While I have not ever hid the fact I woke up in the state of #Texas after my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury during Basic Training during the time at #FortSill #Oklahoma which the coma portion is where I woke up in the state of Texas, it was not the state of Texas which had re-raised me which I also have not denied. I re-grew up in the state of Texas in more of the reference to interactions with those who I had met, of which I did not hide the portions of which I was re-taught the name of colors by those I knew who were in the #Army branch of the #UnitedStatesofAmerica's #ArmedForces. It was those of the #Navy branch who also had #Marines branch of the Armed Forces for the United States of America who were in and out of the area I had who had taught me how to count, and if there had been some who were in the #CoastGuard branch who had also been in that area I was taught how to count I apologize for not recognizing the difference in the BDU uniform. Just as it was the #AirForce branch of the United States of the America's Armed Forces who worked with the Army branch who took care of my medical portions for recovery and betterment as best as could possibly be taken care of for the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, however the Air Force branch had been the specific branch which had completed the medical care for when I was pregnant with both my son for delivery in 2001 and my daughter in 2002.
These are portions which I have not denied ever, and I never could deny; not only because I cannot tell a lie though also because there are realistically records of such, when thinking about those portions now.
While I also have not denied to those who needed to know and later on when the time felt to be correct to inform those who were not needing to know though it was important for such to occur, I had not hidden the facts in reference to what I had done in reference to 11 September 2001 which includes the portions in reference to why I had fought to be emancipated to be able to join the military throughout my childhood and teenagers years for the Armed Forces of the United States of America as a whole. Today is #DrMartinLutherKingJr's birthday from his initial birth not including the points in time he stood upward and moved forward to be able to assist more than just himself as a #Pastor of a church, as he had seen many portions of which needed to be taken care of and not comparing myself to the likeness of such a wonderous individual for what he had done; though pointing to certain stand points for the civil society sought to be bettered for more than just a handful of individuals, here and there. He had seen how situations were around the United States of America and was unable to understand how certain individuals were being labeled in certain ways which did not align with the Constitutional and Bill of Rights, and lead a movement to take a stand against such injustices. He brought together a multitude of individuals to form a group which had wrongly been oppressed for far too long and instead of causing chaos, he brought people together in a peaceful manner to stand up for proper justice in ways which took the short term of time to a better point in the longer term.
While I have spoken far more as well as written far more about my paternal Bok Gung and Bok Pu or Great Grandfather and Great Grandmother from the Asian side of my family who escaped Mao Ze Tung to have freedom from such as they saw coming towards the Chinese people in the additional portions of my Great Grandfather having been #Cantonese and my Great Grandmother having been #Mandarin which was a situation to those who know, understand, and comprehend that history of what was done to the Cantonese who were not with a Mandarin and the worsened treatment to those who were Cantonese who were with a Mandarin back in those times; as a side note as a child, I was shown pictures of some instances which had occurred and similar to Basic Training photographs from what can occur to the body if certain STDs are not taken care of, those images on polaroid pictures from China were not able to be forgotten. I guesstimate in some ways there is an understanding and comprehension from certain levels of the Armed Forces, law enforcement, fire department, and EMS who can have far more knowledge in that regard compared to most others as to what can be guessed as to what type of pictures I had seen as a child into my very early teenager years. In such I guess possibly more-so now is understood as to why I knew I was capable of being able to handle going into the #infantry or #combatarms or #calvary, to my wanting to join the #SpecialForces of whichever branch I could even back then.
Continuing onward while it is known more-so of that with a little bit of more references to my maternal adopted Grandfather as my Grandfather who adopted my biological mother was not her biological father, though he raised her as one of his own biological children. In some ways it annoyed some of my cousins of my having been treated as I was comparatively as they knew he was not my biological Grandfather, though he spent a lot of time speaking with me and showing me pictures they did not see; which in certain regards, they should be glad they did not have to see some of the pictures while other pictures I could understand as to why there would be some upset. He knew my paternal Great Grandparents and what was going on in reference to such and as I have minimally discussed, the purposes in reference to when I was at church and certain discussions which had occurred when only certain individuals held certain envelopes. Though in such because of the smaller amount of time I was able to spend with my Grandmawmaw and my Grandpawpaw which was my cousin Jade's biological Grandparents and since her dad had married my Great Aunt Helen, the situation for such is not Grandparent in-law though something along those lines; and because of the different amount of time and smaller amount of as the family officially aspects, I suppose are portions as to reference my memory issues additionally for such. Though my Grandmawmaw and Grandpawpaw had pictures of them in some places with Dr. Martin Luther King Jr, and I was told stories of some events together outside and away from those pictures in their photo-albums. I know my Grandmawmaw and Grandpawpaw knew my Bok Gung and Bok Pu, though I am uncertain if they knew my maternal Grandfather.
