Over the years when I lived in the state of Texas after waking up from my coma from my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury mainly within the years between 2000 through 2013 whether I was told by some people within that state of their lack of belief of my after effects and/or their lack of belief I was born and raised in the state of New Jersey and/or their lack of belief people from #NJ #NewJersey New Jersey were ever able to be impacted by the attacks on 11 September 2001, the problems from those types of people which not all of them were native Texans who had said their opinions to me about that; however it was said to my face in the state of Texas during those years, in comparison to other times thereafter returning before transferring to where I need(ed) to be. The situations regarding growing up in New Jersey and more-so in reference to the backyard of as well as the developed neighborhood in the subdivision behind the house I grew up in, the situations grew more odd as the years went onward from my childhood.
My earliest memory other than the red water in the backyard which had been because of the well system having a problem and however the red iron filled water which surfaced through the ground upward into the backyard, looking back now in 2021 was possibly before I had moved the top lid from the well area when looking from Church Road to the house on the left as to the middle of the side of the house. I remember the air conditioner unit which hung out of the window from what was the dining room area, though the well was closer to where the stairs were leading up to the bedroom area and along the side of the area of the bedroom where my biological sister and I had shared a room prior to me being moved into what once was our biological father's jewelry workshop area which faced towards the North towards the house where Timothy Doody and his family had lived at the time at 45 Church Road. In those times his dad Skip nd his mom Bernadette had Timothy which was the youngest and his sister Suzanne was the eldest, though I do not ever recall meeting Suzanne when growing up. I was told she was in college when being babysat at Sony/Sonja and Joe/Jose Castro's house, though the darker brown two story house had its own energetic pulsations at night especially noticed after moving into the jewelry workshop room to see when looking out of the window. I was told of how his sister had been different than other females, though had not been told of the aspects as to why; however Timothy told me she had a lot of problems which it was a surprise as to his birth, as his sister was in high school when he was born as a senior during such times.
Bernadette Doody (unknown Maiden last name) had been an #RegisteredNurse #RN RN during the times I knew of her and drove a brown-ish purple Toyota type car, which Timothy had been surprised that I did not have a good feeling about his mom. I discussed with my biological father of not trusting Bernadette, though my biological mother really liked her; for what that is worth, in such references. I had gotten along with Timothy's dad Skip just as my biological father had gotten along with him more-so, and Skip helped my biological father build the garage with the shed just as Mr. Bob Nelson had from #OTC #OTPC #OldTennentPresbyterianChurch Old Tennent Presbyterian Church. There were a few other people who helped my biological father build the 5 car garage with the shed attached in the back area closer to the in ground pool area which each knew of the filling with the lawn clippings, as well as the fallen leaves. There were nights I had seen people in the backyard as I had told my biological father, though he did not believe me as he thought my dog A would have barked at the sight of others; though I had explained because of the shapes of the people I had seen looking similar to those who had helped him build the garage, I did not believe my dog was going to bark at them which A had remained quiet during the evenings I had seen such movements.
There were nights I thought I had seen Bernadette's figure moving in the backyard several times over carrying a large bag with an oval shape in her hands sometimes with what looked as Skip's shape, and other times with a shorter individual who was almost shaped the way Skip was; though longer hair than Skip himself as he had shorter hair. I remember telling my biological father a few times about such, though he brought up he thought it was just my imagination running wild; in comparison to some of the items I found in the backyard the following day, showing him what I had seen in the pathways they had walked, carrying the items of whatever was in their hands.
I remember confronting Timothy's mom Bernadette at Sony/Sonja's house one afternoon when she was picking up Timothy early asking her why she was in my parent's backyard, which she had bent downwards towards my direction and told me to mind my own business; which I told her my house and my property was and is my business and just because my parent's owned the house did not mean what I saw was not my business, which she would be smart to keep off of the property. My biological mother showed up shortly afterwards which then the two of them spoke with one another and in a rage I went out to the driveway and used my nails to scratch the hood of her car, informing her I saw what she had done. Timothy was shocked I had the nerve to scratch the paint off of his mom's car which I told him as his mom told me, to mind his own business as his mom was a problem in my opinion which needed to be handled in a different way. I had already been working on technology by that point in time and I ensured certain things for her vehicle, to make sure those who I saw would be able to watch her like a hawk as per what had been noticed previously in reference to the very backyard areas of the property before the housing development.
