ability to ever visit where I was born and raised since waking up from my coma after my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as well as I personally had and have situations of which I personally need(ed) to attend to because of the amount of overall aspects from the timeframe of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury from 21 years ago.
I fully believe if I did not have to deal with such amounts of lies and such amounts of needless problems from the various situations I had dealt with in reference to the multitude of people throughout the state of Texas, the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury would have healed quicker and I would be in a much better place without any such levels of needless additional stresses and the needless suffering I went through from the amount of situations overall regarding the multitude of levels thereof from individuals and groups from within that state in my opinion. I had admitted to the multiple color pen ink handwritten letters I took to #Governor #TexasGovernor #GreggAbbott #GovernorGregAbbot Governor Greg Abbott’s office as to handing such a multiple page letter to the front area law enforcement officer in the main lobby, as well as the letter I took to push underneath the door at Congressman Michael McCaul’s office in a different area then where the block walking was at. It took a lot for me to be able to begin to speak with Congressman Michael McCaul in the third meeting timeframe because of how I am naturally regarding speaking with individuals I know have large amount of educational background as well as the fact of the energetic portions of which as a side note of which for the #Pentagon Pentagon and the #CIA CIA to think about as to the metaphors for the aspects of which to think about for the comparisons.
In reference to the state of Texas as to the underground caverns and caves as to the soil type as to overseas as to Iraq and Afghanistan, as to the types of abilities as to the soil composition to the type of ways of which mineral rights as to the state of Texas to those locations; the ability to the underground sound systems as to speakers in a location of underground caves and caverns to the sound waves of which the ability to bounce off of and travel distances, as to the dog Harley who was at Mike and Patty’s in reference to the opening to the cave/cavern system in the area of San Antonio for the comparison of though in regards of music in the areas as to the Fort Hood shooting situation as to the psychologist as to the ways of which the musical portions thereof to the North Korea and South Korea border of the DMZ for hopefully to make sense. In such a locations of amount of Active Duty, National Guard, Reservist, and veterans who have been stationed overseas in the middle eastern areas of the world; there is a hypnotizing effect possibly if to the portions in reference to the prayer times as to the ways of which some individuals may respond to such points in time, as to the ways depending upon the personal viewpoint as to whether or not such would be considered as acceptable.
Someone such as myself would fully reject all such aspects as to such and would only find the disgust as to such wishes for the ways of such treatments towards females as per such a normal, though those who find such in any way as appealing in regards of how such problems overseas in the middle eastern countries in reference to the ways of the radicalized Muslim or radicalized Islam problems as has been noticed as to how such needless treatment towards female has been a problem for far too long. In such references as to how such have caused problems needlessly to then blame the female wrongly for responding because of the problems initially caused by the male to begin with, if the male did not involve himself needlessly because of the rejection he did not like it matters not at any point in time because each female as well as each male has the right to choose what is best for themselves however if there is the inability to agree then the rejection of such in whichever ways as to not wanting and not needing to be involved is to be accepted by the rejected individual and/or groups.
There is not the requirement to be a baby about being rejected however if you are rejected and then act as a child, then that is your problem which should not be perpetuated on other such groups or locations or individuals because of such a lack of maturity as to accept having been rejected. The fact of which such problems as to the rejection of others to then needlessly involve other people in other locations because of such temper tantrums has been a problem needlessly of which such problems of which an individual was rejected from a relationship has been a wrongful problem for more females than males because of the needless brute forces used as to try to control what is not theirs to begin, of which such an accepting as to such a rejection of any want or need or desire to ever be involved is the mandatory aspect of accepting such portions as there is not any excuse nor cause nor reason to ever cause problems to try to force a situation to then try to pretend to save from the problems that were caused initially by the one who had been rejected from the starting point thereof.
Get over your ego as to the facts of which if you were rejected if you did not throw such a temper tantrum to begin with and needlessly involve others because of you being rejected as to a relationship, a relationship unlike in reference to working with others as well as going to socialize with others is not the same of which in turn if a private relationship has been rejected than accept the fact that the private relationship has been rejected and do not force your opinions or influence others to your opinions only because your feelings are hurt because of such a rejection to such advances in ways of which to a private relationship which additionally to such aspects of any such connection to the individual who had chosen to reject the wrongful flirtations as well as the inappropriate behaviour to begin with in the example as to Captain Morning and the fraternization parts of such times when I was in Medical Hold Unit and the ways which such similarities in reference to the situation I brought up in reference to Joshua and Crystal Light as to the ways which Captain Morning had tried in reference to the wrongful blocking of phone calls as to the needless drama from such aspects as to the ways which when the Brigade Commander had learned of such situations the Brigade Commander had made the choice to get rid of Captain Morning though in my opinion such sorts of behaviours from such officers should be held to the standards of which should be considered as higher standards as to the fact of knowing both the enlisted areas of the branches and divisions of the Armed Forces of the United States of America as well as the officer portions thereof. That is not protecting anyone when you start problems to cause to then try to be a saviour, as if the problems were not caused to begin with the saving would not be necessary to begin with as I did not think it took a head injury to figure that out.
How normal is it for so many to go after just one individual to constantly berate the one individual to have such a sensation to the levels of which wondering as to what value and what worth of such one life, as to such times to any such individuals thereof in the combinations in the state of Texas and/or the overall aspects as to the entire United States of America regarding as to how such levels had gone to? Was it that horrific that I had fought to be able to stop my nightmare from being what my nightmare had been and the fact of 11 September 2001 being so much less than what my nightmare had been in such realities, or was it all worthless to everyone who had been able to live? Did you survive what I have in full completely, or has your life been far more easy in all such total comparisons? Probably the latter of the two, though what does that matter in such references to me?
