In reference to both the aspects of the Living as well as the Dead

Updated: Aug 18, 2020

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In reference to my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury I have several questions in regard to the after effects thereof for myself as well as for others who have endured such aspects in life, however before I begin to write about that I do have something extremely important top write of first; while not denouncing the other aspects to be important in their own right. However because of the realities of that time, I have to write of it first because even though my head injury happened on Psalm Sunday in 2000; the events of which I am about to write are quite paramount.

In either 2004 or 2005 when I was separated from my now dead-ex-husband for the first separation before the final separation and well before his death (1.5 years after the final separation), I was forced to move out of my house in Pheasant Creek Subdivision. While that situation of how I was forced out of the house was due to literally being beaten to leave my house, that is not the point of which I need to focus upon.

When I was living at the apartments on USAA Boulevard in #SanAntonio #Texas, I did not yet cut and dye my hair the way it is now. I had started the process of shorter hair, however I blended into the crowd in certain regards because of the lack of ability to identify me in a distinguishing manner as one can now. Though I wrote of this in "Finding a Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing" there are several aspects of odd connections, I must bring up which I cannot post in the minimal number of characters on the #Twitter app; though the ability to post the link is great.

Back in either 2004 or 2005 when I was living at those apartments it was either before Christmas of 2004 or after the New Year of 2005 when I was done with any association with The Jade Wolfe Coven which started through Jamie in #Seguin Texas who at that time was married to Steven who worked as a manager at the #SanAntonioGentlemensClub near #CowboysDanceHall in San Antonio, though mainly because of Christine's stimelodramatic garbage had been the reason why I stopped being associated with them by my choice. Christine from #Abilene Texas was at that time married to Mike living in a house near #highway151 and #loop410 in San Antonio as she met Mike when he was stationed at the #AirForce base in that town, and she wanted to get out of the small town to go with Mike. The two of them had two daughters and one son, but I cannot remember much else; other than Mike's kindness when in reference to the separation for the first time. I did what I could to genuinely repay the kindness he showed me in allowing him to sleep at my apartment and despite what Christine did not want to believe, he and I never were sexually with one another. Though Mike and I had shared a kiss on the cheek and a hug, all I did additionally for him was a protection spell for him after informing him of completing a barrier for his children in reference of what Christine was already possessed by at that time. Tina and Jamie were not the problems, Christine had been the problem the whole time. She even told my then separated from ex-husband about what I was doing, knowing I would be beaten for what she told him of.

"Like attracts like" is her statement, when she wanted to play with the Ouija board in his house.

I also had broken up with a male I started dating after the separation from my now dead-ex-husband named Thomas Marden (online he went as #Raven_Marsden) of which I dumped him for a few reasons as first, he cried like a whiny little baby during the movie #LastSamurai when #TomCruise bowed in the movie to the #Emperor. Then he decided to try to tell me "No girlfriend of mine, is going to wear corsets"; which my modeling shows how that ended up besides my choice to dump him. However the final reason I broke up with Thomas Marsden was because he yelled at my children, when they were in my apartment. I kicked him out and told him we were over, because I would not tolerate anyone speaking to my children like that; when there was no connection nor reason to in any way as they were just wanting my attention. He tried to get my sympathy later because his mom and grandfather kicked him out of his grandfather's house (retired Air Force); which by the time I met Thomas Marsden he had failed out of the #ROTC program for the Air Force for multiple suicide attempts.

Other than those 'people' my biological mother Anna Louise (maiden last name Lally) Hom who had worked in the #Prudential #IT department in #Holdel #NewJersey from the early 1980s to mid/end 1990s before working in the IT department for #McHenryCounty government center in #Woodstock #Illinois when I went to high school at #cls (#CrystalLakeSouthHS); my biological sister Patricia Ann (maiden last name Hom) Miller who went to college at #SanMarcosCollege and married a #PoliceOfficer of which Patricia was good with #cellphone stuff while our biological mother was good with #computer stuff; my biological father Michael Lee Hom who was not into technology stuff at all until many years later when I gave him the #DSLR camera bundle I purchased on #eBay were the only ones who had been in my apartment with my knowledge or allowance up to this point in time.