In the very backyard area on the other side of the vegetable garden where the lilac bushes and the dogwood trees were in the L shaped area with the raspberry bushes, I would sit with my dog A. While many times I would read books to my dog as my biological parents would have the ability to discuss for hours, there is the location where either the spirits who I had seen would appear as per the times after the reddened water or where I would see the lights from what I now know are called unidentified flying objects. Usually those lights would land in the area where the model house had been built or in the nearby area of the junctures of Yellowknife (not Yellowwood) Road and Timber Hill Road, which Valerie Hom lived closer to Timber Hill and Banff Road when the development was built.
While I thought it was awesome to meet someone with the same last name as my Maiden last name she felt threatened by me and in such times, she began to cultivate certain types of so-called friendships with people I had been friends with prior to her arrival such as Megan Levine and Ronnie Dawson, which she had gotten in trouble for making out with Ronnie Dawson as she had been caught and when I was asked what occurred by her Mom and her Dad I had told the truth as to not being a part of the situation; though she was from New York City and when she found out I had both a Bok Gung and a Bok Pu the tensions arose within the situation, because I refused to give her any information regarding the whereabouts as to the specifics of my Bok Gung and my Bok Pu. She tried to convince me that she was better than I because where I played the flute she played the #viola viola instead of the #violin violin, which I had a comment about the strings being made of certain materials which I could assist her to be played similarly if she preferred when in reference to the #Asian Asian situations, as per her thinking she was more Asian bred than I only because of her being considered as more Asian in blood compared to Asian in blood with Asian in raising; though a specific type of raising in which while she might have been taught in the #AMC #AmericanMandarinChinese American Mandarin Chinese, she did not understand the difference between #Cantonese Cantonese styles of raising compared to #ChineseMandarin Chinese Mandarin.
The timing when she had arrived in #MMS #MarlboroMiddleSchool Marlboro Middle School was in the beginning of the year just before school pictures at Marlboro Middle School only a few months before what occurred to many people's friend Damien, who was/is my big blood brother despite him having gone to Robertsville Elementary School and I having had gone to #AHE #AHES #AsherHolmesElementarySchool Asher Holmes Elementary School. When the beginning of the year began and Valerie had brought up certain comments which my Grandpa Gavett had taught me to pay attention to for certain verbages as to specifics as to the differences regarding certain tones of the voice in conjunction with the body language, Valerie Hom fit all such descriptions as per what he had warned me about in reference to if I had not gone to his funeral; just the same in reference to my Bok Gung as well as my Bok Pu, depending upon such situations as to be able to distinguish certain traits from those who would wish to be Cantonese, though would only know the Mandarin aspects thereof in the American version of the Cantonese ways compared to the Chinese Mandarin ways. However the Chinese Mandarin ways would only be applicable in such aspects per the males as per the differences being taught to females, as per the portions of which was designated per the ordinances for the ways which could not be necessarily distinguished to the American population because of certain specific attributes as previously minorly described; though a larger portion as to the natural aspects to such personality traits, compared to the ways such can be portrayed in other aspects such as images and/or videos when pretending or acting.
In such times, Valerie had fit all such descriptions to which when she had begun spending time with the neighborhood friends I had while growing up she had fulfilled all such portions as to having been warned. After an altercation I can remember in the wooded walk paths between some of the houses, she and Ronnie Dawson had made out and when some of the cars which drove by had people in the neighborhood who had told her parents about seeing her; she had tried to blame me for telling on her, when she refused to believe anyone from any of the cars had seen her and Ronnie as I walked away from the situation in disgust as she had tried to get me involved with the situation which there was no need for my personal involvement with such aspects. Later just shortly after the situation on the bus when Megan Levine had pushed her way through the path on the bus as Valerie and I were going on at one another, Valerie had leaned over to speak saying she hoped I missed my big brother and my Bok Gung. When getting to the drop off to my stop and remaining as composed as I possibly could for such a comment as she was waiting for me to speak at her, I refused to acknowledge her existence any further; which some if when looking back to such times at Marlboro Middle School might have thought was just a typical middle school drama, though was much deeper for such a situation.
