Updated: Aug 19, 2020
This week I ordered and sent copies of my first book series of 2 books called "Finding A Silver Lining By: (Reverend) Susan MeeLing" and "Finding The Silver Lining By: (Reverend) Susan MeeLing" to go to the Chaplain Service Center for The Gift Chapel at #JBSA at #FortSamHouston in #SanAntonio #Texas, for several reasons.
1). Please do not take this as being boastful or bragging, but in efforts to assist those who are currently in active duty/national guard/reserve/veteran status as I know my son, my daughter, and I have not been the only ones to have gone through various situations. I felt the need to do as I had in the writings of, to ensure there were and are ways to inform those who need extra guidance and assistance; in ways that are respectful to those who are higher ranking than some who could have such issues needing assistance as well as the higher ranking officials themselves as some of them may either not have known or have seen others go through and not know to the extent of. However being able to assist from the lowest level of ranking individuals all the way to the highest ranking officials, was and is the intent for the betterment of the various individuals throughout The #UnitedStatesofAmerica’s #ArmedForces various branches and divisions.
2). Due to the reality of my medical retirement from The #UnitedStatesofAmerica’s #ArmedForces #Army branch had been the main reason why I was capable of going through the various levels of the #ChainofCommand to the various levels of, as those who are dependents must and are held accountable for their actions and with certain situations if the dependent is associated with an active duty/national guard/reserve individual, their abilities are limited because of the repercussions of to themselves as well as to their sponsor. With the knowledge of this when my children’s biological father died and what occurred my choices were multifold; but I chose to go through the path I had because I knew my son and my daughter were not the only ones, who had or could go through such.
Being able to assist not just my son and my daughter to ensure what was needed was important, but also knowing there were others who had children and in this case who could have children of their own during military/law enforcement service to The United States of America; I wanted to ensure the best for them and their family as well.
3). Having been through the Medical Hold Unit or what is now the #WarriorTransitionUnit #WTU and knowing certain aspects had not changed or had only a name change instead of actually bettering certain situations, was important as I went up the Chain of Command to ensure others’ spouses and family did not have to endure what my children and I had; as well as assisting those within the Warrior Transition Unit to be able to make sure everything was squared away for themselves as best as possible. Though there were points certain soldiers I had spoken with at the time might have thought I was being rude I have a feeling, they knew and know that it was not a disrespectful choice in the short or the long term; and while they might have felt as such initially, I guesstimate in the long term they realized even they and their families I was concerned about not having to go through what my children and I were. The books are able to assist Warrior Transition Unit soldiers and non-Warrior Transition Unit soldiers alike, as well as their spouses and loved ones.
4). However, I do not recommend speaking to such individuals in any manner similarly in reference to the General of Fort Sam Houston not because of the lack of freedom of expression; but because the situations are different than what may have been, and those were extenuating circumstances. Though I did speak with him respectfully, it was not until 2019 I had realized certain aspects of in the manner which had occurred as I did not say anything with any disrespectful intent. I earned my blue identification card because of having signed the dotted line myself to join The United States of America’s Armed Forces but had been injured because of what occurred on Psalm Sunday in 2000 during my Basic Training and thus I never had a pink identification card because I was never anyone’s dependent and thus the pink identification card is not the same, whereas the restrictions of the pink card do not apply to the blue card in the slightest. With the blue identification card I am and have not been held to the same standards as the active/national guard/reserve identification cards because of not having an actual Command structure above me because of not being associated with a specific unit or battalion or base in a specific manner.
5). Though I still have and have had to adhere to the laws of the civilian sector as everyone on the soil of America does, in reference to the military structure there is and has technically not been a ranking structure above me. Despite such realities, I have not treated one soldier better than another though have held to the standards of which their particular rank of which they earned on their uniform had been. Though certain individuals of my ex-in-laws and my biological family may not have ever understood with the exception of those who had signed the dotted line for whichever branch or division of the law enforcement/military/fire department/first responders did understand about such as written above and stated; technically aside from the laws of the city/state/country the ranking structure for my technical Chain of Command technically begins at the #Gubernatorial, #Congressional, and #Senatorial levels and then upward but also including the #FBI and #CIA levels at the same time.
