Before continuing to read this particular journal blog entry of mine please do keep in mind the facts in reference to the reality of most who go to publish their writings in book format as well as in reference to online journalism do so for multiple reasons and while such may come across as a temper tantrum, the reality of is what the reality of my opinion and feelings are. In writing and compiling to publish my first two books 6 years ago, those were intended to help and assist and though such information within has helped many in the different overall aspects which is awesome; there are portions of which within those pages in which the facts of what occurred either have not been acknowledged in the way which anyone else would have been acknowledged for accomplishing while not forgetting the aspects of the justice portions. Then also in consideration of the fact I have to look at my tattoos to assist in reference to several aspects, then goes into the reality of which not only being reminded of the fact I dealt with conversations in which I had to deal with though also such are a reminder in a multitude of ways including how others would wrongly use my tattoos and my hairstyle against me without consideration they use paper and other ways to assist their memories among many other aspects thereof. While some use different types of prescriptions and supplements to assist their memory, I found my own way to assist my memory without such yet have been treated as I have been throughout. Thus in such references in regards to memory portions as well as the treatment which I have dealt with over the years and received, is it not considered hypocritical for those same individuals who have looked down upon me for my tattoos and my hairstyle in conjunction with my memory situation yet they themselves use different aspects whether notebooks/computers/sticky notes/cellphones/etcetera and/or in conjunction with pills/shots/liquid medications of some sort? That of course does not forget to mention the fact of those who have people as personal assistants to take care of multiple aspects in reference to the memory portions, of which then I wonder how is it any could or have looked down upon me for my memory issues and how I have done to figure ways best for me to deal with on my own? Maybe not the most conventional way admittedly, though if it works then why would such be looked down upon and judged by those who utilize outside of themselves aspects in comparison?
So it is greatly wonderful many policy aspects have been able to assist many more in reference to what I have written after all of my experiences which have occurred, though realistically there is the fact the majority of my life experiences in which I wrote of in my first two books to compile with various news articles in regards of corelating the information as well as documentation from the timeframes of different specific events; those are the better and happier moments in comparison, as well as the fluffier portions thereof. Those aspects are the silver lining, the pretty, the shiny, the happier moments comparatively to the fuller aspects thereof; and the fact many have been able to overcome more in comparison, is an additional silver lining. However such does not change the facts of what I dealt with, nor does it change the facts of what I deal with, nor does it change the facts of what I have done in reference to specific portions of which I am the only one who has done such and the reality of which while others have been acknowledged for their accomplishments in various ways as well as in regards of when a record has been overcome the portions of which there has not been the simplistic portion of the recognition for certain aspects has yet to be acknowledged in the mannerisms which would have been done so for others.
Is it because I did not know to ask or even how to ask for such and instead, such was wrongly ignored? Is it then considered to be my fault for not knowing such to ask for yet is it my fault for such being taken advantage of, and thus wrongly blaming continuing when knowledge of the facts thereof? Is that not a form of victim/survivor blaming?
For example it has been 11 years since I had earned 26 different SCUBA Diving certifications through one particular SCUBA Diving corporation group, and yet in that 9 month timeframe which I earned 26 SCUBA Diving certifications which is the fastest which had been done and the fact I am a born female; is it considered what in reference to the portions which only now in 2020 is there are larger portion of female SCUBA Divers in comparison to male SCUBA Divers. Not forgetting the reality unlike many I do not have a college degree, however does a college degree have anything to do with SCUBA Diving certifications? Or are SCUBA Diving certifications different than a college degree, on purpose? In more recent times the current President of the United States of America Donald J. Trump has put into order the experiences being able to be utilized for acknowledgement and ability for employment and recognition which I am grateful for, which then in turn does that mean such should be enacted upon?