I knew no one at school would believe me at the time as to what Valerie had said as per how she had already been by such a time though when getting off of the bus and seeing my biological father working in the garage, I asked when my biological mother or his wife would be back from work as I had to speak with both of them at the same time to be able to get the truth as per knowing how when asking one or the other separately they would give different answers which was helpful for some aspects; however when asking both of them at the same time, they could not hide the truth on either side and would automatically go at one another to go over the situations thereof which when my biological mother arrived and both of my biological parents were in the kitchen with me together I asked about my Bok Gung and how he was doing. I saw my biological father looked downward at the floor as my biological mother said we needed to step outside to discuss the situation, which I knew what the truth was instantly; though I needed to hear the words for the clarification for the ability to confirm such aspects, which in turn meant they were going to deal with the repercussions of such a situation and the portions thereof regarding such. When outside my biological mother spilled the proverbial beans which my biological father remained silent as I listened, and when my biological mother tried to convince me it was better my biological sister was at the funeral; I lost my composure and informed them both as to my personal feelings about each of them, as well as the situation which my Bok Pu and my Bok Gung as well as my Grandpa Gavett had warned each of them of as to what would occur in the near future for such choices, as well as in the longer terms for such choices. My biological mother pleaded with me to calm down which I refused as my biological father remained silent, looking at both of us wondering to himself whatever he was wondering.
In a side note portion in reference to my daughter and the situations thereof, there is no love lost regarding my biological mother and my biological sister for what they both knew they could have assisted with though due to their wishes for status which they were incapable of earning without me; such times when not learning from prior history of patterns of behaviour, are such history of patterns of behaviour. However in such hypotheticals in reference to such situations my biological mother was given the chance to speak the truth to me on the phone, which when I was in #WA #Washington #Washingtonstate Washington state was her only chance for such clarifications in such ways and the only chance she was given for any such forgiveness. If such aspects of which I had felt are the truth, there is only the love lost in reference to which my son and my daughter and I have in regards of our family; and there is nothing which my biological mother and my biological sister among those who they chose to be a part of such could ever undo, as per the fact of not being able to go back in time to fix and repair such situations. My heart was hardening against my biological mother and my biological sister from the moment back then when in 8th grade and the phone call in Washington state before the phone call with my son in the car and on the phone, was her last chance for any such reprieving as my son and my daughter both knew and know how much I had personally done to have the best possible for my children; which my son was denied such times which is where the situation of such portions as to his response when on the phone, was most pertinent as to what the situations were.
While I had returned to the state of #TX #Texas Texas for a multitude of reasons, the fact as to how such situations went only furthered such portions thereof which in turn; my biological mother and my biological sister will deal with such portions on their own as per the ways which my Bok Pu had told her as to how such was going to go, just as I had told my biological mother that afternoon when learning my biological sister had been allowed to attend in comparison to me attending my Bok Gung's funeral for her false clout as per her wishes to ever be anything more than what our biological mother was which was nothing more than an empty vessel. My big blood brother hated my biological mother and hated my biological sister more than I had hated them, and such portions hypothetically can be seen in such references in the long term of such portions of time. I suppose there is an additional irony in reference to Serina, in regards of Sailor Moon and the serenity prayer for those who know such; though also in reference to such aspect the natural hair referencing in regards of my biological mother when she grew her hair out to Beryl regarding her attitude as some could possibly see in an odd combination in reference to the female at #CS #ClubSapphire Club Sapphire regarding Christine Zahn's hair if in red coloration; though if the connectionary points, then however such ironies are are however such ironies are in addition to the stone beryl compared to ruby.
As I was wrongly denied such aspects because of my biological mother wishing my biological sister looking more Asian similarly to the ways which Valerie Hom had wished simply by looking more Asian in comparison because of the slanted eyes, I knew that her accent was not from #NYC #NewYork #NewYorkCity New York City of any of the 5 boroughs I had grown up walking around. I knew that her skin was not of Asian decent because Asians do not have the indentations in their skin when pimples form, as it is a smooth skin in comparison to other ethnic backgrounds as per the ways which certain middle eastern countries when they get blemishes in their skin instead of healing smoothly there is indentations and the larger amount of indentations and craters within their facial areas occur because of the ways as to the mineral deposits for the water supplies within their regions effect their skin when any such skin blemishes occur as well as how they choose to pop such in comparison as there is not the capability for their pimples to ever be taken care of the ways which the ethnic backgrounds of Asians have more of such traits and qualities. Additionally I did not believe Valerie Hom was actually young enough to be in 8th grade due to the ways which she had carried herself as even though she was shorter in height, that meant nothing for certain ethnic background specifically for females of most decent of such ethnic backgrounds though especially for certain middle eastern ethnic backgrounds; which in turn because of who my Bok Gung and my Bok Pu were, there was not the capability for the impersonation which in such aspects, I would guesstimate after the amount of time since the 11 September 2001 attacks those who have been stationed overseas have been able to notice such specific traits and qualities of the skin upon the face of certain backgrounds and more specifically since such attacks against the homeland of the United States of America even though there is the oily skin the ways which the skin heals when there is a larger number of pimples shows such craters within the facial regions in the ways which sometimes makeup can cover up though also has to do with the facial coverings of certain backgrounds for certain middle eastern decent individuals.