I know a bit much, however hopefully if the #SanAntonioPolice need that; there are the only ones who had ever had been allowed into my apartment by that point, which did include my then separated but now dead-ex-husband because of moving of furniture. I do not remember having any problems which I needed to have maintenance show up into my apartment at the time, nor any working order I put in; though I did have a landline put into the apartment and I cannot remember how that was arranged at this point.

The apartment I had was on the second floor, facing the main office, facing the parking lot and the gate, with a tree in the corner left when walking out onto the patio when I would go outside to smoke a cigarette. Back then my hair was either cut at my chin or at my shoulders, dark brown hair, and I had no tattoos at all. I was so plain looking in that time the only way I could stand out was if I dressed up and put makeup on, which realistically in my opinion was not much of a difference. However I cannot remember if I changed my drivers license information because of the house I still had in my name at the time, though I did give that to the front office for verification as well as my military identification. Pictures from #JCPenney #PortraitStudio for that time would be able to give the Police a better idea, of what I looked like then from family photographs.

One night just a few weeks before earning my #Reiki Master/Teacher attunement from Joe Rose, I was outside on the patio smoking a cigarette. I watched #black #SUV speed into the parking lot with loud music, which did not cover the sounds of a female screaming in the back of their SUV. The wheels were shiny and there was no whitewall on the tires, but that does not discount if there was white lettering as the lighting was not the best at the time. The driver of that SUV had reversed into one of the back parking spots along the wrought iron fence areas and slammed the trunk door. I did not have my patio light on, because of the way that attracts bugs. I was sitting in the blue chair for the #poker card table set I had on the patio with a #coffee can I used as an ashtray. The door outside was for the laundry room, for that location. The older female who lived in the apartment beneath mine, told me a few weeks later about the #murder and I told her as well as one of my neighbors in the cold-e-sac of #PhesantCreek subdivision about what I was told; as well as of the phone call, and my fears at the time.

As an addition to the reference of my biological sister Patricia, she had invited three students from #McHenryHighSchool to my house after I allowed it after the threesome she had in our biological parent's bed in their new house while they were still in Illinois. This was allowed only after several weeks of her being grounded and there had been one other female other than my sister, as well as 2 males. One of the males had a streak of either yellowish blond hair with black hair or a white streak of hair with black hair, around the length between his chin and his shoulders and a bit wavy. That male had aimed a can of #hairspray towards my house and lit the spray on fire, which I pushed the flames away from my house as well as when he did so aiming the spray on fire towards me several times. That male refused to stop as the others were laughing at his childish antics despite being around seventeen years old, and encouraged him to continue spraying the hairspray and lighting it on fire. When he would not listen to me and after more than seven times of him aiming the flames directly at me of which I pushed the flames away from me as well as away from the area of my son's room, I warned him to stop doing such.

He told me "I'm a #Sheiff's son, I can do whatever I want" and though I explained him being a Sheriff's son did not equate to him being able to be so reckless; he still would not stop. When he refused again, I went upstairs, opened the gun safe (though I don't remember whether or not I pressed the code though I think I did or I just ripped the safe open), I got the #Glock 45 out, I knew it had one in the chamber, and I walked down the stairs to see that boy doing the same thing. I walked outside, put the firearm barrel to the side of his head, and told him to "stop attempting to cause damage to my house and attempt to harm my children." At that point when he tried to turn towards me, I clicked the cock back and then told him "Put that on the table, slowly."

