Updated: Aug 8, 2020
I have watched the disgrace that which those of which claim to consider as humanity fall from the graces of which the allowances which have been gifted to them go from the most amount of beauty to the furthest aspects from, as the human race has chosen which path to go of their own free will; to disintegrate from that which has been given to them to prosper in various ways, and though I have noticed a few doing that which they can I have seen many who have attempted to thwart the good efforts which disgusts me. I have seen how what once of purity in so many ways be distorted to what others thought of the gifts of the Divine churn and boil over into that which is the furthest aspects of what was explained to them, in such mannerisms which hath disgusted me in such ways. While there are the pleasures which have been allowed to flow throughout the various levels and ends of the earth have been tainted by those with the utmost impureness throughout every fiber of their beings, there have been those few who have maintained such necessities for themselves and those whom are of importance to them; I have witnessed others chastise them for such purity and sat by with rage flowing throughout my being for such inhumane treatments. I myself have done what I could in various measures and means to attempt to repair what little I could in my own way that which I have seen the failures throughout the human race in the small areas I could, only to have such a magnitude of disrespect thrown against me to rise above such paroxysms.
For example, what occurred during my Medal of Honor Art Project and the time thereof. I had already very much felt as an unwanted artist and that has only perpetuated such further in so many ways. How many letters have I written seeking assistance well before my Medal of Honor Art Project for assistance, and where has things gotten better? Howe many letters have I written since my Medal of Honor Art Project, and where has things gotten better? How many times have I tried to better myself to be able to have a job where I am able to do things and instead even volunteering has seemed to be of little worth, in various ways. At minimum, this has been my opinion through the treatments I have received and the ignoring which has occurred to what I have done. Did I initially volunteer to do anything more than help, not necessarily so; however at each point of doing so, there had been a moment where my thoughts wondered if it would be better if I had been able to hold a position where I worked and maybe then the respect I saw so many others get be something which I could have for myself as well. I learned otherwise, or at minimum that is how I had been made to feel. Is it arrogant for me to feel as such, or is it normal at a point to be so disgusted in various treatments and attempts to thwart the realities?
Yet now, I am tired and weary of such attempts.
If humanity no longer exists where it is no longer important for not just the physical aspects of what it is to be a human being to keep that which is considered to be lovely and beautiful; if humanity no longer exists to maintain the mental well being of that which is of importance; if humanity no longer exists to have the emotional balance to maintain the humanity of oneself; if humanity no longer exists where the sexuality is considered as sacred; if humanity no longer exists to maintain the spiritual purity of existence which is what keeps humanity in check; then I ponder what is the point of anything further for a so-called humanity, or human race? What is it that human beings truthfully seek and desire more than the gifts which have been granted to the human race, to continue to be allowed to exist within the universe? Why is it considered as of any importance any longer to allow humanity to be allowed to be within the universe, if humanity cannot maintain itself in the control which would be necessary for an allowance to interact with other beings outside of the earthly location? Does it truly have to be so complicated in this era, or is the curse that which such clips and editing of videos and photography lead the human race astray? When do those who realize such fallacies, return to their spiritualness of which they were given as a gift to remain within the holy realms of; and how if there are so many imbalances in various means and measures, with such distortions? How do you think not just God looks at such choices, though also the spiritual entities and beings throughout the universe?
Is there any importance any further for humanity in this universe, or is humanity so far gone that they think there is an allowance outside of the earth itself without the grace of God? Even those which are called aliens to the human race believe and know the existence of God, and respect such; same for those throughout the oceanic waters, and yet both sides watch and listen to how humanity treats one another and then similarly listens to those who want to explore further of each area only to deny both of such because of the choices made and the lack of growth in a more progressive direction. Has anyone thought about how many advances have continued on the earthly level of the world and the universe and yet the ability to travel for more throughout the depths of the ocean and further with more of a capacity throughout the galaxies of the universe has been so limited? There is a simple answer to such, and quite easy as well. Does humanity think that the games they play are what others outside of the earth’s land play? If so, let me clarify this for you; no they do not play games, the way humans play with each other’s lives nor emotions. Though they are disgusted by such, when seeing how that is done on earth. It is one thing to play games for an every now and then sort of thing as they do understand and comprehend the need for such to relax in certain aspects, though the way humanity prefers to play games instead of living and doing; is another aspect for the limited amount of contact, through watching and listening to how such is and has been done for so long.
