I received a surprise phone call a couple of days ago from my daughter after she said she was back in a different hospital for what was occurring in reference to my ex-in-laws specifically my ex-mother-in-law or her biological father's mother's house, telling me of several portions of treatments. Having discussed being treated differently as well as several arguments that have persisted since around the beginning of this year in 2020 of which my ex-in-laws have blamed me for what has occurred despite the minimal contact to and/or with my daughter, is only one of the portions of which she discussed.
It was good to hear her voice, as I miss and have missed her for a long time. Same in reference to my son as I miss him, and miss hearing his voice. I am thankful for such, and grateful.
I am glad both my son and my daughter now have been able to be given specifically the first two books I wrote and compiled, my son was given his copies in 2014 whereas my daughter was given her copies in 2020. Both were given those books as well as both books from :
Of which is ironic my daughter named her pet cat Seraphina before getting the books I had mailed to her, that is unless hypothetically my ex-in-laws had downloaded a copy of the first two books and were playing mind games with my daughter suggesting that name as for awhile the first two books were available through a dropbox link.
Nonetheless my daughter brought up portions in reference to the items thrown at her when my ex-mother-in-law has gotten mad at her during arguments, as well as my ex-sister-in-law telling my daughter her opinions and thoughts do not matter to them in regards of the facts. While there is undeniable contention against my ex-in-laws as those who have ex-in-laws know from their own experiences, I have stated and discussed my biases and pointed such out well before talking with my daughter recently as well as before ever writing any of the books I wrote/compiled including in reference to my journal blog entries. I have and I choose to do such in order to ensure such is known to give that portion to the reader(s) to make their own decisions to enforce the facts as facts, and to distinguish my own truthful experiences for the reasons of my biases and the purposes as to why to ensure as much as to make sure it is known not to be blamed nor misconstrue the facts and the truths. For any misunderstandings on my part or my own mis-rememberings, I do apologize and have apologized for; while also acknowledging the reasons for such if such has occurred, as I have not denied the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury.
That important fact which I guesstimate despite the fact my ex-in-laws used such against me in the same manner their dead relative who is also of course my now dead-ex-husband, had done for many years just as my own biological parents and sister had done including those who I once knew had admitted to doing so. I have not denied the after effects from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury, though in such I do apologize if I have mis-remembered and/or been inaccurate at times. I also apologize if I did not prepare others for how harsh the realities were in full not because of any other reasons, then it was a lot to remember; though admittedly I did not want pity, I wanted justice. While that might come across as odd, I also do not deny I am odd.
Thus in reference to the discussions with my daughter on the phone recently she had brought up a phrase which has stuck with me for the past few hours of "need for revenge" or something along those lines, which admittedly I laughed at bit at before explaining the background to naming her as I had and how I chose the name Lidia Louise instead of Anna Lidia or Lidia Anna; as the latter of the two seemed a bit weird when saying out loud, whereas the first sounded similar to analytical out loud when spoken. Though both my son and my daughter are extremely intelligent, and both are extremely inquisitive, and both are extremely analytical in their own individual ways. While I do admit in more modern times I do hope for expedited revenge against my ex-in-laws through justice means, such was not the purpose of ever putting anything together before in regards of revenge.
My main focus had been for truth for my son and my daughter while bringing awareness to others as well, as I knew there had to be portions which could help others in multiple ways. I knew in some ways it may not have been considered as much when I was writing and compiling, though I felt there had to be others who understood and knew while needing some form of comprehension in good and truthful ways. As a side note to me, it almost felt as though there were so many wondering what various portions of life was for and/or why things were as such as well as what to do to find a better outcome among a few other aspects. Not until more recently had I thought of how much and how many could have seen and known while understanding and comprehending various aspects in different portions, of which I honestly did not think of how hopefully in a good way was impactful some things could have truly been.