He did, then he said "You're mean" and left my property finally. The others left shortly afterwards and my biological sister Patricia defended that male, to me after I put the firearm back into the gun safe after getting my now dead-ex-husband up because of being afraid if the trigger accidentally clicked it would fire. I dealt with that conversation for waking him despite the reasons for, as he defended Patricia's point of view. I only add those people because of the points of possible hypothetical connections, in varying ways; since they thought it was a game and I guesstimate anyone else would see my point of view of defending my children and my property. As a brief side note anyone who ever said I was imbalanced in their opinions, "Opinions are like a**holes, is my response. I think it was quite restricted, in regards to my choices and actions as it was in the state of Texas; and as a joke for that boy, I did and do like to garden; and I have written and said my beliefs of which are proven in reference to "grass is always greener..." Seeing how I had a group of sets of floral, fruit, and vegetable gardens; I believe my point is made in that reference, as well as my calmness for that situation among others despite my sadism.

...back to the apartment on USAA Boulevard...

When the SUV had parked, I opened the screen part of the patio door to go get the cordless phone to call 9-1-1. A female operator answered the phone and asked me to repeat the information more than twice, thus I went to my bedroom to grab my sword which was on one side of my bed since I did not have a firearm in my apartment. In reference to the friends and family of, I tried to keep my other ear open to hear where I heard her screams as muffled as they were. While repeating myself inside of my apartment because of not wanting to cause attention to where I was while dealing with the female on the phone (despite what some might believe in their own personal views) I prayed as I heard the steps go to the opposite side of the parking lot from where my apartment was and diagonally. If this is any solace, before the door opened I no longer heard her screams; despite whatever was found in her apartment to have occurred. The elderly females did not tell me what happened beyond murder, though my condolences nonetheless.

When the female operator from 9-1-1 got off of the phone with me, I ran to the patio with my sword waiting for the police to show up for several hours. Not one siren came through the complex, not one patrol car, not one ambulance. It was a clear and warm evening, which did not mean there were weather conditions for the additional accidents though it was late a night which does not discount the amount of people who may have been on the road drinking and driving; if that 9-1-1 call actually had gone through to a genuine 9-1-1 operator and had not been someone messing with the technology from the prior list of people.

This I specifically wrote about in my book "Finding A Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing" of which on my way to Joe Rose's callas for my Reiki #Master #Teacher attunement when I was driving, I looked into my rear-view mirror. There was a youthful female in the very back seat of the #Ford #Windstar van who had bangs with longer hair past her shoulders, who was in ripped clothing crying. I asked the spirit as I have before and have done since in other ways and references because of my #Mediumshoip and #Clairvoyance as well as #clairessentiance and other aspects, "Are you okay? How can I help, you?" She looked up with blood all over her and flew towards the front seat of my car, sitting in the passenger seat screaming at me. She told me what happened, but I was not able to put that together at the time as to what occurred previously. I genuinely apologize, as I did not mean to be unable to find if the Police Officers who were assigned to her case could not find me to ask me questions. Though I comprehend it has been over a decade since that time, I hope if the need for such information is important; there is my written statement in full. I am much easier to find in comparison to those times obviously, but if that additionally is needed for prosecution; I hope that helps. I do remember seeing a total of three males, all taller than her. Those are the facts and any other questions I can give answers to if needed, are only in the spiritual context if I am contacted by the Detectives for that.

In reference to my questions which sort of have to do with that, but could be in other ways as well:

1). Since I had the head injury on Psalm Sunday in 2000 when at Fort Sill Oklahoma during Basic Training in The United States of America's Army which had been so damaging I had a subarachnoid hemmorage in the frontal lobe of my brain which I was in a coma for a while and the intelligence level went from College Algebra with Trigonometry and Calculus to 2nd Grad Math if hyposthetically technology stuff of mine had been messed with or #hacked improperly, would that mean the #targeting and/or #stalking in a bad way?

1a). If that occurred because of the Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury being so damaging of which I had to literally be re-taught the colors of the rainbow among various other aspects which are learned in #elementary school and before as well as other normally known class stuff for where I once was before joining The United States of America's Army branch; does that mean in turn I was #reborn?

1c). If as the #ChineseZodiac and #HebrewZodiac as well as several other #OldWorld #zodiav studies are considered; would that mean I would technically be turning 21 years old this year of 2020? Or would that mean I am turning 20 years old?