Maybe there is something to be said about those who only spend so much time playing video games, who are unable to distinguish the differences between real life compared to. Maybe there would not be the levels of mental illnesses if such were not a huge consistency, in comparison to the days when games were kept on a board and the aspects which of such were not put out into real life experiences; as even back in the days of old, games were only for certain times, and known not to spill over into everyday existences when interacting with other people. I have stated and written before of the definition in my opinion of true schizophrenia being when a human being is unable to distinguish the difference between the spiritual from real life, though I wonder if such can be additionally added in reference to the amount of games played and the effects thereof for a similarity of symptoms.
For example, I knew females who were a part of The Jade Wolfe Coven who not only played games continuously with others’ lives, but also knew not of the consequences of their choices in reference to the spiritual actions they were taking. I can look back and see certain similarities between such individuals, just as I can see similarities between the way my two ex-sisters-in-law had been with the reference of how they raised their children; in comparison to the way my now-dead-ex-husband’s brother had been a part of raising his wife’s children with her, and the way I raised my son and my daughter. Though my ex-sisters-in-law’s children preferred to play games instead of living real life until my ex-sister-in-law’s daughter Brieanna Marie Lopez and Marissa Marie Lopez were able to see more in a realistic way of life, where they were able to open their eyes to the real world; my ex-brother-in-law’s second wife’s daughters in many ways already had their eyes open to such realities, the way my son and my daughter had. Though there were different life lessons to learn from I guesstimate similarly to the way my son and my daughter had seen and learned, so too had my ex-brother-in-law and his second wife along with the daughters of; far quicker than my ex-sister-in-law Mary Evongelina [Nichols] Osteen’s two daughters, and my ex-sister-in-law Susie Marie Nichols-Lopez’s son Joseph Anthony Lopez had or could. Possibly because of the similarities as to the females of The Jade Wolfe Coven, who preferred to play games instead of living real life.
There are prophetic means of which the second coming and the arrival of the one true Messiah have been predicted for humanity of when God would arrive on the earthly plane of existence, the timing of such, and the way the one human being with supernatural powers would be. Some have seen such times, and some have seen such of the one. Yet then comes the questions of which why would that reality be where God is to adhere to the same rules of the spiritual aspects, when watching the hypocrisies throughout? Why are human beings so arrogant now to think to tell God of that which God shall do?
Lest ye be without sin then ye cast the first stone, correct?
Who is to demand of and/or tell the celestial of that which will or will not be done, energetically or in any other way; without a legitimate explanation as to why one way or another in truth? If I am accurate it is the prayers which God answers and begets of those who seek, and yet in such the amount of those who have sought only to take advantage of without giving homage where deserved and earned is also a part of prophecy for a specific amount of time before God becomes so infuriated with humanity; that God’s fury is ignited and instead of the graces once poured out freely, the vengeance is thus until humanity is awoken to such reality.
Wake up, and know.
Which human being is going to face God and tell God, that is of acceptableness of that which they have done throughout their lifetimes? Is it considered as one action to be acceptable before God, or is it not in Holy Scriptures that when the second coming happens to be where the true Messiah arrives on the earthly level of existence the grievances of that which is throughout the world will be shown and then the aspects of which will either get better or choose their own destruction? In such since the events of 11 September 2001 I have watched and been involved where I have to do and be at the best as possible, and yet in such on this day of 21 May 2020 I wonder what it is that even kept such attempts going with such minimal aspects of respect given in return for such aspects to do as I have. Finding a silver lining has been difficult, though I have done everything possible to find the silver lining in each possible situation I have been personally a part of; or at minimum of each situation I have been told about, or heard of.
How many times before 11 September 2001 and after that date have I told people “I cannot tell a lie” only to be called a liar, and infuriate my anger to the point of fury and rage as those exact same individuals lied to me in whichever ways they have chosen to do so whether or not in person? How many times have I been accused of cheating, and yet never once have; by the exact same individuals who either themselves were at the time cheating on their relationships or were assisting others to cheat on their relationships? How many have accused me of stealing from them, when it was they who hid their own to then blame another for the theft of which they did? How many have had idols of which would not stand to the tests of time from their pasts to a current point in time and put others whom they saw as more befitting because of simplicities which were nothing more than mere illusions of that which they portrayed, and when the moment came to prove themselves there were not capable in the long term; whereas what I have done has withstood not only the tests of time, but the strength and determination needed to continue forward in such ways with the background to prove as such?