In the discussions my daughter asked me about experiences I had in the past, which I told the truth of as I can only tell the truth. I had told her of a few situations in which my ex-in-laws had seen the abuse I had endured and how my ex-sister-in-law Susie Marie Nichols-Lopez had encouraged the behaviour from my dead-ex-husband as well as how my ex-mother-in-law had told him to treat me better than he was doing so. My daughter was also told about the facts in reference to when I was pregnant with her having to carry luggage as well as my son's car seat with him in it into the house in Oklahoma during a snowstorm for myself, my now dead-ex-husband, my ex-mother-in-law, my 2 nieces, and my nephew; the same of which also having explained the portions in reference to carrying luggage into the house in Fort Worth for my other ex-sister-in-law Mary Evongelina Nichols Osteen and her 2 daughters in 2001 when pregnant with my son. My daughter did not have much to say about that set of facts, while also not having much to say in reference to the Bronze Star and commendation.
She was not surprised when I told her about her Grandpa Nichols and the treatment he received as well as his agreements in my choices for the Bronze Star and commendation given back to the Army branch of the United States of America's Armed Forces in regards of the cover up there, though she had quickly seen how Grandpa Nichols had suffered in regards of after the timeframe of her and my son's father's death. Though she told me of minimal aspects in reference to my ex-in-laws fury and was listening more than speaking whether having to do with the television nearby and/or the people in the room talking/screaming nearby and/or the medications she was on, she did mention of the constant ignoring from. She also informed me that her Uncle Tony Walker Nichols had been sent to prison after a back and forth with the law, and how Grandma Nichols' money has been problematic not only because of the assistance given to bail him out of jail and prison; however she also told me of the fact she did not know of the payments each month of the stipends, which Lydia Evongelina (?surname from the Dominican Republic?) Nichols was receiving on my daughter's behalf though had discussed the car payments for my niece living with Marissa Marie Lopez who I was told works as a bar tender though somehow is not allowed to keep the tips.
I encouraged my daughter to look through the pages a bit more though she told me that my ex-mother-in-law took away the books from her, denying her the ability to read the truth wrongly while also continuing to promote wrongly the false narratives in reference to my ex-mother-in-law's dead son Robert Walker Nichols.
I admit I told my daughter I hope there are those who could clarify in more detail to my ex-in-laws of the reality in reference to the aspects of my dead-ex-husband and the stolen valor in fuller details, so they could no longer deny nor live in denial of the truth and lies they have been perpetuating for years since 2008. I suppose in certain retrospect that Chief Warrant Officer 3 telling them such was not considered good enough for them, nor was the artist telling them he would not paint the picture from the Dress Blues a good enough sign for them to pay attention to the reality. I suppose the fact Grandpa Nichols agreed with my choice to return the Bronze Star and commendation in 2008 and demanding from them as I simply asked, to be able to return their copy of to the Army branch of the United States of America's Armed Forces; and though I knew theirs was only a copy as the way the military gives the original, it still was important for ethical and moral reasons again of which Grandpa Nichols agreed with. Seemingly, so did my daughter.
I also told my daughter in more detail about my ex-in-laws upsetting the Holy Roman Catholic Church and why in reference to the non-Christian statues put into their dead relative's casket knowing it was going to be taken to Saint Patrick's Cathedral and how they grew up being taught the Catholica traditions, of which despite the fact I only went to Catholic High School for two years having a feeling it was the correct thing to warn the Priest about on that day. I told my daughter of the sign the Priest gave me in reference to the funerary proceedings being held in the cafeteria instead of the cathedral, of which my ex-in-laws specifically both ex-sisters-in-law being upset about. What I wonder is if any of them remember how infuriated Grandma Nichols' mom who flew in from New York had quietly yelled at Grandma Nichols about, in reference to what she saw her Grandchildren and Great Grandchildren had put into the casket before it went to Saint Patrick's Cathedral; though I did not tell my daughter on the phone, about or of.