1c1). Due to the fact the older #astrology studies refer to gestation as the point of the spiritual birth would that mean because I was looking to join the military for The United States of America since 1993 but could not legally begin doing so until 1999 when I graduated high school one semester early though had to be #emancipated before I could legally join the #Army branch, that I am turning 21 years old?

1c2). Or does because I was already fully physically formed before graduating high school, does that mean I am turning 20; via the celebration standards for birth in those #astrological studies?

1c3). I suppose I can make a Faery-sized joke, maybe that is why in conjunction with other aspects of my exact time of physical birth the stars had aligned where the aspects of each zodiac house I have multiple alignments within each and every single sector throughout my birth zodiac chart. Maybe?

2). If technically because of the damages done to my brain because of the Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury hypothetically could be considered as knocking me to an infantile state of awareness in an adult body physically, would that in turn mean anyone who had purposefully targeted my daughter, my son, and I to cause harm could be considered as endangering 3 minors at once from the moment I left the post at #JBSA of #FortSamHouston in San Antonio Texas?

2a). If such technically would be the case would that hypothetically mean everyone from my biological family and their associates who assisted them to purposefully cause while knowing and not being ones of the aspects of "Compassionate/Honorable/Righteous Ones" who caused my children and/or I harm, they would be legally responsible for the problems and damages caused?

2b). If such is technically hypothetically such is considered, would that mean those of my dead-ex-husband's family who did such in a similar manner and connections of, would be similarly able to be charged with such?

2c). If that is hypothetically technically true then would those who caused problems at #McCoyElementary School in #Carrollton Texas of #CFBISD (Carrolton Farmers Branch Independent School District) such as then in 2008-2010 Principal Dawn Rink, Guidance Counselor Angela Rieter (?Spelling?), Tamara Hatcher, Superintendent Cole Burns, the board of CFBISD, their lawyer Nona Matthews of and as well as the law firm of Anderson/Browne/Green/Walsh and Associates of #Irving area in Texas on then road Hidden Trail be legally able to be charged with endangerment as well as discrimination against my children and I, as well as Mirna Silver (who I had taken money out of the #ATM from the bank on the first floor of her law firm's office to pay her in cash only for her to reject my daughter's case after taking the money I withdrew in full that day); for such?

3c). Hypothetically would that also technically mean if the female I met name #RebeccaShrader in #Washingtonstate at #Aliki beach after the #Seattle Comedy Club near the #pinball place across the street (where I defended The United States of America's #Constitution to a former military member of I think the #MarineCorps branch who was not happy about his claimed time in active duty which gives every comedian/satirical reviewer their First Amendment Rights) who also has the same name as one of the three females (#RebeccaShrader with #SarahBrown(e) with #MarcieCreamans) who lost my daughter at the #FortWorthZoo in April of 2010; after McCoy Elementary School denied my daughter #SpecialNeedsEducation after having been informed of my #veterandisabilities and the association with The United States of America's Armed which I wrote about in my books and provided documentation of from McCoy Elementary School as well as Carrollton Farmers Branch Independent School District (I sent copies in full to #SenatorTedCruz, the San Antonio #FBI, the #Austin #Obudsman, #SenatorJohnCornyn, #GovernorGregAbbott, as well as #CID (Criminal Investigation Division at JBSA, the #SanAntonioPoliceDepartment, including #CongressmanMichaleMcCaul after giving #SenatorPattyPurray a copy of the actual books in person to her office staff as well as #TempleBethEl's Mrs. Catherine Caramel among several others I cannot think of each name though I believe also #CongressmanChipRoy); would have additional charges of stalking a minor because of that occurring in the year of 2014 or 2015? Which in turn hypothetically I would have been either 13 turning 14, or 14 turning 15 years old?

3d). Would in turn that would mean those of The Jade Wolfe Coven though in specific of Christine and her associates would hypothetically technically, also be suceptable?