Also in such it has been 11 years since I had SCUBA Dove to the bottom of the ocean in three separate locations all at hundred of atmospheric measurements in comparison to feet, to surface alive and having taken pictures of what I had done and accomplished; while of course not thinking a selfie was important for such, because in comparison to what I was able to take a picture of why would I care about a picture of myself when the images I took were far less known or able to be seen? How many people have seen an Albino Moray Eel at the bottom of the ocean, or how many people have seen pictures of MerPeople swimming around a sunken naval ship, or how many people have seen pictures of forming underwater volcanos obviously at the bottom of the ocean, or how many people have seen pictures of lobsters which are longer than the apartment space of the largest area in width? Before I continue in reference to the Albino Moray Eel, it is known to many the deeper within the ocean in certain locations means the lack of coloration in brighter ways for certain species of animals and thus the portions of which that Albino Eel being the colors of. In reference to the colorations comparatively to the area where the underwater volcanoes were forming where I had taken pictures of, it is also know of the different minerals within the water molecules in different areas of the ocean affect the marine life colorations as well. Also in reference to the pictures I took of MerPeople swimming around in the Bermuda Triangle area of the Matthias Abyss area at the floor level of the ocean, why would I take a selfie or even to think to take a selfie in comparison of taking pictures of the MerPeople as well as the USS/USNS Vandenberg underwater and why would such a thought ever be considered as important compared to the reality of taking pictures of MerPeople as well as being at the bottom of the ocean able to swim around with them next to the USS/USNS Vandenberg? Has anyone prior to me or since my SCUBA Dive there 11 years ago ever done so in person, realistically? Nope, I am the only one who has physically in the water when SCUBA Diving and swimming around been the only one who has done so and survived. Yet two males in a submarine were considered for exploration in shallower waters for interviews and acknowledgement in Mother Ocean, prior to the female who had done so without a submarine? Both in reference to naval aspects as well as space travel aspects there is the additional portion of which it is called a Mothership, and yet the one female who has done such has been put to the side and walked by?
Some wonder why of certain portions in regards of specific aspects of life around Mother Nature, and yet there in the name while at the same time of having and choosing to wrongly have ignored such. Yet again in reference to in conjunction of the number of my earned SCUBA Diving certifications as well as the portions of each SCUBA Dive when I had landed at the bottom of the ocean each time 11 years ago, and yet as proven by such in reference to the submarine which had been reported upon; there has been what, in regards of such in reference to me? It almost feels as though the Toby Keith song I Wanna Talk About Me is a bit much yet many have talked about you you you usually, and you have been acknowledged in the ways of which of circumstances for what you have done; whereas the other portions of which in regards of what I have done, has been treated in my opinion as from what I have seen in the comparative differences.
The irony is I have given credit where I can and have not denied such, yet the ironic well known quote from Arlee Ermy in Full Metal Jacket of that common courtesy has been literally as stated in that particular movie. Hey look, a pop culture reference in regards of one movie I remember I have seen shortly before my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury.
Since I am not the only author on Amazon, it should be considered illegal for the books written and published through Amazon self publishing to be repurposed just as it should be illegal for Amazon to set up a competition sale platform for the books only put through on Amazon to wrongfully take the profits directly from the author; if that is something that has been or is being done, as the work completed by the authors on Amazon should be given the proper credits and payments for the work completed and earned only by such.
Otherwise that would be considered as an equivalent to civil rights violations as well as violations in reference to the aspects of slavery, since not paying the self published author for the work completed by subverting the author.
How can I write that portion?
The right to pursue happiness, is one aspect. Also since my books I wrote are from my life, my views, my experiences, and my creativity then such would be considered in which those of Amazon would be taking advantage wrongly of such including in reference to the aspects of a different type of slavery because of it all being mine and mine alone; though also in a reference towards intellectual property theft in conjunction with the fact of the portions in reference to Amazon having the publishing company to reproduce such books would be considered within the same aspects of undercutting the one who did such work. Monopoly is considered illegal and even with contracting some other company out which would fully equate to intellectual property theft to do such would in turn be another aspect to pay attention to. The making into movies and/or television shows and/or streaming from such would be considered also as intellectual property theft, and continuing to perpetuate such wrongly in my opinion.
Though I could be inaccurate and such has not been done, if it is or has been done then there is a problem which should be taken care of immediately to rectify that problem fully with justice to me as well as any other individual who has self-published on and/or through Amazon.
