During the time when I first began My Medal of Honor Art Project trips #MedalofHonor #MedalofHonorArt #MedalofHonorArtwork #MedalofHonorArtProject , I had not been on Fetlife #Fetlife while handling the situations during the course of the years of 2014 through to the recent time of 2022 into this year of 2023. I am thankful Fetlife assisted Me to return to My original account here since I/individuals who have known about the after effects from My Psalm Sunday in that year of 2000 head injury after effects would know of some of the difficulties that are due to the factors of. I survived My head injury just as I survived a few situations, and I am thankful to survive such.
During My trips during My initial years of My Medal of Honor Art Project trips there was something that occurred in the year of 2014 before I began My Medal of Honor Art Project in the latter months of the year of 2013 and the beginning months of 2014, that I am still figuring out the words to attempt to describe the situations. I have seen things and I have had visions before, though nothing like what I saw in that timeframe.
In one direction I saw what I later guesstimate being the region of the Montana Vortex #Montana #MontanaVortex #MT , in another direction I saw what would be later per My guesstimation of the Afterglow #Afterglow area in Washington #Washington #WA, and in a different direction I saw what later would be in pictures in the years of 2020 to a degree. I had visions in My dreams to the point where I woke up in a heavy sweat that saturated the couch I took a nap on, and then there were the situations of seeing a male shaped figure randomly. In the year of 2017 I took a picture of what I thought I had seen in Vancouver Washington #Vancouver #VancouverWashington in the year of 2013, though when I was near Arco in the year of 2017.
I have been scared before and I admit I can jest about titty baby temper tantrums here and there, though the year of 2014 I was genuinely scared of what I saw. There was nothing to My knowledge of having to do with Fetlife beyond the if factors of I/individuals using Fetlife like described per like Facebook #Facebook for kinky people, though I stopped being online in social media outlets for awhile because of what I saw and My own fears regarding what I saw. Admittedly I was covertly dealing with what I dealt with in reference of what I saw when I was SCUBA Diving #SCUBA #SCUBADiving more specifically in the Atlantic #Atlantic #TheAtlantic #Ocean area of the oceanic waters, though the year of 2014 was an oddity for Me personally.
I had a situation at Steele Creek Country Club #SteeleCreek #SteeleCreekCountryClub #Country when a photographer I learned of later per such had asked Me if I was a friend of his and where My daughter was, knowing the evening was either a Friday or a Saturday evening and it was a bar location threw Me for a loop why anyone would ask if My minor aged child would be at a bar. It was as it was, though certain oddities regarding the factors during the times additionally. Granted in the afternoon when Steele Creek had an open concert upstairs away from the bar area I allowed My son to attend the concert for Dustin Lynch #DustinLynch, though a different setting completely per the differences.
Believe it or not, I am actually naturally shy in person until I get to a certain comfort level.
I despise several factors of how situations have been if I am accurate and to a degree it almost seems though I was in a proverbial box or egg that I have had to break through, in order to be capable to live and attempt to be happy.
Before the year of 2020 My children were minor aged and I was a parent of minor aged children, and the responsibilities of are different than when a parent of biological adults while being Myself. When I choose to be private regarding My life, that is a liberty that I prefer when I make the choice to do so. Those whom have not had children do not understand the same way of what a relief it is to have some private time to oneself because they have had such regarding whenever they have not been around groups of others, and thus they do not have the same capability to appreciate such time. In a sense they are almost like children in certain ways regarding the lacking of understanding regarding the requirements for such time for oneself at points in time from the whatever is considered as the normalcy to just have a few moments to breathe, yet at the same time they know such sensations in reference to overstimulation regarding when they have attended events and have needed to have some time to themselves regarding to clear one's thoughts.
Such was the point in time regarding My Medal of Honor Art Project trips, where I had time just to breathe while doing something I enjoyed that also worked on My memory deficits from My head injury and was something just for Myself regarding the trips at those times.
...or was supposed to be...
For some spiritual journeys there are the times when that is in a group effort, though in Native American #NativeAmerican traditions (of 5 tribes in My bloodline) there are the vision quests regarding when the I/individual goes on a journey T/themselves to seek the connection to the Greater Higher Powers that be. Some vision quests are short in the length of time and the space of distance traveled whereas other times the length of time and the distance went through vary greatly depending upon the I/individual, and depending upon the tribe depends upon the ancestral factors in conjunction. In such customs there are the select few who are informed of the vision quest journey and others are discouraged from interrupting because the Medicine Man and/or Medicine Woman #Medicine #MedicineMan #MedicineWoman are to go through the details of the vision quest upon the return and thus the connection between the Divine and the I/individual are at one, and the bonds of such factors per the rituals depending upon the tribe(s) involved. If the vision quest is interrupted because of whatever occurrences those who do so become a part of a group that tends to the I/individual whom had went upon the quest to repair the situations, and depending upon the type of vision quest depends upon the situations.
Reeling Myself in from the timeframes of My travels however so regarding accuracy if hypothetically per such, I have mixed sensations regarding the occurrences and what I saw during those times in those years of 2014 through to the year of 2022. This year of 2023 the whirlwind of situations, I admit My own skepticism of My own accuracy. O how I wonder if I am good enough, smart enough, or just enough to begin with.
I have evaluated Myself and have considered the factors of relationships, since such a thought regarding actualities of. I have pondered if I am even capable of a relationship since the times of My Medal of Honor Art Project trips were so extremely moving to Me, I ponder if I am capable to connect in such a way now. I hope I can, since the amount of work it was for each individual trip of the overall trips per year.
A part of Me looks back on the time per the years of 2014 through 2018 and I wonder if I missed anything regarding Fetlife and locations or events when I traveled through, and yet at the same time I know that it was a lot for Me to even go on the trips and took a lot for Me to do so.
I saw that Fetlife is now offering hoodies and while that would have been a great sign to see during the years of 2014 through 2018 to give Me a nod to a connection, I am thankful to see it is now becoming an offering of a sight to see in a way that is recognizable.
For Me to overcome and defeat certain factors while surviving, I have thought much about the obstacles that were. I still deal with certain factors though I am thankful for what I have overcome, yet I still am concerned regarding other factors as being a Mom is.
I seek a deeper relationship that can discuss the variable factors of life and living, yet the lightheartedness of the ebbs and flows of time.
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