Thus if there were any individuals who thought they knew who I am better than I know myself, I suppose the joke that was played on me has turned around a bit as to what hypothetically is on those individuals because now I simply cannot stand the thought of the adult lifestyle as to the lack of consent repeatedly on my behalf ever being respected as per the abilities to have read through during the times of the actual postings of which some have been deleted as to the responses as to on fetlife; in such comparisons of time to which each individual who had posted even if they had chosen to block my profile should have all such responses kept in place as to the realities thereof for social media postings as there is no excuse in my opinion to ever remove such no matter what the situations were in my opinion as to the facts as to such requirements as to the proper records kept as to the realities, of which law enforcement can officially review such as the tampering of evidence as to any such removal of any such message online as to any responses because of the GPS locations as well as the IP addresses.
As to the accounts and etcetera referencing the technological portions thereof as to such technology needs and reasons for the creation of technology to be able to record such portions as to make sure law enforcement has the information required if there is ever any multitude of situations, of which I had told others about how many people were in trouble for stealing valor within the city of San Antonio as well as the problems associated with such. My now dead-ex-husband had admitted to pretending to copy cat what I dealt with in reference to my headaches and migraines as well as tried to imitate and mimic the situations as to the after effects such as my memory deficits and cognitive disorders though when I spoke with a Neurologist in the civilian sector, she had told me there are individuals with the problems she could see in regards of all such situations I had explained which were common to the natural aspects of the after effects of a head injury or TBI in comparison to the ways of which she had noticed from others doing as such. She had told me there were too many factors of which were undeniable which would ever have any intelligent person doubt such as an intelligent person would be able to notice such easily, as well as be able to tell as to the realities of such aspects of the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury in comparison to what she had seen in reference to those who have wished to have such problems which she could not understand as nor could I as to why anyone would ever want or wish such for themselves as to the after effects thereof.
How many have as to what I was told by Noel about the Temple of Flesh poster females as to the aspects as to the Mentor Program of whether the Dominant or the submissive situations, as to the situations I personally dealt with as to such occurrences? Are there more than just one situation to look into for such a review as to such, in comparison? There are several positive attributes as to the Dominant Mentor Program as I would guess in reference to the submissive Mentor Program, however there additionally were other such problems which were underlying to the overall portions thereof to the combined aspects of which when the situations were far too many for me to count is the only reason as to why I had written such aspects. Not in ways to upset and not in ways to cause problems, in ways to which for such individuals to reflect and evaluate the circumstances they were involved with as well as the individuals in charge of such to review honestly with the lack of bias as required as the biases will cause problems needlessly as to the ways of such similarities to biases as to rejections though there are reasons as to why such rejections occur of which while at times can be a point of which to reflect there additionally is not the need to do so without adult communication with words.
If there are the temper tantrums as to refuse to speak with because of whatever complaints as to such then there is not the excuse to go forward and cause needless problems only because of the other side’s lack of ability to step forward to be a responsible adult as to speaking with in such references, of which then the agreement to disagree and to walk away from one another without causing needless problems is the unspoken agreement. However if there are far too many problems of which such an unspoken agreement as to being an adult is not accepted and the perpetuation of problems because of the lack of maturity to leave the situation alone as to the individual(s) involved, then when the ability to speak of such becomes made aware of such then the fact of such if any furthered problems occurred only because of such an initial rejection then the full rejection of all such involvement as to the problems needlessly thereof. Thus in turn if there were problems caused further to my son, my daughter, and I because of such problems associated with the Mentor Program then to wish as to ever being reviewed as a saving aspect; I repeat the fact there is not the ability to claim being a saving portion from which the problems were hypothetically begun, because of such situations to begin with. That should not take a head injury to figure out that if you cause problems to people who walked away peacefully then you are the problem in all such aspects, and thus you need to be saved from yourself if you have not self-destructed yourselves first because of such a hypothetical choice as if I am not the first person who has had such situations before the year I wound up in Washington state and/or afterwards then the what is supposed to be an adult consenting lifestyle community truly needs to self-reflect as to those who they once knew and what occurred as to such times because of the willingness to stand by and do nothing while knowing of the whispers as I had been told by Noel about in reference to the poster girl aspects as well as to the problems associated with the Mentor Program in such hypotheticals.
Breaking the Silence of the A.C.&D. -M.P.s - LadyDoriBelle | FetLife https://fetlife.com/users/484330/posts/1521365
I have no feelings of which would ever be of what it once was. If there was the wish in reference to the request though seemingly attitude filled as to Master Walker as to the ambassadorship as he had specifically brought up opening a group in the Washington state are, there was not the interest back then not because only of my children though also because as I told him of my personal preference. I did not want nor did I need to be a part of such a Dominant Mentor Program as per the portions to which I had gotten to, and I did not want nor need to be involved with such because of my biological mother and my biological father as I had repeatedly explained as to such referencing my biological sister. Since those individuals had hypothetically refused to accept as such, this is my official resignation as there is not anything I want or need from such aspects because I am not the individual you wished I was. Accepting my response in full to such as “No” as the answer I gave back in the year of 2011 as my permanent answer was important, of which later in the discussion he tried to tell me he did not think I had enough electives to graduate which when I asked how many I needed he said that I needed 5 or 7 which at that time I had completed my 13 individual electives which when I told him that he made a grimace with his face before saying he could think of one individual who he thought I should speak with and ask him as to what happened when he left the Mentor Program and what he had to do in order to get back into the program which was odd to me as I was going to graduate and not return to that program.
However I made the arrangements as I had explained in my book “Finding A Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing” which I met with the male who was taller than me with longer hair at the time and a lighter complexion with broader shoulders, and when we sat in his living room as I sat in the couch while he sat in his chair during the meeting he asked me to tell him about myself. I told him my background as best as I could and when he asked me why I was sent to him and I told him what Master Walker told me to tell him, he almost dropped his coffee mug and asked me what I did to be sent to him. I told him about the ambassador situation which the female he had in the kitchen looked over to where I sat and he had put his hand up, which I asked if there was something I could help with. I have a feeling there may have been a bit of untangling as to what others need to let go of in a multitude of ways, however such a viewpoint thereof could be.