You know, even NASA acknowledged the females who had assisted with multiple portions among several other branches of the United States of America's Armed Forces such as the Postal Battalion 6888th for what they had done among others. The irony of such is when I went to Basic Training for a testing in regards of a co-ed aspect in reference to my SCUBA Diving, I had both male and female instructors as well as fellow students at the time in some of my classes. Is there a notice in reference to certain similarities in regards of the fact of what I could do upsetting others in the way the Drill Sergeant who threw me into the metal part of the bunk because of me being a female, which can be seen and noticed?
That cycle stops for if it continues to perpetuate, there are those throughout the universe who do not appreciate such who are much bigger and stronger and faster with far more advances than some can imagine; even the most well versed and educated with degrees from prestigious colleges, cannot fathom. There are those who have some knowledge of some existences, though not the total aspects thereof; yet another aspect of which 9 years ago, 5 years ago, and 4 years ago which could have been discussed if was acknowledged of such while not forgetting the irony in reference to 2004 and several pictures I took at the gulf of Mexico area the same timeframe of certain situations in reference to certain military experiences you can find information about on YouTube in regards of the United States of America's Armed Forces Navy branch. However those pictures I took were using film in comparison to digital pictures in regards of 2004 in comparison to the picture in 2016 and 2017 using digital, and thus the advances are what they are; of course not forgetting the 2011 situation in Irving Texas, nor forgetting the Montana Vortex 4 years ago, 3 years ago, 2 years ago, and 1 year ago pun intended on top of my SCUBA Diving.
Then comes into the portions of consideration in reference to the aspects of the second book series I wrote and published through, The Curious Children Book Series Volumes One and Two. A completely different writing style in comparison to my first two books, published 5 years ago each. All of my books once again all published through Amazon owned companies and/or which Amazon has stock options with, and yet the same aspects in reference to the profit aspects and acknowledgements thereof; and though there is the portion of which now in 2020 the so-called pandemic situation, yet how many years before what is going on now has the ability in regards of such been available? It has been for the first two books 6 years each, this series discussed in this paragraph 5 years each, and so on for each individual count to add up in numbers. Additionally keeping in mind of the Congressional Library aspects which my name is in the title for each, of which in regards of my SCUBA Diving series then comes into the reality of my name being within the title as well.
In reference to The Modern Day Book I wrote of only my experiences and only of what I have done which is in a conjunction factor in reference to my Medal of Honor Art Project and Artwork I put together in a book format on top of in reference to my website showing such around 1 year ago each, then there is the portions similarly which is not a fictional story though is pure facts; which reiterates the aspects in regards of the prior statements above in this journal blog entry and Constitutional Rights among other rights of mine. Both The Modern Day Book as well as The Adventures of Susan MeeLing SCUBA Diver Extraordinaire the 3 volume series, all being around 1 year old and all being similarly written in reference to title of as well as only my life experiences. Since there was not a contractual offer to buy the rights the way a movie or a television series or streaming similarly, then there is only the aspects in reference to the profits in regards of the monetary value in the ways thereof in conjunction with the recognition thereof for such realities for me which should by technicalities already should have been implemented.
Not forgetting that recognition set of portions, correct? For what I have done is not a participation aspect, I am the only one in regards of many portions of specific situations specifically. That is not to come across as conceited as had been claimed in reference to some accusations I have received for lesser aspects such as simply wearing a corset to an event, those greater aspects where I could have bragged about yet instead chose to use for teaching to assist others while listening to the amount others cared more about what their professors had explained while telling me of how I could not get into college and realistically should not be able to; does not change the realities of the facts.
Next in reference to the portions in regards of The Paroxysm of the Lotus Book Series of the three volumes two of which were published 5 years ago and one published 4 years ago, the irony of the claim of sex selling yet the portions thereof having thus far of not sold one of those books where I earned the profit for what I wrote. How many romance novels have flown off of the proverbial shelves yet what is the cause for such profits in regards of my writings, in that particular reference of? Admittedly then there is the portion of which in reference to any who had read such and then had gone searching for such and/or who could have and yet not having the healing capabilities that I have nor will they ever, and quite frankly at this point because of such the realities of being glad in such because of how such has gone in the multiple regards for that could be looked at as a proverbial punishment for not acknowledging the multiple portions throughout which should have been years ago for each aspect. You know, similar to SCUBA Diving and the oceanic healing aspects. There is a sign when driving some may have seen which says do not block intersection and those who got involved wrongly to cause problems to my relationships at such times, had done so. Now, I quite frankly do not care because if not done in a specific way such does not work the same way. Such cannot be done with ill intent or with just wanting a notch in a proverbial belt, there has to be genuinity; of which unlike some and some's views, it is not about getting laid there is far more involved.