I also wonder if any of them knew my children's Great Grandmother and I had spoken briefly and despite the language barrier in the Cathedral area as well as at the DFW National Cemetery, she told me she appreciated the ability to be flown out for the ceremony as well as thanking me for talking with the Priest as she saw me doing and heard what I told him about. She told me how disappointed she was with her daughter (Grandma Nichols) as to how she had raised her children and how she saw her Grandchildren from those two females, proved how wrong she was. What I can remember from the words my children's Great Grandmother told me which I write the ... because I cannot remember all of it as well as she spoke fast, even though she repeated herself "...Gracias ... por ... solvesias ... especial ... sanctitos religiouso ... problema ... estudia ... ceremoncia ... ninos ... ninas ... tu es perfecto ... buenos ... belisima ... Gracias ..." before she gave me a big hug and cried a bit. I suppose after I finish up this particular journal blog entry, I should look up what those words mean. However I felt goodness and truth from her, which is why I had not done so previously in all honesty.
Though my ex-in-laws may still blame me for their shortcomings and their failures to accept the realities of bringing forward the truth, it does not change the facts nor does it change the truths.
I had told my daughter on the phone about the SCUBA Diving gear bag in which in 2009 I caught my ex-sister-in-law Mary Evongelina Nichols Osteen closing up the bag quickly when I walked into the room, and later during the discussion as she yelled at me for startling her as well as yelled at me about being nosy about my own SCUBA Diving gear as I did not understand why she was closing up my SCUBA Diving gear bag at the time; however since during the Boca Raton Florida SCUBA Dive which the SCUBA Diver I was assigned to had told me he saw bubbles coming out of the back area of my BCD, I realize now as to most likely the hypothetical reasons/excuses as to why my ex-sister-in-law did not want me to go SCUBA Diving at the Georgetown Aquarium as well as telling me of how she thought my children did not need to see me SCUBA Diving in her opinion just as her daughters did not need to see that.
It is a bit ironic of the fact my ex-sister-in-law Susie Marie Nichols Lopez's eldest daughter Brieanna Marie Lopez's first child's biological father was working at the #FortWorthZoo the day my daughter had her field trip and I learned he had been the one who found her at the zoo on that day, as he was also the individual who told me my daughter had been in the Fort Worth Zoo security for 24 or 28 minutes from the paperwork at the security office. As there is a pattern of behaviour for my ex-sister-in-law Susie Marie Nichols-Lopez to do what she can to game the system as well as she had wanted me to sue to Fort Worth Zoo, again I find such to be extremely odd. When I had told my ex-sister-in-law about the problems at the school which had a portion in reference to the field trip though was not the entire portion of as I had felt, that had been one of the reasons for such arguments between my ex-sister-in-law and I before I stopped speaking with my ex-in-laws as she had wanted and tried to push me to sue to Fort Worth Zoo. She pointed out how she had been told how much money they brought in daily as she was told by the father of Brieanna Marie Lopez's first son Anthony, who was the same person who had played the voicemail to my daughter of her dead father saying her 'dad was on the phone' after knowing my daughter had been in the hospital. I suppose the comments from my children's Great Grandmother ring truer more and more, in reference to some of my ex-in-laws' children. Since my ex-sister-in-law Susie Marie Nichols-Lopez got along quite well with my biological sister Patricia Ann Hom-Miller, with such patterns of behaviour from both such is not surprising either.
Though ironically since my niece is living with Grandma Nichols as well as my daughter, the fact I had offered to take Marissa Marie into my house in Carrollton and give her the spare third bedroom is odd since I was told there was no way my ex-sister-in-law by her own words 'would ever kick or let Marissa leave the house'. In some ways possibly the newer husband with the twin daughters newly born because of in conjunction with the death of her only son in 2016 as I was told, might have changed her mind apparently.
Though my daughter and I talked about a few other points, one most notable point is where I listened to her tell me she loves me and misses me just as I love her and I miss her; just as I love my son and I miss my son. I only want the best for my son and my daughter, as I think any good Mom would.