While I do believe in reference as to the aspects of adult consenting behaviour in which the consent between the individuals involved as to the levels of intelligent and honest aspects as to the adult consenting lifestyle such as Swinging is accepted more because of the facts as to the timeframes of the 1960s and the 1970s, the problems which have been associated with the acceptances of the #BDSM BDSM aspects as to the time of which initially had been a part of the #LGBT #LGBTQ #LGBTQP #LGBTQPride LGBTQP groups as to the fact that Leather began to be a more open way for the Gay Male community to be able to assert themselves while being themselves in the ways thereof to which as time progressed onward as to the ways which such a community had moved forward as to the representations thereof. In such references as to the breeders or the heterosexual aspects thereof to the LGBTQP communities having found inspiration as to the strength thereof to stand up within the face of adversity at each turn, while I have already admitted such portions of which I personally knew of the aspects as to the portions of why it felt in certain aspects as to the problems with the LGBTQP community towards me as to an ex-girlfriend which there are those who comprehend the psycho-ex sorts of situations as to the female regarding the LaVernia case aspects; the situations of which in such references as to when an individual says “No” whether a male or female to another male or female means “No” each and every time to such a private relationship.
The problems with people who have not accepted the response of “No” to a private relationship who have wrongly refused to move on not only deny the ones they claimed to have cared about in a relationship aspect though additionally deny themselves of such any private relationship aspect as to what could have been, because of the facts as to focusing on the wrong individual from the beginning. There is not any way as no one can force a long term private relationship to work for the best in such ways, because of the facts of what is required for a private relationship to work in the long term which is clear and honest open communication of which the trust is built to then move forward in which ways as considered ideal when both individuals involved in such a private relationship or if in the aspects of a multifaceted or polyamorous as to what such agreements are within such aspects thereof. Personally being far more monogamous as to extremely specific aspects compared to the assumptions as to #polyamory because of the failure in my opinion as to distinguish the differences between Swingers and polyamory because of the crossovers in both sections of such adult supposed to be consenting lifestyle portions has been a situation which in my opinion the BDSM community has been caught in the middle of such aspects because of the differences referencing to the specifically sexual contact as to such if agreed to. Most BDSMers do not agree to the sexual contact in reference to several aspects in the polyamory ways though there are those I have met who have different aspects of viewpoints as each couple or triad or whatever combination thereof such a as household depends upon which agreements are made, in comparison.
Though I have spent much more time in Swinger clubs over my years in the adult supposed to be consenting lifestyle in comparison to BDSM clubs, it is because in the Swinging clubs there is the aspect as to the mandatory consent in comparison to the ways of which in the BDSM clubs seem to be an issue as to the aspects of which I have brought forward in prior journal blog entries as to the facts thereof. There is no excuse nor cause nor reason to ever force any such situations regarding when an individual says “No” and just the same as to moving on in a different direction without needing to have such involvement, if you are not personally involved in a way which each is actually able to consent in such a situation then there is not the acceptance of such aspects as to the wishes thereof to such aspects. No, means no. Do not force needless drama because a fe/male has the right to choose what s/he chooses to be a part of for their best interest, and there is not any way a group of individuals can call themselves a community by any such standards if that is something a group of individuals is willing to perpetuate as to such needless drama because of an individual walking away and/or having been pushed away and then simply feels the lack of any such need or want or desire to ever be involved in such a group type of setting ever again because of such needless problems.
In such regards as to the ways which businesses and companies have had to deal with certain situations as per what I learned is called the #cancelculture cancel culture situations, in such ways which #SeanHannity Sean Hannity and others have brought forward if you continue to use the cancel culture aspects you will in turn cancel each other out repeatedly. Then, what? You need to be able to reflect on your circumstances and find the connecting thread(s) of such problems and clarify of such situations in the examples of which when looking through as I have as to the varied aspects of which if I have been accurate and if the hypotheticals have been truthful in such connection problems aspects, then the fact of which when multiple groups and multiple individuals constantly cancel out such aspects of such an individual then what is the ways of which to ever get such an individual back into such? The answer is only with truth and honesty or simply just leave the individual alone and only speak of such in the truth of which as well as acknowledging whatever biases you personally had of which you personally caused such needless problems to such, as the individual has the right to not ever want or need or desire to be a part of such problems ever again as to their Constitutional Rights within the United States of America.
Thus I am personally taking the official first step to cancel the cancel culture, as I have a sensation such has to do with the pop culture aspects to which the pop culture aspects have been problematic for some to distinguish between the facts and whatever of pop culture as the realities of such aspects to what is considered as genuine culture compared to what such viewpoints in other such regards are have been needing to be popped similarly to a pimple.
There are reasons why there are parental guidelines as to being able to give the parents and/or legal guardians the ability to explain the reasons as to why such ratings are as such, as the parents and legal guardians who have not taken the time to explain such reasons for the parental guidelines and/or decide to shirk such aspects as to the amount of time it would take to simply explain such details is just a bit of time you once could have had with your child(ren) as to if whatever choices were as to such as to how each individual chooses to utilize the time they have/had with their chil(ren) as I had made sure I spent as much and as best of time with my son and my daughter at each possible opportunity as best as I could despite what I had dealt with and despite what others who needlessly involved themselves as to their biases. I did what I could to explain such as well as discuss multiple topics with my son and my daughter within the reason of what their ages were as well as their intellectual capacities as to the levels thereof, however since some individuals within the state of Texas seemed to be too ignorant as to ever think as to my ability to learn as well as pick the best possible choices for the times thereof to my son and my daughter; in such reviewing aspects, how have your child(ren) turned out before you chose to get involved with my life and my children?