While there are those of middle eastern decent who do not have the same aspects in their skin, that usually has to do with other ethnic mixtures in comparison to specific areas of which Valerie Hom seemed to have within her ethnic background.
However being in New Jersey and the ways which if someone spoke out in truth about such portions the wrongful aspects of being considered as racist came forward, as the quickness to use the Constitutional Rights as per such portions; in comparison for the aspects as to the more well known watch lists, which some have learned as to the reasons as to why sadly. In addition to the skin aspects, her hair was not of Asian decent as because of the lack of any ability to get certain hairstyles which are more specific to the ethnic hair aspects; which Asians are able to get a bit of a curl within their hair in comparison to having to use the amount of chemicals in such ways as per African ethnic backgrounds though not to the same levels of the ethnic background for the hair. Additionally whereas the African hair aspects will break off without certain vitamins which assist to grow the hair as well as other oils which assist such, the middle eastern hair will grow and continue to grow because of the differences in what types of chemicals are mixed together to have such continuations. My biological mother and my biological sister had wished I would be more like Valerie Hom in comparison to simply being myself, which they had molded themselves in my opinion closer to such a type of person as per the ways which to pretend in consistency in comparison to ever being real at all times the ways which are natural to me both before and after my Psalm Sunday 2000 head injury as I would guesstimate some would be able to discuss in further details.
Those who attended Saint John Vianney High School and who also attended my Sweet 16 and Bon Voyage party which was a combination with my biological sister's Bon Voyage party at Old Tennent Presbyterian Church Neff Hall Chapel, would recall Ishmael and the skin situation for such a time would be able to be compared in reference to the proverbial discussion regarding the physical look of the cratering aspects as to such blemishes for the images to see in a more clear way as per the lack of makeup males wore back in the times of the 1990s for clarification for females as well in a minor way. I suppose an additional aspect as to however the #MHS #MarlboroHighSchool #Marolboro #MarlboroHS #MarlboroNJ #MarlboroNewJersey Marlboro High School time had gone in comparison to Saint John Vianney High School would be an additional comparison to add as well as #MHS #ManalapanHighSchool #Manalapan #ManalapanNJ #ManalapanNewJersey Manalapan High School, as per Rob Castle from #TaeKwando #TK Tae Kwando and such connection points thereof; with the addition of Freehold High School, as per Old Tennent Presbyterian Church for the ability to look into the connections at such times from the 1990s into the times after 2000.
While some might have wanted to know as to why I would have the #Omega Omega clearance at the age of 17 years old during the year of 2000, it was simply at that time not more than the background checks; though the larger aspect was I did not have a social media account of any type, and only had an email in comparison. While since that point in time the development as to the amount of social media accounts as well as the ways which such messengers have gone, the minimum usages aside from the coding of technological aspects had been during those times as to the main portions I had personally used technology for in combination with the #Mapquest mapquest aspects. Otherwise for the most part when in reference to the time after going to the recruiter's station for the beginning of my emancipation process to join the Army branch of the United States of America's Armed Forces compared to the current point in time if people join, the ways which was easier and more simplistic for most verification portions was the shortest amount of time researching one person; as per the fact as to having already gone through the processes for #MAST #Marine #Science #Technology Marine and Science Technology School with the #USNavy #Navy Navy attachment, and the ways which once applying for certain schools and/or such portions during such times prior to the further development of the technology used more frequently by more people. Though I had played a few video games at such times I had not played the online games nor did I get into the connection types of video games with other people when having played on #nintendo #Nintendo64 Nintendo 64 and #Sega #SegaGenesis #Genesis Sega Genesis as the ways which such has been known to have developed, which I suppose an irony additionally as to the #Hebrew #Jewish Jewish Hebrew reading of the number for the house address I grew up in.