3e). If true would that mean the #humantrafficking of my son and I term would be for not one, but two minors when taken to #washington after going various areas in #Arizona and #NewMexico and #California and #Oregonand whatever other states, after the #targeting at #CowboysDanceHall during the #StoneyLaRue concert because of what I wrote in "Finding the Silver Lining By: Susan MeeLing" about Kevin and that group of people?

3f). Would hypothetically would that mean anyone involved with that set up in the reference of 'Cherubim Ones' would be guilty and could be charged for the same among whatever other crimes even if someone similar to #MaitresseRenee and her then fiancé Jason (from #Louisiana but lived in #FortWorth Texas and were a part of #ClubFEMDFW), were a part of and/or knew about?

3g). Would in turn would that be considered if the individuals were paid, prostitution of a minor as well if I were to hypothetically technically have been considered as 12 turning 13, since Psalm Sunday had not occurred yet? Would that also mean anyone who attempted to purchase time with me through others, would be able to be charged with such; as my biological mother and my ex-roommate Alicia with her then dominant Erika AKA Discordia (who had been arrested for stealing Garden Gnomes) could hypothetically technically be tried for such crimes?

3h). Would in turn would that mean Patrick #Kennedy (who had worked for Dallas' #BankofAmerica security as well as at #DeLoitte security in the #Dallas area which I am the one who sent the handwritten letter to DeLoitte after calling them to speak with Mary before that happened as well as before breaking up with him as the shotgun was the final straw in combination of him calling me a "stupid b****" in front of my son because of #pizza he could have gotten himself but wanted me to pick up instead because he was too lazy to get it himself from #PizzaHut - ironic coinky dink with Phillip Omstead who worked as a manager at Pizza Hut after he claimed he quit from working at #ChaseBank) would be hypothetically technically tried for not just threatening me with a shotgun in the face, but also minor child type endangerment in Irving Texas for both of my children as well as myself; the apartment which was across the field from the law firm for #CFBISD?

3h). Would that mean in turn technically and hypothetically when my now ex-boyfriend Jesse Leroy Hoover Jr did the math for the driving hours for the #Montana trip for the 2016 my Medal of Honor Art Project Trip, he put 2 minors in jeopardy as well as the people of the state of Montana, Washington, and #Idaho at risk; as well as the consequences thereof during the traffic from #Kalispell through to 2 towns before #Arlee, as well as those people in the red #Hyundai and any associates of those 'Cherubim Ones'?

3i). As a side question, would that mean I am the youngest #Reverend of the #UniversalistUnitarianChurch, technically hypothetically; as well as the youngest SCUBA Diver who earned 24 certifications from #PADI/#InternationalSCUBA and landed at the bottom of the ocean in the #BermudaTriangle in reference of the #SCUBA Dive at the area of the #USSVandenberg in the area of the #FloridaKeys of #KeyWest #Florida and surfaced and survived; as well as etcetera for the different certifications I earned?

3j). Would that also mean if hypothetically technically accurate in reference to the age aspect such would be true of '#CactusJack' AKA Jeffrey Kuykendall Jr of the #151roadwarriors (left #ROTC for The United States of America's Army branch because he was called that because he landed on cactus and threw a titty-baby tempter tantrum (in my opinion) as though that would be the worst of all nicknames) in not only hypothetical #domesticterrorism but also since I was forced into a relationship with him and he knew it as well as he forced the 2 other threesomes (one of which had been with who is now my dead-ex-husband's as he said "last dying wish" before he went to #Iraq (though he thought I was joking when we had that discussion/conversation before we had separated the 2nd and final time when he claimed he had been called on #IRR claimed told me he could choose where he would be stationed which of course was before I was yelled at for saluting the American Flag during the Star Spangled Banner during the graduation ceremony for the #TexasNationalGuard which was after he had meat-tags tattooed into his ribcage for 4 people total and I had yelled at him for dealing with that conversation and despite that conversation and the way that went as both 'Cactus Jack' and Susie Marie Nichols-Lopez watched/listened, I stood my ground and deal with the consequences of) in Fort Worth (which his sister Susie Marie Nichols-Lopez knew about and wanted to join) before leaving for #Iraq and the other had not known it was forced named Cage from #ADT when at the Carrollton house); would that mean charges along those similar lines, as well?