In the regards as to the situations in reference to the aspects I kept what was supposed to be the adult consenting aspects as to just the adult consenting portions, I had not thought it took a head injury to figure out that what adults do behind closed doors does not include children when in the reference thereof as to their own room as I did not think it took a head injury to figure out that when a responsible adult takes care of life in ways which such is able to be see through management of multiple aspects as to such portions with the grace aspects as to being a human being as well as to the medical aspects thereof as to which it should not take a head injury to figure out that then is such biases as well as their own lack of ability to acknowledge within their own lives as to their own pitfalls and their own failures while trying to project such onto others who actually have the wherewithal and self-determination to propel themselves and others forward; though only can propel others forward who are willing to be honest in such references of accepting of themselves as to such portions as the stigma and biases of involvement with certain adult consenting aspects and/or being known to have an association and/or friend and/or family member involved with certain portions is what a consenting though more important an unbiased and a responsible adult can distinguish without needing to explain such though would defend whenever necessary with words which would prove such choices of which to the extent of such levels of capacities of intellectual capabilities whether or not is considered as normal in all such comparisons though if capable to function without the various levels of society as well as especially if capable to function within levels of society which are not of those who have complained hypothetically; that is not the failure upon the individual as that is the failure upon the others who have made the purposeful choice, as to whatever purposeful choices thereof in my opinion to the aspects as to such a review. Assumptions always lead to needless problems, in my opinion to such aspects.
In the reference to my article Military & BDSM Lifestyle Collision - LadyDoriBelle | FetLife https://fetlife.com/users/484330/posts/1572760
In that particular reference as to such, I did not think it took a head injury to figure out that just because I did not graduate Basic Training for the Army branch of the Untied States of America’s Armed Forces, did not mean according to others of my lack of abilities in multiple aspects as to the facts thereof others having known about my SCUBA Diving and the lack of any such care or of concern in my best interests as to such aspects thereof and the lack of any such portions of genuinity to any such individuals regarding such portions. The fact of which none had ever had the human decency to ever ask me officially and whatever assumptions there had been regarding such aspects to then needlessly go after me in the ways of which what I had wrote about pretty much described what common sense aspects to the overall regarding human beings to begin with, and the additional lack of concern as to any such realities as to my background simply because of my being born as a genetic biological female as to the problems within such machismo and sexist portions thereof. Additionally if you are upset because of the fact I peed in the ocean get over yourselves because you have done so yourselves you worthless individuals, as to any who would be so ignorant as to think that ever messing with anything of mine would ever assist you to be accepted in such ways as to what I personally dealt with. If you do not have the common sense nor the common courtesy to be a decent human being and ask of me or make the request with the etiquette aspects thereof, then do not bother me with your childish aspects as I do not care for your needless drama as I have already gone over.
In the references of which my (SCUBA Diving) oceanic work has been my work alone for all such aspects in regards as to the oceanic portions since I was a child into my teenager years and then later after more specifically into my adult, that all falls into the categories I had written about within the #fetlife fetlife article as per each aspect. However knowing there are others who have such portions in their own lives, I had chosen to write it in a way which others would be able to see certain portions for themselves and those they knew. Since I have hypothetically been annoyed and bothered by such individuals who have not had the decency to be honest with me in reference to such aspects as to simply ask me honestly about such portions, here is a quick overview though not limited to such in brief despite not actually needing to though because of such problems as to my Medal of Honor Art Project trips and other such needless situations of needless individuals who wish to politicize within whichever groups and communities thereof for their own needless clout which they themselves did not personally earn:
1): Lost Appendages: My hair, I did not think took a head injury to figure that out.
2): PTSD: I think there are enough aspects to go off of from for such aspects, to not have to detail those portions further at this point especially in reference to those within the state of Texas.
3): Head Injury/TBI: There is the aspects of my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as well as what I have already gone into the details of as to the abuse I repeatedly dealt with in reference to the years between 2000 through to 2008 referencing my now dead-ex-husband as well as what my biological mother/father/sister had seen in person as well as my ex-in-laws as to the similarities to what I had written and compiled about in “Finding A Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing”.
Did I know there are other aspects as to certain portions in the larger ways as to when reading through “Finding A Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing” as to such more in depth detailed aspects, of course I did as to having also authored “Finding The Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing” because of knowing my life experiences combined were too heavy to be able to ever find anything worthwhile if only focused upon one portion of the two books in comparison to both proverbial halves to the whole of who I am. I knew there had to be a terminology for what I had dealt with in reference to how I had been taken off of the military installation at #JBSA Joint Base San Antonio as to the timeframe after having awoken from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury coma, of which the terminology has to do with the 13th Amendment as to the ways of which I had been treated and gave such descriptions as to the validity of such truths. In turn any individual who had ever been informed of such aspects and has ever made such situations as to needlessly cause any further problems to me after the point more officially in reference to the year of 2014 as to the facts of such situations, there is not any excuse nor cause nor reason as to what I had dealt with thereafter to such times as to if there is anything which within the timeframes of the years between in regards as to 2008 through 2013 then those particular portions can be reviewed for such legalities thereof for such clarifications and what justice portions are required for the aspects of which are found in such hypotheticals.
In such references as to gladly remaining currently as a legal widow and not ever having ever been willing to ever remarry as I have not ever agreed to such nor would I ever agree to such without having a specific type of relationship beginning as well as a specific type of relationship aspects, there is not ever going to be a way which such portions are ever written about as to the fact of which I personally prefer such aspects to begin in person from the beginning as to such times and if there is any such aspects as to writing I have not denied as to being a bit more old fashioned as to such and thus none would ever be within any such technological portions and would if in writing only be within such handwritten letter portions thereof in the ways of which first communications as to the aspects thereof if I would ever be interested to such portions. However if that was not begun with in the handwritten pieces of paper handed over to the original handwritten document delivered in ways which would be seen in the public areas for the delivery thereof and as I have only admitted to such in reference to officially regarding Donald Trump Jr; there is not anyone else which I have ever officially done so with that I can personally recall of such an asking for a date in the ways thereof, in such comparisons.
While I have not denied as to finding different individuals to be good looking or attractive or as I have referred to #RobONeill Rob O’Neill as a Cutie Pattotie Navy SEAL as the similar aspects as to having admitted to finding #JohnnyJoeyJones Johnny Joey Jones as a Cutie Patootie Marine, the likelihood of them knowing who I am similarly to #Eminem #MarshallMathers Eminem also known as apparently as Marshall Mathers having the inclination as to who I am is a bit odd for me to think about though would be amusing in several ways mainly because of not having known that Eminem’s name is Marshall as to an aspect regarding my children’s book series. However in such references as to such situations of the possibility of such individuals knowing of me, that would be a bit of a taking aback as to such as to knowing of their recognition levels as to such portions of what has been reported as to such accomplishments and in the case of Eminem his musical aspects for such recognition portions thereof as I cannot recall if there were ever any news portions on the channels I had watched and listened to in the areas of such times as to the years more specifically within 2000 through 2013.