While some might not understand such in those levels but inevitably I guesstimate they proved me to be accurate before my writing of such, was proven if they went to Congress and/or Senate and/or the White House officials to request to have anything to do with me to be reprimanded for whatever claims they might have made about me. However because of such levels in The United States of America’s government, I wish I could believe the individuals who contacted those levels were 100% honest with their claims and hid nothing from those individuals and their administrations. Those of the various branches and visions of the Armed Forces and the like very much know it is never a good idea to lie to such.
6). While I had never challenged or dared anyone to attempt to be worse than my now dead-ex-husband when he was alive and the treatment of how I had endured what was done to me during that ‘marriage’ nor during the first or final separation before he reenlisted, I also knew when putting the first two books together for writing and publishing; I was not the only civilian who endured such; though I surely did not need any additional problems in my life after that scenario, nor what occurred to my son and my daughter as my children had already been through enough by that point in time and they too did not need any further problems. Thus the ways to assist both the military and law enforcement while also assisting civilians, was of importance to me to help both sides of the proverbial coin. Though through certain technicalities if certain ‘people’ or ‘cherubim ones’ decided to take in their own little minds the thought of a challenge because of what I wrote in my books before what I posted on Facebook on 7 February 2020, then I guesstimate anyone who has even the slightest bit of common sense would be able to see the problem with such ‘people’.
7). In reference more specifically to that which is within the pages of the FSL books being shipped to Fort Sam Houston to #TheGiftChapel staff, hopefully those who choose to read the information within are able to find quite a bit more information which assists them in regards to their own service careers as well as their civilian aspects of life to better themselves and know what to pay attention to. Though I might have surprised the Lieutenant General at the memorial service at the Brooke Army Medical Center chapel in the basement when he gave permission for people to say what they wanted as he walked away from the podium when I stepped up to speak to the soldiers who were in attendance, hopefully he saw and heard the respect intended while also seeing I was not singling him out for what was happening nor blaming him for the events which occurred while he was in command of the area. Though at the time I guesstimate it was a bit of a surprise when he heard my voice as he probably did not anticipate me to speak at all nor did I have a speech prepared nor had I planned to say anything publicly until he said it was allowed, I guesstimate a few things of such.
First, I guesstimate at first he was nervous of what I would say but was calmed when I was not rude nor yell at anyone. Second I guesstimate he was confused as to what I could say but as I spoke though upset, I guesstimate in a way he was relieved because of the fact he was unable to say certain specifics to give the soldiers in attendance a warning for them to be able to get their affairs in order and prepare themselves for the best and worst possible scenarios for their best interests as well as their loved ones. Though it might have surprised the entire group of soldiers there I thirdly guesstimate while they might have initially been upset at the memorial service, they might have been able to think in a different way which might have assisted them further as I hoped when I jumped up to speak at the podium. Though not the most ideal situation realistically, when would a better time have been during those moments?
8). While I guesstimate some of the individuals I had met with as well as spoke with were partially aware of certain aspects, I also guesstimate they were not aware of all the varying points of and in their own ways were curious to understand. Thus with sending the books to The Gift Chapel and the service members of maybe while it might not be the most conventional methodology to do such, maybe that will assist more to know there is the availability of religious services on post at the different chapel locations and while when out in the field and when in different zones the availability to go to services might not always be readily available; at minimum they can have a few moments while on post which they can attend services and when in the field, they will be able have a few ways to assist them to keep their minds a bit stronger while dealing with the various points of wherever they are stationed to keep in mind and push forward.
9). Though some who may have known me over the years might incorrectly state I was writing and doing things for the ability to be seen and known, more people who actually knew me and know how I am would be able to state more factually in truth of my genuine shyness and opposite of what could have hypothetically been claimed by those who knew of me but did not actually know me. Though if in reference to points in #5 were to have been activated because of others who would have made the choice to lie to those various entities in the governmental aspects of The United States of America, those ‘people’ if they did not know would have instantaneously made themselves subjects of investigation as anytime one chooses to invoke the powers of the higher branches of the governmental aspects of The United States of America; those individuals do not easily give up their time for needless pursuits and if anyone did not know such beforehand, here is a bit of an eye opener for you.
