Dear Reader if my journal blog is read,
You do not know what it is like to have a head injury, be in a coma, and have a subarachnoid hemorrhage for 8.5 years?
Does it take a head injury to figure out to be thankful, that you do not know personally?
Do you know what it is like to be raised in a heavy amount of religion and spirituality to then four years into a marriage learn that they hid being an Atheist, from you while having a subarachnoid hemorrhage in the frontal temporal lobe of your brain the way I know from my personal experience?
Do you know what it is like to pick up the biological father of your two children from the hospital because in his claim of shooting himself when cleaning a firearm to then be informed later that it was not an accident and it was because of the separation during the marriage, while dealing with the separation and raising two children and having a subrachnoid hemmorhage in the frontal lobe of your brain?
What would you do if you were told a few months after picking him up that he did so on purpose while having been diagnosed with a seven year old's mental state for the educational timeframe of and what if you told your doctor as I had and your doctor said that you were his patient and not your children's biological father, what would you do then?
How would you handle the situation if your children's grandparents on both sides only focused on the two of your marriage and not that truth admitted of such, would you be considered normal?
Or would you look to society to see, where the normalcy was?
Or would normal be what the daily life, per that point in time?
How would your viewpoints of acquaintances be, then thereafter immediately in time and years in time?
How would you consider friendships immediately, and in the future?
What would be your considerations of family be, in truth?
How would you consider dating, if given the option and the time to do so?
What television shows would be of interest to you then, thereafter such a point in time?
What movies would be of interest to go see, that you would be excited for?
What would you seek for yourself for solace, and comfort?
What would you do to protect those two minor aged children, and what would you do to protect yourself from such?
What if three and a half to four years later during a second separation that same individual died of a mixed medication overdose, and you had the knowledge of such?
How would you handle the situation if your children's grandparents on both sides only focused on the two of your marriage and not that truth admitted of such, would you be considered normal?
Or would you look to society to see, where the normalcy was?
Or would normal be what the daily life, per that point in time?
How would your viewpoints of acquaintances be, then thereafter immediately in time and years in time?
How would you consider friendships immediately, and in the future?
What would be your considerations of family be, in truth?
How would you consider dating, if given the option and the time to do so?
What television shows would be of interest to you then, thereafter such a point in time?
What movies would be of interest to go see, that you would be excited for?
What would you seek for yourself for solace, and comfort?
What would you do to protect those two minor aged children, and what would you do to protect yourself from such?
What would you do if you were told a few months after picking him up that he did so on purpose while having been diagnosed with a seven year old's mental state for the educational timeframe of and what if you told your doctor as I had and your doctor said that you were his patient and not your children's biological father, what would you do then?
What would be on your shoulders, of importance?
What if only 7 months later from the time of the death you were then told the subrachnoid hemmorhage was no longer in the MRI and CAT scans, how would you reevaluate your life in that moment in time?
How would you raise those two children, in elementary school age?
How would you raise those two children when they became teenagers, and then when they became adults biologically how would you live your life?
Dear reader if you do not know or you think you know because of your own thoughts of ifs, are you sure?
Would you consider whom as an acquaintance or if the connections were strong enough would you skip calling them friends and consider them as family in the nonbiological way, because how would you consider life and living?
Would you be honest from the start the way I am, and what would you consider being normal?
Or would you look to society to see, where the normalcy was?
Or would normal be what the daily life, per that point in time?
How would your viewpoints of acquaintances be, then thereafter immediately in time and years in time?
How would you consider friendships immediately, and in the future?
What would be your considerations of family be, in truth?
How would you consider dating, if given the option and the time to do so?
What television shows would be of interest to you then, thereafter such a point in time?
What movies would be of interest to go see, that you would be excited for?
What would you seek for yourself for solace, and comfort?
When those children became biological adults, whom would you seek to connect or reconnect with honestly?
What path would your choice lead to, and why?
Would yours be different than mine and if so, why?
If the exacts were the exacts of the exact same, what choices would be once both were older than eighteen years old?
When being a widow at the age of twenty-five years old with those facts and/or just being the reality of being a legal widow at the age of 25 years old with the TBI head injury and subrachnoid hemmorhage factors, how would you consider proceeding with dating relationships?
If females decided to stir up drama or have a quiet competition with you, what would truthfully matter?
Personally I have not understood before the time when I was in a coma why females liked having males fight over them, though I definitely have not understood since I was told about the truth regarding from when I picked up my children's biological father from the hospital a few months afterwards nor since. Is there something wrong with me, for that?
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