However in such ironies as to not having known such a name as to Eminem’s real name, there is the irony of such aspects as to if he had ever heard about me and/or my books which I had if I recall correctly sent such to his studio though I am uncertain as to if such had been received as at those initial times I had not used to USPS Priority Mail as to the ways of the packages when going to the post office as I had used the Media Mail aspects as to the ways I had learned years prior when volunteering at Nine Lives Books. In the references as to having acknowledged as to such portions in reference to the aspects of my lack of understanding as to the technological portions as to the name changes in reference to the aspect of my original fetlife account as to what I was dealing with and had told people throughout the state of Texas in person as to how many threats I had been dealing with and as I thought changing my name meant the safety for such aspects in comparison, there had not been any such aspects when taking a look into the facts as to how I wound up in Washington state as to the length of time of what I had dealt with referencing such aspects.
I suppose in certain references so too is the same as to the documentation portions as to the ability to find such details as to the ways of online searches in the different aspects as to the mandatory legal documentations of which in those portions of which would assist in regards of law enforcement being able to verify the situations as to any such legal name changes and/or in reference to the aspects as to the online name aspects referencing such portions, to the regards as to the review as to the margining aspects because of more than just one social media site online for such aspects in the larger capacities thereof to the specific details per type of social media grouping such as the differences between #Facebook Facebook and #Fetlife Fetlife for the individuals who have gone forward with such aspects thereof as to finding hidden in plain sight criminals because of the facts as to the name changes and the online portions to the legal paperwork aspects to be able to clarify such details as to end the stolen valor as well as ending stolen identity problems as the identity theft is a problem which has been needing assistance in ways to which to clarify and verify the individual(s) depending on where and who you meet because of different groups in person having different aspects of knowledge to such.
For the example as to when I was growing up going to different areas to view the online portions as to such connections, in one are of #Harlem Harlem I had the nickname of Shorty though in another part of the same borough I had the nick name of Cuz whereas in another area I had the nickname of That Girl and etcetera. In #Boorklyn Brooklyn in some areas the nicknames were the same though other areas as being known as Peppermint to another area of which Peppomint, as the difference to pronounce the nickname as to the groups. In #Queens Queens I had varied nicknames as to the same as to the neighborhoods of the #Bronx Bronx, and #Manhattan Manhattan as well; which that does not go into the aspects as to the different blocks and sections of #Pittsburg Pittsburg and #Philadelphia Philadelphia, while of course the state I was born and raised in of #NJ #NewJersey #NJstate #NewJerseystate as well as the nicknames in #ILstate #IL #Illinois #Illinoistate which those in Illinois were offended I told them their nickname for me of #Jersey “Jersey” and #JerseyGirl “Jersey Girl” I had thought was unoriginal just as later as to getting the nickname of Red later on to such times.
I had not ever hidden who I was nor what nicknames I had been known as in the various times because of knowing myself as well as knowing there is always a way to tell in technology as to any type of photoshop type aspects of which any type of such editing as to wishful thinking as to ever trying to wrongly present in such ways as to my opinion regarding any such type of relationship is deceitful and unacceptable because of the realities of actual and genuine safety as well as the legal situations of which falsifying documentations in any such way is considered as a criminal offense to such especially within the Armed Forces of the United States of America, to which any who would wish to try to gain accesses to my military records through such would officially be considered for the legal charges thereof and such Red Flags had already put my military records on a specific type of lockdown years ago as to other such precautions as to having already gone over such details to which would be considered as treason against each individual who would think of to discuss working towards such aspects as to which then the reasons for Martial Law would need to be put into place to clear out such problems as to whatever the amount of times thereof to such amounts of hypothetical criminal behaviour and the situations of which the officializing of the #USSpaceForce #USASpaceForce US Space Force as to the Department of Defense would require such a review because of the mandatory known portions of which the beings from such extra terrestrial capacities are above what the aspects as to human beings of which such problems would fully need to be cleared in all such ways as to the prevention of such problems for any such abilities to ever go forward in such space travel aspects as to the requirements to specifically only speak with the one and only would ever be deemed as to such portions as anyone knows as to the levels of which the aspects thereof would require the specifics which there would not be the allowances to go through anyone to speak with as to the exception of the individual themselves as to the backgrounds having been cleared and other such portions thereof.
I could see ignorant individuals wishing their background would be considered as good enough though the factor as to what is compared to what is not allowed in the space portions of which the ending stolen valor has been mandatory in all such ways, as why would any being from the oceanic waters and/or from space ever want or need to speak with someone who does not have the capabilities to follow simple instructions as to the #10Commandments 10 Commandments in such references? If human beings are incapable of following the 10 Commandments, then why would there ever be a need for human beings in the Milky Way Galaxy or the universe to begin with?
The answer is there would not ever be any need nor any requirement for such types of those types of human beings to ever continue onward and anyone who would wish they could subvert such aspects and try to think they were what would be good enough, well they would not be good enough and they would be within the rights of the #UCMJ Universal Code of Military Justice for such charges which against me would be considered as treason by such individuals in the ways thereof as well as the violations against the 13th Amendment if hypothetically enough details found for such a review. In turn the combined other aspects thereof would mean the ability depending as to the locations thereof such groups and/or individuals as to the Martial Law among other such legalities brought forward as to such aspects thereof to such hypotheticals as there is not any reason any further of which to ever speak with my biological father or my biological mother or my biological sister for any such relationship with me, as to I had already clarified such portions and there would not ever be any allowances from such aspects. Their failure to pay attention to the facts as to my having delivered my son and my daughter less than three years from being awake from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as to my coma and the after effects thereof, only proves their incapabilities to properly and correctly take care of me and my best interests correctly as proof of such in multiple areas and multiple ways.