However that goes more into the femininity, more-so in that regard in conjunction with chivalry. Just as the reference of the movie portion reference of God's Not Dead, same in regards of chivalry for there are those who know and understand the importance of despite the culture shifts. There are those who have always been respectful despite the way certain aspects in the general public have gone, and while there are those who believe and know females can do many things and still want to earn and prove their own strength through their own merits, there is still the aspect in reference to which chivalry is not an idea but a reality and a requirement. Unlike what some have been lead to believe, the idea and reference of brute force is not something to romanticize in relationships. Humans have evolved far beyond the cavemen time for many reasons, and to revert backwards is not the way to progress forward despite what some video games and television shows and movies might show. Even within the LGBTQP aspects there are the portions of the chivalry which is looked highly upon in comparison, just the same as within heterosexual relationships; so much so as to why so many have fought for the right to marriage, as in looking up to the visions seen in reference to the heterosexual relationships though in regards of their own lives.
Just as a quick portion to add as a side note, the Constitutional Rights are for both males and females; which it does not and has not discriminated against sexuality. There have been additional clarifications added later because of the initial mistake of labeling Indians/Native Americans in such category labels, however that was the choice made by those who were in the United States of America previously and wanting such a label for themselves to distinguish themselves from those who had come to the United States of America. In turn such labeling had been an issue since, which genuinely could have been avoided if the labeling aspect had not needed to be put in to begin with in the first place. When looking at the references within of Representatives, Senators, President, and Vice President there is not a gender associated with either; though because of the labeling having begun then became the point which many more wanted their specific labels. The Founding Fathers and the Founding Mothers saw such and when thinking in reference to back in those days in reference to how people were recognized and known in comparison to legalities, a married couple was known as by what means? Usually by the reference in regards of the husband and wife together under one name, though females and males who were not married were simply referred to as themselves. Thus in more modern times the names of the originators of the Constitution and the Bill of Rights or the Constitutional Rights should include for the more modern view, both names involved in such.
There are previous examples around the world in which the female signed for herself without any male, for legal purposes.
The last book in regards of such I had written up to this point to discuss in such ways in reference to my journal blog entry here is Fail-Safe: The Kennedy curse fused with Science Fiction Fantasy written and published 4 years ago, which the irony in such reference to the last shall be the first among a multitude of other points in regards of such a statement. I suppose in some ways of the many who I had known over the years, I was the last person they would have ever thought would have been the first of to do certain things. Whether such in reference to being the last person seen to land at the bottom of the ocean to surface from in the different areas I had gone to, or the last person they would have thought of to take pictures of MerPeople as well as other marine life; possibly the last person thought of to write as much as I have, or the last person thought of who would have begun my Medal of Honor Art Project. Possibly in certain regards the last person thought of who would have made a website or by technicalities multiple websites which lead to just this one, or even the last person who would have been thought of to fight as much as possible as I have for so many despite the amount of situations over the years and times because of different aspects going on and yet the irony of ironies. Possibly while the last thought of, the first who would come to mind in other regards because of those background situations going on when asked or thought about?
I do not know, for I have not been told.
However my daughter one day looked up at me when I was cleaning and cooking dinner in the kitchen of my house in Carrollton Texas and said with a smile on her face, "Mom, I realized I know who God is, Mom" before giving me a hug and running to go in another room to play with her brother.
On a different day in a different year my son looked over at me and said "Oh my God, Mom. You, just did that." It was in reference to a few things in different times, though the more recent one I can remember is in regards of picking up a motorcycle which was after I shook the car when packing a new pack of cigarettes.
Some irony, possibly.