One story I remember from my Grandmawmaw had been she had gone to church in #NewYorkCity #Harlem where she had attended, and when he had arrived the group he was with had stayed in their aprtment/condo/flat for the few days they were in the area. He insisted on helping in the kitchen despite how my Grandmawmaw had been about her kitchen, and the only thing she would allow him to make was the coffee because she wanted to see how the coffee was made from where he was from compared to how she made her coffee. The food being prepared was not to be touched unless when time for eating as she was the type of person who refused to allow much help in the kitchen aside from the children, to show them a thing or two for when they grew up. She said his wife who had a small child with them stayed off to the side as she needed to rest a bit from the trip, though of course as my Grandmawmaw had been about babies she had to see the baby every chance she could. I was told despite the situation at the time she went out and purchased a special blanket just for that child, and had it specially sewn. I was told they spent hours talking well into the early morning hours of different topics throughout what was occurring at the times, and giving different perspectives of the situations of those times. One of my Grandmawmaw's hairstylists had gone over to the home to be able to take care of Dr. Martin Luther King's wife's hair to style it just before going on their trip a bit further, for the event that they were all going to later in the week at that point.
I remember while listening vividly to Grandmawmaw tell me about the picture she had on her dresser in a special frame about that time with such pride and reverence for that situation, and as I asked questions she would randomly laugh. I knew it was going to be extra important to listen whenever she said "Oooooh chil'! Let me tell you, about what happened!" Whether it was important because of the details or whether it was important because of the end point of what she was talking about, I knew anytime she started with that and they way her voice fluctuated and her hands would move above her head there was something good about to be heard which was needed. However only with a certain tone of voice when she said those words, as other tones of her voice and the movement of her hands would instantly indicate which way that portion was going to go in reference to what I was being told at those times. One point in time after the wedding though specifically after the food was eaten and before the wedding cake time, Grandmawmaw touched my nose with the biggest smile on her face telling me of how she enjoyed the food I put together and she was surprised she did not need any additional seasonings to add to what I cooked. She reached for her purse, pulled out a small bottle of Louisiana Hot Sauce, and said "You actually know, how to cook! Oooooh chil'! Let me tell you!"
Then she pulled me from my Bok Gung's lap to sit on her lap, as she told me about different times she needed to add sauce to different foods. She told me she would try the food first and only if it needed "a lil' somthin'" would she reach for her purse, to make the food edible. She told me Dr. Martin Luther King's wife had brought a bottle up to their place to which she had done the same as my Grandmawmaw had done which the lesson at that point had been to always try the food to be polite not only to those whose place you are at, though also to the one who did the cooking. If the food was good you could eat the food without anything additionally on top of, though if needed there was a special way to add the sauce without insulting the cook. She then scooted me off of her lap to run to where the DJ was laughing saying she "hadn't felt this young in years" before getting ready to go on the dance floor, for a few different songs. Later when at Grandmawmaw and Grandpawpaw's place a few months down the line I was playing with my cousin Jade as Grandmawmaw was getting ready for choir practice when she called me into the home and pulled me close saying, "Honey, you need to give me a bit of that suga'! I'm a little tired right now and you have energy which can be bottled up by only a few, though do you min' rubbing some of that off on me?" I smiled and gave her a hug which she held on and squeezed me saying "You are the best luck charm, eva'! I'm not sure I want to or can let you go, you're so much!" She touched me nose after the hug and sent me outside to go play with Jade some more, who was waiting with some of her friends.
As I had initially began this journal blog entry about how I was re-raised where I re-grew up while some did not understand when I would bring up portions where I could of my childhood previously, I also cannot deny the portions of the church I grew up going to which had been used as a hospital during the Revolutionary War designated by #GeneralGeorgeWashington before his #Presidency of the United States of America in later years. The Pastor of #OldTenantPresbyterianChurch was a #Chaplain in the Army branch of which now the current Pastor of the church, was a Chaplain in the Army branch as well; though I cannot deny the impact of not only the portions of going to General George Washington's private latrine to spend time with his spirit and asking his spirit questions, I also cannot deny the impact of speaking with then then #ArmyChaplainPastorHughMacKenzie and the questions I asked back in those times and the impact of.