Since the officializing of the Space Force though #NASA NASA has been around for decades as well as other such portions as to the oceanic beings, or the space aspects thereof for such as to the different requirements for the specifics thereof to which the failure to have the intelligence for the realities thereof would in turn prove a different set of problems of which would not ever be accepted and would fully be rejected as it is not as simple as going to the ocean shoreline and wishing for such as there is far more complexities to ever try to get my hand in marriage as I personally would have to do the aspects of as the only way is through me personally. In the ways of which would be known of my own free will of which that has not ever occurred at any such time as to the official ways thereof to which would be required for such a request and thus additionally as to the oath aspects thereof as to the ways of which in any such hypothetical the full clearing out in all such ways as to the wishes of others as such has fully been rejected before ever being able to take a step forward as I would guesstimate the oceanic waters may have shown several signs as to those individuals as to their rejection for their wishes, as to the facts of such would be able to be noticed simply by the heated waters as to which such a full rejection by such oceanic beings to ever think that trying to subvert any such aspects thereof would ever be considered as accepted which that obviously would show it has been denied in such hypotheticals as to any who would wish for such aspects as to the required combinations. In turn the requirement for the full releasing of whichever wishes of the legal portions thereof to which I am a legal widow only and there are not reasons nor causes nor excuses of which at this point in time of ever having any such restrictions nor are there any such aspects for which to hypothetically needlessly restricting my life and/or my finances and/or my property rights, as all such portions of which there is not any actual cause except for others’ greed of which is invalid in such viewpoints in my opinion as well as whatever proof thereof.
However since I am not in a relationship there is not the requirement as to such, as to what specifics thereof for such a situation have not been met by my specific standards. Thus the full requirement of all such wishes/hopes by others of such relinquishment as to all such aspects because of the facts as to the realties of what #DrMaryEdwardsWalker Dr. Mary Edwards Walker had gone through when she was a #POW #PrisonerofWar Prisoner of War as to some who tried to claim she was their bride when she had not ever agreed to such and the amount of work she had to do needlessly to get the information to Congress to be able to clarify she was not ever married to anyone though in my situation as to only having been a legal widow to one individual as to my now dead-ex-husband E5 Robert Walker Nichols; in such aspects as to not ever having been remarried, and not ever willing to ever be forced into such situations ever again after what I had dealt with needlessly.
Thus in such aspects as to that radicalized islam and needless views of such gor type of games, I refuse and already have under oath as I can only tell the truth and the oath aspects were only an updating I suppose as to my oath to tell the truth and the whole truth and nothing but the truth from when in reference to the court case in the year of 1998 or 1999 in reference to Baptist Camp Lebanon pf which in such references as to how I can only tell the truth I refuse and rebuke any and all individuals who would wish to ever be accepted as they are fully rejected in all such references as to any such wish to ever try to subvert through illegal means of illegal manipulations of documentations of which the technological portions would be able to through the merger be able to verify all such problems for the full purging of all such aspects in all such ways; as again, I protected myself on purpose as to ensure that I would not ever officially be able to have to ever go through such problems as my prevention methods for which the aspects thereof to ever wish to speak on my behalf without my consent as to the additional violation of my Constitutional Rights of Freedom of Speech and my Freedom of Expression as to such violations and because of my Blue Identification Card of/for the Armed Forces of the United States of America as to the additional factors of such aspects of which such individuals would fully be seen as committing treasonous choices within the areas of the Homeland soil of the United States of America to which my oath to protect and defend the United States of America and the Constitutional Rights I personally took and remain faithful and truthful to in such ways thereof.
Any such aspects hypothetically proven in reference to all such fact and documentation thereof to all such portions have been under oath for such official aspects in the ways thereof, to which there is no excuse nor reason nor cause to ever treat any individual as to the ways which I have needlessly been treated and the facts of such problems as to those types of people who have been ignorant to ever think as to such portions of such consent as mandatory as to their versions of a game when I do not play games as I have already explained the only times which I have and only when I personally had chosen to do so and thus the facts of which such documentation as well as the facts of the connected portions of the merging portions of the technological aspects I have made my statements of my own free will as to the refusal of such wishes by others and if such any paperwork was altered then the full requirement of the aspects through the legal measures of the law enforcement branches and divisions as to which the situations proven via such legalities would be the forced portion of such Martial Law aspects as to the facts of all such combined aspects to which the failures of such individuals to be able to distinguish between the consenting and the non-consenting which I have refused by which means I have not and will not consent to any such aspects of which I personally have gone over such portions previously as well as within this particular journal blog entry.
I do not care as to who wishes such there is the requirement to accept that I have said “No” and I refuse to accept any such conditions as to any such portions of which I have not ever felt comfortable in such situations, and the lack of any such concern and care as to the realities of which I have needlessly gone through because of the failures within the individuals within the state of Texas to recognize the problems as to their inability to distinguish between the stupid Excalibur garbage as to I already said No and I will repeat saying no because it is my right to say no and fully refuse all such portions. There is not any acceptable portions as I do not require a babysitter the ways others apparently do as to who else has been able to follow the 10 Commandments, and since such problems have needlessly occurred as to the situations overall as found what is the problem as to actually getting the correct help and the correct assistance to actually fixing and repairing such problems as to those individuals throughout the state of Texas as to the #Ombudsman Ombudsman filings as to actually getting the correct help and assistance instead of the repetition of patterns of useless behaviour by such useless individuals? I do not see any such Whistleblower Protections as to any such portions thereof, as to the fact of what my son and my daughter and I have needlessly dealt with over such years.