For now and for this particular journal blog entry as to the countdown to the memorial of the attacks on 11 September 2001 to the 20 year memorial anniversary in 2021, I shall take a moment of pause to process such aspects myself additionally. Though admittedly fairly short for one particular entry, I am fairly certain such information is enough at this point in time to recall from such times when I was growing up in New Jersey as well as along the east coast of the #USA #UnitedStatesofAmerica United States of America.
#Letters4Jaames #Letters4Lidia
Is it ironic as to the timing in #Irving #IrvingTX #IrvingTexas Irving as to the situations regarding such aspects when taking a look at such a picture, or is it just myself who can see the coinky dinks involved with this picture of my son and my daughter when taking additional looks into Sailor Moon? As you can see the dots on the wings of my daughter's costume, and certain images I have taken with the formation of the three in conjunction as to the #BT #Bermuda #BermudaTriangle Bermuda Triangle portions as to such a shape design which were not on the wings I had purchased for her costume that year. Such an odd twist as per such a reference as per other aspects, as to the energetic portions more known as to the oddities of the Bermuda Triangle to ponder as to with the cross necklace I had given to her to wear as she asked me for her costume.
What was that situation at McCoy Elementary School in reference to my hair, in such aspects additionally which can be seen? While certain aspects do not apply to McCoy Elementary School of #Carrollton #CarrolltonTX #CarrolltonTexas #CFBISD CFBISD, there are other aspects which are in full swing for such portions as per the oddities of any such individuals ever holding the American Flag which were ever a part of the problems thereof as especially in specific as to the Pledge of Allegiance at that board meeting in 2010 after the #FWZZoo #FortWorthZoo Fort Worth Zoo; as in my opinion why would any such individuals ever cling to such aspects thereof, after what the choices were in my opinion for such times then as well as during the election cycles for #POTUS45 POTUS45 Donald J. Trump whether in reference to the 2016 or the 2020 election cycle and what ironies in reference to #electionintegrity election integrity regarding such types of people in such types of entangled situations thereof. What is it those people would actually know or understand or comprehend about integrity to begin with I personally wonder, when looking at the larger picture in such times as above as well as overall. Then again, the 2020 election cycle went as it has been seen as well as my personal feelings and opinions as to the rallies thereof if there are any connection points specifically to any individual who was within the areas as to where I had been in such descriptions for such to be taken into consideration for such aspects to look into which I have already written about; prior to the request for my transfer, as well as the situations regarding such aspects additionally.
I have discussed as well as written about my personal choices as per being a responsible individual despite how I physically look with my hairstyle and haircolor in conjunction with my tattoos, well before the references thereof regarding my support for the 2nd Amendment. However I did warn others as well as tell others about the situations if not responsible about the 2nd Amendment, which my ex-brother-in-law had been emailed about referencing such aspects of the firearms of his father as well as his dead-brother from then Principal Dawn Rink and those of McCoy Elementary School of Carrollton Texas of Carrollton Farmers Branch Independent School District and the violations of all such rights from those people. What an irony regarding the required amounts of truth in such references as well as sanity in conjunction to properly maintain and sustain such a right for the general population which the integrity portions thereof referencing the situations regarding the rallies, as well as the open carry laws in especially referencing the state capital of Texas in #Austin Austin for such references. I told others you did not want the New Jersey Gun Laws in the state of Texas, however how few thought I was joking as per such situations; and yet when taking such situations into consideration as to the requirement to tell the truth in background checks to purchase firearms in conjunction with the portions thereof, possibly there are those who can review such situations regarding the aspects thereof. What decisions they choose for such aspects, are in their hands for reviewal.
While I have been strong enough to earn what I have earned on my own in reference to my #SCUBA #SCUBADiving SCUBA Diving situations and protections thereof regarding the #HomelandSecurity Homeland of the United States of America while also taking into consideration the safety of the world overall in certain specifics, I also know how to maintain myself and my composure despite the situations thereof. How such situations are reviewed by such individuals regarding the situations of the 2020 election cycle regarding the election integrity, is how such is reviewed; though the ironies in both references regarding my son's as well as my daughter's clothing for Halloween in 2011 during the middle portions of such times for the officials within the state of Texas as well as others within the United States of America.