4) If all of those had gotten involved together as my biological family had agreed with my dead-ex-husband as well as 'Cactus Jack' instead of my choice to not want to be in abusive relationships had hypothetically banded together, would hypothetically because of the age aspect from the Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury be a consideration in reference to the minor aspect since up until either 2018 where I would have been technically 17 or 18; or 2019 where I would technically be 18 or 19 depending which view is looked at in reference of zodiac/spiritual or physical aspects, would in turn those be prior considered as legal somethin-or-another?

4a).Though in the state of Washington there is the aspect of legally being able to choose in reference to parents after the age of 15 years old (I think), would that in turn be a different aspect of legalities; or because of the multiple states of traveling through for my Medal of Honor Art Project, would that be in a #federal aspect?

4b).While not forgetting the aspects of how one earns a #MedalofHonor is through war efforts which usually has been off of the #Homeland of The United States of America after World War One (?) though there had been Medal of Honor medals awarded to prior wars which were on the soil of The United States of America, in turn such getting the #CIA involvement if I am accurate for each Medal of Honor recipient of each war which was a part of any overseas wars though also I think hypothetically because of some of the wars having been associated with those who immigrated here from other countries; would such also qualify for such within the #CIA territory for that agency?

4c). Though maybe, that is why there is the #HomelandSecurity branch with those divisions? Or, is that where the #NSA gets involved, and are they a part of a different branch and/or division?

4d). Not forgetting the obvious factor of each Medal of Honor recipient was either a part of one of the at the time 5 military branches of The United States of America's Armed Forces whether the #Army, the #AirForce, the #CoastGuard, the #MarineCorps, or the #Navy; since the #SpaceForce was just recently formed this year in January 2020; the 'Cherubim Ones' upsetting each of each; is that in itself considered as a form of #treason as well as #domesticterrorism as well as #worldterrorism technically hypothetically? Though since (#NASA) astronauts in space stations had to watch from where they are at, does that include #galacticterrorism technically?

4e). Since in reference of SCUBA Diving and the Dive at the area of the #UNSVandenberg if hypothetically Mary Evongelina (maiden last name Nichols) Osteen who was ?is? married to David Osteen in the Air Force and/or others had to do with something happening to my SCUBA Diving gear, is there a different charge in reference to the age aspects; despite the reality of my 2 children as well as my niece Marissa Marie Lopez being hypothetically put in danger, unless Marissa knew about my SCUBA Diving gear being messed with?

Though I know there is quite a bit of questions in reference to various points and while not all could be associated with the first portion of the blog post but could have over time become entangled with the aspects of the technology points and my Medal of Honor Art Project, I hope I was able to clearly write for those to understand what I wrote as well as be able to think about such in a way where they could be unbiased as possible. While keeping in mind the reality of the final say of a Medal of Honor being awarded to a recipient is first through the #HouseofCongress then to the #HouseofSenate then to the #VicePresident before getting to the #POTUS for each individual recipient similarly I guesstimate to the #MedalofFreedom for civilians, I do not comprehend why anyone would think any of the bad stuff would be a good idea.

That is a whole bunch of people to make very angry, and I do not want to make anyone angry. That does not include all of the others who would have been made aware of that stuff, and how angry they would be at those 'Cherubim Ones'. Though at least I can giggle to myself and joke about their 'Cherubim Ones' 's spiritual marriage to my dead-ex-husband and in seriousness, I will not divorce them completely out of spite admittedly.

I admit partially for the different "Compassionate/Honorable/Righteous Ones", partially for the different state locations, and partially because of my own personal beliefs. I know it might come across as childish, but they cannot make me. I, am The Executrix.

#TheOrneryPSA

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