I also do not see any aspects as to how such has gone forward as to how I have been treated within the codes of the Geneva Convention agreements as because of the facts that in the Geneva Convention the attacks to in such response has to be officially done by the other side for the right to respond, of which in reference to the oceanic portions of which I personally defended the individuals on land which admittedly to my biases currently for the messages thereof I have responded within the authorities thereof to such Geneva Convention rules of engagement both in reference to the oceanic portions as well as the space portions though especially in reference to the individuals within the state of Texas within the United States of America; specifically in reference to those within the state of Texas and such connections thereof, officially within the year of waking up from my coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury of which the rave situation in Austin had been the official starting point of such aspects which the CID Criminal Investigation Division would have the authority to maneuver within the civilian sector as to such rules of engagement in reference to those who had taken me to the rave knowing the after effects initially as well as the individuals in reference to what I had told and admitted to under oath of such situations regarding the aspects of the headaches and migraines I was dealing with to the point of how I wound up in Brackenridge and such other aspects associated thereof. I have relatedly proven I am not the stereotypical individual and in such references, there is not the way to stereotype me without the aggravation needlessly from such types of individuals who would wish to typecast such aspects as there is not the ways thereof to.
Looking back to such a review, I cannot think of any point in time where I ever had any comfort in any point in time of my entire life and I have only helped and assisted in such comparisons to what I have dealt with. There is not one official length of time in my life where I can genuinely think of where the entirety of even one day where I ever had the comfort I have heard about others having, though I did not envy such as I had done what I could to work towards being able to afford such for myself from my own works. There is not one official length of time in my life where I can genuinely think of where I have ever had what I needed in all such ways without ever having to fight for such, which I have longed for the time when I would not ever have to do so and everything I needed would be of ease and comfort for me personally as to my preferences without the restrictions needlessly on my life or my existence within such aspects of my life. I cannot think of a time officially in my life where I can genuinely find any point where I ever actually fully enjoyed myself without any problems needlessly involved as to any such aspects thereof, as there is not one point in my life where I have ever had such a luxury in truth. I do not find the ways of which some have regarding online aspects as to such and I do not find only online portions to be acceptable of which there is not ever going to be a point of which online I ever feel there will be of any such comfort as to the facts of my personal preference has always been in person, though since such problems as to the situations regarding such failures to simply speak in truth with me without my having to go over such there again has been the lack of comfort in such any and all such references in my opinion.
I do not find anything anticipatory as to stalking me or harassing me, as that is not considered as anticipatory in any such ways in my opinion as there is not any comfort as to such aspects ever in my opinion. I need a lot more than just some ignorant fool who would think I would ever need such aspects as to such wishful thinking as to ever being interested in such ways, as there was not ever any point in time of which I would ever allow such as the disgrace of all such portions to the ways thereof. I refuse fully to ever be a part of what I do not consent to and I have not consented to multiple aspects of which the fact there has not been anyone who has actually been of any genuine help in this world, I have gotten to the point of actually hoping for the full destruction of the entire planet more recently because of the lack of capabilities shown by all such individuals to simply correctly complete the most simple of tasks as why should such existences I personally saved without any such help or assistance in the most crucial portions thereof ever be worth saving if they have been too lazy to actually do their own work on their own in the correct and proper ways. I have been unable to see anything recently that is worth being a part of to save in such references as to the entire state of Texas with the except of very few individuals, of which none are those who I knew before my return to the state of Texas in 2019 for all such clarifications.
It should not take a head injury to figure this out (susanmeeling.com) https://www.susanmeeling.com/single-post/it-should-not-take-a-head-injury-to-figure-this-out
The link is important for such reviewal processes as to the various situations of which I have needlessly dealt with to which in reference to how I wound up in Washington state in comparison to the east coast, I believe such portions can fully assist in clarifying the additional aspects thereof in full regarding all such portions thereof as to the legalities in reference any/all involved with such aspects as to the additional aspects of what intentions had been in such references thereof.
Under oath yet again for only the reminder, I would not ever go to the west coast as I told Master Walker there was not any interest to me in the west coast because of my knowledge as to the plants would confuse me needlessly because of where I was born and raised. The ignorance as to accepting within the state of Texas as to the fact of my always having been more East Coast Leather with west coast principles is what I did what I could to explain such portions and the only reason of such possibly looking as a possibility to such is because of what I already explained as to seeing the Aurora Borealis when Ice SCUBA Diving, however since there was the failure upon all such SCUBA Divers to ever do correctly what was needed for me when I needed the actual assistance back then of which can be reviewed in the ways of such individuals making the choices thereof within the SCUBA Diving community of Texas as to treason as to the knowledge of my associated aspects whether or not any and/or all of such types of civilian recreational SCUBA divers and/or recreational civilian SCUBA Diving instructors of if they had ever known and/or had any knowledge of my Blue Identification Card of the Armed Forces of the United States of America which in turn then in such UCMJ portions additionally as to the ways if proven as to others whether Active Duty and/or National Guard and/or Reservists and/or veteran and/or Blue Identification Card of the Armed Forces of the United States of America if such has been repeatedly perpetuated as to needlessly causing problems to the individuals of by such individuals within the state of Texas and/or the United States of America though also treatied countries because of my personal travels for my SCUBA Diving as well as my SCUBA Diving depth gauge computer for such aspects thereof to the British UK regarding such individuals needlessly playing games instead of taking care of what actually is important in comparison.
Thus in reference to the aspects of which I would not ever willingly go to the state of Washington nor would I ever willingly go to the west coast to live, in such aspects as to my biological mother and my biological father and my biological sister wishing to keep me away from working on healing myself from what I had dealt with in reference to the problems regarding my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury after effects; again I repeat I know I would have healed correctly swiftly if those people had stayed out of my life as well as accepted the fact I fought to be emancipated from those people, for the reasons why they cannot stand themselves and more as that egg donor and that sperm donor and that other combination of those pieces which is considered as my biological sister needed to comprehend I did not want them in my life and I did not need them in my life for what I personally had to accomplish without then and on my own of my own work of my own self-determination and it was not and is not my fault my biological sister was not going to ever be good enough to accomplish what I needed to accomplish of which if that had not been her focus she could have done better elsewhere in comparison to what she pulled throughout Texas especially because of her inbred hatred of the military branches and divisions as I explained in reference to discussions as well as within “Finding A Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing” as to the situations she complained about regarding employment and the background aspects thereof to the military individuals taking over the jobs because of their ability to work more concisely with greater ease while knowing how to think for themselves and accomplish what possible in comparison to the situations which she had preferred for herself to sleep her way upward which I told her was not acceptable and was not going to ever be allowed any further once a certain time occurred which she did not want to believe me that was going to be the way shortly from such a discussion.
