Updated: Aug 19, 2020
Today has been a bit much to process as a few various aspects having been realized is quite a bit for myself to understand and comprehend, as I have known certain points for awhile; however understanding and comprehending are extremely different, than simply knowing and acknowledging as I had before. For example I have known and acknowledged having landed at the bottom of the ocean as a child when swimming as well as when #SCUBADiving much later in my life, but not until recently had I realized the importance of such in certain regards. Another example is though I have known about my head injury and the after effects from Psalm Sunday in 2000, the realization of certain prophetic means had not fully been aware to me in other references. A different example of which I have known I had completed various modeling and performances, but the significance to such had not been something which had crossed my mind until more recently. While I knew what I was dealing with in reference to attempting to do the absolute best possible for my children when what occurred to my daughter because of #McCoy #Elementary #School and the measures I attempted to ensure what occurred to my daughter while ensuring the safety for my son had been wrong and illegal and immoral of those who caused my daughter and my son harm; but also trying to alert others for their children's safety especially throughout the various branches and divisions of the #UnitedStatesofAmerica's #ArmedForces and #LawEnforcement for them to ensure their children did not have to endure such, I knew it was a lot to take on my proverbial shoulders.
However, I had not realized the magnitude of such until more recently.
Similar aspects in reference to my #MedalofHonorArtProject I had never thought any person or people would ever think to cause harm to the #medalofHonor recipients' markers, the cemeteries of, the cities of, the states of, the spiritualities of, the religions of, and the history of in reference to my Medal of Honor Art Project. I had never thought there was a thing such as stalking or harassing, albeit having dealt with threats and etcetera; I had not realized such could be in reality, because I do not think in such a manner. I had spoken of the many threats I had received throughout various groups and communities I had been involved in over the years, as well as different people I had known. However, I did not realize such had come into fruition until more recently after having been told by #CID to contact the #Pentagon and the #TacomaPolice to contact the #FBI. Even then when first initially told to do as such, it had not fully made sense to me. Why would anyone do such, which would have the cause and effect of me having to contact such agencies to inform them of such endeavors by others?
Yet instead of fully being infuriated at the individuals involved, initially my heart felt pain for all of those who had been affected by such and the need for justice and ramifications for those who had been affected. Did I understand my son, my daughter, and I again had been impacted by such? Absolutely. Did that infuriate me? There is no doubt of such, realistically. However the fact of such occurring to my children, myself, and my Medal of Honor Art Project including all entailed within the various planning phases and trips to complete each individual artwork piece; only infuriated me that so many more had been impacted, because of those who caused harm to my Medal of Honor Art Project. I thought of the various individuals throughout the #NSA and the various #veterans, #activeduty, #nationalguard, and #reservists of each branch and division of The United States of America's Armed Forces; and how each one felt upon figuring and finding such out. I thought about the various individuals throughout the #CIA and the #FBI who had various aspects throughout their jobs, and yet had not seen such atrocities from people; until my Medal of Honor Art Project and those who had caused harm. I thought about the various elected officials throughout each and every state as well as the other nations throughout the world who had seen multiple aspects of the negative sides of humanity, and how even they had not seen such disgusting behaviors as to what those who had caused problems for my Medal of Honor Art Project had done. I thought about the various business owners and what their techy techy companies involved with their works, had been forced to watch as the merciless actions and choices of those who caused problems for my Medal of Honor Art Project had caused. I thought about all of the family members and the spouses and what they had felt and thought, in reference to seeing such.
Did I get angry? Absolutely. However my anger had fueled my comprehension for the need to rectify such situations as when I researched certain aspects and had found there was not any such prior written laws throughout the various codes in the halls of #justice, such caused my blood to boil upon that realization. Admittedly my blood may have boiled hotter than the temperatures I walked around for hours in #Idaho when searching for the Medal of Honor recipient Schoonover, upon that realization in the beginning. Instead of creating chaos, I chose to figure out which way would bring the aspects of justice instead; trying to maintain the aspects of humanity, for the betterment of society instead of causing more chaos as those who caused problems for my Medal of Honor Art Project.
Did I also realize at first possibly there were those of the government who thought I would be being disrespectful, in reference to my Medal of Honor Art Project? I realized that later on admittedly, as I thought my actions had spoken louder than my words at times. However did I realize such had been clarified when in reference to the hours I spent cleaning up the dog crap off of the six Medal of Honor recipient markers in the city of #Seattle #Washington in the one cemetery location upon such realization there might have been some confusion of sorts, in reference to that? Absolutely. I doubt there was a single person of any agency which continued thinking such falsities of me upon the understanding how many hours I spent, cleaning such up. Though, I could be incorrect; but I doubt so as of now.
Instead of harnessing my anger and infuriation for negative outcomes in the manner of which those who had caused problems for my Medal of Honor Art Project had when in reference especially to the state of #Montana in 2016 as well as the #solareclipse of 2017, I chose to figure the best path for everyone. The same could be said in reference to the aspects of what my daughter and my son had experienced because of the issues due to the #FortWorthZoo field trip and the denial of #SpecialNeedsEducation for my daughter, because of the discrimination against the military background as well as the physical appearance of mine because of my medical disabilities from my injuries after the Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury. Upon the realization though such has been occurring against veterans since well before the attacks and wars from 11 September 2001, such might not have been notated within the laws; as there are laws to protect the active duty, reservists, and national guard from certain aspects; but the veterans had been forgotten about prior in certain circumstances for the treatment of. The culmination of the first two books as well as The Modern Day Book; probably assists the law makers in the government to ensure such no longer occurs, as the irony of a poster child is me. Though I am not the first to have gone through such in various ways, I suppose I am the first to go through the combination of in all ways. Thus the prevention for the safety of various individuals had become a cause to ensure their safety, to ensure they did not have to go through such; in the same ways I had to endure, despite doing everything I could to better the situation for myself.
Now, is such a time. Today I have completed the paperwork to ensure the religious aspects of which. I find such to be a bit ironic in certain ways as if you reader are to look up the hisotircal aspects of #AngelMoroni's #ChuirchofJesusChristofLatterDaySaints founded by #ReverendJosephSmith for #TheMormons and the path of which he had taken throughout the various points of establishing certain aspects and the notations being sent in various directions in part until the latter portion when getting all the documentations together to send into the United States of America's government for acknowledgement; the irony and the coinky dink of such, in reference to the amount of writings and compilations I had sent into the state of #Texas today for the establishment of such. The varying roundabouts and the differences throughout are quite minimal in certain references and I wonder if the timeline of events, almost adds up to a similar timeline of various letters and documents which Reverend Joseph Smith had sent out throughout his time. In certain oddities in reference to #OldTennentPresbyterianChurch and the removal of Pastor William Tenant's casket from underneath the church and the destruction of all of the writings and carvings which were interwoven throughout that casket to the comparison of the tablets which Reverend Joseph Smith had found, in certain ways one could see certain similarities; even in reference to his childhood, though reversed in reference to Reverend Joseph Smith having been a male and obviously, I am a female. If I am accurate the aspects of which Reverend Joseph Smith had referred to the corsetry and the irony, of how many I have had and worn over the years.
However hopefully everything is now fully squared away and thus, such aspects can fully be taken care of in full. Would it be considered as odd to hope the books I wrote become mass ordered for more generalized learning to assist, and be a mandatory read for schools throughout? What an amazing surprise, if that could be. However I only thought of that after speaking with the female at the Law Library, in #HaysCounty. That would be really interesting, if such could be.
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