If you choose to contact the upper levels of The United States of America’s government such as Congress, Senate, Supreme Court, Department of Justice, Department of Defense, the Pentagon, the White House and the like; you might want to ensure there is absolutely 100% of a clean record for if they find anything in your background when they are contacted. I guesstimate those who might have been contacted in reference to such about me, might have had quite a few proverbial skeletons in their closet which would easily be found by those in the NSA agency. If those who did so did not think about those consequences of contacting such agencies, I guesstimate they are thinking about such at this point; but what they choose to do in order to make amends for such, I do not have any recommendations.
10). For example my ex-sister-in-law Mary Evongelina (Nichols) Osteen said she to me she had contacted her Senator and Congressman in the state of #Georgia when she was warned not to by me at the time of her dead brother’s funeral as well as afterwards; and she tried to impress me by telling me of her connections and how, which did not impress me in the slightest. Later when I found out she had contacted them at her father’s funeral, I was angered because of her not heeding my warnings to her and what dangers I felt she put others into jeopardy because of her ignorance and stupidity. Later in 2019 I realized because of her stupidity and ignorance to contact her Congress and Senator in the state of Georgia, would be the reasons as to why what occurred when I was in the Lieutenant General’s office when meeting with the soldiers from her dead brother’s unit from Iraq and I instantly understood albeit years later because of that ‘female’ she had caused what I apologized to those 3 soldiers about in reference to my fears of what could have been which I felt were a reality.
When dealing with such events of what occurred in reference to her dead brother (and her spiritual husband) in regard to The United States of America’s Armed Forces a civilian must understand once you contact the Congress and the Senate, there is no going backwards to apologize or say how sorry you are for overstepping all of the different areas below the Congress and Senate. Once something such as that occurs in reference to what Mary had done, there is no undoing of such and the inability for erasing the past is absolutely gone from such abilities. If because of Mary her husband had not been able to remain either in active duty status and/or in the Air Force at all, I hope she did not stupidly complain about such because that entirety would have been Mary’s fault entirely. What would have occurred is the Congress and Senate would have received a clear view of how Mary would have been in reference to David, and thus would give him the choice of whether to remain married to Mary in a covert way or to divorce her. If he chose to stay with Mary instead I guesstimate then his career would have been changed from active duty status to national guard or reserve, and the benefits lost would be Mary’s fault again. If he chose to leave her and no longer have anything to do with her, then I guesstimate though she would have lost the benefits at least David would still have his career in the Air Force for the United States of America’s Armed Forces. Though I have not known to have seen either as such since 2009, I guesstimate both know the reality of.
11). For those who sign the paperwork in reference to accepting a military identification card of whatever type if you did not know, you are held to the same standards in certain ways as those who are the sponsors. If you choose to not adhere to such rules and regulations your spouse’s career does get impacted, if you make the choice to mess up which I can give an example certain longer term service members know whether through experience or through knowing someone who went through such. If a dependent goes on post and is caught stealing from the PX or the commissary, the sponsor is held accountable for their choice to steal from the commissary or the PX/tra.
12). While I have made the choice to send the books through Amazon to the Chapel area of the #JBSA to assist The Gift Chapel, I know it can help many more in a better way for each soldier of each branch and division of. Not in a boastful way, but in a safety way. physically with the books for them to read in black and white, mentally preparing them for various aspects to assist them and each level of, emotional stability through methods to see different aspects, sexual aspects to pay attention to for their and others’ safety, and sent to a spiritual place for time of quiet and respite.
Now more than ever there are many younger soldiers who are entering The #UnitedStatesofAmerica's #ArmedForces for many reasons, as there have been many over the years prior. However with this modern era with so many aspects of the technological aspects as well as various individuals utilizing such, it is my own little Faery-sized way of giving the soldiers of each of the branches who choose to go to The Gift Chapel to be able to read through the 2 different books while being in a spiritually open location to rejuvenate their spirit while at the same time giving them another view of life. The ability to read through the various pages hopefully will bring insight for future plans for their careers as well as their safety, while possibly assisting their endeavors in the civilian sector during their down times to which is supposed to be a relaxing timeframe.