How many times have my children and my family members been told of a false claim of me or shortened what was said to fit a narrative, yet they have done so themselves? How many have claimed of being a murderer when I have not murdered anyone nor have I even done anything remotely close to such or those who have killed have done so in self-defense, by those exact individuals who have murdered the innocence of children and/or murdered themselves while falsely claiming their status above mine simply because they knew how to conceal such in comparison? How can those no see the difference, yet when they are left alone to themselves the feel what they have done is wrong and have yet to make amends upon that which was wrong for their choices they knew were incorrect? How many times have my actions proven my words and visa versa, in comparison to those who claimed they should be the ones looked up to as though their morals and ethics were of consistent value; when they were the furthest from, and how have they been in regards of those they have had partnerships with? How many who have falsely told me of being jealous in a negative manner, were speaking with jealousy straight from their hearts to their mouths; whether through coveting physical possessions of another and/or another person’s relationship and/or another’s experiences? How many have used my name and/or image to get credences they did not earn, though falsely told others of their connection in ways which would not be verifiable nor acceptable being in full and complete truth instead of a skewed?
The list goes on however, I digress.
Though there are some who tell stories as though they know or can claim as one thing though are another, I unlike those individuals will inform you if I am telling you a story or if I am telling you of a specific experience. Unless I state I am telling you a story as fiction, know that I am telling you the truth only as the truth. For example when I speak or when I write unless I specifically state the aspect is of fiction, know that either I have witnessed with my own eyes, heard with my own ears, or have done so myself. In such an example when I have discussed and written about my SCUBA Diving experiences they are not stories, they are of fact. When I have spoke and written of where I have gone and what I have done to survive such experiences those are not stories of fable, those are real. Know that what I speak of write about what I have been told or heard, that is of factual basis of what I have been told or what I have heard. The ability to research in this era to prove such realities in truth are available if you are actually willing to do the research into others’ existences in reference to what I have seen of their actions and/or heard from their mouths/faces or in others’ cases, their fingertips. For example a more recent video recording I had completed where I discuss that which had been prayed for and the aspects which came to be, throughout various methods and ways in my *(OFFICIAL)* YouTube Channel Reverend MeeLing video titled “I hate my ex-in-laws and I know I am not the only one”.
In such within this writing while I have been realistically so many aspects of that which ironically had been previously written by the Prophet Joseph Smith in regards to Angel Moroni’s Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints to be then explained how one specific reality of which is so small and faery sized of an issue in regards to the reality of when I surfaced from each SCUBA Dive of the fact the coffee I drank was what assisted me for each SCUBA Dive though especially the recovery for myself after my SCUBA Dive when surfacing from the bottom of the ocean where I was when SCUBA Diving at the USS/USNS Vandenberg in the Matthias Abyss; is what assisted me to recover and can be joked, that coffee is one of the nectars of the God, though initially given juice which I discussed well before had made my stomach pains worse and I threw up over the side of the ship. I can have tea with coffee, though tea by itself I can only have without negative repercussions above the Mason-Dixon Line; and while variances are made for those with diabetes for fasting or food allergies or etcetera, is it only because of having landed at the bottom of the ocean and surfacing from the area of the Matthias Abyss which is not considered as good enough among other forms of proof? The variances which have been made for a variety of individuals of different languages, of different physical capabilities, of different health conditions, and the like as I discussed today as well as previously in regards of my Baptism only in reference to coffee and nothing more; I am unable to comprehend the aspects which is not considered as acceptable.
Unless as I said when speaking with some of there is not one congregant who has ever had a sip of coffee from the time of their Baptism which in turn by technicalities undo each of their Baptisms to be correct, because such would be viewed by such teachings in reference to my understanding from the adamancy of the discussions about coffee; not forgetting other aspects of what has been seen or looked at, if I am accurate in such. Is there not the modifications in this era in various ways for many, or is it simply singling out because I am the only person who has landed where I did and survived? If I am being singled out for such, why? What is the purpose for such? Is there realistically a need to continue such sort of testing of me, and if so why? Have I not done enough to prove myself? What more? Though I suppose I should also ponder, why should I bother any further to prove myself? What more is truthfully needed to prove who I am, as it is known what I have done?
There are multiple health benefits for a moderated aspect of having coffee, just as there are health benefits of moderated intake of varied aspects throughout the various natural plants that grow from the earth in different measures. I know I am not the only person who has found health benefits from coffee and if that is truthfully the only thing which holds me back from being able to be Baptized and it is a health benefit for me to have coffee when below the Mason-Dixon Line though a non-health benefit to have coffee as I do below the Mason-Dixon Line when above the Mason-Dixon Line because of the energetic aspects of, then I apologize for wasting the time of those within the church. Just as I have written about and discussed and visa versa of the health benefits of Medical Marijuana for some, such has been ignored even by those who know such of which I have spoken and written to be true and accurate. I have written enough as I have said enough, and I am exhausted from both. As such I will also quickly add in my own opinion of the realities of which those of the LGBTQP communities are simply born as they are and whether those who are simply born as gay or bi or lesbian or queer or pansexual or polyamorous or their internal spirit is more masculine/feminine and they feel more comfortable in their own skin when dressed in other clothing; such has been going on since the dawn of time for humanity, unless I am inaccurate and the original actors who pretended to be females were not males dressed as females or the equivalent of the modern day term of Drag back in the prior times on this planet. Again unless there is not one member of the church which has ever had a different sexual experience with one the love who is solely of the opposite sex, I wonder in reference to such Baptisms.
