The difference between my journall blog, my writings, my sight, and etcetera is the difference God #God knows of what my prayers are and what I have prayed for before. While some factors I have prayed aloud or have asked for prayers to assist, many times because of how I was raised many of the prayers were silent because of the way I was taught to pray. #pray #Prayers #praying
I do not haave words for how I was taught to pray though other than the Our Father Prayer #OurFatherPrayer #OFP and The Apostle's Creed #ApostlesCreed #AC, the majority of prayers I was taught to say silently.
Having sight is different than being creative and thqat is different than praying though can be intertwinded depending upon the situation and depending upon the timing, I learned at a young age. I had to distinguish early on because many times when I spoke certain situations aligned in timing of others' situations, and an odd alignment occurred randomly about the situations. The situations became so overwhelming by the time I was in third grade, I started to fear speaking with others because of how the timeframes were. It was noticed I was afraid to speak at times and when it was reaized it was due to how the oddities of timing, the church I atteneded before I became a Confirmed Graduate #Confirmation #ConfirmedGraduate had to figure ways to work with how on point at times I was. It took awhile before some realized the difference of my speaking to the difference of prayers at church even with the knowledge of the prayer times specifically per the difference of speaking, and while there were prayer chains the differences of prayer chains and the differences of silent prayers became a big discussion topic at times.
Some individuals were friehtened and/or angered at first though ususally after some time whether a few hours or a few days they would calm down and realise the difference of me speaking or my sight, and then it became a peaceful factor for those same individuals because of the reality that somehow my sight assisted them to handle other situations better per what I was told later. Somehow the preface time when speaking and/or sight factors assisted others in their own lives, though it took awhile before others realized it took a toll on me to be in such a precarious way. When others realized their age diffferences from me it started to sink in and then the situations regarding what I could spiritually see in spiritual sight became a bigger deal, though also a concern because of my willingness to assist where I could. There were times some including my own biological parents who did not understand how I could be so freely with discussions and yet they would be informed of how much my willingness to speak, gave them a way to find their own voices regarding certain situations at those times. It took my biological parenbts a few years from when I was in kindergarden to third grade before they started to rrealise what many at the church had been saying in truth, and that became a point in time when we stqarted to work on our relationship in a better way. It took the 52 weekends of almost 3 years of individuals telling my biological #biological parents of the good I did and what assistances I gave in different situations, before they started to calm down in how they misinterpreted at the times.
Around the time I was in third grade they started getting board games to play with my four year younger biological little sister and I per not having done so before then much, their admitting to try to see what others saw in me that was good.
The three of them together fought for awhile until the congregation of the church stepped in to inform them more officially of how many times I assisted in different ways of discussions, all before when I was going through the Confirmation classes when they actually saw how much work I genuinely assisted with around the church. My volunteeer hours spoke volumes and then they realized how many I assisted from the prior discussions in conjunction with the work I assisted to take care of in the church, and that became a point in time when tempers began to calm down. During my Confirmation Graduation was when I was finally accepted by my biological parents for the good others saw in me and also when individuals who had issues with my spiritual sight realized it was only out of goodness that such was, because they realised I could have been silent instead and the ways situations per those factors of differences.
Personally, I was still skiddish about my seeing. Even now several decades later, I still have the issues of dealing with seeing. Whether it is because of what is seen or whether it is because of my own fear of reactions or wheether it is because of my own shyness, it is something I personally deal with making attempts to accept such within myself.
Ever since fifth grade in the year of 1993 I have been thankful to be alive from surviving, albeit some ups and downs here and there due to circumstances and situatiions. After my head injury survivial and coma survivial in conjunction of surviving the subrachnoid hemmorhage in the frontal lobe of my brain that took 8.5 years to dissipate from the MRI/CAT scans #MRI #CAT #MRIscan #CATscan, God knows my prayers is the only way for me to put it.
God knows my prayers,, Godd knows my thankfulness, God knows my gratitude, God knows my sight, God knows what my intentions are, God knows me.