When looking at the portions of going through to be able to join #MarineandScienceTechnologySchool with the Navy branch attachment for the United States of America and despite not getting into the school then, I continued pushing forward to go towards the military branch of the Armed Forces because I knew I needed to as it was mandatory. When I graduated high school early despite later than I initially planned for myself, it worked out because of timing ironically; though I still had to fight ridiculously to be emancipated from my biological parents to be able to join the Army, as they thought it was just a phase despite the multiple portions of which I had done what I could to join. Upon waking up from my coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury in #SanAntonio Texas at #FortSamHouston in #BrookeArmyMedicalCenter now #SanAntonioMedicalCenter or #SAMC of #JBSA or #JointBaseSanAntonio, as I had said many times and discussed at length many times before writing many times; the military is who I learned the most from, when re-growing up in the state of Texas. Many portions of my son, my daughter, and my life was taken care of in different ways in reference to the military of the Armed Forces. Despite when #11September2001 occurred when I could have done nothing, I could not help myself but to run to the one active duty individual I knew to do what I could to help. Did I have an odd feeling in reference to my son getting sick and being in the hospital with my son for the time less than a full week after the initial portions of that point in time, honestly? A part of me did know, though what needed to be taken care of was more than making a big deal about the situation.
I knew when the time to make a bigger deal about occurrences would need to be spoken of at a different point in time, when the time was right.
How does this have anything to do with Dr. Martin Luther King Jr's birthday holiday, at this point in time?
When taking into consideration the portions in reference to how many times I had discussed with multiple individuals both before and after the events of 11 September 2001 though especially after 11 September 2001 of the required attention in the proper and correct way towards those of the military branches of the United States of America's Armed Forces, I was not joking which some people I knew had thought I was. Despite what discussions I told stories about in a jovial manner it did not change the truth behind the joking about such situations, nor did it change the fact of what was needed for those who had signed the dotted line and their dependents. Where I had mainly civilians tell me of how they thought I needed to have a prettier use of words and/or tone of voice and/or facial expression when discussing certain warnings, realistically those were the kinder portions of. I could not give the details of what others had experienced beyond the minimal I knew, which I then was told of how little of a deal those individuals I knew thought of such situations and how I was told I was overreacting or overdramatic. When I explained the situations I discussed of the minimal portions of overdramatizations, I was called wrongly a liar. Though such was incorrect then as well as now in regards of such a label, there are those who have learned what again I had been warning of in more ways than I could give explanations for.
Whomever had been able to read especially the first two books I published and find better ways for more, I am extremely glad as it pains me to know there have been so many who suffered needlessly. However in reference to the same portions of in reference to the parts about my #MedalofHonorArtProject, if there were any who did not see that coming in an overall sort of way; honestly I do not know how, that was not seen to come.
I admit the way of which I complete my Medal of Honor Art Project was and is not the most normal way to complete artwork, however the aspects in reference to the respect to where I had been re-raised it might make a bit more sense. Especially when taking a look back into my childhood and teenager years, yet again.
When my maternal Grandfather passed away, I was not allowed to attend those services or rights. Again later when my Bok Gung passed away, I was not allowed to attend those services or rights; though there were portions of which in both instances certain ques were marked which put other portions into position for because of those specifics which were unknown to my biological parents for both sets of aspects. In the similar aspects when my Bok Pu passed away, again the same as I was not allowed to attend those services or rights. I know I cannot physically be at each service and right of such in reference to those of the Armed Forces in the various branches and divisions though I have remembered what was of extreme importance to such aspects, in which the portions of my Medal of Honor Art Project had several portions of a multitude of aspects raveled all within. While I was not able to do what I wanted to in reference to as I could, there had been portions of which other necessary aspects were needing to be paid attention to in a multitude of ways.
I still remember being at the #MEPS station telling one of the soldiers there "I do not want to have to die for my country as I hope I never have to die though I am willing to kill and do whatever is necessary, for the entirety of the United States of America."
In such for the United States of America's Armed Forces, #lawenforcement, #firedepartment, and #EMS I put together what I could as best as I could despite some not seeing such coming in certain references or regards. I made a promise to different individuals throughout my life which I have done everything I could to keep each promise I have made as it is important to me, as I believe in keeping my word bond though it might not be as normal now in certain regards. Though again I am not Dr. Martin Luther King Jr and his group though the ideology of which was set forth back in those times seems to have still rung true for several situations, in many ways especially for those of the Armed Forces of the United States of America; where it does not matter what the ethnic background is, each is judged according to the works of each individual. Yet for whatever has gone on in reference to the timeframe where less and less have volunteered in the ways which had been during the more well known times of the #RevolutionaryWar, #CivilWar, #WorldWarI, #WorldWarII, and after 11 September 2001 as though many still had volunteered which the intermediary portions of certain drafts; the portions of which in certain groups and sectors the lack of understanding or shall I write the lack of the willingness to even try to understand beyond the knowledge of a background with such seems to have been a bit of a point which some may not have thought to look into previously as much, and wished they could just keep pushing aside more and more. In some ways especially in reference to the #SpanishAmericanWar, #PhillipineIslandsWar, #KoreanWar, #VietnamWar, #DesertStorm, and more those points which some had wished to keep pushing off to the side has come to a point more recently where such can no longer be ignored and simply cannot just say one knows especially as many have said they want more understanding for their lives while not taking into consideration the portions in reference to the lives of who had given such rights to be able to discuss. The irony, in many ways.