13). While I comprehend the various aspects of which during my time in the state of Texas before winding up in Washington state and how that occurred are different as being an adult biologically while also keeping in mind the aspects which were experienced by my son and my daughter at the various points of, the levels of which the soldiers are in need to keep themselves safe from such types of ‘cherubim ones’ are of importance to me. The aspects which dangers are around each corner already are enough when they are in the field out in a warzone, and they should not have to worry about such situations when they are on the homeland in The United States of America; then again, no one should have to endure what I have.
If the books give a more positive outlook while informing the individual soldiers of whichever branch to prepare themselves for both the military and the civilian sectors of life; it hopefully can help. The various aspects of each of the books individually and combined are a way for each who chooses to review such, in a manner to see a better way for themselves and when they choose to start a family with another person; they are able to keep their eyes open and have a more positive life for them and their loved ones.
14). Though I had mailed those books previously to various news organizations, musicians and their studio companies, as well as celebrities which have inspired me in various ways albeit not knowing every single aspect of their lives but being able to see a path for which to better myself while attempting to help others as I knew I was not the only one who had gone through certain aspects; I hoped they would see ways to assist to help prevent what my son, my daughter, and I from happening to others while at the same time if certain aspects were something they themselves went through and were having difficulties, they were able to see a better path as well. That was a hope of mine, at least. I had hoped there were people with military backgrounds who would see and know in a more public way to assist the masses, in ways I was unable to know how to reach. I feel such has occurred in various ways, though I admit as scared and timid as I can be and despite my outward appearances being far more extroverted as some may have thought; I admit I am quite shy, demure, and timid than my physical stature may suggest. I suppose that saying about “You should never judge a book by its cover”, is quite befitting of me.
However at this point I know I am the only one who can step forward with certain aspects in regards to everything endured and while I am quite grateful for those who have been able to get others to pay attention, I do comprehend it was up to me to get the soldiers at Fort Sam Houston’s attention and thus when contacting those of the media and furthered circles in such references to those books; it was admittedly an odd way to try to get even those guys’ ability to understand a bit more as they have had the ways to know how to get such done, much better than I for more. Ironically starting back at the state where I woke up from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury after all that has occurred in a culmination, it seems again it is a need for those who are of #FortSamHouston in #SanAntonio #Texas as well as the bases of #JBSA and the surrounding areas to be given a different notice, for the young ones about to go through situations of this era which give them a better understanding as well as ways to look for a better future for themselves individually as well as collectively.
I think in this era and generation of various soldiers throughout the different branches of The United States of America’s Armed Forces while there are many who might have had similar circumstances to those who grew up after and during the #VietnamWar, there might be a better way for those of the now and the future; while doing what can be done to learn from the past as there are now ways to research which were not as readily available as before. Thus, the ability to learn and grow to do and be better is more available and the acceptances of such are far more easily and readily available for those who have their eyes open comparatively. Though there are aspects of which #justice still needs to occur, the hope for the future is readily available now. As nervous as I admit I am and can be about many things; I do and have done what I could to hide such when faced with various circumstances. As writing it is ironic to me of which a counseling statement I had been given with an Article 15 of which “Until Private Hom can act like a soldier” for the removal of my restrictions and the end date thereof, and though I never graduated Basic Training I think some might agree the aspects of which I learned from the spirit of General George Washington when growing up as a child in New Jersey had a greater impact on my childhood than some might have realized before or known.
Thus a joke can be made in reference to the first two books I wrote as well as in reference to if there could be a joke made of the modern era of experiences written in the first two books I wrote, which would be able to lead to the example of using such in a biblical sort of texts: The song “Jesus Loves Me”, well the FSL Bible tells you so and the proof is in the actions I have taken to ensure the safety of as they are in the forefront of the first several pages of the first book who I reference and acknowledge.
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