The needless ego those people had instilled in such a needless spoiled brat has been a problem for many, and the facts of such realities have been needing to be brought forward in such ways as to how such problems actually start and go forward to be able to progress onward in far better ways than to continue needlessly cycling such patterns of behaviour on a loop as those types of individuals of such useless and needless portions have been a problem for society as a whole for far too long and have been the reasons and the causes as to why the lack of progression forward into other areas has been due to their inability at such prior times to accept the fact they just cannot measure up to the required levels thereof. If they had put half as much effort into actually working on something worthwhile instead of being such overdramatic individuals and needlessly going after those who earn such on their own, they might actually be able to accomplish something worthwhile.
Though I suppose it should not take a head injury to figure that out, though apparently it takes a head injury to explain it to a level of knowledge for the understanding to comprehend the inabilities they have had for such lengths of time as to the fact of which I went from College Algebra with Trigonometry and Calculus while in high school while also being in community college in reference to College 101 level of Biology as well as College Level 101 of Geometry while being in high school to then after waking up from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury 21 years ago as to the second grade math level of which that informs you individuals as to your so-called college degrees as to your intelligence levels as of the current moment in time. Thus all of those who ever tried to claim your degrees worked on or degrees earned were exactly as such and remain exactly as such as to extremely expensive pieces of toilet paper for each aspect where I was correct, and you were incorrect. What is the percentage average as to such portions and whose experiences are more clear in such references, as well as who was the one and only who had accomplished what I have accomplished? It should not take a head injury to figure out I am the one and only who accomplished such and instead of being children biologically as adults, why not grow up and begin to act accordingly to your actual age and not your shoes size or a spiritual number as your age as there is a difference as well as other such connected portions that have nothing to do with the everyday life of such situations.
However in reference to the aspects of which the realities to the individuals who have shown the lack of concern and the lack of care as to the situations thereof, as per my transfer which I fought for is the only coast I would have ever willingly gone to as per the additional proof of having applied for an apartment complex in the Florida area in the year of 2013 when thinking ignorantly at the time that my other ex-sister-in-law would actually have been a decent individual and would have assisted in the reference as to what had occurred as to the Fort Worth Zoo and the McCoy Elementary School situation in the timeframes thereof having forgotten as to how drama needlessly as to her sister had been at such prior times because of the differences between when earning such government assistance compared to simply having popped out children because of only allowing oneself to be a breeder in comparison to anything worthwhile in my opinion for such government funding sources. However I had looked at an applied to the Florida location only in reference to if there was the situation which my son and my daughter were to be able to be kept together as close as possible in those times as to the year of 2013 in such ways which proves I would only have gone to the east coast of my own free will, which in turn the aspects as to the facts of which I fought repeatedly with the apartment complex management company to repeatedly work towards getting out of the state of Texas as I saw nothing within the state of Texas as to what would be of requirements for me to remain for the best possible outcomes as to now.
Thus of course I love and want the best for my son #Letters4James James Michael, just as much as I love and want the best for my daughter #Letters4Lidia Lidia Louise; however I also want and need the best for myself, as well.
I did not think it took a head injury to figure out working genuinely and honestly with the best and purest of highest intentions for oneself is not selfish as when doing so in genuinity there is the ability to assist more to be able to lift themselves up to actually be able to appreciate what they themselves have genuinely worked for on their own with their own merit, in comparison to the lack of feeling when it comes to the equivalent of a handout in comparison to a hand reaching out to assist to pull yourself upward in the best ways compared to what is assumed as a better way. In the references as to having genuinely done the best I have been able to do so as such, there is the reality of which I have obviously proven I would only have gone to the east coast in any such times as to the aspects of which in the year of 2013 to which any who wished and/or claimed otherwise as to such portions as some may have hypothetically slandered and liable as to such aspects as I had wrongly been accused of starting needless drama; who has been the individuals when I have not physically been within the state of Texas as to running around to speak with others and/or having called others and/or texted others and/or emailed others about what I am doing and my whereabouts in comparison to living on their own in their own life which technology among other portions prove? I am simply writing in my journal blog and post on my social media verified platforms in such references comparatively, though the situations I have dealt with have shown me different aspects thereof as to such portions by such comments depending when and where I have gone out.
In such references as to the facts thereof as to the reasons of which I had hand delivered a hand written letter as to Congressman Michael McCaul as well as Governor Greg Abbott’s offices, as to the sensation as to such portions of which hopefully this additionally assists in the clarifications thereof to such portions which may have been needing further clarifications as per the situations when Governor Greg Abbott had been the #TexasAttorneyGeneral #AttorneyGeneral #AG #AGofTX Attorney General as to the situations referencing the #CedarPark Cedar Park rental house and other such connected portions in the regards thereof to such situations in larger such ways though other combined portions of such different topics depending upon which. For one quick example as to the individuals referencing that house as to the fact of my New Jersey flags on my houses as to the situations in reference to the female from Supercuts recently as to her saying there were people she had been in a store with on the day of 11 September 2001 as to such a phone call from people in the northeast to where she had been, as to taking into consideration other portions of which I have brought up in this journal blog as well as prior journal blogs in regards as to the underground caverns and caves as to the SCUBA Diving in reference to the underground missile silos to which I had given ideas and suggestions to look at as to the ability to review for the safety thereof the general population despite the situations which have occurred regarding my personal experiences as I prefer life.
As a side not as to an irony about the letter to Governor Greg Abbot as to later seeing a commercial video about an individual who had been able to stand up from the wheelchair during the 2020 election as to an oddity I just thought of, as well as not having denied later after having seen what Congressman Michael McCaul looks as in person; his wife is quite lucky in my opinion, as that is definitely a good looking male. I can acknowledge such in a respectful manner while remaining within the 10 Commandments as there is the fact of the matter of which it is a compliment to both his wife as to her selection choice as to how they had gotten together, as well as to his parents for making him, while also their children for their good genetics as to such aspects in my opinion. However respectfully, is of importance.