However also I have sent in my books to the state of Texas for the religious organization exemption tax at the beginning of the coronavirus lockdown and was denied of such exemption because of not having the scheduled time of services in the way that other known churches are, and when allowed I can pick up my books; though that whole aspect of opening up to be able to pick such up or the modification for such to occur for my exempt status, has not been allowed. Unknowing of the name of the Prophet Joseph Smith previously to the timeframe of speaking with the Elders and then the Sisters of Angel Moroni’s Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints I unknowingly had already felt as such, though not just of similarities of his experiences; and just as he grew tired of the bureaucracies back then when there much less legal regulations, I can see why now in various ways. However admittedly, I saw and spoke of such long before this moment of typing this article and similarly to many other times; few ever believed of such truths I spoke as well as wrote of who I knew. Ironically I have also stated those who do not learn from history will repeat such, and look at what similarities throughout history are being repeated even at this very moment. Humanity wonders why they have not been allowed to have consistent contact with Mer-People, spiritual entities, and aliens from other galaxies; well, each have known and seen what has been repeatedly done, and have denied such accesses similarly to the way such has been going on in similar ways. Until such a shift occurs in which the acceptance of such is not just a quiet moment but is made known throughout the world where the realities are known and seen by all, though also just as much acknowledged and recognized; such transgressions will continue to hold humanity back, by humanity itself.
Then again possibly because of multiple religious organizations choosing to deny the fact that there is a point in time where the population of the earth no longer needs to have each female bear however many children to maintain the farm and the levels of the earth would be able to reach the maximum population in which the oceanic waters would begin to rise because of the additional weight of the amount of people in each location, then the promise of not flooding the earth again is not due to God’s fury but through the amount of living in excess; correct? What happens when someone takes a naturally buoyant object and continues to put more weight into such an object? Hypothetically, one can think of the land mass as such in regards to sea levels rise over the years and not necessarily the same as climate change. However that is another topic for another time if I feel like discussing such; whether in words and/or in writing, as realistically, there is no difference when it comes to me.
The irony of certain aspects in reference to the aspects of Angel Moroni’s Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints founded by Prophet Joseph Smith is upon reading certain aspects, I thought such the group had been the one to have been chosen to bring forth the realizations of the realities of as their spiritual practices for the most part are the closest in certain ways to that of the Hebrews of the olden days and as the chosen ones of the United States of America; I wonder why such a small aspect such as coffee is the one thing preventing such. Or am I wrong again, or am I just infuriated because of the levels certain things have gotten to in regards of this quarantine lockdown, or more?
That being stated, soon I will be preparing to leave the state of Texas to go to Washington state to pick up my two largest pieces from my Medal of Honor Art Project. Though I received a phone call asking about certain things only because as I was told the individual had seen me on the news who I had not heard from in quite some time and though a friendly discussion, similarly to the discussion of recommending to go to Montana and the aspects of turning out the way it had; I will choose to not adhere to such, because of how that particular trip had gone in 2019. Though not out of spite, though because of needing to take care of responsibilities as I had already known needed to be taken care of just as a few other things need to be taken care of. Unless there is a reason for such not to go pick up the two pieces to take where I will take those pieces to, I will be leaving the state of Texas to go pick up those two Medal of Honor Artwork pieces. At this point, I have not seen any reason to not go. Unless that which I have sent to the various law enforcement agencies in regards to justice finally occurring and needing to be involved in the court system to have those held accountable for what they have done is where my time and attention are needed, I see no reason not to go to pick up my 2 artwork pieces from my Medal of Honor Art Project. However if I am accurate, that would mean a court summons is required and that has not been delivered to me.
However whether some believe it or not, my Medal of Honor Art Project is essential. So is the dental work I need to have done, however until that can be taken care of in full immediately; my Medal of Honor Art Project is of importance as it always has been. Only because of the quarantine lockdown had that been put on pause, however now the need to get that taken care of in both ways are essential.