Today I had gone down to the Austin capital area with the intent to volunteer and help out with some logging of information which it was odd to me of the portions in reference to the parking situation, which though there are the aspects of the public transportation which I do not need and would actually take longer for me to get there in conjunction with getting lost on any bus route; I was not able to go help where I had wanted to, though did not understand how those who had driven to volunteer were expected to pay for the parking of around $25-$30 while being paid $150 if they had driven. Though I do not know how much a bus ride would have cost though knowing of the time it would take for some, that was a bit of an additional confusion as well. I suppose an irony in reference to assisting to log some information, though quite a bit different in this way I suppose I could joke a bit. While my apartment costs more than the parking fee obviously, I also am in my apartment for a longer amount of time in comparison when taking such into additional consideration and I can have my e-cigarette as I need to breathe as well. Though I did genuinely want to help, as I would not have gotten myself down there if I was unwilling to at the time. Maybe there is a bit more to think about in reference of, though for another point.
However I will add there was a point when before 2008 of beginning modeling I had met with a photographer years ago shortly after waking up from my coma in San Antonio Texas which after a few aspects, I chose to decline that photographer for several reasons. First of all I was still 17 years old and still in the Army branch, secondly the demand from that photographer to do nude photography which when I told him that made me uncomfortable he laughed which angered me, third that photographer thought wrongly that the pictures he had taken of nude females on a golf course were going to be the point which I would be interested to work with; as those were the first pictures shown to me which actually caused me to take a proverbial step back, and since then I personally refuse to do nude pictures because I personally do not and have not in any way seen or felt any sort of comfort from such; as that was a hard limit and a complete redline drawn.
Personally I believe what is meant for adults in the nude behind closed doors even if proverbially, is for such in private. In many ways I am glad certain portions in reference to such types of photographers has been closed off from such sorts of behaviours, as seen and shown through others' experiences. I was laughed at during the time with that photographer as he thought I was joking about standing my ground, which in the overall combination I suppose that point in reference to the truth behind all jokes being a reality. I stood my ground then just as I stood my ground in a multitude of other ways, and will stand my ground as I see fit and as I see required. That portion, I am not budging from. In such similarly as I have not budged from my stance in reference to the Armed Forces of the United States of America as well as in reference to #SCUBADiving and related to, I remain just as firm in my stance before as I do now.
Thus in reference to Dr. Martin Luther King's birthday the right to be judged by the content of one's character as to who each individual is and what each individual stands for the rights of with justice equally in comparison to the content of their skin, is honored on this day thankfully. Whatever the content of one's skin is whether in reference to their skin tone, the content of their tattoos colored into their skin, the content of their skin on film/digital/video, and etcetera is in this modern era what I believe he could agree with. Each individual should be judged not by those portions, though by what each individual has taken a stand for and/or against. Standing against injustices is important, especially when the pledge of Allegiance has the words of which personally I said proudly each morning as a child.
I pledge allegiance to the flag of the United States of America and to the Republic for which it stands, one nation, under God( though should be Goddess), indivisible, with liberty, and justice for all.
That "liberty and justice for all", is extremely important. I believe Dr. Martin Luther King Jr and those who were along with him had paid extreme attention to that portion especially. I believe there are those who have signed that proverbial dotted line for the Armed Forces of the United States of America, law enforcement, fire department, and EMS who also have paid a large amount of attention to that as well. Thus possibly now some from McCoy Elementary School of Carrollton Farmers Branch Independent School District and those who wrongly took a stand with them at those times in 2010 especially, probably can see why it was a massively huge issue for me personally in reference to their choice to say a prayer instead of the #PledgeofAllegiance; though again, there may be some additionally who were offended because of the point if the #PledgetothestateofTexas was normally said and then not said at that meeting; especially if there were any born and raised however many generation Texans, were in that mix who made that choice as well as any veterans.